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I Didn't Deserve This

By: JimandGarysgirl



Ever since Jim, my black lover and I have been sneaking around, I have always been honest and up front with him. I did keep a night with an old friend a secret from him for about a month, but I end up telling him about it and it almost caused our break up.

I tend to tell him more about my life than he does but ever since my little "cheat night" he has opened up to me more - so I thought. He told me the night that I told him my friend and I that he had a chance to be with "another woman" who has been trying to get him to meet with her, but he turns her down and he tells her that he can't cheat on his wife. In the meantime, he is cheating on his wife with me. He said she comes into his place at least once a week and tries to hit on him. He told me that he could have her anytime he would say yes but he didn't want to ruin what we have together.

I always thought that Jim was honest with me because I asked him as we started our "affair" if he ever had an affair before and he said yes and it was very brief and it wasn't working out so he ended it. I asked him if I was doing anything or going down the same path and he said that our relationship is different and I never asked in what way. I tell him when I am having problems and not feeling like myself and he is always a comfort for me and helps me get through it every time.

About a month ago, we were meeting in a new place for the first time and I had picked up a little "gift" for him like I always do and he told me to put it in his truck. In the back seat was a small gift box like you would get jewelry in and wondered who it was for but I didn't ask. I figured it was for his wife and I really can't tell him not to buy her anything now can I. We had a wonderful meeting and as always the oral and vaginal sex was as great as it always is. He just knows how to get to me. Those large black hands cupping my titties and then sucking them and nibbling on my nipples makes me wet and then makes me come every time. When we are apart I play with my pussy and my titties pretending it's Jim and I end up so wet.

When we were saying good night, he threw his sweatshirt on the back seat near the box and it fell out onto the ground. He quickly picked it up and put it back as if he didn't want me to see it and maybe say something like "where's my gift??" which I wouldn't do. Little did he know that the gift tag came off and was still on the ground. I slyly covered it with my foot and then picked it up and put it in my jacket pocket - why, I was just curious I guess. I know his wife's name is Mary so why should I think that it would be for someone other than her or maybe one of his 3 daughters, of which I know their names as well.

He walked me to my car and we kissed good bye and he said he would text me as usual that evening. We text each other every day and keep it low key as not to get my husband or his wife wondering about who we are sending texts too. I text several friends in the evening his blend in with the rest.

I waited until he got into his truck before I took the gift tag out of my pocket. He waited for me to pull away first in case I had an issues or needed any help. We are on the highway, side by side for a few miles until he has to turn off to go home. I kept on driving but pulled off at the nearest gas station to get gas and to see what the gift tag said. I pulled the tag off the seat next to me and it was address to Tiffany and that is not his wife, any of his daughters, nieces or anyone that he has even mentioned to me. I started to fill up with tears, paid for my gas and pulled away.

All the way home I cried and wanted to know who she was. I was so upset and to think that he just fucked my brains out and I sucked his cock before we fucked and then I swallowed, as I always do, his large load of hot cum. I wasn't going to text him that night and he told me he would text me first because he had to pick up his medications and then drop off something at his buddy's house. Buddy I thought, my ass, it's another girl and I was fuming. I cooked dinner when I got home and fed myself and my husband and just picked on my food and then said I was going to lay down because I had a long day in work and I was tired.

As I always do I keep my cell close and an hour later Jim sent me a text telling me he had a great time and is looking forward to the next meeting next week. I didn't want to answer him but I did. I acted as if nothing happened but I was a little short with him and said I wanted to get to bed because I was tired. The next few days it was as usual but I kept my texts spread further apart than normal. We were discussing our next meeting and he wanted to go where we went the last time and I was fine with it. I would do all the same as always but I did decide I would confront him.

After my little infidelity, I told him that I can't stop him if he wanted to see others besides me and he couldn't really stop me either. I told him I told him I felt guilty for "cheating on him.

The day of our meeting came and I made sure I brought the gift tag with me. We had our usual oral sex and then we lay together for a bit and then have intercourse. After we had another great fuck, I wasn't sure if I still wanted to bring it up but it tore me apart for an entire week in which I hardly ate or slept. While he was lying there, I pulled out the gift tag and in tears, I asked him "Who is Tiffany??". He had looked like he seen a ghost. He asked me where I got the tag from and I told him it fell off the gift last week that he didn't know that I saw that it fell to the ground and that I saw it as I put his gift in the back seat before we went about our business.

He couldn't speak at first and then he actually broke down and told me that Tiffany was the woman that was coming into work and he lied that he didn't want to see her. He said that she was beautiful and had a nice set of titties just slightly larger than mine and I was 44DD. I started to cry and told him that I know I can't stop him but he lied to me. At least I came clean and he said he couldn't help it. He felt he had to see what she was all about. He was seeing her for a few months and admitted to me that he was starting to fall in love with her.

I told him that I never wanted to see his black ass ever again and he begged me not to stop seeing him. He told me that I was good for him and he loved spending time with me and our sex was great. I told him that he never tells me that he loves me but he told me he's falling for her. I didn't want to hear anymore about his love for Tiffany. I told him that I didn't want him to call me, text me or send me any more pics and videos to my phone and never to bother me again. He was very upset I could tell and just kept asking me to forgive him as I did when I told him about my little "fling". I don't screw around with my friend anymore, but we are still friends.

It's been 3 months since Jim and I have spoken and he does send me at least 2 texts every day. I have to admit that I miss him as my friend and as my lover and am tempted to forgive him and ask to see him again. I don't know if I want his lying cheating ass in my bed anymore. I know I did it once to him and I didn't continue seeing my friend as he sees Tiffany. I am fighting to stand my ground and not give in but it's getting much harder now.

What should I do?? I came clean and honest and he eventually forgave me. I don't know if I could ever forgive him, but he lied about his relationship with her.

He left me a message this morning asking me to meet him on Monday night at "our place" and to let him know tomorrow night. I don't know what to do but I know I don't want to give him up. He is first and foremost a very good friend but he is an excellent lover and I miss that. I don't make love to my husband anymore and he still makes love to his wife, so he actually was screwing 3 women all at once. Now I am jealous of his wife and Tiffany. I will let you know what I decide and what is going on with Jim and I. I do admit it; I really and truly miss Jim more and more everyday. 

I Didn't Deserve This Ch. 02



I have to admit this, but I miss Jim terribly. He still continues to send me at least 2 texts every day and I keep fighting to answer him back.

I got a text this morning and he was pouring his heart out to me like he never did before. He says he misses the friendship that we had, the loving that we shared and wants me to please meet him on Friday night so we can talk and he will allow me to make my decision that night and whatever it is, he would be okay with it. 

Since our break up, I lost 30 pounds from not eating and pining over Jim. I go over it my mind all day and I am not sure I can go on without him in my life.

I agreed to meet him and had no problem getting out of the house that night because my husband was going out with some of the guys to a hockey game and then out after the game since none of them have work the next day. Sometimes the wives get together when the guys go out and I lucked out that they didn't have one those "girls night out" planned for Friday. I would have had to go and break my date to meet with Jim. My husband brought a change of clothes with him to work so they could leave right from the office and hop the subway to the city.

I wasn't fitting too well in any of my clothes because of my weight loss, so I decided to go out and get myself something new to wear and show off my new shape to Jim. I didn't lose much in my tittie area and I know that is Jim's favorite parts. I also bought a bra and matching panties. I guess I had in my mind that maybe I would take him back or maybe just have oral with him and then let him fuck my brains out since I love when he is rough with me. 

Jim admitted to me that he was nervous about our meeting and I admitted the same. I sat through my lunch break writing down his good points and what I loved about him and then the bad points and surprisingly, there was only one thing on his bad list - he cheated on me and I really don't have the right to be angry as we are lovers and not husband and wife or boyfriend and girlfriend and I did cheat on him too but he didn't admit his infidelity to me like I did with him and I think that's what really pissed me off.

As I pulled into the parking lot of "our place", I began to shake and my palms got all clammy and I wasn't sure if I could do this and I was still wondering still if I wanted him back. I knew now that I did and I didn't want to jump right in as I wanted him to tell me what's been going on with him.

I saw his truck parked so I pulled up along side of him and I was all jelly as I saw his smile that melted my heart and he gave me my "wink" and I was in heaven. I got out of my car and he got out of his and he stopped dead in his tracks when he saw the weight I lost. He put his hands out for me to take his and told me how great I looked and I told him how much I missed him.

Our lips locked and we kissed like we always did and it felt like we just did this the day before. All my feelings for him were flooding my brain as he tentatively went to reach for my tit and I whispered to him "Please do. I've missed your touch and you so very much". He did and I felt my panties already getting wet. As we pulled away slowly, I could also see the beginnings of that hard on that I knew that I gave him.

We decided to out to our hotel room and I told him that I wanted to talk about a few things before we did anything. He agreed and he started to talk to me right away. He told me that his wife has been very distant with him and he has a feeling that she has someone on the side now. He told me that he is no longer seeing Tiffany and he started to cry. She was using him to get all the gifts from him and was trying to get close to one of his friends and he found out and told her that she had to decide between his friend and him and she picked the friend. He is no longer friends with Jared and Tiffany no longer comes in to his place of business. He knows that Jared is still with her because a mutual friend told him that she is.

The next thing was that he asked me if I was seeing anyone on the side and if I hooked up with my friend after we split. Joan said no she didn't hook up with her friend and admitted that she has been heart broken since their separation. They ended up by kissing and touching and before you know it, they were having oral and then then fucking like they never did before.

Joan took his load in her mouth and all over her body and they end up in the shower and still carrying on. They fell asleep briefly in each others arms when they were woken up by his cell phone. His youngest daughter ask him if he could pick her up in a few hours at her friend's house and he text her back that he would.

Their new agreement and arrangement meant that if there are any issues going on between them that they would talk about it and if there were any others that wanted to be a part of their lives in a sexual way, they wouldn't do it. Even thought it isn't fair that they do that, they wanted it to all be honesty and openness from this day forward.

From that night on, Joan and Jim were back together and just met with each other and no one else. She has even been trying to tolerate her husband and Jim was trying to understand why his wife was cheating. It turned out that she gave up the other guy but has tried to find another.

I love Jim with all my heart and soul and I never want to part with Jim again. He is my love and my life and met up with each other once a week and twice when her husband had his special nights out with the guys. 

I never thought I would go back with him because it bugged me that he was doing things with her and I wanted to be the one he was fooling around with.

I know I didn't deserve to be lied to but we formed a new trust now and it's been solid.

Jim is my rock and my saving grace. I love him with all my heart - now, together and always.

Jim forever....