13 comments/ 30090 views/ 20 favorites A Matter Of Trust Ch. 02 By: greeneyelove The reunion was just as passion driven and all consuming as Colby had suspected it would be, after six weeks apart and within ten minutes of stepping into her apartment, Justin had her new dress cast onto the floor in a pink heap while she was stretched out in a recliner, her long legs dangled over each arm as Justin buried his face in her cunt. He went to work in an instant, licking…kissing…sucking…he ate at her with such intense vigor he soon had her lost in a sensual haze that felt heaven like as she finally came with a resounding cry…her hands in his hair…her body damp with sweat he didn’t let the pleasure end with one climax, much to her delighted dismay. Justin devoted nearly an hour to her, to her body, kissing and cradling her and making her come so fast and so hard and so many times she felt as if her bones were liquefied when he finally lifted her into his arms so he could carry her the short distance to the sofa, where he set with her on his lap. Her head on his shoulder. She felt warm and safe and exhausted…she felt so in love with him she was afraid the words would spring from her before she had a real chance to build up to them, with the speech she had been mentally preparing for most of the day, so she was relieved when they settled into a conversation regarding his trip to England and how the plans for a second European location were falling into place. He had his eye set on France this time…he smiled as he always did when talking about the work he loved and she listened to all he had to say with genuine interest, only to have Justin do the same for her, when she explained to him that she had soul three paintings while he was away, each one for a rather impressive price and as always, Justin assured her he was far from surprised. Aside from Wendy, no one had supported her talent and her dreams for herself with the devotion and conviction Justin had…he had never once doubted that she would become a major success, even when she questioned herself from time to time. His faith in her had always warmed her…knowing that he believed in her often gave her the strength she needed to believe in herself, and Colby found herself recalling the many times he had been there for her to lean on and hold to and again, she felt oddly certain that he did indeed love her as much as she loved him. He had to. There were times when his eyes burned with feelings…emotions…it was getting him to own up to those emotions that would be the challenge, though she assured herself she was up for it when she finally slipped back on the wrinkled dress that Justin complimented as they wondered into the kitchen warm up the pizza she had ordered before Justin arrived, having long ago learned it was his meal of choice after a long business excursion. As they ate, they talked more about business…the sights he had seen…he shared stories that made her laugh and she felt comfortable with him and each smile he offered made her heart race. She felt her stomach clench. There was an almost tangible connection when their eyes locked…theirs was indeed a real relationship, even if Justin didn’t know it, and by the time they were finished eating, her determination to each out to him had reached a new peak and she sternly willed herself not to allow fear to push her from that peak as Justin came around the counter to stand beside her. “I have something for you.” His eyes reached down into hers as they stood there and she smiled and shook her head. “Justin, I have told you time and time again that you don’t have to bring me gifts.” “You tell me a lot of things, love, and more often that not, you end up getting your way, but on this one topic…” He simply winked at her and grinned before reaching inside his pants pocket to withdraw a long, black velvet covered box. “I saw this and I knew I had to see it on you, Colby.” There was something rich and warm in the words and she felt tears being to build behind her eyes as she accepted the box with a slightly trembling hand that began to shake all the more as she lifted the lid to find a beautiful sapphire and diamond necklace very gently resting against a satin black bed. “God…” She stared in awe for a moment as Justin watched her. “I…it is beautiful.” She was in shock even as Justin took the box from her and carefully removed the necklace and without being asked, she turned and lifted aside her hair, allowing him to hook the stunning piece around her neck. Turning to face him, she touched the chain around her neck and Justin smiled and nodded slowly. “It looks beautiful on you, but I have a feeling the beauty comes from you far more than it comes from the necklace.” His eyes found hers and she smiled despite the need to cry as she moved into his arms to kiss him soundly…she kissed him with open need that she couldn’t hide and Justin instantly responded by wrapping his arms around her, hauling her hard against him as the spark flamed into a raging fire. In a flash, she could feel moisture gathering between her things…she could fee his hot and hard cock pressing against her and she was tempted to allow their mutual passion to just take its most natural course…but the need to have a serious conversation nagged at her and she pulled back breathlessly, her hands on her chest as she gasped for air. “Why don’t we move this to your room.” His hands cupped her face. “I don’t know if I can wait much longer…I want to sink into you and stay there all night…” She had haunted him and his dreams in the six weeks since he had last held her close…she had been on his mind all day and night and the need for her was overpowering as she looked up at him with eyes that did nothing to hide her feelings for him. For months, her eyes had been reaching out to him more and more, allowing him to see hints of what she felt…what she wanted…her eyes were a direct mirror to her soul and on more than one occasion, he had found himself tempted to allow her a chance to see his own feelings, but the ageless fears always managed to hold him back again and again. “Actually…” Colby licked at her lips and blew out a deep breath. “I was wondering if I could maybe talk to you a little…” Every nerve in her body was suddenly on edge, for a briefly frightening moment she almost felt ill, but she willed aside the bitter sensation as he nodded and leaned back against the counter with concerned eyes. “Of course. You can always talk to me.” “I know, but this…” “Whatever it is, Colby, you can trust me to help you.” There was nothing he wouldn’t have done for her, expect the one thing she wanted, Colby reflected as she looked up at him while they stood in her kitchen. “Come on. Tell me.” “It’s complicated and I have wanted to do this for a while.” “Colby, what is it?” He was not accustom to seeing her flustered and she seemed very nervous suddenly as she stood there in the wrinkled dress, looking gloriously beautiful with her hair falling to her shoulders while her eyes sought his. “I want to talk about us, Justin.” “Us?” His voice sounded suddenly distant, but she forced herself to nod. “Us…as in you and me. I think we need to talk.” “I see.” The world around them seemed quite and still and Justin willed himself sternly not to allow the fear he felt to reflect in his eyes as he looked down at her, almost certain he knew what she wanted to say…what he had been expecting her to eventually say to her from the very beginning, simple truth be told. “Listen, you don’t have to offer a long explanation, so you can just come out and tell me and I assure you I can handle it, Colby.’ As far as she would know, he would handle it just fine…he would never allow her to see the pain or know that his heart was shattered and for a long moment, she felt oddly confused as she shook her head, wondering what he meant. “Justin, just what are you talking about?” She couldn’t shake the feeling that they were on two totally different pages. “What do think I am trying to say to you?” He seemed angry to an extent and it made no sense to her as he turned from her and stalked from the kitchen, leaving her to follow after him quickly. “I am not stupid, Colby. I know what is coming.” “And just what is coming?” He turned to look at her where he paused beside the sofa, his hands in his pockets and his shoulder squared, as if he had suddenly accepted a great weight that only he had the means to carry. “I know you are about to tell me it is over.” His tone and eyes were flat. “I know the six weeks that I was away has given you time to think and…” He shook his head slowly and tears instantly came to her eyes. “I knew, given enough time and space, what we have would seem pretty hollow and empty to you and the truth is, I don’t blame you, because I think you have a right to more…” “Justin, shut up.” The tears slipped from her eyes to land on her cheeks. “I…I really can not believe you think I am ending things with you…that I could ever tell you that I don’t want you in my life when all I want is…” Her chest grew so tight that for a moment, she simply could not speak and Justin suddenly stood very still as he watched her…watched and realized that he had been very mistaken in assuming what she wanted to say and the realization that he had jumped to the wrong conclusion was both unnerving and exhilarating. “Colby…” It was his turn to shake his head, he was suddenly in a panic, but she wasn’t about to be put off or dismissed as her eyes blazed with heated emotions. “No. Don’t Colby me. Don’t push me away. Don’t think I am going to hold back with my feelings for a moment more, Justin.” She brushed a hand under her eyes, trying to catch a host of tears before they had a chance to fall. “I have played this by your rules from the first, as you well know, and I have held back and fought myself and I…I have respected the walls and the boundaries that you established long before I came along, but I can not and I will not do that for a moment more.” “What does that mean?” His eyes refused to leave hers, he was awe struck. “It means the time has come for us to lay it all on the line.” “All being?” “Our feelings, Justin.” A sad smile came to her. “I was warned from the beginning just what I could and could not expect from you and…you warned me yourself, as you well know, but you have gone so far beyond the rules you set and I…Justin, you may not want to see it as such, but what we have is a relationship.” “Colby….” “I am in love with you.” Her voice rang strong and proud and true as she said it…said the words she had longed to say for longer than her emotionally battered soul could recall and for a moment, Justin could only stare…he could only stare and tell himself he had heard her wrong, that she had not said what he believed her had heard, but her smile and her eyes told him otherwise as his chest tightened and his stomach clenched. “I love everything there is to love about you, Justin; I love how the passion you feel for you work and I love how you did so much to make your mother’s dream real and I love how you believe in me…I love the way you kiss me and I love how you chew your bottom lip when something requires your total concentration…” As she listed all the ways he mattered to her, the tears feel freely and all Justin could do was watched her, utterly mesmerized. “I love how you always give money to any homeless person you see on the street and I love how you try to get to know all the employees at your restaurants personally…I love that people matter to you more than success or money and…” A half sob escaped her as she stood there are bared her soul. “I love the way you hold me after we make love and I love how you never once doubted me even when I had doubts about myself, but most of all, I hopelessly love all the things, big and small, that make you the man you are…the man I want to grow old with and spend the rest of my life with.” It spilled from her, the words, the feelings, all that she had held back for so long rushed from her and Justin felt bombarded and shocked…yet when he was honest with himself, he had to admit, that on some level, he had known all along just what Colby felt for him and believing that she had been looking for a way out of the odd but powerful involvement had been his way of hoping he could continue to avoid what was about to become a very emotional confrontation. “Colby…” He gasped around for the right words, the words other than the ones he so ached to say as she stared at him with her glorious eyes. “I…you know, no matter what you or I feel, I can’t give you a life…” He couldn’t…he couldn’t…it would have been unfair…but she did not look impressed with his words, or with his excuses as she again brushed at her tears with her head held high. “I believe you can give me all I want. You can give me your love.” “Colby…” “Give me that for now. In this moment, Justin. I want you to tell me, in this moment, if I am crazy or do you…do you love me?” Part of her was certain he did, but asking him upfront and pointblank was a risk and she was undeniably afraid as she looked him where he stood beside the sofa. “You have to know what I feel.” The words were a whisper. “I want to hear you say it to me, Justin.” She took a single step towards him. “Colby…” He felt his breath catch, the need to run was with him, but her eyes held him in place and he sighed. “I love you, Colby. I love you. I have no right saying it or feeling it but I love you…I have loved you from the beginning and I love you more and more with each day that passes.” It was the most honesty he had offered anyone in years and knowing that, that he had opened himself up made the confession all the more special for Colby as she smiled through her tears. “I have wanted to believe…” “Believe it. Know it. I love you, Colby.” “And I love you, Justin.” But he was shaking his head, looking serious. “The fact that we love one another does not change the face that I…I can’t give you what it is you need.” “And what is it you think I need?” “A normal man.” “A normal man? I couldn’t settle for a normal man. Not after you.” “Colby, you know what I mean.” His eyes were suddenly stern as they reached deeply into her wide and needy ones. “You have a right to a man who is whole…a man who can let you see him…” He looked away, as if suddenly ashamed and her heart shattered. “You can be that man, Justin. You can let me see you.” “No.” The word was snapped as he turned his eyes back to hers. “I told you that I can not allow you or anyone to see me…I can’t…” Not again…he couldn’t have another woman in his life run away after seeing him and Colby knew, without having to ask, what thoughts were on his mind in that moment and she was more determined than ever to knock down each of his walls and reach him. “I am not her, Justin. Understand? I am not her. I am me. Colby. I am the woman in love with you…the woman who will love you until the day I draw my last breath of life and I there is nothing that will change that.” “You don’t know what you are saying.” “Yes, I do. I more than know. I am certain. I love you.” “You have never seen me.” “Only because you wouldn’t let me see you physically, but in other ways, in all the real ways that matter most, I have seen you and I love you and I am not going to run from you if you allow me to see you.” Dragging his hands through his hair, he again turned his back to her, feeling tired and overcome with feelings and despite better judgment, he couldn’t help but feel tempted…she sounded so serious and he so wanted all she had said to be true…he wanted to believe she could love him despite the scars, but the old emotional wounds created by rejection festered still, even after so many long years. “Do you know what you are asking?” He kept his back to her. “I do. I am asking you to realize I am not her.” “Colby…” “I am asking you to trust me.” She went on firmly. “This is a matter of trust…I need very much for you to trust me not to hurt you or fail you and I…more than anything, I need you to trust that I love you in a way that is unconditional and true and…” The tears made it impossible for her to go on as he turned to look at her once more and to her surprise, she could see that he had his own tears shimmering in his eyes. “Do you know how perfect you are, Colby?” It was the last question she expected him to ask in a tone that sounded tortured and she shook her head. “You are smart and talented and creative and physical…God, physically, you are just as perfect as any woman could ever hope to be.” “Justin…” “You have eyes that I could get lost in and happily never find my way out and all I have to do is think about your smile and I feel like I am standing in sunlight…and your skin is as soft as satin and as perfect as silk.” All he had ever or would ever feel for her echoed in each word he spoke as she simply stood and listened to him. “Colby, you are flawless…do you realize that, in all my life, I have never seen anything so perfect, so incredible and glorious and I…God, I am not flawless or perfect and when you look at me, you will see scars…” He cursed as the tears in his eyes spilled to his face and Colby went to him to reach out to him, but he stepped away from her, his hands up, in a gesture that made it clear he did not care to be touched. “I am not perfect, Justin. I am not. No one is.” “You are perfect, as far as I am concerned.” “And as far as I am concerned, you are perfect.” “Colby…” “You want to talk about eyes that a person could get lost in?” She smiled slightly as she asked and he looked at her with a guarded expression. “I fell into your eyes the day that I met you…I fell into your eyes and I have never found my way out and I…I feel alive each time I see you smile or hear you laugh and I adore the way your hands feel on my body.” “Sweetheart…” “Those scars have been a part of you for a long time, and I know you hate them.” “You have no idea.” He sounded bitter and she didn’t blame him. “I hate the scars because I know you hate them but more than anything, I hate what they mean to you…I hate that you suffered so much pain in that accident and I hate the pain that you have suffered since then.” Blowing out a breath, she took another step towards him, and this time, she saw it as a small blessing when he didn’t back away. “I love you more than I can express to you, Justin, simply because I do not have the words to truly express what I feel for you now and what I will feel forever.” Her eyes held his as a silence settle between them in a blanketing like sensation that lasted for what felt like an eternity to Colby, until Justin sighed and shook his head, looking somewhat bemused. “You can give quite a speech, Miss Colson.” “When I am trying to drive a point home, I hold nothing back.” “And you…” He felt his chest grow tight with fear. “Do you mean all of it?” “Every word I said to you, I mean.” “You love me?” She smiled and nodded and she looked glorious to him. “I do. I love you.” “I love you, too.” It felt suddenly natural and right to say the words and the smile she gave him told him she adored hearing them. “I have wanted so much for you to share your feelings with me.” “Colby, I have wanted to…” He took a step towards her this time, and Colby realized, in that moment, that ever so slowly, they were closing the distance between them…one step at a time, she mentally calculated, cautioning herself not to push or rush him. “There have been so many times that I have wanted to tell you what you mean to me, but I didn’t, because it didn’t seem fair to you.” “What isn’t fair is not allowing us a chance.” “I don’t know…” “I do. I love you so much. And I want a chance.” “A chance?” “I want a chance to look into your eyes when you make love to me…I want to see all the emotions in your eyes when you look at me and I want to touch you and more than you can imagine I…” She felt her face flush and Justin watched her closely. A Matter Of Trust Ch. 02 “What do you want?” “I have dreamed about the chance to please you the way you please me.” “Colby…” “I want to touch you…I want to take you in my mouth…” “Christ.” His eyes closed and he shivered…he had never felt so hot all over in all his life as he looked at her again, to see she had taken yet another step towards him and this time she held her small hand out in his direction. “Baby, I don’t know if I can do this.” She was asking in the most direct yet innocent way for him to step from behind his walls once and for all, but he was not at all certain he could, even for her…for the woman he loved more than life. “I think you can. I think you can do this. I think you can trust me.” “Sweetheart…” “I think you know in your heart that you can trust me, but the problem is, you are not so sure you can trust yourself.” She sounded wiser far beyond her years and Justin found that he was utterly captivated by her voice and her eyes. “I won’t pretend that I understand what it is you feel to every extent, but I can tell you that I love you and if you take this chance with me, I will never hurt you or fail you and I will love you forever. For life. I will be at your side and for better or worse, I will hold you and I will give myself to you…” Her voice broke, she was almost to overcome with emotions to do anything more than stand there and cry silently as his eyes moved from hers, to her hand, and back again as she waited and wondered and prayed. “If I were to ever look in your eyes and see disgust…” He shook his head. “You never will. Never. I swear to you, when you look in my eyes, all I you will see just love and passion and devotion and…” Colby drew in a breath, sensing that his decision hung in the balance. “Just take my hand and take a chance for me and you.” “For us?” She nodded slowly. “Take a chance for us.” “Colby…” The world seemed to stand utterly still…he could see her…in that moment he could see his past filled only with pain, save the parts that Colby had been involved with and he knew, in that moment, that his future would be nothing without her and he couldn’t allow himself to have her unless he could give himself to her completely. “Put aside the fear and just focus on me and you.” “On us.” He said rather than asked, but she still nodded. “On us, Justin.” He opened his mouth to speak, and for a terrified moment, she was certain he was going to tell her no…she was certain he would turn and walk away from her, but instead, to her surprise and her delight, he reached out ever so slowly and as she held her breath tight in her lungs, he placed his strong hand in her smaller one. “I trust you, Colby, and I…I want to trust myself but I need your help, baby.” Fresh tears, tears he didn’t have the means to control, slipped from his eyes and Colby felt her heart break into a million pieces at his gentle plea. “I need you to guide me through this…I need you and I need to lean on you…” It was a rare thing for him to show weakness, and the fact that he was willing to do so with her, the fact that he was willing to step from behind his walls told her far more about his feelings for her than words ever could. “I will help you. I swear it.” She gently squeezed his hand. “I would like it very much if we could go into my room.” It was a first step, the one of many, and after a moment, he gave a slow nod and Colby prayed with all her might for guidance as together, his hand held very warmly in hers, she turned and together, they walked from the living room, down the short hall, into the bedroom. Once safely inside, she turned on the lamp beside her bed, flooding the room with a light that nearly made Justin wince as he watched Colby turn back the sheets before she took a breath and turned to face him. “How about I get this started.” Her voice was whispery and warm. “What do you mean?” He stood still as a statue. “I mean this…” With a sweetly seductive smile, she reached for the hem of her dress so she could life it over her head and toss it to the floor in one graceful motion that left her totally bare before him….bare and perfect and in a flash, Justin felt blood rush to his cock and Colby’s eyes darted to his expending pants before finding his gaze again. “God, you are so beautiful.” “I am so glad you think so, love.” “Colby…” But she shook her head and shushed him. “I want to kiss you.” She moved to him in a slow, sensual stride that held him motionless as she finally wrapped her arms around his neck, so she could press herself close to him. “I want to kiss you…” Again, she said the words, feeling as if she needed to keep him off balance slightly…she had to keep him from allowing his fears to rise to the surface and she was determined to do that as she pressed her lips to his, teasing his lips until his mouth opened and her tongue slipped inside to taste and devour. His arms moved to cradle her around the waist…he slid one hand to cup her bare and satin soft bottom as they melted into one, merged by their love and need for one another that seemed to abound endlessly as Colby pulled back and looked into his eyes as her fingers very gently teased the hairs at the back of his neck. “I so love you.” It felt wonderful to be free to say the words. “And I love knowing that I have your love back, Justin.” Her eyes smiled into his and he cupped her face. “I will love you until the day I die.” “It is the same for me, but now, we are both very much alive, and I think we need to do all we can to express our love.” Slowly, she untangled herself from him so she could take a step back while he watched her, mesmerized, as always, by her beauty as her hair fell down to her shoulders while the light bathed her in a sensual glow. “If it is okay, I would like very much to be able to take your shift off, Justin.” She felt compelled to ask his permission, assuming that the time was right would not have been fair to him, and after a long moment, he shook his head and she felt something inside slowly begin to wither away. “I need…I need to do it.” He said it softly. “I need to do it for me.” It was a step he had to take, for himself as much as for her, and what he hoped they could be together and Colby nodded, not trusting herself to speak when so many emotions were so close to the surface in such a tender moment. She kept her eyes on his, locked and warm and reassuring as he lifted his hands that trembled to work the first button on his shirt…the second….the third…it felt as if the world away from Colby, the world outside her apartment, had ceased to exist and Colby prayed that it would stay that way for a while longer as his shirt was finally completely opened and once it was, Justin closed his eyes tightly before shrugging it off. Again, he stood statue still, he didn’t even seem to breathe as he stood there with his eyes closed and his shoulders taunt as Colby allowed her tear filled eyes to move slowly over him, seeing for the first time the scars he so hated. The puckered, white ridged track began just below his shoulder and covered most of his arm…over his chest…disappeared beneath his pants…charred flesh that had never healed to completion and never would, the scars were not pretty, but nor were they hideous and totally horrible, as he seemed to believe and as he stood there with his eyes still closed, Colby went to him, to place one hand on his unscarred shoulder while the other moved to touch his waist in a tender gesture that made Justin jump. The flesh felt ridged beneath her hand, and she touched him gently as he gave a slow tremble that ripped at her heart. “Does it hurt?” It was something she had always wanted to ask him. “No. Not really, at least. The scars can be sensitive to the cold…” “What about to touch, Justin? Are they sensitive to touch?” At the question, his tear damp eyes opened. “A little…” “What if I did this…” Not finishing the thought, or allowing him a chance to wonder what she had in mind, she pressed a kiss to his scared shoulder…littered kisses down his waist…flicked her tongue over the scars as he gasped and placed his hands in her hair, unable to believe that she was kissing him; she was willingly, eagerly, sensually kissing the scars that ran down his body, all the way to his waist, until she was on her knees before him and when she looked up at him, he could see passion burning bright in her eyes. “Colby…” He breathed her name the best he could. “I love you.” “Your eyes…your eyes…” “What about my eyes, Justin?” He shook his head as if in disbelief. “I see just love…” “Love and no disgust?” “No disgust.” It was more than he could wrap his mind around. “Disgust is one thing you will never, ever see in my eyes, my love.” “I am starting to believe that.” “Good.” She managed to smile at him despite the urge to cry as the walls he had kept between them for so long slowly began to crumble away. “I want you to believe in and place your trust in me, Justin.” She wanted a life with him, from that moment forward, but she didn’t say as much as slowly, allowing him the chance to understand what she had in mind and just what she intended to do, she carefully unbuckled his belt…unbuttoned his pants…the zipper made a soft, grinding sound as Colby slowly lowered it while Justin sucked in a breath. “Sweetheart…” “I want to suck your cock, Justin.” She had never been so bold as to say such a thing, so directly and for a moment, he could only blink…and then he slowly nodded. “Are you…sure?” She nodded, smiling again, gaining confidence. “I am very sure.” She had wanted for so long and it showed in her eyes as he released the breath he was holding and taking her time, wanting the anticipation to continue to build, she caught his pants by the hem and very carefully, she lowered them from his hips, down his leg. Scars similar to the ones on his chest and arm marked his leg, from his thigh to above his knee and again, Colby felt her heart shatter over the pain he had known…pain she had not been able to help him cope with, until that moment, as he lifted his feet at her tenderly gentle command, allowing her to completely free him from the garment. The instant the pants were finally cast aide, Colby allowed her eyes to move to him…to the part of him she had wanted to see freely for so long…the part of him that stood hard and long and erect to at least ten inches that took her breath as he looked down at her, watching her with curious eyes that widened when she gently moved to cup his balls in her small, soft, unbelievably tender hands. “Colby…” He gasped her name, fearful for a moment that his knees would buckle. “I love how hot your skin feels…hot and taunt…” “Christ, Colby. I think you might be killing me, baby.” “Hardly that my love.” Carefully, she tested the weight of his balls before she began to massage them ever so gently…she gripped and tugged and released only to do it all again as he tried to pull in a breath with such force it nearly choked him as he finally sank down into the bed, leaving her to continue to kneel before him. It was pure instinct that lead her, that told her what to do…instinct and the deep desire to please him as she leaned close and gently kissed the head of his cock, drawing from him yet another gasp that echoed around the room. “I love the way you smell.” She stayed close to his flesh as she whispered the words to him and he sighed. “God. That felt so…” “Good.” Colby fished the thought for him. “Yes…” “Maybe this will feel better.” With that, she wrapped her lips around the head of his cock and instantly flicked her tongue over the damp slit and Justin’s hands went to her hair…she heard him call her name and it served to fuel the fire that burned in him as she sucked hard, drawing him deeper and deeper into the warm, wet heat of her mouth. She sucked and licked…altered the pace…released him so she could place kiss along the underside of his throbbing shaft before taking him into her mouth again so far that she could feel his springy pubic hair tickling her nose. It was an odd but delightful sensation, to be able to please him…to taste him…she lost herself in the moment, in the sounds that escaped him as she suckled him harder and faster, until with wild cry, he came in a mighty rush that filled her mouth and spilled like lava down her throat in a glorious rush. She stayed there, on her knees, with him in her mouth for a long time, until his breath slowly returned to normal and when she looked at him, she was surprised to see tears bright in his eyes as he moved to cup her face in his hands. “Baby…” He shook his head slowly. “No one has ever done that for me…” He had not thought a woman could…he had not believed a woman could touch him as Colby just had, in such an honest and emotional manner that made him feel move alive than ever as she eased up so he could kiss her soundly. She tangled her hands in his hair and rose slowly from the floor to press her body to his as he eased back onto the bed and she crawled up to lay beside him, their legs instantly twined together as they kissed…devoured…became so wrapped up in one another it seemed to Colby that they really might become one soul. “I want you, Justin. I want to make love to you…” She touched his face tenderly as she eased back to find his eyes with hers. “I want to make love to you, too.” “Open and honestly? No more hiding?” Tears in his eyes, his emotions boiling from deep within to run free for the first time in more years than he could recall, he nodded and smiled. “I swear there will be no more hiding, no more shutting you out or pushing you away…” “That is all I want. All I want is to be close to you. To be allowed to love you.” “And how much do you love me, Colby.” Carefully, he eased her onto her back so he could loom above her, his weight braced on one elbow as their eyes held. “I love you with all I am…I love you more than words can say…” “Do you love me enough to marry me?” His tone was calm as he said it, but all he felt, all that he longed to express, burned in his eyes and she felt her heart catch as she looked up at him while fresh tears rushed to her eyes. “Are you…are you serious…” It was the question she had always longed to hear, but it had never really occurred to her that she would and Justin could sense her shock as he smiled and nodded and she laughed despite her tears. “I have never been more serious in all my life.” He touched a finger to the necklace he had placed on her earlier and that she still wore as she lay there, otherwise naked, and so very beautiful it stole his breath. “In the little shop where I found the necklace, I saw a ring that will look stunning on your left hand and I…I want us to go and get it first thing tomorrow.” “You want to fly back to England first thing tomorrow?” “You had better believe it, love. Provided that you say yes.” “God…yes…” She came off the bed, to press herself to him with such force he fell back as he laughed and Colby kissed him even as she cried. “Yes. Yes. Yes. I will marry you…I want, more than you can imagine to marry you…I want to spend the rest if my life with you and I love you…” It occurred to her that she was babbling and she laughed and kissed him again as he rolled her over once more, so she lay on her back as he lounged on top of her, smiling as it occurred to him suddenly that he was crying almost as hard as she was, but for the first time, the tears were testament to joy rather than pain…hope rather than despair. Still crying, their lips came together in heated desperation…she spread her legs and in an instant, knowing she was ready for him, he eased his once again hard cock into her warm, welcoming cunt and instinctively, Colby arched her back and wrapped her legs around his waist, basking in the feel of being totally at one with him in mind, body, and soul. “Colby…” His eyes melted into hers. “I have always wanted to see your eyes when we made love and I…” He shook his head and she cupped his face in her hands. “And I have wanted the same thing, to see your eyes…to see you…” He pressed his forehead to hers for a moment. “God, I love you so much…you are the best thing in my life…” “I will love you forever.” “And I will love you.” She kissed him hard and long. “I take that to mean you are glad you trusted me?” Smiling, he looked down at her and nodded. “Damn glad. Trusting you, it gave me a life a never thought I could have.” “Well, know you know we can have anything together.” “That I do know.” He felt alive, lodged inside her, as she flexed her hips and he gasped in sensual delight. “What do you say me begin our new life together by making love.” She ran her hands down his back to grip his bottom, pulling in deeper inside her. “I believe I like that idea.” His voice was warm and soft and his eyes promised her all she could long for…his life promised her a life filled with passion and love and trust that would last well into eternity.