0 comments/ 46723 views/ 16 favorites Teacher Gets a Hall Pass By: Sfbullrider It was thirteen years ago that it happened. My husband came home from a business trip to Houston. As soon as he walked through the door I knew something was wrong. My name is Jolene Braxton. My husband Jim, calls me Jo, as do most of my friends. We had been married five years when this occurred. We had a three year old daughter at the time. Susan, our daughter was taking a nap when Jim walked in. Jim works for a software company, and on occasion he does have to travel. Fortunately, not very often. I teach AP Calculus at a local high school. It was summer, so I was off for a couple of months. Jim and I met during our first year of college. We dated for four years, then got married right after graduation. We love each other very much, but it took all the love I had in me for him to not divorce him after this incident. The look on his face as he came towards me told me it was not going to be a good day. He was already crying, and I could tell he seemed to be asking for forgiveness for what he was about to tell me. He asked me to sit down as he proceeded to tell me about how he got really drunk, and had sex with a woman who worked for the company he was doing business with. He said it was a drunken moment of weakness, and he felt so guilty he could hardly stand it. He explained that he was at the bar with several people after their business had concluded. He said he had too much to drink, and so did the woman. He walked her to her room to make sure she made it ok. One thing led to another, and the next thing he knew they were in bed. Afterwards, they both realized what they had done, and regretted it. She was also married, and felt just as guilty as he did. Jim was crying during his whole confession. I knew he was extremely sorry for what he did, but that did not excuse it. "I appreciate you being honest with me and not trying to hide it. I'm sure I would have never known if you had not confessed. At least that shows that you do feel some guilt, but it does not excuse the fact that you are a cheating son of a bitch." "Please Jo, I feel bad enough without you calling me names, although I don't blame you. I deserve it. I am so sorry baby. I can't tell you enough how sorry I am, and how tormented I am. I just hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me." He said. "Right now, no I do not forgive you. I am too damn hurt. How could you do this Jim? We have so much going for us. We have a beautiful little daughter, and a good family. I know you are blaming part of this on being drunk, but that is no excuse. You should not have let yourself get into that situation." I cried. I was crying uncontrollably now. I could tell Jim wanted to console me, but he knew I didn't want it. He was crying also. I knew he felt bad about it, but that was just too fucking bad. "How long were you in her room?" I asked. "I think around two hours, but we passed out right after sex. I woke up and went to my room. I did not spend the night with her." A few minutes later Susan woke up and came into the room. I picked her up to go pack our bags. I decided I couldn't be around Jim right now. Jim came into the room as I was packing. He pleaded with me not to leave. Susan said, "Where are we going mommy?" "Honey, we are going to go visit Grandma and Grandpa." "Oh goody, I love going to see Grandma and Grandpa. Is daddy going to go?" "No honey, daddy will not be going this time." "Oh, is that why daddy is crying?" "I guess so Susan. Daddy has to stay here." The look on Jim's face said it all. It was guilt, sorry, desperation, and remorse. I guess I was being pretty tough on him, but he deserved it. "When will you be back Jo?" He cried. "I don't know Jim. You have to give me some time to deal with this. It's more than I can handle right now. Don't call me because I just don't want to talk to you right now. I will call you when I'm ready to talk, or come home, if I come home." "Please Jo, I'm begging you, don't see a lawyer or file for divorce. I love you so much, and I am so very sorry I did this to you. Please believe me when I tell you I did not plan it. It just happened." "I will not see a lawyer, or file for divorce until I have had a chance to think, then talk to you. After that, I'm not making any promises. Goodbye Jim." With that we walked out the door. I could hear him crying his eyes out as I walked away from the house. I almost went back, but I didn't. I was so mad at him. I knew I couldn't divorce him over this, but he had to suffer for awhile. Susan and I spent the next four days at my parents house. I told my parents the whole story, but they were surprisingly neutral. They were mad at Jim, but they loved him dearly, and felt like it was my decision on what to do. I knew Jim was probably a basket case by now since I had not spoken to him since. My anger had subsided, but I was still extremely hurt. After four days, I decided it was time I went home and talk to him. I called that evening to let him know I would be home the next afternoon, and we would talk when he got off work. He seemed to perk up, and said he had missed me and Susan so much. I got home a little before I knew he would be home from work. I expected the house to be a wreck, but it was very clean. There was a huge vase of roses on the kitchen table. Typical male I guess. I sat down to wait for him to get home. I had a plan that would save our marriage. There was one part I was pretty sure he wouldn't like too much, but that's just tough shit. It would be a requirement for not filing for divorce. Jim walked in the door smiling. It wasn't a big smile, but a smile saying he was glad I came home. I left Susan at my parents house for a couple of days. Jim and I needed to be alone. He came over and sat next to me on the couch. He just said, "I'm so glad your home Jo. The past few days have been a living hell for me. Did you leave Susan at your parents house?" "Yes, I thought it best for us to be alone to deal with this. I'm going to go first if that is all right Jim?" "Yes, of course, but I have some things I need to say to you." He said. "You hurt me Jim, but I don't think you did it intentionally. I still love you with all my heart. If I didn't, you would have gotten divorce papers. That still does not excuse the fact that you fucked someone else. I guess I have to know if you still love me? I have to know if I can trust you when I'm not with you. The best part of this was how you immediately confessed to me. You didn't try to hide it, and you seem to feel very guilty about." "Jo baby, I am feeling so guilty, and sorry, you cannot even imagine. Not only did I hurt you and Susan, I brought so much shame on myself I can hardly stand it. I am a good loyal husband Jo. I'm not a philanderer. What happened was a stupid once in a lifetime mistake, that will never be repeated. I swear to God. I will spend the rest of my life showing you how good a husband I can be." "That's what I wanted to hear Jim. It will take awhile for me to trust you again, but if you show me that I can, then I will." "I promise I will. I will win back your trust, and I will prove you made a good choice when you chose me as your husband." We hugged then kissed. It was a little awkward, but felt good. Then I said, "The flowers are beautiful Jim. Thank you." "Thank you Jo. Thank you for being understanding, and giving me another chance." "There is one more thing Jim. I have something for you to sign. Failure to sign this piece of paper will mean that I will start divorce proceedings." He suddenly got a look of concern on his face. "What is it?" He asked. "Well, since you are getting a free pass on this, I decided that if I ever needed one, I should have one also. This is a Hall Pass agreement. It says that if I ever want to fuck outside of our marriage, I get your permission, a free pass if you will. I'm not saying I will ever use it, but I will have this to use if needed. It is open ended, and does not expire. It will always be a reminder that you owe me." "Are you serious Jo. Why would you do this to me?" "Jim, in order for me to forgive you, you have to know that you owe me. What's good for the goose is good for the gander. I have no plans to use it, but I want it there so you know I mean business." I figured if he would agree to this, he really did love me, and his affair was just a fluke. "All right Jo, if this is what it takes, I will sign it. I hope you are right when you say you don't plan on using it. I would do anything to win back you trust." He did sign the agreement. According to the agreement, I get one two hour free pass, just like he did. I folded it up and put it in a zip lock baggy. I then sealed it in an envelope. I put it away in my drawer. I knew I would probably never use it, but he would always be worried about it. After that was taken care of I suggested we go out for a romantic dinner, and evening. Jim agreed, so he made reservations at my favorite Italian restaurant. We had a nice meal, some good wine, and danced a little. We came home and made love. I started to get very emotional as I reached my orgasm. The whole ordeal of his cheating came down on me in a release of pleasure and emotion. Right after I came, and he came inside me, I cried hard as I hugged him. He hugged back and kept saying how sorry he was. We both cried for awhile, and then I felt much better. We laid there cuddling in each other's arms for quite awhile. I think we grew a lot closer that night. I knew I loved him so much, and never wanted to lose him. Jim became the perfect husband. He was so attentive, and affectionate all the time. He truly felt sorry for what he did, and did everything he could to make it up to me. Thirteen Years Later It's August and time to start another school year. Today is my first day back. I have been teaching for 18 years now. We have a fairly large staff, so each year we do have turnover, and new teachers come in. When I say new, I simply mean new to our school and system. In order to help out the teachers new to our school, we have this mentoring system. Teachers who have been here for quite awhile will be assigned to mentor a new teacher assigned to them. I have been assigned Rick McCoy. He is a Math teacher, and one of the new coaches. I was told he played college football. We were meeting our new teachers at 9:00 for coffee in the cafeteria, then would sit with them all week during the faculty meetings to help them get adjusted, and answer questions. We were paired up at the coffee, then talked for a little bit to get to know each other. I can tell you Rick was extremely attractive, with muscles ripping out of his shirt. He had blond hair, blue eyes, and beautiful tanned skin. I tried to keep from drooling when I first met him. Rick told me he was 33 years old, divorced, and did not have any children. He did play college football for SMU. He was drafted, but never made it in pro football, so he decided to go into coaching. I told him about my husband Jim, and our daughter Susan. At the end of the day he came by my room to thank me for helping him through the first day. "I have to tell you Mrs. Braxton that you are not only a very attractive lady, you are also very nice. You treated me as a professional, and not some dumb jock. Many old time teachers stereotype coaches that way, but I assure you I am very intelligent. I'm looking forward to working very closely with you." There was a look in his eye when he made that statement. I made it a point to rub my cheek with my left hand so that my wedding ring was very visible to him. Still, when he said that, I got a little week in the knees. "Yes, well I am really looking forward to working with you also Rick, and please call me Jo." "All right Jo, it should be a good year. I will probably be hanging around you a lot for awhile until I get the hang of things around here. I have to get going, but look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Hey, maybe we can go have a beer sometime so I can ask questions in an informal setting?" He smiled and left before I could think of a response. I had to be careful. If I didn't know better, I think he might have been coming on to me. Now I won't deny that I didn't fantasize a little about what he would be like in bed. He was one hot guy. We were together a lot the next several days in meetings, in service training, and various other activities that teachers do before the start of the year. He was also in my room a lot. Seems like ever time I turned around he was there. He was really turning on the charm, and quite frankly, it made me feel very attractive, and sexy. I was actually enjoying all of his attention, but to me it was all very innocent. I knew he was probably coming on to me, but he knew I was married, so I saw it as just flirtation on his part. To be honest, I flirted back. Like I said, I liked the attention. It was Wednesday of the following week when I got a call from Jim at work. He said he had to stay and work late that night on a project that was due the next day. I told him no problem, I would save supper for him. Every since Jim's confession, he goes out of his way to let me know at all times where he is, what he is doing, and who he is with. That afternoon Rick came into my room, which he did quite often to ask me something about school procedures. Today he asked me something different. "Hey Jo, I was wondering if you would like to go somewhere and have a happy hour drink after work today. It would give us a chance to talk in a relaxed atmosphere. I still have a lot of questions, plus I want to get to know you better." I guess a red flag did go up, but to be honest, I didn't pay a lot of attention to it. I found myself wanting to meet him after school. After all, it was just an innocent drink with a fellow colleague, and a chance to share information. Since I was his mentor, it was important I get to know him. "I'm not sure Rick. I need to check with my husband to see if we have anything after school. Let me talk to him first, then I will let you know." I didn't say anything about Jim working late. I did want to ask Jim if it was ok if I stopped off for happy hour after school. I was just going to tell him it was with some fellow teachers. I called Jim, and he said he was ok with it. I didn't say anything about Rick. I just said it was with some friends from work. Rick came back by my room. "I just talked to my husband Rick. We don't have anything this evening so I could probably stop off for just a little while. We can have a drink, and I will tell you the procedure for the opening day of school." "Great, I will meet you at The Old Irish Pub. It's a nice little bar not too far from here. They have anything you would want to drink." "Yes, I know where it is. I have been there several times when the staff has an after school happy hour." "Good. Well, I guess I will met you there at 4:00." He left with a pretty big smile on his face. I was feeling just a little guilty that I didn't tell Jim exactly what I was doing. I convinced myself that it was just an innocent little drink with a professional colleague, and was pretty much school business. I guess it didn't matter that Rick was a super hot, young single guy, who seemed to have a thing for me. As I pulled into the parking lot, I saw that Rick was just getting out of his car. He waited for me to park, then escorted me into the bar. We took a seat at a table near the back of the bar. There were already quite a few people in the bar. There was no one there I knew, thank goodness. He ordered a beer, and I ordered a glass of red wine. We started out talking school talk, but soon started telling each other about our lives. Rick told me about his marriage and divorce. "Annie and I were married for seven years before she just walked in one night and said she didn't want to be married anymore. She never really told me why. After the divorce was final, she just up and moved to California. I always suspected there was someone else, but I don't know for sure. I haven't seen or heard from her since." We ordered another drink and continued our conversation. I will tell you that alcohol really does loosen up my mouth. I start talking too much. I told him him about Jim, and Susan. Then I mentioned about us almost getting divorce thirteen years ago. He wanted to know why. "Jim was on this business trip. When he got home he confessed he had sex with woman after getting drunk, then helping her to her room. He felt very guilty, and was crying during his whole confession. He deeply regretted what he did, and apologized over and over. He admitted his transgression, and accepted full responsibility." "What did you do?" Rick asked. "I was deeply hurt. I took Susan, who was three, and went to my parents house for a few days. It was summer, so I wasn't in school. It just about killed Jim. He was heartbroken, and felt so guilty. I came home a few days later after I cooled off. We talked it out, and have been really good since." "Didn't you want to do something to get back at him? I mean, did you consider getting revenge by sleeping with someone?" He said. "Well, there was a condition I had for not filing for divorce. I did it mainly to scare him, and let him know I had something over him." "What was that Jo?" "I made him sign a Hall Pass agreement. It basically says that I am allowed one free pass to have sex with another man if I want to. He spent two hours with this woman, so my pass says I get two hours of the same." "Have you used it, or did it expire?" He asked. "I have not used it, and it does not expire. I can hold this over his head the rest of our lives. I must say he has been the perfect husband since." I giggled as I was finishing up my second glass of wine. "Why haven't you used it Jo.?" "I don't need to. I have a good husband who makes me very happy. I just did it to get back at him. I was still mad at him at the time. Plus, there has never really been an opportunity." His face lit up a little, and he looked me in the eye and said, "What would you say if I asked you to use the pass with me? I find you very attractive, and sexy Jo. Your husband cheated on you. He spent two hours with another woman. It only seems fair that you should have the same." Rick saying that brought back some old feelings of resentment from that night thirteen years ago. Maybe I do deserve my turn. I did tell Jim what was good for the goose, is good for the gander. Rick is very good looking, and I bet he is awesome in bed. I would love to rub my hands over his muscles while he held me close. What was I thinking, I can't do this even though I do have the pass. "That was a long time ago Rick. It would kill Jim. I am very flattered you find me so appealing, but I don't think I will ever use that pass." "Yes, your right. In our society it's ok for the husband to fool around, but heaven forbid if the wife wants to have a little fun on the side. He gets to have his fun, but your expected to remain faithful, even though you have a pass from your husband allowing you to have sex with another man." That struck a nerve. Maybe he was right. Jim signed the pass agreeing that I should also get to have a little fling. It was a price he had to pay if he wanted to stay married. It's not like I'm having an affair or anything. I just want two hours with Rick. I want to see what it's like to fuck another man, and I can legally do it. "You have a point Rick. What do you suggest?" He really lit up now. "Friday night, you come to my apartment let's say at 8:00. You will stay until 10:00, then go home. That will be your two hours. We don't go out or do anything, we just fuck our brains out. I promise I am very good at it, and I am very well endowed." Teacher Gets a Hall Pass The way he said it made me horny as hell. I stood there trying to picture him naked. While he was telling me this he was rubbing ever so slightly on my arm. My pussy was wet. It's a wonder I didn't jump him right there in the bar. "I tell you what Rick. I have to think about this. I'm not making any promises, but I will consider using my Hall Pass Friday night with you. Stop by my room Friday afternoon, and I will let you know. The next two days all we do is work in our rooms. I have to get my room ready. Don't come by until Friday afternoon. I will give you my answer then." "Fair enough Jo, but until then." He leaned over and gave me an open mouth kiss. He held it for several seconds. He was a damn good kisser. Then he got up and walked out. I sat there somewhat stunned. What was I to do? Part of me wanted him so bad, but the other part didn't want to hurt, or cheat on Jim. That night I was so horny. Jim finally got home around 8:15. He ate supper, took a shower, then came in the bedroom. I was laying on the bed naked. I told him to join me. He quickly took off his pajamas and we fucked like a couple of rabbits in heat. Afterwards he wanted to know what got into me. I just shrugged and said I had missed him all day, and needed him to make love to him. He smiled and said, " Well, you are welcome." I had trouble sleeping that night. I wrestled with everything Rick had told me. What was I going to do? I knew I had to decide by the next night because if I decided to use my Hall Pass, I had to tell Jim. I did not see Rick all day Thursday. Although I told him not to stop by, I did miss him. I did get an email from him right before I left. He simply said, "It's your turn." I thought about that on my way home. My decision was made. I took my shower and laid down on our bed. Jim was still working on some stuff in his office downstairs. I opened the drawer on the nightstand next to my side of the bed. I reached towards the back, and pull out the envelope. Do I open it up, or tear it up. I opened it, took out the Hall Pass, and set it next to me on the bed. Jim came up, took his shower, then sat down on the bed. He said, "Are we going to have round two tonight tiger?" "Jim, do you recognize this piece of paper?" I handed it to him. He gulped and said, "Yes, it's the Hall Pass agreement you had me sign after I cheated on you." "Yes, and you understand it is still in effect. I have decided I am going to use it Friday night. I'm not going to tell you his name, but he is a new teacher at our school. I won't go into details, but he is who I choose, and he wants to do it." "Why are you doing this Jo? After all these years, why? I have been a good faithful husband. I've treated you like a queen. I though this Hall Pass was forgotten years ago. I don't understand why you would do this to me now?" He started to cry, and I felt like shit, but I stood firm. "I have thought about it on occasion, but I never really had the right opportunity. I do now. It's not fair that you got to have a little fling, and I don't. It will be for two hours, just like you. It will be tomorrow night. I will leave at 7:30, arrive at his place at 8:00. I will leave his place at 10:00 and be home at 10:30, at which point the Hall Pass will be fulfilled, and we will be even." "Are you in love with this guy Jo? Are you looking to replace me?" "Hell no Jim. You don't get it. This is not an affair. I'm in love with you. This puts closure on what you did to me. I know it's been thirteen years, but I still remember it, and think about on occasion. This changes nothing between us." "What about Susan, what do I tell her why your not home with me?" "Remember, she is leaving right after school on that choir trip." "Well, you certainly have this all planned out don't you. I signed that agreement Jo, but never in a million years did I think you would ever use it. I am a man of my word, and I do honor my agreements. I don't like it, but I guess there is not a fucking thing I can do about it." He grabbed his pillow and started out of the room. "Where are you going Jim?" "I'm sleeping in the guest bedroom. It's make me wonder why you wanted me so bad last night. Wait a minute, you went to that happy hour with him didn't you? You were probably thinking of him while you were with me last night. Wow, do I feel like an idiot." He was crying as he walked out. That didn't go like I expected. He sure did look hurt. He should have known that this day might come. After all, he started it. He cheated on me. I was just doing what I had a right to do wasn't I? I got dressed and went downstairs the next morning only to find Jim had already left for work. If he was going to be an asshole about it, then I definitely was going to fuck Rick tonight. I tried to concentrate on fixing up my room that morning. The more I thought about Jim, the more angry I got. It was ok for him to go fuck around, but when the shoe was on the other foot, it was a different story. Talk about your double standards. Rick came in my room that afternoon looking pretty damn hot. I thought about just fucking him right there in my room. That would show Jim a thing or two. He asked if I had thought about his offer. I told him I would be at his apartment at 8:00 tonight. He gave me directions and left my room a pretty happy boy. He said he couldn't wait. He said he had thought about me all last night. I got home around 5:00 and started fixing supper. Jim came home about 5:30. He didn't say a word to me, just sat in front the TV watching the news. Jim said he wasn't very hungry and didn't eat much. He went back and sat on the couch as I went upstairs to get ready. It was a little after 7 when I came down dressed for my date. I didn't dress like a slut, but I did look pretty hot. I had on a tight skirt with a button up blouse. Jim was sitting on the couch starring at the TV. I sat on the chair across from him. "Jim, I'm going now. Is there anything you want to say?" "Yes Jo, I do have something to say. First off, are you still in love with me?" "Yes Jim, I am still very much in love with you. This is something I am doing to finally get closure on what you did to me. I'm sorry if this hurts you, but you have to remember how much you hurt me." "Jo, there is not a day that goes by that I don't feel the pain and guilt of what I did. It hurt me more to know that I hurt you. I'm going to tell you something. You are going to feel that pain and guilt. You are going to hurt like I have all these years. You are cheating on me Jo. You may justify it with that fucking piece of paper, but you are cheating on me. Unlike me though, you planned it. You are doing it deliberately. If you do love me like you say so, then this is going to cause you to feel so much guilt, and pain." He started to cry now as he broke down. "I know who you are going to see. I made some calls and found out. He is a younger, really good looking guy. My greatest fear is that after you have fucked him, you won't want me anymore. You will cast me aside like yesterday's garbage. I'm hurting pretty bad Jo, but you have your pass, so just go enjoy yourself. Just understand that no matter what, everything we do has consequences. I know you pretty well, and I think this is going to cause you to feel so guilty. Maybe that's good. Maybe now you can feel what I have felt for so many years. I sat there watching the tears streaming down his face. I turned and walked out the door trying to convince myself I was doing the right thing. He cheated on me, now it's my turn for payback, and closure. As I was driving over to Rick's apartment I kept replaying what Jim had said over and over. First off, I knew that I would not fall out of love with Jim because of Rick. After tonight, I would never fuck anyone but Jim. I just felt like this was my opportunity to have some fun, and get rid of the Hall Pass. Jim owed me this, plus Rick was pretty hot. Never the less, the guilt was starting to creep in. I arrived at Rick's apartment complex a few minutes before eight. I found his apartment, and parked close by. I looked at myself in the mirror, took a deep breath, and walked to the door. Rick answered the door wearing a pair of tight fitting wrangler jeans, and a tight fitting polo shirt. His ass looked great in the jeans, and his muscles were quite apparent under his shirt. He gave me a hug, then a little kiss on the lips as he invited me in. He took my hand and led me over to the couch, where we sat down next to each other. He said, "I can tell your a little nervous Jo, so how about a drink? I know you like red wine, so I bought a bottle of Merlot." "Yes Rick, I think I would like a glass of wine, and Merlot is one of my favorites." I said. He went into the kitchen and brought out the bottle of wine, a wine glass, and a beer for himself. He poured my wine and handed to me. He tapped his beer bottle on my wine glass in a toast. "To a very beautiful lady, and a wonderful teacher." He said. I took a pretty big gulp of wine. I was nervous, but I was also now not sure I wanted to be here. I kept think of poor Jim sitting there crying as I walked out. I was hurting him very much. He was right, I did plan this, and I was starting to feel so guilty about it. What was I doing here? We made some small talk as we sat there on the couch drinking our drinks. When I had finished my glass of wine, he took the glass and set it on the coffee table. He then moved closer to me and put his left arm around my back, at the shoulders. He leaned in and kissed me, holding it a few seconds. He knew he only had two hours, and time was wasting. He pulled me closer, and kissed me again. It was an open mouth kiss, his tongue probing mine. He was a good kisser, but I wasn't feeling anything. I wasn't getting turned on. I kept thinking of Jim. Rick then moved his right hand up to me left shoulder and kissed me again. As he was holding the kiss, his right hand moved down to my left breast. He started squeezing it on top of my blouse. I broke the kiss and moved back slightly. I was starting to feel very uncomfortable. He said, "Come on Jo. Relax, and enjoy. I promise you will enjoy this. I am a very good lover." I smiled a little and he put his hands back where they were. He kissed me again, then started unbuttoning my blouse. He exposed my bra, then reached in with his hand inside my bra. He tried to used his fingers to stimulate my nipple. He started kissing me on the neck as he did this. I moved away again. He came back, took my shoulders, and pulled me down so I was laying on my back on the couch. He was on his knees on the floor in front of me. His hand quickly went up my skirt, and inside my panties. I felt his finger try to get to my opening. That was it! I pushed him away, then stood up. I started buttoning up my blouse. "I'm sorry Rick, but I can't do this. I know I have a Hall Pass, but I just can't do this to my husband. I love him too much. I have to get home to him before it's too late. Your a very attractive guy, and if I wasn't married I would be fucking your brains out tonight. However, I am married to a wonderful man, and I will not cheat on him." He said, "You come over here, get me all worked up, then tell me your leaving? You little cock teaser, you owe me a piece of ass." "I don't owe you shit motherfucker. You think your some kind of God's gift to women? I don't need some young pretty boy like yourself to make me feel like a sexy woman. My husband does that everyday of my life. When I get to school on Monday I'm going to tell the Assistant Principal to find you another mentor. You just stay away from me." I stormed out of his apartment with him standing there looking dumbfounded. I didn't give a shit, I had to get home to Jim. This Hall Pass was a stupid idea, and even more stupid was that I tried to use it. As I was leaving the parking lot I tried to call Jim. His phone went straight to voice mail. I left him a message. "Jim honey, I am so sorry. You were right. This was such a stupid thing to do. I want you to know that nothing happened. I wasn't at his apartment very long when I realized I couldn't do it. I felt so guilty, and was thinking of you the whole time. I am on my way home. Let's sit down and talk this out. I love you so much. I will never hurt you again." I hurried as fast as I could to get home. As I pulled into the driveway I noticed Jim's car was gone. I ran into the house calling out his name. I checked every room, but he wasn't home. I walked into the kitchen where I noticed a piece if paper on the kitchen table. It was a note from Jim. Dear Jo After my confession you took Susan and left me for four days. It was the longest most gut wrenching four days of my life. I wasn't certain if you would ever come back home. So, I too have have left. I don't know where I'm going, or for how long, but I don't want to be around when you get back from your lover boy. You will probably have a look of satisfaction on your face that I can't give you. In fact, I may have already lost you. I just want you to know I love you so much, and just pray that I haven't already lost you. Love, Jim I sat down and cried so hard at his note. How could I have done this to him. I had no idea it would be like this. I could only hope that he listens to my message, and comes home. I changed into my pajamas and robe, then sat on the couch to wait for him. I fell asleep, but woke up around 3:00 in the morning. I looked around, checked the garage, but Jim was still gone. I went back to the couch where I cried myself to sleep. I woke up around 8:00 the next morning. Jim still wasn't home. I made coffee and called his cell again. I was worried something had happened to him. It went straight to voicemail again. I left him pretty much the same message begging him to come home, and reassuring him that nothing happened. I also let him know I was worried something may have happened to him. I decided to pass time by cleaning the house. I cleaned from top to bottom so Jim could come home to a nice clean house. He always liked that, plus he always helped me with the cleaning. After lunch, I sat on the couch wondering what I should do. Should I call someone? Should I check the hospitals? I didn't know what to do. My eyes were so red from crying so much. I heard a car pull in the driveway. I heard the car door close, then the front door opened. It was Jim. He looked like shit. His hair was messed up, he was unshaven, and his clothes were all wrinkled. He reeked of alcohol. He came over and sat in the chair next to the couch. He said, "I just turned my phone on about thirty minutes ago. I heard your message and came home. I got pretty drunk last night, then slept in the car. Your message said you didn't have sex with him. Why not Jo? You had a Hall Pass. You had the chance to get back at me for what I did to you." "You were right Jim. Yes I had your Hall Pass, which by the way I forced on you. It was a stupid thing to do, and even more stupid to invoke it. Any way you look at it, I was cheating on you. I was betraying your trust in me. I felt so guilty. I knew when I walked into his apartment I could not cheat on you. I didn't want to live with that the rest of my life. I will tell you something else. He was good looking, and very sexy, but I wanted you. He did nothing for me. All I thought about was how sexy, and what a great lover you are." "It hurt so bad Jo. I can't describe how I felt, and I still feel right now even if you didn't do anything. I'm glad you didn't, but it still hurts. I even thought about ending it all." He said. He suddenly turned pale. He was having a hard time breathing. He looked at me like he was in trouble, and needed me to help him. "JIM," I yelled. What's wrong? Are you ok?" He tried to stand. He grabbed his heart, looked at me pleading for help, and collapsed on the floor. I was sure he was having a heart attack. I immediately dialed 911 and told them what was happening. The fire station was close to our house, so it wouldn't take long. I kneeled down beside Jim. I put my ear to his mouth and determined he was still breathing. I checked his pulse, which was weak, but he did have a pulse. I knew CPR, but wasn't sure if I should start it since he was breathing, and had a pulse. I was just about ready to start CPR when I heard the siren of the ambulance and fire truck. I decided to let them handle it. They had advanced life support capability. Two paramedics and three fireman rushed in as I opened the front door. They immediately began to hook Jim up to the telemetry, and the AED. They were sending signals of his condition back to the emergency room where a Doctor was monitoring. The paramedics were on the radio with the Doctor. They started an IV, then began preparing some drugs the Doctor was ordering. The heartbeat was displayed on a screen as Jim was hooked up to a lot of technology. All of a sudden the heartbeat line went straight, and an alarm went off. The AED lit up, sounded a warning, at which point the paramedics said clear as they backed up. The AED delivered a shock to his heart. His whole body jumped. The line didn't change. Another warning, and it shocked him again. Still no change. Nobody said anything. Jim's life was in the hands of this machine. The machine shocked him a third time. He flew up off the floor. I looked on in horror as my husband laid there on death's door. Then came the signal of a heartbeat. He was back. They administered the drugs, then prepared him for transport to the hospital. I rode in the ambulance to the hospital. He was taken into the emergency room, and I was asked to wait in the waiting room. I knew I had to call Susan, so I dialed the teachers number we were given in case of emergency. I knew this teacher pretty well, so I told her what was happening. She said she would find Susan, the Assistant Principal, and call back. A few minutes later Susan called crying. I told her what was going on, but not to worry. The AP got on the phone and told me she was driving Susan back to the hospital. It would probably take a couple of hours. After about an hour the Doctor came out to inform me that Jim was resting in ICU. They were keeping him pretty sedated, but that he was stable and doing ok. They were also running numerous test on him. Susan finally arrived and was brought up to the ICU to see her dad. She cried when she saw him laying there. I will never forget what she said. "Mom? Please don't let my daddy die." "Your daddy is not going to die Susan. He is a good strong man. He will survive this. This hospital is very good, and he is in good hands. What we can do now is pray for him to get better." Susan and I stayed all night at the hospital. The next day the Doctor informed us that Jim had some blockage, and would need a triple bypass operation. This operation was pretty routine now, and he would be good as new. Jim's medical history showed that his father and grandfather both had early heart problems. It was probably genetic. Two days later Jim had the operation. It went well, and he seemed to be recovering pretty quickly. Right before his operation, I was alone with him in his room. We talked at great length about what had happened. Jim was convinced I was telling the truth, and that nothing happened between Rick and I. There was a lot of crying, and hugging, but we worked it out. I took the Hall Pass out of my purse and tore it up into little pieces in front of him. "I'm sorry I ever made you sign this Jim. It was stupid, an unnecessary. I love you so much, and need you more than you will ever know." Jim said, "I love you too Jo. I am glad you stayed faithful to me. If I don't make it through this surgery, just know that I will be waiting for you in heaven." Teacher Gets a Hall Pass "Jim, you are going to be fine. I know there are risk, but it's not your time yet. You're only 40 years old. You and I still have a lot left to do. Susan needs her father. You are going to come out if this better than ever." A few minutes latter they came in to take him to surgery. I gave him a big hug and kiss as they wheeled him away. I cried as they took him away. I said some pretty heavy duty prayers over the next few hours. Susan came to the waiting room as soon as she got out of school. Jim was still in surgery. Susan was crying, but I did my best to reassure her that everything was going to be ok. Finally the Doctor came in to talk to us. He said the surgery went well although there was one moment when his blood pressure dropped dangerously low. They were able to get it back up. He took a lot of blood transfusion, but he would be ok. They allowed us to look in on him in recovery, but not to be shocked at how he looked. He didn't look good. He had all these tubes coming out if him, and all these wires hooked up to his chest. I could tell he was in pain. He tried to smile at us, but had a hard time. We both took his hand and told him how much we loved him. After that day Jim progressed quickly in his recovery. After he was discharged from the hospital he spent a little over a week recuperating at home. He was chomping at the bit to get back to work. Jim changed his diet, joined a gym, and looks great now. He has quite a few muscles also. Jim and I did a lot of talking while he was home, but it was the night before he went back to work that we finally reached closure on everything. We were sitting in bed that night when out of the blue Jim said, "Tell me the truth Jo. Were you turned on that night with Rick? I mean didn't deep down you really want to see what it was like to be with someone else? He was younger than me. He was probably better looking than me. I'm sure he was better endowed than me. Don't get me wrong, I'm very glad you didn't, but didn't you think you deserved it after what I did?" Jim do you remember that night right before I left I asked if you had anything to say? I can tell you that what you said made a huge difference in my attitude. You told me about how you had suffered, and punished yourself. You felt like you had let down your family. You also pointed out to me that I was about to cheat also. Hall Pass or not, I was cheating on you with another man." "Yes, I remember. It brought back all the pain and guilt I had suffered through when I had the affair. I guess maybe I was warning you about what you would be going through. I don't know if I was really trying to talk you out of it, maybe I was, but I also wanted you to know the consequences." He said. "I thought about it on my way to his apartment. I thought about it while I was with him. I thought this would give me closure Jim. I realized it wouldn't. All it would do is create even more pain and heartache. At the time that Hall Pass seemed like a good idea. I realized at his apartment that all I did was add insult to injury. I was never turned on by him that night. I wasn't even the least bit wet. He kissed me, touched my breast, and tried to get his hand inside my panties." I said. "That didn't turn you on Jo? Weren't you curious about what he would feel like inside you?" "No Jim, I was not turned on. All I could think about was you, and the tears running down your face when I left. You were right. I did plan it, and it would be cheating. I felt so guilty just being there. I knew I had to get out of there, and home to you." "You saved my life Jo. Your quick action when I had my heart attack saved me." "Yea, well I blamed myself for you having the heart attack in the first place. I don't know what I would do without you. You almost died Jim. They shocked you three times. I'm just glad your here with me now. You should feel no more guilt for what you did Jim. It is forgotten, and the Hall Pass, which was a reminder, is also gone." "I love you very much Jo." "I love you too Jim. Now tell me, did the Doctor say when we could start back to having sex?" "I think he said we could ease into to it tomorrow. It's getting close to midnight, so maybe we can go ahead and get started now." I pulled his pajama pants down and gave him a first class blow job. He was getting close to orgasm, but said he wanted to be inside me. I crawled on top of him cowgirl style, and slowly rode him until we both came. I knew we had a lot of good times ahead. I never really saw Rick very much after that. He received another mentor, and pretty much avoided me. I hear he has found solace between the legs of this 27 year old cheerleader coach. Jim takes good care of himself, and gets a checkup twice a year. Our love life became more frequent, and better after all that. After Susan left for college, we really enjoyed outer empty nest. There is not a table, bed, chair, or floor in the house where Jim and I have not made love. I sometimes think back to that night with Rick. What if I had fucked him? I'm not sure I would be here right now, but I didn't, and I am.