20 comments/ 142167 views/ 69 favorites Fantasies of My Brother By: Xarth Sean was my older brother and for a long time I'd had a crush on him. He was pretty much the worst guy I could possibly be attracted to as far as I was concerned. For starters, there next to no chance he would ever feel the same way about his annoying, eighteen-year-old little sister as I felt about him. It wasn't just that he was completely unattainable, that was pretty common for crushes as far as I could tell. It was always having him around, never getting a break from the fantasies floating around in my head. Every time I met him in the hallway coming out of the shower with his hair still damp and a towel wrapped around his waist, every time I watched him swimming laps in the pool in our backyard, thoughts would surface in my head and drive me crazy. He really was good looking, it wasn't just me who thought so. My friends talked about it sometimes, occasionally admitting their own crushes on him, but of course I could never tell them how I felt. That was one of the worst parts about it; I had nobody to talk to. The guilt had been really bad when I first realized how I felt about him, but that had faded over time. These days the main concern I had as I lay in bed at night masturbating to images of my brother was that someone would find out. In my mind that would be disaster. Who would ever want to hang out with me if they knew something like that about me? Especially Sean. He was a pretty good older brother to me once he grew out of constantly picking on me but I was sure if he ever found out about my crush he would want nothing to do with me. Fortunately he seemed completely oblivious to the attention I paid him. Given all the times I had caught myself staring at him it was a wonder he hadn't yet noticed. **** I was lying out on a lounger beside our pool working on my tan, nothing uncommon for me during the summer. Sean was just finishing up mowing the lawn and I had of course been surreptitiously watching him whenever he came into view. I had gotten quite good at leaving my eyelids open just enough to see through without anyone being able to tell. And when that was too difficult I could always fall back on simply wearing a pair of sunglasses. Eventually he put the mower away in the garage and came over to sit down on the chair next to mine. He didn't speak for a minute or two, and I did my best to pretend I didn't even notice him. "How's the tan coming Ashley?" he asked. I shrugged, "not bad. Need more sunny days like this, it's been too cloudy lately." "Should make sure you don't burn," he said casually. "I'm being careful," I replied, completely failing to pick up on his tone. "Just in case maybe we should cool you off." I squealed as he picked me up, finally catching on to what he was up to. "Sean wait, I..." He ignored me and tossed me into the pool. As I surfaced and pushed my hair back out of my face I saw him staring stupidly at me and starting to blush. "Could I have my top please?" I asked quietly. I had been lying on my stomach and had untied my bikini top to avoid getting a tan line across my back. Sean didn't realize that when he picked me up but he had definitely become aware. "Yeah sure," he mumbled before throwing me my top. He turned away as I put it on, giving me what privacy he could. "Sorry about that Ash, I really didn't... it wasn't...." "I know it wasn't on purpose, it's okay. Really." I probably should have been as embarrassed as he was, probably should have been at least a little upset; I wasn't though. It really was just an accident, not like he was being mean. Aside from throwing me in the pool anyway. He offered a hand to me and helped pull me out of the water. If I was feeling vindictive I would have given him a shove toward the pool as he stood there awkwardly. Instead I picked up my towel and headed inside. A new fantasy was already building in my mind and I wanted to get to my room as quickly as possible. I forced myself to dry off properly first, no point dripping water over the floor and getting in trouble later. Once safely inside my room with the door locked I was naked on my bed within seconds. Various scenarios played out in my head as my fingers worked furiously on my pussy. Sometimes Sean would refuse to give me my top, forcing me to climb out of the water and try to retrieve it on my own. He would grab my breasts as I passed him and I would pretend not to like it but he would ignore me. I would end up on the ground running my fingers through his hair as he sucked on my nipples and stroked my pussy with his hand. Other times it went much like it actually did, only Sean would admit to me that he liked seeing my breasts. I would offer to let him feel them and eventually he would. I would just stand there as he felt me up, then our eyes would meet and he would kiss me. It would be gentle at first, then his tongue would press into my mouth and his hand would hold my head firmly against his. Somehow we always ended up fucking beside the pool, that was the part that turned me on the most. I came three times just thinking about it and eventually had to stop masturbating for a while. As I lay on my back waiting for my breath to return to normal I looked over at the clock beside my bed. I had been at it for almost an hour which was a pretty long time even for me. My hand lazily stroked the side of my thigh and worked its way back to my clit. I just had to hope I didn't overdo it and pass out from dehydration or something, that would be extremely awkward. **** "You mean he actually saw you topless?" I was talking to Julie on the phone when the story slipped out. I hadn't actually decided whether I should tell anyone about it, but she was my best friend and I knew she would keep it secret. "Yeah. It was kinda funny actually when he realized what he did. He was so embarrassed," I said. "Do you think its going to be awkward between you guys?" she asked. "Nah, I don't think its a big deal really. He probably doesn't even care except that I might be mad." There was a pause on the other end and I almost thought we might have gotten disconnected. "I dunno Ash, he might have been embarrassed because he liked seeing you, y'know, topless," she said hesitantly. Her comment freaked me out for a second, I was worried that she somehow found out about my fantasies. I took a deep breath and tried to calm down. She didn't actually know anything, she was just speculating. It might even have just been a joke except that didn't seem like something she would joke about. "Yeah right, I'm sure Sean wants to see his little sister naked," I shot back, hoping my pause hadn't been too long. "Whatever you say. But it does happen Ash, I'm just saying." I chewed on my lip as my mind raced. She didn't seem to be bothered by the idea of Sean wanting to look at me. The question was whether she would be bothered by what I wanted to tell her. I was so tired of keeping it secret that the opportunity was too much to pass up. "Julie," I said slowly, "I want to tell you something, but it has to be a secret. Like you can't tell anybody, ever. And I really hope it doesn't freak you out." "I promise Ashley, cross my heart." She sounded intrigued, excited even. Only because she didn't know what I was going to tell her; the best I could hope for after that was indifference. "I kinda... have thoughts about Sean. Like bad thoughts. Where he's... naked and stuff." I was making a mess of what I wanted to say, it wasn't coming out right. "Oh, yeah. I figured," she replied. It took a moment for her statement to sink in, I couldn't even comprehend its significance. "Wait, what? You knew?" That was bad. That was very bad. Not that she knew so much, she clearly wasn't all that upset. But I had never told anyone as far as I could recall which meant it must be obvious how I felt. Fuck, maybe everyone knew. Maybe they were all laughing about it behind my back. I was just the girl with a crush on her own brother and couldn't even keep it a secret. "Yeah, sorry Ash. I've been pretty sure for a while that something was going on there. You know how I say you talk in your sleep? Well his name comes up a lot when you're dreaming. Among other things" I was relieved to say the least. If Julie had only worked it out because of what I said in my sleep then I was probably safe. She was the only person who had slept in the same room as me for a long time, so I didn't have to worry about anybody else knowing. **** Being able to talk to Julie helped a lot; I didn't feel nearly so alone anymore. All the worrying I'd done about telling her seemed silly in hindsight since she was nothing but supportive toward me. If she felt any negative feelings toward me at all she never showed so much as a hint of them. The rest of my life remained pretty consistent, I still fantasized about Sean and masturbated way too much. He was unsurprisingly awkward around me at times, particularly when I was sunbathing. I ignored it for the most part since I assumed everything would get back to normal soon. Everything did not, however, get back to normal. I was usually really good about keeping my door locked when I was feeling horny, someone would have caught me masturbating long ago if I wasn't. Obviously I wasn't quite as meticulous about it as I should have been. I was just coming down from yet another self-inflicted orgasm when I saw Sean standing in the doorway, his hand still on the doorknob. We stared at each other stupidly as we shared a moment of panic for what seemed like hours. "I thought I heard my name..." he mumbled and looked down at the floor. "Jesus fuck Sean, get out!" I shouted, finally reacting to the situation. I pulled my blanket over my naked body even though it was too late to do much good, then pulled it over my head before burying my face in my pillow. Hiding wouldn't help but I couldn't think of what else to do. The floorboards creaked quietly as Sean approached the bed. "Go away!" I tried to yell but my words lacked the proper force. Tears were welling up in my eyes, he knew my secret now. He heard me say his name, I didn't remember doing do but it could easily have slipped out while I was cumming. He definitely knew I was masturbating when I said it too. Maybe if I'd had clothes on at the time I could have passed it off as something else, but getting caught naked with my hand still lying on my cunt was pretty incriminating. "Ashley, are you okay?" He sat down beside me on the bed. Why wouldn't he just leave me alone? "Th'fuck do you think?" I said, still talking into my pillow. "I think you're upset." I was going to say something sarcastic to that but he cut me off. "Ash, I think things are getting weird between us and I don't want that. For what it's worth I'm willing to pretend this didn't happen. It's not worth losing our relationship over." I didn't answer immediately. What did he mean 'pretend it didn't happen' anyway? It was still going to be lurking at the back of his mind whenever he saw me. Can't just reset everything. On the other hand he wasn't reacting nearly as badly as he could be so that was something. He could have been angry, or pitying, or even disgusted with me instead of trying to work things out. The least I could do was play along. "M'sorry," I mumbled. "It's alright Ash, you can't always help...." I waited for him to finish his sentence, but instead he abruptly rose and walked out of the room. I knew what he was thinking though; you can't always help who you're attracted to. I knew that all too well. **** Despite what he had said Sean didn't do a very good job of pretending nothing was different. He was the one watching me now instead of the other way around. It wasn't just paranoia, I had watched him long enough to notice him doing the same to me. I ignored it for a while, again hoping that time would take care of my problems for me; but of course it didn't. "I thought you said things weren't going to change," I said abruptly as Sean and I were eating breakfast. "What?" He looked up at me confused. "Look, I know I made things all weird but could you at least not stare at me so much." I pushed away from the table and headed to my room without giving him a chance to respond. I was getting upset more easily these days, what I really needed was to talk to Julie and I decided to give her a call. She picked up almost immediately and agreed to come over for a few hours. She said she would bring her swimsuit so we could hang out by the pool. Thinking Sean must have left by the time I hung up I headed back to the kitchen to clean up from breakfast. He was still sitting there even though it looked like he had been done for a while. "Ashley, I'm sorry. I did say I would pretend it never happened, but I can't," he said. I picked up my dishes as well as his and set them on the counter. "Fine, whatever," I said. Strangely it didn't bother me so much once he said it out loud. Sure he thought I was a complete freak but at least there was a certainty to it now. "I can't stop thinking about you, even in my dreams. I don't know how you put up with it." That did stop me, this was taking a very different turn from what I expected. "What do you mean?" I asked. My hand was developing that slight tremble it got when I was nervous. "I mean you're beautiful Ash. I know I shouldn't but I keep picturing you naked on your bed." He was standing right behind me and I turned around toward him. "Don't mess with me Sean, don't you dare," I whispered. "I'm not." He brushed my hair back out of my face as we looked at each other. We moved to each other at the same instant and my eyes closed as our lips met. It was so much better than all the times I had imagined it. His arms wrapped around my back and pulled my close as our kiss seemed to go on and on. Suddenly he pushed me away and backed off. I looked at him uncomprehendingly and took a hesitant step toward him. "I'm sorry Ash, I shouldn't have done that," he said. "It's okay Sean, it's really okay." "I'm sorry. We can't, you know we can't." I took another step but he backed off further. The momentary happiness that had been building inside me came crashing down. Why was he doing this to me? "This isn't funny Sean, I told you not to mess with me." "I'm not messing with you, we just can't. I'm sorry." "Asshole!" I shouted after him as he fled upstairs. I sank down onto the floor feeling completely stunned. It wasn't fair. Having my fantasies constantly dangled just out of reach was nothing new, but to actually touch one and have it yanked away cruelly was too much. Julie showed up shortly after and found me with my arms wrapped around my knees still on the kitchen floor. I told her everything about what happened with Sean, all the details as best I could remember. She didn't say anything until I finished. "You know you can stay with me for a while if you want, until this blows over," she offered. "It might help to get some distance from him." "Thanks Julie, I think I'm okay though. Maybe this was what I needed, a sign that I need to stop obsessing over him." I wasn't really feeling as good as I pretended to be but I didn't want to worry Julie too much with my problems. We put our bikinis on and went outside where we lay down on two of the loungers that were side by side. It didn't take me long to notice movement in one of the windows on the second floor of the house. All that time secretly observing my brother was paying off. "That little shit," I muttered. "What?" "He's up there watching us, even after what he just did. Probably thinks I don't see him." To her credit Julie didn't look straight toward the window and give away we knew he was there. Instead she casually stretched out and moved her head enough to get a look at Sean's window. "Are you sure? I don't see anything," she said. "Trust me, he's there." An idea was forming in my head; if Sean wanted to watch then we would give him what he wanted. I grabbed the bottle of sunscreen and flipped over onto my stomach. "Hey Julie could you do my back?" I asked as I undid the string on my top. She smiled, understanding immediately what I was up to. "You're bad," she said even as she moved toward me. Her hands rubbed the sunscreen delicately over my back, being far more thorough than necessary. I folded my arms under my head and closed my eyes as I let her work. She wasn't shy about where she touched, she spent a long time on my ass before finally finishing off on my legs. "You want me to do your front too?" she asked. "I think maybe you're enjoying this," I said with a smile as I turned back over. "Maybe a little," she admitted. I pulled my bikini top off and dropped it on the ground beside me. Julie sucked in her breath softly as my naked breasts were uncovered right in front of her. Neither of us was particularly into girls but I had to admit I was kind of enjoying the attention, and if Julie was having fun too that was fine with me. Once again I closed my eyes and let Julie proceed at her own pace. At first she traced the faint tan lines that had developed on my breasts from always being covered but soon she was rubbing them with her whole hand. Sean had to know what we were doing by now but that was okay, the main thing was to show him what he was missing. Julie eventually moved onto my stomach before finishing off on my legs again. She leaned down to my ear before she got up and whispered to me. "Think that's enough?" "Mm-hm, thanks Julie," I whispered back. As she was straightening back up she paused and leaned back toward me. Her lips brushed mine gently then pulled away again so quickly I barely understood what happened. "Just for good measure," she said as she returned to her seat. **** I didn't bother locking my door that night. If Sean came in it would mean I had gotten to him, and honestly I didn't really care if he caught me masturbating again. It would bother him more than me anyway. Sure enough just as I was getting ready to go to sleep the door swung open followed by my brother. He wasn't even fazed this time when he saw that I was naked. "You're not playing fair Ash," he said. "All's fair in love and war dear brother." "And which is this?" he asked, clearly staring at my breasts. "Right now? Both." It turned me on to have him watching me openly with no pretending between us. I could feel I was close to getting everything I wanted. His eyes followed my hand as it strayed back down to my pussy and stroked it softly. "You know we can't right? There's stuff we just can't do," he said. He was trying to convince himself as much as me. That he was in my room was evidence enough he wasn't succeeding. I decided to see how far I could push him. "If you're gonna stay you have to let me see your cock," I told him. "What?" "I don't mind if you want to watch but you don't get a free show." Sean swallowed as my finger slipped into my pussy, obviously torn. If he stayed it would be a victory for me and we both knew it. The question was whether he had enough willpower left to leave. "It's just looking," I said, trying to convince him. "No touching or anything. Just watching each other, that's all." Abruptly he reached down and undid his belt. I tired not to smile too widely but it was difficult. Soon his pants were around his knees and he sat down awkwardly on the bed beside me trying to find a position that let him see me without getting too close. He was almost fully hard already just from watching me and I felt my clit throb as it finished stiffening before me. It was the first time I had actually seen his dick even after all the times I had imagined it. My pussy was getting so wet that my finger was making squishing sounds and I soon added a second. Sean grabbed his erection as I played with myself and began stroking it. I didn't have much, or any, experience with his masturbation habits but it didn't look to me like he was going to last very long. Fantasies of My Brother As I expected streams of cum soon sprayed out of the tip of his cock onto my sheets. Some actually landed on my stomach which seemed was a pretty impressive distance as far as I was concerned. It was so hot watching him cum and then feel his semen landing on me that I felt my orgasm hit soon after. Sean sat beside me, barely inches away, as I came. He looked like he wanted to touch me but was holding back from crossing that particular barrier. "That wasn't so bad was it?" I asked. "No, it wasn't. That's the problem." He straightened up his clothes and left the room as I experimentally prodded the cum drying on my tummy. God, my brother's cum on me; I was getting horny again. My clit throbbed between my legs and I could tell it was going to need a lot more attention before I would get any sleep. **** "You seem happier today," Julie said. She had come over again for another round of sunbathing and I planned to just relax instead of teasing Sean this time. "Yeah, I think Sean's coming around." "Really? What happened?" I was about to tell her when Sean came out of the house in a pair of swim trunks. "Looks like someone wants another show," I said loud enough that he could hear. He blushed slightly but didn't respond as he sat down near us. "You know the rules Sean, no freebies," I continued. Sean looked at Julie before looking back to me. Julie just looked confused as the significance of what I said was lost on her. I gazed steadily back at Sean, not giving in. "Come on, you going to tell me these aren't worth it." I untied my top and held it in place over my breasts with my hands to let him know it would be gone as soon as his shorts came off. Sighing he stood up and slid his trunks down and kicked them off. Julie gasped as his cock came into view, already starting to stiffen before us. Keeping my end of the deal I let my top fall to the ground too. Julie's eyes were bugging out as she looked back and forth between us trying to figure out what was going on. "Would you do my sunscreen again please?" I asked Julie. She was clearly still confused but she complied and started rubbing sunscreen on my breasts. She was looking over at Sean pretty frequently and I could guess why. "Nice isn't it?" I whispered so he couldn't hear. Julie just nodded. "You wanna go..." I gestured toward Sean with my head. "What? I can't do that," she hissed, "he's your... it wouldn't...." I could tell she wanted to but she also didn't want to upset me. "Julie, go for it. It's okay, I promise." Hesitantly she got up and walked slowly over to Sean who had been lightly stroking his cock. As she knelt down in front of him he looked at me nervously and I smiled reassuringly back at him. Julie's hand replaced his on his dick and he let out a sigh of contentment as he leaned back. I knew he wouldn't say no to her; she was hot and, more importantly, not his sister. I grazed my hand over the material of my bikini bottoms and felt how much my pussy had already soaked them. Glancing over to make sure the other two weren't paying attention I brought a finger to my mouth and licked it. Tasting my own pussy juices wasn't something I did often but sometimes it just felt sexy. I rolled onto my side to get a better view of the action as I slid my hand down to my clit. Julie was sucking on the head of Sean's cock and working it deeper into her mouth. I tried to pretend it was me over there instead of her but what I was witnessing was hot enough that I gave that up quickly. Besides, in a few days maybe it actually would be me playing with his cock. He was breaking, already he had no problem with us watching each other. I just had to work him up to touching. I moved my hand faster on my clit keeping time with Julie as her head picked up speed on Sean's cock. He looked like he was going to cum soon and I didn't blame him the way Julie was working him. Suddenly he tensed up and I knew I was right about him having been close. Julie stayed on him the whole time, letting him cum in her mouth. She stood up after he finished looking satisfied with her work. Surprisingly she came over to where I was laying and curled up right next to me. I glanced over at Sean but he wasn't paying any attention to us. I shrugged mentally as I put my arm around her waist and settled in for a while. **** I had trouble sleeping that night. Not only did I have the day's events running through my head constantly but I also held myself back from masturbating in case Sean showed up again. Getting a blowjob from Julie earlier might have been enough for him but I held out hope that he would want to watch me again. My hand kept idly slipping down to stroke my pussy as I lay there waiting and I had to keep forcing myself to pull it away. Finally the door opened and Sean stepped quietly into my room. "You still awake?" he whispered. "Yeah." After carefully closing the door behind him he walked over to my bed and sat down. "Are you okay with what happened today?" he asked. "You mean you and Julie? I was the one who told her it was okay, wasn't I?" "I know, I just thought it might be weird since... because of how you felt. That's all." I shrugged, "nah, if you're not going to touch me at least I got to watch someone else. It's kind of like a consolation prize or whatever." "It's not that I don't want to, you know that right?" he said. "It's just that we can't have a real relationship and it wouldn't be fair to either of us to try. We'd have to keep it a secret all the time and what if we ever decided to 'break up' or whatever the equivalent is? Or what-" "Fuck's sake Sean," I interrupted, "I just want to fuck you. I understand we can't get married and have kids and live happily ever after. Jesus Christ that's not even what I want." "Ashley," he started slowly, "you know how I backed off yesterday after I kissed you?" "Yes," I growled, letting him know I was still not happy about that. "I probably should have handled that differently I admit," he at least sounded a little sheepish about it which I appreciated, "but I really did have good intentions. Anyway, point is if you know what kind of limits we have, and you're okay with them, maybe... maybe it would be okay." My heart pounded unnaturally hard in my chest. I thought I understood what he was saying but I was still wary. "Don't you dare mess with me again Sean, I'll fucking kill you if you are," I threatened. "I'm not Ash, I'm really not. But I need you to understand that anything we do, it can't be a substitute for other people. I might meet someone else, or you might, and we need to be ready to accept that." "I know. Just... just fuck me Sean. Please." He pulled my blanket off of me in one swift motion, completely exposing my naked body to him. His hand went to my breast and grabbed it somewhat roughly, not that I minded. Our mouths found each other even as I fumbled with his boxers trying to get to his cock. Almost as soon as I managed to get it free he was on top of me. His hard shaft rubbed against the entrance of my pussy already so well lubricated he could slip in without any trouble. Sean looked at me like he wanted to make sure I was ready, as if that was ever an issue. I thrust my hips upward desperately against him trying simultaneously to convey both that I was ready for him and to increase the stimulation of his cock running over my clit. If he waited much longer I knew I would cum just from that. The tip of his cock penetrated the entrance to my pussy and as we both thrust against each other he slipped almost halfway inside me. I came immediately, burying my face in his shoulder and holding onto him tightly. He fucked me gently through my orgasm and I felt his cock going deeper with every movement of his hips. As he felt me relax he picked up speed and force until he was bottoming out on each thrust. He was still be gentler than he needed to be which was fine with me, I would let him do it all night if he wanted. I wanted him to feel good too though, especially since I figured there was more chance of this happening again if he did. "You can do it harder," I whispered as I nuzzled his neck. "Don't want to hurt you," he grunted back. "I'm not gonna break, just do whatever feels good." He did start fucking me harder although I think he was still holding back a little. I ran my hands through his hair and over his back as I kissed his shoulder and neck. Soon I felt him tense up just before the first shot of cum hit my pussy. I held him as he came then let him roll off of me. "M'sorry Ash," he said. I was about to protest that he had nothing to be sorry about but he interrupted. "I know I don't have to be so gentle with you but you're still my little sister you know? Can't help feeling a little protective." "Well, we can work on that." **** "Hey Julie, can I ask you something?" She was sitting on the floor beside my bed carefully painting each of her toenails with a different colour of nail polish. It had been raining pretty hard for a few days and we were both pretty bored. I had already told her that me and Sean were fucking pretty much every night these days but after that we had run short of things to talk about. "Mm-hm," she responded without looking up from her toes. "Do you like Sean? I mean would you go out with him or anything?" "Like if you two weren't already together? Yeah I guess I probably would." She finished a toe and selected another bottle of polish from my overly extensive collection. "I think he'd like having an actual girlfriend. And I'm pretty sure he likes you, so if you wanted to...." She looked at me confused. "I thought things were going good between you two." "They are, but there's some things that we just can't have because I'm his sister and I'm okay with that but I don't think Sean is. We basically agreed that at some point one or both of us might want to see someone else. I just thought if he's gonna want to be with another girl I'd like it to be you. If you don't mind sharing that is." Her left pinkie toe remained half-painted and forgotten as Julie thought about what I said. I was apprehensive about her answer since I knew that what I was proposing could fail spectacularly and I needed her to either accept it fully or reject it. "Do you really think he'd be okay with it?" she finally asked. "I haven't talked to him about it yet since I wanted to see what you thought first, but I can go ask him now," I said, smiling in relief. Sean was home as far as I knew and probably just hanging out in his room since there was precious little else to do. I didn't think he would take much convincing; he really did seem to like Julie, not that he would ever admit it to me. I walked over to his room and knocked on his half-open door. He was sitting at his computer and turned around toward me as I pushed the door the rest of the way open. "What's up?" he asked. "Not much," I said casually, "I just think I might have found you a girlfriend." Sean narrowed his eyes suspiciously. "What do you mean?" "I mean Julie's interested in, I dunno, dating you or fucking or whatever. We didn't go into that much detail. Point is I think you like her and you could have a real girlfriend like you wanted." He stared at me for moment. "She actually said that?" "Yeah, what did think that I'd make it up?" "And you're okay with me and her...." "Beats you going out and finding some other girl." "I wouldn't just... you know what, never mind." He sighed and stood up from his chair. "Ashley do you mind if I talk to her alone?" "Sure, she's in my room. I'll go find something to do downstairs." I went downstairs to the living room and turned on the tv. There was nothing on as usual but I flipped channels for a while anyway. I caught the tail end of Iron Man on one of the movie channels which kept me busy for about fifteen minutes but after that I was too curious to restrain myself; I needed to see how it was going. I almost expected they would be having sex on my bed by then but as it turns out I was only half right. As I peeked in I saw Julie had her shirt off and Sean was sucking on her nipple. She saw me looking and smiled at me as I smiled back. I wanted to stay and watch, it was my room after all, but decided to give them their privacy this time. **** "Mmm, how was that?" I asked as rolled off of Sean onto the bed. "Amazing, as always," he replied. It had been a few months since we first had sex and, if nothing else, he had at least learned the art of answering that question properly. I noticed Julie was no longer in the room. She had been watching me and Sean fuck but she must have left at some point. "I'm gonna go find Julie okay?" I kissed Sean softly and threw on some clothes before padding out of the room. I found her sitting by herself out by the pool. She was dangling her legs in the water and just sort of kicking them idly, looking like she was lost in thought. "Hey, what's up?" I said as I sat down beside her. She jumped a little when I spoke but calmed down immediately. "Just thinking 'bout stuff." "Like what?" I dipped my legs in the water beside hers. The weather was getting a little cooler but the water still felt nice. "Like when to tell you..." she looked at me nervously. "I'm pregnant Ash." I had been on the pill for years and it hadn't even occurred to me that she wasn't. I stared stupidly at her for a few seconds before remembering to respond. "Really? What are you going to do?" "I kinda wanted to see what you thought before I decided. If you were okay with it." "Julie," I said firmly, "it's got nothing to do with me or anyone else except you. It's your decision and I'll back you up whatever you choose." She lay a hand on her belly which hadn't started to grow yet, not that I could see anyway. "I always wanted kids," she said softly, "but this isn't how I expected it to happen y'know?" "Maybe it's not ideal Julie, but you know I'll help out as much as I can. And Sean will too or I'll kick his ass." She shifted closer to me and rested her head on my shoulder. "Thanks Ash." I slipped my arm around her waist and placed my hand over her tummy even though I knew it was way too early to feel anything. A kind of deep excitement was growing slowly inside me as we sat together. I was going to be an aunt.