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Jessie's Attractions

By: Butch_lez



Her name is Maddie. She is my best friend. We have been inseparable since the first time we met in second grade. I will always remember that day.

She was new to my school. Like every new student, she barely said a word when she first arrived. During recess, she just stood against the red brick wall of the school. I remember how well her red sundress matched the wall. Her skin and hair betrayed her camouflage, though. She had long, black hair and milky white skin. She reminded me of a beautiful china doll that my mom had but would not let me touch. That's how I felt about Maddie at first, like she was precious and fragile, just like that china doll.

She probably would have stayed against that wall for the full fifteen minutes, scuffing her new black shoes as she nudged rocks around in a circle. Our teacher wanted to make sure she wasn't left out so she convinced Maddie to join our dodge ball game.

It seemed that we were destined to be together that day. Maddie took up an open spot across from me. I threw my blue foam ball and it hit her square in the face. The funny thing is, I wasn't even aiming for her.

She fell backwards, hitting her head on the hard blacktop. Everybody stopped where they were and looked at her. The teacher, noticing the quietness coming from our area, ran to the fallen girl. She sat up slowly with help from the teacher, touching a finger to the red, sticky goo leaking from her nose. Looking at her bloody fingers, she screamed and started crying. Everybody else started backing away, giving them space.

I just stared at them, my jaw hanging loose, feet unable to move. The teacher looked around and motioned for me to come closer. I didn't know if I was in trouble or if I was just the closest kid.

"Jessie, take Maddie to the nurse and stay with her until recess is over. She could use a friend."

The teacher helped Maddie to her feet. I was to take over from there. I led Maddie inside and through the maze of hallways to the nurse's office. Nothing was said on the journey there.

When we finally reached the office, the nurse put on her concerned face. "Oh dear. Come now, let's get you patched up." As she led Maddie towards the bathroom, she said to me, "You can go back now."

"Mrs. Murphey said I have to stay with her. She's new."

"Well, have a seat then."

So I sat down on the light blue hospital cot and waited. I heard small talk coming from the bathroom. After a few minutes, they emerged. Maddie's face was no longer covered in blood and, besides the red, puffy eyes, she looked better. The nurse gave her an ice pack for her head and sent us both back outside for the remaining two minutes of recess.

I looked at Maddie as we walked. "I'm sorry I hit you."

She looked at me and smiled. I could have melted right there.

"It's okay. What's your name again?"

At first I couldn't answer. My throat suddenly felt like I had swallowed a cup of sand.

"Jessie," I finally managed.

She giggled and grabbed my hand. "Well Jessie, let's be friends."

All I could do was smile and nod.

I fell in love with her that day and my love never wavered. She has no idea about my feelings for her.

She was the first person that I came out as a lesbian to in eighth grade. She has supported me and still supports me. When I decided to get my hair cut short, she went with me to the barber. She feels totally comfortable with me.

Lately, Maddie's innocence has faded away. To cope with her depression and feelings of insecurity, she has begun drinking heavily and sleeping with a lot of guys.

The local badass jock has taken a liking to her. His name is Alec and he's tall, lean, and blonde with a killer smile. He introduced Maddie to partying and she brought me into it.

There are two other guys we usually hang out with. Ben, an average sized guy who smoked a lot of pot and had shaggy brown hair, and Robbie, short and muscular with a fauxhawk and a habit of cheating on his girlfriend. I got along pretty well with Ben but Alec and Robbie seemed to think I was more of a burden. After all, I was only there because of Maddie.

I sometimes feel like I'm Maddie's security blanket but I know that I am the one person who truly cares about her.

We had the whole summer ahead of us before senior year of high school. Maddie and Alec had turned eighteen earlier that year and I had just turned eighteen. We were young adults in a small Wisconsin town. What else was there to do but party?

Thump.

Tap.

Tap.

Thud!

The noise finally pulled me out of sleep, interrupting my dream. I rolled over and stared at the clock, my eyes unable to focus as I glared at the blue numbers. 1:27 A.M. I struggled to remember what drove me from my sleep when it happened again.

Tap.

I sat up, grabbed my glasses off the nightstand, and swung my legs over the edge of the bed, staring at the window. I cautiously tip-toed around the piles of clothes and pulled the curtains back an inch, peering out into the starless night.

Standing in the middle of my dark lawn was Maddie, Alec, Ben, and Robbie. Maddie was tossing pebbles at my window but wasn't exactly hitting her target. Thump. She hit the siding.

With a sigh and a roll of my eyes, I drew the curtains back and opened the window. Just as I stuck my head out, Maddie threw one last rock, pelting me in the forehead.

"Oh shit," she said as they all broke out into giggles. Alec was holding a large square bottle and Ben was smoking a joint.

I rubbed the spot where I was hit. "What's up? And keep it down, parents are sleeping."

"Come out and play, Jessie!" Dan said in an exaggerated whisper, blowing out smoke as he spoke.

"Yes! 'Tis a beautiful night!" Maddie said loudly, resulting in various shh's from the guys.

"Okay, okay. I'll be down in a few minutes. Just be quiet, okay?" I didn't even wait for a reply as I shut the window. Wouldn't have mattered anyways. They were so out of it. I'm surprised that they even came to get me.

But I was awake now so there was no point in not going. 

After changing clothes, I tiptoed into the hallway, slowly shutting my door behind me. I crept down the stairs, pausing every time one creaked. I put on my black Converse high tops and went out the front door.

Maddie was twirling around, her white sundress trailing after her. The others where on the ground grinning stupidly. When I came outside, Maddie ran at me and jumped into the air, throwing her arms and legs around me. I automatically put my hands on her thighs. Good thing she was drunk and it was dark since I'm sure I was red in the face.

"Jessie! I've missed you!" She said, planting a wet, sloppy kiss on my cheek.

"That's great. Can you get off me now?"

She smiled and let go. She staggered and fell, giggling as she hit the ground.

I pulled her up and helped her towards the guys. "So what's going on?"

The only response I got was a half-empty bottle shoved at my abdomen. I grabbed it by the neck and took a long swig, wincing slightly as the amber liquid went down.

Alec and Robbie both stood up.

"My ma's probably passed the fuck out. I gots more shit at my place so les go," Alec slurred, throwing his arm up. He dropped his arm around my shoulders and we led the way down the street to his house. We passed the bottle around as we walked and eventually finished the rest. When we reached Alec's house, Alec took the empty bottle and threw it down the street. Crash!

We all piled into the front door of Alec's house, not really caring about the noise. As we tumbled noisily down the stairs into the basement, Alec put a finger to his mouth. "Shhh! Parents are sleeping. We can't let them wake up and and be grumpy now can we?" He said in a mocking voice.

By this time I was fairly tipsy so I didn't even care that he was making fun of me. 

Ben and Robbie were sprawled out on the white leather couch in the middle, I was on a matching recliner on the left, and Alec was getting close to an uncomfortable looking Maddie directly in front of me on the love seat. He had his arm slung around her shoulders, his hand dangerously close to her right breast. She just kept her eyes on the floor.

I could feel the anger heat up my insides. I knew that Maddie and Alec slept together a few times. They weren't dating but that didn't make me feel better. Alec used her to fulfill his lustful urges. At first, I suspected Maddie did the same but sometimes she seemed afraid of Alec.

I felt a bump on my arm and looked over to see Robbie handing me a glass pipe and a lighter. I brought the mouth piece to my lips and lit the bowl, closing my eyes as I inhaled. I leaned over and passed the pipe to Alec, blowing smoke out as I did so. He removed his arm from Maddie to light up. After three selfish hits, he handed the pipe to Maddie.

Licking her lips, she brought the pipe to her mouth, blue eyes holding my green eyes. I felt a fresher kind of heat rush down my stomach to linger between my legs. My heart began beating faster and my face flushed. I knew this feeling well for it was the same one I felt when she kissed my check, when she flirted jokingly with me, and on the first day we met. It felt so good and yet it was painful for it reminded me that I was still in love with her.

Ben's giggles broke the connection and my feeling. His laughter was contagious and we all burst out into our own stoner giggle.

"What are we laughing at?" I managed after a few minutes.

"Dude, I was thinking about Sponge Bob," Ben said, suddenly getting very serious. His seriousness made us geek out even more.

After about an hour of talking, laughing, and some more pot, Alec started up again with Maddie. He put his hand on her leg, slyly inching her dress up to caress her bare thigh. Swallowing hard, I looked away, just barely missing the lust filled look he gave Maddie. Silently, they stood and walked towards the back of the basement where Alec's room was. I looked up to see Alec walking with a drunken strut. Maddie walked solemnly behind him.

"Fuck," Dan sighed. "That was awkward."

Robbie was already passed out with a bottle between his legs. He slumped against Dan, who groaned in protest and shoved him towards the floor. He landed with a soft thud and let out a loud snore.

"I don't know bout you, but I'm goin to bed. Fuck this, and fuck them."

Dan nodded and leaned his head back. "I hate when they do this. Leave us here, half-dazed and whatnot."

I barely heard him before my mind when dark.

I woke up to blinding light and the sound of a woman yelling upstairs. And I was drooling. 

Groaning, I wiped my cheek of the excess spit and squinted around the bright basement. Robbie was still on the floor, Dan was stretched out on the couch, and there was no sign of Maddie or Alec.

I stood up, felt queasy and plopped back down. Too soon for movement. My head was thumping, mouth was dry, and I just generally felt like shit. It also seemed I was the first one awake, besides the banshee upstairs.

From what I could hear, Alec's mother was having a screaming match with his father over the phone. Once all was quiet upstairs, I stood up successfully and made my way up the stairs and into the kitchen.

Alec's mom sitting at the counter, blond head resting on her arms. She didn't look up when I walked in so I just crept to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water.

I hated being alone with her. She would give me this certain look that I couldn't read. It made me feel very uneasy. The fact that I was totally attracted to her also didn't help.

I heard movement and turned to see her looking at me.

"Good morning, Jessie," she said with a weak smile.

"Mornin', Mrs. Masters."

She shook her head and the smile got bigger. "How many times have I told you? Call me Barbie."

The name Barbie suited her well. She was a total MILF, the trophy wife of a rich executive. She use to be a model and as a result she had a perfectly toned body, perfect white teeth, and perfect natural tits. She was also addicted to sleeping pills. From what Maddie had told me, things were not well between Barbie and her husband, Jack. I had never met him because he did a lot of business and pleasure travel. From what I had heard, he loved hookers and cocaine and had major trust issues because of it. The Masters use to live in Boston but Jack believed Barbie was cheating on him with everybody so he moved them to a small Wisconsin town.

Barbie stood up and went to a cabinet. She pulled out a bottle of aspirin and handed two pills to me. I took them and gave her a forced smile. "Thanks."

She nodded and sat back down. "You seemed like you needed it. Rough night?"

I leaned against the counter and nodded while giving her a quick look over. She was wearing a white stretchy tank top, pajama bottoms with ducks on them, and clearly no bra. Not that she needed one, her boobs were incredibly perky.

I looked down at the water bottle in my hands and when I looked back at her, she was giving me that look. It was the sort of look that made my heart beat faster and caused my mouth to go dry. She was biting her lower lip and looking at me with a sort of fiery hunger in her eyes. She looked away quickly but her expression was forever in my memory.

I was starting to get the feeling that maybe Barbie wanted me. "Thanks for the aspirin. I'm going to check if any of the others are awake." I headed for the basement without waiting for a reply. I paused for a moment in the stairwell to close my eyes and catch my breath. Crazy, I was going crazy! I had never been looked at like a piece of meat before but the thought of the lust in Barbie's eyes sent shivers down my spine.

Maddie was sitting in the recliner waiting for me. Alec was no where in sight and the other two boys were still asleep. She looked up at me and gave me the same weak smile that Barbie had given me.

"Hey," she whispered.

"Hey yourself."

"Umm...will you walk me home?"

I nodded and led the way back upstairs. Barbie was gone so we let ourselves out. We walked in silence, passing my water bottle back and forth.

"So, did I miss anything?" She said after a while.

I shook my head. "Nah, we all fell asleep once you guys left."

"Oh..."

She reached over and took my hand. I told myself it was just a friend thing. I had seen her do it with her other girl friends so it was nothing out of the ordinary. But that didn't ease the fire burning inside me. I looked at her and smiled. She smiled back, her tired eyes lighting up. It was a genuine smile.

I walked her around the back of her house so she could sneak in.

"Hey Jessie?" Maddie asked as we stood there.

"What's up?"

"Are you mad at me for walking out on you guys?"

"No, why would I be mad?"

She smiled again. "Just wanted to make sure. I'll call you later ok?"

I nodded.

As I walked home, my mind was focused on that look she had given me in the basement. I couldn't make heads or tails of it. Maybe she noticed me staring? Maybe she wanted somebody to save her? Maybe she wasn't even looking at me but just beyond me? Maybe she wants me?

I thought that one through and shook my head. No. She's straight so she wouldn't be interested in me. I let out a sigh before quietly opening my front door. Thankfully, my parents were already at work. I made my way up to my room and threw myself onto my bed, falling asleep almost instantly.

A few hours later, I woke up to the inability to move my legs. And more drool. Gross.

Looking down, I noticed I had somehow managed to get tangled in my sheets and that I still had my shoes on.

My dad was fine with my sexuality. He grew up in California and his parents were hippies. People tell me that we are a lot alike. Same dirty blond hair, same smile, same taste in music. He was more laid back. I'm also pretty sure he smokes pot. We get along perfectly. My mother, on the other hand, grew up in the Wisconsin in a Catholic home. Her parents were homophobic, racist, and sexist. They were also wealthy and spoiled their children.

I never understood why my parents are together.

Tonight the topic of conversation for dinner was my "lifestyle."

"Jessica, I don't see why you wear boy clothing. You have all those pretty dresses and skirts I bought for you. Why can't you wear those? Do you really want to be like this when you go to college next year?"

I rolled my eyes and shoved more green beans into my mouth.

"Honey," my dad said in between bites of his steak. "Just let her be. She's unique. We should embrace that."

My mother sighed. "It just isn't right. A young lady dressing like a boy. When will you grow your hair out? You had such beautiful hair. But now you keep it short. When will you grow out of this phase?"

I stared at her in disbelief. "Phase? You think that this is a phase?"

"Yes and it's all because of the media. When I was younger, you never heard about gays because there were none."

My dad looked up at my mother with wide eyes, mouth open in shock. 

I threw my fork down and glared at her. "First of all, you are so close minded and uninformed and secondly, I am who I am and I am fucking proud of it!"

"Proud to be a freak?" She scoffed.

I could feel the acid building up in my eyes. "That's great. Call your own daughter a freak." I pushed back my chair and stomped outside, slamming the door behind me. 

I sat down under a big oak tree with my back against the cool bark, knees against my chest, head down. My body ached from lack of good sleep and too much drinking. I was already feeling depressed due to my confusion over Maddie and Barbie but the freak comment really crushed me. I wasn't sure what I would do. I didn't want to go back inside any time soon. She always disapproved of anything I did. Because of her, I second-guessed my entire life.

But what mother would call her own daughter a freak?

I could feel the warmth of the tears through my jeans but I couldn't stop crying. My mind was racing with everything: contempt for Alec, love and confusion for Maddie, the depression that follows a night of drinking and smoking, the feelings of hopelessness.

Alec. Why did she have to start hanging out with him? He was the biggest asshole in our school and most of it was directed at me. During our freshman year, when he had moved here, he would ram into me, knock my books down, throw things at me. The next year, he eased up a little but he would stare at me in class with this menacing smirk. Half way through the year, he started getting close to Maddie. Eventually, she intertwined my friendship with his and we all started hanging out together. Sometimes I felt like he resented my presence but he also knew that I came with the package. 

I remember Maddie said to me once that she didn't believe in getting really drunk. She thought it was totally pointless to not be able to remember what happened the night before. It wasn't until her parents got divorced that she started partying. That's when she met Alec and they started hanging out.

I never quite understood why they started hanging out in the first place. Alec was the a jock. He bought his clothes from the preppy stores, drove a BMW, and was into heavy partying. Maddie, on the other hand, did not fit into any category. She loved nature and animals. She would wear anything from long, flowing skirts to baggie purple jeans with a zip-up hoodie to tight jeans and a black tank top. No matter what she wore, she looked good.

I don't like drinking but I get pressured into it. I thought the same as Maddie, that it was pointless to drink excessively so sometimes I opt for just weed.

I will never forget the first time I drank with Alec. He shoved a bottle of vodka at me with a daring grin. I took one sip and coughed while Alec laughed, calling me a pussy.

They tell you in school what to do about peer pressure. Just say no is the big one. Not only does that not work but they don't tell you how to handle the curiosity that comes with the pressure. I wanted to try it. Hell, if other people are doing it, what's the harm? If I don't like it, I can stop but I will never know until I try. That's what life is about right? Adventures and trying new things.


Jessie's Attractions



I didn't like it. I didn't stop either. Maddie was drinking like a pro and I desperately wanted her approval.

That was over a year ago.

I closed my eyes and stretched my legs out as a gentle breeze floated by. I finally felt at peace here, eyes closed, sun warming my face, the feeling of moisture in the air. Soon enough, warm rain drops began falling from the still light sky.

I heard the grass crinkle and a soft whoomph as somebody sat down next to me. Sitting up, I squinted through my rain splattered glasses to see who was by me. She reached up and removed them for me. Maddie was smiling, wearing cutoff jeans and a pink tank top. She was cleaning my glasses with the stretchy material. After a quick inspection, she put them back on my face.

"Hey," she said softly.

"Hey yourself," I replied. I glanced down at her legs and noticed a bruise on her inner thigh. She pretended not to notice and poked me. She stood quickly and ran.

"Tag! You're it!"

I got up and chased her as the rain beat down on us. As I followed her around a tree, I managed to tag her on the back.

Scrambling on the slick surface, I turned and ran the opposite way but she was on my heels. 

With a smirk, she jumped into the air and tackled me. We rolled around on the ground for a few minutes before I let her pin me. We locked eyes and smiled sheepishly. She straightened up, leaving my arms pinned to my sides with her legs. I tried not to stare but I noticed two small nubs on her chest poking through the tight, wet t-shirt. 

She was about to say something but a loud beeping startled us both. She reached into her pocket and withdrew her cell phone, shielding it from the rain as she read the message. I could tell she was trying to hide her emotions but her eyes, which were once bright and happy, were now cold and hard.

"I have to go," she mumbled before getting off me. I nodded, sitting up. She gave me one of her weak smiles before walking towards Alec's house.

I stood and walked into my house. Thankfully, my mom was in the shower so I was able to go to my room without worrying about her bitching about my wet footprints.

I changed into dry clothes before laying down in bed. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't keep my mind off Maddie's body. I longed to see what was under her tank top, to feel her lips on mine, to make her feel good. My mind wandered with different scenarios of what could have happened had we not been interrupted as my hand moved down between my legs.

That night I had a dream that I was in school, sitting at a desk in the middle of the room surrounded by empty desks. There was a stern looking teacher hovering over me. Every now and then, she would hit me with a ruler.

"Don't you want to play with your friends? Well you can't! You freak! Finish your food and maybe you can go."

I tried eating my food but she kept hitting me. "No! That is not how proper ladies eat! You eat like a dyke. A dirty, dog dyke!"

I looked at the front of room and Maddie was standing in front of the chalk board, naked. Her face was twisted in disgusted. "Don't look at me you fucking lesbian! You are gross, a freak. I can't believe I was friends with you."

The teacher walked forward, backing her against the desk, and kissed her hard. One hand was between Maddie's legs and the other was on her breast. Maddie stared at me and licked her lips as the teacher kissed her neck. She smirked, face glowing with a sort of sick pleasure.

Gasping, I was gasping for air. I couldn't breathe. I felt claws digging into my chest as I quickly sat up. My cat let out are low growl before pouncing off her former bed. Turning over, I stared at my dark wall, not wanting to go back to sleep.

Shit, I thought, that was a fucked up dream. What could it mean? 

The next afternoon, I received a call from Maddie inviting me to come hang out at Alec's. I told her I didn't feel up to it but she begged and I gave in.

As I made my way down the stairs, I could see the back of Maddie's head in the loveseat next to Alec's. I took my place in the armchair across from her. She was wearing a black tank top and a short red skirt with her legs crossed, hands in her lap.

Robbie and Ben weren't there yet but there was a lingering scent of pot. I slumped against the chair looked at them. Alec was staring at the phone in his lap eagerly, oblivious to me. He snatched it up when it finally buzzed. He read the message and bolted upstairs. Within a few minutes, a car pulled up and the door opened. Maddie hadn't noticed Alec's rush. Instead, she was staring at me.

"Hey," she said, slowly uncrossing her legs before re-crossing them. I managed to catch a glimpse of green lacey underwear and a familiar heat rushed between my legs.

"Hi," I responded.

"Alec smoked basically a whole bowl by himself and then tried to get me in bed. I'm fed up with him."

"Ok so do you want me to walk you home?"

She nodded and we both stood. I followed her upstairs and walked through the house towards the front door. As we passed the bathroom, I could hear the sound of sniffing but I thought nothing of it.

Time passed slowly. I walked down the road with my hands in my pockets, glancing at her every now and then. She stared ahead, biting her lip. When we reached her house, she sat down on the front porch. Her face was dark and unreadable in the fading light. I wasn't sure if I should stay or go when she finally spoke.

"Jessie...?" She said softly.

"Yes Maddie?" I moved a little to the side and watched the light from behind me play across her face. There were fresh tears on her face and more were coming.

I didn't know what to say or do.

Thankfully, she spoke first. "I don't know what I'm doing."

"What do you mean?" I asked, sitting next to her.

"My mom was giving me shit about my life today because I don't know what I want to go to college for. She says I have no direction and that it's all my deadbeat dad's fault. I wish I could have lived with him." She sighed. I remember when her parents got divorced two years ago. It was brutal with lots of accusations and name calling. Her mom had won custody. "She's so fucking bitter. I think she's jealous because she knows that I will never love her as much as my dad. So I went to Alec's cause he said he had some good shit but the dick smoked most of the bowl before I got there."

She looked at me and smiled, wiping her eyes. "Ugg, look at me. Unloading all of this on you."

"No it's ok. That's what friends are for, right?" I said, smiling.

She rested her head on my shoulder. "Right."

She was quiet for a moment. "I do know what I want to do. I want to be a veterinarian but if I told her that, she would make fun of me. She's never encouraged me. And then she wonders why I never tell her anything."

"I believe in you. You're so smart."

"Really?" She looked at me.

"Yeah. You are going to take advanced biology, aren't you?"

"Yeah," she said, her face brightening. "Thanks, Jessie. I'm so glad I have you as a friend."

I just smiled. Yep, just a friend and that's all I'll ever be.

"Well, I better get going," I said. 

"Ok," she said, slightly disappointed. "Want to get together tomorrow? Just us?"

I stood and gave her a weak smile. "Sure. What time?"

"Wanna meet me here at like six?"

I nodded. "See ya then."

She stood and wrapped her arms around me. I hugged her back, trying not to get too close but she pulled our bodies together. "Thanks again, Jessie."

"You're welcome."

We released each other and smiled. She turned and walked inside and I checked out her ass.

Maddie was waiting for me on her front porch. She was biting her lip and looking down.

As I approached her, she looked up at me and I noticed that her dark hair was streaked with dark red. She jumped to her feet and grabbed my hand, pulling me fast down her driveway. She led me through a small cornfield towards an area where new houses were being built. Once we were back on the road, she slowed down and dropped my hand.

"Sorry about the rush. Kate dyed my hair this morning and my mom was not too thrilled. But I don't care, I like it." She smiled at me. "What do you think?"

"I like it." I thought she looked so sexy.

"Just like?"

I shrugged, not looking at her.

There was nobody living in this subdivision yet and all the builders had gone home. We were completely alone. Maddie took my hand again and led me into an unfinished house. We walked into the basement and Maddie turned on the temporary light. There was a card table pushed against the grey brick wall. There were two folding chairs at the either end of the table.

Maddie turned towards me and smiled wickedly. She pulled out a pack of Camel cigarettes. She removed one and placed it between her lips. The end was folded to hold in the contents.

She fished a lighter out of her pocket and lit the end, inhaling deeply. I sat in the other chair and she passed it to me before resting her head against the wall, smiling happily. She blew out the smoke and looked at me through half-lidded eyes, licking her lips. She looked so calm, so beautiful.

I brought the end to my lips and took a long drag. I held the smoke in as long as I could, blowing it out before I could give into the cough. "Oh you clever, clever girl!" Despite various efforts from me and Ben, we could not teach Maddie to roll a decent joint. Maddie, the smart cookie that she is, had taken all the tobacco out of a cigarette and replace it all with weed.

"I did two of them and it took me almost an hour," she said, taking the joint back.

We passed it back and forth until it burned down to the filter and the room was filled with smoke.

"You know something? We've never hung out like this before. I mean, we've like, hung out, but never got high, just the two of us. I like this."

"Yeah," was all I could manage. My mouth was amazingly dry. I tried to stand up, why I wasn't sure, but the floor tilted sending me back to the chair. "Shit, I overbalanced."

Maddie was watching me the entire time and she broke out into giggles. "Is that even a word?"

I thought about it for what felt like five minutes. "Dude, I have no idea. If it isn't, it should be."

Maddie continued to giggle and I followed suit. I felt so amazing, so peaceful.

We spent the rest of the evening keeping the basement smoky. I started to play music off my phone. When a Bob Marley song played over the tiny speakers, Maddie stood up and twirled around. I smiled watching her. She was so into it and looked so carefree.

She then took my hands and pulled me to my feet. "You are going to dance with me and I'm not taking no for an answer."

I tried to take my hands back but she held on. The next song that came on was by Phish and I was so baked that I just melted into the music. The two of us danced around like we were hippies at Woodstock. We finally collapsed onto the cold cement floor, out of breath and full of smiles.

"This is some good weed. I haven't felt this great in a long time." I looked over at Maddie. She was smiling but there was sadness in her eyes.

"Yeah me either actually." She locked eyes with me but a low buzzing quickly broke the connection. She pulled out her phone and read the message. "Fuck," she sighed. "It's already after nine. We should probably get going."

I nodded and stood up. The world was still a little hazy but I was definitely coming down. I grabbed my phone and followed Maddie out into the starry night.

"So pretty," she said walking with her eyes upwards.

I silently agreed, looking at her. 

We were silent again for most of the walk. Maddie was looking down, biting her bottom lip again. She looked like she really wanted to say something but she held back. She kicked at the dirt as we walked up her driveway.

"Thanks for sharing your weed with me. Fun shit." I had hoped that maybe if I said something first, she would finally say what was on her mind. Nope.

"You're welcome. I'll see you later." She gave me a hug and a forced smile before heading through her front door.

Walking home, I pondered what Maddie wanted to say. My worst fears came true when I got home. I signed onto Facebook and the first thing I saw was Maddie de Forrest is in a relationship with Alec Masters.

The next night, I got a call from Dan inviting me over to his house for a bonfire. I didn't really want to but I wanted to talk to Maddie. When I arrived, they were all sitting around the fire in the back. I looked at Maddie sitting in Alec's lap. Her black hair was flowing over her shoulders only the vanish against her black tank top. She was so beautiful. "Hey, I talk to you for a sec?" I said as nonchalantly as I could.

"Sure," she said and stood from Alec's crotch. I led her around the side of Dan's house, rehearsing what I would say to her: Maddie, Alec is not good for you, he is a selfish, manipulative, slimy douchewacker. He is no good for you and you deserve better.

"Maddie," I started. As I drew her into the light from the house, I noticed a dark puff around her beautiful blue eye. The contrast was startling. "I..." My words faltered in my mouth. She turned her head away in shame. That fucker! How could he do that!

"What did he do?" I asked through clenched teeth. She avoided my glare and looked down, her hair hiding her face. Taking a deep breath, I lifted her chin carefully and saw fear in her eyes. My expression softened. "What happened?"

"Nothing. Honestly. It was a mistake. He made up for it." She avoided looking into my eyes.

"Maddie...." She waved her hand, silencing me.

"He loves me, Jessie. He apologized and told me he loves me."

"Anybody who touches you like that doesn't love you! He doesn't deserve a wonderful, smart girl like you. Please tell me you don't believe him. Don't fall for it because it will happen again. He's a creep, a drugged up asshole." I could feel the anger building up inside of me.

"You don't understand," Maddie said, shaking her head. "It was an accident. He promised he would never do it again and I believe him."

"Why? Why do you believe him? Why do you stay with him? He doesn't love you!"

"Yes he does! You just don't understand our relationship. Besides," she hesitated, "I love him too."

I stared at her in disbelief. "No.."

"He is always there for me. He makes me happy." She gave me a weak smile. "I love him."

I clenched my teeth again, trying to control myself. He wasn't always there for her. I was. He treated her like dirt. I was really in love with her. Lately he was so coked up that he didn't give a shit. "Well I guess if he's always there for you, then you don't need me anymore." I turned and started to walk away.

"Jessie! No, please don't go..." She grabbed my arm. I looked at her face, her beautiful, hurt face. Her eyes were flowing with tears and filled with hurt. Swallowing hard, I made the hardest decision of my life and shook off her hand before I continued walking away. I tried to remain calm but my whole body was shaking. The tears were streaming down my face only to disappear on the dark road or to soak my shirt.

(Author's Note: I might add more here bur for now, this will have to do)

I was walking down a dark, endless corridor. I could hear a girl screaming from behind me. I wanted to turn and find the girl but there was something dark behind me. I sped up and turned left. I could feel it getting closer as the screams got louder. Suddenly, I was falling.

I awoke with jolt, feeling as though I had just fallen into my bed. From my nightstand my phone was shrieking at me to answer my fucking phone bitch. I grabbed it and stared at the letters, waiting for them to make sense.

It was Maddie. It was also 12:34 in the morning. It buzzed in my hand telling me that I had one missed call. Then it started shrieking again.

I answered it. "Hey, what's up?"

"Jessie, I need you."

I couldn't believe what I had just heard. We hadn't spoken in almost two weeks. "What?"

"Please, I need your help. Can you pick me up? Please I have nobody else and I'm scared."

"Yeah sure, where are you?"

"The first rest stop heading east on the freeway."

I sighed. That was almost an hour away. "Yeah, I'll be there as soon as I can."

"Thanks." We hung up.

Sighing, I got dressed and walked downstairs. My mother was in Michigan attending her uncle's funeral. My dad was in the middle of a real estate deal so he didn't go with. Since my dad is a very heavy sleeper, I didn't have to worry about making noise. Grabbing the keys off the rack, I headed to the car and drove towards the freeway.

I drove with the radio off, not really sure what was going on. There weren't many cars on the road and I sped most of the way there. It was almost two in the morning when I finally pulled into the rest stop. Maddie lifted her head as my headlights swept over her. She was sitting against the wall with her knees drawn to her chest. She stood and ran to my car.

"Go quickly in case he's on his way back," she said as she buckled her seat belt.

When her face hit the light I noticed a red handprint on her cheek. I took a deep breath and tried to focus on the road. I got on the freeway and headed home. My hands were gripping the steering wheel so tight that I had lost feeling in them. I loosened my grip and stared ahead of me. We were silent for most of the trip. I finally broke the silence. "Maddie, what the fuck happened?" I asked. 

She turned her head towards her window. "Alec woke me up at like eleven thirty and told me that I was going with him to a friends. I asked if we could go when it was light out." She sighed. "He went crazy. His eyes were bloodshot and he was freaking out. I couldn't understand a word he said. It was scary."

"And when did he hit you?" I tried not to sound angry but my words came out coldly.

"I told him that I should drive. He hasn't been sleeping well and he's been easily agitated. He said he was fine but I said that he wasn't and tried to take his keys. He.." Her voice quivered and she looked down at her hands. "He slapped me and said he didn't have time for my bullshit. I thought he loved me."

I wanted to say I told you so but she sounded so defeated that I didn't want to bring her down more.

"Could I stay at your house tonight?"

"Yeah. My mom's away and I'm sure my dad won't care."

Maddie was silent for a few moments before finally saying, "You were right Jessie, I should have listened to you. God I feel like such a fool." She was crying.

I didn't know what to say. I pulled into my driveway and just sat there staring at the windshield. I'm not very good at comforting.

"Oh my god!" Maddie grabbed my arm suddenly, her eyes wide. "All my stuff is Alec's. Purse, phone charger, house keys! Jessie, please come with me. I need my stuff and I don't feel safe going alone."

No, I really didn't want to. I looked her over. There were tears in her eyes and she looked so helpless in only Cookie Monster pajama bottoms and a baggy Metallica t-shirt.

Sighing, I started to get out of the car. "Yeah. Let's go quick."

She wiped her eyes and followed after me. We cut through some backyards and a small patch of woods. Thankfully the moon was bright and we could see our way through the trees.

"Do you know where his friend lived?" I asked, walking with my arms crossed to stay warm.

She shook her head. "He kept bitching about how far away he lived but didn't say where. If he didn't turn around, then we should be good."

"So how could he not have noticed you weren't there?"

She smiled softly at me. "I was laying across the backseat and I had a few pillows and a blanket so I made a body shape when he went into the bathroom and I hid."

"Smart. What about his mom?"

"Most of the time she swallows a healthy amount of pills and passes out."





Jessie's Attractions



As we approached hit backyard, I noticed a light on upstairs in, what I'm guessing, the master bedroom. "Are you sure she'll be out?" I pointed to the window.

She nodded. "She forgets to turn off the light a lot."

There were no cars in the driveway. Alec was still on the road, good. The back sliding door was unlocked so we walked inside. Everything was quiet.

"Stay up here, I'm going to go down alone," Maddie said before disappearing down the basement stairs.

I walked into the kitchen. The cordless kitchen phone was laying on the floor, broken. There was a creaking noise that came from upstairs. I walked towards the stairs and saw Alec's mother standing half way down. She was staring at me with a smile.

"Mmm well hello Jessie." She was wearing a short, red satin robe that was loosely tied. My mouth was dry so I just smiled nervously back at her. She walked towards me. I caught myself staring at her hard nipples so I looked down.

Her robe dropped and curled around her feet. I told myself not to look back up but I did anyways and gasped at my friend's fully nude mother.

She put her hand on her hip and posed. "Not bad looking for almost 42. I could still be a supermodel." She smiled. She was right. Her body looked amazing from her natural perky breasts to her tight stomach to her perfectly shaven snatch. I wondered for a second what it would be like to be between those luscious thighs. Upon realizing I was staring again, I turned away, swallowing hard. She seemed to not mind as she stepped closer. Taking my hand, she ran my finger between her breasts. "Yoga and regular exercise can do a lot for a body." I just stood there, too stunned to move, too embarrassed to look. I felt her smooth skin under my finger as she moved my finger down her trim stomach. "And not to mention good eating habits." 

Part of me was excited and the other part kept reminding me that she was married and the mother of my friend. I felt my legs go weak as she pressed against me, forcing me against the wall. "And just feel how tight I am," she purred in my ear, sliding my hand between her legs and moving it around. I heard footsteps and tried to pull away. "Mrs. Mas..." She silenced me with a kiss and I gave into her, working my finger in and out of her. She was so wet and surprisingly tight. She moaned into the kiss and bit my bottom lip as I slid a second finger in. Using my free hand, I cupped her breast and played with the small pink nipple.

There was a gasp that came from behind her. I opened my eyes to see Maddie staring at us with her hands over her mouth in shock. She turned and headed for the basement. I managed to pull away from Barbie and ran after Maddie.

"Maddie, wait!" I caught up to her at the bottom of the stairs. Grabbing her arm, I turned her towards me. "Please, let me explain." She refused to look at me but I could see the tears dropping. "She came on to me. She backed me against the wall and took my hand. I didn't want any part of it. Please do not tell Alec."

She wiped her eyes and nodded. "It was just a shock."

I sat down on the couch, resting my head in my hands. "That was fucking weird," I said, inhaling her scent from my hand. Oh god, she smelled so delicious. I started to breath heavily as I got turned on again. Maddie sat next to me and rubbed my back, thinking I was hyperventilating.

"We should go," I said quickly. "You know, in case Alec comes back." I stood up without looking at her. I didn't want her to see how horny I was.

She stood silently and grabbed her bag. I led the way out, glad to see Barbie was nowhere in sight. As we walked across the yard, I looked back at the window and there I saw Barbie smoking a joint. She was back in her robe. When she saw me, she smirked and flashed me. Then she blew me a smoke filled kiss before disappearing to the left. The light went off.

Not a word was said as we walked back to my house. I opened my house door for her and we walked up to my room.

Kicking off her clogs, Maddie sighed and sat down on my bed. "Well this has been an interesting night," she said with a smile. She took off her t-shirt to reveal a black tank top that showed off her midriff.

I sat in my computer chair. "Too fucking weird."

She rolled onto her stomach facing me. "You were into it, don't lie. How did it feel?"

"Not really," I lied. I couldn't let the girl I love know that finger fucking her boyfriend's mom was the hottest thing I had ever experienced. "And what is this? Twenty questions? Slumber party time?" I said with a grin.

She smirked and got up. "Yes it is and I'm going to give you a make over and do all that girly shit that you hate!" She gave me a spin in my chair.

"Very funny," I said, stopping myself. I was eye level with her boobs and her nipples were hard. She sat back on my bed, smirking. "Besides, I'm exhausted."

"So where am I sleeping?" She asked.

"You can sleep on the bed and I'm going to sleep on the floor."

"Are you sure I can have the bed? I don't mind sleeping on the floor." She got off the bed.

"No really, it's okay. I've got a sleeping bag. The bed is all yours." I smiled at her and went to my closet for the sleeping bag and an extra pillow. I set up my new bed and took off my shoes before crawling into the bag.

She shook her head at me. "Stubborn," she muttered playfully as she turned off the light. With help from the moonlight, I watched her take off her pajama pants. She had on light blue boy shorts that showed off her ass nicely. She got in between my sheets. "Thanks for everything, Jessie. I really appreciate it all."

"Your welcome. It's what friends do."

"Good night."

"Good night, Maddie." I took off my glasses and set them next to me.

I lay awake, thinking about Alec's mom. It seemed like a dream or a porn movie. I glanced at the bed to make sure Maddie wasn't facing my way before I ran my fingers under my nose. The scent reminded me that it was not a dream.

Then there was Maddie, who was in her underwear in my bed. I bit my lip to try and steady my breathing but I was only reminded of when Barbie bit me. That's when I heard it.

There was a soft moan that came from my bed. I turned towards the her, trying to make as little noise as possible but the sleeping bag crinkled. There was the sound of movement from the bed and I closed my eyes, pretending to be asleep. After a few minutes I heard another soft moan.

I opened my eyes and looked at the figure in my bed. The moon was shining directly on my bed and I could see Maddie moving under the sheets.

Holy fuck! Is there something in the air making people horny? Actually, I didn't care because Maddie was masturbating in my bed!

She sat up quietly, clutching the sheet to her body. I closed my eyes quickly and reopened them when I heard her lay back down. She had the sheet pulled down to just under her hips and her shirt was pulled up. Her pale body stood out against my navy blue sheets as the shadows danced across her naked torso. Her breasts were better then I had imagined. Her small, light brown nipples were rock hard. She was going back and forth between her nipples with one hand and her other hand was between her legs. Unfortunately, the sheet was blocking my view of that. Her head was pressed against the pillow and she was biting her lip. Every now and then, a small gasp or moan would break free.

She opened her eyes and stared at me. She didn't stop so I kept watching, figuring she couldn't see my eyes. She licked her lips slowly. It took all I had to control my breathing.

Her hips began to buck against her hand and she bit down on her lip again. Her eyes stayed on me until she finally threw her head back and gasped out loud, moaning as her body shook with orgasm. Once her body had calmed down, she brought the hand that had been pleasuring her to her mouth and licked her fingers. Holy shit! I wanted a taste so bad. She began to pull her shirt back down and I closed my eyes again as she sat up to adjust the blanket.

I could not believe what had just happened. I waited a few minutes before I turned over. I wanted to touch myself but knew I couldn't get away with it. I rolled onto my back and actually tried to sleep.

There was total silence before Maddie spoke softly, "Jessie, are you awake?"

I hesitated. "Hmm," I responded, trying to sound like I just woke up.

"Did I wake you?"

"Mmm? Oh uh no. I don't think so at least."

"Oh, I just had a nightmare," she paused. "Could I ask something else of you?"

"Yeah?"

"Could you get into bed with me? It's just that I...that I'm scared."

It was obvious she hadn't had a nightmare so I was very confused as to why she wanted me to get into bed.

"Umm, sure I guess." I crawled out of my cocoon and walked to the bed.

"Can you stay with me the rest of the night? This whole Alec freak out makes me nervous and I'm scared that he will figure out where I went and suddenly show up." She looked up at me. If I didn't know that she had just played with herself, her face would have given it away. Her eyes had a sort of dopey look and there was a smile lingering on her lips. I nodded and started to get under the sheets. She turned away from me and I got behind her. When she was very little, her mother, before she became a bitch, use to do this to help her sleep. When we were in sixth grade, she started getting horrible nightmares and when we would have sleepovers, she would ask me cuddle with her to help her fall asleep. Usually I wouldn't stay the whole night, just until she had fallen asleep.

I left a few inches of space between us initially but she grabbed my arm and pulled me close, tucking my arm around her. Our bodies were pressed against each other. I could feel the smooth skin on her stomach under my fingers.

There was no way I was going to get any sleep. Not only was Maddie pressing her almost naked ass against my crotch, but I could also smell her sweet nectar. It was driving me crazy.

Maddie, on the other hand, had fallen asleep fast. Her breathing was regular and she looked so beautiful in the low light, so peaceful. I moved my arm and she didn't stir. Very carefully, I peeled back the sheet to see her body. Her underwear had a yellow sun on the front as well as a large wet patch. I reached out as an impulse to touch it but I stopped myself and put the sheet back. No, the night had been fucked up enough without me violating my best friend.

I finally managed to doze off but I faded in and out of sleep.

I woke up feeling strange. I was on the very edge of my bed and somebody was next to me. Sitting up slowly, I shielded the light from eyes as I checked out the body next to me.

It was Maddie. It wasn't all a dream. I really had picked her up at a rest stop and I really did finger Barbie. But did Maddie really play with herself on my bed? I couldn't remember if that was real or not.

My movement woke Maddie up and she turned to look at me. First she looked confused and then she remembered. She blushed. "Hey," she said softly.

"Hey yourself. You took up most of the bed." I smiled and got up, picking my glasses off the floor.

"Sorry but your bed is way too small for two people. You could have slept closer to me. We both know it would mean nothing." To you at least, I thought. "I had this bizarre dream that you were making out with Alec's mom."

I just looked at her, dumbfounded.

"Oh my god!" she gasped, covering her mouth. "That really happened, didn't it? And it wasn't just that. You were going to town on her pretty much."

I sighed, sitting down in my computer chair and leaning back. "I'm not proud of it."

"I would be. She's hot."

"She's also married. Besides, when did you join my team?"

"That's not that I meant," she said quickly. "I just think she's like, the definition of hot moms. Doesn't mean I would do what you did."

"She trapped me."

"Why are you being so difficult about this? Why can't you just admit that you liked it? From what I saw, it looked like you were acting on your own accord."

"I feel guilty because I'm an accomplice to cheating. If her husband found out..."

Maddie silenced me. "He doesn't give a flying fuck. You know that he's never around and that he isn't so innocent. Besides, she's home by herself a lot and at her sexual peak."

"Why are you so defensive about her?"

"Jessie, I'm just trying to help you relax about it, to help you not feel guilty about liking it."

I smiled. "Thanks. I feel a little better." I didn't feel that guilty at all. I felt exhilarated.

She smiled back before getting out of the bed. She put on her pajama pants and headed towards the bathroom. While she was gone, my phone buzzed. I looked at the screen. There was text message from a number I didn't know.

Cum bak @ noon for lunch 2 finish wat was started ;)

-Barbie

Holy shit. Holy mother fucking shit!

Maddie walked in and saw me staring at my cell phone. "What's up?"

"I forgot that I was going to have lunch with some friends today," I said, eyes still locked on my phone.

"Sounds fun. Mind if I stick around here today?"

"No problem. My house is your house. I should probably start getting ready," I said quickly before Maddie could question me. I walked into the bathroom and locked the door. Was I really going to do this? Fuck yeah! I got undressed and turned on the water.

After my shower, I went into my room in just a towel. Maddie was downstairs so I was able to change into plaid cargo shorts, a white wife beater, and a red button up shirt. I spiked my hair and walked downstairs.

Maddie was eating cereal in her tank top and underwear in my living room with cartoons on. I shook my head smiling. "I didn't mean you should get this comfortable."

She looked at me. "Well, don't you look ravishing. Very dykey. I like it."

"Thanks. But do me a favor and don't let my dad see you like this. He should get home at around six-ish but I'll probably be back by then."

I walked out my front door and headed for Alec's house. On the way, I texted Barbie that I was on my way. As I entered the woods behind her house, I started to get really nervous. I hesitated mid-way through the trees. Pleasing an inexperienced teen my age was one thing but a 42 year-old former model? I knew I would regret it if I left so continued forward.

When I emerged on the other side, I saw Barbie lounging by the pool in a black bikini and sunglasses. I wasn't sure if she was awake or not. She didn't seem aware of me. I still had time to leave. Swallowing hard, I turned to make a quiet retreat.

There was the click of a lighter. "It's too late to go now."

As I stepped onto my front porch, my mind was trying to catch up. Everything happened so fast and yet it was after four. Barbie hadn't had sex in years and she was aching for somebody. Me.

I walked into my room and saw Maddie curled up on my bed. I had forgotten that she was here. She was shaking slightly and it took me a second to realize that she was crying. I shut the door behind me and she sat up suddenly. A wave of fear washed across her face but it was quickly replaced by relief.

Wiping her eyes, she stood up and walked to me. "Alec threatened to bust my head in. I'm really scared, Jessie. Do you mind if I stay here until your mom gets home?"

"Of course you can." I put my embraced her and she leaned into me, resting her head on my shoulder. She inhaled deeply before pulling away. Her expression was odd. She stuck her nose into my shoulder again and sniffed around. She turned my neck and sniffed before pulling away again.

"Oh my god!" she exclaimed upon her revelation. "You had sex! And I know that perfume, I just can't place it." I just stared at her in disbelief.

"And don't try to deny anything. You have a few hickeys on your neck and you look like you just fucked somebody." Maddie smirked. I went to the mirror and craned my neck. Shit. There were three red blotches on my lower neck. On the other side, there were scratches. I hadn't realized what she had done at the time.

Maddie walked up behind me and grabbed part of my shirt, smelling it some more. "Get off me. It was nobody you know." I was scared she would figure out that I spent the afternoon with Barbie and that she caused the marks on my neck. I tried getting away from her but she wouldn't let go of my shirt.

I was straining against her hold when she suddenly let go of me sending me flying to the floor. "Oh my God! That's the perfume Alec's mom wears!" She looked down at me. "Oh shit. I'm sorry, I didn't mean for you to fall." She pulled me to my feet and led me to the bed. I flopped face down and she sat in the space next to me.

"Well, you have to tell me about it."

I groaned into the pillow. She grabbed it from under my face and hit my back with it. "Stop acting like you didn't like it. You wouldn't have gone otherwise."

I sat up and looked at her. "Come on, you don't want to hear about it."

"Yes I do. I mean, I don't need to hear about all the juicy details." She said that last part quickly and her cheeks turned pink.

"Okay well Barbie texted me, inviting me over. I had gotten all the way to the backyard and I was about to chicken out but she noticed me. Then I heard the sound of a lighter followed by Barbie saying 'It's too late to go now.' When I turned around, she was standing in front of me, smoking a joint. She took my hand and we sat down. We smoked the joint and talked a little bit. Turns out, we have a lot in common. After some kissing and foreplay, we went swimming and then...well you know. After that we went inside to shower and did some more. We got dressed, ate lunch, smoked some more pot, and fooled around some more. You were right. She's lonely and horny and in need of some TLC."

Maddie had remained blank faced the entire time. "So are you in love now?"

"No. We actually discussed this. It's purely lust. Friends with benefits. Except nobody is suppose to know that we are friends, let alone fucking."

"Okay so you're her toy?" Whatever she was thinking, her expression gave no indication.

I shook my head. "No I'm not a toy. We have intelligent discussions and like the same music and shit like that. We enjoy each other's company."

"That sounds like a relationship."

"No, it just means we have something to do in between sex."