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I Keep Giving Him Everything

By: JimandGarysgirl



I am a white woman who has a black lover and I can't see my life any other way than with him on the side. We are both married to other people and have been seeing each other for almost 8 years now. What started off as two friends that wanted to get to know each other a little better has turned out to be a full-blown affair. I had a week without him because he was on vacation with his wife and youngest daughter and I had some time to sit and reflect on our relationship. 

On several occasions, I have asked Jim why he keeps on going with me and his answer is "Because you suck a good cock" and that leads me to the question "Is that the only reason??" He tells me that it is more than that but he will not commit or say anything more. 

It was early on in our relationship when I was able to put a few dollars aside every week and saved up $100 and knowing that I can't hold on to my money, I asked him to put it away for "us" so when we go to the hotel we will have the money for the room. He agreed and said he would put it away. A few weeks after that, he was invited by his friends to go camping but was going to turn down the offer because he did have any money go kick into the pot for the food and booze for the weekend getaway. I told him to use the $100 and he could replace it whenever he had the chance. He was so gracious and thankful that I offered him the money. He doesn't really talk too much about his spouse, but he never speaks badly of her. She is a very pretty white woman and I can't understand why he would want another woman, like me. He did say that his wife wouldn't give him the money for the trip and I was going to ask why but he said that she doesn't like one of his buddies because he cheated on his wife.

There were other occasions that I had asked him to hold a few dollars for me and he took from me and said he was saving it. There came a very rare opportunity that my husband was going to be away most of a Saturday with a few friends and since Jim works a half a day on Saturday, he sometimes has sometime after he gets out of work to do some fishing or hit the local bar with some of his buddies before going home. I asked him if he would be able to meet me at the hotel that Saturday that my husband would be away and he said that his schedule was clear and he would tell his wife something but wasn't sure what at the time we were discussing our plans. I asked him to bring the money he stashed away for this and he said that there wasn't any left. I was a little upset and then I remembered telling him if he ever ran short he could use it and put it back when he could. He said he's been using it and hasn't been able to replace it and was sorry. I happened to have gotten a little extra money that I could use for the hotel so we would be fine.

The afternoon delight as it is usually referred to at the hotel was so romantic. It was the best love making session of our relationship because we didn't have to rush through it and was able to enjoy some moments that we never did before. We had great oral as I love to such that extra large black cock of his and his balls. He sucked and nibbled and gave my 44DD titties a treat of a lifetime. I mentioned that I would love to have this more often and he said we would. I shaved my pussy bald for him that morning and he loved eating me out and letting me come all over his face. He fucked me hard and I came three more times for him and we went into the doggy position where he pounded me and I could hear the happy slaps of his black balls on my large white ass. He then lubed up his monster cock and slowly at first inserted it in my ass. I have never had it anal from anyone before and he was slow and took care not to hurt me. After the anal he placed me on my back and pounded me and I actually had screams of sheer pleasure as he then pulled out as he came into my mouth, on my face and all over those big white titties of mine.

Luck be on our side as we were able to steal an afternoon every now and then to go to the hotel and have more pleasure than the time before. All our other meetings are basically making out with each other, kissing, me sucking his cock in balls on a lunch hour or after work before heading home. If we do lunch, I always pick him up lunch for us which included our favorite beer and JD. I have always bought him gifts and some were snall and inexpensive but all had meaning behind 

them. There were some costly gifts I bought him for Christmas, his birthday and sometimes I even spent more money on his gifts than my husband!!

I wasn't giving him any money to hold and didn't ask him to replace the money he "borrowed" from me as I knew he was having some financial issues. His wife was working too, but putting 2 girls through private high schools was costing and both needing braces. I have no children but managed to rack up some pretty steep bills that I have been able to pay off after receiving a small inheritance from mys estate and my dad's as well. Mom passed much earlier than the others - we lost my in-laws and dad within a year a half.

There was the occasion when he ask me for a few dollars for gas or to go out with the guys and I couldn't turn him down. I know he has the money issues and I have a very soft spot for my lover. I know he's not my responsibility but I feel that I want to help him.

I sat alone for a few of my lunches during his vacation and I guess because I was looking for some of my "mad" money, I realized I gave him a nice "chunk" for his vacation. It made me stop and think that maybe he was using me for my money because he knows I came into some, but didn't know how much. Neither my parents ors were very rich but we got a decent amount. We paid some of our large bills and paid off our mortgage so I did have some extra money that I would not normally have. We put some aside for a few home projects, which left us with a few dollars to play with. 

Jim will be returning in a week and I keep going over in my head if I want to confront him on this or just enjoy the attention from him that I don't get at home. Sex at home doesn't exist and I am mentally and physically abused from time to time from my low life scum of a husband. I admitted to my best friend that I say with the fucking asshole for the money and how I use it to buy myself little treats that I would not be able to to do for myself. He drinks and gets high on his and I buy jewelry and clothes weekly.

What should I do?? I'll let you what my decision on talking to Jim about our relationship and what I actually mean to him. If I knew he would be leaving his wife, I would wait and get what I wanted from my husband and then ask for a divorce and get half of everything. Until then, I'm keeping my white as where it is.

to be continued.......

I Keep Giving Him Everything Pt. 02



The day that Jim and his family returned from vacation, I received a text message from him that he was back and would try and see if he could sneak out to meet me the next day. I was very excited to hear that because I really needed to talk with him. I didn't let on that I had to talk to him, but I think that our conversation will go well. He told me he would let me know by lunch hour and where we could meet and for how long.

At night I was lying in bed and thinking over the conversation that I would be having with Jim and I hope he will be able to come clean with me and tell me his true feelings. I have let me feelings for him be known the first day I met him face to face for the first time. I was head over heels in love with him and told him that his family was so lucky to have him. I have grown so much in love with him that if I didn't have him in my life, I know my life would be empty. I slept pretty well considering I was worried a bit that he may get upset with me confronting him with my questions, but I felt that it was time we laid our cards on the table so to speak.

The next morning about 9:00 I got a text and he told me that he would be able to meet me for a few hours because he had to take his wife to her mother's because she had no way of getting there because her car was still being worked on. I asked him if I should make a reservation at "our" hotel and he said yes. He also shocked me by telling me that he would be picking up the tab, bringing us lunch and actually brought me back a gift from his trip. These are things that never had happened before and I was delighted and concerned that something may be wrong. 

After making our reservations, I jumped into the shower and shaved everywhere and I was bald except for eyebrows and hair on my head. I took a nice hot shower and then creamed myself with coco butter because Jim loves the way it makes me smell and feel. I picked out a new top that I had bought for our next meeting that was all summer colors with a pair of white shorts and had on a new pair of white panties and didn't sport a bra that day. I let "the girls" as we referred to them just be comfortable. I left a little earlier to head to the hotel so I could just go over it in my head again what I wanted to say and ask and I had a good gut feeling today.

I pulled into the parking lot and as soon as I turned off the car, I saw Jim pull up. He was sure a sight for sore eyes as I could feel those little white panties getting damp. I opened my door and Jim opened his and I ran into his arms and he gave me a hug bear hug and a very passionate kiss. I didn't want to let him go but I didn't want to waste another minute without being with him in our room. He made his way to the back of his truck where he took out some bags with our lunch and goodies in it as I asked if I could help carry anything. I carried in the lunch while he got the beers and JD and also had a small bag which he held onto.

We went up to the desk clerk who knows us by now and she handed me the key and it was to "our room" - Room 105. We got there in record time and opened the door and put everything away and started to hug and kiss again and I broke the kiss and told Jim that I needed to talk with him and get some answers and he said he would be happy to. I told him I wanted to talk before we had our oral and then made love and he was completely fine with that.

I started off asking him to sit down and relax as I handed him a bottle of beer. I opened one for myself and I began my questioning. I told him that I was very much in love with him and it grows with every day that passes and that I think about him and us all the time. I asked him to be completely honest with me and even if it meant the possibility of hurting my feelings, I wanted him to answer all my questions.

The first question was if he missed me and he said of course. I asked him if he had a nice time with his family and he said he did. I told him that I wanted to know if he can finally tell me exactly what he feels about me and why he comes back to me time after time. I was blown away by his answers and they went as follows:

"Joan, you know that I told you many years back that I am not a mushy kind of guy and I don't go around saying I love you as freely as you do and others. I told you that when I care and love someone, I show it in my actions and I hope that you get my message when we make love to each other, hold each other and kiss each other. As for my feelings for you, I care very deeply for you and there have been times I wanted to tell you, but I was afraid that you would hold me to what I was saying and ask me to leave my family for you. Then I know you told me that you would never ask me to leave them, I guess I was just being too careful.

I thought about the time you asked me if I would marry you and I told you that I wouldn't marry again - not just you, but anyone. I do love you and worry and care about you. I thought about how you always bail my black ass out of trouble with helping me with some money, lots of money, buy me things that I want and can't afford to get for myself and meet me when you can and understand when I can't meet you."

I was touched by his words and honesty and then he asked me why I asked him to tell me. Here is my response:

"Jim I know that you care for me and you do show me in everything we do. I thought that maybe you were just in love with my money and for all that I do for you, but not me as a person. I see know that you do and I would never question your feelings again. I just want to know how were you able to afford to buy all this for us today. I hope you didn't spend all your money."

Jim took me in his arms and told me that he was saving up for this day because he knew that being away from each other would make us want to be with each other. With that he handed me the little bag he was carrying and told me to look at what he brought me. When I opened the bag, there was a tiny box, like jewelry comes in and I was shaking like a leaf. I took the beautiful wrapping paper carefully off the box and opened it and there was a gold necklace with a number 5 pendant hanging from the chain. I began to cry as I threw my arms around him and he had to dry me tears. The number 5 was the month and date that we first met each other in person and 5 has been a lucky number for both of us since that first meeting. I put it around my neck and vowed to never take it off. I thought that if anyone asks me why I wear a 5 around my neck, I could say that was the month my deceased mother was born, which was the truth and who would question that...no one!!

We made love for over an hour, showered and had our lunch before Jim had to go pick up his wife. I know that Jim and I will never part but I told him that if he ever felt that he no longer wanted to see me that I would be very upset, but would respect his wishes.

Our story continues...who knows, there may still be another chapter for you all to read...