12 comments/ 11635 views/ 28 favorites I Will Never Be Loved By: Storylover2016 Danielle's Prov: I couldn't believe I was actually going to be getting it. The one thing I had been working so hard for, for the past four years. I was going to be getting my diploma today, a whole month before my fellow classmates. As I walked down the halls, I heard things like "Fat ass" "Earthquake maker" and "ugly bitch" etc. There was a point in my life where these words use to hurt me, sometimes they still did. But nothing, and I do mean nothing, could make me feel sad today. Because after four years I was finally leaving this hell hole behind me forever. As I walked into the office I sat and waited for the Mr. Waters to come out and see me. "Danielle" I heard my name being called. I got up from the seat I was sitting in and walk into his office. I looked around thinking this is the last time I will ever see this room. It was kind of sad to me because I loved this room. You see Mr. Waters wasn't just a principal to me, he was a person I came to when I needed anything. He was an amazing principal who truly cared for his students. Being in here reminded me of the countless times I had been in here. Sometimes crying because I couldn't take the things the other teens would said to me. Other times I would be here just to talk or hang out with someone. "Danielle please sit, I should hardly have to tell you that. This is more your office then mine." He joked with me. I gladly took a seat and waited for him to continue. A part of me just wanted him to give me my diploma so I could get out of here. But the other part of me wanted him to delay a little longer, because I knew once I left here, there was no way I was coming back. "Danielle I don't think I could explain in words how proud of you I am. I know your life literally has been hell, but you have overcome so much to achieve what you have. You have graduated as second place of your class, with a GPA of 3.9. You've overcome bullying and a bad home environment . You're the best/strongest student I have ever had, and I am going to miss you so much. But it gives me great pleasure to give you this." I looked down at the paper he held in front of me. This little piece of paper meant so many things for me. It meant I would no longer have to come to this hell hole of a place any more. It meant I could finally move out of the foster home I have been in my whole life. It meant my life was finally going to begin. It almost felt so surreal, I couldn't believe it was finally right there in front of me. I reached out and took the paper from his hands. I thought it would weigh more, considering it meant such a great deal to me. I looked up at Mr. Waters with a smile on my face, I could feel the tears start to fall down my cheeks. "Hey there is no reason to cry Hun, your too beautiful and sweet to cry." He said to me as he came and held me in a hug. I couldn't help but laugh at what he said, beautiful my ass. He moved away from me with a smile on his face. "Listen if you ever need anything please give me a call. Whatever it is, I will try and help you out as much as I can." He reached across the table to pick up a piece of paper. "Here this has my cell phone number, and my home number. Never hesitate to call me Danielle." He said to me with a stern look. "Thank you so much Mr. Waters. You are the only thing I am going to miss about this school or my home. You have always been so nice to me. I know it's your job, but still it means a great deal to me." I said to him with a big smile. He really was someone I was never going to forget. Maybe because he was the only one who gave two shits about me. Either way, I was definitely going to miss him. "Danielle even if it wasn't my job I would have been there for you. You're an amazing young woman who has so much going for her. You just have been dealing with a bad hand of cards for a long time. But now you have finally been given a royal flush." I couldn't help but laugh at his stupid poker remark. I was definitely going to miss this man. "Goodbye Mr. Waters." I said to him as I gave him a quick hug before walked to the door. "Goodbye Danielle." As I walked out of the office I couldn't help but want to get out of here as fast as I could. I was almost to the front door when someone stepped in front of me. "Well look who it is, it's the fat ass ugly bitch." Anastian said to me. She was the queen bitch around the school and was the main reason as to why I was bullied so much. "What, have nothing to say fatty, you in too much of a hurry to go and eat some more?" Usually I would just stay quiet until she got bored of making fun of me and left me alone. But today was a start of a whole new day for me. "You know what I do have something to say you toothpick thin bitch!" I said to her, I couldn't believe that came out of me. I heard her and all her little minions gasp at me. They probably thought I was death or mute because I never talked. But now that I did say something to them I couldn't help but say more thing. "I am so sick of you thinking you can say whatever you want and there will be no consequences. You are a selfish bitch who is so insecure about yourself that you feel like you have to make me feel bad about myself. But not anymore bitch, not today. I am finally getting out of this place to do bigger and better things. As for you, you better hope you marry rich. But even then your husband will eventually tire of you and cheat on you countlessly until he divorces you for someone a hell of a lot better. You'll lose all your little minions and turn to drinking. You'll end up alone, you'll die alone, and no one will be there for you at your funeral . So fuck you, yes I may be big, but I can always lose weight. But you will always be a pathetic bitch!" With that I walked the rest of the way out of the school. I passed both teachers and students who looked flabbergasted. Honestly I was on the same boat as them, but didn't show it. I couldn't believe I had just said all that to her, but god did it feel so damn good. I never had the nerve to do anything like that before. I walked out of the school feeling like a million bucks. Maybe this diploma was my good luck charm. My way to a new and better life. I couldn't wait to go home and show Londa (my foster mom) my diploma. Today a women from the agency was coming over to grant me my freedom. She wanted to make sure I got my diploma before I was able to go off on my own. As I was walking home I couldn't help but think about how different things would have been if I had a family. If my mom and dad had never died. I bet they wouldn't love me just like everyone else. I bet they would be disappointed to have such a fat daughter. They would probably treat me like almost everyone else did. I quickly tried to take the thoughts out of my head because it shouldn't affect me anymore. I've come to terms with the fact that I could never be loved, but sometimes it still hurts thinking about it. Who cares anyway because I am finally going to be free. I continued to walk for a good twenty minutes before I reached my foster home. In a way I was going to miss it, but I was so glad I was finally leaving it all behind. I looked at the street to see two cars I have never seen their before parked outside. The people from the foster agency must be here! I quickly ran up the stairs into the house. "Londa I got my diploma, are the people from the agency here." I called out as I shut the door. I looked in the living room the see Londa sitting there with two other women. One who was in a suit and had a clip board with her, and the other had coygirl boots on with jeans, and a flannel shirt. What the heck was going on? "Danielle dear why don't you have a seat." I rolled my eyes at hearing her say this. She never calls me cute names like that unless someone important was around us. I honestly could care less at the moment because I was about to hear some amazing news. "Danielle this is Harret from the Agency, she has some good news for you." She said to me with a smile. I looked at the women waiting for her to speak. This is the moment I have been waiting for. I am so beyond excited, I wish she would just say it already. She cleared her throat before speaking. "Danielle we have some amazing news for you. We have found some of your family, well rather they found us. This women beside me is your Aunt Lisa, and she is here to take you back with her to your home town." I was about to jump up with joy until I heard what she said. "Excuse me, did you just say family? I don't have a family, I have no one. That is why I am able to leave here once I got my diploma. You said I could leave if I did that." I said to her with anger in my voice. "Things have recently changed Danielle. You see Lisa here is your godmother. Seeing as both of your paretns are dead she is the next in line to decide where you go. She has the power and right to take you with her. Not only that but you are only seventeen. You won't be eighteen for another four months." The agency women said to me. "What, wait what does this mean?" I asked with confusion. The women who said she was my aunt spoke next. "It means you are conning home with me to Austin, Texas sweety." She said to me. This has to be some sick joke right. The house is playing a joke on me on my last few days there. There is no way this is real, There is no way that my freedom was taken away again. There is no fucking way I am moving to Austin Texas! ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Let me know what you guys think. Please Rate and Comment!! :) I Will Never Be Loved Ch. 02 Danielle's Pov: I wish I could tell you that I got what I wanted. I wish that I could say they all just left me alone so I could live my life the way I had planned. But that is not what happened. It took all of three days for my life to be changed for forever. I hadn't talked to anyone who came in my path. I was too mad to try to be nice to anyone at the moment. I had my whole life planned out and now my aunt comes and ruins everything. Why couldn't she have showed up six months from now when I would have been eighteen? Why couldn't she have not come at all? As I sat on the plane all I could think about was how everything I had worked so hard for is gone. I was supposed to be going to college in three months and starting my writing career. How could this be happening to me? Everything was supposed to be coming together for me. It's not enough that I have been the fat girl my whole life, and have been in a foster home since I was born, now I was being taken away from my dreams. Why was life so cruel to me? Why couldn't I caught one break? Throughout the whole trip my aunt tried to talk to me. She really was trying to get to know me, and kept apologizing for it taking so long to find me. Part of me wanted to just talk to her and let her know that it was okay, but the other part of me couldn't give two shits about how sorry she was. It seemed like the plane ride took forever. Especially since neither one of us was talking. I was so happy when the plan landed. I just wanted to get this whole thing over with. We got off the plane and went to find all of my bags. "Okay dear follow me, I had a family friend coming to pick us up." She said to me with a smile. I followed her out of the airport station until we were face to face with a huge truck. My aunt started to put the bags in the back of the truck, so I did the same. I was about to put some more of my bags in when someone took them from my hands. "Sorry it took me so long to find you Lisa, I searched everywhere for you. Finally I looked out here and saw you guys." He continued to put the bags in the car. I could feel his eyes on me but I didn't look up at him. I really didn't want to meet new people. "Hi I'm Luke, you must be Danielle?" He said to me as he stuck out his hand to me. I just nodded my head and got into the back seat. I looked into the review mirror to see Lisa talking to Luke. Now that I finally got a good look at him, I honestly didn't want to stop. He was absolutely gorgeous. It was like he was a god or something. He was really tall, had to be at least 6"2". He had blonde hair with beautiful bright blue eyes. He was wearing blue jeans, with a white shirt, and a cowboy hat. God I have never seen anyone hotter than him. Not even my crush at my old high school was a hot as he was. I took my gaze away from the mirror as I saw them walking towards the car. They both got into the front of the car, and buckled up. Luke started the car up and we took off. I kept my gaze towards the window, but I got this feeling that someone was watching me. I looked over and up to see Luke staring at me through the mirror. I quickly turned my head away from him and continued to look outside. He probably was wondering why I was so damn big. Or how me and Lisa could be related, considering I'm mulatto, and she's white. I guess my mother was a white as snow, and my father as dark as night. Mix the two together and you get me. Although I am more lighter skinned then dark. Either way Lisa and I really didn't look alike at all. I could still feel Luke's gaze on me and it was starting to make me uncomfortable. I could see it now, him and all his cowboy buddy's making in front of me with their cheerleader girlfriends. It was high school all over again. Expect this time there would be no escaping them. "I just know you're going to love it here Danielle. There is so many different things to do. We have a bundle of animals as well. Once your settled in maybe we could get you to horseback ride. Make you a real cowgirl." Lisa said breaking me out of my thoughts. Wow she was truly something else. Did she honestly believe a horse would be able to carry my fat ass. She has to be messing with me, either that or she is crazy. I don't know why she is always trying to make conversations with me. You would think after me ignoring her for the past three days she would get the hint that I don't want to talk to her. I wanted nothing to do with her or my family. I wanted to go back to New York and start my life. How could she do this to me. How could she and my family just take me away when this were getting good. I heard her sigh, I kind of felt bad because I knew she was really trying to make me feel better about this whole situation, but nothing she could say would make me feel better. Unless she suddenly said she was going to let me move back to New York, but I knew that wasn't going to happen any time soon. "I don't know Lisa, I don't think a city girl like her could do what us cowboys and cowgirls do. She doesn't have it in her to get down and dirty." Luke said to her while looking at me through the mirror again. I looked up to see that he has a huge smile on his face. I knew what he was trying to do. I knew he was trying to challenge me so I would finally talk. It was an old and stupid move. I wasn't going to talk just because some guy challenged me, even if the guy happened to be hella hot. Plus I honestly had no interest in doing anything they did so there was no point in arguing about it. I just continued to look outside the window. I heard Luke chuckle from the front seat. Great he was already laughing at me. We finally reached a huge house. When I mean huge I mean huge. For people who lived in the country they were definitely doing well for themselves. Everything around us was huge. The barn was almost as big as the house. I didn't know this was how houses around here looked. I was definitely in a state of shock looking around at everything. Both Luke and Lisa were already out of the truck and getting my bags from the back of the truck. I just couldn't bring myself to get out of the truck just yet, because once I stepped outside of this truck my life would truly be changed. There would be no way that I could go back to the way things were. I was truly throwing away everything I had worked for once I stepped out of this truck. The door from the side of me of opened, I looked over to see Luke standing there holding his hand out to me. I looked down at his hand then back at him. I thought about being more of a bitch to him, but decided against it. I really didn't have that much fight left at the moment. I took his hand and he helped me down from the truck. I was about to walk away when he tugged me back to him by my hand. I gasped at the contact, no one, epically a man has ever held me like this. "I will get you to talk to me Love. I love a challenge and your definitely worth the challenge beautiful." He said to me as he let my hand go. I was about to tell him that my name was not Love and that I was most definitely not beautiful. But then I remembered I wasn't going to talk to anyone of them. Not only that but he was already walking to the house with a bunch of my bags in his hands. He was definitely something else. I could still feel the warmth of his hand. God he was so hot, but I knew he was only being nice to me because of my aunt. There was no way he would be talking to me otherwise. I looked at the house thinking there was no way to get past this. There was only two bags left so I picked them up and made my way into the house. The door was open so I just stepped inside. The minute I did people from all around me screamed "Welcome Home" All I could think was this is my first day at a new place and they throw a damn welcome home party. Could my life get any worse? So much for giving me time to get use to the change. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ First of all I won't change the way I write to please others. If you don't like my writing, then don't read what I write. Secondly I have already written this story on another site so yes the chapters will be short but I will update them frequently for you guys. Thirdly there is many chapters to this story, 35 to be exact! Fourthly I want to thank everyone who has been reading this story so far. Let me know what you think! Please Rate and Comment!! :) I Will Never Be Loved Ch. 03 Danielle's Pov: I can't believe that they actually thought I would be cool with having a party with people I don't even know. People who think that they know me, but have no idea who I am at all. "Oh my god you are so beautiful." "Oh she looks just like her mother." "Look at her glowing skin" "We're so happy to finally meet you." Those were just a few of the many things that I heard within seconds. I was being pulled from one person to the next. "Okay guys give her some space. Mom I thought I told you we weren't going to have a party yet." I saw Lisa say to a cute older lady. "Please Lisa when have I ever been someone who listens to what anyone says. You know me sweetie." She said to Lisa with a smile. She was definitely something else. Maybe that was where I got my confidence at my old school from. She walked right up to me and gave me a big hug. Wow everyone around here is really touchy feely. "I am so glad we finally found you sweet heart. It's so good to finally have you home with all of us." She said to me as she held me tightly. She moved away from me to look me in the face. She just kept looking at me. "Is there something wrong with you? What's wrong with her Lisa? Why isn't she talking? Why isn't she happy?" She asked Lisa and me. That made me mad. Was she serious, did she really just ask those questions? "Are you kidding me? Did you really just ask me that? Would you really like to know what's wrong with me. Well where do I start? You guys haven't been in my life for seventeen years. Then All of a sudden you show up and expect me to be okay with everything that is going on. I've gone through hell my whole life, not once getting a break. Four days ago I finally got the break I had been waiting for, and once I had it you guys showed up and took it away from me. Everything I had ever wanted was just ripped away, because you wanted me 'home'." I screamed at her. I didn't even realize that I was crying until I felt the tears roll down my cheeks. I looked around to see everyone looking at me with shocked expressions. I can't take this right now. I can't deal with being the fat girl who's crying. I quickly turned around and ran out of the house. I really didn't know where I was going, or what I was going to do once I got there. I just wanted to be away from everything and everyone around me. I looked over to see the barn I saw earlier when I arrived. I ran inside the barn and shut the door. I looked around to find that no one was in it beside the animals. I sent a silent prayer to god. Then I quickly took it back because this is probably the only good thing he will ever do for me in all of my life. That thought only made me cry harder. Not even god had any love for me, the fat girl. I cried for what seemed like forever, before I finally stopped. Once I had finally stopped crying I looked around the barn. It was a beautiful barn, and so many of every kind of farm animal that you could think of was in there. Out of all the animals I saw there, only one of them truly caught my attention. It was a beautiful big black horse. Probably bigger than any horse I have ever seen. She was absolutely beautiful in every way. She must have sensed that I was looking at her, because she quickly came over to where I was. She stood close enough for me to be able to see her, but not close enough for me to touch her. I put my hand out waiting for her to come closer. After a few minutes she finally came close enough to let me touch her. I couldn't believe how soft she was. She must have liked my touch because she kept pushing her head towards me. I just kept rubbing/touching her for what seemed like forever. I didn't even realize that there was someone else in the barn until I heard a gasp. I felt like my heart jumped out of my body. I touched my chest to calm my breathing. I looked over to see Luke standing there, looking completely shocked. "How did you do that?" He asked me. "Do what?" I asked back. I honestly had no idea what he was talking about. "How did you touch Princess. She never lets anyone, and I do mean anyone touch her. No one who has worked here has ever been able to come close to her. That's why we call her princess, because she acts like one." "I don't know I just walked up and touched her. It's not like I did anything out of the ordinary or anything," I said to him while looking at the ground. It stayed silent for a while. "Wow I would have never guessed that a city girl would be the one to melt old Princess's heart. She must really like you to be letting you touch her." I looked up to see him standing right in front of me. I just shrugged my shoulders. It really didn't seem like a big deal to me. "Are you okay Love? I know that was a lot to handle in a short amount of time." "My name is Danielle." Was all I said to him. I heard him chuckle from in front of me. I looked back up at him. He really was so hot. Why was he here? Did he actually care about me? Wow did I actually think that. There was no way a guy like him would ever be interested in a girl like me. He was probably more into the tooth pick kind of girls. The ones that were extremely bitchy but still got the hot guys anyway. "I know your name is Danielle, but that's something everyone is going to be calling you. I want a special name that only I call you. Therefore that's why I called you Love." He said to me with a smile. Was this guy serious? You could tell that he was definitely a charmer. I really didn't know how to respond to what he said. I mean did he really come up with a nick name for me, or was it just because he really couldn't remember my name? Neither really matter at the moment. I just wanted to be told where my room was so I could get some rest. But I didn't want to run into all the people who were at the house. I wanted to make sure they were gone first. "Did everyone leave?" I asked him while rubbing Princess. "Yeah Lisa made them all leave. She really didn't plan any of this. She wanted you to meet everyone but not the minute you got here. Your grandmother meant well though. She's just really excited to finally have you home with us. She was really upset when she saw you cry. I was upset when I saw you cry." With that he pushed my head up with his fingers. I felt like I couldn't breathe at all. I have never had a guy talk to me in such a tender way before. Most of the guys who talked to me only did so because they wanted to make fun of me. Why was he being so damn nice. It must be because he wanted to impress my family. There was no way he actually cared. As much as I wished it was true, it wasn't. I had already come to face the fact that I would never be loved by someone, let alone liked. I quickly pulled my head away. "Could you please just show me to where I am going to be sleeping." He kept looking at me for what seemed like a lifetime. I saw him shake his head. "Yeah come on, I'll show you to your room. Oh and by the way, I told you I would get you to talk to me. I honestly thought it would take longer, but now that I have heard that beautiful angelic voice, I never want to stop hearing it." He said to me before he started to head out of the barn. Was this man serious? Did he actually believe I would fall for that kind of line. I didn't say anything just continued to walk behind him. Today had been a long day and I honestly didn't have the energy to fight or come up with a good comeback. I went back to just being silent. I followed him into the house which was now empty. I saw my aunt and my grandmother talking. I really didn't have the energy to talk to anyone. I just wanted to get to bed and sleep the rest of my life away. As I started to head for the stairs I heard a voice call my name. "Danielle darling please wait." My grandmother said to me. I turned around to face her. "I am so sorry for what happened earlier. I didn't mean to make you feel overwhelmed or anything. I just wanted to welcome you home." She said to me, then she started to cry and I didn't know what to do. So I just nodded. She looked at me and gave me a weak smile. Luke cleared his throat making both of us look up at him. "I'm going to show Danielle to her room. She's probably really tired. " I noticed my grandmother smile at this. "Of course, thank you Luke. I will see you in the morning." With that she gave me a quick hug before heading back into the kitchen. I was kind of shocked. I mean I am not use to this, and it would definitely take some time before I was. I sighed and continued to climb the stairs. I followed Luke down the hall until we reached a room. He stopped and stood out of the way so that I could open the door. I did and what I saw shocked me. Not only was the room huge, but it was beautiful. It had so many colors in it. The bed in the room was enormous and had at least ten pillows on it. The room had a bunch of bookcases with books in it, and dressers. I looked around to find a bathroom connected to the room. It was just as beautiful as my room. There was a walk in shower and sit in tub. It was absolutely perfect. This was probably the only thing that made me like this move so far. "I hope you like it. I mean we hope you do." I looked over at Luke to see him scratching the back of his head. "We worked really hard at putting everything together. Lisa kept calling, telling us things we should buy for your room. We didn't really know anything about you so she had to talk to your foster mom to see what you would like." I just nodded at him. This room was truly amazing, and I loved it already. It made my heart melt thinking they put so much work into putting my room together. "Thanks" "No need to thank me Love. It was my pleasure. " I just nodded again and looked at him. Why was he still here? He was just staring at me. I hated when people stared at me. I knew I was bigger but did he really have to look at me like that. I cleared my throat and he brought his eyes to mine. "Ummm yeah so I guess I will let you get settled in. If you need anything I am at the other end of the hall. Don't hesitate to come get me, you don't even have to knock." He said to me with a wink. Again I just nodded. I really wanted him to leave already. I hated the way he made me feel I hated that I actually thought he was flirting with me. Why was I losing all my senses around him. "Good night beautiful" He said to me before leaving and closing the door behind him. UGHHH why did he have to say that. I knew he was just fucking with my heart. I knew he really didn't want me. And I wish he would stop calling me beautiful because I wasn't. I was nowhere near beautiful. He needed to stop calling me that. I looked over at the bed and walked over to it. I just fell on top of it and before I knew it I was asleep. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Let me know what you think. Please Rate and Comment!!:) I Will Never Be Loved Ch. 04 Luke's Prov: My mother use to tell me that when you meet the girl that's right for you, you're going to know it immediately. That's exactly how I felt when I saw Danielle. She was nothing like I have ever seen before. Most of the girls around here are so damn skinny, and I am a country man after all. We want something to hold on to at night and let me tell you, Danielle had a few things I wish I could hold on to. When I first heard about Lisa finding her long lost niece I really didn't know what to think. It really wasn't a surprise considering Glenda and her had been looking for Danielle since the accident. When she asked me to pick them up at the airport I almost said no. I was supposed to be hanging out with Wendy today. But then something in my head told me not to decline Lisa. God am I so glad I didn't. Danielle is so damn beautiful. The best part is she has no idea how beautiful she is. I couldn't help but look at her the whole ride home. The fact that she didn't want to talk to anyone was killing me. I just wanted to hear her voice. She looked like she was someone who had a sexy angelic voice. I can tell she is hurting, I knew it the minute I saw her. I don't know why but I have this feeling in me that I have to make her feel better. I have to make her see that things aren't as bad as she thinks. When I saw her with Princess I almost shit myself. That horse is seriously like the devil. She never lets people touch her, not even people who raised her. But this girl is here for less then a day and Princess has already taken a liking to her. I couldn't really blame Princess though, because she had me trapped to. She had me wrapped around her finger already. I don't even know her and she has me under her spell. Even now as I am here in bed, trying to sleep, she's running throw my mind. I can't believe it's one in the morning and I am still up. I have to be up in a few more hours to help with the animals. And yet I can't fall asleep, God why won't she leave my head already? I laid down trying to get Danielle out of my head, and hopefully a few hours of sleep. After a few minutes of me trying to sleep I got a text. I picked up my phone and it was from Wendy. Wendy: I missed you today Lukey. I know it's late but I wish we could have gotten a chance to hangout. I had a few bikinis I wanted you to see me in, and without!;) Usually I would respond to these kind of messages. But I was a one woman kind of man. Even though Danielle wasn't mine, if I was ever going to work my way into her heart I definitely couldn't be talking to Wendy. I know it sounds crazy but I have this feeling that Danielle and I were supposed to be something. Call it fate or whatever but I just have this feeling, and I'm not going to ignore it. Me: Wendy I'm sure there are other people who would love to see that. But as of right now you can't text me things like that anymore. Okay? Wendy: God when did you get so serious. You weren't saying that a week ago. She had me there, but hey I am only a man. There is only so much a man can take, and she is very tempting. But it's not like she is wife material or anything. If anything she is more of a mistress type. Me: Since now. I still want to be friends and all. But no more friends with benefits or anything like that. Wendy: Whatever Luke. I have plenty more guys willing to be with me whenever I want. Just remember when you're done with this little phase you're going through, I will be here. Me: I won't need you like that. Have a good night Wendy. Wendy: Fuck you Luke! I promise you, you will regret this!! Instead of responding I just put my phone down on the stand beside me. It's not like her and I were in a relationship. It truly was a friends with benefits type things. I know most of the time those things don't work out. But I wasn't really a player and liked knowing that we had each other to satisfy our needs. She and I both knew that what we had would end soon. I couldn't deal with how needy she was acting. And she didn't like that i didn't spent every waking moment with her, or thinking about her. Especially since I knew she was sleeping with other guys. She acted like I was stupid and didn't know about all the other guys she had sex with. But I did know about them, and that was the main reason why we could never be more than just friends. If she wasn't, I might have considered taking the relationship to another level, but she needed the attention of all those guys and I didn't like to share. Not only that but she is one of my old best friends, I honestly didn't want to lose her as a friend. Wendy's been there for me at my darkest moments, she truly was a great friend. But this little thing we had going on needed to end, Danielle was the perfect excuse. My mind wondered back to Danielle. I wonder if she is sleeping or not. I decided to go and check on her before I fell asleep. I got out of my bed and walked out of my room and into the hall way. I walked over and opened her door and looked in. She was on her stomach and knocked out. She looked so peaceful sleeping there. I walked over to the bed and I got her the blanket from the end of the bed and cover her with it, then for some reason I can't explain I kissed her on the for head. My actions freaked me out some. I couldn't believe I felt so attracted to her so quickly. I moved away from her bed and sped over to her door. As I left her room all I could think was, what the fuck was this girl doing to me. Danielle's prov: I woke up hoping that everything that had happened this past week was just a horrible nightmare. But as looked around at the room I realized it wasn't a dream, shit. I moved to sit up and that's when I noticed that I was covered in a blanket. I don't remember grabbing a blanket before bed. Who knows maybe I did. I was so tired last night I vaguely remember anything that happened. I picked up my phone and looked to see it was already nine in the morning. Wow I must have really needed some sleep. I was just about to go shower when I heard a knock at my door. "Danielle sweetheart are you awake?" Instead of saying yes I just opened the door to find my grandmother standing there. "Oh good you are awake. I made some pancakes, I was wondering if you wanted someone?" She asked me. I mean was she kidding who doesn't love pancakes. I nodded my head and followed her down the stairs. I noticed my aunt and a bunch of other people already outside working on many different things. My grandmother passed me a plate and lead me over to the table. It was filled with so much food. I thought she said she only made pancakes? The whole table was filled with anything you could ever imagine, someone could have at breakfast. Did she really think I was that big, I mean god this was a lot of food. Way too much for me, but it obviously wasn't just for me. "I'm just going to get the rest of the group so they can come in and eat as well." She said to me as she went to go get the people from outside. I sat down and grabbed one pancake. Honestly one would be more than enough. These pancakes were huge. It barely fit on the plate. It looked like the most delicious pancake I have ever seen. I started to pour the syrup on the pancake as people started to fill into the kitchen. Everyone who came into the dining room made sure to look at me as they entered, I rolled my eyes as I saw this. I hated people looking/ staring at me, it made me feel like all my weaknesses were exposed. Either that or I felt like they were judging me. And right now I felt like everyone who came in was judging me. I tried to ignore the stares that were coming my way. So I finished pouring the syrup when I felt someone on the side of me sit down. I looked over to see Luke sitting there with a big smile on his face. Is this guy ever not smiling? "Good morning beautiful, did you sleep well?" God I wish he would stop calling me that. I mean it's really starting to get old. As if a guy like him thought I was beautiful. "Stop" I said to him so only he could hear me. "Stop what?" Like he really didn't know. "Stop calling me that!" I whispered to him. He looked at me like I had two heads. "Stop calling me beautiful." "Why?" He said to me. Was he really serious. I was so sick of this little game that he was playing. "I don't know what game you're playing but stop, it's not funny. Just leave me alone." With that I got up picked up my plate and walked outside. I don't know why people just can't leave me alone. I just wanted to be left alone. I sat down on the swing outside and started to eat my pancake. I just hoped I could relax and be left alone. Obviously the people around here don't know the meaning of leaving some one alone, because I heard the front door open and close. I didn't have to look to know who it was who followed me . Luke had this presence about him that could not be ignored. You knew when he was around you or even close. He didn't say anything to me, he just sat down on the swing with me. I looked over to see that he brought his breakfast outside with him as well. This cowboy just doesn't give up. I was planning on moving again but his words stopped me. "I'm not playing any games with you Danielle. I was really just trying to be nice. I thought you might like to have a friend here." "I don't need any friends. I never had one, and I don't need one. I don't need anyone actually. I heard him chuckle from beside me. "Everyone needs someone Darling." "Yeah well then I must be the exception , because I don't need anyone. Never had, and never will." "You may not need anyone, but that doesn't mean people don't need you. Your grandmother and aunt need you Danielle. You may not realize it now, but you need them as well." I looked over at him. He was dead serious with what he had said. Why in the world would they need me? They don't even know me. How could they need someone they didn't know? I must have been in a train of thought for a while, because before I knew it Luke had finished his breakfast and was getting up. He made his way up the steps and was about to walk into the door. "Danielle?" I turned around to look at him. "I meant what I said earlier, you are definitely beautiful. It's just another thing you have yet to realize." Before I could say anything to him he vanished into the house. Maybe he was right, not that I was beautiful, but that I might need my aunt and grandmother. But I didn't know how to need anyone. I have never relied on anyone before. I had always looked out for myself. Could I really rely on somebody other than myself? Could someone really need me? ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Let me know what you guys think so far! Please Comment and Rate!! :) Also I am looking for a reliable editor. I need someone who can edit my work and get back to me quickly so I can put my work on here more quickly. If you're interested leave me feedback with your email address for me to reach you at! I Will Never Be Loved Ch. 05 Danielle's Pov: It's been a few weeks since I have been here and nothing has really changed since my talk with Luke. I haven't said much to anyone. My aunt and grandmother haven't really bugged me at all. I guess people can only take so much of being ignored before they give up. Then again Luke hasn't stopped trying to get me to open up either, and I have been ignoring him as well. I don't understand why he's trying so hard. Yet it felt good to have someone care for once. I had never had anyone ever really care about me. While I have been staying away from everyone I had a lot of time to sit and think about what has happened to me. Even though my situation sucks, there is nothing I can do about it. Not only that but my grandmother and aunt were really making me feel bad. They had done everything they could do to find me. They had worked so hard to find me, and here I was acting like a baby about everything. It's about time that I get over myself. I didn't know when or how I was going to get out of here. But I knew that I needed to make the best of my situation while I was here. I might as well take the time to get to know them. After all they were my family, the only family I had left. There was no point in acting the way I was because nothing was going to change. It didn't matter if I never talked to anyone of them again. I would still be here and not in New York, I might as well make the best out of it. So I decided that today was a new day. I was going to at least make an effort. I took a quick shower and got dressed in some brown shorts and a blue shirt. I put my hair up since it seemed like it was going to be a hot day, and I applied a small amount of makeup. I took a look at myself in the mirror and let out a loud sight. I hated how I looked in shorts. I felt as if all of my fat was just spilling out of the shorts I had on. Actually I hated wearing just about anything because I felt like I never looked good in anything that I would put on. I shook my head and I pushed the thought aside. I opened my door walked out of my bedroom. As I walked down the stairs I found my grandmother cooking breakfast. I just stood there for a moment looking at her. The whole time I had been here I ignored her and everyone else. If I spoke it was mostly just me answering a question they asked me, and I usually only said yes or no. I had never started a conversation with one of them. And I honestly didn't know what to say. I took a deep breath and walked further into the room. "Hey can I help you with that?" I asked her. Glenda turned around so quickly I thought she was going to fall. She looked at me as if I had lost my mind. She looked like she was in a state of shock. Which I can understand since I really haven't talked to her since I have been here. She just stood there looking at me for a few minutes. She shook her head and smiled at me. "Ummm yes of course dear, I could use some help setting the table, if you don't mind." She said to me with confusion in her voice. She was still in shock about what was happening. "Yeah definitely." I walked over to the table and started to set things up. The whole time I was setting the table I could feel Glenda watching me. At one point I think I even saw her pinch herself. I couldn't help but chuckle at that. She actually thought she might be dreaming. I was almost finished doing the table when she spoke again. "Why now?" She asked me. I turned to look at her. "What do you mean?" "Why are you talking now, and asking if I need help. What has changed?" She asked me while she turned off the stove and came over to where I was standing. "Ummm well I mean, why not now. I just, want to make the best of the situation. I mean there's no way I can do anything until I am eighteen anyway, so I should just suck it up and deal with it." I heard her start to laugh from in front of me. "God you are so like your mother. In more ways then I think you will ever know. She always acted so guarded as well. The only difference is your mother never held anything in. One time we were at a store and we were about to get cashed out. One of the cashiers made fun of the way your Aunt Lisa was dressed, and your mom freaked out. She said and I quote 'Do you really think all that makeup can hide the ugliness you have on both the inside and out. You better shut that bitchy mouth of yours before I cover your face in blood.' You should have seen the girls face I thought she was going to crap herself. I couldn't help but laugh at this. Once I started I couldn't stop, and my grandmother started to laugh as well. Before we knew it we were both laughing hard and holding onto our stomachs. I hadn't laughed like this in a long time. I haven't been able to feel this carefree in so long. After a minute or two we both stopped laughing and were smiling at one another. "Danielle I know that you've been through a lot, and I know that you truly don't want to be here. But you don't know how happy we are that your here. And I'm truly glad your giving it a chance here. It's no New York that's for sure, but I think your going to like it here." Glenda said to me as she rubbed my back lightly. I smiled at her words, and nodded my head. "Not to quote Annie or anything but this house is a mansion. I think I'm going to like it here." Both Glenda and I laughed at my words. It was nice to have someone to laugh with like this. We were interrupted by the door closing and about almost everyone who worked here standing at the door. They must have though they were losing their minds. I really could care less about what they thought at the moment though. This was the first time I had laughed in forever. It felt so damn good to laugh. To not be sulking around and feeling sorry for myself. "Anyone want to include us clueless people in on what you guys were laughing about?" My aunt asked as she walked over to us. Luke followed behind her. "Yeah, I mean secrets don't make friends." Luke said from beside her. I couldn't help but chuckle at his childish behavior. "It's nothing really. Just having ourselves a good laugh." I said to them. My grandmother laughed at this. "Yes just a laugh. Any who breakfast is ready. Why don't we eat up before it gets cold." She gave me a pat on the shoulder before going off and setting the food onto the table. I went to go sit in my usual seat. Of course Luke came to sit right next to me. Usually Luke was the first one to talk but today was a new day. And after my good conversation and laugh with Glenda I was in a great mood. "Good Morning Luke!" I said to him as I grabbed some eggs and hash browns. He looked at me with the weirdest expression. "Are you feeling alright?" He asked me with a straight face. "Of course I am. Why?" I asked. "Because your up and about laughing with Glenda, helping get breakfast ready, and now your saying good morning to me. It's strange to see you so happy and involved. What changed?" He questioned as he grabbed some food for himself. I shrugged my shoulders at his words. "I just think it's time I took your advice and actually got to know everyone here. I can't change what's happening to me, so I might as well embrace it." I answered him. I then I turned to my aunt. " Lisa, do you think I would be able to help around with the animals today. Maybe I could help out with Princess." I heard everyone around the table gasp except for Luke, he was still looking at me with a shocked expression. "Oh sweetie you don't want to help with her, she's a really hard horse to take care of." My grandmother said to me. My aunt was the next person to talk. "Yeah. Princess doesn't even like to be around any of us, and we have been around Princess her whole life. I was about to tell her about the day when I first got here, but Luke interrupted me. "Actually she is really good with her. The first day that she was here, I found her in the barn with Princess. Princess was all over her. I have never seen her want anyone to ever touch her like she did with Danielle. I think she has taken a real liking to Danielle." Luke said to them as he looked at me. Again everyone gasped. She must really give them a hard time if they are reacting like this "I can't believe it." My aunt said. "Yeah me either." My grandmother whispered. "Well if you and her really get along that well then I think you should be the one to take care of her, or at least try to. " My aunt said to me with a smile. "But your going to need to know how to take care of her. There's certain things you have to do, especially with a horse like Princess. Who wants to help Danielle get settled with Princess?" My aunt asked as she looked at everyone around the table. "I will" Said one of the guys who worked here. I believe his name is Dan. I looked over at him and smiled. I would take all the help I could get. I really didn't know much about horses. I have been trying to learn things about horses online for the past few week. I honestly didn't think there was much more to learn, but every bit of information counts. I heard a growl from beside me. Not an animalistic one, but one of a pissed of human. I looked over to see Luke staring at Dan with a pissed off expression. "I'll help her, you won't be needed Dan." Ha I was right about his name. Dan shifted in his seat then spoke again. "Ummm I think I can handle it Luke, it's no big deal." "I said you won't need to help her, I will!" Luke yelled at him. Everyone in the room went silent. No one was eating, let alone moving. You could cut the tension with a knife. I had never heard Luke talk like that before. That really isn't saying much since I have only been here for a few weeks, but still he didn't seemed like someone who got mad easily. Although it was a bit scary, it was more sexy then anything else. Wait where in the world did that thought come from? A guy like Luke wouldn't be into a girl like me. "Okay dude chill. I was just trying to help." Dan said to him as he continued to eat. Never once did his eyes leave me and Luke. I looked over to see that Luke still had this hard look on his face. I don't know why I reached over and grabbed his hand but I did. I only wanted to give him a quick squeeze, the kind of squeeze that said 'hey it's no big deal', then move my hand away. But Luke had other plans. He quickly grabbed my hand before I can move it, and he held it there and started to eat his breakfast. Luke was something really new to me. I had never had a friend before, I actually never had anyone care about me in anyway. This was definitely something new to me. Maybe moving here wouldn't be as bad as I thought, maybe. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Let me know what you guys think! Please Rate and comment!! : )