42 comments/ 95083 views/ 5 favorites Business & Pleasure Ch. 05 By: giffmatt As the last of the police officers left her town house, Julie watched with tears in her eyes. Her husband of just under five years had left twenty minutes earlier for his brother's apartment several city blocks away. She knew that he would not be returning, ever. Julie had been genuinely frightened by the depth of Matt's rage when he discovered her sleeping naked with her equally naked black lover, Jason. She had been awakened by Matt's screams as he yanked an unsuspecting Jason from the bed and began pummeling him with his fists. It was like waking up to a nightmare. Julie had thought her husband was on his way across the country and that there was no chance of him interrupting the sexual tryst she had planned with Jason. Instead, a glitch at the last moment caused him to return home late into the night where he discovered the spent lovers asleep after they had exhausted one another. Jason, who was at once very muscular and athletic, did his best to fend off the fury of Matt's attack. Julie later learned that Jason had left her and went directly to the hospital where x-rays revealed a broken nose and shattered cheekbone. He had called her from the hospital to see if she was okay, and he then apologized to her for what had happened. He told her that he should never have broken his own rule about fooling around with a married woman. Julie thanked him and told him it was probably not a good idea for him to return to check on her; and, he agreed that it wasn't. She assured him that she would be okay, that her sister was on her way over as they spoke. Jason told her that she could call him anytime, but that he wouldn't see her again unless he knew she and Matt had separated for good. Julie knew from the instant Matt had left her for his brother's that she had to have family help to get her through this crisis. She also knew that Matt would never return to her, but she feared that her family would disown her if she told them the truth about her infidelity, about her being caught naked in bed with her black lover. The fact that Jason was black would make things even more difficult for her family to understand. So even before her sister arrived, Julie had concocted the first of many lies that placed the blame for what had transpired squarely on Matt's shoulders, and off her own. For example, she told her sister, Megan, that Matt had been having a secret affair with another lawyer in his office for months, and that he used Jason's presence at their place as an excuse to end the marriage. Julie told her sister that Matt himself had invited Jason to stop in whenever he was in town, and that he also knew Jason would probably spend the night that very night. According to Julie, Matt had said he was disappointed that he would not be able to see Jason due to his business trip. Julie told her sister and her family and friends that Matt had come home while she and Jason were sitting in the living room having a drink, as Jason's flight from New York had arrived at the airport later than expected. She said that they were both fully clothed, and that Matt had clearly had had too much to drink before he got home. She said that when Matt arrived home he was argumentative, and insulting, and eventually combative with Jason. Things spiraled downward as Jason took exception to Matt's manner of behavior toward Julie and then to Jason himself. Julie compounded these lies with others in her attempt to portray what had happened as Matt's fault. Her family bought everything she said, but expressed surprise that Matt would have been having a secret affair, since he always seemed so devoted to Julie. However, they also knew that Matt was an extremely handsome guy who was frequently hit on by members of the opposite sex. Thus, Julie's stories seemed believable. During the first few weeks after Matt had left, Julie had tried repeatedly to contact him to apologize, to try to somehow work things out. When these ongoing attempts to speak with Matt failed, Julie told family and friends that it was not she who was throwing in the towel on the marriage, but rather Matt. She said he was not willing even to talk with her, and she said that she had heard that he was still seeing his girlfriend, and was considering moving in with her. Julie's family and friends were very supportive during this time, and she got a great deal of sympathy from them. But the inner reality for Julie was that she was devastated by the break up of her marriage. She truly loved Matt; she missed him incredibly. She could not think of any sane reason why she had risked such a wonderful marriage to such an incredibly handsome and successful guy, whom she knew loved her so much. She cried easily and often. And, she longed for a chance to meet with Matt so she could explain how foolish she had been, and how sorry she was. She thought if he would just agree to talk with her, she might be able to convince him to give her another chance. Frequently, Julie would wake up at night and experience the depression that accompanied the realization that Matt was gone from their bed. She often thought of how nice it would be to feel his wonderfully sculpted body lying atop of hers, making love to her. She missed Matt emotionally, and she missed him physically. He always slept naked, and Julie would love to feel his tightly muscled body next to hers. Often she would take his cock into her hands and it would swell instantly. Then they would play. And, she recalled what a great cock he had. It fit his wonderful body perfectly, and as an added bonus, it had a very thick mushroom head which she loved sucking. She desperately wanted to make love to him. She thought if only she could do this, she might tempt him back home. At times like these, she remembered how he had kissed her and how wonderful it felt to have him fuck her. She had no idea why she had done what she did with Jason, but she hated herself for it. And she also secretly hated herself for lying about Matt to family and friends. She was terrified that the truth of how awful she had been would come out. In the months following their break up, Julie hated it as word spread that she was single once again. Lots of guys tried to hit on her and wanted to date her. But she realized then what a great husband she had had, not only from the perspective of being a loving husband, but also from the perspective of his totally hot body and handsome face. Looking back on her affair with Jason, she realized that physically Jason and Matt were very much alike, but sexually Matt was really much more fulfilling for her because he was at once very aggressive sexually, but at the same time he was very loving and gentle with her. Sex with Jason was a taboo that at first excited her, but she sensed that he was ultimately into humiliating her. In their final meeting, she felt very much like an object of pleasure for him, and he was not as tender as he had been. As she looked back on it, he no longer held any interest for her at all. No one even tempted her, and her depression deepened. What truly sent her into the deepest depths of depression was the afternoon she received notification from Matt's attorney that divorce papers had been filed. This, more than anything else, stunned Julie. She cried for hours. She just couldn't believe it had come to this. As time wore on, it began to become clear to Julie's family and friends that indeed Matt did not have another woman in his life. Everyone who had seen or talked to him realized that he too was devastated by what had happened. And he was very angry about what he said were Julie's lies about what had really happened. In fact, some of Julie and Matt's mutual friends said he seemed as depressed about the whole break up as she did. Her family and friends started to say that there had to be pieces of the story that Julie had left out. In fact, her sister visited the police precinct in Boston, which had responded to Julie's hysterical call for help on the night Matt had found Julie and Jason together. None of the several officers who were present that night would tell Megan anything, but she suspected that their silence meant that there was more to tell. She waited for the female officer who had been present to come out of the station, and then she pleaded with the woman to tell her anything that she could. The officer looked Julie's sister in the eyes and said simply, "Matt is telling the truth." Then she turned and walked away. When Megan confronted Julie with what the officer had told her, Julie burst into tears. This was the second horrible piece of news Julie had received that day. Hours earlier at her doctor's office she had also learned that indeed her period was not late due to tension, but rather she was in fact about six weeks pregnant. Her mind was on overload, and now the truth about what had happened would be out and compounded by the news of her pregnancy. Julie spilled everything to Megan. Megan listened in silent horror to what her sister was telling her. Megan agreed to keep silent about all of this for the time being. But, she made Julie swear that she would form a plan to tell the truth to everyone at some point in the near future. The pregnancy was a new complication that would be a secret that Megan and Julie would hold in common as long as they could. Julie knew in her heart that the baby was Jason's, not Matt's. For his part, Matt was incredibly depressed for months following his discovery of Julie and Jason. The sense of betrayal he felt was overwhelming. He had loved Julie so much, and every time he thought about that night and finding her naked in bed with Jason, Matt felt sick to his stomach. It was the most hurtful thing he had ever experienced. But, he knew that he had made the right decision to leave her and to have nothing to do with her, especially when he learned of her lies about him. For Matt, her lies made the sense of betrayal worse and the depression even deeper. How could he have married someone like her. She didn't seem like the same person he had loved so completely. His depression was mixed with deep anger, and he found himself on the verge of tears and rage often. He missed Julie and what they had had together so much. Fortunately, his brother Seth kept Matt very busy with going to the gym and with hitting the local bars on weekends. But his heart was not where his body was. The workouts he could do, and he was glad in a way because going to the gym for a couple of hours each day took his mind off his situation. However, going to bars and dealing with women coming on to him did not interest him at all. Nevertheless, gradually, over a period of months, he began to move on. And as he did, his anger and scorn for Julie's behavior and lies intensified. He told himself that she had somehow changed, and that she was not worth any further thought on his part. His parents were so concerned that they made him promise to keep three appointments with a therapist. They had been very fearful, they told Matt later, that he would kill himself. At first, Matt acquiesced just to get his parents off his back. But after two sessions, he decided to continue. The counseling did help a lot, and he kept it up for about six months, and then tapered his sessions down to about once per month. Into the seventh month away from Julie, Matt began to date various women he had known. It was strange to do this after so many years, but it was a start for him. Eventually, he started having sex again, but he found it somewhat disappointing. None of the women he went out with could compare with Julie, and he had not yet found anyone with whom he even thought he could ever come close to loving the way he had loved Julie. Sex with Julie had always been an intensely pleasurable experience for Matt. She was so hot, and she seemed so into doing it with him. He thought she felt the same way about sex with him. Somehow, after finding her with Jason, he felt as though he was inadequate in some way. He had never, ever felt that way in high school or college. But she had shaken his confidence in himself. Gradually, he realized that he was more than adequate, and his self-confidence returned. And, once word got out that he was dating, the number of women who were after him was incredible. Little by little, he adjusted to the changes in his life. He found himself fearful of getting too close to anyone however. He knew this was Julie's fault, and he thought that maybe this would change with time as well. Meanwhile, because of all of the stress that had been introduced into Julie's life, she finished the semester at law school, but did not return for the second semester of her second year. Instead, she began work in a law firm as a paralegal, and she hoped that she could finish her law studies in a year or so. She no longer had money to pay for school, and since Matt's family owned the town house that they had shared, she finally moved from there five months after the separation. While Julie had lots of interest from guys who wanted to date her, she did no dating at all. She was plagued by problems associated with her secret pregnancy; she was still totally depressed by the mess she had made of her life, and she was hoping against hope that Matt would someday come around. As the months passed, she realized that this was not a realistic hope, and this realization brought on a new wave of depression. Fortunately for Julie, her sister Megan was a great help to her. In fact, it was Megan who arranged for Julie to see a therapist in the hopes that she could begin to work out some of her many issues. Two weeks after Julie moved from the town house, she delivered her baby three months prematurely. She had told no one but Megan about the pregnancy. She did not know whose child she was carrying, but she had determined that she would do her best by that child no matter who was the father. Her innermost desire was that the child would be Matt's, and she hoped that the baby would be her link to him forever. The baby died within hours of birth due to complications associated with its lungs. The baby was clearly biracial. A week later, Julie called Jason to share the news. He was sensitive and kind. He was very interested in getting together with Julie since it was clear she and Matt had split. However, Julie told him she just had no interest in doing so. Staying in counseling for the next seven months helped Julie immensely. Things did not change between her and Matt, but she had achieved a much better understanding of herself, especially after her pregnancy ended. During this time, Julie realized that Megan was right about making a clean start, and telling everyone the truth about what had really happened, and about how none of it was Matt's fault. Fourteen months after the breakup of their marriage, Julie and Matt were officially divorced. It had cost her nothing financially, but emotionally it was perhaps her lowest point since the death of her baby. Little by little, Julie was getting back on track with her life. She had managed to start law school once again and was about to finally finish that journey. In addition, she had even gone on a couple of dates, but she felt empty inside still because she continued to miss Matt and what they had. But, she also knew that she had to move on because it was over. She was making progress, but sometimes she had setbacks. Once, while eating lunch with Megan, Julie spied Matt enter the restaurant with an incredibly hot looking young woman who seemed as though she was completely taken with him. Julie was sure Matt had seen her, but he totally ignored her presence. It might very well have been a business lunch, but in Julie's mind all she could imagine was Matt naked in bed with this remarkably beautiful lady. This was the first time she had seen him in over a year, and she simply could not believe how good he looked. He had clearly been working out seriously, and if it was possible, Matt looked even hotter now than he had two years ago. He had let his hair get quite a bit longer, and he looked so sexy she thought. Seeing him looking so good, and seeing him with such a beautiful woman, was too much for Julie. She broke down sobbing, and had to leave before finishing. It was after this that Julie decided that it was time for her to be honest about things. She admitted to herself that her predicament was totally her fault, and that the only thing she had left was her integrity. She decided to repair that as best as she could. So, just shy of the two year point after their break up, Julie wrote her letter. Spending hours on the composition of her letter, Julie finally felt comfortable with the end product. She addressed it to Matt's family, to her own family, and to some close friends whom Matt and she had shared in common two years earlier. Essentially, she prefaced what she said with a note indicating that she was writing to everyone for two important reasons. First, she needed very much to set the record straight about things she had said about Matt immediately after the two of them separated nearly two years earlier. She also indicated that it was time for her to apologize not only to Matt but to his family, to her own family, and to their friends for her lack of sincerity. So, without going into the sordid details of her infidelity, Julie finally confirmed that everything that Matt had said about finding her with Jason was factual and truthful. She went on to explain that her lies about Matt were founded in her own incredible embarrassment for her behavior in the matter, and in her fear that family and friends would disown her for her horrible actions. Julie further described briefly how wonderful her marriage to Matt had been, how incredible he had been to have as a husband, and how sorry she was for what she had done to him. She also noted that she realized that her apology was very much overdue, and that it could not undo the damage she had done. But, she said she hoped that at the very least it would serve to clear any doubts on the part of anyone regarding what a terrific guy Matt had been. Megan looked over her sister's letter and responded by hugging her. "Julie, I'm so sorry any of this happened. This had to be tough for you to do. And, you're right, it won't undo anything, but I think everyone will have to respect you more for it. I'm not sure what Matt will think, but I have to believe that even if he never talks to you again, he will know that the Julie he used to know is finally back again." Julie did not send the same letter to Matt. The one she wrote to him was much more difficult. She had started and restarted her letter to him at least fifty times. But when she was done with it, she felt as though a huge weight had been lifted from her shoulders. Julie did not really believe that Matt would ever read her letter. She hoped he would because she really yearned for him to sense the depth of her sorrow for how cruel she had been. Nevertheless, she sealed it and sent it, sensing that this really was like the final chapter in their relationship. Julie began her letter by simply asking Matt to bear with her one final time and to read what she had to say. She opened with a thank you to Matt for having been such a loving and devoted husband and boyfriend before that. She told Matt that she could not explain what ever possessed her to be unfaithful to him and to have sex with Jason. But for this too, she took responsibility. She told Matt that it was she who had started with Jason, and not the other way around. She told Matt that it was only when he left her that she began to appreciate what she had had and what she had lost. Apologizing for her many lies immediately after their separation, Julie explained that she was at once desperately embarrassed by what she had done as well as very afraid of the scorn she knew people would have for her if the truth were out. For these lies, she said she was especially sorry because they further added to the hurt she had caused Matt. She said that while she knew she could never undo what she had done, she told Matt that her deepest regret in her entire life would always be how horribly she had treated him. She also told him that she would always love him, and that she knew she could never be in love anyone as much as she had been in love with him. Business & Pleasure Ch. 05 Finally, she told Matt that should he ever have any doubt at all, Jason was no where as near as good in bed as he was. She told Matt about how she and Megan had seen him recently in the restaurant and how hot he continued to look. In fact, she mentioned that she knew he had spent a lot of time at the gym, and she knew that he must be having a hard time fighting off all of the women who were after his incredible body. Without letting herself spiral out of control in her writing, she told Matt sincerely that even two years later she longed to touch his perfect body and to be touched by it. Finally, she apologized once more and wished him well. She told him that she would love to talk with him some time in the future if he ever felt he could forgive her enough to speak with her again. When Matt received Julie's letter, he had already heard about her other letter that his family had received. He was irritated that his parents and his brother and sister had commented about how it had been a good thing for her to finally do. Matt didn't want to hear anything positive about her because he had grown to despise her. And now that she was acting like the Julie everyone remembered from days gone by, he was pissed that family and friends had softened their feelings about her now that she had told the truth. So, Matt's first reaction when he recognized Julie's writing was renewed anger. He took what appeared to be a personal letter to him from her, and he tore it up and threw it in the waste basket. Everyone else could read her lies, but he had had his fill of them. He wanted nothing to do with her. Except he knew that now she was finally telling the truth. But it was too late as far as he was concerned. That night, Matt went on yet another date with Kelly, a young woman Seth had introduced him to a few months back. Matt liked Kelly, she was cute, bright, great in bed. For Matt, Kelly was great company but was not someone he could ever see himself with long term, at least not yet. Kelly noticed that he seemed distracted, not himself. He finally told her that he just felt lousy because Julie had sent him a letter, and he was irritated that his family had seemed to soften their view of her now. Kelly was sympathetic, and supported Matt's decision to throw away the letter. But she could still tell it bothered him. Matt dropped Kelly at her place without going in to spend the night. He told her he would not be good company but would see her the next day. Arriving at his new town house, which his parents had recently given him, Matt found he could not sleep, so he made himself a drink. He was still irritated about Julie and her letters. Now he wished he was still living at Seth's place, so the two of them could talk. Finally, after pouring himself another drink, Matt went to the trash and retrieved the letter, taping it together. He hesitated, feeling very strange holding something he knew Julie had touched and crafted for him. But he finally read all that she had to say. Seeing Julie's handwriting again, and reading her words, which he knew were so sincere was too much for him. He was overcome with anger and sadness. He was still angry because of what Julie had ruined for both of them. And strangely, he felt his own anger toward her softening because her words seemed so much like those of the Julie he knew and loved what seemed like many years ago. Matt cried himself to sleep that night. The next morning, sober, he reread the letter and cried harder. He knew that he was not going to duplicate with anyone else what he and Julie had had; and he hated her now for ending it for both of them. And yet, he knew her sorrow was sincere. He appreciated her honesty, although it was late in coming. And he knew that she could have left things the way they were, but she had decided to tell the truth. Matt thought that he was over Julie, and he was surprised by the impact of her letter on him. When Seth arrived to go to the gym with him, Matt's eyes were still red from all of the crying. Immediately, knowing that something had happened, Seth pressed his brother to find out what was wrong. Matt couldn't speak. He just handed Seth the taped letter from Julie. "Dude, I'm so sorry. I know this hurts. I didn't say anything to you about the letter she sent me cuz I knew you would freak. She's moving on, or trying to, and I think she is really sorry. But, I know it's too late for that Bro. Are you thinking of talkin to her?" Matt started to cry once again, something he had not done in front of Seth for a long, long time. "Seth, I don't want to fucking see her. She pisses me off so much. I am pissed at myself for reading her fuckin letter. She should have thought about all this shit before she fucked her black stud. Suddenly, I am the one she has always loved, and she will miss me always. Bullshit! I am so fucking pissed, I can't even tell you. Why now? Why does she have to feel good about herself now. She fucking lied for almost two years, and now all of a sudden everyone is supposed to feel so good about her. I hate what she did to me. I can still see the two of them together in our bed. And when I read this letter, I know she's really sorry for all of this shit, but it's too late Seth. She fucked him, and then she tried to fuck me. The lies she told about me were awful. And, what's worse, people believed her! Now, she writes this shit........where's her black stud now?" Matt was crying and yelling at the same time. For Seth, this was the eruption that he thought was underneath for the past year or so. He tried to calm Matt, but figured he should just let it happen. "And the worst fucking thing about all of this is that when I read her letter.......I still fucking miss her. I loved her so much. I wish she would just stop." Matt couldn't talk anymore and Seth just hugged him and let him cry it out. "Matt, you'll be okay. I knew it would freak you if she sent you an apology. But, I think she's sincere, even if her timing sucks." "You know what Seth, the bizarre thing is that I actually feel sorry for her cuz I know her letter is genuine, and I know she's truly sorry and finally doing the right thing. And I really want to talk to her, but I am not sure if I ever could. But, after I read the letter, I guess I just knew that she's devastated like I was and am, and she's trying to say she's sorry." Seth had never seen his brother so upset, not since the night Matt found Julie and Jason. But Seth and the rest of his family wanted Matt to get his stuff together and move on, and this was his chance. Seth was going to press Matt to meet Julie and put some closure to this. He hoped that Matt would do it. Matt did not know about it until much later, but Seth left a message for Julie asking her to call Matt directly and ask to meet for a drink and possibly dinner, just to talk. He told her Matt needed closure as she did. He thanked her on her machine, and he hoped it would happen. Julie was excited to hear Seth's message, and she nervously called Matt's office and left him a voice mail asking him for drinks and dinner on her the following Friday afternoon and evening. She told his machine that she would understand if he declined, but she hoped he would not. Matt played Julie's message for Seth who said, "Dude, you are fucking divorced. If she wants to apologize in person, fuckin get it over with and then go fuck Kelly's brains out. You won't be able to string that beauty along forever you know. She wants you, and every other guy in Boston wants her. But you have to do this first, Bro. This is eating you up. It has been for almost two years. Get it over with already." "Maybe I should call Jason and see if he wants to do dinner with her afterwards." Matt said sarcastically to his brother. "Cut the shit, Matt. You know that's over with her. Do this for you, not for her. You should have done this two years ago. Do it and then do Kelly." Seth said with a smile. "Seth, you know I am about more than just sex. Kelly is real hot. I mean, she is the closest to matching Julie's body that I have come, but I just don't think the chemistry is right. She's wants to get married in the worst way, and there's no way that even interests me right now. So, the sex with her is fine, but she's constantly pushing the marriage thing every chance she gets." "Bro, did you just say you are about more than just sex? Did I really just hear you say that? When did you change? And, I have to say, Kelly is definitely Julie's equal in the looks department. She is so fuckin hot. Believe me, being married to her would not be a problem for most guys. That's why you have to talk with Julie, and close that chapter for good. You'll probably feel much different once that's over." Matt listened to Seth and smiled. He knew that Kelly would be perfect for Seth. She was incredibly beautiful and loved fucking, and those were Seth's first and foremost requirements for anyone he dated. But for Matt, there had to be the chemistry as well, and so far, he had not experienced that chemistry with anyone he had dated. It had been there from the start with Julie. And he knew he would recognize it immediately if it happened again. But for now, he didn't like using someone like Kelly just for the sex. He couldn't say that to Seth, because he knew his younger brother would not be able to process that. If Kelly were just a few years younger, Seth would be all over her. "Okay. I will accept Julie's invitation for a drink, and I will let her say what she has to say. It won't be easy, and I'm sure she'll probably be crying all over the place. But, my therapist thinks it might be good closure for both of us, and my friend Adele who I've confided a lot of this stuff in also thinks it might not be a bad idea." Matt was much more anxious than he let on. Seeing Julie after all of this time would be tough for him, but if she could do it, so could he. He had no idea what they'd talk about. He did not want to relive their last moments together. He figured he would just kind of let it happen. He called her apartment when he figured she would be at work, and he left a message saying he could meet her Friday afternoon at about four. For the rest of the week, Matt was totally distracted and nervous. His secretary asked him what was going on, because he was not focused the way he usually was. When Julie heard Matt's voice message, her heart raced and she simultaneously burst into tears. She was overjoyed that he was going to meet her, and she was terrified. She had to tell herself that it was just a chance for her to apologize and nothing more. And she did sincerely want to apologize to Matt for ruining their marriage. She didn't know if she could do it without dissolving into tears and breaking down, but she was going to give it her best effort. When Julie arrived at the bar just a few minutes early on Friday afternoon, she was the object of many a look from the patrons at the upscale watering hole. She was dressed conservatively in a business suit as she had had a presentation earlier in the day at her law firm. Matt was right on time and Julie felt her heart race again as she saw her former husband up close and approaching her. As she looked at the somewhat thinner, but incredibly good looking young man approaching her, Julie could not believe that she could have screwed things up with this remarkably hot guy. His hair was longer now, not quite shaggy, and it looked fantastic. His cheeks had a natural redness that almost looked like make up. The cleft in his chin, the dark eyebrows......she so missed fucking him. She knew the instant she saw him that she was still very deeply in love with this man whom she had hurt so much. When Matt spotted Julie, he checked his watch, afraid that he had kept her waiting. He hadn't. Looking at his former wife, Matt was taken with how totally stunning she was. She looked absolutely beautiful in every way. He felt his heart in his throat. He had loved her so much, and she had hurt him so much. As Matt came toward her, he felt a little awkward, but he bent down and kissed her lightly on her cheek. "You look great Jules." "Thanks Matt. Thanks for agreeing to meet me. And you're the one who looks great. You look like you've been doing some serious working out." "Thanks, do you want to grab a drink?" Matt asked and motioned toward the door of the bar. He figured he would have one drink and be out of there. He felt uneasy, and wasn't sure what she had in mind. But now that he was here his feelings were a mixture of missing her all over again, and hating her for what she had done. "Sure." And, they went in and sat at a table near the corner and to the side. The waitress was at the table immediately and took their order. Julie ordered a glass of wine, and Matt ordered a scotch on the rocks. She had thought about having something non alcoholic, but figured she needed something with alcohol to get her through this. When the waitress left the table, Julie and Matt's eyes met. Matt realized that this was the first time he had looked her in the face since before he had found her with Jason. He was once again taken with how beautiful she was. Her skin and coloring was perfect. Her hair was a soft sandy blonde. It fell at her shoulders perfectly. Her eyes, lips, and nose were flawless as he remembered them. Matt was tempted to look away, but decided not to. He said nothing. Julie returned the look at her incredibly handsome former husband. He was so hot she thought in her mind. Seeing him immediately rekindled memories of hot sex with him. She recalled how she had loved his perfect body. And now, it seemed to be even more perfectly defined if that was possible. Julie smiled warmly and her eyes seemed to tear just a little. "Matt, I am so grateful you decided to meet with me. This is kind of therapeutic for me, and I can tell you honestly that I am doing it partly out of selfishness because I really do have the need to express my sincere and deepest apologies to you for how miserably I failed you two years ago. Not only did I hurt you with Jason, but then the awful lies I told were just the worst." As she talked, Matt could see her eyes starting to fill up. For his part, he just stared at her and said nothing. He figured he would let her talk. His anger was more manageable now, and he found he could listen to her, whereas a year ago he could not have. "But finally, while I know I cannot undo the terrible things I did, I can take full responsibility for them. Matt, I can't express to you deeply enough how despicable I view my actions as being. You did not deserve it, and I have no idea why I did any of it. You were nothing short of the perfect husband for me, and I screwed it up. And, when I lost you Matt, you cannot imagine how horrible I felt. In fact, you may have a hard time believing this, but I still feel horrible, and I miss you every day, even now. And what's so hard is that I am completely to blame for all of this." Julie's eyes were about to spill tears, and Matt could feel his own eyes starting to tear, partly because of the memory of how he had felt when he found her and Jason, and partly because she was sitting in front of him clearly demonstrating how sorry she felt for her actions. The drinks arrived, and the waitress could see that Julie was upset. She put the drinks down quickly and left. Matt had the urge to take Julie's hands and tell her he was over it, and not to get herself all worked up. He could see she was upset, but he also felt she deserved to be. He refrained from taking her hands and just tried to calm her a bit. "Julie, I decided to meet you today primarily because of the letters you sent to our families and to me. Almost two years later, I was surprised to see you did that. But I am glad you did, because a lot of people saw that I was not the monster that you said I was. While I was pissed that you said that stuff about me, I was also happy you finally set the record straight. But, Jules, you don't have to do this now. This is kind of therapeutic for me too, and I am glad we are meeting, but I guess I should tell you that you don't have to say all of this, because you already did in your letters. I don't want to sit here with a beautiful woman who is crying her eyes out. People will think I did something to you. So please....you've already said it once. And I appreciate that you did. Since we're here for at least one drink, can you at least tell me what you've been up to for the last two years? You look terrific today, so some of the time must have been okay for you." Matt managed a smile as he said this. Dabbing her eyes, she said: "Thanks, you always had a way of making tough things easier for me. Besides regretting the biggest mistake of my life, I have been working lately on trying to reconstruct the ruins I had made of it when I lost you. At first, I think you know I left school for a semester, then I lived with my sister for a short time while I worked. Finally, I was able to get the school thing done, and now I work for a tiny firm, hoping to climb out of the trenches and get a career going. You probably don't know that I have a tiny efficiency on Beacon Hill. High rent for the prestige, but I have loved it there since we lived there. Dating wise, I have done some, but not a lot. I've been too busy with school and now work. Maybe that will happen sometime. I have not been out with a guy for months, and I just don't have the feeling that I want to. You want the truth? I can't find anyone even as remotely good looking or as nice as you. That's the truth. And I kick myself for it every day. Really." Julie looked into Matt's eyes and he saw that hers were starting to tear again. "You on the other hand have been really busy from what my sources tell me." You've got a new place, and are going out with some really hot looking woman I hear. I am not surprised by that. When we first separated, I knew there was a long list of women who wanted you." Matt smiled. "Who is kidding who? Julie look at you. You must have had guys coming from every direction after you." He was surprised to hear that she wasn't dating, and wondered if that was really true. She seemed like she was telling the truth, but he just didn't know if he could trust what she said. He did know one thing while he was looking at her, she was absolutely stunning, and he felt a stirring in his loins and stomach that surprised him after all that had happened. He did know that he missed the hot sex the two of them had together. And seeing her up close once again, he experienced that same sexual excitement that he had always felt around her. Plain and simply, she turned him on big time. He wondered mentally how many guys she had had sex with over the past two years. He felt a little jealous, almost like she was still partly his woman exclusively. "Anyway, I have done some dating, but to be honest with you, it's been just okay. I guess after we split, I got into going to the gym with Seth to keep my mind off of things. And then I really got into work and so I guess I just have not been into the dating scene like we both were ten years ago. Must be the age!" Matt commented with a smile. Julie's stomach tingled when Matt smiled. It was a relaxed smile, genuine, not artificially put on for today's meeting. And she felt the familiar tingling she experienced when she looked at him and realized how hot and handsome he was. Julie was puzzled by what Matt had said, because her friends had told her that Kelly and Matt were very seriously dating and it looked like it was a pretty hot relationship all around. She wasn't sure if Matt was just leaving that out because he thought it was none of her business, but she had to know. "My sources must be wrong Matt. And, I don't want you to think that I am checking up on you, but my friends feel the need to report to me what you are doing. Of course, they don't know that I hate hearing about you with someone else. But they tell me that your latest squeeze is someone who's really hot and that the two of you are really into one another. I think her name is Kelly. And, Matt, I hope that you have found someone who will be better to you than I was. You deserve that, really!" As she said this, Matt noticed that more tears started up in Julie's eyes. Matt blushed a little as he looked into her eyes. Business & Pleasure Ch. 05 "Jules, thanks. But your sources are off the mark. No one special yet. Honest!" A tear ran down Julie's cheek and Matt sensed then that she still had deep feelings for him. "Jules, that's nice of you to say, but honestly, before we split........let me just put it this way.......no one could have been better to me that you were. And, I guess you know, that's why finding you with Jason was so tough. And, I know you have apologized, and I don't want to upset you. But Jules, trying to recapture what we had with someone else is going to be real tough. And, I just have not found anyone who I can do that with yet." Matt's eyes glazed over just a bit as well, Julie noted. The awkward moment was interrupted by the waitress who continued to look concerned as she noted that both Julie and Matt were teary eyed. They each ordered another drink and Matt continued. "Our waitress must think we're beating up on one another. Now we are both looking pretty upset. He smiled through his watery eyes. Let me change the pace for a moment. Where are you working out these days? You look like you're in incredible shape." He said with a smile, intentionally looking her up and down. Julie smiled back, glad to have a change in the topic. But she was taken by what Matt had said. It told her that her belief that she had screwed up a great thing was true for not just her, but for him too. It was kind of him to have said what he did. "I go to the little gym next to our office. It's convenient, fairly cheap, and not crowded most of the time." For the next hour and a half, Julie and Matt talked about work, mutual friends they had not seen for a while, their families, their jobs. They each had several more drinks and had relaxed quite a bit. They each found talking to the other was easy now that the early tension had dissolved. And each of them sat looking at the other thinking inwardly of how intensely they missed one another. Julie found herself looking at Matt's tightly fitting dress shirt, thinking of the smoothly muscled body underneath it. She missed that body in her bed so many nights, and now here it was up close once again. For his part, Matt took in not only Julie's body, but also he was struck by how at ease she now seemed, how relaxed, and how sweet. The nasty Julie of right after the split had transformed into the Julie he remembered fondly. They had now been in the bar for over two hours, and Matt felt the alcohol. "Jules, I've got to have something to eat, or I will get on the wrong trolley and probably get mugged. Do you want to grab a bite with me, or do you have plans?" Even though she was feeling the effects of several glasses of wine, she did not want this to end, and she was thrilled that Matt didn't want to rush off either. "Matt, be serious. I almost never have plans on a Friday night. I'd love to have dinner. Do you want to do it here?" Matt put their names in for a table, and the waitress smiled and said she would sneak them in soon. She told them she was worried at first for them, they seemed pretty upset. She smiled and walked away. Matt and Julie continued to talk about a wide range of things, and they reminisced a lot and laughed a lot. They were both having a great time, and they both realized how much they still enjoyed one another's company. Over dinner, they continued to talk, stopping only occasionally at an awkward moment. Neither one of them wanted dinner to end, or for that matter the evening itself. They were enjoying one another too much. Following dinner, they each had coffee and talked some more. Julie was clearly just a little tipsy from the wine and Matt was concerned that about her getting home. He offered to drop her off, but she did not think it a good idea for him to drive after having had about six drinks himself. Matt smiled at her concern, but agreed that she was right. He told her he would get a cab that could drop her and then him. Julie was desperate for a way to keep the evening going. She realized that this would probably never happen again if it ended now. At the risk of embarrassing herself, she asked Matt if he wanted to come in and see her place. As the cab pulled up to Julie's apartment, Matt accepted the offer and paid the cabby. As they walked up to her building, Matt told her how much he liked the building and its proximity to the Boston Common. Once inside her place, Matt noticed how really tiny it was, but he claimed that he it was perfect for one person. "I know you're just being nice Matt. But, just wait, I will have a nice place someday. Do you want a scotch?" Matt said he could stay for just one, and accepted. "Matt, this was great this evening. Thank you so much for being so gracious. And, you no idea how hard it will be to see you leave tonight, knowing that I totally blew what we had." Julie's tears returned. For the first time that evening, Matt moved toward Julie and hugged her. "Jules, don't. You'll be okay. And, I am glad you invited me for drinks and dinner tonight, even though you let me pay." Matt smiled at her. She smiled back with tears streaming down her face. "I will always love you, Matt. I screwed it up, but I will always love you. Tonight proved that for me. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do this. I think it's the alcohol, but it's still the truth. And I didn't tell you, but I miss you so much, you have no idea. " Matt loosened his hug just slightly, and with tears starting in his own eyes said: "Jules, we were about an hour into drinks when I realized that I'll never be able to love anyone like I do you. And I have missed you too. But babe, you hurt me so much!" "Matt, I don't know if you can, but please forgive me." Matt looked at Julie's beautiful face, with her tears streaming. He couldn't resist the urge. He moved his lips to hers and they locked in an impassioned kiss that lasted for many, many long minutes. They did not speak any more. They just kissed and hugged, and then their hands began exploring the long lost, but not forgotten territory of one another's bodies. Without speaking a word, over the next half hour, they continued in a passionate frenzy to kiss, to touch, and to explore. They undressed one another, and kissed, and touched, and sucked more. Julie felt Matt's tightly muscled body and remembered its incredible definition and strength. Matt revisited Julie's body with his hands and mouth, kissing her everywhere. As Matt entered his former wife for the first time in nearly two years, he remembered well the moist pleasure chute, its tightness, how it grasped his throbbing wand. Their first orgasm happened simultaneously as Matt exploded into Julie and she screamed in incredible pleasure. Their two perfect bodies clung to one another tightly in the pleasure of the moment. Matt stayed hard, never softening after his first climax. Julie could not have enough of him and held his ass cheeks tightly as he pumped repeatedly into her willing pussy. Julie sobbed and wept as it happened. "I have missed you so much. I never thought we would do this again. I am so, so sorry, Matt. Babe, I have missed you too. You have no idea. It hurt so much to see you, but now you're back Jules. And I still love you. Looking as his beautiful lover below him, her cheeks blushing with excitement, her full breasts. Matt loved the feel of Julie below him once again. He especially loved fucking her. She felt so good, so tight, so hot. Julie and Matt, with their discarded clothes spread all over her tiny apartment, fucked over, and over, and over that night and well into the morning. Matt finally shut off his cell phone, which had repeated messages from Seth, family members, and friends, wondering what happened to him. Finally, the two new found lovers fell into a deep sleep and awakened late Saturday morning. Again, they fucked well into the afternoon, making up for many lost months. Julie cried repeatedly, apologized repeatedly, and rejoiced in having Matt back in her bed. For his part, Matt just loved the feel of Julie's soft body, her full breasts, her wonderful ass, and her incredibly tight pussy. He loved being naked with her, and he loved touching and exploring her. Early Saturday evening, Matt and Julie got dressed and grabbed something to eat before going to his town house located directly across from the public garden on Beacon Hill. Ignoring phone calls, Matt let them all go to voice mail. The two lovers spent Saturday evening and most of the day Sunday at his place, which was many times larger than Julie's. Matt did call Seth, leaving a message that all was okay and that he would be in touch on Sunday. For Julie and Matt, this was the beginning of a long journey back. Thanks for you comments.