0 comments/ 9335 views/ 1 favorites Deceived By: madengineer3 Copyright 2008 by madengineer3 The ward was quiet at the moment and Dr. M. was glad for the quiet. It gave him time to think, without the distractions of the patients obsessions. He was amazed that so much of mankind had been taken in by the "grand illusion", as he called it. Most people with the delusion were relatively safe to live their lives without any overt supervision. However, this ward was full of those who had briefly seen beyond their delusion and couldn't face the true reality! Poor fools! It was the smart and brilliant ones who suffered the most. They had built up grand structures of thought based upon bad evidence. Their idea of reality was wrong, but in their mind their way was the only real way to see the world around them. In the morning he would have to see what could be done about John, a.k.a. patient 17. He was an extreme case of what can happen when there is a major crack in a person's view of reality. He was, using the old descriptions, paranoid and almost catatonic. Since what he had believed all his life had come into question he was afraid of everything around him. He had an extreme fear that everything he knew could in fact be wrong, but at the same time could not accept this new idea. If only his mind was not so strong, he could have quickly resolved the problem. Unfortunately, such was not the case. He would have to talk to his department's chair to see if there were any new approaches to help John. **** John woke up with a start. He had been having a nightmare. In the nightmare he had been in his study working on a complex problem involving the size of Branes in a 21 dimensional universe. The math just didn't seem to be working as he had expected. As he strove to determine the physics that would be operative on the new spaces he had a sudden vision that shook him to the core. He suddenly felt that the answer to this problem was not an answer in physics but was, instead, a proof that physics itself was the problem. That frightened him. If he couldn't depend upon physics, that purest form of physical science, then the alternative was unthinkable. Since all other sciences end back up at physics, if you dig deeply enough, that would mean that the entire structure of science itself could be built on a flawed base. His mind couldn't forget the idea but it couldn't work with the idea either. He was in a turmoil that prevented him from functioning. His mental turmoil made any physical effort seem so totally useless that he just lay there and tried to figure out where he had made his mistake. The longer he thought over his work the more he realized that he hadn't made a mistake! There was terror lurking in that realization. John opened his eyes. As they focused across the room he thought he saw Dr. M. The problem was that what he thought he saw was Dr. M simply fading into the clear air around him. John shut his eyes again and tried to make sense of what he had been thinking. After all, people can't just dematerialize in front of you. **** The next morning Dr. M went to see the head of his department. The meeting was not entirely successful. The advice he had received was that he could do one of two things. He could either try to convince John that the math he had been using wasn't useable in such a dimension and that he should try a different approach; or he could try to shatter John's belief in the math and the physics and suggest he look in another direction for the answer to the problem. Neither of these approaches would be easy. He thought that he might try the first suggestion, first. That it, he would try to convince John that he had applied the math outside of the range in which it could be relied upon. Yes, that was the easiest way to do it. But that didn't mean that it would work. **** "Good morning John, how are we today?" John knew that it was Dr. M even before he opened his eyes. "Not too good, doc. I had my nightmare again last night and this time there was a visual illusion to go with it. I thought I saw you evaporate right in front of my eyes. Something is really wrong here!" "Hmmmmm. I was going to suggest something to you, but your comment has made me change my mind. What makes you think that I couldn't evaporate in front of your eyes?" "It just can't happen, doc. I mean, conservation of mass-energy would have to be violated. That would attack the very base upon which much of physics stands." "John, I'm not a physicist. May I ask you a few questions so that you can show me how physics addresses simple problems?" "Sure, what do you want to know?" "Well there is one problem I have had since my introduction to college physics class many years ago. We know that force equals a mass times its acceleration. That means, among other things, that no mass can change its velocity in zero time. Am I right so far?" "Yes, keep going." "Well, when an object is first moved, from a standstill, there has to be one instant where the mass has gone from not moving to moving in essentially zero time. Wouldn't that require an infinite force at that instant?" "You won't like my answer doc. I'm not copping out. Acceleration is the change in velocity with respect to time. In the absolute instant an object starts to move there is, what is called, a singularity. That means that the region at that point is discontinuous. Because it is discontinuous normal calculus doesn't work. The problem you have posed is outside the range of classical physics to handle since it is outside the range of the mathematics that we use. This isn't a cop-out. It is simply the way it is." "O.k., John. Let me ask you a second question. Since starting an object moving from rest is something that occurs regularly. Does that mean that classical physics doesn't apply to any of these cases at all?" "At that instant of going from stationary to moving classical physics isn't going to help you. You see, in physics we prefer to work with models. Not the curvy, soft, easy on the eyes types of models. We work on a simplified example that in many ways represents what is happening in the real world. It is that simplified model that is being discussed." "O.k. John, may I ask you another question?" "Go for it, doc." "Let's consider an experiment such as Galileo is said to perform at the tower in Pisa. He dropped two masses to prove that they would hit the ground at the same time. How does gravity 'know' to exert a stronger force on the object with the greater mass than on the small mass?" "Doc, you've got it wrong. Each of the masses not only affect each other but each of them affect the Earth itself. It simply is the way it is." "John, I don't want to sound stupid but what I think I'm hearing is that physics only can tell how simplified versions of reality work under some very limited conditions. It can't tell me, or you, why these things work." "Doc, if you want the answer to 'why' you need to go to a philosophy class. Physics just addresses the relationships between matter and energy." "John, I think you are forgetting your history. Until the nineteenth century, physics was called 'Natural Philosophy'. Its function was not only tell how things were related but to answer the question about 'how they worked', or why they acted as they did as well. It sounds like you are saying that people like Isaac Newton weren't really physicists since they were at least as concerned about the 'why' as with the how much." "Doc, you're making me nervous. What you are saying is correct. I've spent years trying to forget the old way we did things. In the times of pre-modern physics it was much simpler to explain why and how things occurred. We started to run into trouble with quantum mechanics. As our tools became better we started realizing that in certain exclusive conditions that long held solutions to problems didn't always work. For example, under the condition of an almost infinitely fast rising electro-magnetic wave front, Maxwell's Equations don't really work very well inside a thick metal. Classical mechanics ceases to work on the sub-microscopic scale. Things just turn out to be different. In general, we demand that the new approaches must produce the same result as classical physics when the scale becomes larger, but yes, things become much less clear under some conditions. For example, an exact solution to Schroedinger's time dependent equation for the heavier elements is too difficult to solve. We can approximate the answer, but we can't actually solve the math to get useable results." "John, do you remember the logical tool called Occam's Razor?" "Oh, yeah, that's the one that states that if you have more than one explanation for something and one of the explanations is simpler than the others it must be the correct one; isn't it?" "Yup, that's the one. What makes you think that the patchwork we call physics is the simplest answer to reality?" "Come on, Doc! What other approach could compete with physics to provide good answers?" "How about what some people call God, or the supernatural or magic?" "You must be joking, but your face says you aren't joking. What are you trying to do, Doc?" "What would it take for you to consider the case for the supernatural, John? How about levitation?" At that John felt himself floating a foot off his bed. "How about turning the light in the room a nice light purple?" The room was suddenly bathed in a very beautiful purple glow. "Let's make it a bit warmer in here." Suddenly the room became warm. "How does physics handle such things, John?" John just stared with panic filled eyes as Dr. M allowed him to return to his bed, cooled the room back off, and returned the room to its normal lighting. John had gone into a full catatonic state. He was staring blankly from unseeing eyes, he was rigid on his bed, and he was screaming. Dr. M shook his head saying "I guess I pushed too hard, too far, and too fast. I had hoped we could resolve this." At that he turned on his heel and disapperated from the doorless room. Dr. M returned to his department head. "I think we lost him. I thought he was on the logical path I was leading him down and then he totally shut down his external input. It is so hard for these technical people to realize that the real world is a world of magic and the supernatural and that science is simply a defense mechanism that provides the deceptive illusion of control. Its so much easier with normal folks. They have never fully forgotten that magic is real. They haven't been deceived by their own minds. With that, Dr. M went out to finish his rounds. Deceived I enter my office about twenty past three. Vanessa is not there, neither is she in the bathroom or the small bedroom adjoining my work space. But at least she has made fresh coffee. Undoubtedly you're asking yourself how an office worker can afford a bedroom behind his desk. And no, I'm not the kind of work-alcoholic who sleeps at his office. The answer is much more mundane. Let me explain. Although I am the mayor shareholder of this company, I'm not its CEO. Instead I've hired a very competent person to do this job. I'm only the simple heir of a rather enormous fortune, amassed by my grandfather and father. To be honest, I've no talent at all for trade or business. An army of advisors and specialists are taking care of these matters for me. Fortunately, at least as far as I know, I have very reliable employees. Because I'm a loyal and generous person, I'm also a very sought-after employer who can afford recruiting only the most talented and motivated. Because I hate living in idleness, I've appointed myself as director of human resources and general counselor. The function of course is a sham. The real work is done by competent persons. But at least I'm living in the illusion of doing something useful. Now and then I'm asked to sign some papers or to give my advice about this or that, but this is a purely ceremonial affair. I'm forty-three years old, already twenty years able to make a big party of his life. In my social circle I'm considered a lunatic for refusing to do this. In fact I like to live as simple as possible. **** Vanessa comes in a couple of minutes after me. She's an extremely attractive thirty years old lady of Congolese origin. For already more than seven years she's not only my secretary, but also my lover and confidante. She's the only person on this planet who knows everything I think, hope, feel or fear, every motion of my soul in short. How I met her, I'm a little embarrassed to tell. It's really something out of a movie. Judge for yourself... One evening my chauffeur was driving me around in the red-light district. We saw a young, black hooker crossing the street, screaming and terrified, imploring help from bystanders who ignored her, chased by three sinister looking men. In a fit of insanity, I ordered my driver to stop and pulled her aboard. One of the men took out a handgun and fired at the car, while we sped away. It turned out she was an illegal alien, forced into prostitution by a sex slave ring after they smuggled her into the country with the promise of a nice and cozy job. Well, really the old story we all know. She had no papers, no place to stay, no property, just the scarce clothes on her back. She managed to escape from the room she was held and planned to go to the police. The men who pursued her were supposed to guard her. She had to fight one of them to get out of the house. In the process she had received a couple of stab wounds and five teeth had been knocked out of her mouth. I took her with me to my house and called a doctor. Later I even paid for the implants, it turned out seven more teeth were beyond repair, and also for the plastic surgery she needed. While she was a protected witness in an investigation to bust the sex slave ring, I hired the best lawyer around to legalize her stay in the country. When all of this was over, I let her stay in a small apartment next to my penthouse. Looking back I'm amazed about what I've done. I even don't know why. Maybe it was out of some guilt feeling about al that money that had rained out of the sky like manna for me. Now and then this creeps upon me. Another reason is that I had terminated only days before a traumatic relationship with my English girlfriend Lauren. But above all I can't resist dependent woman owing me enough to stay dependent on me. On that account I'm a very conservative male pig. Vanessa compensated me partially by keeping my house. After a short while she started to sleep with me. She was an enthusiastic and very submissive bed partner. Never had she refused me something, no matter how extravagant my demands were. Later she started as a cleaner in the office. She wanted to earn her keep with me, she said. After I discovered that she was a rather smart lady, even with only little formal education, good at organizing and planning, I asked her to become my personal secretary. In her spare time she took computer and administration courses, surprising me what a fast learner she was. It was my turn to become dependent on her. I'm not doing something without her advice anymore. At various occasions I've asked her to marry me, only to be turned down in her friendly but firm manner. Her refusal baffles my understanding, but that doesn't stop me asking it again. **** I smile when I see her. She's the balm on a boring and monotonous day. After all this years she's still the candy my eyes are hooked on. My ebony beauty is five feet tall, perky, perfect tear shaped breasts, the nicest heart shaped ass, and a belly flat as a pool table. She has curly hair reaching just beyond her shoulders, the most sensuous lips and big, dark-brown eyes. They're the one thing that drives me crazy about her. Vanessa smiles back, kisses me through the air and puts the folder she has in her hands on my desk. "The agendum for the general assembly of the shareholders. You need to look at it," she says. I moan. "It doesn't get any better," she pursues, "The meeting is advanced to Thursday next week." The general assembly of the shareholders is the only time of the year I'm the chairman and overseer of proceedings, sometimes for four to five agonizing long hours. Then follows the obligate reception and diner party with people I'm absolutely not interested in talking with. God, I hate this. Vanessa laughs when she sees my face. "I will take good care of you when it's over," she promises. "You might as well do this now," I grunt. I push the button that locks the double door of the office. "Let's play a game," I grin, "I'm Bill and you're Monica, only you take care your dress is not stained." "That's already two or three presidents ago. Can't you imagine another game?" she asks, while she unbuttons the vest of her lady's suit and pulls her blouse out of her skirt. I also start to undress myself. "Do you want to do it here or in bed?" My finger indicates the carpet before my desk. A moment later she stands only in her expensive underwear, a wine-colored string and fitting bra. Only when I move from behind my desk, she reaches skillfully behind her back and throws the garment away. She sticks out her tongue at me, seizes her breasts and pushes them up. Her sensitive nipples become stiff and are pointing as little fingers towards the ceiling. Swaying her hips, she steps out of her sting very slowly. At last she's naked. Her pussy is completely bald, what makes I have a good view of her thick, slightly protruding vaginal lips and the pink button of her clitoris. She turns her back to me. Now I can feast my eyes on the best part of her anatomy, her big godly heart-shaped ass, smooth as black silk. Then she pulls both her ass cheeks apart for a second, giving me a glimpse of the black ring of her delicious anus I licked, fingered and fucked so many times with endless pleasure. My cock is stiff as a rock now. I walk to her and kiss her lightly on the lips. Smiling she unfastens my belt. In the same movement she pulls my trousers down and kneels. "I'm just a simple trainee sir, and I want very good grades," She says with a childish accent and a comical look at her face. She pinches my testicles and goes slowly with her hand up and down the rigid seven inches of my member. She pushes my Calvin Klein to my ankles. My cock is freed and slaps against her cheek. She opens her lips and travels with her tongue along the border of my gland. She takes me into her mouth and starts to suck slowly. Slurping sounds are filling the room. "This is just the likes of you aren't it, earning your grades as a cocksucker?" I ask her. She plants her big, dark eyes into mine. While her gaze holds me captive, she sucks me harder and more intense. Her lips touch my pubic hair. Small shocks travel through my pulsating organ. I will not last long. She feels my orgasm coming and she starts to knead and caress my scrotum. Her head bobs faster up and down. I feel the sperm travel up. I moan and groan while I squirt her waiting mouth full. "Swallow it all like a big girl," I command. Her left hand squeezes my testicles, her other hand kneads my softening prick, coaxing the last drop out. "On your hands and knees sweetie," I tell her. Vanessa complies. I post myself behind her exquisite ass. I pull the cheeks apart, admiring her moist, slightly open anus. I smell the bitter and sweet aroma and stick my tongue out. Then one of the two phones on my desk starts ringing. Vanessa crawls to the desk and picks the horn up, still kneeling down. She listens for a moment and presses the horn against her belly. "It's a woman... You take it?" "Who is it?" Vanessa asks who she has the honor speaking with. Smirking she looks back at me. "She won't tell me her name. But I recognize the voice from somewhere." "I'm not taking calls from unknowns," I state. I'm shedding the rest of my clothes off, some buttfucking is on my mind. "She's calling your secret number. You must know her very well," Vanessa states in a sharper voice than I'm used from her. With what seems like a flint of jealousy in her eyes, she pushes the phone horn in my hands. "Hello?" I ask reluctantly. I recognize the quiet and shy voice at once. "Hello... Daddy?" "Don't call me with that name ever again," I hiss, "You know damn well I'm not your father." It's Sybil, the girl a thought was my daughter until some years ago. Lauren, her mother and former lover of mine, insisted in her having her family name. But I planned to recognize her legally as my own daughter when she was eighteen, so she could be made the sole inheritor of my fortune. But then my relationship with Lauren broke up. The bitch went to the judge with the results of a DNA-test, supposed to prove that Sybil could in no way be my biological daughter. She asked also to deny me of custody. The judge complied. It's never been clear to me why Lauren had taken this step. I think she wanted to destroy the strong bond between Sybil and me. Lauren has always been very jealous of that. She hated also her daughter because of her beauty. Such a sick bitch is Lauren. All you can say is that she succeeded. Angry and disappointed I broke all connections with Sybil. This is the first contact in more than five years. I know I have done the girl, who must be nineteen by now, a lot of grief. I wanted revenge and I took revenge on an innocent being. I'm not proud about it. But I'm also someone who's to proud to admit his wrongness. The situation between us has therefore always remained extremely troubled. On the other side of the line reigns silence for a long time. Then I hear something like a sob. "I want to talk to you," Sybil says. "You're already doing that." She starts crying for real and I feel guilty. "I'm sorry, please forgive me," I implore her, something I say only very infrequently, " Call me Robert, like everybody else... I lost in you a daughter, and you know what a blow this was to me." "Mother has thrown me out. She said I had to return to you." "What's has happened? You two had a row?" I'm trying to sound empathic. Sybil take a deep breath and falls silent for a moment. "Her new boyfriend couldn't keep his paws off me," she says finally. "Mother didn't believe me when I told her. She has beaten me and called me all kind of names." "Nothing happened to you?" "No, thank God, but she forbade me to set a foot in the house again. She threw my things out on the street... Can you believe that?" "Where are you now, In London or here?" "I'm in a hotel in the city, together with a couple of friends," she says, "But my credit card is empty. I made up an excuse to borrow some money, or else I couldn't have diner today or phone you." "Where are you? I'll pick you up and see what I can do for you," I sigh. I take a notepad and write down the address of the hotel. "You can expect me around five," I promise, "For the moment you stay with me. We have a lot to talk about. Together we'll manage a solution." "Thanks dad... Uh... I mean Robert." Slowly I hang up. I need some time to regain my wits. "Good, what's going on before this," I say finally. When I turn around I see Vanessa on all fours on the carpet. Invitingly she shakes that gorgeous ass of her. "You planned something with my dirty hole," she laughs. After kneeling down behind her I swear, realizing I have no lube on me. Even after years of extensive use it's to painful for her rear hole to do without. Promptly Vanessa puts a tube of Vaseline in my hands. "I bought it this midday," she says with I straight face, "I knew you would forget." Did I tell you already what a fantastic secretary she is? Grateful I start to kiss and lick her little arse, knowing she likes this enormously. With my fingers I spread her puckered hole so that my tongue can go in as deep as possible. When I hear moans of satisfaction, I put my finger in her honey pot and caress softly her big clitoris. With her shoulders on the carpet, her hands spread her butt cheeks wide. First I grease my own cock before applying a royal dose of Vaseline on her little brown star. She giggles when she feels the cold metal top of the tube in her asshole. "Ready to go," I announce, when my thumb passes effortlessly past her sphincter. I put a second finger in to stretch her better. But Vanessa slaps my hand away. "Fuck me now, goddamn," she says. I apply a last drop and start than to push with the tip of my cock against her puckered hole. She keeps her ass cheeks spread, while I aim my tool and grab her hip with my other hand. Slowly I push the gland through the resistance of her sphincter. After hundreds of penetrations her anus is still surprisingly tight. When I'm two inches in I stop for a moment, giving her small hole time to accept my pole without forcing it. Then I push farther in. Only when my cock is halfway I feel her relaxing. Slowly I start to press until my balls are slapping against her buttocks. Again I stop a moment. This time to enjoy the tight and hot feel on my cock. Vanessa moans and starts to play with her clit. I pump in and out of her with long strokes. Slowly I pull my penis out until only the tip is clasped by her sphincter. A little bit faster I push him back in. She cries every time I'm doing this. Meanwhile she has fingered herself to an orgasm and her anal muscle is more relaxed. I begin to fuck her faster. My hands are planted on her hips while I ram my dick in and out of her heavenly arse. Her cries and the slaps of my belly against her buttocks are the only sounds I hear. "Fuck your horny bitch, fuck my ass... Faster," she shouts. I feel my balls pulling up and my cock pulsating. I won't be long before I come. "I'm cumming," I shout back. Immediately after I suit the action to the word, groaning and moaning, shuddering all over my body. Cumming in a tight asshole like this is like heaven on earth for me. After I've filled her bowel with the last jet of sperm, I palm her breasts and lift her up slowly. My rapidly softening dick slips out of her asshole, when she presses her marvelous body against mine and gives me a blissful smile. Tenderly I kiss her in the neck, while I massage her stiff nipples. "It has been as always my sweet darling, more than fantastic," I whisper in her ear. I stand up and help her on her feet. "Vanessa," I say. With a frown she looks at me. "Do you want to marry me?" I ask for the hundredths time, "You and I are made for each other. We could be so happy together." "Robert, you're the best bloke I ever came around, but my answer is still no," she says. She averts her eyes from me while she wipes with a paper towel the crack of her ass clean. "Why? You never gave me one good reason." The expression on her face is one of pain and sadness. Immediately I feel remorse. "Why, shouldn't you have imagined by now?... I know your greatest wish Robert. I know how deep you were hurt five years ago." "What has that to do with us?" "Everything... Please try to remember... Do you still know what that surgeon said when he examined my internal bruises?" Dumbfound I look at her. The surgeon had told Vanessa that because the knife wound in her belly and the subsequent internal bleedings she never could have children. She broke down completely. Two years later it my turn to be beaten and humiliated by the news that Sybil was not my daughter. My big dream to have children I could pass the family fortune on was destroyed. Vanessa suggested then I could adopt a kid of two and raise them as my own. Indignant I had turned the plan down. Vanessa turns her back to me, but I've seen the tears in her eyes. I take her in my arms, trying to consoling her. "Yes, of course I remember," I say, "Sorry, that was extremely stupid of me." "You didn't want to hurt me." Vanessa looks around for her clothing. "I'll take you to a good restaurant." I promise. "No, make sure Sybil gets a swell evening," my black goddess says, while she steps in her string, "You owe her something." "I'll do it," I grin. My mind just made up an diabolic and straight plan, diabolic in its content, straight in its form. **** It's a quarter past five when my driver stops the limo at the porch of Hotel Tarsus. My ex-daughter, to call her with that strange expression, is waiting outside. I'm startled when I see her. My God, she's changed a lot in five years. When I last saw her she was a good-looking teenager, now she is a dazzlingly beautiful woman. Sybil looks around but did not see us. For I moment I don't move, but admire her through the reflecting glass of the car. Sybil has grown a couple of inches and must be around five foot three by now. She has a nice pair of breasts, a C-cup I guess. She has shapes in the right places and is slim without being a beanpole. She doesn't look like her mother. While I contemplate her I ask myself who could be her natural father. It seems to me like she has exotic blood in her veins. This could fit the picture, Lauren has always possessed a weak point for Mediterranean types. Pedro, the driver, gives me a startled look when suddenly I roar with laughter. Manuel, I think, that's the one she fucked behind my back. He was our gardener twenty years ago. Sybil has the same face, expressive brown eyes, and thick, black hair as him. Just like Lauren to let her knocked up by one of her servants. I even doubt if he was of age at that moment. "Step out and open the trunk when I give you a sign. We must also take her luggage," I tell Pedro when I open the door of the car. Immediately Sybil spots me. She smiles but keeps her distance. "Come here and let me give you a big hug," I say. Sybil runs in my open arms and squeezes her young fair body against me. My pecker jumps to attention. I hope she doesn't notice. "Oh... Robert... Thanks for coming. I was starting to worry." I kiss her on her mouth and give her a light slap on the ass. "I've let you down before, but from now on you can count on me," I assure her, "I know I've been a big asshole in the past and I hope you can forgive me." She doesn't answer, but her smile becomes an uneasy grin. "You're already packed? I want go away at once. You're staying with me of course." "Luggage is in the lobby," her face flushes and she keeps her eyes to the ground, "I still have to pay for one evening."