0 comments/ 14647 views/ 0 favorites Her Diary Pt. 01 By: CornishBabe Dear Journal, Last night was brilliant, and i don't just mean the play, in fact, playing wasn't the best bit. The best thing about last night was the time Sir and i had together after we'd played, at about 3am when i had to turn the light off and get in to bed because it was about time for Dad to be getting up for work. Leaving the camera on, because the light from the monitor is just about enough to see me by, i took my laptop into bed with me, putting it just to one side, so i could curl up with my head on my pillows and my duvet wrapped around me, and still see the screen and Sir could still see me. It was brilliant to be lying there in bed with Sir next to me, me all sleepy and snug in the afterglow of another brilliant orgasm. We were both saying how nice it was, and how we could so easily just pretend the other person was there with us and it was such a nice moment, so sweet and normal, and generally wonderful. The only thing that could have made it better would have been if Sir had his camera turned on, but He was working and had too much stuff already plugged into his USB ports. Back on the floor tonight though, i guess i had it coming, i've been allowed in my bed for a fair few nights now. Thinking about it i was quite lucky to get my bed last night, it was only because Sir liked my 'household object' even if it wasn't the best toy at the end of the day. Marble is not a good material for a toy because you can't hold onto it properly and also because it gets uncomfortably hot if you subject it to a lot of friction, as i did. Sir let me use my old friend and the very first item i ever used as a toy in the end though. My candle. It's not the widest of toys, something that i wasn't aware of when i first used it, but after the cucumber and the J2O bottle i felt the difference, but it has the extra length and it feels good! i've not got anything much to say today, i'm tired and ill feeling again so i am going to curl up in a corner of the floor and hope i feel better in the morning. Goodnight me x x ---- Today has possibly been one of the longest days of my life, and possibly one of the most painful days since meeting Sir. Not being allowed to use such a simple and commonly used word as 'i' sounded relatively simple at the time but is actually really, really difficult, if only because of how much we use the word in our everyday lives. As i already said today, i'd slipped up before i even got out of bed which earny me a few hard smacks. 1. Sometime after twenty i lost count of how many times i'd slipped up and how many time i'd had to spank my own ass. Needless to say my ass is rather sore already, and i'm gratefulf or the fact that we are all just watching a movie now so there is nothing for me to say and no more chances to slip up, not for now anyway. Sir and i both have this shared principle that it's not the next day until you've been to sleep, as such i have to keep watching my tongue until i fall asleep which is only going to get harder. i have permission to drink tonight, in moderation, i'm not to get as wasted as i did the other night. Tipsy is permitted, but outright drunk isn't. That works for me as i have to drive home tomorrow and if i get too drunk tonight then we wont be able to get on the road until really late because i need to allow enough time to break the alcohol down. My second task was to wear a skirt without any panties, which is quite possibly my most favorite task! Not wearing panties, as i've said before is so deliciously naughty, that it gets me wet and aroused. However, today was the first time i've ever gone without panties under a skirt and i was so much more aware of it than i was wearing no panties under my trousers. Under a skirt i had to constantly be aware of whether my skirt was getting caught on anything, whether it was riding up too far when i crossed my legs, and i was so very aware of just how wet i was, there being no trouser material between my legs to soak anything up! Knowing that i can talk freely here is such a relief, it means i don't have to worry about avoiding the word i, talking to Sir, however briefly, earlier was a struggle, when i am sure He was asking leading questions, like 'tell me about your day?' To which i would usually reply with something like 'i did this and then i did that and then i did something else.' Instead i had to think of other answers and other ways to say i, such as 'Your toy' which all required so much more thought. Right now i'm a few glasses of vodka and pink lemonade away from where i should stop drinking, but that's the annoying thing, i can feel completely fine one second then drink one more mouthful and that'll be it. So maybe i should stop now? Just finish this glass and hope for the best? Either way i'm going to stop writing, i've just slipped up again while talking to my sister and need to go to the bathroom and deal with the consequences. Goodnight Me x x Her Diary Pt. 02 Sir emailled me earlier to tell me He had been asked to cover a story and he was going to be late, but He really wanted to talk to me, and i really want to talk to Him. Not talking to Him unexpectedly just, like, throws me completely off balance. i've got used to the fact that we don't talk on a Wednesday night, that's just life and i know i can expect an email when i wake up that will have my tasks for the day and that's just how it works for us. But an unexpected night, even if He tells me hours and hours before we are meant to be "meeting", so to speak, i'm still thrown off balance. So i didn't want to miss Him tonight because then we wont talk again til Thursday so... Hmm. So i am waiting up for Him, and He's promised not to keep me up too late. i just hope He's not really distracted. We can talk sometimes and we can be chatting for hours but it still feel like we've hardly said anything at all. Or am i just being clingy and expecting too much? i just don't know. But anyways, i'm going to brush my teeth and my hair and generally get ready for bed and then hopefully Sir will be online. :) Night night Me x x -- i've got just over an hour to kill while Sir makes some conference call or something for work, i never asked for the details really, all i know is that i got just about two hours with Sir, and now He is gone for an hour or so and i have to write in my journal, one because Sir expects it, two because He has specifically told me to do so, and three because it will keep me awake for the next hour. 1. Thursday nights are fantastic as i have no classes on a Friday, so staying up late to talk to Sir is not an issue, and after not talking to Him on a Wednesday it is really nice to not have to clock watch so i can be sure i get enough sleep. We can just catch up on things and enjoy each others' company. My tasks this week have been pretty good fun really, Sir and i have had a good discussion about how much i like being tied. Because i would never do it without His instruction it really is Him tying me up, it is a physical representation of His control and no matter what else is going on in my life if Sir ties me up then i am back where i should be, back under His control and back where it feels safe. i miss having proper Yahoo and having my chat logs saved because then i could look back over the chat we had about it and copy and paste because it was quite good. i like being tied, unfortunately i can't tie my own hands up and also, living in halls we can have surprise fire drills and such like so being completely tied would probably not be the best idea, but i can tie my legs together and i can also untie my legs quickly if i have to for a fire drill. And Sir seems quite content with that. :) The task the yesterday was to tie my legs up every time i went back to my room, while i was watching TV, while i was studying, whatever i was doing. If i was back in my room i was to be tied up. i was also to get my mic and try and do a voice recording for Sir, He said if He couldn't have the video then He wanted to hear me cum, and being the good toy i am i set about finding a program on my computer that would record from my mic and trying to set my mic up for best recording levels. Then i came across a small problem... -Sir, i know You said i needed to be tied up whenever i was in my room, but i can't get to my pussy to make myself cum and do this recording for You with my legs tied- So, i rattled off an email to Sir and waited, all tied up, for a reply before untying my legs and settling down onto my bed. Obviously to make the sound file a recordable size it wasn't going to be prudent to record every minute of my masturbation, so i played on my own for a while and then when i knew i was close i hit record and then went back to forgetting that the mic was there. Just about panting out a request to cum, waiting a while for "Sir to give permission" theoretically... and then saying Thankyou lots and lots. Then i attached the sound file to an email and zipped it off to Sir, tied myself back up and settled down at my desk to carry on studying. The other task Sir set was that i was to put a clothespin on each nipple after 11pm and leave them there until i went to bed. This did mean that as i left the sound recording until late in the evening, due to the party, i had the clips on the whole time i was trying to do the recording. i got to bed between 12:30am and 1:00am, i'm not sure exactly, but i know it hurt like hell to take those clothespins off, and i was so happy that it was warm enough to sleep naked, because putting a top on right them would have hurt. Today Sir said He wanted me to play with my nipples for a whole hour, it didn't have to be all at once, so long as i got a whole hour of nipple play into my day. Well, i did it in four sittings, ten minutes before my first class, ten minutes between that class and my second class, twenty minutes after class and then twenty minutes after dinner. The only problem is that my right nipple seems to be suffering and is rather sore, has been all day. And up to a point it fine, it was just a lasting reminder of last nights instructions, a real, tangible reminder of Him. But by the time Sir came online it was just getting annoying, but hey, He liked it. :) i was going to make a list of all the tasks i've done so far, just because i'm curious to see how much i've achieved, but Sir is back and i don't have time, so i will add that to my list of things to do over the weekend. Again, i'm feeling like this entry is lacking in substance, it's just "i did this, then i did that" whereas i really feel like i should be getting across some more emotion, some more insight into my mind, i mean, that's why i journal. i journal because it's a creative outlet for my feelings, because it's my safe space, and because Sir can read things here and question me about them as well. Like He did earlier. But, i want to talk to my Sir, because He's far more exciting that my journal and it's horrible to know He is right there waiting to read this and i can't talk to Him until it is done so... Sir comes before a substantial journal entry. :) Goodnight Me x x Her Diary Pt. 03 Today, as i said last night i plan to compile a list of all the tasks Sir has had me do, and also to write something more substantial than i've put out here lately. So i am going to start out with the tasks, just because i'm really keen to see what i've done, which means just going through my journal, looking back over the last month and seeing what i've achieved, seeing how i've developed, where i've stumbled and well, just my life really. The first task i have a record of was to write a fantasy, something that would really turn me on in real life, and a story that has since made it to Literotica. For a long time i've had this fantasy of being dominated by a stranger, or being blindfolded, tied and helpless and used by someone i do not know, but as i was writing the fantasy i was more and more pulled to making this stranger a female and that's what my story became. It took me longer to complete than Sir originally set but there were some external circumstances that i could not avoid and so Sir was flexible. It was here that i first realised just how much of a give and take scenario this was going to be for us. My second task was a full day at work without any underwear at all, no panties and no bra. Again we had to be flexible on this task, and Sir reminded me that i am always to ask questions when i feel i need to. Sir originally set the task as no panties and a skirt, and then i had to admit that i don't actually own a skirt that would be work suitable. So, Sir let me wear trousers and made me go without a bra instead. At the time i never thought i would be able to do it, that people would just be able to tell, and people would start talking about me and i was pretty paranoid, but i didn't back down, i completed my task and that feeling of pride made all the self-doubt completely irrelevant. The next day was, up to that point, one of the hardest tasks i have ever done. Wearing no underwear paled in comparison and i would be lying if i said i didn't think about giving up and not doing it. But just thinking about it made me feel so bad that i pushed myself harder to do it. My task was to go to the toilets at work and masturbate to orgasm. Which would have been fine if we had staff toilets that were a little more private but work only has very busy, very public customer toilets. But i did my task and Sir said He was so pleased with me, and that really did make it completely perfect. Then Sir sent me shopping for a cucumber and a school girl outfit and so began the road to perhaps one of the less fun nights of play. No, that's not right, it was great fun... until the incident happened. Yep, this was the night we played with the cucumber and it ended up involving lots of blood and me feeling all faint and sick and us having to stop playing. Yes, the night i took my own virginity, with a cucumber, on my best mate's bed while house sitting for her. Oops. Stopping play that night made me feel like i was letting Sir down, but He said He understood and again i realised just how considerate He is and how much He genuinely cares. My next task was to find some blogs/journals i liked and send Sir a list, let Him see if He approved and then email the people who write them. And from that i made my first two Live Journal friends, and found a few more people who knew more about what they were doing than i do and so found some people to share this experience with. Then back to work and Sir wanted me to find a "ordinary" object at my desk and put it inside my panties, all day. So it was an easy task, but one that i was aware of ALL day. And then Sir decided that we would play in my parents' bedroom that night as they were away. That was a real mental challenge for me, my parents' bedroom is like the inner sanctum, no one goes in there except them and before i went back to my own bed Sir made me cum on theirs. This was also the first night Sir made me sleep on the floor, following a discussion about my preferring the floor to some beds, and Sir saying something about a good sub sleeping at her Sir's feet. When life kept us apart for a few nights Sir still maintained his control over me, sending me tasks and having me play with my pussy for varying lengths of time each day, until i was to play until the verge of orgasm the day before we would speak again, just so i would be so needy and ready by the time we spoke i'm sure. Sir also expresses an interest in making sure i know that i am still being played with and under his control even when i am out with my friends, and as such Sir had me wear a bra that was too small when i went out with my friends to celebrate before we all went away to Uni. So even when i was drunk i was still thinking about my Sir. And it was vaguely restrictive, and i loved it. And Sir got to laugh at me falling over drunk i'm sure. And then Sir asked me to do a task i just could not do for Him at that moment in time, He wanted me to go find somewhere public, like a park and pee. Now, i've read time and time again people doing this, and not having a problem with it. But i couldn't do it, it scared me and so i spent hours agonizing over my decision, fighting between the disappointment of letting down my Sir and my own fear. Fear won. But Sir forgave me. One of the most difficult tasks Sir gave me to do, wasn't actually the peeing task. Yes, that challenged me mentally, i had a real block about that, but my hardest task was the day that Sir forbade me from using the word "i". Until then i hadn't realised just how much we use that word in every day life and it's pretty fair to say that i had such a sore ass by the end of the day. Sir has also had me masturbate to orgasm in the bathroom at home at a time when all my family were around, so that i would be aware of them. Again, pushing comfort levels and making me do things i wouldn't have done without Him. Another task was to go "virtual shopping", to find toys that if money was not an option or anything i could get and use with Sir. Anything that i liked the look of. That was a fun task. Sir made me write a list of twenty reasons why i knew i was sub. Which was really difficult actually. i mean, i know how i feel, but to think of twenty good reasons! That was tricky and it gave Sir and i something to talk about afterwards though. Sir's taken to tying me up, and i've worn this shoelace tied around the top of my leg all day as a constant reminder of His control. Now i have it tied around my wrist, my personal reminder of Him, all the time. i've had 'Master's Pet' and 'For Master's Use' written across my tits and pussy, making me paranoid that somehow people could see it through my clothes. Feeling owned all day long. Sir and i have fallen out over broken promises and i've argued over petty things because He broke His promise and i've taken days to get over it properly. i've cried and felt useless and slowly Sir's built me back up and i've rebuilt my trust in Him and it was a lot easier than i thought it would ever be. And i've realised how much this man means to me, how much i trust Him, unconditionally. Sir's asked for an erotic poem, and i've done my best, and i've written Him another fantasy. He's tied me, made me wear clothespins on my nipples and clit and i've never wanted to go back because without Sir i would be an entirely different person. When asked a second time i managed to complete the task to pee outside and felt so proud, so impressed with my achievement, and knew that Sir would be pleased as well. Sir, over the last month or so, has changed the way i look at things. There used to be a time where i would get very angry, i would get very upset and i was never sure how to cope. i used to cut, burn and punch, i used to drink and i used to hate myself. But none of that is acceptable to Sir and my desire to please Him has shaped the person i now know i am, now i think i can be a whole lot calmer, i spend a lot more time thinking "What would Sir want me to do?" i ask permission before i drink any alcohol, i know i can not hurt myself. Talks of total power exchange scare me, sometimes i wonder how Sir could even be contemplating such a thing when we live thousands of miles apart, but then i lie in the dark with just the glow of the computer monitor and the conversation with Sir open in front of me and i've felt so content and happy and i start to understand why He might want to talk about it. But it still scares me. At night, Sir says to me "now kiss your Sir goodnight and go to bed." and i say goodnight and i linger, just a few minutes, just to see if He will say one more thing, just to see if i can have a return Goodnight, and sometimes i do, but often i don't... and sometimes i wonder why, but most of the time i know that is just Sir. i know He cares, and talking to Him makes me feel better, regardless, knowing that there is a place that feels right, that feels like belonging and... it's just good. You know? And with that i don't think i have much more to say... i need to go and do today's task, to write a description of the perfect girl for Sir and i to play with. And i need a shower. Goodnight Me x x Her Diary Pt. 04 Because i know that Sir will probably want this posted here is the list of twenty ways to please my Sir that i finally put together by about 2am last night after tears and tantrums galore, and Sir refusing to talk to me until i finished. Posting them here also means we can reference them again quickly as opposed to searching through our email accounts for them. 1. The very first thing i think that would please You would be to have Your sub with You, to come home to her on her knees just inside the door waiting for Your command. We know it's not possible right now, not for me anyway, but i think that would be one way to please You. 2. Following a command instantly, without feeling the need to further question or debate it. For example, You tell me to play with my pussy and i immediately want to ask questions - how long for? Do i get to cum? Etc. Etc. i think it would please You if i could stop questioning sometimes, and just do as i'm told. :) 3. Pushing my own limits, two examples of where we have already done this would be peeing outside and playing with my ass. Both of these are not things i would naturally be happy with, but letting You push the soft limits and doing as You asked certainly seemed pleasing to You. 4. Defer all decisions to You, be it permission to cum or just to go to the bathroom. If we could be together i think that giving You that control would please You. 5. Speak up when You ask me to do videos/recordings! *laughs* Perhaps this also includes not worrying about what other people might think. 6. Trust You with me feelings, it's difficult to open up and let people see inside me, but i know we can only work if i can be completely honest and open. This means being able to come to You with problems before they start to impact on our relationship. Perhaps if i had been able to do this before then we wouldn't have had that 'blip' that we had. 7. Wear a constant reminder of Your control, be that the shoelace i wear at the moment or some other jewellery we later decide on, or a collar. Know that You are always controlling me. 8. Masturbating in a public place at Your command. 9. Dressing up for You. 10. Don't just "virtual shop" - go out and buy some toys for Sir to play with! 11. Let Sir dictate what i am to wear. (Such as the night i had to wear a too small bra out with my friends) 12. (This one assumes we're together) Remote control toys in a public place, for example while out for dinner. 13. Erotic Mind Control - if You could do it, i'd be a willing subject. 14. Writing sexy letters and leaving them in public places for strangers to read, and leaving a contact email address at the bottom. 15. Dressing up / revealing clothing etc. in public at Sir's command. Anything that would immediately make me stand out, could also put something like making me wear a leash in public in here. Now i have a visual about You walking Katharine and me at the same time... 16. Cook, clean, wash, iron.... General household tasks to make Sir's life easier and more enjoyable. Take pride in knowing that doing these tasks will give Sir more free time and much less to worry about. 17. Trust. Unconditionally trust Sir, this means not worrying about whether you are always saying the right thing, but being completely honest and knowing that Sir wont ever ask you to do anything that is unsafe or will endanger you in any way, physically or mentally. Only when you trust Him this much, all the time, can you work together properly. 18. Play chess with Sir more! :) Those quiet moments where you get to relax and just chat and indulge in some very normal and simple pleasures. Just take the stress off for a wee bit. 19. Obedience, 100% of the time, no more questions, no more doubts. 20. Finish tasks on time! Following the completion of that task i decided that now i am not at home and there are no parents to scrutinize my mail i could safely invest in at least one toy for Sir and i to play with and i was soon off looking on website to get myself my very first vibrator. Now, i don't have a lot of spare cash in the budget, so it may not be the best toy in the world, i've read all about people spending crazy amounts but i had about £15 and the whole of the internet at my command, sort of... But with Sir to help me out we together settled on a new toy, after my petty decision that i did not want a pink toy! Why are they all pink? Sir just said because it is a girlie colour (and possibly trying to look vaguely realistic) but pink just isn't my colour. Anyways, my new toy should hopefully be here tomorrow and that's going to be fun, especially in the holidays when i go home and Sir can watch. i'm just keen to see if it can live up to its reputation. :) My task today was easy, which was really nice after yesterday. Sir wanted me to think of outfits i could dress up in for Him, things i could get hold of cheaply, or outfits i could make up with the clothes i already own. So i had a bit of a think, and it was good fun, trying to work out what Sir might like and whether i could make it work. It meant not trying to compare myself to the perfect image of the perfect girl in these costumes and just thinking about whether the idea would appeal to Sir. It's a noticeable shift in the way i think about myself. And i never noticed it until now. Of course i've noticed the way i didn't even open my bottle of cider this evening before asking Sir for permission first. i've noticed the way when something goes wrong i think "don't over react, remember that you Sir cares about you very much and He wouldn't want you to react like that" Sometimes, just on the odd occasion i look back just over the last month and a half and i'm amazed at my personal development and while that was never the point of this relationship, it sure is a nice side effect. Sir likes to cuddle, i'm sure, when we were talking about a fantasy day we could spend together if i were to ever relocate to be with Him, He made the move to add a certain amount of time just cuddling in bed at the start of the day, and so far He hasn't said no when i've asked for a hug before bed. It's nice to be able to go to bed with the thought of His arms around me. Snuggly and safe. Just like that night i laid in bed with just the camera on and just the light from the monitor for Sir to see me with and i was snuggled up in bed with Sir right there beside me and that was bliss. So falling asleep while thinking about His arms around me is ideal. Goodnight Me x x Her Diary Pt. 05 Sir has specifically asked for a journal entry tonight, so He has something to read when He gets home from work. Personally, i would much rather be in bed and asleep rather than writing this. 1. The last few days have been tough, i've got a hideous cold (yay for Fresher's Flu) and i just have no energy to do anything. This has lead to me getting behind on reading and class work, so much so that i completely forgot to do any of the reading for one of my seminars today and so the whole class made no sense to me and i am now having to teach myself the subject with the few notes that i made in the seminar and get the rest from the designated reading. Having to do that tonight meant i got behind on my reading for tomorrow's classes and as such it is now 2:30am and i have just put my politics file away. On a night where i am not staying up to talk to Sir i would love to have been asleep an hour by now, but no, i have to write this. It is my own fault, i shouldn't have let myself get behind but yesterday i was just trying to sleep off my cold and i had no motivation to do anything. Getting back into the swing of education after a year out is proving tough, and the focus is now on independent study whereas at college is was pretty much handed to us on a plate, so i'm having to undergo a massive shift in thinking about my approach to learning as well as reminding myself how to learn. This evening after classes i went into town and to the pharmacy and managed to get myself some 'Sinus Dual Relief capsules' and also some throat sweets to try and make my throat stop hurting and 'clear nasal congestion and relieve sinus pain' which should ease the problem of not being able to breathe and the crushing sinus pain i was suffering all morning that made me want to snap my own head off. The only problem is that ALL of the decongestants/cold relief etc etc contain paracetamol and i have to be careful about paracetamol just because it can make me vomit or really, really light headed. Oral paracetamol suspensions make me vomit and the last time i took Sudafed Dual Relief Max it made me fantastically light headed that i felt like passing out at work, so i needed to get a medicine with a lower dose of paracetamol so i spent AGES in the store and the security guy was looking at me like i was trying to steal things. But the stuff i have is pretty light on the paracetamol compared to the others and i'm only taking half doses and so far no problems, just a few improvements, like being able to breathe a tad better than before. But i am still really tired. At least my first class isn't until 3pm tomorrow, so i will just have to get up before the cleaners come around and then i can go back to sleep for a bit and then get up for my class. Sir told me last night that if i were living with Him then He would make me chicken noodle soup to make me feel better, to which i had to remind Him that i don't eat meat. It was sweet, 'cause He then said He would pick out every piece of chicken by hand if He had to. Which was nice, but really gross.... So He said He'd make Matzah Ball soup instead which just confused me and i had no idea what it was and then we had a big discussion about whether i would at least try it if He cooked it for me. My task yesterday was good fun, Sir wanted me to look online for nude or erotic photos of females that i found sexy and send Him links and also explanations of what attracted me to each picture. It was pretty enlightening, i realised just how much i love the thought of playing with rope, i stumbled across a whole gallery of pictures of girls tied in various places with rope, none of it extreme but rope is pretty... Also, after sending all the links to Sir i was looking back at my choices are realised that none of the pictures were fully nude, instead i was drawn to girls in corsets or leather... Revealing clothing but not naked. And i can't really explain that, it was just how it happened. Maybe it is because the sites where i was finding fully nude pictures didn't feel right, and i was also worrying about having my internet use monitored by the Uni. So i don't feel comfortable on porn sites (which is why i wouldn't upload my video to a specifically porn site) whereas the sites where i was finding the erotic, partially clothed photos were much more artistic and tasteful as far as i was concerned. Meh, i don't know. Today's task wasn't as fun, but Sir didn't really set any limits on it or anything, He wanted a list of uses for my mouth and didn't specify how long the list had to be. It eventually worked out at just eight things, each with a little accompanying comment, which now i look back probably wasn't my best effort but i wanted to get on with my Uni work, and Sir keeps telling me how i can't do badly at school or i'll get punished (Education is important.) So... i don't know, i'll see what Sir says tomorrow. The more fun part of today was not wearing underwear and then running late for one of my classes and having to run up the stairs with my jeans on and having my jeans rub against me... Oh, and my toy arrived today, it's very shiny and... possibly kind of scary in an 'Oh my god... that's going inside me' kind of way that i get with everything i've played with that wasn't my candle. But because i haven't been able to speak to Sir i've not been able to use it yet, but i have taken it out the box and played around with the multi-speed control and thought 'holy crap.. That's going to feel good' :D The only problem i see with it is the noise, now this thing was advertised as being virtually silent, well, if that's virtually silent i would hate to have a normal volume one! But i'm all excited about being allowed to use it! And it came with free lube, what more could i want? Sir being the lovely man He is has told me i can stay sleeping in my bed and i can also have my underwear back tonight, so as soon as i post this i am going to get to bed and hopefully fall fast asleep for at least seven hours if not eight. And hopefully i will feel a whole lot better in the morning and everything will be better, and i will be able to wait up to talk to Sir tomorrow night. He has another late meeting tomorrow, which is unusual and we both said how much we wanted to talk to each other, so i said i would do my best to wait up as i have no classes on a Friday and He said He should be home by 3am. That's not too bad, and we can chat for an hour or so... If only to say 'Hi, miss You... What's my task?' Tasks are something i've really started to look forward to, even if i've had some nasty tasks that i didn't like. There is something satisfying about completing a task and getting a nice message back that says something like 'good toy, that was very good.' and even when i don't complete a task on time, like the other night, there is still something amazingly satisfying when i do finally get it completed. Although, i much prefer it when Sir and i get to talk about my tasks after He has set them, as opposed to having them emailed to me, like tomorrow's task will be. The problem with having the task emailed to me is that i wont pick it up until tomorrow morning and if there is any problem with it then i can't ask Sir about it until lunchtime at least because He'll be fast asleep. But yea, i should probably get to bed, take my last lot of these tablets and see how i feel in the morning. Please give me a peaceful night's sleep. Last night i woke up after the weirdest/ most horrible dream and it took me a while to get back to sleep. Luckily it wasn't that evil recurring nightmare that haunts me every now and then, because i would never have got back to sleep if it was, and i would have been emailing Sir, just like He told me to, to try and make myself feel better. But i wont dwell on that now because thinking about it too much has a tendency to make it happen. Sleep time now i think. Goodnight. Me x x