21 comments/ 44632 views/ 30 favorites Shadows of Resentment By: Iread2relax This is my first attempt at writing a story. I want to thank you for taking time to read it. I especially want to thank the people that helped me in the creation of this tale. Mokkelke,thank you for all the time you dedicated in helping me write this story. You're the best. Mostera1, thank you for helping me with the plot and story development. JazCullen, thank you for your sage advice and the knowledge that you shared with me. Kalamazoo707, thank you for encouraging me to try this and helping guide me along the way. Thank you all so much. The Beginning Sierra Granger, the youngest of the Granger kids, sat with her parents in her high school gymnasium during the State Semi-Finals Game cheering for her school team, The Fighting Herons of Hillside High School. She wasn't just cheering for the team but for her twin brothers, Darius and Derrick, and secretly their former best friend, Cameron Richards. The game was in the final quarter as their opponents, The Mighty Rams of Gentry High School, had the ball. The Rams were leading the game by two points. The Herons had two choices to win this. They could make the steal, go for a lay-up, and tie the game which would lead into overtime and hopefully the win, or they could steal the ball, pass it to their point shooter for a three-point shot and win the game at the buzzer. Darius and Derrick wanted to win, so with two minutes left on the clock the boys looked at each other and knew it was time for "their" move. They had practiced on it for ages, planned and tried until, to them, it was perfect. Derrick approached the Ram's guard, diverting his attention as his brother Darius came up from behind. Derrick blocked the guard while Darius came closer and executed their well practice move by successfully stealing the ball from the guards right side. Sierra held her breath knowing if the boys could pull this off they were going to State. Her heart pounded loudly. Her eyes were glued on the court watching the action so intently, everyone else in the gym faded away. This was the moment her brothers had been waiting for. She closed eyes and prayed, "Let it work! Let it work! Let it work!" Sierra opened her eyes to the watch the final seconds of the game. "Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!" roared the crowd. Everyone on the Heron's side were on their feet, stomping and yelling. The Grangers boys had done it again. Nothing would stop them now. The Heron's finally had the ball, there was one minute forty-five seconds left in the game. Cameron, whom no one was watching, assumed his position at the three point line. Derrick brought the ball back down the court. He successfully blocked an interception from the Rams and passed the ball to Cameron. He aimed and shot. "Whoosh!" Nothing but nets right at the buzzer, and just like that the Herons won the game. The Heron's had just defeated their biggest rivals, The Rams and were headed to the State Championships. The crowd went crazy with Sierra and her parents screaming the loudest. People rushed the courts to celebrate with the winning team. After a while the excitement began to wear off and everyone headed home. Sierra and her parents waited patiently in front of the gym for Darius and Derrick to come out of the locker rooms. Marvin and Marge were so proud of their sons because they knew how hard they worked to accomplish tonight's win. When the boys came their parents immediately grabbed them in a tight embrace. Marvin hugged his sons, his heart filled with pride he said, "You boys made me proud tonight. I knew you could win this. I never doubted you for a second." "Hmm! He knows y'all got your talent from me." boasted Mom. "Back in the day I lead my school to two State Championships. I'm so proud of you boys," Mom said as she hugged each boy tightly. "Now let's head on home so you boys can get some rest." Cameron stood off to the side and watched the Granger family embrace one another. He knew this was a big moment for them but could not stop the sharp pain of jealousy that speared through his heart. Did they know how lucky they were? There was a time he would have been included in that group hug. But that time had passed, there was no need to travel down memory lane. His Dad had to work, so he was unable to come to the game. Being a single parent his father often worked overtime to earn extra income and tonight was no different. Sierra saw Cameron, and walked over the congratulate him. "Congrats Cam, good game," said Sierra. "Thanks Sierra," replied Cameron snidely, "Now run back to your folks. I don't need to deal with your brothers tonight," he stated bluntly, trying to figure out how he was going to get home. Sierra was shocked because she had not done anything to cause him to be so rude to her. She was just trying to be friendly. "Cameron," Sierra asked, "Do you need a ride home? I'm sure my parents won't mind giving you a lift and you know it's too far for you to try and walk this late at night." "That's a'ight," Cameron replied, "You know Derrick and Darius can't stand me and I don't want to be around them any longer than I have to be, so thanks, but no thanks. I'll walk." Cameron picked up his duffle bag and headed for the door. Before he reached the door, he heard Sierra call to him and her parents. "Cameron, wait!" yelled Sierra. Darius and Derrick looked up and saw Cameron walking away from their sister rather quickly. Hold up. What's going on? Darius wondered as he watched the exchange between Sierra and Cameron. Why is Sierra talking to him? "Mom, Dad," yelled Sierra, "Can we give Cameron a ride home? I'm sure Darius and Derrick won't mind. You know he only lives just down the street. Besides, didn't y'all just win the biggest game of the year so far?" Sierra stated as she goaded her big brothers. "It's fine with me," Derrick began to say. "Come on Cam, you can..." Darius cut him off, "Man, the dude said he wants to walk. So let him," he grumbled as he grabbed his duffel bag off the floor. Derrick was stunned at Darius's unfounded reaction. He thought Cameron was cool, but their friendship ended years ago so, he did not hang out with him anymore. "Darius," admonished Marge. "Of course, we'll give Cameron a ride home. Right Marvin?" she stated. Marge gave Darius a pointed look, "We'll talk about this later young man," she told him. Darius knew he was in big trouble, stopped talking immediately and defiantly marched out of the gym mumbling. His parents had raised him to be respectful, but he wasn't a big fan of Cameron and had a hard time being civil towards him. Derrick followed his brother outside. "Come on Darius," he stated, "The guy needs a ride home. You know it's too far for him to walk this late. Come on, man." "You don't get it, Derrick," Darius tried to explain. "It's not just giving him a ride home. I just don't..." he stopped because everyone else came to the minivan. On the surface it seemed like the boys were a perfect combination of friends. The three boys were all-around American boys, popular, athletic, and physically fit. They were sports fanatics and played every kind of sport that they could. Although the boys were good at most sports, baseball was not one of their favorites. Cameron branched out from his two best friends and wanted to run track. In the spring of each school year he would run track, and his two best friends showed up at each one of his track meets. Throughout their school years, everyone came to games to watch Cameron and the Granger boys play. Growing up with the Granger twins, Cameron was an important member. The only problem, Darius was bossy and always wanted to call all of the shots. Sometimes Cameron went along with it, at other times he challenged Darius. He and Darius butted heads all of the time, but they always managed to resolve their issues until, spring three years ago. "Get in the van, boys," Marvin spoke, thereby effectively ending their conversation. "We've gotta catch up with Cameron before he gets himself hurt out here walking in the dark." Everyone got in and Mr. Granger took off to pick up Cameron. Sierra knew her parents wouldn't leave him to walk home alone. After they all climbed in they drove off and stopped again next to fast walking in Cameron. "Get in son," her dad commanded. Cameron started to argue, but with one sharp look from Mr. Granger, he knew to stop talking and get in the van. Derrick and Darius moved over to make space for their former friend. Cameron- The Ride Home Cameron sat in the back seat of the minivan with the Granger twins as they headed home from the school. "Cameron," Marvin asked, "How's your Dad holding up? Is he still taking his meds?" Cameron's dad, Nick Richards, suffered from two serious illnesses, Type 2 Diabetes and high blood pressure. He was going to dialysis three days a week because of complications from the diabetes. "He's fine, Mr. Granger. Thanks for asking," Cameron replied as he stared out of window of the minivan. Cameron was worried about his father, but he wasn't comfortable discussing his family business with anyone else. His Dad looked more tired than usual. He told his Dad he could get an extra job to help out, but his Dad refused to let him. He had several discussions with his Dad about his health. EARLIER THAT WEEK "Dad?" Cameron queried, "Are you out of your meds again? I haven't seen you take your medications today," Cameron sighed, suspecting that they were low on cash again. "If it's because of the bills don't worry about them, I'll pay them." "Son," Nick interrupted, "I'm the parent here. Let me worry about the bills." Cameron ran his hand through his hair and continued, "Look, Mr. Lee will let me have an extra shift and he said I can borrow some money to cover the bills this month." Nick became agitated. "No!", he yelled ,"You will not take money from that man. We are not a charity case." "Dad, Mr. Lee's not like that," Cameron tried to explain," He said he'd give me extra shifts so I can pay the money back." Nick slammed his hand on the table. "Enough," he roared, "I'm your father. You listen to me. I want you to go to school and learn, so you can have a life. I am fine. Let me worry about my meds and the bills. You just worry about finishing school." Cameron kneeled before his dad where he sat at the kitchen table and asked, "What happens to Rosa, if something happens to you?" He stared pensively at his father. "Dad," he spoke softly, "We can't lose you too. Go to Xander's Pharmacy and get your meds Dad or give me your money and I'll go get your medicine for you," Cameron begged. Nick Richards looked at his oldest son, his only son, and he felt guilty. His boy had to give up too much of his life when he should be hanging with his friends. He used to hang out with the Granger boys, but after he lost his Mom, he never invited them over anymore. He hurt because he was supposed to be the one that worried, not his nineteen year old son. "No, son," he lied, "I'm not out of meds. You know sometimes I forget to take them." Cameron knew his Dad was not telling him the truth. Even though he knew his father was prevaricating, Cameron decide to let the subject drop, however he would go to Xander's to see if his dad had any refills left. The sound of Mrs. Granger's voice brought him out of his trance. "Cameron! Earth to Cameron!", called Marge, "You zoned out on us son. Is everything alright?" Marge knew something was definitely wrong. "Yes, Ma'am," Cameron answered, "Everything is fine. I'm just a little tired from the game." At one point Cameron was like one of her sons, running in and out of her house. After his mother, Saria, died, he stopped coming over and his friendship with the twins ended. His response concerned her because she knew he was lying. She looked at Marvin, and knew they had to do something about this situation. It had lasted too many years. Secretly, she admitted to herself that she wanted her lost son to come home again. Marge recalled the day that Cameron entered their lives. Cameron, Derrick, and Darius were five when they met in in the bathroom at school. Cameron was being bullied by a big secone grader and thw twins wouldn't stand for it. In a manner of minurtes those two boys had taken the bully down a few pegs and sent him running t the office crying. Of course all of the parents were called down to the school. Marvin and Marge were surprised to see their neighbor Saria and took a few moments to catch up before meeting with the principal about their wayward boys. Realizing they lives right down the street from each other, a friendship, more like a brotherhood was born that day, and the three boys became inseparable. They were best friends who practically lived each other's houses. The three boys were so close that they often declared that Cameron was their brother from another mother. Marge did not know what happened a few years ago with the boys, but she knew enough time had passed for them to try and finally fix it. Despite their tumultuous past, Cameron loved the Granger family. There was a time that Mr. and Mrs. Granger were like second parents to him, but after the fight with Derrick and Darius, he no longer had anything to do with them. Not wanting to remember, Cameron shut his eyes tightly for a brief second to block out the memories from the past. Derrick looked at his friend and knew he was remembering the worst days of his life and his heart broke into a million pieces for him. He felt torn. Between supporting his brother and wanting to stand up for his friend, Derrick really didn't know what to do. He missed his friend and wished they could hang like they used to, but he didn't want to betray his brother. Besides Darius said they weren't friends anymore. Darius felt extremely uncomfortable, because he knew he was being unreasonable. His declaration two years earlier was foolish, but he didn't want to come across as weak so he acted as if Cameron's was the bad guy. He pretended that having his old friend around didn't faze him at all. After all, it was his mantra that they were no longer friends. So, in cold silence, all three boys sat in the back of the minivan not acknowledging, or even speaking to each other. Darius and Derrick watched as Cameron took control of his emotions, not saying a word. When Cameron opened his eyes, Mr. Granger was talking. "Cam, tell Nick, I want to work on the Crown Vic this weekend. If he can come over to help rebuild the engine, I'll surely appreciate it. Why don't you get that cute little sister of yours and all of y'all come over early Saturday morning? We'll have a cookout, and it'll be nice to catch up. What do you say?" Mr. Granger asked. "I'll let Dad know," Cameron replied. "But, I'm pretty sure we won't be able to make it." He didn't want to tell Mr. Granger that his Dad was not doing well and would probably be too tired to even get out of the bed on Saturday. Mr. Granger would often come by their house at least twice a week and check on his Dad when he first got sick, but he hadn't stopped by in a while. And when he did, they pretended things were better than they were. Cameron was afraid of losing his Dad, and not being able to support his baby sister, Rosa. He planned to finish high school and get into the community college, so he could learn a trade and quickly find work , so he could help support his dad and little sister. They were his everything and he was all they had. Everyone in the minivan was quiet for a few minutes and then Darius decided to speak. "Dad, can we stop and pick up a pizza on the way home?" "Yea," Derrick chimed in, "I'm starving." "Why don't we just stop at Antonio's and order a pizza and the works?" said Marvin. "Cam, you're welcomed to join us." Cameron could see that his presence was making the twins uncomfortable, besides he had other responsibilities. It was one thing to accept a ride home, but something totally different to act like he was part of the family. Sierra could not take her eyes off of Cameron. She had spent the whole ride from the school stealing glances of him. Sierra held her breath because she wanted Cameron to join her family for pizza. She loved being near him. When he was around, he made her day a little bit brighter, her heart beat a little bit faster, and everything seemed much more vibrant. "Thank you Mr. and Mrs. Granger, but no. I've got to get home and pick up Rosa from Mrs. Beans," Cameron explained. "She will only keep her until nine o'clock and it's almost that time now. If you can drop me off on Cedar, I can walk home from there." "No son," Mr. Granger said knowing that this boy needed a decent meal at least, "I'll drive you to Mrs. Bean's house. It is too dark out here for you to be walking all on your own. You and Rosa can join us. Come on. It'll be like old times." Cameron hesitated. A part of him wanted to accept, but he looked at his old friend and saw the animosity he tried to hide in his eyes. He knew that even though he wanted to join them it was not a good idea. So once again, he declined. "Thanks Mr. Granger, but its past Rosa's bedtime. Maybe I can join you all another time." He offered sadly. Mr. Granger drove up in front of Mrs. Bean's house and Cameron exited the vehicle. He thanked the Grangers for the lift home and went to pick up his sister. Secret Number One Now, they were seniors in high school and heading into the biggest game of their high school careers. They would graduate in a few months, and even though they played an intricate part in each other's lives, their friendship died a slow death a long time ago. Therefore, Cameron was determined to be the best, and if Darius and Derrick hated it, so what. The only Granger he was interested in impressing was their cute little sister, Sierra. So, here it was a Thursday afternoon and the team had basketball practice. The State Championship Game was two weeks away, and everyone was working hard, perfecting their moves. Cameron looked toward the bleachers and sitting there, waiting on her brothers, was the object of his desire, Sierra. Cameron had been enamored with Sierra forever, and tried to see her at least once daily. She was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen, only she didn't realize how lovely she really was. Even though she was innately shy, she was smart, popular, and friendly. He knew that her brothers would definitely come after him if ever he approached her, so he stayed away. They were extremely protective of their baby sister. However, what Derrick and Darius failed to realize was that Cameron was just as protective of Sierra as they were. She wasn't model thin, but curvy. Her milk chocolate skin was smooth and flawless. Her dark mocha colored eyes entranced him, making him spend hours just thinking about her. Her five feet six inches made her look like a sweet dark pixie compared to his own height. He loved the curve of her wide hips and she had the sexiest pair of legs he'd ever seen. Cameron shook his head and focused back on the game. Nothing good could come from fantasizing about Sierra. Anyway, he was dating Deidre Barnes, Sierra's best friends. If Deidre thought he was even thinking about another girl, she'd beat him down. He took his eyes off of Sierra and focused on the court. Basketball practice took place every day after school, and Sierra agreed to wait on her brothers. Since she was on several school committees, she didn't have to wait for very long. She truly didn't mind waiting on them because this was her a chance to check out Cameron. Sierra was very careful to keep her feelings for Cameron hidden from her brothers. They used to be best friends, but something happened years ago that ended their friendship. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 02 I certainly hope you are enjoying my little tale. I have so many people that helped me with it, words cannot express all that I feel. Thank you Mokkelke, Mostera1, and many others who offered unwavering support. Please read and enjoy. Remember to comment because feedback is always welcomed. Deidre Angelica Barnes, A Birthday Too Remember Deidre Angelica Barnes was turning eighteen. As an only child, Deidre was diligent in making choices that made her Mom proud. Her Mom raised her on her own with help from her grandmother, and as a single parent she worked to make sure her daughter had everything she needed. Jasmine was determine to keep Deidre from making the same mistakes that she had made, therefore she was very strict on her daughter and set extremely high standards for her to reach. She raised Deidre to be self-reliant, motivated, industrious, and independent. She would not accept any less than the best from her daughter, and Deidre was determined to become the woman her mother raised her to be. Jasmine recalled their trials and struggles over the years, and was grateful that her Mom helped her as she did. Today, however, she had the perfect gift for her baby girl. It was a gift that was passed down to Barnes women from generation to generation. Jasmine recalled when her mother, Gigi, passed this treasure on to her. It was a very difficult time for them, but they persevered. Now, years later, she remembered how special that time was for them and the significance of this gift. The same gift she would give to her daughter on tonight. Jasmine smiled, her baby daughter was turning eighteen today and she felt proud at how she turned out. Being a single mother, it wasn't always easy, but with Gigi, her mother, supporting her all the way, she got there in the end. She looked at the small jewelry box and was convinced it was the perfect day it went to the next generation in their family. "Deidre, come in here, please." Jasmine called from the kitchen where she had just finished making the snacks for the party. Deidre walked into the room looking concerned, "OK, Momma, is everything OK?" queried Deidre, puzzled because she could not imagine what her Mom would want. Jasmine looked at her daughter and smiled. Truth be told, they looked more like sisters than mother and daughter. Jasmine reached into her bag and pulled out a jewelry case. "Here, baby," she said to Dee, "This is for you." Deidre opened the gift and tears came to her eyes. Inside the box was the locket that her Grandma Gigi gave to her mother. Her mother never took the pendant off and now she was giving it to her. She opened the locket and inside was a picture of her, Mom, and her Grandmother that was taken when she was three years old. Deidre leaped forward and threw her arms around her mother's neck. She hugged her mother tightly as she remembered how special her Grandmother was to them. Deidre wanted nothing more than to make her mother and grandmother proud. "I love you Momma," Deidre told her Mom as she slowly released her from her tight embrace. "I know. I love you too baby. I want you to know that I am so proud of you." Jasmine said with a beaming smile as she looked into her baby girl's glittering eyes. "Now, let's set up for this party. You go and check on the drinks in the cooler, and I'll finish the snacks." "Yes Ma'am," Deidre answered, excited about her party because it was the first one she'd have without Momma being around. She had only one best friend, Sierra, and a few people she liked to hang with. There were also the girls from her art class. Well, there was only one guy she really wanted to come, but she would invite as few more just to keep the peace. Sierra helped her plan her party last month and told her that both her brothers would definitely attend the party. She even invited Cameron, even though he probably could not make it because he had to work. As Jasmine was leaving, Sierra arrived to help Dee set up and Dee showed her the locket her Mom had given her. Sierra admired the beautiful locket and helped Deidre to clasp it around her neck. Jasmine relayed her rules to both Deidre and Sierra confident in her beliefs that both girls were reliable, trustworthy, and responsible young women. Soon after she left, the rest of the guest started to arrive and the party started. The party was set to start at eight. By nine, all of the people Dee had invited had arrived. Even a few people she didn't invite came, but that was alright, because there was plenty of room and food. Cameron called earlier that day to wish Deidre a happy birthday, but told her he wouldn't be able to make it to her party because he had to work. She was glad to hear from him and thanked him for calling. Around ten thirty, Derrick and Darius made it to the party. They decided to dress alike and wore black jeans with matching polo shorts. When Derrick and Darius walked in, Dee held her breath.Her eyes were riveted on Darius.She was drawn to him like a moth to a flame and tonight he would finally see her as a woman. First, she looked into his deep brown chocolate eyes and felt her body began to melt. He licked his luscious lips and she almost creamed her panties as she continued to admire his dark chocolate skin. Her eyes continued on their downward journey and landed on his thick muscular chest encased in a black and green polo shirt that she just wanted to rip from his body. Her eyes continued downward and landed on his crotch.Nice package she thought as her eyes continued to roam. She dressed especially for him. She wore a black form-fitting mini-dress that she and Sierra had purchased from the mall two days ago. She made sure her hair and makeup was applied perfectly. There was no way Darius would mistake her for a little girl after tonight. Deidre sauntered over to greet her guests? "Hey, guys, I'm glad you could make it," Deidre smiled as she gave each guy big hug. She held on to Darius just a little bit longer and a little bit tighter. "Girl," replied Derrick, "You know we wouldn't miss this." He gave her his gift. "Happy birthday sweetness," he said as he kissed her on the cheek. Deidre thanked Derrick by gently returning his peck on the cheek much to Darius's dismay. "Um hum!" Darius cleared his throat. Watching his brother hug and kiss Deidre on the cheek bothered him for some reason. He chuckled "Save some for me, damn girl." When did Deidre grow up to be so damn fine? he wondered. He took a moment to really admire her beauty. She was light, thick, and round in all the right places. He had to have her. Whoa, whoa, whoa, what am I thinking? This is Deidre, my baby sister's best friend since kindergarten. She's off limits to me! Dee turned towards Darius and her heart thudded in her chest. Darius gave her a gift and light kiss on the cheek. He whispered in her ear, "Happy birthday, baby girl." He gave her a tight hug for a short time and then decided to go and join the party. Everyone was dancing when Deidre's favorite song "How to Love" from Lil' Wayne's blared out of the speakers. She grabbed Sierra and her friend Jason and they hit the dance floor. Darius watched Deidre dance with his sister and the other guy, but he did not like the fact that the guy kept touching them. He especially did not like how familiarly he touched Deidre. After staring for a few minutes, Darius had enough of watching Jason put the moves to his woman. He decided to stop it and danced up to Deidre from behind, placed his hands on her waist, and proceeded to grind against her. Deidre got into the dance and began to grind back on him. He cleverly maneuvered her away from the dance floor and down the hall to her bedroom. Darius was blown away by Deidre. She felt so good in his arms. He would love to hold onto her forever. He leaned over and whispered in her ear, "Dee, baby, we need to talk." "Ok," Deidre replied nervously as he led her into the bedroom. Once they were inside the bedroom, Deidre turned on her lights and Darius locked the door so no one would disturb them. Deidre looked at Darius as her heart hammered away in her chest. This was the moment she had been waiting for. Darius grabbed her by the waist and pulled her close. He tilted her head backwards with his finger and covered her lips with his. At the touch of his lips, Deidre's body combusted into flames. If felt like electric currents were firing all through entire being. She could not breathe. She heard someone moan, only to realize it was her. At the sound of her moan, Darius's desire for this girl skyrocketed and fire shot straight to his groin. Deidre and her sexy moans were driving him crazy. He wanted her like he had never wanted anyone else. Darius pulled back and looked in her eyes. "Wait, baby, I wanna talk to you." Darius tried to explain as he slowly pulled away from her. Her eyes were glowing, cheeks flushed, and her skin was so hot. He trailed her cheek with his fingertip. "Dee, I want to..." Deidre was tired of waiting and stopped him from speaking by abruptly and forcefully covering his lips with hers. She rubbed the entire length of her body against his. Deidre felt like she was on fire "I don't wanna talk anymore. I wanna feel," she moaned. "I want you so bad Darius, I need you now." She tried to wrap her legs around his body so she could press her wet heat against his hard steel that she felt rubbing against her. "Dee, baby, are you sure about this?" he asked. Even though neither of them had said anything about being intimate before, he knew they would be together tonight. Deidre stared at him, because she was speechless. She had never wanted a man as much as she wanted him. "Answer me. Please baby, just say yes," Darius pleaded. Deidre was nervous and her heart was in her throat. She had never been with anyone and knew she wanted her first time to be with him. But since she was a complete novice at this she did not know what to do to move the action along. Deidre looked into the eyes of the one guy she ever wanted, and simply nodded her head, yes. That was all Darius needed. He really wished he could take her to bed and worship her body, but they were at her birthday party and someone might come looking for her, so he had to be quick. Darius was extremely excited. He began kissing her neck. He palmed her breast and strummed the hard pebbled nipples. He could smell her arousal and sense the moisture that gathered between her thighs. He slid his hand under her skirt lifting it up until he reached the prize waiting at the apex of her thighs. He rubbed her gently, reveling in the fact that she was this wet for him. He slid his hands inside her panties and was met with a searing heat. Her silk panties were soaked. He pushed her panties aside and slid his fingers inside her slit. He finger-fucked her a few minutes; manipulating her clit until he felt her insides quake around his fingers. He removed his fingers from her hotbox and inhaled the scent of her heat-infused sex as it filled the room. He had to taste it. He licked her hot cream off of his fingers. She tasted divine and he knew he would kill any other man that tried to touch her this way. She was his and tonight he would claim her. After he finished tonight, Deidre Barnes was being placed on lockdown, and him Darius Granger would be the soul holder of that key. Deidre was overwhelmed, she closed her eyes and was amazed by the feelings Darius was causing her to feel. Deidre was breathing hard, she couldn't focus, and all she could think about was the amazing feeling he was giving her. "Unfasten my jeans," he told her softly. She dropped her hands from his neck and unhooked his belt and jeans. "Push 'em down baby," he moaned. She pushed down his jeans and boxers down to his knees. "Stroke me, hard." He demanded. Deidre circled his cock with her hand and began to stroke it up and down. "Harder!" Darius commanded. She squeezed him even tighter. "Shit, girl," Darius grunted, "I need to be inside you." "Hold up," he grunted as he went inside his jeans to retrieve a condom. Darius took a second to put on the condom. He pulled her close once more and gave her another soul-searing kiss. Huskily he moaned, "Wrap your legs around me," as he bit and sucked on her neck. He grabbed her behind and lifted her off the floor and leaned her against her bedroom door. Deidre wrapped her right leg around his waist. He held her steady with his right hand while he prepared to take possession of her with his left. Darius pushed her panties to the side, positioned his member at her dripping opening, and slammed every inch of his engorged member inside of her. At the moment that he took possession of her, he covered her mouth in a possessive kiss absorbing her scream of discomfort. Deidre was shaking. She knew it would be painful, but she wasn't expecting it to be that intense. He felt huge, like he was ripping her in two. She just wrapped her legs around his waist and held on for dear life. She buried her face in the crook of his neck as he began to piston in and out of her. "Damn, Dee, you're tight." Darius moaned. He began to piston in and out even faster. Eventually the pain subsided, and it started to feel good. Deidre loved the feel of him inside of her stretching her open. She was feeling sensations she had never felt before. Her body started to quiver and she felt a pleasure so intense that it took her breathe away as her body clenched around his invading member. "Oh God!" Deidre moaned as Darius gave her pleasure she had never dreamed of. "Damn!" Darius shouted as he climaxed and filled the condom with his sperm. He said a few things to her, helped her to fix her clothes and walked out of her bedroom. Deidre went into her mother's bathroom to clean up and before going back to her party. She looked at her reflection in the mirror as she realized that she had just became a woman After a few deep breaths, she wondered, Will people look at me and see what I did with him? I don't look any different. When Deidre came from her mom's bathroom she found Sierra looking for her. She didn't want to tell her friend what just happened, so she pretended nothing unusual had happened at all. A Warning Issued Cameron stared into rearview mirror of his car. He didn't really plan to go to the prom; honestly he had no desire to attend it, until he learned that Jake Smythe had invited Sierra. He knew that it was going to be trouble. Deidre Barnes, Sierra's best friend, stopped him as he was leaving work one night. He had to pick up his father's medicine and pick up Rosa from the sitter. "Hey Cam, hold up!" yelled Deidre. "I know you heard that Sierra is letting that fool Jake take her to the prom. You know he is a loser and probably up to no good." Deidre said to Cameron as he was headed to his car. Cameron froze. He turned around to look at Deidre. He had heard rumors, but was hoping they were untrue. His blood began to boil. Out of all the guys in the school she could have gone out with, she was going with that fool. Hell, no! His fist clench tightly and his heart began to accelerate. He decided to try and play it off, but his emotions were clearly written all over his face which was a red mask of fury. "Why are you telling me about this, Deidre? Shouldn't you run and warn Darius and Derrick? They will take care of that fool. I can't do anything about who she chooses to date." Cameron growled as he looked away so Deidre could not see how angry he really was. "I know you care about Sierra. You think you hide it, but remember I know you. You don't like the idea of her dating that creep any more than I do. Ask her to go to the prom with you. She will drop him like a bad habit. You know this," Deidre replied excitedly. Cameron looked away and would not respond. "If he does something to her, you will regret it." Deidre became exasperated, threw her hands up and walked away. Sierra knows that guy's an asshole. Cameron thought. What on earth would possess her to go anywhere with that creep! What the fuck are Darius and Derrick thinking? Do they know about this and what do they plan to do about it? He was fuming inside the more he thought about this. Sierra was not allowed to be around that bastard and he would make sure Jake and any other guy that wanted to date her knew that Sierra was off limits. Overcome by his emotions, Cameron punched the side of his dad's 1984 Chevrolet Chevette and dented the frame. His knuckles were bruised, but he didn't feel them. He had a creep to keep an eye on. He was going to the prom. He wouldn't waste money on a suit. He would just wear the one he had in his closet. He needed a date. Buffy Weeks kept flirting with him. Maybe, she still felt like slumming. He called her to ask and she squealed her reply. Cameron now had a date to the prom, not the one he wanted, but a date none the less. The prom was the biggest social event at Hillside High School. Sierra was happy to be invited and she would be only one of ten juniors that were invited to the prom. She decided that she needed new dress. She needed not only a new dress, but a dress Cameron Richards could not help but notice. At first, she was not going to go to the prom when Jake asked. She wanted Cameron to ask her or not go at all. Unfortunately, she heard Cameron telling some guys that he had to work prom night so he wasn't going. Jake was persistent and even though she felt he was an annoying jerk, she could not think of a good enough reason to refuse him. Secretly she cursed herself for always wanting to be kind, even to a creep like Jake. When Darius and Derrick found out who her date was, they were furious. Derrick was walking out of his pre-calculus class when he heard Jake Smythe bragging about getting a date with Sierra to the prom. He called Darius on his cell and told him to meet him in the hall pronto. Jake was so busy boasting, he didn't see Sierra's brothers walk up behind him. But, his two friends saw Darius and Derrick approaching, so they quickly made themselves scarce. Jake was wondering where they were rushing off to when he felt a hand grab him by the scruff of his neck and slam him in to a locker. He knew right away it was one of Sierra's brothers. Jake turned around slowly and stared into the anger filled eyes of Darius and Derrick Granger. "Hello, guys," Jake croaked. His heart was beating rapidly. He was terrified and there was no way he could escape. "What do you guys want?" Derrick stood next to Jake on his right and Darius stood to his left. Neither boy took their eyes off of their prey. They did not like Jake Smythe and especially hated that he had started sniffing around their sister. "Listen up, snake, sorry, Jake," hissed Derrick in his right ear. "You are not taking our sister anywhere. Call her and make up some excuse, but if you like having all of your limbs, I suggest you find another date," Derrick hissed angrily. Darius didn't say anything. He stared Jake down; then he suddenly shoved him into the lockers. "No, don't call and cancel. But know this, we will be watching you. You try some shit. It will be the last shit you try." "Darius?" Derrick started to ask. "We'll talk later Derrick," Darius stated. "Let's take care of this asshole." The boys grabbed Jake to rough him up a little when Mr. Peeps, the assistant principal, walked around the corner. "What's going on boys?" asked Mr. Peeps. "Nothing," replied Darius and Derrick as they dropped Jake to the floor. "We were helping our friend Jake." They replied sarcastically. Jake stood between them and said nothing. Mr. Peeps looked at Jake. "Are they telling the truth Mr. Smythe? Is everything alright?" Shadows of Resentment Ch. 02 "Yes, sir," Jake answered quietly. "We were just heading to class." "Well, you boys are going to be late. You'd better hurry." Mr. Peeps informed them. Jake quickly moved away from the brothers and rushed down the hall. Darius and Derrick exchanged a look signaling they would talk later and then went on to class. Mr. Peep stood in the hall until all three boys had cleared it. Derrick stopped immediately and faced his brother. "Darius, what the fuck was that? What do you mean he can take her? We don't want Sierra going anywhere with that asshole!" Derrick yelled at his brother. Darius took a deep breath. "Look Derrick, you know how Sierra is. He'll tell her we threatened him and she'll want to go with him just because she's mad. At least this way that fool knows we're watching him. Besides," Darius continued, "we're gonna have a long talk with our baby sister when we get home." Then he and Derrick went on to class. When the twins made it home they had a little talk with their baby sister. "What? Sierra, you have lost your mind?" Darius screamed at Sierra's when they made it home afterschool that day. "How low can you get and accept an invitation from a creep like him? Are you so desperate to go to the prom?" Darius fumed. He didn't like Jake. Mayor Smythe was his dad and he was a snake. As his son, he couldn't be that different from his Dad. Derrick chimed in, "I agree with Darius on this Sierra. Jake is bad news. You don't need to go anywhere with him." Although Sierra agreed with her brothers to a certain degree, she wouldn't let them run her life. "Look, you know I love you guys' right? But I'm grownup now and if I want to go to the prom with Jake, Jeb, or even the Boogeyman, I have that right." Sierra declared. She sighed and continued, "I know you don't like him, but it's just a dance. Nothing will happen. Besides if he does try anything, you two will be there. I'll just scream for you alright?" "Sierra, that guy is bad news. I don't like this," stated Derrick. He was feeling really apprehensive about this date. "Alright, Sierra, just know this, if he does anything to you. He's done for." Darius explained as he gave his sister a big hug. The Mall-Before Prom The first Saturday of April Sierra picked up Deidre to go dress shopping in the nearby mall. They were snooping around in a little shop called "Journey's Boutique" when Sierra whispered to her friend, "I know I should be hyped and all that, but actually... I don't want to go. Not with Jake at least. I know I said I'd go with him, but I don't know, I'm getting a bad vibe. It's just, well never mind." Sierra sounded rather defeated. Deride eyed her friend and agreed. "You're not the only one having a bad vibe about that creep Jake. Why did you accept his invitation in the first place?" "Don't know, he kept asking and asking. Actually sounding sincere, after a while I thought why not? Cam isn't going to ask me to the prom, now is he?" "He probably won't. Your brothers do know who you're going with?" Deidre asked, knowing that her brothers had serious issue with Jake and his sister. Sierra nodded. "Yes, and they have already demanded that I cancel the date. You know how those two are." She shrugged. "Well in that case, they'll keep an eye on you. I still don't like that guy one bit, but with your brothers around you'll be fine," Deidre stated. She reminded herself to call Derrick later and to make sure they were doing exactly that. Sierra was pensive for a moment. She was not really comfortable with her choice as a date. Maybe she should cancel and not go at all. However, it would not be fair to Jake just to dump him because of her nerves. She figured she would be fine. Her brother's would be there and Jake wouldn't dare try anything with them around. "Oooh! Girl! Check this out!" exclaimed Sierra. "If I buy this dress, I would be the hottest girl there. I'd love for him to see what I'm wearing," Sierra gushed to her best friend. "Yeah, Jake's eyes will definitely pop out," Deidre mumbled under her breath. "No, not Jake, Cam. Sorry. I guess it would be Jake," Sierra said dejectedly as she placed the dress back on the rack. Deidre shook her head." Girl anyone with eyes in their heads can see that you are gone over Cameron. You watch him all the time. When he's around, you can't even breathe. You get nervous and stammer. I'm your best friend. Hell, I knew you used to look at him while I was dating him," Deidre added in laughing. Sierra immediately started to apologize, "I'm sorry......I never said anything to him and I would never go behind your...." Deidre, with a wave of her hand, cut her off, "Come on girl, why do you think I dated that fool in the first place. I wanted to make sure he was good enough for my girl." She squeezed Sierra tightly in a small hug. "You know what," she continued, "He is damn near perfect. And I'll tell you something else; he is crushing on you big time. Too bad your bone-headed brothers keep being asses and won't let you date him. He really is a good guy." After they broke up, and after they had their talk, Deidre would often tease Cameron with his crush on Sierra. His avoiding behavior only showed her the depth of his feelings towards her best friend. "I'll bet you know all about crushing, don't you", Sierra giggled. Deidre looked puzzled. "Girl, what are you talking about?" asked Deidre perplexed. "Not what? Who?" Sierra laughed. "My big bone-headed brother, Darius, is who." Sierra stated as she burst out laughing. Deidre's face flamed beet red and she looked away. She smiled and said, "Girl, what can I say. You know how much I love dark chocolate." Deidre zoned out for a moment as she thought back at her birthday party and the stolen moment between Darius and herself. Both girls burst into laughter and then went back to looking for the perfect dresses to wear to the dance. "Come on girl let's find the hottest dresses for the dance," Sierra said as she spied a rust-colored gown hanging across from them. Sierra rushed across the store and pulled the dress off of the rack and showed Deidre. It was stunning. It was the perfect dress for her. With her hair, and her complexion, if she wore this dress, she would be smoking hot. Darius would not be able to keep his eyes off of her. "Deidre, look at this dress," squealed Sierra, "its perfect." Deidre looked at the dress and agreed with Sierra wholeheartedly. It was a dark maroon color that would go well with her complexion. The contoured bodice would help contain her voluptuous breasts. The skirt was long and fitted. This was the type of dress she dreamed of owning. "How much does it cost?" she asked. Sierra told her the price and it was a tad expensive. Besides she still had to purchase shoes and accessories also. So she decided to look for something more fitting to her budget. With a longing look she said goodbye to the one dress she would prefer to have. Sierra went back to a dress she had spied earlier. The dress was too damn sexy. She wouldn't buy it because : One: She wouldn't be allowed to leave the house in it. Two: Her brothers would place her on lockdown, and Three: There is only one man she would want to wear a dress like that for and he wasn't interested. The girls looked around Journey's for a while longer until they found two near perfect dresses. Deidre found a deep lavender gown with a princess collar and a long flowing skirt. The bodice was a little snug, but she would be able to alter it with no problem. Sierra found a royal blue gown that accentuated her curves. It had a teardrop collar that showed off her ample cleavage appealingly. Each girl took a moment to look back at the dresses that they really wanted before making their purchases and walking out of the store. "I really like that other dress, but I want to be able to actually go to the prom," Sierra sighed. "Can you imagine what my brothers would do if I tried to wear that? Shit, they'd go bonkers!" she said as she laughed. Secret Number Two As they exited Journey's, the girls headed over to the food court to get a snack. The smell of fresh-baked pretzels and cookies filled the air. Deidre's color blanched and her stomach rolled; she knew she would be sick. She quickly mumbled, "Excuse me" to Sierra and dashed off the nearest restroom. Sierra carried their packages to the security booth and took off after her friend wondering why she suddenly became ill. When Sierra entered the restrooms, she found her best friend bent over a commode regurgitating everything she had eaten that day. She squeezed herself besides Deidre and gently held her hair back until she finished. Sierra was very concerned now. "Hey, are you Ok?" she asked. "Do you need to call your Mom or go to the hospital?" "Naw," replied Deidre weakly, "It's probably just some bug. I feel better already." Deidre got up off the floor and started to leave the bathroom. Neither girl noticed that Hanna Smythe and her crew had entered the restroom while they were preoccupied. As the girls started to walk past, Hanna whispered under her breath to one of her friends, "Yea, I'll bet it's a nine month bug." She and her friends burst out laughing. Upon hearing this, Sierra became angry. No one would make snide remarks and spread rumors about her friend. She asked Deidre to get their bags from security and to wait for her outside. When Deidre walked out, Sierra turned to face Hanna. In a low serious voice Sierra said to Hanna, "You want to repeat that shit again? I dare you. Don't you dare talk about my friend like that. If I hear of you, or any of these dumb girls you hang with, talking about my friend again, it'll be the last rumor you spread, understand?" She didn't even wait for an answer, just turned and left the restroom, where she found Deidre waiting for her. She looped her arm around Sierra's and together they left the mall. Ignoring and pretending there was nothing wrong were two things that no longer were an option, if they ever were one. After what had just happened she realized she had to deal with it. When the girl's reached Deidre's Nissan, she began to shake and cry uncontrollably. Sierra held her friend tightly and told her it would be alright. She would stand with her no matter what. Deidre looked at her best friend and knew she would have to share her secret. She just hoped their friendship could survive it. With tears running down her red splotchy cheeks, Deidre revealed the truth to her best friend. "Sierra," whispered Deidre, "I'm pregnant." Sierra froze, to say she was shocked was an understatement. She hugged her friend even tighter reassuring her that she would be there for her no matter what. "Does he know?" Sierra asked her friend softly after she was all cried out. Deidre dried her tears and sat up straight, "No, I haven't told him and I'm not going to." She stared out the window, thinking of how quickly Darius had removed himself from her and ushered her to get cleaned up and rejoin the party. She thought they had connected but she felt a bit used, now unsure of what to make of him. One month earlier "Damn, girl, that was good. Whew! I'm glad I had that condom. You are on the pill right? I don't want no rug-rats." Darius nuzzled her neck and sucked gently on her skin. With her light coloring she knew there would be a bruise. Darius step back after his cock had fallen from her body. He looked down and saw that his cock was coated with a light sheen of blood. "Damn girl, you were on your period, now that's nasty," he chuckled. "Hell, I've got to clean up. Get back to your party before Sierra misses you. Damn, you're a real freak." He gave her a soul-searing kiss and then walked off to the bathroom to clean himself. "Deidre!" called Sierra breaking her friend's reverie. "You have to tell him. Cameron has a right to know that he's going to be a father." Sierra felt heartbroken. Her best friend pregnant with Cameron's baby! She had no clue how to handle that, but what she did know was that she couldn't abandon her friend. "It's not Cameron's," Deidre whispered. "We never had sex. We were better off as friends." Deidre's heart hammered in her chest. She was so afraid of what her friend would think of her. Her hands were shaking. She could not breathe. She waited anxiously dreading the next question. "Then who's is it?" asked Sierra in a quiet voice. "If not Cameron, then who is the father of your baby?" "Darius," Deidre spoke so softly Sierra could barely hear her. Sierra gasped. That was one name she wasn't expecting to hear. "Promise me you won't say anything!" implored Deidre, "I'm not going to keep it. I have an appointment for a test on Monday and once it's confirmed, I'll get an abortion next week." Deidre explained. Sierra was stunned as she heard her friend say Darius was the father, not Cameron. Not to mention Deidre planned on having it aborted. How could she not tell Darius? He would be fuming if he found out. Sierra was torn and lost with what to do now. Deidre looked a bit defeated at the silence of her best friend. She had hoped she would say something, anything at all. Letting out a heavy sigh she started the car and drove home. Both girls wrestled with their own inner demons. Not So Secret Deidre pulled up in front of Sierra's house and the girls looked at each other. "Did you take a home test? Let's go to Xander's and buy one. I'll go home with you while you take it. It might be a false alarm." Sierra rattled off desperately trying to figure out another possible solution for her friend. "I already took a home test," Deidre replied softly, "I took it before I picked you up this morning. I'm pregnant, Sierra. I'm just going to Dr. Greene to confirm it. I have to have official test results to take to the Briarsville Clinic." "Deidre, what about Darius? He has a right to know. You can't expect me to keep a secret like this from my brother. It's his baby too!" Sierra argued with her friend. "On Monday, I will go to Dr. Green's office with you. But if it's positive, you'll have to tell Darius. If you don't I will. This is something you two will have to decide together. If you don't he'll hate you for the rest of your life! Just look at his grudge towards Cameron." Deidre dropped her head, "OK, Sierra, but tonight's the prom. We have been planning on enjoying this dance for months. Promise me you won't say anything until Monday. Just until Monday, and then I will tell him myself." Deidre stared at her friend with her eyes full of fear at the prospect of this secret coming out before she got a handle on it. Sierra looked at her best friend that was more like a sister. She wished there was something she could do to take away her pain and worry. The only thing she could do right now was be her friend. "I won't say anything, but Deidre I want you to know you are not alone here. I will help you in any way I can." "I know," whispered Deidre, "Thanks." They embraced each other before Sierra got out of the car, gathered her bags, and went to her house on her doorstep she turned and watched her friend drive off. Jasmine decided to put out the trash and was gathering the trash from Deidre's bathroom when she found the test. Her heart stopped in her chest. Shocked, was the only word that could describe how she felt. This was the one thing she never wanted for her daughter and she did everything she could to keep it from happening. She talked to her about safe sex when she was fourteen. She took her to get on birth control when she was fifteen, so how could this have happened? Jasmine took the test from the trash and moved it to the kitchen table. It was time to talk to her daughter when she came home. She heard Deidre drive up and realized that her reaction could affect her daughter in many ways. Thinking about her own mom's reaction she hoped she knew how to handle this. "Deidre, sit-down." Jasmine told her daughter as soon as she entered the house. She took one look at her Mom's face and then saw the test lying in front of her on the table. Her secret was out. Jasmine spoke as she looked at the test and then back at Deidre, "Out of all of the things I wanted for you, this was not one of them. How did this happen?" Deidre began to sob and apologize to her Mom immediately. She knew her Mom was suspicious. She kept asking her was everything alright and she lied to her repeatedly. Nothing frightened her more that disappointing her Mom. "Mommy," she sobbed, "I'm so sorry. I forgot to take the pills. He used a condom, but it didn't work." Deidre continued to sob, "I'm sorry, Mommy. I didn't mean to cause you shame. This is not your problem and I will take care of it. I'm sorry, Mommy. Please forgive me." Deidre completely broke down. Jasmine gathered her daughter in her arms and held her while she cried. "Shhhhh", Jasmine cooed as she soothed her distraught child. "It's going to be OK baby. There's nothing to forgive and nothing to be ashamed of." "You're not the first girl to get pregnant unexpectedly, and I don't want you to punish yourself for this," Jasmine whispered to Deidre. "Look at me, Deidre. Look at me!" she commanded. She placed her hands on Deidre's cheeks and brought her face up to look at her. "Listen to me. You are my baby and I am not mad at you. You are bright, kind, and beautiful. You have nothing to be ashamed of or feel guilty about," her Mom explained as she held her. "Listen for a minute. I was seventeen when I met your father. He promised me the world and much more. Grandma didn't like him, but I was in love," Jasmine explained. Deidre sat quietly sobbing as she listened to her Mom. Jasmine continued, "When I was eighteen, I missed my period. I kept quiet for two months. After the second month, I told Eddie. We were both young and afraid. We skipped school on a Wednesday to go to the free clinic." Deidre embraced her mother tightly, Jasmine sighed and proceeded, "When the doctor read the results and told me I was pregnant, I was never so scared. Momma had one big rule. I was not to bring any babies in her house, and there I was eighteen and pregnant." Jasmine stopped, lost in a painful memory before she finished. "I thought Eddie would stand with me, but the next day at school he told everyone that would listen that I was pregnant and it wasn't his. I came home that night went to my room and started to pack my clothes." Deidre watched her mother take a deep breath as she finished her tale. "I didn't know anyone and I had nowhere to go. But I messed up and I wasn't about to be a burden on Momma. Momma came home and found me packing. She asked me what was wrong. I wouldn't answer." Jasmine smiled, "But she already knew. Do you know what she said to me? She held me and told me that it was going to be alright. And you know what baby?" Jasmine asked. "What happened?" Deidre asked, tears still rolling from her cheeks. "She was right. Listen, I'm going to help you with this baby just like Momma helped me. We're the Barnes girls. We're strong, brilliant, and independent women who can take care of ourselves. And, you know what, we will be fine. Understand?" Jasmine declared as she smiled at her baby girl. "Thank you, Momma," Deidre whispered as she held on to her Mom. "I love you, so much," she said as she continued to sob softly. Jasmine held her until she stopped crying than asked the million dollar question, "What did Darius say when you told him?". Deidre was stunned, "Wait, I didn't say whose baby this is." She looked at her Mom and asked, "How did you know it was him?" Jasmine laughed, "Girl, that boy has been strutting around you like a rooster guarding his hen house. I could tell from the way you two have been acting that something happened." Dee whispered quietly to her Mom, "He doesn't know. I haven't told him." Shadows of Resentment Ch. 02 "Well," said Jasmine, "You need to tell him soon." She got up and stood behind her daughter. Hugging Deidre from behind, she kissed the topped of her head. "Now girl," she said, "Don't you have a prom to get ready for? I'll help you get dressed and I'll do your hair and makeup. What time will Jason be picking you up?" "At seven," Deidre answered. "I've got a few hours before he gets here," she told her Mom. "Go soak in the tub for a while before you get dressed okay," Jasmine told her. "I've got to finish cleaning down here." Deidre hugged her Mom and went to the bathroom to do what her Mom told her too. Downstairs, as soon as Deidre had left the room, Jasmine let her tears fall, her heart was crushed. She remembered how hard it was for her, even with her Mom's help. She would help her daughter as much as she could, but just like her Mom. She would let her raise her own child. Jasmine only hoped that once Darius knew what was going on, he would do the right thing and not treat Deidre like Eddie treated her. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 03 First of all, thank you everyone for taking time to read this story. Your words of support mean so much. I want to thank Mokkelke especially because she has really helped me write this tale. She is amazing. Any errors found throughout this story are clearly my doing and are no reflection on her. So please, simply enjoy the tale. I must warn you, however. This chapter contains graphic violence. If violence offends you, I apologize in advance. Please read the story and enjoy. Remember to vote and leave feedback. Feedback is valued and always welcomed. Again thank you. The Prom It was a quarter till seven and Sierra's date, Jake Smythe, would be picking her up soon. Even though she had agreed to go to the prom with him, she had serious reservations. Unfortunately, it was prom night and she felt obligated to see it through. But honestly, she really wanted to be with Cameron. Marge and Marvin summoned their kids to the living room so they could see how they looked before they left with their dates. Her brothers were dressed and ready to go pickup their dates. They both looked amazing in their black tuxedoes, completed with a pair of wing-tipped Stacy Adams. Sierra was stunning in her gown, her brothers and her parents were quickly telling her how breathtakingly beautiful she was. She basked in their praise and was thankful that she had such a supportive family. Derrick walked over to his sister and hugged her. "Sierra," he told her, "You are a true beauty. Tell Jake that if he tries something, he's done." She laughed and playfully pushed her brother away. "I'll be fine. You just keep a close eye on your date." Darius came up and gave his sister a hug also, reminding her that he had her back. Meanwhile, Jake Smythe, was riding to Sierra's house to pick her up in the limo. He had waited for months to get Sierra alone and tonight he'd get his chance. Even though, her brothers has essentially collared him and threatened him with bodily harm if something happened to their sister, he still was determined to have her tonight. Hannah, who was also in the limo with her brother, watched him grin evilly as he seemed to daydream about something. She didn't know why he wanted to spend time with Sierra, personally she didn't like her. After her encounter with her earlier at the mall she wanted nothing to do with the girl. Even after her brother's had threatened him, Jake was more determined to take Sierra to the prom. She had an eerie feeling that Jake was up to something. She just hoped he didn't get himself hurt. Earlier that day when Sierra came back from the mall, Marge felt like something was off. She went to Sierra to find out what was wrong. However, Sierra assured her that everything was fine. Although she hated lying to her mother, she didn't want to break her promise to her best friend. Marge was aware of her daughter's ambivalence about accompanying Jake Smythe to the dance. She asked Sierra if she was really sure about going, but her daughter had told her it would all be fine. Marge didn't like the feelings of uncertainty that she felt, so she told the twins to keep a close eye on their sister. The boys assured her that they would. Now Marge and Marvin stood in the foyer of their living room watching their son's leave to pick up their dates and waiting for their daughter's date to arrive. The couple felt a sense of foreboding, but hoped it would all work out. They were aware of the protectiveness the twins expressed towards their sister. Sierra had gone back to her bedroom and sat on her bed nervously waiting for her date to arrive. She wasn't really excited about her date with Jake as much as she was wishing this date with him was over. She was concerned about her friend Deidre, and was wondering how she was doing. Jake's car pulled up and he excitedly rushed to Sierra's front door. When he rang the doorbell, Marvin greeted him at the door. Jake entered the house and exchanged pleasantries with her parents. As Sierra entered the room, Jake's chin dropped because she was more beautiful than ever. "Sierra, you are beautiful," said Jake in awe, as he stared at her unabashedly. Sierra blushed. She was happy that her date thought she was so pretty. Although her mom, dad, and brothers had told her the same thing, it felt different coming from someone who was not related to her. She politely returned the compliment and said, "You look very handsome yourself, Jake." "We'd better get going. Hanna and Kevin are waiting in the limo and you know how my sister is," added Jake chuckling. Marvin shook his hand and told him to his baby back home by two am. Jake agreed and the two young people headed out of the door. "Hmm, hello", Hanna greeted Sierra snidely when she climbed into the limo. "Tonight, you'll get to see how the other half lives. Don't let it go to your head. My brother just felt like slumming tonight," she sneered. Sierra couldn't stand Hanna Smythe and immediately regretted her decisions this evening. She narrowed her eyes and silently reminded Hanna of the conversation that occurred between them earlier at the mall. "I'm sure I'll have fun tonight. Thanks," Sierra replied and the she crossed her arms and sat back on her seat to try and enjoy her first ride in a limo. Ten minutes later, the limo arrived at the gymnasium where the prom was being held. All four occupants exited the limo and went inside. The gym was decorated in midnight blue and silver. There were disco balls that glittered and sparkled from the ceiling of the massive room. A local deejay was hired to play music and was stationed center stage. Several small set of tables and chairs surrounded the outer edge of the dance floor. A table full of refreshment and drinks were off to the side and there was a short line of people gathering snacks. Sierra separated from Jake for a moment to walk around and see if Deidre or her brothers had arrived. While she was looking for them, she bumped into Cameron and his date, Sandra. "Excuse me," Sierra said to the person she had accidentally walked into. Cameron's heart slammed into his chest at the sound of her voice. It was the most melodious sound he had heard in ages. He turned around and was stunned at her beauty. For a brief second, he forgot he was at the dance with someone else. He wondered if she could hear the way his heart pounded in his chest. He simply stared and took in her beauty. His date, Sandra, was not going to be ignored. "You need to watch where you're walking," she told Sierra snidely. Then she hooked her arm into the crook of Cameron's arm and pulled him away from Sierra. Sierra didn't respond because she was stunned to be standing so close to the man that she dreamed about for so long. After Cam and Sandra walked away, Sierra saw Deidre sitting at table with Jason across the room. She quickly made her way to the table. "Hey girl!" Deidre greeted her as she approached the table while the two girls hugged each other. Sierra even gave Jason a light hug. Jason left them alone for a moment to get some refreshments. "How are you?" she inquired of her friend. Sierra placed her hand on top of Deidre's to let her know that no matter what, she was determined to stand by her. Deidre replied and smiled, "I'm OK. Momma knows and she's OK. We'll be fine, now let's enjoy this dance," she said as she pulled her friend to the dance floor. Jake was standing by the refreshment table with Kevin when Jason walked up. Kevin had just poured vodka in the punch and Jake was pouring a glass of the drink for Sierra. He knew that if she drank several cups of the punch, she would be too impaired to resist him. Jake looked across the room and saw Sierra sitting with her friend and smiled. In the fall, at the homecoming game, Sierra caught Jake's eye. She was wearing a t-shirt with a pair of skinny jeans that hugged her ass like a second skin. He looked at her and wanted her. Turning on the charm, he played the role of a nice guy and tried to get her to go out with him. She refused each time he asked. He overheard her and Deidre talking about the prom and realized that Sierra didn't have a date. He begged, pleaded, and even lied to get her to go with him. Even though she was reluctant at first, she finally agreed to go with him. As a player and master manipulator, Jake knew how to convince people he was harmless, however, her brothers didn't buy it. They threatened him, so tonight was time to get even. Sierra was a "good girl". The rumor was she was still a virgin and Jake wanted to be the one to prove or dispel that rumor. Once he shagged her, his reputation as a ladies man would be golden. Jason walked up to the table to get something to drink and he felt uneasy. Kevin and Jake made him nervous, he felt something wasn't right. He decided not to get punch for Deidre, but take her bottled water instead. Reaching behind Jake he took two bottles of water out of the cooler. Jake looked across the room and saw his date. He quickly picked up her cup of the spiked punch and took it to her. "Here you go, sweetheart, drink up," he whispered in her ear. Jason tried offering her some bottled water, but Sierra wanted the punch instead. The kids stayed at the dance for about two hours. Derrick and Darius arrived and consumed quite a bit of punch. Darius spent most of his time drinking punch and keeping an eye on Deidre. He had a sneaky suspicion that something wasn't right. As soon as Darius got an opportunity to talk to Deidre, he pounced. Jason left to get her a snack, so Darius joined her at the table. "Hey, Dee. How have you been?" He asked nervously. Deidre was nervous. After the encounter at her party, she didn't know how to react to him, but she didn't want to hurt Jason. It had been four weeks, and he never even tried to get in touch with her. Looking around nervously, Deidre replied, "I'm fine, Darius. I've been busy. Where is your date, Darcy?" "Darcy's dancing with Steve right now. Look, Sierra and you have been-"Darius started to state when Jason returned to the table. "Hey Darius, what's going on?" Jason greeted his friend with a fist bump. Darius withdrew from Deidre to focus on her date. Jason continued laughing, "I know you're not trying to steal my woman are you?" Darius stood, "Your woman, when did this happen?" He asked glaring at Deidre. "Tonight, isn't that right baby," Jason replied much to the chagrin of Deidre as he gave her a tight squeeze. Deidre took one look and Darius face and she wanted to escape. "Jason, let's dance." She told her date. She watched Darius as his date returned to his side as she joined her date on the dance floor. Deidre looked up and Darius was still standing and watching her. I need to talk to him about the baby but I don't know how. She thought. She held on to Jason tighter and worry creased her brow. Darius saw her tighten her embrace around Jason and felt a stab of jealousy so pronounce shoot through him. He completely ignored Darcy and watched Deidre. At this moment, he forgot about his promise to watch his sister as he took the time to watch her best friend. Derrick, whose date bailed on him at the last minute, was feeling a little depressed. He started to go back home when he remembered that he had to look out for Sierra. He saw his sister talking to her friends and having a good time. So he wasn't particularly worried. All of a sudden Mindy James and Kendra Nelly approached him. It was rumored that the two girls were sexual deviants and would engage in just about anything that caught their attention. Derrick immediately forgot about his sister for a moment and followed the two girls to the back of the gym. Prom Night- The Attack Hanna and Kevin decided to sneak out early and find some place to be alone. Sandra dumped Cameron because even after offering to rock his world he kept watching Sierra and decided to find someone else that was down to party. After drinking several glasses of punch, Sierra felt woozy. "Jake, I need to go home," she said. "OK, Sierra, let me say bye to my friends," Jake replied. Jake walked away to speak with his friends. "Hey guy, it's on now." Jake boasted to his friends. They high-fived him as he walked out of the gym carrying the impaired young woman with him. They knew what he had planned. Cameron, who was standing off in the shadows, so he could keep a closer eye on Sierra and her date, heard Jake's boast and became even more concerned. Even though he couldn't stand her brothers, he decided to let them know something was up, but he could not find them. Derrick was being entertained Mindy and Sandra in a closet. Darius had moved to an inconspicuous location to better watch Deidre and her date. After frantically searching for her brothers, Cameron gave up and wanted to make sure Sierra was alright. He looked around and did not see Jake or Sierra inside the gym. His brain went on alert. Alarms sounded in his head and he knew she was in trouble. Where the fuck are they?He thought. Cameron rushed out of the gymnasium and into the parking lot. Once Jake got outside the building he looked around to make sure no one followed them. He caught Sierra by the waist to lead her to where one of his friends had parked his car for him to use. He even had a camera to take pictures of her after to prove that he had his way with her. Sierra was disoriented, but she realized that they were moving away from the front of the gym and the car that they came to the prom in. She started to struggle and push against Jake but he was too strong. Her fear became more pronounced. Her heart began to pound loudly once she realized the peril she was in. Oh my God, what am I going to do? I've got to fight. I won't let him do this to me. she thought. "No! Stop! Jake, no!" Sierra yelled as Jake was trying to force her to pleasure him. She was felt scared, her heart pounded and she wondered Where are my brothers? They said they'd protect me. Where are they? The amount of alcohol she had consumed made her lethargic and she could hardly lift her limbs to fight him off. This made her struggle harder. "Shut up and do it, you little tease," growled Jake. "Tonight you're giving me what I want. So stop acting like you don't want this and suck it!" Jake said forcefully. His heart beat accelerated. He was excited and more than ready to find his perverse pleasure with this girl. He was a goner now, convinced that Sierra was constantly teasing him, he just had to have her, knowing he'll get the shit beaten out of him by her twin brothers couldn't sway his need. The bitch thought she was so much better than him, he'd show her what he does with little teases like her. His dad was the mayor, no one could touch him. He wanted her and he was going to have her. Sierra started to cry. "You can't make me do this!" screamed Sierra as she shoved against him. "Let! Me! Go!" she yelled at to the top of her voice. Jake grabbed her by her neck and tried to force her to her knees. He slapped her in the face when she didn't want go down on him, this causing her to fall on her back. He covered her body with his and grabbed the bodice of her dress and ripped it down the center. With her dress ripped, and her legs askew, Jake had a clear view of her barely-there underwear. Upon seeing this, Jake became extremely aroused and decided she would do more than take him in her mouth. "Shut up, bitch. I'm going to make you a woman tonight," he growled in a low voice in her ear as he reached for his zipper. Sierra, although terrified and unsteady from the amount of alcohol she was tricked into consuming, fought back and kneed him in the groin. However, her feeble attempt in freeing herself did not have the desired effect. This retaliation made Jake even angrier. Jake grabbed her neck and began to choke her until she almost passed out. She scratched and clawed at his hands. Finally, he let her go long enough to unfasten his pants so he could continue his assault. Jake was so focused on his target that he did not see the tall dark figure that was approaching them from around the corner. When Cameron made it to the center of the parking lot, he heard Sierra scream. His heart froze in his chest. He immediately turned in the direction the scream came from and took off running. Cameron just knew Sierra was in trouble. When he saw Sierra fall in the parking lot and Jake dive on top of her, he saw red. His heart stopped and he knew he had to get her out of Jake's clutches. How dare the creep put his hands on her. That girl means more to me than my own life! Cameron thought furiously. He was so angry that steam rose from the crown of his head. He took off running full speed to where the assault was taking place. Sierra didn't know what to do. She was losing consciousness but she had to keep fighting. She was sobbing and screaming as loudly and fighting as hard as she could. When she tried to scream, Jake covered her mouth with his hand. Suddenly she was able to breathe again, the weight of Jake lifted off of her. She didn't know what was happening; all she could hear were the faint noises of someone getting hit repeatedly. Cameron grabbed Jake by the back of his neck and proceeded to beat him down. He glanced briefly at Sierra when he first snatched him up and that was all he needed to see to fuel his anger. He punched him repeatedly and when he fell to the ground proceeded to stomped and kicked him. He beat Jake until he was not moving and unconscious. Cameron quickly rushed to Sierra's side. She looked up and saw Cameron. She was safe. She passed out. "Sierra!" Cameron yelled and he gently shook her, trying to get her to open her eyes. He looked at her face. She was battered and bruised. There were ligature marks around her neck. Her clothes were torn. I should have killed that bastard. he thought. "I'll never let him near you again, baby," he whispered to Sierra as he held her close. He then removed his jacket to cover her and then tried to call for help. Cameron began to scream for help at the top of his lungs. No one heard him. He reached in his pocket for his phone but the battery was dead. He did not want to leave Sierra lying in the parking lot. So, he lifted her up in his arms and carried her back into the gym. "Help, we need an ambulance. Someone, please, hurry she's hurt," Cameron shouted as he ran into the front entrance of the gym. Sierra was still unconscious and not moving. Cameron sobbed loudly and kept screaming for help. Ms. Lee heard the loud commotion and rushed to the front. She could not believe what she saw. Cameron was carrying a girl who appeared to have been assaulted. "Someone call the police and get an ambulance here!" she yelled as she rushed toward the quivering couple. "What happened?" Ms. Lee asked Cameron. Before he could answer, Sierra woke up and began to fight. "Sierra, calm down," he implored, but she was too confused and thought she was being held captive by Jake. She bit, clawed, and scratched at Cameron. "Let go of me!" she screamed. Cameron tried to calm her down, but she was viciously attacking him and he had a hard time restraining her. Ms. Lee ran over to the couple to try and help Cameron calm Sierra down. Ms. Lee screamed for security. Darius was standing at the side of the gym staring at Deidre. He was trying to decide how long he would let her keep talking to Jason before he brought an end to the foolishness. Derrick was just returning from the back of the gym with Mindy and Sandra. "Darius, Derrick!" someone yelled from across the gym, "Someone attacked Sierra! Dude, she's hurt bad!" Darius and Derrick rushed to the front of the gym. They were horrified by the sight they saw when they reached the front. Darius snapped. "What the fuck did you try to do to my sister?" Darius yelled at Cameron as he approached him angrily. His eyes were dark, black as night, and you could tell he was out of control. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 03 The twins took one look at their sister's disheveled appearance and with a loud roar Darius became enraged and attacked Cameron. This bastard hurt his sister. How could Cameron hurt Sierra? Darius thought. "Wait, Dar..." Cameron tried to explain, but Darius attacked. Cameron was rendered unconscious as Darius proceeded to dive on top of him and deliver a series of extremely hard punches to his face. Derrick rushed over to Sierra to see if she was going to be alright. Several people jumped in to pull Darius off of Cameron's prone body. Cameron, who was bleeding from his nose and mouth, was not moving. Derrick took his eyes off of Sierra for a second and witnessed Darius' brutal assault on Cameron. At this point Deidre had made it over to him. "Deidre," Derrick commanded, "Stay with Sierra. I've got to stop Darius." He immediately left his sister and her friend to try and stop his brother. He could tell from the way Cameron was lying on the floor that he was badly injured. He grabbed Darius from behind by the waist, and with the help of his friends, wrestled him to the ground. "Darius, Darius!" Derrick yelled in his ear, "Stop It! You're killing him. Stop it. Cameron didn't do this! Stop it!" Darius was oblivious to his brother's pleadings because his mind was completely focused on hurting someone. He tried to brushed him off and continued his assault. Derrick held on to his brother tightly and wouldn't let him go. Finally two more guys from their football team came in and help hold him down, as two of the teachers worked diligently and tried to stop Cameron from bleeding. It was at this point the police and ambulances arrived. Deidre sat with her friend and held her until the paramedics arrived on the scene. Deidre was crying uncontrollably. Witnessing the way Darius brutally assaulted Cameron terrified her, even as she yelled for Darius to stop. But he kept kicking and hitting Cameron, until some guys were able to pull him off and hold him down. Deidre cried to herself as she held her friend. He's too volatile, and I can't have that around my baby. I'm not going to tell him. No one thought about Jake, nor did anyone realize that Jake was unconscious outside in the parking lot at this time. When the police arrived, they found his body lying sprawled out in the parking lot. It was clearly visible that he had been assaulted. They immediately called for an ambulance to pick him up. It was obvious that he had been assaulted and being the mayor's son, they knew they had to get to the bottom of his assault quickly. Meanwhile, other officers had arrived and were questioning people inside the gym. Darius was taken into custody. The Aftermath Marge and Marvin Granger headed to the hospital to see their daughter. Sierra regained consciousness at the school, but was disoriented and could not recall what happened. Deidre rode in the ambulance with Sierra, so she wouldn't be alone. Nick Richards was with Rosa when he got a call that Cameron had been hurt. He grabbed Rosa and quickly rushed to the hospital. When he entered the emergency room, he was waylaid by Mayor Smythe accusing Cameron of attempted murder and rape. Nick immediately walked to the nurse's desk and demanded to be taken to his son. Cameron was in surgery and it was obvious that he had suffered severe head trauma. Nick and Rosa were escorted to the OR waiting room to wait on any news on the condition of his son. Meanwhile, Sierra was undergoing an examination in the ER and being processed for rape. However, the doctor doing the rape kit stated that whoever attacked her was not successful in the rape attempt. Her hymen was still intact. When the police tried to question Sierra about what happened, she could not remember anything. Jake's sister, Hannah, returned to the prom after the facts and was told about the attack. She left the school and rushed to the hospital to be with her brother. This is all that bitch's fault. Hanna thought as she arrived at the hospital. She immediately went to her brother's room. The police was there asking him what happened. "Son, can you tell us how you ended up in the parking lot beaten?" Deputy Henson asked. "Well," Jake said softly, "I was-" "It's obvious what has happened here," Roared Mayor Smythe loudly. "That out of control Richard's kid did this. He obviously attacked the girl and when my son tried to defend the little Granger slut, he viciously attacked him. I want him locked up and brought up on charges of attempted murder." Hannah stood beside her father. She knew that Cameron probably did beat Jake up, but not for the reasons her father was suggesting. She knew what Jake had in mind for Sierra even before they left home, but it was not any of her business. She wouldn't say anything to anyone and would keep her brother's little secret. She just hoped he would soon let go of his obsession with Sierra Granger, because his obsession could get him into major trouble. Deputy Henson hated Mayor Smythe, he was a pompous jerk. If his son was indeed beaten up by that Richards kid, the boy must have had a reason to attack him. But he was the mayor and it could cost him his job, but still he would try to reason with him. "Mayor Smythe, I know you're upset. But let the law handle this. I promise you we will investigate this completely." Deputy Henson assured him. Mayor Smythe glared at the deputy, "As long as that punk goes to jail at the end. Carry on with your investigation." Mayor Smythe grabbed Hanna by the arm and then stormed out of room. The deputy continued to interview Jake. Meanwhile Deputy Hunter Michaels attempted to interview Sierra. He was the officer responsible for processing her brother Darius earlier, and he was almost overwhelmed by this situation. The Grangers were like family to him and they didn't deserve to have to go through something like this. He made a silent vow to himself that he would make sure that the person who caused all of their pain paid for their transgression. Since Sierra couldn't remember what happened, the police took Jake's account of the events and place an armed guard at Cameron's door. Jake was released from the hospital and no charges were brought against him. Nick knew things weren't right, that the stories didn't add up. But his hands were tied as long as Cameron was still unconscious from the severe head trauma he received from the beating Darius gave him. Monday morning, Mayor Smythe's first course of business was to terminate Nick Richards. He cited excessive absences as the reason for his termination. No one said anything, but everyone knew that Mayor Smythe was vengeful and vindictive and felt justified in punishing Nick because of what happened to Jake. Nick was furious, but right now he had to take care of his kids. Everyone knew the mayor was wrong, however, no one was willing to go against him. So not only did Cameron have to fight for his life, he had to face possible criminal charges as well. Mayor Smythe, in an attempt to appear to be a generous and concerned political leader, arranged for Darius to be released and made sure no charges were brought against him. He assured the city that his son was recovering from this horrendous ordeal and Cameron Richards would pay for what he had done. He even offered Marge Granger a position in his office which she promptly turned down. At the end of May, Cameron's medical bills were insurmountable. With the loss of his job, Nick lost his medical coverage. Marge and Marvin talked. Neither of them believed that Cameron attacked Sierra, but Sierra couldn't remember what happened so, Cameron was the immediate scapegoat. The Granger's started fundraisers to help Nick meet Cameron's medical bills. People from all over the community who knew Cameron and his father gave them their full support. The community raised thousands of dollars to help the family. Derrick, who now had a part-time job, gave half of his weekly paycheck to the funds to help pay Cameron's medical bills, so did Sierra and Deidre. The hospital social worker was searching for supplemental coverage to cover Cameron's stay. The Nightmare Ends Nick Richards stopped by the Granger's home one day when he was on his way home from the hospital to pick up Rosa. They invited him in and he sat at the kitchen table. "Marv and Marge," Nick started, "I know you don't have to help me. But I want you to know I appreciate it." Nick looked Marv Granger in the eye and said, "I don't know what happened, but I know my boy. He'd die before he hurt that girl or anyone of your kids." "When my boy wakes up," Nick continued sobbing softly, "the truth will come out. The mayor's boy, Jake, he's lying; I can feel it in my bones! Anyway just wanted to say thanks." He stood up to leave. "Nick, wait" said Marvin, "I practically raised that boy. I know he didn't hurt her. I'm sorry Darius attacked him like he did. He truly regrets what he has done" Marge gave Nick a hug and a kiss on the cheek, "Cam is strong and he will be fine. We will get through this." Nick left the Granger's and walked home to wait for Rosa's bus to drop her off. Rosa came home and gave her Dad a big hug. "Daddy," said Rosa, "You're getting skinny." Nick smiled, hugged his little girl tightly, and kissed her on the head. Since Cameron had gotten hurt back in April, Nick realized he had to come out of his depression. His children needed him and he was determined to be there for them. Because he was so worried about Cameron, Nick stopped eating and managed to lose thirty-five pounds. Because of his weight loss, the doctor's reduced the amount of medicines he had to take. If he managed to lose twenty-five more pounds, there was a chance could stop taking some of the medications altogether. He still had to go to dialysis, but he was now at the top of the organ transplant list. He felt better too and was able to get around better. He was on a new lower dosage of his high blood pressure medication. "Yea, my angel," he smiled at her and said, "I have to be here to take care of you and you brother." He gave her a quick hug and a kiss on the head again. "Go do your homework. I'm going to go fix supper. We'll head over to the hospital and sit with your brother for a while after supper, alright?" "Ok, daddy," Rosa replied as she hugged her Dad tightly before heading to the kitchen table. After they finished dinner, the phone rang. It was the hospital. Cameron had woken up. Nick told Rosa to grab her jacket and they rushed over to the hospital. After weeks of waiting, the truth would finally come out. Even though several weeks had passed, Sierra was still having nightmares about what happened to her and she was frustrated because she couldn't remember. While sitting in her living room watching reruns of "The Flavor of Love" on MTV, Sierra heard a knock at the front door. Her dad answered the door and the person did not wait for an invitation they just barged in. Sierra looked at Jake with much surprise on her face and then looked at her dad. It was clear to Marvin that his daughter wasn't feeling comfortable, but she was putting up a brave face. Giving her the benefit of the doubt, he left the two youngsters alone and retreated to the kitchen, only a few feet away from them. "Sierra," said Jake, "I'm glad you're OK. I'm sorry about what Cam did to you. I tried to fight him off but he was too strong," Jake continued in a placating tone. "I want you to know that I don't blame you for what happened, and I'm still willing to date you, but we can't tell anyone we're together. My reputation, you know what I mean?" he winked while speaking in a low tone. Sierra was so stunned by his audacity that she froze. How dare this pompous jerk show up at my house like he's doing me a favor? she thought angrily. When Jake leaned forward to kiss her it felt like she was thrown back in time. Back to the parking lot and what happened to her. It wasn't Cameron that had attacked her. It was Jake! Relief ran through her for a mere second, only to turn into absolute fear when Jake kept trying to kiss her, just to shut her up. Sierra screamed, "Get off me. It was you! You tried to rape me! Cameron never touched me!" Sierra began to punch and hit Jake anywhere where she could reach him. Derrick had just arrived home when his sister screamed. He rushed behind his Dad into the living room to find Jake Smythe being beaten by Sierra. Derrick was furious. It seems his sister was remembering and as he thought it wasn't Cameron who had assaulted her but Jake. That little piece of shit put the blame on Cameron just to cover his own sorry ass! He was going to pay now! Derrick charged into the room and viciously attacked Jake. He hit, punched, and fought him with everything in him. Sierra was also attacking Jake. Marvin, on the other hand, was trying to pull his two kids off of the young man. It wasn't that he was protecting Jake, but he just didn't want his kids to end up in jail for murder. He managed to get Derrick off of the boy, leaving Sierra to throw in a few more punches towards Jake. "No, son,'' he whispered in Derrick's ear as he held him down, "That's not the way. Marge!" He screamed, "Call the police!" Derrick still frustrated and angry, realized the error he almost made, he broke down and sobbed in agony. While Mr. Granger was restraining Derrick, Jake took this as an opportunity to escape. He shoved Sierra off of him on to the sofa, making her tumble towards the floor, got up and ran out of the door. Marvin wanted to chase him, but he could not let go of Derrick. Sierra was balled up in a fetal position sobbing next to the sofa. He wanted to hold her too but Derrick was so close to losing control that he could not let him go. Guilt assuaged Derrick. He knew that Darius beat up the wrong guy. Cameron did not deserve what that had happened to him. Derrick thought angrily. The no good son of bitch that just ran out of his family's living room caused all of this. He was going to make him pay for this. Marge rushed into the room, gathered Sierra into her arms and held her tightly against her chest. Deputy Michaels arrived first and called in Deputy Henson. The Grangers gave a detailed description of what happened from the time Jake Smythe entered their home until he ran away. Deputy Henson smiled and raised an imaginary hand in victory because he knew they had him. No amount of manipulating and maneuvering by the Mayor would get this kid off this time. He asked the family if anyone required medical attention, ordered Deputy Michaels to finish taking statements from everyone and headed back to the precinct. In the meantime Jake ran home, hoping to find his Dad there, only to be greeted by his sister, Hannah. She knew right away things had escalated and told her brother to go to the library, that she would call their Dad and tells him to come. She only had to take one guess as to what her brother had tried to do, the smug look on his face the past few days, had been a big enough clue. He'll never learn and this time he was in deep shit. Mayor Smythe was upset with his son, but he knew his son couldn't handle being in jail. Deciding to be proactive, he called the DA and tried to make a deal. After restraining some harsh remarks they agreed that Jake would turn himself in and confess attacking Sierra on prom night. Because of his confession and family connections he was sentenced to six months in jail and six months at a treatment facility. He was emitted to jail immediately, with his father requesting special provisions for him which were denied by the judge. After Jake's confession, all charges against Cameron were dropped, pending on the actions of the District Attorney. Mayor Smythe was furious that his son would lose a year of his life, until his lawyer reminded him that Jake already has a juvenile record for attacking a girl. The DA could have charged him and he'd be looking at a seriously hard time. After giving it some thought the mayor agreed and decided to go with the deal they had made. The Secret Is Out It was the beginning of summer, the girls sat in the den of Deidre's home watching a video. The truth was out and Jake had been sent away. Sierra knew that the events from a few months ago had hurt so many people. For a moment, she felt regret. Maybe if she had canceled that date, like she really wanted to in the first place, none of this all wouldn't have happened. She would be fine, Cameron wouldn't have been in the hospital. She decided to try and not think about it too much and focus on something more important. "Hey, how is my nephew or niece doing?" asked Sierra, smiling. Deidre had decided to keep the baby after talking things over with her Mom. She was now four months pregnant and starting to show. She still hadn't told Darius about the baby because she was having a difficult time dealing with the fact that he put a guy in the hospital because he couldn't control his temper. "He or she is fine. I'm having a sonogram tomorrow. Maybe they can tell if it's a girl or boy." Dee rubbed her baby bump and smiled, "Do you want to come with me?" "Yes," Sierra squealed, "I can't wait to see our baby." She grabbed Deidre in a big hug. The two girls spent the day together gossiping, doing each other's hair, and simply enjoying each other's company. After hanging out for a few hours, Deidre drove Sierra home. "I'll be by to pick you up at nine thirty because my appointment is at ten. Don't forget to be looking for me." Deidre said as she dropped Sierra off. Darius walked into the yard as Deidre pulled up. He waved and she waved back. He realized that Deidre never got out of the car when she came over. She usually just picked Sierra up or just dropped her off, but she never got out of the car. Somehow he knew he was to blame for her behavior. To some extent he couldn't blame her for not wanting to be around him. He did beat a guy, a former best friend even, into hospital. Yet he wanted to find out if there was even a remote chance he could get back into her good books. The way he felt when she was near just had him in an emotional knot, something he wasn't used to. "Sierra, what's up with Deidre?" Darius asked. He nodded towards Deidre in her car, "She knows she can come in, right? I won't hurt her." "That's not why she doesn't come over anymore." Sierra stated. Darius cut her off, "Tell me I'm not the reason she doesn't come inside anymore. You go over there all the time. When she does come over, it's like this. She won't even get out of the car. I know I've got a bit of a temper, but I would never hurt her. Please Sierra, tell her I said that?" "She's just busy. Like tonight, she had to fix dinner before her Mom goes to work." Sierra tried reason with her brother. Darius looked at his sister and knew something was off. "You're not telling me everything. What's up with you? And Deidre?" he asked in a low tone. Sierra audibly sighed, "Darius, I'm not hiding anyth..." "Uh uh," Darius hissed, cutting her off abruptly. "You blinked. You always blink when you're lying. Is she seeing someone? Who is he?" Darius demanded. "What are you, her boyfriend? Jeez, Darius calm down." Sierra tried to joke, hiding her concern with being found out to attempt to lie so easily. "Wait, she's seeing someone. Who?" Darius became visibly upset at the thought of Deidre seeing another man, so Sierra tried her best to diffuse the situation. "Darius, she is not dating anyone, alright," Sierra said softly. "That's not it. It's up to her to tell you why she's avoiding you. It's not my place." "Wait, is something wrong with her?" Darius queried. "If something's wrong with her, Sierra, you have got to tell me." "Darius, what's gotten into you? Why would you even care how my best friend feels like." Sierra decided to give him a thorough once over. He really had looked concerned earlier. The gaze in his eyes as he looked outside to Deidre waiting in the car, it suddenly hit her. "Oh my god, that I didn't see this sooner. You like her, don't you? Like a really lot, I'd dare say you even love her. No way! You wouldn't be this adamant about this unless... Oh my God!" Shadows of Resentment Ch. 03 Darius sat at the kitchen table dejectedly, "I don't know about love. But I think about her all the time. I have to see her or my day is ruined. I never should have..." then he cut himself off as his mind wandered. Sierra's curiosity was peaked, "You should have never what?" she asked pensively. But Darius' thoughts were centered on Deidre so he didn't even hear his sister's question. Darius rubbed his hands across his head. "Fuck this," he sighed. "I'm going over there." He walked out of the door and headed to Deidre's house. Sierra sent Deidre a text, telling her Darius was on his way over since she wouldn't tell him why she didn't visit anymore and that she really hoped the two of them could work things out. Wanting to keep herself occupied, she decided to go to the hospital. Since Cameron had woken up she spent every free moment she had at his side. She was counting the days until he would be released and be able to go home. Anxiously Deidre waited behind her front door for Darius to arrive. Once she saw him turn onto her driveway and walk up to her front door, she simply opened it and stepped aside. "Hi Darius, come in," she said as she held out her arm. Darius' breath caught; she was still the most beautiful girl he'd ever known. As his eyes traveled over her figure, they stopped at the small bump showing on her abdomen. It was then it suddenly hit him why she was avoiding him. He flashed back to that night four months ago, and remembered that the condom had broken. But he was convinced she said she was on the pill. How could she be pregnant? She had better not slept with someone else. Darius began to feel his temper rise. And then he looked into Deidre's eyes. "Dee, when?" Darius stammered, staring at her widening midsection stunned. "Why didn't you tell me? How long have you known?" "Wait, this is my baby," Deidre stated defensively, "I haven't asked you for anything. Don't you dare-" "Hold up," Darius cut her off, "I'm this baby's father and don't you try to pretend it's someone else's. Sierra knows, doesn't she?" When Deidre didn't reply right away he knew his sister had known about Deidre's situation for a while. Darius growled, "I'm going to kill her. How could she keep this from me?" "Now you hold on for a second!" Dee shouted, "I asked Sierra not to say anything. She wanted to tell you. After the fight at the prom, so much was happening that I didn't think you could take much more. And well I wasn't sure how you would react to this." "You're afraid of me. That's why you didn't say..." Darius sat on the edge of the sofa in Deidre's living room. He reminded himself to stay calm. He'd been seeing a counselor and they'd worked on exercises to help calm him down. He used what he'd learned at this moment. He didn't want to upset her and somehow hurt his son. Yes, it was his son. He knew that fact without a doubt. He took a deep breath. "You should've told me. I had a right to know. When is the baby due? What did Jasmine say? I've have got to talk to her." Darius rambled on. "Oh God, I have got to tell Mom and Dad," he stated exasperately, "I've hurt them so much. I don't know..." Deidre had enough. She didn't regret her baby and she wasn't going to listen to him voice regrets. "Stop, Darius, like I said at first. This is my baby. I'm going to keep her and raise her myself." "No," Darius corrected her. "This is our baby and we will raise him together." "Don't you dare try and bully me Darius Granger. Pregnant or not I'll still kick your butt. Watch your tone." Deidre hissed right into Darius' face. At that moment Jasmine walked in the room. "Is everything alright in here?" she queried. "We're fine, Momma. We were just talking about the baby." Deidre explained to her mother. "I'm sorry, Mrs. Barnes," Darius started to apologize, "I'm just a little shocked." Jasmine looked at the young man before her. "I understand that you're shocked, it was the same for me, but in this house you keep your tone down. The same goes for you young lady. A shouting match never did anyone any good. I gather you two can keep it civil?" Both Deidre and Darius nodded. "Ok then I'll let you two get back to talking things out. I hope once I get back from work later on there are some things settled?" "Yeah, Momma, we'll talk things through, promise." Darius silently agreed, once more nodding his head. A few minutes later the closing of the front door announced her leaving for work, leaving Deidre and Darius alone. "We'll get married," Darius immediately declared, "I want my son to have my name. I need to talk to your Mom again so we can get this done right away. I've got to tell Mom and Dad. They love you already. They'll love our baby. Man I can't wait to tell Derrick," Darius continued making plans for their family. In a voice so soft you could barely hear Deidre said, "No, Darius, we are not getting married." Tears rolled down her cheeks. "I will marry a man that loves me. I won't marry just because I'm having a baby. You need to leave." She opened the door for him to leave. Darius was stunned. She wanted him to leave. "Hell, no! No, I'm not going anywhere. Dee, you're all I've thought about for months. I can't let you go, especially not now." Deidre didn't want to listen to anything else he had to say. "Darius," she whispered, "please leave." Darius closed the door and turned to face her. "If you think I'm letting you go and letting another man have what's mine, then you're crazy." He cupped her chin and tilting her head so their eyes met. "I made you mine four months ago on your birthday. On that night, you conceived our child. Don't ask me to walk away. Give either of you up. I can't do that, Dee. I can't." Darius spoke softly as he looked deeply in her eyes. He had to convince her to stay with him or he would lose his woman and his child. He refused to give up either one of them. Darius dropped to his knees. "Please," he begged, "Please give me a chance to prove to you that I'm a good man. Don't you love me even a little?" he asked. "Damn, boy," Deidre said shaking her head. "This isn't about whether I love you or not. It's also not about you doing the right thing by me. It especially doesn't mean it gives you the right to barge in here like a madman and just take over my life," Deidre stated firmly. "Dee, listen. I know I messed up," he exhaled. "I know I have been a complete ass, but I'm that way because, I need to protect my family, to protect the ones I love and care about," Darius continued to explain. "What I did to Cameron was uncalled for and you have no idea how much I regret it. If I could take that night back I would, but I can't." Deidre sat next to him on the sofa and turned to face him. "Do you think some half-assed explanation and apology will make everything better?" she fumed. "You scared me that night with how out of control you were. Besides, where were you four months ago when you walked out of my bedroom, huh? Why are you just coming over here now and how dare you demand anything?" Deidre became agitated now. "Yes, I saw you watching me. You would growl at any guy that approached me, but you never came near me yourself," Deidre angrily vented. Darius looked on the floor. It suddenly hit him, his sister had been right, he already admitted it now. He had to carefully word what he was about to say next. "Dee, I've never been in love before. These feelings threw me for a loop. Yes, I watched you and I threatened any guy that came near you because...in here'" he pointed to his chest, "in my heart, you were mine." Darius whispered. Darius stood and began to pace across the room. "That night was the most amazing night of my life. I never thought I'd find the perfect woman, but you are my sister's best friend and I shouldn't feel this way about you or at least that's what I was thinking." Deidre stood to walk out of the front room but Darius gently caught her hand to stop her. "Wait!" he begged. "Please give me a chance. I am a good man and I can be a great father, just give me a chance, please." Hesitantly he added, "I love you, Dee, only you." Deidre sighed, "It's easy for you to sit here and say this now, but what about after the baby comes and it's not fun anymore? I've got to think about my daughter." "Dee, you've seen me at my worst. Please let me show you my best?" he pleaded. He stood up and pulled her into his arms and kissed her. At first she froze up but within a few seconds she melted against him, responding with the same passion as four months ago. He heard someone clapping and realized they had an audience. Jasmine stood in the hallway and watched them as they talked. Apparently she tricked them into believing she'd already gone to work. She knew Darius was an upstanding young man that would do the right thing for the right reason if given the chance. She walked into the living room and embraced both young people. "I really have to go to work now," Jasmine said to the young couple smiling, "but we will talk later. But first you two need to reach an understanding. Now, Darius you can stay over for a little while, but it seems you've got some news to share with your parents as well so don't stay too late. Now listen, I know telling you to not mess around is like locking the gate after the bull has escaped, but try to come to some understanding and be nice to each other. The one advice I'll give you is that honesty goes a long way. Darius, it took a lot of guts coming up here today and talk to Deidre, as you confronted your own feelings." Jasmine looked at her daughter now. "Now Deidre, you have to do the same, make sure what it is you really feel for him." With those wise words she got up and really left for work this time. She was convinced those two would work out fine, given a bit of time and encouragement. Since she had a nightshift to start she was glad that she could leave home with Deidre home safe with Darius. Although his temper was legendary, she knew he would never hurt her daughter. It was obvious that he loved her too much to cause her pain. Jasmine was sure her daughter and grandbaby would be safe. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 04 First of all, I want to thank everyone who has taken time to read this story. I am having a terrific time writing this tale. I want to thank Mokkelke for helping keep me on track with this and helping me learn more about writing. I want to thank my editor, LaRascasse, for simply being willing to work with me. You two guys are the best. There are many other people who have supported me in writing this tale and I want to take time to thank all of you. Now with great pride, I present to you chapter four. I certainly hope you enjoy this chapter. Please remember to vote and comment. Feedback is always appreciated and welcomed. Let's Talk About It A couple of hours after Jasmine went to work, Darius held Deidre in his arms. He felt so elated that a woman as beautiful as she would be the mother of his children. Darius would convince her to marry him of that he had no doubt. They talked about everything and nothing at the same time. Neither one wanted to talk about the elephant in the room; the fact that Darius' uncontrolled behavior put a man in the hospital. Deidre knew that Darius felt guilty, but guilt did not excuse his behavior. She wasn't about to agree to be with him if he didn't do something about his need to control everything and everyone. Taking a deep breath and steeling her resolve, Deidre decided to just be honest. "Darius, I've got to be honest. I'm worried about you. Your temper, it's out of control and you need to get help." "Please, I know I need help. Please don't give up on me. I need you Dee. I know my anger is a serious problem and I need to take control of it, and I'm trying. I'm going to anger management sessions four days a week and seeing Dr. Chin regularly. " Darius explained in an exasperated tone. "I've talked with Dr. Chin about it in therapy and he has helped me realize that my anger is not really at others, but I often become frustrated when I feel like I am not the one in charge." He continued. Deidre sat patiently and listened. She knew Darius wanted to tell her everything and she didn't want him to feel pressured. Deidre grew up around Darius' family, so she remembered when he and Derrick stopped being friends with Cameron in Junior High. The three boys had some sort of fight and Darius decided that Cameron wasn't their friend anymore. "I remember that you guys were best friends when we were kids and then you had got into a fight about something. What happened?" Deidre asked. Deidre felt that the cause of all of this pain and resentment started years ago and the only way to help it heal was to get it out in the open. Darius took a deep breath. The story he was about to share with her was one that he had only shared with Dr. Chin. But he knew that he could trust her and he wanted her to know that. So he told her his deepest, darkest, secret. "When we were kids, I loved Cameron as much as I love Derrick and Sierra. He was like another brother to me. When we were fourteen, some people started calling Derrick and me Oreos: you know black on the outside, white on the inside. They accused us of no longer acting black, but acting like white boys because of our friendship with Cameron. At first, I ignored it, because, Cameron was our friend, and I didn't care what anyone thought." Darius paused and let that tidbit of information sink in. Closing his eyes, Darius remembered the fatal decision that caused him his best friend. "Do you remember Adena Johnson?" Deidre nodded. No one would ever forget Adena. She was beautiful, but as mean and nasty as a snake. By the time everyone graduated, Adena had committed some heinous atrocity against everyone who crossed her path. Darius continued. "I liked Adena and she seemed to like me too. One day we were at Oak Park shooting hoops when she saw us hanging out with Cameron walked over to join us. We talked and I got up the courage to ask her to hang with us. A few weeks later was her birthday and she had a get together with her friends. She invited Cameron, but not Derrick nor me, to go to the movies with them. I was hurt and angry because Cameron should have told her no. Some guys found out and said I was letting "white boy beat me out" and I was angry." "I ordered Cameron to break the date and not go to the movies with her. He laughed at me. I told him if he didn't break the date, our friendship was over." Deidre gasped. This was utterly ridiculous. No woman or girl was worth destroying a lifelong friendship over. He stopped and looked into Deidre's eyes, and could see her disappointment. But Darius soldiered on. "He walked away and went anyway. That Sunday, at the park, he was bragging about the date. I couldn't let him keep punk me, so I jumped him and that ended our friendship." Later, I learned that his Mom died that night, but I had too much pride to go to him. When my friend needed me the most, I abandoned him, and then forced Derrick to choose. Derrick tried to talk to me, but I wouldn't listen. Time past and we never really spoke again." Darius concluded his tale. Deidre was stunned and then she snapped. "You selfish, arrogant, son of a bitch, how dare you treat your friend that way and then you almost beat him to death. Do you honestly think, I'm sorry, will fix this? I knew you had control issues, but this is unbelievable." Deidre moved away from the staring at him disgustedly asking. "How in the hell are you not in prison?" "Mayor Smythe helped me get a reduced sentence when he made a deal with the District Attorney for Jake. The District Attorney felt that if Jake was going to get a lighter sentence and everything was really his fault. There was no reason to ruin anyone else's life. I went to court and the judge saw that I didn't have a criminal record, and reduced my sentence. Since jails are overcrowded and this was an isolated incident, I got five years. He suspended them and put me on five years' probation. I can't leave the city without permission and I have two years of mandatory behavior modification along with anger and stress management classes. Since I'm on probation, I'm on house arrest and have to wear a monitor. As well as report in to my parole officer weekly showing that I've been attending my court ordered sessions. If I fail to do any of the sessions I have been ordered to attend, my sentence will be commuted to time in jail. If I want to go out of town, I have to get special permission from my probation officer and someone must be with me. I know I got off way too easy, but I will spend the rest of my life trying to fix the damage I have caused." Darius stopped talking and allowed her time to absorb the information he shared with her. "You got a slap on the wrist. Jake got a slap on wrist, and Cameron is the only one who really suffered in this and he didn't do anything to deserve it in the first place. I don't know about this. I don't know after talking ..... This is too much." Deidre dropped her head, speaking so quietly he could barely hear her. Deidre had to make a choice. Should she show him the door or give him a chance? Looking at him, she knew that despite his boorish behavior, he was really a good guy and he deserved a chance. But, if he reverted back in any way, shape, or form, she would definitely drop him as fast as she could. Darius reminisced on memories from the past; the way he had treated his friend and the outcome of his arrogance. Hours past and before long it was really late and Darius knew he need to head home. Around midnight, an exhausted Dee was in need of sleep, Darius did not want to leave, but Jasmine told him that it was alright to visit for a while but he needed to head home. Darius waited for Deidre to get ready for bed and made sure she was tucked in and covered before giving her a kiss and heading home. "Darius" she whispered. "Come to the doctor's with me tomorrow. Ok. I'll pick you and Sierra up, alright. Darius smiled, "I wouldn't miss it." He leaned over and kissed her once more before leaving but she refused to let him and pushed him away. It hurt, but Darius understood, so he left. He went home trying to decide the best way to break the news to his parents and brother. Darius was proud and a little frightened because had his own family to worry about now and he needed to make sure they were safe and protected. He was excited to be accompanying her to her appointment. He wanted to make sure his son was healthy. My Brother Once Darius learned of the gravity of his attack on the wrong person, he was racked with guilt. The first thing Darius did after his release from jail was visit Cameron in the hospital. He knew he had lost control and in his anger attacked and almost killed the man he once considered his brother. Darius walked into Cameron's hospital room and was stunned by the sight before him. Cameron was unconscious and covered with bandages. Almost all of his skin was covered, and the part that was not covered was bruised, bluish and purple. He was devastated when he saw the amount of damage he'd done to his friend. Yes, he acknowledged Cameron would forever be his friend. He, Darius Granger, was a pompous little selfish son of a bitch, an ass, a monster who didn't deserve to live, but he loved the man lying in the hospital bed before him. He would find a way to earn Cameron's forgiveness and reestablish their friendship. He knew he had no right to ask for his forgiveness, but he had to try. He spoke softly to his friend, "I know you have no reason to trust me, but I promise I'll never hurt you like this again. I will make this up to you, but you have to wake up." "Please, Please, Please," cried Darius, "Just wake up and let us know you're going to be alright." He then leaned forward and kissed his friend's forehead that was covered with bandages. A nurse came in and asked Darius to leave the room, because she needed to check Cameron's vitals. A few days later, Derrick sat by his friend's hospital bed and began to talk to him, "Cam", he said, "I am so sorry for what happened to you. I know you can hear me. We need you to wake up, man. Please, Cam." speaking softly. Derrick and Darius made sure that one of them would visit Cameron every day until he woke up. One Saturday, after Cameron regained consciousness, Derrick was visiting and the two young men chatted for a while. Darius walked in and Cameron immediately became mute and would not respond as the monitors began to beep erratically at his loss of control. The twins quickly got the message, and chose to leave before they upset their friend even more. Cameron was released from the hospital. Unfortunately, because of the severity of the attack and a severe injury to his spinal column, Cameron was confined to a wheelchair. Although several surgeries had been done to correct the injuries, it was uncertain if he would ever walk again. Cameron also suffered from other side effects from the beating. He was now frightened by sudden movements and sounds. The only people he interacted with were his father and sister Rosa. He would talk to Mr. and Mrs. Granger when they came to visit, but he rarely left the house. Sierra visited Cameron so often that a change in her demeanor became blatantly obvious. She spent most of her days dividing her time between visiting Cameron or Deidre. One afternoon, Sierra came home from visiting with Deidre and announced that she was heading over to sit with Cameron. "Sierra, wait, I need to talk with you for a minute." Marge said patting the sofa next to her. "Momma, what's wrong?" Sierra asked. Her mom's behavior was odd and she feared something serious might be going on. "Nothing, I'm fine." Marge reassured her quickly, "I'm worried about the amount of time you're spending with Cameron. I know he is your friend and it's Ok to visit him, but he shouldn't take over your whole life." "Momma, you don't understand." Sierra started to explain. "He's important to me. I enjoy spending time with him." Marge recalled the situation right after Sierra found out how seriously Cameron was hurt. While waiting on the results from the various test the doctors performed on her earlier, the local news was on. The reporter gave a report on the attack and stated that a couple of people were seriously injured. One of the nurses, not realizing Sierra could hear her, stated that Jake Smythe and Cameron Richards were injured. Sierra was extremely upset over Cameron's injuries. Sierra heard the nurse and became agitated. "Momma, where is Cameron?" Sierra asked. "Momma, he was hurt Momma. They said so on the news. Is he alright? He's has got to be alright." She became so agitated that the nurse ended up sedating her. Marge recalled how Sierra's face lit up when Cameron was around. How disappointed she was when the boys stopped being friends. She remembered how adamant Sierra was months before when Cameron needed a ride home after the semi-finals basketball game. When Sierra learned that he was being charged in her assault, she became enraged. "No, no, no" Sierra told Detective Henson, later when he was telling her about her case. "Cameron would never hurt me. I've got to remember what happened." Sierra cried. Things were worse once they got home. The only thing Sierra did was visit Deidre or sit with Cameron. She didn't sleep, eat, or take care of herself as usual. She was rapidly losing weight, so much weight that Marge became concerned, Sierra held her breath. She knew what her Mom was about to say next. "Sierra listen," Mom continued. "I know how you feel about him. I also know these feelings didn't just start. I want you to be careful, OK. He's dealing with a lot if issues right now and I don't want you to get hurt. Maybe you should take a break from seeing him so much. You can still visit him, but you have to take care of yourself too." Sierra stood and started pacing back and forth across the room. Marge could clearly she that the girl was becoming more upset. "Sierra, listen to me." Marge tried to explain. "I think-" Sierra interrupted her, "No Momma, I can't. You might as well tell me to stop breathing, or my heart to stop beating. I have to see him. I can't give him up" Marge was stunned at how vehemently she spoke. "Oh my God, Sierra," Marge said in awe, "How long have you been in love with Cameron?" Tears rolling down her cheeks, she watched her daughter softly weep. She stood and gathered Sierra close and held her tightly. "Tell me, baby," Marge gently whispered, "How long? Sierra leaned back looking into her mother's face, her voice quivered, "Since the day I first met him. He is everything to me Momma. I can't lose him." She said crying in earnest. Marge held her daughter close whispering words of comfort in her ear. "It'll be alright, I promise. I'm not trying to keep you away from him. I know what he means to you. But listen to me; I don't want you to get hurt. Cameron is dealing with a lot right now. If at any time you feel overwhelmed come talk to me. I'm here for you. Do you understand? Sierra looked up at her mother and saw understanding in her eyes. She nodded as a silent agreement passed between the two women. Later that evening when Marvin came home, Marge told her husband what she had learned that afternoon about Sierra's feelings for Cameron. Marvin, his chest swelling with love and pride, grabbed Marge holding her tight. "Finally," he said, "As soon as that boy finishes healing, we'll get our other son back" "What are you talking about, Marv?" Marge asked puzzled. She was still coming to terms with her new found knowledge. Marvin laughed," That boy has been in love with our little girl since they were kids." Didn't you notice how protective Cam is of her? "Marge, it was his love that protected Sierra that night. I knew he didn't do this evil thing to her. I'm glad the truth is finally out, now." Marvin continued, "And when he heals from this and is ready, I'll be proud to call him son." He concluded kissing the top of his wife's head. Sitting on the sofa, they held each other tight, secure in the knowledge things would work out. Take a Chance One afternoon, Sierra walked over to Cameron's house to pay him a short visit. She saw him on the porch watching his baby sister Rosa play with her friend. She watched him from afar her heart began to pound; smiling, she turned up the walkway heading to her beloved. Cameron sensed her presence before he saw her. It was always that way where Sierra was concerned. Even when he was unconscious, Cameron knew when she came to see him. He turned looking upon the face of the woman who haunted his dreams for most of his life.She was so beautiful, worth every moment of the pain he endured to keep her safe. "Hey", Sierra greeted Cameron as she approached him on the porch. "It's good to see you outside today. Do you mind if I sit down?" she asked tentatively. "Sure, go ahead" Cameron grunted, as though he could hardly breathe. He motioned to the wicker chair behind her and she pulled it beside him sitting down. Rosa spotting Sierra on the porch grabbed her friend Macy ran over to greet her brother's friend. Sierra smiled at Macy. "Cameron, can we have some juice?", Rosa turned asking her big brother. Their dad found a new job as a security officer at the local mall, so Cameron would watch Rosa in the afternoon instead of paying Mrs. Beans. "Yeah, but just one glass, because I'm ordering pizza later, you know." He answered smiling at his baby sister. Rosa was so cute. She had thick auburn hair like her brother, but where Cameron was rugged like his Dad, Rosa had their mother's soft feminine features: and both children were blessed with bright sparkly green eyes. Skin the color of peaches that tanned to a pleasing bronze in the summer. Cameron may be a hunk, but Rosa was the adorable seven year old sister. Sierra thought about Deidre for a moment and felt a twinge of jealousy. She wished for a brief moment she was carrying Cameron's child. Sierra imagined their son would look a lot like Rosa, except with light caramel skin, and golden brown eyes. He would be the spitting image of his daddy. She smiled, as she dreamed of their handsome little boy. Cameron saw Sierra looking at his sister pensively and wondered for a second what was she thinking about? Deciding to break her trance, he asked her what she wanted. "It's nice of you to visit Sierra, but is there something you need?" he queried. Sierra laughed nervously as she pondered his question. How would he react if she told him what she really wanted? That she wanted to be more than just his friend. She wanted to spend the rest of her life with him, how would he react? She imagined what their lives would be like if she could have what she truly wanted. They both would come home after a day at work and be greeted by their two kids, two little boys who looked just like their daddy. After spending time with their children, the kids would finally go to sleep. Sierra would kiss him passionately, covering him with kisses, leaving him with no doubt about how she feels about him. They would both be content to just be together. Cameron noticed that Sierra was deep in thought. "Sierra, earth to Sierra.Girl, wake up." Cameron called chuckling. What on earth was she thinking about? he thought. Sierra jumped and stopped her wayward thoughts. Well, I wanted to visit my friend and see if he wanted to get away from the house today." she chuckled. "Someone", she continued, "likes to pretend he is an old man when he is not." She added teasing him. Cameron smiled. He knew she meant well, but he just wasn't comfortable going out in public. He hadn't been out since the day he came home from the hospital, and then he only went because the neighbors had a block party in his honor. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 04 He hated the pity in stares he got from people who felt sorry for him because he was in a wheelchair. He didn't want anyone feeling sorry for him. "Sierra-" he started to reply, but she cut him off. "No," she said, "You don't get to tell me no. I'll tell you what. Why don't you, Nick, and Rosa come to our house for dinner tonight?" "Uh, uh, No! Listen you need to get out of the house." Sierra stated when Cameron started to refuse. She walked over to him and kneeled in front of his chair. She took his hands in hers. She looked deeply into his eyes. "Cam, I owe you so much." Sierra spoke to him softly. "I know you don't like crowds, or being out in public, or even most people in general. But this is my family and you know us. I know this is hard so let me help you through this." she implored. At that moment, Rosa ran back onto the porch with her friend. She saw Sierra kneeling before her brother and wondered what was going on. "Well," Sierra explained, "I was just telling your brother that I want you all to come over to our house tonight for dinner. What do you think? Would you like to come over?" Sierra smiled. She knew Cameron would do just about anything for Rosa, and if Rosa wanted to join her family, Cameron would more than likely agree. She almost hated using the little girl like that, but she really wanted him to get out of the house, even if it was just for a dinner. Rosa squealed with delight. She loved going over to the Granger's house. Mrs. Granger made her feel good. She did things with her that she missed doing with her Mom. She liked being around Sierra, too because being around her felt like she had a big sister. Even though, sometimes, Sierra would act all goofy when Cameron came around, Rosa loved spending time with her. When Dad first went back to work, Sierra would watch her instead of Mrs. Beans some nights because Cameron wasn't able to take care of her yet Sometimes they would go over Deidre's house. Deidre, Sierra's friend, was having a baby, but they told her not to tell anyone because right now it was a secret. Rosa ran over to her brother and begged, "Can we go Cameron, please. Daddy won't mind and then you won't have to try and make dinner." Rosa begged as she made a stink face. As much as she loved her big brother, he was a horrible cook. Cam looked at his baby sister and laughed, because he could never say no to her. He made it his mission in life to keep her safe and happy. "Alright, squirt", he grumbled playfully, "you win. Sierra we'd be honored to have dinner with your family. Sierra shrieked with joy and before she realized she had climbed in to Cameron's lap in his chair and threw her arms around his neck. Cameron returned the embrace as an unseen current passed between them and Sierra slowly moved back to look in his face. For a few seconds their eyes locked and no one else in the world existed. Cameron felt his cock stiffen. He prayed Sierra didn't feel it and become repulsed. Sierra moved subtly in his lap and felt his hardness pressing against her bottom. She felt heat form between her thighs as she felt him stiffen. Groaning, Cameron gently pushed Sierra from his lap. She untangled her body from his lap and slowly moved. Neither spoke they simply looked at each other. Rosa ran over to her friend Macy chattering excitedly about having dinner at Sierra's house and the two girls went back across the yard to finish their game. Sierra, stuttered, "Dinner is at six. I'll be sure to let Mom know you all are coming. Sierra smiled, "Cam," she whispered, "you won't regret this." She turned and left, as Cameron sat in his wheelchair with his cock as stiff as a board watching her ass sway back and forth as she walked away thought to himself, I hope you're right. It was about 12:35 in the afternoon, and Cameron realized that he and Rosa had not eaten lunch. Rosa's friend, Macy, had gone home because she her mom told her she could not stay all day. Cameron called his little sister in the house and asked her what kind of pizza she wanted. He called Antonio's and ordered a large cheese and sausage pizza. Although Antonio's did not usually deliver, they always made an exception for Cameron. Mr. Luis, who owned the restaurant, would personally bring the pie to their home. Around 4:45, Nick Richards came home from work. Rosa met him at the door and excitedly told him that they were eating dinner with the Grangers. Nick went to Cameron immediately to talk to him. He knew that his son was still struggling with social interactions. Even though he seemed to be adjusting slowly and able to interact on some levels with Derrick and Sierra, Nick was gravely concern about his reaction to Darius. He knew that the two young men purposely avoided each other. "Hey Son." Nick said as he quietly entered Cameron's room. Cameron was getting dressed to go over to the Grangers. He was apprehensive but this dinner seemed important to Sierra, and Rosa was excited about going. He did not want to disappoint either one of his special ladies, so he would go to dinner and deal with his issues later. In therapy, with Dr. Jones, the doctor encouraged him to go out and face his fears, especially where his two former best friends were concerned. He knew Darius would probably be there. Although he had avoided him as much as he could for months, he knew at some point he had to face him. Tonight was as good as any. Besides, if it all seemed to be a bit much, he had a backup plan. He would talk to his Dad about it and, if he felt like he needed to follow it, he would. But for now, he was eating dinner with the Grangers, and he would try to relax and enjoy it as much as he could. "I want you to know that we don't have to go over there if you're not ready." Nick continued. He knew Cameron was still struggling with the fact that Darius did this to him. "I love you, Dad." Cameron said softly, surprising Nick. "But, I'm a man and I can't keep hiding. Am I angry? Yes. But that's my issue. You and Rosa don't have to keep suffering because of me. I need to do this." Cameron sat on his bed and looked his father in the eye. "Dad, have you heard of Parkview Treatment and Rehabilitation Facility in Jackson?" Nick looked puzzled. What was his son talking about? Was he trying to tell him something? While Nick was pondering what Cameron was talking about, Cameron pulled out a brochure about the facility. "Dad, Dr. Jones, my therapist, knows people who run this facility. They specialize in helping people with injuries like mine." Cameron explained to his Dad. "With intense therapy and counseling, I'll be able to get my life back." Cameron stated softly. I can learn to walk again so I can help take care of you and Rosa. I can become the kind of man Sierra...., Nothing." He looked down. He gave the brochure to his Dad. Nick took the paper and read over it quickly. Tears began to flow down his cheeks. "Cameron, are you sure you want to do this?" He asked his son. Cameron looked away and replied, "Dad, I need help. I need to get over what happened to me and I can't do that here. I know everyone means well, but I can see how much a strain this is on you and even Rosa." Cameron continued softly, "My baby sister is so careful around me. She's afraid of upsetting me. She tries to take care of me when I should be the one taking care of her. Nick sat next to his son and gave him a hug. Cameron sobbed softly on his Dad's shoulder as Nick held him tightly, and whispered to him softly, "Everything will be alright, son. I love you and I'm here for you. If you need to go to Parkview, I'll drive you there. You will beat this and I'm going to be with you every step of the way. Do you hear me? Neither one of them realized that Rosa was standing on the other side of the door listening to their entire conversation. Tears flowed down her cheeks. She feared her brother was leaving her. She lost her Mom, now she was about to lose her brother. She ran to her room threw herself across her bed and cried silently into her pillow. Why did the people she loved keep leaving her? she wondered. After Cameron calmed down, Nick decided to take a quick shower and dress for dinner. As he passed Rosa's room, he heard the soft sobs as she cried into her pillow. Nick went to her immediately. He gathered his beautiful baby girl in his arms and held her close until her tears subsided. "Baby what's wrong?" Nick asked Rosa. At first she didn't answer. "You know you can tell me anything right?" Nick told her. "Talk to me baby." He pleaded. "Daddy", she whispered, "Why does Cam want to go away; I don't want him to leave. I'll be good. I won't bother him anymore. Please don't let him go away." Rosa sobbed into her father's chest as he held her tightly. Nick looked into Rosa's glittering green eyes and exquisite face that looked so much like Saria. His breathe caught and he smiled and began to reassure her. "Baby girl, Cam is not going to leave you." Nick explained to her in a soft gentle tone. "But he needs more help than he can get here, so he may have to leave to go there for a while to get the help he needs. But I promise you, we'll go see him as often as we can." Then, he hugged her tightly and kissed her on the head. He whispered words of encouragement into her ears. "Now, angel," Nick continued, "Are you ready to go to dinner? "Almost," Rosa replied in a tiny voice. "I've got to put my shoes on. Nick gave her a tight squeeze and said, "Go clean up your pretty face first and then put your shoes on, OK, sweetheart." Then he went to his room to get shower and dressed. A Dinner to Remember At 5:50 pm, Cameron's family arrived at the Granger's house. When they rang the doorbell, Marvin graciously opened the door and invited them into their home. Marv led everyone to the living room, and offered them drinks. Nick and Cameron refused drinks, but Rosa wanted juice. Marge gave her a glass of juice and told her she could go and play some video games. Rosa spent quite a lot of time at the Grangers so she spent a lot of time playing games that the Sierra and her brothers grew up playing. Everyone was extremely excited because this was the first time in years that Cameron had been back into their home. Sierra sat in her bedroom waiting anxiously for the Richards family to arrive. Sierra came out of her room and quickly entered her family's living room to greet their guest. As soon as she walked into the room, the first person she saw was Cameron. He was absolutely breathtakingly beautiful to her. Sierra greeted the Richards. She gave Nick and Rosa a hug. Cameron seemed apprehensive, so she just spoke softly to him. Darius was waiting at Deidre's house for Dee to finish dressing before heading home for dinner. He was nervous even though, he had apologized profusely to Cameron, his friend never spoke to him. Eventually, he decided to give him some space and simply left him alone. He knew everyone was excited about the Richards joining them for dinner, but he wasn't sure if his presence at the dinner would cause people to be extremely uncomfortable. As much as he wanted Cameron to forgive him, he did not want to cause his friend unnecessary pain. Also, even though everyone in his family knew Dee was pregnant, he wasn't sure if Cameron knew. Cameron and Deidre were such good friends, he was afraid that this news would destroy their friendship. Tonight Deidre would join his family for dinner and their secret would be obvious. Darius was worried about his Cameron's reaction to their news. Darius sat in Deidre's living room as he waited for her to finish getting dressed. When Deidre came out of her bedroom, she could tell that Darius was worried. Her heart broke for him, but all she could do was let him know he had her full support. She knew would never forgive himself for what he did to Cameron. Darius heart skipped a beat when he saw her enter the living room. She was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen, and the fact that she was carrying his children, added to her beauty. Deidre could sense Darius' restless state. She wanted to put him at ease. They headed out of the door and got into her car. While Darius was driving, Dee turned to face him from the passenger seat. She placed a hand on his thigh to get his attention. "Darius, It'll be alright," Deidre spoke softly, "I'm here for you and I will be behind you one hundred percent. I know you're nervous about Cameron being there, but both of you need this. You've got to face each other at some point." she continued. Darius cut her off. "Dee, he's in that chair because of me." Darius said in a voice so low she could barely hear him. "I almost killed him. How can he forgive that?" He took a few deep breaths to calm himself and they headed to his parent's home for dinner. They arrived at his parent's home a few minutes later. Marge Granger opened the door when she saw Deidre's car pull up. Darius and Deidre got out of the car and walked into the living room everyone held their breath. The tension in the room was palpable, so thick you could cut it with a knife. This was the first time in years that Darius and Cameron were both in the Granger's living room. Derrick, who was in his room, had come out and joined the rest of the family. He was anxious and nervous. He hoped and prayed nothing went wrong and maybe they all could start to heal. Darius and Cameron's eyes locked from across the room. Then Cameron slowly looked at Deidre. He noticed her protruding midsection and froze. He slowly moved his eyes back to Deidre's face and groaned, "Nooooo!" as though he was being tortured. He promptly turned his chair toward the kitchen and wheeled himself out of the room. Nick moved immediately to help his son. Everyone was frozen for a second. Darius took off after Cameron. Marvin stopped him. "Son, wait" he said. "You might not need to go out there." Derrick immediately followed Cameron out of the room. He stopped Cameron from leaving out of the backdoor and guided him to the patio out back. Derrick tried to reason with his friend. "Cameron. Come on man." Derrick began. "Shut up Derrick, You don't know what it's..." Cameron stopped yelling when his Dad came out. At this point Darius had convinced Marvin to let him at least try and talk with Cameron. Both Darius and Marv came out to the patio. Nick was preparing to leave with his son. "Cam-" Darius started' Nick cut him off. "Son, that's enough. Come on Cameron we're leaving." "Please Mr. Richards," pleaded Darius. "Let me talk to him for a minute." Cameron was sitting in his wheelchair staring at Darius. He wanted nothing to do with him, but he knew Darius was right. "Dad," Cameron said to his father, who had placed himself between the two young men at this point. "He's right. I want to hear what he has to say." Cameron angrily stated. Nick and Marvin went back into the house where Marge was holding and comforting Rosa. When Rosa saw Nick walk in she ran to him immediately. Crying loudly she pleaded. "Daddy please, don't send Cameron away. I don't want him to go away." Nick held his daughter close. He whispered to her softly to try and calm her down. Sierra hearing what Rosa had said now had questions for Nick. Fear seized her heart. "Nick," Sierra whispered, "What is Rosa talking about? Where are you sending Cameron?" "You need to talk to Cameron." Nick replied as he held a sobbing Rosa in his arms. Deidre stood to go outside with Darius, but Marge stopped her. She told her sit and try and stay calm. Sierra moved to the sofa to sit with Deidre. Nick asked Rosa to sit with Deidre and Sierra to make sure they were alright, so she joined the two young women on the sofa and the three girls sat talking quietly anxiously awaiting the outcome of the conversation taking place outside on the patio. Marge, Marvin, and Nick stood near the patio in case they had to separate the boys. "Cam", Darius began to talk to his friend. "I am so sor-." Cameron cut him off. "Shut up! Shut the fuck up!" Cameron shouted at his friend as tears rolled down his cheeks. In a low angry voice Cameron continued speaking, "You took my life from me. You took everything. I'm in this damn chair and I can't walk. I might never be whole again." Darius began to weep softly, "I'm sorry, Cameron. If I could......." Cameron interrupted again. "You would what? Huh? Take it back? Take my place? Be my friend again?" Cameron looked at his former best friend. His heart was full of anger and hate. Yes, in that moment, he hated him. That's when he knew the choice he had to make. "Come on Cam," Derrick spoke softly. He knew Cameron was hurting but Darius was hurting just as badly, if not worse. Cameron continued, "You have everything, Darius, and I have nothing." For a moment silence hung in the air following his words. Darius being unable to refute them, then Cameron turned his chair and wheeled himself back in the living room. He found Deidre, Sierra, and Rosa weeping softly and his heart broke into a million pieces. He never intended to hurt anyone but he was and that just solidified his decision. He turned to Marvin and his Dad and said, "Mr. Granger, Mrs. Granger, I shouldn't have come over here. I'm leaving. Dad, please, you and Rosa stay and enjoy the dinner. I'll fix a sandwich at home." He made his way over to Deidre, Sierra, and Rosa where they were holding each other on the couch. "Don't leave", Sierra pleaded in a small voice. "Please stay." Cameron looked into the eyes of the only woman he ever dreamed about. "I can't." He then turned to face Deidre. He gave her a crooked smile. She let go of Sierra long enough to hug her friend. "Congratulations" he whispered in her ear. "You'll be a terrific mom." He squeezed her tightly before he headed out of the door. Nick took Rosa's hand and apologized to his friends and started to follow Cameron out of the door. Darius rushed into the room from the patio and confronted his friend just as he was leaving. "You're a fucking coward man. You want to blame me. Fine! Blame me!" Darius yelled. "Don't do this to my family. They didn't hurt you I did." Darius continued in his rant. "Darius, stop. This isn't helping!" Sierra tried to intervene but Darius brushed her off. "Darius, let him go man, just calm down." Derrick tried to stop him also but Darius was beyond listening to them. Cameron was hurting and it was his fault. He was the only one who could fix this. Cameron slowly turned around and looked at his friend. In a voice so low and so tortured he whispered to everyone in the room. "You can't help me right now, but I know some people who can." He then proceeded to leave their home and go make arrangements to leave for Parkview. Once he was safely inside the house, he called Parkview. He registered and made arrangement to report to the facility the next week. Now the hard part was explaining to his baby sister what he had done. Nick and Rosa declined to stay for dinner with the Grangers, and followed Cameron back home. Rosa ran to her brother and embraced him as soon as they entered the house. Nick took one look in Cam's face and he knew he had made a decision. "When do you go?" Nick asked his son. "Sunday." Cam replied. Rosa started to cry harder. "No Cameron," she pleaded, "I don't want you to go. Please, please don't leave me." She begged her big brother. Nick moved to pull Rosa way from Cameron, but Cameron stopped him with a shake of his head. He held Rosa tightly and kissed the top of her head. "Listen to me, Squirt." Cam quietly explained, "I love you more that the stars in the sky but, I am broken, and I need help." He explained barely keeping his emotions in check. Recalling the pain that he'd caused on everyone's face just a little while back. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 04 "But, Cameron," Rosa wept. "I don't want you to go away. Momma went away. I don't want to lose you too." "Hold up. Look at me, Squirt." Cameron spoke softly to his baby sister. "Momma was really sick and the doctors couldn't help her. She didn't want to leave us." "Do you remember when Whiskers, our cat, at the mouse last year and she got sick" Cameron asked her softly. "Remember, we took her to the vet and they treated her and she had to stay at the hospital for a few days." Rosa nodded. She recalled being worried about her pet. "She was OK and then we picked her up and she came home." Rosa finished for him. "Yes." Cameron affirmed. "I am broken, not just because I'm in a wheelchair, but sometimes I get really mad, OK. Just like tonight when I got mad at Darius. I need someone to help me learn to deal with and let go of the anger, alright." Cameron explained. "The doctor's at this place and the therapist that work there are trained to help people like me. And you know what else; I might be able to walk again. They have some of the best doctors and therapist in the country. By going there, I can get the help I need to heal." He continued. "I've got to get better, so I can help take care of you and Dad. I don't want to leave, but I've got to get help. Do you understand?" Cameron asked. Rosa nodded her head. Cameron hoped Rosa understood like she said she did. He wasn't so sure though, so he just held her close and reassured her that no matter what, he loved her. "But, hey you know what?" Cameron asked smiling. I'm gonna be gone for a while, do you think you and Dad can bring me some of your famous chocolate cookies when you come see me. Rosa's eyes lit up. "We can come and see you?" she asked in awe. "Yes, and you'd better come a lot. I need to know you two still care about me alright." Rosa wrapped her arms around her brother's neck and held on tightly. She had to believe he would be alright and her big brother would come back home as soon as he could. Rosa looked in his eyes as he continued. 'I've got to learn to love myself again Baby Girl. I hurt too many people tonight because I'm hurting and that's not good." He explained. "I love you Cam." Rosa whispered through her tears. And she hugged her brother tightly. There was a hard and loud knock on the door. Nick went to the door and opened it. Sierra stood on the other side and she was not happy. "Excuse me, Mr. Richards." She said. "I need to talk to Cameron." Cameron took one look at Sierra's face and knew he was in big, big trouble. "It's alright, Dad." Cam stated. "I'll be right there. Rosa, go in the kitchen and make a sandwich for you and Dad alright. I'm gonna go outside and talk to Sierra." Sierra loved this hard-headed man. She just had to find a way to reach him before she lost him forever. Nick invited her in, but she wanted to wait on the porch until Cameron came outside. When he came out, she could see that he had been crying, as she sat beside him on a chair. She wanted to wrap her arms around him and take away his pain, but she couldn't. Sierra took a deep breath and began to speak. "I know what happened to you was somehow my fault. I never should have gone with Jake, because honest and truly, you are the one I wanted to be with. I know you hate Darius, but he truly is sorry about what happened." Sierra whispered as tears rolled down her cheek. Sierra softly wept, her tears streamed down her face and quietly dripped off her chin. Her words were rendered incoherent by her copious sobbing and it seemed as if her entire being was wracked by each sob. She tried to say something, but the half-formed words never escaped her quivering lips. "I'm in love with you Cameron. I've loved you forever. Please, don't push me away. We will find a way to fix this so we can be together. I don't want to lose you now." Talk about shocked. Cameron knew he felt that way about her, but for her to reciprocate. His heart soared, then he whispered. "I'm not even a whole anymore. I can't protect you and you deserve better. I've got to at least walk again. These thoughts helped validated his decision. "I don't blame you," Cameron whispered, "And I don't hate your brother, well, not really. I understand he thought I hurt you. If Darius knew how I really feel, he would know that I could never cause you a moment's pain." He caressed her milk chocolate cheek with his fingertips. Her stared in her chocolate eyes and saw the tears as they to spill down her cheeks. He wished that he could take away her pain, but he was dealing with his own, right then. Cameron leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes, "When I saw that bastard holding you down trying to do that to you. I wanted to kill him. You're mine, baby. Ever since we were kids, I never wanted anyone else. I love you Sierra, but I'm not good for you right now." "Darius took my life from me. I don't know how to get over that. My Dad has struggled for so long. I planned to go to school, get a good job, to help take care of my family. Now, I'm in this damn chair and can't even walk. I've seen my Daddy cry. He is a strong man, and he doesn't deserve to be cursed with a half a son that can't help." Cameron continued as tears rolled down his cheeks. Sierra took her hands and wiped away his tears. "Sierra, baby, I'm going away for a while. There's a-" Sierra interrupted him before he could finish. "What are you talking about? You can't leave. I won't let you go." Sierra became distraught. She kneeled before him and grasped his face in her hands. She leaned forward and kissed him. Their tears mingled as they shared a passionate kiss. Cameron gently pushed Sierra away so he could explain. "Listen, baby," Cam continued. "Parkview is a treatment center that specializes in rehabilitating people who have injuries like mine. I can get intense physical and occupational therapy that might help me walk again." Cameron took a deep breath and pressed on, "Dr. Jones recommended it and claims that their doctors are the best. I need help they can give me at Parkview." He wiped away her tears. "Never doubt how I feel about you and I will come back to you, but I'm no good for anyone right now." He looked into her eyes. "Understand?" Sierra nodded. "When do you go?" she asked. "Sunday", Cam replied. "How?" She inquired. "Dad's driving me down there to sign me in." he answered. "How long?" She asked. "No more than a year." He answered. "Will you come see me? I need to see you as much as I can." Sierra sat in his lap and wrapped her arms around his neck and held on tightly. "You couldn't keep me away if you tried." "Tell your Dad, I'm riding with you all, alright." Sierra stated. "OK, baby" he answered as they held each other tightly. Thanks for reading this chapter. I certainly hope you enjoyed it. I also hope it cleared up some confusion for you. Chapter Five is in the works. Please remember to vote and comment. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 05 First of all, I want to thank everyone who has taken time to read this story. I am having a terrific time writing this tale. I want to thank my editor, LaRascasse, for helping me with this. You are the best. There are many other people who have supported me in writing this tale and I want to take time to thank all of you. Now with great pride, I present to you chapter five. I certainly hope you enjoy this chapter. Please remember to vote and comment. Feedback is always appreciated and welcomed. The First Months Cameron was in pain and he was tired of dealing with it. It wasn't fair that he always had to suffer alone. From the time he was fourteen and found his Mom passed out in the kitchen, to losing his best friends over a girl, he just could not get a break. The only bright spot in his life was his family, Dad and Rosa. He'd do anything to make sure they were taken care of. They were one of the main reasons he came to Parkview Treatment and Rehabilitation Facility, a center specializing in helping people with severe spinal cord injuries learn to cope. There was one other bright spot, but she was partly to blame for him being here, If Sierra had not gone to prom with Jake, I would never have gotten hurt. I'm always getting the shit kicked out of me by them in one way or another. Cameron thought as he looked out of the window of his dorm room at Parkview. Today was just the day to match his mood: dark, rainy, and gloomy. When he first arrived, he had to meet with a psychologist name Dr. Susanna Kerst, who gave him permission to be angry. Permission, I don't need permission to be mad from you, lady! He fumed after their initial meeting. The bastard that did this to me is free, and everybody seems to think that's ok. It's not right. I wish I could make him pay. Angrily slamming his hand into a table shattering a glass, a startled nurse rushed in to see if he was alright, but he did not acknowledge her. He turned his chair and wheeled himself to his room, slamming the door behind him, to indicate that he needed to be left alone. Seething in anger and bitterness, hatred ravaged his mind as he thought of the crimes committed against him. He fumed at the atrocity that even though he almost lost his life, the culprit of the horrid events was still free. That simply was not fair. Darius needed to pay. He needed to know the pain he caused. He needed to be held accountable. Utira Dei adolebittuanigrum anima ad cinerem.he thought.May the wrath of God burn your black soul to ashes. He could press charges. Send his selfish ass to prison for a long time. He didn't deserve to walk free while he was confined to a chair. He lost control, right. Darius was always losing control and never, ever saw consequences for it. Now he was having a baby. How fucked up was that? He needed to suffer, experience pain. He needed to hurt too. But he wouldn't exact revenge, because it would hurt too many people. It would hurt her. So he would simply learn to For the first few weeks, he endured every test known to man. Medical exams, stress test, endurance test, and even test to measure his mental capabilities. He talked to many specialists and was scheduled for several surgeries that promised to help correct some of the damages suffered from the attack. During his first week at Parkview, he met with psychologist. Week three at Parkview Cameron was in a closed session with Dr. Kerst. She wanted him to talk about his favorite memory before he was hurt. Cameron remembered the day as if it had just happened. It was just an ordinary spring Saturday, years ago before his life went to hell. He walked to the park with Rosa so she could play on the swings. She loved swinging because she said it felt like she was flying. As he pushed her on the swings, she would giggle and her laugh was so infectious, Cameron could not help but smile. While at the park on that particular day, Deidre and Sierra showed up and Sierra was carrying her diary. After speaking to both girls, he snatched Sierra's diary ran. Sierra gave chase. She became so flustered that she couldn't form the words to threaten him. He thought she was just unbelievably cute. Deidre had enough of his teasing and joined in the efforts to help her friend retrieve her book. He did relent, however, and promptly gave her book back. Cameron smiled as he recalled how he and the two girls spent the rest of the afternoon simply hanging out and playing with Rosa. He could not give up no matter what. His Dad, Rosa, and Sierra were depending on him. He didn't think he could ever forgive Darius. The pain Darius inflicted on him was more that physical, but mental and emotional as well. He had to meet with the director of the facility today, to go over his schedule. So far, all of the people seemed nice and they seemed to be competent. Whether or not they could really help him remained to be seen, During the meeting with the director and doctors responsible for his care, Cameron met the rest of his care team. Dr. Kerst, he'd met during his initial registration. Several of the doctors and nurses he already knew. But, then, he met a new member of his team, his physical therapist, Dawn Marcolini. She was the biggest woman he'd ever seen. Her muscle definition was well defined. She appeared to be serious and not tolerate foolishness of any kind. However, when she spoke to him, her voice was the most comforting he'd ever heard. He immediately relaxed and knew that with her help, he could face anything thrown at him. All of the key players in charge of his care along with Cameron sat down to discuss the course of his treatment. The doctors took time to explain to Cameron the different course of treatments both surgical and nonsurgical options available. He would also have sessions with Dr. Kerst daily for a few the first two months, reducing the sessions as he adjusted and showed improvement. He was scheduled to go to occupational therapy three times weekly and physical therapy four times a week. During one of his daily sessions with Dawn, Cameron was feeling down and not cooperating with any of the exercises she'd planned for him. His apathetic attitude caused Dawn to become upset and at his constant refusal, she blew a fuse. "What is wrong with you?" she yelled. "You have a family, friends, and people who care about you and you won't even try. That beautiful little girl that visits you every week worships you, yet you're spending all of your time moping and feeling sorry for yourself." Dawn continued. "Well, I'm through. If you don't want to get well, then I am not wasting my time anymore." Dawn retrieved her duffle bag and started to leave. Cameron realized that if he didn't stop her, was about to lose the one person that might be able to help him get back to normal. He had to stop her. "Dawn, wait, I'm sorry. It's just that so much shit has happened to me in the last few months, that sometimes it's hard, you know." Cameron took a deep breath. "I hate the guy who did this to me. I hate his guts. I want to take him down and destroy him, but I can't do that without hurting other people. People I care about." he growled. "Do you think I want to be this miserable and alone? I came here to get well and help my family and I need your help. Please don't leave, just tell me what you need me to do and I will gladly do it." Cameron concluded. Cameron turned his chair towards her and waited for her to respond to his statement. Dawn looked at Cameron pensively as she took a deep breath. Dawn said in a sympathetic tone, "I am not even going to try to imagine what you went through that night, what you go through every day. But there are people out there who love you, who care deeply for you, who would be heartbroken if you gave up. Your father, your sister and that girl who visits every week- they are all counting on you to get better again. Keep fighting for their sake." "Listen to me, Cameron. I know what happened to you was not your fault. The guy that did this is off living his life somewhere else, and you've got to live yours. You are strong. You are capable of beating this and coming out on the other side of this. I want to help you do this, but you've got to want it for yourself. You will walk again. You will be able to have your life back. I'm behind you one hundred percent. So is your family, friends, and everyone here at Parkview." Dawn concluded. He didn't want to hurt anymore: hurt anyone else. He had to come to terms with what happened and believe he would heal and walk again. Cameron, for the first time didn't feel completely alone but like someone understood and was in his corner. He stiffened his resolved and was determined to fight even harder than before. "I'll fight and won't give up, as long as I know you believe in me I can do it. I will walk again and show everyone that I'm strong." He declared in a strong voice. "Alright, let's do this then." Dawn declared dropping her bag back on floor as they returned to his workout regimen. Visiting a Friend Sierra put on a brave face when Cameron first left for Parkview. She made sure she was with Cameron and his father, Nick, when they drove down to the care facility Sunday morning. She held back her tears because, she didn't want him to cause Cameron to be even more upset. After Cameron had been at Parkview for a couple of months, Sierra was missing him terribly. Although she still babysat Rosa and was around his family all of the time, she missed looking into his handsome face. She sulked so much that Marvin called Nick to see when he and Rosa would visit Cameron again. He asked Nick to allow Sierra to accompany them on their next visit. Marge informed her youngest daughter that she would be traveling with the Nick and Rosa to see Cameron the next weekend. Sierra was elated. She went through every outfit in her closet until she found the perfect one. She talked about going so much that her best friend Deidre, who was now eight months pregnant and crabby, told her to stop talking about him and claim him as soon as she could. Sierra decided Deidre was right; it was time to let Cameron Richards know that he was her man. Cameron recalled the first time Sierra came to see him. When she walked into the lobby with his father, Cameron forgot to breathe. She was a vision of loveliness. The fact that she came to see made that weekend with his family even more special. His Dad even gave them some time alone that day by leaving to speak with his doctors and allowing one of the nurses to take Rosa to the recreation room for a snack. "So, how have you been?" Sierra asked timidly when they were finally alone. Cameron didn't answer at first. He just looked at her. She became self-conscious, "How are you feeling?" she asked. Realizing he was making her uncomfortable. He quickly looked away. "Let's sit in the lounge for a moment." He said softly. "It's not that' I'm just amazed at how beautiful you are and that you're actually here." He whispered. He turned his chair and moved to the lounge and Sierra followed. They decided that they would try just staying friends, even though Sierra wanted much more, she let Cameron think he won. The day ended and his guest bid him farewell and headed home. At the end of November, on Cameron's birthday, he was in for a real treat. Dad and Rosa arrived early for a visit. Marvin and Marge Granger came down also and were excited to see him and quickly told him so. Even Derrick came to visit along with Sierra and the two men exchanged a few words. Thankfully, Darius did not come. Cameron was relieved, because even though he was happy to see everyone, he was not ready to deal with his issues with Darius. Deidre couldn't make the trip because of her advanced pregnancy, but she sent him a card with a special message inside. He placed the card to the side and knew he would burn it later. Deidre chose to be with Darius, therefore, he wanted nothing to do with her either. Sierra, the person he wanted to see the most, was the person whose hand he held on to the whole time they visited. He left Sierra's side for a few minutes and went to his room. Sierra later followed him to discover that he had burnt the card he had gotten from Deidre. Sierra was horrified, because even though she knew he was angry and even understood it to a degree; she never thought it extended to her best friend. Cameron took one look at the horrified expression on Sierra's face and broke down crying. He never meant to hurt her, certainly didn't want her to see him in this state. Sierra froze as much as she wanted to comfort him, she didn't know if she could handle the anger he was holding inside. Staring at him Sierra realized that due to the pain and injury he endured, Cameron Richards may have become a different person. But, it didn't matter to her. She'd stand with him through hell or high water. She promised him that she'd be there and she would keep that promise. Moving slowly to his side, Sierra kneeled before his chair, took both of his hands in hers, looked him in the eyes and said. "I'm here for you and I understand that you're hurting. I'll be here to help you through this. I'm not going anywhere." Cameron reached out to her, the one person that he'd gone through hell for and would gladly go through it again and pulled her into his lap. She gently sat on his lap and held him close as he released the demons that tortured his soul. Sierra waited and gave Cameron time to get himself together. Once he had calmed down and washed his face, they went back to the lounge area where everyone else was waiting. Cameron put on a brave face. No one knew about his moment of weakness, only Sierra, and he knew she wouldn't say anything. He smiled and acted as if nothing unusual had occurred earlier in his room and after a while, he'd almost forgotten about his breakdown. At the end of the visit, everyone headed home. There were hugs all around and well wishes were shared. "He is doing so much better. This place is good for him." Marge said to her husband as they drove home. Marvin nodded in response. "I didn't want to let him come here at first." Nick interjected, "but he was right, he needs the help they give him here. I just hope...." "I agree. It seems like everything will work out now. You all saw how he and Sierra kept looking at each other and touching. Well folks, let's start saving for the wedding." Marv boasted as the three parents shared a laugh. Rosa woke up to the sound of laughter and was confused. She wondered what was so funny. But she was tired so she soon fell back asleep. Sierra rode home with Derrick. At first they were silent as he drove and then Derrick decided to mess with his sister. "Hey, I saw you holding on to Cameron. Is there something you need to tell your big brother?" Derrick teasingly asked his sister. "Shut up. Butt face. We are just friends. You know that." Sierra replied smiling. Derrick laughed out. "I've got lots of friends and I don't spend hours holding their hands, touching them, bringing them things and watching them all of the time." Sierra narrowed her eyes at her brother because she was starting to annoy her, but Derrick continued to tease. "But I have had a few girlfriends treat me that way." Sierra crossed her arms and huffed in her seat. "We are just friends." She wished they were much, much more. Determination For four more months Cameron worked hard, He was determined to walk again. Keeping the promise he'd made to his baby sister that he would get better. Now living at the center, Cameron was getting his life back. Out of all the decisions he had made, coming to Parkview was the best one. The Doctors and other health care professionals at Parkview were so encouraging and positive, that Cameron had no doubt that he would one day walk again. When he first arrived, he had no definition in his calf muscles, now he could stand and make small steps with modified assistance. He noticed a difference in everyone in his family as well. His Dad, who was seriously ill before his accident, was now taking better care of himself. He had lost weight and gotten on a good diet. He no longer had to take all of the medication he was on last year. He was very proud of his father. His love and support helped to guide him in making the right choice six months ago. His baby sister, Rosa, was thriving from the extra love and support she received from Mrs. Granger. She was one of the smartest girls in her second grade class. She worked hard to make her brother proud. She had just turned eight, and although he wasn't able to attend her party, he made sure he called her that evening. His family came to visit him as often as they could when his dad's work schedule would allow. The weeks his father couldn't come, a member of the Granger family, would make sure they brought Rosa to visit. His best days were when Sierra would bring his sister and he got to spend time with both of his special girls. One weekend, Derrick and Darius visited Cameron. At first Cameron refused to see them, but Dawn his therapist intervened. She knew Cameron still cared about his friends and that it was past time for them to talk. Cameron was leaving therapy with Dawn when he saw Darius and Derrick sitting in the lobby of his residential area of the treatment center. What the fuck? What are they doing here? Cameron wondered. I don't wanna talk to them. Fuck this, I'm out. Cameron turned his chair and headed for the exit. Dawn stopped him. "Where are you going? Why are you upset?" Dawn asked confused. When Cameron just left her he was upbeat, now he was clearly distraught. Cameron stopped and turned around to look at his new friend. He never talked to anyone about what happened to him other than Dr. Kerst, but he felt he could trust Dawn. He took a few minutes and explained his relationship with the Granger boys. At the end of his tale Dawn was speechless. She stood and walked away from Cameron and straight to the two young men. She was furious. How dare he treat a friend of his the way he treated Cameron. She was going to give this Darius Granger a piece of her mind. "Which one of you is Darius?" Dawn asked as she approached the two men. Both men stood. One was dark skinned with dark eyes, a low-afro and a goatee. The other was a milk chocolate colored God with dreamy chocolate brown eyes, a low haircut, and no facial hair. He was perfect, and for a moment Dawn was stunned. Darius spoke, "I'm Darius Granger, and this is my brother, Derrick. We're here to see Cameron Richards. He's our friend." "You stopped being his friend when he needed you the most. Then attacked him and put him in a chair. Really," Dawn stated as she looked at him as if he was scum stuck to her shoe. "If that's the way you treat your friends, I'd hate to be your enemy. There is no way in HELL, I will let you near him. Leave now and crawl back under the rock you came out from under you arrogant piece of shit." Dawn turned to walk away from them, but Derrick blocked her. Her voice cracked, as she began to address the handsome man before her, "Derrick, I don't know you and I have nothing to say to you even though you have the audacity to stand here with him and try and defend ... its unreal. If Cameron was really your friend, you would have done something to help him. But no, you just let your idiot brother abuse him. You can get the fuck out of my face." She began to push past him. "Wait, Miss.? What was your name?" He looked at her identification as he grabbed her shoulder to stop her from leaving. "Miss Marcolini, I assure you my brother regrets what he did. However, I will not stand here and let you attack him like this. We are here to see Cameron. Do you know where he is?" Derrick inquired in a tone with authority. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 05 Dawn sucked in a deep breath. No one spoke to her that way. She was turned on and could not believe the way her body was reacting to this man. Dawn was 5'5" tall, and he towered over her by a good five inches. She actually had to look up to see his face, my goodness, he was so handsome. Her heart began to race, because no man had ever affected her the way Derrick Granger did "Right here, it's alright Dawn, Thanks." Cameron told his buddy. He saw Dawn go over to the twins and felt overwhelmed with gratitude at her defense of him, but he wanted her to know it wasn't necessary. "You don't have to talk to them, if you don't want too. I'll call security." She stated as she regained her equilibrium. Cameron smiled. "No, it's alright. I know these guys and he's right we need to talk. Besides, don't you have patients waiting? I'll be fine. Call you later?" "Are you sure Cameron?" Dawn queried. "OK, I'll go but call me later." She took one more look at Derrick and went back to work. Derrick was stunned as he watched the most perfect woman he'd ever seen walk away. She was stunning, clear porcelain skin, long black hair and the most tantalizing grey-green eyes. Dawn Marcolini was definitely a woman he would like to know better. He wondered briefly, if she and Cameron were involved. "Cameron, you're looking good man." Darius started to speak. Cameron looked at Darius and asked. "What the fuck do you want? Why are you here?" "You animal!, I saved your sister from a rapist and this is how you thank me? You crippled me and put me in a wheelchair." Cameron fumed. The twins looked at each other as Cam stopped to take a breath, tiny rivulets of tears streaming down his face. "My father and sister counted on me getting a job and I can't do it, all because of you and your issues." "I hope that you can forgive yourself for I never will. It makes me sick to breathe the same air as you." Cameron growled. "We need to settle this. We need to talk, man. And I need to earn your forgiveness." Darius told him. "I should have gone to prison. I know that but politics set me free. I know that's not fair. I have been a total ass to you for years and I know you have every reason to hate me. Believe me I understand that words can't fix this, saying I'm sorry won't fix this, but I have to try. Will you give me a little time and at least listen, please, that's all I ask." Darius pleaded. Cameron watched his friend for a moment and asked a simple question, "Why did you hate me so much? Why? Wasn't I ever good enough for the two of you? Was that why you alienated me? Was that why you almost killed me that night?" Darius took a deep breath and tried to explain. "To be honest, I never hated you. Everyone loved you. But, I felt like I had to be the leader in our group. I wanted people to look up to me the way they did you. At home all I heard was Cameron this, Cameron that. I wanted to be the one Mom and Dad bragged on. I felt inferior and wanted to outshine you, but you were my brother, and I loved you, man. I still love you Cameron. I hate what I've done to you. I hate myself for this, but I promise you I will find a way to make this up to you. I don't know how, but I will." Sighing, he continued, "The stuff over Adena when we were kids was just stupid. You beat me at everything and hardly had to work at it. Sometimes it seemed that my own twin loved you more than he did me, and honestly, that hurt." Darius took a deep breath and continued. "At the prom, I don't know why I lost control like that at the dance. I was drunk for one thing and at the moment I honestly thought you hurt Sierra. I was upset that Dee was with Jason and when I saw Sierra struggling, I wanted to hurt the person that hurt her." He continued. "So I saw red. I didn't hear you calling for help and that you were helping her." "Nothing I can tell you can justify the way I've treated you for the past four years and that night, but I need to let you know how sorry I am, and ask you to forgive me." Darius paused to give Cameron a chance to respond to him. "Why do you need my forgiveness so bad, now?" Cameron asked angrily. "You were my brother. I loved you, but you dissed me completely. Not just the attack, when we were kids, you didn't even come to my Mom's funeral, Darius. That hurt. More than anything you could have done to me. I needed you and you weren't there. "Cameron, I know you're still mad, but give him a chance to explain please." Derrick interjected after listening to his brother talk. Cameron then turned to Derrick. "You're as bad as he is. You never took sides. You always agreed with your brother. Are you just here to agree with him now or are you standing on your own Derrick?" Cameron asked. He did not realize how angry he was at Derrick, but he was. He felt just as betrayed by his silence as he did by Darius' words and actions. Derrick stared at Cameron. He never really considered his role in the demise of their friendship. "Cameron, you're right. I should have spoken up when we were kids. I'm sorry. I just didn't want to choose sides. It was easier to just go along with... I'm sorry. I know I was wrong. Please give us both a chance to earn your forgiveness." He pleaded as he faced his friend. Cameron was not angry as much as hurt, quickly forgave Derrick. "Darius" he asked. "Why is this so important to you?" Darius took out his wallet and took out a picture. He passed the picture to Cameron. Cameron looked at the photograph of the most beautiful little girls. They looked just like their mother Deidre. "Because of these two, my most precious possessions, my girls, I want them to get to know their other uncle." He didn't want to see one more thing that Darius had that he did not. Anger and hatred swirled inside him and he was angry. Blind with fury, he turned away from both men. He couldn't look at the photo. He could not acknowledge those children. "Get out! Get the fuck out of here and don't bother coming back. Either of you!" He yelled at the two young men. A security officer rushed into the room to see what the problem was. He immediately ordered Darius and Derrick leave the building. During Cameron's outburst, Darius dropped one of the photos into Cameron's lap. Picking up the picture to hand it back to Darius, Cameron saw two of the most angelic faces and his breath caught. He was captivated by their beauty. "It's alright Kevin, please, they don't need to leave. I'm alright." "Are you sure Mr. Richards? They will leave. I won't have them upsetting you." the officer explained. "Yes, thanks Kevin. It's Alright. I'm fine." Cameron assured the officer now that he'd calmed down. Cameron was so entranced, he asked, "What are their names?" Darius smiled as his chest puffed up with pride, "Camirra Lace and Cammora Rose Granger" he said proudly. Cameron was stunned as he realized his friend named both of his daughters after him. A smile spread across his face. "Well," he said, "I've definitely got to get outta this chair now. I have two more little girls to look out for." "Look." Cameron continued. "I don't think I can ever forgive you, but I have to, for Sierra. You two guys are like brothers to me and Sierra, well I'm gonna just tell you. I want to marry her one day. So we'll really be family once I'm recovered and can stand on my own if she'll have me. How do you feel about Sierra and me being together?" Cameron asked waiting for their reply. A humongous smile spread across Darius' face. Derrick was grinning too. "Well," said Derrick, "It's about damn time. That's all I've got to say." "Welcome back man. Welcome to the family." Darius said as he tried to give his best friend a man-hug. Cameron moved away from him. He would try to forgive him, but he'd never be able to forget the pain inflicted on him by the man before him. Darius and Derrick were elated when they realized that their friend was going to try and forgive them and ended up getting a room and spending a few days visiting with Cameron. Cameron talked about their visit with doctor Kerst at his next session. After her initial visit, Sierra made sure she came to see Cameron as often as she could. One weekend, Nick had to work and Deidre needed a break from the twins. The two girls, with Nick's permission of course, picked up Rosa and drove to Parkview to visit with Cameron. Deidre had Darius watch the twins, and he didn't mind because he loved taking care of his daughters. This was also a chance for Deidre to get away from the house for a minute and catch up with an old friend, besides she really needed a break. The three young adults spent the weekend catching up and with Cameron admiring pictures of Deidre's and Darius' twins, Camorra and Camirra, feeling honored that is friend would somehow name his daughters after him. Rosa especially enjoyed her visit, because Sierra and Deidre treated her like she was a big girl and not a baby, like her Dad. They asked her opinion on where to grab lunch. They let her go to and from the restroom without walking her and holding her hand. Not that she minded being her daddy's baby too much because she loved the way her Dad looked out for her, but she liked feeling grown up too. Deidre knew that Sierra and Cameron needed sometime alone, so she asked Rosa to give her a brief tour of the facility and allowed Cameron and Sierra to spend a little time together in his room. As soon as they entered his room and closed the door, Sierra straddled his lap and they kissed and held each other for a while. "I missed you, baby. I missed you so much. I'm glad you found a way to come see me." Cameron whispered in Sierra's ears as he held her close. Sierra sighed and tightened her arms around his neck. "I hate being away from you even for a minute. When will you come home?" she asked. Cameron held her in a tight embrace. "Soon, baby, soon." He leaned back and looked in her eyes. "I want to be whole so I can take care of you the way a man should. I'll be home in a few months." Then he kissed her and they returned to the lobby shortly thereafter. Eventually the day ended and the girls had to go back home. He stood at the entrance and watched them drive away. He would miss them, but he could call anytime he needed to hear their voices. He wasn't really worried because he knew his two best friends Darius and Derrick had their backs. Healing and Growing Today was special because it marked the end of month ten; he had two more months to go. Also, he would have his final family session with his dad and sister that afternoon. He saw his dad and his sister walking in with someone, Sierra. Cameron was overjoyed to see her. Cameron stood even taller with his walker because he was determined that his family would see him standing on his own two feet, not sitting in a chair. Sierra seeing him standing was an added bonus. Rosa spotted him first. She rushed to her big brother and threw her arms around his waist. Cam held on to her tightly. "Cam, you're standing! You're standing Cameron! Can you walk now!? Are you better?" Rosa asked on one deep breath. Cameron chuckled. "I'm standing Squirt. I can walk a little but not really well yet alright." At this point Nick and Sierra walked up. Cameron gave his Dad a big hug as he greeted him. Sierra stood to the side and watched the reunion. Cameron looked over at her and was awed. Sierra smiled. She knew this time was important for the family and did not want to interfere. She knew after their session, she would get to spend some time with him alone. "Sierra, hey Baby." Cameron greeted her with a tight embrace. Sierra squeezed him tightly, "Hey, Cam." She whispered in return. Dr. Kerst was ready for the Richards family so Sierra had a seat in the visitors lounge and read a book that she had brought with her. Before they went in with the doctor, Cameron kissed Sierra on the cheek and assured her he would be right back. After entering the doctor's office, the final session began. She asked about their last few weeks and Rosa told her that she made Honor Roll in school Dr. Kerst told her she was proud and gave her a lollipop. She actually bought the giant lollipops after her first section with the family three months ago. She had a total of six sessions with all three of them. They met twice a month to help Cameron and Little Rosa was determined to help her big brother. Dr. Kerst took a moment to admire Cameron's father Nick. Nick had lost weight and gotten himself in shape. He was definitely a heart throb. Dr. Kerst wondered if at any time he realized how attracted she was to him and could sense her interest. He never hinted that he knew, nor did he reciprocate her feelings. Unfortunately, she would not cross the line and become involved with someone she was treating. Although, technically, Nick was not really her patient, she was determined not to cross the line of professionalism. The sessions really helped not only Cameron, but everyone in his family. He talked about the traumas of losing his Mom, the stress of watching his Dad suffer, and his fear of not being able to take care of Rosa. He even discussed this devastation of losing his two best friends and the joy of their reconciliation months ago. Rosa got to share her fear of losing her brother like she did her Mom. She also talked about her special relationships with the Granger women. Even Nick discussed his fears of not being able to take care of his kids. He boasted about the changes he made in his lifestyle and how much his life had improved. Each member of the family took time to congratulate and validate each other. Along with talking to the psychiatrist, he received intense physical therapy. His personal therapist, Dawn, had him on a specific regimen. He was now actually able to walk with the aid of a walker. Dawn told him that in two more weeks, he wouldn't need the walker at all. After their family session with Dr. Kerst, Cameron would leave and spend the rest of the weekend with his Dad, Sierra, and Rosa. The session lasted two hours and the family exited the office. They were staying at a local hotel for the weekend with Sierra sharing a room with Rosa. Cameron would get to leave the facility to spend a day with them. Cam went to his room and got his overnight bag and headed for the door. On his way out, ran into Dawn his therapist who reminded him to do his exercises. They left and went to the hotel. Nick wanted to go out to dinner but Sierra and Cam wanted some time alone, so Nick took Rosa out to dinner to give the young couple time. As soon as Nick and Rosa left their room, Cameron closed the door and leaned against it. He reached for Sierra and pulled her into his arms. She flowed into his arms willingly and marveled in the magic that was Cameron. They knew Nick and Rosa would be back in a few hours, so they really didn't have very much time alone, but they would make the most of it. "If you're tired of standing, you can sit on the bed if you need to." Sierra whispered to Cameron. She really wanted him on the bed and not just to sit. "No, I'm fine." Cameron answered, "I just want to hold you just like this." He rubbed her back as he kissed the top of her head. "Hey," Sierra interjected, "Let me help you with your stretches. I'm going to stand here by the bed and I want you to come to me." Cameron smiled. He knew she was using a trick to try and get him on the bed, but he'd play along. Sierra moved and Nick slowly took small steps toward her. Eventually, he was standing in front of her face to face. He again held her in a tight embrace. Sierra was turned on. She wanted to do more than just hug. Ever since she and Cameron started dating, he was such a gentleman, never initiating anything more than hugs and a few light caresses. She wanted to be with her man. She wanted to worship his body to touch and kiss every part of him. She wanted to feel him come apart in her hands. Her nipples hardened, and her pussy was soaked it was so hot. She was determined to let her man know that he was her man and she wanted the real thing. "Cameron", she moaned softly, "Please, sit on the bed." The sexy way she moaned sent Cameron's desire for her in overdrive. He purposely wore his black slacks today because they were the only pants capable of containing the massive hard on he was sporting. He didn't pull her too close because she would be in for a real shock. But hearing her moan his name set his blood on fire. At that moment, they looked at each other and it was apparent that unless a major event occurred, they would be together tonight. "Sierra, baby we need to slow down" he whispered, even though his body was screaming go faster. "Cameron, sit on the bed, now!" she growled. He moved to the bed and sat down. Sierra immediately straddled his lap and rubbed her burning pussy on top of his raging cock. Both of them groaned out loud as they dry humped each other. "Oh God, baby stop." Cameron moaned loudly. "No Cam, don't stop. Your Dad will be back soon." Sierra growled as she pressed her hot center into him. She grabbed his shirt and started to pull it over his head. Cameron stopped her. "Wait, baby, wait" he whispered softly. "I don't want our first time to be a quickie." Sierra looked at him, her eyes ablaze with her passion and said. "You're it for me Cameron. You're all I've ever wanted. Please don't deny me this. I need you." She leaned forward and kissed him with all of the pent up passion of her being. "Make love to me, tonight. Please." Cameron's control snapped. He snatched her t-shirt from her body exposing her lovely brown globes encased the sexiest black and white bra he'd ever seen. Cupping her breast in his hand he massaged them and quickly removed them from their prison. Her quarter-sized areolas were topped with a chocolate nipple that reminded him of a delicious Hershey kiss. He reached the clasp in the front of her bra to expedite its removal and proceeded to suck on her right nipple as he massaged her left breast. With every tug Cameron made on her breast, Sierra felt a hot sensation in her pussy. Cameron lay back on the bed and pulled her on top of him. He gripped her ample ass with both hands and held her tightly against him as her rubbed his massive cock against her hot center. The couple rolled over and Cameron ended up on top of Sierra. He looked down at her and stared in her eyes. Her chocolate eyes were bright and held him captive. He leaned down and covered her lips with his. She wrapped her arms around his neck and held him tightly as his tongue met hers in a fight of dominance. "Baby, wait." Cameron whispered softly in her ear. Even though his body was heated and in overdrive, he didn't want to rush this. Besides his Dad and Rosa would be back in about an hour, so he couldn't take his time. Sierra pulled back. Her chest was heaving as she took deep, heavy breaths. She wanted this man and she was tired of waiting. "Cameron, why do you keep stopping? Don't you want me? You tell me that you want me and then we keep stopping?" Sierra asked pensively. Cameron looked at her and said. "You're all I've ever wanted, but I want to be a whole man again, not just half. I'm on my way back, but I'm not there yet, so I want to wait until I can love you right. I love you Sierra, more than you'll ever know." He pulled her close and kissed her deeply. He held her close until they both calmed down and were breathing normally. "So, tell me about the twins" he prompted. There is nothing Sierra loved to talk about more than her adorable nieces. "Well, Camorra Rose takes after her Daddy, but Camirra Lace is a lot like her Mom. They are the cutest little girls, ever." Sierra boasted as she smiled while thinking about the adorable little angels. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 05 Laughing Cameron asked, "How many gifts are you buying them this time, Auntie Sierra?" he joked. "Ha ha, funny!" Sierra replied. "How many stuffed bears do they have from Uncle Cameron? I would say at least fifteen each." Sierra spent the next twenty minutes taking about her adorable nieces. Sierra laughed and playfully shoved him. Cameron became serious and pulled her close. "I want kids one day." he whispered. "And I want them with you." Sierra's heart hammered in her chest. He had voiced her most secret desire. Eventually, Nick and Rosa returned to the hotel, bringing Cameron and Sierra something to eat. They all stayed up late playing board games until Rosa became sleepy and Sierra told her to come to their room and go to bed. Rosa hugged her Dad and brother goodnight. Sierra and Cameron shared a brief goodnight kiss. The next morning the family went out for breakfast at Hardee's as they planned to enjoy their day together. The family left Hardee's and went to the aquarium. After spending hours in the park, Cameron and Sierra wandered away from Rosa and Nick for a moment alone. Sierra pushed Cameron in his wheelchair over to the tank that house rainbow fish which she found fascinating and enjoyed watching. Cameron and Sierra quietly enjoyed each other's company until it was time to leave. "Cameron, Sierra! Where are you?" Rosa called as her sweet voice ended their solitude. "We're over here Squirt." Cameron answered. "We're over here by the rainbow aquarium." Rosa darted around the corner in search of her brother and his friend. "Daddy's waiting. Let's go!" Cameron and Sierra laughed and followed Rosa to Nick's vehicle. It was time to take Cameron back to Parkview and head home. All four passengers chatted all the way back to the center. They visited for another hour before heading home. This was the hardest part of the visits for them because Rosa never wanted to leave her brother there. Cameron took his little sister aside and assured her that he would be fine. She hugged her brother tightly and wished he would hurry up and heal so he could come home. As Cameron watched the three most important people in his life drive away he thought, Two more months, and I'll get to go home with you, and I'll never leave your side again. He stood on his walker and headed to the gym. He wanted to practice standing and making steps on the bars before retiring later. When Cameron entered the gym, Dawn looked up at him from where she was giving one of her other patients a massage. She saw Cameron walk over to the bar, stand, and practice making small steps. Dawn was assigned as Cameron's therapist the first month that he came to the facility. He wanted to walk again and didn't mind working hard to reach his goals. She loved working with him. Even though Cameron was in a chair, he was still a gorgeous man. Many of the nurses as well as patients flirted with him daily. Most of them did it in harmless fun because they knew his heart belonged to the lovely young woman that was a regular visitor to the facility. Dawn never flirted with him because she saw him as just a nice guy and a friend. As his physical therapist, she kept their relationship strictly professional. She thought of Derrick and wondered. Will I ever find a man that would care about me the way Cameron cares for Sierra? She shook her head to shake away those thought. "Good evening, young man. What do you think you're doing?" Dawn joked at Cameron. She called him young man because she was actually only six years older than him at twenty-six. Cameron smiled, "Working out, old lady. What does it look like?" "What brought this on? Did your girlfriend just leave? You always overdo it when she leaves." Dawn teased. "I'm gonna marry that girl one day and I want to be man enough to stand and walk on my own." Cameron explained as his eyes glazed over as he thought about Sierra. "You will be. I promise you that. Guess what, we're getting rid of the walker. Tomorrow, you start walking on your own." Dawn informed him. "Only thing is, you may have to have a cane, but I think you're ready. Besides, your doctors gave me the go ahead today. So Cameron congratulations." She smiled. Cameron was speechless. He knew Dawn wanted to keep their relationship professional, but at this point he wanted to hug his friend. So he grabbed her in a tight embrace which caught Dawn completely off guard. However, she did hug him back. What a Woman! Over the next few weeks Cameron practiced walking on his own. After a few initial falls, he finally got the hang of it. He had a limp, but that was to be expected. One day while he was in session with Dawn, Derrick drove up for a short visit. Derrick missed hanging out with his friend and wanted to catch up. He also wanted to see Dawn Marcolini again. When he entered the residential hall, one of the nurses informed him that Cameron was in the gym working out and gave him directions to the gym. Derrick stopped at the door when he made it to the gym to watch. Dawn was helping Cameron with some stretches, so Cameron was laid out with his right leg extended and Dawn was straddling him helping him stretch his muscle. Derrick did not like the position he saw his woman and best friend in. My woman? Derrick thought. When did Dawn become my woman? He stopped himself from entering the gym until he heard Cameron moan, "Oh God Dawn, that feels so good." "What the fuck is going on in here?" Derrick demanded storming into the gym. Dawn turned to a furious Derrick, and for a moment she paused, but she quickly recovered. "Wait a minute, you can't come in here. This is a session with a patient." She looked around. "What are you doing in here?" Derrick took a deep breath and really looked at Dawn. She was even more beautiful when she was sweaty. Her form fitting sports bra did little to hide her erect nipples that were peeking through the fabric. She had on a tight pair of workout pants that accentuated her slim waist, thick muscular thighs, and firm bottom. Her upper torso was very well developed and he could tell she spent time lifting. Maybe that was something else they could do together. He realized that he wanted this woman and he didn't share. Cameron might need to get a new therapist. Derrick smiled when he heard Dawn's sharp intake of breath. He knew she was just as affected by him as he was her. "Listen Dawn, I was out of line. Please let me apologize." he said calmly. "We need to talk. What time do you get off work? I'll be here for a while so, maybe we can go get something to eat together." "Excuse me, Derrick. I don't date-" Dawn started to state. "Good, I'm glad to hear that. I would hate for you to have to break some poor guy's heart when you tell him you're taken." He smiled again, "Right." Dawn blushed. She realized that he knew how he affected her. What is wrong with me? Dawn thought. How is he able to make me feel like this? "Um, like I tried to explain earlier, I don't date-" Derrick cut her off again and finished her sentence. "Anyone else but me right, Dawn." He then took her right hand brought it to his lips and kissed it. Cameron who had finally stood on his mat, watched as his best friend Derrick made his move. He was impressed. Everyone knew Darius was smooth, but it seemed that Derrick had some moves of his own. Cameron gathered his mat and towel, quietly exiting the gym to give the couple some privacy. Cameron went to his room and took a quick shower. He walked to the visitors lounge when he finished and saw Derrick waiting for him. "Man that was smooth." He said to his friend. "I've never seen you pull a woman like that. Where the hell did that come from?" Cameron teased his buddy pushing his shoulder. Derrick blushed and explained. "Man, I don't know. There is something about that girl. Ever since I saw her the first time, I think about her." Cameron nodded. He knew exactly how Derrick felt because that's how he felt about Sierra. "She's good people man." Cameron stated. "Just don't hurt her, alright." "Has she ever dated a brother?" Derrick asked. "I don't know who she dates. She's very private. I just know she's been hurt, so be careful." Cameron replied. Derrick nodded. "I hear you. I just want to get to know her." Derrick said. He was thinking, I would never hurt her, because I'd rather die first than cause her an ounce of pain. The two young men spent a few hours talking and catching up on old times. They talked about the family, especially the two adorable little girls. Cameron had survived a lot of stuff during his twenty years on this earth. He believed that stuff happened for a reason and that negative emotions slowly killed you. He had to forgive Darius, not for Darius or Sierra, but for himself. Cameron knew his friend, and he knew Darius would never truly forgive himself for the crimes he'd committed. The guys talked a little longer and Dawn's shift ended. It was at that moment Dawn walked into the room and asked him if he was ready to go. Derrick and Dawn left the center and drove to a Woo Huang Chinese Restaurant in the city for dinner. Derrick, for the first time since arriving at the center, was nervous. He really liked Dawn and wanted to get to know her better. Dawn, dressed in scrubs from work, felt guilty because she should have at least tried to look nice for him. He was stunningly handsome, even in jeans and a simple dress shirt, she could not take hers eyes off of him. Derrick noticed her staring and he looked around blushing. The waiter came and took their orders. After he left, Derrick decided to break the ice. "So, Dawn, what type of guy do you usually date?" Derrick asked curiously. Dawn leaned back in her chair and crossed her arms. "Why did you ask me out?" she asked suspicious of his intention. "Guys like you don't date girls like, I mean girls who look like..."Dawn mumbled. That last phrase peaked Derrick's interest. "What do you mean, Dawn? Girls that look like what?" "Never mind," Dawn replied looking down. "Let's just enjoy dinner." "Dawn, look at me." Derrick whispered softly. "You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I really want to get to know you." Dawn was stunned. She was not some petite, little, girl that most guys found attractive. She was thick and bulky. Most guys felt she was to manly because of her build. She started lifting with her brother when she was sixteen. At eighteen, she was a semi-professional female weight lifter. With the prize money she earned from competition, she paid her way through PT school. But Derrick surprised her. He genuinely seemed to like her and this was a new experience for her. Even at her age, she rarely dated. The one time she did finally accept a date with a fellow weight lifter. The night was so horrible, she would never forget it. Her brother was furious and lost his best friend over what happened that night. The next day, he assured her that no guy would ever hurt her again. Her brother protected her, but she also learned that normal guys didn't date girls that looked like her. So she focused on going to school and left dating to normal looking girls. Derrick stopped talking and asked her one question. "Dawn, tell me the name of the bastard that caused the pain I just saw in your eyes?" "No, I'm sorry. It was nothing, besides it was so long ago. Ancient history." She explained. She decided to change the subject. "So, you're in college. What are you majoring in?" Derrick was not about to let the subject drop completely, but he'd play along. Even if he never found out who caused the pain he saw in her eyes, it was his mission to make sure no one hurt her again. He truly understood how Darius felt about Deidre now and how Cameron felt about Sierra. "I'm undecided right now. But I think I want to go into architecture or graphic design." Derrick stated. "Well, you've got time. You're what twenty?" Dawn asked, even though she knew the answer already. Derrick smiled and answered, "Yes, but you already knew that. I know you're older than me, but I like older women." Dawn was speechless, and didn't understand her reaction to the man sitting in front of her. She never responded to any man the way she did him. He was an enigma that entranced her. "Derrick, I don't do relationships. They just don't work for me." Dawn tried to explain. "Good," said Derrick, "I don't have to worry about another man trying to steal you then. See, I'm a one woman man. So we're perfect for each other.' Derrick declared. Dawn was speechless. He countered every argument she came up with. This man was determined to get to know the real Dawn Marcolini. They finished their dinner and then Derrick drove her home. He escorted her to her door, and kissed her passionately. Derrick decided it was time to win the heart of Miss Dawn Marcolini and show her what a real man was made of. After dropping Dawn off, Derrick headed home. He was enamored by the woman he'd just spent the evening with and was looking forward to seeing her again. When he kissed her good night, he could tell she wanted to invite him in, but he wasn't looking for something quick. He wanted something that would last and she was the perfect woman for him. * I want you to know I really appreciate you reading this story and hope you continue to follow it through the end. Chapter Six is in the works. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 06 First of all, I want to thank everyone who has taken time to read this story. I have truly enjoyed writing this story. This is the FINAL chapter of this story, so I hope you enjoy it. I want to thank my editor, LaRascasse, for simply being willing to work with me. He is an amazing and talented young man. Mokkelke, for proofing this chapter and making it shine. There are many other people who have supported me in writing this tale and I want to take time to thank all of you. Now with great pride, I present to you the FINAL chapter of Shadows of Resentment. Enjoy. Chapter 6 Time Alone August 2010 The next day Cameron awoke early. He wanted to work on strengthening his muscles in his legs, so he went to the gym for a light workout before his session with Dr. Kerst. Cameron had been in the facility for eleven months now. He had regained his mobility, aside from a small limp. Occasionally if he stood for extended periods of time, he would have to use a cane to assist him. Working through his issues and dealing with his anger, he was reestablishing his past relationships. He'd gone through so much where Derrick and Darius were concerned, he wondered would he ever be able to fully trust them again. Smiling his thoughts turned to Dad and Rosa, his family was thriving. While he was working out, Dawn came in and sat up for her morning patients. Cameron saw her and could not resist teasing. "Morning, Old Lady. How was your date with your new boy-toy?" Cameron laughed as Dawn looked around. Dawn was a consummate professional at work. She did not engage with anyone about what she did in her personal life. She was a little uncomfortable answering Cameron's question, but when she looked around and saw the mischievous grin on his face, she relaxed. "It was nice and we are not discussing it." She replied. "I've got to go get Mr. Lee, because it's time for his session. I'll see you later. Smiling she added, "By the way, Cameron, don't overdo it. You don't want to hurt yourself." As Dawn left the gym to retrieve her patient Cameron finished working out and went back to his room to dress and prepare for his session with the Dr. Kerst. He was also excited because Dad had to work this weekend, so only Sierra and Rosa were coming to see him. He couldn't wait to see them, realizing that in less than four weeks he'd be going home. Sierra arrived in Jackson without Rosa. Rosa had a meeting with her Girl Scout troop and was going on a field trip, so she wouldn't be able to go to the center to see Cameron this week. She wanted to skip her trip, but her troop leader reminded her that this trip was very important. So she asked Sierra to give her big brother and extra special hug for her. Deidre volunteered to ride with her, but Sierra didn't really want her too. Sierra remembered that Darius had made an appointment to have family portraits made of them with the twins. "Deidre, I thought you guys were taking family portraits this weekend at Aubrey's." Sierra stated. Deidre frowned, "Oh man, I forgot. Hey, we can reschedule. I am not letting you drive all the way to Jackson by yourself. Besides, I haven't seen Cameron in a while, it'll be nice to catch up." Sierra was pensive, "You guys had to make an appointment and paid a deposit for the pictures. Is it refundable?" "No, it's not and we are taking pictures tomorrow." Darius' voice boomed from the door. The girls jumped at the sound of his voice. "Hey baby," Deidre said as she stepped forward to embrace him. "Sierra is planning to drive and see Cameron all by herself. Do you think that's a good idea?" Deidre asked sweetly. Darius looked at Deidre and knew what she was up to. She never wanted to let Sierra go off alone. She was as bad as a mother hen, especially since giving birth. He also knew that Cameron and Sierra needed some time alone. This weekend was a perfect opportunity for them. Pulling Deidre close to him Darius whispered in her ear. "Let her drive up alone. They need to spend some time together. Come on, you know she'll be fine." kissing her gently. Deidre melted into his arms momentarily forgetting about her friend. Sierra took the cue and quietly left the room. Surprisingly, her brother Darius canceled Deidre's plans to accompany her. She didn't know what he said to convince her, but she was glad he intervened. Sierra was cheering inside, although she loved being with her friend, she really wanted time alone with the man she loved. She would finally get her opportunity and this time they were going finally make love. Lovers for the First Time Last week in August 2010 Sierra drove to the Comfort Inn and rented a room for the weekend. She wanted to be prepared for an evening alone with her man for the first time. After securing the room, Sierra then drove over to Parkview. Cameron had just finished his session with Dr. Kerst when Sierra walked in. He didn't see Rosa and immediately walked to meet her. He wanted to know where Rosa was. His baby sister had come to see him every time someone came. Sierra saw Cameron actually walking toward her. She never got tired of seeing him walk. She recalled the agony he was in a year ago when he was sentenced to the wheelchair. He reached her side. Hugging her, he asked "Where's Rosa?" Well, she had a trip with the Girl Scouts that she couldn't miss. So guess what" Sierra grinned saucily, "we've got all weekend." Cameron's heart raced as it dawned on him the significance of that statement. They had two whole days alone: no other people, no interruptions. He looked at Sierra and knew that tonight he would make her his. "Let me get my stuff." He croaked. He turned to hurry to his room and retrieve his bag. On his way back to the lobby, he came across Dawn. "Dawn saw Cameron rushing and decided to tease him. "She's not leaving, you know. You can slow down." "You've never met Sierra have you?" Cameron smiled at his friend and said. "Come on, I want you to meet her. Besides I know she's curious about the woman that's ensnared her brother." Cameron joked. Dawn realized that Cameron was one person she could trust. He'd gone through so much and survived, she knew he'd be there for her if she needed him. She sighed knowing that it would be easy to open up and let him into her world, although he strived to keep her private life and work separate. Cameron grabbed her hand and pulled her to the lobby. Sierra saw Cameron walking in holding the hand of a very beautiful woman. Instantly jealous, she rose from the chair she was sitting on wondering,Who is was that? Why is Cameron holding her hand? Cameron approached Sierra with Dawn in tow. Dawn was apprehensive. She could tell from the expression on Sierra's face that she did not like the familiar way Cameron was holding her hand, so she immediately removed her hand from his as they stood in front of Sierra. She didn't need any trouble on her job from a jealous girlfriend of a patient. "Baby, I want you to meet Dawn, my physical therapist." Cameron told her excitedly. "Dawn?" Sierra asked snidely, "Dawn, that Derrick's ...." Soon after realizing who this lovely woman was, Sierra blushed and greeted her excitedly. "You're the woman my brother Derrick went out with. You blew him away. He talks about you all of the time." "Well, we've gone out with a few times. He's really nice." Dawn stammered. She blushed and looked away. "Well, um, I'd better get back to work. It was nice meeting Sierra. You two have a nice weekend." Dawn turned to go back to work. "Dawn, wait" Sierra called after the retreating woman. Dawn turned around and looked. "Maybe when you're off one weekend we can go shopping or something? I could share some of Derrick's childhood stories with you." Sierra stated chuckling. Dawn smiled at the young lady, "That'll be nice. I'd love to get some dirt on your brother.'', Dawn smiled sneakily. "Especially after his he-man routine." Dawn smiled as she recalled their first date when Derrick was all Alpha. "We'll talk and set it up when you guys come back tomorrow. Enjoy your weekend." Grinning she returned to work. Sierra was stunned. Dawn was incredibly beautiful and not at all what she expected. She was brawny and built. Not at all like the women that her brother usually dated. "Sierra, let's go." Cameron called after watching the exchange between the two women. Climbing into her car and they drove away from the facility to enjoy time alone. Cameron watched Sierra as she drove. She felt his stare and her body tingled. Her body always reacted to him and she stood no chance of hiding how she felt. Realizing she was hungry, Sierra drove into the Olive Garden's Italian Restaurant's parking lot and the two went inside to order a meal. After they were seated, Cameron decided to speak. "Hey, I know you're nervous. But nothing has to happen this weekend alright." Cameron told her in a soft voice. "We have plenty of time to be together. "Let's just relax and enjoy tonight in each other's company." Sierra smiled and relaxed. She wondered why she was so nervous. This was Cameron, the man that gave up so much to protect her. He would never pressure her and she was completely safe. "You're right" she said, "Let's just enjoy the evening." They talked about some other things and eventually the waitress brought their food and they enjoyed their meal. When they left the restaurant, Sierra asked Cameron if he wanted to go see a movie or just go back to the hotel and rest. Cameron chose the latter. When they made it back to the hotel and went into their room Sierra rose on her toes, and gently kissed him sweetly on the lips. She pulled back and excused herself to the bathroom for a minute. Cameron flipped on the television, but nothing was on. Soon Sierra came out of the restroom and cleared her throat. Cameron turned around and was stunned. Sierra stood before him wearing the sexiest lingerie he'd ever seen. It was a sheer black teddy with tiny red panties. Both of Sierra's voluptuous breasts were clearly visible through the thin material that was stretched across them. His cock hardened immediately. He wanted her. Shyly she walked over to him, took the remote and turned off the television. She straddled his lap as his eyes were glued to her body. Wrapping her arms around his neck, she leaned forward and pressed her body against his. Cameron snapped and immediately took control of the situation. He wrapped his arms around her and held her against him as her covered her lips with his. Sierra felt the ridge of his cock pressing in to the apex of her thighs as she proceeded to grind her pussy against him while both of them groaned simultaneously. "Baby, take off your clothes." Sierra moaned. Cameron couldn't think, he could only feel and hastily removed his clothing. He stood before her as she gazed upon him. He was perfect. Clear alabaster skin, wide shoulders, thick, muscular arms. Her eyes traveled downward landing on his cock. It was glorious, long and thick surrounded by a thick carpet of dark hair. Cameron wanted to lift her and carry her to the bed, but he wasn't sure he was strong enough yet. He took her by the hand and led her over to the bed. Sierra stood before him as he gently laid her down and then lay down next to her. Cameron began to kiss down her body. He nibbled on her earlobe then moved slowly to her neck. Cameron gently removed her lingerie exposing her breast to his gaze. Sierra held her breath as he took her first nipple into his mouth and sucked on it. He sucked and nibbled on her super-sensitive nipples as her body quivered under his tender assault leading her into a glorious climax He then moved to her next breast, Sierra groaned. She knew it would be good, but this was beyond belief. Her body shook as her first climax of the night took hold. "Cameron, stop" Sierra gasped. She was overwhelmed. He crawled back up and pulled her into a warm embrace. His cock rubbed against her hot pussy causing body to continue to convulse. Sierra yelled out as her body exploded. Cameron was pleased. Although he had yet to cum, he enjoyed bringing her pleasure. He wanted to make sure tonight was all about her. "Baby, we don't have to do anything you don't want too." He whispered as she rubbed her body against his naked form. His cock was so swollen and hard and ready that it was leaking a steady stream of pre-cum. Sierra rose up and looked at his cock. She had never tasted one before, but his thick meat looked so inviting. "Lay back." She ordered. She leaned forward and licked his pre-cum off the tip of his cock and sucked the head inside her mouth. She pulled back and examined his tool from tip to balls, It fascinated her and she knew she was hooked. Slowly taking his stiff member into her hand, she licked the bulbous purple head before pulling it between her lips and sucking it into her mouth. Tantalized by the taste and smell of him, she knew that she would want to taste him from now on as she began to suck on him in earnest. Her mouth felt amazing on him. So amazing that Cameron almost came. "Sierra baby stop" he yelled pulling away from her. She jumped back thinking she had hurt him. "I'm sorry. Did I hurt you?" she asked. "I didn't mean to hurt you." She was shaking and Cameron could tell that she was nervous. Cameron moved to comfort her and said, "Baby you didn't hurt me. I was about to cum and I don't want to cum yet?" "I've never done this before" Sierra confessed. "Taken a man in my mouth, I mean, well, none of it really." She looked away as she blushed. "I've heard about it and even read about it. I wanted to do it for you." She stammered on. "Bring you pleasure that way, I mean." Realizing that he would be her first, and if he had his way her only lover, he simply stared at her for a moment and stroked her body. "Baby, you're perfect. I love you so much, Sierra. You mean everything to me. As much as I want this right now, if you are not sure I can wait until you're really ready." Sierra nodded and replied. "Cameron, only you, it's always been you. Make me yours tonight." She lay on her back in the center of the bed. "Now it's my turn to reciprocate." Slowly, he kissed and nibbled on her neck. He kissed his way down her stomach the neatly trimmed bush at the apex of her thighs. He pressed his nose into her pubes and inhales her fragrance. It was divine. Parting her thighs, he took his first long look at her glistening pink flower with its lips swollen in arousal. "Lovely, absolutely, lovely." He whispered in awe as her lotus blossom opened before his eyes. Taking his tongue, he tasted her sweet nectar. The sensation was amazing, Sierra screamed; she had never experienced such decadence in her life. Her body bucked forward as Cameron made contact with her burning pussy lips. He licked her in earnest, sucking her engorged clit into his mouth bringing her to a mind-blowing orgasm. Sierra's heart was filled to the brim with love. She knew that the only man she ever wanted to be with was the man in her arms Sierra sighed as she looked deeply into his eyes. Cameron's heart was racing, as he expelled a deep breath. "Honey, when we do this. That's it for me. I will be with you forever. If you're not ready to give yourself to me completely, then we need to stop because as far as I'm concerned, you're mine and I'm yours. "Cameron" She whispered softly, "make love to me." He crushed her lips with his and moved to cover her body, placing his engorged cock against her center between her legs. Cameron and Sierra moaned as their body parts touched. Inserting his fingers inside of her, Sierra came apart in his hands again. He removed his hands from her hot snatch and licked his fingers clean. "Condom, we can't. I don't have a condom." Cameron moaned. Sierra chuckled and reached into the dresser next to the bed and retrieved a box of Trojans. "Baby, I bought a jumbo pack." Cameron quickly removed a condom from the box and was about to put it on. He decided to wait and let her put it on him. Sierra careful opened the condom. She took his hard, hot length in her hand and stroked it a couple of times. It felt so good Cameron began to throb. He stopped her hand. Sierra gently rolled the condom onto his hard cock. She lay on her back spreading her legs waiting for her man to claim her. Cameron rose up and looked at her through her dark milky thighs. He smelt the sweet sexy aroma rising from her nether lips. He could not resist, and had to taste her again. He licked her pussy hard and fast. Sierra lost control, she moaned, screamed, cried, begged, and came all over his face for a second time. As she was climaxing for the fourth or fifth time, Cameron remounted her and slid his thick member inside her hot tunnel. He met a moment of resistance, and knew it was her barrier. Making her his woman and claiming her tonight, was the only thing driving him at this moment. He would never give her up now, never let her go. Sierra screamed as she felt Cameron rip into her. He froze and held her close allowing her to adjust to his size. He whispered words of comfort in her ear. Slowly he began to move. She felt incredible and he knew he would not last long. "I'm sorry, baby" he apologized before rushing head first over the edge. Sierra held him as he shook and groaned on top of her. She felt so good knowing she gave him such pleasure. When his breathing returned to normal Cameron stroked Sierra's cheek. It'll be better the next time. I just couldn't hold on. I tried baby, but you felt so good." He explained as he kissed her and held her close. Sierra smiled, "Next time. You mean we can do this again? When?" Stroking her back Cameron answered. "In a little while, I need a minute to recover." Sierra dozed off held securely in her lover's arms. Cameron awoke a few hours later and remembering what had happened earlier. Sierra was curled into his side with her arms and legs wrapped around him holding on tightly. He didn't want to move her, but he had to excuse himself for a minute. Slowly he untangled himself from her tight grasp, and went to the bathroom. Sierra woke up and found Cameron gone and almost panicked. Then she heard the toilet and knew he would be right back. Stretching out in the center of the bed, she anxiously waited for him to return. Walking back to the bed, he saw her laid out grinning like a cat that caught the canary. Very gently, he crawled back into bed beside her. Sierra crawled on top of him straddling him. "Cameron, you said we could do it again. Is now a good time?" she asked. She felt his cock harden as she rubbed her pussy against it. "Raise up and sit on it baby." Cameron commanded. After rolling a condom on him, she placed her pussy on the tip of his cock and slid down. Slowly, he entered her filling her completely. "Ride me, come on baby, ride me." he pleaded and she did. Cameron lay back and watched as her body moved over his in an erotic dancing motion. He felt himself being held tightly inside her tight hot warmth. He watched as her breast bounce as she rode him in a fevered pitch and then he felt it. He felt the walls of her vagina clench onto his throbbing cock pulling him even more deeply inside of her. She screamed his name and the sound pushed him over the edge leaving the two young lovers, spent and breathless. He held her close as their breathing and heart rates returned to normal. Sierra looked him in the eye and whispered the four words he knew he'd never get tired of hearing. "Cameron, I love you." Then she placed her head on his chest over his heart and drifted off to sleep. Cameron kissed the top of her head and replied to her sleeping form, "I love you too baby. More than you'll ever know." Then, he too fell asleep. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 06 Sunlight shone through the window awaking the sleeping couple. Cameron yawned and stretched careful not to awake Sierra as he loved watching her sleep. He thanked God for his fortune in finding her and having her as a part of his life. He knew now what he had to do. When he got back to the center, he had a phone call he needed to make. Today was as good a time as any, because he wanted to spend the rest of his life with this woman. Sierra woke up to a quiet Cameron who was deep in thought. Walking up behind him, she wrapped her arms around his waist, "Good morning, Baby" she whispered. "Come back to bed." Cameron turned and held her in his arms. "Good morning, beautiful, let's lay back down." And they did. A few hours later, it was time to check out of the room. Sierra and Cameron made love once more before leaving. After leaving then hotel, the couple simply drove to the local lake and spent time with each other. Eventually, it was time to take Cameron back to Parkview. For Sierra, this was the hardest part. It was difficult to leave him before, but now after being with him, she simply did not want to go. Cameron hated to see her leave too, but he knew that in two weeks he would go back home and they could be together. He held her close to comfort and reminded her that in two weeks he would be home. Then he kissed her goodbye and watched her drive away. Cameron went to his room, picked up his phone, and called his Dad. Nick saw Cameron's number on the caller ID box and rushed to pick up the phone. "Hello, Son, is everything alright?" Nick asked. "I'm sorry I couldn't get over there today, but I will be there to pick you up and bring you home next Thursday, alright." "Dad, I understand. I know you had to work, that's not why I called.' Cameron explained. "Dad, do you still have Mom's rings?" Nick was speechless. Even though he and his friends joked about their kids getting married in the past, Nick was shocked to hear his son's request. "Yes, son, yes." Nick's voice was thick with emotion. "When do you want it? It's a size seven, you might need to get it resized." "No, Dad. I took up the class rings orders last year before prom, seven is her ring size" Cameron explained. "Has Sierra told Marvin and Marge yet? I'd better call them-" Nick rambled on. "Wait, Dad." Cameron interrupted. "I've got to ask Mr. Grangers' permission first and then I have to ask her. She might laugh in my face, but I've got to try." "Alright then, son" Nick smiled as he answered,. "I'll have the ring cleaned and have it ready for you next week." "Thanks Dad. Give Rosa a hug for me. Good night." Then he hung up. Where's Dawn? August 2010 The next morning, Cameron had a session with Dawn, but Dawn didn't come in. This was strange, but he figured that if she missed today, maybe she had something important to do. He didn't worry too much. However, three days later, Dawn hadn't returned to work. He asked one of the nurses if she was she on vacation and the nurse told him, that Dawn never used her vacation days. Now Cameron was really concerned. Dawn never missed work. Something was wrong. So, he called Derrick. Derrick heard his phone ring and saw that it was a number from Parkview. "Hello." Derrick answered. "Hey, Derrick, it's Cameron. Have you talked to Dawn? She hasn't been at work this week and I've never known her to miss." Cameron rushed explaining to his friend why he called. Derrick instantly became concerned. "Let me call her and I'll get back to you." Cameron interrupted, "I asked if she was on vacation time, and was told that she always roll over her vacation. It's not like her to miss. Let me know when you talk to her alright." "Sure, later." Derrick hung up instantly dialing Dawn's number. Her phone rang several times and she did not answer. Derrick immediately grabbed his car keys and headed for the door. When he was headed to the car, Darius saw him rushing and stopped him. He could tell that Derrick was upset. He didn't ask any questions, just told Deidre he'd be back and met his brother at the car. He took a minute to call his probation officer, Mr. Bones, and get permission to go out of town with his brother. Mr. Bones hesitated at first, but Darius explained that it was an emergency concerning his brother. He agreed to let him go this time, but told him that he needed to come by his office the next day to log in the paperwork for this request. Darius agreed and went with his brother. Both brothers climbed into the SUV and headed to Jackson. At first Darius thought something might have happened to Cameron, then he remembered that Derrick was seeing a girl that worked at the center where Cameron was staying. "Do you wanna tell me what's wrong, or do I have to guess?" Darius asked his frazzled brother. Derrick didn't answer. He was calling Dawn and she was not answering her phone. The longer his calls went unanswered the more agitated he became. Finally having seen enough of his brother in this state Darius pulled the car over and stopped. "What the fuck are you doing? We don't need to stop. We need to get to Jackson right away, something's wrong with Dawn." Derrick yelled furiously at his brother. Darius finally understood the gravity of the situation. He knew if something happened to Deidre or his girls, he'd go ballistic. Pulling back onto the interstate quickly, the two young men sped towards Jackson. Within an hour, Darius was pulling in front of Dawn's house. She wasn't home. Derrick was headed to a neighbor's when a strange car pulled into the yard and an extremely large buffed man got out. What the fuck is this? He wondered. How does this guy know Dawn? Just then the guy walked to the passenger side of the car to help Dawn out. He had to practically lift her out because you could tell that she was somehow injured. Derrick rushed to the car. "Dawn, baby, what happened?" he asked. Dawn was shocked. "Derrick, what are you doing here?" Derrick ignored her and went to help her from the car. Muscle Man stopped him. "I've got her buddy. You wouldn't want to hurt her would you?" he added chuckling. Derrick turned on the big man, but Darius intervened. "Derrick, let him help her and I'll help you get her things from the car." Muscle man helped Dawn into the house while, Derrick and Darius brought in her things. "Hey, Loverboy, she needs to take some pain pills. Bring her a glass of water." Muscle man ordered. Darius said. "I'll get the water. You go into the bedroom with him and help get her into bed. Maybe we can ask him what happened after she's asleep." Derrick walked into Dawn's bedroom and found Muscle Man tucking her in. Muscle Man gently kissed her on the forehead, gave her two pills and the glass of water Darius brought in, before the three men exited her bedroom. "So, which one of you are Derrick?" Muscle Man surmised as he addressed the two men standing in his sister's living room. "Who are you and what happened to Dawn?" Derrick demanded advancing on the big man. One thing Darius learned over the last year was that violence solved nothing. He quickly moved between his brother and the huge man he was challenging. "Derrick calm down." He begged his brother. "Listen to what the guy has to say first." Muscle man chuckled, "I like you. You're just the guy my sister needs. She told me about you the other night before the accident." Her brother, he's her brother, Gunther. Thank goodness!thought Derrick relieved. Dawn told Derrick about Gunther when they spent some time together one weekend watching movies. It was obvious from the way she spoke about him that she idolized her big brother. Frowning Gunther continued, "Damn newbies, they never listen. If I can have my way that asshole won't be using that gym anymore after this." "What happened to her, Gunther?" asked Derrick in a calm controlled voice. He calmed down tremendously once he realized the guy before him was not a love interest and that he was not the one that hurt her. "Sorry, we were at the gym working out to get ready for a new competition next month." Gunther explained. "Weightlifting is very competitive and a lot of the people in it will do anything to win, even juice. A new girl joined the gym and felt threatened when Dawn came in. She decided to give Dawn a warning about tramping in her territory." Gunther said angrily. "The hussy interrupted Dawn when she was lifting 350 weights causing her to lose her grip and almost dropping the weights as they clipped her temple." He continued to explain. In actuality Gunther was terrified. There was so much blood and he thought he'd lose his sister. The bitch that hurt her need never cross his path again because he would not restrain himself a second time. "We were in the hospital for a couple of days, and they just released her this morning. She's off work for a few more days, but she should be fine. Anyway, someone needs to stay with her for a couple of days at least until she's back to normal." Gunther sighed with relief. He looked at Derrick and could tell from the look on the guy's face that he was a goner. But that didn't mean he trusted him. He'd been taking care of Dawn since their parents died and he was seventeen, and he would continue to do so now. "I'll stay with her." Derrick stated as he glared at her brother daring him to protest. Gunther looked at the man before him. Just because his sister had shown some interest in the guy didn't mean he trusted him. "Thanks Derrick, but I've got it." Dawn will be fine." Derrick crossed his arms and he and Gunther stared each other down. Darius stood on the side and watched the exchange. He knew that Derrick had as much of a protective streak as he did, but he managed to keep a tighter rein on his emotions. Even when they were kids, Derrick tempered his hotheaded behavior, but where Dawn was concerned it became clear that he had to intervene to make sure his brother didn't do anything rash. "Derrick, go check on Dawn." Darius suggested. Derrick knew his brother was trying to diffuse a potentially volatile situation so he excused himself and went to Dawn's room to check on her. Darius spoke to Gunther as soon as Derrick left the room. "Gunther, I know you have no reason to trust either of us. But you know my brother is a good guy and he genuinely cares for your sister." Darius took a breath, "Don't you want her to be happy? I believe he will make her happy. Let's get out of here for a while and let him take care of her" Gunther stared at Darius for a moment and hesitantly agreed to give Derrick and Dawn some time. When Derrick returned from Dawn's room, the two men informed him that they would be leaving for a little while and Gunther asked him to look out for his sister. Derrick was relieved, because with them gone he could now make sure his love was really alright. Darius gave Gunther a ride across town to his apartment because he had to get to work. Darius drove over to Parkview to visit with Cameron. Cameron was worried about Dawn, and wondering why Derrick hadn't called. He was walking around the yard when he heard his friend greet him. "Cameron, man, what are you doing?" Darius asked. Turning around with a huge smile plastered on his face, Cameron was happy to see his friend. "Darius, what are you doing here? Is the garage closed today or something?" "No, I drove up with Derrick to check on Dawn." Darius stated. Cameron was relieved. "Hey, is Dawn alright? I've been worried. It's not like her to miss." He wanted to ask what happened, but knowing what a private person Dawn was, he'd let her tell him when she was ready. Darius continued, "There was some sort of incident at the gym and she got hurt but she's fine by the way. Derrick is with her now." He explained. The guys spent a little while catching up. They talked about things when they were kids, Deidre and the girls. "Cameron, are you packed and ready to get out of here next week?" Darius asked. Cameron smiled. "Coming here was the hardest choice I ever made, but it helped me. I'm ready to go home and get my life back." Darius nodded in agreement. He was excited that his friend was coming back home. Their parents had a big homecoming planned. He knew Cameron would be surprised. "Darius," Cameron spoke softly. "I'm proposing to Sierra when I get home next week. I'm gonna ask your dad's permission first, but I hope she says yes. I want to spend the rest of my life with that girl." Darius was elated because more than anything he wanted Cameron and his sister to be happy. "Can I tell Derrick?" he asked. "No, I wanna tell him. Is he coming to the center today?" Cameron asked. "Dawn got hurt pretty bad, so he might not want to leave her side. Why don't you call him?" Darius explained. Derrick sat in Dawn's room and watched her sleep. Her beauty amazed him. The fact that she did not know how beautiful she was stunned him. She began to stir and he moved over to her quickly. "Hey, baby. How are you feeling?" he asked as she opened her gorgeous grey-green eyes and looked at him. Stretching and yawning, Dawn asked. "What are you doing here? Where's Gunther?" "He had to get to work and I told him I would stay with you. Are you alright, baby?" he queried. "I'm fine, but my head hurts." She answered. "Let me make us some lunch and then I'll give you your pain pills. Now lay down and relax. Let me take care of you." Derrick cajoled. "OK" Dawn replied. "Derrick, can you help me up? I want to sit in the living room so we can talk while you fix lunch." "Sure." He answered. He went over to the bed and helped support her as she slowly walked to her couch. He held on to her tightly marveling at the feel of her muscles rippling under the edge of her skin. She turned to sit a momentarily pressed her breast into his chest and Derrick was a complete goner. He wanted this woman, but he realized that he didn't just want her; he wanted a lifetime with her. Once Dawn was seated, Derrick gave her the remote and went in to the kitchen to finish preparing lunch. He brought her food and placed it on a small table in front of her. He sat and watched her eat. Dawn noticed he was staring and became curious. She stopped eating. Derrick moved over to her on the sofa and kneeled in front of her. "Dawn, look at me." Derrick commanded softly. "I know, we've only known each other for a few months, but I know enough to know that you're it for me. I love you. I love you with all that I am; all that is within me" Taking a deep breath, he persisted. "Dawn, I want to spend my life with you, I've never known anyone like you. You're it for me, girl. Will you stay with me. Give us a chance." Derrick asked softly. Dawn was speechless. She never expected someone who co0uld love her so completely, yet a part of her was still afraid Then she looked into his eyes and knew he was bearing his soul to her. She didn't need time, or promises, or flowers. She just needed him. Tears began to flow down her cheeks. "Derrick, I really care about you to. But it's too soon right now to talk about marriage. I never thought I'd meet someone like you. I figured I'd just be alone. Men, in the past... well let's just say it wasn't promising. You changed all of that for me. You see me as a woman, not some freak. I love you, Derrick. When the time comes I will gladly stay with you." Dawn exhaled on a breath as she propelled herself into Derrick's arms. He held her tightly thinkingThank God for creating this wonderful woman for me. At that moment, his phone rang. It was Cameron. Derrick answered and Cameron shared his plans with him. Derrick was overjoyed. "Congratulations, man. I knew you two would be together. Hopefully soon, I'll be making my own announcements." Derrick explained as he stared at Dawn longingly. Cameron knew his friend liked Dawn and he wanted to encourage him. "You guys just started dating, give it some time. One day we'll be planning your wedding, too" "I know. It will happen. Dawn's it for me, but we'll take our time. No hurries. Chuckling Derrick added, "Now, Darius needs to up is games. He's got to convince Deidre to marry him. She keeps turning him down. Dawn and I talked about our relationship and have agreed to simply love each other. We will be getting married one day when the times right and she graciously agrees to be my wife." Derrick told his best friend. "That's great man! You deserve to be happy and Dawn is a wonderful woman" Cameron said solemnly. Darius wanted to know what was going on immediately. Cameron handed him the phone and Derrick shared his news about his and Dawn's relationship. Darius was happy for his brother and his best friend, but he wanted his woman to marry him too, and part of him felt she'd never agree, so he was disappointed but he caused this himself. He would earn her trust again, and they would be a true family. Finally Back at Home September 2010 Cameron had been at home for two weeks, and had yet to ask Sierra to marry him. He asked Mr. and Mrs. Granger for their daughter's hand the second night he was home and they readily granted him permission to ask. His Dad had his Mom's rings cleaned and he even had Sierra and his birthstones inserted. Tonight was special. He was proposing tonight and hopefully tomorrow she would be wearing his ring. Cameron knew what time Sierra made it home from work, so he decided to stop by her apartment for a short visit and to ask the question that would change both of their lives. He sat on the bench in front of her building for about forty-five minutes and she had not made it home. After sitting there for over an hour he became concerned. He called Darius and Derrick to ask if they knew where she was. The three young men started to search for the wayward young lady. Deidre and Dawn tried to warn her brothers that Sierra would not be happy about this, but as her brothers they had a right to keep their kid sister out of trouble. Cameron, as her future husband, inherited those rights as well. Two hours later Cameron returned to Sierra's apartment and saw that she had made it home. Bam, Bam, Bam!, was the noise that woke Sierra after she had finally fallen asleep after a horrid day. It sounded like someone was trying to break her door down. Sierra grabbed her robe and baseball bat and headed for the door. Approaching the door, she heard a familiar voice yell, "Sierra, open this damn door, right now." It was Cameron. Her heart began to race, then she took note of the time, What the fuck could he want? It was eleven o'clock in at night. Sierra unlocked the door and Cameron burst into her living room. Sierra glared at him angrily. Who did he think he was? What gave him the right to barge into her home? Sierra was about to rip him a new one when he grasped the nap of her neck, pulled her face to his, covered her lips with his, and kissed her like his life depended on her. Sierra was caught so off guard, she melted into the kiss. "Cameron, stop. What do you want?" "I came to meet you when you got home from work and you didn't come home. I waited and waited. Hours passed and you didn't come home. I was scared, so I called your brothers and they helped me search for you." Cameron explained. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. I just had a rough day, and stopped at Ebony's Pub for a drink to calm my nerves." Sierra explained. "If I had known you would have been worried, I would have called. But, baby, I'm fine, alright. I'll call next time; you don't have to worry about me." Sierra continued wrapping her arms around his waist and holding him close. "I never want to be without you again. Not even for a minute." Cameron exhaled as he pulled her into a tight embraced. Shadows of Resentment Ch. 06 "Cameron, baby, It's almost midnight." She whispered. "Let's lay down." Cameron followed Sierra into her bedroom. He undressed and crawled into bed as Sierra lay down next to him. He held her tightly in his arms as they drifted off to sleep. He planned to fix her a special breakfast the next morning. Cameron awoke at five thirty in the morning. He watched Sierra sleep for a moment and then eased out of bed to prepare his breakfast surprise. Sierra woke up to the smell of pancakes and bacon. The coffee was brewing and for a moment she wondered what was going on. She got out of bed and walked into the kitchen. Upon entering the kitchen, Sierra walked up to Cameron from behind and wrapped her arms around his waist. Cameron turned and held her tightly for a moment, He then lifted her chin and kissed her. Sierra sighed and melted into his kiss. "Morning" Sierra whispered. "Morning, baby" Cameron replied. "Come and sit down. I made breakfast." He poured her coffee and juice. He placed a covered dish in front of her. When Sierra lifted the lid, she was in for a shock. In the center of the plate was not breakfast food, but a small velvet black box. Sierra opened the box and inside was the most amazing ring. She looked up and kneeling next to her was Cameron, smiling. Cameron spoke. "Sierra, I know this might seem sudden, but I've been thinking about this for a while. Will you marry me? Please, marry me?" Sierra was speechless. She wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of her life with him, but she wasn't sure if she was ready for marriage. Cameron waited anxiously for her answer, but Sierra stood from the table and walked into her front room. Cameron was now nervous. He hadn't prepared himself for her rejection. His heart slammed in his chest and his throat closed up. He knew this was a surprise for her, but he never envisioned her turning down his proposal. Sierra turned and looked Cameron in the eye. "Cameron, I love you. Never doubt that. You are the only man I've ever wanted. But, I'm not ready to get married." Sierra spoke as her heart pounded in her chest. Cameron stood and started pacing the room. He ran his hand through his hair. He was devastated and stunned. Sierra didn't want to marry him. She didn't want to be his wife. "Fine, I'll just go now, Sierra." Cameron stated as he headed for the door. Sierra got in front of him and stopped him. She placed her hands on his chest. "Cameron, please wait a minute." He was about to push past her when she said, "I didn't say no. I will marry you someday, just not this soon." Cameron froze. "Cameron, I have loved you since I was fourteen years old and you snatched my diary from me at Oak Park. I was terrified that you would open it and see what was inside. If you had you would've seen what I wanted my name to be one day, Sierra Marcella Richards, Mrs. Cameron Richards," she declared softly smiling as tears shimmered in her eyes. "You'll marry me." He asked elated and relieved. Pulling her into his arms he held her tightly. "Baby, we can take as long as you need." He whispered. Sierra relished being held in his tight embrace. "Yes," Sierra answered, "but I want to finish school first. I'll finish my program next year; then we can plan our wedding." "We can go to school together. I don't want you to worry about anything. We both will finish school and be ready to start our family together." Smiling Cameron answered, "I will wait for you forever if I have to. I'm already taking some prerequisite courses online. I want to go into the medical field, maybe become a physical therapist. I would never ask you to give up school or your career." He exhaled holding her close. Holding him tightly, Sierra felt a surge of love so strong and she was so proud of him. She knew that they would be successful and strong. He had overcome so much and was still standing. She would proudly stand by his side forever. Announcements November 2010 One Saturday morning in November, Derrick called a family meeting at his parent's home. Sierra and Cameron arrived at the Granger's home first because they had plans to spend the day together. Deidre drove up with the twins as Sierra and Cameron arrived. Darius came outside immediately to help get the girls' out of the car. Darius still lived at home because of the court ruling in the Richards case. All of the young adults exited their cars and went into the house. Marge had prepared a huge family breakfast. She and Marvin loved when all of their children came over. They especially loved when Deidre or Darius brought the grandbabies over. Marge had a friendly competition with Jasmine to see who would be the coolest Grandma. Both women spoiled those two little girls silly. Marvin didn't have to compete for coolest Grandpa because he won hands down. The twins had him wrapped around their little fingers. The couple was happy to see Cameron and Sierra together. Cameron had grown so much since his attack over a year ago. His ability to move on and capacity to forgive was a testament to both his parents, Nick and Saria. Next they watched Derrick and his new girlfriend, Dawn. At first they wondered if Derrick was serious about this girl. She was so unlike the usual girl that he dated. However, when they saw how protective he was of her and she of him, they knew it was the real deal. They welcomed the young woman into their family with open arms, along with her brother who rode up on his motorcycle behind his sister and her beau. Instantly adopted as another son, Gunther loved coming over Marvin and Marge's house because being with them made him feel like he was home. Jasmine was headed home from work when Deidre called and asked her to stop by the Granger's home for an important announcement, as was Nick. Nick, along with Rosa, and Jasmine drove up shortly after the kids. Everyone came into the house and had a seat around the living room. Derrick and Dawn stood in front of their family to make their announcement. "Mom, Dad, everyone," Derrick began. "I know you all realize that Dawn and I plan to marry in the Spring, but some news has come to light and we are moving our wedding date to December." Everyone gasped. "When is the baby due?" Deidre asked grinning from ear to ear. Derrick and Dawn burst out laughing. Soon everyone joined in. "The baby is due next summer, in July." Dawn explained as Derrick held her from behind gently caressing her stomach. Gunther was speechless. For a second, he was upset that Derrick had the nerve to even think about let alone touch his sister in that way. Then Camirra cooed and he looked at her. His face split into a huge grin as he thought about his future niece or nephew. Realizing that this family was now truly their family, his and Dawn's, he arose and gather his baby sister in his arms. Next he faced Derrick, "You hurt either of them," he warned, "there is no place on this earth where you can hide from me." Looking at Gunther, swearing solemnly, Derrick stated, "I'd lose my life before I hurt my family." Gunther then gathered Derrick into a staunch hug as everyone sighed because they were relieved. Soon the women were chatting excitedly. Everyone was congratulating Derrick as Cameron separated himself from the group and moved to the side of the room alone. Jasmine saw him wander off and went over to see if he was alright. Cameron was a very special person to everyone in the room and they all wanted to make sure he was comfortable. "Hey, are you alright?" Jasmine queried sitting beside Cameron on a stool at a small bar on the side of the room. "I'm fine, Ma'am. Just a little jealous. Sierra and I are waiting to get married, but I wish we could fast forward.' Cameron sighed. Jasmine smiled, "Patience is a virtue, young man. You two will get there, alright. You have gone through so much, Cameron, and come out stronger for it. You two love each other and when the time is right, you'll have all you've ever dreamed because you deserve it. You are an amazing and special individual. Believe me it will happen. Always remember that." Then she gave him a strong hug as Nick walked up to them. He was immediately concerned. His son had gone through and survived so much. He was so proud of him. "Cameron," Nick called. "Is everything OK?" He spoke quietly to Jasmine as she was walking away from his son. Cameron looked at this Dad's face and saw his concern. He didn't mean to worry him so he quickly reassured him that all was well. "Dad, I am fine. I just wish..." Sighing Cameron continued, "Never mind, I am happy for Derrick and Dawn. They deserve this, to be happy. I know it's wrong to feel like this, but I'm jealous. I want to be married to Sierra and I want kids. But she wants to wait, so I have to respect that." Nick nodded. Cameron finished, "As soon as I put a ring on that girl's finger, we're making our first baby that night." Both men chuckled. Nick was excited about the thought of becoming a grandfather, and he was happy that Cameron and Sierra had found each other. The two men chatted for a few more minutes before the rest of the men joined them. Soon, everyone had breakfast and went on to continue with their day. The Wedding The Future, 12 years later A young man stood in front of the altar waiting for his bride to arrive. Everyone would stand as soon as she entered the room. This young man had taken on a huge responsibility because his bride was no ordinary woman. She was special. She had four older brothers and three big sisters looking out for her. Not to mention two Moms and two Dads. He recalled the day he met Rosa Richards; he knew that she was the one for him. The next day, he met all of her older brothers. Only one was her brother by blood, the rest were her brothers by bond. But they loved and protected her fiercely. Getting the nod from the brothers and big sisters, he had to meet the parents next. The young man was intimidated. He had never dated a girl with two dads, but he soon came to respect the Granger, Richards, and Marcolini clan. He turned to watch as the participants in his wedding party came down the aisle, hoping to get an early glimpse of his bride. First down the aisle, were Derrick and Dawn's oldest son, DJ and his best friend Archer, carrying the candle of love to light the way to happiness. They walked to the altar and lit all ten candles across wedding the arc, save the unity candle that was to be lit by the bride and groom as part of the ceremony. They were followed by the flower girl and ring bearer, Ivy and Ian Richards. These two were Cameron and Sierra's two kids. Ivy, age six, was the mirror image of her mother and Ian, age nine, inherited his father's roguish looks and charms. The first bridesmaid, Christiana, Gunther's daughter and Rosa's best friend, was escorted by Derrick and Dawn's second oldest son, Marc. His younger brother, David, followed him escorting the second bridesmaid, the daughter of a friend of the groom. Next, Darius and Deidre's twins, Camirra and Camorra, walked down the aisle escorted by two young men that were friends of the family. Darius muttered under his breath and vowed to keep a close eye on those two boys. Deidre playfully punched his arm and told him to calm down, secretly knowing that she'd be watching them too. "Baby, cut him some slack." Her husband of five years Jason whispered in her ear. "When our babies, Tyriana and Ashleigh grow up, I'm putting them on lock down." He chuckled in her ear as he held her close thinking about their beautiful two and three year old daughters. Darius and Deidre decided to simply be friends and co-parent their daughters' years earlier. Darius objected at first, but in the end, he simply wanted what was best for his family. Because of his actions and treatment of Cameron years earlier, a lot of people stayed away from Darius. He knew his family loved him, but his rash decisions and temper had caused him their trust. He visited only on special occasions, but mainly spent his time alone. A few months after Cameron had been home Darius had the displeasure of running into Jake Smythe. It seemed that the fates made Jake pay as well. While he was away, he made advances on another young lady. Her husband took exception to his attentions and left Jake with a permanent slashed scar across the right side of his face. He was permanently disfigured. When Jason came back into Deidre's life, Darius had serious issue with another man raising his children, but Dawn pulled him aside and reminded him of all of the pain his jealousy caused in the past. He remembered the people that he hurt, and knew he'd never travel down that road again. He loved his new sister. She could reach him when no one else seemed to. She wasn't intimidated by him. With her helping him rationalize, he did what was best for his girls and that was to allow their Mom to be happy. So he stepped back and everything seemed to work out, The wedding march started, Nick and Marvin joined their daughter at the end of the aisle. Nick thought of Saria for a moment and regretted that she was not here to see this day. He felt the same at Cameron and Sierra's wedding eleven years ago. He looked across the church at his wife of seven years, Jasmine, and thanked God for bringing such an amazing woman into his life. He was so happy and proud to be her husband. She had a tough time early in life, but he made it his mission to treat her as a beautiful queen should be treated. Marvin looked at his beautiful little Rosa, the daughter of his heart and felt so proud that he was a part of her life. The young man she was marrying had better treat her right, or he'd have six angry males to contend with, not to mention the women. He then saw Marge, his wonderful wife, as she stood holding one of their many grandbabies. He smiled, grateful that at last their family was now whole. Rosa had eyes only for her groom. She hoped that they could find love and happiness just like her parents and all of her brothers and sisters had found. As both of her Dads escorted her to her future husband she was grateful that the shadows of resentment that threatened to destroy her family so long ago, failed and just made them bigger, better, and stronger. In the end, she stood at the altar, beside her groom, faced the minister, and was ready to take on a new chapter in her life. THE END Thank you all for reading this tale. I certainly hope you truly enjoyed it and are happy with the outcome. Throughout this tale, many people questioned the purpose or reasoning that took place. I never intended to write a story about vengeance, but one of strength, perseverance, and redemption. Again, I want to thank you for reading and ask you to please remember to vote and comment. Feedback is always welcomed. IR2R Shadows of Resentment: Dawn and Derrick The contest was over and it was time to announce a winner. The audience was still and silent, as everyone held their breath. Dawn and two other young women, Olga Wick and Trina Lakes, stood on stage praying they would be the winner. The announcer picked up the envelope and walked to the podium. Dawn's heart was pounding, her hands wringing with sweat. This win was the last one she needed. He opened the envelope slowly. Carefully read the card that was inserted inside and then he spoke. "Ladies and gentleman, let's give all of our lovely contestants a round of applause. They all worked extremely hard to get here and each one of them deserves this win." The audience cheered for all three young ladies. The three girls looked at each other nervously and really had no animosity towards each other. They had been lifting and competing with each other for years and had formed a kinship. Then the announcer read the card. "Our second runner up and the winner of five thousand dollars is...Miss Olga Wick." Olga hugged her two competitors. He then started to read again. "And the winner of the Miss Beach Body of Scranton and the prize of fifty-thousand dollars is Miss Dawn Marcolini!" The announcer yelled. Gunther rushed to his younger sister and held her in the air. She'd done it. His baby sister took the championship. The three girls screamed and were genuinely happy for each other. Although Dawn took home the big purse, her two friends had sizable winnings as well. As first runner up, Trina was walking away with ten thousand dollars in prize money. Dawn Marcolini had just turned eighteen and was headed to college, not just any college, but the Walter Williams School of Therapies. Dawn's dream was to become a physical therapist. Gunther Marcolini was proud as he celebrated for her because she'd worked hard and deserved this win. He recalled when she first came to live with him. It was a tough time for both of them. Their parents were killed in a traffic accident a year earlier, dying instantly leaving their thirteen year old daughter orphaned. When then, 20 year old Gunther learned his parents were killed, he was a mess. He was on the circuit, drinking, gambling, and sleeping around. Taking on his kid sister was something he wasn't ready for, but he had to sober up and grow up quickly. It took almost a year, months of rehab, but he was able to gain custody of his baby sister. Dawn came to live with her brother when she was fourteen years old. Small, quiet and not sure where she fit, Dawn stayed away from people when she first arrived. The loss of her parents devastated the young girl and she internalized a lot of her grief. Gunther had no idea what to do with his sister, who was hurting so badly, but he knew she would stay with him and he'd protect her. Every night he'd listen as she cried herself to sleep not knowing how to help her with her grief. He even asked the other lifters for help and they pitched in as much as they could. No one seemed to be able to comfort the heartbroken little girl that had lost everything. One day, Gunther was at work when he got hurt and his friend Tasha picked Dawn up from school. Dawn walked out and saw Tasha standing, "Where's Gunther?" she asked the much older lady. "I'm sorry sweetie. He's fine, but he had a accident at work." She explained. Dawn went ballistic. She'd lost her parents in an accident and now her brother was in one as well. Tasha tried to calm the girl down, but Dawn was near hysterics at the thought of losing Gunther as well. Tasha managed to drive back to the park where they were staying and Diane, her companion, came out and extracted the sobbing child from the car. Tasha called Gunther and quickly put Dawn on the phone. Hearing her brother's voice calmed her down tremendously. He promised her he was fine. "Little Sis, I won't ever leave you, alright." Gunther promised. Dawn calmed down and stayed with his friends for a couple of nights until her brother was able to come home. It was then that Dawn started lifting. She wanted to be strong like her brother and make him proud of her one day. Gunther worked with her an eventually became her personal trainer. Dawn was a lovely young girl with a sweet disposition that was gregarious and drew people to her. With a clear peaches and cream complexion with smooth blemish free skin. With a striking figure and voluptuous lips that were full and firm, she was a sight to behold. She was fit and exercised regularly because she was fanatical about her health. Lifting with her brother helped her deal with the loss of her parents. Although he was a lot older than her, Dawn idolized Gunther. She was able to find a new focus that helped her deal with her loss. By the time she turned sixteen; she was competing and could easily out press any one that challenged her. As time passed, Dawn had many admirers. Her lack of a social life intrigued men as well as women. Dawn spent the majority of her time in the gym working out with the guys and very little time with other women so some women assumed she was lesbian and a few propositioned her. She quickly disabused them of that notion, explaining that she was attracted only to men. Over the years, Gunther started a college fund for his sister and all of her winnings went into the account while he used his earnings to support them. Life on the circuit was hard and he wanted so much more for his sister. She'd have a normal life; he'd make sure of it. Tonight's competition was the icing on the cake. She needed this win to secure the money she needed to cover her tuition. She could focus on school now and not worry about money. Tomorrow Gunther was driving her to the campus to pay the rest of her fees and get her dorm assignment. In two more weeks, she was headed to school. She'd finally get to do things normal girls did. After the contest, Gunther was approached by his friend Henri. He knew that Henri was attracted to his sister, but he was too afraid to approach her. He also realized that his baby sister had never been taken on a proper date. She was extremely shy, so she never dated. When Henri approached him and asked if he could ask Dawn out, Gunther had no problem with giving his permission. Henri stood outside the locker room waiting for Dawn to exit. She walked out, her hair still damp from her shower wearing a simple pair of jeans and an AC/DC shirt. Dawn stood before him, around six feet tall, with long, dark hair that hung well past her shoulders. Henri stared, transfixed by the sight of her. She had a rather plain face, thick lips, a round nose with a straight bridge, and a square chin. She was wide and flat across the chest and muscular. Henri could see her biceps rippling through the short sleeves of her shirt. Her hips were slim but her thighs, encased in form fitting black jeans that that fit her body perfectly, leaving nothing to the imagination. She was a perfectly sculpted bodybuilder's dream. She looked like she could bench press 250 pound weights easily. But it wasn't her plain face or her huge, muscular frame that caught Henri's attention. It was her stoic stand, the way she carried herself that attracted him. She walked and moved with grace and confidence, never doubting who she was. Hidden behind thick, dark lashes were the grayest, most vibrant eyes he'd ever seen, set in a plain face, the color of peaches. Henri was struck dumb and froze. She fascinated him and he was overjoyed at the thought of spending an evening with her. "Um, Dawn," Henri walked up to her."Congratulations, I'm happy you won." "Henri, Thanks" replied Dawn, her voice although feminine, deep and throaty, simply powerful. Laughing as she bumped into his shoulders in a show of solidarity, she asked "What's do you want?" Henri's was her brother's friend, and even though they chatted on occasion, she wasn't a person he hung around. Swallowing nervously Henri forged forward, "Dawn, we can go out to celebrate your win this weekend. I'll understand if you say no-" "Yes, sure, Henri. It'll be fun. Who else is coming?" she asked not really listening. The guys on the circuit hung out all of the time. "No one else, just us. I want to take you out on a date." Henri explained looking extremely nervous. Dawn had never been asked out before; she wasn't quite sure on how to respond. She knew Henri was her brother's friend so he wouldn't try anything. Besides she liked Henri. He was nice. "Um, OK. When?" she answered. "I understand you don't want-"Dawn interrupted him. "Henri, I said yes." She explained. Henri smiled and rushed to tell her he'd pick her up Saturday around seven. At this point they'd arrived back at her trailer and Henri walked her to her door before turning to head to his own trailer. Dawn walked into her home smiling and for once feeling good about herself. "Hey, Gunther, Henri asked me out. I told him, I would go. He's picking me up on Saturday." Gunther smiled. He knew his sister had a hard times meeting guys and he wanted her to experience dating. Saturday and Henri arrived at their trailer to pick up Dawn. Dawn was excited about this date. She liked Henri, but wasn't quite sure what to expect. She didn't date and this one would be her first. She wished she could ask someone for advice, but her brother was the only person she trusted. Gunther called her "Dawnie, your date's here." "Coming right out." She replied. Dawn took a moment to look at her reflection in the mirror. Wearing a denim skirt and a printed t-shirt, Dawn felt she looked presentable enough for her date. She walked out to join her date. Henri was speechless. Dawn was lovely. She stood straight and tall, her raven hair hanging to her waist. Her grey eyes sparkled as he assessed her and was flabbergasted that she would go out with him. Tonight she even though she'd dressed like a girl. Her muscular body was clearly visible as the muscles in her broad shoulders flexed as she moved towards him, showing the strength he knew she possessed. Henri knew he was a lucky man. He always thought Gunther's little sister was cute, but tonight she was truly an Amazon goddess in all her glory. He was glad he'd asked her out. Henri and Dawn left for their date. They went to the movies to see a new action flick, and Henri paid for the tickets and bought their snacks. Henri was a good-looking guy and before long had drawn the attention of several young women who were at the theater. The girls openly flirted with Henri, but he promptly ignored them. His attention was on his lovely companion, Dawn. When they left the theater, they went to a local restaurant to have a nice quiet dinner. Unfortunately for them, some nefarious characters were also at the restaurant they were headed to. When the young couple entered the restaurant, one of the young men made crude remarks to Dawn. "Hey girl," one guy jeered. "What are you doing with him? Come with me and I'll show you what a real man is like." "Man, you can't handle her. She's as big as you. Hell she might even be a man." They laughed. Dawn was hurt. The cruel remarks cut her like a knife. These men were calling her a man. Did she look like a man? Henri, being the gentleman that he was, came to her defense and cautioned the young man. "Look, guys, first of all apologize to my date and then please leave us alone" Henry spoke lowly as to not draw attention to them. The manager heard the commotion and walked over. Looking at Henri he asked, "Sir are these men bothering you?" "Yes," Henri replied, "and they are harassing my date as well." The manager looked at the three men and ordered them to leave. The men glared at Henri and Dawn as they left. Dawn watched them and felt uneasy, her feelings still stinging from their insults. Eventually, the hostess came and showed them to their table. Henri and Dawn promptly forgot about the men that were pestering them earlier and went on to enjoy their dinner. "Hey, Dawn, are you alright? Don't listen to them. You are beautiful." Henri assured her. Dawn smiled at him and her entire countenance shone through, "Thank you, Henri." "Little Dawnie is headed to college. Are you sure you want to leave the circuit?" he queried. "I hate to leave my brother, but I want a different life. Besides, I've always wanted to work in a hospital.' Chuckling she added, "You just want me around to protect you from Gunther." "Yea, you're right." Henri laughed. They talked about all of the adventures they'd had over the years. Henri realized he would truly miss her. A couple of hours passed and they decided to head home. Walking back to Henri's truck, they saw the men from earlier loitering around. Both Dawn and Henri were more than capable of defending themselves; they weren't worried about those three guys. "Dawnie, call the police." Henri ordered stepping in front of her effectively placing himself between her and the men. As they approached Henri's truck, the guys surrounded them. "We don't like gays," They jeered, "especially men that dress like women." One of the men spoke angrily to Dawn. "Look, fellas, we don't want any trouble. First, you owe the lady an apology and I suggest you guys go on and leave us be." Henri growled. Although she kept her face neutral, the taunts hurt. Dawn knew she was not pretty. She wasn't dainty, but to be called a man, that hurt. What the fuck am I going to do, I can take two of them, not all three. Henri thought his heart racing. Laughing, one of the guys grabbed her breast and Dawn pushed him off of her and slapped him. The guy became incensed and tried to strike her, but Dawn dodged his punch and a fight ensued. Henri her date was engaged in a fist fight with the other two assailants. Dawn managed to get her assailant on the ground and subdue him when one of the guys attacking Henri attacked her knocking her to the ground. Forcing her to the ground, he shoved his hands under her skirt grabbing her between her thighs hurting her. He ripped her panties away and attempted to assault her pussy with his hand. His buddy joined in and continued to forcibly massage her breast ripping her top and bra in the process. Dawn kneed one of her assailants in the nuts and managed to clock the other one in the temple with a sharp right hook. Henri had managed to subdue the guy that was beating him and come to her rescue as she knocked the second guy off of her. Hearing sirens in the distance, their assailants grabbed each other and ran off, leaving Henri and Dawn alone. The police arrived within minutes and took their statements. They refused medical treatment and Henri started to drive them back home. Clearly shaken and distraught, Dawn dealt in silence with the avalanche of emotions she was feeling. Neither person spoke. They didn't even really look at each other. Henri just drove as Dawn stared out of her window. Dawn noticed a change in Henri's demeanor on the drive back to her house. He was stiff, angry, and refused to even speak to her. She became nervous. "Henri, are you alright?" she queried concerned by his sudden change in attitude. Henri looked at her with a frown on his face, angry about the attack and not sure how to deal with his emotions he lashed out at her viciously. "Damn it, Dawn. Why can't you look like a normal woman? I should have listened to the other guys and not gone out with you. I should have charged Gunther more money." Hurt and confused, she could not believe what he'd just said. Dawn was crushed. She really liked Henri. When he pulled up to their trailer, she exited his truck. "Wait, are you saying Gunther paid you?" she asked before she got out of his truck. Henri didn't answer, just drove off. She was barely out of the truck before he sped off. Dawn was devastated. Letting herself into their home, she realized her brother wasn't home, so she collapsed on their sofa and crying uncontrollably as she recalled the hateful words Henri spewed at her and the events that happened at the end of the night. Gunther came home an hour later to find Dawn asleep on the sofa. He went to awake her when he saw the tear tracks on her cheeks. Instantly alert, he demanded to know what happened. "Did you pay him Gunther? Did you pay Henri to take me out?" Dawn asked her older brother. "No Dawnie," Gunther denied. "He asked you out on his own. Baby, what happened? Tell me, Dawnie." Gunther pleaded. Crushed , heartbroken, and distraught, Dawn began to bawl once more. Gunther moved to hug her, but she pushed him away. Gunther was devastated, because he never thought his friend would hurt her like this. "He said you paid him Gunther. He said I don't look normal and he never should have gone out with me." she sobbed brokenly. He never meant to cause his sister pain, and Henri would pay for hurting her. "Dawnie, please listen, Let me explain." Gunther begged his baby sister. "No, Gunther, no. I am hideous. No man will ever want me and you can't even pay someone to want me. I am ugly and I'm a freak." Dawn cried into the sofa. Gunther sat next to her and gathered his sister in his arms. "Listen, Dawnie. You are not a freak. Any man that chooses you will be damned lucky. I did give Henri some money for tonight but not as any kind of payment. I wanted to make sure he had enough to pay for your date." Gunther took a deep breath. "Dawn, what happened? Please tell me what happened. Did Henri hurt you? What did he do?" "Some guys were at the restaurant we went to and they started harassing us. The manager made them leave, but they waited outside until we left. When we walked to Henri's truck, they attacked us." She inhaled. "Gunther, they kept calling me a man. Do I look like a man Gunther? I know I'm not pretty, but do I look like a man? Henri said-" she asked her brother. With tears streaming down her face. Gunther gathered his baby sister close. He vowed to protect her and learning that some guys deliberately hurt her simply because they could fueled his anger. "Dawnie, you are perfect. One day you will meet a man that will help you to know that." "Can you finish telling me what happened?" Gunther queried shaking with fury knowing some creeps did this to her. "Two of the guys grabbed Henri and the third guy grabbed me and grabbed my breast. I fought him off, when one of the guys that was beating Henri joined in on attacking me. He ripped my panties off Gunther. He hurt me. The other one tore my bra, finally the police came and they ran away. Henri accused me of causing it because I look so freakish. He said he only went out with me because you paid him, then he pulled up, put me out of his truck, and drove off." Dawn sobbed. Gunther was furious. Henri was his best friend. How could he hurt her like this? How dare he say these things to her? "Baby girl, I'm so sorry this happened to you. I promise, no one will do this to you again and I will deal with Henri, alright. Dawnie, it's late. Let's get you in bed and we will deal with Henri tomorrow. I love you little Sis." He assured his baby sister. Gunther sat with Dawn until she fell asleep. He could not wait to morning; he was heading over to Henri's trailer tonight. He knew better. No one hurt Dawn, so Henri had a beat down coming. Meanwhile Henri was thinking, I'm a fucking idiot. How could I say that shit to Dawn. I'm a fucking coward. Shit! I've got to tell her I'm sorry, if she even talks to me again. Boom boom boom Gunther beat on the door of his friends trailer. "Gunther, what in the hell? Do you know what time-"He was cut off when Gunther wrapped his hand around his throat. Slamming Henri into his wall Gunther demanded, "What the hell did you do to my sister? How dare you say that shit to her?" Shadows of Resentment: Dawn and Derrick At this point Henri had tried to explain. "Gunther, I'm sor-" Gunther's fist connected with the side of his face. Gunther wasn't listening and Henri had to fight back. He knew he'd just lost his best friend and any chance he had at even speaking to his sister. In his fury, Gunther gained the upper hand and punched Henri some more knocking him to the floor. Then he issued a final warning. "Stay the hell away from my sister. If you so much as look at Dawn again, you will pay." Then he kicked him and walked out. When Gunther made it back to their trailer, he checked on his baby sister, she was still sleeping. Gunther knew it was hard for Dawn, but he raised her the best that he could. To know that someone he classed as a friend hurt her this way, was a hard blow for him. Why did Henri do this to her? How could he hurt her this way? He has known us for years. He was there when Dawn came to me, scared, broken, and a small girl who needed guidance. I trusted him and he does this to her. I won't let anyone else hurt my sister again. Gunther silently vowed as tears rolled down his cheeks. Dawn was his heart. If he ever met the men that tried to molest her they were as good as gone. But for now, he'd protect her. A few days later, Henri did try and apologize, but Dawn wouldn't talk to him. She was too hurt, if Henri said those things to her, then they must be true. So she reverted back inside her shell even deeper. In a few weeks, she was starting school. She'd get to have a normal life, maybe be around regular people. Once Dawn went to school, she immersed herself in her studies. She made a few friends but simply didn't date any one. Focusing on her studies, she was able to maintain a high grade point average. She graduated at the top of her class and had several job offers for clinics, and hospitals all over the country. Dawn really wanted to work in one place, but they didn't have any positions available, so for a few years she worked at a residential facility and several hospitals. Riiiiinnnnnggggg Dawn hated that stupid alarm clock but this morning she was excited. She'd earned her credentials in physical therapy three years ago and today when was reporting for the first day at her dream job at Parkview Rehabilitation and Treatment Facility which was the one placed Dawn really wanted to work at. When Dawn was told that she had the job, she called her brother immediately. Gunther was across the country, but was so proud of her and happy that she finally got the job of her dreams. After securing her position, Dawn had to find a place to live. Having spent most of her life living in a trailer, Dawn wanted a house. So, she found a small two bedroom bungalow with a modest mortgage. She did her application for a loan and was promptly denied. So instead she found a small efficiency apartment to live in, never mentioning her loan being denied to her brother. Gunther came to help her move to Jackson two weeks before she started her new job. While carrying in some boxes, he saw a letter from a realtor. Being concerned, he opened and read the letter. Gunther vowed that he'd keep her safe and no one would hurt her, so he called the realtor. "Dawnie, come and show me the house you wanted." Gunther asked his baby sister after eating dinner one evening. "It's not a big deal Gunther, I didn't get it." Dawn said crushed. Putting on his jacket, Gunther said, "Did I ask you that? Come show me the house." Dawn gave her brother the address and they drove to the quiet neighborhood. Wow! Gunther thought when he saw the small house for the first time. This house is perfect for her and I'm going to make damn sure she gets it. Gunther was proud of Dawn, she'd overcome so many obstacles and all she wanted was this small house. He called the bank and spoke to her loan officer. Using all of his charm, he learned that her finances, or lack of resources, were the cause of the problem. Once he learned what she needed, he called in a few favors from his friends on the circuit. Over the years, Gunther had made a few influential friends and they stood behind him also. He had no problem purchasing the small house for his sister. Her brother Gunther surprised her again a few days later. He came home for a short visit and asked Dawn to accompany him to a show. While they were at the show, Gunther had arranged for some of his buddies to move Dawn's furniture from her small apartment into the house he'd bought for her. The next day while driving Dawn home, Gunther drove past her apartment complex. He pulled up to the house she'd been admiring months earlier. Gunther smiled at his sister. "Hey, Dawnie, I've got something for you." Clearly confused Dawn noticed the sold sign in the front yard of the house and wondered why they were here. Did Gunther know who bought the house? Why were they here? "Come on, girl" he called walking ahead of her, "Check this out before the owners arrive." Looking around someone else's house was not exciting to Dawn. But she went on and followed her brother inside. Upon entering she noticed her living room furniture arranged in the front room. Her small dining room table stood in the dining room. She even recognized her pictures and other knick-knacks placed carefully around the room. Gunther was silent until she looked at him with questioning eyes. Slowly he pulled the keys to the house from behind his back and whispered, "Congratulations, Dawn. Welcome to your new home." Dawn was elated, as she threw her arms around her brother's neck; she finally had a home. This was a home she'd share with her brother. When he wasn't traveling, he could come and stay with her. Gunther took a weekend off to help her finish moving in and Dawn made him promise to come and stay with her when he had down time. Today, she started her dream job. She arrived at work early and reported to the director's office. After introductions were finished, Dawn went out to see her patients. Her assignments were with people who were paralyzed who could possibly walk again. She was a hard worker and soon was well known for her no-nonsense approach to her patients. She gave them her best, and she took nothing less than their best in return. Her patients loved her and worked hard for her. At the end of the sessions with her most of them were mobile again. Dawn worked at Parkview for several months and made a few friends there. One day she was at work when one of her coworkers, a man named Brian asked her out. "Dawn, I've got tickets to see Jodeci this weekend. Will you go with me?" Brian asked nervously. Dawn flashed back to a few years earlier to her one and only date with Henri. Her heart slammed in her chest, "No, I'm sorry, Brian. I can't." she rushed away. Brain was stumped and couldn't figure out what he'd done wrong. Dawn liked Brian, but she knew she wasn't like other girls. She was hideous. If he went out with her, people would torment him. She liked him too much to cause him embarrassment. Brian was a nice looking guy. A little on the slim side, but he was cute. Chocolate brown hair, brown eyes, and the cutest dimple in his chin, Brian was one of the nicest guys she'd ever met. But she wasn't the type of girl he should date. One day as they were leaving work, Brian asked her out again, but as part of a group. Gunther was visiting and was waiting to give her a ride home when and she started to beg off because she had a guest. Gunther heard her decline and knew why. He stopped her and asked Brian to wait. "Dawnie, he's not Henri and he seems nice." He whispered to his sister. "Besides it's going to be a group. Go you need to get out. I promise, if he hurts you, I'll crush him." Dawn looked at her brother and he saw her fear. "Gunther, I'm not like other girls. Guys don't-" Her utterance broke Gunther's heart. He cursed Henri for making her feel this way. But it wasn't just Henri. Guys simply didn't ask her out. He didn't understand why. She was beautiful. This guy, had courage. Gunther saw how he watched her. The few times he stopped by her job, he noticed that Brian always found a way to spend just a little extra time with her. He was a little scrawny, but he seemed nice. Maybe I'm wrong, I thought Henri was nice and... Shaking his head, Gunther forced the memory of his former best friend out of his head. Dawn needed to go out, be with other people. "Stop, Dawn, Henri was an idiot. He was wrong." Looking over at Brian, he called him to them. As Brian approached he saw the tears in her eyes and he knew someone hurt her badly. He saw how protective her brother was of her and he swore to keep her safe. "Hey, Dawn; let's not call it a date then. We can call it a group of friends hanging out and acting like fools. But please come with us." She laughed, then gave her brother a big hug. "Ok, Brian, I'll go." She smiled at him. "Woooo hoooo! This will be awesome!" Brian cheered. The rest of the week went by uneventfully as Dawn became more nervous about the outing, and the weekend could not get there fast enough. Finally, Friday arrived and it was the night of her outing. Brian arrived at Dawn's with another couple in his car. They left her house and headed to the nightclub. Quite a few people from her job were there and Dawn found herself having a great time. Some of the girls asked about her weightlifting and bodybuilding. They wanted to know how she stayed in such good shape. She explained about lifting and the exercise regimen she followed. They actually asked for pointers and she was happy to advise them. The girls decided to form a fitness club and let Dawn train them. Dawn had a great time; she danced, played darts, shot pool, and even beat a couple of guys at arm wrestling. When it was time to drive home, Brian drove the other couple home first, because he wanted a few minutes alone with Dawn. Dawn had such a great time hanging out with her friends from work that it became a weekly occurrence. One night after hanging out and singing karaoke, Brian was driving Dawn back home. He had something he wanted to talk to her about. Mustering up his courage, Brian asked her the questions he'd been wanted to ask for days. "Dawn, are you seeing someone? I mean if not, would you be willing to date me?" "Wow! Brian, OK. Um, so how does this work?" Dawn asked. Brian was ecstatic and he laughed. "We just sort of hang out like we did tonight." For the first time in a long time, Dawn felt happy. Brian pulled up in her driveway and helped her out of the car. He walked her to her door and kissed her softly on the lips. Dawn let herself into her house and Brian waited until she was inside before he drove away. Of course, Gunther was waiting up and he was relieved when Dawn came home. He was happy she'd met such a nice man. Gunther visited for a few days and got to know Brian. He liked him and he was happy that his sister had met someone that treated her so well. On Valentine's Day at work, Brian had a beautiful bouquet of flowers delivered for Dawn. She placed the flowers in the lobby for the day because she wanted to share their beauty with everyone. Dawn gave Brian tickets to a basketball game that she knew he really wanted to attend. He idolized the Bears, so she had her big brother to use his connections to score a set of tickets. The people at Parkview loved Dawn, she had a great rapport with the doctors, nurses, therapist and patients. They were happy for both her and Brian. After dating for six months, Brian and Dawn decided to take their relationship to another level. So on the night of their six month anniversary, they became intimate. It was a Saturday night and Dawn prepared a special dinner, smothered lamb with three cheese sauce over bow tie pasta. Brian was picking up a nice white wine to complement the meal and they would have fresh strawberries with chocolate sauce for desert. Dawn started her dinner and when it was ready put it in the warmer. She went to dress. What do you wear when you're about to make love for the first time. She'd bought a new outfit for tonight. She dressed in a simple ivory dress that was covered in lace with matching pumps. She fixed her hair and makeup. Waiting anxiously for Brian to arrive, Dawn began to doubt herself. Then she heard his car pull up, and nervously invited him in. He was so handsome. He'd chosen to wear a pair of ivory shirt and slacks with a dark sports coat. Their style of dress was totally in sync. He was nervous because he'd never been with anyone before. Dawn offered him a seat as he presented her with the wine he'd bought for the evening. Sitting nervously they tried to make small talk, but they couldn't help but think about how the night was slated to end. Brian grabbed Dawn's hand as she sat next to him on the sofa, "Dawn, I am a twenty-seven year old man, and this is embarrassing, but I've never been with anyone." Looking at her anxiously, he waited for her to laugh at him. She smiled, "Brian, it's my first time too." Brian wrapped his arms around her and held her as his heart pounded in his chest. He was speechless that this beautiful amazing woman would share her body with him for the first time as he was sharing his with her. Then Brian chuckled. "Um, Dawn, if this is my first time and also your first time, do you have any idea what we should do first?" "Hey, we'll figure it out together." She told him as she held him close. "Brian, do you have a problem with how I look? I mean I lift, so I have clear muscle definition over my entire body. If I gross you out, and you change your mind, I'll understand." Dawn whispered terrified that he didn't really want her. He kissed her. He pulled her to him and kissed her. Dawn melted into his body, indulging in the feel of him. He lay back on the sofa and pulled her body on top of him. He ran his hands all over her body. Reveling in the feel of her, Brian groaned. He loved the feel of her body covering his. Brian had removed his jacket earlier, and Dawn was busily stroking his chest and back with her hands. "Stop, maybe we should undress," Dawn suggested. "OK," Brian replied and hurriedly began to disrobe. Dawn sat staring at him wide-eyed and apprehensive. Brian stood before her in all his glory. He was a little over six feet tall, dark brown hair cover his head and body, broad shouldered with a slim waist. He sported a male member which looked to be at least seven inches in length and an inch and a half in diameter. He was now nervous because Dawn was still dressed. Dawn reached to the side of her dress and unzipped. Slowly and sensuously she removed her dress. She stood before Brian wearing simply her underwear, and he was speechless. She was beautiful. Slowly he stood and walked to her, pulling her into his arms, he held her body next to his. Taking his hand, Dawn led him into her bedroom and guided him to her bed. They sat on the bed and started kissing. As they kissed they explored each other bodies with their hands. Laying back on the bed, Dawn spread her thighs as Brian climbed on top. She was terrified because she'd never done this before. Brian was nervous as well, but he was determined to make this good for her. He'd never had intercourse with a woman, but he was more than adept to bring her pleasure. Brian lay beside her and kissed her softly. Slowly he made her way down her body, kissing, tasting and nibbling. He enjoyed the taste of her. Dawn was overcome with sensations. She loved the way he made her feel. Sliding his hands between her thighs, he stroked her slit. Dawn moaned. "Ahhhh, Brian. Oh goodness" she sighed. The feeling overwhelmed her so that Dawn instinctive slammed her thighs shut, effectively trapping his hand between her thighs. "Spread your thighs, baby." Brian whispered. Slowly kissing her stomach and Mons, Brian encouraged her to open up to him. Slowly she opened her legs and her scent made his head swim. She smelt divine. Brian extended his tongue and licked her slit. An explosion of flavor covered his tongue. Brian indulged in Dawns pussy, He licked her slit, sucked on her puffy lips, tongued her clit before sucking it deeply into his mouth. She found herself grinding her pussy in his face, as she came for the first time in her life. Brian greedily drank her juices as Dawn begged for the one thing he could give her. "Brian, please. I need you. I need you inside me. I need you so badly." Needing no more encouragement, Brian mounted her and gently inserted his cock inside her. He entered her slowly, inch by inch, he pushed inside. Before long he was buried to the hilt. He didn't move at first, but waited for Dawn to set the pace. "Ummmmmm, Brian" Dawn groaned. "Please!" That was all he needed to hear. And he made love to her as slow as he could. She felt incredible to him. All hot, wet and soft, Brian could not hold on. Before he knew it, he came. "I'm sorry, baby. I'm sorry." He apologized to Dawn. "I'll do it better next time." He held her close whispering in her ear."I love you Dawn. God, you're beautiful. You're perfect. I love you." Dawn chuckled, "Baby, it was perfect." Then they went to sleep. After sleeping for a few hours, Brian and Dawn spent the majority of the night exploring each other bodies. "Dawnie," Brian whispered, "I want you on top. Will you ride me?" Dawn blushed, "Brian, I..." "Dawn, please, climb on top, ride me." Brian pleaded. Dawn straddled his hips and placed his cock at her opening, and slowly slid down on him. He felt huge as he entered her. Slowly she began to rock back and forth, taking him in and out of her body. From this position, Dawn was in complete control. Brian was completely engaged in the feel of her hot sheath shielding his hot hard member. Then she felt it. It started in her stomach, and worked through her limbs causing her body to shake. Her pussy was throbbing, and she pumped harder. Brian grabbed her hips to help hold her in place as she pounded her burning cunt on his cock. Before long, she climaxed. Her body convulsing as Brian held her close waiting for her breathing to return to normal. Six months later, Dawn and Brian were spending a quiet evening at Brian's apartment watching movies. They'd loved each other every day in every way possible. Brian was so happy to have found this amazing woman. He knew he wanted to be with her for the rest of his life. "Dawn, can I ask you something?" Brian queried. "What?" Dawn asked concerned. "Where do you see us a few years from now? I mean do you see us together?" Brian asked, nervously. Oh no, he's going to break up with me. Dawn was thinking sitting up concerned. "Brian, are you breaking up with me. I thought... Never mind, I'll go." Dawn replied as she stood to leave. I'm so stupid! I should know better by now.She was thinking fighting back the tears that threatened to fall. "Dawn wait!" Brian stopped her by grasping her hand. "I want to know if we have a future. You see, I really like you and I hope we'll be together for a long time. Not just as boyfriend, girlfriend, but maybe more." Dawn stopped, her breath caught in her chest, and turned to look at him as a tear spilled down her cheek. She smiled and his heart sang. Dawn's face glowed when she smiled and Brian loved being the one who brought a smile to her face. "Brian, wow!" Dawn whispered. "I love being with you. You are such a great guy. When I'm with you, I feel... I believe... You mean so much to me Brian. I don't want to lose you. You make me feel, special." "Baby, I feel the same way. I am so lucky to have found you, Dawn." Brian whispered as he held her close for a moment. Shadows of Resentment: Dawn and Derrick Brian and Dawn dated for over a year until one day, Brian received a phone call. His parents were having serious health issues and needed him to come home so he had to leave. He begged Dawn to join him, and she seriously considered moving to be with him. However, she recalled the years and struggles she went through to reach her goals. She thought about the sacrifice her brother made to help her secure her home. And finally, she loved her job and didn't want to give it up. As much as she cared for Brian, she did care for him. She wasn't ready to give up her independence for a man, so she chose to stay. Brian understood, even though it hurt, he was willing to give her what she needed. The day Brian moved away was one of the hardest days of Dawn's life. Her brother Gunther, actually came back to be with her because he knew how much that young man meant to his sister. They went to Brian's apartment, helped him packed and stood together as he drove away from them for the last time. Dawn stayed stoic until he left and everyone except Gunther had gone. Then she broke down, mourning her first true love. Her big brother held her as she cried for a love that would never be. She missed Brian terribly, but understood he had to take care of his family. A few months after Brian had moved, Dawn reported to work and was informed that she had a new patient. A young man who was hurt in an attack and paralyzed was her new patient. However, with rehabilitation and training, he could possibly regain mobility. "Cameron Richardsstar basketball player, football star, above average student, eldest son with one younger sibling." Dawn read aloud as she gathered information on her newest client. She read the rest of the report on Cameron. Dawn learned that he's suffered a spinal injury that would be corrected through surgery but would require extensive occupational and physical therapy to regain mobility. Hummm, another jock. They think they are invincible and never want to listen. I wonder how difficult this guy is going to be? Dawn learned that her newest patient had been at the facility for a couple of weeks and the director had just created his team. She had to meet in his office to meet her charge and discuss his care with the rest of the team. Dawn arrived at the director's office fifteen minutes before the meeting. She saw a handsome young man with thick gorgeous auburn hair sitting in the lobby with an angry scowl on his face. Before long Dr. Kerst approached and talked to him and an older gentleman helped wheeled him into the director's office where she soon followed. The Director introduced Cameron to his care team. He simply looked at each person as they were introduced until his eyes landed on Dawn. Dawn saw him visibly recoil, and even though she was used to it, it hurt. She knew she looked different, but his reaction reminded her of how many men saw her, except for Brian. Darn it, she missed him. She decided to face his prejudice head on, walking over to him, she kneeled and said, "Stick with me, and we'll get you out of this chair." She felt the tension leave his body as he visibly relaxed. Dawn stood back and let everyone else explain to Cameron what they would be doing. They answered the questions his father had as well. When everyone finished, Dawn explained the things she would work with him on. Dawn had four patients that she worked with. These patients were assigned to her because they were considered the most difficult to work with. Cameron challenged her. She worked with him for a little over two months and he wasn't trying, just going through the motions. She watched Cameron. The only time he was happy was when his family visited. One day, his father Nick wanted to chat with her about Cameron's progress. Dawn had just finished talking with his dad when his little sister, Rosa, rushed to her and hugged her, "Thank you for helping my brother." Nine year old Rosa hugged her tightly and told her. " He promised me he'd walk again and said you were helping him." Rosa said. Dawn smiled at the adorable little girl and said, "You're welcome, sweetie. I am happy to help your brother." returning her hug. "When you visit him, that helps him to work even harder. So we're both helping him, sweetie." Dawn explained. Rosa beamed at her. The thought that she was helping her brother made her proud, she'd try to see him each week from now on. One day, while helping Cameron work on his muscle development, he was being nonresponsive and lethargic. He seemed to be giving up. Dawn knew he was wrestling with some serious issues, but he still had to at least try. When she asked him to push against pressure she was applying to his lower limbs, and he simply stared at her blankly, Dawn lashed out. "What is wrong with you?" she yelled. "You have a family, friends, and people who care about you and you won't even try. That beautiful little girl that visits you every week worships you, yet you're spending all of your time moping and feeling sorry for yourself." Dawn continued. "Well, I'm through. If you don't want to get well, then I am not wasting my time anymore." Dawn retrieved her duffle bag and started to leave. She wasn't really upset with Cameron, but she missed Brian, missed having someone simply love her. This guy had that in spades and didn't care. "Dawn, wait, I'm sorry. It's just that so much shit has happened to me in the last few months, that sometimes it's hard, you know." Cameron took a deep breath. "I hate the guy who did this to me. I hate his guts. I want to take him down and destroy him, but I can't do that without hurting other people. People I care about." he growled. "Do you think I want to be this miserable and alone? I came here to get well and help my family and I need your help. Please don't leave, just tell me what you need me to do and I will gladly do it." Cameron pleaded quietly. Cameron turned his chair towards her and waited for her to respond to his statement. Dawn looked at Cameron pensively as she took a deep breath. Cameron's story made her angry. He didn't deserve to be here, to be hurt like this. But he couldn't give up. He had to fight through it. Dawn said in a sympathetic tone, "I am not even going to try to imagine what you went through that night, what you go through every day. But there are people out there who love you, who care deeply for you, who would be heartbroken if you gave up. Your father, your sister and that girl who visits every week- they are all counting on you to get better again. Keep fighting for their sake." "Listen to me, Cameron. I know what happened to you was not your fault. The guy that did this is off living his life somewhere else, and you've got to live yours. You are strong. You are capable of beating this and coming out on the other side of this. I want to help you do this, but you've got to want it for yourself. You will walk again. You will be able to have your life back. I'm behind you one hundred percent. So are your family, friends, and everyone here at Parkview." Dawn concluded. Cameron smiled and she saw the strength return to him. Dawn knew he would fight now and she'd stand with him as long as she needed to. He stiffened his resolved and was determined to fight even harder than before. "I'll fight and won't give up, as long as I know you believe in me I can do it. I will walk again and show everyone that I'm strong." He declared in a strong voice. "Alright, let's do this then." Dawn declared dropping her bag back on floor as they returned to his workout regimen. A friendship was born that day. Dawn kept her relationships with her patients as professional as possible, never delving into their private lives. However, Cameron was different. When his family came to visit, they were determined to speak with all of his caregivers. She remembered the weekend his girlfriend visited, he smiled for days. She was happy for him, although she didn't get a chance to meet her, when he talked about her Dawn knew that she was very special. Dawn was off the weekend of his birthday, but she noticed something different about him. His mood seemed darker. While working out after the visit, she decided to see if she could help. "Cameron, you can talk to me you know. I'm here and I'll listen." "It's nothing, Dawn. Can we just work out? I really don't want to talk." Cameron answered. "OK, then let's stand on the bars." Dawn helped him balance and learn to make steps. At the end of the session he was exhausted. She helped him back to his room as she got her next patient. After a few more sessions with Kerst, Cameron seemed to be back to his old spirit. He would often sneak to the gym and try to work out on his own. So Dawn permitted him to work out a little, but he had to make sure someone knew he was in the gym so he could alert them if help was needed. March of that year was when the mess hit the fan. Cameron had two visitors that he didn't want to see. Cameron had just finished a session with Dawn when he was headed back to his room. When he approached the lobby he saw his visitors, one was the last person he wanted to see: Darius. Fuming, Cameron turned and proceeded to exit the building. Dawn saw him and realizing he was upset, stopped him. "Where are you going? Why are you upset?" Dawn demanded. "He's here. Out of all the people, he has the nerves to come here. I don't want to deal..." Cameron closed his eyes as his body quaked. Dawn could see he was straining to keep his body under control. "Cameron, tell me about them." Dawn pleaded, "Please" She didn't like seeing him this upset. Closing his eyes, Cameron recalled that night from over a year ago and relayed his tale. "Darius Granger is the man that put me in this chair. He used to be my best friends when we were kids, but one day he decided that he hated me. We got into a fight and that night my Mom died. I needed him, my friend, my brother, but he didn't even come to the funeral. Momma loved him and he didn't even pay her final respects. Derrick never attacked me but he went along with Darius everytime. His sister went to the prom with a creep that tried to rape her. I stopped the guy and tried to get her somewhere where she could get help. He attacked me when I was trying to help Sierra. His attack caused me everything. He didn't even get punished, not really. Just a light sentence and sent home. I got sentenced to this chair and he gets to walk free. I hate him Dawn, because this isn't fair. Now he's here. What does he think will happen? I don't want to see him." Cameron concluded as tears cascaded down his cheeks. At the end of his story, Dawn was furious. "Wait here. I'll take care of this." Then she stormed off to the lobby and walked directly towards the two men that were causing her friend's distress. She was furious. How dare he treat a friend of his the way he treated Cameron. She was going to give this Darius Granger a piece of her mind. "Which one of you is Darius?" Dawn asked as she approached the two men. Both men stood. One was dark skinned with dark eyes, a low-afro and a goatee. The other was a milk chocolate colored God with dreamy chocolate brown eyes, a low haircut, and no facial hair. He was perfect, and for a moment Dawn was stunned. Darius spoke, "I'm Darius Granger, and this is my brother, Derrick. We're here to see Cameron Richards. He's our friend." "You stopped being his friend when he needed you the most. Then attacked him and put him in a chair. Really," Dawn stated as she looked at him as if he was scum stuck to her shoe. "If that's the way you treat your friends, I'd hate to be your enemy. There is no way in HELL, I will let you near him. Leave now and crawl back under the rock you came out from under you arrogant piece of shit." Dawn turned to walk away from them, but Derrick blocked her. Her voice cracked, heart pounded, as he stood before her. Still she began to address the handsome man before her, "Derrick, I don't know you and I have nothing to say to you even though you have the audacity to stand here with him and try and defend ... It's unreal. If Cameron was really your friend, you would have done something to help him. But no, you just let your idiot brother abuse him. You can get the fuck out of my face." She began to push past him. "Wait, Miss.? What was your name?" He looked at her identification as he grabbed her shoulder to stop her from leaving. Her skin tingled where he touched her and she felt heat pool at the apex of her thighs. "Miss Marcolini, I assure you my brother regrets what he did. However, I will not stand here and let you attack him like this. We are here to see Cameron. Do you know where he is?" Derrick inquired in a tone with authority. Dawn sucked in a deep breath. No one spoke to her that way. She was turned on and could not believe the way her body was reacting to this man. Dawn was six feet tall, and he towered over her by a good five inches. She actually had to look up to see his face, my goodness, he was so handsome. Her heart began to race, because of the way he affected her. Derrick stared at her. He'd never seen a more beautiful woman. He could tell she was uncomfortable, so he let her go. "Right here, it's alright Dawn, Thanks." Cameron told her as he wheeled over to join them. "You don't have to talk to them, if you don't want too. I'll call security." She stated as she regained her equilibrium. Cameron smiled. "No, it's alright. I know these guys and he's right we need to talk. Besides, don't you have patients waiting? I'll be fine. Call you later?" "Are you sure Cameron?" Dawn queried as she kneeled before him to look in his eyes. "OK, I'll go but call me later." She took one more look at Derrick and went back to work. Derrick was speechless as he watched her walk away. He knew then that he had to get to know this amazing creature. But first, he was here to talk with Cameron. Derrick listened to his brother and his best friend talk. He recognized his own part in the events that occurred. Dawn had accused him of not doing enough and she was right. He saw how protective she was of Cameron and briefly wondered, if there was something there. But that thought was dismissed as soon as Cameron admitted that he planned to marry Sierra. Derrick wanted to ask about her, but knew he needed to wait. Darius and Cameron argued and yelled at each other for hours. Finally, Cameron agreed to try and repair their friendship, as he looked at the pictures of his nieces. Derrick decided to visit his friend more than he'd done so in the past. With each visit, he hoped to catch a glimpse of Miss Marcolini. Cameron asked one day, "Derrick, what's going on with you? Why are you coming up here every week? You like Dawn don't you?" "Naw, man" Derrick stammered, "I just like hanging with my friend. Now if Miss Marcolini comes around, I won't mind saying hello. Does she have a boyfriend?" Cameron laughed. "I'm not touching that man. You have to ask her." One day while he was in session with Dawn, Derrick drove up for a short visit. Derrick missed hanging out with his friend and wanted to catch up. He also wanted to see Dawn Marcolini again. When he entered the residential hall, one of the nurses informed him that Cameron was in the gym working out and gave him directions to the gym. Derrick stopped at the door when he made it to the gym to watch. Dawn was helping Cameron with some stretches, so Cameron was laid out with his right leg extended and Dawn was straddling him helping him stretch his muscle. Derrick did not like the position he saw his woman and best friend in. My woman? Derrick thought. When did Dawn become my woman? He stopped himself from entering the gym until he heard Cameron moan, "Oh God Dawn, that feels so good." "What the fuck is going on in here?" Derrick demanded storming into the gym. Dawn turned to a furious Derrick, and for a moment she paused, but she quickly recovered. "Wait a minute, you can't come in here. This is a session with a patient." She looked around. "What are you doing in here?" Derrick took a deep breath and really looked at Dawn. She was even more beautiful when she was sweaty. Her form fitting sports bra did little to hide her erect nipples that were peeking through the fabric. She had on a tight pair of workout pants that accentuated her slim waist, thick muscular thighs, and firm bottom. Her upper torso was very well developed and he could tell she spent time lifting. Maybe that was something else they could do together. He realized that he wanted this woman and he didn't share. Cameron might need to get a new therapist. Derrick smiled when he heard Dawn's sharp intake of breath. He knew she was just as affected by him as he was her. "Listen Dawn, I was out of line. Please let me apologize." he said calmly. "We need to talk. What time do you get off work? I'll be here for a while so, maybe we can go get something to eat together." "Excuse me, Derrick. I don't date-" Dawn started to state. "Good, I'm glad to hear that. I would hate for you to have to break some poor guy's heart when you tell him you're taken." He smiled again, "Right." Dawn blushed. She realized that he knew how he affected her. What is wrong with me? Dawn thought. How is he able to make me feel like this? "Um, like I tried to explain earlier, I don't date-" Derrick cut her off again and finished her sentence. "Anyone else but me right, Dawn." He then took her right hand brought it to his lips and kissed it. Cameron quietly exited the gym to give the couple some privacy. Coming out of his room, Cameron joined Derrick in the lobby. "Man that was smooth." Cameron teased his friend. "I've never seen you pull a woman like that. Where the hell did that come from?" Derrick blushed and explained. "Man, I don't know. There is something about that girl. Ever since I saw her the first time, I think about her." Cameron nodded. "Has she ever dated a brother?" Derrick asked. "I don't know who she dates. She's very private. I just know she's been hurt, so be careful." Cameron replied. Derrick nodded. "I hear you. I just want to get to know her." Derrick said. He was thinking I would never hurt her, because I'd rather die first than cause her an ounce of pain. The two young men spent a few hours talking and catching up on old times. The guys talked the rest of the day until Dawn's shift ended. It was at that moment Dawn walked into the room and asked him if he was ready to go. Derrick and Dawn left the center and drove to a Woo Huang Chinese Restaurant in the city for dinner. Derrick, for the first time since arriving at the center, was nervous. He really liked Dawn and wanted to get to know her better. Dawn, dressed in scrubs from work, felt guilty because she should have at least tried to look nice for him. He was stunningly handsome, even in jeans and a simple dress shirt, she could not take hers eyes off of him. Derrick noticed her staring and he looked around blushing. The waiter came and took their orders. After he left, Derrick decided to break the ice. "So, Dawn, what type of guy do you usually date?" Derrick asked curiously. Dawn leaned back in her chair and crossed her arms. "Why did you ask me out?" she asked suspicious of his intention. "Guys like you don't date girls like, I mean girls who look like..."Dawn mumbled. That last phrase peaked Derrick's interest. "What do you mean, Dawn? Girls that look like what?" "Never mind," Dawn replied looking down. "Let's just enjoy dinner." "Dawn, look at me." Derrick whispered softly. "You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I really want to get to know you." Shadows of Resentment: Dawn and Derrick Dawn was stunned. She was not some petite, little, girl that most guys found attractive. She was thick and bulky. Most guys felt she was to manly because of her build. She started lifting with her brother when she was sixteen. At eighteen, she was a semi-professional female weight lifter. With the prize money she earned from competition, she paid her way through PT school. But Derrick surprised her. He genuinely seemed to like her. She began to feel the way she did when Brian looked at her, only more intense. Even at her age, she rarely dated. She recalled her date with Henri and shuttered. Derrick stopped talking and asked her one question. "Dawn, tell me the name of the bastard that caused the pain I just saw in your eyes?" "No, I'm sorry. It was nothing, besides it was so long ago. Ancient history." She explained. She decided to change the subject. "So, you're in college. What are you majoring in?" Derrick was not about to let the subject drop completely, but he'd play along. Even if he never found out who caused the pain he saw in her eyes, it was his mission to make sure no one hurt her again. He truly understood how Darius felt about Deidre now and how Cameron felt about Sierra. "I'm undecided right now. But I think I want to go into architecture or graphic design." Derrick stated. "Well, you've got time. You're what twenty?" Dawn asked, even though she knew the answer already. Derrick smiled and answered, "Yes, but you already knew that. I know you're older than me, but I like older women." Dawn was speechless, and didn't understand her reaction to the man sitting in front of her. She never responded to any man the way she did him. He was an enigma that entranced her. "Derrick, I don't do relationships. They just don't work for me." Dawn tried to explain, honestly she just didn't want to deal with the pain again. The pain she felt after Brian left. "Good," said Derrick, "I don't have to worry about another man trying to steal you then. See, I'm a one woman man. So we're perfect for each other.' Derrick declared. Dawn was speechless. He countered every argument she came up with. This man was determined to get to know the real Dawn Marcolini. They finished their dinner and then Derrick drove her home. Pulling into her driveway, Derrick asked to see her phone. "See my phone, why?" Dawn asked curiously. "Just let me see it please." Derrick insisted. "Look, do you need to call someone or something. Has your battery died? Why do you need to see my phone?" Dawn questioned. Taking her phone out hesitantly, she passed it to him. Derrick quickly keyed in his number and saved it. "There, now you can call me to set up our next date." Flustered, Dawn didn't know how to respond. Derrick got out of his car and walked to her door to help her out. Dawn had her door opened and was climbing out of his car before he reached her side. Placing his hand gently on her waist, he escorted her to her door, and kissed her passionately. Walking away smiling, Derrick decided it was time to win the heart of Miss Dawn Marcolini and show her what a real man was made of. The next day Dawn returned to work with a smile on her face. Everyone noticed and many questioned the cause of her good mood. Walking into the gym, Dawn saw Cameron working out. Cameron saw her and could not resist teasing. "Morning, Old Lady. How was your date with your new boy-toy?" Cameron laughed as Dawn looked around. "Old Man, mind your own business. It was nice." she answered laughing. Dawn was a consummate professional at work. She did not engage with anyone about what she did in her personal life. She was a little uncomfortable answering Cameron's question, but when she looked around and saw the mischievous grin on his face, she relaxed. "It was nice and we are not discussing it." She replied. "I've got to go get Mr. Lee, because it's time for his session. I'll see you later. Smiling she added, "By the way, Cameron, don't overdo it. You don't want to hurt yourself." Dawn then left to retrieve her patient. "Ms. Marcolini, Dawn," her patient called. "I've been stretching a little long here. Can I please take a break?" Embarrassed, Dawn blushed, "Mr. Lee, I'm sorry. I..." Chuckling he replied, "It's alright I wish I was the young man that made you smile like that. You are a beautiful young lady." He stated. Dawn smiled and thanked him. She continued to help him work out on his regiment. At lunch, she called Derrick. Not recognizing the number, but hopeful, Derrick picked up on the second ring. "Hello!" Derrick answered. "Hi, um, I wanted to thank you for last night." Dawn spoke softly. "Dawn, I'm glad you called. When is our next date?" he queried. "Um, tonight, if you're not busy. Are you in town?" Dawn asked. Derrick smiled. He'd actually planned to drive back tonight and see her anyway, but the fact she called meant she was returning his interest. "No, but I will be at seven. Where are we going tonight?" Derrick insisted. "Let's go to the movies and then maybe dinner." She suggested. "Great, I'll see you tonight." Derrick concluded. "Um, I've got to get back to work. I'll see you at seven." Dawn smiled before she hung up her phone. OMG! I can't believe I called him! Whew! Dawn thought. Her lunch break was almost over. Just then her phone rang. "Hello" "Hey, sis." Gunther greeted. "I'm coming up on some time off and wanted to stop in for a visit. Smiling Dawn replied, "Gunther, you never have to ask. When will you get here?" Excited about her brother's visit, Dawn's lunch hour ended and she hurried to work with her next patient, promising herself she would not think about a certain young man that captured her attention. The rest of her day went by uneventfully. Before long she'd reached the end. As she was heading out, she agreed to get together with some of the girls later in the week for drinks. Dawn went home and prepared for her second date with Derrick. Before long it was six o'clock and he would be at her house in an hour. Dawn was filled with nervous energy. She looked forward to seeing him. Then her doorbell rang. She cooked out and saw him standing there. He was early, but she didn't mind. She was looking forward to seeing him. Opening the door, Dawn invited him inside. She offered him a beverage and they talked for a while before heading out. When they arrived at the theater, Dawn remembered her last date with Brian, and for a second she felt guilty. She didn't miss him as much as she did before. She wondered if he'd moved on. "Dawn, Dawn, damn girl," Derrick called snapping his fingers to get her attention, "What were you thinking about so hard?" Derrick asked. He'd been speaking about a favorite movie when he realized his companion had checked out on him. Dawn chuckled and apologized, "I'm sorry, Derrick, I was just wondering about a friend of mine. He liked action movies as well." Derrick didn't like the fact that she was thinking of another man, but decided to play it cool. She said she wasn't dating anyone, and he'd been watching her for months and he never saw her talking to anyone else. Whoever she was thinking about was not a real threat to him. Derrick was silent for a while and Dawn felt uncomfortable. She looked at him and noticed that he had a pensive look on his face. She remembered how cold and distant Henri became after the attack. Dawn stepped away from him in an effort to distance herself briefly and she was about to cancel the date when Derrick spoke. "Dawn, this friend," Derrick exhaled, "He is just that, a friend right?" he queried. "Um, Derrick. I'm not sure if we should finish this date." She looked away. Inhaling deeply, Dawn continued crossing her arms. "Will you take me home, now?" Derrick stood to move towards her when she visibly recoiled. She's afraid of me. Someone hurt her and I want to know who. I've got to calm down. I'm scaring her. he thought. "Dawn, no, please." Derrick pleaded. "Don't cancel our date. It's all I've thought about all day. It's the only thing I had to look forward to." Dawn looked at him with memories of Henri crowding her thoughts. Derrick knew something wasn't right. He saw it in her eyes, and wanted to take away that fear immediately. "Derrick, I-"Dawn started to say but Derrick cut her off. "Dawn, I really like you and if you really want to go home, I will take you. But, please, don't leave." He pleaded once more. A small smile formed on her lips and she said, "Alright, we can stay, but you reminded me of Henri..." she looked away quickly dropping what she was about to say. Derrick knew he now had the name of the man that hurt her. "Dawn, who was Henri?" he asked softly. Shaking her head, as if she was clearing cobwebs, Dawn answered, "No one. Um, what movie do you want to see? I like action movies myself." "Is he why you were afraid of me? What did he do to you Dawn. Please tell me." He insisted. Agitated Dawn looked at Derrick, "I don't want to talk about him, or even think ... forget I said anything. Can we just enjoy the movie, please?" She implored. "OK, I'll drop it for now. But baby, he hurt you and I will find out the truth. Now, let's go." Derrick purchased their tickets and they entered the theatre. He offered to buy snacks, but Dawn didn't want anything. So they simply sat and enjoyed the show. At the end of the movie, they stopped at a local steak house and had dinner. Derrick told Dawn stories about antics he, Darius, and Cameron pulled. The stories fascinated her. She talked about losing her parents and being in foster care for a year. When she talked about her brother Gunther, it was obvious the love she had for her brother. Derrick really wanted to meet him. He drove Dawn back to her house and walked her to her door. Both of them were silent for a moment and then he pulled her close and kissed her. She responded with such heat that it took all of his restraint not to take her inside and make love to her. Their kisses ended and he promised to call then he headed home as soon as she went inside and secured her door. Derrick had classes so he could not visit for a few days. However, he called every night for the rest of the week. On Friday, while at work Dawn got a fantastic surprise. Her brother Gunther stopped by the center. Everyone at Parkview knew and respected Dawn's brother. The director even offered her the rest of the day off if she wanted to spend it with him. Dawn refused; she had patients to work with. Cameron, was now walking with modified assistance and he'd formed a friendship with Gunther. It was Cameron that told Gunther about Dawn's new boyfriend. That evening when Dawn made it home, Gunther had started steaks on the grill. "Well, Little Sis, do you need to tell me something?" Gunther asked. Dawn clearly confused, "No, nothing new here. What are you talking about?" she asked. "Derrick, oh Derrick!" Gunther moaned in a feminine voice. "Oh my goodness, who? How? Cameron. I'm going to get him." Dawn said as she collapsed on a lounge chair laughing at her brother's antics. "Yes, big brother. I have gone out with him a few times. He's nice. Kind of bossy, but nice." She concluded smiling. "I like seeing that smile on your face. This guy had better treat you right, or he deals with me." He said as he flipped their steaks. Dawn went inside to make a quick salad when her phone rang. She answered and of course it was Derrick. He was having dinner with his family but missed her and needed to hear her voice. She told him about her big brother's visiting. They didn't talk long, and went back to their respective activities. Derrick walked into his family's dining room with a big goofy smile on his face. Deidre had joined them for dinner and was the first to tease him. "Uh oh, Derrick's got another girlfriend" she said laughing. "How long before you get tired of this one?" she asked. "Yea, Derrick, tell us about her." Sierra chimed in. "She's amazing. I've never met anyone like her. She's, Wow! She's just... amazing" he answered with a goofy smile on his face. Marge and Marvin exchanged a glance. They'd never seen their son so taken. They wanted to meet this girl. "Tell us about her son." Marvin encouraged. "Her name is Dawn. She works at Parkview. She is unlike any other woman I've ever seen. She's beautiful and so sweet. Mom, you're going to love her when you meet her. We've only gone out a couple of times, but I know she's it for me." Derrick concluded. "Well, son," Marge interjected, "You've only just started seeing this girl, remember you're young. Don't rush anything." "We won't" he answered and they ate dinner. For the next few months Derrick practically lived at Dawn's house. Gunther had gone back on tour and Dawn didn't mind the company. One Friday night after a grueling day at the center, Derrick stopped by to take her out, however Dawn just wanted to stay in. So he quickly rode out and pick up some Chinese food and the movie Rush Hour. He and Dawn spent a quiet evening at home. While watching the movie the young couple stretched out on the sofa. Dawn decided to mess with him a little. "I met you sister today. She seems really nice. She invited me to get together sometime." "Really, she has been wanting to meet you. Actually, everyone has. How would you feel about joining my family for dinner sometime soon?" Derrick asked anxiously waiting for an answer. "Um, OK. You have to meet my brother as well." Dawn smiled. Derrick smiled, because he'd heard so much about Gunther, he was looking forward to finally meeting him. Dawn excused herself to go to the restroom while Derrick set up their food and the movie. The young couple ate and laughed at the antics of the characters on the screen. Dawn yawned a few times and then went silent. Derrick held her basking in the feel of her laying against him. Derrick was watching the movie when he realized Dawn was snoring softly on his chest. She'd fallen asleep. He simply lay there for a while and watched her sleep. After a quick nap, Dawn woke up, completely embarrassed that she'd fallen asleep on a guest. "Baby, don't be silly. You've worked all day. You're tired." Dawn moved off of him and he stood. "I'm going to head over to the Levee Inn and let you rest." Derrick explained. "No, don't leave. I'm not tired really. Please Derrick, stay." Dawn insisted. Derrick looked at her. She was sleep tousled, and wrinkled, but in that moment, she was his. "Dawn," he whispered and she flowed freely into his embrace. Their bodies exploded in a kaleidoscope of sensations as soon as their lips touched. Derrick lead her back to the sofa where they sat and took time to explore each other's bodies. Dawn quickly removed his shirt to explore his broad shoulder, feel the muscles in his back and simply inhale the male fragrance that was inherently his. Derrick needed to touch her, but when he started to remove her top she froze. Dawn didn't want to see his repulsion. She knew he liked her, but what would he think if he saw her uncovered. "Dawn, what's wrong?" Derrick asked when she stopped him. "Derrick, I don't look like a normal woman. I can't let you see me. I might repulse you." she answered looking away. Derrick followed and wrapped his arms around her from behind. He held her. "Dawn, you are beautiful. You are perfect and I want you to be mine. Please don't hide from me. I promise, it will be alright." He reassured her. "I've only been with one man and he truly accepted me. He was a lot like you. But, some say I look like a man, Derrick." Closing her eyes, she recalled all of the jeers and taunts she'd endured over the years. "The truth is, I don't think I could handle if you were repulsed by me Derrick and I'm afraid you will be. I'm sorry, I can't do this. Please forgive me." And she quickly ran into her bedroom closing the door and locking it. Derrick sat in her living room for a while and then decided maybe he should go back to his hotel. He went to the bathroom and saw what he needed to help him reach her. So instead of leaving, he fell asleep on her couch. Dawn woke up early needing a drink of water. When she walked into her living room, she was surprised to see Derrick still there. It was cool, so, she covered him with a blanket. The next morning, Dawn awoke to the smell of fresh coffee and breakfast Danish. She walked into the kitchen to find Derrick serving up breakfast for them. Dawn was wearing a robe and went to excuse herself when Derrick stopped her. "Dawn come with me. I want you to see something." He guided her into the bathroom and stood behind her in front of a full length mirror. Standing behind her he asked, "Do you trust me, Dawn?" She nodded and he untied and removed the robe from her shoulders. Dawn was wearing a thin t-shirt night dress which he gently removed. Dawn was embarrassed, as she stood before him in only her panties. Derrick then removed his shirt and stood behind her. "Dawn, you are beautiful and you are mine. Look baby." Derrick whispered as he nuzzled her neck. "Look at how lovely you are." Dawn looked at their reflections and was amazed at how the colors contrasted between them, but seemed so perfect together. Slowly she turned to face him and he kissed her. He put it all on the line with that kiss. Molding her body to his he basked in the feel of her. Her arms around his neck, breast pressed against his chest, and her body melting in his arms. Dawn was speechless as their kiss ended. Realizing her state of undress, she quick adjusted her nightie then Derrick held her, and eventually they went in the dining room and ate breakfast. When they finished breakfast, they sat down to talk. Derrick wanted to know about her past and why she doubted herself so much. He also felt the need to disclose facts about his past. They talked all morning. Dawn learned that Derrick was very popular in high school. Derrick learned about her nonexistence social life. Dawn trusted him enough to even tell him about her disastrous date with Henri. Derrick listened to Dawn relay stories about her first date to Brian and her relationship with him. "Do you still love that guy, Brian?" Derrick asked fearing her answer. "Honestly, Derrick, he was my first. A part of me will always love him, but no, now he is really just a friend." Dawn explained. Derrick had to hold her at this point. Wrapping her in a tight embrace, he held her close. Dawn kissed him. The kiss heated up to a feverish pitch. Derrick's need to make love to her became an obsession at this point. Soon Derrick found himself buried deep inside her warm sheath as she straddled him and made slow passionate love to him at her own pace. Derrick loved the feel of her warm sheath encasing his swollen member. As Dawn rode him slowly, Derrick explored her body with his hands and tongue. Cupping her breast, he massaged them and then sucked her stiff nipples into his mouth. He loved her breast, her muscular build, simply her body. Before long, Dawn had ridden them both into a quiet, satisfying completion with him spilling his fertile seed inside of her. Holding her in a euphoria of orgasmic bliss, Derrick asked, "Dawn, are you on the pill or something?" "Oh fuck!" Dawn became distraught, "Derrick, I am so sorry. I didn't even think about... Oh goodness. If anything happens, I won't hold you respon-" "Dawn, stop." Derrick places a finger over her lip. "We will deal with it together, alright." Over the next couple of weeks, Dawn immersed herself in her work. Derrick was busy at school and had to focus on his course work. So they ended up spending some time apart. Shadows of Resentment: Dawn and Derrick Gunther came in for a short visit and accompanied Dawn to the gym one night. While they were at the gym lifting, a young woman who had expressed her interest in Dawn once before approached her again. Dawn politely but firmly, refused the young woman's advances. The woman's companion took offense to her partner's interest in Dawn. So when Dawn was lifting the 350 weights, she deliberately distracted her causing her to drop the bar. The side of one of the weights, clipped her forehead effectively knocking her out. She was rushed to the hospital immediately. Gunther was beside himself. She bled profusely. Gunther stayed in her room until she awoke. The next morning, Cameron had a session with Dawn, but Dawn didn't come in. This was strange, but he figured that if she missed today, maybe she had something important to do. He didn't worry too much. However, three days later, Dawn hadn't returned to work. He asked one of the nurses if she was she on vacation and the nurse told him, that Dawn never used her vacation days. Now Cameron was really concerned. Dawn never missed work. Something was wrong. So, he called Derrick. Derrick heard his phone ring and saw that it was a number from Parkview. "Hello." Derrick answered. "Hey, Derrick, it's Cameron. Have you talked to Dawn? She hasn't been at work this week and I've never known her to miss." Cameron rushed explaining to his friend why he called. Derrick instantly became concerned. "Let me call her and I'll get back to you." Dawn, baby, please pick up Derrick prayed as her phone rang and went straight to voice mail. He'd been so busy trying to finish up his course work that he had not called her in a couple of days. He missed her, but they both had work that was important. Now Derrick was really worried. Realizing that Cameron was waiting on the other line, Derrick decided to end the conversation and tries to locate Dawn. He called again. No answer. Her phone rang several more times and she still did not answer. Derrick immediately grabbed his car keys and headed for the door. His brother, Darius saw him rushing and realized he was upset, so he joined him on his quest. "Do you wanna tell me what's wrong, or do I have to guess?" Darius asked his frazzled brother. Derrick didn't answer. He was calling Dawn and she was not answering her phone. The longer his calls went unanswered the more agitated he became. Finally having seen enough of his brother in this state Darius pulled the car over and stopped. "What the fuck are you doing? We don't need to stop. We need to get to Jackson right away, something's wrong with Dawn." Derrick yelled furiously at his brother. Darius finally understood the gravity of the situation. He knew if something happened to Deidre or his girls, he'd go ballistic. Pulling back onto the interstate quickly, the two young men sped towards Jackson. Within an hour, Darius was pulling in front of Dawn's house. She wasn't home. Derrick was headed to a neighbor's when a strange car pulled into the yard and an extremely large buffed man got out. What the fuck is this? He wondered. How does this guy know Dawn? Just then the guy walked to the passenger side of the car to help Dawn out. He had to practically lift her out because you could tell that she was somehow injured. Derrick rushed to the car. "Dawn, baby, what happened?" he asked. Dawn was shocked. "Derrick, what are you doing here?" Derrick ignored her and went to help her from the car. Muscle man stopped him. "I've got her buddy. You wouldn't want to hurt her would you?" he added chuckling. Derrick turned on the big man, but Darius intervened. "Derrick, let him help her and I'll help you get her things from the car." Muscle man helped Dawn into the house while, Derrick and Darius brought in her things. "Hey, Loverboy, she needs to take some pain pills. Bring her a glass of water." Muscle man ordered. Darius said. "I'll get the water. You go into the bedroom with him and help get her into bed. Maybe we can ask him what happened after she's asleep." Derrick walked into Dawn's bedroom and found Muscle Man tucking her in. Muscle Man gently kissed her on the forehead, gave her two pills and the glass of water Darius brought in, before the three men exited her bedroom. "So, which one of you is Derrick?" Muscle Man surmised as he addressed the two men standing in his sister's living room. "Who are you and what happened to Dawn?" Derrick demanded advancing on the big man. "Derrick calm down." He begged his brother. "Listen to what the guy has to say first." Muscle man chuckled, "I like you. You're just the guy my sister needs. She told me about you the last time I visited." Her brother, he's her brother, Gunther. Thank goodness!thought Derrick relieved. Dawn told Derrick about Gunther when they spent some time together one weekend watching movies. It was obvious from the way she spoke about him that she idolized her big brother. Frowning Gunther continued, "Damn newbies, they never listen. If I can have my way that asshole won't be using that gym anymore after this." "What happened to her, Gunther?" asked Derrick in a calm controlled voice. He calmed down tremendously once he realized the guy before him was not a love interest and that he was not the one that hurt her. "Sorry, we were at the gym working out to get ready for a new competition next month." Gunther explained. "Weightlifting is very competitive and a lot of the people in it will do anything to win, even juice. A new girl joined the gym and decided to hit on Dawn when we walked in. Her girlfriend didn't like it and caused Dawn to drop a 350 weight, which clipped her on the forehead." Gunther said angrily. In actuality Gunther was terrified. There was so much blood and he thought he'd lose his sister. The bitch that hurt her need never cross his path again because he would not restrain himself a second time. "We were in the hospital for a couple of days, and they just released her this morning. She's off work for a few more days, but she should be fine. Anyway, someone needs to stay with her for a couple of days at least until she's back to normal." Gunther sighed with relief. He looked at Derrick and could tell from the look on the guy's face that he was a goner. But that didn't mean he trusted him. He'd been taking care of Dawn since their parents died and he was twenty-one, and he would continue to do so now. "I'll stay with her." Derrick stated as he glared at her brother daring him to protest. Gunther looked at the man before him. Just because his sister had shown some interest in the guy didn't mean he trusted him. "Thanks Derrick, but I've got it. Dawn will be fine." Derrick crossed his arms and he and Gunther stared each other down. Darius stood on the side and watched the exchange. He knew that Derrick had as much of a protective streak as he did, but he managed to keep a tighter rein on his emotions. Even when they were kids, Derrick tempered his hotheaded behavior, but where Dawn was concerned it became clear that he had to intervene to make sure his brother didn't do anything rash. "Derrick, go check on Dawn." Darius suggested. Derrick knew his brother was trying to diffuse a potentially volatile situation so he excused himself and went to Dawn's room to check on her. Darius spoke to Gunther as soon as Derrick left the room. "Gunther, I know you have no reason to trust either of us. But you know my brother is a good guy and he genuinely cares for your sister." Darius took a breath, "Don't you want her to be happy? I believe he will make her happy. Let's get out of here for a while and let him take care of her" Gunther stared at Darius for a moment and hesitantly agreed to give Derrick and Dawn some time. When Derrick returned from Dawn's room, the two men informed him that they would be leaving for a little while and Gunther asked him to look out for his sister. Derrick was relieved, because with them gone he could now make sure his love was really alright. Derrick sat in Dawn's room and watched her sleep. Her beauty amazed him. The fact that she did not know how beautiful she was stunned him. She began to stir and he moved over to her quickly. "Hey, baby. How are you feeling?" he asked as she opened her gorgeous grey eyes and looked at him. Stretching and yawning, Dawn asked. "What are you doing here? Where's Gunther?" "He had to get to work and I told him I would stay with you. Are you alright, baby?" he queried. "I'm fine, but my head hurts." She answered. "Let me make us some lunch and then I'll give you your pain pills. Now lay down and relax. Let me take care of you." Derrick cajoled. "OK" Dawn replied. "Derrick, can you help me up? I want to sit in the living room so we can talk while you fix lunch." "Sure." He answered. He went over to the bed and helped support her as she slowly walked to her couch. He held on to her tightly marveling at the feel of her muscles rippling under the edge of her skin. She turned to sit a momentarily pressed her breast into his chest and Derrick was a complete goner. He wanted this woman, but he realized that he wanted her as his wife. Once Dawn was seated, Derrick gave her the remote and went in to the kitchen to finish preparing lunch. He brought her food and placed it on a small table in front of her. He sat and watched her eat. Dawn noticed he was staring and became curious. She stopped eating. Derrick moved over to her on the sofa and kneeled in front of her. "Dawn, look at me." Derrick commanded softly. "I know, we've only known each other for a few months, but I know enough to know that you're it for me. I love you. I love you with all that I am; all that is within me" Taking a deep breath, he persisted. "Dawn, I want to spend my life with you, I've never known anyone like you. You're it for me, girl. Will you stay with me? Give us a chance." Derrick asked softly. Dawn was speechless. She never expected someone who could love her so completely, yet a part of her was still afraid Then she looked into his eyes and knew he was bearing his soul to her. She didn't need time, or promises, or flowers. She just needed him. Tears began to flow down her cheeks. "Derrick, I really care about you to. But it's too soon right now to talk about marriage. I never thought I'd meet someone like you. I figured I'd just be alone. Men, in the past... well let's just say it wasn't promising. After Brian left, I figured... You changed all of that for me. You see me as a woman, not some freak. I love you, Derrick. When the time comes I will gladly stay with you." Dawn exhaled on a breath as she propelled herself into Derrick's arms. He held her tightly thinking, Thank God for creating this wonderful woman for me. At that moment, his phone rang. It was Cameron. Derrick answered and Cameron shared his plans with him. Derrick was overjoyed. "Congratulations, man. I knew you two would be good together. Hopefully soon, I'll be making my own announcements." Derrick explained as he stared at Dawn longingly. Cameron knew his friend liked Dawn and he wanted to encourage him. "You guys just started dating, give it some time. One day we'll be planning your wedding, too" "I know. It will happen. Dawn's it for me, but we'll take our time. No hurries. Chuckling Derrick added, "Now, Darius needs to up his games. He's got to convince Deidre to marry him. She keeps turning him down. Dawn and I talked about our relationship and have agreed to simply love each other. We will be getting married one day when the time is right and she graciously agrees to be my wife." Derrick told his best friend. "Wow, congratulations, Derrick! Take care of her now and let her know we miss seeing her." Cameron concluded before hanging up. After hanging up the phone, Derrick smiled at his good fortune. He was holding in his arms, the woman of his dreams. "Hey, was that Cameron? I've got to call Parkview." Dawn moved to pick up her phone. Unfortunately, she felt a little disoriented so she decided to lie down for a moment. Derrick noticed and immediately sprang into action. "Hey, Baby. You need to lie back down. Let me help you." Derrick said moving to carry her back to bed. "No, I want to stay in here. I want to lie on the sofa with you." Dawn insisted. "Hey, I'm not going anywhere. I'm right here. Rest." Derrick whispered as he held her close. Dawn drifted off into a light nap. Derrick held her close, inhaling her fragrance, and eventually falling asleep himself. He awoke to the feel of someone kissing him. Dawn awoke on Derrick's chest and for the first time in a long time she felt secure. She raised up and looked into his handsome sleeping face. He was beautiful and after there earlier conversation, she knew he was hers. So she kissed his lips gently and then buried her face in the crook of his neck. His essence was so powerful that he had to taste his skin, so she nibbled, nuzzled, and suckled on his skin. His hold on her tightened as his body began to respond to her machinations. Then he woke up. Dawn looked up and found her gazed trapped by the fire in his beautiful brown eyes. "Derrick!" she whispered. Then he kissed her with a ferociousness that clearly defined that she was his. Slowly he kissed her neck, collarbone. Then he took a moment to remove her top exposing her magnificent body to his hungry gaze. This moment was for her. He would love her now leaving her no doubts as to whom she belonged. Caressing her breast, he gently nibbled on her erect nipples before covering them with his hungry lips. While nursing on her breast, his hand slid between her thighs to the part of her that was wet, willing, and waiting to be touched. In anticipation of his touch, Dawn spread her thighs giving him access to her inner most being. Derrick stroked the dark hair that covered her mound as the scent of her arousal became more pungent as his exploration of her body continued. Parting her engorged nether lips, he slowly inserted his fingers inside of her. He then loved her slowly until he felt the tremors that were building deep inside of her. "Derrick, please" she whispered. Quickly changing his position, he kneeled between her thighs. He gazed upon her treasure as she opened to him. Extending his tongue, he licked her burning hotbox. She screamed. He continued to pleasure her with his lips, tongues, and fingers until she fed him her sweet nectar upon her release. Derrick was beyond rational thought at this point. He spread her thighs, positioning his cock at her cum-covered slit, and slowly pushed inside of her feeling her completely. Both moaning at the feel of his uncovered member pleasuring her so deeply. In and out, in and out, he pistoned. Dawm eagerly met his thrust as her hungry pussy tried to pull him in even deeper. Derrick needed deeper penetration. So he paused for a moment and repositioned her. Dawn had her legs now wrapped completely around his body, leaving her pussy vulnerable to his abuse. Derrick drew back and pushed all of his cock inside of her. She felt his pubs pressed against hers, the weight of his nut-sack against her bum hole. "Derrick, please, fuck me." she whispered in his ears. Her pleas were all it took, and Derrick made love to his woman for the first time in a manner to let her know she was his. He dominated her and she loved it. "Oh my God" Dawn groaned out loud as Derrick took dominion over her body. Her grunts and moans fueled his lust, but Derrick needed more. He needed her to submit to him, to declare that she was his. "Dawn. Who do you belong to girl?" he demanded as he pounded her furiously. She was on sensory overload at the feel of him, she could not respond. "Damn it! Dawn, who do you belong to, girl?" He insisted as he continued to fuck her. Dawn was about to come. She felt it building deep inside and was so close when Derrick stopped. "What the fuck, no don't stop." She pleaded."Derrick, baby, please, don't stop." Derrick reached between their bodies and pinched her clit. Dawn screamed and began to grind against him. Derrick repositioned his thighs and stopped her. She was desperate now and needed to cum. "Derrick, please" she pleaded. "Baby," he whispered hoarsely, needing to fuck her so badly his balls ached. "Then tell me who you belong to." Dawn's eyes locked with his. "You, Derrick, I belong to you." He leaned down and kissed her. "Yessss!, and Dawn, I belong only to you." Then he proceeded to fuck her senseless. With seconds Dawn's tight vaginal walls clenched on his pulsating member pushing him over the edge as well as he once again filled her womb with his sperm. "They two lay together spent. Derrick shifted so she was back on top of him and held her close. "Oh, baby are you alright. Maybe we shouldn't have done that. Is your head alright, any dizziness, anything?" He asked afraid he'd hurt her in some way. "Hey, stop worrying. I feel fine." Dawn assured him. "What time is it?" she queried. "What time will Darius come back for you?" "I'm not leaving you here. I'll call and tell him to go on home and bring me some things from my apartment tomorrow." He explained. "Can he drive back without you? Wouldn't that violate his probation? He doesn't need anymore trouble. I'll be fine. Gunther is here and I can call him if I need anything." Dawn stated. Taking a deep breath, Derrick explained the facts to her carefully. "Dawn, I can't leave you now. You're hurt and I need to stay here with you. Maybe your brother can drive Darius home, but I'm not leaving. Understand." "Alright, then let me call my brother." Dawn agreed. After calling Gunther and asking him to stop by, Derrick called Darius. The couple met with their brothers and explained their predicament. Gunther, who was liking Derrick even more at this point because he saw how protective he was of his sister agreed to drive Darius back home.. Darius was a little annoyed at being treated like a kid, but after witnessing the way Derrick held on to his woman, he thought about Deidre and knew he'd be the same way. So after arranging for Darius to pack a travel bag for his brother and send it back, the two guys climbed into Gunther's truck and headed to Darius' house. Gunther pulled into the Granger's driveway and was met by Marvin. Marge came out and learned he was Dawn's brother and that she'd gotten hurt. After introductions and some brief explanations, Gunther was immediately invited in for dinner. After dinner, Darius grabbed some of his things for Gunther to take back for his brother. As Gunther was leaving, Marge informed him that he and Dawn were expected to join the family for dinner on Sunday. Gunther assured her that he'd let his sister know. Smiling Gunther drove back to Jackson and dropped off the clothes Darius had sent. Dawn and Derrick were playing a board game when Gunther drove up. Derrick opened the door and took his overnight bag from him. "Dawnie," Gunther said tongue in cheek, "better heal fast Little Sis. You're meeting your news Sunday. "What are you talking about?" Dawn asked clearly confused. Derrick caught on quickly and said, "Mom has demanded she comes to dinner Sunday. I knew it." He turned to Dawn. "I can call and cancel if you don't want to go." Dawn felt slightly overwhelmed. Her insecurities came back, "You don't want them to see me?" She asked Derrick as her heart raced. Gunther stood ready to do whatever it took to protect her, but Derrick held up his hand and stopped him. Kneeling in front of her, he looked into her eyes and whispered. "Baby, you are everything to me. I want the world to know you are mine and that includes my family. But you just got out of the hospital and I don't want to jeopardize your health." Shadows of Resentment Cameron was an ideal model of a perfect male specimen. He had clear peach-colored skin with the cutest dimple on his right cheek, auburn hair, thick auburn eyebrows formed a perfect arc over the most enticing green eyes. At six feet tall and one hundred ninety five pounds, he was one of the tallest and thickest players on the court. His body was banging, broad shoulders, thick triceps, and a toned abdomen completed a tight body that haunted her dreams. She would sit in the bleachers at the school and fantasize about her dream man. Damn, that boy is fine! she would think, but she would never say anything out loud. Besides, she didn't want him to know she liked him anyway. He could be a smug jerk and she didn't want to have to wipe that smirk off of his face. Besides, Cameron was dating her best friend, Deidre, and no man was worth hurting your best friend. But, hey it didn't hurt to look. Report Story The birthday girl and her best friend Deidre and Sierra were best friends since they were little. Once when Sierra defended her friend form a group of bullies, things got physical. Refusing to let the girls hurt Sierra, Deidre defended herself and her friend, and the two girls were like two peas in one pod since that day onwards. Sitting outside the dressing rooms at a local department store, Cameron could not have felt more out of place. On this occasion Deidre had dragged him along to judge the outfits they would be wearing at Sierra's eighteenth birthday party in two days. "Cameron," called Deidre as she stepped out of the dressing room, "What do you think?" She was wearing a denim mini skirt with a white and navy wife beater and a man's what shirt open on top. It was a cute set. "It's nice," Cam said, "But I think the skirt is a little short." "Thanks, Papa," Deidre giggled teasing him because he was so conservative. Sierra came out of the dressing room next. She was wearing a simple white and green sundress. The dress was lovely, but Sierra in it was absolutely stunning. The dress accentuated her breast, cinched at her waist, and the edge of the skirt stopped right above her knees. The dress, like the girl wearing it, was perfect. Cameron looked at Sierra and he was speechless. His eyes were captivated and he could not look away. Deidre interrupted his trance. "Dang, Sierra, that dress is perfect. Isn't it Cameron?" He croaked out, "Yes, it's very nice. I think you should buy it." Cameron blushed as he cleared his throat and made an excuse to leave. "If you girls don't need me for anything else I need to pick up a couple of things for dad." Then he turned and quickly walked away. Both girls were a bit surprised at his sudden departure but it didn't last for long as their search for matching shoes and accessories took over. Since Sierra was now eighteen, her parents agreed to allow her to have a private party with a few of her friends in the VIP Lounge of the Marion Inn. Her mother, Marge, had called The Inn to make the reservations and booked a small conference room. They agreed that no more than thirty to forty guests would come to the party and made sure no alcohol would be served. Her brothers and some of their friends would be there, even though she didn't want them to come. They just wanted to make sure no boys tried to talk to her. Deidre was her most important guest and she was bringing her boyfriend Cameron along. Everyone at the party was having a great time, when Sierra looked up and saw two people she knew she didn't invite to the party, Jake Smythe and his sister Hannah. Jake tried to act like a nice guy, but most of the time he gave Sierra the creeps. But being a gracious hostess, she walked over and thanked them for coming to her party. At some point, the deejay started to play Deidre's favorite song, so she grabbed Cameron and dragged him on the dance floor leaving Sierra alone for a moment. Jake saw this as an opportunity to get in Sierra's good graces. He thought she was cute and if he could get her to go out with him, it would elevate his status as a player. Hannah saw how her brother lusted after Sierra and she was disgusted. As Jake moved across the room towards Sierra, Hannah saw the Granger boys approaching her brother and decided to head over there to see what was going on. Derrick stepped in front of Jake preventing him from reaching his sister. "What up, fool?" said Darius, "Where do you think you're going?" "I was going over to give Sierra her gift and wish her a happy birthday," Jake answered as he stared at the two brothers. The Grangers were intimidating and everyone knew they were extremely overprotective. "Well," said Derrick. "Go back over there with your sister and we'll make sure she gets the gift." "No, I want to give it to her myself," Jake growled. Derrick started to step forward when he heard a high-pitched voice ask, "What's going on over here boys. You don't want to ruin your sister's party do you?" Derrick looked around and into the face of the one woman he could not stand, Hanna Smythe. "What are you and your sorry-ass brother doing here anyway? I know for a fact you two were never invited. Why don't you make like a ball and bounce- That means leave." Derrick insisted as he spoke to Hanna in a low threatening tone. Darius stepped between them and said, "Dang, Derrick, don't hold back. My brother is too nice to tell you how he really feels, but you two have about two seconds to vacate the premises or serious consequences are about to take place." Jake took his sisters ar, eyed the twins distastefully and said, "We'll leave, we have no desire to be around the likes of you anyway." Then he and Hanna left the VIP room. After making sure Jake and Hannah were gone, Darius and Derrick went back inside to enjoy their sister's party and make sure that the guys didn't get any ideas. It was almost midnight when the deejay announced he was playing the last song. The first beats of Lil' Wayne's "How to Love" filled the room. Deidre wanted to dance but Cameron was too tired and told her he was sitting the last song out. Deidre looked up and saw Darius staring at her from across the room. They both moved to the middle of the dance floor and began to dance. Darius held her close as he hummed the lyrics from the song in her ear. Her body melted into his and it was at that moment Deidre knew, it was time to stop playing games and admit her feelings that for the only man she ever wanted, her best friend's brother, Darius Granger. The only problem was her boyfriend was sitting on the other side of the room. There was no one he liked less than Darius and she was practically making out with the one guy he didn't like. The song ended, and Deidre abruptly thanked Darius for the dance and rushed back across the room to her boyfriend. Cameron knew Deidre was dancing with another guy, even if that other guy was Darius, and he didn't really mind. He was tired of dancing and he wanted her to have a good time. Besides while she was distracted by dancing, this gave him one more chance to admire Sierra. When Deidre made it back to Cameron's side she noticed that he was distracted. His eyes were glued on her best friend, Sierra. Sierra was dancing with Tommy Swift, a gay boy from her art class. He was the only boy she could dance with that her brother's had not threatened. Sierra looked across the dance floor and saw Cameron watching her dance with Tommy and just for a moment, she really wished she could dance with Cameron, unfortunately he was off limits. As much as she loved Deidre, and she did love her play sister, this was one relationship she hoped didn't last Soon, the party ended and everyone had gone home except, Sierra, her brothers, Deidre, and Cameron. The girls were saying good bye to each other when Cameron glanced at Sierra one last time. After the girls parted, Sierra left with her brothers and Deidre left with Cameron. Sierra had a great time at her party, even with her two big over protective brothers there. Her only regret was that she didn't get to share a single dance with Cameron as she recalled how handsome he looked. She would call Deidre the next morning s they could talk about what a great time they had. Cameron was thinking about Sierra and wishing there was some way they could be together. Sierra rarely dated, which was something he liked. Whenever she did go out on a date, he tried not to pry, but in his own way he'd make sure she was safe. Even though everyone knew that Cameron had a beef with Derrick and Darius, they understood that Sierra was off limits. Valentine's Day Breakup A month before Deidre's eighteenth birthday, Sierra was at Deidre's house sitting in her bedroom helping her plan her party. This party was gonna be a smash. Sierra could tell something was bothering her friend, but decided to wait until Deidre was ready to talk. "I broke up with Cameron," Dee stated, "He was getting on my nerves." Sierra was shocked and it showed. "I don't get it. I thought you two were good. What happened?" asked Sierra. Deidre mumbled. How can I tell my best friend that I broke up with him because In want her brother? she thought to herself. "It just wasn't working for us. I'm young and want to have fun. He's always got other stuff to do." she explained. "Dee, Cam is perfect. I don't see how you could..." Sierra started to explain when Deidre interrupted. "And he didn't like for me to wear short skirts or dress sexy," Deidre continued to complain. Sierra took a deep breath and tried to comfort her friend, but she was thinking Girl, what are you thinking, he is everything I've dreamed about. Simple perfection. Deidre continued listing Cameron's faults. Sierra was secretly fuming that her friend could be so callous. "Besides," Deidre continued, "He likes someone else anyway. And he really is a nice guy, just not for me." "Deidre did you at least talk to him, explained, before you broke up?" Sierra asked. "Nope, and I'm not gonna talk to him," Deidre declared, "It's over." "You need to talk to him. At least to explain!" stated Sierra. "Promise me you'll talk to him?" "Dang, girl! What's up with you? Why do you want me to talk to him so bad?" Deidre asked her best friend, even though she already had a hunch how Sierra felt about Cameron. "Besides, Sierra, I'm giving up on men. I'm gonna focus on school and becoming a nurse like my Mom," Deidre stated emphatically. Sierra felt torn, even though she really liked Cameron, and secretly hoped it didn't work for them, she supported her best friend while they dated because she wanted them to be happy. "You both are really good friends of mine, and I just don't want..." Sierra stammered and then tried to change the subject after getting her bearings right. "Well, just because it didn't work out between you two guys, doesn't mean that you're not gonna meet Mr. Right," Sierra continued, a chuckle escaping from her mouth, "I know you think my brothers are fine, but if you give up men, you'll have to give them up, too." Deidre was toying with her vibrant red hair when she nervously said, "Darius is sexy as hell. Derrick is sweet, but I like my men tough. Those two are just big teddy bears." Deidre closed her eyes and envisioned the similarities between the two men. Darius had the same deep mocha complexion like his Dad. With dark, chocolate brown eyes and the sexiest dimple in the cleft of his chin, he exuded sexiness. His 6"2' frame didn't hold an ounce of fat. He was all solid muscle with well-defined triceps, biceps, and abs supporting his broad shoulders and a tapered waist. Darius, the more dominant of the two boys, was a natural leader and thrived in the role. Deidre's pulse elevated at the thought of him. He could be pompous, but his attitude excited her even more. Derrick was a fair creamy chocolate color, like his Mom. He had the most magnificent grey-green eyes with extra smooth skin and naturally wavy hair. He was as tall as his brother at 6"2' with broad shoulders leading to a narrow waist. Derrick weighed about 190 pounds and his body was also pure muscle. He was a sweetheart, and Deidre loved spending time around him. Derrick was the brother she wished she had. Quietly she asked Sierra, "Hey, they are coming to be my party right?" Sierra giggled and said, "They wouldn't miss it. Besides, you will have food there and you know how those boys can eat." "Will Darius bring a date? Hmmm! I mean it's fine if he does. I was just wondering." Deidre mumbled as she looked away from Sierra to hide her blush. "I don't think so," said Sierra, "He and Kelly split up last week. Whew! Good riddance." Both girls burst out laughing. Deidre smiled to herself. She was thinking about which outfit she should wear to get Darius's attention. "You're lucky your brothers look out for you. I've been taking care of myself for so long, I would love to have someone looking out for me," Dee grumbled. Then she smiled, "Maybe, I can get Darius to watch my back. Damn, girl, your brother is fine as hell. Too bad he still sees me as a little kid. I've got to work on changing that." Dee laughed to herself. If she had her way after this party, Darius would know that little Deidre Angelica Barnes was no longer a kid, but a grown ass woman. Sierra was speechless. She knew Deidre was crushing on Darius. She just hoped her friend didn't get hurt. As much as she loved her brother, he might not be good for her best friend. Even though she was secretly please that things did not work out between her and Cam, she did not want to see her friend hurt. If Darius hurt her, she wasn't sure if Deidre would survive it. She knew because if she ever got a chance to be with Cameron and it didn't work out, she would be just as devastated. Sierra decided to take Deidre's mind off of Darius, "So when are you going to talk to Cameron?" Deidre froze, while thinking about Darius she forgot about Cameron. He was her friend and she used him. Even though she really wanted to be with Darius and had known this since Sierra's birthday party, it wasn't fair the way she tried to use him to make Darius jealous. She had to talk to Cameron and apologize and once she told him the truth hopefully he would forgive her. Even though Sierra had not said anything, Deidre knew she had feelings for Cameron. She also knew Sierra would never say anything because she did not want to make her uncomfortable or do anything to hurt her. She understood how Sierra felt because she felt just as strongly for her brother Darius. Although one reason she stayed with Cameron was to try and make Darius jealous, it wasn't her only reason. She wanted to make sure he was good enough for Sierra. Or at least that's what Deidre told herself assuage her guilt for the pain she caused friend. That night Deidre decided to call Cameron. Cameron agreed to meet with her at the coffee shop after school. Not too many kids from the school went to the coffee shop, so the possibility of being interrupted while they talked was minimal. Deidre arrived at Homemade Coffee Café before Cameron. She ordered a mocha cappuccino with a jumbo doughnut and waited for her friend to arrive. Cameron walked in twenty minutes after Deidre and saw her sitting in the back. He walked to her table. "Hey, Deidre," Cameron greeted her, "What's going on?" Deidre looked around the café to make sure no one was listening to their conversation. She was embarrassed by her behavior because she knew better than to treat someone the way she had treated her friend. "Cameron," she started to explain. "Wait," she said, "Let me get you a drink." She left the table to order him a cappuccino. When she returned Cameron was looking at her waiting for an explanation. "Cameron, I must apologize to you first," Deidre started. Cameron leaned forward because he really wanted to hear what she had to say. "I lied about why I wanted to break up with you. You didn't do anything wrong." Deidre looked away. "What do you mean I didn't do anything wrong? Did you do something, Deidre?" Cameron asked nervously. "No. Nothing that serious, it's just I liked another guy and..." Deidre tried to explain but Cameron interrupted. "You were seeing someone else." Cameron said stunned. "You cheated on me." "No, Cameron wait," Cameron stood to leave. Deidre pleaded with him to stay. "I did not cheat on you. But I did like another guy and I dated you to make him jealous." Cameron looked at her face and she was on the verge of tears. He burst out laughing. Deidre became indignant. "Hey, what's so funny? "she asked agitated. At this point Cameron was laughing so hard he was crying. "I was starting to wonder if you didn't like guys. Whew! We dated for three months and we barely even kissed!" It was Deidre's turn to laugh, "Oh my Goodness, Cameron, you did not?" "Who is the guy that got your attention, girl? Do I know him?" Cameron asked chuckling. Deidre became quiet. She knew that Cameron and Darius didn't get along and she didn't know how he would react when she told him who she was crushing on. "Come on," coaxed Cameron. "It's not Jake Smythe is it?" Deidre shouted, "God no, not that cretin. Darius Granger." Cameron was silent. He looked at Deidre and asked, "Are you sure?" "Cameron," Deidre asked sheepishly, "You're not mad are you?" "No, why would I be? No matter what Deidre, I am still your friend, Ok?" And he gave her a quick embrace. "I know you and Darius don't like each other," Deidre began, "And I don't want to lose your friendship because I want to date..." Cameron placed his hand on her shoulder to stop her. Cameron sighed and spoke softly to his friend, "You can't help who you fall for. Believe me I know better than anyone." He looked away briefly. "If that fool hurts you, I'm going to beat him down, a'ight." Deidre hugged him back and then asked the one question she was dying to know the answer to. "So, when are you going to ask Sierra out?" Cameron blushed and began to stammer," I uh, I don't, uh..." It was Deidre's turn to laugh, "You really like her don't you? Cameron, you're a nice guy ask her out." Cameron looked down and tried to explain, "Deidre, my history with her brothers, you know..." Deidre was stumped, "You're not asking her brothers out. You're asking Sierra. Come on Cameron." A look of pain crossed Cameron's face that was so raw, that Deidre had to catch her breath. Cameron spoke softly, "It just wouldn't work, OK, Deidre. Look, I've got to get to work. Good luck with Darius." "Hey, Cameron," Deidre called before he walked out of the door, "My birthday party is at my house on the twentieth of March, I want you to come OK." "OK, if I don't have to work, I'll be there." Cameron answered waving goodbye to her as he walked out of the door. * Thank you for reading my story. Please remember to vote and leave feedback.