0 comments/ 17740 views/ 9 favorites Nothing To Live For? Ch. 01 By: wlo2001 Chapter one "A Void" "I fill as if I have been lost for months in my mind. I am going insane. I have lost everything and have nothing to live for. NOTHING, to live for." Lilly said out loud to her self. These thoughts have been on her mind, ever sense she lost her husband and kids in that one instance. That one moment in time, that she cant even take back. "I lost my self, lost my life." she said out loud to her self. She has been blaming her self, even though she knows there is nothing that can take back that one fatal moment. It all started off with her pleading with her husband to take kids and her self out for a holiday weekend full of fun. The July fourth weekend to be exact. What a perfect time to have a family get away! She wanted to take the kids and her husband camping so bad. This is something that she enjoyed as a child, and Lilly wanted to share a childhood memory with her children and husband. Lilly was so very excited about this trip. She was so proud of her self, the trip was perfectly planned. To make her husband more comfortable and more willing to even take the trip she booked a cabin in the woods. Still camping but with some luxury Lilly thought. That would sooth his issues of using the rest room in the woods, or sleeping on the ground. Lilly laughed at this thought because, she so enjoyed camping under stars when she was a child. Well, Lilly thought to her self, I can still show them some of the wonders of the wilderness even camping in a cabin. Lilly and her family didn't even make it as far as the cabin. Her husband decided he would drive, She didn't understand this because he always had a fear of driving in areas with mountains and cliffs because of his fear of heights. It just seemed odd to her that he would have insisted so much to drive. But for some reason he insisted no matter how much she offered to drive. This proved to be a fatal move. This is also the reason why Lilly blames her self. "If I would have tried to be more convincing, or if I wasn't so determined to go on this trip my family would still be here." They ended up getting a late start to the cabin that holiday weekend. Her husband already being a nerves driver as it was, came around a sharp corner a little to fast when a deer, or what she thought was a deer darted in front of the car. Instead of just hitting the dear strait on, he tried to prevent from hitting it and ended up flipping down the side of a cliff, turned out to be a hill. The hill was not so steep, the car just rolled several times, from what she was told killing her husband and children on impact. In that instant her life was changed forever. Lilly lost both her children and her husband in one split second, it happened so fast. Lilly's life would not longer be the same. Lilly was unsure of why she even survived the accident. "Why did God spare my life?" Lilly would have died for her children. "Why my children?" No one was around, no one seen them go over the side of the cliff, so she though. That is all Lilly remembered, after that all she remembered was waking up in the hospital, two days after the accident. The doctors informed Lilly of her loss. The news was so devastating that she went into a deep, dark place in her mind and would not speak or communicate with anyone. Lilly never did returned to work at all, in fact she didn't even go to her own husband and children's funeral. Going would mean that she was excepting that they were gone, and she was just not willing to do that at this point. There was no chance in hell she was going to except they were gone forever. Her parents tried to get her to go to the funeral, but she was so far gone in that deep dark place in her mind, shielding her self, she would not listen or speak to even her parents. Her Parents brought back sympathy cards from friends and family. She thought well at least I can just have the respect to read through each one. Lilly came across one card, she was unsure of the name, didn't recognize the name at all. It was signed Chandranath Mingan. Not recognizing the name, she just figured it was someone her husband worked with. She put all the cards a way in a box and stored it away. She didn't want to think about death anymore, but just seemed to not be able to think of anything other then death. Along with Lilly wishing she was not alive, she was having outrageous dreams. Mixed dreams of lust and sadness. Dreams and images of wolfs and she would wake up to thinking she heard the howling cry's of a wolf. Thinking to her self, "So great not only am I drowning my self in sadness, I am also full of lust and no one to share it with, and crazy wolf dreams." Now she knows she has gone mad! When these dreams started , Lilly started getting other feelings that she would just put back on the burner and try to get out of her head. Sitting on the edge of her bed with mixed feelings of lust and sadness, Lilly felt and empty void and an urge to be satisfied. Knowing that it was not going to happen frustrated her even more. She start thinking about those intimate moments with her lost love. Thinking of the nights that he would please her, and how she longed to be pleased again. Lilly found her self running her hand over her body, stroking her very large breast. Lilly said out loud to her self, "I am very proud of my breast they are a 36F and all real." What women paid for she had and they were all real, and very sensitive. Her nipples harden from her pinching and twisting them till they were nice and pert. Each pinch and twist would send a warm flooding feeling right down to her pussy. She could not help but groan, thinking about being touched again by a man again. How she longed for this to be a mans touch and not her own. But her touch would have to do at the moment. Lilly's hands slowly moved down her stomach to make there violation on her already wet soaked pussy. As her hand made its way down to her soft ,smooth, shaved mound, her middle finger eased in past her silky, wet lips. The other fingers pinching her lips as her finger slid up and down over her engorged clit. Lilly moaned at the shivers that were sent down her spine. How she wish that her pussy was filled with cock. She needed her pussy to be filled to the brim with hard as a rock cock. She was so wet from the though of her tight wet pussy being filled, she then slipped in another finger trying to feel that void of needing a cock deep in side her pounding her. Lilly needed to be fucked hard in a bad way. This just was not enough. Lilly put a third finger in her soaking wet pussy and started slamming her pussy as hard as she could thinking of cock. Lilly couldn't take it any longer, it sent her over the edge, she squirted so hard her juices ran down her legs, but she wanted to go further over that edge with the lust that was coursing through her body. As the orgasm ended she laid there out of breath thinking, will I ever have someone to fill this void again? The dreams didn't let up and they would always be the same, very choppy and always a wolf appearing. It was actually driving her nuts, and she had no clue how or why she would be dreaming about a wolf. The lust always came along with the dreams. That she didn't understand at all. These dreams didn't seem to be sexual at all but they always seemed to set the lust off in her. The animal instinct in me taking over and it would always end with be pleasing her self and thinking this is not enough. As time passed and in the back of her mind she would always reflect on and try to figure out who seen us go over the side of the cliff. Lilly knew now one could giver her that answer, but then again she could not be sure if I even asked when she was at the hospital. Lilly spent the last nine months locked up in her room. She lived with her parents, and they took good care of Lilly. All I do is sleep and come out to barely eat and use the restroom, she thought to her self. One day she was looking at her self in the mirror and could not believe how much weigh she lost. She wanted to lose weight, but not this way. "I really need to get out of this slump, do I want to die, is that what I really want is to just die of a broken heart." Lilly said out loud to her self. Lilly started really think she was going crazy, first the dream and now for the past several moths something has been calling her, she was not sure what it was. Those feelings that she was trying to put away and they would not leave her alone. "Lilly snap out of it, you truly are loosing your mind aren't you?" I swore I was hearing a voice, or something. Something is pulling me back, back to the cabin that cabin that I had so wished I would have never reserved. "Why should I even think about going back over there?" I thought to my self. Why because I was still curious on who pulled me out of the car? Who saved my life? Who seen us go over the cliff that day in the woods? "Like going back to the cabin would even provide any of those answers!" I said out loud, "Wow , I have really gone over the deep end haven't I?" I am starting to talk to my self, I am not going to answer my own questions, doing that would only prove that I am going over the deep end. Something that I am just not willing to except yet. Trying her best just to go on with what life another month passed and that same nagging voice or what ever it was, it was still pulling her. "Fine, Fine, I will go back, not that it will do anything, but I will go back." It was two months away from the year anniversary of her dear husband and children's death. She figured that she better do it now, because she will not go back for the year anniversary, that is for sure. Lilly refused to put self through that agony. To keep her self from going crazy, Lily made up her mind, I will go. She even reserved the same cabin as last time. "Was I crazy for doing that?" Lilly thought to her self. I am sure I am. I am not sure if this something was pulling me to the cabin or to where the accident happened. Lilly figured she will just investigate all areas, just to satisfy her crazy mind. Besides that I am sure a little get a way would not hurt me at all, what is the harm really? And its not like I have anything else to do. I mean I quit my job, stopped hanging with my friends, I am not dating or attached to anyone. I am sure nobody would miss me at all. So she started making her plans. Lilly found that making plans was actually taking her mind off the fact that in the next two months would be the year anniversary. Its going to be nice to get out of this hot desert and go North will it will be cooler this time of year. Spring is such a great time anyway to visit Marble Canyon. She loved visiting all the little towns, and its so beautiful. Being able to go see the Colorado river again. Maybe even visit the reservation. Lilly lives on lists so she started one right away. As soon as I get into town, I would ask for my medical records. There had to be something on there that shows who might have saved my life. I need to know, not only to thank them for saving her life, or to yell at them for saving it. Its hard because sometimes I think I should have died with my family, it just would have made things so much easier. No thanking them for saving my life is what I need to do. Lilly just had to know, she was just so sure there was nobody on that road that night of the accident. It was so damn dark and nobody was around. Who was out there that saved my life? Lilly's parents didn't like the idea of her going off alone at all. In the back of Lilly's mind she was sure they feared she was going up to commit suicide. She knew she was lost, but she didn't think she was that far gone to even want to take her life at all. She reassured them that nothing like that was going to happen, and she needed to do this to move on, and something was telling her, she needed to go out there. So she packed her things and went on her way. Lilly took out all the sympathy cards, and packed some thank you cards. She figured it would give her some time to write thank you notes to everyone. It was a long drive about six hours total. Lilly didn't mind the long drive at all. It gave her time to think and how she was going to figure all this out when she got there. She thought about all the great people who wrote to her and how she needed to show them that she did care about how they felt and their memories about her family as well. So she made sure to put the thank you cards on her mental check list to do on this little adventure of hers. Lilly left early just to make sure she made it there during day light. She just didn't want a repeat of last years trip out here. I thought to my self, my first stop would be the hospital where I was taken to. Lilly arrived there mid afternoon. She went to the records clerk asking for my medical records. The records clerk was very helpful and gave her everything they had on Lilly's accident. The records clerk asked if Lilly wanted the records from her husband and children. Lily just looked down and said that was not necessary. Lilly looked through all the information and could not find anything on who found her. She thought well maybe there was a police report? Lilly asked the records clerk if there was a police report? "I didn't see one." The clerk responded. She looked up at Lilly and told her she would look in the files of from her husband and kids. The records clerk informed Lilly that She said she didn't see one in there files, but Lilly was more then welcomed to look it over. Lilly refused the offer. This was so disappointing to her. "Miss" the clerk said, "what are you looking for in the files, exactly?" "I want to know who brought me to the hospital, who save me pulled me from the car?" Lilly responded. The clerk gave her a long intense look, "I am not sure miss" Lilly was not happy about this at all. "Its all right, thank you for giving me my files." Ok, this just had made me mad. I am so pissed that they have no record of who took me in? And for the love of god no police report? This makes no sense at all to me. Lilly was so livid that the information in these files were no help at all. At this point in time she was just so hungry and mad she needed a place to sit and think and eat and drink. Lilly found what seem to be a cozy little dinner, it looked so inviting. She went in and found a booth in the corner. A place where she can think, look over her file once again, and see if she missed anything at all. "Hi can I take your order?" ah yes the waitress. The waitress was so sweet and very lovely to the eyes. Lilly couldn't believe that this was something going through her mind at this time. Lilly thought to her self, I have to get a hold of the lust inside me. I think the rage at this point was bring it out in me. "Miss, your order?" gosh Lilly get it together. "Yes can I get a burger the works, fries, a large soda and a chocolate shake." The waitress smiled back at Lilly. Yes I know a lot of food, but when I am angry and mad I also like to eat, Lilly thought to her self. Just as soon as the waitress left a man turned around from the bar swinging around on the bar stool . "That is a lot of food for a little thing like you" Lilly looked up and smiled but then could not believe her eyes. The man was like no other man she had ever seen. He was simply the most gorgeous creator she had ever laid her eyes on. His eyes were emerald green, and seemed to draw her deep into his gaze. His eyes were very intoxicating. His hair pitch black, soft looking, and was past his shoulders. Lilly wanted to run her hand through is hair right then and there. He was not standing but he looked tall, oh my god he had to be at least six foot seven. He was built, he looked as hard as a rock, his muscles looked like they wanted to pop right out from his shirt. At this point Lilly's mouth just fail right opened and she thought he would have to close it shut for her. He smiled "miss, are you ok" ok need to snap out of it again, Lilly thought to her self. "Oh yes, yah, I'm really hungry" smiling, but she could not stop starring at him. Lilly thought he noticed her being so hypnotized by him. Oh no yes he noticed. "Is this set taken" he proceeds to say to her. "Uh, um, no its not." Still staring at him Lilly, stop it. "So, are you going to tell me your name?" Lilly still staring, could manage to finally say her name. "Um, yah oh, its Lilly, uh Lilly Uhlman." could I sound more dumb struck? Great I cant even talk in the presence of a hot man. Lilly's lust was building again by the second, she thought she was going to explode. "Well Lilly, its very nice to meet you." He was smiling at her, staring her down just as much she was doing to him. "So are you going to tell me your name at all?" Lilly thought to her self it was only fair. "Yes, my name is Chandranath Mingan, but my friends call me Chan." Lilly just paused and looked at him for the longest time. Why does that name ring a bell, she thought to her self. Lilly was so out of it she could not think at all. All she could say was "Its nice to meet you" Lilly thought to her self, I had to get out of here, the lust was building in her and she could not take it any more. Lilly motioned to the waitress and asked her if she could get her food to go instead. Chan looked and her with his head cocked to the side. "Leaving so soon?" Lilly stared and then managed to say "Yes, I have some where I need to be, and then I need to get back before it gets to dark." As she stood up there were two men in the booth to her left, they both stared Lilly down as she left. Lilly didn't even notice them or think much of them at all, but the man, Chan wow he was something she could not get him out of her head at all. "Oh my god she doesn't have a clue who I am?" Chan said to him self. She is as beautiful as I remember she was. It was such a horrid away that Chan had found her, but of course she would not remember him, he was in his wolf form when he found her. Her beauty is still so amazing, even if she does look a little thinner then I remember her, Chan thought. I will have to put some meat back on that girl of mine, Chan smirked. Chan was thinking about every detail about Lilly. Her hair chocolate brown and to her waist, the thought of it just made Chan want to grab her hair and pull her to him. Her eyes were big brown bright eyes, with a hint of green to them. Her skin was pale and soft and she smelled so good that his wolf just wanted to jump out and take her across the table. He didn't care who was looking at that point in time. But he managed to keep his animal back. Chan wondered if she heard his cry's for her and she is coming to him. "Chan don't be so stupid" how can she hear your cry's for her, she is not wolf, how could she hear you, he thought to him self. Chan got up out of his set, and figured he better follow her and figure out why she was trying to find him. The clerk at the hospital did tell Chan she was looking for him. The clerk didn't tell Lilly the whole truth. It may have been left out of the paper work, but the Clerk knew who brought Lilly into the hospital that day. "Could she have heard my calls?" oh stop it Chan its impossible for a human to hear you call out for you mate. Ok Chan is in my head, I need to clear my head, why did he have to be so good looking. Ok Lilly time to go to the crash sight. She thought maybe going back there would bring up some memory of the events after the crash, and maybe who found her. Approaching the curve her stomach flipped inside out. She was pretty sure its because she is back to where that fatal day happened, but then Lilly had this funny feeling of being followed. I am being silly and over reacting for sure, she thought to her self. Lilly parked the car in the emergency pull off area, the hill didn't look that steep she thought to her self. I can climb down this for sure. And of course Lilly lost her footing and rolled down the hill. Oh the irony of it all rolling down the same hill our car rolled down. She managed to pick her self up and dust her self off. Lilly looked around and there was nobody around to laugh at her rolling down the hill. Oh thank goodness for that, I am sure I would have given someone a laugh, she thought to her self. But she still could not help but feel she was being watched or maybe followed. Just was a silly feeling she had. Nothing To Live For? Ch. 01 Lilly started walking in circles at the bottom of the hill. Trying to remember anything she could from that moment. WHO SAVED ME!!!! She screamed out loud. Not that any one heard at all, she thought to her self. Chan was in the line of trees watching her closely in his wolf form. He couldn't believe she actually came back to the spot she almost perished at. Why was she torching her self. He heard her scream, and then realized that she was trying to remember who he was. Come on Lilly think, think. she closed her eyes. Lilly laid down in the grass and started to day dream. Lilly started reliving the moment, that horrid moment. I can see us coming around the corner, I told Levi to slow down, he wanted to get the cabin because we were already running late. A deer I think it was a deer or something ran in front of the car. Levi swerved to miss it, we landed here right were I am laying. I look over to Levi and the kids, they were not moving at all, oh god they are dead. NO NO NO, she screamed out loud. Chan was ready to come over and just pick her up and take her away from the pain she was causing her self. Come on Lilly, why put your self through this at all. She will figure out I saved her, why does she have to go and do this and bring back these bad memories on how she lost her family. Lilly opened her eyes wide, when the vision of the wolf came in her mind again. "Damn Wolf" she yelled out loud. Chan's ears perked up, why did she say that, did she see me. He stepped back just in case. Lilly was thinking out loud to her self. Ok Lilly this was stupid. All this did was bring back bad memories. All you did was day dream our nightmare you have every night. That was just so reviling wasn't it. Well I guess I had to give it a try. looking up to the top of the hill she thought she seen a car go by slowly, maybe they were thinking what is that crazy chick doing down there. She slowly started her way back up the hill. Getting into the car, she laid her head down on the steering wheel, shaking it thinking how stupid she was. Stupid, Stupid, Stupid. Turning the car back on, she felt it was time to head on over to the cabin. Pulling up to the cabin it was everything she thought it was going to be. It was what she wanted to share with her husband and kids. But I am spending time in this place alone, she said out loud in a sad tone. Well its time to hall all this crap in, she said to her self. She started unloading her car. Hauling everything into the cabin. Looking at all the stuff she brought in, it makes it look like she packed to move out here. Looking around seeing how peaceful it was, it may not be a bad idea. As she was unpacking some of her items she came across my box of cards and the thank you notes. Well I guess this is as good time as any, she said to her self. Lilly set down pulling them out one by one reading them, crying over a few of them, and writing a thank you note for each one as she read it. She sat there thinking how could she have not went to her own husbands and children's funeral. How could I. Am I monster? No I couldn't take it, I did what was for the best. I can't dwell on what happened. The next card she came to, she stared at it for the longest time, she could not believe her eyes when she re-read the name. Really Lilly, you were so dumb struck over him that you could not remember that you had a card with the same name on it, Chandranath Mingan. How many Chan's are out there, and how the heck did he know her husband, because I don't even know who he is. I would have remembered him. She got so lost in what was going in side her head, Lilly didn't realize the front door opened. Lilly heard a noise and went to go investigate the sound she thought she heard. Sure enough she seen two men standing there, she just stood there staring like a stupid fool. Wait I seen these men, they were at the restaurant, she thought to her self. Lilly tried to run, but before she knew it she was pinned down by one man while the other was working to get her clothes off. Lilly started crying and screaming, knowing it was a futile attempt. Great Lilly, having to think why I thought this was such a great idea coming out here alone. No matter how much I scream nobody is going to hear you. Lilly felt what was the use, they were going to rape her and nobody would hear her. she just stared crying and there was nothing she could do as they were pulling her clothes off and groping and her body. All of a sudden she could hear a growl and a man yelp out in pain. Lilly tried to stand up just to be and be knocked down, and then nothing. The next thing I know I woke up and I was not in my cabin that is for sure. Things were still so fuzzy, I was in a large beautiful wood canopy bed. I had to been king size. The furniture around me was so grand, matching the canopy bed with every detail. On one side of the room stood two large wardrobes. Be side it a dresser with a large grand mirror. On the opposite side of the room large window and a door that looked like it went out a patio. as she looked around she could see a sitting area with leather sofas and a large screen TV. She could not believe her eyes, and she had no clue where she was at. Lilly started to sit up out of the bed and realized that she was not dressed that she was nude. She started to freeze thinking did those monsters take me somewhere. "God where am I?" she said out loud sitting up and bring the blanket around her. As she stood up, she could see in the corner sitting on one of the grand leather chairs, was a man sitting there. It was dark so she could not make out who it was. "Lilly, I was wondering would you would wake." The voice she knew the voice it was Chan. "Chan, Chan what happened, where am I and where are my clothes?" I was talking so fast I could barely hear my self think. "slow down, Lilly" She looked at him wide eyed. "Slow down? your telling me to slow down?" How could he tell her this while she was standing her naked as a jay bird and not in her cabin. "Chan, you need to explain what happened here!" Lilly's rage was being to boil up again, but she also could not help having that lust come over her just standing there barely anything on, and this man she lusted over standing across the room. Chan stood there, he was not sure how to explain this at all. What was he going to say, to her? He can't just say I am the one who saved you, I have been following you, and oh by the way I am a wolf as well. Lilly just stood there waiting for an answer from him. Chan started walking closer to her, he sensed no fear from her, but he could sense her desire for him. He sensed this when she first looked at him, and it drove him wild. Chan thought to him self, why say anything I will just take her as mine right now. I can explain later. Chan's wolf wanted to take Lilly has his mate, and he didn't want to wait. Chan started walking closer to Lilly, she looked at him with desire, frustration, anger rolled all up into one. She stiffened slightly as he came up to her not even two feet away. He was so tall she had to look up to him just to meet his gaze. "Well, I am waiting Chan, explain your self!" All Chan could do was reach down and bring her up in his arm and embrace her in a firm kiss. At first Lilly tried pushing away from Chan, she could not believe he was doing this. But with in seconds, she could not help her self, she then welcomed his attack on her mouth and parted her lips to let his tongue invade her mouth and fight with her tongue. For the longest time they just stood there exploring every inch of each others mouth. Chan couldn't believe that Lilly was not fighting his grip and his assault and exploration of her mouth. She tasted as sweet as she smelled. He broke from the kiss to grip some of her long brown hair in his hand like wanted to in the restaurant and took in a deep breath of her intoxicating aroma. She smelled of Acai Berry and Magnolia. It was like a drug for him, it almost sent him over the edge. He backed up ever so slightly. Lilly stood there, her lips swollen from the assault on her mouth. She looked up at him and proceeded to say "You still haven't answered my question, Chan" "I am not sure how to answer your Lilly" Chan said, he then took a deep breath and said "I am not even sure where to start." Lilly wanted a lot of questions answered, but she said to her self a little at a time. "I have a card from you, how, I mean did you know my husband or something?" Chan let out a little growl, he couldn't tell her he was the wolf she seen yet. "Well, I was out for a stroll and I happened to see your car roll down the hill. When I got to your car, I went for the children first but they had all ready expired." He looked down as he said this. He was not sure how she would react to bringing up such painful memories. Lilly just stood there listening to him. He went on "I knew that it was to late for your husband, and when I looked over at you, you were still breathing." Lilly's eyes started to water. She was so thankful that Chan thought of getting her children out first, this meant a lot to her. " I then pulled you out and took you to the hospital" Lilly looked up at him. "Chan, I want to thank you, thank you for trying to same my family, and then saving my life" She looked down and then said "I owe you my life." Chan wanted to take her up on her offer right then and there. He would take her as his mate and lover her forever. "Chan, I, I" that is all Lilly could say before he brought her back up to his lips and started his assault on her mouth once again. Lilly didn't push away at all, again she opened her mouth to invite him in and explore even more. He picked her up to place her on the bed. "Chan, wait I have more questions" he looked into her eyes and said "It can wait, I need you, and I know you need me as well." How could she deny this fact, she does need him. But there is just so much she didn't know about him, and a lot of unanswered questions. Chan ran his mouth down to her ear to whisper to her. "Lilly, some things may confuse you tonight, but remember what ever happens, I will never hurt you" She looked at him and knew he would not hurt her. Chan's mouth then started working his way down her neck to that sensitive soft area, this sent shivers down her spine right into her wet pussy. She let out a soft moan and raised her hips against his stomach. His kisses and mouth worked down to meet each breast. Her nipples were already hard as a rock from the attention he was giving her. He touched each breast softly and then took a nipple in his fingers and gently squeezed It and twisted till she let out some more moans. He did this with each nipple, then letting his mouth continue the assault on her most sensitive nipples. He licked and sucked each nipple managing to make them even stand more pert then they already were. He was amazed at her breast, they were big, beautiful and soft. He wanted to take his time there showing them his love. She moaned over the pleasure he was giving her. Her nipples were so sensitive in the first place and she was sure she was going to cum just from him sucking, licking and teasing her nipples. Chan looked up and smiled at her moans for him. He wanted to claim her tonight as his. So that no other man or wolf could touch her. He wanted to mate her and claim his possession. Lilly wondered about his statement. What did he mean things might confuse me tonight, she thought to her self. At this point she didn't even care. The pleasure he was giving her she didn't care what he meant by that. Chan continued his exploration of his woman, making his way down her stomach, circling his tongue around her belly button. This made her hips thrust up to him, he put his hands on her hips holding her down so he had more of the control over her. This just made her lust grow even deeper for Chan. Lilly gasped when Chan's mouth made it to her soft, smooth, mount. He parted her lips with his tongue and invaded her clit, licking and flicking her clit gently with his tongue. Hit tongue was kind of rough but the feeling it gave her just sent her over the edge. She put her hands in his long black hair holding him to her. Moving her hips grinding her hips into his face, while he fucked her with his tongue. He looked up at her with a smile creeping a cross his face. It pleased him to see how much pleasure she was getting from him. Chan then slipped his long tongue in her wet pussy, he wanted to have every inch of her. Lilly arched her back. She could not believe how deep he was able to go with his tongue. He licked every inch of her wet pussy, making sure to pay special attention to her G-spot. Good she even taste as good as she smells, Chan thought to him self. He felt Lilly at the edge, he knew she would cum any second, he wanted all of her juices. He thrust his tongue deeper into her pussy and took his hand and placed a finger over her clit so he could give it the attention it needed. Lilly thought to her self, God I cant take it, I have to cum. She pushed her hips up to him making his tongue go even deeper, this sent her over that edge. She felt her Orgasm all through her body. She felt like she was floating and her body tingled and felt like it was melting. Chan looked up with a smile, he was proud that he could send his soon to be mate over the edge like that. She lay limp on the bed and he started making his way back up her body making sure to kiss every inch of her as he made his way back up to her sweet mouth. She was still breathing deep when he reached her mouth and started kissing her intently. He breathing became more rapid. She had to have him deep insider her. Lilly broke away from his kiss and said to him "Please, Please Chan, Fuck me!" He smiled he didn't have to be asked twice. Chan placed his hard cock at the entrance to her soft mound. He started kissing Lilly intently again. He was fairly large a good 10 inches and had girth to his cock. She was not a virgin, but he still didn't want to her . She still didn't know he was a wolf and well his knot would form when he mated with her. He gently started slipping his hard cock into her wet pussy. He could not believe how tight she really was. Lilly's eyes go wide and her breathing got harder. She wrapped her arms around Chan's back and dug her nails in deep. "Lilly am I hurting you?" he asked her concerned as he seen some alarm in her eyes. Lilly managed to speak "No, no Chan....I I just never felt someone so big" he smiled at her " No Chan it feels good, Please fuck me Chan, please." In no time Chan had his cock deep into her pussy, filling her all the way to the brim. He could feel his wolf trying to merge so he knew he needed to work fast because he knew his knot would soon be felt. He started moving deeper and faster, thrusting as deep as he could go. With each thrust Lilly moaned deeply, her eyes got wide when she felt a swelling she was not sure what was going on. Chan ordered her to get on her knees, in a deep growl. Lilly didn't have to be told twice and his tone just even turned her on even more. Lilly got on all fours and Chan thrusts his cock deep into her pussy. She yelled out from the pleasure it gave her. She could feel some kind of knot form on him and his thrust got deeper and deeper. She could hear him growl and something felt different. He told her not to be scared, but for some reason she wasn't, he felt different, he was still a man but his touch felt different. Chan brought Lilly to her side and lay there with her, his cock was still deep inside her pussy. She tried to move but he held her down. She looked over at him he had already changed back she didn't see him change to a werewolf , but she knew something was off. She tried to move again, Chan then said "I will explain later, just rest" Soon his knot disappeared and he pulled out from her. She turned to look at him. He was staring her down with his big emerald green eyes. She went to speak, but he put a finger over her mouth and said "shhhhh, rest my love, I will answer more questions tomorrow" Lilly did what she was told. She was so tired from her experience tonight, that sleep was just fine with her. Nothing To Live For? Ch. 02 Please note: I am in the process of finding an editor. I have dyslexia so that is the reason for errors so keep that in mind with giving me constructive criticism. I want constructive criticism but not on my editing skills as I am seeking help for that, but more on my plots and character building, etc. Wlo Chapter 2 'Acceptance' I woke up the next morning, feeling rested and still having that feeling of ecstasy all over my body. I laid there thinking of the night I spent with Chan. I also remembered that there are many unanswered questions. I was not sure if I should be afraid of the answers or not. Chan was still fast a sleep at my side, and his arm was firmly around my waist, with a grip that said he was not going to let go. It was a comforting feeling but also one that scared me half to death. I soon found my self with the anxiety of what I really has gotten my self into. Panic started raging through my body. I knew this feeling as I have been cursed with anxiety attacks all through my adult life. My doctor told me that I have what is called generalize anxiety disorder. Giving it a name didn't make it easier to deal with. I started panicking even more when I realized that I didn't even have my medication to take when this happened. I was sure my med's were still at the cabin. "shit" I thought to my self. Just breath Lilly just breath. I couldn't breath and it wasn't helping that Chan's arm was wrapped around my waist so tightly. I tried to manually move Chan from my body but his strength was more then I estimated. I needed some space some room to breath, I needed to get him off before I passed out. I think Chan realized there was something wrong because he shot up in bed and was at my side in seconds. I was brought up to his lap and I was shaking, sweating, and hyperventilating all in one. I am not sure if he knew what was happening to me, but he didn't hold on tight he gave me my room but also kept me on his lap as to let me know I was safe. I closed my eyes knowing I didn't have any medication on me to bring me down from this. I started to try to will my self to take deep breaths in and out till I stopped hyperventilating. I was still shaking and sweating but at least I could finally breath normally. Chan could feel and hear my breathing going back to normal. He started to stroke my hair and my face to calm me down. Taking the other hand and pressing me firmly but gently into his chest to sooth me. I could hear his heart beat. It was a steady beat, my anxiety didn't up set him at all, he was very calm which made me even calmer. A slight moan exited my mouth and I looked up to him not saying anything, but I can tell in his eyes that he knew I was thanking him in my mind. It actually almost felt that he was in my mind. I have never came down from an anxiety attack with out my medication. It was truly an amazing feeling. We didn't say anything to each other he just reached down and kissed me gently yet firmly. He got up taking me with him in his arms. He was heading to the bathroom with me. Chan sat me down on the counter and as he did I looked around this marvelous bathroom. I could not believe what I seen. I swear the bathroom was as big as the bedroom. It was huge!!!!! Chan walked over to the sunk in bathtub. It was huge and beautiful. The faucet and knobs were chrome which went very elegantly with the marble sung in tub. My eyes roamed around the room. The counter I was sitting on went the length of the room it was a double sing and in the middle, that I was sitting on was a type of vanity. A place where a girl could put on her make up, do her hair. There was nothing occupying the space no chair for the vanity. Nothing on the counters. The sink fixtures matched the ones in the sunk in tub. I then glanced over to the other side of the room to see a huge I mean huge shower. This shower was amazing, I could get lost in there. First off it was made of glass all the way around. There were several shower heads on the ceiling of the shower and several jets all around to give your body a massage. I also seen some kind of panel, I believe it was to manipulate the shower heads and jet to get the desired setting you wanted. I worked my eyes over to the right and I seen a huge linen closet and a dressing area fit for a king. I could live in here. My eyes focused on the shower again in amazement. I had to try out that bad boy. It was almost if Chan knew what I was thinking. He lifted his eyes up to mine and said to me, "Later, right now you need a relaxing bath, after we will talk." Chan finished by putting in some bath bubbles and some bath salts. He then came over to me lifted me from the vanity and placed me in the tube. This actually felt so nice, I was on cloud nine and I didn't want to come down. He started to wash my hair, he felt light as a feather in my hair never tugging one strand to cause any pain. He then rinsed my hair and took a wash cloths and started to wash my back. Firmly yet gently scrubbing my skin, massaging it as he went along working down my back. I started to moan it felt so good. I have never been treated this way before, and my husband was very good to me, just this was treatment fit for a queen. Chan then had a grin on his face in stead of using the washcloth he used his hands to wash and bath the front of me. He started at my neck running water down the front and back taking his big hands making sure that he touched every part of my necks. He then took both hands and ran then down my shoulders making his way to my breasts, but making sure that he massaged as he went. I did feel so wonderful. He then made it to my breasts spending a little more time there. cupping and circling my breasts with his hands, trying to not arouse me more then I was. He still managed to make my nipples hard as a rock with out pinching or twisting them. My nipples puckered up and stood strait, this made him even grin even more and even groan him self. He then worked his way down my belly stopping at my belly button, circling it with his finger as to tease it, as if it were my pussy. He didn't go down to my pussy, he passed it and went down my legs to my feet massaging my feet. My pussy ached for him and he knew it, but he was going to torcher me and not touch me there, I think it was also torturing him as well. Chan then got up to the lien closet and brought out a huge soft white towel. He stood me up and wrapped me up and brought me back into the bedroom. Chan sat me down on the bed and then took the towel off and started to dry me off. He then went over to one of the closets and brought out a beautiful spring dress. It was yellow with little white flowers all over it. The material was sheer, but not so much as you could see strait through it. He stood me up and draped it over me. While my breast where large they were still firm and did not need a bra. Something I was proud of with my beautiful breasts. All this time he didn't say a word to me. I wondered where he got the dress from. Did this dress belong to someone else? I had to break the silence this was to much. I couldn't take it any longer. While I love to be pampered I still needed some answers, and I still could not believe I was putting my whole self out there, trusting him even though I didn't even know him. "Chan" I said to him. He looked up at me and said "I guess its time we should talk?" I smiled back at him "Yes, it would be nice, I have a lot of questions that need to be answered" "Where would you like to start Lilly?" I paused, not sure what answer I wanted first. "Well you already answered one question last night, that you were the one that saved me?" He looked up at me with those beautiful green eyes and said "yes" "Where you at my families funeral?" "Yes, and Lilly you were not there?" Tears started to gather in my eyes, part from the shame part from the pain of my loss. "I don't know how to explain...I can't explain why I was not there" "I understand Lilly, I don't want to bring up painful memories" "I went to the hospital to try to find out who saved me, they didn't have any records, how did you find me?" Chan let out a low grunt, he looked at me for a while, trying to gather his words. "The Clerk knew....she well was protecting me. She called me to inform me you were in town and looking for me" all I could say was "oh" what did he mean by protecting him? What was there to protect? "The men at the restaurant, how did you know they followed me?" He grunted again and cleared his throat. "Well, that is because I was following you as well" "oh, how much did you see, where did you follow me" "from the time you stepped out of the restaurant" he said to me So that meant he seen me at the site of the accident. I started to feel my face get red, I was so embarrassed that he seen me reliving that day. Chan looked up at me and said "don't feel embarrassed or ashamed, I understand why you were there." My eyes shot back up at him, how the heck is he doing that, how can he be feeling or reading my mind. I started to get a little frightened. "oh Lilly, don't be frightened I would never hurt you." I gasped again, what the heck. "Chan, that is my next question, how the heck are you doing that, how are you reading my mind?" Again there was a long pause from him his breathing seemed to get a little deeper. "Lilly there is a lot to tell you, but you are my mate, that is why I can feel what you feel and hear what you are thinking." I stood strait up, this alarmed me. "MATE!" I yelled out. "What the hell is that suppose to mean?" Chan got up and took me in his arms "Come Lilly, Lets go sit down, its time I go into some detail." Chan brought me over to the sitting area. He began to tell his story. "Last night Lilly during our love making you may have noticed or felt some strange things." I just nodded in agreement and just let him speak. I didn't want to interrupt him during this time. I wanted to be able to take it all in. Chan went on "Lilly I don't know any other way to say it. I am a lycanthrope, a wolf, a werewolf." I sat there, still, not saying a word so he went on. "I am in a pack, I am the Alpha male in my pack. I was born a werewolf and was born into the position of Alpha male for my pack. I protect them, and are there guardians. I care for all the needs of the pack. This is my Den that we are in. We are on my estate, I own most of the town and restaurants. Even the hospital that is why they were protective of not giving any information out about me. I am not sure or if you have heard anything of werewolf's, but we are not mindless beasts controlled by rage and lust." Chan grinned up at me and said "Well maybe a little lust" he then went on explaining. "Our human traits roll over to our feral traits. We take three forms Human, the next form we can still be seen as part human part wolf and the last stage would be the feral stage. A full wolf form in every aspect, still having our human traits. The knot that you felt when we were making love is part of the wolf, it is part of the mating process, you didn't look back but right before, I well shot my seed into you I shifted into my wolf form. I am sure you felt or noticed something but didn't say. Lilly I took you as my Mate." I am not sure how long I sat there with out saying a word. But Chan started to I can tell get irritated that I was not responding to what he just told me. What was I going to say. I looked up at him and said "You could have asked me if I wanted to be your mate." Chan grinned at her comment "You are more worried that I didn't ask you to be my mate, then me telling you I am an big ugly wolf?" I took a deep breath in "Well I was wondering what the wolf was about in my dreams." He cocked his head to one side just as he did in the restaurant. "Tell me about these dreams of yours" I grunted as the first part of the dream was just pain. "Well I would first live out my nightmare from the accident, but at the end I would just see this big midnight black wolf in my dreams. He was huge, and his eyes were bright green, for some reason I would wake up with lust and it felt like the wolf was calling for me. I know it sounds strange." Chan looked up at Lilly with a smile. "Not so strange" At that moment he shifted into his feral form. There stood in front of me the wolf that was in my dreams all those months. I could not believe my eyes. He was more beautiful in person then in my dreams. Could this be true, have I been dreaming about Chan the whole time, was he truly calling out to me? His mate? Chan sat down on his back legs and cocked his head to the side like he did before in human form. I stood up and got on my knees right in front of his beautiful face. I started running my hands through his soft fur. I even scratched behind his ear which he seemed to like a lot, as I seen his cock harden. He growled in a soft way and started to lick my face. I just could not believe my eyes at the beautiful sight. Chan shifted back into his human form. I was still at my knees and his cock was so alive and so hard. I couldn't help my self. I brought his cock into my mouth. I slowly teased his head with my tongue. Working it slowly twisting my tongue over the top of his cocks head. I slowly ran my tongue to his balls. Sucking in each one slowly as I stroked his cock from base to head. I could hear him moaning softly. I think ran my tongue back up the base to the tip of his cock. I slowly brought him into my mouth. He is so huge, but I managed to work him all the way back to my throat working against my gag reflexes. I wanted to make sure I took all 10 inches in my mouth. "oh god Lilly" he moaned. I looked up and smiled. I started sucking even faster. I wanted all his cum in my mouth and I wanted every last drop of it. I demanding he give me every last drop. I worked his cock over with my mouth and tongue, making sure every part was licked and sucked. I knew he was close to cumming, he took my head and grabbed a handful of hair and started trusting me down on his cock. I knew he was about to cum, so I started sucking harder and massaging his balls. He started spurting cum to the back of my throat, I made sure to swallow each time, making sure not to miss a drop of his cum. I stood up and he took me in his arms. We kissed passionately for the longest time, making love to each others mouth with our tongues. I let him explore every part of my mouth giving my self to him. He pulled away from me. I then asked. "When do I get to meet the pack?" He smiled at this knowing that I excepted him for who he is and most importantly excepted that he is my mate. To be continued... Nothing To Live For? Ch. 03 NOTE:I am still looking for an Editor to help me with my grammar, etc. Keep in mind that I am dyslexic and that is very hard for me. That being said I have a wild and active imagination and want to write it all down. I would love any constructive criticism on plots and character, etc. But I am aware that I need an editor and am working on that. Chapter 3 "Meeting Lee, Chan's Beta" Chan was looking forward to her meeting his pack and taking her around his estate. But he also worried about what his pack would do or think. He had not told them that he had plans to take a human mate. In fact they were pressing him to mate with Priscilla one of the females in the pack. While she would have made a good mate he just didn't have those strong desires like he did for Lilly. Chan was also sure that they would expect a matting ceremony as well as for her to be changed during the next full moon. The mating ceremony was one thing but to change her he could not do this with out her excepting the change. This he wanted to Lilly to make that decision. It was only right. He looked down at Lilly as she was still on her knees after sucking his cock. He lifter her up in his arms and said "I can't wait for you to meet the pack as well." I looked up at Chan I could see some worry in his eyes, but I was not afraid. It is strange but I think I am being to read him, not saying his thoughts but his emotions. "Don't worry Chan it will be all right, I am not afraid." I thought saying this would ease him some from what ever worries plagued his mind. Chan got up and placed a kiss on my cheek and started to get dressed. I had a feeling today was going to be a big day for us both. I was getting very excited but also had butterflies in my stomach. Chan looked at her as he was getting dressed. "We should eat something before I talk to my pack, I also want you to stay in here while I talk to them, this is for your own protection." I didn't like the fact of being alone in his den with out him, but I just nodded my head trying to be as submissive as I could. I was not sure of werewolf rules, etiquette or any of that. But I knew just from watching the discovery channel that Alpha males mates were submissive. So I keep that in my mind. I didn't want to up set him while he tried to figure out what he was going to say or do. I watched Chan as he was finishing getting dressed. I found that I couldn't keep my eyes off him. Everything about him was so perfect. I still could not believe that I was coming out of this depression of mine. I felt alive again. Chan slipped on some jeans that hugged his body just right. He was muscular but not so bad that it was unreal. He slipped on a simple black T-shirt that also hugged his body and I could see his six pack contract under the fabric. He pulled back his long, thick soft black hair in a pony tail, this sight just made me want him so bad, right then and there. I strolled over to him and reached up and put my arms around his neck. I then gave him a long passionate kiss, and he read my mind and said he will hurry back. I just smiled knowing that I could have my way with him when he got back to the den. Chan walked out of the room and closed the door. I then heard It lock behind him. I was not to pleased about that, but figured he had his reasons. Why was I being so calm about this. I should be more alarmed that he says I am his mate, that he is a werewolf, that he just locked the door on me. But for some reason I was as calm, calmer then I have ever been. It was actually very comforting to me and I could not fight that feeling over the alarm that should be going off in my head. I decided to stroll around the room a bit more. What else was I going to do with my time. I had already seen the bedroom and the bathroom. Off to the right side of the room was another door. I went to see if that was unlocked or not. It was unlocked so I opened it. I went inside and turned on the light. It looked as if this his was his study room. Books shelves full of books liked all the walls. In the center of the room was an old oak antique desk. It was huge. Behind the desk sat a leather chair. I strolled around the room looking at the books. A lot of the books looked old. I noticed a lot of the books had to do with werewolf's the history of werewolf's. There was also other books of very kind. Any book you could imagine was in this room. I turned and walked out of the room, turning off the light and closing the door behind me. I decided to go check out to see what other clothes were in this beautiful closet. I opened it and found every thing I ever needed or wanted. And I mean there was everything. From dresses, to dress suits, to casual clothes. On the bottom of the closet there was a girls dream. All kinds of shoes to match the outfits in the closet. Did he know I would come to him? All these clothes were in my size as well. I thought to my self, wow he was pretty sure of him self to go out of his way, find out what size I wore and stock a closet for me. It also made me smile that he even thought of me like this, he wanted to make sure I had everything that I possibly could need. I went over to the sitting area were the flat screen TV sat. I turned on the TV flipping through the hundreds of channels. He must have had the works when it came to cable TV. Funny thing is nothing was worth watching on TV. My mind was on other things and that was Chan. I can't believe how much I was thinking about sex lately. I mean I just hard a wild night with him, and then had my way with is cock this morning giving him what I thought was the best blow job that I have ever given a man. And yet all I can still think about is his hard cock filling my pussy to the brim. I started getting wet just thinking about him. Chan took a deep breath as he left the room, turning around to lock the door with his key behind him. It is not that he didn't trust her he just wanted her to be safe. If she got curious and left the room and his pack didn't realize who she was, she could get hurt. He was only doing it for her own good. Chan strolled down stairs and made his way to his office. He then made a call to his Beta Lee. Lee was a good guy and he knew if he talked to him first and got him on his side that the other pack should follow suit. Chan picked up the phone and dialed his cell number "Hey Lee, ya its Chan can you come down to the estate? I am in my office we really need to talk, and make it fast Lee." Chan paced his office trying to think of how he would start. Should he just start from the being on how he saved her the first time, I guess that would be the best thing to do he thought to him self. Waiting for him was ripping him a part. Chan could feel Lilly's lust building. His bond was getting stronger and stronger for him and he could feel her desires for him as she was waiting for him in his den. This did not make the wait for Lee easy at all. Lee finally entered Chan's office. Lee was almost as tall as Chan standing at a good six feet, he was not as muscular as Chan but still we well built for a Beta. He had short brown hair, spiky, and sported some facial hair. His eyes were dark blue and he always seemed to bring the girls to there knees werewolf or human girls, it didn't matter. "what ups buddy, your voice sounded urgent on the phone, I rushed here as fast as I could" Chan let out a low groan "Yes Lee we need to talk, but I am not sure were to begin." "I guess from the beginning if that helps you any." Lee smirked "I found my mate." Chan said with a growl "That is great Chan, that is wonderful news. you have decided to take Pricilla then as your mate?" "NO!" Chan growled out "It's not Pricilla" Lee looked a little bit confused "Then who is it?" "Her name is Lilly" Chan said then growling "Thing is she is human" Lee's eyes got wide "WHAT!" he snarled "You know that our pack does not mate humans" Chan growled back "It is not unheard of" growling even loader "And I AM YOU ALPHA!" Lee looked down in submission "Yes Chan, yes you are" "So she is THE one?" Chan took in a deep breath and said "yes" "That's great Chan, while others may have a hard time with it, this is your choice." Chan smiled as he knew Lee would side with him not only was he is best Betta, but he was also his best friend as well. "Chan does she know who we are?" "Yes she does and she has actually taken it surprisingly well." Chan said with a smile "This is good, does she know about the mating ceremony at all?" Lee smirked "Yes she is aware, just does not have many details yet. I wanted to talk to the pack first before going into more detail with her on the mating ceremony." Chan said rolling his eyes at Lee "So Chan are you going to talk to Pricilla or am I going to have to do it?" "You would bring her up right now, wouldn't you!" Chan didn't even want to think about her. He didn't want to hurt her as well, but she was just not his mate. "Lee, I think it is best that you talk to her, she may tear me apart." "My Pleasure." Lee said with a smile. Lee wanted Pricilla for him self and now that Chan took his mate he had a change to win Pricilla over. Chan took a deep breath is "I am sure Lilly is wondering where I am, I was going to bring her up breakfast. Lee gather the others, we need to have a meeting after lunch" "Will do Chan, I will talk to Pricilla before the meeting so it does not get out of hand." Chan thanked Lee and then headed to the kitchen. The staff were not on duty so he searched for something simple to gather. He grabbed some bagels and cream cheese, and some Orange Juice for her to drink. He then headed back up stairs to his mate. Chan could feel Lilly's desire for him and hit was driving him mad. He gather the meal and headed back for the den. I couldn't stand it anymore her mind was on Chan and I was full of desire and it was killing me not having Chan in the same room. I couldn't help my self. I started exploring my body. I ran my hands over the spring dress, the fabric brushing against my already sensitive nipples caused me to gasp as my fingers found the hard nubs. I gently started squeezing and teasing my nipples making my pussy tingle and my stomach flutter. I started to run my hands down to my wet pussy when Chan walked in the den. I looked up and he sat down the breakfast on the end table and walked over to Lilly, Picking her up and bring her to the bed. "Lilly you can't have those thoughts running through your mind, you will drive me crazy." Chan whispered into my ear. Hit warm breath sent chills strait down to my already wet pussy. My stomach growling was the last thing on my mind at this point. I wanted Chan at this moment and I knew at this moment I would always want him every second of the day. Chan stripped my dress off the only thing left on my body was the soaked silk panties. Those came off in no time as well. I could feel my breast rising and falling to my breathing. My nipples were already hard as a rock from the attention I was giving them right before Chan entered the room. At this point in time all we wanted was primal fucking. I just wanted his hard cock inside my pussy. I needed him so bad. Chan took me into his lap and I placed his hard cock at the entrance of my pussy. With one thrust he was deep inside my waiting pussy. Pain and pleasure all at once entering my body. Chan waited till my pussy adjusted to his size, and then I began to ride him slowly at first. But that urge to just be taken hard and fast took over my body and I pushed him to his back and started ridding him as fast as I could. My breast bouncing with each thrust. I started to feel his knot forming and this sent me over the edge even more increasing the speed and my rhythm, trying if I could to fuck him harder. I think Chan got even more excited that I took over in such a possessive way. He thrust in tune to my thrusting, the sound of flesh slapping as my pussy hit against him and his ball slamming against my arse. The feeling was amazing and I could feel a light buzzing around the sweet small pucker of my arse. It was like Chan was in my mind knowing what I wanted done. Chan reached around and gently slipped a finger into arse, slipping in gently a little at a time, I couldn't take it any more so on the thrust down I made sure his finger slipped all the way in my arse. The feeling was amazing pounding him while his finger gently fucked my arse. He started moving his finger in and out to the rhythm of our thrusting. This sent me over the edge and I had the most mind blowing Orgasm in my life. No sooner then I, Chan could not hold on any longer and blew his load making sure his knot locked into my pussy. We rolled over to the side relaxing kissing each other, holding each other as I knew it would be a while till he could pull out, but I loved that feeling of his cock staying there. It just felt right, that is where it belongs. Chan was running his hand threw my hair, I knew he wanted to talk to me. "What's on your mind?" I smiled at him brushing a gentle kiss on his lips. "My Beta Lee will be setting up a meeting for me to talk to the pack, I need to let them know that I have taken a human Mate." I looked up at Chan "Chan you still have not asked me if I wanted to be your mate!" Chan chuckled "Lilly will you be my mate." Not that she had a choice, but he wanted to humor her. "Why Yes Chan, I do, I will be your mate." I said with a giggle knowing that he did ask just to humor me. "Speaking of you being my Mate, we have not really made it official." "Oh, and what makes the matting process official?" I was not sure if I wanted the answer to this question or not. Chan took a deep breath before talking. "Well we first off I need to leave my mark on you, which I have not done yet, I didn't want to scare you so I have not left my mark yet, even though my scent is on you." He took another deep breath. "there is also our ritual." "Ritual, and what do mean by ritual." I was not sure if I liked the sound of this at all. "Well, I have to introduce you into the pack, this means I have to mate you in front of our pack." I could not believe what I just heard. Really make love to me in front of everyone? Could be serious. Was he really going to humiliate me like that? I started to panic. Chan's knot had already gone down and I pulled away from him. I stood up and went to get me a bagel. I sat back down on the edge of the bed. I just don't know what to think about that. "Lilly, is there something wrong?" Chan was not expecting her reaction, she took everything else so well that this reaction was strange to him. "Chan I am not sure if I am comfortable with everyone watching me like that, its humiliating!" Tears started forming in my eyes, I tried my best to hold them back. I don't like crying at all. "I'm sorry baby, I was not thinking about your reaction, I keep forgetting that humans are more self conscious about sex then us wolfs are." He said in a soothing voice. "If it helps they will not be in there human form, they will be in there feral form." I looked up thinking that may make me feel a little better. If I cant see faces it may make it easier for me to go through this process. "So I will be the only human at this ritual?" "Well there is the matter of you changing, you will not be forced to change as that is against our rules to force a human to change. But you do have that option if you want to at the ritual." Chan was hoping that she would agree to a change as well. I never thought about changing, that didn't even cross my mind at all. "That will have to be something I would have to think about, that is a big step, will you give me some time?" "Of course I will, it will not be a forced change and our mating will not be on a full moon, so your first shift would not be till a full moon. So you have a month till the next full moon." That gave me plenty of time to think about a change. It was one thing to become his mate and agree to the ritual. And knowing the pack will be in their feral form did make it easier for me to except the mating ritual. And I felt much more at ease. But to change and become a werewolf was a different story. I needed to ask more questions about this. I need some answers and my concerns to be answered before making such a big step in my life. Chan interrupted my thought process. "So I have talked to my Beta, he will be setting up this meeting. You will not be at the meeting, but will meet Lee my beta. The pack will not have contact with you till the mating ritual." "Why Cant I meet them?" "Because number one you are not a were, some will not like me taking a human mate, even if you decided to change by the next full moon." I looked at him and said. "And number two?" "Well there is always that chance that some will try to challenge me to have you as their mate. With you not were this can be dangerous for you." "ok well that makes sense to me, your only trying to protect me" Chan looked away "Well there is one other thing." "Yes, and what is that?" "Pricilla." "And who is Pricilla?" I think I said this with a little jealous tone to my voice because Chan chuckled. "She is the woman who my pack expected me to mate with." Chan looked back over at me to see my expression when I responded. "Oh so there is another woman, really?" I half said playing, the other half even more jealous. "Well not really the other woman, I have never touched her and they just expected me to mate her, who I mate is my choice and they have no say in the matter, but she will not be happy about me turning her down." "So what does this mean for me?" I was not sure if I liked thinking about meeting her when she find out that she will not be Chan's mate. "Well this does mean she could challenge you for being Alphas mate. This is another reason why I would want you to change, because you would not survive the challenge other wise." "She will challenge me, and you cant stop her?" I was shocked at this revelation. I mean Chan is Alpha he could stop her right? "While I am Alpha, I still can be challenged as well as my mate." Chan was rubbing my arm trying to bring me some kind of comfort. "She may or may not challenge you, I am not sure at this point what she will do, my Beta Lee will be talking to her, and well he wants her for his mate, he as always wanted her, but she has always wanted to be Alpha's mate." Not knowing what to say "When will be the mating ritual be? "In one week." he was hoping reveling Pricilla would help her make her decision sooner about changing, he wanted her to be safe as possible. "I will give you my decision about the change the day before the ritual." I felt that was enough time to make this choice. It would have to be. I would need to be able to confront her if I had to, I could not do that as a human and I knew that. "Ok well lets finish our breakfast, I will call Lee into the den, till the mating ritual you will have to stay in the den for your safety." Oh nice so I have to be locked up for a whole week. What the heck am I suppose to do for a week. I will go insane being cooped up in here. I am sure Chan will have other business to do, and I will be bored out of my mind. I finished up my Bagel and drank my orange juice. I stood up to go take a quick shower. Chan grabbed me by the arm "Don't shower, your scent needs to be on me so Lee knows you are my mate." I rolled my eyes and just picked up my dress and slipped it back on as well as my panties, which happened to be still wet. "Can I at least brush my hair so I can look half way decent." Chan smiled "While I love the messy look, yes you can brush your hair silly girl." Grabbing me and kissing me gently before I made my way to the bathroom. Nothing To Live For? Ch. 03 While I went to brush my hair, Chan dialed Lee his beta on his cell phone. "Lee when you have a minute I would like you to come to my den and meet Lilly." Lee sighed "I thought we had to wait to meet her during the mating ritual?" Chan grunted. "I know what I said but I think its best you meet her first, that way she knows someone before then, I am sure she would go crazy not having anyone to talk to for a week." Lee chuckled "I guess you are right, she is human." I walked out of the bathroom and settled down on the sofa. "Lee will be up shortly" no sooner then Chan announcing that Lee would be arriving soon there was a knock at the door. "Come in Lee" Chan announced. Lee walked in and while Chan is the beautiful man I have laid eyes on Lee was a looker him self. He was tall with brown spiky hair, he was muscular not as muscular as Chan but he was still very well built. But Lees eyes where very dreamy. He has the biggest blue eyes and they seemed to sparkle. I started to smile when Chan said to me "Don't even think it" I started to laugh forgetting that Chan is connected to my thoughts to a degree. Chan then introduced us. "Lee this is Lilly, Lilly this is Lee." "Its very nice to meet you Lee" I said with a smile "Like wise." I think he liked the fact that Chan has to scolded me for my thoughts. I laughed to my self about this. Chan then took over the conversation. "Lee did you set up the meeting with the other pack members" "Yes everyone who needs to be there will be there, the meeting will be tomorrow night." "Good I think this will turn out just fine, if they know you are comfortable with her then they should all follow suit." Chan took a long deep breath and blew it slowly out 29 "Well it doesn't really matter does it, you are Alpha and you can choose your mate human or not." "You are right but it has been over a four hundred years sense an Alpha has took a human mate, I need to make sure she is safe first before the mating ritual." "Has she decided if she was going to be turned or not during the matting ritual." I could not believe this they were talking like I was not even here in the room. I spoke up. "I can answer for my self!" Lee looked over at me and smiled "She has spunk, I like that." I smirked and then went on. "I have told Chan that I will give him my answer the night before the mating ritual, it will give me a chance to think this through." Lee grinned at me "Well I suggest it be a yes." "And what is that suppose to mean?" "I suspect Chan has told you about Pricilla?" "Yes and what about it?" I made to say this in a very smart-alecky way. "I have not had a chance to talk with her yet, but I am sure she will want to challenge you for Chan." "That is here nor their, we don't even know how she will react to this at all." "Well if I know her she will not take this lightly, if I had my way with her she will except me as her mate." "Well just use those baby blue eyes on her and make sure that happens" "Ok that enough you two." Chan interrupted our little playful spat. "I take it you two will get along just fine, you can keep her company this week while I tend to pack business. You better keep her safe." Chan said with a growl. "Don't worry I will keep her busy with the history of our pack." Lee said with a grin "And she will be safe with me." "That is what I want to hear, her safety is my first priority, till tomorrow night your services will not be needed, go talk to Pricilla, I will be here in the den with Lilly filling her in on the ritual a bit more." Lee started laughing. "I am sure you will be talking about the ritual all right." Lee was most likely right, going over details was the last thing on my mind, but I knew they had to be done. Lee left the room to find Pricilla and talk with her. I decided maybe learning a little about the pack and the ritual might be a good idea. "Chan so tell me who will be at this meeting?" I wanted to sound like I was very interested but I am so I am sure I sounded convincing. "mmmmm are you sure you want to talk about the pack" Chan put his hands around my waist bring me up for a kiss. "Yes Chan I would like to know what is going to happen at this meeting sense I cant be there" "Ok so what would you like to know first?" "Ok well, who will be at this meeting?" "Well we have a pack committee those on the committee will be there. There are a total of twelve on the committee counting my self, once you are mated me you will make the thirteenth member and then you will have to choose your beta making the fourteenth member. Most on the committee have already taken a mate except a couple" "Oh I will be on the committee?" "Yes the Alphas mate is always on the committee, and she always chooses her Beta." "So who are the committee members, and their mates?" "Well ok we have Vincent David and his mate Brunella, they are the oldest of the pack 300 years old the both of them. He is right under me in command if you want to look at it that way. The rest of the pack committee have equal ranks. There is Andree Cousteau, Mercer Denis and Julien Quenneville who do not have mates. Then we have Gifford Tessier and his mate Veronica, Marmion Turgeon and his mate Robinette, Roldand Margand and his mate Ila, Algernon Morneau and his mate Zara, and Tristan Dumoulin and his mate Nicolette." "Wow so sense none of their mates are on the committee I will be the only female on the pack committee?" "Well besides your second our your Beta, yes you will be the only Female." "Ok, so how come I can't be at this committee meeting tomorrow night then?" I figured sense I was going to be on this committee why can't I join in now. "Remember that we have not mated yet, and any one of the males on the committee can challenge me for you, or Challenge me to be Alpha. I can't take the chance of you getting hurt before the matting ritual." "So what happens if you are challenged.?" "Well we will have to fight till the death or till one or the other surrenders and does an act of submission. But do not worry if this does happen, I will not lose, I never lose." "So you have been challenged before?" "Yes I have, by Mercer, he lost he did an act of submission, I doubt he would try again, as for the other two males that are not mated, I can't be fore sure that they would not challenge me as Alpha or the right to mate you." "If this happens and you lose, I refuse to be mated to another man, Chan I will not lay with another man!" "I would not worry about it, but you would not have a choice if that did happen, but it is not going to happen." "If it does, I rather die then be with another man, I will kill my self." "You will not have to do that because I never lose." "You are that confident that you would not lose a challenge?" "Yes Lilly, I am that confident, I know my pack committees weakness, for them to challenge me would be futile." Chan saying this made me feel a little bit more at ease. "You had mentioned that nobody has taken a human mate in over 400 years, who was the last to take a human mate?" "My father, he was the last one." Chan said lowering his head "Is this a shameful thing, you seem a little sad when talking about them?" "No Lilly to me its not shameful, I just miss them a lot. My father was Alpha before me, and I lost both my parents." "I am so sorry, how?" sitting behind Chan on the bed I started to rub his shoulders. "Just old age, while we do live a long life, and heal fast, we still can die, and most of the time its just old age." I placed a kiss on the back of his neck. "I want to die old with you Chan." "Tell me Chan how was your mom with the change?" Knowing how she dealt with it may ease my mind, seeing me wanting to grow old with him means I would in deed have to except the change. "Well she knew she wanted to be with my dad forever. This moved her to not even think twice about it." Chan took a deep breath in and then let it out slowly. "Chan, I..I don't want to wait to tell you. I want the change, I want to grow old with you, the only way that can happen is with the change." Chan grabbed me and put me in his lap. Took my head and put it under his chin holding me tight, kissing the top of my head. "You don't know how much that means to me hearing you say that Lilly." I looked up at him lovingly and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. "I love you." The only words that could come out of my mouth and they just seemed so right to say. He looked down at me and took my face in his hand sand said those three words back to me "I love you, Lilly." I reached up to kiss Chan once again, holding him as tight as I could, I didn't want his moment to fade. He gently traced my lips with his tongue, causing me to breath in moaning, and I parted my lips to let his tongue explore my mouth. Our tongues did a dance that seemed so flawless. Chan rolled me over onto the bed and started kissing my neck making his way down the side under my chin, trailing sweet kisses till he was in the middle of my breasts. He started to trail I tongue around my right nipples and gently tugging and squeezing the left at the same rhythm. This caused my pussy to tingle and I could feel my self get wet, wetter then I already was just from his presence in the room. He gently flicked and teased my nipple then taking it into his mouth to suck and bit on my nipple. He groaned as I thrust my hips on his thigh when he bit gently onto my nipple. My pussy was so wet it coated his thigh, the smell of my juices just intoxicated him even more. He turned his attention to my other nipple giving it the equal amount of pleasure causing the same affect, causing my body to react at the juices from my pussy to flow. 33 I moaned out load this sending him kissing down my belly, stopping at my belly button taking his tongue and licking around and then dipping inside like he would do my pussy. I thrust up just at the thought that my pussy was going to get the same attention. He grinned knowing my thoughts and knowing where I wanted him to kiss and lick. My pussy needed his attention. He then worked his way down kissing around my pussy lips making sure not to go to my center just to tease me even more. He took his hands holding my hips down so I could not move or thrust up to his mouth. He wanted to tease me and he was doing a good job of it. He slowly started working his tongue to the center of my mound working his tongue into my lips, but not touching my clit with his tongue. He wanted to saver all my juices that were flowing from me, I could not stop it from happening. "mmmmm Acai Berry and Magnolia." I smiled at him. "What?" was not sure what he meant by that. He smiled up at me and said "That is what you smell like and you taste even better." after saying that he went back to licking up as much of my juices that he could. Knowing that he loved the taste sent even more flowing. I couldn't take it, I so wanted him to suck and lick my clit, but he would just continue to work around it. My hips were still being held down so I could not force my hips to his invading tongue. "Chan stop teasing me and suck my Clit, damit." He smiled up at me and said "As you wish." just then his tongue circled and flicked my clit and one finger slipped into my soaking wet pussy. I thought I was going to explode right there, he let go of my hips and I thrust up to his thrusts into my pussy. He then added another finger filling that void even more. I moaned out load as this going to make my head explode. I couldn't take it any more and my juices started flowing out and my hips started bucking wild and I started screaming in pleasure the orgasm that filled my pussy and body was mind blowing. He sat up and licked his fingers, making sure not to miss one drop. Showing me how much he did love the taste of my juices. I tired to raise up so I could go to his hard cock, I wanted to repay him for what he just done. He pushed me back down and told me not tonight. I smiled up at him and he got back on top of me kissing me passionately. I could taste my juices on his mouth. He was right I did taste pretty damn good if I do say so my self. He knew what I was thinking and stuck his fingers in my mouth, and I sucked the rest of my juices of his fingers making sure I got everything he missed. He positioned his hard cock over my wet pussy and gently started to enter me, there was no resistance this time and he slid right in with out a struggle but it was still nice and tight to give him much pleasure. The filling that he fit just perfect inside me made him growl and I knew how wolf was going to merge sooner or later. I could already fill his knot start to grow inside me. This causing me to gasp in pleasure and trusting my hips up to his hard cock to make sure he was all the way inside my pussy. This started his thrusting first slow then he could not take it and started ramming his hard cock into my pussy. With every thrust of his cock it was met with the thrust of my hips to meet him. It was going to be wild passionate love making. The kind that just makes your mind blow. His head was nestled in my neck and with every thrust he would nipple on my neck. This was so intoxicating. I could feel Chan changing, I was sure he would not take me in his feral form in this position but his hybrid was coming out for sure. His cock started getting bigger with the change and I could feel his muscles ripple and his teeth grow on my neck. This sent me over the edge and I thrust even harder letting out little yelps of enjoyment, just as I was about to cum and I knew he was going to as well, he bit down on my neck sending me into an orgasm I thought I could never have, I thought he had already give me the best and this one just caused the juices to flow down my legs. He shot his seed deep inside my pussy right after me, and as his thrusting slowed down his human side started merging back and slowing down till he stopped his body weight on me. I didn't mind it felt great being under him. Showed me how strong he really is. We rolled to the side knowing the knot would be there for a while. He stroked my hair and told me once again "I love you." I let out a long sigh and told him "I love you too." Nothing To Live For? Ch. 04 This chapter in non erotic as I wanted to focus on Lee talking to Priscilla about Chan and Lilly. Chapter 4 "Lee talks to Priscilla" Lee knew he was in for a difficult conversation with Priscilla regarding Chan and Lilly. He pondered how he would even approach this sensitive subject with her. He had to convince her that everything was all right and that she was his mate anyway. Convincing Priscilla that she should mate with him was going to be an adventure in itself. But he knew in his heart that Priscilla was his mate and he would have her sooner or later. While some of the pack lived on the estate some had chosen to live in their own homes in town. Priscilla was one of the pack members who made this choice. This didn't make the pack member any less submissive or loyal to Chan or any less valued as a pack member, it was just a choice each pack member could make. Lee had never been to Priscilla's home, she had never invited him nor did he think she ever intended to. He pulled up into her driveway which was off the road a ways and was nice and private. It was an all white gravel driveway to match her Victorian style white with green trim cottage. Priscilla's cottage looked nice and quaint. Looking at it Lee thought it suited her personality. The cottage had a lake-side view and it was surrounded by forest which was perfect for when she wanted to go run and hunt. Lee parked his car and took a deep breath. Getting out he noticed how inviting her porch was. It gave off an air of relaxation and comfort with a porch swing and a hammock. He could see himself relaxing on the porch swing with her. This was a place where a couple could raise a family and grow old together. Lee wanted to grow old with Priscilla. He started up the porch and before he could even knock on the door she opened it up. Lee was greeted with a stern "What?" "Hello Priscilla, I know you were not expecting me." "Don't you believe in calling ahead?" "I know, I apologize but it was short notice and Alpha Chan needed me to get over here ASAP." Priscilla's eyes got wide and a smile grew on her face "Well then come in." Lee walked into her cottage. It was very modest but also had an expensive classy look to it. When you entered you were in the living room area. The furniture was cream colored leather and the room was extra cozy because of the fireplace. The tops of the coffee and other tables were made of a fancy glass. Assorted magazines were displayed on the coffee table along with a flower arrangement of white lilies in the center. Everything was clean and crisp. On the floor in front of the fire place was a thick, white rug. One thing he thought odd was that there was no TV in the living area. Off to the right he could see the kitchen area and the dining area but he didn't have a clear view to see what it looked like. He was not even sure if he would get that far into her home. After Lee took in the surrounding area he then started looking her over. He still could not believe how beautiful she really was. Though it was custom for wolves to keep their hair shorter because it was easier during the change, Priscilla never would cut her beautiful golden-blond hair that grew down to her waist. It just added to her beauty. She had the biggest, most beautiful chocolate brown eyes. Usually you would see blond hair paired with blue eyes but hers were like melted chocolate and he could get lost in them. She was strong but not overly built up. Her legs were muscular and strong and you could tell that she stayed in shape. Her breasts were average, about a C cup, but she had curves in all the right places to go along with them. She was on the taller side, about 5 foot 8 inches, but still not as tall as Lee. She never wore makeup and she didn't need to. Her skin was like porcelain but soft and her lips were a natural pink. No, there was no reason to cover up her natural beauty. "Have a seat, Lee. So what does our Alpha need from me?" "Well, Priscilla, he sent me over to talk with you. I am not sure were to begin." "I guess you can start from the beginning." "Ok that works, remember last year when Chan saved that woman from the car crash?" "Yes, how can I forget that, that poor woman lost her whole family, her husband and children. I can't even imagine what she must be going through." "Ok, well the thing is Chan felt that she was his mate. She came back to town to do some investigating on the crash to try to figure out what happened that day and well, Chan ran into her, and one thing led to another and now he has taken her as his mate." Priscilla sat there with a blank stare on her face. "What the hell? He has taken a human as his mate? Is he crazy?" "Priscilla, he is Alpha and can do what he wants. He would never do anything that would harm the pack. It is not unheard of to take a human mate." "No, No this can't be happening to me. What the hell! So he didn't have the guts to come and tell me himself?" "That is not the way it is. He is busy getting ready for the meeting tonight with the council and the mating ceremony will be this weekend. He felt that you needed to know before anyone else, but he could not get here with everything going on." "Ha! I think he took the easy way, having you tell me." "Priscilla, we are not to judge our Alpha's choices, decisions or actions." "This will not do at all, the council will not go for this at all." "There is no choice for the council. They have to listen to the Alpha and there is no set rule against taking a human for a mate. It is his choice and as Alpha he can do what he wants. For that matter, it's any other wolf's choice if they want to take a human mate." "Well I think there should be a rule against it made." "Well there is no rule and Lilly is a great person and loving woman. She loves the Alpha very much and is a very strong-willed. She will make a good mate to our Alpha." "That has yet to be seen. She is still grieving. How can she love him?" "It has been almost a year since her loss and she has every right to move on. We have no right to question her feelings for Chan." "Mmmm. You are right, but I have every right to challenge her, don't I?" "That would not be wise Priscilla. I don't think you want to get on Chan's bad side and she will not be a weakling for you to easily beat. She has chosen the change as well as to mate with Chan and she is a very strong person to begin with. We know her strength will be greater in wolf form." "That is also yet to be seen and it is my right to challenge her if I want to." "Even if you did challenge her and won, where would that get you with Chan? I will tell you where it would get you. It would get you nowhere. Do you think he would just accept you as his mate? We both know he wouldn't and he would disown you as well for hurting his mate." "It's a chance I am willing to take!" "Why, why would you even want to take that chance at all?" "Because he was supposed to be MY MATE, he was mine!" "Priscilla, that may have been what you wanted but Alpha Chan did not and does not have those feelings for you." "This is not over!" Lee sighed, "Priscilla, I will not let you do this. You are not in the right state of mind. You are mad, disappointed and hurt and you need to cool down." "You are right, I am not in the right state of mind!" Lee was doing a pretty good job of keeping his wolf from taking over during this conversation. It was getting harder to hold him back. And he could see the change in Priscilla already. He knew her wolf was not going to stay back much longer. He knew she would not hurt him and maybe it was best if she did change and take a run or go hunting and cool off. "Priscilla, I am Beta and if you don't settle down I will make you settle down." "You...you don't tell me what to do!" This indeed was enough to set her off and she no longer was able to keep her wolf back. Lee was fascinated at how fast her change into her wolf was. Her wolf was just as beautiful as she was. Like her hair, her wolf was a golden blond. It's not always the case that a wolf will have the same coloring as there human hair. But with Priscilla it was and because she had long hair her fur was a bit longer as well. Her big chocolate brown eyes glared at Lee. Her size was magnificent as well. While Lee's wolf was much bigger, hers was not small, especially compared to the average female wolf. She growled at him and went out the front door and ran into the forest. He didn't bother to change and follow her. He felt that she needed time. But he wanted to stick around and wait for her to come back just to make sure she would be calmed down and would not do anything rash or stupid. Lee took advantage of this time to call Chan and give him an update of how his conversation with Priscilla had gone. He figured that Chan would want to know her reaction and that there was a chance that Priscilla might challenge Lilly after she was changed. Chan needed to be ready for anything coming his way before, during and after the mating ceremony. Lee was a very good Beta, as well as Chan's best friend, and he would make sure that his Alpha and his new mate were taken care of and safe. That is why Chan had picked him to be his second in command or his Beta. "Hey Chan you got a minute?" "Yah, what's up? How is it going?" "Well, like we expected she didn't take it very well that you have mated someone else besides her, and more so, that she's a human." "That will just have to be something she has to deal with and live with, as I am Alpha." "That is what I told her and I am sure she will eventually see it that way, but Chan, you have to know there is a chance she may challenge Lilly after her change." "This is something I was expecting in the back of my mind. While Priscilla can oftentimes be the kindest, sweetest person, there are times she can be very spiteful and bullheaded as well." "You are very right, my Alpha, and this is something that we may have to deal with later after the mating ceremony." "Well if she does not have a change of heart before the mating ceremony she will not be allowed around Lilly and Lilly will have around the clock protection while she changes and has a chance to learn defense. That is my rule, Lilly gets a chance to train to learn how to fight in a challenge." "Yes, my Alpha, I agree and I will make sure she is well guarded if it comes down to that." "Lee you're a good Beta. I know how you feel about Priscilla and you're not letting that get in the way which shows how loyal you are to me and the pack. It really does mean a lot to me." "I think Priscilla will come through, Chan, if we give her a chance. If not, well then she will learn her lesson the hard way." "You have a good heart, Lee." "I will let you go be with your mate because you have a long meeting ahead of you tomorrow night." "You're right, and Lee, I'll need you to stay with Lilly during the meeting. I don't think I will need you there and we will need someone to protect her just in case Priscilla is out of her mind and does not wait for Lilly to change." "Consider it done, Chan, and I will talk to you later." After Lee hung up with Chan, he knew it would be a while before Priscilla made her way back to the cottage so he decided to take a look around the rest of her place. He made his way to the kitchen and much like the front room everything was pure looking and in white. The appliances were all white, the tiles on the floor were white with a slightly darker color grout. The counter tops were small white tiles as well with white grout but there was a surprising splash of color on the wall. Mosaic tiles covered the wall above the counter tops to prevent food or liquids from getting on the wall. It was actually very pretty to look at. Her cabinet doors were glass and you could see through them. You could see all her dishes and cups and of course they were all white. He could see that she had an obsession with using white, making everything clean and crisp. Nothing was out of place either. It didn't even look like the kitchen was cooked in but he was sure it was. The dining area was simple but beautiful as it was surrounded by bay windows and you could look out across the lake. There were no curtains up, just white, horizontal, wooden blinds that you could open and close as needed. There was a Victorian style glass table with chrome backed chairs with white cushions that were covered with clear plastic to keep them clean. Lee made his way out of the dining room and up the stairs. He wondered if her rooms were just a crisp and white as the downstairs was. To his surprise, when he entered the master bedroom it was not like the downstairs at all. The curtains were a burgundy velvet and had flowers draped along the top. Her bed was a four poster king size mahogany wooden bed. It was decorated with red silk sheets and a beautiful comforter with assorted burgundy and red shapes in an abstract pattern. Throw pillows were piled at the top of the bed. On the floor was a black rug, and the rest of her furniture matched her mahogany bed. She had a high boy dresser and a vanity with a mirror. On the opposite side of the room was the door to the master bath and a desk with a chair and lamp on it. The only other thing that graced the desktop was a laptop. Lee thought to himself, "So she does have a darker side." This would explain her bull-headed attitude and her out right disrespect earlier. He made his way to the master bathroom. There was nothing really special about it. It was simple. There was a garden tub with candles on the sides of the tub. The sink was a white pedestal sink. The room was very simple but relaxing. Lee strolled out of her room and looked in the extra room which was her work space to do all of her crafting and sewing. So she had a feminine side after all. He had never seen her as the crafting type. The guest bathroom was the same set up as her master one. All her decor was tasteful yet expensive and simple. Her house and her personality was a little at odds. It was almost like in person she was trying to put on this big girl personality that said 'I am tough and can do anything they guys can do,' yet her house spoke other sides of her. Lee figured he should go back downstairs and wait for her. He was sure that she would not be to keen to find him snooping around her cottage. He walked into the front room and remembered how inviting her porch was. So he decided that would be the place he would wait for her. He picked up one of the magazines that was lying on her coffee table and made his way out to the porch swing. Lee sat there reading the magazine and looked up as he could hear her making her way back to the cottage. He just continued to sit there as she strolled up in her wolf form then changed within the blink of an eye. Walking up to the porch as naked as the day she was born, she had no shame what so ever. But then this was common among wolves who tended to not be ashamed of being naked or having sex out in the open for that matter. She saw him staring at her and she barked at him, "What are you staring at." He grinned at the fact that she caught him doing so. What Lee was thinking was far from innocent. Her naked body was a sight to take in. He wanted to run his hands over her smooth porcelain skin and to be able to run his tongue along her neck down to her nipples teasing them until he drove her to the edge. He'd make his way down her tummy until he came to her sweet mound. It made his mouth water thinking about it. She walked into the house and he got up and strolled in after her. She went upstairs to get some clothing on while Lee waited for her downstairs. He waited on the sofa while she got dressed and when she entered the living room he stood up. "So have you calmed down?" He wanted to sound stern but yet still show concern. "I will live" "So do I have to worry that you are going to challenge Lilly?" "That is my business and mine alone." "No Priscilla it is my business as I will protect her as Chan's Beta." "I suggest you stay out of the females' battles Lee!" "I take it your run did not calm you one bit." "I am calm enough to not kill her in her human form, I will have my challenge with her once she is were." "This will not go over well with the pack. You are taking a huge chance with the pack and with your life! One last thing, Priscilla, and if you break this rule it will not go over well with Alpha Chan, you are not to tell anyone about Lilly until Chan talks to the counsel members tomorrow night!" Priscilla just grunted, then walked back into her cottage and shut the door behind her. Lee had said his piece and made his way back to his car. He thought about his having a month to change her mind and hopefully make her realize that she is his mate. This also gave him enough time to make sure she would not challenge Lilly for Chan. This was going to make an interesting month. Lee had his pride, but knew Priscilla didn't truly love Chan or think he was her mate. She just wanted Chan for the rank. Lee knew he could make her very happy and he was going to prove it to her. A lot of things were running through Lee's mind as he was making his way back to the estate. How Chan would react over Priscilla's attitude, how he would make Priscilla realize that she belonged to him. Lee thought about how hard it was going to be to keep Lilly safe before the mating ritual and then until her change. Priscilla may not be the only one who would want to challenge Lilly or Chan for that matter. He needed to make sure they both were safe. He had a lot on his plate, but he knew he could handle it all and that is why Chan had made him his Beta. Lee decided that he best call Chan to let him know that Priscilla's run and cooling down had not given her a change of heart. Lee pressed the button on his speed dial for Chan and waited for him to pick up the phone. "Yes!" Chan groaned into the phone. "I am sorry to bother you again, Chan. I am on my way back to the estate but I waited for Priscilla to come back from her run to see if she cooled off and had a change of heart, but she still has it set in her mind that she has the right and will challenge Lilly for her position as Alpha Female." "Well I know Lilly said she was going to wait until the day before to mating ritual to tell me if she would accept the change or not but she made up her mind tonight and she will be changed the night of the mating ritual." Lee sighed. "Well that brings some relief knowing she will be changed and can be trained to protect her self. In the mean time I am still going to work on breaking Priscilla's barriers down and making her realize that its not a wise choice and that I am the right choice for her." "I am sure she will come to her senses. She has a good head on her shoulders. And if she knows what's good for her she will change her mind. I may not accept her as a pack member after the challenge and Lilly will win the challenge." "Chan I have full confidence in Lilly and her training. I also have full confidence that I can persuade Priscilla to change her mind as well. I am a loyal Beta, Chan, and will back you and your mate up no matter what." "I know that Lee, and that is why I chose you as my second. You are not only a good Beta but you are my best friend." "That means a lot to me, it really does and I will work hard in getting this matter solved as quickly as possible." "Thanks for the update, Lee, I will see you later tomorrow. I will call you up to my den when I get ready to leave for the council meeting. Till then make sure the staff knows that I will be taking my meals in my den and make sure you are the one bringing them up to me. I don't want others to talk or know Lilly is here. I am sure you told Priscilla she better not say anything to anyone before the meeting or she is in for it, right?" Nothing To Live For? Ch. 04 "Yes, I did tell her and she is aware that she will be in big trouble if the news gets out. I will make sure your meals are brought up by me and I will keep an eye on Lilly during the meeting. I don't think it's necessary for me to be there, I am sure you can handle the meeting just fine without me." "Ok, Lee, see you later." Chan hung up the phone. Lee felt some relief in knowing that Chan had his temper in check. He felt that Lilly was going to be a good Alpha female for him and she was going to make a great addition to the pack. Lee pulled up into the drive of the estate and parked his car. He went in to make sure the kitchen staff knew to consult and talk to Lee for food preparation. He also had to make sure that the staff didn't suspect anything with the extra food being brought up. He could just blame it on Chan having a huge appetite as was not uncommon for a wolf to eat a lot. Lee walked into the kitchen and Laura the head chef was creating a menu for the next day. She jumped and was a little surprised to see anyone in the kitchen so late. "Hi Lee, what can I do for you, late night snack? "Hi Laura. I just need to let you know that Alpha Chan will be up in his den all day tomorrow, prepare his food like usual and some extra as well and I will bring it up." Laura didn't seem to pick up on anything strange about the extra food because Chan is big and an Alpha Male so he eats a lot. "Sure thing, Lee." she said with a smile and then returned to her menu. Lee headed for his den, since he was going to need a good nights rest. Not only to battle any possible threats that might come Lilly's way, but he was sure she was going to pick his brain for as much information on pack life and history as she could get. He was up for the challenges that lay ahead of him.