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Erskine

By: Junudi



I lay there in the darkness as I attempt to let sleep wash over me. Just as the veil of drowsiness approaches I feel fingers, like feathers brush across my cheek. I do not know whether to open my eyes and break the dream or keep them closed and enjoy. My head screams hey shouldn't you be afraid here? What the hell is touching you? But common sense says that my doors and windows are always locked, (I am perhaps too cautious there) and I hear not even a speck of dust move. 

Again the fingers touch me but now I feel a brush from my cheek to my neck. I shiver while goose bumps dimple my skin. I feel no heat, only energy coming from this silent admirer. Then the sensation runs from my neck to the crevice between my breasts making my buds instantly spring to life wondering what will happen next. Even though it is warm in my room, my body is behaving as though it is chilled, with goose bumps and shivers running through me. 

Just as I was beginning to enjoy this feeling, it stopped. Still no sound, no footsteps, no breath, nothing and then both of my calves pick up the sensation, these fingers sweeping all the way up to my heat, brushing tenderly the folds of my core, my flower if you will. (I have never been good at using those words that come so easily to others) I feel as if the shivers turn to fire and I am on the edge of a storm. Then it stops, damn it! I wait hoping that like before it will return, but in the midst of waiting my body begins to relax, my heart slows and sleep begins to overtake me again. 

My mind suddenly becomes clear and I know where I have felt this energy before. In my meditations I walk this forest path, and find my sacred space. I kneel in this open circle amongst the trees my knees touching the silken grass. The sun falls around me turning my brown hair to a fiery auburn, and my pale skin to a shimmering sunset pink. In this meditation I open my eyes to behold a pair of the greenest eyes I have ever seen inches from my face. I tried to keep my bearings and see to whom they belonged, but before I could, I was taken in by a rather delicious kiss. The kiss was long and slow burning like the embers of a dying fire. He smelled as lovely as the grass on which I was kneeling and tasted like summer mint. When he wills the kiss broken, for I would not dare to do so I open my eyes again to see whom has now captured my heart. Alas he has vanished from my sight. I hear only a name in the wind, "Erskine," it snaked its way through the trees and brushed into my ears. I meditated till the sunset turned to moonlight and when finally I was bathed in the silver of moonbeams I rose and walked back into consciousness.

I knew after that memory that this was the man I felt tonight. I still lay with my eyes closed wishing for him or at least sleep to visit me again. But before I could fall into the folds of my dreams, I feel the hair around my ear shift away and two simple words spoken in that same vapor of a voice "My love." Then as if he had never left, my body lit on fire again. 

Even with my eyes closed I could perceive the glow around him, feel this incredible light that he was giving off. I wanted so badly to see him yet was afraid to open my eyes that he might disappear into the mist. So I squeezed them closed in fear of breaking the sweet dream I was in. I feel him lifting me for a kiss and again he tasted of mint and now lavender and something a bit earthier though I could not distinguish it from the other tastes. The sensations reached below me now, the back of my head tingled and burned under his touch, yet all the while light as air. His other hand lifted my hips to meet his, I could feel my nightgown move, and his touch on the skin of my cheeks. Kissing, kissing, never stopped, I thought my tongue would fail me from exhaustion, but no the fire drove me further. The room lit up even more under the skin of my lids. He whispered for me to open my eyes and go with him, though I did not know his language, my heart knew what to do. 

My breath was knocked out of me when I actually beheld this beautiful man. His hair as green as the grass we now lay upon, with skin a pale blue, it shimmered in a light I had only guessed at when my eyes were closed, his touch now as real as any man's made my heart and lust grown to depths I did not know were possible. He reached around me and pulled me close and kissed me so deeply that all knowledge and sense were plundered from my brain. He laid my head down on the grass and looked at me for what may have been minutes but seemed like hours. 

"For years you have been coming to my grove, tempting me from afar. I prayed for your meditations that you would return to me. But you have been so long in coming that I pushed past the veil that separates our worlds and took you for my own."

I could barely speak at these words but I managed to whisper "I was so sad when you went away from me the first time that I could not bear to let my heart come back here. I did not know what I had done to offend you and could not risk doing so again."

"My darling you never offended, just puzzled me as to how to bridge our worlds, I knew that there had to be a way for us to be one, without ripping you from your home permanently."

"How then did you manage it? How will this work? Do you not want me with you always?" I had so many questions but one kissed silenced me.

"There is time for all to be explained, but for now we must love."

Oh and did we love, we loved till the sun became moon and back till the wind became our song and the moonbeams our blanket. He pulled me so close whispering words that revived my soul and lit me from within. He laid me upon that grass that had been our meeting place and then met me in a whole new way. As he entered me I felt every inch of him melding with me and yet offering sweet contrast. Our skin glowing in creams and blues, we lit up that forest with cries of bliss. Neither of us sweating for the wind blew it away keeping us in comfort. When he finally spent himself and saw to it that I was spent, I had wondered if he had planted a seed that may grow. I secretly wished that he did, though being of two different worlds I knew the improbability of it all. But reading my mind he just smiled and winked at me. I could only wonder at what this all meant. My mind did not have too long to race for we fell asleep in that sweet grass to the lights of the fireflies.

Mmmmm what a beautiful dream I thought as the sun let me know that it was well past time to wake up. But as I stretch my arm to shake away the sleep I see a bracelet of green vines imprinted on the skin of my wrist. I can barely breathe as I realize that my dream has become my new reality. Ooh I can not wait to meditate and dream again, I know there is more to learn and can not wait to do so.

Erskine Ch. 02



Can all of this really be true? Is Erskine real? My mind spun with beautiful questions from the evening's events. Even though in his world a few days went by, it was only an evening for me. I had heard of mortals taking on fairy lovers but I did not know of any in my time who had and certainly none in my circle. Oh sure we have giggled over fantasies of being seduced by a handsome fey, but really who were we anyway to think we could enter that world. I did not even realize I was blessed with the sight, it is such a rare gift and even those who have it must be allowed to enter their space, their territory. I have only heard rumors, nothing more than urban legend. But now I must ask and learn from people who have been there. Thank god for the internet, for my spiritual circle is not nearly wide enough to find someone.

Beep... "Hello Anne, this is Diana from the forum, you were kind enough to reply to my question, could we meet for coffee tomorrow? You can call or text me back at this number. Blessed be." 

I was so nervous I waited all day for the call or text. I busied myself around my home cleaning and cooking for the week. My nervous energy made these rather dull chores go by quicker than I had anticipated so I went to an extra yoga class to take my mind off my new situation. As lovely as it was, I could not bear to be apart from Erskine, but was too afraid to meditate and talk to him before I had more information. I routinely went through each pose, downward dog, goddess, lotus; each one became more tedious than the next. They brought me dangerously close to meditation and my mind back to his stunning face. 

I could not help but remember his arms glowing blue and rippled muscles as he held himself up to look down at me. His eyes burned into mine as if he had never seen me before. And the sex, good Lord, I have had sex before, but nothing akin to what I had experienced with Erskine, his long member filled and stretched me to my absolute limits, making me want to cry out in both pain and pleasure, he moved so slowly taking in every inch of my sheath. I watched him look for my pleasure, whispering his adoration. 

I felt every bit the goddess, yet so unworthy at the same time. How could he choose me? I would not call myself unattractive, but I am plump and so many men want their women lithe and long. I am earthy, curvy, dark, everything a man looks opposite of, they want ethereal, light, and nymphish. I have had many men comment that I am beautiful, but I know that many of them are only after my body not my soul, not my spirit. Erskine took his time in choosing and watching me. He knew my both my mind and body, he did not have to ask my needs, he could read them on my face. 

Oh no I forgot about the last twenty minutes of yoga, meditation?! Would he visit me here? Would he be mad if I went somewhere else? I would take that chance and go to our spot, perhaps he will know to leave me to my thoughts for a bit. He does after all know me so well. I lay down on my mat and listen to our instructor say the words that relax us into our minds. 

"Let go of the bad energy in your toes and feet, now relax the muscles of your legs..."

Her words fade out and I am walking down my path, feeling each blade of grass that slips between my toes and imprint themselves on the bottom of my feet. I look around; there is only sun, wind, and all the green life around me. I walk farther and farther down the path, it never seemed so long. Ahh I see the clearing, our clearing. My stomach tenses over the memories of last night, I try to keep calm and focused. The words "breathe in and out" echo in my head from some far away place. I walk, and on a rock on the outside of the circle I see what looks like paper. Is there even paper here? I go to pick it up, but it is shimmering and translucent almost like a hologram. I kneel beside it and begin to read.

"My love,

I knew it was too soon for us to meet again; you need time to gather your energy and thoughts. I know you are on a quest to learn our ways and I am truly grateful for that. You are a special woman with a thirst for knowledge that is why I chose you, but do not worry I will reveal all to you in due time. Go have fun with Anne, she will have lots to say, but be mindful that every mortal and fairy have a different experience. Take what you can from her wisdom, and search your heart for your own. For it will be a formidable combination.

Till tonight my sweet goddess,

~Erskine

I could not believe I could read the letter, surely it must be magic. He knew me better than I knew myself, my worries, and my doubts. I almost had to wonder does he do anything else with his time other than watch me? What do fairies do with their time anyway? Was he out seducing other women or does his heart belong to me alone? Does he have some occupation in his realm? So many questions about Erskine crossed my over-stimulated mind. Some skipped daintily on through and some plodded heavily behind.

Ding, ding, ding.... Echoed the zenergy chime pulling me back to consciousness. No matter how soft they were they always jerked me back like a string on a kite. It never allowed me to walk back through my forest like I did when I meditate on my own. After our final namaste I walked up to our instructor and thanked her. As I was leaving the newest member of our class a rather delicious looking man stops me at the door.

"I just have to tell you that some of your poses are simply beautiful! I realize I should be focused on my own form but yours is far more interesting." At that he gives what I think is a wink and before I can say my thanks he takes his leave and says "See you next class."

Now seriously of all the beautiful women in this class why on earth was he flirting with me? I do not know what I have done differently to deserve this lovely masculine attention, but I think I shall not change a thing! Life is just very strange, just three months ago I could not hold my boyfriend's attention and was left for his ex. Now here I am with relatively few changes to me and my life and I am being seduced by a gorgeous man from another plane and being flirted with, buy a cute guy in my yoga class. What is this world coming to?

After I walked out the studio and to my car I get a beep from my phone, oooh I forgot to look and see if I had heard from Anne. Sure enough she had called and said "coffee would be great!" So I press send and call her back. 

"Hello Diana, sorry about the phone tag we have been playing. I would be glad to share my experiences with you. How is four o'clock at the Groovin' Grinds Coffee Shoppe?"

"That works very well for me, I can not thank you enough Anne for your time. See you at four."

"Ok at four."

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I drove home and decided to take a shower before meeting Anne for coffee, no need to go anywhere but the gym looking so shabby. One by one my shoes came off and socks. Then the leggings and t-shirt I was wearing got thrown to the floor. As I was walking past my mirror, I could not help but notice the ivy ringlet I had been left with on my wrist. There I stood all 5'4" of me and my round body. But in my black sports bra and black panties, I could for the first time appreciate my curves. After a few moments I took my bra off and could see my round breasts bouncing from the removal of the bra. Then I took one hand to slip my panties off, well a shower is not very effective with them on is it? As they puddle to the floor I noticed more ivy right below the panty line. My mouth hung open I could not believe I had not noticed this before. I felt branded, marked as his. While my feminist side should have been pissed I could not help but feel a little giddy. I wanted to be his and for Erskine to be mine. My hand slipped down the trail the ivy made and into the soft folds of my flower, and like a flower my sensations blossomed. My eyes closed trying to remember where his hands had been and where his mouth skimmed my skin. I felt the sun shining until my flower exploded into a full-on bouquet. 

Sigh I slid into the shower and let the steam melt away any of the worries and flurry of thoughts I was having. My fingers swirled around making a cascade of suds fall down my back and over my round bottom, then finally to the floor. I moved forward under the showerhead and felt the hot water surround me. Oh I love showers; there are few luxuries in the world as good as a nice hot shower. Afterwards I wrapped my pink towel around me and made my way to my room. Oh what to wear?

I took my green set of bra and panties to match my new ivy tattoos. They were very sheer in hopes that my Erskine was somewhere looking on. As I was looking through my closet, I realized that my jeans and white cotton oxford are simple and always look great. 

After a little consideration of my appearance in the mirror, I began running through all of the questions I had for Anne. I almost wondered if I should make a list, for fear I would forget something. That was silly though for I am sure this would not be the last time I would see and talk to Anne. I wanted to make a good impression, for who knows if I would ever meet another with her knowledge. I did have to remember what the letter said, that Anne's experience is not the definitive answer, that ever couple is different. I suppose it is the same with human couples, that what works with one may not work for another. I got in my car and made my way down to the shoppe. 



Erskine Ch. 03



As I pulled up to the shoppe, I saw the loveliest head of red hair in the window. It was full and curly, what I imagined every Irish cliché to have. Sigh I am fully jealous I have always wanted that color and have tried several times unsuccessfully to achieve it. I opened the door and walked in to see that the redhead was wearing a silver Celtic pendant that was the same Anne's profile symbol online. 

"Hello, are you Anne?" I say rather nervously.

"Hello Diana! Come sit down, I got you a coffee already." She said as she gave me a warm hug.

"You are too sweet thank you. I should have gotten you the coffee for spending your time with me."

"Oh don't be silly, do you know how I have wanted someone to share this with who wouldn't think I am completely nuts! You are the second person I have come across to even have heard about let alone experience it. Tell me your story first and I will tell you all I know. This may be a two coffee conversation." She giggled at her own joke. I could tell we would get along well.

"Well I encountered his energy before I had met him. I had just been dumped by my boyfriend and was very heart broken. I had turned back to yoga and meditation for healing. Our instructor told us to walk in our minds to a place that was peaceful, so when I closed my eyes it was as if I had opened them in this lovely green forest. I started to walk and wander down a path until it had opened into a small but defined circular patch of grass. It was wide enough for me to kneel and draw a sacred circle around me. As I was tracing the circle in the grass with my finger for the first time, I could feel this energy swirl and wrap itself around me. It touched me in places that no human energy could have. I looked up and could see the air simply sparkle in greens and golds. No words were said, no physical contact just his light spirit. When I tried to address who was there it simply faded into the mist."

"Is that as far as it went?" she asked wide eyed.

"No not at all that is just how it began."

"Oh keep going please I want to hear it all."

"Well it went on like this for a few months of meditating, not always with the same intensity, but the light was always there. Sometimes outside of the circle as if watching me or protecting my space. Then the other night while I was lying in my bed I felt the same sensation all over my body, touching me in places that still make me blush to think about it." Her green eyes just kept staring at me through my regaling of the tale. 

"I could feel these invisible hands all over me touching yet not quite tangible, softer than the softest feathers of down. Invisible lips kept drinking kisses from me, tasting of mint and wild flowers. Then he told me to open my eyes, for I was afraid that the dream would end if I did. All of a sudden we were back in my meditation grove. Then we made love like I never had before." I almost giggled at how she watched me like a middle school girl. I had to wonder, who was helping who out here. I just continued. 

"It was slow and intense yet built to this wild need that just consumed me. The next day I woke up with this vine tattooed around my wrist and this morning I found one below my bikini line. When I meditated this morning he left me this holographic letter telling me that he would reveal more later. That brings you up to date now I think." 

"Wow you have been a busy girl, welcome to the club. The place you stumbled into during your meditations sounds like a fairy circle; these are sacred places for them and should not be entered carelessly. He must have led and wanted you there for you to have seen it in the first place. May I ask do you have a lover in this dimension?"

"Actually no I do not; my boyfriend broke up with me a few months ago."

"That is very off Diana, most time fairy lovers will only take up with you if you have a relationship already in this world. I think they feel it frees them from you entangling yourself in their lives. He must truly be smitten!"

"Do they have many human lovers at a time?"

"I honestly can not answer that I do not know myself. I never asked I think I am afraid to know the answer. I honestly do not know much more than you but will certainly answer anything I can."

"Well here's a good one, can you get pregnant from a fairy?"

"I have heard that you can, though I do not know of any one who has personally. Why? Do you think you are?"

"I do not know, he made an allusion to the fact that I may be, but I did not think it was possible. It has been so overwhelming. Another question I have is; would I be pregnant in this world as well or just the Fairy world? I know that you probably do not know, but just thinking out loud makes it a bit easier for me to process everything."

"Oh I understand Diana, when I first met Kavan I thought I was dreaming. It was not through meditation but through my visits to the forest that we met. There is a trail that my boyfriend and I like to go hiking on. One day we decided we needed a rest since it was so very hot. While my boyfriend Jayson was lying under a tree I decided to go for a dip in the stream. I walked myself to the waters edge and striped to nothing but my smile. I remember the water being quite warm which allowed me to go right in. I walked almost to the center where my feet still touched, but the water was so deep that it came to the top of my breasts. When I leaned back to get my hair wet, I felt hands skim across my breasts."

I

could feel my own breasts getting aroused at this thought, but I kept this thought to myself as I continued to listen.

"I jerked my head up to look around, but there was no one there. Then at once I felt hands moving from my ass to my, excuse my crudeness here but I rarely sugar coat things, vagina. He wasted no time exploring my folds with not only his hands but then his mouth. I could see nothing below the surface except for rocks and fish. Just as I closed my eyes, half out of fear and half out of enjoyment, I felt a tongue in my mouth and felt his cock begin to plunder me. It all happened without warning and with very little seduction. When I opened my eyes I find a man who was at least a full head taller than I and blue as the water I swam in, but he was dappled in greens and yellows he almost blended into his background. His pace quickened until I accommodated all of him, strangely I felt no pain though he was two times the size of Jayson. His hands seemed to be everywhere at once, rough and insistent, yet I could almost not feel him at all. I can not explain it. When we both came, our cries could be heard across the valley. He pulled my ear to his mouth and whispered 

"I could not let my river have all the fun between your legs!" 

"With that he disappeared below the water. Jayson came running to find me. When he saw me naked in the water he just figured that I took care of myself since I am a yeller in the bedroom. He smiled and joined me in the water. The sun shone off of his toned body as he waded across the stream to greet me."

"Your getting frisky without me huh, no fair to let me miss one of your famous orgasms." 

"Before I could tell him of my strange experience, he kissed me silly and let his hands knead my ass. I was then made love to all over again and our cries filled the valley once again in bliss. As we came out of the water he noticed something on the top of my thigh.

"Hey when did you get that? I thought you didn't like tattoos." 

"I looked down and saw waves in blue circle my thigh all the way around. I told Jayson to sit down so I could tell him what happened. He didn't miss a beat he explained my strange experience to me better than I to him."

"Sweets you just met a fairy, they are notorious for taking beautiful women or men who happen to find themselves in their territory. I have read about it before in my spiritual studies. Hmm I shall have to watch you more closely before I loose you all together." 

"He was so cute when he said that half proud that I had been noticed by them and half jealous to know someone else was in me other than him."

"Well that is one hell of a story!" I say "Could you ask Jayson where he had read about fairy encounters? I would love to know as much as I can."

"Of course, I am sure he would be happy to help. I still do not understand how you were taken without having a boyfriend on this plane. You will have to find out; there could be something important you should know. Also be careful, human men are going to find you suddenly irresistible."

"Well that certainly explains it."

"Explains what?"

"Today at yoga, the new man in our class started to flirt with me even though there are far prettier women in my class, who also out rank me in their learning of the practice."

"Find out what his rules are before proceeding with any other man." 

"Thanks Anne for the warning, though I only date one man at a time. Besides who would want a half fairy stepson? How would I even explain it?" I giggled at the thought.

"You would be surprised how easy it is to get sucked into something once you have been so sexually awakened. You will start to crave more."

"Oh I do, but I crave him, his lips, his arms, our joining. Anne, this has been so helpful even just to talk to someone else. Can we hang out again?"

"Oh yes please, I have learned as much from you as you have from me. I will give you a call when I know my next day off."

With hugs we said our farewells and looked forward to our perspective meeting.



Erskine Ch. 04



There was another meeting I was looking forward to all day, Erskine's face echoed through my mind, as I was reliving my encounter with Anne. It was difficult to remember where I was and not throw myself into the memory. I could not help but wonder what tonight would bring. Would we talk and work out logistics? Would he be as cryptic has he has been all along? Would he make love to me again until our screams fill the forest? Damnable questions kept coming and never an answer to be found. Absentmindedly I closed and locked my car up and made my way up the stairs to my apartment. I cleared a space in my living room and went about the preparations to mediate. I moved the coffee table, and lit my candles white for purity one blue and one gold for the Lord and Lady. I stripped down to my new bra and panties that I hoped Erskine would like. I drew my circle with some sea salt, though you could not see it for it had fallen into the rug, I knew it was there. I sat cross legged and close my eyes. I followed the path of my breathing, listening to it rise and fall trying to see the path in my mind's eye. As I relaxed I tied to remember Erskine's light and energy how it filled me, it did not come. I opened my mind's eye to the forest that calls to me, to the path that knows my feet better than I. 

One slow step at a time I walked on in search for my lover, I did not call him to me but rather waited for him to make the move. I felt as if I was a piece on a chess board and I did not want to awaken the queen's anger. I did not know the rules here, and this place and the people in it have been friendly, but I know that this is not always the case. They are called the good people out of fear and reverence, not because they are loving and kind. I suddenly did not feel as safe here as I once had, there was no sun that day, no wind, and in fact there was no sound at all. I finally made it to our spot and I knelt down in the grass to make my circle with my finger. I bowed my head down in child's pose as to humble myself before this new presence.

"If I am intruding I am sincerely sorry, my hope is to find peace here not to disrupt yours." I said making sure to keep my head down.

I stayed very still for what seemed like hours but I am sure was only a few moments. I soon felt hands on my shoulders it did not feel like Erskine's and the energy was different this time. I could see on the ground that there was a gold light emanating from this fairy. While the voice was not loud it permeated everything.

"Raise your head child."

Immediately obeying I lifted my eyes to see the most beautiful image, a female fairy surrounded by a golden halo. Her aura was unlike anything I have ever seen, shimmering in golds and opal fires. She knelt as to be eye level with me, her silvery white hair spilling over her shoulders in curls reached to the ground. I had never been in such awe. I could say nothing in reply. She reached her long finger to my chin and helped me to close my mouth, which must have been agape. I could feel the tears rolling down my cheek out of a mix of fear, awe and embarrassment. 

"You have nothing to fear, do not cry, I came here to see you. You are very important to us as I am sure you know." I could only reply with a quizzical look.

"Oh I see he has not told you, I am sorry that I will have to leave you more confused than before, but Erskine really should be the one to enlighten you, as to your purpose here. You will see me again when all has been revealed and I shall help you through the process."

Just as I managed to find the words, "What process?" She faded into the mist. "Arrrrggghhh!" Ok even though I was looking for peace, it apparently decided to take a vacation. Who was this woman? Where was my Erskine? I looked around me to see that the sun had returned and the birds were happily chirping again. All had seemed right and in place now. Who ever she was while she was not scary, I knew that she was someone of great power here. I have never seen and aura shimmer and glow like that, Erskine's was beautiful and strong but nothing like her's. I wonder what she meant about my purpose and what purpose could I possibly have; I am nothing, a nobody, if you will. There can be no connection other than Erskine between the fairy realm and I. I assumed no one else had known of my presence here. I mean I have noticed that I am a bit on the gifted side when it comes to spirituality, but not much more than anyone else who studies. After much pondering, I released my circle and asked my leave. I stood up and made my way to my door between worlds. I know that may seem pretty powerful, but I know lots of meditators who use doors to enter their peaceful place. How was I to know that my safe place was in the fairy realm? Besides I did not know one could even end up there through meditation alone. 

I reached the door and slowly turned the knob hoping for Erskine to meet me here before I left. He did not come. What could I do? My eyes opened to nearly extinguished candles and a slightly saltier rug. The room smelled nice and looked ready for a bit of romance, but I guess that was not to be for tonight. I let my breathing regulate itself before I actually stood up. I wanted to savor the relaxed feeling I had, for I knew that all too soon I would be tensing up again over the questions rumbling trough my mind. 

I went to my desk and sat down, not bothering to dress again. I actually liked sitting there in my cute lingerie set. I liked the contrast between my white skin and the green lace, I felt a bit like a fairy myself. I took out my diary and recorded the past few days' events. I do not write consistently in it, but I try to document the big events in my life and people I feel may be important. This certainly warranted documenting, besides with my terrible memory it would serve me well later to remember what may turn out to be important details. If I do indeed have a greater purpose, it would behoove me to be a bit prepared. I do suspect though that there is not much I can do to prepare, other than be open minded and ready for an adventure.

After writing I went to my kitchen to prepare some dinner, I made a simple fare of soup and a sandwich. Comfort food seemed best suited for a day like this. I could not bear to be alone so I made my way to the living room and curled up on my comfy couch for some good food and good TV. I turned to some lifetime movie of the week, a good way to make one feel better about the drama happening in their own life. My mind though kept switching between the movie and what I was trying to forget. I just wanted to be near him and touch him again, but he did not come to me tonight and I knew dwelling on it would not help. 

All night I went trough the motions, everything was merely lame attempts at distraction. I reached behind me to undo the hooks on my bra and slid one arm free at a time. I traced my fingers around each hard nipple, they almost looked angry to be so exposed to the cold and out of their cradles. I felt the weight of each, in my hand trying to relive Erskine's touch and playfulness. I hooked my thumbs on each side of my panty and slid them down and over my now naked behind. Even though it was larger than I liked I did have to admit that the skin was quite smooth and pink. I decided that since I was sans man for the night that I really should not deprive myself of a night's enjoyment. 

Lying down on my cool soft sheets, I tried to feel how my skin reacted to the texture. I felt a little chilled but savored the almost satiny feeling of it. I loved how cotton, unlike satin had a little friction to it. It smelled of lavender, almost like Erskine but not quite. It was as if he was there with me. I touched the outside of my flower as if tying to awaken it from a long winter. Slowly I could feel it blossom and grow. I took my finger and slowly circled the center bud over and over, that too blossomed. I could feel my body getting slick with perspiration and goose pimples growing hastily out of self defense. My breathing became harder and deeper as my fingers continued their delicious work. My love's face looking over me kept crossing my mind to fuel the fire. The memory of Erskine's slow and tantalizing entrance and subsequent filling brought me to the brink of ecstasy. 

I slowed a bit and brought my hands to my breasts in an effort to prolong this lovely feeling. I moved my fingers over my nipples softly and slowly, all of a sudden I get this tingling feeling all over my body. I realize that it was not the sensations of my breasts that were causing me to feel this way, but this gentle warm flutter happening over my flower. As I looked to see what was happening I could feel Erskine's beautiful tongue caressing me. He looked up at me as I was looking down at him and he briefly stopped to say 

"I have never seen your aura glow so brightly or in so many different colors my love!"

"It is you that is the painter, bringing my colors out with your kisses. You light me from within just by being here."

He smiled and went back to his dessert. I could feel him painting every part of me as an artist would, filling their canvas. His hands slid up my body and he continued to kiss and taste me on his way up to my mouth. As he kissed me, I felt his member seek its home. That was all it took for me to reach one of the biggest orgasms I ever had. He filled me over and over until he was spent as well. He stayed inside of me until we both fell asleep. We slept curled with his arms wrapping me like a blanket all night. His lips softly kissing and brushing my neck as our hearts found a rhythm to dream to. The last thing I remember is his whispering,

"Oh how I missed you." And with one last kiss we drifted off to sleep. 

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The next morning I was awakened to the sound of birds and wind playing softly. I could feel Erskine's hand tracing the outline of my hips and legs. Without opening my eyes I knew where we were. He must have brought me here, for I had to physically open my eyes. If I had come here on my own I would be able to see here with my mind's eye.

"Mmmmm" I stretched my arms and arched my back to shake off the sleep. 

"My, my aren't you the cutest little kitten I ever saw, though thankfully not quite as furry." He playfully said. I looked at his hand in time to see it bringing me a bit of fruit, berries I think. "I thought you should have some breakfast before we talked this morning. No need for you to be distracted by hunger when I am telling you a rather fantastic story."

"Oh good I have so many questrgmmhh" I was interrupted by some more berries being popped into my mouth. He giggled at my furrowed brows and said,

"Eat; I know you have questions I could read it in your dreams. I want to tell you everything before you ask your questions. I promise to stay this time to hear you when I am done telling you the information I have found." After the berries were almost gone he pulled out what looked liked an apple but was much sweeter and a bit softer than any apple I had ever tasted. Then some other savory delicacies that I did not even have a clue to what I could compare them to. I noticed that he ate a little, but was far more concerned that I was satisfied.

"I am glad you have such a good appetite my love. I love watching you eat, you enjoy food almost as much as you have enjoyed our love-making." I smiled at that and could feel a blush spreading from my cheeks down to my shoulders. He kissed my cheeks and said "Do not ever be embarrassed for enjoying God's gifts, that joy you have is one of the best gifts a human or fairy could have. Too few beings can live in the moment and enjoy what their senses reveal to them. I delight in feeling your joy."

"I am glad you see things as I do, for humans life is too short to not savor everything we can."

"Fairies feel life in the same kind of blink that you do. Even though we live many human generations, death never seems timely."

"I suppose you are right Erskine." At that I hugged him tightly. Then smiled and said, "Now how about that fantastic story you have to tell me." 



Erskine Ch. 05



"Well when I went to court yesterday, there was this buzz going around about the time of prophesy coming to pass. I kept enquiring of these people, which prophesy? We have many in my world and most of them I take with a grain of salt. The only one I could ask and get a reliable answer from is my mother. It took all day to locate that woman and all she would tell me is that it involves my new love. I should have known that she would find out about you, that woman knows everything. I was just surprised when she did not reprimand me for having a love attachment to a human. Once or twice as a youth when she saw me playing between the worlds she would warn me to never become serious with humans."

"Really, why is that, don't others take lovers?"

"Taking a lover is different that falling in love."

"Are you in love with me?"

"Can you not feel it between us? You must know I am so very much in love."

"I do feel it, but just assumed it was my female mind praying upon my hopes of love and being loved. I know that fairies do not commit to human lovers."

"That my dear is precisely why I thought I would be facing a stern lecture from my mother, but she was smiling and glowing as I have never before seen. My friends have been chastising me for my attachment to you but today amongst the buzz, they said nothing, but patted my back."

"How very strange it must have been for you. I do not want to strain your life, only ever to be an asset. If we need to part please tell me, I must know."

"Part from you? No! Why would you think that I could never part from you, you are my life. From what little I could gather, we are fated to be together. This would mean that you must make some hard decisions."

"What would those decisions be? How long do I have to decide?"

"Well my love, you will have before the next full moon, and that will be in seven days. In those seven days I will leave you to your thoughts and only come here if I get more information."

"Why must you stay away? I am able to make up my mind with or without you here. I am quite capable you know."

"I do know, quite well, but to befuddle your mind with sex would not be fair and some would call it manipulating. Even if you think you know your answer when I tell you, do not answer me right away I want you to understand the permanency of the decision and for you to weigh all of your options."

"I understand now please tell me for God's sake."

"Well I will start with that you are indeed pregnant, whi..'

"Pregnant? How?"

"Heheh, I do believe you know and can still feel how my dear. Humans and fairies can mate quite successfully. It is part of the prophesy that you carry this baby. Now for the decision, not only are we fated to be in love but married as well. The big question is, Diana will you be my bride?"

There was only stunned silence, and a single tear falling down Diana's cheek. Erskine reached and wiped it away then kissed her cheek as softly as a rose petal.

"Is that a tear of joy or sorrow, my love?"

"Both I think." She said laughing. "I know the decision I must make does it involve living in your world?"

"You are indeed a smart woman, yes that is the decision you must make. What your purpose other than simply being my bride and mother to our beautiful baby I do not know. Once I find out I will be sure to tell you."

"If I decide to stay in my world, how will the baby be affected verses going to yours?" 

"To my knowledge our child will appear in every way human, but most have strong magical abilities. Such as shifting between worlds, telepathy, they usually are gifted with the site. You already possess many of these qualities, so our child will be quite powerful. I realize that this may not help in your decision; you were probably seeking some detriment in either decision. To stay here would not part us forever, but simply change your path and potentially the purpose or hope of our prophesy."

"I do want so much to be with you, but to live in your world will be more than hard to explain should I want to come and visit my friends and family. Can I tell them? What are the rules here?"

"You may tell one person, whom ever you trust most in this world. Most humans are not ready to know our world yet and the few people, who are ready to know or do already, are here to protect us."

With that they kissed long and passionately, knowing that this may be the last time their lives are uncomplicated and their love pure. Each had tears and an unsaid hope in their heart that this parting would bring them eventually closer.

Diana's mind immediately went to her mother, for so long, as long as Diana could remember the two of them were it. Diana had no memory of her father and her mother's reluctance to discuss him kept Diana from bringing it up more than two times in her life. The first time she was just starting school and they were having a parents' weekend festival. She could not help but notice that the other children had two parents with them. She had asked her mother why she had only one parent. Her mother told her it was because she loved her more than enough for four parents let alone two. They hugged and giggled and that was enough for the time being. The other time was just as Diana was going to college. As she was packing and going through her old boxes, she opened up one of her mother's boxes by accident. She found an elaborate silver jewelry box. When she opened it she found a silver pendant that was so pure and polished that it seemed to glow. She brought the box to her mother and asked where it came from. Her mother quietly asked her to put it back from where it had come and to not ask her again. When she came back downstairs, she found her mother sitting in her favorite chair with her hands in her lap. Diana knelt down at her feet and immediately felt her pain. She knew it had come from her father. 

"I am so sorry, I never meant to cause you this much pain. I just thought it was so beautiful and thought it was a shame that you never wore it."

"You are not the cause of this pain, this pain so old I thought it was gone from me. I know that I do not have to tell you who gave it to me, but I will for perhaps it will help me to free the pain from my heart. It was my engagement gift from your father. We were to be married that May 1 of that year, but the day he gave that box to me was the last day I ever saw him. Then my dear on October 31 you entered this world. I wore that pendant until your first birthday, it was then I knew I would not see my love again. You became my love, my life. I have no regrets, except that you never knew your father. He was a beautiful man inside and out. You got your many gifts from him. I am sorry it took me so long to tell you."

Diana was covered in tears at the thought of leaving her mother and knowing she would never meet her grandchild. How could she explain? How could she perpetuate the single motherhood that she had grown up with? She knew she wanted for nothing and could never repay her mother for her many sacrifices, but she also knew the pain of unanswered questions. She knew that she must tell her mother. The question was how and when? While her mother was a believer, seriously now, this was a bit unbelievable. 

Diana's hands shook as she picked up the phone and dialed her mother's numbers. She knew what her decision was; now how does she break her beloved mother's heart? The phone seems to ring forever when she hears a beep.... "I am away with the girls until the 5th leave a message or give me a call when I am back!" beep.

Uuugggghhh the 5th that was four days away, how could she wait four days? It was so unfair; she had to sit with her cocktail of emotions, sadness, guilt, giddiness, hopefulness for 4 days? How was she to keep from going mad? She would only have two days of work to keep her busy, and she couldn't even pack for where she was going. She would have to get all her finances in order so her mother could sell her house and keep the profits as a nest egg for herself. 

She called her lawyer and made all of the necessary provisions for her mother to take over control of her assets. Her lawyer gave her a puzzled tone; but did as he was asked. So now 3 days 12 hours and 15 minutes left. She decided a nap was in order, to help clear her head and perhaps her dreams would give her some insight that would help her on this new journey. 

Diana stripped out of all her clothes with little ceremony and lay on her bed. She hated to sleep with clothes most of the time they felt so restrictive. She placed her hand on her stomach to see if she could feel the baby growing inside her. She knew that she would not really be able to feel the baby but wondered if even at this early stage the baby would have its own energy field. She kept thinking of what her life with Erskine would be like, and how making love would change after the baby. Her finger found her clit and began its work. She thought how strange it was that she should be so turned on right now even with all of the thoughts weighing on her mind, but remembering the feeling of Erskine filling her with his seed and how a part of him was growing in her now just made all those feelings intensify. Her fingers fondled the downy hair on her lips, and then would swirl around flickering past the sensitive little nub. She took her other hand and brought it from her belly to her nipples. They instantly hardened. She noticed how elaborate her ivy markings had gotten and how rose buds were now becoming part of the design. She could not help but wonder why or how they were changing and how much of her would eventually become covered. She then took two of her fingers and began to slide them in and out, in an attempt to relive some of the magic between her and her beloved. She slid down so her legs became wide open. Her breathing quickened and her muscles began to tense up. Then as she slid her fingers in one last time she took her other hand to her clit. Her quick little pants became deep and loud screams. She threw her head back and breathed out the last of her orgasm, then settled herself for a long and deep nap.

There in her dreams she awoke to see her space, sunny and green and the woman she had met here before. 

"Seems you know how to make an entrance young lady, I could hear you all the way on this side." The woman just had this big smile on her face.

"I, I am so sorry, I had know idea." Diana stammered and blushed.

"Do not worry, I, even at my age am not above a good head spinning orgasm. Too few women know what their bodies are capable of. That of course is not why I am here. You are now aware of your choice and destiny, you are also aware of the fact that it remains your decision to make. Though we are powerful we do not use it to force what is supposed to be. You should know that your power and intuition grows to prepare you for life here. I can see your decision, but know that you should not rush to tell dear Erskine. Human hearts have a way of changing and you must be sure."

"Oh I am quite sure. I suspect I was always meant to be here."

"Still use all of your time and yes your mother is the one person you should tell. She will understand and accept whatever decision you make should you stay or leave. Neither decision will have a bad affect on your child for it will be loved no matter where you decide to raise it. Your purpose though will be told to you on the day you reveal your decision. It can not be used to change your mind. A marriage must be made with a pure and unswayed heart."

"I do understand, and will make my decision with a clear mind. How can you be so sure that my mother will be as receptive as you say? I know her heart will be broken again. I do not know if she can handle more than one heart break in a life time."

"Your mother knows all too well about the sacrifices of love and knows that you love her. Also things and paths are not always as defined as you may think. Use your heart to create new paths and new ways of thinking. That too is part of your purpose. Be well my child and sleep with a soundly."

Diana looked up at her and silently thanked her. For the first time, she could read the woman's thoughts and found nothing but good intent and peacefulness. Slowly her mind drifted away and into a deep sleep.



Erskine Ch. 06



I spent the first few days stewing about my mother being gone and having to delay the breaking of her heart. I still did not know how I did it. The days were a blur of cleaning, yoga, writing out what I would say, and thinking of my sweet Erskine. Ah, yoga class, the man who had started flirting with me, continued to try to pursue me. I put up my best defenses, but Yoga helps to make you more open, not closed up, thus defeating my tactics. Bryan, that is his name, placed his mat right next to mine even when I would place myself in an already crowded location. I could feel his eyes on me every time my head was turned away. He would "accidentally" graze my arm or hand. During the airplane pose, his hand even grazed my ass. When I moved farther, he would inch over until he was back in the same proximity. As I was leaving at the end, Brian came up to me and backed me up against the wall until his tall frame was towering over me. He did give me a genuine smile, but I was more than a bit annoyed by it. I just wished that it were Erskine before me.

"My, my you are positively glowing out there." He ran his fingers over my triceps, I am supposing in an effort to flatter me or to turn me on. 

"Thanks, well I hate to run, but I really must be off" I tried to slip under his arm and make my escape, but he anticipated my plan and moved even more in front of me. I just glared up at him and said.

"Thank you for your attentions, but you are now making me very late have a good day!" He stepped aside and made a pretentious bow as if suddenly being a gentleman and taking off some imaginary hat. Goodness he went from hot to annoying in a matter of one class. I could have sworn as I walked by I heard him muttering something under his breath. Normally it would not bother me, but I got shivers and my instinct told me that he was casting a spell. I know its ridiculous, but it is just the feeling I got. There was nothing snide in the tone of it, there was something a bit sexual, but I could not make out the words. I figured I would go home and meditate my stress away, but I got the nagging feeling that I should not be alone tonight. The whole ride home my mind kept going to the sound of his voice, that smooth, low rumbling. I gave Anne a call hoping that she could help me figure out what is going on.

"Anne, can I come over, I really can't be alone right now."

"Hey Diana, what's wrong you sound worried."

"I don't really want to talk about this until I feel I am in a safer place."

"Sure come right over, do you remember where the coffee shoppe is? Go past it by one light swing a left at the light. Then at the second stoplight go right I am the fifth house on the left. It is a large Victorian, in a pastel green and brown."

"Thank you so much." I sighed more out of stress than relief. I stopped at the coffee shoppe and bought us each a giant coffee and a rather sinful dessert, I had a feeling it would be a very long night. His voice kept getting louder and louder in my mind, drowning out all other thoughts. The fear was also growing; it was as if he held a megaphone to my head, amplifying everything. God I Just wanted Erskine right now, comforting me holding me. I only had a day and a half before my mother comes home and a few more days until I give my final decision. It is cruel to make me wait so long, even if I understand their reasoning. Anne's house is lovely; the low evening sun accents each of the different colors.

I grabbed the coffee and deserts and made my way up the large set of stairs. I could not even knock before the door swung open and she swept me inside. 

"Aww you shouldn't have sweetie, I had the same thought and put a spread out on the table!"

"You know what they say about great minds! Looks like we shall eat well then." She set everything down and gave me a big hug.

"Ok Diana fess up what happened?"

"I went to yoga class and that guy I told you about pulled right up next to me. It was flattering at first until his hands kept "accidentally" touching me then to a full on grab."

"Oh my what did you do?"

"I just kept moving over in hope that he would get the idea."

"The first thing is that except for our fairy lovers, men are rather dim, honey you can not give hints!"

"I know but I was hopeful, I try to have faith in my fellow humans. That was not the worse of it though."

"Oh really?"

"Yes, on the way out he came right up and cornered me, almost pinned me to the wall. He kept complimenting me but he was just so aggressive, I got scared."

"I do not blame you hun, it does sound scary."

"I thanked him for the kind words but in a firm way let him know that I was late and had to go. I then slipped out from underneath his arm and began my quick walk to my car. It was as I was leaving that I got really scared, I heard him muttering under his breath in a very low voice. I just got this overwhelming feeling of anger. Until I got here with you. She led me to one of her big comfortable chairs and told me to sit down while she brought some food over. I continued to tell her how I got the feeling he was casting a spell, but I did not know why since I could not make out any of his words.

"Hunny you have to trust your gut. magic attracts magic, we know our kind."

"What do you mean our kind?"

"You are Wicca aren't you?"

"I am pagan yes, but what does that have to do with anything?"

"Well you are of the old faith then. We have a sense about us, even those who possess no powers beyond human capability can sense others with similar beliefs. I suspect that you possess more than normal, may I read your hand?"

"Yes but why?"

"It will give me more insight into your problems."

She pulled her ottoman to be up close to me and took my hand in her's she dropped my hand almost immediately.

"My God, I have never felt energy like yours, but I can see this man's energy crawling all over you like cockroaches. We need to do a purification spell immediately, your energy as strong as it is fading fast."

"But I feel so much better now." 

"Sweetie we need to do this now! Follow me." She spoke with almost a motherly tone I just followed. Anne led me to this beautiful room with an alter in the middle. I knew the set up well, for in my youth and searching I had found a few covens who welcomed me in to learn what they were about, but when it was all said and done, I found them to be as restrictive as church was for me and set out on my own path. We are still in contact for they were some of the kindest people I have ever met. Anne told me to get in the center and she went about preparing the circle. Once all of the supplies were gathered she handed me a sprig of lavender, mimosa, and a chili pepper for purification, protection, and removing of whatever spell he had cast on me. Anne went about creating the circle. Salt was spread in the outside ring and at each of the four corners she placed a white candle with the one of the elemental signs carved in the side. On the alter she placed one silver candle for the Lady and one gold for the Lord. We called the corners and asked for their protection and aid. Then in turn, we called upon the Lady and Lord to bless the lavender, mimosa and chili pepper that I was carrying and would carry until I was safe. I took a flower and placed it on the incense to burn. We proceeded to sit in the circle and hold hands as we meditated. 

It was in that moment I realized what the spell was, he had closed my door to the fairy realm. I could see nothing, sense nothing beyond my own eyelids. Oh shit! 

"Anne I know, I know what he did!"

" What is it Diana?"

"He closed the door, I can't get to my place!"

"Do not panic, it could simply be that we are connected and each have our own place thus blocking each other's way. Let the spell do its work, perhaps as you sleep tonight it will come to you." I sighed, she was right it was too soon to tell, but what if that was what he did to me? How can I get back, I must see Erskine! Surly the baby must bind me to that world. I forced my mind to quell its fears and try to meditate. As I did all of these images kept coming over me. I saw my aura being taken over, draped in red and black, I saw my baby's aura being stripped, as if it's life was being pulled away. The worst of it was that I could not even tell Anne. After my horrifying meditation Anne gave me some lavender tea to cleanse me inside and out. Who was that man? There had to be more to him than just being rejected. 

"Anne can you read my cards? I want more insight on Bryan."

"Yes, of course." 

She had been prepared and brought it into the circle already She went about her work quietly and focused. We found the card that represented me and did a traditional Celtic cross. She turned over the cards one at a time but said nothing which I thought was rather odd, but everyone did their practice differently. After a few minutes she looks up at me and said;

"Diana, is there something your not telling me?"

I could only look at her. I did not know what to do, a long awkward pause lingered heavily between us.

"What? what is it?"

"Look all I can say is that I am only allowed to tell one person and that person is my mother."

"That I can understand sweetie, from the look of this reading whatever it is it is huge. You have big decisions and a fork in the road. You will face a big obstacle no matter which road you choose, in fact it looks like that obstacle is Bryan."

"How so?"

"Well his card came up under obstacles."

"Well that is pretty clear enough I laughed"

"I see that you have a purpose greater than you are aware of, Bryan is your obstacle. I do not believe his flirtations were simply to get a date, but to put himself as a block to this greater purpose."

As I was watching Anne do the reading I saw, her eyes go glassy and her voice became a bit distant. I was Afraid that she would have a vision of my baby and Erskine.

"Protect yourself, you are holding something precious that will change the lives of many. Your mother was well chosen as your confidant, she will be a greater help and far stronger than you think. Trust her, trust your choice."

She came back and looked at me askew she said I will not ask because I know you cannot tell me but I think some of the pieces are falling in place. You are welcome to stay here until you feel safe. We hugged and just smiled at each other. I was so thankful that she did not ask or even need to ask. I felt as if a weight has been lifted. 

The next day I surprised Anne with a trip to the day spa. We had the ultimate girl's day. We went and started our day with a champagne brunch at a little teahouse. We had miniature chocolate cakes, scones, and fresh fruit, oh it was delicious. Then we went to the spa and had an aromatherapy shower. Sat in a mud bath, had facials, manicures and pedicures. We then had a full body massage and both Anne and the masseur commented on my ivy tattoo that had wound its way over my body. They just kept looking, to be honest I was enjoying their attentions and the memories of how I got them. When we were in the changing room at the end Anne asked,

"Diana can I see your tattoos? I have never seen anything like it."

"Sure." I was proud of them and frankly would not mind taking another look at them myself. I let my robe fall to the floor and did a little turn as if I was a little girl showing off a new skirt. Her mouth fell open and she just stared at me, then she reached out and started to trace the paths of the ivy as it wound across my body. I had such conflicting feelings. I mean she was beautiful, but I like men. At the same time I did not want to embarrass her by calling attention to what I believe was unintended actions. I could not help but notice that she was looking at me with a look of more than friendship. Without much warning she pulled me in and gave me a very strange and deep kiss. I froze like a deer in headlights. After she broke it off, she blushed and said;

"I am so sorry, I do not know what came over me. That was so inappropriate, but you are so glowing and lovely, almost like a piece of art." I giggled and blushed.

"Its ok I would be lying if I said that it was not a very lovely kiss, but alas you have not swayed me I still like men." I joked. Then threw her a little wink to let her know that all is well. 

"So You mean I can not steal you away from your love and make you mine? Life can be so unfair!" 

We laughed and got into our clothes. I then drove us to the mall and we had a bit of a shopping spree. It was an expensive day, but where I was going I would have little need of money and my mother was more than taken care of. I smiled at the thought of seeing my mother tomorrow, especially after Anne's reading. 

We went home and had some insanely good Thai food and watched some chick flicks. We ended our day in meditation and this time when I closed my eyes all I could see was black, but the more I focused the more the black faded into a welcome green path. It was my path, our path. My heart sang of peace, but I wondered if Brian would invade my life again. 



Erskine Ch. 07



I could not wait for my mother to get home. I had so many questions and feared what would be the inevitable breaking of my mother's heart. After seeing the pain, my father's memory left upon her, I did not want to be the cause of more tears. Disappointment was another emotion that until now I had not thought of, I mean your only daughter leaving to marry a fairy? Was that not akin to your daughter running off with the circus or joining a cult? How would she explain to our family and friends? I did not want to leave that burden on her. I calmed myself down with the thought that I would have a few days to come up with a feasible story, one that no one would question or look into. Faking my own death would be out of the question, since I may be able to come back to this realm. Oh, this is so complicated; I now know why I was given seven days, even though it felt so unfair at the time.

I sat at my table listing off all of the possible stories: a sabbatical to work on my doctorate in a foreign country, I ran off with the circus may actually work, (ok that's a terrible idea.), going to India to work with a yoga master, to fine tune my skills, or she could say I went back packing in Europe. All of these could work, in each I would not have much contact with the outside world, no one would be able to find me, and my mother could feign ignorance. I think the Europe story would be perfect since it would explain why I remained so pale, the lack of contact information, and my long term absence. 

I spent the day packing and getting my things ready for donating or bringing over to my mother's. She may enjoy the upgrade in furniture so I will ask before disposing of them, she may also want to sell them for money She would stand to make a rather nice profit. I could even start an account for my unborn child, should they decide to come to this world they would be provided for. In fact I may not want to get rid of this place for that reason, just rent it out and give my mother the management. For would not a bi-world training be wise? I will consult Erskine and his mother on the issue, I know so little of how things work. My thoughts strayed to Erskine and our last joining, I missed him so much. Everything about him brought joy to all of my senses. It is a feeling unlike any I have ever known. And this child was yet another expression of that joy. I could feel the energy growing stronger within me. Nothing showed except for the ivy growing as the child grew. I could only wonder what I would look like at full term. I may be as green as my love. 

Finally, I knew my mother would be home, so I got in my car and packed up my courage. My steps to the door were slow and careful, I almost turned around, too afraid to face her. I put my brave face on and knocked on the door. 

"Hi mom!" I grabbed her in a big hug, trying not to show my face or fear.

"Hello honey, wow you have great timing! I just got in." She pulled me away a little to look at me. "Ok what is up? You look different, a bit off, if I may be so frank. Oh well come in and sit, I missed you."

"I have missed you too, more than I can express. Mom please sit, I have some rather big news for you."

"Oh God, are you all right? Please tell me you are well."

"Yes, my health is fine, never been better in fact." at that she gave an audible sigh and her face softened. "I want to prepare you that you may not like the news though for me it is happy."

"Ok I am warned." She smiled at me, not knowing the true gravity of what was about to hit her.

"Ok I want to treat this like a band aid, I have met someone and we are very much in love."

"Ok what am I missing, how is this bad?"

"Well I am pregnant and we are to be married rather quickly." Her look of shock spoke volumes, but so did her eventual smile.

"You mean I am to be a Grammy?"

"Yes, but that was not the bad part, I am going to be leaving here, for a very long time."

"What? Where? Oh well I will just have to come and visit you."

"Well you see there's where the problem is."

"Why? Where are you going?"

"To a place most people do not know exist." All of a sudden it was as if a light bulb went off. 

"I knew, I knew it was only a matter of time."

"What?"

" Stay right here, I will be right back." Uggghh where could she be going at a time like this? My head filled with so many questions. How could she possibly know? Within minutes she came back down the stairs. I could hear her footsteps throughout the house. I have always been able to. She entered the room and asked me to hold out my hands. She had placed in my hands that little silver necklace my father had given her before my birth. 

"Place it around your neck and go to the mirror." I did as she asked and could not believe my eyes when I saw it begin to glow, brighter than anything I had ever seen before, even brighter than when I had seen Erskine's mother. 

"What does this mean?"

"Ok now it is your turn my dear to take a seat." After a long pause she said, "You see, the man who gave me this, your father, is of the same world that you are going to, assuming that you were speaking of the fairy realm. You are as you may have figured out only part human, you have fey blood running through your veins."

"How could you have kept this from me? And no, I had no idea."

"I was not to tell you, for your own safety. I really do not know what happened to your father, but do know that his heart was always with his home. I am sure that he has always been with you looking on. I was too heartbroken, myself to go looking for him, and bid my door to the realm closed along time ago."

"Wow this certainly does explain a lot of things, I laughed. I had thought the necklace you gave me was the same one that was in the box."

"No, I had switched yours with a replica, so that the secret would be kept until the time was right."

"The time certainly is!" I laughed at the absurdity of this entire conversation. On the other hand hadn't I always known I was a bit strange? I had been able to read most people's thoughts, I have been able to see auras as long as I can remember, and even spending every day out side during the summers off from school, my skin had maintained its ghostly pallor. She took my hands in hers and said, 

"You must go and fulfill your destiny, you were mine and I am grateful to have had you with me for so long." 

"This isn't goodbye mom, I will be back, I just do not know how often, and perhaps you could find a good reason to re-open your door."

"A grandchild is a very good reason, but I doubt that I will be able to, it has been such a long time."

" We will find a way, My child must know its roots, I do not want any more mystery shrouding this family."

"That's all well and good, but your fiancé may have other feelings about it. Their world has rules and structures. They are all in place for a good reason. If you tell your child at too young an age, they may go exploring on their own. If you wait too late, they may resent you. Best to consult the elders. What else do you know?"

"I have been told that to marry Erskine would be my choice, but that if I do I would be fulfilling a prophesy. That apparently my powers are rather strong, so our child would be powerful, even if raised here. There would be no detriment to living in either world."

"You have decided to go though?

"Yes, if I have a destiny, I feel that to shirk it would be detrimental to the greater good. I could not live with that guilt. That and I love Erskine, more than words can express. He has brought out a side of me I did not even know existed. I am more powerful, I feel all of my beauty in a tangible and spiritual sense, and my life now has purpose. I have spoken with my Lawyer and all arrangements have been made for you to take over my assets and property. I do have one favor to ask, that as of right now, unless Erskine and his mother disagree, that my house and a small savings account be maintained for our child, should they decide to live here. Would you be willing to keep everything safe for me? The other assets would be yours though."

"Do you even have to ask? Of course? How could I say no to such a small request? When do you leave?

"Well I have three more days left, These first three have been very difficult though."

"Why?"

"Between you being gone and This guy at the gym, I have been so stressed."

"I am soo sorry about being gone, I should have been here."

"Absolutely not! You needed a vacation and I was happy that you were out with the girls. I was just so afraid of how you would take this news."

"I am sad to be sure, but glad that you have found your love and path to happiness. Please worry not for me. Now tell me about the man at the gym."

"He started flirting with me a few weeks ago, about the same time that Erskine and I finally met face to face. A simple comment here and there, then the comments turned to touching. Then touching to grabbing and finally this week he cornered me outside of the studio. He was being flirtatious, but there was something fake and menacing. Then after I rejected him, he mumbled something that eventually turned me into full on panic mode. I drove to my friend, Anne's house where she could see his energy invading mine. She said she could see it literally crawling all over me. We did a purification spell and cleansed his energy from mine. After a card reading, she said that he was a large obstacle and that I should be especially careful of him."

"She is absolutely right, if you are indeed part of a prophesy, you will need to be a bit wary of every new person you meet. Think of it as being Snow White, you are possibly seen as a threat to someone. Even if your intentions are pure, your path may be intersecting others who seek the same ends. Even Fey can be competitive and greedy, though it is a rarer trait in fey than in humans. They will usually seek the light and jovial aspects of life, but there is always one who seeks to gain power, or keep it. For that matter your child must also be taught to be wary, to read between the lines, to feel another's energy. Always trust your instincts, you never know who you are talking to. Fey Auras are trickier to read, humans are not evolved enough to manipulate their aura, but fey have generations to hone their skill. They have to, otherwise they could never seduce a human."

"I had no idea how much danger was involved, but all the more reason to go and see what I can accomplish." A smile crossed my mother's face.

"You are so much stronger than I was, I do regret that I did not fight to see your father. More for your sake than mine. I feel I may have deprived you of even more power."

"Mom, what is meant to be, will be. You followed your heart and did what you thought was right. I have no sorrows over that, I just do wish I may have known earlier, but that too is as it should be."

"I am so proud of you! Your wisdom and strength astound me." We hugged as if it were for the first and last time. I knew I had three more days, but I felt as if we had a life time to catch up on.

"So tell me how did you meet dad? I want all of the juicy details!" I winked at her making a very strong blush spread all over her face and neck.

"You can be so cheeky sometimes you know that!! Hmm you are so much like your father. Well I was a young girl of 17 when I had began experimenting with meditation. There was a field behind our home with a lovely small clearing all surrounded by rocks and trees. It was remarkably circular for a natural formation."

"Oh my goodness, that is my place, in my meditation. I have been going there since I was a little girl."

"Your father probably showed you, I am not surprised it is probably how he got to be near you. I am glad you know about it now. Well I was in that place meditating when I felt a hand run through my hair, then touch my shoulder. My eyes flew open to see nothing but sunlight. I closed them again assuming it was just the wind. I then felt two hands slip the straps of my sundress down. I quickly pulled them back up, not wanting to be improper. But sure enough down they went again, and those same ethereal hands dipped below the already low cut material. I was fearful, yet excited, buy this vapor invading my senses. His hands continued down their path to my remarkably pert breasts and began their magic. I closed my eyes unable to bear the bright sunlight. I felt a weight descend upon my lap and his hands move up to my face. I can still remember his kisses tasting like the honey of wildflowers. My heart began to fill with unfamiliar feelings and my body with sensations just as unfamiliar. I was tingling all over and felt a warmth spread from my lips straight down." 

"Mother!"

" Well you asked! Do you want the story or not? I thought you could handle it, you are after all pregnant. So it seems a bit familiar to the ways of seduction."

"Yes, yes, its just we've never had these sort of conversations."

"Ok, here goes, his hands moved to my shoulders and he gently laid me back onto the soft grass. He continued to kiss me all the while shifting my skirt to give him easier access. I felt a mix of fear, guilt, and excitement. I was raised to avoid situations like this with human men, but nothing had prepared me for this. The silence, the exotic, smell, the well... magic of it all kept me in the moment. I decided to just go with it. I could fell his long thick member pushing at my thigh and with a slow steady motion he entered me. Unbelievable sensations flew through me, My body was responding to a slow burning fire, I opened my eyes to see a lean strong man, his skin was a deep green and his hair was a long mass of back curls. He smelled of honeysuckle and fall leaves." I could not help but notice how she smiled as she recounted his smell. "His mouth moved to my neck and then to my breasts. He continued to move inside of me, eventually picking up speed as his sweet mouth continued to explore my tender breasts. I began to pick up speed using my hips to take all of him in. He began to match my rhythm and bring me in tighter. I felt the fire burn hotter and hotter until we both reached the apex of our ride. I released sounds I did not think were humanly possible. As his seed filled me I exploded again, with the raw sensation of it. Over the next few months we continued to meet like that with your father telling me of our life together, one that would never happen. Part of me knew when he gave me that necklace, that it was his way of saying goodbye. I have no regrets about those three months since he gave me the most precious gift I could have asked for. You, you were my greatest gift." We hugged and shed silent tears for all of the emotions we had uncovered. 

We spent the evening going over all of details of my transition. I wanted my mother to be taken care of as well as the future of my unborn child. I told her my cover story that she could give to my friends and relatives, which she thought was brilliant. I could only wonder at how the next three days would go and hoped I would get a visit to give me some more guidance. I felt a bit lost at what I should be doing and how I should prepare. These are just things that no one can teach you. I was also afraid of running into that jerk from the gym. I just hoped, our purification spell would hold.



Erskine Ch. 08



The next days flew by I tried to live in the excitement of it rather than dwell on my worries of the future and the mysterious man who negativity still crept back every now and then. I decided that I would do one final cleansing spell and deep meditation before the big day. I now had a ring of ivy around my forehead, as if my body was giving me a crown for the upcoming nuptials. My mother took part in the ceremony knowing that this may be the closest we will be for a long time. I wore a simple white gown that I had blessed in the moonlight the night before, and washed with lavender soap. I set out the wine and circled us with a ring of white candles with two candles at the center of the circle. One blue for the Lady and one gold for Lord to ask their blessing for my marriage and life ahead. We cleaned the space with a bundle of sage and lavender. My mother took the bundle and used it to smudge away the negative energy surrounding me. She lifted the chalice and asked another blessing for my safe passage to my new life and happiness for my marriage up ahead. We ended with meditation where I brought her to our place with me. We were so excited to see each other there knowing this may mean that there is a possibility of future visits. 

As we walked down the path, I saw a familiar glowing light! It was my love. I ran to him throwing myself into his arms. He was as glowing as I was. 

"Do you know that you are even more beautiful as before?"

"Am I?" I beamed a flush spreading down my face "I have missed you so much! I know it was for my own good, my arms and heart have ached for you."

"Mine too my love. Please do introduce me; though I would know her face anywhere, she is as beautiful as you are."

I took my mother's hand and brought her forward to meet Erskine. She stood, looking suddenly quite powerful, and almost intimidating. I must say I was a bit shocked, she was always so sweet and almost demure.

"Madame, it is my greatest pleasure to meet you." He bowed humbly at her feet not raising his face until she bid him to do so. I felt more than a bit confused as if I was watching a movie rather than living my life. She stuck her hand out and he dutifully kissed it.

"You may rise, Erskine and tell me your intentions with my daughter."

"To love and protect her until the Lord and Lady bid us to go and be with them and even then our bond will not be broken."

"Then you have my blessing Erskine; take care of her and her daughter to be born."

"Daughter, how do you know? Mother what is going on?"

"You haven't told her Edalene?"

"I felt it would be wiser when we were all together here. "

"Edalene? What the hell are you talking about?"

"Well, not only are you part Fey, but so am I and we are, through the maternal lineage from a royal line. Your Father was also from a royal line. So you see that is part of the prophesy. When I had had you and by the gifting of the necklace, we were considered married. Your father was promptly cast out because; I was from an ancestral line that had been in conflict with his. Neither of us knew and my mother did not tell me until she had seen the necklace and knew. She is actually still alive looking as beautiful as ever but went into hiding when the humans of her family would have begun questioning. " With a more than shocked look on my face, all I could muster was a "Holy shit!" Erskine took my arm and led me to sit down on a rock. They looked at each other and both knelt at me feet waiting for me to snap out of it a bit. 

"I know this is probably more shock than you can take in right now, but you do understand why I could not tell you, don't you? I wanted a normal childhood for you, I wanted you to have your choice of worlds and how you lived your life."

"I know, I do, it's just that I thought I was going to be the one revealing secrets and here my whole life has been one. Do you know where Grandma is? I would like to see her one day. "

"She may be down here I am not really sure, but once you are settled, we will go looking for her."

"It also explains why you still look so young!" I laughed.

"Are you mad at me?"

"For what?"

"For not telling you what I knew of your family."

"It wasn't yours to tell. How long did you know?"

"After my mother met you she told me who you were. I also need to tell you that my mother is queen of these lands, lands that once we are married you will become queen of."

"You also will then inherit the lands of my mother and your father. You will have great responsibility with this transfer of lands."

"At least I will have Erskine, to rule with me!"

"Oh I will be here, but I will have very little power, we are a matriarchal people here. There may be a battle though over your father's lands, they generally fall to the female line, but when his mother passed and the absence of your mother the lands fell to him. His son now wants power there. "

Light began to dawn for me, suddenly the prophesy was clear. "So with our marriage I will become the unifying force of three separate kingdoms. Is that the prophesy?"

A flash of light and a crackling sound, the kind when you hear the type of fireworks that sizzle as it falls to earth stopped our conversation dead in its tracks.

"I saw Erskine's mother come into view and immediately took a knee."

"Lift your head child, you will very soon outrank me!" She came over and gave me a warm embrace and then moved on to my mother. "Hello Edalene, welcome to our home, you have been long missed. "

"Your highness I am blessed by your presence and warmth. I am elated by the news of our children love and growing family." She gave her a quick wink.

"You as well, simply call me Nuala, We are equals here. And yes Diana you are correct about the prophesy you are meant to rule and unify these warring lands under one queen. Your brother will pose problems and I have seen that he has already."

"What do you mean?..... Oh the man at Yoga?"

"You are correct, your insight and power are growing by the hour here."

"I do not wish to fight him, he is my brother and he has tried to harm me already."

"You will not fight him now; you must wait until you are at your fullest power in this land and that of your maternal ancestors. You will be far more powerful that you can even imagine and already have a network of protectors. Anne is one of your Guardians as well as your mother; their homes will be safe havens for you to seek. We will train your Mother and Anne to bring them to their most powerful."

"Anne is part of this as well?"

"Yes, though she does not know how or why yet, her fey lover led her to you for us. You will not be alone, and Erskine is not only a prince, but also a warrior of the highest accomplishments. He will always protect you."

"This I know!" I gave him a quick kiss.

"Will both of you follow me to ready you for the wedding."

We followed them to the most beautiful surroundings I have ever seen. It was as if I was in a dream, I could see the rainbow auras surrounding every thing, and even the castle seemed to have a life force. When I had looked closer, it was made of plants that had woven themselves into the stunning structure. It was fed by a spring that gathered in a pool in the center of the room. Flowers were the tapestries that covered the walls in living pictures and patterns. Wood that was used somehow maintained its life force as well, glowing in harmony with the crystals laid into beautiful mosaics. The aura around my growing babe grew around my abdomen, clearly soaking in the power of the palace. My mother and I were walked into a room that had a steaming spring, and we were both ritually cleansed and covered in the oils surrendered by the flora of the room. It was as if they were miniature perfume bottles giving of themselves. 

The women who tended to us, were also covered in their individual markings, like my ivy, some had lilies, some roses, each their own unique pattern. They were all warmth and love, sharing their talents with us, taking the greatest care. They sang lovely tunes that made the flowers grow and weave themselves into more blooming tapestries. We walked on floors of soft grass, green as the hills of Ireland. My mother seemed to look even younger than normal, Her youth was returning here in this place. We stepped out and were dried by warm winds that fluttered through. My aura became ever stronger and began to shine almost as brightly as Nuala's when I first saw her."

The women bowed when they saw me shine with my growing power. "Please stand, I am not your queen yet, but your honor humbles me."

"You are kinder even than Erskine said. He told us of your grace, but we did not imagine that you would be so sweet."

My mother glowed at this, she knew she did her job as a mother well. They sewed flowers into our hair and bid it curlier than I thought possible. I was given a gown of shining blue it glisten as the water and sun combined. It was its simplicity in line and shape that allowed the fabric to shine. It was as light as the kisses and touches Erskine gave me when he first began to visit. My shoulders were bare but for a tied strap on one shoulder. My mother was given a dress in a similar design in green. Hers had two straps and floated with what looked like leaves. They danced and shifted with the breeze. 

We were walked out into the great hall where everyone had gathered to see Erskine and I become one. I smiled when I saw Anne there waiting for me with her beau. She was in a dress of rose petals. That ended at her knees. Her freckles seemed to make her even more beautiful in the pink fluttery confection. My mother led me down until I was face to face with Erskine and his mother.

"The Goddess and God has led these two children into each others' lives. They are not only fulfilling their destiny to love each other, but the destiny to unite three lands and bring love to them as well. Diana will soon be your queen and you must give your love and respect to her as you have given me all these years. There is no sadness as I give you to her most capable hands only joy, for she is loving, and caring and will fight for what she believes in. She brings with her a knowledge of the human world and its capability of love that we need here. Listen she is wiser than even she knows. Erskine, please get the gift you have had made for your love."

He took out a pendant made of shining silver and an emerald that shone of all the green that surrounded us here. 

"Diana, you are my love and my future will to accept my heart for the rest of eternity? I will be yours alone, the champion of you and our family, fight always for your heart and kingdom. Will you bind your heart with mine?"

"Erskine, my heart was always yours, before I even knew your name. Our hearts were born and made in the hands of the Lord and Lady before time was a consideration. I will bind my heart to yours, from now until eternity has become a sparkle in the sky."

"Diane and Erskine, you are now one heart, one soul, and one blood love and care for each other always. Diana, you are now queen of these lands, love your people as I have. Lead them to their new life of peace with our neighboring lands and be the queen I know your were destined to be." She placed her crown on my head and placed her hands over Erskine's and mine. The people cheered and petals fell from the ceiling. We ate and danced until the sun returned to the sky. Erskine and I kissed our mothers and guests good bye as we headed to our room.

"Well my queen, don't you looks ripe for the taking." A blushed smile spread across my face. I needed no encouragement, I tore the clothes from his body revealing the rippling muscles that have been so painfully parted from me for so long. He in turn lifted the dress from my ever rounding body, sliding his hands along my frame leaving trails of fire behind them. His member needed no encouragement form me, it was long and hard waiting for my attentions. I kneeled before him and took as much of his length into my mouth as I possibly could. His fingers gently played with my hair, showing no greed or impatience. I was never one to offer Oral on a man, but with him, here in this moment, so filled with love, suddenly I felt insatiable. His gentleness only spurred me on. Before I could help him completely he lifted me up and kissed me hard . He laid me on the bed that was specially made for us lined with the down of milk thistle he traced the ivy that covered my body, missing not one intricate leaf or vine. His kisses were the next to follow all over my body, I was writhing under his touch, fire filling me from within. He kissed the dew from my petals making me impatient be filled with him. He waited until he knew I could stand no more and slowly entered me. He took his time making sweet torturous love, straining my patience to its limits. He picked up the rhythm and force of his thrusts, till I could feel him hit my inner most core. I matched his rhythms till the sweat glisten on both our bodies. He kissed my neck and breasts and whispered his love then went back to his stallion pace. We let our love explode out of us in yells that filled the kingdom we now ruled. We could hear the cheers outside as we collapsed onto the soft bed. We laughed and smiled at the adoration of our public. 

"My dear we will have a long and happy life together, I can not wait to see what tomorrow brings!"

"I am in complete agreement."

Her brother, who's real name was Dougal was in his kingdom seething and plotting war with his newly powerful sister. He must find a way to take this land for his own.