0 comments/ 59823 views/ 4 favorites Little White Lies By: thecelt What would happen if both partners did something wrong but neither would admit it? What if both stuck to their lies? This one is just for fun. Thank you angel love for the time you put in editing this story for me and your suggestions. Sean Just after 5:00 P.M. on Thursday, I walked down the hall to Jerry's office and stuck my head in his door. "Is he in?" I asked Polly, his secretary. She smiled and said, "Yeah Sean, go on in. He's alone and finally off the phone." "Thanks Polly. I just need a minute." I went past her desk and pushed open the door into Jerry's office. Almost a duplicate of mine, it was a very large, open room with a desk, a conference table and a long, leather couch. The coffee table was huge and was currently covered with open files and boxes of records. He was working on a case involving embezzlement by a worker who had been with the company long enough to know the ropes and had been doing it for some ten years. Jerry represented the employee and knew he had a tough road to make a jury sympathetic to his client. "Hey, Jerry. Just a quick heads up. I think I must have a bad cold and my head is killing me: every bone in my body aches. I'm calling it a day. There shouldn't be any problems since I've got everything up to date. Janie can handle anything that does comes up." He glanced up with a frown and said, "Hope you feel better Sean, but I won't know it, that's for sure. This damn case is gonna kill me so you'll probably find me face down when you return." With that, he waved me out and went back to his files. I closed the door and left to return to my own office. I cleared my desk and left all open items with Janie, my secretary and told her to let me go home and die in peace. She was not to call unless either she or Polly was arrested for murdering Jerry. She just smiled and urged me to get out of the office. Jerry and I had opened our own private practice in defense law after working for one of the biggest law firms in the city of Mobile, Alabama. Both of us felt we were getting nowhere fast at the firm and we had talked about this for some time. Ten months ago we took the plunge and started Ridder and Ballard, Attorneys, Inc. I was Sean Ballard. We took a lease on a large, old two-story shingle sided estate home down town and we borrowed enough money to renovate it and put our own touches to it. We had enough space upstairs for three more attorneys and we each had a downstairs office large enough to work in. Besides Jerry and me, we had two receptionists/clerks and we already had more clients than we could handle. Our startup debts were paid, and we were finally making a profit, so we had interviewed several young attorneys and had decided to hire two of them, letting our practice grow. He and I were to be the senior partners and the others would work for us until they brought in enough new business to buy into the practice. Now that we were functioning at a profit, we could establish a value to the business and the new guys or gals could buy shares. Life was good. I was married to a beautiful girl that I had loved forever. Her name was Soledad but I sometimes called her Sunny. You know, Sol-edad or Sol, for Sun, hence Sunny? I hadn't taken a day off in over a year and Sunny had been begging me for some time to take a vacation. I'd put her off waiting until we were on more solid ground with the practice but it seemed like a good time now to talk about time off with Jerry. Most of my cases weren't urgent and I could take some time. A trip away without JJ sounded good and I thought we could both use the together time. While I loved my son, he was a handful and Sunny and I seldom had much time together. I got into my car and began the drive home. I felt like hell but I wanted the peace and quiet of my nice soft bed to die in or at least to make me feel like I was going to live. We lived in the South Baldwin/Gulf Shore area and our home was much too big for us but we felt it was a good investment. We had a mortgage of more than $300,000 but I was making enough now to just cover it and Soledad loved it. She had become a major player in the local Women's club and she seemed to thrive on it. Her activities and contacts were good for business so I encouraged her interest. I was less encouraging in her choice of friends but she was happy so I took it as well as I could. Her two best friends were a woman named Judy Cabot, about our age and divorced from her second husband, and Carol Jennings, whom I learned had been dumped by her husband of seven years for infidelity. Both had pre-nups that left them very well off so Carol was not the least upset about it and laughed in my face when I said that I was sorry for her breakup. When I mentioned to Soledad that she was the only married woman in that group, she just smiled and patted me on the knee telling me not to worry. I arrived home about 7:30, a good two or three hours ahead of my usual time, and pulled into the garage. Sunny's car wasn't there but Lucy's was. Lucy was our regular babysitter and often sat for JJ. As I walked in, I asked her where my wife was and she said that she didn't know for sure but that she had left a number and said she would be home by 9:00. I looked at the number but didn't recognize it. Then, I suddenly remembered that she had her Thursday meeting with the Women's club and this must be the hotel downtown where they were meeting. She would usually be home by 8:30 or 9:00 when she had these meetings. As bad as I was feeling, I let Lucy go after paying her for the whole evening with a tip and confirming that JJ, our one year old son, was sound asleep. He would be out until morning and I could just go to bed after a hot shower and a hot toddy. I wasn't sure which I wanted first so I fixed the toddy and took it to the bedroom with me. I took my shower, dried off, went to make a final check on JJ, finished the toddy and climbed into bed. I was sound asleep and didn't hear Soledad when she came upstairs to the bedroom. Soledad I wasn't sure why I did it but when Jason asked me to dinner, I accepted. The Thursday meeting had been very productive and it had broken up just about 15 minutes ago but I stayed behind to speak with Jason further. We chatted about nothing in particular and then out of the blue, he had asked me to have dinner with him. He said we could just grab a bite to eat in the hotel restaurant since he didn't have a car. He said he didn't need one since he had a room there for tonight and tomorrow the hotel shuttle would take him to the airport. I tried to convince myself that this was a bad idea, but I was bored and Sean was going to be late again as usual and the only thing I would be doing otherwise was spending another lonely evening by myself. JJ was with Lucy, our babysitter, and he would be in bed by the time I got home. I had to admit that Jason was very nice to look at and he was single and in town by himself. So, what was the harm in two lonely people spending a harmless evening having dinner and hopefully some good conversation? At dinner, I was pleasantly surprised. Jason was a great dinner partner, witty, smart and easy to talk to. He was a great listener and I found myself telling him things I wouldn't consider telling anyone else, even my best friends. I told him about Sean and Jerry and their new partnership and the time he was spending trying to make a go of it. I admitted that we had discussed it and I had been part of the decision, knowing the time with Sean that I would have to give up. He listened and sympathized but said that he couldn't see giving up all that time with someone as beautiful as me. I was naturally flattered and a little taken with his compliments. We shared a bottle of red wine with our meal and had another with conversation after. I had a pleasant buzz that allowed me to relax and enjoy. During coffee, he moved over to sit next to me as we talked, commenting that the restaurant had become crowded and very noisy. I didn't comment as he moved closer to me. I pretended not to notice as our knees touched. Once, as he moved to pour coffee for himself he had to lean past me to pick up the decanter, and his hand brushed my breast. I felt a flash of pleasure, followed by a flush of embarrassment. He seemed not to notice, but I did. The wine had apparently made me a little rash. As we sat and talked, he suggested we move to the bar and have an after dinner drink. At first, I declined but finally agreed as he continued to encourage me. I followed as he took my hand and led me out of the restaurant and into the bar. Since it was early in the evening, the bar was not crowded and he selected a booth toward the back. It was dimly lit, even that early as I slid into the seat. I expected him to sit across from me but he surprised me by sitting next to me. I moved to the far end of the seat but he just moved closer. As we settled in, I felt the warmth of his thigh next to mine and his hand still holding mine just under the table. As I was about to say something to him, a waitress came up to take our order. He ordered something for us both and the waitress left. He smiled at me and leaned over to kiss my hair. I shivered but didn't pull away. He still held my hand. When the drinks came, Jason slid one over to me and I took it up immediately, trying to cover my nervousness. I took a sip and thought it was a little bitey for just ginger ale but drank a big swallow to wet my dry mouth and throat. I considered pulling my hand back but I had to admit, it was kind of nice the way he was holding my hand. I liked the warmth of his hand on mine. As I considered this, I took another swallow of my drink. I was beginning to relax and I felt a warm glow in my stomach that probably had to do with this charming man next to me. I looked at him and started to say something about the drinks but stopped talking when I felt him put my hand on his leg, just inches away from his groin. He held his hand on mine as he watched me with a small smile on his face. He seemed to be waiting for me to make the next move, but when I didn't, he moved my hand upward and onto his crotch. I immediately felt his erection and was surprised by the size. It seemed huge! With the blood rushing to my face, I looked into his eyes as he moved my fingers around his bulge and began to slowly move my hand up and down his shaft. Once I knew what he wanted, I continued when he moved his hand back up to the table. I began to move with more confidence, and as I did, I felt his cock grow in size until I could only cup it with my hand. It felt somehow very erotic with his pants still fastened and the thin layer of cloth between my hand and his cock. I was breathing harder and my face was flushed but he seemed to be calm and very nonchalant. I began to slow my movements in uncertainty, but he again moved his band back down onto mine and urged me to speed up again. I wondered if he wanted me to bring him to a conclusion right there in the bar. As I stroked his erection with my hand, I suddenly realized what I was doing, and what I was being asked to do, and I suddenly came to my senses. What in the hell was I doing? This was not real. It couldn't be! I was sitting in a bar with a man's cock in my hands and trying to jerk him off? I pulled my hand back and hunched into the corner with my arms around myself. I couldn't look at Jason sitting beside me and I began to shudder in earnest. This couldn't be real; it couldn't be. I was a married woman and I had no right to be in this position. I remembered who I was with a shock and it sobered me up immediately. "Jason, please let me out. I have to leave right this minute. It was wrong of me to come to this bar with you and I have to leave. I have a child waiting at home for me and I need to get there now. Please, let me out." I was beginning to panic and Jason could see it in my eyes. He was confused at the turn of events and was trying to find some way to calm me down without letting me go. I suspected he wasn't finished with me and he had plans. "I'm sorry, Soledad. I think things got out of control and it was my fault. I wouldn't ever want you to do something you weren't comfortable with. Here, take a drink to calm yourself down. You can't leave this way. You need to get yourself under control and calm down so that it will be safe for you to drive. Please, calm down and drink this." Jason backed away and put a light hand on my shoulder as he tried to reason with me. He held the ginger ale he had ordered for me, urging me to take a drink. His, which looked identical, was ginger ale with Vodka. I glanced at him with a panicky look but took the drink from his hand and emptied half of it in a gulp. I sputtered and coughed but kept it down. It seemed to calm me down almost immediately. I continued to sip at the remainder and finally finished it with a grimace. I slumped back into the seat and my breathing began to calm. My face began to cool down and I finally fell silent. Jason watched me with interest until I was calm and then signaled the waitress for another round. He downed his drink first. When the drinks came, I immediately took mine and took a large drink of what I thought was just ginger ale. I was confused because I was clearly drunk now and my inhibitions once again were gone. After a few minutes, I started to giggle softly and I looked at my right hand, the one that had been pleasuring Jason under the table. I turned it palm up and then palm down. I smiled at it and turned to look up at Jason. "Do you know how bad this hand was? It was doing something bad to you. You should spank it. Do you want to spank it Jason?" I giggled again and gave him my hand. I turned to him with a sultry look and said, "Is it going to be bad again? I think it is, don't you?" With that, I put my hand back where it was and this time went directly to his zipper and unzipped him. He put his arm around me and pulled me tightly against him as I reached in to take his now softened cock in my hand and began again to jerk him off. As I did, he became hard almost immediately and my hand tightened on his cock as I stroked it faster and faster. He was not going to last very long this way but I was not concerned with anything but what I was doing. Just as that thought occurred to me he reached for my hand and stopped my motions. I pouted a little in disappointment as he pulled my hand away and zipped up his pants. He held onto my hand as he signaled for the waitress. He obviously wanted to get me somewhere private where we could do more than this. I reached for my drink and finished it and by now I was clearly drunk and my reserve had disappeared. I began to tug on my hand, trying to free it but he held on till the waitress had finished with the tab. He looked at the total, added a nice tip and threw the money on the table. He pulled me to my feet and led me out of the bar. I followed meekly without a word as we entered the lobby area. But as Jason tried to pull me to the right toward the elevators, I pulled left, toward the outer lobby and the doors leading to the parking lot. "Come with me, Soledad. You need to come up to my room where you can lie down until you are able to drive." He pulled but I resisted. I had to go to my car. Somehow I knew that I couldn't go to his room but I wasn't sure why, but if I could get to my car it would be OK. "I'm fine, and I want to go to my car. I need to get home to JJ. I'm going this way." With that, I pulled free and started out the door to the lot. Jason paused a minute in indecision and finally followed me out the door. He probably figured that if I wasn't going to his room, he would see what happened in the lot or in my car. Beggars couldn't be choosers. He caught up with me and took my arm to keep me from staggering into the parked cars. I knew where I was going so I didn't hesitate. I moved toward the rear of the lot and there was my Lincoln Town Car. I gave a little cry of satisfaction and picked up speed. Jason stayed with me till we arrived at the car. Once there, I seemed to run out of steam. The car was my only objective and in my drunken state, I had succeeded but now I just stood there looking at Jason. I was soooo tired. Jason asked me for the keys and I just held out my purse. He took it, found the key and opened the door. He tossed my purse into the front seat, but by the time he had done all of that, I had run out of energy, lying back against the front fender. I couldn't hold my eyes open and Jason must have thought I was sleeping. Jason apparently decided to take a chance and moved toward me. The lot was empty and where we were, dark, so we couldn't be seen by anyone entering the lot. He moved to me and I felt his hand on my breast. I didn't respond so he began to caress it and moved the other hand to open my blouse. Still I didn't object so he slid one hand into my opened blouse and caressed my breast under my bra. It felt so good that I finally began to moan a little so Jason continued his ministrations. He was able to push my bra up exposing my tits to his exploring hands. Sean had always told me my tits were beautiful: creamy skin, erect nipples with small areolas. Sean loved my breasts. He bent to take a nipple between his teeth and softly nipped. I responded with a shudder and my hand went to the back of his head, urging him to do more. Sean knew I loved this so he obliged, taking the nipple into his mouth while the other hand began to move down my body to find the bottom edge of my skirt. Once in his grasp, he pulled it up to my waist, exposing my panty-covered mound to his other hand. He rubbed my mound and found my clit, erect and throbbing. He did this for several minutes, as I humped against his hand. He continued to rub me hard and fast, but he would do this, stop for a moment and begin again. Each stop caused me to reach for his hand to urge it to continue. He did until he could feel the wetness seep through my panties onto his hand. With the feel of my readiness, Sean pulled my skirt up and held it at my waist with one had while he unzipped his pants with the other. He pulled his cock out and stroked it three or four times to make sure it was hard. He then pulled my panties aside and pushed his now throbbing cock into my wet sex in one strong push. I felt his wonderful cock and with a small sob, I lifted one leg and wrapped it around his waist, maintaining my balance on the other by holding onto his shoulders. I moved against his pelvis, grinding on it with my now swollen clit to give myself satisfaction. Sean hadn't begun to move yet, savoring the feeling of his cock buried in my hot, moist cavern of pleasure. I relished the feeling and I knew satisfaction as his desire was quenched in my willing pussy. As my movements became more demanding, he pulled out and then plunged back in with a savage thrust. Instead of recoiling, I screamed "Yes, Yes, Yes." My man was giving me what I needed. I had missed him so much but he was here with me now. Sean began to pump me with a fierceness built up from days of delayed lust. He was fucking me hard and he was enjoying all of me. He fucked me as hard as he could, driving me back against the cold steel of the car, delaying his own climax for as long as he could. He moved hard and fast until he felt the urge to cum and then slowed down and just held on till the urge decreased and then began again. He did this several times, prolonging his own pleasure, until I felt a thrill of fear begin in my mind. Something was not right. I was no longer moaning and returning Sean's passion with my own for through my drunken haze, I had begun to realize that this couldn't be Sean. As this thought impacted on my conscious mind, I grew quiet and stiff in his arms. Little White Lies Whoever this was wasn't sure what I was feeling, but he must have known instinctively that he had better take his pleasure now. With that thought, he began to fuck me in earnest and pumped hard and fast as the urge grew to a demanding level. He let go and filled my warm, wet cavern with his sperm. Over and over he came until he had nothing left. His cock began to wilt as he pulled out of me. As he moved back, I saw his face and realized that it was Jason. I had just let another man fuck me! Jason looked at my face as he pushed his now soft cock back into his pants and zipped up. I was just standing there, my arms wrapped around me looking at the ground. My skirt had fallen into place but my blouse was still open and my bra was still pushed up just below my chin. As he watched me I finally realized my condition and with a start pulled my bra down and, turning away from him, buttoned my blouse and tucked it neatly into my skirt waistband. "My God, Soledad. That was incredible. I've wanted to do that all day. It was torture looking at you and wanting you so much. I'm so glad you decided to have dinner with me and to stay with me afterwards. This was not what I had planned. I wanted to take you to my suite where we could be more comfortable but I guess neither of us could wait. If you want, we can go there now." I whirled on him with my face streaked from tears. I had turned away to cry, but he hadn't noticed. He looked shaken and slightly afraid. He knew I was drunk and uninhibited but maybe he didn't think I would do what we had just done if I wasn't willing. He watched me warily as I walked a step away from the car. "Jason, please go and leave me alone. This was a mistake, a terrible, terrible mistake that I have to deal with in my own way. I'm not blaming you so don't worry. No one is going to have you arrested or anything. You got what you wanted and that is the end of it. Please, go now and leave me alone." I walked to the car door and pulled it open. There was no longer any drunkenness and I was fully capable of driving myself home. Jason decided that he had best go while I seemed inclined to blame myself and not him. And I was right: he had gotten what he wanted. He probably thought it would have been nice to have me again, but this seemed like a good time to quit while he was ahead. Without another word, he turned and walked toward the hotel lobby and his room. As Jason walked away, I just sat there in the car looking at myself in the rear view mirror. What the hell had I just done? What was I thinking: going to dinner and to a bar with Jason? I had fucked him here in the damn parking lot of a hotel downtown and I had cheated on my husband! What the hell was I thinking? What about my marriage? What about my husband and my son? What if he found out? The lust that I felt when we came out to the car had faded and the last of the alcohol was consumed by my panic. I was now as sober as I could be. I finally noticed the time: it was already 9:45! I told Lucy I would be home by 9:00! What about Sean? He would be home by now as well. I started the car and drove home as fast as I could. I had to get home and I had to get myself in some kind of order before Sean saw me. I couldn't let him know what had happened. He was not the kind of man that could accept infidelity since he was not the kind of man who would ever consider doing anything that would jeopardize our life together. I knew that deep in my soul. As I drove, I remembered our conversation about a year ago. That's when we decided together that Sean would go into partnership with Jerry to form their own law firm. We had talked about the hours Sean would have to put in and I had agreed that we would be better off in the future if we did it now, with JJ so young. I had promised to be understanding of the hours and that I would do my part in keeping the house going, keeping JJ happy and healthy and making sure that all of our household bills and obligations were kept current. He would keep weekends free just for our son and us and he and Jerry would hire young attorneys that could begin to take the load as they became trained. I had promised to be loyal and a valuable part of our team! I had agreed with Sean to build a better life for all of us! I had just broken the most basic requirement of our marriage and our commitment to build for the future. I had betrayed Sean! As I pulled into the driveway, I had a moment's panic when I saw Sean's car. As I had feared, he was home. Why did he have to be on time just when I most needed him to be late? I slammed the door and ran into the house. Sean wasn't there and neither was Lucy. I was frantic! What was going on? I ran upstairs to JJ's room to find him sound asleep. So Lucy must have put him to bed and then left when Sean came home? That made sense. But where was Sean? I went down the hall to our bedroom and found Sean sound asleep. Why was he asleep so early? He usually went to bed long after I did. I went over to him and shook him awake; asking him what he was doing home. Sean just grumbled that he came home sick and sent Lucy home. He pulled away and covered his head with the pillow, effectively dismissing me. I realized suddenly that I could not let him see me like this and cursed myself for waking him. I gave a small prayer to God and hoped this was a good omen. Sean was totally unaware of my late arrival and he couldn't see me and the guilt that was probably clearly written on my face. I went back downstairs and closed the house, making sure that all the doors were locked and went back upstairs. I would have to take a shower to wash Jason off of me and out of my vagina. I would also have to dispose of the panties I wore since they were soaked with my juices and his sperm. I shuddered as I recalled the whole sorry night. I remember thinking for a while that it was Sean and it had felt so good but then the truth came crashing back. I had betrayed Sean. As I was standing in the shower, watching the strings of Jason's cum drop to the floor, the guilt doubled me over and I clutched my stomach. The wave passed but I knew I wasn't going to be OK. Once I had finished my shower and disposed of the evidence of my indiscretion, I climbed into bed beside my husband and prayed passionately that God would forgive me and give me strength to keep this secret until the day I died. I vowed to God that Sean would never know and I would make it my life's work to be true to my marriage vows and to fulfill my part of our agreement, both of which I had betrayed that night. It would never happen again! The next morning, I got up an hour early and decided to put on some makeup and look especially nice for my husband. I dressed in a nice blouse and skirt since Sean always liked me that way. I got JJ up and made him breakfast and then got him into the playroom. He would be content for the next couple of hours. I fixed Sean's coffee since he never ate breakfast and got a cup for myself. I sat down to wait for my husband. Sean I woke the next morning feeling 100% better. I guess I was just worn out and needed the rest. I shaved, dressed and walked downstairs. Soledad was already up and had coffee ready. I really needed a cup. "What time did you get home last night? And by the way, where in the hell were you after the meeting? You never told me you were going out afterwards. It threw me when I found Lucy here and you gone." I was a little angry because we never went out without letting the other know where we were and how to reach each other. "I was with Judy and Carol after my Woman's club meeting. They called and wanted to go out for drinks and some fun. I didn't think you would mind. I left a number with Lucy." She seemed to be fine, no hangover or anything. "That's not the point. You could have called to tell me you were going out. I thought we had a deal?" "You're right darling. I should have called and I won't forget again. OK?" She came up behind me and gave me a big hug. I could see she had on makeup and she looked like she was ready to go out. That was not typical so I decided to ask some more questions. "What's with the makeup? What the hell is going on with you? You go out without telling me and then you take a shower when you get home late and now makeup in the morning. What're you up to?" I was never one to let things go just to be polite or politically correct. I wanted to know what the hell my wife was doing and I wanted to know now. Soledad looked at me in surprise at my outburst. She appeared to be flushed and more embarrassed than angry. I would have expected anger: but not embarrassment. "Nothing is going on Sean. I was trying to look good for you as an apology: that's what's up with the makeup! I was just out with my friends and I forgot to call you at work. Since you're always at that place, I didn't think you would even know since I would probably be home before you anyway. You're never here anymore and I just got bored. I had a sitter and she had my number, so back off!" "Come on Sunny, we had this discussion a year ago. You and I decided that we were going to make this thing work with Jerry. You knew what I was going to have to do to make it a go and you agreed to pull your own weight. I thought that meant that you would hold down the home while I built the business. I know the time I spend. Do you think I like working long hours, missing my son's first steps, his first words, and his new discoveries? I miss him and I miss you but I expected you to understand that I needed to do this for at least the first year. Was I wrong?" Soledad suddenly collapsed into the chair. All of her belligerence left her and she suddenly looked like a little girl caught doing something wrong. She actually had a tear in her eye. "I know what we agreed. I know what you are giving up to do this and I know you are doing it for us. I'm so sorry. I was feeling sorry for myself and I just did something on the spur of the moment. But I should have told you and let you know. You came home sick and I wasn't even here for you. I am so sorry." "It's OK. I was just concerned and I let my concern turn into anger. I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry too." We hugged and agreed to try harder to keep each other informed and in our respective loops. We kissed and I went to work. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< I had been working for more than two hours on one of the cases I had active at the time when I decided to take a break. I needed a cup of coffee but I wanted to get some air so I decided to walk down Church Street to a coffee shop I knew was only a block away. The fresh air and the hot coffee would give me strength to go on, trying to make sure that a stock broker I was representing who had acted on a tip illegally might live to trade another day. I got my coffee and sat down on one of the wrought iron chairs around a table setting outside. It was a warm day and the sun felt good. As I relaxed, I heard a voice, one I would rather not hear. "Well, if it isn't the hot shot lawyer. Hi, Sean. What's going on?" It was Carol Jennings. Not one of my favorite people but one of Soledad's so I tolerated her. "Hi, Carol. I was just getting some fresh air and a coffee. Care to join me?" "Thanks, Sean. I would love to. Just let me grab a cup." She went in and came out shortly with a latté. She sat down across from me as I watched her. She was actually worth watching: there was no question that she was a beautiful woman. Short, with long black hair worn straight and a body that would make most men stand up and cheer. No wonder she had cheated; she probably had plenty of offers. We shared small talk, she about her exploits with the legal system relative to her divorce and me just making the required responses. She brought me up to date on her travails while I enjoyed my coffee and watched her rather large chest, as she got excited. Things were going fine until she said something that got my attention. "How's Soledad? I haven't seen her for about a week. She said she was busy with her committee meetings and we haven't been able to get together. I wanted her to join Judy and me last night but she said she was going straight home after her meeting. Tell her to give me a call soon, OK?" I think I hid my shock well as I told her I would give Sunny the message and we parted. I went back to the office to dwell on what she had said about last night. Sunny had lied to me and she did it deliberately! Why? As a lawyer, I knew a lie was told to someone usually as a means to disguise something that was illegal or wrong in someone else's eyes. In Soledad's case, it had to be something she did that I would see as wrong. It is in my nature that I never let things go for long. I'm a lawyer alter all and I have to get to the bottom of things and I have to do it immediately. I had Sunny lying to me and she would have to tell me why she did it. She would have to do it tonight. I wouldn't let it go, nor would I play games with private detectives or spying. I would confront her and get it out into the open. Soledad After Sean went to work, I was able to take the time to calm myself down and decide what I was going to do. He obviously didn't know anything so all I had to do was to make sure he never found out. So far, only I knew what happened, and that's the way it was going to stay. I spent the day with JJ and doing some of the chores around the house that needed doing. I never had too much to do since I was by nature an orderly person. Of course, since Sean never got home much before 8:30 or 9:00, I had plenty of time by myself to do what needed to be done. I usually fixed dinner for JJ and myself early and then put him down about 5:00 or 5:30 so he could sleep for an hour or so and be awake if Sean got home before his bedtime. JJ loved to wait for his dad and Sean loved the time with him getting him to his bed at around 9:00. The day passed rather slowly and I unfortunately had time to remember last night. I remembered the dinner and some of the time later at the bar. My face flushed as I remembered that part. I had actually had my hand on that jerk's cock. How could I have been that far gone? I remembered wine with dinner and then what I thought was ginger ale but must have been the vodka that Jason ordered for himself. He switched the drinks! I never drank hard liquor because I couldn't handle it. I remember drinking what I thought was the ginger ale and not much after that until the parking lot. God, the parking lot! I could remember thinking about finding my car and then only a blank until I found myself leaning against the fender of my Lincoln with Jason pounding his cock into me. I had my leg wrapped around his waist and he was fucking me hard. I remember thinking that Sean was feeling so good inside me. Then, I must have gone into shock for a few minutes when I realized this was not my husband and just as I was about to scream at Jason to let me go, I felt his semen shoot into me! He had cum into me in the fucking parking lot of the Sheraton Hotel while I was spread against the damn car fender! With that vision, I sank down on the kitchen floor and cried until I was weak. I was humiliated, ashamed and frightened, all at the same time. Ashamed that I had gone that far with a man who was almost a stranger; humiliated that I had done this in a public place; and frightened that my husband whom I loved with all my heart would find out. By the time I recovered my wits, it was just past 5:30 and time for JJ to go down for his nap. Just as I walked back out of his room, the phone rang. I pulled myself together and picked up the receiver. It was Jason! "Soledad? It's Jason. Jason Payton from the Women's Club meeting. Can you talk now?" I was furious at him calling me here. I wanted never to see that son of a bitch again! "I know who you are and don't you ever call me here at home or anyplace else ever again! We have nothing to talk about. Goodbye!" "Wait, please wait! I just want to talk to you and apologize for what happened last night. It shouldn't have gone that far and I think we both had too much to drink. I just wanted to let you know that I was sorry." "You were sorry I wouldn't come back to your room with you, that's what you were sorry about. You weren't the least bit drunk but I think you made sure that I was! You gave me vodka while I thought it was ginger ale." "That's not true and I don't regret anything that happened. I loved it and would have loved to continue but I know that you're married. You have nothing to fear from me. I hope you know that." At that minute, Sean walked into the kitchen, startling me. He was never home this early so I was caught off guard. I felt the blood rush to my face as the guilt overwhelmed me. I cupped the receiver in my hand and turned away from him to cut Jason off. "My husband is home so please do not call me here again. Goodbye!" I hung up the phone, trying for calm and said, "Sean! You surprised me. I never expected you home this early on a Friday. I haven't even started supper yet. I'll make something right away. Why don't you have a martini while I get things going?" Sean Since it was a Friday, and Jerry and I never worked on weekends, I decided to call it a day early and left the office at just past 5:00. I would be home by 5:30 and we could talk. I was angry and anxious to find out what was going on. I walked into the house right on the half hour and Soledad was on the phone as I came in. She looked up in surprise when she saw me and seemed to be uncomfortable. I couldn't hear what she said to whomever she was talking to but she covered her mouth as she angrily terminated the call. She hung up the phone and smiled at me. "Sean! You surprised me. I never expected you home this early on a Friday. I haven't even started supper yet. I'll make something right away. Why don't you have a martini while I get things going?" She got up from the stool and turned away. She was nervous and really uncomfortable. I didn't know why but I was going to make it worse. "Never mind dinner. I want you to sit down. We have something that we need to talk about." I just stood there watching her until she finally stopped flitting around and looked at me with concern. "What do you mean? What do we need to talk about? Why can't I start dinner? Is something wrong?" "I want to talk to you about last night. I want to know where you were, who you were with and why you lied to me about it." I walked over to the table and sat down watching her as she struggled to make sense of what I had just said. "What? What do you mean? I told you: I was with Carol and Judy. We had a couple of drinks and then I came home. Why are you asking me this?" "First, you weren't with Judy and Carol. Second, you didn't have a couple of drinks and you weren't alone. I want the truth and I want it now." "I'm not going to take this from you. I told you the truth. Why are you doing this?" "One more time. I know you lied to me and if you can't tell me the truth now, I'll have to assume you were doing something that you're ashamed to tell me. We'll stay here until you decide to talk to me and tell me the truth." "You can't do that. I've done nothing wrong and I won't have you treat me like this. If you don't believe me, that's not my fault." "All right. Let's call Carol right now. I'll put her on a speaker and I'll ask her where you were last night. All right?" As she watched me with eyes wide and mouth open, I got up and went to the phone. I pulled out the phone directory she kept in the drawer just under the phone. I scanned the names and found Carol's number. I started to punch in the digits just as she pushed the terminate button. She finally must have decided that I was serious as she began to talk. Little White Lies "I was not out with Carol and Judy last night, all right? I was with the guest speaker that I met at our committee meeting. His name is Jason and he's a consultant and he was speaking on ways to raise money. He invited me out to dinner since he was alone and we were just talking and had a few drinks and I wasn't watching the time. That's all there was to it. It was nothing, really." She sat on the edge of the chair and waited for me to comment. "That's not all there was. There was more. You were with him and had to lie to me about it. You came in late and took a shower. You never take a shower before bed. What were you tying to wash off or cover up? And why did you have to lie if it was nothing?" She was looking at the floor and hugging herself with her arms. It was a sign of discomfort that she had used ever since I had known her. When she was upset, she hugged herself. "Your lies tell me you did something you're afraid to tell me. I can guess what that is from your attitude and your behavior. Since you had to take a shower, I guess you were washing him off of you and likely out of you." I looked at her as she began to tremble. "Sean, you can't believe that. You don't have any reason to accuse me of that and any reason to think that I would do that to you and to JJ." "Why did you have to take a shower?" "Just to wash his cologne off. That's all. Just his cologne, and the smell of the cigars from the restaurant. He was close to me and he did kiss me once on the cheek when we left. It didn't mean anything. It was just a friendly kiss. That's all and I'm sorry it happened. I know now that it was wrong and I apologize. I shouldn't have gone with him after the meeting. I'm sorry I lied." I watched her face as she told me this. I honestly didn't believe her but I had no proof that she had done more. I had reasonable doubt but that's all. Even now, I was thinking like a lawyer. I had to make a decision as to what to do next. "Now that you've lied to me about this, I know you're capable of it any time you decide you want to hide something from me. You no longer have the privilege of me accepting you at your word. I don't think I believe you about last night but I don't have any proof otherwise. I think the facts suggest more than you've admitted to but I can't prove it." She started to say more but I held up my hand to stop her. "Don't compound your lies any more than you already have. It's clear to me that you're not going to tell me the truth and I have no way to tell what really happened. Once you begin with lies, trust is lost and right now, I don't believe you. I will tell you right now that if it happens again, I will take JJ and you and I are through. I will not live with someone I can't trust." Soledad just sat there with tears in her eyes but she had nothing more to say. I walked out of the kitchen and went back into my study I used when I worked at home. I ordered pizza and got a beer from the study fridge. Sunny rarely came into this room and I kept the little refrigerator well stocked with beer and soft drinks. I worked for the next half hour or so while I waited for the pizza. I was angry and work was the only thing that could make me forget for a while. Sunny didn't come in and I noticed that the phone was in use. She was obviously calling someone and she wanted privacy. I wouldn't try to listen in, as it was very obvious when someone picked up one of the extensions. However, it did give me an idea. I could tap the phones since they were my home phones. I would consider it. The pizza arrived and I took it into the kitchen. As I was setting down to eat, Sunny came in and got herself a slice and sat down opposite me. I said nothing while I ate and just watched the clock on the wall. I did not want to look at her. "You are wrong, you know. I did nothing that I am ashamed of and I would tell you if I had. You are making things up and I don't know why. I told you the truth." She was trying to convince me and not doing a very good job of it. "Who were you talking to just now? And who were you talking to when I came home?" "I was talking to Judy just now. I was supposed to call her about a meeting we were going to attend together. I called to tell her I couldn't go." "Just like you were with her last night?" "I'm sorry I lied about that, but she was who I was talking with just now. Do you want to call her to confirm it? Would that make you feel better?" "No, but it's a sad thing when we both think I would have to just to believe you. And when I came home?" "Nobody. It was nobody important. Just some stuff about the Women's Club meeting schedules. That's all." "That's the trouble with lies. Once you tell the first one you have to continue and sooner or later you'll slip up. You weren't talking about Women's Club stuff when I came home and you were angry and embarrassed when I caught you: but let's forget it. I know you won't tell me the truth about whom you were with and what you did last night. I'm left to my own imagination." Sunny was getting angry because I wasn't buying her story. She didn't know what else to do to convince me and she was afraid of what I might eventually find out if she couldn't get me to believe her. She knew that I had a staff of investigators working for our firm and that I might want to use one to check on her. She was frustrated and she was panicking. "Your imagination is wrong. You don't know anything but you're trying to get me to admit to something I didn't do. Why don't you get one of your hotshot investigators to follow me or something? Would that make you feel better?" "Forget it. I don't want to discuss this any more tonight. Just leave me alone." I got up and threw my half-eaten pizza into the trash. I had suddenly lost my appetite, so I walked back into my study and closed the door. I remained in there until I heard my son and went out to be with him. Soledad Sean was very angry and he was quite sure he knew something had happened but he really didn't know for sure. I knew that he had only suspicions and I knew that I had to keep what really happened between Jason and me a secret. A secret, now and forever. It happened and it was a mistake, one I would regret forever. Sean would never find out. He could rant and rave and even kick me out of the bedroom but I wouldn't ever tell him the truth. Once again, I pledged to myself that whatever happened, Sean would never know the truth. I knew that if he found out, I would lose my marriage, perhaps my son and probably my reason for living. I loved Sean and JJ with all my heart and I knew I couldn't live without them. Drunken stupidity shouldn't be a reason for destroying my marriage but stupidity got me into this mess. Stupidity for drinking alone with a man not my husband, stupidity for going to the bar after dinner, stupidity for allowing myself to become drunk and finally stupidity for not remembering my promise and going to dinner with another man just because I was feeling slighted. Yes, I was stupid and now I was guilty of betrayal. It made no difference! Sean would never find out. Jason was gone, there was no record of me going anywhere with him other than to my car and no one would ever assume that I could do anything like what had really happened. No one could believe that of me. Right? I would bluff this through. I would pay any price and I would pay it gladly so long as my secret remained a secret. Now that I had lied and Sean knew it, I would have to be very careful to be sure I told no more lies. If I had to lie, I would be very careful to make the truth a part of the lie so it would be less difficult. Lying was hard! I already felt like shit for lying about what happened but I had no choice. Trying to remember all the lies was harder than I thought. Maybe that was part of the penalty for cheating? I called Jane and talked to her for some time. I wished I could have told her the whole thing but Jane couldn't keep her mouth shut and she would tell Carol who would tell someone else and pretty soon it would be common knowledge. I just talked long enough to calm down and remind her of a meeting we were supposed to attend. I told her I couldn't go and we made some plans for something or other next week. If I still had a marriage and a husband and a son then. Not that I told her that. I stayed in my room for as long as I could but heard the doorbell. I wandered down to see what was up and found that Sean had ordered pizza. I went into the kitchen to have a piece and sit down with him. Maybe we could begin to talk this out and get back to some kind of reasonable accommodation. I decided to make an attempt. "You are wrong, you know. I did nothing that I am ashamed of and I would tell you if I had. You are making things up and I don't know why. I told you the truth." Well, the conversation went downhill from there and Sean finally lost it and slammed out of the kitchen. I heard him go into his study and knew that this evening was over. I got JJ up later and Sean did come out to play with him. To make things less tense, I left them alone. Sean finally took JJ up for his bath and bed. When he came down, he went back into his study so I gave up and went to bed. As I got ready, I decided to try to make him want me so I ignored my usual sleeping PJs and went nude. I put on just a trace of perfume and made sure my lipstick and makeup were still OK. I slid under the covers and determined to wait for him as long as it took. I spent the time trying to make a plan for rekindling our marriage and making Sean forget everything he thought he knew. After about two hours, I heard Sean coming to bed so I prepared to seduce him! Sean I forgot my problems as I played with my son. JJ was a 1-year-old wonder. He was all boy and very smart. He was a joy to watch and I spent the evening just experiencing the world through his eyes. Everything was fresh and new and wondrous, unlike my tarnished and trite world. I let him tire himself out until bedtime then I gave him a bath and got him into his favorite pajamas and into bed. He wanted a story and I obliged him with one of our favorites. He fell asleep listening to the wonders of Goldilocks. I quietly shut his door and went back downstairs to finish up in the study. Sunny was sitting in the family room watching TV. I avoided her for the rest of the evening. I was still working when she went to bed. I waited for another two hours before going up. I debated just sleeping on the couch in the study but knew my neck would pay a steep price the next day if I did. I went into the bathroom to get ready for bed. I tried to be quiet so as not to wake her but I wasn't successful. She was lying on her back awake and watching me as I slipped under the covers. She said nothing but turned toward me as I settled back. I closed my eyes and tried to close her out. She wasn't going to let me. I felt her hand as it moved over my chest, down to my stomach and then to my crotch. She moved her hand up and down my flaccid cock trying to arouse it. I was not going to give her the satisfaction and fortunately, I was angry enough to prevent her from arousing me. She tried in vain to get some reaction from me without success. She took my hand and moved it to her breasts. She was naked. That was unusual since she generally slept in pajamas and socks. "Don't you want to make love to me? Are you going to let your paranoid fantasies stop you from making love to me? You know I love you and only you. I know you want me. Let me make you want me." She pulled the covers down and moved toward me intending to stimulate me with her mouth. As she bent down to take me in her mouth, I saw her nakedness and instead of arousal, I felt disgust. I couldn't stand it any more. I rolled over and climbed out of bed. "I'm sorry Sunny. I'll sleep in the spare room tonight." I left her there, kneeling in the bed naked and alone. The next day was Saturday and I had nothing planned but I couldn't see staying at home with Sunny. I was not going to be much company feeling as I did. I didn't think she was going to be any more forthcoming today than she was last night. She was now protecting her lies and that was all she was going to do. I had given up hope that she would tell me the truth until I could somehow force her to. I hated giving up the time with JJ but I decided to drive into the office and spend as much time there as I could. I did have some work to make up from my sick day and a short Friday. To my surprise, I was able to get into my caseload and time passed rather quickly. It was after 7:00 when I finally went home. Sunny was furious and she let me have it when I walked into the house. She ranted and raved and called me names and really put it to me. She was smarting from my rejection last night and my avoidance of her today. I let her go and just tuned her out. I got a beer and went out to the patio but she followed me out. She continued until I finally had enough. "Sunny, if you continue this, I am going to leave and go to a hotel. Make up your mind. Either the truth, or shut up!" She glared at me but did shut up. I finished up the evening and this time went directly to the spare room to sleep. Sunny made no attempt to stop me. She had apparently decided to accept the fact that I was not going to let her distract me. Sunday went much as Saturday, except that I worked around the house and took JJ to the park and then to the zoo taking as much time as I could away from Sunny. She said little when I told her of my plans with JJ and made no attempt to be with us. I thought that was just as well. I slept in my own bed that night but Sunny made no attempt to seduce me as she had Friday night for which I was grateful. The thought of making love to her had no appeal to me right now. Soledad After the disastrous weekend just past, it was good to have the day away from Sean to make some decisions. I sat in the kitchen and considered. It was time to make a move that would take Sean's mind off of me and put him on the defensive. I was very sure I could pull this off without making things worse. Of course, it was a gamble, but it was one worth taking to save my marriage. It might backfire, but the chance was very low. I was going to give Sean an ultimatum this evening. He was treating me very badly and although I knew I deserved it, he mustn't know that. I must act the part of the innocent wife and he must see that I was behaving as the innocent. Tonight was the time and I would wait till he came to bed. There would be no sex but he would have to make a commitment to the marriage and to me. I couldn't save it if he wasn't here or if he refused to talk to me. I was going to threaten to take JJ and move in with my mother. He knew my mom would welcome both of us and he would hate the idea, just as he hated my mother. There had never been any love between Sean and mom, but I knew that was mainly her fault. That was a double threat to Sean. Losing JJ and having him move in with my mother. I was pleased with my plan. One more brick in the wall that I was building between Sean and the truth of my indiscretion. It was going to be a wall that he could never break through. My marriage and my very life depended on it. Sean At work on Monday, I reviewed all I had and finally had to admit that I had very little to go on. I knew she had lied; I knew she was with a man; I knew she was very late; and I knew she had denied anything happened. It seemed to be a standoff. I had no idea of what to do next. I let it simmer during the day as I tended to business. I became lost in a case I was preparing and the time flew as it usually did. When I became aware of the time, it was already past 7:30. I decided to call it a day. As I got into my car, I thought about spending the evening with Sunny but then I felt the discomfort that thought brought. I decided to stop at a bar that I sometimes took clients to and have a drink or two. The thought brightened my mood immediately. Fifteen minutes later, I was sitting at the bar with a scotch on the rocks and the world seemed much better. This was more like it. I sipped and watched the people come and go until I noticed a beautiful young woman sitting next to me. I turned and was immediately struck with her face. She was gorgeous! She had been watching me as well and I decided I had better say something. "I'm sorry for staring but you are a very beautiful woman. I hope you aren't offended by my comments." I couldn't look away. "I'm not offended and thank you. A woman loves to be complimented." She smiled at me as I took her in. She had long wavy blond hair that framed her face, ice blue eyes, and her face had the high cheekbones and straight nose of a Western European. She was, in a word, perfect. I was almost uncomfortable in her presence. "I'm glad. What are you doing here? I stop here often but I have never seen you here before." She smiled at me and looked me directly in the eyes as she said, "I am a working girl and I decided that this place needed some class. I hope I add something to the place?" A hooker, or more accurately, a call girl. She was the kind of hooker that a man would hire for the entire evening and she would fit on his arm like she belonged there. She could probably fit into any situation and at the end of the night, fit into his bed just as well. She could bring $1750-2000 for an evening. "Are you looking for company this night? If you are, my name is Satin and I would like very much to keep you company." She put her hand over mine and her touch was light and tempting. I felt a stirring in my groin but remembered who I was and what I had. "Thanks, but no thanks. I am happily married and I have a beautiful little boy named JJ. He's my life and I am content with that." As I said that, I realized it was true. Even with my concerns about Sunny, I did have a wonderful life and I did love my son. But a thought occurred to me. I looked at her and decided to take the plunge. "My name is Sean by the way. Are you available for dinner and dancing and nothing more? Would you like to join me for dinner tomorrow and maybe some clubbing afterwards? I would not want anything more than that." She looked at me with a strange expression on her face, but finally smiled and named a price. It was high but I thought it might be worth it. I was going to give myself an edge with Sunny and this call girl was it. No sex, but I would not let Sunny know that. It was important to my self-respect that I keep this professional. I was very serious about my obligations to my marriage and I was not going to break them regardless of what Sunny had done or not done. I made a date for tomorrow night after work. I would meet her at 7:00 p.m. at a very nice restaurant downtown. I would call Sunny and tell her that I had clients and would be home late. I fully intended that I would be very late and that there would be some evidence of what I had done left on my clothing. Sunny was going to get a dose of her own lies. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< Monday night at home was very tense and quiet. I was not going to make it easy for her to continue to go on living a lie and she was not going to give in to my silent treatment. It looked like we were in a standoff. Since I had come home late from the bar, smelling of alcohol and cigarettes, Sunny was furious but unwilling to say anything. For my part, I was sorry that I missed JJ but not that I had less time to spend with Sunny. I ate a cold dinner and went into the study until past bedtime. Again I waited until I thought it was safe to go upstairs. Little White Lies As I exited the bathroom, I noticed that Sunny was awake but not watching me. She had her arm over her eyes and she was breathing very rapidly. It was clear that she was working up to something. I pulled the covers back and climbed into bed. I turned my light out but hers was still on. "This is not going to work Sean. You are treating me as if I had done something wrong but you have no evidence that I have done anything. I told you that I was sorry I lied but I was afraid that you would do exactly what you are doing right now. I knew you would do this so I tried to avoid it by telling you a little white lie. I didn't do anything wrong but you refuse to believe me." I listened to what she was saying. She was right that I had no proof but I was not wrong in believing that she had done something. Her lies and her embarrassment were too extreme to explain dinner and a chaste kiss on the cheek. I just didn't know what else had happened or how I could find out. I waited for what she had next. "If you can't treat me with dignity and respect as your wife, I will make it easy for you. I called my mother today and she offered to let me stay there with JJ for as long as it takes you to get over this nonsense." I didn't respond since it caught me by surprise. I never expected her to do something like that. Guilty people are supposed to crack, not take the initiative. "The choice is yours. Make up your mind. And if I stay, it will be as your wife, not as something to make your dinner and wash your laundry. I'm serious. Otherwise, I will pack and be gone by the time you get home tomorrow." Damn! This was not in my plans. I had no choice. She had to stay for my plan to work. I couldn't cause her to feel any pain about me cheating if she wasn't here. Maybe I could negotiate? "If I agree to your conditions, will you do something for me?" "If it is something reasonable, yes." She turned to look at me for the first time. "Will you make an appointment with Dr. Evans for a STD test?" "No I will not, damn it! That is the same as saying I did something that I need to be tested for and I won't do it." "Then stay as my wife, but don't expect me to have sex with you. I won't take the chance. Since you saw fit to lie to me about what you were doing and whom you were with, I told you that it was left to my imagination. My imagination says it doesn't want to get AIDS or something else." "Then I'll pack tomorrow and JJ and I will be out by the time you come home. Goodnight Sean and goodbye!" She rolled over facing away from me without another word. Damn, damn, damn! She wasn't going to buy it. I had no choice. I didn't really think there was anything to worry about but I had to take a shot. "OK, you win. No conditions." Sunny didn't say anything else. She turned out her light and continued to face away from me. I fell asleep feeling better for some reason. Sean On Tuesday, I had a good day at work. I was really making progress with my case and my mind was sharp as a tack, probably because I thought I had a plan and was going to take some action rather than sitting back as a victim. Nothing like a plan to a lawyer to make things better. In addition, I was looking forward to dinner that evening with Satin. A smooth name for a very smooth looking lady. I called Sunny just after lunch to tell her I was going to be late. She wasn't happy but couldn't say much since we had the discussion about my working hours after her Thursday debacle. This was business, or so I told her. I said to expect me some time after 10:00. She hung up with a slam. I always keep a spare shirt and tie at the office in case of dinners and late night meetings with clients so I changed before I left the office. I planned on being right on time and I made it with minutes to spare. I had on a dark blue suit that would go most anywhere and I looked like every other professional man. Nothing special but presentable. Satin was waiting as promised just inside the entrance. She had on a beautiful light blue jacket over a white blouse cut very low. She wore a thin gold chain with a single blue stone. Her skirt was black and hit her just above the knee. Her heels were at least 3" and her legs were fabulous. She had her hair pulled back into a sweep, and long earrings with diamonds and blue stones set off her face. The overall picture was magnificent simplicity. Then she smiled as she saw me: I was completely blown away. She took my breath away just looking at her. "Hello Satin. You look beautiful this evening. Have I kept you waiting?" I tried to regain my composure as I took her hand. "Hello Sean. I just arrived. Thank you for the compliment. You look nice as well." I smiled and signaled to Phyllis, the hostess whom I knew from many dinners here and she nodded. She led us to a nice table on the edge of the floor, out of the way of traffic and in site of the entrance so that I could see who came in. This was my normal table but tonight, not important. She seated us and left, signaling the wine steward. Once dinner was in progress I found Satin to be a very proficient dinner companion. She could speak on almost any topic with intelligence and she responded in the appropriate manner to my comments. It was clear that she was very good at her job. We had been speaking in general terms about nothing in particular when she finally asked me the question that had been on her mind from the beginning. "Now that we are here, why are we here? I know you want something from me but I don't know what, and that's not normal in my business." "I intend to tell you, but I thought that we could enjoy a good meal and some good conversation first. You are a delightful companion and I have enjoyed your company. But you should know what I am doing and I will tell you." I explained my suspicions about my wife and that I wanted to convince her that I was having an affair brought on by her lying. I told Satin that it was essential that I make it difficult for Sunny to find out but not so difficult that she missed the clues. I hoped that she would become so angry that she would confront me and confess her own infidelity to make me confess mine. As I explained this to Satin, I admit that it sounded just a little farfetched even to me. But I was surprised when Satin said she thought it to be a good plan. "Do you really think it will do the trick?" I thought maybe she would be a good judge being a woman. "If I were your wife, I would certainly be upset if I thought I had driven you into an affair. Most women would be concerned. You are a very handsome man and very successful and most women would consider you a good catch. With a new son and a lovely home, you have what all women want." She said this with conviction and sincerity but I remembered who she was and took most of what she said with a grain of salt. But I hoped she was correct. We finished dinner and we went into the lounge for some dancing. I wanted to hold her for several reasons. First, she was beautiful and had a great body. Second and more important, I wanted her perfume to be on my jacket and maybe a blond hair or two wouldn't hurt. She also made sure I had a little lipstick on my collar. All in all it was a very pleasant evening. It was close to 9:45 when I called it an evening. I offered to take Satin home but she preferred me to call a cab, which I did. I walked her to the cab and she kissed me before she got in. "Same time Friday night? We'll meet at Caesar's if that's acceptable." "Perfect. I'll see you then. Goodnight Sean." With that I shut the cab door and she was gone. I felt slightly sad to see her go. I reminded myself that this was just business and she was a call girl, not someone I could get interested in. I walked to my car and drove home with mixed feelings. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< I pulled into the garage and walked into the kitchen. The house was quiet and I assumed that Sunny had gone up to the bedroom to read and watch TV. She did this most nights when I went out for late dinners or meetings. That's why I was so surprised when I saw her walk into the kitchen from the den. She had obviously been waiting for me. She just looked coldly at me and said, "Did you have a nice dinner?" She didn't seem interested in my answer as she walked over to the counter to pour me a cup of coffee. I always had coffee after one of these meetings to counter the wine I normally drank. Tonight I had two mixed drinks rather than the wine and I was badly in need of caffeine. "It was fine, but long as usual. I'm glad it's over. I do have to be there again Friday for another session but not till then. It was just the fellows and I." That was an outright lie and one she should be able to see through if she was observant. I would not do anything to make her suspicious but I was hoping she would notice the perfume. "Seems your fellows were wearing perfume tonight. You reek of musk and flowers. Something one of your 'fellows' was wearing?" she asked sarcastically. "I don't know what you mean. We weren't with any women so where would I get perfume? Maybe it was something else, something on the chair or napkin. I don't know." I took my coffee and went into the den. I left my jacket on the chair back in the kitchen. I noticed that Sunny didn't follow me right away so I assumed she was investigating my jacket. If she did, she would find a phone number on a piece of paper in the inside jacket pocket and maybe a few blond hairs? If she called that number, she would get no answer. It was a blind phone, used by drug dealers. One of my 'clients' had given it to me. It was manned only at certain times. I sat down and waited till Sunny finally came in. She looked a little funny but didn't say anything more. I drank my coffee and asked her about her day. She said very little and finally told me she was going up to bed to read for a while. I told her I would be up in a little while. I waited for a reasonable amount of time and then went up. I went directly into the bathroom and took off my shirt, balling it up and tossing it into the hamper. I hung up my pants and decided a shower might be appropriate. Not unusual for me and hadn't she done the same thing? I thought it a brilliant move on my part. Later, when I came to bed, Sunny made no move to initiate sex and neither did I. I would wait until she made the first move. I was not sure what I would do but being human, I sort of knew. I finally turned out the light and went to sleep, satisfied that I had made at least an attempt to try to force the issue. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< I was restless at work the next day and wanted to get home to see if my plan had begun to sow the seeds of suspicion in Sunny's mind. I was able to get some work done but left as soon as possible. At home that evening, I noticed a very definite tenseness in Sunny's attitude. I wasn't sure but I assumed that she had found the lipstick on my shirt collar. If she did, she knew my story about last night was a lie. Now things were going to get interesting. I went into the den to read the paper and have a drink while waiting for dinner. JJ was still asleep but I thought that I might just get him up. I loved to have dinner with him in his highchair and he was always quite active when he ate. It would be something to keep my attention away from Sunny and occupy my mind rather than wondering what she was thinking. I told Sunny that I was going to get him but she didn't respond. She must really be stewing. Dinner was a dichotomy with Sunny quiet and JJ noisy, Sunny moody and JJ happy, Sunny pushing her food around on the plate and JJ shoveling it in. I was very pleased with dinner that night. I ate a hearty meal and offered to help clean the table. Sunny just mumbled something and grabbed JJ from his chair and took him off to get cleaned up. I smiled to myself as I gathered the dishes from the table and took them into the kitchen. I was very pleased with myself. It was close to 8:45 when I finally took JJ up to get him ready for bed. He was happy and tired and went right to sleep. I sat beside his bed and just watched him for a while. He was the best part of my world and the only part that I could believe in without reservation. As I thought that, I felt the sadness and uncertainty return. I had been without it for a short while. I went downstairs to deal with Sunny. She was sitting in the den when I came down and sat in my chair. I said nothing and reached for my paper. As I did, she spoke. "Where were you last night?" No preamble, no tentative questions, just attack. If she were hiding anything, I had to admit that she was playing this very well. "I was at dinner at Café Duquesne with clients. I told you that last night. Why are you asking me now?" "Why did you have perfume on your jacket and lipstick on your shirt collar?" "I told you about the perfume and maybe one of the waitresses put the lipstick there. We had a little too much wine and maybe we got a little frisky. No big deal. I came home to you, didn't I?" "I don't believe you. I think you were with another woman." She was glaring at me with eyes wet with tears. It was time to play the card I was holding. "I guess we both have a secret don't we? You think I was with a woman last night and I think you were with a man last Thursday night. So we're even." I shook my paper open and pretended to read. With a sob, Sunny jumped up and ran out of the den and upstairs to our bedroom. I watched her go with a funny feeling. On one hand, my plan had worked better and faster than I had expected. On the other hand, I saw the pain my answer had caused her and I felt bad about that. I knew for sure that I hadn't had an affair and I had only suspicions about her. She had much more apparent proof than I did and she must really believe I had an affair. I began to reconsider my suspicion but only for a second. I was convinced she had done something she was ashamed about and she was hiding it from me. I would continue with my plan until I forced her to confess. I remained downstairs until well past midnight before going up to bed. As I hoped, Sunny was sound asleep so I had no reason to refuse her tonight. I went to bed satisfied and slept straight through until morning. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< I awoke feeling refreshed and determined to continue with my plans. I would keep my meeting with Satin for tomorrow night and I would let Sunny know that I was going out with the same 'fellows' that I was with Tuesday night. That should really drive her up a wall. Sunny had made coffee and set out some bagels but I didn't see her at all before I left for work. I assume she had decided to avoid me after last night. I had a very uneasy feeling because of her absence but I couldn't make much of a fuss. Thursday evening was uncomfortable but Sunny didn't make any further inquiries about my dinner meeting Tuesday and I didn't mention anything about tomorrow night. We had dinner, I played with JJ and put him to bed and we spent the rest of the evening watching TV without talking. At about 11:00 I finally stretched and told Sunny that I was going to bed. "I will too. I don't feel like staying up by myself anyway. I'll see you upstairs." With that she went into the kitchen to finish putting things away for the night and I heard her locking the front door. Upstairs, I had just removed my shorts when I heard her come into the bedroom. I often took my shower before bed so that I could be up and gone as early as possible in the morning and I was just about to step in when she reached around me with her arms and squeezed herself against me. I was surprised to note that she was already naked and I could feel her breasts pressing against my back. I felt an almost immediate arousal that I was unable to control. This was the woman I loved and she could still wake my passions with just a touch. "I think I'll join you in your shower tonight. Do you mind?" she purred into my ear. I considered rejecting her but that didn't survive the first touch of her hand as she dropped it down to my already erect cock. I turned around to face her and I put my arms around her, pulling her tightly against me. "I don't mind at all." "Good. I want you to make love to me in the shower. I want to feel you in me with the water washing down over us. I want you to take me from behind and make me scream. I want you to bend me over and use me like your slut!" This was the way we used to be with each other. This was our little game. We would talk to each other, telling each other what we were going to do to each other and what we wanted the other to do. It was silly, but it was our ritual and we both enjoyed it. She always wanted me to take her from behind because she loved it that way. She loved to bend over and put her hands against the floor while I entered her from behind. She would wait until I told her I was almost ready and then she would straighten up and push her hands against the wall while she pushed back against me as I climaxed inside her. Typically she would cum almost at the same time. It was erotic as hell and I loved it that way. I pushed her away from me, turned her around and put my hand on the small of her back and pushed her down. She resisted, continuing the game but I pushed harder and slapped her ass. She yelped and bent over, putting her hands down to the floor of the shower. I then entered her and I had to hold back the feeling of pleasure I felt as her warm wet pussy enveloped me. I wanted to make her plead for me to fuck her and I wanted it to feel great for her. I wanted her to remember that it was me that could make her feel this way. I wanted her to forget any other man and to forget why she would ever want to stray. I wanted to do all of these things and I was ready but I couldn't hold back. For the first time since I was a teenager, I climaxed almost as soon as I entered her. I held her hips tightly as I came and then I pushed her away as I withdrew my spent cock. I was angry, and embarrassed and I stumbled out of the shower in confusion. What the hell had happened? What did I do and why? I had no answer but I didn't want to face Sunny now. I grabbed my towel and went downstairs to the dark den. I wanted to perform tonight more than usual but my body betrayed me and I didn't know why. I just sat there with my eyes closed and my arm over my face. I sat there, unwilling to go back upstairs to face my wife. About 15 minutes later, I felt Sunny sit down on the couch next to me. She said nothing but I could feel her eyes on me. I had nothing to say. I couldn't say anything to explain what had happened, so I kept quiet. She put her hand on my arm and rubbed softly up and down. I didn't move or speak but she continued to caress my arm. I enjoyed the feeling but it did nothing to satisfy my confusion or diminish my embarrassment. I couldn't even look at her. "Sean, please don't be embarrassed. Honey, things like that happen to all men from time to time. It's nothing to be ashamed or angry about. It's just the stress we have both been under for a while. OK?" "No, it's not OK. That has never happened to me before and you know it. And you know where all the stress you talk about is coming from. It started last Thursday night when you did something you won't tell me about with God knows who. That's the stress I'm under." Little White Lies "I won't have this conversation with you. I told you nothing happened but you won't believe me and that's your problem. Get over it!" "Fine. Then we have nothing more to talk about and sex is out of the question now. If that's how you want it, fine!" I got up and went upstairs to grab my pajamas and went into the spare room to sleep. I slammed the door and locked it. I lay down on he bed naked and alone and finally fell asleep with strange dreams coming and going. I dreamed of Sunny and I making love one night in the den while JJ was sleeping and then I saw Sunny with another man whose face I couldn't see. At one point, I was with Satin and then she and Sunny were both there. None of my dreams made any sense and I woke the next morning exhausted and angry. It was Friday. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< Sunny was up and downstairs with JJ when I went in to get dressed for work. I remembered my dinner with Satin so I took an extra shirt and suit downstairs with me when I was ready. I took them into the garage and then went into the kitchen for coffee before I left. I saw JJ in his chair and Sunny at the table helping him eat. She didn't look up as I entered but JJ waved his spoon at me with a grin. I went to him and kissed his head as he went back to his cereal. I grabbed a cup of coffee and rather than waste any time trying to be civil, I just said my goodbyes as I went out the door. I probably wouldn't be home tonight much before 11:00 so I would miss JJ but it wouldn't be the first time. I left with misgivings but I was determined to finish this. I was surprised by the tears in my eyes as I pulled out of the drive. Friday at work was a disaster. Jerry was in court and Polly was standing by to handle any emergencies that came up while he was gone and Janie was home with her sick husband so I had no time to think of anything while I fielded phone calls. In between those, I tried to work on my caseload but not much was getting accomplished. I have to admit that it certainly took my mind off of my troubles for a while. Before I realized it, it was almost 3:30 and I had not even stopped for lunch. I talked Polly into going out for both of us while I handled the phones. We were able to eat between crisis and the day went by with neither of us starving. I finally was able to finish my case requirements and was able to consider stopping. The phones had quit ringing, Polly had gone for the day and Jerry was unlikely to come back to the office. Since it was just after 6:00, I decided to change and go out for a drink. I had planned on meeting Satin at 7:00 anyway so I thought a drink before would be nice. I was sitting in the bar just past 6:30, nursing a second scotch neat when Satin slid onto the stool next to me. I looked up in surprise since I had not expected her this early. She looked lovely as usual and this time was much more casually dressed. I looked at her in surprise. "You're not dressed. Is something wrong? Are you canceling our dinner date?" She smiled at me and took my hand in hers. She seemed not to be bothered by anything so I was confused. "No Sean, I'm not canceling our date, just dinner. I thought I might find you here early so I decided to offer you an alternative to dinner here at the restaurant. Would you like to come to my apartment for a catered dinner? I have ordered lobster and steak for us with a nice bottle of Chianti for later." She watched my face for my reaction and smiled gleefully when she saw my surprise. She had obviously planned this in advance. I thought about it but saw no reason to refuse so I happily accepted her invitation. We left arm in arm to a waiting taxi, which delivered us to a very uptown address. This was obviously where she lived, and I wished I could afford something that nice. We went up to her apartment on the 7th floor. It was quite a place with more than 1500 sq. feet of space. I was impressed with the decor and with her taste in furniture. It made my home seem pedestrian by comparison. She showed me around and we finally went into the dinette to find a small table already set for two. She asked me to sit down and went to begin serving dinner. Everything was magnificent and I ate as if I was starving. I noticed that she did quite well and didn't seem to deny herself much. We finished and both sat back pleasantly sated. She led me into the living room where she served us coffee. I declined desert in favor of a glass of after dinner cognac. I wondered what was coming next. I didn't have long to wait as Satin rose and said that she was going to get comfortable. She left and reappeared in a very sheer satin gown that hid virtually nothing. It was a pale peach color and I could see a black lace bra and a black thong underneath. She moved to the couch where I was sitting and sat down beside me. "All I can say is, Wow! You look fabulous." "Thank you sir. I love compliments and if you keep giving them out you can have anything you want." She was not smiling and the look she gave me caused my groin to twitch and my temperature to rise. I had to be very careful here. "Satin, this isn't what I was looking for and you know that. What are you trying to do to me?" "I think you know very well what I am trying to do to you. I don't think you are confused at all." With that, she reached down to the bulge in my pants and squeezed very gently. "It seems we have no problem communicating at all." "I told you I was married and I was only trying to make my wife jealous enough to confess to her affair. If I do this, I'm no different than she is." "Why do you want to be if she isn't? This way both of you start from the same place. You can either both confess or both deny. What's the harm if you just go forward from there? This is a one-time thing with no strings attached. You know what I am so I won't be a problem for you." I wasn't really listening to her rationalizations. She was so beautiful and I was only human and I had no chance at all. I pulled her to me and kissed her hard as my hands slid under the straps of her gown and slid them down her arms. She smoothly shrugged the straps the rest of the way off and took my hand and placed it on her breast. She pulled my mouth tightly to her breast as my other hand found the warm place between her legs. She spread her legs apart slightly to allow me entrance while she unzipped my pants. She reached one small hand inside to find my engorged cock. With a small sound of pleasure, she pulled me up to my feet and pushed me back. She stood before me and began to remove the rest of her lingerie. Underneath she had on the smallest thong I had ever seen and her bra was already gone. As she moved away from the discarded gown, I saw the body of one of the most beautiful women I had ever seen. She was tall, at 5'7", long beautifully shaped legs, a tiny waist and full breasts. Her skin was tanned a golden brown and her blond hair was now loose and flowing over her shoulders. I could see her mound and noticed no dark patch. She was completely shaved. She moved toward me and proceeded to undress me slowly and sensuously. It was erotic as hell and I just watched her as she stared into my eyes. She knew what she was doing and within just a few minutes, she had me naked and aroused. At this point, I was lost. I couldn't have refused her anything nor did I want to. As I watched her, she dropped to her knees in front of me and took me in her hands. I watched in fascination as she stroked my cock until it was as hard as I could ever remember. At that point, she took me in her mouth and I was transported to heaven. While Sunny had often been willing to give me oral, she didn't like it much and she never initiated it. Here Satin was giving me a blowjob unlike any I had ever had before. I was brought to the verge and then denied then back to the verge, over and over. Satin knew how to pinch just the right places to stop my climax just before it took over. She was able to keep me in a state of arousal for what seemed like hours as I reached for that relief that she continued to deny me. As I became more and more frustrated, she stopped and led me to the bedroom. She had one of the largest beds I had ever seen. It was larger than a king size and oval instead of rectangular. And, yes, she had a mirror over the bed. She pushed me onto my back and had me move toward the top of the bed. As I lay back, she moved over me and mounted me with her knees on either side of my waist. As I looked into her eyes, she rose up, took my eager cock in her hand and lowered herself onto me. She took me in one smooth motion, no foreplay and no preparation. I found her to be wet and willing and I was surprised at how tight she seemed to be to have taken me so easily. While I was not long, I was quite thick and Sunny had often commented on it. She even seemed to be uncomfortable at times unless we used lubricants. As Satin began to ride me, I looked up to the mirror and watched. It was something I had never seen before and it took me a second to realize that I was watching myself having sex. God, it was something else, as was Satin. She was as good at fucking as she was at giving blowjobs. She rode me slowly at first, giving me time to enjoy the feeling and then beginning to go faster and faster. I could feel her cheeks against my balls on each down stroke and the feelings were wonderful. I began to respond by driving my hips up to meet her and she moaned her approval. We continued in this way for longer than I expected to be able to stay with her but much too soon I felt the beginnings of my coming climax. My balls began to contract and I could feel the liquid moving through my canals looking for an outlet. I warned Satin that I was cumming but she smiled and continued to ride me hard and fast. I lasted only a few more seconds and then it came. It was one of the most pleasurable climaxes I had ever experienced. I came and came until I was completely drained. Satin took it all and never stopped until I began to shrink. As I did, she slowly rose up and let me slide from her depths. She rolled over onto her side and watched me as I regained my hold on reality. She smiled at me as I came down from an incredible high. "Do you feel better now? I think that you should. You were very good, you know. You should be proud of yourself. Few men can stay with me that long." She watched me with a smile. For some reason, I actually believed what she said. Maybe that was part of her charm: she could make you feel good about yourself. No matter, I did! "Would you like to shower now or would you like to remain here for a while? If you would like to stay here, I would be willing. The choice is yours, but I don't know what you told your wife about time." It surprised me for a second, talking about my wife until I remembered what Satin was. She was so good that you could forget. "I think a shower and then I should go. Thank you for this though, it was probably what I needed." I pulled her face to mine and kissed her softly. She responded in kind and I let her go as I walked to the shower. It was like the rest of the apartment: out of this world. It was an hour later, close to 10:30 when the cab dropped me off at the restaurant where I had left my car. I felt very strange but good. I sat in my car for a few minutes and thought about the evening. I wondered at my lack of guilt. I had cheated on Sunny with full knowledge of what I was doing. I felt no guilt and no shame about what I had done. I had fucked a beautiful woman in her apartment and I felt good about it. I started the car and drove home. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< As I pulled into the garage at half past 11 that evening, I wondered what I would tell my wife. I would not tell her the truth because I wanted her to confess her affair first. I was not going to let up until she confessed. I went into the kitchen from the garage to a quiet house. The lights were off downstairs and the kitchen was clean and bare. I had expected Sunny to leave me some coffee since she knew I always wanted coffee when I came home. Strange that she would not have it on the stove. Oh, well. I walked into the den, expecting that Sunny would be sitting there as she had the last time I went out. She wasn't there and there was no sign she had been. With a strange feeling, I went up the stairs to our bedroom to find Sunny but she was not there. I walked into JJ's room and he was gone as well, along with his blanket and his favorite toy. Now I was beginning to be concerned. Where was she and where was JJ? I looked again in the kitchen and the den for some note or letter but there was nothing. I checked the phone but there was no message light. Where in the hell could she be? I went to the phone and called her mothers' house. When she answered, I asked her if Sunny was there. She just laughed and said no but too bad she wasn't. She hung up on me. I was now beginning to worry. Sunny hadn't said anything about tonight earlier but then I remembered that she hadn't spoken to me this morning when I left. She gave me no clue as to what she was up to. Now what could I do? Where else could she be? I thought about Judy and Carol. I would call Judy first. I found her number and called but got no answer. She wasn't in apparently so I called Carol. Again, no answer. Could they be out together? No, JJ was with her. I sat there in the kitchen, wondering what was going on? There was no way Sunny could have left me, but just to be sure, I checked her closet and found all of her clothes still there. All of JJ's stuff was there as well. So, she hadn't walked out on me. But why would she? And then I began to think about what I had done and where I was. A quick flash of guilt but then it was gone. Sunny couldn't know about that already, could she? Of course not. But then I thought of tonight. Was it possible that Sunny knew about Satin and that they had planned what happened? Now I was being paranoid. I fixed myself some coffee while I thought about this. I had no clue as to what she had done or where she had gone. I knew she was angry but so was I. She was lying to me and I had been lying to her but I came home. Where was she? I was becoming frustrated now. I thought again about Satin and what I had done. Again, I felt a twinge of guilt that did not go away quite as fast as before. I had actually cheated on Sunny and with no more reason than suspicion of her. No facts and no proof but my suspicion was enough for me to cheat on her. If I cheated on her, it meant that I didn't think fidelity was that important? Maybe she had cheated, but why would that excuse me doing it too? That didn't make a lot of sense: two wrongs making a right? Hardly. By now, I realized that I had made a very bad mistake. I had willingly cheated on my wife and jeopardized my marriage. If she had cheated, I had a right to know but it didn't give me the right to commit adultery too. I had led her to believe I was having an affair only to convince her to tell me the truth about her supposed affair. Why did I allow it to progress into active adultery on my part? I had no answer other than weakness on my part. But really, hadn't I tempted fate by hiring Satin in the first place? Sex was her job and she was good at it. I should have known I had no chance against her. My intent was transparent now and I realized that I had gone out deliberately to cheat as revenge, not a stupid plan to trick my wife! I checked the time and found it was after midnight. No sunny and no JJ. I lay down on the couch in the den with my worry and uncertainty until exhaustion finally let me sleep. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< I awoke hours later feeling the warm sun hit my face. I was uncertain where I was for a moment until the previous night came rushing back. I jolted upright and tried to get my mind working again. I looked around but saw nothing except my jacket on the back of the couch. I sat up, holding my head until I could stand. I walked slowly toward the kitchen suddenly smelling coffee! I hurried to the kitchen to see Sunny sitting at the table with a cup of coffee waiting for me, and JJ in his chair with cereal. "Good morning Sean. You'd better have your coffee because you look like shit!" "Where the hell were you last night? I came home and you were both gone. No note, no message, nothing. How could you do that to me?" "Where were you? You didn't leave me a note or tell me where you were. Why is it OK for you but not for me?" "You knew I was working last night. I told you that." "No, you told me you were going to be out with the 'guys' again but you never told me where you would be. I don't think you wanted me to know." "That's bull! I was at Caesar's and I know I told you that before." I was clearly not up to this but Sunny was not going to let it drop. I still didn't know where she was and now she had the upper hand with her questions. I needed to regain the advantage. "I want to know where you were. You can't do that to me again. I was scared out of my mind worrying about you and JJ." "Is that why you called me earlier to tell me you were going to be so late? Is that why you left the number so I could contact you in an emergency? Is that why, Sean? Of course not since you didn't do any of those things." She had turned it against me again and I had no answer. I looked at her, sitting there calmly after scaring me out of my wits. She had a slight smile on her face that didn't reach her eyes. This was a Sunny I hadn't seen before. "I'm going to take a shower and change out of these clothes. We'll talk more later." I went upstairs completely confused and still feeling the guilt of deliberately cheating on Sunny. I had no idea of what to do now. My plan to convince her to confess had gone way too far and now I was guiltier than she was. I couldn't take the moral high ground and wait for her to confess. I was at a loss. I came down later feeling more human and decided to let things alone as long as possible while I played with JJ and did some things around the house. I needed time to reconcile my confused feelings. Soledad Sean's behavior had made me angry. He had his suspicions that I had done something wrong but he had no proof. I had made a mistake and I knew it but I also knew that it would never happen again and that Sean would never know about it. There was no reason to tell him. It would cause him too much pain and for no purpose. He already didn't trust me so telling him would gain me nothing. I was sorry but it was because I forgot and put myself into a situation that allowed me to be seduced by a stranger who complimented me and got me drunk and took advantage. I would never allow that to happen again and I would remember that night as long as I lived. I called Carol and told her that Sean was going to be busy so I wanted to go out to dinner that night and wanted to go to Caesar's. Carol was OK with that and suggested we also invite Judy. I was happy to have Judy join us and we made plans to meet later. I told her that I would bring JJ to her place so that her niece could baby sit. I did that often and she loved JJ. She said she would pick JJ and me up around 7:00. We went to dinner and even though we stayed until after 9:00, Sean never showed up. I never mentioned to Carol that I expected to see him there so she suspected nothing. I still wanted to keep her out of it as long as possible. As we got ready to leave, I excused myself and went to the entrance to see the headwaiter. I asked him if he had a reservation for Sean Ballard and he confirmed that there was one earlier that had been cancelled. He mentioned that Phyllis might have some idea since she usually seated him and his party. I found Phyllis and spoke at length with her.