8 comments/ 64184 views/ 15 favorites Pam's Guilt By: amandate If you are looking for quick action type of story, this is not for you. I appreciate comments, including constructive ones. Hope you enjoy it. (1) Introduction My name is Pam. I am a Malaysian Chinese. I know the term Malaysian Chinese is not the right term. It should be called Chinese Malaysian. But that's the way we call ourselves. I am 37. My husband, Steve, and I got married when I was 25. I gave birth to 3 children. They are 10, 8, and 5 now. Steve is a bread winner. I am a housewife, staying home taking care of the children. Even after giving birth to 3 children, I keep my body pretty well. I don't have an exercise routine, but any mum would know taking care of kids are very physically demanding. (2) Oversea assignment Steve and I discussed about him taking up an assignment in China on and off for a few months. The opportunity was too good to pass by. We discussed about the short and long term plan. The short term plan was for him to relocate to China. If everything went well, my children and I will join him. He took the opportunity and left us behind in Malaysia. The first few months after he left was very difficult. My parents offered to help. My children and I moved back to live with my parents. It was a win win decision. My parents got to spoil my children and my children loved to be with them. (3) Visit I went to visit Steve after he was in China for more than 7 months. The trip was difficult because I had to leave the children behind due to school. I never spent a day apart with my children since they were born. I knew though they will be in good hands staying with my parents. It was still very emotional when saying goodbye with them at the airport. After about 9 hours of flight plus transit time, I finally saw my husband in the arriving hall at the airport. I haven't seen him for a few months, he was thinner but very upbeat. He gave me a really big hug, which I missed for months. We hopped onto a taxi headed back to his apartment. The drive was about an hour. It was misty and cold by my standard. Coming from a tropical country, 20 degree celcius is cold. Despite the long travel time, I felt really good to have a warm body to lay on while in the taxi. My heart felt warm. My body felt warm too by Steve's hand wondering on my body. It was dark. The taxi driver couldn't have seen us. I just relaxed and enjoyed his touch. He told me on the phone he lived in a very nice apartment building. When we got there, I saw at least 10 or 11 high rise apartment buildings. Each of them must be at least 20-30 floors. They were close to each other. Maybe it was late and raining, I didn't see too many cars. When the taxi pull into the building area, it was stopped by a security guard. He waved us through after Steve showed him a pass. Steve guided the taxi driver to an apartment building. The lights were bright at the entrance but I did not see anyone. Steve said these apartments are full of expats, he seldom saw anyone outside after dark. It gave me a ghost town feeling despite the bright light. We got on a lift. I was wrong. As shown on the elevator panel, it's a 52 floor building. It was a lot taller than I thought. The lift stopped at 48th floor. The lift door opened and the lights in the hallway flashed. It was a big contrast from the front entrance. The light in the hallway was dark. Steve said they are motion activated. The floor looks like marble floor. Looks really fancy to me. As soon as he closed the apartment door behind us and dropped the bags to the floor, he gave me a deep kiss which I've been long for. My body was warm from his touch earlier in the taxi. His hands wandered to my breasts while our lips were locked together. I started to breathe heavier. His body pushed me to the wall behind me. He took off my jacket. He was impatient. He wanted to take off my blouse. I stopped him. I reminded him that he has a housemate. He assured me that his housemate was not home, followed by a blink on his eyes. He went on to remove my blouse. He gave me a deep kiss again while his hands were unhooking my bra. Once it was unhooked, he pull the strap from my left shoulder down. I pull the other strap down and let the bra fell down to the floor. He stopped kissing me. He stared at my breasts. I don't know if it was from the cold or from the touch, my nipples were hard. Steve cupped my both breasts. He gave my forehead a light kiss. He looked me in the eyes and then kissed and sucked my left breast. He was not that gentle. He was excited because I can feel his manhood pushing toward my body. I looked around the apartment while he took turn to kiss both of my breasts. It was dark but we were not in total. I can see the light coming in from outside through the large window. He kneed down in front of me. He unbuttoned my jeans. I know what's next. "Can we go to your room?" I suggested. He lifted me and took me on his arm. The last time he carried me must be years ago. I was worried he would drop me. He looked stronger than just a few months ago. His room was not too dark. It is the same as the living room, one side of the wall has a really large window. I can see the light from outside. No curtain. He dropped me on his bed. The bed was cold but very comfortable. He unzipped and pull the jeans off me. He immediately pull my panties off as well. The room was still cold. I can feel the heat from our bodies. He laid on my right side. He kissed me while his right hand felt my body. My nipples were hard. His cupped my left breast. I moaned. His hand moved down my body until he felt my pussy hair. He pushed my left leg apart. I was wet. He began stimulating my clit. He knew exactly how to make me excited. I moaned again. His fingers were playful and touched the right place I wanted him to touch. While he was feeling my pussy, his mouth was busy sucking my right nipple. I hugged him really tightly against my body. His finger entered me. I moaned for the third time. He took it as encouragement. He sucked my other nipple. His was finger fucking me. He stopped after 1-2 minutes. He got up and removed his jacket, his shirt, his pants, and finally his underwear. I know what was going to come. It felt warm knowing he wanted me so badly. His cock was hard. It was pointing at me after he removed his underwear. He got on top of my body and kissed my mouth. His left hand was supporting his weight but his right hand was on my breasts. I can feel his cock outside of my pussy waiting to come in. I wanted him badly too. I guided his cock into me. "Mmmmm." I moaned. That's what I had been waiting for for so long. He lifted both of my legs to his shoulders. I know this position well. It was his favourite position. He once told me he can last longer in this position. I loved this position too for the different reason -- I did not have to move. I can feel his cock in and out of me. I can feel his tense from his facial expression. He was looking at me while fucking me. I turned around to avoid the eye contact. I never felt easy when he looked at me while making love. I closed my eyes. I moaned while he was fucking me. The room was noisy. Apart from my moan and his heavy breath, I can also hear the noise from the bed frame. "Mmmmm." I heard a low noise coming out of his throat. I was familiar with this noise. He was about to come. I can feel it as he is fucking me harder and faster. "Mmmmm." I moaned anticipating his release. He continued fucking me for another 30-40 seconds. Very fast and very hard. The bed frame was hitting the wall faster and louder. "I am coming." A few seconds after he said that, I felt warm inside my body. "Mmmmm." All in the sudden, the room went silent again. All I can hear now was his heavy breath. His upper body was on top of my body. Hugging me tight. I kissed him on his head. "I love you." I said silently. We hugged for another few minutes. I felt his cock is getting softer. It was still inside my body. I can also feel the sperm was coming out. I pushed him away. I got up and found my panties. I wiped the sperm with the panties. I laid beside him. My head was on his left arm. His smell was so familiar. The room was still cold. Staying close to him kept my body warm. I hugged him and placed my left leg on his right leg. I hugged him tight. His right hand was feeling with my long hair. He kissed my forehead. I felt so warm. His cock was soft now. It was wet. I can smell sperm and my smell on his cock. I looked at it. It was so ugly yet it was so cute. I had a urge to kiss and suck it. I didn't do it. He loved oral sex but I never like it. "Do you want to kiss it?" I touched his soft cock. "No." I protested. "Just once. A quick kiss?" I moved my head toward his cock. I looked at it one more time and looked at his eyes. I can feel the eagerness in his eyes. I kissed the tip of his cock. "It smelled." "Yes, it is your smell." He smiled. I lifted it up with my left hand. I kissed it. I slowly put his soft cock inside my mouth. I still did not like it. "Ahh." I got his encouragement. It was still soft inside my mouth. I didn't think he was ready for the second round in such a short period of time. I took the cock out. I gave him a smile. I went on to kiss him on his mouth. I want him to taste what I just tasted. "I need to go to washroom." "The washroom is across from our bedroom." "What is beside us?" "That is Jim's room." That is the room behind our bed frame. He would have heard us if he was home. "Where is Jim?" "He won't be home until 9pm today." "What is the time now?" "Almost 8pm," "OK, I better go clean up before he comes back." I am still naked. I walked quickly to the entrance. I opened up my luggage to get a towel. "Can you please take the bag to our room?" I walked toward the bathroom. The bathroom was very big. The shower area was covered with a semi transparent glass. I cannot believe the bathroom has marble floor. It was cold and slippery. I looked at the mirror. My cheek was reddish. My breasts were firm. There were not big -- 34B. I am always proud with my body. I am also very satisfied with the wanted feeling from him just now. I smiled. I took a long and warm shower. The temperature in the house was cold. Hot shower on my body was very relaxing. I must have taken at least 15 minutes of shower. Once out, I remembered I forgot to bring my cloth with me. "Can you please bring me a night gown? It is in the bag outside." I opened a small door gap and yelled at Steve. I did not hear his reply. A few seconds later I heard the noise of zipper opening the luggage. A minute or so later, I heard a knock. I opened the door to let Steve in. He did not come in. He thrown a nightgown into the toilet. He picked a pink nightgown. That was the sexiest I had. It was new. I bought it specifically for this trip. "Can you pass me the bra. The bra is on the floor and get me a new panties" I ordered. I put on the night gown. It looked so good on me. I can clearly see the nipples. I can see the nipples clearly. Steve will love it too so I thought. A few minutes later Steve thrown my black bra and black panties inside the bathroom. I opened the bathroom wanting to show him the new gown. As I opened the door, I was in shock. It was not Steve. It is a young guy. He was probably as shock as I am. He looked at me in the eyes and then he looked at my breasts. That was brief but I caught it. He quickly turned around. I quickly closed the door. I was blushed. I just put on a sexy gown for his housemate -- Jim. It took me a few seconds to settled myself. I quickly put on the black bra and panties Jim picked for me. I opened the door slowly. No one was outside. Since the room was just across from the bedroom, I ran as fast as I could going into the room. I closed the door behind me. The room was still dark. Steve was sleeping. Naked. I know exactly what had happened. Steve fell asleep and it was Jim who took me the night gown, my bra and panties. It was embarrassing. I put on Steve's robe and walk outside. The young guy was sitting in the living room watching TV. When he saw me, he immediately got up from the sofa and said hi to me. "Hi. You must be Pam. I am Jim. I live with Steve." "Hi Jim." "Sorry about just now. I did not know it's you." "No problem. I am glad to help." I felt his eyes wandered on my breasts again. Even though I had a robe on me, I still wrapped my arms in front of me. . "I will catch you later. I'm tired." I said. "Good night." I took my bags and my belonging with me into the bedroom. I did not tell Steve what had happened. It was too embarrassing to tell. . (4) Second embarrassing event The next two weeks was pretty routine. Steve and Jim went to work together in the morning. They didn't usually come home together. Most of the time Jim came home after Steve. Jim and I did not talk much. Just the usual hi and bye. There wasn't much to do here. I didn't know anyone besides Steve, Jim and a few of their friends. I started going to the pool downstairs to swim after lunch every day. The pool was pretty quiet during the day. The pool was not big but it was big enough for me to do laps. Steve called one afternoon to let me know he and Jim will be late due to meeting. After dinner by myself, I took a long hot shower. It was pretty refreshing after the long hot shower. The mirror in the washroom was fogged up. I opened the door to let the hot air out. I was standing in front of the mirror looking at myself. That's just me. I would like to be as presentable as possible at all time. The fog on the mirror was mostly gone. I closed the bathroom door. I plugged the armpits hair. I like the clean feeling. Since I started doing this, I thought of shaving my pussy hair. I didn't shave regularly. I shaved occasionally whenever I felt like it. I wanted to shave because Steve likes it. I sat on the toilet. I applied Steve's shaving cream on my pussy hair and started shaving. It did not take long to shave the hair above pussy. The difficult part was the hair around pussy. I tried my best and I wasn't totally satisfied. I flushed the toilet. I stood up in front of the mirror. I lifted my left leg to the sink to check on the hair. I shaved a bit more until it was totally clean. After the long stretch, my legs were tired. I sat on the counter when the sink was. I wanted to dry my hair with a hair blower. The hair blower was noisier but stronger than the one I had back home. Once my hair was dried, I jumped down from the counter. I must have stepped on the wet marble floor and fell. I landed myself on my left knee. It hurts so badly that I screamed. I laid on the floor facing down. I couldn't move. All in a sudden the washroom door opened. I did not lock it. "Are you OK?" Jim asked. "Ah." I screamed. This time it was not about the pain on my left knee. It was because I was shocked knowing Jim was seeing me naked back. "Yes, I am OK." "Let me get you up." Without asking for the permission, his hands held on my both arms slowly lifting me. My leg was still in pain. I slowly got up with all of my weight on my right leg. I was still back to him with me facing the shower stall. I looked up in front of me, I can clearly see the vague reflection of me on the semi transparent glass shower wall. I knew he could see what I saw. Although it was not as clear as mirror, but my naked body was shown on the reflection. Once I balanced myself, he removed his hands from me. My cotton night gown and panties were on the hook behind the bathroom door. I did not want to turn around to get them to further expose my naked body to him. "Can you pass me my cloth. They are behind the door." "Sure." He passed me the panties first. I wished that he passed me the robe. I could have asked him to pass me the robe now but I just did not want him to hold on to my panties any longer. I took it with my right hand. As I turned, I caught him looking at me through the mirror. My right breast must have fully exposed in front of his eyes. I just wanted to get out of this awkward situation as fast as possible. With my weight leaning toward the wall left to me, I started putting on the panties. I bent down my upper body to put the panties. I first lifted my left leg followed by my right leg. The left leg was easy. When I shifted my weight to my left leg, my knee hurt. He must have sensed it or saw my face emotion through the shower glass wall. His both hands grabbed on my side body, just inches away from my breasts. At this point, I did not care how much he saw, I just wanted to put on the panties and robe as quickly as possible. The more faster I tried, the more difficult to put on the panties. I almost fell when trying to lift my right leg again. All of my weight was on his hands. "You sit on the toilet." I had no choice. It would be easier to put the panties on while I sat on the toilet. However, he will see me naked in a short range. Without waiting for my answer, he lifted my body and placed me on the toilet. I sat down facing him. I caught him watching my body again. Who wouldn't, I thought. His face was red too. I didn't know if it was due to lack of fresh air in the bathroom or due to seeing me naked. He saw me naked. He may even see my shaved pussy. He must have sensed my displeasure in my facial expression. He turned around to grab my bath robe. He covered his face with the bathrobe. I guess he was giving me the assurance that he was not looking. With my black panties on my left knee, I lifted my right leg to put the panties on. Now the panties were hanging on both of my knees. "Can you help me?" I needed help to get up to lift the panties up. He dropped the bathrobe to the floor. He was like a few inches away from me. I raised my hands to give him a signal I need him to lift my body up. He complied. His both hands again was on my side body inches away from my breasts. The only difference now was he was looking at my breasts. Once I stood up with most of my weight on my right leg, I quickly pull the panties up. I looked at him one more time, his face was really red. I can see that he was trying hard to avoid looking at my body. I can even see sweat on his forehead. He must be embarrassing too. At least that's what I thought of him. That made me feel better. He paused for a few seconds and then immediately passed me the bathrobe which was sitting on the floor. While he bent down to reach my bathrobe with his left hand, his face was inches away from my panties. His right hand was still supporting my weight even though I did not put any weight on him. He helped me wearing the bathrobe. Once I'm fully cloth, I looked at him. He looked relief. I laughed. He laughed too. "Thanks!" I said. "No thanks." He replied. We both laughed again. "Is Steve home?" I just got my senses back. "No. He should be back in another hour. He has another meeting to attend." "Don't tell Steve what happen tonight." "I won't." He laughed again. "He missed a sexy lady falling in the bathroom doing yoga." His eyes briefly stopped on my breasts and then down to my lower body. I felt a lot safer now because of the bathrobe. "Yaya." I give him a dirty look. "Are you OK now?" "I am OK.". "Let's get you out of here." I wrapped my left arm around his shoulder as he helped me getting to the living room. Once he sat me down on the sofa, he went to the freezer to get me some ice. He bagged the ice in a plastic bag. He lifted my left to the coffee table and placed the plastic bag of ice on my knee. "Relax." My bathrobe was a knee length one. When I sat down, my knee were fully exposed. When he lifted my left leg, from his angle, he could see my panties. I did not bother to cover it. He had seen me naked. I laid back on the sofa. Pam's Guilt The living room light was bright. I close my eyes. I thought about what had happened tonight. and the night when I first arrived. I just know him for less then a month. He had already seen me naked. Not once, but twice. I smiled helplessly. "If you need anything, let me know. I am going to take a shower." "OK, thanks." Steve did not get home until later that night. I did not mention the whole incident to him. I just told him I fell in the bathroom. (5) Visitor The next two weeks went by very quickly. My daily routine was preparing breakfast, cleaning, cooking, swimming in the afternoon, dinner, etc. Steve and I made love 3 more times over this period. Nothing as memorable as the one on the day I arrived. We made love when Jim was not home. On evening when Steve told me he would be late, I went out shopping. When I got home, Jim was home with his bedroom door closed. I did not think twice. After shower, I got ready for bed. Just as I laid on the bed, I heard the voice of Jim and another lady from next door. I looked at the alarm clock, it was almost 9:30pm. I got curious and listened carefully. They were talking and laughing. That went on for almost half an hour. It was silent for a few minutes and then I heard a loud noise as if something fell on the bed. I heard a small scream from the lady. I had a feeling that they were going to make love. I was excited and curious to find out what I can hear in my bedroom. I was disappointed. It was quiet. I placed my right ear on the wall but I still couldn't hear anything. Another 10 minutes went by before I heard anything. I heard the annoying noise from the bed frame hitting the wall. He must have the same bed as we had. The annoying noise came and went at first. The noise became a rhythm. Occasionally I heard her moaning. I knew they must be making love. I was curious and at the same time very excited. My right ear was on the wall the whole time trying not to miss anything. That making love and bed frame noise went on for a while before it stopped. A few minutes later I heard their door opened and then the bathroom door was closed. I did not know who was out there. I was curious to find out who she was. The clock was showing 10:33pm now. Wow, they went on for more than an hour. My panties was wet. I was excited. I can feel that my nipples were hard. I took off my panties. Before I put a new one on, I heard the bathroom door opened. I quickly got out trying to catch who she was but I did not see her. Jim's bedroom door was closed. I placed my right ear on the door. I couldn't hear anything. As I turned toward my bedroom, I saw Jim looking at me with a funny facial expression. I paused for a few seconds before I rushed back into my bedroom. I was so embarrassing. I just got caught listening to them making love. I tried to think a good reason to explain but I couldn't. I don't know what time I fell asleep, but the next thing I know Steve was besides me. I can feel his body was cold. He hugged me from behind with his left hand wrapped around me. I moved a little bit to make it more comfortable. "What is the time now?" I asked. "Almost 2am." "So late again?" "Ya. Too much work." "OK." I said. His left hand felt my body, from the thigh to my left breast. We married for so long, I knew he wanted to make love. "It's late." I protested. I just remembered I did not have panties on. I took it off and did not put a new one on. "I will be quick." "...." He got a silent OK from me. His left hand wandered inside my nightgown. "You must be waiting for me." He said quietly after knowing I did not have panties on. I couldn't tell him I took it off because I was excited hearing Jim and the girl making love earlier. "Mmmm." His fingers were on my pussy feeling my clit. The pussy hair grown back. Slowly he inserted his middle finger in me. I moaned again. I was excited. I can't tell if I was horny all night or just from his touch. He lifted my left leg up on his belly while he continued finger fucking me. I turned my upper body toward him, wanted to feel his body. He raised his head and his mouth sucked on my left nipple. I was excited. I couldn't help but moaned. "You are hot." "..." He then got up on the floor and removed underwear. I moved my body down toward the edge of the bed. I wanted him to enter me. With my nightgown raised to my waist, he held on my both legs and spread them wide. The room was not too dark. I can see his body but I can only feel his cock outside of my pussy. Without any hesitation, he entered me. I was wet. I can feel it. I was excited. He stood on the floor. He was fucking me while holding my legs wide. I noticed the noise of the bed frame again. Earlier it was Jim's bed, but this time it was our bed. I just had a naughty though, I wanted him to know we were making love. I followed Steve's rhythm pushing toward him. "Your are so sexy." He said. I did not say anything. I never thought of myself as a sexy kind of woman. I did catch attention of guys from time to time, which I enjoyed. Steve raised my nightgown further up to expose my breasts. I removed the nightgown myself. I was naked. Steve is pushing toward me. I saw my breasts were bouncing up and down while Steve was fucking me. I closed my eyes. I moaned louder. I felt Steve's hands cupping my both breasts. I felt his hands on my body. He was squeezing my breasts. I can feel his cock is thrusting faster and harder into me. With every push he did, the bed frame was hitting the wall. I did not care about them hearing us. I just wanted to let go of my usual self and enjoyed.. "Mmmm." I moaned as his finger was brushing my clit as he was fucking me. "Mmmmm." I moaned louder. I thought of Jim and the girl in his room making love earlier. I know the only thing between our beds are the wall. I wanted them to know that we were making love. I wanted him to know. Steve did not say anything but continue moving in and out of my body. He then raised both of my legs on to his shoulders, he continues fucking me faster. "Mmmmmm." All I can hear is Steve and my heavy breath and the bed frame noise hitting the wall. He continued fucking me for another 2-3 minutes before he released everything inside me. He lowered my legs from his shoulder. He hugged me for another 30 seconds until I felt his sperm coming out of me. I pushed him away. "You are good." I gave him a smile. I got up to clean. I couldn't find the tissue box. I cleaned the sperm off me with my panties. By the time I was done Steve already fell asleep. I put on a bathrobe with nothing inside me. I took the panties with me. I wanted to clean the sperm off the panties. I opened the door and got into the bathroom. I switched on the light. I just wanted to be as quiet as possible. To avoid the loud squeaky noise, I left a small gap without closing the door fully. After pee, I stood in front of the mirror. I rinsed the panties and left it on the sink. I wet a small hand towel. I untied the bathrobe and started cleaning my pussy with the damp cloth. All in the sudden I heard a noise and looked up. I saw Jim. His eyes were on my body. I immediately wrapped the bathrobe. "Sorry, I did not know you are in the bathroom." Jim said. He continued, "I heard a cat so I come out to check." "What cat?" I asked? "Cat making love." He winked. "Hey." I threw the cloth I just wiped my pussy at him. I did not think twice. It was like a reflection. He caught the cloth with his right hand. He immediately put the cloth on his noise. He smelled it! I was blushed. I tried to get it back from him. He immediately raised his right arm high in the air. He was at least 4 inches taller than me. With his arm high in the air, there was no way for me to get the cloth back. I jumped up trying to grab the cloth. I missed on the first few jumps. He immediately put a finger on his lips signalling me to keep quiet. I stopped jumping but on the toes trying to reach the cloth. My left hand was keeping my bathrobe together and my right hand was reaching. Suddenly his left hand grabbed my ass toward him while his right arm remained high in the air. I felt his hand on my ass. All in the sudden we look each other in the eyes. It was very brief. No more than 1 second. I pushed him away. Without looking at him or saying a word, I got back to the bedroom. I did not sleep well that night. I eventually fell asleep and when I woke up, Steve already left the apartment. The week went by quickly. Jim and I talked briefly, we never mentioned about that night. I did not find out who the girl was with Jim. (6) After dinner Steve and I went for a dinner on Thursday night. The restaurant was famous for its Italian foods. I dressed up for the occasion. I wore a black short dress I bought recently. I put on a thigh high stocking, just above the hem of the dress. "You're sexy on the dress." Steve's eyes were wide open when he first saw me in that outfit. I replied with a smile. "Maybe we should stay home tonight." He was approaching me with his dirty look.He came over to feel squeeze my butt. "Wah. Someone is not wearing panties." "It is G-string" "Oh let me see." I slapped him on his wrist. ... We waited for 30 mins to get a table at the restaurant. By the time we're done dinner, it was closed to 9pm. Steve had a conference call at 10pm. We took a taxi home. Once the taxi dropped me off, Steve continued to the office. I took my sweet time taking a long hot shower. Once done, I stood in front of the mirror applying moisturizer on my face and body. I put on a white cotton panties. I brushed my teeth in front of the mirror. While brushing, I heard a loud knock at the door. "Who is it?" I asked. "It's me. I need to pee." Jim said. "Wait." "Hurry up." I immediately covered myself with a towel. I opened the door. He immediately walked passed me to the toilet. He lifted the toilet seat. I smelled a strong alcohol on his breathe. I rinsed my mouth and trying to get out of the toilet. I wanted to leave the bathroom but my dress was on the hook beside the toilet. Before I had a chance to take my dress, he started peeing. I did not know what to do -- should wait for him to finish to get my dress or should leave and come back later for the dress. I paused for a few seconds. "Is my cock bigger than Steve's?" He asked as he turned his upper body toward me. I naturally looked at his cock. I blushed immediately and turned away. I did not know what to say. I kept quiet. Once he was done, I heard him unzipped his pants. All I wanted at this time was to get my dress. I turned around trying to grab my dress. He saw what I wanted to do. He grabbed my dress and passed it to me. But he wouldn't let go of the dress. "Give it to me?" "I want to see you wearing the dress." "Give it to me." I tried really hard to get the dress from his grip but he was too strong. "Can you wear this dress for me to see together with the underwear you gave me?" "When did I give you the underwear?" "The one you left here the other night." I suddenly remembered the underwear I left on the sink that night. My face was warm. "Give me the dress and underwear." "OK." He let go of the dress and walked passed me toward the bathroom door. "You will wear the dress for me with that underwear?" I was relief until he turned around and asked again. "You are drunk." I know there was no reason to talk to a drunk man. I got my dress and I wanted to leave the bathroom. I walked passed him and he grabbed me on the waist. "Let go." I yelled. He lifted me and put me down in front of the mirror. He used his body to pin me to the sink. His crotch was pinning me on my ass. He wrapped his arms around my breasts. "Let go." I screamed. I can tell he was drunk. His breath was smelled and his eyes were red. I saw him through the mirror. "Can you wear the dress for me?" "No!" "Let me help you." He pull my towel away. I tried to hold onto the towel but I couldn't. It was a sudden. I was half naked in front of him, exposing my breasts to him. I covered my breasts with my arms. "You are drunk. Let me go. Steve is coming home soon." I screamed. "He called while you're in the shower. He said he will be late." "Let me go." His right hand went to top of my panties. He wanted to pull my panties down. I immediately hold on to my panties with my right hand and continued covering my breasts with my left arm. His left hand pull my left arm away from my breasts exposing my breasts. His right hand grab my right breast and started playing with it. I saw him squeezing my right breast through the mirror. It was a strange feeling seeing that. I screamed again but that did not stop him. Once he let go of my left arm, both of his hands were playing with my breasts. All I can do was trying to get away from him. "Your breasts are beautiful. Do you like them to be sucked?" I continued struggling. His right hand moved to my panties. He wanted to pull my panties down. I knew that he was determined to remove my panties. With all of my strength, I held on to my panties with both of hands. He tried but he couldn't pull it down. I thought I was safe for a second. It did not last long. He pushed my body down toward the sink. He grabbed my both hands and held them at the back of me. Once he locked my both hands with his left hand, he pull down my panties. Once my panties was down to my thigh, his right hand felt my pussy. "You want me now. You are so wet." "Please don't do this. I won't tell Steve anything if you stopped now." I begged. His middle finger was feeling me up and down from my asshole to the pussy. "You are wet. Your pussy is ready. Do you want me to fuck you in the pussy or your ass." "...." I cried. He unzipped his pants. He removed his underwear. "Ass?" "No." "OK, I will fuck your pussy then." "Please don't." I begged. "You are wet. I know you want me to fuck you hard." Without much delay, his cock entered me. "You are an asshole." I screamed. He did not say anything. He continued fucking me. He was deep inside me. It was painful. I cried. He did not seem to care. He continued fucking me for the next 3-4 minutes. "Please let me go." I cried. He let go of my hands. I did not resist again. It made no difference. He lifted my body up. His hands squeezed my both breasts while fucking me. I looked at him briefly through the mirror, his face was red. He continued fucking me and playing with my breasts. That went on for another few minutes. At this point I just want him to finish and let me go. I did not know what he wanted to do when he took his cock out. He turned me toward him. This was the first time I was facing him after he entered me. He lifted me and placed me on the sink. He opened my legs wide. I did not resist. I closed my eyes. He entered me again. His right hand supported my weight and his left hand was squeezing my breasts.. "Mmmmm." I moaned. "I know you enjoy this." I did not say anything. I kept my eyes closed. I can't remember how long he continued fucking me. Every push was deep inside me. I was so excited. I closed my eyes. I tried to keep quiet but I failed. I moaned with his every fuck. "I am coming." I felt he fucked me faster and faster. I felt relief and at the same time shameful. I let him fucking me. My legs were opened wide voluntarily for him. His hand squeezed my breasts and worst of all, I enjoyed it. His both hands moved to my waist. He moved my waist toward him as he was fucking me harder and faster. About 30 seconds later he came. He released his sperm inside my pussy. All I heard was his loud breath. We both stayed still for another 10 seconds. His head was resting on my breasts. I pushed him away. "Get out." I asked. He quickly put on his underwear and pants and left the bathroom. I took a shower again. I saw red marks on my wrists, hands, and breasts. He was rough. I cried. When I left the bathroom, Jim's room was closed. I didn't know if he was still in the apartment or went out. I just went straight to my room. I cried more. I was debating whether I should tell Steve. I decided not to. It will be best for everyone if I just pretended nothing happened. Steve came home around midnight. I pretended to be sleeping. He got into the bed. He hugged me and slept beside me. (7) Night out I did not sleep well at night. I woke up around 7:30am. I prepared breakfast for Steve and Jim. Normally when I prepared breakfast, I prepared for both of them. I did not want to act differently. After breakfast, Jim had a brief moment with me. "I am so sorry last night." Steve said. "...." I did not say a thing. I didn't know what to say. "I am sorry. I did not mean it." Steve came back to the living room. Both of them left. *** I went swimming in the afternoon and took a nap after. The phone ring woke me up from the nap. "Hello?" "It is me." It is Steve at the other end. "What's the time now?" I asked. "Oh sorry to wake you up. It is almost 6pm. I will be late again. We have a farewell party." "OK. What time are you coming home?" "Around 11pm." "OK." "Jim is with me too. He said he has something to talk to me. We will go home together tonight." "OK." I hang up. I didn't know what Jim is going to talk to Steve. Was he going to tell Steve what happened last night? I was worried. I called Jim. "Hello?" Jim asked. "What are you going to talk to Steve?" I asked. "What are you talking about?" "Steve told me you have something to tell him." "Oh. It is work related. Trust me, that is the secret between you and me. I won't tell anyone." I can sense the upbeat feeling in his voice. I hang up. I spent the next few hours watching tv, video chat with my kids, etc. They did not come home until around 11:30pm. When they came back, Jim was holding Steve up to the room. Steve was drunk. He seldom drank that much. "What happened? Why drink so much?" I asked. "He was not a good drinker." Jim replied. We both got Steve to bed. He was mumbling. I did not know what he was talking about. As we put him on bed, his hand was grabbing my strip on my night gown. My bra was exposed. I quickly settled him and pull the strip back up. I know Jim was looking at me. I pretended nothing happened. I got up from bed. I removed Steve's shoes. I wanted to change him but I didn't think I can do it by myself. I thought of asking Jim to help, but I decided no too. "Thanks." I said to Jim. "No worry. Can I talk to you for a few minutes about the stuff I was going to tell Steve?" I got nervous. "Let's go out side." I walked toward the living room. He followed me from behind. I was afraid he would do anything to me because he sounded drunk too. I was right. Before I had a chance to get to the living room, he grabbed me on my waist in the hallway. He lifted me and threw me on to the sofa. I pushed him away and he immediately grab me on my shoulder and started to kiss me. I turned my head left and right to avoid him. He finally kissed me on my mouth while his both hands were on my breasts again. I pushed him away with all of my strength. "You can't do this. Steve is in the bedroom." "I want you." "I will scream." "You won't. If you scream, I will tell Steve that we made love last night. You had a big orgasm." "No." "I still have you panties." "...." "I want you to suck my cock tonight. I promise I won't fuck you. But if you resist, I will fuck you like last night. If you scream, Steve will see everything.It is your choice." He unzipped his pants in front of me. I looked at the curtain-less windows. He understood my concern. Pam's Guilt "You can suck me in your room beside Steve." "No." "How about my room then?" "..." "It will be quick. I won't tell anyone." "You promise this is going to be the last time?" "Of course." "..." He grabbed my hand and rushed me toward his room. "I will come in a few minutes." "I am waiting." He went into his room waiting for me. I went into my room to check on Steve. He was sleeping. I put a blanket on him and closed the door behind me. I reluctantly went inside Jim's room. He was already undressed. He was naked sitting on his bed. He waved me toward him. I complied. My eyes starred at his semi hard cock briefly. "Is my cock bigger than Steve?" "..." I was in front of him. He grabbed my hand pulling me toward him. "This is the last time." "Yes." He smiled. "Unless you want again tomorrow." I did not know what to do. I just felt shameful and angry at myself. At the same time I felt excited. I hated myself. "Take off your cloth." "No. Just oral sex." "Yes, but I want to look at you naked." "No." He pull me toward him. I resisted. "Just take off the nightgown. I promise I will not fuck you. Unless you beg me to." "Jim, you are drunk." "Take off now." Tear on my eyes. I can feel it. He did not care. He was waiting for me to remove my gown. I turned my face away from him. I pull the strip of my gown apart. Slowly I let the gown fell to the floor. My breasts were exposed and I can feel my nipples were hard. The only piece of clothing I had in front of him is a small pink panties. "You are so sexy. My cock is hard looking at you." I looked at his cock again. It is hard. I kneed down in front of him. I slowly took his cock into my mouth. It smelled. I didn't have a choice. I sucked his cock. "Ahhh. You are so good at sucking. Steve missed it tonight." "..." He stood up in front of me. I continued sucking his cock. He pushed his cock toward my mouth. It is bigger than Steve. I thought. He fucked my mouth while his left hand was holding on my head. His right hand was feeling my shoulder. He slowly cupped his right hand on my left breast. I did not resist. It felt good. "Do you want me to fuck you?" "..." I can't answer him as his cock was in my mouth with his hand pushing my head toward his cock. I continued sucking his cock. I felt water on my face. I did not know if it is tear or sweat. "Do you want to eat my sperm?" "No." He let got of my head. His cock is in front of me. The tip is red. The room is cold. I can feel the heat coming from his cock. "OK. Suck it now." I looked at him. Begging. He just pushed his cock toward my lips. I did not have a choice. I took his cock in my mouth again. I can feel him watching me as I was sucking his cock. Tear coming out again. "Suck faster. I love seeing your breasts while you're sucking me." I heard him moaning for the first time. I did not know I should be happy or sad. I wanted to be proud of myself but I can't. He continued pushing his cock in and out of my mouth. All I can hear was his breath and the sucking noise. That went on for another 5-6 minutes. My jaw was numb. He finally signalled me he was about to come. I immediately took it out of my mouth. I wanted to stand up but his left hand was putting pressure on my shoulder. All I could do was to watch him stroking his cock. His cock was pointing at my face. I was helpless. I couldn't move. Honestly, I felt flattering. I made him so excited. I heard him moaning again. I knew he was going to shoot his sperm on my face if I did not do anything. I used all the strength I had to get away from him. He tried to push me down but he failed. I got up just enough time to escape from his sperm. I felt his sperm shooting on my belly and then on my thigh. I made a soft scream. He continued stroking his cock. He released the remaining of the sperm on the floor in front of me. I froze while he was doing that in front of me. As soon as he was done, I wiped the sperm off my body with a tissue. He was watching me while I was putting the nightgown on. "Are you wet?" He approached me. "...." I step back. Tear came out again. "Don't be sad. I can fuck you again." I left the room quickly. I went into my room. I locked the door behind me. Steve was still sleeping. He was snoring. I felt relief. I turned off the bed room light. I placed my ear on the door trying to find out what he was doing. I did not hear anything. The room was dark again. Once my eyes were adjusted to the dark, I started moving toward the closet. I wanted to change. I smelled sperm on my body. I did not want to take a shower. I did not want to see him again tonight. I took off the nightgown. Stood in front of the mirror. With the dim light coming from the window, I saw my breasts. My nipples were still hard. I took off my panties. It was very wet. I did not want Jim to know. I was excited while sucking him off. I felt ashamed. Now that my panties was off, shamefully, I wanted to make love. . I turned around. Steve was still snoring. I didn't think I can wake him up now. My right hand slowly felt my body. Slowly I moved it toward my breasts, belly until I felt my pussy hair. The pussy hair were wet. I can smell Jim's sperm and my pussy. I was excited. "Mmmmm." My middle finger were on my clit. I did not masturbate often. When Steve wanted me to masturbate in front of him, he likes me to insert finger into my pussy. When I did it by myself, I seldom put finger inside me. I prefer fingers on clit. I still stood in front of the closet mirror. I checked on Steve one more time, he was still sleeping. I closed my eyes. My right middle finger stimulated my clit. My left hand cupped my breasts. I opened my mouth. I can almost feel Jim's cock inside my mouth. "Mmmmm." I felt the tense pressured building. I was having a orgasm. It can't be right. This can't be happening. It usually took me a while to get to orgasm during masturbation. I can feel it is coming. "Mmmmm." I closed my legs really tightly. Everything went silent. "...." When I finally opened my eyes, I checked on Steve first. He was still snoring. I quickly dried my finger and pussy with my already wet panties. I put on another clean and dried nightgown. I put on a white panties. I laid on Steve's side. I caught my breath. I felt relief. *** For the next 3 and a half weeks, I did not give Jim another chance to be alone with me. When Steve worked late, I went to his office to company him. I gave a few lame excuses. He did not seem to care much. He was busy. I sometimes slept on the couch. (8) Journey back It was foggy. I was on a taxi to the airport. My vacation came to an end. Steve was going to take me to the airport until he received a call. He had to rush to the office. He took the first taxi and I took the second one. "Buzz" That is my phone buzzing for new SMS. "I hope you like your time here." The SMS was from Jim. I hardly spoke with him after that night. I avoided him. The phone buzzed again. "I left you a souvenir in your bag. It is in the front zipper." I immediately opened the zipper. There was a large sealed envelope. I opened it. My face turned red. I couldn't believe my eyes. I was seeing a photo showing my naked upper half of body sucking a cock. It was me in his room the other night. "I am taking the same flight as you. Didn't I say I will fuck you?" He sent another SMS. My brain just went blank.