1 comments/ 11238 views/ 1 favorites Whose Fantasy By: barrington "Not yet! Not yet!" she said. "I will tell you what to do. Let's not hurry this." Hurry? By this time I had had an erection for more that 6 hours without intercourse and it was starting to get painful! "Let's just relax for a bit, and have something to eat, shall we?" She grasped my erect penis and led me to the kitchen. "We don't want to lose that lovely erection, do we?" she said. She explained that once I lost my erection or had a climax, she felt she would not have the same control, the same power over me. "One other thing", she said, "I've always wondered how long I could keep a man excited; now I will see!" So we just sat and chatted for a bit. We talked about so many things: her jerk of an ex-husband; stuff we had done; what we liked in music, movies and books. When my erection relaxed somewhat, she reached over and stroked it gently until it came back. She was never too energetic with it, just enough, along with a passionate kiss, to bring it back up. Occasionally it needed more stimulation, but she always managed to get it back erect again. It was still aching, but it was a nice ache. She insisted we have only one drink each. "Alcohol is a depressant", she said. We had met about three weeks before and had been getting along very well; I admitted to her that I liked her a lot. She was a nurse. She had an odd look when she smiled in a certain way, but she was pretty, not beautiful, with short, dark blonde hair. She was taller than average with quite a slim figure. She was 44 when we met, a few years my senior. I have always been attracted to slightly older women, and she had that mature, confident look that I have always found especially appealing. She was going through a difficult divorce, and she told me all about it; I had recently ended a relationship and told her all about that. We had a few dates, with romantic dinners but no intimacy, although it was on my mind. We really seemed to hit it off; we could talk, we could laugh, we had similar interests, and we could understand each other. We had one date when she asked me if I would like to have a drink after dinner at her place, and I agreed, thinking that maybe this was it. We sat in the living room of her apartment and were talking. We started serious kissing that I thought would lead to the bedroom, but she stood up and straightened her clothes. I told her that we got along really well, and that I was very attracted to her physically, and that I would like to make love to her. She thought about it for just a few moments, and then said that she had been thinking about it, too. She said that she would like it very much, but not now. She said she would make the next date very special and she had a favour to ask. She said that her husband had been very controlling; he liked to have his own way all the time. "I've been pushed around by men all my life," she said," now I would like to make the rules, and tell a man how to please me. I have a fantasy; I want the power over a man, I want to tell him what to do to give me pleasure, and I would like you to be that man to fulfill my fantasy", she said. She would tell me exactly what she wanted done and how. Would I agree to this? She said there would be just the two of us, no kinky stuff, and no pain involved. She said that she promised to please me, as well as to tease me. She said that she would stretch the love-making out for a long, long time, "Be prepared for a marathon session," she said with a girlish laugh. I never considered myself as submissive, but I like to please a woman, and being told how to do this to the fullest extent sounded very exciting to me. I agreed to her conditions, not knowing quite what to expect. We agreed to meet at her house for lunch the following Saturday. "Don't make any arrangements for the rest of the weekend", she said, "you might be delayed, and you might be tired." I passed the week in anxious anticipation. When I arrived at her place the following Saturday, she was dressed in a very smart but quite ordinary skirt and blouse. She invited me in and threw her arms around me like a young girl, and gave me a passionate kiss, then another. We were still standing in the entrance hall, and she was obviously aware of my erection. She touched my pants just where she could feel my erection. "You are pleased to see me!" she said, "This is going to be so much fun!" Come in and let's have a drink", she said. She had made a special lunch and I eagerly awaited the next step. After we had a sandwich, she sat beside me and we started kissing very tenderly, not too passionately, although I was ready for more. I reached up to stroke her breast, but she gently took my hand away saying there would be plenty of time for that later. I had to wait for further instructions. After about an hour we were still kissing when she stood up and told me she was ready to strip me. She did this slowly, touching each area that she uncovered: my arms, back, stomach, chest, and thighs until I was down to my underpants. I have managed to keep my body in good shape, so I felt good about the way I looked. She was still fully dressed, and we carried on kissing for about half an hour more while she was stroking and caressing my chest, back and thighs. She kissed my nipples, and bit into them gently. "You will be doing this to me", she laughed, "but not yet". Then she reached into my pants again and withdrew my erect penis. She bent down and looked at it carefully, then she reached over and put her glasses on, "I want to see what I'm getting", she said. She stroked me very tenderly and murmured "You are beautiful", but she was not looking at me, but at my erect penis! She giggled like a young girl. Now I don't want to make any claims about my size; I am very average, but here she was calling my penis "beautiful!" I could take it! She stroked it a number of times, very gently, and then gave it a very soft kiss. Although I was ready to get to more serious stuff, she again put it back in my underpants. She was certainly not in a hurry to get going. She said she would remove her blouse with my help. I gladly unbuttoned her blouse. She was wearing a gorgeous lacy red bra. I was eager to reach inside but again she stopped me. "Not yet", she said. She reached into my pants and again fondled my penis, and then quickly tucked me back in. "OK, now", she said," you can touch any bare skin that you see, but don't undress me any more". She was still wearing her skirt and her bra, so I was limited. I could still kiss her lips, her shoulders, her chest, just down to the top of her bra, but no further. Her bra was cut low, so I could kiss the top of her breasts. I made the best of it. After I had been at this for at least half an hour, she stood up and said she would remove some more clothes. She wanted to make a little game of it, so she got me to undo the hook, then she danced around showing a little at a time, one breast after the other, until finally she pulled off the bra and tossed it at me. I had waited such a long time to see her naked breasts that now I was really aroused. I went to touch them, but she said to wait for it. She slowly stripped off her skirt, again doing the strip-tease dance, till she was standing there in her red bikini panties. She said that I could touch her whole breast but not her nipples; to leave them until later, and nothing below the belt. Her breasts were small, and they were quite firm. I went at it, kissing, fondling, and licking her. I could see her nipples were rising and I was hungry to touch them, but I did what I was told. This went on for another half hour, and then she told me I could now touch all of her breasts. Her nipples were erect, and they were lovely. I flicked one with my tongue while I fondled the other with my hand. My tongue went all around and licked the areola, and then I gently sucked on the nipple. This is such a turn-on for me. I worked on each breast so as not to show favouritism, but the breast that was not in my mouth was always being stroked or squeezed. Suddenly I noticed that she was holding a small hand mirror, and she was watching what I was doing! I found this quite stimulating. She was gently sighing while I worked on her breasts. "That feels wonderful", she said, "More, more, just keep doing that! Yes! Yes!' My hand went to her crotch area without thinking, but she quickly pushed it aside. "Not yet", she said, "You're in too much of a hurry". But after a few more minutes I saw that her own hand was moving on top of her panties, and she was now breathing audibly, almost panting. "Harder, suck harder", she said, and of course I did what she asked; I sucked as hard as I could until I thought it would hurt her, but she wanted more. "Harder', she said. I sucked and licked and bit and rubbed harder giving her as much stimulation as I could. Her free hand came up and touched my penis; not rubbing, just gently holding and stroking. It was very hard! Her hips were moving, and she said "Oh!" about 20 times, then she said "Oh! My God" about 10 times, and she was having a climax. "No more", she said. It must have been a big one the way she moaned and sighed, and she arched her whole body, then she shivered. Suddenly she was crying; big sobs and gasps for air. She was really weeping with tears running down her cheeks. I didn't know what to think. I hoped she was not hurt. She slowly stopped the sobbing and then she came up and kissed me on the mouth very deep and very hard. I could taste the salt from her tears. "Thanks", she said, "I needed that; that was wonderful. Maybe we can do that again later." "I was hoping you would have a vaginal orgasm the next time." I said. "Just do what you're told!" she said, "There's lots of time for that later. Don't you know there are more ways to reach climax for a girl than for a man." I could now detect the sweet aroma coming from her vagina, as well as the faint smell of her body. I could hardly wait to get down there. I realized that I had to go to the bathroom, and it was getting urgent. I told her and explained that it would be very difficult with an erection, so maybe it was time for a break. She said "Let's see what we can do", and led me into her bathroom. She had me kneel on the floor in front of the toilet while she held my penis down, but she could see there was a problem as it did not want to point that way and I would likely make a mess. "Stand in the shower", she said, and then she got in as well. She stood behind me and reached around and held my penis with both hands; one hand holding my testicles and the other above it grasping my penis. "Just aim up the wall", she said. It was very hard as I had to relax a bit before the urine came, and as soon as I did, she caressed me again. It took some effort on my part, but it finally came, spurting out of my erection straight up and hitting the shower wall. We were both laughing now. She gave it some shakes, and then she was slowly rubbing me up and down with two hands, while her breasts and thighs were pressed into my back and rubbing against me. She squeezed with both hands until it almost hurt. "You help me," she said, and guided my hand onto the top of my penis, so there were three hands on it. It felt delightful! After we got out she turned the shower on and rinsed down the pee. She sat on the toilet and peed, while she still held on to my erection. This was strangely exciting to me, and I think it was exciting to her as well. We went back and lay down on the bed. She told me I could now remove her panties. I buried my head into her panties and breathed her delicious aroma. I lay there for quite a while, enjoying the moment. I slowly kissed her stomach and down to the top of her panties. I reached up with both hands and touched her nipples, and at the same time kissed around the inside of her lovely thighs, with the bit of fat that women usually store there; right up to the crease where her panties were. I was getting closer and closer. I pulled the panties down slightly and kissed the top of her pubic hair, and then I pulled at her hair with my teeth. I kissed and licked her skin at the top of her panties and slowly slid them down, kissing every inch. Her panties were down around her thighs now, and she helped to pull them off. She tried to kick them away, but I grabbed them and held on; I didn't want to lose any of that wonderful smell. I rubbed them again around and under her vagina, trying to get all of her aroma, and then I rubbed them in one of her armpits to get some of the scent of her sweat on them. Now they had her perspiration perfume as well as the scent from her sexual passion. Now I had her honey pot uncovered, but I was going to do this very slowly. I just kept kissing around her vagina; top, sides and bottom, without opening her legs or trying to go inside. I could tell that she was getting very excited at this and wanted more, but I took my time. I was in no hurry; if she could tease, then so could I! She started saying "Your tongue! I want your tongue! I need your tongue. Give it to me." Her hand was pushing down between her legs, but I pushed it away. "Patience', I said, 'you will get it soon enough. I want to look at you first''. So I had a good look at her pubic area: the little mountain, the slit that was slightly moist, the tiny curly hairs. It made me very excited to gaze so close to her in this way. I parted her legs, which she was eager to do, and gazed into the opening crack. I was in no hurry now, I just wanted to wait and enjoy the view, but she was urging me on. My tongue came out slowly, a very slight penetration, just around the edges. Her aroma and her taste were really turning me on, and I could feel that my penis was very stiff and hard. Slowly, very slowly I increased the penetration, and ran my tongue all around inside her, and to the top and the bottom, until my tongue was all the way into her as far as it would reach. She was moving in ecstasy, and feeling down for my penis, trying to reach me, but I was too far away. Her thighs were pressed into the side of my head and squeezing my ears. I sucked the sides of her vagina; I pushed into her with my fingers; I even pushed my nose into her, (I found this was not as sexy as I thought it might be.) She had her hand behind my head and was pushing me into her. I slowly moved my body to the left, keeping her right leg bent up and over me until her thigh and calf were over my back. She didn't know where I was going, but I did. I kept moving until I was sideways across the bed; this way my tongue could go from side to side from the top of her vagina to the bottom. She caressed my back with her right leg, and her left leg was bent up. I flicked my tongue in and out and from side to side. She was very wet and I tasted her sweet juices and the lovely aroma coming from her. I wanted her to be as wet as possible so I pushed saliva into her with my tongue. I pushed my lips right into her and moved them side to side. I had my hand and was caressing the area around her buttocks and running a finger around her anus, then stroking the lower part of her vagina. My other hand was reaching up to her nipples. She had the mirror again and was watching what I was doing. I could see her face in the mirror and she looked quite sad, almost grief-stricken. She was frowning deeply and her mouth was turned down. The more I moved the more she was sighing and moving her hips. I moved my hand and pushed two fingers deep into her vagina and started moving back and forth at the same time my tongue found her clitoris and licked it slowly. Her vagina was lovely and wet and slippery. Her climax was coming again. One minute she was gently sighing, then she started to move her hips more and she was breathing very fast with short breaths and her voice was coming in sobs. I was trying to move my mouth around her vagina faster and to stimulate her clitoris as best as I could. Her whole body was moving up and down and side to side. She was calling out "More, Faster, More! Please! Please!" and then it got louder and louder, then she was murmuring "Oh God, help me!", and "Sweet Jesus help me!" Then she called out "Somebody help me! Stop! No more! Please stop!" She pulled my head away from her vagina, and pulled my hand away. She kissed me passionately on the lips. "That was wonderful", she said. She was now very wet around her vagina area, so I grabbed her panties and rubbed them there, and then held them up to my face and breathed in deeply. At this time I figured that we were ready for some real, old-fashioned loving sex, and I pulled myself on top of her body and started to guide my penis into the right place. I penetrated her with my penis. I was more than ready and it felt wonderful. I started with long strong strokes. This went on for a few moments, then she pushed me away and said, "I didn't tell you to do this, get out!", so I again did what she told me and withdrew. What a letdown! "Your time will come soon", she said. This is when she told me I was hurrying and we would stop for a while. I thought that after she had two orgasms I was due for one, but no, I would have to wait! Again she got up and held my erect penis and led me to the kitchen. I carried her panties and sniffed the aroma, it was very exciting with the anticipation of more to come. Suddenly I realized for the first time that she was naked in front of me, and I gazed at her lovely body. She saw me staring and looked a little embarrassed. "You have a beautiful body", I told her. "I can take that", she said. It was getting harder to keep the erection, but we were both naked and whenever I started to relax, she just worked harder and harder, thinking of sexier and sexier things to keep my interest. She used her hands, her mouth, her breasts to keep me up. She even got out her lipstick and painted my penis! She twisted her panties around my penis and tied them in a tight knot. She had a jar of some kind of ointment (I assume she had visited a sex shop), and she rubbed the cream into my penis. It gave me a tingling, slightly hot sensation. I rose up hard as soon as she applied it – she giggled. All these things were a bit different and managed to keep me up, till she led me back into the bedroom, and said she was ready. I was more than ready! We lay down and I started kissing and caressing in earnest. Now that I had waited this long I wanted it to last as long as possible and did not want to finish too soon, so I didn't penetrate immediately, but did some more sucking and caressing her nipples, and kissing and licking her vagina until she said," I want to feel you inside me." I teased her a bit more, starting to enter, then pulling back and telling her that I had changed my mind. When I did penetrate her vagina, it was better for the anticipation. One minute I was thrusting into her as far as I could go, and the next she had rolled me over and was kneeling on top of me. She was moving up and down going all the way along my penis: from the base to the very top, but slowly, slowly. She stopped at the top for a few moments, and then just before I would have fallen out altogether she pushed down again. She did this for a long while, always judging not to get me too close to a climax. At one time she pulled right off and climbed up and sat right down on my face. "I want your tongue", she said. I did what she asked and got my tongue right into her vagina and gently licked her clitoris. My mouth was wide open and my saliva mixed with her juices and was spread all over my face and around her pubic area. We were both making groans like animal noises. She slid up and down and sighed with obvious pleasure. Then she was back down with my penis deep inside and she was doing the pumping. Suddenly she was off me again, but this time she jumped around and was sitting backwards on my face and sliding back and forth. She was kissing and licking my penis, but not sucking – nothing that would bring on a climax. A few more minutes passed like this, and then I was back inside her. I was more than ready for my orgasm, but I opened my eyes and looked at those beautiful clear blue eyes, and I realized I was looking at a woman in love! It struck me like a blow, and it gave me a surge of urgent passion. I had waited long enough for a climax and it was coming, but she pulled away before it came. "Not yet", she said, "It's still too early". She lay beside me, just stroking my erection for just a few minutes, then she said "We are both going to have orgasms now. Let's go!" She got me to lie on my back and she got on top. "I can control both of our timing this way," she said. I entered her again with even more passion. We were both very much aroused, and she did as she said; we went fast and slow, with long strokes and then short, barely moving strokes, until finally the moment arrived for me and by her panting and movements I knew she was there, too. We both had our orgasms at the same time. I had waited so long for this moment that it was a big, big one for me, and I was suddenly so tired. She lay on top of me with my erection still inside her, but I was slowly shrinking. I just closed my eyes right there and fell into a deep sleep. Whose Fantasy Ch. 02 Chapter 02: Love-Making Her Way I was wearing my brand-new, sexy red panties and bra, and Oh, yes! my new garter belt and nylons (quite uncomfortable!). I stood in front of the mirror and looked at myself; I looked pretty good, far from perfect, but good enough, and very sexy! I dabbed some perfume on all the right places. My new boy-friend would be here in a half hour, and I hoped to attract him to those special places! I was very excited about today. My name is Roxanne. I am 46, but I look younger, I usually tell people I am 44 and they still say "Wow, you don't look it!" My hair is dark blonde, and I am quite tall and on the thin side. I never considered myself 'pretty', but all dressed up with makeup on, I feel I can be attractive. I have my hair in a short style, and I wear just a little make-up, lipstick and eye makeup. I keep my body in good shape, going to the gym 3 to 4 times a week. Realistically, though, I wish I was not as tall with a more rounded figure. I am an OR nurse with a very responsible position. I am very good at my job and I love it. I am well regarded and respected by the staff that I work with, and that makes me feel very good and builds up my self esteem. When I used to go home my self esteem would decline considerably, but that has all ended now that I live alone. I am almost divorced; let me start by telling you about that. I was a faithful wife, married to Mr. Jerk (aka Mr. Control-Freak) for 20 years, until I found out about a year ago that he had been seeing another woman for three years. "Seeing" was not the only thing he was doing to this woman, if you know what I mean. I had met her and she was nothing: not pretty, no class, not smart, I don't know what he could have seen in her except she was about 20 years younger than I was, with bigger breasts than mine. I found out about this affair when he was away overnight on business -- you can guess what the 'business' was. Anyway, I stuffed some of his clothes into his suitcase and put it on the front steps. I locked all the doors, unplugged the phone, and went to bed. No way was he coming back into my house! Of course there was a big fuss when he got home, but I kept him out, and I saw a lawyer the next day. My ex made a lame attempt at reconciling, weak apology, etc, and now is being a real jerk about the divorce; his lawyer says that I have one of his cd's! Can you imagine? Anyway, I will get as much out of him as I can, and I will get over this in time. Now don't think that because I'm 46, I don't feel sexy; actually I feel sexier in the last year or so than I have for a long time. I have masturbated a few times in the past year: a new experience for me as I had never done this before. Of course I had thought about it, but I did not feel the need. This sexuality started about a month after my marriage break-up, when I was reading a romance novel in bed and I got to a part where they were getting romantically intimate and I started to feel sexy, I was getting moist and was aware of my genital area. I put my hand down there to see what was going on, and it felt pretty good when I touched myself. I didn't bring myself to climax at that time, but I thought about it afterwards and decided that next time I would keep going. I had been having some erotic thoughts and fantasies since I have been living alone, but up until this occasion they were only fantasies. The following night I got nicely into bed, and then went back to the same part of the book that had turned me on the night before, and this time I kept on stroking until I had a climax, and it felt good. About a week later, I rented a Brad Pitt movie and sure enough, I started to get aroused, so I started to touch my vaginal area and massaged and I even inserted my finger inside and found my clitoris. My climax came in about ten minutes and again it felt very good and I was quite satisfied afterwards. Since then I have bought myself a vibrator. When I opened the package I had a good laugh when I looked at it and turned it on. The next time I started getting a bit horny I got the vibrator and fooled around with it just around the edge of my vagina and brought myself on that way (I tried it on my breasts but it didn't feel good at all). The next time I tried pushing in an inch or two, and that felt even better, and now I'm an expert at touching it to all the right places and having a climax whenever I want without a man anywhere near. One of my co-workers propositioned me. We went for a drink after work and she sort of hinted that I should try sex with a woman, and she was looking at me in a certain way and smiling, but I do not fancy that. Maybe sometime in the future, but it does not appeal to me at this time. So I have a new boyfriend and I am moving on to the next episode in my life. You have to realize that I am not a bossy person by nature, quite the opposite -- a bit on the passive side; maybe a bit too passive, always trying to do what people ask, and being told what to do, especially by my husband. For once in my life I want to get a man to please me-- you know? My husband never did anything just for me, certainly not in love-making. For instance, I have very sensitive breasts (but they are tiny) and one time we were about to make love and I asked him to caress them tenderly; he told me that I was flat-chested so I didn't have breasts, and just thrust into me in his usual way. I didn't ask him again. (Our usual foreplay was a tube of KY jelly) Anyway, I figured that before a man got me into bed he would agree to just about anything. So I planned this -- the next man that seemed promising, I would lead him on and when he talked about making love, I would tell him the rules. I didn't want to have sex, I wanted him to woo me and make love to me, in a slow romantic, fulfilling way, and he would do it my way. So my new boyfriend, Barry, has been very attentive to me, buying me roses and bringing wine. He seems to me as a very sensitive, caring person; a little shy, someone I can relate to. He is good-looking and a bit taller than me. We have lots in common and are able to talk for hours. I'll tell you what really turns me on about him: he likes me! I mean not just my looks or my sexuality, or the things we have in common, but the real me, the 'me' that others don't see, the inside me that I hide from others. A man that really likes me, how erotic that is! I feel that I can talk to him about anything and tell him my deepest secrets. All we had done up to this point was some deep passionate kissing, and it was obvious that he wanted me, and he knew that I wanted him. When Barry asked me to make love, I told him what I wanted. He agreed to my rules, without my giving him any details, but I had it figured out in my head. I had shopped for some very sexy lingerie and I had stopped in at the sex shop for a few items. He came to the door with a huge bouquet of red roses. I was dressed in my skirt and blouse -- nothing too sexy yet. I started kissing him with passion just while we were standing there in the entrance hall, and I could feel his erection pushing against me. I touched him with my hand just through his pants and I knew that we were going to have a lot of fun, and then I kissed him some more. His hand moved to my crotch but I moved it away, telling him that he was breaking the rules, and he had to wait until I told him what to do. We went inside and I got some lunch together. I made sure that he stayed excited -- this was part of my plan, to keep him this way as long as I could. We started on the sofa in the living room, and I undressed him to his boxer shorts -- they were printed with rhinoceroses, which were very suggestive if you know what I mean -- those horns sticking up! His body was in very good shape -- no flab and quite muscular. I ran my hands over his chest, arms, stomach and even had a peek at his erection! Actually I had more than a peek; I reached for my glasses and had a good look, and a bit of a caress. Looking at this erect penis, all standing to attention just for me was a big turn-on; I could have just opened wide then and there and swallowed him up with my mouth or my vagina, but this was not as I had planned it. I wanted to stretch out the time as long as I could, with hours and hours of foreplay. I was getting my pleasure from him, and we had all day. I was still fully dressed and I had this man in his underwear all excited and with a full erection -- how good does it get? We kissed this way for an hour or so, while I made all the moves: the stroking and caressing, the deep passionate kisses, and the sexy talk. I didn't let him do much at all, but I kept checking his excitement. Then I led him into the bedroom, and I started to strip. I had him slowly unbutton my blouse until I just had it loose, so he could see my sexy red bra, then I had a few more deep kisses while I caressed his bare skin. I slowly took off my blouse and threw it away, then some more kissing. I told him that he could kiss and stroke my shoulders, chest and arms, just down to the top of my bra, but not my breasts. This lasted a while, and then I wanted him to touch my breasts, so I did a little strip-tease with my bra and skirt and flung them away. I was wearing a garter belt which I left on for a while, as I knew that he would find that very sexy. I told him to caress my breasts, and he did this slowly, slowly, until my nipples were both standing up and excited and I told him to please kiss my nipples and complete breasts. "I love tiny titties," he said! He started to kiss around my breasts, just gentle kisses, and I felt his tongue go all around just touching the areola, then he did the same to the other breast. Then I felt his mouth on my breast, and his tongue was flicking my nipple, and he was gently sucking, and then sucking very hard. He worked on one breast and then the other (I have two, and they like to be treated equally). I felt a shiver go all through my body. This seemed very stimulating for him and he went at it with enthusiasm. I had never had my breasts kissed and my nipples sucked like this before! What a wonderful sensation for me! He seemed to know exactly what I wanted, he knew what turned me on. I became so ecstatic with the sensation that I seemed to be in a higher level of consciousness, where everything was so real and sensual; I was aware of every cell in my body: aware of my skin, my breathing, my heart racing; the feeling of my skin wherever he was touching me, and especially the touch of his mouth and his hands stimulating my breasts. I became aware of everything in the room, every sound, even noticed a dog barking in the distance. I wanted him to suck me harder and harder and never stop, to do it more and more. I had not realized that a woman could have a climax just by breast and nipple stimulation, and I was in for a surprise! A big climax was coming: slowly at first and then very fast and hard and I almost could not stand it. I was trying to rub my vagina, but I still had my panties on, and then the orgasm came from inside me. I felt so much sensation and emotion that I had never felt before. It was so absolutely wonderful that I couldn't help laughing and crying at the same time, with big sobs and with real tears running down my cheeks,! I told him how wonderful my climax was, and we kissed and caressed for a while, then he said he was sorry but he had to go to the bathroom real bad and couldn't wait. He told me maybe we had better quit until he had finished, as it might be difficult to go while he had an erection -- I hadn't thought of that! I held on to his erection and led him to the bathroom. Even kneeling in front of the toilet, I could see it was a problem, so I suggested that we both step into the shower. He got in and I stood behind him and held on to his erection with both hands. Now it was getting very funny for me, and I starting giggling, as he couldn't go while he had this enormous erection, so he had to relax a little. As soon as he started to relax and dribble, I gave him more stimulation, just a few soft rubs and he stopped going! It was very funny, but he told me it had started to hurt, so I let him have his pee while I was aiming it -- wide circles on the shower wall, lots of fun! I pushed up to his back with my breasts and thighs and gave him a few rubs with both hands, and then I put his hand on his erection as well! My right hand was way down around his balls, then his hand over mine, then my left hand at the top; three hands going up and down in unison! Then I told him that I had to go, so we stepped out of the shower and I held onto his erection while I sat and had a pee. I don't know why, but I found this very sexy! I wanted to get back to the bed as fast as possible, as I was very aroused. I led him back and I stripped off my garter belt and nylons, and then we lay on the bed and I told him he could take off my panties. He kissed my stomach and very slowly started to pull my panties down and was kissing me as he was doing this. I wanted him so bad by this time that I asked him to hurry, but now he was the one taking his time! He was teasing me by kissing and stroking close to the sensitive areas, but not right at my vagina where it is most sensitive. He finally got my panties off and I tried to kick them away but he grabbed onto them and put them up to his face and breathed in deep. I wanted him to make love to me with his fingers or his tongue, but he just kissed, fondled and stroked around my vagina and it was driving me crazy. He then ran his finger and his tongue around the edge of my vagina, just stimulating and arousing my desire. I could feel how wet I was getting and I so much wanted him to penetrate, but he was taking his time. At last he pushed his tongue right into me, and licked gently right into me, just once. He went up on his elbows, looked at me and said, "You have the sweetest smelling crotch and the loveliest tasting juices in the universe!" Then he pushed up higher on his elbows, gazing at me. "And you have a beautiful body", he said. I melted as my emotions overwhelmed me and I totally lost control; this man could do anything he liked with me, I was his slave. Although I loved his saying these things to me, I needed his tongue back where it belonged. I told him to save it and tell me later, and I gently pushed his head back into my crotch, where the delicious sensation resumed. I had my legs bent up and I slightly squeezed his ears with my thighs. He was licking all around my vagina then finding my clitoris with his tongue; he then pushed his tongue inside as far as he could. His hands were all over; up to my breasts, around my buttocks and anus, stroking my stomach and his finger pushed deep into my vagina. I watched what he was doing with a small hand mirror; I wanted to see the action. He started slowly moving to my side, I wasn't sure what he was doing, maybe 69 was on his mind. My right leg was draped over his shoulder and back, and when he was cross-wise on the bed beside me, his tongue went from side to side, from the top of my vagina to the bottom, as deep as he could: a fantastic sensation for me. Just when he was getting me close to orgasm, he stopped and came up to my breasts again, sucking and squeezing and biting, then again down to my vagina. He did this a few times, each time he brought me close to orgasm, and then let me down just a bit. I suddenly came in a mad rush of an orgasm with fantastic sensations that I had not felt before, I was shivering and shaking, I was happy and sad, I was totally full of emotion, and Oh, my God, I was again calling out to the heavens for help. My second climax of the day and it was as wonderful as the first. I got his lips up to mine and we had some passionate deep kissing. I finally realized that I had wasted 20 years of my life on that low-life, when I could have been enjoying sexual pleasure like this. I could feel and see his erection and I was eagerly anticipating the full sexual experience of his erect penis deep inside me. I could hardly wait for the next episode, and he was as ready as me. He hauled over and penetrated my vagina; it felt wonderful, but I did not want to hurry. I pushed him away and told him to wait. He was surprised! We had another break: same thing in the bathroom, and a very quick bite to eat- enough to give us the energy to carry on! All this time I couldn't get my mind off the bed in the next room; I was in a hurry, and he was, too. I managed to keep his 'interest' up, with help from some cream that I had; it brought a 'Wow!' from him, and perked him back up. Back into the bedroom we lay on the bed and he entered me. It felt wonderful as he pushed inside and filled me up. He started slowly enough, but then got faster until he was going like a rabbit: this had to stop, or it would be all over in five minutes! I rolled over and managed to get on top, kneeling over him, where I could control the situation. I could now go as slowly as I wanted and change from deep penetration, to just barely touching. I could go slow; I could go fast; I could push all the way down, and then just stop and enjoy the sensation; I wanted this to last, and it did; it lasted and lasted as I prolonged the action! I jumped off him and turned around. I squatted right on his face and rubbed my vagina up and down over his mouth and tongue while I got his erection into my mouth. I sucked and licked and he was doing the same; oh what a wonderful feeling! I hopped back and got him into my vagina again while we had more deep kisses. I was totally in control and I was in heaven! He finally got them off Suddenly I realized that I was looking into the eyes of this good-looking man who was thrusting deep inside me, who had given me and was giving me so much pleasure, I was overcome by emotion -- I was totally, romantically, passionately in love. I wanted to laugh and I wanted to cry. I got him so he was almost ready to come, then I jumped off, sat on his face again and rubbed myself over his mouth and tongue. I still wanted this to last as long as possible. When I got him back inside me I knew that he would not last much longer, and we were both ready, so I timed it so that I was climaxing and I brought him on at the same time. We both came and it was a true relief for both him and me. It was a big one for me with waves of pleasure coming over my whole body. I lay in his arms while he nodded off and I enjoyed the feelings I was having, and the memory of what I had gone through. He was still inside me, but was starting to shrink until he slid right out. In the morning I had a little surprise for him. I got up very early while he was still asleep, and had a quick shower. I had bought some special mouth lubricant at the sex shop and I took a mouthful and gargled with it. Then I crept back into bed and got him uncovered, all shrunken and floppy. I sucked his penis right up and he quickly swelled up into my mouth and slid down my throat; this was very uncomfortable feeling for me, but I knew he would like it a lot. I think he was still half asleep! I rubbed him with my hand then sucked him up again and again, then rubbed him. He was now wide awake as I rubbed his very hard penis up and own; up and down, faster and faster until he called 'Faster! Faster!', until I was at my top speed. "Oh, my God I'm coming!" he said, so I got my mouth around him as far down as I could and sucked very hard. I finished him off with my mouth, tongue and hands until he spurted into my mouth. The whole episode had taken only a few minutes from start to finish! I sucked him dry into my mouth, and then went as though to give him a passionate kiss, and squirted it all into his mouth! He was still only just waking up so it was a real surprise to him. Anyway it was worth a big laugh on my part, but although he complained, I'm sure that he loved it. I handed him a Kleenex. Whose Fantasy Ch. 02 I made a breakfast of fresh fruit salad, sausage and eggs, and as we ate we talked about what we had gone through. I was a little bit embarrassed; I had never talked to a man that frankly about sex, but he was eager to talk about everything that we had done, and what had pleased him the most. He started talking 'dirty' now: how he had fucked my cunt and I had sucked his stiff cock. I started to get aroused just talking about those things, but I was not about to jump back into bed yet. After he was talking about each incident for a while and we were laughing about it, then I started to get quite talkative, too. I couldn't believe I was talking that way, that very intimate way about my private sexual parts and all the sensations that I had felt. We talked about my nipples, about my orgasms, about the oral sex, about the vaginal sex, about my staring at his penis, about his waking up to fellatio, about the semen I spat into his mouth, and it all was so easy to talk about and very funny. I felt at ease with him. After he had left, I felt very contented for a long time. Whenever I thought about the previous day's experience, I started to get aroused again. I knew he would call and I looked forward to the next episode of sex that we would have. I should make him wait a week until we are both good and ready. Later that same day I got to do some serious thinking. Had I been heading towards a 'romance' with all that entails: commitment, intimacy about personal things, staying the night more and more frequently, moving in together, etc. Did I need this at my stage in life? I needed a man every now and again to bring me to fulfillment, but maybe I could get that without any long-term stuff. I was enjoying my freedom and my new-found independence and the growing feeling of being in control. Maybe Barry was not so special after all, but just like any regular guy that I could pick up any day, take to my bed and enjoy his passion. By the end of the day my mind was not made up either way; I would sleep on it. What do you think I should do dear reader? What would you do? Whose Fantasy Was It Really? We were finally able to arrange for a sitter for the weekend and take a well-deserved vacation to the city. I enjoyed our getaways immensely because we are always able to let our hair down so-to-speak and enjoy each other in ways that you cannot when you have four children. Our sex life is wonderful, but there are other areas that we have many times discussed pursuing but never had the opportunity or the nerve. As a backdrop for foreplay, though they always provided excitement and huge orgasms from both of us. We arrived at the hotel room with an early check-in and were in the room by 1 o'clock. The room was outstanding. On our annual getaways, I usually try to find the best room that we can afford to include, King size bed, sauna, hot tub, steam-shower and anything else that looks like fun. This room had a giant Jacuzzi in a separate room with a 52' flat panel TV. on the wall. Kim said she was ready to get freshened up. As she stepped to the shower, I began to follow but she said not until later. I was left to sit on the bed and flip through the channels. As I lay there on the bed flipping through the channels, I noticed that none of the adult channels were blocked. It must have been a bonus for staying in the honeymoon suite. On the other hand, maybe there was some glitch in the system. I was not about to call downstairs to find out. I flipped to a channel that showed two men pounding into some very happy woman. She was bent over on a couch and had one man in her mouth while the other was taking her from behind. Even in movie land, it appeared this woman was having a great time. As I watched them go through various positions, Kim walked in from the shower with a towel wrapped just above her breasts. She has a tremendous body, athletic in posture that has me constantly desiring to make love to her. It is as if she has a spell over me. When we are in bed there is nothing for her I would not do. Anyway, as she walks out from the shower she catches me with my hand on my crouch and rubbing myself. "Ooh that lady looks like she is having fun; I wish we could swap places with them right now. I could have your cock in my mouth and let that guy pound into me like that, wow." That surprised me and got me very horny. Kim had never been so forward with information like that. I cannot think of a girl that would not enjoy what this girl was getting, but I never heard my wife say anything like that. I was ready to drop her right there and fulfill half her desire anyway. As I approached her she then surprised me again, "So where is your friend like in the movie, don't we have to wait until we find him to continue," she said to me with a playful smile. "Now why don't you get in there and get your shower. As I took my shower, I did not dare wash my genitals too much because I knew I would be cumming. My mind raced back to the movie where I envisioned me on the couch and Kim being banged from behind as she sucked my cock. Need cold water! After exiting the cold shower, I got dressed. Kim was wearing a nice black dress that went to her knees and her hair had that teased, fuck me look to it, or was that just my imagination? As I went to put on the clothes that she had laid out for me, I looked for my underwear; there was none on the bed, just a pair of tan pants and a button up shirt and belt. A pair of sandals was on the floor. I started to go to the drawer and get a pair thinking she had forgotten them when she said; "No, you will not need those. I figured since I did not have any on, you did not need them either." OK I was about ready to explode! I got dressed and sprayed on a little blue polo cologne and was ready. She came over and gave me a soft but deep kiss, I could taste the cherry lip-gloss she was wearing and I wanted to swallow her lips and tongue. We made our way down to the hotel bar. It was very nice, it was dimly lit, and there were waterfalls and candles on poles giving it an exotic look. We found a place near one of the rocky outcroppings with water cascading down it. She purposely set across from me so that I could not touch her, like I wanted to. The waitress came over and we both ordered drinks. As we waited, we made small talk. "So, did that movie really make you horny," she asked. "Yes, the movie was exciting, but not half as exciting as what you said." "Do you mean you would really like to watch us in a situation like that"? "Kim, are you kidding that is every man's fantasy." "Yeah but wouldn't you get jealous." "How could I be jealous, I would be right there with the best seat in the house, watching the most beautiful woman in the world and living out a fantasy? Who would I have to be jealous of, the poor slob that only gets you for a night and then wishes for the rest of his life that he had someone as good as you." "Wow, I guess if you put it that way, I don't guess you would. But I don't know if I could go through with it, although it is a tremendous fantasy of mine too," she said. "Well, let's just have a few more drinks and enjoy ourselves. If the situation arises, and it probably wont we will just have fun and not do anything uncomfortable." With that, we both toasted to a fun night and emptied our drinks. We danced and had fun and had a few more drinks with Kim saying things throughout the night that kept making me think of a third and making me very horny. The drinks were starting to flow through me so I excused myself to the restroom. When I came out of the bathroom a guy was standing next to our table and was talking to Kim, she was smiling and almost seemed to be flirting a bit. I decided to give them a minute and just watch my luscious wife work this poor sap. As I approached the table, the man introduced himself as Mason and said he was sorry for hitting on my lovely wife but she had informed him after he bought her a drink that she was married and that I would be right out. "I just had to see who the lucky man was," he said and went to excuse himself. "Why don't you join us for a drink," I said. Kim looked at me as I looked at her from the corner of my eye. I did not see a no, in fact she pulled up a chair on the end of the table between the two of us. We found out that Mason was recently divorced. His wife did not like him being on the road so much and actually ran off with a girl. We asked how he felt about that and he said jokingly that it had always been a fantasy of his to see his wife with another girl, but she would never go for it and that now that is exactly what she wanted all along, so it seems. This got us on the subject of fantasies, so I said "That's funny; Kim and I were just talking about fantasies this evening, weren't we dear"? "I'm not saying" Kim said with a hand up. With that, she said it was her turn to go to the restroom. As she was gone, I filled Mason in on the fantasy. "Really he said, she told me that it had always been her fantasy to see both her and you getting done by another man, in fact she said she would get off more on watching you then by her getting done, that is what she was smiling about when you walked up. I just finished telling her that I would love to fulfill her fantasy. She told me that if you fulfilled her fantasy that she would probably open up even more and pretty much do whatever you wanted. She told me to share that with you when she went to the bathroom, because she would be too embarrassed. She also said that if you agreed, then you were to excuse yourself to the bathroom when she returned and then we can all head up to the room and enjoy ourselves." I could not believe what Mason just told me, but this had been one heck of a horny night. When Kim returned she had a big smile on her face, "And what have you two been talking about in my absence"? I looked at her beautiful face and thought about fulfilling her fantasy. "Kim how would you like me to head back to the bathroom, so Mason can tell you all the things we talked about"? "Ooh, I'd love for you to head to the bathroom, but don't take too long, I might need you here to whisk me away." Well, I thought to myself this must really be it. I stayed in the bathroom longer then I needed trying to get up my nerve. Seeing my beautiful wife and knowing I could fulfill a fantasy of hers, as I walked back to the table gave me all the confidence I needed. As I reached the table, Kim was just finishing off her drink. "Are you ready dear," she said to me. Without an answer she took Mason and I by the hand and led us to the elevator. Once in, she faced me and said, "This turns me on so much, I can't wait." Her tongue slipped into mine and her body backed into Mason's. He did not waste any time letting his hand slide under her dress. She let out a gasp as his fingers found her extreme wetness. Other then me and her doctor, no one had ever touched her there before. Her arms wrapped around me tightly as she shivered into what seemed like a mini-orgasm. I could not believe how hot this was making her, and watching her even had me getting hotter. As the elevator stopped, we regained our composure and headed for the room. Once there Kim poured us each a glass of wine from the wet bar in the room. As she handed me my glass she whispered in my ear, "Do you know just how very wet this is making me"? She nibbled on my ear as her hand rubbed my crotch. Mason went over and turned on the television, of course it was set to the last, channel Kim and I had been watching and on the screen was a scene of 7 or 8 people on the floor in various positions enjoying each other. "My, aren't you two naughty," he said as he pointed at us. For a moment we all just watched and became even more aroused. Then Kim started rubbing my crotch again. I put my hands down to hers to stop her because I was already about to cum from all the excitement of the evening. "Here, let me help you off with these" she said as she undid my pants. I still could not believe what had come over Kim! My pants hit the floor then I remembered I had no underwear on. She unbuttoned my shirt as my pants lie gathered around my ankles. "Now, if we are going to get started shouldn't we help Mason get his pants off as well"? She held my hand and walked me over to him. She undid his pants and then took my hand with hers and reached into his underwear. I felt his cock on my fingers. It was almost intoxicating with Kim's hand there as well. My heart was racing and I am sure my hands were shaking. I could not believe how calm Kim seemed to be. She knelt down and slid his underwear and pants off and threw them to the side. Then she pulled me down beside her so that his cock was dangling just inches from our face. He was the same shape as me, but a little longer and thicker. Kim turned to kiss me, her hand on the back of my head. First, her tongue just traced the curve of my mouth, and then it encircled my tongue. She sucked on my tongue a few times and then thrust her tongue in my mouth and had me do the same. "See that is all there is to it," she said. As our tongues circled each other, she brought our heads right up to his cock. She licked the end and said now you try it. I did and could feel a slight roughness of my tongue on his flesh. She stuck her tongue back in my mouth and started really fucking my mouth with her tongue. She then moved his cock closer. As our tongues were encircling one another, his cock rubbed against my lips. "You know you can't wait to try it and I can't wait to see you." She then put him in her mouth and sucked up and down on him a few times. "There, now you try the same thing." I opened my mouth and put the head in and then back out again. "That's great," she said now a little further." My heart was pounding out of my chest, so I thought as I took him about halfway down on the second attempt. I could feel all the curves and flesh in my mouth as I took him in. "Now see if you can take it down to the base, stick your tongue out just like you like me to do as you pull back out." I did as she guided. As I started to go up, I think I actually felt his penis enlarge even more. "That is so sexy!" Kim said as she pulled me to her and kissed me hungrily. "Will you let me watch you give him head now, please?" I turned to face him again and brought his cock to my lips. I licked around the head like it was a lollipop. I then put my tongue out and licked up and down his shaft before taking him back into my mouth. "Make it a game to see if you can make him give you the prize that is waiting. To see you do that would probably make me cum just to watch." She then kissed me and started rubbing on my very hard penis. I took him back in my mouth determined I would get the prize. Kim was making me so horny the way she was talking that, I wanted to do anything to please her and fulfill her fantasy. As I steadied myself on the floor, I grabbed the base of his shaft and started really working it up and down. As my mouth went up my hand followed, with all the saliva on his cock he was getting a double stroking. His hand went to the back of my head, I could hear him moaning ever so slightly and it was actually make me hornier. "Remember, if he cums, then that is your reward. Don't let one bit of it get away." My tongue licked down and around his balls as my hand continued up and down his shaft. I could feel his cock start to pulsate and begin to get nervous again. I looked over at Kim and she looked at me knowingly. "Let me see him cum in your mouth, please. My head went back to his shaft, just watching Kim get excited was spurring me on. My tongue went out again as I made my way down his length. I felt the surge in his penis and in an instant, the first shot was in my mouth, I swallowed as fast as I could and the second was right there this time even more. "That's it John, you are so sexy, let him cum in your mouth," Kim was pinching my nipples as she said this. I started to really enjoy this and found myself sucking for more. Mason's hand went down to the base of his shaft, and he wrapped his fingers around it tight to prevent more from coming out. "Wow, that felt great John but there is more in store." I licked the cum from the tip of his cock and Kim turned my head to hers and hungrily forced her tongue in my mouth. What an amazing feeling having my wife's tongue in my mouth with the taste of another man's cock still on my lips. Mason helped me up and walked me over to the side of the bed. He told me to get in and scoot to the middle and to lie on my side. Kim got in bed on the front side of me and Mason lay behind me. His hand reached between my legs and spread them apart. He then brought his finger to his mouth and back to my behind. He started rubbing the outside of my hole. Kim's eyes lit up when she saw what was going to happen. She brought her hand to my face and said, "I always fantasized about this; this is getting me so wet!" She started kissing me the same time his wide finger made its first entry. It astounded me, his fingers were much bigger then my wife's. Kim could tell what had just happened and she shuddered a little with a tiny orgasm. She took my hand and brought it to her pussy. She was dripping wet. My finger went into her as his finger found its way up to the knuckle. He was pushing it in and out, as I was going in and out of Kim. He then licked his middle finger and I could feel the two fingers start to invade me. He went very slowly but I could feel my sphincter muscles stretching. I felt every curve of his finger as he worked them into my tight hole. My breathing became deeper and my eyes shut from the pain. Kim's legs clamped down on my hand as she began to shudder again, as she experienced her next orgasm. As she settled she sat up on the bed and watched Mason finger me with his two fingers. "Roll over on your stomach, John so that you open up more," Kim said. I rolled over and Mason started spreading his fingers apart to open me up. "Oh John I can't wait to see him fuck you." Mason got behind me and lifted my hips up a bit. Kim grabbed some lotion from beside the bed and timidly rubbed it on the tip of his cock. Then I felt the tip approach my hole. I knew I was in for some initial pain, but was not prepared for what took place. He gave a small but forceful push and the head popped in. The pain was searing. I dropped to my stomach to escape but he followed me to the bed. Kim lay beside me and brought her mouth to mine. "Oh John this is so hot, please don't stop now." She kissed me, as she did I got back on my knees and concentrated on her tongue. He slowly eased more of his cock into me. I spread my legs apart to open up more. He then pushed again and I could feel his hips against my backside. He was all the way in. He then pulled out to the tip and pushed back in. I could feel his cock fill me up. The flesh as it guided into me. The pain was almost unbearable but it actually felt quite wonderful. I smiled at Kim. "That's right, now just relax and give yourself to him; she climbed up on the pillow and spread her legs before me. Mason began a nice rhythm as he fucked me. My mouth went to my wife's dripping pussy. My tongue circled her labia and traced the walls up and down. As I shot, my tongue into her Mason rammed his cock into my ass. His rhythm began increasing. I started moaning and pushing back against his thrust. I could feel his groin as it slapped against my ass. His cock felt wonderful plunging into my ass and I could feel him begin to pulsate. I dug my tongue deep into Kim as Mason grabbed firmer on my hips and began pounding my ass eve harder. It was taking my breath away and all I could do was gasp and lick gasp and lick. Kim's legs clamped down on my head and Mason rammed his cock to the hilt and held it there. I could feel the spasms in his cock as he released his load into my bottom. His cum was filling my bottom with each pulse. At the same time, Kim's orgasm was raining wonderful juices all over my tongue and face. I was lapping them up and moaning into her pussy at the same time. It was more then I could take and my cock started shooting all over the bed. My orgasm made me shake as he released his load into me. Kim's hands grabbed the sheets on either side of her and I could feel Mason start to get smaller as he pulled himself from me. Mason pulled on his pants and grabbed the rest of his clothes. He thanked us and let himself out. I crawled up next to my sweat-covered wife and curled up next to her. We both had big smiles on our face. "Wow," I can't believe that was your all-time fantasy but it was wonderful." "My all-time fantasy? That was yours/" "What do you mean? Mason told me when you went to the bathroom that you begged him to do this but that you were to shy to ask in front of me." "No that's what he said to me when you went to the bathroom." We laughed again. We had been had. It was Mason's fantasy and we were his willing accomplices thinking that we were fulfilling each other's fantasy. Well maybe we did both. Whose Fantasy She woke me up about 5:30. She was lying with her face close to my penis which at this time was tiny, flaccid and shrivelled. "This time it's for you, Big Boy", she said and took the whole thing into her mouth. She had no trouble getting her lips right down to the base. She had some kind of oil in her mouth as it felt very slippery. It didn't take long for my erection to start and I could feel it sliding right into her mouth and to the back of her throat. I was very excited and soon had a full erection, all of it in her mouth and throat! She swallowed; what a sensation, wow! She didn't waste time this time, but brought me to a climax with some fast work with her tongue and I ejaculated into her mouth. What a wake-up! What a sensation! She came up and kissed me and spat the contents of her mouth into mine. It was a total surprise – what foul tasting stuff! She got up giggling and passed me a Kleenex. "A taste of your own medicine," she said. We talked for a long while afterwards, we talked about how wonderful it all was, and how we were looking forward to the next time. I told her I would phone. I was dead tired when I got home and had a good refreshing sleep. When I woke up I thought long and hard about what had taken place. I recalled each intimate detail and went over it in my head; and yes, it gave me an erection thinking about it. What would I do now? My first inclination of course was to rush back there at the first opportunity. But it had been such a unique, once-in-a-lifetime experience that could never be repeated, even for a second time. A long-term relationship would surely descend into routine and boredom, and would spoil the wonderful memories of yesterday. What should I do? What would you do, dear reader? What would you do? What do you think that I did?