12 comments/ 21413 views/ 8 favorites When Plans Change By: TaraKoka He changed plans on me again! The bastard! He's so inconsiderate that I'm only just finding out that he changed his plans now that I'm standing outside his building. When he didn't buzz me in when I rung his doorbell, I called him to let him know I was standing outside. The arrogant ass didn't even apologize for inconveniencing me. He just said, "Oh, I forgot to call and tell you that my brothers came by to take me fishing." How could he not be home when he knew I'd be coming over! I'm sick of him! And I'm sick of me for putting up with him! I hate failure and want our relationship to work so badly that I've put up with way more than anyone should have to. So here I am in my car wondering what to do. I don't really want to go home and I love my best friend, but know I can't go hang with her. She's probably tired and fussing with the kids. Plus, I don't want her telling me what I already know...that he's no good for me. We'll have a margarita night soon for that discussion. As I ponder over my options, my mind keeps wandering to Jae. She's always asking me to come and chill with her. I haven't taken her up on it though because he has a problem with me hanging out with lesbians. He only accepts my best friend because I've assured him that nothing has ever happened between us, and she's married to a woman that I also consider a friend. Sitting in my car angry and more than a little depressed, I decided to call and see if Jae was busy. When she answered, she said that she was at home drinking a few beers and watching TV. I told her that my plans for the day had changed and was wondering what she were up to. She immediately invited me over. I tried to ignore the sense of anticipation I was feeling at finally making plans to be alone with her. On the drive over, I found that I was nervous. Not nervous enough to go home, but nervously giddy (and I don't do giddy). When I pulled up in front of her house, I had to take a few calming breaths before getting out of the car. I told myself that I was just nervous because I knew that he would be angry when he found out who I spent the day with. It wasn't because I was curious or attracted to her in any way. She must have heard me pull up because she was standing in the doorway when I looked up. I could feel the pounding of my heart as I got out of the car and made the short walk toward her. When I reached her, I was pulled into the biggest hug that I've received in a long time. It was so wonderful that for a moment I forgot my nerves. When she released me, she grabbed my hand and led me into her apartment. Once inside, I saw that she was watching a horror movie. Not quite my style, but I sat while she went to get me something to drink. When she returned and found me covering my eyes she started laughing. She told me that she could put in another movie, but I told her that I could handle it. She sat on the sofa beside me and I was immediately distracted by the feel of her leg touching mine. She was wearing gym shorts and I had on a skirt so we had direct skin contact. I was further distracted when she placed her hand on my thigh and told me that she was glad that I decided to come over. I faced her to respond, but no words would come out. She just smiled at me and said, "I got you during the scariest parts." When she turned to once again focus on the movie, I felt relief. My mind is whirling with questions as I sit beside her; questions like...What was I really doing here? Did she have certain expectations? Did I want her to have expectations? What would I do if she made a move? Finally, I told myself to stop it and just enjoy the company and deal with things as they come. Easier said than done but I like Jae and if nothing else, we can have a fun day together. Once I resolved to relax, I discovered that we naturally began leaning into each other. Better still, she had one arm placed casually across my shoulders. It was nice feeling supported since, he never cared to sit and relax with me. I'm not certain, but Jae must have sensed that my mood had changed when I was thinking about him because she asked if anything was wrong. When I looked up into her face and saw her concern, I just started crying. I could just slap myself... I hated crying and I couldn't stop. She just held me and let me cry. Her voice was so soothing and her arms were so comforting that I eventually fell asleep. I woke up slowly and a little confused. I was definitely comfortable, but I was in someone's arms. Actually, I was laying on them! Then it hit me where I was and who I was with. I opened my eyes and looked to find Jae watching me. I didn't know what to say as I realized how intimately we were arranged on the couch. She was on her back leaning against an armrest with my head resting on her chest and my legs between hers. I noticed that she was lightly rubbing my back with one hand as she stared down into my face. When I asked how long I had been asleep. Her reply was to say not long enough if I planned to move. If I could blush...now would be the time. I hid my face in her chest and whispered, "I never want to move." As I lay there with my head on her chest I became aware of two things. First I noticed that one of my hands was tangled up in her braids, and secondly that her hand which was caressing my back was slowly moving lower. It felt like I was in a dream when I lifted my face up only to have her join her lips to mine. All thought left my brain as I focused on the sensation of her soft lips moving against my own. A shiver went down my spine as I wrapped my arms around her neck to pull myself closer. I felt her hands as they slid up and down my back before stopping at my butt to give a firm squeeze. After what seemed like hours, I pulled away to look into her eyes. We were both lightly panting. Both of my hands were now in her hair, while both of her hands were kneading my buttocks. We lost eye contact when she became distracted by me licking my lips. When I moved one hand down to trail a finger down the side of her face, she moved to intercept it with her lips. Sucking on my finger for a moment before her lips kissed my brow, my eyes, my nose, and finally reclaiming my lips. I was drowning in emotions and sensations. Lost in how her body felt against mine. I was overwhelmed with the pleasure of her kisses. Again I was the first to break the kiss. I'm not sure what I want to say as I struggle to form words, but she stops me with three little words. "I got you." When Plans Change Ch. 02 I've been hearing from Jae since that day at her place last week. Her texts are so sweet asking me how my day is going and that she's thinking of me. I've just been responding automatically letting her know that I'm good, but the reality is...I'M FREAKING OUT! Sometimes during the day when I should be working, I find myself smiling. No reason. Just smiling and thinking of her. The worst is when I catch myself humming Katie Perry's song, I Kissed a Girl. I did like it. I liked it a lot. Now I'm this humming, smiling freak fantasizing about this woman when I have an asshole boyfriend to contend with. I haven't spent any time with him either. Of course we do the daily phone calls that all couples do, but I've been really busy at work. He's not that busy since he quit his job because it was stressing him out. He's not looking for another one yet because he still needs to recover from the one he quit. I know. I've got myself a winner! He's not all bad. He did call me later that night after cancelling our plans to tell me that he missed me. Although at that point he was drunk and possibly high...I'm not sure, he was hard to understand. Besides, I had other things on my mind. Jae and I spent the entire day on that couch. Words can't express how it felt having her hold me. Her hands were like magic on my body. Wherever she touched me, I felt like I was melting. She didn't push or try to do anything that would have made me feel uncomfortable. We just caressed each other and shared a few kisses. I couldn't have asked for a more pleasurable and romantic day. My only complaint is that it wasn't with the right person. Don't get me wrong. Jae is great. She is. She's just great. Really. She's funny, smart, attractive, sweet, witty, eyes you can get lost in, skin so smooth and creamy like milk chocolate, lips that are full and soft when pressed against mine, beautifully sculpted hands that know just where to touch me next, a voice so silky that when she whispers my name I become instantly moist... Anyway! I meant that although she's great, I'm in a relationship. And I'm not really gay. It was just a bad day to spend time with her since I was kind of upset. She was being so sweet and things just happened. It was just a onetime thing. We're due to get together tomorrow, I'm sure things will be normal. It'll be just two friends hanging out. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Hey Sweetness..." "Jae! You can't call me that." "It's who you are to me." "You know I'm in a relationship." "I know that you aren't being appreciated." "Jae!" "I don't want to talk about him. I just called to make sure we're still on for tomorrow." "Why wouldn't we be?" "I could tell that you were...nervous. I want you to know that I care about you and won't push you to do anything you're not ready for." "I know. Being with you the other day was unexpected. I was feeling down on myself, and you made me feel...special. Wanted. "Sweetness, you are special. And you are wanted. I want you..." "But..." "...but I don't want you confused. We're friends, and friends hang out. No pressure from me for anything else. If anything more happens...I'll count it as a gift." "Ok. What did you want to do?" "How 'bout we head out to the casino? Turning Stone?" "That sounds nice. What time do you want me to pick you up?" "No, Sweetness...I got you. I'll call you tomorrow when I get off work to let you know what time I'll be there to get you." "Alright. See you then." "Goodnight." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My room is a wreck! I have clothes and shoes everywhere! And I still don't know what I'm going to wear tonight. I have absolutely nothing to wear! I've tried on everything I own and it's too late to go shopping for a new outfit. I'm driving myself crazy. This is not a date! I'm not trying to impress her or anything, it's just that I haven't been out in a while and I want to look good. I'm too jittery and need to relax. I should probably take an early shower or better yet a bath...it'll help me calm my nerves. Again, I can blame him for how I'm feeling. He wanted me to pick him up and take him take somewhere, and got pissed when I said that I had plans with a friend. I sort of feel guilty for saying no, but he never cancels his plans when I want to spend time with him. Besides, he wouldn't be stranded at home if he didn't sell his car. Maybe it's a bad idea going out with Jae tonight. I don't want to give her the wrong idea about us. My best friend and I had our margarita night on Thursday. I wanted so badly to tell her about Jae, but didn't know what to say. Like Jae, she prefers more masculine attire and I used to question her about it. I just couldn't tell her what happened with Jae; I'd feel like a hypocrite. Instead, I had to listen to her go on about how my boyfriend was draining me of my joy. So now that I've managed to get myself together. I have to figure out what to do with myself until she gets here. She should be here in 20 minutes. Should I wait for her out on the porch? I might look too eager. If I go back into my bedroom, I'll be tempted to change clothes again. I already checked my hair. Makeup is easy, I only wear mascara and lip gloss. I'm just gonna sit right here with a book until she gets comes. I can't seem to sit still. I'm so freakin' nervous! I'm literally shaking, my face is hot, and my heart is pounding. I feel like I've just run a marathon. I wish I would have cancelled! When the doorbell rings, I almost had a heart attack. I was so focused on not hyperventilating; I didn't notice that she had pulled up. I can do this! When I opened the door for her, I simply froze. In that one moment my mind was bombarded with all of these images of breasts, legs, lips, thighs, and arms all tangled together. I snapped out of it when she pulled me into a hug. When she wrapped her arms around me, it was like coming home. She was so strong and solid, yet soft at the same time. And she smelled so good! It was then that I knew for sure. I wanted her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We had so much fun! At one point I had won $1300, but by the time we stopped gambling I had won a total of $600. I offered to split it with Jae, but she wouldn't take it so I told her that our next night out was on me. She didn't drink that much, but I admit to getting tipsy. It was probably because of those drinks that I allowed myself to give Jae several celebratory hugs and a couple kisses when I was on my winning streak. We were quite cozy while we played the slots; she stood behind me with her arms around my waist, and resting her chin on my shoulder. Having her body up against mine was having a serious affect on me. The grounds at Turning Stone were beautiful and well lit. I hadn't been there since before they renovated the place, so after awhile I just wanted to walk around and see everything. It was while we were standing at the fountain that I again found myself within the security of her arms. To the casual observer, we resembled a couple in a dancer's embrace since we were moving slowly to the music that spilled from within the lobby. In reality, we were recognizing the signs of arousal in each other. As we embraced, both of our pulses began to race. I became short of breath when I felt the caress of her lips move from my ear toward my neck and down to my shoulder. Her arms tightened in response to my breasts brushing against her chest. I'm certain that she was able to feel my nipples harden with each stroke. The trembling of my body was obvious as I gave in to the inevitable. When our lips met for a kiss, it was as though I were hit with a bolt of electricity. I felt the power of that connection throughout my body. I was convinced that I had liquefied. Jae had me moments from orgasm, and we were standing in front of a fountain at a casino. "Sweetness, we gotta go!" "What?" "We gotta go!" "No! Please! Wait. Just a few more minutes..." I know I wasn't making it easy for her, but I was so close. I've never felt so good. Just thinking about the long drive home was painful. "I got us a room." "Here? But..." "I didn't assume anything. I just had hope." I know that just a few moments ago, I was raring to go. But the thought of getting on an elevator and going up to a room alone with her cooled me down a bit. "We don't have to use it if you don't want to. Or if we do go up there, we could just chill. Nothing has to happen." "Will you get mad at me if I didn't want anything to happen?" "Never. You mean the world to me and I will never be mad. What we have...is all new to you." "I want to, Jae...but I'm a little nervous." "Sweetness, I got you. Whatever you want to do, we'll do." "Let's go up." When Plans Change Ch. 03 Our room was breathtaking! We were on the 16th floor and the view from the window was phenomenal. As I gazed out at the view, I heard rather than observed Jae moving around the room. She found us some music and had lit a few candles. After a few moments, I heard the pop of a bottle and what I assumed was wine being poured into a couple glasses. Jae had thought of everything. I felt her come up behind me and stop just short of touching me. We still hadn't spoken when she handed me a glass of what turned out to be champagne. I took a sip and set it down on the windowsill. Although the champagne was nice and fruity, I didn't want to further upset the butterflies in my stomach. She must have set aside her glass as well because she placed her hands on the window on both sides of me. She had me surrounded. She soon had her groin lightly grinding into my butt as she planted small kisses on the back of my neck and shoulder. There was no way that I could maintain my equilibrium and my hands joined hers on the window. The coolness of the glass was welcome since my temperature appeared to have risen. My hands on the glass, followed by my forehead were due to my feeling the need for the additional support. Jae continued her assault on my senses by raining kisses down my back. Removing her hands from the window, her cool touch sent shivers throughout my body as her fingers drew a path along my arms. When I felt her pulling at the hem of my shirt, I experienced a jolt of anticipation. I moaned in response to her fingers sliding under my shirt to touch the skin of my back, waist and stomach. She whispered in my ear to raise my arms above my head while she deftly unsnapped my bra. That request reverberated through my body as I slowly moved to comply. She removed my shirt and bra quickly, leaving me bare and vulnerable since she was still fully dressed. My vulnerability soon gave way to pleasure as she reached around to cup my breasts in her hands. With a firm squeeze and tug of my nipples, she expressed her pleasure at finding my piercings. After placing my hands back on the window, Jae knelt behind me and began pulling down my leggings and panties. The brush of her fingers against my skin as she completed this task sent shocks of pleasure straight to the core of me. I was hot and wet hoping for her to touch the one spot that would relieve my sweet torture. She blanketed my feet, legs, and thighs with kisses once I was completely exposed. When I thought I couldn't take anymore, I attempted to move but she insisted I remain in place. Jae's hands were everywhere and nowhere. I was writhing with need for her to allow my release. Finally after what seemed like hours of her kneading and kissing the flesh of my butt, thighs and legs, I felt her at my mound. I'm not sure if I was using words or simply moaning, but I know in my head I was chanting, "Please! Please! Please!" Jae's fingers finally entered me and discovered that I was swollen, hot and on the verge of an explosion. When her mouth followed the path of her fingers, my knees buckled. Jae broke my fall and continued her ravishment of me. She drove her fingers into me relentlessly as her lips and tongue further stimulated my swollen nub. Suddenly, I peaked and felt myself explode into a million pieces. I had no chance to recover as Jae's ministrations sent me careening toward another orgasm. Over and over I experienced bliss beyond all previous comprehension. My body was inundated with continuous tremors as I sought my escape. At last, Jae saw fit to show me mercy as she assisted me to the bed. I was drunk with pleasure and like putty in her hands as she tucked me into bed. Despite my desire to slip into oblivion, I watched as Jae finally shed her clothes to join me. She was beautiful. I breathed in her scent as I allowed my hands to leisurely explore her body. She had sapped my energy, but I wished to give her a small measure of the pleasure she had given me. I took a few moments to massage her breasts before running a hand across her stomach. As I attempted to move lower, Jae caught both my hands in one of hers and lifted them above my head. Without much warning I found myself on my back with her on top of me. As she gave me the sweetest kiss, Jae spread my thighs and began grinding her groin into mine. The friction was exquisite. We quickly got caught up in a race for release. We attempted to continue our kiss, but it turned into a means for giving and receiving breaths. I had thought myself incapable of cumming anymore tonight, but the pressure proved to be too much for both of us. When I heard the sounds of Jae's ecstasy, I had no choice but to join her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This morning was glorious! Waking up with Jae was an unexpected pleasure. Especially since I learned what a generous and energetic lover she can be in the morning. We took advantage of the hotel amenities and enjoyed a soak in the oversized bathtub. Of course we later had to take a shower after Jae decided it was better to play with our food than eat it. I don't recall the last time I had so much fun. We laughed and just took delight in being in each other's company. I was sorry when we had to leave. We held hands as she drove me home. We kept our conversation light and sang along with the music playing on her IPOD. The closer we came to my place the more apprehensive I became. I wasn't sure if I knew how or even if I wanted to define our newfound relationship. Were we in a relationship? Am I gay now? Or bi? Since we were both off, I thought it would be a good idea to try and make sense of everything. We need to sit down and decide how we would proceed. I care about her and she's become very important to me. We'll figure things out. Unfortunately, we discovered that we would have to work things out another time. When Jae pulled up to my place, we noticed that my boyfriend was waiting on the porch. Despite Jae's insistence that she come inside with me, I insisted that she go on home. I assured her that I would call her later. It wasn't ideal, but she knew that he was in my life. If nothing else, Jae had shown me what was lacking in my current relationship. I require more; I just had to decide what I must do to get it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Hey! What are you doing here?" "I came to see you. Where've you been?" "I told you yesterday that I had plans to hang out with a friend." "But that was last night. Where were you this morning? And was that a dyke?" "We stayed out all night. We're just getting back. How'd you get here?" "I had a buddy drop me off. I've been waiting for hours." "You should have called first." "I did call! Check your damn phone! And I didn't expect you to be out all night. Who was that? How come you're just getting in? Where did you go?" "I'm tired and you're asking way too many questions. I'm going inside." "Hold up! I need you to explain why you're just getting home after spending the night with a fucking dyke!" "Plans change." When Plans Change Ch. 04 It seemed as though we were at a standstill. He just stood there looking for answers that I wasn't prepared to give. After the night and morning I had with Jae, I wasn't ready for a conversation with him. I haven't had time to even dwell on the fact that I was with a woman! Shouldn't I be allowed some time to process? This was a big deal! "What do you mean by that? Plans change." "You're a smart guy. You know exactly what that means. How many times have you gone out and you decided to stay out later? Check out a different spot? Or go hang at a friend's house instead of at the bar? We were having fun and stayed out later than we planned. Simple as that." "Somehow I think it's not that simple. Come on, open the door let's get inside." "I just want to relax, so I might as well take you home before I go in and get comfortable." "I'm staying here." For what? I'm not going to want to take you home later, I'll do it now. We can spend some time together tomorrow." "No. I meant that I'll be staying here for a while. I got evicted." "Are you kidding me? No! You're not living with me." "Why not? Of course I am." "No, you're not! You just quit your job. Too stressful! You spend all of your time hanging out with your brothers, "fishing". Which I know is code for getting high. And you sold your car. You had a BMW. Where's the money from that? And now you've been evicted? You will NOT stay with me!" "Don't think I don't know what this little change of heart is all about." "This little change of heart has been a long time coming." "So it's not about the fact that you just spent the night playing the little bitch for that fucking dyke?" "You're an asshole! I don't care where you go and how you get there, but just get the fuck away from me!" "I'm not going anywhere! Thank God for neighbors! When my neighbor came out and saw that he had grabbed me by my arms and was attempting to force me to open the front door, she was ready to jump on him. She's in her late 60's so thankfully just the threat of calling the police made him leave. I don't know or care where he went. I was just relieved that he was gone and it was over. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I wasn't sure if he was going to try and come back, but I just wasn't up to another confrontation so I went to my best friend's house. I knew she would probably be home since she works nights. When I arrived, I was pleased to see that she was alone. There are days when her house is filled beyond capacity with kids. At that moment I needed my friend all to myself. "You won't believe the day I'm having." "Oh. Wassup?" "Guess what asshole tried to stay with me because they got evicted." "I knew there was something up with him! Losing his job AND his car..." "He quit his job." "That's what he told you. But he's had too much going on at one time. Left the job. Got rid of his car. Disappearing on you with no notice...and now he's been evicted. That man is on drugs!" "Something's wrong with him. He was just sitting on the porch when I got home today. I don't know how long he had been sitting there. When I wanted him to leave he tried to force me into letting him in the house. My neighbor had to threaten to call the police." "He's fucking crazy! Wait a minute! When you got home from where?" When presented with the perfect opportunity to tell her about Jae, I hesitated. I don't know why I was so reluctant to tell my best friend about Jae. She's gay herself...and married. I remember earlier in our friendship, I used to question her about her style of dress. I would encourage her to wear more feminine clothing; I know it got on her nerves. Now I had to tell her about Jae; a woman who dresses even more masculine than she does. It made me a little nervous. I didn't want her to think that I was a hypocrite. I'm guessing that I've known my best friend for over 16 years and in that time nothing. Absolutely, positively no funny stuff ever went on between us. Before she got married all of her exes had a problem with our friendship and would often accuse us of being involved, but never even had a make out session. I was straight. I am straight. Whatever! The point is that we've never had that kind of relationship. The funny thing about us when we first became friends was that I was the only person that didn't know she was gay. I even asked her once about the woman's name she had tattooed on her arm; she said it was her grandmother's. I just thought she was a tomboy. I can admit it now...I was naïve. "Ok. If I tell you something, will you promise not to freak out on me or get mad?" "No." "Come on! Please? I've been dying to talk to you about it, but didn't know how to tell you." "Whatever. You tell me everything." "Not this." "What is it? Just tell me." "I went out last night." "And...? "...and. Do you remember Jae? She was in that class we took last year." "I smoke weed. Remember? Kills the brain cells. I don't remember who I might've run into last week." "Come on. Think about it. A few of us in the class exchanged numbers and promised to keep in touch. She was one of them." "I still don't...Wait! The stud?!?!" "Yeah. She and I went out last night." "I know there's more to it than that if it's taking you this long to spit it all out." "We went to Turning Stone, and ended up staying the night." "YOU FUCKED A STUD!" "Jae and I had sex last night." "Are you shitting me? After all of these years of you saying that you're straight, you go out and fuck a stud?" "It wasn't like that. It kinda just happened, but I like her." "You like her?" "Yes." "And what about me?"