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Falling for Jessica

By: confused_girl



Once again, we're sitting here listening to the almost worst possible news. 

While Adrian wraps his arms around me, the doctor tells us, "there's other options such as adoption and even surrogacy."

I cried at the sound of those words. Knowing I would never have my own child destroyed me. I mean, this is something I dreamed of ever since I was a kid; get married, start a family.

Lost in my thoughts, Adrian tells me, "Its okay, that's great and everything will be great." 

I never seen him so sure of himself and couldn't help believe every word he said.

A week later, we were sitting at an adoption agency.

"Babe we've been here for over an hour." 

"Amina please be patient, these things take time." 

Okay but if we're here for another....."Mrs. and Mr. Brooks!", shouted the women behind the desk.

Together my husband and I stood and walked to the back office where we took our seats. Seconds later, we were greeted by an older woman. She took her seat and got straight to the point.

Hi, my name is Angie Clark and from my understanding you're here to possibly adopt and that's amazing. But there's one thing you should know about our agency.

"And what is that?" I asked. 

Clearing her throat before speaking, "Well there is a two year waiting list."

Trying to understand, Adrian asked, "Why is there such a long waiting list?"

Angie started to speak but I heard nothing. All I was thinking about is how I would never have the opportunity to raise a child and give him or her all the possible love there is to give.

Breaking my thoughts, I hear Adrian say, "This is total bullshit!" 

I looked at him and caught his eyes. They looked back at me with pain and defeat. I quickly grabbed his hand and told him, "This is not the end. We've come this far and I'm pretty sure there's many adoption agencies in California."

The pain and defeated look in his eyes faded and that sexy smile I love so much appeared on his face.

With that, we went home and called multiple agencies and they all said the same thing. By the end of the day we were tired, hungry, and horny. 

After eating, we ripped each other clothes to shreds, literally. It was the best sex we had in a while. Full of love, passion, and even anger from the day's stress. 

Right after, we fell asleep holding each other.

The next morning I woke up alone. I got out of the bed and slipped into my robe. I first walked into the kitchen, assuming Adrian would be there. I mean come on, he's a guy; they're always hungry. But to my surprise, he wasn't there.

I called out for him but no answer. I checked every room and still no sign of him. But then I remembered, I didn't check his office. 

I walked down the hall and to the left where his office was and there he was on the phone.

After a minute or so, he hung up the call and turned to me with a huge smile. 

"I have great news." 

"Well good morning to you too." I said sarcastically. 

"Sorry, good morning babe."

I smiled and asked, "So what is this about great news?"

"We're having a baby!!" 

I was excited and confused. "What are you talking about?" I asked.

"Well I talked to Dr. Craig and he said that we should definitely try surrogacy. And we are definitely going to do just that."

Okay, I'm a little upset that you made that decision without discussing it with me and plus, I'm not sure about surrogacy. 

"Babe, I'm sorry but what do we have to lose?" 

"You're right but how do we go about this?" I asked.

"Okay, Dr. Craig has made us an appointment to meet a possible candidate to be our surrogate so get your cute ass dressed."

I smiled and kissed him before leaving his office to wash up.

An hour later we were in the car on our way to meet the woman who'll possibly carry our future child.

The car was silent when Adrian spoke. "You're nervous, aren't you?" 

"How can you tell?" I asked. 

"Babe, you haven't been this quiet except for that time your parents caught us having sex senior year."

I laughed, "Yeah that was humiliating."

A minute later we pulled up to the hospital. Quickly entering the building, we took the elevator to the 5th floor and there was Dr. Craig. Beside him was this very young attractive women.

"Hi, my name is Jessica." 

Hi, nice to meet you. This is my wife, Amina and I'm Adrian.

"Nice to meet you as well." She said as she shook Adrian's hand and lastly, mine.

She held on to my hand a little longer than usual and there we were, just standing there like fools holding hands.

Finally, Dr. Craig spoke, "How about we take this to my office." Then we let go of each other's hand and walked to his office.

Oh my god, did I just stand there like an idiot holding her hand? She must think I'm mentally challenged. Oh god, why am I attracted to this woman? Well, I had to admit, she is beautiful.

Once again, lost in my thoughts, I forgot to take my seat. There I sat down before anyone noticed.

Dr. Craig started to speak, "Well as you all know, surrogacy is an arrangement in which a woman carries and delivers a child for an individual person or in your case, a couple."

"Yes." Spoke Adrian and I.

"Okay well, see how this works is that your surrogate will be artificially inseminated using Adrian's sperm. And although that all sounds simple, there's a lot of paper work involved. But before you start that process, I want you three to get to know each other. Ask as many questions as possible and we'll go from there." 

"Okay, I think I can take it from here Doc." Said Jessica.

"I'll let you guys discuss this in private." Said Dr. Craig as he left us alone.

Jessica began, "As you both know, I'm Jessica and I'm willing to be your surrogate. I know allowing someone to carry your child is a huge decision and I won't waste no time to tell you that I'm a very healthy person; physically and mentally. I'm intelligent and I love to help people however I can. I have no criminal records and I'm very wealthy so I'm definitely not doing this for money."

"But do you have any questions for me?" She asked.

Adrian and I looked at each other with a smile, reading each other's thought. 

"Maybe a few." I said. "Go on." Replied Jessica.

Okay so what do you do for a living? Are you really ready to carry a baby? And are you sure you want to be a surrogate?

"One question at a time babe, you don't want to scare her off." 

"It's okay. Let's see, I'm a criminal defense attorney and I've been thinking of helping someone have a child for a long time now so I'm absolutely positive I want to be your surrogate."

"Dr. Craig has told me so much about the two of you and I really want to help you guys."

After a hour or two later, we were all leaving the office. 

Saying our goodbyes, I excitingly grabbed Jessica and hugged her and thanked her. She wrapped her arms around me and told me we deserved it.

I smiled and we both pulled away. It took everything to ignore my newfound attraction to this woman.

"C'mon babe, it's getting late." Said Adrian. 

Again we said our goodbyes and parted ways.

A week later I was sitting in a room with Jessica's legs spread and propped up. 

"Adrian says he can't make it, he's stuck in a meeting." 

"That's okay, it's just us girls." 

We both smiled.

Soon the doctor appeared. Putting on his gloves, he asked, "Are you nervous?"

"Yes." We both spoke then laughed. "Sorry, you were talking to her." I stated. 

"That's okay, I can see how you would be nervous too."

Quickly, Jessica grabbed my hand and asked, "Would you hold my hand?" "Of course." I said.

After several minutes, the doctor said, "Now I want you to keep your legs propped up and stay still for 30 minutes or so."

During those 30 minutes, Jessica and I talked a bit.

"So I know it's kind of late to ask but why did you want to become a surrogate?"

She was quiet for a few seconds and then she spoke. When I was a kid, my aunt was happily married and she wanted to start a family. But after trying for years, she was told that she had a three percent chance of conceiving.

That didn't stop my aunt. She tried every method there is to conceive but no luck. Then there was adoption. 

She was optimistic that she'll have a child one way or another.

After waiting a year to actually be able to adopt a child, something went wrong.

"What happened?" I asked.

Well she got so caught up in trying to have a baby, she forgot to be a wife. Eventually, they filed for a divorce.

Still, she wanted to adopt but a soon to be divorcee was no longer a good candidate for adoption. That crushed her.

Lastly, there was surrogacy. Again, she was excited at the thought of getting the kid she always dreamed of.

"So did she find a surrogate?" I asked.

Jessica smiled weakly. Yes but as soon as they agreed and set up a meeting to sign paper work, the woman never showed up.

My aunt tried to get in touch but eventually gave up. Soon she became depressed and sick. A year later, she committed suicide.

A tear rolled from Jessica's eye and I held her hand. "I'm so sorry." I said sympathetically. 

Her sad face turned into a smile. "Well that's my story of why I wanted to become a surrogate." She said dramatically. 

We both laughed and then came the doctor.

"What's the joke, I want to laugh too." Said the doctor. "Nothing." Laughed Jessica and I. "Fine don't share." He joked.

He then gave us a little information on how the whole process will work. 

"These things usually take up to two weeks to see if the treatment worked so I want to see you guys then."

"Yes doctor." We both said with huge smiles. 

After Jessica got dressed I asked,"Do you need a ride?"

"Yes, I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to drive after the procedure so I caught a taxi here." She said.

The two minute walk to my car was silent. 

Once we go to my car, I opened up her door. Due to the small space we had, Jessica squeezed pass me, brushing her entire body against mine.

"Thank you." She said. For a second, I lost my breath. 

She noticed and asked if I was okay. "Yeah, of course." I said as I walked around to get in the car.

Finally in the car, Jessica grabbed my hand and looked me straight in the eye and said, "You're beautiful, smart, and loving and you're going to make a great mom."

"Thank you Jess, that really mean a lot to me." I said. "Wow no ones called me Jess since I was a kid, I like that."

"I like you too, I mean I like it too...I didn't mean that", I blabbered on. 

"It's okay, I know what you meant." She said. 

"Cool." I said awkwardly.

On our way to her house, I noticed a ring on her finger. 

"You're married?"

She looked confused to why I asked and realized her ring. 

"Oh, no I'm not married."

"And why not, you're drop dead gorgeous with the perfect body and smile. You're smart, great personality and you're not that much of a bad person." I joked.

She laughed and said, "I just haven't found the right person and plus it's not legal yet." "What do you mean...." I started to say before realizing what she meant.

"Yes, I'm gay." She stated. 

"That's cool." I tried to say nonchalantly. 

"Are you okay with that?" 

"Of course, why wouldn't I be okay with your sexuality?"

We were quiet for a few minutes when I decided to make conversation.

"So what's your type?" 

Although taken by surprise, she answered, "I don't really have a type, I just go by the connection I feel between the person and myself."

She continued nervously, "But if I had a type, it would probably be someone like you." 

I choked when she said that and tried to look unaffected by her words.

"Sorry, I've made you uncomfortable, right?" 

"No just the opposite...I'm flattered."

She smiled and we were now at her house.

"Thanks for bringing me home Amina. I really appreciate it." 

"No problem, I'll see you soon Jess." "See you."

30 minutes later I was home searching for Adrian. The house was empty so I called him on his cell.

"Hey babe, where are you?" "Hey, I'm stuck at work, I probably won't be home until midnight." 

"Okay well, I'm getting ready to go to sleep soon so goodnight." 

"Okay, goodnight babe, I love you." 

"I love you too." 

I got off the phone and made myself something quick to eat before heading to bed. 

I was now lying in bed trying to go to sleep but Jessica entered my every thought. It's weird because I never thought of a woman until I met her. I thought I was straight but this particular woman had left me wanting her in every way possible.

I was thinking of everything that attracted me to her. Her body was amazing, the most beautiful body I've ever seen. She was tall just like myself; about 5'9. 

She was slim but with curves in all the right places. Her breast were the same size as mine but hers seem to be more perky and full. I'm a 36C but hers look more like a D cup.

She have dark brown wavy hair and the sexiest pair of eyes. They're emerald green and they literally sparkle every time she smile.

Lastly, her lips. I can't begin to explain how adorable they are. They're the cutest small pink lips. I often find myself staring at them as she speaks.

Thinking about her was getting me worked up. I slowly began to run my fingers lightly against my stomach. I traced my fingers down to my panties and teased myself.

I found myself very wet and couldn't resist plunging my fingers deep into my pussy. Soon I was panting and moaning while my fingers frantically worked my pussy to a mind-blowing orgasm. I came harder than ever before while masturbating. 

After my body calmed and relaxed, I drifted into sleep.

The next morning, I woke up with a smile on my face. I was in a great mood so I decided to get up and cook breakfast before my hubby got up.

I made him sausages, bacon, eggs, and his favorite, cinnamon pancakes. Right after I was done cooking, Adrian walked into the kitchen.

"Good morning babe, you must be in a good mood this morning." 

"Well yes I am. I'm married to a handsome fella and we're finally going to start a family."

Adrian smiled, "So yesterday went good, I assume." 

"Yeah the doctor said everything was great and we just have to go back in two weeks to see if the treatment worked." 

"That's amazing, I can't believe we're finally going to have a baby." He said excitingly.

"Yeah and I also learned a little more about Jessica yesterday." 

"Oh yeah tell me something." He demanded playfully.

"Well for starters, she's a lesbian." 

"Awesome." Shouted Adrian, a little too excited. 

"What are you so excited about?"

"Oh nothing." He said mischievously. 

"You're sick." I said, knowing what he was thinking. 

He laughed and began eating.

Two weeks passed by unbelievably fast and we were all sitting there looking at an ultrasound. "There goes your baby." Said the doctor.

I began to cry and Adrian hugged me and whispered, "I know, it's finally happening. I can't believe it myself." I told him,"I love you so much.", before walking over to Jessica. 

I kissed her forehead and thanked her. 

"No, thank you."

"Now there's a few things I want to give you to get through this pregnancy." Said the doctor. He gave us a prescription for prenatal vitamins, a list of healthy foods to add to her diet and a list of good products that prevent stretch marks.

"Thank you." We all said at the same time. 

"You all are welcome and you're pretty much free to leave now." 

Adrian's phone rang and a second later he said, "I have to get back to work. I'll see you later babe, see you Jessica." 

"Bye." We both said.

"He's a workaholic." 

"Don't I know it but you know, I think I"ll leave the room and let you get dressed."

"You don't have to. I'm pretty sure you're going to see everything when I deliver the baby anyway."

"Yeah okay." I said nervously. 

She then turned around and her gown dropped. I gasped at the sight of her naked and thankfully she didn't hear me. 

I watched her as she put on her matching lace thong and bra. Next she put on her jeans and turned to face me.

"So do you work out or something?" 

"Yeah...Well sometimes." She answered while pulling her shirt over her head.

"Well I need to start working out, I'm so out of shape." 

"No you're not." She said while glancing over my body. In a soft and sexy tone, she said, "You know, you're body is beautiful Amina, really." 

I blushed and thanked her for the compliment. 

She smiled and stated that she was done getting dressed. I looked at her fully clothed now and said, "Let's go, shall we."

We walked to the elevators and soon enough we were at my car. I opened her door and she said, "You really don't have to do that, you know, that's not necessary."

"Sorry I just feel the need to take care of you. I mean, you are carrying my child." I said as I put my hand on her tummy.

She looked me in my eyes and said, "Right." Almost inaudibly. I slowly removed my hand, never taking my eyes off hers.

"We should get going." She said breathlessly. 

Snapping out of her spell, I said, "You're right." And walked over to my side to get into the car.

The car was silent on our way to her house so I decided to turn on the radio. Gravity by Sara Bareilles was on. 

"I love this song." We both said at the same time. We laughed and continued to listen to the song. By the time the song ended, we were pulling into her drive way.

Jessica hesitated before opening the door. 

"Would you like to come in and watch TV or talk?" 

"Yes, I would like that."

We both got out of the car and walked towards the house. She quickly opened the door and we walked into a palace-like home. 

"God, your house is huge." 

"Thank you, I'm thinking about buying something smaller though. This house is too big for me, alone."

"So what made you buy this huge house anyway?" 

"I didn't, my dad left it for me before he died of cancer. I was sixteen when he died." She said sadly.

"Sorry to hear that."

"It's okay, that was a long time ago." She said before showing the rest of the house.

After showing me the house, we took a seat on the sofa. 

"You wanna order some pizza and watch a movie?"

"Sounds fun."

"Okay I'll go order the pizza and you can find a movie for us to watch." 

A couple minutes passed by and Jessica joined me on the sofa. "Pizza will be here less than 20 minutes."

"Did you find a movie?" 

"Nope, still looking."

"Okay you keep looking, I'll get us something to drink. What do you want?"

"Water is fine."

She quickly disappeared into the kitchen only to reappear shortly with two glasses of water. 

"I have to use the bathroom." She said after placing the glasses on the table. 

As soon as she left, the doorbell rang.

"The money is on the table behind you." She shouted from upstairs.

I picked up the money and headed to the door to open it.

"Wow, you're hot!" Said the guy holding the pizza. 

"Um thanks, how much?" 

Snapping him out his (I assumed perverted) thoughts, "That'll be 12.59." He answered.

I handed him the money but he didn't hand me the pizza. 

"Look before I give you this pizza, you have to agree to go out with me." 

"Sorry, I'm married now can I have my pizza?"

"No." 

I was close to snapping at the guy when I felt Jessica's hand wrap around my waist. 

"Is everything okay baby?"

I instantly realized she was putting on a show to get rid of this guy.

"No he's refusing to give us our pizza." 

"Excuse me sir, what's your problem?" 

"So you're gay?" He asked, clearly ignoring Jessica's question. 

"Yes now can we have our pizza?" 

"Here, take it." He said in disgust and left.

"God, can you believe that guy?" Said Jessica as she closed the door behind us. 

"Thank you Jess." 

"No problem."


Falling for Jessica Ch. 02



Now I know what you all are thinking. Did I make a move on Jessica? 

Well, no I didn't but that doesn't mean it was easy resisting temptation. I mean, every feeling in my body intensified with the fact that her body was pressed against mine. And that smell of vanilla...it was intoxicating. I wanted to lick every inch of her body just to see if she tasted the same as her scent.

Eventually, my conscious kicked in and reminded me that I was married. I jumped out of the bed and went to the bathroom before I did something stupid.

"I have to use the bathroom." I said, quickly leaving the room.

I was now in the bathroom mirror telling myself over and over that I'm married and she's the surrogate. I was totally confused. I mean, was this one of god's sick and twisted tests? Have I already failed?

I then heard a knock on the door. "Are you okay in there?"

"Yeah, I'm just finishing up."

To my surprise, Jess open the door and walked in. She didn't say anything. She set on the counter and looked at me.

"Amina, you don't have to pretend that me being a lesbian and attracted to you isn't a problem. I can see that you're freaked out and I won't be offended if you want to sleep in one of the guest rooms."

I walked over to her and lean't in rather closely and began to speak. 

"Jess, how could you possibly think that? Like I said before, I have no problem with you being a lesbian or even you being attracted to me. And yes, I'm freaked out but the problem is that I'm attracted to you. Every second I'm with you, I fall deeper in love with you. I can't even be near you without wanting to rip your fucking clothes off. So trust me, you are not the problem. I am."

I then kissed her. And it wasn't just a peck on the lips. It was like my first time kissing someone I really loved. It was like the first time for everything.

The feel of her smooth lips gliding between mine was confirmation that I was really in love with this woman.

Our kiss deepened and she slipped her tongue in my mouth. I sucked it further into my mouth then gently bit on the bottom of her lip. 

She moaned and gently pushed me away, realizing what we both were doing.

"We can't do this." She said, breathlessly.

"I know, I know. I shouldn't have kissed you. I wasn't thinking straight. I'm sorry." I said panicking.

"Don't be sorry. I wanted to kiss you. I'm in love with you Amina but we can't do this. It isn't fair to anyone of us."

"I know."

That was all a few weeks ago. Jess and I agreed to spend less time together and only call when it's concerning the pregnancy; that didn't last. We thought it was the best idea but that didn't put an end to the way I feel about her.

We talked over the phone every other day. She often tell me about her morning sickness and her new daily routine since she took a leave of absence at work.

I tell her about new clients I took on and how "interesting" they were. I'm a massage therapist. I pretty much just go to my client's house and work from there. It's fun for me. I get to do something I love and make my own hours.

Jess and I talk about everything. We're really trying to work on a friendship.

She even asks about about Adrian and how things are going between us.

It's going good but of course he works a lot. He owns a construction company and he's working on expanding so it takes up a lot of his time. 

We've been together since we were seventeen. Although, we've known each other since elementary. Back then, he was a pain in my ass but something changed between us when we hit puberty. He was the first guy I allowed to touch me. I had never been so comfortable with a man. He was my first everything. 

I feel horrible because the way I felt about him is nothing compared to the way I feel about Jess. I've considered that maybe I get lonely when Adrian isn't around and Jessica is the easiest target to emotionally attach to. But even when I'm with Adrian, I still think of her.

I can't forget the way her lips felt against mine and how her body felt pressed tightly against me. It's impossible to forget.

"Hey babe. I got some good news and bad news." Said Adrian.

"Okay, tell me the good news first."

"I found another space I can use to help expand the company."

"Are you serious? That's great. You've been talking about this forever." I said excitingly.

"Yeah I know but the bad new is that I'll be gone for the weekend to New York."

"I'm proud of you babe but you're barely home as is and you're talking about leaving for a weekend out of state. That's great." I said sarcastically.

"I know but I promise when I get back I'll spend more time with you."

"Promise?"

"Pinky swear." He said.

I smiled. We've always pinky sweared since we were kids.

"Okay but what am I suppose to do alone for a whole weekend?"

"Spend time with Jessica. Make sure she's taking care of our baby." He said with his stern voice.

"Yes sir." I chuckled.

"So I leave in the morning. What do you want to do tonight?"

"Honestly, I just want to cuddle and watch some TV with you. Is that okay with you?"

"Of course."

We fell asleep cuddling.

The next morning, I woke up and Adrian was getting ready for his flight.

"Good morning babe. How did you sleep?"

"I slept good. You want me to take you to the airport?"

"No, I want you to relax babe."

"I know but I just...."

"You just what?"

"I kind of don't want you to leave, that's all."

"I'm going to miss you too. It's only a weekend. I'll be back Monday morning."

"I know."

"I have to get going so come over here and give your husband a kiss."

I smiled as I made my way over to him. He looked good in his suit.

We kissed while he grabbed my ass. "I'll be thinking about you." He said with a naughty smirk.

I laughed and called him a perv.

"I love you."

"I love you too, bye."

"Bye babe."

When Adrian left, I got in the shower. I was sad that he was gone. I think a part of me was sad because he wasn't here to motivate me. He didn't know it but him coming home every night was motivation to stay away from Jessica. 

Now that he's gone, I'm struggling with the fact that I want to go and be with her. In reality, we can only ever be friends.

I wasn't sure if I should call her to see if she was up to hanging out this weekend. I thought it would be too tempting but I called her after I got out of the shower.

"Hey Jess. Umm...do you want to hang out this weekend? Adrian is out of town for business and I thought it would be nice if we just spent time together."

"Yeah, that's cool. My aunt is coming over today. I want you to meet her if that's okay with you?"

"Are you kidding? I would love to meet your aunt. I'll be over there later. I only have one client today."

"Okay, I'll see you later."

"Bye."

I got off the phone and got ready for work. Today, work was a little difficult. My client was an ass. He was the cocky, arrogant type. During the entire massage, he constantly moved around as he argued on the phone with someone. I was never so happy to leave a client's house.

After that I went straight to Jess's house. When I got there, her aunt was already there. 

"Amina this is my aunt, Lorie. Aunt Lorie this is Amina."

"Hi, nice to meet you young lady." Said the older looking version of Jessica.

"Nice to meet you as well."

"I made dinner." Jess interrupted by guiding us to the kitchen.

"It smells great Jess."

"Have you had my niece's cooking Amina? She makes the best chicken alfredo."

"No, at least not yet." I said looking at Jess.

She smiled. "Well lucky for you two, that's exactly what I cooked. I know you love it aunt."

We all set at the table and began to eat and talk. 

"You're right, Jess can really cook. This is amazing."

"Thanks." Said Jess as she watched me eat her delicious food.

"So Amina, where are you from?"

"Oh please don't start interrogating her aunt."

"I just want to get to know her more. You are carrying a baby for her. Don't I have the right to ask a few questions?"

"It's okay. I'm from here, Long Beach, California."

"What do you do for a living?"

"I'm a massage therapist."

"Sounds interesting. So how was your childhood growing up?"

"I'm sorry Amina, my aunt here is a psychologist. She likes to pick people's brain."

I laughed and assured them both that it was okay.

"I grew up a pretty happy, healthy kid. Although, I was the only child. My parents made sure I was always socially involved with other kids. My parents are also still married. They moved to Florida when I went off to college. And that's about it."

"What about your husband?"

"Actually, we grew up together. We met in elementary school and we were always friends. We started dating our junior year in high school and got married right after college."

"What about his family?" She asked getting more interested with my life.

"Well he has a big family. He has two brothers and two sisters. They moved here when he was three years old. You see, his family is originally from Panama."

"That's great."

"Are you done interrogating her?"

"Again, I was not interrogating her. I just wanted to get to know her a little bit."

Jess and I laughed.

A few hours went by and we were now saying bye to her aunt.

"Your aunt is a handful."

"Yeah, tell me about it. She acts like she's my mother."

"Well, you two definitely look the part."

"Yeah, she's my mom's twin."

"Cool, so how was that growing?" I asked curiously.

"She thought about it before speaking. "It was great up until I was fifteen."

"What happen when you were fifteen?"

"I came out to my family and friends. Everyone accepted me, except my mom. My dad tried to keep us "together" but once he died, she stopped talking to me completely. My aunt, Lorie was more like my mom anyways."

"Wow." Was all I could say.

"C'mon lets play a game. I feel like I'm always giving you some sob story."

"Don't think that." I said.

"Want to play charades?" She asked, clearly hiding the pain she felt from the previous subject.

"Okay you start."

"Okay, you have to guess who I am. Stand up." She demanded.

She wrapped her arms around me and mocked, "I'm so scared of thunder. Who am I?" She laughed.

"That's definitely not me. From what I remember, I grabbed you like this." I demonstrated by gripping my hands firmly on her waist.

She looked at my hands and then into my eyes. We stood there looking at each other. I wanted to kiss those lips again but I decided to leave and go home.

"I have to go." I said, taking my hands off of her.

"Yeah, it's getting late."

"Do you want to spend the night over my house tomorrow?" I quickly regretted asking her that. It just slipped out.

"Umm yeah." She said a little hesitant by the idea.

We said our goodbyes and I went home.

When I got home, I panicked. How am I going to get through a night with her here, alone? God, why did I ask her to spend the night? I'm setting myself up for failure.

I tossed and turned all night. In the morning, I woke up and went for a run for the first time. I needed to do something to clear my mind.

Once I got back, I showered and found something quick to eat. I was half way upstairs when the doorbell ranged. I hurried back down the stairs and headed toward the door.

I opened the door and was shocked by what I saw. Well, I wasn't necessarily shocked. More like amazed.

"I'm sorry, Should I have called before coming over?" She asked nervously due to my reaction.

"No, sorry. You just look really pretty."

"Thanks, so do you."

"Sorry, come in." I said realizing she was still standing outside.

"Wow, your house is just as big as mine and you always give me so much crap about how big mine is."

"Okay, mine is not that big compared to yours and plus you're completely alone in that big palace of yours."

"Yeah Yeah." She said smiling at me.

"Here, let me take your bag." I said, grabbing the thick strap from her shoulder.

"Okay, umm...where's the bathroom?" She asked in a weird tone.

"It's upstairs. The first door on the right. Are you feeling okay?"

"I just feel a little nauseous." She said as she quickly made her way upstairs.

She disappeared up the stairs and I followed her to make sure she was okay. The bathroom door was cracked open and I made my way in.

She was vomiting and I rushed to her and pulled her hair back. When she stopped vomiting, she took a deep breath to recover.

"Being pregnant is fun." She said sarcastically.

"I can tell." I joked.

I then handed her a cup of mouth wash.

"Thanks."

"No problem." I said, rubbing her back for comfort.

"Better?" I asked.

"Yeah but I think I should go back home and rest. I didn't expect to get sick as soon as I got here."

"No, you can just rest here until you feel better. Mommy will take care of you." I joked.

"I guess I'm being the big baby this time."

"You're not being a baby. You're just pregnant with one. Plus, I kind of like you being the vulnerable one this time." I laughed.

"You're weird."

"I know. So do you think you can make it to the bed or do you need mommy to carry the little baby?"

"You wouldn't really carry me, would you?"

"I'll do whatever you want me to. If you want me to carry you, I will." I said, suddenly serious.

She looked at me for a minute and said, "That's okay, I can walk."

"Okay, follow me."

I walked her to the guest room.

"Here is your room. If you need anything else, just let me know." I said walking towards the door to leave.

"Amina?"

"Yeah?"

"Can you stay and talk to me until I fall asleep?"

"Yeah, of course."

We both climbed into bed. She was lying on her back, looking at the ceiling while I lie facing her.

"So what's your favorite thing to do?" I asked, trying to make conversation.

"I love horseback riding."

"Me too. I haven't been in a long time. We should go together sometime."

"Yeah, that'll be fun. What's your favorite color?" She asked.

"You're not going to believe me when I tell you."

"Try me."

"Okay...it's the color of your eyes."

She was now looking at me as I continued to speak. "Emerald green. It has always been my favorite color since I was a kid. I think it's the most beautiful color there is."

"Do you purposely try to make me blush?" She asked, looking tired by the second.

"No, I'm just being honest." I said, looking at her slowly fall asleep.

"You know what I like?"

"What's that?"

"Your dimples. They're so adorable." She smiled as she drifted off to sleep.

I watched her sleep. She looked so peaceful. I was afraid that if I moved, she would wake up so I just laid there, watching her until I fell asleep.

We slept for what seems like days. I woke up cuddling her. My arm was wrapped around her while she held my hand to her chest.

I kissed her neck and suddenly felt her heartbeat speed up.

"You're awake, aren't you?"

"Yeah, you kind of woke me up with that kiss." She said, turning to face me.

She was now even closer than before.

"How did you sleep?" I asked, trying to ignore the fact that she was super close.

"It was the best sleep I've gotten in a while."

"Good, how do you feel?"

Her stomach answered before she did with a loud growl. "Hungry, apparently."

We laughed.

"I guess I have to feed you, huh?"

"Yeah, that's usually how these things work. Number one rule is to always feed your guest."

"Well, c'mon. I'll cook you something."

"Woah...wait, can you cook?" She asked playfully.

"Yes and I'm insulted that you would even ask."

"Sorry, what are you cooking?"

"I don't know yet. I guess it'll be a surprise so you can't come in the kitchen until I'm done."

"Where am I suppose to go?"

"I don't care where you go in this house, as long as you don't enter the kitchen." I repeated as I went to get started on the food.

Once I was in the kitchen, I contemplated on what I was going to cook. Then an idea hit me and I began making dinner.

I was now done and preparing our plates when Jess comes walking in the kitchen.

"Sorry, I was bored."

"You're lucky I'm done." I laughed.

"Smells good. What are we having?"

"Parmesan crusted tilapia and mashed potatoes. And I threw in some broccoli. You need your veggies." I said like I was a mother talking to her child.

"Lucky for you, I like my veggies." She said childishly.

We laughed and talked. I always enjoy talking to her and getting to know more about her. She's a strong woman. She's been through a lot. 

I never thought it was possible to be deeply in love with someone and fall deeper every time I'm with that person. How deep can love really be? Then again, I guess love has no limits.

Jess and I finish eating and started washing the dishes. I dropped my fork and it slid under the refrigerator. 

I got down on my knees and bent over to get it when I heard Jess ask, "Is that a tattoo?"

"No." I said, quickly getting up off the floor.

"You liar. Let me see."

"No it's hideous."

"So why did you get it?"

"I got it when I was sixteen. I was mad at my mom because she wouldn't allow me to get one so I snuck out and got one anyway. I didn't want her to see it so I got it right above my ass."

"C'mon, let me see?" She asked, laughing at the story I just told her.

"Fine." I said, turning around so she could have a look.

She came up behind me and slowly pulled my shirt up slightly. She stuck her fingers in the waistband of my shorts and lowered my panties just enough to see the full tattoo.

"It's cute." She said as she ran her finger across the inked part of my ass. That really turned me on.

She then let go of my panties and they snapped back into place. The sound of that was my breaking point.

I turned around and kissed her. I could feel her briefly hesitate so I pushed her to the counter, never breaking the kiss.

She moaned so I slid my hand between her thighs and stuck two fingers deep in her pussy. I could feel her stop breathing and she held onto me tightly. 

I then looked at her. Her mouth was wide open, in shock from my bold behavior. She looked at me and I slowly slid my fingers out of her pussy.

The look on her face was intense and sexy. I pushed my fingers back in her as I watched her reaction. 

She took a deep breath and closed her eyes. I kissed her more softly this time. We played with each other's tongue while I played with her pussy.

She was wet from the moment I first stuck my fingers in her. Now she was dripping wet.

She started moaning louder when I began to rub her clit. 

I felt she was close to coming so I pulled down her shorts and panties, dropped to my knees and grabbed her ass, pulling her pussy to my hungry mouth. I licked and sucked on her clit like I've done it a million time before.

She came in my mouth. I then licked every inch of her pussy until she recovered from her orgasm. She tasted so good.

She pulled me up and pushed me into the stove. She turned me around so I wasn't facing her and dipped her hand down my panties. She took one finger and slid it into my pussy.

I gasped and she took her finger out. I watched her hand as it made its way to her mouth.

"You taste so fucking good." She said, after licking her finger clean.

I tried to turn around but she grabbed both of my hands and put them on each side of the stove.

"Stay still." She demanded in a sexy tone.

I smiled at the fact of how I quickly went from dominate to submissive.

Next, I felt her warm tongue on my neck as her hands roamed all over my body. She was teasing me.

"Lift your arms." She said, now taking off my shirt.

She ran her tongue down my back and kissed the rest of the way down to my tattoo. Now she was lowering my shorts.

At that moment, I stopped breathing.

Now my shorts were completely off. She grabbed my hips to turn me towards her.




Falling for Jessica Ch. 02



I was breathing again when I saw her on her knees, taking in the sight of my entire body. I got this tingling sensation between my thighs.

"God, your body is amazing." She said, looking into my eyes. 

I didn't reply. I couldn't. I was struck by the sight of her eyes, those lips and her body.

"Stay still." She demanded while pulling down my panties.

She then looked up at me as her mouth made its way to my pussy. Her whole mouth clapsed over my entire pussy. I shuddered, feeling how warm and wet her tongue was. 

That same tongue was now deep inside of me. I couldn't handle this feeling. I could no longer stay still. I was moaning and shaking involuntarily.

She grabbed my hips and ran her tongue up and down the length of my pussy. I was close when she started sucking on my clit. It felt so fucking good.

I came hard but she didn't stop. She stood and her fingers were now in me. We were kissing when I felt myself coming all over her hand.

I couldn't kiss her anymore. I couldn't do anything but scream and hold on to her while the most intense orgasm hit me.

It was over but I was still shaking. She gazed into my eyes while she slowly slid her fingers out of me. As she did this, tears formed in my eyes. It felt too good.

"I love you."

"I love you too Amina."

Now here I am, wondering. I can't help but think of how selfish I'm being. I mean was I really ready and willing to leave Adrian?



Falling for Jessica Ch. 03



"I don't think I can do this!" 

"You're doing fine, just push a little harder." The doctor said trying to calm Jess.

"C'mon Jess, you can do this. Just push, okay?"

She nodded quickly and started pushing harder as she screamed in pain. 

"Oooh my god! Is that the head?" Adrian dropped to the floor and passed out. 

I so didn't take him for the passing out type. I felt like I was in some sort of dramatic Lifetime flick. Here I was in the hospital with my husband spread across the floor, passed out. And the woman I'm in love with was having my husband and I baby. How did things get so complicated?

"Say hi to your baby boy!" The doctor was smiling as he presented us with the crying new born. I started crying along with the baby, my baby boy.

"Go on, hold him. You've waited nine months for this little guy."

I kissed Jess on the forehead and finally held my son for the first time. I can't explain the feeling. Holding your child for the first time is the best feeling ever. I was overwhelmed with emotions. One minute I was laughing and the next I was crying. Just staring at the tiny human being in my arms was amazingly unreal. I love him so much.

"I think it's your turn to hold him."

"Maybe you should wake Adrian first. I think he should hold him before I do."

"Are you kidding me? You've carried him for nine months, fair is fair." I handed her the baby.

"God he's so cute!"

"Look at his eyes."

"He has my eyes." Jess cried.

"He's your son too Jess."

"No, he's not. He's yours and Adrians."

"You will always be his birth mother but if you won't take that then I want you to be his godmother if that's alright with you. Please?"

"Sure, why not." Jess finally smiled and made my heart melt.

"What did I miss?" Adrian asked, getting off the floor as if he didn't just faint five minutes ago. It was funny seeing him get off the floor after the fall he took.

"You missed our son being born."

"Trust me, I saw enough."

"Here, you should hold him now." Said Jess.

Adrian grabbed our son and held him for the first time. He didn't stop smiling for one second. Jess and I sat there watching him talk to the little guy. I then glanced at Jess, she looked so happy but sad all at the same time. I wish I knew what she was thinking. Maybe she felt misplaced in everything that was going on.

I leant in and whispered in her ear, "I love you so much."

She exhaled as if she was holding her breath the entire time.

"Hey, what are you guys whispering about?"

"We're just discussing optional names for our son."

"Right! What are we naming him?"

I looked at Jess. "I think we should name him after your dad. You said you always wanted your first child to be named after him."

"But he's your...."

Adrian cut her off before she finished her sentence. "He's your son too. I mean look at him, he has your eyes. Amina is right, we should name him after your dad." 

I looked at Adrian in shock. I didn't expect him to understand right away why I wanted to name our son after Jess's dad. I guess he felt it was only right as well.

Jess nodded in agreement. A few tears ran down her cheek. She was so emotional that day, we all were.

"Then it's settled, his name is Anthony. It even starts with an "A" just like ours babe." Adrian pointed out. He was beyond excited and truthfully, I don't know if I've ever seen him that happy.

Eventually, we all grew tired. The nurses took Anthony for tests and monitoring. And we decided to leave and let Jess get her rest. For some reason, I felt like I was abandoning them both. I didn't want to leave but Adrian and Jess talked me into going home and getting some rest of my own.

The ride home was full of chatter. Once we got home, we were too excited to go right to sleep. We stayed up and talked about our son. I remember thinking we would never have the opportunity and now we have a son, crazy right?

That night I dreamt of Jessica all night. We were making love and she ran her tongue all over my neck as she brought me to orgasm after orgasm. I wished the dream was true but unfortunately ever since that day in the kitchen, we distanced ourselves for real this time. It really was the right thing to do but I couldn't stop dreaming of her every single night since then. I barely saw or talked to her unless we were all at a doctor's appointment together. It was hard but I realized I wasn't ready to leave my soon to be family. I didn't want to start a full-on affair and hurt her more than I already have. I think I'm cursed with loving her but I'm confused. How did I go all my life never being attracted to women and then she comes along and makes me fall in love with her. And why does loving her hurt so damn much?

"Wake up babe."

"Wh...what's wrong?"

"Nothing, everything is fine. But my car won't start so I need to take your car to work."

"But I want to go to the hospital today."

"I know, I can drop you off so get up and get ready. I have to be at work in a hour."

I quickly arose from bed and walked in the bathroom. I got undressed, tied my hair up, and hopped in the shower. Fifteen minutes later I got out feeling somewhat refreshed. I threw on a fitted green shirt and dark blue jeans.

"You ready?"

"Yeah." I was ready to leave but I couldn't help but noticed how large my boobs looked all of a sudden. They kind of took me by surprise.

"Okay let's hit the road."

Twenty minutes later we were at the hospital. "Get out." Adrian joked.

"A bit harsh, don't you think?"

"Just kidding. Love you, give me kiss." I kissed him and got out the car.

I was excited to be at the hospital. I walked happily all the way to the room and when I made my way inside, it was empty. At least that's how it appeared to be. I called out and heard Jess say that she was washing up.

"You need help?" I asked, trying my best not to sound like a perv.

"Umm no I'm fine."

"You don't sound fine. Look Jess, if you need help, I will help you. I won't do anything idiotic, I promise."

"Okay but don't laugh."

"Why would I laugh?" I asked walking into the bathroom. She was standing there naked. She didn't even look like she just gave birth less than 24 hours ago. Her body looked amazing.

"Because...I'm legitimately scared to wash between my legs."

I laughed a bit. "Do you want me to?"

She nodded yes. So I grabbed the rag out of her hand. "Wait...just...please be gentle, okay?"

"Of course."

I began washing her softly, making sure I was careful not to hurt her in any way. I tried not to look at her body in a sexual way but it was impossible. I couldn't get over the fact that she looked as if she didn't just have a baby. I looked up at her face and her eyes were closed while her hand held on to my shoulder.

"Am I hurting you?"

She opened her eyes and looked at me. "No, it feels good...but in a nonsexual way."

I smiled at the quick comment and finished washing her up. "All done!"

"Thank you Amina."

"No problem. I'll let you get dressed in your gown or are you being released today?"

"No. Doctor says I have to stay a bit longer but tomorrow they'll release me. And Anthony of course."

"That's great."

"Yeah."

We both kind of stood there stupidly and I left the bathroom before it got too awkward. I went to sit down in the chair next to the bed and picked up a magazine to read. I opened it with the intent of reading it but Jess's naked beautiful body clouded my thoughts. I didn't even hear her when she came in.

"Where's Adrian?"

"Work of course."

"He still been working a lot lately?"

"Yeah. Seems like more than usual now. But maybe having the baby at home will slow him down."

"I'm sure it will."

"Jess, can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"How is it possible that your body is like perfect after everything you just went through?"

"Oh my god I was thinking the same thing when I took off my gown in there. I was for sure I was going to have a fat pouch but I honestly don't know. I've read stories about women who don't gain weight right after child birth but I didn't think I was going to be one of them. I looked like a fat cow when I was pregnant."

"Don't be silly. You looked beautiful, you still do."

She smiled and thanked me for the compliment. "You look beautiful as well. God, what's up with your boobs? They're huge!"

I don't think she meant to say that last part out loud because she quickly covered her mouth in embarrassment. I can't lie, I wasn't expecting that to come out of her mouth but I just laughed at her blunt remark.

"I know, I noticed them this morning. I don't know what's going on. I thought maybe it was the shirt but I guess not."

We both were laughing and talking as if nothing ever changed between us. The attraction was still there but it seemed even stronger than before. It was undeniable and she was making me wet just by looking at her. I had to control myself and not let her see that she was effecting me in any way at all.

"You okay."

"Yeah, why?"

"Because you've been squirming around in your seat for the last five minutes now."

Damn! Well that certainly blew my cover.

"These damn seats are just so uncomfortable." I tried to lie my way out of the fact that I was turned on by her.

"Well come sit on the bed. There's enough room."

"Okay." I cringed my teeth. Being that close wasn't the best idea but I couldn't really say no after I just told her the seat was making me uncomfortable. I sat beside her and tried to get comfortable but in order to get comfortable I needed to scoot from the edge of the bed, which meant being even closer to Jess. Did I mention it wasn't a good idea?

"I have something to tell you Amina."

"Sure, go ahead."

She was quiet for a minute so I looked at her and waited for her to speak. "I'm thinking about moving soon. I was offered a job in Boston and I'm pretty sure I'm probably going to take it."

No words. I felt sick to my stomach. I ran into the bathroom and puked my guts out. I felt Jess behind me. She pulled my hair back and rubbed my back. Sounds familiar, right?

"Are you leaving because of me?" I asked, damn near in tears.

"No, it's a great opportunity, you know? Better pay and a new start."

"What if I didn't want you to leave?"

"Then I won't." I can tell she meant it.

"No, go. I'm being selfish. I want you to be happy and if moving to Boston makes you happy then I'm happy for you."

"You know, I'm going to miss you so much."

"I'm going to miss you too Jess."

We sat there on the floor hugging each other like she was leaving tomorrow. Maybe she was. I didn't dare ask her when she was leaving. I didn't want to know. It would hurt too much to know exactly when she would be gone.

"Hello?" One of the nurses was bringing Anthony back. Jess got off the floor and walked out to greet the nurse. I quickly rinsed my mouth and joined them. 

"Hello there. Just bringing this handsome little fellow back to you."

"Thanks. How is he?" I asked.

"He's great! We're going to run some more tests later on and tomorrow you guys can go free."

"Great!"

"Okay so I'll see you guys later. Let me know if you need anything."

"Okay, thanks."

Before she left the room she turned around and said, "Oh and let the little guy sleep in. Poor baby been up all night crying."

"Okay." Jess and I both said in unison. 

"He's even adorable when he's sleep." Said Jess.

"Yeah, he looks a lot like you. Look at his little nose and lips."

"I can't believe he got my eyes. It's very rare in my family to get green eyes. My great great grandfather had green eyes and after he passed away no one had green eyes until I came along."

"Well you are a rare one."

"I guess so is he."

We stood there in silence just looking at our baby boy. It was fascinating watching him and the little movements he made.

"Are you hungry?"

"Yeah I haven't ate yet."

"Me neither. I didn't have a chance to. Adrian had to use my car and drop me off here. He had to work."

"What's wrong with his car?"

"He said it wouldn't start."

"Oh."

"So what do you want to eat?"

"I don't know. I'll eat whatever you eat."

"I have the taste for Chinese food."

"But you don't have the car to pick it up."

"There's a Chinese place a block from here."

"How convenient." Jess said wickedly.

"I know right. You want your usual?"

"Yeah but with a side order of crab rangoon."

"Okay, I'll be back soon."

So I began making my way downtown, walking fast, faces pass and I'm home bound. Haha sorry I couldn't help myself. No seriously I started walking to the Chinese place when this guy pulled up beside me and started harassing me. 

"Oh baby you're so fucking hot. What's your name?" I ignored him. "You know, should let me eat your tight little pussy. I bet you would like that."

I continued to walk and ignore him. Soon he got the hint and sped off after calling me a stuck up bitch. Guys can be such assholes. I was glad this place wasn't too far. I made it there quickly, ordered our food and surprisingly got the food back just as fast. I made it back safely, thank god. There's so many weirdos out there.

"Took you long enough."

"Yeah right. That was the quickest fast food run ever."

"I know. I'm so ready to eat."

"Me too."

We sat there and ate like savages. The food was so delicious. 

"You are an animal." Said Jess.

"Look who's talking. You're the one with food on your mouth."

She wiped her face with a napkin. "Did I get it off?"

"Nope. Here, I got it." I grabbed the napkin and wiped her mouth.

I noticed Jess smiling and asked her what was funny.

"Nothing. You're just so cute when you're trying to take care of someone. That's how I know you're going to be great at this mom thing."

"Why thank you." We both laughed at my imitation of a southerner. 

Then Adrian came in the room. He had his hands behind his back like he was hiding something.

"Hey you guys."

"Hey what you got there?" I asked.

"Flowers for the beautiful ladies."

"Awww how sweet of you to think of both of us. I thought you didn't get off work until later."

"I did but I took the rest of the day off to be with you guys. Now where's my son?"

"He's sleeping."

"Oh so what you two been up to?"

"Nothing just talking and eating."

Adrian looked at the empty containers. "How did you get Chinese food?"

"She walked."

"Yeah, I walked."

I don't know why but Jess and I were acting so silly. I think we were just giddy and excited to be around each other.

"You too are so goofy. How long has he been sleeping?"

"He was sleeping when the nurse brought him back and that was about an hour ago, right?" I turned and asked Jess.

She nodded.

"I'm hungry. You think I have enough time to grab something to eat before he wakes up?"

"Yeah. Go ahead, I'll call you if he wakes while you're gone."

"Okay I'll be back in a minute." Adrian left Jess and I alone again.

I walked pass Jess over to the bed and sat down. She was standing there awkwardly looking at me. "Is something wrong?"

She looked down and spoke but I didn't hear her. "What?"

"I said I'm leaving next week."

Again I felt sick but this time I just sat there in silence.

"I'm sorry. I thought I should tell you. I love you so much Amina but being here with you, not being able to kiss you or touch you is too much for me." She walked over to me and lifted my chin so that I was looking at her.

"I thought you said you wasn't leaving because of me?"

"What I said earlier was the truth but right now, at this very moment...it's too much. I want you more than ever right now. I want to kiss you...but we've already fucked up once and I don't want that to happen again."

I got up and went to the bathroom. I sat there on the toilet seat, covered my face with my hands and cried. I wanted to hate her but I couldn't. I'm in love with her.

I heard her come in but I didn't uncover my face. She kneeled between my legs. I could feel her staring at me and next, I felt her wrap her arms around me. I gave in and hugged her back. She kissed my wet cheeks and let me go. She wiped my tears and looked at me for a second before planting a quick soft kiss on my lips. She got up to leave but I grabbed her wrist. I don't know why she thought it was okay to kiss me and walk away. I wanted more.

I got up and kissed her which began a full-on make out session. I missed her soft lips. I nibbled and sucked on them. She grabbed my breast tightly and I gasped in pain.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"It's okay they're just a little sensitive I guess."

She pulled down my shirt to kiss them but she stopped. "Why'd you stop?"

"Amina your nipples are leaking."

I looked down and she was right. I didn't know what was happening.

"I think you're pregnant."

"No! That's impossible. I can't get pregnant."

It was impossible, right?



Falling for Jessica Ch. 04



*****

I don't know where to start but all of a sudden reality is finally hitting me hard. I could actually be pregnant. I mean, after that day with Jess I never really entertained the idea of being pregnant. I know it's impossible, highly unlikely and just never going to happen for me but I can't deny this strong feeling of hope. Honestly, the only reason I'm thinking about this is because Jess convinced me (more like nagged) to visit my doctor. So here I was, making my way out of the parking garage, walking towards the hospital's main entrance. And if you're wondering, I haven't actually told Adrian or anyone else for that matter. I don't want everyone I know and love to be excited about something I know is not in the cards for me. I know that feeling all too well, besides, I already have my little munchkin. He's perfect and special in every imaginable way possible.

Now when I got to the office, I did the usual signing in then finding a seat in the waiting lounge. Fortunately, the wait wasn't drawn-out like most visits. My name was called after only one other patient. "Amina Brooks?" I heard the nurse but I sat there momentarily frozen in my seat, not moving for a few second. 

I found myself nervous. "It's not a big deal, I've done this before", I told myself. Though, I'm sure that was part of the problem. I'm so use to this; to hearing my name being called only to hear news I've heard a dozen times before. "Why am I putting myself through this again?" I thought.

"Hi, I'm Amina", I tried putting on my best smile. 

"Right this way Mrs. Brooks." I followed the short older woman to an empty room in the back. "Dr. Craig will be in shortly. Your gown is here so undress and I'll be out here if you need anything" 

"Actually, I'm not really here for a thorough check-up. I'm just here for a pregnancy test so is the gown necessary?"

"I'm not sure how Dr. Craig operate these day so it's possible that he might want to examine you first but you can wait and check with him if that makes you comfortable."

"Thanks I'll just wait for him." I smiled politely and began the wait. 

You know those extensive waiting periods that seem to only happen at the dentist or hospital? I can never understand why it takes so long to be seen. Don't get me wrong, I'm fully aware that there's other patients but the timing never seems to add up. Maybe I'm just impatient when it comes to these sort of things.

About seven minutes passed when I decided to lie back and try to relax. As I lie there I began to think about where my life was headed because at that point I had no idea. So many things have changed and I'm definitely one of them. I'm happy and grateful I've gotten everything I've ever wanted. I married my best friend, started a family I always wanted and we're both where we want to be in our careers but this thing with Jess is complicated. In reality, she's leaving and we're never going to be together but being aware of it doesn't give me any sense of control over how I feel about her. I wish I could somehow just look at her differently and see her as just a awesome new friend and only that. 

Fuck, I can't believe she's leaving this week and I don't even have the guts to ask her the exact date. I know I told her not to tell me but honestly, it's killing me not knowing when her final day is.

An additional five minutes passed with me lying there feeling sorry for myself so I sat up and looked through the many different pamphlets to take my mind off of Jess leaving. I started reading one pamphlet on the beginning stages of childbirth. Symptoms of pregnancy: tender, swollen breasts, nausea with or without vomiting. Well I definitely been experiencing a bit of both but that doesn't mean anything. My hormone levels are probably a little off that's all.

Two knocks on the door and my heart start pounding. "Hello Mrs. Brooks. How are you this morning or should I say afternoon?" He said, looking at his watch.

"I'm great." I said nervously.

"You've already had your annual check-up", he was looking over my file. "So what can I do for you today."

"I'm here for a pregnancy test."

"Well giving your situation, that's improbable. What makes you think you're pregnant?" 

Although he sound genuinely concerned and he asked politely, his words were like a smack in the face, reminding me I couldn't get pregnant. 

"Right, I know...I just", I stammered all over the place. "You see, for the past week I've noticed a change in my breast. There's been a bit of discharge and I've been occasionally vomiting. And I know it's not possible but I just want to be on the safe side and officially rule out pregnancy so I can get to the bottom of these symptoms I'm having."

"Those symptoms you're having could possibly be a change in your hormone levels."

"I was thinking the same thing." I felt like an idiot at that point because more than likely that was my problem.

"But we can do the test and see what's going on here", he smiled, reassuringly. "Shall we get started?"

I nodded, "Yes."

Within twenty minutes I was walking out of his office and there to meet me was Adrian, Jess and Anthony. I was shocked. "What are you guys doing here?" I solely looked upon Jess for a response.

"I'm sorry Amina I had to tell him. He should be here with you for something like this." Of course I wasn't mad at her, I could never be.

"So what happened back there babe?" His puppy dog eyes held so much hope, I couldn't help but smile.

"Well I am pregnant." I almost screamed.

A tear rolled down Adrian's cheek and he pulled me in for the biggest hug. "You hear that little man you're going to have yourself a little brother." Anthony cooed.

"It could be a girl!" Jess and I said at the exact same time.

"Or a sister." Adrian whispered to Anthony.

"Congrats I'm so happy for you Amina. Now you get to experience all the craziness that happens while you're pregnant. Come here and give me a hug."

"I can't believe this is happening." I said while hugging Jess. "I must be dreaming."

"Ouch!!" Jess pinched me. "What you do that for?"

"Nope you're awake."

I smiled as I stared at her for a few seconds too long, she looked so beautiful. "You're an asshole." I mouthed silently.

She stared back at me smiling just as hard. "Will you two get a room?" Adrian joked.

I turned red. "Well I think it's time to go before they put us out for standing around like idiots."

"Yeah I need to go home and finish packing."

"Oh thanks for the ride here Jessica. My car won't be out of the shop until tomorrow."

"No problem. I'll do anything for you two, especially this little guy here." She dropped to her knees to kiss Anthony in his car seat.

"So what day are you leaving?" Adrian asked.

Jess glanced at me before speaking, "I'm not sure what day exactly but I'll be gone this week for sure." I knew she was lying for my benefit. 

"We're going to miss you."

"I'm going to miss you guys too." She hugged both of us.

"I can come over tomorrow and help you pack. I'll bring Anthony so he can see how gigantic your place is."

"Yeah that'll be great." We all began walking towards the elevators.

We said bye to Jess and went our separate way once we got to the parking garage. "You're driving, I wanna sit in the back with Anthony."

"Babe he'll be fine back there by himself."

"I know, I just wanna look at him." I smiled at my little man while he grasped onto my finger tightly.

"Alright suit yourself." He said while pulling the car out of the parking garage.

I was having the best time playing and laughing with Anthony when Adrian blurted out, "Why didn't you tell me?"

I looked in the rearview mirror at him, knowingly. "I didn't think it was possible and I didn't want to tell you that I might be pregnant only to disappoint you when we found out it wasn't true.

"But you told Jessica? I'm your husband and whether or not you thought I would be disappointed or whatever, you should've told me."

"I'm sorry, I know I should've told you but I didn't tell Jess. She's the one that pointed out that I might be pregnant and convinced me to see Dr. Craig."

The expression on his face soften. "So was he as amazed as we are right now?"

"He said it was a miracle." I smiled thinking about Dr. Craig's reaction. "We both thought it was a mistake so I asked to redo the test."

"I can't believe it. One week after we have Anthony you find out you're pregnant. I'm so freaking happy babe, you have no idea."

"Trust me, I do. I saw you tear up when I told you."

"I did not tear up. Something flew in my eye."

"Oh of course macho man." We both laughed and I looked down to a sleeping baby. "You see, he's sleep now but we're going to pay for this at about 3 am."

"Nope, you're going to pay for it because I'll be sound asleep. I got work in the morning."

"That can't always be your excuse buddy. Soon enough you'll have to get use to waking up in all hours of the night."

"Never!"

"You're such a kid." I swatted the back of his head.

"Hey I'm driving here but speaking of kids, how far along are you?"

"I'm six weeks."

"Seriously? You've been pregnant for six weeks and we had no clue."

"I know, that was my reaction."

"I'm so happy at this point I think I could actually tolerate that annoying Pharrell song."

"I'm happy but that's going way too far. I actually liked that song but they played it entirely too much. It just got to the point where they barely play it anymore, which is good."

"You're right", he laughed as we pulled up in the driveway. I unstrapped the car seat and grabbed Anthony, making sure I don't wake him and Adrian grabbed the diaper bag.

Once in the house, I began preparing dinner right away while Adrian put Anthony in his crib. "Can I help with something?" He came walking into the kitchen. 

"Yeah can you hand me the carrots out of the fridge?"

"Sure babe."

"You okay?" I looked at Adrian strangely. 

"Yeah of course, why?"

"You're being weird."

"I just don't know what to do with myself right now", he smiled. "I just really wanna go outside and scream to everyone that my wife is pregnant. How are you so calm and normal right now."

"Oh my god, you have no idea", my calm exterior came crashing down, "how badly I want to do the same. I've been trying hard to keep my shit together." I ran over to hug him and out of no where I started bawling my eyes out while he held me tight.

"I love you so much Amina. You, Anthony and this little person in here", he smiled as he rubbed my stomach. "I don't know what I would do without you guys in my life."

I hugged him tighter and cried a little harder from hearing him speak the words every wife should be happy to hear. A part of me was crying out of pure joy and the other part was because I knew he loved me so much more than I loved him.

That night I held on tight to Adrian and I found comfort in holding someone that I knew was really there and not a figment of my imagination. Lately, things in my life don't seem to be real anymore, almost as if I woke up one day in love with someone that wasn't my husband, a woman who gave birth to my child and then I get unexpectant news that I'm pregnant when I couldn't even conceive. Things I thought would never occur have done just that. I look at life differently now because it has the most strangest way of operating.

I slept peacefully that night except for the two times I got up to feed and change the baby. Adrian was serious when he said he'd be sound asleep. I'm not sure if he simply was in deep slumber, allowing him to hear nothing but he didn't move one muscle when the baby monitor went off. 

*****

The next morning, I woke up and showered while Adrian fed, bathed and clothed Anthony. After I was done getting ready, Adrian took his shower and prepared himself for work. Once we were all ready to go, I drove Adrian to the shop to pick up his car. I waited in the car while he went inside. A few minutes later he pulled out the garage beside me in his clean silver Range Rover fully functioning. He got out to kissed me and Anthony bye before heading to work.

"I love you two, you three", he corrected himself. "I'll see y'all later."

"We love you, bye and have a good day at work."

"I will and tell Jessica I said hey."

"Will do." I said as I pulled off. 

Okay so driving over Jess's house always involves me preparing myself mentally and physically step by step before seeing her. When I'm around her my thinking gets compromised and my body involuntarily reacts to the sound of her voice, her smile, her eyes, her scent and overall presence so preparing is unquestionably required. 

First, I turn off the radio making sure I don't run into any of those sappy love songs. Secondly, I go over scenarios that could possibly take place then I try figuring out how I'll respond to them and avoid them. Last but not least, I tell myself that it's perfectly natural for my body to grow excited even if we're just discussing mundane things.

Yes, I know it seems to be a tad bit much but she does this to me. She drives me crazy without even being aware and that makes her even more irresistible.

Soon enough I was parked in the driveway calling her cell to tell her I was outside. I was getting out of the car when I heard the front door open and I looked up. She was standing there in grey sweatpants, a plain white tank top and her hair in a slightly messy ponytail. She still looked amazing.

"You need any help?" She shouted.

"No I'm fine." I moved to open the back door and kneeled down in the car to unbuckle the seat belt.

"I'll get his diaper bag." I heard from behind and instantly felt Jess pressed against my back as she reached in the back window to grab the bag. Just as quick, the warmth of her body was gone.

Shortly after we entered the house, Anthony started hollering at the top of his lungs.

"May I?"

"Yes of course."

As soon as Jess picks him up he stops. "Wow, he never just stop crying when I pick him up. I go through hell to calm him down. How are you doing this right now?"

"I have no clue. Maybe he knows awesomeness when he sees it." We laughed.

We both sat on the couch, Anthony being the center of our attention. I'm pretty sure we looked just as goofy as we sounded, making silly faces for his entertainment only. He giggled and smiled at us, making my entire day. 

"Why is he so freaking adorable?"

"I have a couple theories." I responded to the rhetorical question.

"Oh yeah?" She looked at me.

I nodded and quickly changed the subject, "He doesn't like being ignored so keep your eyes in his direction."

"Right, I definitely don't want him to feel ignored." She turned back to Anthony with a smirk on her face.

"So I told my mom and dad the good new." I said, trying to make conversation.

"I bet they were ecstatic."

"Yeah they're excited. My mom started crying, my dad still can't believe I'm all grown up and they're still trying to make it down here to see Anthony. I've offered to buy plane tickets but they won't accept. They promised to come soon though."

"What about thes?"

"They freaked when we told them. They're already picking out names as we speak. It's crazy."

"So how far along are you then?"

"Six weeks." I smiled, waiting for her reaction.

"Seriously? Oh now you have to thank me for making you go."

"Thank you so much for nagging me." I said and impulsively kissed her on the cheek.

"Well, Anthony and I will not accept your thank you because I did not nag you. Isn't that right little guy?"

I laughed at how silly she was being. "Okay okay thank you, I really do appreciate you giving me the extra push."

"Do we accept?" She whispered to Anthony as if they were actually having a discussion of their own.

"Okay we accept." 

"You're such a pain in the butt." 

She smiled knowingly. "So are you."

"Yeah right, hand him over." I reached out for Anthony and she puts him in my arms.

He instantly grab ahold of my finger and closes his eyes. Right before he falls asleep he grab my finger every time and it is by far the cutest thing he does. Don't make fun of me but when he does this, my heart literally melt and I can't take my eyes off of him as he's sleeping. 

"Here, why don't you lay him down." Jess got up and offered her spot. She grabbed a blanket from Anthony's bag, covered the area where she sat and I placed him down gently, making sure I didn't wake him.

"You know, he'll be fine so you don't have to watch him while he's sleeping."

I turned to see Jess with a wide grin on her face and I couldn't help but smile because I didn't realize I was watching him.

"So what am I helping you pack today?"

"Oh I've packed everything except my clothes." She turned, leading me to her room.

"Have you decided what to do with this huge palace?"

"No, I thought about selling it but it was a gift from my dad plus I'll visit, you know. I still have family here and I'd like to visit on holidays and see you guys if that's okay."

"Yeah, no of course", I stammered, "I'd love for you to visit us."

"Good." 

We sat there on her bed scrambling through tons of clothes, folding, packing and tossing clothes she could no longer fit into boxes labeled 'Donation.' I admire how giving she is, most people just toss away clothes and other things that could help someone less fortunate. 

"What else do you plan to donate? This is already so much stuff." I said, looking at the already full boxes.

"Honestly, I have so much I want to donate. I have things I've never even worn. I tend to spend my money on things I don't need and I always end up donating it. Sometimes I think my subconscious wants me to purchase this stuff just so I can donate it because most of this I know I'll never wear. And speaking of buying things I don't need." She got up and walked to her closet. "I bought this necklace the other day but I think it's meant for you to have." She presented me with a black jewelry box.

"I'm not accepting that, you've already done so much for me Jess."

"Shut up, I want you to have it. Just think of it as a going away gift."

"It doesn't work like that, you're going away so I should be the one giving gifts."

"Amina, I'm not letting you leave here today without this around your pretty little neck."

I smiled. "Oh what are you going to do, it's not like you can make me wear it."

I think she took that as a challenge because she grabbed and pinned me down on the bed.

"You're really stubborn, you know that?" 

"And you're really aggressive." I struggled to knock her off of me and got no where.

"Okay, here's the deal, you promise to let me put the necklace on you and I'll let you up."

I laughed. "To make a deal, you kinda have to give a girl some options to choose from."

"Okay, you make that promise or I'll just keep you pinned down and I'll do this..." She bit my right shoulder and I shrieked.

"Oh my god, I can't believe you bit me." I tried escaping again.

"And I can't believe you're really being this stubborn so I guess we're even." She smiled at me squirming beneath her. "You better stop trying to escape."

I pushed her slightly off of me but she was back on top of me, pinning me even harder.

"I told you not to move." She bent down, biting my neck this time and a moan slipped from my mouth. I couldn't help the sensations she was unknowingly bringing me.

She stopped and I felt her lips curl into a smile on my neck then she came up to look at me. "Here I am trying to torture you and you're getting tu..." I flipped her on her back and pinned her hard so she couldn't move.

"What were you saying?" I asked, smugly.

"I can still bite you, you know!" She bit my arm and tossed me on my back once again. 

She started biting me everywhere and I laughed uncontrollably. She went back to my neck and I couldn't suppress the moan that escaped my mouth for the second time. She continued small nibbles up my neck to my ear.




Falling for Jessica Ch. 04



I was breathless from all the movement and excited from what she was making me feel. "Okay, I'll take it!" I blurted out. "I promise, I'll let you put the necklace on me." I fully surrendered to her.

Now she was the one wearing a smug smile on her face. "Good girl." She kissed my forehead and got off of me.

I sat up on my elbows and watched Jess as she fetched the necklace, she seemed so unaffected, meanwhile, I was turned on by her domineering attitude she just showcased. I never seen her be so commanding, it's sexy.

"Come here so I can put it on you." She said, innocently sweet as if she didn't just have me pinned down a second ago.

I scooted across the bed to the side where she was and stood in front of her, captivated by those eyes and smile she so often gave me.

"Well, aren't you going to turn around? She asked in a low soft voice.

I didn't answer, I just turned my back towards her and lifted my hair up. I heard the box open and shortly, I felt her hands place the gift around my neck. When she was done, she spun me around slowly and led me to the bedroom mirror. 

"It looks even more beautiful than I imagined it would on you", she said, looking at my reflection in the mirror as she stood behind me.

I turned around and hugged her. "I love it!", was all I could say at the moment.

"I knew you would, I got it custom made with this emerald green diamond." She rubbed her index finger over the charm. "I know it's your favorite color." 

"Yeah, it is." I looked into her emerald green eyes then watched her finger trace over the designs on the necklace for a second then I grabbed her hand, stopping what could possibly come next from a seemingly innocent touch. 

She gave me a questioning look. "We should get back to packing." I said.

"You're right."

We dove right back into sorting and folding clothes.

"Do you want this?" I held up a cute black dress.

"Umm I'm not sure, let me see if I can still fit it."

Right then and there she started removing her shirt and next her pants. She looks good of course and I couldn't take my eyes off of her. She began slipping into the dress, squirming to fit her thick curvy hips into it and finally it was on.

"Zip me up, will you?"

I hopped off the bed and stood behind her. "What's with you telling me what to do today?" I asked, zipping her dress.

She turned to face me. "I noticed it turns you on."

I laughed nervously. "So what...that's been your plan all along, to turn me on?"

"Actually, no but things change", she spoke with a hint of seduction in her voice. 

Now you guys see why I have to prepare myself before I see her? Although, things are different this time. I'm usually the one that break first and Jess is the one who tries to do the right thing by not engaging in anything that could lead to sex. Somehow, roles have reversed because here we are, Jess is the one seducing me and I want to be the one that does the right thing.

"That dress fit you perfectly." I tried giving her a friendly compliment but I think I failed.

"Yeah I guess I should take it off now."

"This is cruel of you Jess."

"What are you talking about? Come here", she pulled me to her. "You have to help me out of this dress."

She was purposely teasing me at this point. She turned around and waited for me to unzip her dress but I had to step back to do so because she was unreasonably close. She had her ass pressed against me. 

"You know...what you're doing is cute." I said, sarcastically while unzipping her dress.

She turned to face me and continued her little act. "I still have no clue of what you're talking about." 

She now had her hand on my shoulder, holding onto me for support as she used her free hand to slip out of the dress completely. Once more, she stood in front of me half dressed with a smirk on her face.

"You're clearly seducing me."

"Oh that", she said casually. "Remember when you said you should be the one giving gifts?"

I smiled and nodded in response to her question. "What does that have to do with anything?"

"I know what I want you to give me."

"Annnd..." I waited for her to continue.

"And I want you to give me this," she ran both her hands down my arms and rested them on my waist. "I want you, I want to kiss, touch and taste you one last time before I leave." 

When she said she wanted to taste me, I shivered. Again, I never seen this side of her so it was shocking to hear her speak so straightforward and blunt. I'm not saying she's never been any of these things but I found myself really enjoying the upfront and honest Jess. I like it, it's just that she usually tries to avoid 'going there' with me.

She must have seen the shock on my face because started rambling on. "I know this isn't like me but I just...we don't have to if you don't want to", she stumbled over her words. "I was just hoping...maybe or I don't know just forget it." Her confidence was gone momentarily.

"You're cute when you're all vulnerable", I joked.

She punched me lightly on my arm and I grabbed her and kissed her hard. Her hands went straight for my hair and I felt her fingers firmly gripping handfuls of it while I did the same to her ass. She moaned when I smacked it. Her body felt amazing under the palm of my hands.

"Take this off." Jess was pulling at my clothes, first my shirt and next my bra was on the floor. She took turns kissing and gently sucking each nipple into her warm mouth, making me gasp. The sensations her mouth give me is something I now crave on a daily basis ever since the first time her mouth touched my body.

Jess forced me on the bed and straddle my left thigh, leaving her knee pressed directly to my center. I raised my thigh and grabbed her hips, pulling her into me. When I did this, her pussy rubbed along my thigh, causing her to moan but there was a mixture of pain and pleasure in her voice.

"Oh my god, did I hurt you?"

"No, it feels good. I'm just a little sore still." Jess smiled at me and moved onto running her tongue down my neck. I moaned pretty loud so she covered my mouth with her hand and began nibbling on my ear.

She whispered in my ear, "I don't think I've ever been this wet." Then, she drew back to look at me while slowly removing her hand from my mouth.

I didn't say anything, I just took her hand and guided it into my panties. I shuddered when her fingers touched my pussy, I was already so sensitive.

"Are you wetter than me right now?

"Why don't you feel for yourself." She took my hand and sensed my hesitation. "It's okay, you won't hurt me," she slipped my hand into her panties. She was definitely wet.

We both pulled our hands from each other's pussy and held up what we gathered. My fingers were slick with her juices trickling down and hers were covered with just as much if not more. We tasted each other.

"You taste delicious."

"You taste even better." Jess responded, licking her lips.

"Prove it."

She moved down my body and removed my pants along with my panties. She came back up and kissed me slow and soft before nibbling on my bottom lip. When she released my lip, she gave me that irresistible smile and went for my sensitive neck. All I felt was her soft lips kissing me there, then her teeth grazing both my neck and ear. Finally, I felt her soft warm tongue running along my neck again, this time making little swirls here and there. 

She had me right where she wanted me. Her tongue was working it's way from my neck to my collarbone, making its way to my breast next. She let her lips glide across my nipples and continued dragging her tongue lower. I watched her every move as she went lower and lower, stopping right before she reached my pussy. Next, her arms reached around my thighs and clutched me tight so that my pussy was closer to her mouth. 

I positioned myself on my elbows and watched what looked like her studying my pussy. She just stared hungrily at it. I watched as her eyes slowly traveled up my body, finally meeting my gaze. Her eyes were glazed and darkened with pure desire. I didn't break eye contact, I couldn't. It was like she was hypnotizing me with those beautiful green eyes. Little by little, she lowered her mouth. 

She closed her eyes when her lips touched my pussy. I twitched at the anticipated contact. "You're so wet Amina." Her lips caressed my lips with every word that exited her mouth. She was literally taking my breath away. I couldn't think straight with her lips on me the way they were. She gripped my thighs tighter while keeping her lips pressed against my moist lips. She moaned against me and her voice cracked, "Please tell me he doesn't make you this wet." She opened her eyes to look at me. For the first time she displayed a bit of jealousy and yet she still looked so sexy with her lips pressed against me. 

I couldn't help but moan, "No...he doesn't. You're the on..." Jess's tongue parted my lips before I could finish. All she needed to hear me say was no and her mouth started devouring me. There was no more teasing, she licked and sucked me as if I was what she craved all day. I had to cover my mouth to stifle the noises I was making. I couldn't stay still, her tongue was deep in me, fucking me and giving me pleasure no one has ever given me. Quickly, I was already approaching an orgasm.

"Fuck Jess, don't stop." I was going crazy. She kept thrusting her tongue in and out. I was on the brink of cumming when she wrapped her mouth around my entire pussy and began sucking the life out of me. My back arched and my fingers latched onto her hair as I came in her mouth. I was shaking uncontrollably. 

I laid there trying to catch my breath and when I looked up, Jess mouth was still clasped around my opening. She stared at me while she released my pussy, leaving a thick stream of cum connecting us. 

"That was so fucking hot." I reached for Jess and kissed her passionately, tasting my own cum. She rose from her previous position and kneeled to where she towered over me. She pulled me up into a kneeling position and we continued kissing madly. My hands were all over her, finally taking off her bra. 

My hands traveled from her perfect breast to panties. My fingers were under the waistband, ready to remove them but she stopped me. "I'm not done with you", she kissed me, "turn around and bend over." She ordered me and I did what I was told.

Here I was, on my knees bent over, waiting to receive my next order but instead I felt her tongue lick my pussy. It felt so good. Her fingers spread me wide and in came her tongue wiggling inside of me while her chin massage my clit. 

I almost cried when she stopped. "I want you to grind your pussy on my face until you cum." The tone of her voice did something to me that allowed me to obey her every word.

I started grinding my wet pussy all over her face, smearing every drop of my cum on her. It felt erotic yet dirty rubbing my pussy all over her. I couldn't contain myself when she stuck out her tongue. I rode her tongue up and down, over and over. She sucked my clit into her mouth every chance she got. 

The sound of her sucking on me drove me over the edge. I was cumming again, "Jesssicaaaa!!!" I moaned into a pillow, shaking. She did not let up. She wrapped her strong arms around my thighs and dug her tongue deeper. I tried getting away from her mouth but she had her arms locked around me tight. "Please stop Jess", I begged her while trying to regain control over my breathing and out of no where another orgasm took over my whole body. 

Finally, she let me go and I just fell onto the bed, out of breath. I couldn't stop shaking and squirming around. Now that I think about it, I probably looked like a junkie feigning for a fix. 

Jess tried touching me. "Don't! Please don't touch me right now." She laughed at me. "Fuck, Jess it feels like your tongue is still in me." My body was still shaking from the orgasms she gave me.

"Well let me hold you, it'll relax your body if I just do that." She wrapped her arms around me for what seemed like the millionth time but this time was gentler than ever before. She cuddle against my backside and I started to relax. My pussy still throbbed from its sensitivity. "That was intense." Jess spoke too close to my ear and I jumped. "Sorry, did I scare you?"

"No", I clutched her hand to my chest for comfort, "your voice...fuck, your voice make me feel like I'm cuming all over again.

"You want me to stop?"

"No, I don't know." I said, grabbing her hand tighter. I felt demented. What I was feeling was incredible and intense. I felt like it would never end but a part of me wanted it to because I felt like I would burst at any moment.

"I love you."

I turned around to face Jess. "I love you too."

We laid there staring at each other. I started caressing her thigh, then I leant in to kiss her but she cut me off. "You're never going to ask me, are you?"

I knew what she was talking about but I couldn't answer the question. "You know, not knowing won't make it any less real that I'm leaving Amina."

"I know." I turned on my back and looked at the ceiling, I couldn't look at her all of a sudden let alone think about the reality of her leaving.

"I'm leaving the day after tomorrow."

A tear rolled down the side of my face and I looked in the opposite direction of Jess. I smiled to mask the pain.

"Amina will you look at me?" I didn't respond; I couldn't respond. She placed her hand on my face, "Look at me." She forced me to finally look at her and she wiped my fallen tears.

I smiled, still trying to mask the pain. "I'm okay." I don't know why I continued trying to put on a smile. It was obvious I was hurt but I think I was trying to convince myself I was happy. I once heard smiling and laughing when you're down tricks you into believing you're truly happy. In my case, it didn't work one bit.

"It's okay to cry, you don't have to be brave for me." 

"You ever wanted to hurt someone just so they would hate you? Because you knew if they hated you, it'll mean they wouldn't want you anymore and if they didn't want you, it would be a little easier to move on?"

"Yes...I", Jess paused. "Amina you have no idea how many times I thought of ways to make you hate me. I thought if you hated me, I could easily walk away because it wouldn't be a reason to stay if you wanted nothing to do with me", she scooted closer to me, our nose now touching, "but then I realized I couldn't bare the thought of you hating me. I love you too much not to have a little piece of you in my life, even if we're just friends", tears falling from her emerald eyes. "So yes, you're not alone Amina."

I kissed her and we held each other for a while. 

*****

"Hey wake up sleepy head, it's almost noon." I open my eyes to a hazy image of Adrian standing above me.

"What time is it?" I wiped my eyes, trying to wake up.

"It is exactly 11 o'clock so get your sweet ass up."

"Not fair! I don't bother you when you sleep. I deserve to sleep in, I get up in the middle of the night, every night."

"Babe calm down, I know but I'm not the one that decided to invite people over to give Jess a going away dinner. I just thought you should get dressed and go grocery shopping so we could have everything cooked and prepared by the time people arrive."

"I know, I'm getting up." I threw the sheet off me and sat up to stretch. "Where's Anthony?"

"Babe, don't worry he's sleeping. Remember today is your day, I got him."

"Okay but don't you think it's weird that he don't stay awake for more than 3 hours? He's always asleep."

"You're being paranoid. He's a newborn, all they practically do is eat, sleep and poop."

"God, you're making me seem like I'm nuts."

"You are nuts but I love it!" He kissed my forehead before walking toward the bedroom door. "Get ready, I'll be making you breakfast."

An hour and a half later I was at the grocery store picking out ingredients for the dinner. Before leaving Jess house, I found Aunt Lorie's number lying around and called to tell her about the dinner. I also got Jess special ingredients from her so I could make her famous chicken alfredo. Now I'm just hoping it turns out just as good as hers.

I got everything on the list and was on my way home. When I pulled into the driveway, there was a strange car sitting in front of the house. I got out of the car, grabbed a couple bags and headed into the house. I didn't shut the front door behind me because there were more bags in the car. "Adrian!" I called out.

"In the kitchen babe."

I was walking down the hall towards the kitchen, "There's more bags in the car. Could you..." 

There was my parents sitting at the kitchen table smiling. "Surprise!!!", Adrian and my parents shouted.

"Oh my god! Mom! Dad!" I sat aside the bags on the counter and hugged them both. "When did you get in? Why didn't you tell me?

"We wanted it to be a surprise. We just got in, we rented a car and came straight here", said my mom. "Yeah and plus we told this fella here", my dad grabbed Adrian into a headlock." He came up with the idea to surprise you.

"Yeah I thought maybe surprising you with a visit from your parents would somehow balance out the suckiness of Jessica leaving tomorrow." 

"Thank you so much", I hugged all three of them.

"So when do we get to meet this Jessica?" 

"You'll meet her soon enough mom. She'll be here later but in the meantime, I have to start preparing food." I started taking the groceries out of the bag and my mom joined me.

"Right! I'll get the other bags." Adrian said, exiting the kitchen. 

"I'll help you son." My dad followed.

"Oh my god, how could I forget? You guys haven't met your grandson."

"Your dad and I seen him but we didn't want to wake him. Amina he's beautiful and we're so happy for you and your pregnancy", she said, rubbing my tummy.

"Thank you mom. I've missed you and dad so much", I hugged her again as dad and Adrian walked in.

"What's going on here?" My dad interrupted.

"Just telling our beautiful daughter here how happy we are for her, for both of you", she looked at Adrian.

"I can't believe my little girl has a kid and soon another one."

"I'm not a little girl anymore dad."

"I know sweetie."

"Yeah, we know." Adrian repeated.

"You're a sick man Adrian", my dad joked with him. Mom and I laughed at them both. They were so close. Adrian is the closest thing my dad has to a son. They could laugh and joke with each other like they were best friends.

"Aw c'mon, I didn't mean it like that", Adrian was smiling, "I just meant that she's grown a lot from when we were kids. Remember babe", he looked at me, "you were ugly when we were growing up. You've grown into a beautiful woman, that's all."

"Nice one", I said, "but at least I wasn't as hideous as you when we were kids." I shot back with just as big of a grin than Adrian.

"Burn!" My dad was instigating.

"Your dad is such a kid", my mom whispered.

"Hey so is Adrian, it makes sense why they're so close." We laughed at them as they stood there, naturally bonding.

"I think it's settled, we're waking Anthony up so you guys can finally meet your grandson." Adrian led us all to the living room crib where our son was sleeping. He picked him up out of the crib and stroked his face a bit while calling his name softly. Anthony finally opened his eyes and flashed those green eyes I love so much. "Whose first to hold their grandson?", Adrian smiled proudly.

Marilyn, honey you go first", my dad kissed my mom.

My mom had a smile plastered on her face as she held Anthony for the first time. My parents sat on the couch with their grandson, talking and making silly faces. I could already tell they were crazy about him. "I think he's going to start crying", my mom pointed out.

"And there he goes. Maybe he need a diaper change", my dad suggested.




Falling for Jessica Ch. 04



My mom held him up and took a whiff, "Yep, he needs his diaper changed."

"Hand him here, I'll do it."

"Amina, I told you today is your break. I'll do it."

"Actually, do you mind if I do it?" My dad reached for Anthony, "It's been years since I changed a diaper."

"Of course." Adrian handing over the diaper bag.

"God, I've never seen people so eager to change a smelly diaper", I laughed. "I'm going to get started on the food. I'll be in here if any of you need anything", I walked to the kitchen.

As soon as I entered the kitchen, the doorbell ringed. I heard the door open and a familiar voice introducing herself to everyone. In came walking into the kitchen was Lorie. "I hope you didn't get started without me?"

"Thank god, you're here", I hugged her, "I was just about to start."

"Well lets get started then", she clapped her hands.

It took us four hours to cook a large quantity of pasta including Lorie's homemade garlic bread which is delicious by the way. We started setting the large table that could seat about fifteen to twenty people.

"Amina you should go freshen up, Jessica and a few of her co-workers should be arriving any minute. I also invited a surprise guess."

"Okay who's the surprise guess?" I asked before leaving the kitchen. 

"Don't you worry sweetheart, now go." Lorie nudged me out of the kitchen. 

I passed my family on the way upstairs and told them the food was ready and that we're just waiting for people to get here. I left them to it and went upstairs to change into a simple black dress. There was going to be nothing fancy about this dinner so no need to get all dressed up. It'll just be family and friends enjoying Jess last night in town, plus I know Jess and she wouldn't want people to go all out for something as simple as a dinner. Knowing her she'll probably show up in jeans and a tank top and still incredibly sexy.

I was brushing my teeth when Adrian joined me in the bathroom. "You look amazing. If I didn't know any better I'd think you were getting all dressed up for Jessica", he laughed at my expression, "or not."

"That's not funny", I wiped my mouth with a towel and looked in the mirror at him.

"It was a joke and anyways you have to be blind if you don't notice the way she looks at you. I think she has a little crush on you."

"How does she look at me?" I turned to face Adrian and I was genuinely curious to know what he saw when Jess looked at me.

"She looks at you like she wants to take you", he lifted me onto the counter, "and just eat you", he kissed my neck.

"Can you stop?" I pushed him away.

"Umm okay", he backed off. "What's wrong? We haven't had sex in forever. If something is wrong you can tell me, you know that right?"

"Yeah I know, I just...I don't know", the doorbell ringed. "Can we just talk later?"

He kissed me on the lips and smiled. "Saved by the bell."

We both walked down the stairs and heard a few new voices and Jess. They all were introducing themselves to my parents. 

"Hey, I see you guys met my parents." 

"Yeah hey you two. Thanks for giving me a going away dinner, I really do appreciate it."

"No problem, it was all Amina's idea." Adrian wrapped his arm around me.

"Well thank you Amina."

I nodded and Jess turned to introduce the two that stood behind her.

"You saw the way she looked at you when she thanked you?" Adrian whispered in my ear and I elbowed him in the stomach. "Owe", he laughed. 

"Amina and Adrian these are my two favorite people, Nick and Lea. I worked with them for a few years and I wouldn't have gotten through that firm without them. 

We shook their hands and we all made it into the dining room, talking and laughing. I noticed my parents and Lorie were missing and excused myself. I went back to the living room and there they were, huddled around Anthony's crib. I couldn't help but smile, "Dinner is starting you guys."

"Sorry he's just so precious", my mom answered. 

"I know mom but we're all ready to eat, so you three get in the dining room."

My dad laughed, "You raised a bossy one, eh?"

Mom, dad, and Lorie started making there way to the dining room, I followed and the doorbell rang again. I turned around and walked towards the door, "That's probably my little surprise. I'll get it if you don't mind?"

"No of course not." I let her open the door and there stood a duplicate of Lorie. 

"Hey baby sis!" Lorie greeted her twin.

"Lorie how many times do I have to remind you, I came out first?"

"Yeah anyways this is Amina, she's the owner of this beautiful home and she's also really good friends with your daughter. Amina this my sister and Jess's mom of course, Lana."

"Hello and please call me Mrs. Torres. It is nice to finally meet you. This one has told me a lot about you and what my daughter did for you." 

I noticed she seemed lot different from Lorie. It's not like I expected for them two to be the same person but she seemed like the bitchy rich uptight type, not that I'm saying that's who she is. I would never judge a book by it's cover. "Hi", I shook her hand, "your daughter is a really lovely person. She's done a lot for me."

She smiled and nodded politely. For a second I stood there looking at this woman who birthed Jess and I remembered the stories Jess told me. 

"Okay ladies, everyone is waiting to eat." Lorie broke the moment of silence. We followed Lorie into the dining room like it was her house and she was the host. "Everyone we have a special guest", Lorie announced and Jess turned around in her seat. I couldn't read her facial expression, there were too many but one was definitely shock. "Jess would you mind introducing your guest?" Personally, I think Lorie was pushing it by asking Jess to introduce her mom, giving the fact that they hadn't even talked in a long while.

Jess looked at her mom then around the table, "Everyone this is my mom, Mrs. Torres as she likes to be called. Everyone greeted her and took turns introducing themselves. Jess stood from the table, "Excuse me." She started walking toward Lorie and I. God, I never seen her so pissed, "Kitchen, now." We followed her to the kitchen. "Why would you guys invite her?" Jess sat on a stool and waited for an explanation. 

"I invited her, Amina didn't know anything about this so don't be upset with her. Look sweetie, you're leaving tomorrow and I think you two should have a talk before you're gone. Life is too short for us all not to get along."

"I'm not the one that ignored her Aunt Lorie. I mean, she basically disowned me when dad died. I tried communicating with her and she never wanted to so why now?" Jess was clearly angry.

"She know she was wrong and she wants to apologize and make it right with you."

Jess laughed, "Right, of course she wants to make it right. She's probably still a mean old bitch." 

"Hey look at me", I held Jess face in my hands, "calm down, okay?" I ran my fingers through her hair, it always relaxes her.

Adrian walked into the kitchen, "Hey what's going on in here, we're starving!"

"Shit, I forgot! Adrian could you be a darling and help me take this into the dining room? Amina could you stay with that one there?"

"Of course", both Adrian and I responded. 

"You're okay?" Adrian mouthed, not knowing what was going on and I nodded reassuringly. He took the first batch of pasta out to the dining room and Lorie followed with a couple baskets of garlic bread. 

"She's right, you know? You should talk to your mom", I sat on a stool beside her.

"You don't know the whole story Amina. You don't know all of the things she said and did to me. 

"You're right, I don't but I think your dad would want you two to work on your relationship with each other." 

Jess stood and pulled me up into a hug, "I know he would too." I held her in my arms and she buried her face into my neck. It wasn't sexual but my body responded to her warm breath tickling my neck and her body pressed against me. 

"Ahem." Jess and I looked up at the person clearing their throat. "Can I talk to you Jessica?" It was her mom.

"I'm going to be in the dining room, okay?" I left them alone to talk and I found everyone eating, laughing and talking to each other at the dining room table. "What are we talking about?" I chimed in. 

"Oh my god, your dad has the best stories", said Nick.

"Oh yeah? What are you telling these lovely people here?"

My dad laughed, "Don't worry, nothing inappropriate. I was just telling them about the time we all went fishing and you fell off the boat. We had no idea you were missing from the boat", everyone laughed. 

My dad has a serious problem with telling complete strangers embarrassing stories from my childhood. "Okay so that's definitely inappropriate dad."

"Don't worry Amina, my dad was always the one at the table telling people horrible stories from when I was a kid", Lorie reassured me it was normal for dads' to tell awful childhood stories. 

"Hey those are good stories", my dad argued.

"Of course you think so honey."

"Thanks mom."

"My dad was the same way", Jess friend, Lea jumped into the conversation. 

"You see? Fathers' are made for this. Soon your husband here will be doing the same to Anthony", everyone laughed at what Lorie was saying. "You'll get use to it, trust me."

"And when did you get use to it?" I asked.

"Okay so I lied, you don't really get use to it but you learn to accept and appreciate it."

"Awww dad I guess I have no choice but to accept your shenanigans."

"Might as well, I did a long time ago", Adrian put his hand on my dad shoulder." Isn't that right old man?"

"You better watch yourself kid." My dad and Adrian continued their bantering while everyone laughed and ate pasta and drank wine.

Everything was seemingly fine until we all heard the front door slam loudly and a car engine. Lorie and I jumped up from the table and excused ourselves while everyone held puzzled looks on their faces. 

We walked into an empty kitchen then checked the living room, still no one. Lorie looked out the window, "I guess my sis left without saying goodbye."

"I think maybe Jess is upstairs. You should probably go talk to her, this is a family issue."

"That's true but right now she's probably heated. She need someone to calm and relax her. She listens to you and when you're done I know it'll be easier talking to her about her mom. She probably hate me right now for inviting her."

"Okay I'll talk to her but what are we going to do about the dinner? She practically missed half of it already."

"Don't worry, just go up there and talk to her."

"Okay", I walked up the staircase and heard water running in the bathroom. I knocked but there was no answer. I opened the door and she was bent over the sink splashing cold water onto her face. I walked in and closed the door behind me. I grabbed a fresh face towel and handed it to her once she turned off the water. "What happened Jess?"

"I really don't want to talk about it Amina, I'm sorry."

"It's okay", I grabbed Jess hand and held it, "What can I do?"

"There's nothing you can do. I just want to be left alone right now", she left go my hand and leaned against the counter. 

I nodded, "Okay", and walked to open the door but I couldn't will myself to go any further. I turned around and she had her head down. "I can't leave", she looked at me. "I can't explain it but I can't leave you in here knowing you're not okay. It felt like my heart would explode if I had open that door." I walked over to her, "I'm staying here until you're ready to do whatever it is you want to do." She hugged me and began to sob uncontrollably. I couldn't do much but hold her and try comforting her. "You ever notice we're always in a bathroom?"

I laughed when she looked up at me and smiled. That smile turned into a laugh and soon turned into us silently holding each other with our foreheads pressed together, me wiping away her tears as she closed her eyes. I just stared at her. There's never a moment where she's not beautiful in my eyes. I watched as she took deep breaths, wrapping her arms around my neck. She nudged my nose with hers, forcing me to close my eyes as she kissed me. The kiss didn't last long before she pulled back, opening her eyes, "I think I'm ready to go eat now."

I agreed and she turned to fix herself up in the mirror, not that there was anything to fix. I pulled up her dress", What are you doing?" I didn't answer her right then, I just pulled down her panties. "Amina are you crazy? What are you doing?" She turned around, trying to stop me but I didn't let her. 

"I don't think it's fair that you got to do whatever to me yesterday and I'm pretty hungry to taste you right now so I think I'll eat right here", I said, getting on my knees. 

"You're family is downst..." I kissed her already exposed lips, causing her to gasp. She grabbed my wrist, trying to pull me up. "You should stop Amina", she moaned my name when my tongue parted her lips. She let go of my wrist and grabbed ahold of the counter. I licked her as gently as possible, not wanting to cause her any discomfort. My eyes were closed which heightened my senses. I could hear her breathing harder and I could tell she was trying to control it to stay quiet. She taste sweet and that's no exaggeration. Her pussy felt smooth and slick on my tongue. I wished I had all the time in the world to worship it. I sucked her clit into my mouth and opened my eyes to look up at her face. Her eyes were shut tight, one hand covering her mouth and the other wrapped up in her hair. I continued sucking while running my tongue repeatedly over her sensitive button. Her breathing became noticeably faster and her body shook the harder I sucked. She was cumming hard against my mouth. I gripped her thighs to keep her from moving. I cleaned every trace of cum seeping from her wet pussy and I could tell she enjoyed that. She pulled me up and attacked my mouth with her tongue, teeth and lips. 

She gave my lips a final lick, "I taste delicious on you."

"Fuck, I love you Jess. 

She kissed me before saying, "I love you too."

We smiled like fools and agreed it was time to go downstairs to enjoy what was left of the dinner. I opened the door.....

"You two enjoy yourselves?"



Falling for Jessica



After the drama we took our seats on the sofa and ate until our bellies were full. 

We both agreed the pizza was delicious. Then we heard a loud thunder that frighten me to the core. 

"There goes the power." 

I forgot there was a big storm coming today.

"I'm going to see if I can get the power back, stay here." 

"Hell no, you're not leaving me alone in this freakishly large and now pitch dark house."

"You're right, c'mon." She laughed. I quickly grabbed her hand and explained that I was afraid of thunder. 

"You wimp." She joked. 

"Shut up." I laughed.

We began to walk down the stairs with a flashlight. It was so creepy down there.

"BOOM!!" Another loud clap of thunder scared me worst than before. I found myself tightly gripping Jessica's waist. I quickly let go of her waist.

She slowly turned around and held the flashlight between our faces.

"I would've never guessed you were afraid of thunder. You seem fearless." She teased. 

"Well, we are in your creepy dark basement so excuse me for being a little freaked."

"Okay I'll leave you alone..for now." 

"Shut up and find the power box."

"Okay little miss bossy." Laughed Jessica.

Soon we found the box and flicked every switch but nothing happened. 

"Maybe you'll have to wait in the morning." 

"Yeah maybe so."

With no luck of getting the power on, we went back upstairs. 

"I think you should call Adrian and tell him you're staying. It's really bad out there." 

"You're right."

"Hey babe."

"Hey, where are you, are you safe?" 

"Yeah I'm at Jess's house. I think I'm going to stay until the storm is over."

"I think that's a good idea but do you think you'll be okay with all of this thunder?" 

"Yeah, I'm no punk." I said jokingly. 

"Sure you're not." He said sarcastically.

We both laughed. "Okay see you tomorrow, I love you." 

"I love you too, babe."

"Everything okay?" 

"Yeah, looks like we're having a sleepover." I answered.

"Good, I'm going to look for some candles, c'mon." 

We found six candles and decided to go back to her bedroom since it was pretty late.

While lighting the candles, I realized I didn't have anything to sleep in. 

"Jess, do you have something I can wear to bed?" 

"Of course."

I watched as she looked in her drawers for something to wear. She looked incredible in the candle light. I watched her every move and became extremely fascinated by her.

"Here you go." 

"Thanks Jess." 

"Your welcome, Amina."

I instantly began to change my clothes. First, I removed my shirt and out the corner of my eye, I saw Jess looking at me.

I don't think she meant to stare so long because when I turned to face her, she looked stuck as if she was in a trance.

"Are you okay?" 

"Yes, sorry...I was just thinking." 

"Wanna share?"

"No, not really." She said with an embarrassing look on her face. 

"Okay." I continued to change.

She began to change as well. Soon we were both done.

"Could these shorts be any shorter?" I asked while slipping into bed. 

"Sorry they were the only thing I had."

"I was joking Jess, they're fine." 

"Oh okay."

It was quiet for what seemed like forever. Then she spoke. "Amina, can I tell you something?"

"Of course."

"Well, we're going to be around each other for the next nine months so I figure I be honest with you." 

"What's wrong Jess?"

She took a deep breath before speaking. "I'm attracted to you. I know you're married and straight but I just feel like you should know because sometimes I feel like I act weird around you and I don't want you to think I'm weird or trying to sleep with you or anything like that...Oh god and now I'm blabbering."

I laughed and reassured her that it was okay. "I have no problem with your attraction to me, I don't think your weird or trying to sleep with me for that matter."

"Is that what you were thinking earlier when we were changing clothes?"

"Yeah, I guess so."

I was lying there when the loud thunder filled the house. I grabbed Jess and squeezed her tight. 

This time I didn't let her go.