0 comments/ 521113 views/ 44 favorites Where Is My Son Going To College By: RubyBango My son was taking the death of his father very hard. They were great friends as well as father and son. Billy would look forward to being with his father as a best friend on weekends. They would go off to spend the night in the mountains fishing or just camping out by the lake. So when Greg was taken from us so quickly with out warning the shock was even greater. It was about a week after the funeral that this all started. I should have seen it coming and stopped it or maybe I would have even encouraged it who knows now. Like I have often heard it said “We can not change those things that are meant to be.” So maybe it was meant to be or maybe not. I really don’t know but what I do know is neither myself nor my son want to change things now. We find it highly exciting, erotic and very loving to live this kind of life style. It was late summer so Billy and I have been talking about where he wants to go to college. There is an excellent Junior College right here in town or if he wants to get away there is one over at Bay City just as good. Bay City is only a few hundred miles away and he can make it home when eve he wants to. I was hoping he would choose to live at home and go to school right here. I had bought Billy a new car with some of the insurance money. So he took me for a ride and we ended up at the River Side Motel and restaurant. We were seated off to the side way from the main flow of waiters and the regulars. It was nice to get out and it was nice to see my son finely getting his mind on other things. Billy is nineteen but looks older so when the waiter asked for our drink order I did not object when Billy ordered a high ball. I ordered a Manhattan on the rocks. I also got the idea that the waiter thought Billy was my date rather than my son. This made me feel good for two reasons. One I felt that maybe I looked good enough and looked young enough to date a boy his age. Secondly it made me feel as if I could get on with my life and maybe even start dating again some day but not this soon. Through dinner Billy reminded me this was the weekend he and his Dad always went up to the Lake for a few days of camping before he had to go back to school. I know Billy looked forward to these days and I wondered if I could take him camping and be as good a friend as his father had been. We talked about school, cars and then what life would be like now for him and later for me. Billy said he would understand if I wanted to start dating after all I was still young. I am forty-two and as Billy said “Mom you’re a very beautiful lady.” I had never considered my self beautiful but I did know I had a better figure than many of my friends of the same age. True I had had only one child and my best girl friend had three so maybe that accounted for the difference. I also worked out at the city gym twice a week and more often when Billy and his Dad were off on a trip. These boy Dad trip with out mother started when Billy was about twelve and after a couple I found my self with too much time on my hands. I went shopping and visiting my old school friends. Then I volunteered at the hospital but that was not for me. I can not stand to see people sick. So I started going to the city gym to work out. The very first night I met a wonderful lady named Karen. We hit it off and she showed me all the ways to make a fool of myself. Then she pointed out a body builder named Tony she knew very well. Tony was in his early twenties while Karen and I were both thirty-one. That of course was ten years ago. That first night at the gym was also my third night alone so when Karen asked me out for a drink I accepted. We each drove our own cars and met at the Hotel Bradley down town. Karen has an apartment near there and knew the hotel bar very well. She introduced me to the young bartender and a few of her regular friends. Every one was so nice I felt like a real member of this social order almost at once. I also found this group to be very risqué and to tease a lot. Dirty jokes were common place and I was soon being picked on as well. It made me feel so welcome. I started to accept when strangers asked me to dance. Before long Tony showed up and joined the group. But I saw many of the other guys fade off when Tony showed up. I got the feeling he and Karen were a thing. I thought I should also get going and leave these two on there own. But Karen insisted I stay so I did. Tony asked me to dance and by this time I was feeling pretty good so when he pressed his very hard erection on my leg I welcome that too. We returned to the booth and I found myself between Karen and Tony. I had both hands on top of the table but felt two hands on me one on either thigh. It did not bother me and I laughed about it with them. Then they got a little bolder and each found a tit to play with. I asked Karen if she liked my breasts and she said she would like to see me naked on her bed with black silk sheets. Some how this did not seem strange either and I asked if Tony was going to join us. Karen said if I wanted him too he would. I said “It would be impolite to leave Tony here in his condition.” We laughed and left the bar headed for Karen’s apartment. I don’t know why I let myself be lead down the path of adultery but it never occurred to me that what I was about to do was wrong. Once in Karen’s apartment Tony put on a record and took me in his powerful arms to dance. Karen joined us in a slow dance and as we moved around both she and Tony slowly removed my blouse, skirt and bra to leave me in panties and shoes. Karen took me into her arms and she kissed me full on the mouth while caressing my bare breasts. Tony I saw was dropping his cloths across the room. He returned to hold me from behind slipping his cock up between my legs. He reached around to capture each breast. Still dancing it was very strange to feel his muscles pressed to my back as we dance. It was also very erotic and arousing. Karen was naked a moment later and the three of us drifted toward the king size bed with the black silk sheets. Together we fell on the bed. Tony rolled me on my back and quickly removed my panties. Karen hugged me and kissed me again. I had never in my life kissed a woman with desire and passion raging wildly through my body. Tony lifted my legs, spread them then placed his mouth over my very excited and wet pussy. Tony was an expert at licking, sucking and titillating my clitoris. Karen was still teaching me the fine art of kissing another woman and letting our tongues dart into each others mouth. This special attention from two lovers was over whelming to say the least. I guess I gave myself away with wild cries and shivers. Because Karen quickly moved up to straddle my face with her legs and Tony took my clitoris between his lips and squeezed it. I had never in my life done any thing like this and it was so enormously exciting I went crazy. Using both hands I pulled Karen’s cunt open and buried my face in it. Tony somehow reached up and quickly drove a finger up into her ass and at the same time he shoved a finger up into my ass as far as it would go. Again this was all new to me. My ass was virgin territory. However at the moment he could have shoved a beer bottle up my as and I would have loved it. I screamed, Karen wiggled and moaned flooding my mouth and face with her sweet juices. I let go and felt my climax go off like a rocket. To say “Climax” only is a gross under statement. What I had was nothing like any climax I had ever had before in all my life. Nothing compared to this feeling. My whole body shook and the tremors were like waves at the beach they just never stopped. I can not explain it nor am I able to fine the words to say how I felt at that moment so I just passed out cold. When I came to Karen was holding a cool washcloth to my forehead. Tony was on his side with one of my legs up over his hip the other leg between his and his very ample cock in my wet cunt. He was not moving but once I came awake and knew what was going on around me again. He reached over and took a nipple between his fingers and rolled it softly causing it to come to attention quickly. Karen lowered her mouth over the other and rested her fingers on my swollen clitoris. Tony was well hung more so than my husband and I must admit he was making me feel things in a way I had never experienced before. These two lovers were a team and they knew how to give the greatest of pleasures. Tony was fucking my other wise only used pussy three times before including my husband. But here I was with two strangers having my first ever lesbian encounter, my first ever threesome and my first ever adultery affair with a total stranger. Karen said “Tony is a great fucker and he never goes soft so enjoy it sweet thing, enjoy.” I did just that I closed my eyes and made my self feel every bit of his cock move in side me. He was good and I gave Tony another climax not nearly as wild as the first but still petty damn good. I think Karen helped with her expert hands. After I came Tony rolled away resting now on my right side leaving me to shiver and enjoy the aftermath in my own way. I sat up as Karen leaned cross me to take Tony’s cock in her mouth. Her tits were pointed and hung down as she positioned on all fours. I reached out taking a tit in my hand. A woman’s tit was there to be played with to be shared between lovers. I watched Karen expertly suck Tony‘s cock. She was very good and I could see Karen loved what she was going. It did not take long for her to get Tony off. He was very ready. Karen sucked every drop of cum and licked his cock and balls clean. That was my first out side affair and it started because my husband wanted to be alone with out son. So over the years I came to fine one or two groups of people that would fill that void in my life when the guys were out. Father and son took two full weeks a year and several weekends thru the year to do Father and Son things and I happily moved from one affair to another where and when ever I had a chance. Tony and Karen filled the void in my life several times in a row. But then one weekend Karen set me up with a couple of her friends. All were married like me and also were left alone at the wrong time in there lives. One Linda was also a girl I had known in high school. This was hitting a little close to home but what the hell. It was a fun threesome all girls to discus all the short coming of our men. It was not that I set out to be a local whore but if my husband was going to leave me alone so much I was going to make up for my lost loving. The weekend approached and I asked Billy if I could stand in for his father and go camping with him this weekend. Much to my surprise he said “Mom I want you to come with me but as yourself, my mother and good friend not as a stand in for Dad. I know he is gone and I will always have wonderful memories but how I want you to share with you what I shared with Dad. The wagon was packed full, the house was locked up and we were on our way. Billy had hinted at how remote the camp sight was but I had no idea just how remote till we hiked I for nearly an hour before coming to a wide spot in the trail and an old fire ring. We were above the lake and could see for miles. It was truly a wonderful spot. Billy made two more trips back to the car while I set up camp. Upon his return with the last of what we needed for now I had a resemblance of a meal bubbling away on the camp stove. Billy set up the tent and when he was done he came to sit in one of our make shift chairs. I handed him a plate and took one for my self. The drink was coffee and for the first time in a long time I relaxed with my son as my only partner. After we cleaned up the tin plates and coffee pot Billy showed me how to get down to the lake edge. Here there was a small sandy spot not much larger than a kitchen table. However Billy told me he often came down here spread a blanket and hung out in the nude. The trees were thick and hung over shading the spot and hiding it from view of even boaters that might cruise up this far. It was cool and remote and I could see how he might enjoy the privacy here. For a few seconds I looked at my son and thought of him nude. It was a pleasant thought after all I would be using this time for my own pleasure if I were at home so why not do the same here. “Would it embarrass you if I were to join you here in the nude?” I asked in a soft motherly voice. “Oh, Mom, Dad and I loved to be nude up here. We almost never wore cloths at any time. I think Dad was a nudist at heart but he thought you were too much of a prude to join in.” Billy said with a smile on his face and a gleam I his eye. It was getting late and the sun was dropping behind the western ridge. It would be dark before we got back up the hill. So nudism was going to wait till tomorrow. Billy went ahead to lead the way back up the hill. It was kind of exciting for him to hold my hand and help me along. With the closeness of trees and high grasses I had little to look at except my son muscular behind. I could see the muscles ripple under his tight cut off jeans. I wanted to reach out and touch him. He resembled Tony in that powerful rear end department. My thoughts were my own and in many ways they were exciting and also laughable. To have sex with my son had never entered my head. Well up till now that is. It was not a need or a want but more of a risqué thought that floated around in my head. I had been using this trip for my own pleasure for so long it was hard to stop the excitement that came when ever the (guys) were about to leave town. The only difference now was that I was one of the guys and here in the middle of no mans land I was still feeling the need for sexual excitement. At the steepest part of the hill Billy stopped to give me a brief rest. The ledge were we stopped was narrow and we stood close. I let my arms dangle between us feeling the blood pumping back into my extremities. It was not a plan moved but my hand came to rest on my son’s erection. I had no idea he was excited to this point. I turned and taking a grip on it I asked “What is this?” “Come on Mom, don’t do that. It just happens all the time I guess it is part of growing up.” He said. I did not loosen my grip on his erection. I was measuring it by feel. The dim light did not allow me to see my son’s eyes but his breathing gave him away. He was excited as I was. I felt no shame as I loosened my grip and tightened it over and over. “Mom, please are you sure this is what you want to do?” His words were followed up by an arms going around my shoulders. He pulled me closer pressing my breasts into his chest. This is when I lost all control and knew I wanted to have a relationship with my son. I said “Billy take me to the camp now!” my words must have showed how I was feeling because his erection jerked wildly I thought he was about to cum. But he did not. He pulled me up the hill and we were soon at the camp. He lighted a lantern giving us some light and driving away some of my lustful feeling. However I saw that Billy was still aroused. We closed the flap on the tent and could see well enough by the light coming through the tent material. I could stand but Billy was too tall to stand erect. So I opened out sleeping bags on the double wide air mattress while Billy dropped his shots and shirt next to one of the sleeping bags. He was not wearing any underwear. His erection was formidable to say the least. Billy stood hunched over just looking at me. Why I was so aroused and excited I can only guess at. But I slowly removed my t-shirt and bra. Billy eyes widened and so did his smile as my breasts came free to the cool night air. The nipples were already firm and pointing proudly at his kneecaps. It was awkward but with some effort I managed to remove my shorts and panties while kneeling and still looking at my son erection pounding away. This was not the first time I had been on bended knees in front of a man. So I did what came naturally. I pulled him closer and took his cock into my mouth. There was no movement, no words or anything to give me a warning as Billy shot a sticky fluid into my mouth. It was such a surprise I could only suck and pump his cock with my hand. His sperm was thick warm, salty and I loved it. I tried to swallow his cock whole. I tried to take it down my throat. I wanted to suck the very life out of him. Licking, jerking his cock and sucking every drop I went kind of nuts right up till his knees gave way and Billy was on his knees facing me. He took me in his arms and kissed me. His tongue licked the cum from my lips and sucked what little was left from my mouth. We fell locked in one another arms on our sides. My hands were still holding his lipid cock. My hands were covered with the last of his warm juices. I brought my hands up to lick the cum from my fingers. Billy took my hands and licked some of his sperm from them. He pushed my hand back at me to finish the job. I had often licked my pussy juice from men’s fingers but not the other way around. But it was kind of erotic and sensuous. However it gave me a vision of my son and husband joined in guy, guy sexual thing. So I asked him “Billy did you have sex with your father?’ He kind of shook and I knew he had. So I said “Don’t be embarrassed by it. Some times guys can enjoy other guys and women too.” Then I had another thought and asked “Billy have you ever been with a girl?” “Kind of once I guess.” He said I did not want to press the issue right now so I told him to relax and I would show him how much I loved him. For a young man with little experience Billy did very well. His touch was soft and when he finely rolled over on top of me. He was not as excited and aggressive as I though the might be. Billy slowly lowered himself into me. It was erotic and wonderful filling me with a sensational lusty feeling. It was slow and deliberate every move was expertly done for the most sensual effect. Me lifting my hips to give Billy the best angle and him pressing down to fill me to capacity. Each time he would pause with the head of his cock pressed firmly to the bottom of my pussy before he withdrew to do it all over again. My son was fucking me better than anyone had ever fucked me and I loved it. I came with a rush wiggling and clawing at him to do it harder. Billy responded to my demands and drove harder and faster till he arched his back screamed and jerked filing me with warm thick sperm. “Wow, Mom that was the best ever. Wow, oh shit that was great. Mom, Mom I love you so much. God all might what a rush. I want to do it again. Can I Mom can I do it again?” Billy was so excited and I was feeing his excitement as I lifted my hips so he could start again. So Billy has a decision to make and I do hope he wants to stay home and go to College here in town. The decision: (Part two) Where Is My Son Going To College Ch. 02 The weekend we spent camping was an awaking for us both. For me I learned to love my son as a man and a lover but still feeling him in my heart as my baby. For Billy it was an awaking to life as a man also he found me his mother a woman to be a greater joy than his experience with his Dad. In all our years of marriage I had never guessed my husband and son were sexually involved. From what Billy has told me since our first weekend together he and his father only has sex on there trips and never at home or any time between trips. So maybe they were not fully gay maybe it was just love between father and son. During the many trips when I was left home alone I found outside entertainment for my sexual needs and I had often shared my body with another woman and I did not consider my self a lesbian. Sometimes it was as part of a threesome and sometimes it was just a ladies night out. But I had needs and I found away of expressing my desires with both men and women. After we came home from our wild camping trip Billy and I continued to enjoy one another as lovers. Then one morning at breakfast he said he had made a decision to go to college over in Bay City. I was of coursed disappointed but I did not let on how I felt. It was not all that far away and either of us could make the drive easy enough to visit. So on the first week of September we packed both cars, his and mine and delivered him to an apartment near the college in Bay City. It was a somewhat remote and less hectic than most college town apartments. The Hidden villas were just that hidden. Still within walking distance to the college yet it was down near the river leading to the bay. Surrounded by trees it was one of the cleanest and finest apartment in the area. I was surprised by his choice and pleased. Boxes, clothing and almost every thing out of his room was piled high in the center of each room. So I suggest we go out for lunch and then I would drive home and leave him to his own unpacking. However in the back of my mind I hoped we could have one more session of loving before I drove home to be alone. His apartment was on the ground by the pool. As we walked around the pool a broad shouldered young man stood and introduced himself to us. “HI” he said “I am Greg Pittman. I am in 114 right next to you.” Billy accepted his hand shook it and smiling said “I am Billy Morrison and this is Ruby.” No more explanation. For how I was just Ruby. I also accepted the young hand as he looked into my eyes, there was a smile there as well as on his face. I also saw that gleam that I have come to know all too well. It was lust and desire. I think Greg thought I was the older woman and Billy and I were lovers. Of course we were but he had no way of knowing that. A few more words and Greg suggested a fine restaurant down near the river. We parted agreeing to see each other later. The restaurant was small clean with a sizable selection of beers. We took a table near the rear and were soon waited on by a young man that looked an lot like the one we had just met at the apartments. This was too uncanny to be a coincidence so I asked him his name. “Nick Puttman” he said. Billy and I laughed and said we had just met his brother at the Hidden Villas apartments. Nick straighten up and corrected us “Greg is my cousin.” he said. He took our order and went to get our drinks. Nick waited by the bar to get the beers and was not unashamed of looking at me with a significant erection in his shorts. I smiled back and knew I was being a bag girl. But maybe this college town was not too bad a place after all. Billy ordered a second round of beers and we joking pointed out difference in dress and mannerisms in the younger kids. You could almost guess where each student was from or what part of the country. After our fourth round I made Billy pay up so we could get out of here before I was too drunk to drive. Thank goodness it was only a short drive and no police around to see me. Billy had to almost carry me to his apartment. Greg was still by the pool sunning him self and could not help but see I was snockered. Billy had me by the arm when he reached for his key. Greg appeared out of the blue and held me by the other arm. I turned smiled and said “We met your cousin Greg.” About then my legs gave out. Greg was fast gathering me up before I fell. In his arms I looped my arms around his neck and kissed him. Billy opened the door and Greg stood there looking for a place to lay my ass down. Every inch was pilled high with junk so Greg suggested to Billy he take me to his place to sleep it off. Billy agreed and a minute later I was on a made up king size bed with two young men looking down at me. There was lust, desire and passion in there eyes but both turned and left me there to sleep it off. As I dozed I heard parts of the conversation through the partly open bedroom door. Greg and Billy were getting to be good friends and making plans to get together later. I was uncomfortable so I slipped off my shorts and jersey top. I felt better but it was still not right so I removed my bra and panties. Now that was much better. I liked being naked with two strong men in the next room. That is when I wiggled a finger across my clitoris and called out “Billy” Two heads popped through the open door. Two voices in unisons cried out “Holy shit what a fucking body.” Billy came to the side of the bed taking my hand he said “ Really Ruby is this what you want?” “ I want you to fuck me Billy and your friend can join us if he wants too.” Greg was naked and next to me before Billy could drop his shorts. I took hold of a wonderfully hard cock and said “Greg Can I suck your beautiful cock?” Billy was parting my legs and lifting my knees to bury his face between them as Greg sat up close to my head offering me his cock. I was in heaven two strong cocks were going to be my joy and toys for the rest of this day. Billy was looking up over my belly as I sucked on Greg’s cock. It really turned me on to be here with a total stranger’s cock in my mouth and my son watching me while licking my pussy. It was not long before I rewarded Billy for his efforts and I was soon rewarded for mime. Greg filled my mouth I milked his cock of every drop. But the more I milked him the harder he got. Billy loves to quickly fuck me right after he has licked me to a climax. So Billy moved up to mount me when Greg suggest I get on all fours. “Good fucking idea.” I cried as I was not done sucking his cock yet. I got on hands and knees in the center of this large bed. Billy had me by the hips slipping his cock well up into my pussy. I do enjoy a good fucking doggie style. Billy was getting turned on and was working deep just the way I like it. I wondered when Greg would get up here so I could suck his cock some more. When Billy froze and took tight grip on my hips. Then I heard Greg say. “Relax and spread them Billy here come Mr. Stiffy” Billy groaned and bent well over my back. Then the three of us were jerking together. Billy took a few minutes to get the feel of Greg’s cock in his ass. But once Greg was in deep and Billy was happy with it Billy started to fuck me again. But this time it was different and with more vigor and push. Billy was reliving those weekends with his Dad and was once again enjoying the feel of a relationship of a man. I was getting bumped twice with every movement Billy and then Greg. In my many parties I had never seen two men do one another and even though I could not see it was driving me fucking nuts. Billy screamed, Greg screamed and I screamed. Ten minutes later we all had showered and once more were sitting on the bed. I was up near the top, legs crossed under me. Billy sat on my right with legs on the floor. Greg was lying across the bottom of the bed legs crossed his cock still firm but not fully erect and up on one elbow looking at me. “Ruby, your quiet a lady and I might add a very exciting one at that.” Greg said with a smile on his face. Billy said “That was unexpected Greg but not totally unpleasant. “It is not something I normally do but for some reason I felt you might enjoy it and me too of course.” He said. Billy said “I have only ever had anal sex with one older man and he is no longer with us. He died sometime ago.” Greg smiled and told us his cousin had shown him how it was done between men and also orals sex as well. Bill said he had never had oral sex with a man. But he knew how much I loved to suck his cock till he cum for me. Greg smiled and said “Yes Ruby is one very excellent cocksucker.” He then looked up at me and asked “Ruby do you enjoy anal sex?” I did not know where this was going but I had thought I would like to see the boys do it again. The idea of watching my son with his cock up Greg’s ass was very arousing to me. So I said “My ass is not completely virgin but I never had a cock up it. A finger or two, maybe even three but never a cock.” A quick observation told me both boys were ready to go again. I felt a wetness in my cunt and knew I was not done for today yet. Greg said “May I make a suggestion. Since we are looking for a thrill we all can enjoy. Why not let Billy and I sandwich you Ruby. You will find out just how great a cock can feel in your lovely ass and still get a good fucking at the same time.” This idea sent visions of things I had heard about but never seen and I was beginning to feel a great affection for this boy. I wanted my son to be the first to have anal sex with me. So Greg laid flat on his back and I straddled his talking his lovely cock in my pussy. Then as instructed I leaned forward Billy got behind me and with a goodly amount of lubrication on both of us he proceeded to push slowly till the head of his cock in my ass. He pushed slowly till he was almost all in me. Greg said “Billy do you feel my cock rubbing you?” Both boys were slowly moving back and forth rubbing there cocks together while I got the thrill of a life time. “Oh, my god what a strange feeling. I feel your cock Greg; I feel your cock fucking Ruby.” He had almost said Mother but caught his self in time. For now I wanted it to say just plan Ruby. It was a strange feeling but one I’ll never forget. Billy was making sounds like I had never heard before. I knew this was all new for him and he was so excited he could not say anything so he made animal sounds. “Well, what a sight.” The words came from the door way. I turned to see Nick; the cousin standing there playing with his cock. He had a short cock but with the largest knob head I had ever seen. Greg said “Join us Cousin Ruby has a wonderful mouth you’ll like her.” Nick dropped his shorts and stood next to the bed. “Well lovely lady may I join you?” My eyes were fixed on a hard cock with a drop of fluid poised at the little mouth. He was turned on of that there was little doubt. My head was jerking from the pounding cock in my ass. However I managed to get my head up far enough to welcome his cock. The thrill of three cocks drilling me at the same time was over powering. I was a fucking whore first class and I loved it. Billy smacked me on the cheek hard. The sound sent a ribbon of shivers through my body. “I am cumming Ruby; I am going to cum in your fucking ass.” Billy screamed. The fire in my bowels was like a lava flow going up my ass. My ass was on fire and I was screaming for more. “Fuck me” I cried. Greg said “I feel his cum in your ass Ruby I feel Billy cock pumping cum up your ass. Wow; god all might I am cumming too.” My guts clamped down squeezing both cocks as I climaxed forcing my own sweet nectar out around Greg’s cock. Nick was caught up in all this and he grunted. My mouth tasted the sweet cream and I drank hardily. I sucked his cock tasting the cum and feeling the two cocks in my ass and pussy still jerking. Billy was the first to pull free of me. Nick was next and I soon fell over on my side letting Greg’s’ cock slip from my wet pussy. It was dark as Billy and I hustled next door to his apartment carrying our cloths in hand. A shower restored me to near normal. I was dressed sitting on a box when Billy came out of the bedroom to join me. “Mom are you sure you feel well enough to drive home this late?” Billy asked. “I am fine Billy and I really need to go. This day was a bit too much. I need to be alone for a while.” I answered “You’re really something and the guys were so excited by you. Mom I want to say that I was very proud of you. I love you so much.” Billy was smiling as he said that. Then he said “Thanks.” I kissed him on the cheek as my son not as my lover. I knew very well what the thanks was for and I said “Thanks to you too.” Over my shoulder as I went to my car. The three hour drive home gave me a lot of time to think and I came to the conclusion that what happed today was not ever going to happen again. Thinking about it gave me chills and made my panties wet. My nipples got hard and I rolled my tongue around inside my mouth remembering how each boy’s sweet sperm tasted. But in my mind I knew I had to stop this wild sex with strangers. I had to be the person I was once and get my life back. I was determined to start dating men my age and see if I could respond to true affection not just lust. I was so tired I was ready for bed as I pulled up the drive. But I took time to push the rewind button on the answering machine. Billy said he wanted to come home next weekend and bring Greg with him. I cleared the recording and went to bed. The dreams were of my son and Greg not me and my son. I was an outcast not a part of their lives. I woke up crying. Looking at the clock it was it was after two o’clock when I reached for the phone to call Billy and tell him it was OK with me if he brought Greg home next weekend. Some resolve I have. Ruby gets she wish (Part-III) Watching the boys: