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It started in the school corridor. An older boy called Billy Davies pushed me, snarling, "Out of my way, cocksucker."
The school went to great lengths to segregate younger and older children with staggered break times, meal times and starting and leaving times, but one area where different ages mingled was in the corridor between classes.
I instinctively knew that cocksucker was some sort of insult, but I didn't know what it meant. I asked my best friend Mikey but he couldn't tell me. Then I asked our wider circle of friends but they didn't know either. That left Shanelle.
Shanelle was the biggest and strongest child in the class, and she was also the only coloured child. These meant that the rest of us were a little afraid of her. However she had a strong sense of fair play and had been the obvious choice for class prefect. Shanelle was the youngest child in a large family, and somehow that meant she 'knew stuff'.
I managed to get a moment alone to ask her, "Shanelle, do you know what a cocksucker is?"
"Where did you hear that word?"
"Billy Davies called me one."
"Well, you know what a cock is, don't you?"
"Yes," I replied, knowing that it was a naughty word for my willy.
"A cocksucker is someone who sucks cocks."
I thought for a second.
"Why would anyone want to do that?"
Shanelle's response was to roll her eyes disparagingly as if I were a complete idiot, although with the benefit of hindsight I think that she probably didn't know.
*****
The idea of cocksucking stayed at the back of my mind until one day my mum was having problems because baby Daniel was being grumpy and she couldn't find his dummy. She popped her thumb into his mouth and my baby brother sucked it contentedly. My mum's thumb was almost exactly the same size as my cock, so that got me wondering.
My opportunity arose a couple of days later. Mum was in the kitchen and would be there a while, having put baby Daniel in his cot upstairs for a sleep. However Daniel was still wide awake and sucking on his dummy.
I carefully lifted Daniel out of the cot, being careful to support his head as mum had shown me. Technically Daniel was only my half- brother and mum was my step-mother because my real mother left when I was little, but I still loved him and didn't want to hurt him. I laid Daniel on the floor, knelt over his head, unzipped my fly and took out my cock. In one steady movement, because I didn't want to alarm Daniel, I removed the dummy from his mouth and replaced it with the head of my cock. It was a perfect fit, and Daniel sucked away contentedly. At first it just felt silly, then I became aware that heat seemed to be emanating from my cock. To my surprise it became stiff and grew rapidly in size. I was a bit scared because it had never happened to me before, but I reasoned that something this nice and painless couldn't be damaging me. However I had to adjust my position so that the head could stay in Daniel's mouth. I felt hotter and hotter until suddenly a great wave of pleasure swept through me, my cock throbbed several times and I felt light-headed. Although I didn't know it at the time, I had just had my first orgasm.
After my cock stopped throbbing, it shrank and went soft again, and my head soon cleared. I removed my cock from Daniel's mouth, replaced it with the dummy, then carefully lifted Daniel back into the cot.
Of course I had to tell Mikey about my experience, and of course he wanted to try it. I was very nervous about letting him because although Daniel had seemed to come to no harm, something told me what we were doing was very wrong. Anyway the opportunity arose and Daniel sucked Mikey's cock and the result was the same as when Daniel sucked mine, his cock became hard, eventually it throbbed and gave him great pleasure then it went soft again. Thereafter we both took advantage of Daniel as often as we could, myself moreso because I had far more opportunities.
Baby Daniel however was growing fast and rapidly becoming aware of his surroundings, and after a couple of months, when Mikey and I were trying to take an advantage of an opportunity alone with him, Daniel focused his eyes on us and started crying. I didn't want Daniel hurt so I called a stop to our activities.
*****
Mikey was still my best friend, and we often slept over at each other's houses. One night at Mikey's, I suddenly felt the loss of not having my cock sucked. I waited until we were in bed and the lights were out before I asked, "Mikey, would you suck my cock for me?"
"I'll do it if you suck mine."
I didn't fancy the idea of sucking where he peed from, but it hadn't seemed to do Daniel any harm and Mikey was prepared to suck mine in return.
"Why don't we suck each other at the same time?" I suggested.
I went over to Mikey's bed and laid on it on my side, with my feet towards the head of the bed and my head towards the foot. I fished my cock out of my pyjamas, then fished Mikey's cock out of his pyjamas. Mikey caught on and shuffled down the bed so that his head was opposite my cock and vice versa. I took the head of his cock into my mouth and started sucking on it, and Mikey followed suit. His cock tasted slightly stale and pissy at first, but my saliva soon washed that away. I carried on sucking and felt Mikey's cock grow stiff and large, my own cock following suit. We must have been sucking for about ten minutes then I felt the familiar wave of pleasure coming. Mikey's cock throbbed in my mouth as I brought him to orgasm, then my own cock throbbing too as my own orgasm broke.
Thereafter it became a regular activity every time we slept over at each other's houses. We even made a competition out of it, racing to see who could start throbbing first.
*****
One day I went for a sleepover at Mikey's house, but when I got there his parents were dressing to go out.
"Come in," they said, "we're going to be out all evening but we've hired our regular babysitter to look after you. This is Kathy Blake."
My heart sank when I saw Kathy. She must have been about fourteen, virtually an adult. Fortunately she left me and Mikey pretty much alone for the evening while she did her homework, and we sat watching TV.
Eventually she proclaimed it was bedtime. We piped up the ritual, "Aaaw, do we have to?", "Can't we stay up a bit longer?" and "Pleeeeease," even though bedtime was something we were secretly looking forward to. Fortunately Kathy was adamant, and we were sent packing to bed.
Kathy made sure we were tucked in, then switched off the light and closed the door. I waited until her footsteps had faded away before leaping out of bed and joining Mikey. Soon we were engrossed in sucking each other's cocks and nearing our orgasms.
Suddenly the door burst open and the light was switched on. Kathy was standing in the doorway.
"Oh my God, you're a couple of queers."
I didn't know what a queer was but it sounded bad. We both went bright red with embarrassment, I broke off from Mikey and put my cock back inside my pyjamas. Mikey started crying.
"Please don't tell my parents," he sniffled.
I too expected the worst, but unexpectedly Kathy took a while to think about it.
"I'll make a deal with you two," she said eventually, "I won't tell your parents if you let me watch."
I couldn't believe what I heard; an adult was actually condoning our naughty behaviour. I looked at Mikey and he looked back. A sort of flash of agreement passed between us as we mutually decided to acquiesce.
"But you have to take your pyjamas off so I can see everything," added Kathy.
That wasn't a problem for us. Mikey was used to his parents and Kathy bathing him and I was too young to have any hang-ups about nudity, so we both stripped off and resumed our previous activity. Somehow it seemed to take longer for us to get into the swing of things with another person watching, but eventually we were both sucking away on a hard cock. Kathy kept moving round to get a different view which I found distracting, so I wasn't surprised when Mikey's cock started throbbing first for a change. My own orgasm followed soon after. We parted, sitting on the bed still nude.
"Do you both swallow?" asked Kathy.
We both looked at her blankly.
"You know, when you squirt?"
More blank looks.
"You mean when we pee?" I asked. "But we don't pee in each other's mouths."
Kathy realised her mistake.
"Oh, you're too young to ejaculate."
"What does that mean?" asked Mikey.
"Well, when you're older, your cock shoots out some white stuff, and if that gets inside a girl it can produce a baby inside her."
That sounded rather gross to me, and I rather hoped it wouldn't happen soon. Meanwhile Kathy was thinking again, and I could feel tension rising in the room.
"I propose another deal with you two," she finally offered. "I'll suck you two off if you then do the same to me."
Mikey and I looked at each other in astonishment; what had seemed like a catastrophe earlier was getting rather good. Again we somehow agreed just by exchanging looks, and Kathy realised it.
"Right kiddo, you first," she indicated me, "since you're the guest. Sit on the edge of the bed with your knees wide apart."
I did as Kathy said, and sat there with my limp cock dangling down between my thighs. Kathy knelt on the floor between my knees and gently cupped my cock in her palm. I was a bit worried because once Mikey and I had sucked each other's cocks, we went to sleep. I'd never had my cock sucked twice in close succession before. Kathy rubbed my cock gently with her hand.
"Aaah, such a cute little cock."
Kathy leaned forwards and sucked my cock into her mouth, not just the head like Mikey and I, but the whole length. It felt quite nice in there, warm and wet, but when Kathy started to suck I felt my cock grow hard in response. As my cock grew and grew, Kathy allowed some of it back out of her mouth, but over half my length was still inside her. When Kathy started using her tongue too, licking the tip and the underside of the head, I shuddered with pleasure. This was way better than Mikey or baby Daniel.
When Mikey and I sucked each other, we tried to finish as quickly as possible. However Kathy seemed keen to prolong the process, bringing me almost to the point of throbbing with her tongue, then holding off so my excitement died down again. When she finally let me release the effect was mind-blowing. My cock throbbed for far longer than ever before. The room seemed to spin round, then the next thing I remember was lying back on the bed, Kathy bathing my.forehead with a cold, damp cloth and Mikey looking on worriedly.
"What happened?" I asked
"You had such a good time you passed out. How are you feeling?"
"Amazing," I declared.
"Well don't get used to it. Mikey, it's your turn now."
Mikey had been watching me with equal concern, but also some disappointment because he thought he wouldn't get a go. When Kathy said it was his turn his face lit up with glee.
Kathy followed the same routine with Mikey as she had with me, sucking him repeatedly to the brink of orgasm then holding off. Watching his expressions of pleasure mixed with disappointment I couldn't help feelings of jealousy. At last Kathy let him release, and he growled as his cock throbbed in Kathy's mouth.
"It's your turn now," Kathy said to us, "but I'm dry so I need a drink first. Do you two want anything?"
"Beer," said Mikey.
"Nice try, kiddo. You can have juice, milk or water."
We both chose juice and Kathy went down to the kitchen to fetch some. While she was gone Mikey and I discussed Kathy's techniques and agreed we couldn't wait to try them.
Kathy came back and poured us all some juice. While we were having a drink I asked her why she was willing to suck our cocks.
"My boyfriend wants me to suck his cock, but I don't fancy him squirting in my mouth. When I realised you two were too young to squirt, I thought it would be a good opportunity to practise. I think I can tell now when a boy's about to squirt."
"You were wonderful," said Mikey. "You don't need any more practice."
Kathy blushed a fetching shade of pink at the compliment .However I'm the smarter of us two and I quickly realised what he had said.
"I don't know," I said, "I think she could do with a little more practice."
"In your dreams, kiddo."
Kathy drained her juice, then announced it was payback time. She turned away from us, then unzipped and lowered her jeans. She was wearing a tiny pair of pink underpants, completely different to the large thick cotton underpants I'd glimpsed the girls at school wearing. I wondered how such a flimsy garment could possibly keep her warm. Kathy then lowered her underpants, revealing her large, white buttocks, making her naked from the hips down. She stepped out of her jeans and underpants then turned to face us.
"You're all hairy!" exclaimed Mikey.
"You don't have a cock," I observed. What was I thinking of, of course she didn't have a cock because she was a girl!
"You'll be hairy too in a few years, it's a sign of growing up. And I do have a sort of cock but most of it's hidden. Don't worry, I'll tell you what to do."
Kathy sat on the edge of the bed and parted her legs wide. She delved between her legs with her fingers, opening up the strange looking flaps of skin.
"Come and kneel between my legs," she instructed me, "and lick me here."
Somewhat reluctantly I did as Kathy said, and started licking her. Fortunately inside bit where she indicated for me to lick her wasn't hairy. She gasped when my tongue first touched her. She tasted a bit tangy, but not unpleasant. As I continued to lick her, a little pink thing towards the top grew slightly and became hard.
"That's it," she moaned as my tongue flicked over it, "That's my clit, my little cock."
She had asked me to suck it so I closed my lips round it and sucked.
"Oh my God," she moaned, and laid back on the bed. "Keep on what you're doing, that's wonderful."
I alternated between licking where she had shown me and sucking her clit. She was a lot redder than she had been at the start, and a lot wetter too. In fact the more I licked the wetter she became. I took my cue from her sighs of pleasure, which were coming with increasing frequency. She was thrusting her hips up to meet my tongue, and while I was trying to suck her clit she nearly pushed me away. Involuntarily I used my teeth and accidently nipped her clit. Kathy's whole body went rigid and she squealed, then I felt her muscles rhythmically clenching and unclenching. I pulled away.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, my mouth sort of slipped."
Kathy raised herself on the bed. She had a dreamy, faraway look in her eyes.
"Oh you wonderful boy, that was perfect. You did everything right. If only my boyfriend would eat me out like that."
She leaned forward and kissed me on the forehead. I didn't have a clue what she meant but it sounded like a compliment.
"Is it my turn?" asked Mikey impatiently.
"Give me a few minutes, I'm still a little sensitive down there.
Kathy laid back and rested for a few minutes, then seemingly more with it, she indicated Mikey should take my place. I watched as he licked her nether regions.
"Ewww, it's soaking wet," he complained, "have you peed yourself?"
"No," replied Kathy with a happy smile on her face, "kiddo over there caused it. It's my natural lubrication, you'll make some too when you're older."
Despite his obvious distaste, Mikey continued to lick her. From a vantage point on the bed I could hear Kathy's breathing change and I knew Mikey was giving her pleasure. However Kathy had to keep instructing Mikey, "Up a bit," "Harder," "Yes, that's good," and I realised he wasn't doing it as well as I had. Eventually Kathy tensed up again, but instead of squealing she just gave a loud sigh.
Kathy sat up and thanked Mikey, kissing him on the forehead like she had with me, but somehow that seemed more from politeness. As she sat there thinking I wondered if she was contemplating anything more because it was past my bedtime and the exertions had tired me out.
"Come here kiddo, and lie on the bed," she ordered me.
I laid down where she indicated, in the middle of Mikey's bed. Kathy came and knelt over my groin. She sucked my limp cock into her mouth and started licking round the head. To my surprise it jerked into life again.
Kathy positioned my cock so that it was pointing up between her legs, and lowered herself down towards it. I felt my cock slide between her moist flaps, then into some sort of tunnel. It was hot and moist and tight and felt really good. Kathy lowered herself all the way until she had completely consumed my cock. I realise now that she hadn't been a virgin.
"Oh yes, that feels good," she breathed.
She raised and lowered herself rhythmically, increasing the tempo as she got more and more excited. Suddenly she got a bit too enthusiastic when raising herself and my cock slipped out of her. She groaned with disappointment, and I felt it too as her juices became exposed to air making my cock feel chilled.
"Switch places, quickly."
That wasn't a responsible adult speaking, it was more like a wild animal and I felt somewhat afraid. Kathy pushed me out of the way then laid on the bed where I had been. She parted her legs and raised her knees.
"Come and lie on top of me."
Feeling rather silly, I laid on top of Kathy, feeling the warmth of her body with my bare flesh. She reached her hand down and found my still hard cock.
"Now move up a bit."
I shuffled upwards until my head was level with Kathy's breasts, and felt my cock being guided into that hot, tight tunnel.
"Now move it in and out, as I was doing," Kathy ordered.
I had to raise myself off Kathy's body and wondered where to put my hands. Without thinking they ended up on her breasts. When I pushed myself upwards, her unexpectedly yielding breasts were crushed by my weight.
"Oh God, that feels good," Kathy moaned, quite the opposite of what I expected.
With a bit of experimentation I found a way to thrust my hard cock in and out of Kathy's tunnel, and some fine tuning settled on a rhythm that made her moan with every thrust. Kathy parted her legs even wider, seemingly enabling me to penetrate deeper into the tunnel. With every thrust I mashed her breasts down hard. Taking my cue from her breathing, I speeded up my thrusting until Kathy squealed and went rigid again, her tunnel spasming wildly round my cock.
My cock hadn't started throbbing yet so I carried on thrusting, even though I was getting tired and sweaty at the exertion. Kathy was perspiring too, strands of hair sticking to her flushed face. As I continued Kathy started sighing again, and I realised she was building towards another wave of pleasure. I was nearing the end of my strength but somehow I kept going until Kathy went rigid again, with a deep sigh instead of a squeal, her tunnel spasming round my cock but less forcibly than before. However that was enough to trigger my own orgasm and just in time my cock throbbed several times in response.
When the throbbing was over, I collapsed on top of Kathy, my limp cock sliding out of her sopping wet tunnel.
"Oh my God, that was amazing," she gasped, "but my breasts are going to be black and blue tomorrow."
I felt my groin sticking unpleasantly against Kathy's, and the smell of sweat permeated the room. I eased myself off of Kathy and inspected my cock, glistening with Kathy's juices and looking rather red and raw.
"Do you want to try it, Mikey?" Kathy asked.
There was a certain reluctance in her voice, as though she were only offering to be fair. Mikey however jumped at the chance. Kathy got Mikey to kneel beside her on the bed, then she grasped his limp cock in her hand and gently massaged it. Slowly it became hard again. Kathy then made Mikey lie on top of her, just as I had done. However just as Kathy was about to guide Mikey's hard cock into her tunnel, we heard the noise of a car drawing up outside and the garage door opening.
Kathy went as white as a sheet.
"Shit, it's your parents. I lost track of the time. Put your pyjamas on and get into bed, quickly."
Kathy raced to put her underpants and jeans back on, finishing just as the front door was opening.
"If you mention a word of what happened tonight I'll kill both of you, do you understand?"
Kathy bolted out of the door and raced down stairs to greet Mikey's parents. I tried to stay awake to listen what was being said, but I was so exhausted I dropped off immediately.
*****
Kathy never babysat for Mikey again, so perhaps Mikey's parents had guessed something untoward had happened. Perhaps Kathy's flushed and sweaty condition alerted them, or the heady aroma in the bedroom if they came to check on us, or the stains on Mikey's bedlinen.
Mikey and I continued our mutual cocksucking for a while, our techniques much improved after our lesson with Kathy. However once we found out what queer meant we were both revolted at the idea and our sessions became rarer and rarer until they fizzled out completely. It wasn't for some years that I properly understood the meaning of 'virginity', and how I had lost mine.
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