3 comments/ 69176 views/ 4 favorites A Mom's Metamorphosis Ch. 02 By: jameswhich Chapter 2 -- Caroline is going to surrender Marvelling at herself, Caroline felt she wasn't upset anymore with the situation with Billy and Emily. "Odd, isn't it?!", she was telling herself on and on. On Saturday, June 16th, she wrote again to Bud: "Apparently, Emily doesn't seek sex with her current boyfriend but she did have sex with her brother. I'm still trying to understand that. Though I'm not an advocate of incest I think I am beginning to not be so judgmental or scared about it. I don't think it is for me personally but I will not tar and feather those who do it. Furthermore, I can see the sibling attraction better than a parent child one. I may see even a glimmer of a father and his daughter but I think that's because older males with younger female are pretty common in the world as a whole; the older woman younger male dynamic is still not very settling in any event. Now, what happens if I go back and tell him to stop using my underwear?! Will he take it as a reprimand?! How will he react?! Like he said and you guessed, it's not just an infatuation; Billy is probably deep into incest. So I choose not to tell him anything; should I still find that he masturbates in my panties or else, I'll simply do the laundry. Besides, he's going to be leaving to College soon, so the issue should go away anyway." Caroline was happy to read Bud's answer just a few hours later: "I can tell that your new feelings about incest are quite normal. You are now rediscovering an ancient truth: incest is not a dirty thing and a threat that weakens Society; instead, it is a privilege not at anybody's hand. Its intrinsic value is best recognized when it happens naturally, certainly not when it comes from perversion and abuse. In ancient times it was thought of as a privilege of Gods, in order to keep their divinity from decaying. Besides, why mating outside if you've got better things inside the family?! Pregnancy could be a concern when a brother and a sister are involved, but that can be easily monitored and avoided nowadays. Is it so hard to believe that incest can be much more fulfilling than sex with unrelated people, who know nothing about you?! Regarding father-daughter and mother-son, actually it is, or should be, the other way around: a father holds a position twice as strong as his daughter's: he is her father and he is a man; he cannot or should never use such a double advantage to satisfy his sexual desire. Mother and son are in a more balanced and right situation; I can say and you can bet that the mutual sexual interest of young males and older women, besides being extremely common, often with aunts, is just shamming mother-son relationship, know it or not. Now, are you sure of the reason why you don't ask him to save your panties?! I mean, are you sure you are not actually flattered and excited by this and want it to happen?! Look into yourself Caroline, then tell me: are you really sure?! Summer holydays are at the door. We won't have many chances to hear from one another now. For the time being, take care of yourself. I'll be waiting news from you around the end of August." That was an extremely demanding Summer, at the end of which Caroline's son was heading to College. So far, she had no chance to get into it with Emily and she intended not to anymore, leaving it to them. Of course, if she came and told her something, she would discuss it with her but she really meant to just go on until then. Billy would be gone until Thanksgiving now and they had a tearful goodbye session. Emily and Billy looked like a married couple parting for a long separation. Caroline thought nobody else noticed but she caught the implications. She feared they might be an "on again" item; the way they looked when Billy left made her think so. Did that make any sense? She was sincerely confused. Bud showed up again on the 13th of September: "Here we go again. No need to be confused; there is always a sense; question is to find what it is. With just the look of their eyes when he left we can only make guesses about what the status of their relationship is right now. Given they were together last year, then stopped and this fetish item came up with Billy, knowing what Billy said I believe that Emily has always been the closest thing to his true sexual and love interest since the beginning, that is you, knowingly or not; that is why, after they stopped being together, he turned to the fetish alternative; if your talk made it clear that he can't have you, he might have talked his sister into being back together and either she did not say no or they made love once again before the parting, which could explain their sad look. Anyways, I suggest that you accept that; beside the "top secret" issue, there is no major problem in all this since either way they seem to love each other, no matter whether he loves her as herself or as if she were you, because even in the second case he would still love her through you as well as you through her. By the way, what about the stains in your lingerie?!" Caroline did not know the answer to the issue; she couldn't state for sure if and why Billy was targeting his mother, if it was as a proxy for Emily or vice-versa. As for Billy using her things, that hadn't stop until last week, when he left. For the rest, she thought if they were on it again she guessed she could deal with it; it did not seem so gross to her anymore. One thing troubled her a bit nonetheless: if they stay together, then sometime in the future their father might either get suspicious or find out the whole story; "But," she thought, "why being worried about what hasn't yet come to pass?". This is what she wrote to Bud a week or so after his last message, being able to read his answer on October 2nd: "His still using your things would actually indicate two things: first, he has always been targeting you; secondly, they did not have sex recently. What you saw in their eyes when he left was a sign of their intimate bond, that's all. As for you, there can be several reasons why he has those feelings, but for the moment I'll pick just one, basing on him being now 19 years old guy, not a child anymore: he is in love with his mother; as simple as that. You will have to deal with this not just as his mother, but as a woman too. As such, you can accept his love or refuse it, but this is how it stays. However, he's gone now and you said he won't be back till Thanksgiving, which, at least, will let you recover from these remarkable events and save your lingerie at least for a while." Caroline so replied: "As for him still having those feelings for me 'it is what it is'. I wont cheat my husband so the thing won't happen. If for some reason I were single, I just don't know (I can't believe I just said that). Two months ago I probably would have vomited, but once you look at the situation from outside you get a different perspective. Emily seems sad though, that's why I think they may still be in their situation. It isn't the 'I am hurt' sad; it's more the 'lonely type' sad as if something's missing in her life. I know that type of sad. I think I may have had the same look when my husband had that long business journey. Although I already had my two children at the time the look was the same, I'd bet on it. PS. Just a note: I got my first letter yesterday. It seems he took a pair of my panties with him to school. Also Emily has received several letters; I think she has gotten one almost everyday since he left and who knows what's going back and forth in the e-mail. PPS. He wants to send back the panties he took with him and for me to send him a fresh pair." Bud: "Did you send him the fresh pair?!" Caroline: "Yes I sent them! I know I shouldn't have, but I did, I don't know why. I got them back and they were just totally covered by him. I don't mean the usual spots, I mean covered! I guess he had a lot of pent up feelings." Bud: "Again I must ask what's really in your mind! You keep saying that you would never have sex with Billy, that you are no cheating kind, then you keep this fetish thing alive and ongoing! Maybe you're the cheating kind Caroline, maybe you're cheating yourself. Wouldn't you tell me the truth?! Isn't it possible that you're negative about having sex with him not because you do not want to but because you fear the possible consequences of getting eventually caught by your husband or by Emily?! To me, what you're doing seems more like water over greek fire if you see what I mean. Why letting the fetish gain ground if you are really unavailable to have sex?! Why not telling him definitely that his desire can't have any hope and ask him in his own interest to make efforts to switch to a platonic relationship, even though with more affectionate kisses and hugs, or to go back to a conventional one?!" A Mom's Metamorphosis Ch. 03 Chapter 3 – A lot of "hot irons" Bud added a postscript. "Here is something that I want to share with you. You may have guessed that I'm in incest too, but what I'm about to say will make things clearer to you. A week ago I went south to visit my sister. You'd know that my sister and I have had sex together soon after adolescence. We lived out in the countryside. We had more or less just one another, which made us very close in many ways, and were most curious about sex (dad was a gynecologist). Everything started in a summer day. It was afternoon and we were in dad's studio, our parents taking their afternoon nap in their room upstairs. Dad's desk was on the left, right beside the window, a single bed was in front of it to the right of the door. I used to sleep there, while my sister's room was upstairs too. That day, a hot day, she came in dad's studio and jumped on my bed inviting me to 'play'. I remember her lovely blue eyes and her braids, her soft lips and moist tongue. She had about the look of Olivia Newton John in Grease, only little bit younger. She is still very beautiful. It is funny how one can remember some things with this level of detail, no matter how earlier they happened, and yet totally forget things, even involving, but happened very recently. We undressed and had our first sexual intercourse there. While I was over her and in her I asked her 'Do you like it?'. She just said 'yes', with a smile on her face. It's still incredible and shivering how we could do that with our parents sleeping upstairs, taking the strong risk of being caught. Then, each of us went his own way for some years. She got married, but her husband wasn't exactly what you'd call a good choice. They splitted after a while and she was alone like she had never been. We resumed our relation, including sex, some 3 years ago now. Some might condemn all this, but I cannot think of anything more rewarding and fulfilling. Think about this, Caroline; it might help you too to look into the mirror." Bud did not hear from her again until Christmas 2001. She said she was enchanted reading about him and his sister. It had made it very clear to her how intense and lasting incest can be once it happens, not even slightly comparable with conventional mating. She gave some news then, apologizing for being off so long because "things around here have been hectic", she said, "juggling a lot of hot irons". "Common hot irons or something more if I may ask?!", was Bud's reply. "Is Billy back home for Christmas and the end of the year?! If yes, why don't you make the most of it talking to him again and trying to understand how he feels now? I don't believe you want to keep things this way forever don't you?!" Caroline could not find enough time to be online until the 12th of January, 2002. "Billy was back home last November", she said, "and then on Christmas time. Yes, we had most relevant talks. He said he could not effort anymore to think about me and see me without having me. He even wrote poems to me. In both occasions he has been around me all the time, touching me, kissing me on the lips, bringing me flowers, caressing me anytime he could, letting me feel desirable and excited as I never felt. I could do nothing to stop him and perhaps in the end I actually did not want to. This is how he feels. As for myself, I feel upside down and stupid, to the point where I now feel I could make love to my son. This scares me. Am I a pervert?! What is happening to me?! His behaviour and our emailing removed all prejudices. Incest is no more a taboo to me, but I'm starting to feel attracted by it, maybe even to seek it. Astounding, isn't it?! I think I probably would go all the way if only things were different." "Now that's some news indeed!", Bud replied, "Christmas time must have been really plenty of those 'hot irons'. First of all, do not think of yourself as a pervert mother, for you are not! Then,you say 'if things were different'. What do you mean by 'different'?! Are you referring again to yourself being a married woman and no cheating kind?! What sort of difference could it possibly make right now?! I'm not urging you to do incest; one has to feel this way and want it for himself. I simply want you to be able to stay on top of things, not being overwhelmed by them. But look here now, he has already had sex with you through your underwear and he knows that you know it and that you're letting him do it, which is exactly like doing it for real from a mental standpoint. Now, you just stated that you would go all the way if things were different. All you two are missing right now is making love to each other for real and you having his cum inside yourself rather than on your panties! Now I feel that deep inside yourself you have always desired to go all the way. As a matter of fact, you did not try to hold him from his fetish attitude. Instead, you gave him new stuff to be stained with his cum. What I'm not sure about is why you'd want to do it, if it is because you need it, or because you feel that this is the only way to let him overcome his incest desire, or both. Mentally speaking, Caroline, you've already cheated on your husband. Going further is just a question of nothing, but if it has to happen it must be for good. I think I could be of better use to you if you opened yourself to me a little more. Are you getting along fine with your husband?!" "I just came to realize", she answered, "that if we didn't have the other members in the dynamics then I would go the whole distance. He knows it and so do I but that is what it is. Meanwhile, Emily has noted something but she affords me my privacy, as I do hers. Regarding John, he is a good husband, not much communicative and even less passionate but I would never cheat on him for anybody else. Problem is Billy isn't just anybody else. He is my son and he was able to awake emotions I never felt in my entire life." She did not hear from Bud for months, due to business keeping him around the world, until on a Thursday, October 3rd, he wrote again. "I hope this email finds you well and that you spent your summer holidays happily. I deeply apologize for being off for so long. I've been overdue in France for business and had no way to check my mailbox. It was a sudden departure. Not having heard from you in the while I was wondering how things are going with you and your family members, namely your son and daughter. Any progress?! Is Billy still on you?! Does he still show signs of his desire?! Is Emily still involved?!" "Yes and yes; even more!", she replied, "Definitely, not being a cheating kind is no use. Billy became more and more demanding with his kissing and touching, especially while up late watching TV. I wanted him to make kind of a cross over to the physical but wasn't able to hold him totally at bay. It happened four times during Saturday afternoons, all Summer, and things got more and more out of hand. I wanted to stop the madness but I could not and I finally gave in. His last assault on me was so passionate and hot that after a while I found myself holding his bare hard penis in my hand stroking it while french kissing each other and having his hands roaming all over my breast and thighs and then on my pussy. My head was spinning! I was out of my head! We became like wild animals, eager for each other. He put his fingers inside me. I couldn't help opening my legs to let him in. He cum in my hand as well as I cum on his. When the madness was over, we kept kissing lightly on each other lips, eyes, forehead, cheeks and hands, sweating and breathless. Soon afterwards Billy looked shining! It was like he had finally broken the invisible barrier that kept him away from me. Despite the shock for what I had done, I couldn't avoid smiling inside. What happened to me, I really do not know! The entire evening we feared that signs of our lovemaking could be perceived by either Emily or John. Luckily, they had other issues to take care of so they did not pay the slightest attention to both of us." "Don't grieve about what has happened!" Bud replied, "I knew you would end up like this and I regret not being there when you probably most needed advice and help. What happened is no madness, just love and passion between you and Billy. Incest?! Yes! but you shouldn't have such kind of concern anymore! Leave that to someone else! Know and accept that if you did it, somehow you needed it, you needed his passion! I guess Billy will be back for Thanksgiving this year too and then for Christmas. Always let Billy make the first move and if it happens again free your self completely. You need only caution not to get caught. Keep this as the most valuable secret of yours. Should Emily know more than you think, don't be afraid, behave normally and make her feel as loved as she deserves." ............... A Mom's Metamorphosis Ch. 04 Chapter 4 -- Caroline does the deed Bud had to wait for news from Caroline until February 15th, 2003. "I know I haven't been on in a long time. Life just kind of sucked for a while. John has been a real shit, not about things we've discussed here, rather because Emily has been giving him a hard time. He doesn't like her current boyfriend even though she seems to have found her course and to be quite stable. As for the situation between her and Billy, that seems to be a thing of the past. Both seem to have moved on from that situation. I am pretty sure she is totally unaware as to Billy and I. Now, the big news! I know you have been the best, so here it goes. Billy and I did it, not something to brag about, but it happened and it was very intense. We did the deed three times over the Christmas break. It was just straightforward, no oral, no experimental stuff or anything like that, but I have to say it was extremely pleasant. I don't regret it at all. If we knew we would be alone for a couple of hours with no chance of getting caught we would have done more, no doubt about it. The first time we didn't even undress. He just took off his T-shirt. I had no bra under and just took off my panties. I lay in his bed and he was soon over me. In no time his fingers found their way to my pussy and started fingering me while we kissed and tongued each other. I frantically unbuttoned his jeans, freed his already hard and hot cock from his dungeon and began stroking it up and down. I was soaking wet and very close to an orgasm when I urged him to put it inside me. He did it. He put his cock all the way in, while still kissing me and feeling my naked breast with both his hands under my blouse. It took just nothing to his cock to find its way inside me. Despite Billy's cock is much like his father's, the sensation was totally different and hotter. He was really hot and made me so dripping wet as I've never been. He moved slowly in and out and in circles, teasing and bringing me slowly to the top. We tasted our mating like this for a while, until we could not hold back anymore. We reached our orgasm simultaneously onto and into one another, his cock suddenly swelling, hardening and then exploding in me, his sperm mixing with the waters unleashed by my now open dam. We rested then for a little while, tasting our sex, the emotions, the smell, still kissing and savouring each other's saliva, his cock coated by my orgasm. I never experienced something like this in my life, a real bliss! The second and third time, Billy wanted to undress me first. Then, there he was, naked before me, his hard cock pointing up to the ceiling, throbbing, yearning to be inside me again, while I was laying in his bed, waiting for him to come over me. We did it totally naked twice. I'm at a loss to describe this experience. I'm also beginning to be as forward as I've never been before! I want it now! Maybe I always needed something like this but I did not accept the idea and kept lieing to myself about incest. On the other hand, you saw that. Shyness, fear, conformity, call it as you wish. Always in his bed, that was the ground rule. As stupid as it may seem, I'm not about to take another guy into my husband's bed, not even Billy. That's John's bed and nobody else gets to go in there. I know it's silly but that's the way it stays. So, there it is and you are the only other person that knows it outside of the two of us." "I'm really happy for you and I feel moved by your confidence.", Bud replied, "You say it is nothing to brag about. I say it is something to be happy of and not to feel guilty about whatsoever! Your description of what you did is so warm! You and Billy will certainly get to the oral and to the experimental stuff very soon, but do not be hasty about this, give it time, savour this moment. Like I said, always let him make the first move. About the must do it in Billy's bed rather than in yours or in both indifferently, beside any logic, if it does make you more comfortable it's fine. I understand how you feel, nonetheless I'd ask you to see this in the right perspective. You already cheated on John, mentally first when we dealt with the panties problem and more and more physically next, but in the meantime you did not, because we're talking of your son, whom you owe your love. It's not common adultery we're talking about! So, I recommend that you take this bed business more lightly." "You may be misunderstanding my meaning about the husband's bed business.", Caroline objected in turn, "It is simply my husband's sanctuary, his bed, and he should not have to share it, that's all I'm saying. Billy and I are constantly in contact with one another while he is at College. We do flirt back and forth online and over the phone, all safely away from prying eyes and eves dropping, to be sure it's there never the less. We both know what it's about, so it's no use to make you believe we don't. We will probably do things again and again. We both seem to be comfortable with it now. I can't wait to have his tongue between my thighs, while I make love to him, to its beautiful purple cock head for hours before tasting again the bliss of him inside me melting around him." "I think I got the meaning of husband's sanctuary right.", was Bud's reply, "I understand quite well either the need to know that is actually Billy you're making love to, or the fascination of complicity implied by Billy's bed or your scruples about your husband. I encourage you to take this bed issue lightly nonetheless, for soon or later it could trigger a guilt feeling in your mind. Train yourself to know that even in your marital bed it woulkd be your son who makes love to you. Of course, if keeping the two alcoves light years apart from one another in your mind makes you feel more comfortable right now do so, but beware not to take this sanctuary idea too seriously. What matters more now is to keep your incest absolutely secret and safe! No one has to know! The serenity of all of you depends on this! Always do it at home, never outside, motel rooms or such! I'm sure you'll have a beautiful time with your family. Someday, Billy might want a family of his own. If he does, don't be possessive. Let him free to decide. It is very feasible that he will never stop making love to you anyway. You'll find that what happened between you two will be the most precious thing you have. Well, I'm sure you will get away with it brilliantly. Anytime you feel like emailing me on anything just do it. Your friend Bud will be here for you. Happy wonderful incest!" ... to be continued (??) Note by the Author This is an absolutely true story in all its aspects. Some years ago, I found myself helping this young lady, Caroline, to deal with the unconventional sexual desires of her son Billy (their names are fictional). In the story, my (nick)name is Bud (fictional name as well). When the story was over Caroline and I had no further contact for a while, during which it came to my mind that I could recollect our emails to arrange them together in a story. I then had Caroline sending me some further notes. For now, this is the end of "A mom's metamorphosis", even though Caroline's story is just at the beginning. In a couple of years, a gentle and courageous young lady got out of the silk like a butterfly and unfolded her wings to fly free higher and higher in the blue sky. Caroline said they don't want others to know about her and Billy. That was meant to keep people around them out of it. Of course, acting the other way around would have been totally insane and disruptive. Telling the story like we did, changing names and some situations, doesn't betray them. I can't say if this story has further chapters. All I can say is if Caroline and Billy will let me know and tell more, you will be the first to know.