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Honesty

By: markelly



(I have to thank Lewunrem for her invaluable help editing this story. I hope this turns into an enjoyable read for you folks. If it does, then we got it right. If it doesn't, then perhaps next time.) 



My Dad once told me that my honesty was simply too much for most folks. Kinda dumb when you think he was the one that always said that I should never lie. 

He was right though, through high school I sure got into a few fights over it and as I got older, being hauled in front of the local sheriff didn't exactly fill me with much happiness either. But then I see that damn poster and a whole world of shit ensued. I have to say being part of the military wasn't high on my list of want to do's, but that poster just kept nagging at me. Eventually I talked to my Dad about it, I have never seen that man smile so much. We both walked into the recruitment office and as they say, the rest is history.  

The Army and I parted ways some five years back, we left on better than good terms and for my part many thanks. I now had a stake and some ambition, I also dampened down my honesty some, not much I hasten to add but I get all the way through town now without being in a fight and the sheriff and I have even been known to go fishing from time to time.

I was shrewd with my stake. I bought a parcel of land with one half and played the stock market with the other. The land stayed on the back burner until the town grew out a little. That's when it became important; it's also why it earned me three times what I paid for it. I still classed it as dead money since my adventures into the stock market were keeping me comfortable, I took it all and bought more land on the other side of town, a year or so later the highway came by, I got two out of the three right the last one I sold to a company who wanted to put a gas station on it.

My accountant started calling me lucky. I figured I would have one more spin of the dice and bought one more parcel of land. Three months after that my lawyer got a call, since the highway was bringing in more people to the town they wanted to put a shopping mall up, you can guess were. I sold and my lawyer started using words like rich and millionaire, well I'm sure I made my Dad proud, to bad he wasn't alive to see it or benefit from it, so I decided it was time to move out of both the town and state.  

The stock market still kept me amused. A strange breed of man who would stand in the middle of a room and wave his arms around while shouting a lot wearing the most ridiculous looking braces that clearly weren't there to hold his pants up. The internet and a brokerage firm proved an interesting buffer between me and them and I was sure comfortable with that little fact. I now lived just shy of three hours drive from Las Vegas and knew some very discreet ladies I could call on while I was there on business.

Las Vegas was also where my life took on an unexpected side road and hasn't let up since. I was a good hour out of Vegas following another pick up, I could clearly see both people in the truck having one heck of a set to with each other, it was when the pick up began to swerve around a bit I put some distance between us but still kept watching the commotion through their back window. Finally the tail lights came on and the truck swerved to the side of the road, the passenger door opened and a hold-all and a guitar case hit the floor seconds before some girl did.

The pick up drove off and the sudden forward motion closed the passenger door for the driver as he went on his merry way. The temptation to leave the girl there was only canceled out by the fact that this road gets used once every two to three hours and on either side of this road is pure desert. By the time I had pulled up along side the girl she had picked herself up and had already slung her hold-all over her shoulder. She watched as I let the passenger window drop.

"Before you ask I ain't going to fuck you for a ride either mister."

She watched me smile for a moment before she lifted her guitar case across her chest. The recognition was instant, for some strange reason I simply chose to not let her know. The posters I had seen of her simply didn't do what was in front of me justice.

"I'm relieved to hear that ma'am, it shows you have morals. Shame I can't say the same for your dirty mouth though."

Her cheeks flushed and the anger left her eyes for a moment, finally her composure returned.

"I'm sorry mister."

Judging by the deepening redness of her cheeks I could tell she was genuine.

"Hop in the back ma'am, this here road doesn't get used all that often and those clothes won't keep you warm tonight, there is bottled water in the ice box if you need it."

She paused once more to access me. I just stared back at her, the lift was genuine it was up to her to figure that out or fry out here before her next hope of a lift came along. With a shrug of her shoulders she opened the door to the crew section of my pickup and slid her guitar case and bag in then followed, the truck went into gear and I pulled away from the side of the road. I left her alone for awhile as she made herself comfortable and then an arm rested on my shoulder, the hand on the end holding a bottle of water.

I thanked her and opened it, drank half of it and then stuck it in the holder on the dashboard. Moments later I heard her open a bottle to drink from, I sighed to myself, what started out to be a simple ride to the next town and out of harms way of this desert had now it seemed turned into a test of trust.

"What the hell is all this shit in the back for mister, blankets, torches, an ice box full of water and a satellite phone? Are you fixing to stay out here for the duration?"

I smiled. "No ma'am I'm making sure I don't stay out here for the duration. I told you this road is poorly traveled and I meant it. If I break down I want to be alive when help finds me."

She mumbled something, I managed to pick out the word weird and then the rest shot passed me. Less than ten minutes later I heard her breathing become regular so I looked back into the crew compartment. She had spread out one of the blankets across all three seats and was now asleep on top of it, an empty bottle of water in her hands. I just shook my head, the least she could have done was told me were she wanted dropping off before she slept.

*******

It was close to seven in the evening when I heard a scream and two women going at it. I rolled my eyes and started to really think that picking that woman up wasn't one of my better ideas. When calm settled Maria came barging out the door and onto the porch.

"She wants to see you, she said I'm to tell you there are laws against kidnapping and she won't move from her room until the police come."

The rest I lost when she went straight to Spanish. I nodded to Maria, thanked her and did the only thing I could think of to stop her waving her arms around and speaking so much Spanish, I hugged her. I had hired Raul her husband for his abilities around the ranch, what he didn't know about caring for horses wasn't worth sticking on a postage stamp. Maria came a few months later when Raul had settled and she had been part of my family ever since. 

To many she looked like an overweight fifty something woman. What she actually was, was a perfect foil for my temperament, although she stood almost level with my chest she could still put me in my place with a stare and one of those hand on hips gestures. Her eyes although dark were always so full of life and the smile that always seemed to dance across her lips what ever the situation had a calming effect on everyone on the ranch. Maria was a matriarch, everyone looked up to her and everyone respected her advice when they came to her and asked for it. 

Grabbing the house phone on the way up the stairs, I knocked on the door and waited. Silence, this time I banged on her door and waited to which I  got a very brittle 'come in'. She was still in bed, her legs now up to her chin, and her arms around her legs. I ignored the glare she gave me and tossed the house phone onto the bed.

"I suggest you call the doctors first, his name is Dr Hartman, he's expecting your call, he's in the book or you can get the operator to call if you wish. The sheriff's name is Jack Mitchell, he's also expecting your call, again he's in the book or you can get the operator to hook the call up for you. I'm getting tired of your attitude and if it wasn't for the fact you're a guest in my house I would not have been as polite as I have been so far. You're showing little respect for Maria and I won't allow that. When you're done with your phone calls get dressed and one of my people will take you to the bus station." 

I made to turn but stopped.

"And one more thing, have you noticed that the lock on this door is on the inside of your room, right along side the key you dumb bitch."

There is something about slamming a door that really puts an end to many conversations. Maria still hovered on the porch, she was one of life's mother hens and I loved her dearly, her whole family had been with me for a little over two years now. For the first year she complained almost daily that I should be married, this year she has tried a new strategy and threatened to start introducing me to her cousins. I'm sure she saw the fear in my eyes.

Maria stopped talking and looked at the door; I heard it open and turned to look at my house guest. Well at least she had a baggy t-shirt on I suppose.

"The Doctor said I have been asleep for nearly two days. He says I have acute exhaustion and need more rest. The sheriff said if I wanted he would send someone by to pick me up and to remind you that you two have a fishing trip coming up."

Her brow knotted as she looked from Maria to me and back again. "What kind of place is this?"

The mother in Maria took over again and guided our guest back into the house and back up to her room. I didn't see either of them again until breakfast. I have to say she sure looked cute as well; her long dark hair pulled back from her face and held there with a hair grip only seemed to highlight her high cheek bones. The freckles across her nose tried to come through, though her tan made it look like she had less than she actually did. Her skin was flawless and her lips just seemed to scream 'kiss me' those posters sure didn't do the real woman justice. 
She was tucking into Maria's great tasting scrambled eggs and waffles. I nodded and sat across from her as Maria placed breakfast in front of me.

"What time do you want one of my people to take you to the station?"

A small smile crossed her lips, her eyes closed ever so slightly, making it look like she was evaluating me.

"Is that the way you treat all your guests?"

"No ma'am, I don't keep any of them prisoner here either."

"So I'm still your guest?"

"I would say I had little choice in the matter. You passed out in the back of my pick up and no amount of calling and prodding you would wake you up. I figured you didn't want me taking you to the hospital so here was my only option."

Right about then Maria dropped a plate. She fussed cleaning the mess up but not once did she look at either of us.

She ate another fork full of scrambled egg before saying. "Care to explain yourself."

I opened my mouth to speak, Maria stood behind my guest shaking her head vigorously. In my life I have heeded three peoples advice. My Dad's, Sergeant Timmons who taught me everything he knew in the army and Maria, whose unfailing ability to read people and instinctively know the good ones from the bad. Although pissed that she stopped me, I still valued her council enough to hold back on what I was going to say.

"You're my guest for as long as you choose to stay ma'am."

With that said I pushed my plate away, got up and left, still wondering why Maria had taken sides on this. By the time Maria found me in the maintenance section of one of the barns, I had the hood up on the pickup giving it an oil change.

"You're angry with me."

I came out from under the pickup and said. "You had your reasons for stopping me dumping her scrawny ass at the station, we both know there is something going on with her but it isn't our business."

"Gil, thank you for letting her stay, please talk to her."

"You know who she is Maria, when did you figure it out?"

Maria turned and sat alongside the truck, her hands clasped together. "A couple of hours after you brought her here and the Doctor had left, you told me to sit with her for awhile. She talks in her sleep Gil, she kept repeating three names over and over. When Teresa took over from me I got Raul to go onto the internet and see if he could find those names."

I waited for her to continue. It simply wasn't my turn to say anything, Maria came here to talk I was simply letting her.

"One is her husband, one of the others is her manager and I can't find anything on the last one."

"What do you want from me Maria?"

Relief washed across her face, we both knew she wouldn't have come to me without her own plan, the question had to be, would I do anything about it.

"Just let her stay. Let her get her head in order and then let her go where ever home is to sort out her life." 

"Why do I think you've talked to the doctor and the sheriff about this already?"

For a moment she fidgeted, but she refused to back down and simply nodded her head slightly as she stared at me. I couldn't help but smile at myself, first impressions were everything to Maria, and it was time to see if she was right.

"I'll go along with what you want Maria, since you have both the doc's and the sheriffs backing on this, you just make sure you don't get burned. These famous people don't play by our rules, remember that." 

I watched as she knelt down and then held my head in her hands and kissed my forehead, got up and left without saying another word. Pushing myself away from the truck I watched as she went back into the house, a couple of minutes later the girl came out and sat on one of the seats on the porch, guitar in hand. 

Moments later a horse trailer came around the corner of the barn and I got busy. By the time I looked towards the house again Maria was standing beside her, Eden now had on a hat and sunglasses, the guitar still on her lap, the sound of her fingers strumming a gentle tune as she watched us. It took us close to two hours before we got the horses bedded down and comfortable, all three were in a bad way and the vet had to spend a lot of time on two of them before the animal league gave me the paperwork for them.

As the horse trailer left the compound and Raul headed back to the barn, I walked the vet over to his car while he told me what needed to be done and that he would be back in a few days to check up on them. We shook hands and he took his hat off, nodded his head slightly and mumbled 'Ma'am' over my shoulder before getting in his car.

"Is this what you do, take in horses from the league?"

Eden joined me as I walked towards the barn.

"Can you ride?"

"Some."

Raul came out of the barn holding the reins on two saddled horses. I tried to hide my smile when Eden mumbled under her breath 'Strangest goddamn place, ever.' She bent her knee next to the horse Raul held for her and he helped her up onto it before spending another minute or so adjusting the straps, took a step back to admire his work and nodded his head before going back into the barn. We must have rode for a good half an hour before Eden broke the silence between us.

"You never answered my question." 

She was right of course, so I went on to explain that I didn't own the horses I simply looked after them until the league could find proper homes for them. When the mood to move states became something I had to do something about, buying the farm simply felt like the next logical step in my life, I simply loved horses. The animal league jumped at the chance to have me house them once all my background checks deemed me a good citizen and it's a partnership that we have both kept going ever since.

By now we had reached the outer limits to the farm and turned left along the fence line, the conversation was more comfortable between us and it seemed no topic was out of bounds to Eden. Stopping the horses at the creek so they could drink I stepped down from my horse and walked around to hers.

"Where's the wife. Men like you have wives?"

The men like me remark stuck and she watched from her horse as I laughed, telling her that men like me gave up looking for miss right a long time ago, too many rough edges for any lady to be comfortable with. Even though her eyes were still hidden by her sunglasses her face let me know she seemed to be thinking about what had just been said. Eden swung her leg over and I held my arms up ready to catch her, she slid between my arms and down my body. Her arms came out and swung around my neck, her hat tilted back and off of her head coming to rest between her shoulder blades.

Her incredibly dark hair seemed to shine in the sunlight and now free of her hat also enhance the beauty of her face even further. Eden then leaned in and kissed me. Had I given her any reason to? I would say no. Was I going to reciprocate? I would say yes and I did, for some time in fact but being human we both had to come up for air at some point.

"Thank you, although I'm still trying to figure out why you did that."

She slid the last two inches to the ground and I stepped back to give her personal space, at which point she stepped forward keeping the distance between us about as much as a sheet of paper could get past if it asked nicely.

"Don't sell yourself short. I've met people like you before, you have that something that holds a woman's interest, well this ones interest anyway and before your mind goes a wandering, no I didn't kiss those guys, just you."

Being speechless doesn't come often to me, sure did at that moment in my life. She then turned and walked her horse to the creek to let her drink. That kiss was never mentioned again that afternoon, I'm not even sure it ever got a mention ever again. I gave her the grand tour and as the sun started heading down towards late afternoon we got back to the house. I went to take both horses but Eden refused, telling me that she rode her horse and she was damn well going to look out for her, and for the next hour did just that.

It was once we had finished dinner and sat on the porch that things seemed to take one of those turns. I had asked her why she was running from Vegas, neither one of us were fools, I had already called her by her real name a couple of times so she knew I had recognized her. It still took Eden a few moments to gather her thoughts and organize where she wanted her story to start; I simply sat and let her.

"I had just turned eighteen that day when he put the paperwork in front of me, he even offered to hire a lawyer to read it all and explain it to me if I wanted. I couldn't see any point; we both knew I would sign anyway so I did."

Eden looked across the courtyard as Raul was moving one of the horses out of the paddock and into one of the barns for the evening and then looked back at me.

"It took less than a month to realize I was fucked and should have got a lawyer to look it over. He took seventy percent of everything I made and I picked up the tab for expenses. I did see a lawyer much later, but he said it was worded tighter than a drum. I was his property and for life it seemed. The first year my album went gold."

This time she looked at her hands, her brow creased and I got the feeling she simply didn't want to continue.

"The second year I met and married, one of those whirlwind romances. He was my life and I put up with all the shit from my manager because I had my husband by my side, even when we were on the road he was by my side. The money was good and for that I was grateful since that damn contract had me paying all the bills."


Honesty



"My second album went platinum so fast that it made my head spin which was a blessing since the bills are now starting to build up and of course I'm still picking up the tab. At least now I have a half decent accountant thats looking out for me and not robbing me of what little I have left after the other leeches have finished." 

Again she paused, her eyes started to tear up, I could tell she was re-living parts of the moments she was about to share with me.

"I had a migraine and it got steadily worse. In the end I canceled the studio and sent everyone home. It was when I got home my life really turned to shit."

She put her hands together, her fingers interlocked, her knuckles now white and it did start me thinking that perhaps subconsciously she was trying to strangle someone.

"I found my husband of nearly two years at home and in our matrimonial bed, stuck in the ass of one of the dancers. Seems he is bi-sexual, a small fact he didn't feel the need to share with me before we married. Another small fact was that he wasn't using a condom. I left the house and went straight to the doctors to get tested."

This time she did look up at me and managed a small smile.

"I went back to the house and kicked him out and had the locks changed, and the answer to the question in your head right now, everything is all clear I made sure I had every test imaginable. It was probably the longest eight months of my life. My manager was over the moon when I told him, he even told me I was better off without him."

She smiled and even gave a half hearted laugh. "This from a man who is intent on bleeding me dry financially."

Eden looked at me for some time, not once saying anything else. I suppose to her she had shared all she was willing to share, in her eyes, it was my turn. 

"What do you want to do with the rest of your life?"

Her eyes lit up with that question, I don't think anyone has ever asked her before and was willing to listen to her answer.

"I love my music and want to go on for as long as people want to listen to it. But even my accountant has told me that my manager will have me broke long before then and he shows no signs of letting up."

"Is that why I saw you running out of Vegas?"

Eden nodded her head, and then shrugged her shoulders.

"Frustration is a powerful thing Gil. I've got myself into this mess due to my own stupidity. A manager hell bent on taking everything I own that isn't nailed down. A husband that wanted the best of both worlds and thought it best not to tell me about it so I couldn't decide before I married him and a business I love so much that I won't leave it until people choose to stop buying my records."

The tears welled up, I had every sympathy for her. She was between the proverbial rock and hard place. The sound of crying made the both of us turn and look to the end of the porch, Maria was leaning against the rail a tissue now wiping her eyes. Since we both knew she was there she decided she had no reason to stay quiet any more and walked along the porch stopping along side Eden.

"Help her Gil. Please help her."

We both watched as she again touched her eyes with her tissues and then patted Eden on the shoulder and walked off the porch and back into the darkness. It took her a moment to pull her eyes away from the darkness and once again look my way. There was something in her look, an uncertainty about her as though she was looking at me with a different opinion, just not sure if that opinion was warranted.

"Can you help me Gil?"

I couldn't do much more than shrug my shoulders.

"I'm just a guy who owns a horse sanctuary."

Eden gave me one more intense look, shrugged her shoulders and excused herself. As the door to the house closed I felt like such an asshole. The evening no longer held its charm for me now, my mind already working on possibilities, but I was short on facts and until I had something more concrete to go on I was left to rely on what Eden had told me. I had no doubt she told me the truth, but people omit facts without even noticing they are doing it and it's those facts I needed if I was to stand any chance of helping her.

Yes I was going to help her, she had to have the right to do with her future as she chose to, and not what others have manipulated her into. With a sigh I got up and went to my den, closed and locked the door, it was going to be a real long night that was for sure. 

*******

The smell of breakfast sneaking under the door let me know it would be a good idea to eat. Eden was tucking into scrambled eggs and waffles again and the look on her face telling Maria she was enjoying every mouth full.

"You haven't been to bed."

Both Eden and I looked towards Maria. I recognized the half smile on her face, Eden then looked towards me and nodded her head.

"You do look like you've been dragged behind a horse for an hour."

"Gee thanks, both of you are real good for my ego you know that don't you?"

The sound of laughing women as I tucked into my breakfast sure lightened the morning atmosphere. The general conversation soon drifted back towards Eden when she told me that she was going back to Vegas tomorrow morning ready for her evening show. My appetite took a hit right about then, Maria noticed almost immediately and removed my plate whilst she talked to Eden, telling her that she would get Raul to take her back rather than wait at the station. 

Eden then grabbed my hand practically dragging me out of my seat saying. "Come on we have some talking to do and fresh air will do you some good as well, you look like your dead on your feet."

It took her another ten minutes of walking around the courtyard and some of the stalls before she started the conversation she wanted to get stuck into.

"I find myself in an unusual situation here Gil. You see I'm attracted to you and I'm kinda hoping that you feel the same way, I happen to be your guest but that doesn't mean shit if we both feel the same way about each other, so I want your input. Yes I know I sound clinical about all this but you've got to look at this from my standpoint, headlining in Vegas don't mean anything when I'm standing next to you hoping that you get the hint that I want to take us further."

We had both stopped to look at each other as Eden spoke, I listened until she stopped speaking, the pause as my brain took on what she had said must have meant something to her because she took a step closer. Her body real close to me now, her arms around my neck and her eyes seemed to bore into mine even her smile seemed to get brighter as she tried even harder to get closer.

"I'm not used to doing all the chasing Gil, so cut a lady a break and help me out here." 

*******

Hearing the sound of water running in the bathroom woke me. Seconds later a very naked Eden emerged quietly humming a tune to herself, spotting me awake and sitting up. That body of hers was a dream to look at and even better naked and in my arms, her legs just went up and never seemed to stop. Her hips had that 'hang on for the ride' look and feel about them, I had and I did enjoy that ride that was for sure. Her tight little pussy showed just a small amount of hair over her pubic bone. 

From her naval upwards Eden was all muscle and I suspected with a little more time in a gym it wouldn't take her long to show muscle tone. She started to laugh and her tits started to bounce slight on her body, I'm told over a handful is wasted but her C cup sure wasn't going to waste on that body.  She gave a shriek and ran across the bedroom launching herself back onto the bed.

"You be careful, those tits of yours will knock you out."

"Oh sush, you never complained when you had your mouth on the end of them trying to suck my body out through my nipple and anyway their not that big."

Eden shuffled up the bed and straddled my legs, my hands now rested on her hips and her incredibly warm hands covered mine. She had that recently fucked and very contented look about her.

"I know I'm glowing Gil, I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror, you did this to me and I want you to do it again. I let you sleep because it sure looked like you needed it and there is no way I made you that tired."

The look of mock innocence didn't fool me one bit, the snort and then laugh from me seemed to spur on the indignation and false pout, but they carried no weight either.

"I will have you know that you plundered this body and stole my virtue, I will be in therapy for years to come."

Her words said one thing, the glow about her, the shine in her eyes, even the huskiness of her voice as she spoke those words said something else entirely. Even as Eden was telling me this, her hands had already gone under the cover and pulled it away from me, one hand already wrapped around my semi erect cock and as our lips touched her other hand came to rest on the back of my neck, making sure I didn't change my mind. 

A groan came from the depths of her body and passed between our lips, as I opened my eyes Eden pulled away from me, using my shoulders for support she stood, her bloated and still soaked pussy all of six inches from my mouth. 

"Smell us Gil, that's us leaking from my pussy, even though I have been to the bathroom to have a pee I was careful not to wipe us away, that is still us you can see oh so deliciously leaking down my inner thigh. I want us to do that again please Gil."

Eden slowly lowered herself until she squatted over me and my hardness rested against her pussy before she moved my cock back and forth between her lips, the lust that burned in her dark blue eyes was clear to see now and as far as I was concerned there was going to be a lot more plundering of her virtue going on just as soon as she had finished sliding her soaked pussy onto my hardness.  

*******
I hugged Eden one last time, she held it together very well and then Maria came to say goodbye and thats when she burst into tears. Maria chocked a couple of times but just managed to keep it all in, they both promised to keep in touch and I left the girls to talk for a moment while I checked with Raul that he had everything. With a final wave she went and sat in the truck. Raul placed her things into the truck, kissed Maria goodbye moments later the truck started up and pulled away. Just as quickly as she had arrived Eden was now gone.  

"What are you going to do to help her?"

Maria came onto the porch as the truck left the yard, we both watched for a few minutes, the dust cloud showing the progress of the truck along the dirt road. She sat next to me and waited, this damn woman knew me better than most folks ever did.

"For now I can't do anything. A week must pass before the wheels start to turn and when they do I can't be seen to have done anything about it. We both know it's going to be obvious to all three of us, but she can't have any real proof."

She held my hand and gently squeezed it. "Thank you."

Maria got up and went back into the house just as another horse trailer came into view. I smiled to myself and stood up to help with the unloading and care. Life goes on for all of us and for the next week I kept as busy as I could, Maria kept her silence on the subject of Eden, everything else for her was still fair game of course and the imminent arrival of one of her cousins for a weeks visit kept a smile on her face and me in a constant state of looking over my shoulder.

The phone call came mid-day; Eden didn't take long to figure things out. 

"I'm at the studio. Myron Cartwright has just walked up to me and introduced himself, as if I don't know who he is. The Benson case made him a star and he's standing here  looking at me right now."

"Well first off why are you calling me over this and did it occur to you to ask him instead of me?"

Maria was leaning up against the door frame, her arms folded watching me, a smile on her face and a glean in her eyes, I could hear a muffled conversation going on, Eden had placed her hand over the phone to talk to Myron.

"I'm going to call you back, there is something going on here and this conversation isn't over with."

There seemed little point in hiding my smile from Maria, like me she had been expecting this call. 

"She's going to come after you. I sense she is so much like you that she's not going to take your help lightly. She will be grateful, but she will still come at you wanting to know more."

Shrugging my shoulders seemed the only thing I could do at the moment. Maria knew I had stuck my neck out to help her, even the weeks time frame wasn't going to be enough distance between us that she didn't know I had a hand in helping her. Denial was going to be my only defense from now on. At least Eden's life and destiny were going to be in her hands. But for now life remained routine, it was going to be interesting to see for how long.

It was another month before I got the answer. I was enjoying breakfast when Maria dropped the paper onto the table that in itself was new since I never read anything but the financial section of any paper. Putting my breakfast on hold I read the article Maria had folded the paper to. It seemed Eden Burrows had finished her show in Vegas and had told the reporter that she was going to have a rest before her tour to promote her new album.

"She's coming here Gil. She won't stop until you give her the answers she is looking for."

"You sense all this from an article in a paper?"

By now Maria was by the door to the kitchen, her timing as always was impeccable.

"No. She phoned about an hour ago so that I could get her room ready for her arrival. It seems she has taken 'Mi Casa es su Casa' very literally since you told her she was welcome to stay for as long as she liked."

Her laughter as she made her way to the kitchen sure let me know she expected some fireworks in the near future. Once I had finished breakfast I left Maria to wait for Eden, and no doubt a whole bunch of women's gossip as well. It was late afternoon when Raul tapped me on the shoulder and pointed down the trail. Even through the heat haze you could just make out a lone figure on a horse, another horse close behind.

We had just finished putting the hole in the fence line together by the time the two horses got to us. Raul waited until she got down before removing both saddles and gave the horses water while I cleaned up the mess we had made and loaded the truck. Eden leaned against the shaded side of the truck watching both of us, not saying a word. Once Raul was happy with the condition of both horses he handed Eden the reins waved goodbye and climbed back into the truck.

Both of us watched the truck move down the track she had just come up before she mounted and looked towards me, the reins of the second horse still in her hands. It still took her another five minutes before a word passed her lips as we slowly headed back to the house.

"Do you want the full version?"

"It's your dime and since you're still my guest, you can give me any version you choose."

I noticed the smile spread across her face before she had a chance to hide it, her sunglasses hide her eyes from me, the smile told me enough.

"Myron walked into my studio and pulled out a contract telling me it's in my best interests to sign it and to hand him twenty Dollars cash. I don't think that man knows what a twenty looks like and hasn't for some time but that's all he asked for as a retainer."

Eden paused as she slowly took her horse across the creek and then waited for me to catch up.

"That twenty wasn't even warm in his pocket or the ink dry on the contract before he was out the door and looking for my manager. Within an hour Benson Summers was on the phone practically begging to manage me, seems Myron and Benson go way back. So all of a sudden I have two of the best in the field representing me."

She looked across to me and said. "By the end of the day I had a new manager and my old one was locked in his office with Myron for most of the day exchanging words with each other. Is it worth continuing this or do you already know most of it?"

This time I just shrugged my shoulders, took my hat off and wiped the sweat off my forehead with my sleeve before putting my hat back on and saying.

"I don't get to read that many papers and we still have a ways to go so feel free to continue."

That smile came back; her eyes still hidden by her sunglasses, yet her whole demeanor seemed more at ease now. It also took me by surprise when she leaned over and slapped my arm. Instinctively I grabbed the material at the front of her shirt. By now the horses sensed trouble and stopped, Eden simply looked on, waiting. 

My cheeks got warm real quick, I quickly let go of her shirt and was just about to apologise when I felt her hand on my wrist holding me to her. This time Eden took her sunglasses off, she looked directly at me, her eyes so intense when she said.

"If you want me to take my shirt off Gil I have no problem with that. If you want me to take my pants off you may have to wait until after we get something to eat, I haven't eaten since this morning and I'm kinda hungry."

With that said she let go of my wrist and I took my hand away from her shirt, my cheeks still burning at my embarrassment. The horses moved forward again and we continued our journey back to the house in silence, leaving me to figure out just how I was going to dig myself out of this hole when something soft hit the back of my head and a sleeve dropped over my hat obscuring my view. When I pulled my hat off, Eden's shirt was still hanging off of it. 

Eden was still keeping a half horse distance behind me, forcing me to turn and look at her, she knew I would, I defy any red blooded man not to with an invitation like that. The smile on her face let me know she had won her own bet that I would, she was a nice brown, and I knew it wasn't a sun tan brown either. Her tits were comfortably covered with a sports bra but even sat on a horse her muscle tone was clearly visible, how she managed to find the time to work out given her self imposed schedule surprised the heck out of me.

I threw her shirt back at her telling her she will burn if she stayed like that. All she did was laugh as she put it back on. It took her a few minutes to catch up and then she spoke again.

"Myron won't tell me how he got my case, seems he has amnesia right up till the time I handed him twenty dollars and he then became my lawyer. Yet the file he had with him must be a good two inches thick. That sure is some amnesia don't you think?"

All guys have a built in secondary line of defense, I decided now was a good time to use it. I simply grunted my acknowledgment. Eden went back to her story.

"It has yet to go in front of the judge of course but Myron believes I'm getting all my money back. It seems being born in Hawaii actually had its advantages the islands are a day behind the States so when the contract was signed I was not legally an adult. It seems all that is in that file of his. I'm sure if anyone but Myron had walked into his office my old manager would have fought it."

The house came into view now and the horses sensing food and water started to speed up a little. So both our attentions were on letting them know who was boss. Inwardly I had to chuckle to myself, what everybody took to be Eden having a great tan was actually her natural skin tone, a third generation Hawaiian her folks sent her back here for her education and Eden decided it was here she wanted to take a shot at the music business. Just a shame she met that scumbag of a manager first before a real one got hold of her.

Raul met us at the barn and sorted the horses, Maria let us in the house and told us dinner would be ready for when we had showered and changed. I was already halfway across the bedroom when I noticed Eden's bag on the bed and when I looked behind me she had already pulled her sports bra off and walked into me, a startled look on her face until she see the confused look on my face.




Honesty



"Well what's the point of putting anything in the spare room when we both know I'm going to be spending my time with you and getting you to plunder my body yet again."

She winked with a mischievous smile while she walked past me and I simply followed the discarded clothes to the bathroom. Eden was already in the shower when I got there; I grabbed the soap and started washing her back, that's when my loins started to stir. By the time she had turned around she had that glow about her again and the look in her eyes melted my heart, her hands wrapped themselves around my cock and she sighed, I was as solid as steel.

"We don't really have time for this; Maria will have our dinner on the table soon. But we're naked and I most definitely have a need for this to be inside me." 

Her next words simply made me smile and if it was at all possible, even more solid at the same time. "Please Gil, don't make a girl beg, well, not in a shower anyway."

We were still laughing when I turned her around, her hands went out and rested on the bathroom tiles, Eden's legs parted and she waited. I heard her breathing change slightly over the sound of the water from the showerhead, the little devil in me made me change the direction of the water so that it flowed onto that cute tight ass of hers, she looked over her shoulder and smiled, I'm sure I heard her mutter "bad man," before her head turned back again.

My hands rested on her hips and my cock fitted snuggly between her pussy lips, Eden gave a short gasp and started to both wriggle her ass and push back at the same time. I held her hips to stop her doing both; she gave out a groan of frustration but eventually gave up and waited. Slowly I pushed into her, she gasped, her fingers would clench and un-clench as I pushed deeper into her.

"Oh fuck yesssss, you have no idea how long I've waited for this."

Eden moved her legs further apart, taking that as a hint I got a firmer grip on her hips before pushing the last of myself into her. Her head nodded a couple of times before it slumped between her arms, her chin now rested on her chest and I steadily increased my pace. The rhythm between the two of us was now set, my grip on her hips eased and the groans coming from Eden kept me solid. With her body now free of my grasp she would add a little wiggle to her ass as she bottomed out on me and the moans of pleasure she got from doing it kept me hard.

With my hands now free I cupped her swaying tits, Eden gasped and mumbled. "Pull them, pull them hard Gil."

Two fingers soon found her hard nipples and with a squeeze and twist on both of them she gasped and added more impetus to slamming back onto my cock. Her moans and her intensity left me in no doubt she was very close to cumming, I opened my hands, crushed her tits into her body and thrust as deep into her as I could. Eden's head came up and screamed her orgasm as her pussy spasm so much I thought she was trying to rip my cock off my body. I held her hips again as she sank back onto my still solid cock and stayed impaled on me until her breathing became normal again.

As she calmed she wiggled her ass, then looked over her shoulder a confused look on her face. "You didn't cum?"

I shook my head before saying. "That's ok I will catch up with you later tonight."

Her face took on a murderous look and she slid off of me, grabbed my cock and pulled us both out of the shower, tossed a couple of towels onto the bathroom floor and lay on them her legs as wide apart as I have ever seen a woman get them.

"That's a challenge to my womanhood and I'm not going to allow that. Your not leaving this pussy until you cum, so slide it back in here and make me your woman again Gil."

The 'your woman' remark was not lost on me, just as the gleam in her eyes and totally serious look of her face showed me that Eden meant every word she had just spoken. I'm not even sure if it's possible but it sure felt like my cock just got a little harder. The tension in the air as Eden waited for me on the floor, her hands outstretched ready for me was suddenly interrupted when her stomach rumbled reminding us both she needed to eat and we both giggled.

"I'm not moving from this floor and you're not leaving until I'm done with you so eating can wait Gil. Get your cute ass down here and finish the job."

Her words may never had made it into any romance novel but she sure had my heart at that moment and the slow moan from her lips as I slid my cock back into her waiting pussy sure seemed to seal the deal. No sooner had I bottomed out inside her than Eden had her hands firmly on my ass holding me there, the smile on her face just seemed to get bigger by the second as her vaginal muscle clenched my cock.

Eden's eyes opened, the smile still on her face, her eyes were on fire as her hands moved from my ass and gently held my head. Our kiss was slow and tender, Eden's grip on my cock relaxed and I started to move in and out of her, I felt her legs wrap around me and as her heel dug into the small of my back and her thigh muscles clench ever so slightly I knew she was locking me in and making sure I wasn't going anywhere, as if that would happen.  

Even the slight brownness of her skin couldn't hide the flush of her cheeks, her breathing changed and she got a little warmer beneath me.

"Take your time Gil, but your not getting up from here until what you have swimming in you is swimming in me. Enough with the dirty talk from me because I plan to close my eyes and enjoy everything your doing to me."

I tried to keep a rhythm going but I am only human. It seemed Eden had set her own rhythm as well. Every time I started to withdraw from her, her fingers would gently run down the back of my neck, a slow moan would emanate from her as I pushed back into her. Pretty soon we both got into it although I was torn between seeing her smile get even bigger as I fucked her or watching her tits move up and down with the movement of her body.

Finally that familiar feeling started to emanate from my loins and I started to speed up. Her smile seemed to get even bigger if that was possible and with one final thrust deep into her I came.

"That's it Gil, mine all mine."

With the last pulses of my cock sending what little was left in me into Eden I started to pull out, Eden kept her legs locked around me, her eyes opened and slowly she started to shake her head.

"Only when you shrink can you have it back, until then it's in me and I intend to keep it."

I smiled at her comment but deep in the back of my mind I knew she actually meant every word.

*******
Maria tried to look stern when she told us our dinner was getting cold. She didn't even hide the grin on her face when she left us to our meal. We were halfway through dinner before Eden picked up where she left off and went back to what happened back in Vegas.

"You're not going to tell me either way are you? Myron may be my lawyer and that damn file he has stashed in his case has more facts about me than I care to be made public, yet between Myron, Maria and you. All any of you have wanted for me is to see me get rid of that parasite of a manager and the bonus is I get my money back."

She looked towards Maria who was now leaning against the door frame listening to the conversation.

"You asked Gil to help me, oh I know he will continue to deny it until the day he dies. Myron stonewalls me and throws out the fake amnesia when I corner him but I'm asking you, woman to woman. Will anyone ever give me a real answer to my questions about all this?"

Maria didn't move from the door frame. I chose not to look at her, there was no point, I almost knew word for word what she was going to say next and I simply let her.

"Before you ever came here you knew then your life was bad and going to get worse, yet you could see no way out of it. You were even willing to allow that man to make you bankrupt just so you could stay in the music business a little longer."

She paused and we both watched Eden as she thought about what Maria had said to her. Finally admitting the truth to herself she nodded her head in agreement. 

"Then take what help has been given to you by whoever gave it. Live life the way you wish to live it and if people choose to tell you they helped you then thank them, if they don't then thank God for those people who he put on this earth to help people like us."

To Maria the conversation was over, she left to go back into the kitchen. It still took Eden a few moments to take her eyes off of the door way and look at me again. Her eyes had misted, her cheeks held a redness about them. People like Maria had such honesty about them that people like Eden could relate to and understand on many levels. Finally admitting to herself that although she knew in her heart what the answers were, she would never hear the truth from anyone's lips. 

We took our drinks out onto the porch and just enjoyed the evening. My heart told me she had finally put all this to rest since she was now free of her old manager. My head told me to brace myself for one last throw of the dice from Eden.

For the day and a half she was here it was never mentioned again, we both seemed to turn our energies towards each other, when we were not on horses riding around the sanctuary we were in bed. We were comfortable with each other and love just snuck up and slapped us both across the back of the head. It was only when I held her in my arms that final time before she had to return to do her tour that we admitted it to each other, as scared as we both were to say it and we had to hold each other so very tightly before we could say those three words that change so much of people's lives, I love you. 

*******

 It was a couple of months before Eden appeared again, Maria kept in contact with her via the newspapers and phone when I was either away or out working on the ranch. Her concerts were going down a storm and she had another two months on the road, which is why I found it odd when one morning I woke with the familiar figure of Eden next to me, leaving her to sleep seemed like a good idea since I had gone to bed late that evening, so she must have got back real late. 

"Is she still asleep?"

Nodding as Maria placed my breakfast in front of me I replied. "Any idea what time she got here?"

"Around three this morning. Raul was watching the horses last night, he seemed to think that mare the rescue people brought in yesterday wasn't going to see the light of day and didn't want her to die alone."

I looked at her expecting the worse. 

Maria simply shrugged her shoulder and said. "Seems Eden noticed the light on in the barn, sat with them both for half an hour and just before she left she got up, kissed the horse goodnight and said she would see her in the morning."

The sound of a yawn came through the door a second before Eden did. One of my old t-shirts the only thing she had on judging by her swaying tits behind the cloth and the shape of her ass where it meets her legs when she leaned over to Maria to kiss and greet her before asking about Raul and the mare. Maria let us both know that the mare survived the night before she left to get Eden her breakfast.

"What's with the visit, aren't you supposed to be on the road wowing your fans."

That got a smile. "We finished last night I got a plane back here while the crew move on and set up so I have three days of you all to myself and your going to need to keep me company through all of it, we have some tough talking to do, sure glad your up front and honest, I don't have time to beat around the bush on this."

She must have noticed the curious look on my face because I sure hadn't got a clue what she was talking about. Maria came in and set a plate in front of Eden.

"When is your due date?"

Both of us looked directly at Maria. Maria made it look like the most natural thing to say, she took a step back and placed her hands on her hips waiting for Eden to answer. 

"The doctor said late November. How did you know, I haven't even got around to telling Gil yet."

"You're glowing; there is only two reasons for that, you're in love with Gil. Well we already know that, or you're pregnant. Since the first has been a given for some time now it must mean your pregnant." 

Maria turned to me and said. "The rescue people are on their way, let Raul take care of the horses, because you two need to talk. There are more than just you two in this song and dance your doing between each other now. Eden has a life growing inside her and you both need to finally be honest with each other. I will see you both at dinner."

It was only the screen door banging shut that seemed to break the trance between Eden and me. She took a moment to look at me again; her composure seemed more brittle now. My chair creaked as I leaned back into it and watched her, waiting.

"It's yours Gil, honest to God it's yours. I will take any DNA test you want but I'm hoping you will trust the woman who loves you is sure that the child I have growing inside me is ours."

She watched as I stood and walk to her side of the table, hold out my hand and she took it. Once she stood I scooped her into my arms and took her back upstairs. Eden just managed to get her t-shirt off of her body and onto the floor before I was just as naked and pulling her legs apart and burying my tongue into her hot tunnel, with my nose nudging against her clit her whole body stiffened. I heard her suck in air and as her hands went to my head, holding me to her she sighed and relaxed at the same time gently moaning as she did.

"Oh fuck I've missed this, but I need you to say hello to Mommy before you go looking to make first contact with our baby Gil."

With an invite like that I lifted away from her pussy, placing her legs onto my shoulders, my solid cock found that hot hole of hers like it was a guided missile and the gentle sigh as I pushed into her left me in no doubt she was sure I had found Mommy and child. I held her hips and pounded into her; Eden moved her legs off my shoulders and wrapped them around my hips. There was no gentle rhythm it was just non stop pounding into her pussy. Suddenly she grabbed handfuls of bed sheet and nearly ripped it off the bed as her upper body came away from the bed her eyes blazed pure lust and she screamed as she came.

I wanted so much to cum right then and make it a joint orgasm but I couldn't I just kept pounding into her, when she reached the top of the bed I simply grabbed her legs and dragged her back again, not even leaving her pussy to do it. Eden's body was a wash of sweat, she tried hard to pull oxygen into her body but only long enough for me to slam my cock back into her and she would expel that air in the form of a moan. I have never seen Eden this wet; both of us from the waist down were soaked in her cum the slapping sound as I bottomed out in her mingled with her scent simply made me want to fuck her even harder.

Her body suddenly lurched upwards and her arms wrapped themselves around my neck her head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around her to support her, my cock now at a different angle within her also changed the sounds she was making. The pain in my shoulder as she sank her teeth into me made me realize she was enjoying this position way too much. The orgasm that tore through her body a couple of minutes later simply confirmed it. I didn't even wait for her body to calm itself before I was out of her, turning her over and pulling her sweat soaked body onto all fours. 

She barely had time to settle into that position before I drove myself back into her. One arm now under her I pulled and twisted her nipple with my free hand and continued to fuck her. It didn't take Eden long for her third orgasm to be sent screaming into the pillow she had her arms wrapped around, I drove into her one final time and came. As soon as my cock had finished she pulled herself off of me and spun around, my cock had only just started to go limp when she had me in her mouth trying to keep me hard.

Her cum soaked and bloated pussy looked very inviting right at that moment so I pushed two fingers between her swollen and increasingly cum leaking pussy lips, Eden went to swipe my hand away but I caught it, the look of anger in her eyes told me loads. The feeling of her teeth gently biting down on my hardening cock told me even more and I let go of her hand. She in turn pulled my fingers out of her pussy and placed them onto her ass and let go to continue what she was doing to my cock.  

I had made her sore yet she still wanted to be fucked and she wanted me in her ass. While Eden worked on my cock I was moving juices around her ass and when I thought she was wet enough I would gently push a finger into her. The moan that followed sure lets me know that this is what she wants, adding another finger to open her up more simply made her adjust her position slightly before she again set about making me hard enough for her.

With one final kiss on the end of my steel hard cock, Eden smiled and turned around. I shuffled in behind her and gently placed the head of my cock against her puckered hole. Eden tensed slightly then relaxed again and started to move back onto me, although I held her hips again I placed no pressure on her; she was doing all the work now and setting her own pace. With one final push the head of my cock disappeared inside her, the gasp and slow moan that emanated from the pillow made me smile and I was just grateful she didn't see it.

Eden changed tactics after that; she would rock her body back and forth taking more of my cock into her when she came back onto me. Finally she bottomed out and stopped, her shoulders seemed to slump slightly before she raised herself onto her hands.

"Fuck Gil that hurts and doesn't all at the same time, just go easy for a while ok, I still need to get used to this."

She made herself comfortable again and I slowly started to move in and out of her, it took a few minutes for her body to get used to me being inside her ass before it started sending sensations to Eden's brain. 

She looked back and smiled, winked and said. "Faster please."

I added some pace to my thrusts into her and I watched with a smile as her arm came away from the pillow and disappeared under her body. Her ass clenched suddenly around my cock telling me she had started to work on her clit, her moans became more powerful by the minute. Eden's next orgasm caught me by surprise, her whole body lurched away from her pillow she screamed out her orgasm and fell forward sliding off my cock and falling onto the bed a sweat soaked panting wreck, her body to limp to do anything but breathe.

The smile on her face told me a great deal. I started the shower and came back for Eden, her eyes were already started to close but opened quickly when I wrapped my arms around her and lifted her into my body carrying her to the bathroom and sat her in the shower. I washed her and laughed when she tried to wash me as well, after drying her I carried her back to bed and snuggled in behind her. I barely heard her last words before sleep stole her from me.

"You didn't cum did you?" 

All I could do was hold her tighter to me and say. "I promise I will next time."

I'm not even sure she heard me, her breathing telling me she was asleep, I just held her and followed a few moments later. She wasn't in my arms when I woke, the silence in the room telling me she wasn't even in the bedroom. I found her out on the porch a coffee in her hand, she pointed to the spare cup next to the coffee. She waved at Maria as both she and Raul passed by; I sat next to Eden and waited, she had something on her mind, its just a case of waiting her out, her free hand sought mine and we held hands.    

"I'll be honest with you Gil, when we first met on the side of that road I was still pissed at being tossed out of that pick up truck yet when you pulled over and stopped something inside me just screamed trust him. I go on instinct about people, I know I've got it plain wrong with some folks but you simply keep proving me right at every turn. I know you instigated Myron coming into my life just as I know you are the one who gathered the information Myron has in his case."




Honesty



I opened my mouth to speak only to have Eden wave her hand at me.

"You can hold off on your denials they simply don't wash with me and if you try that 'I'm just a guy who owns a horse sanctuary' shit on me again I will punch you so hard."

Eden put her coffee down, what she said next I had half expected, the only thing I was surprised at was her depth of knowledge.

"Everyone who knows you are fiercely loyal to you Gil, did you know that? I knew I was falling for you but I didn't want to end up with another dead beat husband. Yes I did say husband, Maria told us both to stop circling each other like to boxers in a ring and I simply don't have time to do that anymore as fun as it has been so far."

My Father once told me I would meet someone just like me, he even went on to say that she would even have my temperament and would keep me honest. I would laugh at him but he'd just grin and shrug his shoulders. Thinking back to that conversation now I realize this would be called one of those 'I told you so' moments. Eden was a long way from finished so I just let her continue.

"I know most everything about you Gil. Your life in the army is the only part I can't get to, you never tell anyone about it and to be honest you don't even look like you ever left, but I love my country so I'm going to say I don't think you did and that locked room you call a den makes me think you still have some connection with it so I plan to keep my mouth shut on that one. But your brokerage firm I do plan on talking about."

It was plain to see Eden had indeed done her homework it was also time to put a stop to this. I held up my hand and she stopped speaking, a small smile crossed her lips, just like the one that she had when she almost dared me to turn around after she had thrown her shirt at me to see if she was wearing a bra. This woman knew me better than most, I think in her head she knew how far she would get with her story before I cut her off and she had just been proved right.

We talked well into the evening, only stopping long enough to eat and then we went into the day room and continued the conversation as though dinner hadn't even occurred. In my heart I had found her, that woman sat across from me as she spilled her guts about her childhood, her hopes and fears, even the time she sat and cried when the doctor told her she was pregnant. It was then Eden knew she was going to have to hit me with it all at once and was terrified I would bolt.

The one aspect of our lives that was totally different was that Eden craved the fame and her singing talents already had a following that now free of her old manager could last for some time to come. As for me, I shunned any publicity I have been and always would be a private person. It was now we had to work towards a middle ground for two reasons. We loved each other enough to make it happen and the growing life within her.

By the time Eden had to return to her tour we had the workings of a plan for our lives. I got stuck into making it happen while Eden finished her tour. She hid her pregnancy well, mind you sitting on a stool or standing in front of a microphone with a guitar in front of you can hide most things I suppose. Her folks were not amused when she told them on the phone but her Mom's maternal instinct clicked in when we both turned up on the islands and were married there. 

*******

Faith is our two year old bundle of fun and Maria's cousin did indeed come to visit and even stayed to become Faith's nanny. I had a studio built into one of the barns and a couple of guys and girls from her backing band come by from time to time but mostly Eden will use the studio to put ideas down and take the tape into the recording studio in Vegas to flesh it out. 

Eden headlines in Vegas for three months of the year then takes a three month break, officially to record new songs and make plans for her tour, un-officially because we use that as our time either here at the ranch or we all go back home to her folks on the islands.

After that she will tour for three months, although she is under pressure from her manager to expand her concerts outside of the states she flatly refuses. Being away from us for as long as she is hurts her enough, going world wide is a dream she plans on keeping to herself. That's a compromise Eden made herself and I think if I pushed her on the subject she would call it, her gift to her family. 

The three months over Christmas are ours and we get to decide what we are going to do with it. Our world revolves around Faith for now, Eden misses her terribly when she is away but knows a stable home life is what she is getting on the ranch. I say 'for now' because Eden is on her way back from Dr Hartman's office, with I suspect news that Faith is not going to be an only child for much longer.



Honesty Not Always Best Policy



I was in a marriage that no longer had anything in it especially love. We had been married 18 years and for the past 4 before that it has been like living like brother and sister. I am white and so is my husband. He had been taken ill and had to be in the hospital for over 2 weeks. After his stay he "claimed" that his cock was fucked up and that was the excuse he used on why we weren't having sex. But that is far from the truth as Pluto is to Earth. He stopped showing any sexual interest in me prior to his cock troubles but he doesn't seem to remember that. In the beginning before we were married the sex was great, it wasn't as intense when we first got married and slowly got to the point that if we had it we had it and if we didn't no big deal. It was always when he wanted it to and the way he would approach me with it is asking me to suck him off or come to my side of the bed sticking his little white cock in my face to get my attention. I had resided myself that I would no longer be having sex. I can remember becoming friendly with some guy I met thru work but didn't have interest in him as far as going to bed with him but I always wanted to know what it was like to suck him off. I told my best friend this and she thought that I turned "queer". 

I was working at this place and I was really well liked by some of the customers that I serviced and they would usually call and ask to speak with me because they felt that I went the extra mile to take care of their needs in a timely manner. There was one particular customer that we had that I had a very good relationship with the entire staff especially this one guy who happened to be black. We would "flirt" on the phone and pass sexual remarks back and forth but neither one of us got insulted or ashamed as it was all in fun so we thought. Seven years ago, "Big J" as they referred to him as asked if I would like to meet up for drinks one day and I said yes and to tell me where and when I would make arrangements to meet him. I guess because I was worried about my husband finding out that I was having drinks with a black guy, I didn't really push the issue but I really wanted to meet him. He must have seen that I wanted to but something was holding me back and he didn't push me.

Two years later, right after New Years, we had been really flirting quite a bit and getting really in depth with it. One day he and I had been working on his order and he then told me to write down a phone number and he told me it was his cell phone and I should call him anytime I felt like talking and I thanked him and told him I had to be careful as I had a very jealous one at home and he said he had one one too. I told him I wasn't going to give him my number that day but I would give it to him soon. In the meantime, I decided to bury a picture of myself in some paperwork I had to send with his driver and was hoping he would do the same. He got the package with my picture in an envelope buried and he opened and called me and said that I looked very nice. He didn't have any pictures of him to send me and I didn't have a cell that took or accepted pictures at the time. After thinking about somewhere I had to be towards the end of the week I asked if he was still interested in meeting me and it isn't too far from where he works and he said yes.

Mid week I went to my favorite clothing store and bought a new outfit to meet my friend and I was so nervous. I almost chickened out but I am so glad I did. I was so worried that once he saw me in person he wouldn't like me and would rush through our meeting but be polite as he always is.  We agreed to meet outside of his place as not to have to explain to anyone there why I was there and have to answer any questions on why we had to meet.

Saturday morning came and I was still uptight with worry that he would be nice and send me on my way. I called as approached and he picked up right away and said he would be right out. I was going over in my head that he was married and he knows I am too, he has children and I don't and etc. etc.. I was watching by his door for him to come out and the first man that left was white and I knew it wasn't him. I felt myself get all clammy and have thoughts of what he might be like as far as his looks and came up with a few ideas but figured I would just wait and see. The next man that walked out the door was tall and black and I knew that was my man. I locked up my car and met him half way. As we got closer to each other, he extended his hand to me and I took it and then gave him a kiss on the lips and then I said that I was glad to be able to put a face to the voice and it was a pleasure to finally meet him. He was so sexy as he stood 6'4" tall and about 240 pounds, shaved head and the darkest black eyes and dimples, I fell in love with him right then and there.

We talked briefly but the next thing I knew we were kissing with passion and then headed to my car where he was feeling me up and asked me my size and I told him. I put my hand on his leg and he quickly removed it and put it right on his crotch which was growing bigger and bigger. All we did was kiss and touch and there was no time nor we were in a place for anymore to happen. He had to go back to work and I was running late for my appointment. I asked him if he was disappointed and he said not at all and then he asked me the same and I told him neither was I. He told me to call him after my meeting so we could say hello.

My meeting was long and boring and all I kept thinking about was Big J and how good he made me feel and I knew that something was going to happen between us not sure what but I had a feeling in my gut. I called him and he answered my call but was helping a customer so he asked if he could call me back. I told him I had one other stop and then I would be going home. He said it should be with in 10 minutes so I told him to call me. Normally we only talk during the week at work or on our lunch breaks but it was never on Saturdays or Sundays or after we get out of work daily at 5 o'clock.

Ten minutes went by so slowly but he called and we talked and we were like teenagers saying how we enjoyed meeting each other and he told me he loves big tits and liked mine and asked me my size and I told him that I thought he was very sexy. We wished each other a nice weekend and he said that now he can. I went home and made lunch and then laid down and thought about him and his touch and his kisses and how I felt. I daydreamed about him all weekend and actually wished the weekend would be over so I could talk to him and here his sexy voice. I was in a complete fog as some of my friends and I had dinner out that night while my husband went out with "the boys". 

When I woke up Monday I didn't know if I should tell him that I was falling for him and risk him not talking to me but I couldn't keep it to myself. He called me back after I called him and he said that he would like to see me again and I told him I had to tell him something and I hopped he wouldn't get mad and end our friendship. I told him that I thought I was falling in love with him and asked him if that upset him and he said no and I asked him if it would bother him if I said I love you and he said it wouldn't mind.

We continued to talk every day and no on Saturdays until he had to leave for home. This weekend he was going with some of his men friends to upper NY state for camping, and beer drinking. The have been doing it for years and haven't fished yet. He wouldn't be at work Friday and won't return to work until Tuesday. I told him I would miss him and he said not to worry he would be back in a few days. During his time of I realized that I wasn't falling in love with him but I was in love with him and had to tell him. When he was back at work on Tuesday he called me to let me know he was back and I told him how I felt and he was okay with it.

A week went by with calls several times a day and then he asked me if I sucked cock and I said I did and I was a little rusty and he said that someone will help me out and would be him.  I also said that I would have to be careful. He asked if I could meet him in a week and I said so far it looked like I could.  He told me where to meet him and I had something to look forward to and ask my best friend if I could use her as an excuse and she said yes.

I was anxious as I never sucked black cock before and I asked him if I can tell him something and retract what I said a week earlier. There was silence on the other end as he just barely got out that it was okay. I told him that I didn't think I was falling love with him but that I was in love with him and I could hear a sigh of relief.

He and I made a date and it was like we haven't seen each other in years. We kissed and hugged and touched and before I knew it I was sucking my first black cock and he was the nicest I have ever seen. We agreed to meet once a week and we have been doing this now ever since. We made a date to meet at a hotel one night when his wife and my husband were going to be out for hours. We had the best loving making session. He was so gentle as I was out of practice and he made me feel like I was meant to always feel like a woman again.

One day he had called me and told me that his dad was very sick so he would reach out to me whenever he could in between. We began to text at home at night and made no calls except for the Friday morning his dad passed. He told me of his death and said that he was going out to just blow off steam that night with some friends and wanted to know if I could meet him and I said I could because my husband was going out. I drove in the pouring rain to see and be with him and I just held him tight.

That night I told him something that to this day I regret and it was that the week he was away with his family I had met up with an old school friend and we exchanged phone numbers and that we met for drinks and talked and he told me about his life being a living hell as his ex-wife cleaned out his savings account and left him for another woman of all things. I felt so badly for him that I consoled him which meant I sucked him off and we slept together and made love. Big J was all worked up about his dad and said it didn't matter to him that he knew I was trying to be nice to my friend and he asked if he was black or white and I told him black.

We didn't text over the next 2 days as he was making arrangements for the wake and funeral. That Monday he called me and gave me hell and told me to stay away from him and not to show up at the wake because he would have me removed. I asked him why and he said because I fucked my black friend and he thought I was his exclusively and hung up. 

I tried to reach him and then left him alone as I know I upset him besides losing his dad. I showed up at the wake as a concerned friend and he didn't have me removed but took me outside. I went to hug and kiss him and he told be to fucking leave him alone not to ever call, text or try to reach him at work again. He would deal with someone else from now on and will hang up if I ever answer when he calls. I tried to apologize but he wouldn't hear of it. We still do not talk to this day.

Being upset with Big J, I called my friend Steve and asked him to meet me. I didn't think that we would ever fuck again and he and I were drinking and he told me I looked upset and I told him about Big J and that how he made me happy and my marriage sucks and he stormed out of the bar and left me and I haven't heard from either.

I lost two great guys and I lost them both because of each other. Today, I got myself another job and moved on. I'm still with my lying, cheating and husband that doesn't touch me or barely talk to me but I can't afford to be on my own.

I guess I learned my lesson and I will now and forever be alone as I don't want to ever have another man in my life ever again. I fell hard for Big J and that is where my heart is. Maybe one day he will forgive me. I could always pray.



Honesty Works



We were married about three years when sex had pretty much stopped. We tried about everything you could do in a bedroom and just kinda lost the spark. My love for her was very strong but my desire to love myself put me through a mental trip. Sex is fun; an orgasm is something we can do at anytime and feel good, forget the world and just live for few seconds. So I started chatting online. I am not proud of it, but I was young, feeling lonely and had the raging hormones of a bi-polar twenty-four year old.

Sex came across my mind and I forgot everything else. I never cheated, my wedding vows mean more to me than anything I have done in life. Love is the greatest thing in the world and I am lucky to have it. But I sure made fantasy plans with people, strangers, who I could tell anything to. My wife and I were buying a home and I was stressed to the max. I didn't sleep for almost three full months, I think I literally went crazy.

I got arrested. The charges were dropped but I spent a night in jail. Released at three in the morning and so ashamed of the actions I had taken, I walked home. From there my wife lost her trust in me. She looked through every personal thing of mine she could. She found some fucked up stuff. Luckily we have something special and she somehow understood. Honesty is always my policy, but my grasp of society made almost half of my thoughts seem taboo. So I just lived a private life.

Obviously, this caused some problems. Some arguments and nights of sleeping in the other room. It was horrible, I hated myself for being dishonest with her, but I was mad at her for not ever wanting to have sex. We got through it, we accept each other (she does weird shit too) but we are all people and being weird is part of that. So I suggested that just once a month she lets me tie her up and play with her as I like. In return, I will do whatever list of whatever she wants, or I don't get to play.

The first list almost made me hate sex. I had so many chores that I didn't even try to sneak away and jerk off. Three weeks in I had checked off at least three pages of, "to-dos." On the nineteenth, which is the day I chose to use as my special night, I had made some plans for revenge. Just kidding, I wanted her to like this, the way I see it, I get what I want she gets what she wants. Equality. None the less I had ordered some exciting toys off the internet and couldn't wait.

She seemed to be excited too. First thing in the morning I handed her a note of what she had to do. The instructions said to get home, shower, shave and get your hair ready, the next step will be to open the gift on the bed and put it on. She gets home before I do every day and when I arrived she had followed all the instructions to a t. She was beautiful, wearing a sheer black body stocking and locking high heels with little padlocks. Laying on the bed, just as I asked.

I am sure I sounded like a dork, I was so excited and scared and I am really a sensitive guy, so I didn't know how to respond. It was a dream, but I was wide awake. "bend over and spread your legs." She did so very willingly. The box of toys I bought was hidden under the bed. After ripping the crotch open on her body stocking and tickling her vagina softly I slipped a wireless vibrator into her vagina. She was very wet.

She didn't like anal, but was ok with trying it once in a while. I slipped a small vibrating buttplug in her tight ass. It turned me on so much to know that I had the remote. She moaned a little as I turned them on to the low setting. I bought a leather body harness that I slipped on her to hold the toys in. She put a very pretty black dress that I bought her for the evening. We had reservations at the nicest restaurant in town and my driver was supposed to come grab us in forty-five minutes.

So I put her wrist and ankle restraints on and hogtied her on the bed. Turning the vibrators to the lowest setting I walked into the shower and started getting myself ready for our dinner date. As I climbed into the shower I could hear her moaning as I turned the settings up half way. I almost wanted to jerk off right then, but decided to save it for later. Tonight was a special night. I got out and dressed just in time to release her before I heard the limo driver knocking at the door. One last surprise, I pulled a small locking collar from my dresser and fastened it around her neck. She was sweaty from her time tied on the bed and wouldn't leave me alone. She was all over me, more lovey than the night we were married.

Dinner was amazing we had several great drinks and I enjoyed turning the vibrators on and off as she said things I liked. She rubbed my erection through my pants and I knew it was time to get headed home. As soon as we walked in the front door she pulled her dress off and sat on her knees with her arms behind her back. Just as I had fantasized but never told her. I hooked a leash to her collar and lead her into the den.

The slow burning fire place was the perfect backdrop to tie her to the coffee table to. When I had finished tying the last knot, I started to spank her softly she moaned. "I do not want to hear that right now," I left the room and grabbed the gag I had bought for tonight. She was hesitant, but couldn't back out as I cranked the vibrators to high. She was yelling and moaning so loud that it was easy to tighten the gag into her mouth. The straps below her chin held it in tight and the straps that went above her nose covered most of her eyes.

The vibrators cranked, I can see she is having multiple orgasms. I spank her a few times and sit back and watch. I sip on my whiskey until I cannot take it anymore. I undo the strap around her crotch and the vibrator shoots from her vagina. The buttplug is still in place and I can feel its vibrations as I slowly enter her wet pussy. I didn't last long but it was glorious. When I finished I untied her and removed all her clothes. I led her to the shower by her leash and collar, with the buttplug still in. we showered together and spend the rest of the evening watching the fire burn from the hottub. 

I am not sure, but I think I hope to have another adventure next month.