5 comments/ 25186 views/ 7 favorites Peggy Gordon By: MugsyB Here's another story that is inspired by a favorite song of mine. (I know, I know. Can't come up with a single original idea these days; I have to keep ripping off the music world!) The band is The Corrs, an Irish group. They are perhaps my all time favorite group and I highly recommend them to anyone. This particular song is from a later album and the appearances of the lyrics are in no particular order, meaning they don't follow the chronology of the song itself. In any case, I am simply writing a quick note to say that I'm sorry if I have any terms, locations, names or anything incorrect in this story, it is only because I didn't do enough research. I covered the main points I think, and the story is more about the people than anything else. So hopefully my lack of expertise in the world of ancient Ireland doesn't diminish the story itself. So enough of my rambling. Please read and enjoy! M. *** I put my head to a glass of brandyIt was my fancy, I do declare... It just wasn't enough. The burning taste of the liquor wasn't nearly enough to take the edge off of his pain. But then, alcohol had little effect on someone of his stature. And this clan holding did not have enough liquor in its storage cellars to get someone like him drunk. He didn't even really want to get drunk; he just thought it might be a convenient way to rid himself of the painful pressure within his chest. Standing up, he strode from the shadows of the main building and tried to join in the excited crowd surrounding the large bonfire. Someone jostled him from his right side and the drink in his hand disappeared, landing with a dull thud on the ground at his feet. He stared down at it for a minute, watching the liquid spill out, soaking the dirt. In the light from the fire, it looked like blood. How appropriate, he thought wryly and nudged the bone cup, spilling the last of its contents. A raucous laugh made him look up and he watched the figures moving around the large fire. Everyone was happy. As well they should be. Their clan had won a great victory that day, defeating a neighboring clan following a border skirmish. That in itself was not unheard of. What these people celebrated more than anything was a measure of peace. The invading clan had long been the power in this part of Eire and often asserted their power by raiding nearby strongholds. This time Clan Connelly had fought them back and won. So it was the first time in nearly a generation that the clan members could celebrate and sleep easy at night without having to worry about midnight raids and their population of young men dwindling. No. The wives and mothers of Clan Connelly didn't have to worry about their men any more. And the young women of the clan could once again dream of marrying without the risk of early widowing. Once again he was knocked about and out of his silent contemplation as a small group of drunken revelers passed by. As one man bumped into him, he had to reach out to steady him. "Oh, forgive me, friend!" The man exclaimed, his words slurred slightly at his level of intoxication. Slowly the drunk's eyes focused on the figure holding him and he grinned broadly, the expression splitting his young face from ear to ear. "Why, Connor, I have been wondering where you got to after the feast!" "I've been here, Seamus," Connor replied mildly, still supporting the majority of the other man's weight. Slowly Seamus managed to pull himself upright once again. He glanced around briefly, probably looking for his friends. They'd already moved on; Connor could see their fair heads bobbing amongst the crowd by one of the outbuildings. Seamus swung his head back around to look up at Connor once again, still smiling. Connor smiled down at him as well, amused by his friend's current state. "How does it look from up there, Connor?" Seamus asked him, planting his hands on his hips and swaying ominously with the motion. After ensuring his friend wasn't about to topple over, Connor replied, "Much the same as down there, Seamus. Just cooler." Seamus hooted with laughter and Connor just shook his head ruefully. As he was very nearly the largest man in the stronghold that night, indeed in most of the surrounding land, Connor was often the butt of jokes among the men. Sometimes, he liked to come up with something on his own. Suddenly Seamus swayed again and his laughter ended abruptly. Connor's arms went out to catch the other man as he took a wobbly step forward. As he straightened, Seamus eyed Connor carefully. "How much have you had to drink, man?" Seamus asked. "You look a little unsteady." Connor had to laugh out loud at that. At the moment, he was quite certain that Seamus thought everyone else was drunker than he was. "I haven't had much to drink at all, Seamus," he finally answered, smiling for the first time all night. "Well, that's just not right," Seamus announced and wrenched himself free of Connor's grasp. "Come with me, friend and I will see you properly soused in minutes!" Shaking his head and chuckling softly, Connor decided it would probably be best if he followed his friend around the great bonfire. More people spotted him as he walked beside Seamus and his name was cheered from many corners. He smiled and returned the gesture of a raised fist when he saw it but mainly he kept his head down, embarrassed by the attention. He'd only been in the lands of Clan Connelly for three months, on loan, for lack of a better term, from his own family clan of Laoghaire. They occupied the land south of Clan Connelly's land but they enjoyed a friendly relationship. In times of need, each clan has stepped in to aid the other and this had been one of those times. Connor, along with dozens of his cousins and friends from Clan Laoghaire had traveled to this main stronghold of Clan Connelly to help defend against the invading forces of Clan Fingall. Three months. Three months was all it had taken for Connor to lose his heart completely. As if the mere thought conjured her, Connor raised his eyes to see her standing alone near the door to the stables. His heart lurched within his chest and he stumbled over his large feet, feeling like a fool when the men around him guffawed loudly. His face burning, he hurried his pace to try and hide amongst the crowd of warriors gathered near the great casks of brandy. He had no idea if she'd seen him and he could only pray that she hadn't noticed. "Sweet Brigid, Connor," an older man exclaimed and clapped Connor on the shoulder in greeting. Even at his great height and bulk, Connor still winced when the head of Clan Connelly greeted him that way. Almost an exact match in size, old Bowen was certainly the leader for a reason. His eyes twinkled from beneath bushy dark eyebrows as he grinned from under an equally bushy beard. "One would think you a mere boy after falling over yourself like that!" Bowen exclaimed and slapped his palm down on Connor's already aching shoulder again. The older man winked at him and took a long drink of brandy from the cup in his hand. "I don't think she spotted you, lad." Flushing an even deeper shade of red, Connor ducked his head and accepted the first cup of alcohol that someone thrust in his direction. He mumbled his thanks and downed the entire contents of the cup in one burning swig. Still not enough to get him drunk. Then one of the other men slapped him on the back and he turned to greet Gannon, a cousin of his own clan. With a smile and nod, Connor tried to forget about the woman standing beside the stables, staring at the revelers filling the stronghold courtyard and hugging her arms close about herself. He tried to forget how her eyes sparked fiercely in the firelight and how her russet hair glowed like fire as she shook her head in response to passing inquiries. And he most certainly tried to forget all about her wicked tongue and cutting words. *** Though her sisters and several of her friends tried to get her to join in the festivities, she couldn't bring herself to dance among them. She refused the cups of liquor that were passed her way and she barely made it out of the pressing throngs of people around the bonfire without wounding someone. But even the solitude she sought in the barn was denied. As she reached the top of the ladder to the hayloft, the distinctive sounds of a man and woman together halted her and forced her to descend. Now she stood before the barn doors, staring at the scene before her. A shiver passed through her and she cursed inwardly for leaving her wool cloak inside the big house. Wrapping her arms around herself, she glared at the courtyard. Not at anyone in particular. The entire scene made her angry. It had been a trying spring and summer. Clan Fingall had come out of the winter season with greater aggression than they'd shown in years. Her father, a seasoned warrior and full time farmer, had scoffed at their darting midnight raids and cattle theft. He'd maintained his condescending attitude right up to the moment her mother and youngest sister had been taken by the invading forces. After that, her father had bundled her and her remaining two sisters up, fleeing their farmland and heading straight to the giant stronghold, begging Bowen for assistance. There they'd found out that more had been happening within the Clan Connelly's lands. So much more. This had become more than a simple matter of cattle raids and hostage taking. The horrors that were being described by incoming refugees as far away as the coastline were enough to make her cry herself to sleep every night. Not in fear. Not for herself anyway, but she was worried sick for her mother and baby sister. As an unspoken rule, hostages were treated as honored guests by the captors. However, all these tales being told and the body count rising made her realize that there was no honor to be had amongst the people of Clan Fingall. The cries for assistance from neighboring clans went out around the time that Bowen's youngest son was taken hostage in a raid that came dangerously close to the main stronghold. First among the responses had come from Clan Laoghaire, their closest neighbors to the south. The old chieftain, Cahal, sent several of his own sons and nephews to fight this battle with Clan Connelly and as many of the warriors in his clan as he could spare. A shout and bellows of laughter caught her attention and she turned her head just slightly to observe the large group of men surrounding the liquor supply. Bowen was among those men and her eyes found his grizzled and bearded face easily. Near his side was her own father, equally as grizzled and grey, though somewhat more subdued than the men surrounding him. As he should be, she thought venomously, her eyes narrowing to slits as she watched her father say something to Bowen that had the clan chieftain throwing his head back with another howl of laughter. How could he celebrate tonight? This was no victory, not for her family. For it was still broken, incomplete. And there her father stood, ingratiating himself to Bowen. "Peggy!" A familiar voice cried and her head whipped back around, eyes leaving the disgusting scene by the brandy casks. She spotted her sister Kendall running across the courtyard towards her, fair hair streaming out behind her. "Kendall, try to maintain some sense of decorum," she scolded her sister but couldn't help the smile from spreading across her face as her younger sister reached her side. Kendall was breathless and leaned over, palms to her waist as she tried to catch her breath. "Oh, your hair," her older sister clucked ruefully and reached a hand out to smooth the wild curls. "Leave it be, Peggy!" Kendall exclaimed as she straightened suddenly, brushing away her sister's hands. Peggy glared affectionately at her sister but knew she couldn't really stay angry with her. Along with their other two sisters, Kendall was dear to Peggy's heart and she doted on each of them equally. Well, almost all of them. It was difficult to dote on a sister when she was being held hostage by the enemy clan. As though sensing her mood change, Kendall grasped Peggy's hand in both of hers and squeezed firmly. "You have to come dance, Peggy," Kendall told her, her crystal blue eyes twinkling in the firelight. "Some of the boys are asking for you." Rolling her eyes, Peggy tried to disengage her hand to no avail. "Why would I care to dance with boys?" She asked, her tone clearly expressing her distaste for such an activity. Now it was Kendall who rolled her eyes. "Fine, some of the men are asking to dance with you." Peggy laughed out loud and shook her head. "I doubt that very much." "Peggy..." Kendall began, her tone taking on whining quality. "Kendall, don't bother," she said firmly. "I am in no mood to dance." For a long minute, her sister just stared at her. "Papa promised us, Peggy," she finally said, her voice very soft. Peggy felt her chest constrict tightly around her heart and she sucked in as deep a breath as she could manage. Looking down at Kendall's face, seeing the hope and faith written there plain as day, she couldn't say anything. "He did," Kendall insisted, reaching for her hand again. "Kendall, don't," Peggy whispered and stepped back, carefully lifting her hands and keeping them out of her sister's reach. "Go dance. I...I have to go inside. I'm cold." "Peggy!" Kendall called after her, but Peggy didn't stop. She strode with agitated purpose through the courtyard and didn't stop until the warmth of the fire was entirely gone from her skin. When she stopped and looked up, she realized she'd come to the opposite side of the yard, a long ways from the sleeping quarters she and her family were staying in. Her eyes scanned the crowd still milling around the yard and fire, seeking the familiar sight of her sisters' pale heads. There was no sign of Kendall or Imogen, her other sister. The large group of men was still gathered near the brandy and that's when she saw him. He stood head and shoulders taller than most of the men around him and his shining dark head was practically a beacon. He was just lifting a cup of brandy to his lips and his eyes were shadowed from this far view. Peggy shivered again, though it wasn't from the chill of the night air this time. She was swept back to the time of his arrival and turned to escape the chill night, heading straight for the big house. She couldn't help the stain of color that spilled into her cheeks though as she recalled their first meeting. *** "Peggy!" Her sister Imogen shrieked as she banged open the door to their tiny shared room. "Oh Peggy, you won't believe your eyes!" "Imogen, calm yourself down this instant!" Peggy scolded her. She rose from the stool by the fire and reached for her sister, half-dragging her into a corner. The other women in the room looked on with amused expressions. They were sharing their living quarters with two other families, largely women and Peggy had her hands full most of the time keeping her two sisters in line. "I'm sorry, Peggy," Imogen gasped out between heaving breaths. "But you've got to come to the courtyard and see what's happening!" Peggy opened her mouth to speak but paused at her sister's words. One of the older women spoke up from behind her. "Well, tell us lass," she said, her voice rough with age. "What's all the fuss?" "The men from Clan Laoghaire have arrived!" Imogen announced, beaming. She peaked around Peggy's larger form to see the women still seated near the fire. "There must be hundreds of them!" In actuality it was closer to fifty or sixty men. Impressive, none the less. Peggy stood in a safe corner of the courtyard, a hand on each of her over-excited sisters, struggling to keep them from embarrassing all of them. Her focus was split between the noise of the new arrivals and the excited babble from the two girls in her grasp. Bowen was standing in the center of the throng of men, speaking with several of the warriors just arrived from the lands of Clan Laoghaire. Most of the men looked like average Celts; dressed in well-worn linen and leather armor. Nearly all of them were rough-looking and Peggy had no idea how long it would have taken them to travel from their lands to the stronghold. Considering it took her and her family nearly a week to travel from their farm to the west, on foot, she guessed it couldn't have been much longer for these men. Just then she spotted her father, Cillian, approaching from the barns. He spoke with Bowen and the men around him briefly and several of the new men walked away again with her father, leading some of the horses towards the barn. Her eyes scanned the men as they milled about the courtyard and they widened when she saw one head above all the rest. The moment of distraction was enough for Kendall and Imogen to break free of her hold and they darted, laughing, across the courtyard. Peggy watched them go for a moment, her mouth hanging open in surprise before she regained her senses and took off after them. They hurried through the gathered crowd of onlookers on the opposite side of the courtyard, dodging around the warriors and their horses, startling a few and earning glares from many. Peggy followed, trying to hide her burning face and blurting apologies when she could. After several minutes of chasing the girls, she stopped and tried to catch her breath. She looked up and around, trying to spot where they'd run off to. When she couldn't see them on one side, she spun around to check the rest of the yard, only to find herself face to face with a muscular bay horse. She screamed and stumbled back a step, startling the horse in the process. He snorted and threw his head up, stomping the packed ground beneath his feet with one heavy hoof. Peggy gasped and fell back another step. "Easy, man, easy," a soothing male voice spoke up from the far side of the great animal and Peggy's eyes widened when she saw the big man step around the horse. "I'm so...so sorry!" She blurted, her voice barely above a whisper. He chuckled and shook his head. "No need to apologize, lass," he told her, his voice a deep baritone that sent a shiver coursing unexpectedly throughout her body. "He's a gentle enough fellow but can come across as rather overbearing." Peggy gasped out a laugh and blushed, looking down. She peeked up at him from beneath her lashes, studying his form and face. He was the extraordinarily tall man she'd spotted from across the yard. His hair was dark, almost black but his eyes were a warm hazel color, a pleasing mixture of green and brown. As he smiled down at her, she was impressed with the white smile and full set of teeth, a rarity in this corner of the world. As for the rest of him, he was tall, broad across the shoulders and through the chest and his limbs were long and lean but no less muscular; though much of his form Peggy couldn't make out, covered as he was in armor. "My name is Connor," he told her, extending a hand towards her, as though she was a man and he wanted her to clasp it as such. "Of the Clan Laoghaire." Blushing even more, Peggy stared down at his offered hand and shook her head slightly. It is highly improper for an unmarried woman to shake hands with a man she's never met, she thought frantically as she looked at the long-fingered appendage. It was tanned from hours of work and war in the sun. There were small nicks and scars all across the back and along the fingers. "I don't know about you, lass, but I would love to know your name," this man who called himself Connor said. "Why?" Peggy heard herself asking, while inside her mind she was wondering if she'd rather give him her actual name or the more familiar 'Peggy.' Peggy Gordon He grinned in response to her shy question and she smiled back, feeling some of the high, hot color drain out of her face. "I like to know the names of pretty women who terrorize my horse," he replied smoothly and chuckled deeply when the color rushed back to her cheeks in full. "Peggy," she replied at length, her voice soft. "Peggy Gordon." "Peggy Gordon," Connor repeated, his deep voice rounding the letters of her name and making her feel strange. "I am honored." "Connor!" Someone shouted from behind him. Turning, Connor looked over his shoulder and Peggy followed his gaze, seeing a similar looking young man waving at the tall man before her. "I'll be right there, Gannon!" Connor replied, lifting his hand in acknowledgement before turning back to Peggy. His smile was gone now, replaced by an expression of seriousness that looked almost uncharacteristic on his face. She felt as though a spell had been broken with Gannon's shout. She straightened and met his gaze with a firm look. "Shall I see you around the fires tonight?" He asked, sounding hesitant as though sensing her changed demeanor. In truth, she didn't really spend a lot of time at the dinner gatherings. She much preferred to eat quickly and return to the shared room for whatever peace and quiet she could get. In spite of the circumstances of many families, the atmosphere every night was much too joyful for her. She felt that they shouldn't be so carefree while so many of their clan were dying or being taken hostage. Arching a brow at Connor, Peggy shared these exact thoughts with him, adding at the end, "You make it a habit of winning the attentions of women at such a time as this?" Connor looked stunned. He opened and closed his mouth a couple of times and rubbed awkwardly at the back of his neck. "My goodness, Peggy," he finally said out loud. "You have very strong opinions." "Don't presume to address me by such a familiar name!" She snapped, her cheeks flushing. She knew the hypocrisy of giving him that very name and then chastising him for it a minute later but she just couldn't stop speaking now. "And yes, women of this clan have many opinions." With that, she spun on her heel and left him standing with a gaping mouth as she went to find her sisters again. *** And they did see each other at dinner. Against her wishes, Peggy went to the gathering, telling herself it was only to keep an eye on her sisters. They soon slipped her grasp and she lost sight of them among the throngs of people. As her eyes roamed the crowd, they stopped on a head that towered above the rest. A head that was turned towards her and before she knew it was happening, Connor was making his way through the crowd, heading straight for her. She turned to one side to attempt an escape but found the crowd closed in around her. Turning in the other direction did nothing but bring her closer to the approaching man. He stopped before her, a respectful distance away and inclined his head towards her. Peggy felt her cheeks burn. Connor was several steps away but his great size drew the majority of the surrounding eyes. In spite of the space between them, she felt as though she was on display. "Good evening, lady," he said to her with a small smile. "Good evening," she replied shortly, trying to avoid looking directly at him. She couldn't allow herself to be lost in those green-brown eyes again. "I am surprised to find you here tonight," he remarked, taking a step closer as someone brushed past just behind him. "Why?" Peggy demanded, clenching her hands together in front of her. Suddenly he grinned widely and Peggy was utterly distracted for a moment. Someone bumped into her, startling her and throwing her off balance. She stumbled, coming to a stop mere inches from the impressive form of the man speaking to her. He held out a hand to catch her and quickly snatched it back when she righted herself with a fierce glare. "I just didn't think you'd come after hearing your reasons earlier," Connor said in response to her sharp question. "My reasons for being here are none of your concern," she snapped, drawing herself up to her full height, which was still woefully small compared to him. To her delight, Connor flushed and averted his gaze. "I meant no offense, lass," he mumbled quietly. "Choose your words more carefully in the future then, sir," Peggy said. "The women of this clan are not so accommodating." And she left him standing alone, shoving her way through the crowd and not stopping until she reached the shared room. *** And tell to me the very reasonWhy I am slighted so by thee... They would run into each other several times over the next few weeks and each encounter ended as badly as that first. Connor gave up on making conversation when he came to the realization that Peggy had no interest in conversing with him. It took another few days to realize that it wasn't just him she didn't speak to. She was snappish and abrupt with everyone except her father. This did ease Connor's wounded pride a bit but he still felt like an imbecile each time they crossed paths. These were hard times for the clan though and Connor attributed her lack of sociability on that. He really had no idea what had happened to her family in recent months and she certainly wasn't about to tell him all about it. So Connor just did his best to avoid her. And not avoid her. He really was a mess. She'd said not a single civil thing to him since their impromptu introduction but he couldn't help liking her. He wasn't sure if it had been the look on her face during that first meeting or the rich blue color of her eyes. It might even have been the sound of her voice - if he ignored the tone and actual words. Something about her called to him and left him lying awake many nights, painfully aroused. Pouring his attention into other woman did nothing to ease the ache either. Whenever it came down to a clandestine embrace in a dark corner, Connor found himself...unable to follow through. This merely left him more aroused and restless than before. By the time word came of the encroaching force of Clan Fingall, Connor was longing for the chance to kill someone, if only to take his mind off this singular obsession. And the battle that lasted nearly three days and nights did just that. The feeling of relief lasted until he returned with the other warriors to the stronghold and saw her again. The night of the celebration was growing progressively more difficult for Connor and his eyes continuously strayed across the crowded yard to watch Peggy. He watched as she spoke to her sister and he followed her movements until she strode from the light of the large bonfire, heading away from the stables. "Connor!" Somebody bellowed his name, moments before a hand clapped him on the arm, upending yet another cup of ale. "Whoops, sorry about that," the man, Peggy's father Cillian said. "Here, take mine." Connor smiled weakly but accepted the offered cup. "Why do you look so pensive, Connor?" The older man asked. Connor smelled the alcohol heavy on his breath and fought the urge to wave a hand between them to stir the air. As much as he might dislike the man, he was Peggy's father and some small, hopeful part of him wanted to stay on the man's good side. "It's been a full week, Cillian," Connor replied to the man's question. "It has indeed, lad," Cillian agreed. "Which is why you should be enjoying the night." Suddenly the older man grinned. "Enjoying with some willing young lass!" Flushing, Connor shook his head while Cillian laughed raucously. "Were I not married already, I'd likely be off with one of these willing young women," Cillian went on, heedless of Connor's discomfort. "Oh, you're married?" Connor asked. Now that he thought of it, he hadn't seen any other women with the family besides Peggy and her two younger sisters. Unconsciously his eyes sought out Peggy's slight frame but he couldn't spot her in the darkened yard. As he brought his gaze back to Cillian's face, he was stunned to see tears in the other man's eyes, surrounded by an abruptly sober expression. "I was," he muttered and shook his head. "And are you, lad?" "Me?" Connor asked, at a loss. Had anyone said he was married? "No. I'm not married, Cillian." "You should be, Connor. It's wonderful." Suddenly the older man's face brightened. "Why, one of my own daughters is of an age for you!" He exclaimed. Connor immediately got a sinking feeling in his stomach as soon as the words left the other man's mouth. He knew which daughter he was speaking of and she was of an age for him. She also had absolutely no interest in him, let alone any interest in marrying him. Connor opened his mouth to reply to Cillian's comment but he was already moving away from him, scanning the crowd and calling for his daughter Peggy. "Ach, you'll love her, Connor," Cillian said, reaching back and yanking on the young man's arm. "My Peggy, she's...well, she's been taking care of all of us since..." And his voice trailed off, leaving the thought unfinished though Connor could pretty well fill in the rest. Since the raids began, he thought silently, weakly following along behind Cillian as the older man led him through the crowded courtyard. "Peggy?" Cillian called as they walked. "Peggy? Where is Peggy...?" he muttered and then exclaimed excitedly. Connor's heart leapt into his throat until he spotted one of her sisters and realized that was who caught Cillian's attention. "Kendall!" Cillian called and the girl whirled around from her small group of friends to grin at her father. "Come over here, lass," he ordered with a wave. "Have you seen your sister?" "Imogen?" Kendall asked. "No! Peggy!" "Ah, I think she's inside," Kendall replied, her eyes flicking briefly over Connor before going back to her father once more. "Thank you, child," Cillian said and immediately dragged Connor towards the main door to the big house. Feeling the sick sensation in his stomach grow more intense, Connor dragged his feet, slowing the pace and then stopping altogether when he caught sight of the dark head moving among the crowd inside the main hall of the big house. Cillian hardly noticed, dropping his hand from his arm and rushing forward, calling his eldest daughter's name. "Peggy! Peggy, lass, here you are!" He cried. She turned slowly, a pinched look to her face and Connor's heart clenched. He wondered, not for the first time that night, why she wasn't as happy as everyone else around the stronghold; why she wasn't as happy as her own family. "Yes, father?" She replied, watching her father approach, not noticing Connor at first. "What are you doing inside?" Cillian asked, reaching her side and taking hold of her arms. "All the celebration is outside!" "I know," she said with a shrug, her face not relaxing. "I was feeling cool." Cillian shook his head and drew her close, putting his arm around her shoulder and turning her so they stood facing Connor together. Her eyes rose and met Connor's and Connor felt his breathing slow under her gaze. "Have you met Connor?" Cillian asked, unaware of the tension radiating out from his daughter or just too drunk to notice. "We've met," Connor murmured, when Peggy offered nothing by way of a reply. "Have you now?" Cillian exclaimed, a please grin crossing his face. "I'm glad! I think you two would get on splendidly." "Why?" Peggy asked coldly, her eyes not leaving Connor's face. He felt trapped within her gaze. "You're the same age and we've just had a great victory," Cillian replied, his tone suggesting that he hardly even needed to explain. "You do know that Connor was a big part of our victory today?" "What victory?" Peggy snapped, jerking herself away from her father's side and facing him fully. "I see no victory here!" "Peggy, calm down..." Cillian began, his face suddenly less merry. "Don't you dare tell me to calm down!" Peggy exploded and Connor actually took a step back, the force of her outburst startling him. He was unaccustomed to women speaking so. "Peggy..." Cillian tried again, his hands raised as though to placate her. "NO!" She shrieked, backing away and glaring at his hands as though he was trying to hurt her. "You drink and your other daughters dance as though everything is all right but it's not! My mother and youngest sister are still in the hands of the enemy! How can you act like this is a victory when they are still being held captive?" Connor blinked and slowly drew himself up to his full height as he absorbed what Peggy was saying. Before she could speak again, lashing her father with more sharp words, he stepped forward and looked down at the dark-haired lady who'd so captivated him since his arrival. "What did you say?" He asked. Her head whipped around and she glared up at him. "What business is it of yours?" She demanded. "I was sent to this stronghold to assist in the battle against Clan Fingall," he told her, not wavering, though her eyes were flashing dangerously. "If there are still captives in the hands of those people, then this battle is not over." She studied his face silently, a scowl marring her pretty features and Connor watched her carefully, seeing Cillian wringing his hands out of the corner of his eye. "My mother and sister were captured at the start of the season," she told him quietly, her face softening only slightly as she spoke. "I haven't seen or heard from them since." "No ransom demands have been made?" Connor asked brusquely. Peggy sighed and shrugged. "Not that I would know of," she replied and her eyes darted to her father once again who then paled when Connor turned to face him. "What demands have been made?" Connor demanded, stepping close to the other man, knowing and not caring how intimidating he was being. This was unacceptable. Knowing that there were at least two captives still with Clan Fingall while this celebration was going on...Connor shook his head. No wonder Peggy was so upset and had been all along. "I...I don't..." Cillian began but Connor stepped forward again, burying Cillian in his shadow. "Stop lying, father!" Peggy snapped from beside Connor. "I'm not lying!" Cillian said, holding his hands up. "Bowen and his men were handling all the negotiations." "Negotiations?" Connor repeated, not liking the sound of that one bit. "Are there more captives?" Cillian's eyes flicked nervously back and forth between his daughter and the giant before him. "It's possible." "Possible!" Connor shouted and before he could stop himself, he'd grabbed hold of the front of Cillian's tunic and vest, jerking the man forward. "This battle isn't over! There should be no feast or dancing or drinking tonight!" "Connor, please," Cillian choked out, his breath coming hard and fast and Connor immediately realized that everyone inside the big house was staring at them. He released the older man and paced a few steps away, which for him with his long stride was quite a ways. Turning back, he strode closer and glared at Cillian, trying to ignore the strange look he was getting from Peggy. "I will get your wife back though you don't really deserve it," he announced and spun on his heel to walk away. He stalked outside and straight across the yard to where Bowen was still gathered near the brandy casks with his closest friends and family. "Sir!" Connor cried above the din, silencing those nearby entirely. "I would speak with you, Bowen." Bowen froze, the cup in his hand raised halfway to his face as Connor spoke. Slowly, he lowered the hand and nodded, stepping away from the group and following Connor back across the yard towards the stables. Off to one side, Connor spotted Peggy standing near the big house, her face turned in his direction. But he couldn't pay her any attention right now; his very honor was at stake. "Tell me the truth, Bowen," he began bluntly as they entered the relative solitude of the first big barn. "Are there still clan members held within Clan Fingall?" Bowen looked back and forth between Connor's eyes for several seconds before responding. "Aye, a few." "A few?" Connor spat out, barely holding on to his rage. He felt like such a sham. "How many?" "Connor, why are you asking me this?" Bowen asked instead, dodging Connor's question. "Honestly? Because there are people on your land and in your very house who don't have all their family back with them," Connor replied. Bowen tipped his head to one side and a slow smile spread across his face. "You mean Peggy Gordon's family?" "Among others," Connor said, lifting one shoulder to pass off his concern as nothing more than that. He hoped Bowen couldn't tell how his heart raced at the mere thought of the woman. "Listen, Connor, these things take time," Bowen said, reaching out and patting the younger man on the shoulder. "Don't trouble yourself about it tonight. Come back to the yard with me and have another drink." "Can you really pretend like there's nothing wrong, Bowen?" Connor asked, carefully stepping back and out of the reach of his arm. "Can you truly celebrate knowing that some of the people you're sworn to protect are without their loved ones?" Staring up at him, Bowen said nothing. He merely shook his head and turned to walk out of the barn. Connor followed his steps with his eyes, glowering and hating his inability to change the situation. He longed to ride out immediately and do something about the captives still being held by Clan Fingall but everyone was drunk. If he was lucky he could get a crew together in the morning and even that would be a stretch. He cursed mightily under his breath and looked down as he scuffed the dirt with his boot heel. As he brought his head back up, he spotted a familiar form standing in the entrance to the barn and his breath caught in his throat. "Peggy," he breathed, freezing on the spot. She slowly walked forward, holding a shawl tightly around her shoulders as she approached. Finally she reached his side and tilted her head back so she could look into his face. "Connor, I want to apologize for my father's behavior," she said softly, her gentle voice sliding through Connor and making him feel weak all over. "It was..." she stopped and shook her head, unable to finish the sentence. "It was a father's attempt to make one of his children happy," Connor said, finding his voice and thanking the gods that it didn't crack. "Happy? How can I be happy knowing that my mother and sister aren't safe at home with us?" She asked, meeting his gaze. "You can't," he replied breathlessly and gave a harsh, hollow laugh. "But he tried anyway. I can't fault him for that." Peggy studied his face without speaking, her blue eyes flicking back and forth between his. "Can you not?" She replied quietly. "I can." A thought occurred to Connor and he straightened, unaware that he'd even stooped to lean closer to her. "I suppose it must be...distasteful to you that your father even considered matching you to me," he said slowly, watching her face. "What?" She asked, looking confused. "No, I don't...I mean, that isn't..." she paused, her mouth hanging open. "I'm sorry. I don't know what I mean." "It's all right, lass," Connor said, feeling strangely at ease all of a sudden. She might not have denied it outright but she certainly hadn't agreed with him. That was enough to give him hope. "I saw you speaking to Bowen," she said after a moment, glancing away. "Yes, I asked him about the captives," Connor said, feeling the anger stir inside him once more. "And what did he have to say about that?" The hard edge to Peggy's voice upset Connor. That a young woman should even be thinking of these things, on a night that was meant to be a joyous celebration was upsetting. Peggy Gordon "He said there was nothing to be done," Connor replied honestly and winced when she whipped her head around to stare at him. "Nothing to be done," she echoed hollowly. A look of pain crossed her face and Connor thought he saw tears glistening in her eyes. "Nothing tonight," Connor elaborated, taking a step forward and touching her shoulder before he could stop himself. "But I will do something about it in the morning." "What can you do?" She asked, her voice barely above a whisper. "I will find as many men to ride with me as I can," Connor told her. "And even if there are none, I will ride to the land of Clan Fingall and find your family." Peggy blinked as she looked into his face, her eyes shining in the dim light of the barn. "You'd do that?" She murmured. "Of course. It's not right that anyone is being held captive while everyone here celebrates," he said. "I know. But why?" "I'd do anything to see you happy, Peggy," Connor replied. "Don't you know that?" "I...I didn't," she stammered. "You don't have to do this." "Yes, I do." He stated firmly, bringing his other hand down to rest on her shoulder, holding her firmly. "Connor, I..." Peggy whispered, blinking a few times and stirring a tear loose from her eye. Slowly, Connor reached up and brushed it from her cheek. "Don't cry," he murmured. She shook her head then leaned forward, straining on the tips of her toes until she could reach his face. Gently she closed her hands on his cheeks and drew him down to her. Then she kissed him, the slightest, softest brush of her lips against his and Connor's entire body ignited. He closed his arms around her waist, picking her right up off the ground, while his lips moved across hers. She exhaled breathily against his mouth and Connor parted his lips, inhaling her scent. Deftly he slid his tongue against her bottom lip, savoring her shiver at the contact. As she opened her mouth under his, he tilted his head, sinking his tongue into her. Slowly he took one step, then another, carrying her tightly in his arms until he felt the pressure of a supporting beam against the arms he had circled around Peggy. She started at the touch of the post behind her and tore her lips from his. But Connor could not stop now. He brought one hand up and closed it on her chin, bringing her face back to his and thrusting his tongue inside her mouth once more. He slid his hand around to cup the back of her head, holding her to him and not letting her go.Every part of him was on fire. The feel of her soft and yielding body pressed against him and the taste of her in his mouth had turned him solid, in an instant. He was unaware of how tightly he held her until he heard a tiny whimper from the back of her throat and realized her chest was heaving with the enormous need to breathe. He eased his lips off of hers and gently brushed the hair from her face, still holding her firmly between his body and the beam. Her eyes lifted to his as she sucked in great gasps of air and he pressed a palm to her cheek. "You amaze me, Peggy," he whispered, dipping his head and running his tongue across her luscious full lips once again before kissing her soundly for several long moments. "I've never...Connor, you..." She stammered as he released her mouth the next time. She breathed deeply, catching her breath and resting her head back against the post with her eyes closed. "I didn't know...is this what is between...men and women?" Connor blinked, not truly registering her words. His body was alive with desire for this woman in his arms; this woman he never thought he'd lay a hand on in his entire life. Slowly, her question sank in along with the monumental wrong he had just done to her; had just about done to her. Slowly he set her down on her feet, feeling his head flood with blood and knowing that his face was burning with a shameful blush. He was thankful that she couldn't see him fully in the dark interior of the barn. I almost... he began to think and shook his head. "Peggy, I can't apologize enough," he murmured, unable to meet her gaze. "Apologize for what?" She asked and shifted against him, still caught between the post and his body. The movement stirred him again and he had to take a very deliberate step back, dropping his arms from around her waist. She watched him, a baffled expression on her face which only served to make this that much more difficult for him. "I...I almost...you and I..." he stuttered, feeling like a fool and despising the heat rushing anew to his face. Peggy turned her face away from him for a moment but when Connor looked up at her, he saw a smile playing across her face. She turned her head back to face him and took a step towards him. "Connor, I'm not sorry," she whispered, reaching a hand out and laying it on his arm. Her tiny fingers were warm against his skin and he felt the overwhelming need to kiss her sweeping through him again. Instead, he inhaled and brought one hand up to rest it over hers. "Aren't you?" He replied at length, staring down into her innocent and trusting face. "Why should I be?" She asked with a one-shouldered shrug. "I was the one who kissed you." He laughed suddenly, a loud bark that escaped him and made her jump in surprise. Then she laughed as well, a bright, warm sound that nearly had Connor carrying her off to an even darker corner. She must have sensed the change in him because the laugh ended and she lowered her eyes shyly, turning her face slightly away. Wanting to touch her again, only touch her, Connor drew a finger slowly along her jaw line, savoring the way she shivered at this barest of touches. "Peggy," he whispered her name. "You are a maid." Her eyes snapped back to his and he was momentarily stunned by the sudden fire he saw there. "What of it?" She asked, her voice no longer as soft. "I have no desire to take something from you that you are not ready to give," he told her, hoping she realized how much of a struggle this really was for him. He wanted to do right by her and that included not taking her maidenhead in a dusty barn with hundreds of people dancing and drinking twenty steps away. "You think I would have kissed you if I didn't want you the same way, Connor?" She asked, withdrawing her hand and stepping just out of his reach. "I'm not a fool or some addled, simpering girl who doesn't realize that the pressure I felt against my stomach a minute ago was not your leg." Connor's mouth fell open and he was completely and utterly at a loss for words. He'd never in his entire life heard such words leave a woman's mouth and he wasn't sure if it pleased him or disgusted him. A moment later, with the fire still burning low in his veins, he realized he was impressed. He loved her all the more for her fiery opinions and direct expression. He grinned and was even more pleased to see an answering grin on her face. She walked back to his side and reached up to press her palm to his cheek. He turned his head and kissed her hand, taking his time and flicking his tongue against the sensitive skin of her palm. When she shivered again, he took hold of her arm with one hand and slipped his other arm around her waist, pulling her back against his body in one swift move. "Are you going to try not to kiss me again?" She asked breathlessly. He chuckled and shook his head. "I cannot try not to, Peggy," he told her. "Now that I know how you feel here in my arms and how you taste on my lips, I fear I cannot stop." She smiled at him and before he could move, she threw her arms around his shoulders and pressed her cheek to his. He felt the warmth of her cheek against his and hugged her back, loving the feel of her slight body curving under his larger one. "What is going on here?!" A loud, angry voice boomed in the warm silence of the barn, startling the lovers and causing Connor to swing Peggy behind him in a protective move. He saw Cillian standing near the barn door, teetering drunkenly and glaring at him and Peggy. "Cillian," Connor breathed out in relief. He hadn't known what he'd thought when he'd heard the angry voice but he certainly hadn't expected Peggy's father to arrive. "Get your hands off my daughter!" Cillian bellowed. "Father, calm down," Peggy spoke up from Connor's side. Her tone was one of exasperation. "Don't tell me to calm down when I find my daughter alone in a dark stable with a man!" Cillian replied, coming forward a few uneasy steps. "Acting like some common whore!" "Now just a minute, sir," Connor broke in, drawing himself up to his full height and stepping towards the older man. "There was nothing going on." He glanced down at Peggy only to find a horrified expression on her face, her mouth opening and closing but no words forthcoming. "I think I know what I saw," Cillian was saying, drawing Connor's attention back to him. "You obviously don't, Cillian," Connor replied sharply. "Peggy was doing nothing but thanking me for my concern over your family." Cillian stopped, blinking in surprise. "My family?" "Yes, your family, half of which is still in the hands of the enemy." No one said anything after that. Cillian looked from Connor to Peggy and back again without speaking. Finally he drew in a deep breath and shook his head slowly from side to side. "I'm so tired," he said softly. "Let's go inside, Father," Peggy spoke up and walked away from Connor's side, glancing apologetically up at him as she passed by. "It's been a long night." "It has," Cillian murmured as he went with is daughter out of the stable and towards the big house. Connor watched them go, all the joy over his encounter with Peggy gone with Cillian's abrupt arrival. He looked down and around himself at the darkness of the stable and sighed. Scrubbing a hand down his face, he turned and walked outside, bypassing the revelers and heading inside to get some rest of his own. *** Peggy couldn't sleep that night. After taking care of her drunk father and gathering up her errant sisters, she spent the rest of the night in the crowded bedroom, staring at the roof. She hadn't gone into the barn after him intending to kiss him. And she certainly hadn't expected the kiss to cause such a reaction. Even the embarrassing interruption from her father hadn't diminished all that she'd felt when Connor's arms had closed around her. Now, hours later, she lay wide awake in her shared room, surrounded by snoring women, shivering each time she recalled what had happened. She blushed repeatedly when she thought of her blood rushing through her body or the answering hardness she'd felt in his. And through it all, she just couldn't get to sleep. Tossing and turning, she eventually slept for a few scant hours before the noise of the big house stirring woke her shortly after dawn. Yawning, she removed herself from between her sisters and carefully dressed without disturbing anyone else in the room. Then she crept quietly through the big house and out to the yard. Last night the yard had been alive with revelers. Now there were only a few people moving about, cleaning and a few more people were lying or sitting up in corners, still fast asleep. Peggy smiled as she surveyed the area as she gently patted her hair, pressed into wild waves from her sleepless night. Her eyes went to the barns and she spotted a familiar form exit one with a horse in tow. Several other men followed along behind him. They all spoke quietly to each other before mounting their horses and riding towards the main gate. Almost unaware that she was doing it, Peggy ran across the yard, calling Connor's name. They all stopped and turned to look, including the men at the gate and Peggy's cheeks flamed as she came to a halt several paces away. Connor said something to the men riding with him before dismounting and walking over to Peggy. Behind him, the rest of his companions rode out through the now open gate. Connor stopped in front of her, a curious and guarded expression on his face. "Where are you going?" She asked when he said nothing to her. His eyebrows went up in surprise. "To the stronghold of Lachlan," he replied slowly, referring to the head of Clan Fingall. Peggy felt her face flame anew. Of course, she thought. Of course he's going there. He said he'd leave today. "Right," she muttered and pressed on, wanting to say something to him. "I want to apologize again for last night, Connor." He smiled slightly though it didn't quite reach his eyes. "What? For the kiss, lass? Or something else?" He asked tightly. She blinked, taken aback by his tone. "I...for all of it, if it bothered you." His change in tone and demeanor made no sense to her, not after the kiss they'd shared and the words he'd spoken, so sweetly. "Bothered me?" He repeated with a sharp laugh. "Oh, aye, it bothered me but do not trouble yourself over it, Peggy. You owe me nothing, least of all an apology." Frowning now, Peggy crossed her arms over her chest, pulling her wrap more tightly about herself. She didn't understand why he seemed so angry with her. "I'm sorry for upsetting you, Connor," she said aloud, not wanting him to leave the stronghold in this state. "It's not your fault, Peggy," he replied, rubbing his head. "It was foolish of me to kiss you last night. I was foolish." That last he added almost under his breath. She almost laughed; she might have if the situation wasn't so mortifying. "Then we were both foolish, Connor." His eyes lifted to hers and the intensity of his scrutiny flooded her cheeks with color. Again. "It was wrong of me to take advantage of you like that," he said soberly. "I mistook your...gratitude for...for something more." "My gratitude?" She echoed. "Is that what you think-" He cut her off with a wave of his hand. "As I said, lass, you owe me nothing. I do this for the honor of both our clans, not for the affection of a woman." Peggy had nothing to say to that. She stared at him in silence. "If there's nothing else, then I really should go," he said then. She nodded her head jerkily and watched quietly as he led his horse away. A few minutes later the gates creaked shut and she could hear the sound of retreating hoof beats. She stood gazing at the closed gates, shivering even though the summer sun was rapidly heating the morning. "But you already have my affection," she murmured to herself, responding at last to his remark. *** As Connor rode away from the stronghold with the few other men he'd recruited for this task, he felt like he'd just made a grave mistake. After waking in the cold light of the morning, the previous night's events seemed horrific to him. First the knowledge of Bowen's betrayal of his own people and the confrontation between Peggy and her father. And finally Connor relived his own shame. He'd practically assaulted poor Peggy and it was shameful, in spite of her words to the contrary. It was truly unthinkable and he could barely look her in the face when she'd met him in the courtyard that morning. He barely listened to the words they each spoke, thinking instead of how he'd taken unfair advantage of her. She'd merely wanted to show her appreciation for his offer to save her family and he'd...well, he'd been moments away from tumbling her into the straw. At last he made his escape from her presence but not before seeing the hurt and confusion in her eyes. He thought for a moment that maybe he had been wrong but shook himself free of the notion. No, he told himself. I will get her family back because it's the right thing to do. Not because her body had felt so right in his arms or because she'd kissed him so enthusiastically in her gratitude. That's all it was, after all; gratitude. She was thankful for his efforts and he, in a fit of passion, had mistaken it for something more. Only when his blood had cooled had he realized the truth. He still saw the need to rescue the remaining hostages but he was angry; with himself and to some extent with Peggy. And then he felt guilty for being even the slightest bit angry with her. It would be so easy to accept when she seemed to be offering; the gods knew his blood flowed hot whenever she was near. But he wanted her to like him, maybe even love him, for himself, not because she felt obligated to him. "Connor?" One of his companions spoke his name, stirring him from his silent contemplation. Connor looked over to see Seamus smiling blearily at him. Seamus, bless his stout heart, had been the first to agree to accompany him, in spite of his condition following the previous night's activities. "It'll all work out in the end, Connor," his friend said to him. "I hope so," Connor replied quietly, almost grateful for the distraction. "Though we really don't know what we're riding into here." Seamus stared blankly at him for a moment before bursting into laughter. Reaching over, he slapped Connor firmly on the shoulder with one meaty palm. "Aye, that's true, friend," he replied around his chuckles. "I was speaking of the lass though." "Oh," Connor said simply, blushing lightly. Seamus' laughter died down and the other men kindly overlooked the exchange, riding a few paces ahead to give the two friends some small measure of privacy. "Was she very upset with you for leaving?" Seamus asked quietly. Connor shook his head mutely, unsure if he really wanted to speak of her yet. "Then she just wanted to see you off proper?" Seamus tried again a minute later. "Not exactly," Connor said. They fell silent again for a few minutes until Seamus exhaled noisily, drawing Connor's glance. "You're going to have to help me out here, man," he told Connor in an annoyed, though light-hearted, tone. Smiling, Connor met his eyes and sighed. "All right," he said, giving in. "She came to apologize to me." "For what?" "Well...I kissed her last night." Again, Seamus' boisterous laugh filled the air and Connor's horse skittered sideways, startled by the sudden noise. Even the other men up ahead glanced back to see what all the fuss was. "She wanted to apologize for your kiss?!" Seamus asked around peels of laughter. "It must have been some sad kiss!" Connor's smile turned wry and he patiently waited out the laughing. At last Seamus quieted, drawing in deep breaths and wiping at his eyes. "I'm please to amuse you, friend," Connor remarked dryly. "Aye, you do amuse. And with very little effort," Seamus replied with a chuckle. Then he glanced over at Connor's straight face and attempted to sober himself. "She can't have been apologizing for kissing you." Connor shrugged half-heartedly. "It doesn't matter now," he said. "It's not likely to happen again anyway." "Why? What did you say to her?" Seamus asked, frowning now. "I told her she didn't owe me anything for what we're doing," Connor told him. "And that I'm not doing this to win her affection." "Ah, Connor," Seamus said ruefully with head shake. "You are a fool." "Why?" "I've watched the two of you for weeks now and she likes you. She's liked you for much longer than you've had this fool rescue plan in your head," Seamus said. "And everyone, including the hounds, knows you're in love with her." Connor felt his ears begin to burn, the blood flowing rapidly to his face from there. "Wh...what do you mean?" He stammered. Seamus fixed him with a stern look, more than Connor would have thought him capable of so early in the morning. "I may still be a wee bit drunk but I'm not blind, Connor." But Connor could only shake his head feebly. "She despises me!" He managed to get out. "Until last night we hadn't even spent more than a few minutes in each other's company!" He made no effort to deny his own feelings since, as much as it pained him, he knew his love for the young woman was apparent to more than himself.