0 comments/ 9192 views/ 4 favorites It's All Because Of Mia By: riverboy All people and places are fictional. All characters are over eighteen. **** January 1st, 2015 Mia got me this journal for Christmas and said I better use it. So here goes. She said it's for private stuff. Thoughts and dreams and fantasies. Ha! Wouldn't she like to know all that stuff! Maybe that's her plan, to sneak in here and steal this someday, after I've written all my private thoughts in it. Don't know about writing all that stuff — fantasies and dreams and all. Not much of a writer really, but I'll try I guess. So last night was New Years Eve. This dry spell of dating has stretched on and on, so I went out with some work friends, the pathetic, no love-life loser ones like me. It was fun, but my head hurts today. Martha bought a round of tequila shooters, so that started the 'it's your turn, it's your turn' thing, and before midnight hit we were fucked up like back in college. Guess I can use swear words like that in here, because it's my book right? Hmm, since I'm being so wicked, and I'm still a little drunk to be honest, I guess I'll jump in with both feet and write about boys. Ha ha! I guess after 30 years on this earth I should call them men. So Danny Yacavone was there, and Derek Williams from accounting, and one of Derek's friends named Rod. After 3 tequilas they all started looking real good to me, but I held my ground. The last thing I want to do is turn into the office slut. Derek walked me out to my cab. I think he was hoping I'd invite him home, but I kept it innocent. A fun night, but this headache sucks. January 2nd, 2015 Back to work today after the holiday, but it's a Friday, so it wasn't too bad. I guess the rest of the gang stayed till closing after I left yesterday, and Barb left in a cab with Derek and his friend Rob. She's being real quiet about it, but I can tell everybody's wondering. I think she did it myself. I've always thought she had a secret wild side. If I was gonna do something like that (wow, can you imagine?) Derek and Rod would be a fine choice, to put it mildly. Ha! Crazy to even think about! Two guys at once? OMG!! Well, I just sat here for 5 minutes thinking about it, so I guess it's not so crazy to think about after all! Ha ha! January 5th, 2015 Back to work, boring weekend over. I really do need to get a life. January 6th, 2015 Boring again. I'm going to try and write, even though nothing happened today. Let's see. What. Can. I. Write. About. Boys? Men? Hmm, what would my perfect man be like?? No, that's just depressing. Even if he was perfect I probably wouldn't let him have sex with me until the third date and he'd give up after the second. The sad thing is that happened in high school. I worked myself up into a frenzy, all ready for it, but he jumped ship to one of the class sluts. Did I learn my lesson? Fuck no! Ha ha. I shouldn't laugh I guess. It's sad. Perfect man = broad shoulders, slim waist, nice chest, hairy body but not too much. Okay, this is fun. Big muscular thighs, small ass but nicely rounded. Big hands with long fingers. Matt Damon's head. Ha ha! This is too funny! I wonder what Matt Damon's thing looks like? Thing! Why the FUCK am I calling it a THING in my own private book? It's a COCK you silly girl! COCK COCK COCK COCK COCK COCK! There, that breaks the ice a bit. Ha! Ha! I'm so tired. Job's a drag. Today kind of sucked. January 9th, 2015 Friday! Yay! Mia wanted to go to a bar and dance. I'm tired of saying no and being boring, so I said YES! It was TOO MUCH FUN! Cute guys, even young ones dancing with us. Of course Mia puts the slut vibe out there even though she's not one, so that draws them in like flies in a place like that. So, one guy rubbed on me so much I could tell everything about him. I mean EVERYTHING! Ha ha. It's been too long since I've felt a hard man, even if it was through our clothes and not with my hands. I should have just grabbed a hold, I know he would have loved it. It seemed big for such a skinny guy, and he was cute. Not knowing his name just makes it all seem even hotter. I'm super tired now, too out of shape to be dancing like that. NEED TO EXERCISE! A guy would think I looked like a dumpling out of my clothes. I can't even imagine stripping in front of anybody these days. What do middle-aged women do? Now that I am one I need to know. Tell me oh great spirit of the journal. What doest the modern man wanteth to see? A squishy girl like me? Ha. Ha. January 16th, 2015 Didn't write all week. Hmm, I kind of miss it. Never had a diary as a kid. I kind of like it. So, another Friday, another night of dancing with Mia. Same club, different guys, although I saw my skinny one with another, younger girl. This time was different — Mia was on the prowl and she actually left with someone! I was shocked, but I shouldn't have been because she told me dancing last week made her horny. So my cab ride home was odd. I felt left out and lonely, even though I would never just pick up a guy in a bar like that. Would I? Could I? One night stands were never my thing. I don't even understand them really. What do you do, just say goodbye when it's over and leave? I can't even picture it. Don't you still smell like the guy when you get home? When he's your boyfriend that's a good thing, but when you're not going to see him again, do you really want to smell like him? I had too much to drink. One guy had his hands all over me and I let him. We were both sweaty and buzzed. It was hot hot HOT! I feel like fucking him now that I'm home. Alone. I'm tired of alone. Mia's getting fucked right now. Damn, I've never thought about that before. Not like this. I wonder what he's doing to her. Is he one of those lover guys that knows all the tricks? I don't think I've ever had an orgasm. I'm tired... January 17th, 2015 Called Mia to get the dope on lover man. She was evasive, but I could tell it was good. She was never a gossiper, kinda private, so I don't know what I expected her to say. Guess I wanted to know all about his cock and how deep he went and stuff. What he felt like on top of her. Did he do anything dirty like on her knees from behind or anything? I wonder if she uses her mouth on a guy. BLOW JOB. There, I wrote it. BLOW JOB, BLOW JOB, BLOW JOB. Ha! What does that feel like if you're a guy, having a cock and having it inside a woman's mouth? Must be hot. She wants to go out again tonight. Different club though. I don't know what that's about, does she not want to run into lover man again? I could tell she liked it, so it seems odd. Mia did it again! Left with another man tonight! What the fuck Mia! I drank too much again. Let TWO guys get handsy with me. Liked it, but it's the fucking booze, right? I'm still drunk. Buzzy though. Cab ride home was a blur. Mia's messing with my head. Is she fucking some other guy right now? Two different guys in two nights? That's not like her. What the FUCK Mia! Jan18 Hung over big time. Can't do two nights in a row at my age. Never could. Called Mia and talked for an hour. She's hung over too and I can tell she's a little disturbed with her own behavior. It's not like her to be slutty like that. I'm sitting on my balcony trying to remember what she said. Wow, she got wild. Did stuff in the cab and then at his place, she said it was just crazy hot, like off the charts. She's not slutty but she's got lots of experience, and she said he was the best. Said she had so many orgasms she lost track, and her mind's all a fog today. It must be foggy because normally she's private and doesn't talk so much about it. I'm starting to wonder what my two handsy guys would have been like. Wild and crazy to think I probably could have let either of them fuck me, just like that. Simple. Nothing to it. Just whisper in their ear and go do it. Sometimes I wish I was more like Mia, but is she really happy with herself today? January 19th, 2015 Had lunch with Mom today. Shopped a little. She bought me a scarf. A nice NORMAL day, after two crazy nights. I hope Mia's okay, need to call her tomorrow. Early bed tonight. January 21st, 2015 So here it is three weeks after New Years and gossip's starting to circulate about Barb and Derek from accounting. She left in a cab New Years Eve with Derek and his friend Rob. Word is they did a threeway all night and half the next day. I think Barb's the one who talked, Derek's just not that kind of guy. I can see her being a little braggy, especially about hot guys. I never liked her a whole lot. But...What the F! A threeway for all night and half a day? Jesus Mary and Joseph! And here I thought we were all the no-love-life losers that night. Guess that club's whittled down to just me lately. What the F indeed. I don't know why gossip like that makes ME so unhappy, but it does. January 23, 2015 Mom called. Wants to fix me up with a "nice man". Ugh. Lately I just want a wild lover, not a "nice man". Of course I'd never take a wild lover. Not enough GUTS. But, Mom's just being Mom, and a date wouldn't be the end of the world, that's for sure. I think I'll call her tomorrow and tell her yes. January 25th, 2015 Sunday morning and I feel resurrected. Best date EVER last night. Can't believe my MOTHER fixed it up because it was hot hot HOT! First time in my life I've fallen into bed with someone on a first date, but it felt so NATURAL. I feel like calling Mia and telling her all about it, but I won't. I probably couldn't anyway. Talk about it I mean. All the intimate stuff. Like the way he felt in my hand. So much harder than I remember other men being. So hard, and long, and the heat just poured off of it like there was a fire inside. His name's Mike. Ha! I guess that's less important in my mind than how hard he was! So here's the big memory I want to write down — I put it in my mouth! I should put 10 exclamation points after that! It was SO FUCKING SEXY, I can't even believe it. I've never felt so...lusty, I guess that's the word. Mike was real gentle about it, perfect really. I don't know if he could tell it was my first time doing that. I'm sure he could sense it was something like that. I'm holding on to it, stroking it nice and soft and he's really happy, and I just was drawn to it and put it between my lips! Next thing I know I'm licking it all over, and sucking on it and moaning. It was all uncontrollable, like instinct or something. It didn't go on for too long before he wanted to fuck me, which I was all for, but WOW! I kinda LOVED IT! Little old me, giving a BLOW JOB! I never would have guessed it. Two days ago I didn't even know the guy, and my MOTHER fixed it up! You never know I guess... January 26th, 2015 Called Mia on my lunch hour. Told her I had the date with Mike and she got more out of me than I thought I'd tell her. She wants to go dancing Friday and pick up guys. I told her what about Mike? She said it's bad to always be thinking "relationship". Takes all the fun out of life she says. Ha! I guess maybe that's one way of looking at it. Mike texted me right after I talked to her. Said how much fun he had and hopes we can do it again. Do it again? A girl could read that to mean just the sex, which I guess, since it was fun, isn't such a bad thing. I don't get the feeling he wants a relationship. Didn't really talk about that with him. Hmm, what's a 30 year old girl to think these days? January 29th, 2015 Decided to go dancing with Mia tomorrow night. I feel strangely excited about it, different than before. The memory of being with Mike is still fresh, and with Mia picking up guys TWICE the last times we went clubbing, I'm feeling nervous. I guess I broke the ice as far as one night stands go with Mike, although it really didn't feel that way at the time. It wasn't a 'pick up' kind of thing. Mom was involved for goodness sake. So I'm feeling really ...scared. There, I said it. Jan30 Just got dressed for the club tonight. Mia said she's going slutty, so I had to too. It's funny, I was thinking all day at work that I WANTED to dress slutty, but I knew I wouldn't. Then Mia texted and said she is, and here I am in a short skirt, sexy stockings, high-heels and a little satin shirt that's unbuttoned too much. I've had all these clothes, worn them all separately before, but never put them all together. Each piece I put on I looked sluttier and sluttier. Probably not in the ultimate sense, I mean a really sexy woman would think this look wasn't pushing it very far, but for me, wow do I feel exposed. I don't want to wear my usual stuff though, I'd feel like a dweeb next to Mia if she looks hot. Oh well, it's a new club, nobody knows me there. I can do this! I can do this! Jan 31 Where do I begin? Not sure I even want to write down what happened last night. But I also want to shout it out for everyone to hear. Never had these kinds of mixed feelings before. Okay, what the fuck happened? That's how I should start this entry. I'm sitting here, staring at this page for like a minute or more after I write each sentence, that's how crazy and surreal this morning feels. Long story short, the slut clothes were appropriate, because I WAS one last night. Oh! My! God!! Let me see if I can remember how it even happened, because I'm not sure I really even comprehended it at the time. I met Mia at a coffee shop down the street from the club. We walk over and wait in a BIG line. It's a brand new club and the place to be I guess. Leave it to Mia to know that. I'm glad I wore what I wore because Mia looked really hot. A lot of other girls did too. It seemed like we waited in line forever but then we're in and it's like a psychedelic trip in there. Like back to the 60's , but in a good way. Loud, hot, sweaty. Mia went right for the Tequila and we both had 2 before we hit the dance floor. Guys were all over us almost instantly. 2 more Tequilas and we were flying high. There was an older bunch of people there that we seemed to fall in with. Late 30's, early 40's maybe? 3 handsome, sexy guys and their wives/girlfriends? I'm still not sure how they were connected. I'm guessing wives. Every time Mia and I took a break or got a drink we seemed to end up back dancing with them again. I was super fun, lots of smiles and laughs and the flirty stuff grew to epic proportions. Everybody was into it, even the women. It was too loud to communicate much, so we all just danced up a storm. The dancing got really sexy and dirty. I was only letting a little of that happen, because I felt uncomfortable about it with the "wives" there, but I was watching. Mia though, she was right into it, big time. I've never seen her act so sexy, especially with couples when the women were there, but she just went for it like it was totally natural. I could never do that. So this is were things get fuzzy. All the sudden we were all squeezed into 2 cabs heading for one of the couple's apartments. I wish I could remember how or why, but I don't remember what was said to get us to that point. Mia and I were in a cab with Donnie and Marie. Yeah I know! We had a good laugh when they first told us their names. So here's where things really get crazy. Marie kisses Mia! We had just gotten into the cab and it pulled away from the curb and she was all over Mia and Mia was into it! I couldn't believe it! It was like one of those, "What? Am I seeing this right?" moments. They were both in super slutty little dresses and their hands were all over each other. I must have had a shocked look on my face, because Donnie said "You're adorable" and he kissed me. It was funny because the shock went out the window and I kissed him back, really hard. It was one of those kisses, you know? The kind you're probably gonna remember for a LONG time. Fuck it was hot! We're going through these massive potholes in this rickety old cab that smells awful, and I'm like floating away on this intense kiss and his hands are making me so fucking horny! So I'm like lost in another world when the cab pulls up in front of this apartment building. All these questions are going through my head. I want to ask "Aren't you guys married?" but I'm too chicken. I hate being shy. Mia and Marie are laughing and we all get out. The other cab pulls up behind us and the party rolls out onto the sidewalk, everybody laughing and acting sexy. I felt like a fish out of water and then Donnie puts his arm around my waist and kisses me again, right there in front of everyone. I blushed really hard and he says "Adorable" again. His eyes were really intense, soft and warm, but fiery and dangerous. I could have run away with him right then and there. Wow, I'm writing a book here! Let's see, okay, so we all go inside. Turns out it's Mitzy and Rocko's place. How's that for big-city Italian names? Mitzy and Rocko. They look just like you'd think, Mitzy a little skinny firecracker with quick sarcasm that I wish I could pull off, and Rocko, he's like a wavy haired muscle-man who spends his time 'lifting' at the gym, like right out of a T.V. show or something. Real blue-collar, with a thick accent from like the Bronx or something. At first I found him funny in a not flattering kind of way, but now, yeah, I can definitely see what Mitzy see's in him. The other couple was Bo and Anne. They're so different, like middle class suburbanites. It's funny that they all hang out together because all three couples seem like they're from different worlds, but I guess it's their "hobby" that brought them together. Fucking each other. Yeah, I just wrote that. Swapping partners. Swinging. Holy shit, I still can't believe it! And Mia and I, well, oh my God, am I actually gonna write this down where someone might find it and read it? Mia and I, we were their playthings for the night. That's how it felt anyway. And we loved it! I LOVED IT! I got fucked by 3 men, and I licked a woman's pussy for the first time. 4 of them actually. Yup, everybody 'did' everybody else, and all 5 of us girls were ganged up on at least once too. I can't even begin to put into words what it was all like, especially when I was the center of attention. I've never been so out of my mind before. Feb 1 Just read through that War And Peace sized entry from yesterday. I'm tempted to scratch it all out, but I guess I'll leave it. It did happen to me after all — do I really want to forget it? Feeling very, very down on myself for letting something like that happen. Am I sick in the head for letting myself go like that? For enjoying it? It's Sunday morning. I feel like I should go to church and pray for my soul. So, it's 8pm now, and I haven't heard a peep from Mia since we shared an awkward kiss on the cheek on the sidewalk outside Mitzy and Rocko's apartment in the wee hours yesterday morning. The idea of calling her and talking about it all is terrifying to me. I know that's ridiculous. I'm an adult for goodness sake. Am I afraid to admit that I really did like it? Having sex with 7 people? How can that be? How can I ever admit to that? Feb 3 Back to work today. Awkward, awkward, awkward. I felt like I was hiding some sort of secret the whole day. I hate that feeling! Mia called me at lunch time. Said she was "busy" all weekend, but I could tell she felt weird about it all too. I went up to the smoker's deck on the roof and was alone, but I still told her I couldn't talk about it all at work. We sort of did anyway, which was good I guess, to sort of break the ice. It was all very surreal, I can't believe I'm having these kinds of discussions with her. Even more surreal is that I got aroused when we talked. I'm not sure what's going on. Feb 4 Just hung up from Mia again. Glad she didn't call at work this time. Long conversation. We're both sort of on the same page — freaked out initially, confused, a lot of underlying feelings that we're slowly talking about. The big one though is we both sort of really did love the experience. It's hard to admit for someone like me. Little Miss Good Girl with the sucky sex life. But like Mia said, "Why shouldn't good sex make us happy?" Yes. It's true really, isn't it? Who am I asking? Myself I guess. Yes, I'll admit it — I loved it. I find myself thinking about it a LOT. Rocko seems to fill my thoughts more than the others. That muscle body, oh my GOD! I never thought I'd see someone like him naked, I don't know why. But he wasn't just naked, he fucked me so hard. Hard! Like a crazy wild man. I should probably write down here how big his cock is, so I don't forget. Like I'm gonna forget! It's the longest, fattest cock. Filled me like nothing I could imagine. And he'd just go and go and go. More than once I though I'd pass out! I never dreamed a man could be like that. I can still hear the others egging him on too, while he was giving it to me. It was like a cheering section. It's All Because Of Mia Speaking of loud, as the night wore on and I let myself go I remember screaming a lot. That's not like me AT ALL! I also remember Mitzy laughing about the neighbors and telling the other guys to fill my mouth so they didn't call the cops! Wow! The other guys fucked real good too. No complaints about any of them, that's for sure. Mia was partial to Bo. I think she liked seeing the wild side of his buttoned down suburban personality. He's got a long cock too. We haven't talked too much about the women yet, or about what happened between the two of us. We sort of did, enough to know we both liked it, but, I don't know, will we REALLY talk about it, or ever do something together again? Talking about the men and the cocks is like trying to reassure ourselves — NO, WE'RE NOT LESBIANS! It's kind of funny really. I know you can do both, girls and guys, but it's all new right now, and plenty confusing. Feb 6 Nervous. Getting dressed to go dancing with Mia tonight. Friday has tuned into 'slut night'. Ha ha! Laughing about it is a good sign. Last Saturday I was FREAKED OUT! Haven't seen Mia since then, but we've talked a lot. Sort of decided to embrace our sexual side, at least for now, and see how it goes. Sounds easier than it is. Got a wicked case of nerves right now. I'm in a new little slut dress that I bought yesterday after work. As soon as I put it on I knew it was the one. It fits me SO PERFECT, but wow is it, uh, brief. It's black and skin tight and has these zig-zag cut-outs down one side. The way they're positioned they make it clear there's no underwear underneath. That's the really slutty part. That and how small and tight it is. I bought another little dress too, one that's not as blatant about it. I thought I'd wear that one, but here I am in the slut dress. I told Mia about it and she said she'd be mad at me if I chicken out and don't wear it, so...I guess I'm leaving it on and walking out the door in a few minutes. I'm glad it's winter and I'll have a long coat on over it. Feb 7 Threeway with Mia last night! Wow, what has happened to me? Just a few weeks ago I wouldn't have even dreamt of this kind of stuff. Okay, what happened... I had my cab swing by Mia's place, and on the ride to the club she told me the plan was to pick up guys and go to her place. She didn't get too specific because the creepy driver was listening, but I could tell she wanted an 'all together' thing like at Mitzy and Rocko's. I sort of put it out of my head when we got to the club, a nice new place we hadn't been to before. We had fun, but I didn't drink a lot and the guys I danced with didn't really do it for me. Mia hit the jackpot though with Bryan, a really cute guy about our age who gave her lots of attention. It didn't take long for her to get us out of there. At first I thought she was crazy, I was just going to go home, but she orchestrated the whole thing, and Bryan was into it. It was different because I wasn't drunk and I was thinking clearly. I'm glad about that because now I know I really like and want these experiences. Bryan was more nervous than we were. Mia was in her usual Tequila buzz, and I was in this mostly sober but GOING FOR IT kind of a frame of mind. It's weird really, how confident I felt. Maybe it was BECAUSE Bryan was nervous, it kind of freed me up a little. I don't know. Whatever the reason, it felt good. Confidence around men and sex is something I've never experienced before, and boy did I like it! So Bryan is really cute! Manly cute. Reddish hair, sort of long, with a darker beard, trimmed short. He's TALL! Like 6'3" maybe? Super cute ass. Oh my God, did he ever look good fucking Mia doggy style! I can't believe I just wrote that. I can't believe I watched it! I can't believe I joined in, wrapped my arms around him and played with his balls as he fucked her. God it was hot. Fuck, I'm on fire just thinking about it! And Mia, my God she's a hot little thing. I never realized how sexual she is. At Mitzy and Rocko's I was overwhelmed with everything that was going on and didn't watch her much I guess, but last night, wow did she ever blow my mind. I have a lot to learn from her. I already did last night. How to let the animal side out but still be womanly and feminine. God, it's like she oozes sex from her pores. So fucking hot. Back to Bryan. For someone who was nervous and obviously not used to those situations, he was kind of amazing. Not super big like Rocko and not even as long as Bo, but we must have inspired him because he was rock hard for hours, with just 5 or 10 minutes of down time every once in a while. Impressive to say the least. Fucked us so good and was so nice, I've got all new respect for barroom pickups. Bravo Bryan! Feb 8 I was thinking that I didn't write much yesterday about Mia. Just got off the phone with her this morning. We texted a few times yesterday, but it's still a little awkward talking about having sex with each other when it's fresh in our minds. It takes a day or two to break the ice and bring it up on the phone. Even this morning we didn't talk in depth about it, but we ARE slowly getting used to the idea I think. So, let's see... I wrote about how hot and sizzlingly sexual she is, but I haven't really put my thoughts down on actually 'doing it' with her. 'Doing it', that sounds so teenaged, doesn't it? She makes me cum as good as any man, that's less teenaged I guess! Or maybe not, teenagers are pretty wild these days. I can't even put into words what it feels like to have her lick me down there. Down there! Ha! PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY! Gosh, I can barely write the words and I'm out there doing all this stuff! PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY! COCK COCK COCK! Fuck me with your cock in my pussy. Ha ha! Let me lick your pussy with my mouth. Ha ha! Too much fun! So, Mia. Yeah, see, I can't even put it into words. She's kinda magical. I'll just leave it at that I guess. Feb 9 Been thinking about orgasms today. It was a boring Monday at work, so what better to think about? Ha! Hard to believe just a month ago I hadn't ever really had one. All these years of dancing around the perimeter and not really understanding it. Not that I had much experience. Mike got me there for real for the first time (thanks Mom! Ha ha!). It was shocking really, totally surprised me, the 'full body' effect it had on me. At first, like for a minute of two after it happened, I thought no way, I can't let that happen again. Guess I felt out of control, too vulnerable. But now, that's exactly what I love about it, that minute or so when you give yourself over to it, to your lover, to the universe. Yeah, it feels that big. Mike got me there twice, which is astonishing to think about. Rocko, he got me there and didn't let me leave! Don't know if it's because he 'primed the pump' in such a big way or what, but ever since his big cock ripped me apart I can get there really easy. Maybe it's just because it's all so new. I don't know. I couldn't love it any more, I'll say that that without hesitation. Women bring it on me in a whole other way. The end result is sort of the same (not like Rocko though! Gosh!) but it happens softer, floatier. Yesterday I wrote that Mia's kind of magical. An orgasm with her is like an otherworldly kind of thing. Maybe it's the friendship. Maybe if I have that with a guy someday it'll be like that with him too. A girl can dream, right? Feb 10 Mia came over last night. It was late but she said she wanted to talk. Said she had a boring Monday and was depressed. Well, we didn't talk. Not much anyway. We took off each others clothes and made love. Our first time alone together. IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL! My gosh, my views on sex have changed SO MUCH. And it's all because of Mia. If I didn't want a man so bad she would be IT! She's so freakin hot and sexy and beautiful. I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to keep my hands off her anymore. That's not such a bad thing I guess... Feb 12 Went shopping on my way home from work. Hit a bunch of boutique type places that I've never paid much attention to before. Bought 2 new dancing dresses, hot ones, and some lingerie at a cool little shop. They had sex toys there too. Made me blush to even pass by them. Maybe I'll get there eventually. Never knew there was such a variety. It's funny, when I was picking out the dresses and sexy stuff I was thinking mostly of Mia, wondering if she'd like it on me. I'll wear it all for men too of course. Ha! It's kind of funny — my mom loves a bargain, she's always saying "Try and get double usage out of your clothes. Why not buy work clothes you can wear to church." Well there you go Mom — lingerie I can wear for boys AND girls! Ha ha!. Feb 13 Need to write some more real life stuff in here, not just all the sex stuff. Barb came over after work. Haven't seen her for a while so we got caught up. Was dying to tell her about all the sex but didn't. She's met Mia, so, I guess I could of said SOMETHING, but I didn't. She seems lonely. Now that I've thought about it I wish I had told her at least a little bit about it all, but how? "I've become a wanton slut and I love it"? I can picture her saying "It's fun right now, but where does it lead to in a year from now?" She'd be right of course — where does it lead to? She asked me about Valentine's Day tomorrow, if I had any plans. Mia wants to do happy hour, but I didn't mention it to Barb because I'd need to invite her and...suddenly everything's complicated. Feb 14/15 2AM. Mia just left. Made love for HOURS! So nice! Valentine's Day happy hour was kinda weird. There were some guys there but it was an odd vibe, so we left and came back here. Getting naked with her seems almost normal now. Still super exciting and 'forbidden' feeling, which is hot. My skin is like on fire when she first starts touching me, and orgasm number 1 is never far away. Tonight it was a matter of minutes, while we were still standing up. She's got these long slender fingers. Oh yeah! I'm learning how to make her happy with my tongue. She seems to be effortless with hers on me, but I'm...I don't know, I guess I think about it too much. Tonight was better though, I'm learning to switch off that thinking side of me. It makes me so hot to have my head between her legs like that! God it's so thrillingly dirty. Just raw and sexual in a way that just makes me soar with...excitement. I can't even think of a good enough word for the way I feel when I'm doing it. Mia's got her hands on my head, she's moaning and getting off, an orgasm's building in her, WOW it's just AMAZING! And the taste of her...so feminine. The taste of a woman. A massively sexual woman. Mia. Feb 20 Wow, how many nights this past month have I had great sex? It's more than a record, it's UN-BE-LIEVABLE! Mia and I each picked up a guy on our own at the dance club, guys that didn't know each other, and we all went back to Mia's place and fucked. Fucked our brains out would be how the teenaged me would have said it. Yessiree, fucked our freekin' brains out! I'm starting to wonder if this is healthy, but DAMN it's SO MUCH FUN! So screw that mental health shit. I'm in baby, I'm in. Ha ha! I have no idea what the guy's names are, and I don't think they know our names either. Isn't that just awful? I'm saying that with a smile on my face of course, but gee wiz, what is going on here! My mother would DIE if she knew I just had a fourway with 2 guys who's names I don't even know! So Mia's guy, he's young and hip. Not real young, maybe 26 or something. My guy, he's a little older than us, maybe 2 or 3 years, and not hip at all. Just handsome and sort of out of place looking at the club, so I moved in next to him and he started talking to me. I was so hoping we'd hit it off, because he made me horny right away. Some guys do that to me, even back when I was a good girl. Of course I'm not to the point where I can initiate all the sex stuff yet. I leave that up to Mia. I shouldn't but I do. She's good at it. So she gets us all back to her place for 'drinks' and wham, she's all over the hip guy. My guy's real polite but he can tell I'm in the mood so he kisses me, real nice and soft and sexy. Mia's already half naked right there in the living room and my guy's trying to be polite, but he's trying to watch her too, which is kinda funny. I tell him "It's okay, you're probably gonna do a lot more than watch her before the night's over." He looks at me with this astonished look on his face. It was SO CUTE! I just wanted to rip his clothes off, so I did. Well, I'm not much of a ripper, I just helped him out of them while he helped me out of mine. He's a tit man for sure. My nips were hard as rocks and he loved them. I don't know if I've had anybody nibble on them so sexy before. So I'm getting better at the cock sucking thing. I want to write that down because I'm proud of it. I've got this hair conditioner bottle that's about the size of a big cock, with a nice rounded top on it. It's perfect for fooling around, I've had it in my pussy more than once! Ha ha! I've been practicing with my mouth on it while I watch porn girls do it. I hope nobody's been watching through my window because I'm sure it looks RIDICULOUS, but practice makes perfect as they say and I'm already getting pretty good with a real cock. The guys seemed to like it and I'm really enjoying it myself. I mean REALLY enjoying it! Ha ha! There's something really primal about having a hard cock in your mouth. So my guy...once he got rolling, boy did he ever loosen up. Fucked me and Mia like there was no tomorrow. Mia's guy was fun too, but my guy? Wow! Jackpot material. In this month-and-a-half long adventure I haven't had sex with a dud yet. I'm sure that day will come, but so far so AWESOME! Feb 22 Mom called yesterday and asked me if I'd go to church with her today. I can't say no to Mom, even though I've never been a huge fan of the whole church thing. I dressed a tiny bit sexier than I probably should have, nothing blatant, but Mom picked up on it and gave me a look that let me know it. After all I've been up to lately I'm glad Protestant's don't have confession, or I would have been in there a while! Ha ha! They had a little coffee and sweets meet and greet after the service, and of course Mom wanted to stay for that. It was nice to see some of her old friends. Before I knew what she was up to she walks me over to a gentleman I'd never seen there before and she introduces herself, and me of course. I could immediately tell what she was up to, but I didn't mind too much because he really WAS a gentleman. Freshly cut hair with graying temples, an expensive tailored suit, the nicest shoes I've ever seen on a man. His name's Robert. He's new in the city, just transferred from the West coast, something to do with computers, but I think he's an executive. I'll find out because he asked me out! Mom drifted off and he and I talked for a little while. Before he left we made a dinner date for next Friday! Wow! Guess I wore the right dress! Feb 23 Went up on the roof at lunch today and called Mia. Talked for the whole hour. Told her about Robert. Are you gonna fuck him on the first date she says, like that's all that's on her mind lately. I have to admit I've already been wondering about it myself though. If we hit it off like we seemed to I don't want to screw it up. So Mia was bummed a little about Friday. She had wanted to go dancing. Which these days means fucking. Ha ha! She suggested Thursday instead, one of the clubs has a 'ladies night' thing with drink specials early. We're going, but I'm not doing anything crazy because I've got to work the next day. Famous last words I'm guessing... Feb 26 Home at a reasonable hour, just before 1AM. Should be falling into bed NOW for my big day tomorrow, er, today, but boy I like writing this stuff down. Never thought I'd be a 'journaler', but it's fun. I'm sure some of it's because I can't quite believe what's been happening to me, and I want to write it down to solidify it all in my spinning brain. Mia and I solidified a cock tonight. Ha ha! He's a real live geek, Martin's his name. I think Mia was just sort of goofing on him when she first started flirting, which wasn't nice. He was alone, trying to act cool at this kind of lame ladies night thing. Not many people there, weeknight and too early I guess. So Mia gets him dancing. It was TOO FUNNY! I mean a total 'I can't dance' kind of guy, but he couldn't resist Mia. What guy could? So the three of us are dancing and she starts getting handsy with him and I can see where it's going. I say to myself, okay, lets do this. Next thing you know we're all naked at Mia's place and he's happier than a pig in shit. I don't think he could see much without his glasses, but he was way cuter without them. And without those clothes. Somebody really should help him shop a little. Funny thing was, after he came the first time he could just go and go and go! Turned out to be a really fun night. Sleep now. I'm wicked tired. Feb 27 Just home from my date with Robert. Wow, is he ever a catch! Too soon to tell if we're going to reel each other in though. We both need to loosen up and get used to each other before we know if the personalities really mesh, but it looks VERY promising. He's so handsome it's almost ridiculous. He works for a cyber security company, big contracts, big money I think. Picked me up in an Audi. Not flashy or anything, but fast and sporty and super nice. Linen shirt, nice jeans, another pair of gorgeous shoes. Where does he get those shoes? So the big question sort of answered itself — no sex. It felt right to wait. I could tell he felt that way to. A really nice kiss on the cheek ended the night. It was perfect. We're already set for another date next Friday. Mia won't be happy about that. March 1 Sunday. I'm exhausted. Last night was CRAZY. After my date with Robert I really thought I'd go easy on the fun with Mia, try and get myself back to more 'respectable' behavior. Guess I want to be worthy of a nice guy like Robert. It was like I was having an argument with myself all day yesterday. Mia won out. I shouldn't blame her. She's seductive, yes, but what happened last night was way more than that. During the day I told her no, I wasn't going out to a club. I was going to stay home, catch up on some chores around here. She was really disappointed. So I get a text from her later saying she's going, and where she'd be if I changed my mind. I almost did, but I thought about Robert and stayed home. She texted me again from the club, said it was a big crowd, lots of fun. Around midnight I was watching TV and got a text. "Come to my place NOW. You WON'T be disappointed." Why did I do it? I don't know, she caught me right when I was feeling really horny I guess. Speaking of horny, oh my God! Three college boys! I'm getting ahead of myself. So I zip over in a cab, and Mia answers the door naked. Her hair's all messed up and she's got that look on her face. God she's sexy. She kisses me hard and starts pulling off my t-shirt. There's music coming from her bedroom and a naked boy walks out to the kitchen. He's so young! I'm guessing they're all 19, 20 maybe. Leave it to Mia. So I'm in my jeans and my bra and she leads me by the hand into the bedroom. My heart's pounding because I don't know what I'm walking into. "This is my friend. Take her clothes off and fuck her good" Mia says to the boys. I don't know if I've ever felt such a rush of excitement in my life. Pure adrenaline. Wow. Three young boys stripped me. I was still standing near the doorway. Their mouths and hands went everywhere. I came in about 30 seconds and melted into their arms. It was too wild for words. It was a long night. Young boys have SO much ENERGY! We fucked like animals until the sun came up. Literally. It was light out when I got a cab home. I felt so sexy in that cab with the driver eyeing me in the mirror. I'm sure I looked well fucked. I certainly felt it. A couple months ago I would have been embarrassed by that feeling, but this morning it felt like heaven. It's All Because Of Mia It's Sunday night. I'm in bed early. Got 4 hours sleep this morning when I got home, but wow I'm exhausted. Both Mia and Robert called earlier. I had just gotten done talking to Mia about the boys and the wild night when Robert called. It's funny how easy my mind shifted to him and his calm, easygoing conversation. He just wanted to see how I was, how my weekend went. Said his was boring except for our date. We decided on a fun new Mexican restaurant for this Friday's date. Hearing his voice really got me excited to see him again. I want to fuck him this time. Boy that sounds crude and blatant, but it's true. I wonder if that whole 'third date' thing still applies to 'respectable' people? I hope not. I'll let him make the move, but I hope it's this time. March 2 Boring day at work with one BIG exception. Ate my lunch up on the rooftop smoker's deck and Barb was up there too. Except for that day when she stopped by my place I'd only seen her casually in the halls since New Years Eve. I was right about her being the 'talkative' one about the rumors of her threeway that night. She told me all about it. Kept saying "don't say anything" and "this is just between you and me." Yeah right. So she took Derek and his friend Rob back to her place. Said "I've never done anything like that before" but it was so obvious she was lying. Of course I'm no better than her as far as slutty behavior these days, but at least I don't gossip about it and lie about it. I saw Derek later in the day. I have to go up to accounting once in a while, and he was wandering around. We smiled and made small talk for a few minutes. It felt weird knowing he has a big cock and how good he is in bed. Maybe Barb exaggerates, but I'm guessing it's true. March 5 Mia wanted to do a happy hour because we can't go dancing tomorrow, but I know where that'll end up so I stayed home and picked out my outfit for my date with Robert. Casual but flirty. He wore nice jeans last time and probably will again, so I pulled out my tightest stretchy jeans and tried them on. Damn! I swear all this fucking must burn a ton of calories because they look way better on me than I remember. Mia mentioned it too, that I've lost weight and look fitter. Yay sex! Anyway, the jeans look really hot, almost too hot, but I'm wearing them. I know it's wicked but I'd love to go braless. I tried on every top I own and only one worked that way, without being too in your face about it. It's a shiny silver thing, almost like the top half of an old movie star evening gown or something. With a skirt it'd be too dressed up, but with jeans it's like casual chic. I don't know about the bare tits underneath though, it's marginal. The fabric's loose and sort of hangs, and it's gathered a little so it's not like outlining the shape of me or anything. It leaves some mystery there, but they do jiggle. When I was looking at the jiggle in the mirror my nips got hard and boy, THAT'S pretty sexy. Too much though? I think I'm going for it, but I got out my sexiest little bra in case I chicken out. March 6 Robert will be here in half an hour to pick me up. I'm going without the bra. God it feels wicked. It's a feeling that I grown to love. I feel so sexy right now, sitting, waiting. It's not a feeling I had much in my late 20s, but boy, this year is so different. I didn't wear much makeup. Not sure if that's a good choice or not, but I get a feeling Robert likes that. It's funny, trying to figure out a guy when you don't know him much. Is he going to respond to the way I'm dressed? God I hope so. I really want to waddle home bow-legged in the morning. Ha ha! That's so awful, but it's true. I'm super horny right now. Need to get that under control before he shows up. March 7 Saturday morning and I'm floating on air. What a dreamy night last night! No other way to say it — dreamy. I guess I'll start at the beginning so I can read back on this someday and re-live it all. I know I'll want to do that. Robert picked me up in his nice Audi. As I walked out down the front steps my tits were jiggling like crazy and by the time I sat down in the car my nips were doing their thing. For a minute I thought I'd gone too far with my outfit, but Robert looked really relaxed and happy so I took a few deep breaths and we were off and running. Walking down the street to the restaurant my titties went crazy again. It was the high heels. When I was dressing I never checked the jiggle with my heels on. Live and learn I guess. Anyway, enough about my ta-ta's. Ha ha! The Mexican food was awesome. Real high end stuff, crazy expensive, but wow, so good. We drank red chile margaritas, spicy and fun. Robert didn't drink much on our first date, but this time he was a lot more relaxed and we had a few. We talked a lot about his loft. It's a brand new place in an old building that was just converted. I tried to be really interested without being to blatant, but finally I said "I'd love to see it." I could tell he was happy we got to that point. So we zoom off in his sexy car and up in a really cool elevator. Wow what an amazing loft! He's still kind of new in town, and still buying some furniture, but wow, I'm impressed. Such good taste. So, how did we end up in his bed? I wish I could remember exactly. I feel like we just sort of floated there. I guess he was showing me the bedroom, and, what are ya gonna do? I do remember how his hands slid up under my silvery top and onto my bare tits. Wow, what a move and what a feeling! Turns out it wasn't his only move. He's what I would call an experienced lover. It surprises me a little, but only because our first date was so easygoing and non-sexual. Or maybe he's just picky about his women, I don't know. He really seemed to like me, the naked me I mean. When a guy gives me that feeling it makes me relax and just enjoy it. Boy did I enjoy it! His cock felt like magic inside me. All the casual sex I've had lately has been great, but it's kind of like with Mia — sex with someone you care about really elevates it. I had a whole bunch of orgasms. He knew just how to draw them out of me, and each one was a floating on air kind of thing. Really deep, full body, soul satisfying whoppers. Wow, so nice! And I really think he was feeling the same way. What a night! Robert just called. When he dropped me off last night he said he hates all the 'dating rules' so he just flat-out asked me if I'd like him to call me today. It was cute. Anyway, he just called. Just the sound of his voice makes me wet now. I actually fingered my puss while I was talking to him! He didn't know it or anything, at least I hope not! It's the first time I've ever done that talking to a guy. Sex seems to be taking over my life, but I'm not complaining! March 9 The Monday blues. Sucky day except for 10 minutes that was interesting. I was upstairs and stopped in the coffee room and saw Derek. Damn he gets better looking every time I see him. I wish Barb hadn't told me about his big cock. I can picture it every time I talk to him and it messes up my head. He seems to go out of his way to talk to me which is...interesting. Office romances are a pain in the ass, so I shouldn't go there. And I've got Robert. Well that's a bit presumptuous. I don't HAVE Robert, but maybe? March10 Mia called tonight. Haven't talked to her since my date with Robert Friday. I think she's going through some jealousy stuff. That's cool. It's all very weird how my sex life's getting mixed around. From nothing 2 months ago to almost too much now. Not too much, I shouldn't say that. I love all of it. I should just get Zen with it all and let it wash over me and smile. You never know when it'll all go to hell again and I'll be sitting here like an old maid. So Mia wants to do a happy hour Thursday. Hell yeah I said. That made her feel better. She said to dress sexy. I think I'll go shopping tomorrow and surprise her with a new outfit. March 13 Wow, super long day! Last night with Mia was intense, and today at work was long and tiring. So, last night, where do I begin. Seems like I write that a lot lately. Mia has a knack for picking bars where people want to fuck us. Ha ha! I'm sure it's not that, it's just, wow, it seems so easy to get lucky these days. I guess she puts the vibe out and I'm right there with her. The way we were dressed helped. Mia was, well, DAMN she's a sexy girl! I don't even need to write it down because she's burned into my memory looking like she was. Me, I had a new outfit on just for her. The shortest skirt I've ever worn. Robert's a leg man and gave me confidence I guess. And I found a little cardigan, like the 'sweater girls' in the 50's used to wear, only sexier. I surprised the shit out of myself by going braless in it. It was so totally blatant, I mean please! Asking for it much? Ha ha! So these 2 guys come over to us at the bar almost right away. They work together, out for happy hour. One thing leads to another and it's another fourway at Mia's. Wild! I mean REALLY wild! I wonder, how often does this happen to guys? Is it halfway normal these days, or is it a hit the jackpot, once in a lifetime kind of thing? That's the way I would have felt a few months ago, but Mia seems to make these situations materialize out of thin air. So here's the crazy shit. Mia, at some point without me knowing about it, decides she likes anal sex. I mean WHAT?!! When she asked one of the guys to do her that way I couldn't believe it. And then, to top THAT, she want's them BOTH AT ONCE, one in her ASS and one in her PUSS! Not only does she want it, she fuckin DOES it! I'm squatting over the guy under her, he's licking my puss, and she's sucking on my tits with 2 cocks in her! Did I mention it got REALLY WILD?!! Oh my GOD! So I didn't let anybody in MY ass, but Mia was FLYING when they did it. I mean FLYING!! Makes me wonder. I called Robert from work this afternoon and asked him if we could do something casual tonight, so he cancelled the restaurant and he's going to cook for me at his place. Can't wait for that first glass of wine! March 14 It's a nice lazy morning today after a super nice night with Robert. He can cook! Tuna pasta with lemon and little cherry tomatoes. Boy did it taste good, and so relaxing after the long day. We made love in his big bed again. So nice! It's different than my crazy sex life with Mia. Slow and gentle. Beautiful! Laying there naked with him, sipping wine. It's kind if idyllic. I could REALLY get used to it. 6PM. Just finished a leftover deli sandwich. It won't do my waistline any good, but it looks like I'll work it off tonight. Just got off the phone with Mia. Mitzy called her and invited us to a party she and Rocko are going to tonight. It's insane, especially with things with Robert going so nice, but oh my God, a chance to be with Rocko again! I'm not strong enough to turn that down! Can't believe I'm faced with such a "dilemma." How in the WORLD did I get here? Am I the kind of girl who gets into this kind of situation? I guess I am. No time to figure it out now. Got to get ready. March 15 It's Sunday morning and I should be in church. I really should. I should stand up before the congregation and tell them all I'm a full-on slut and ask their forgiveness. I couldn't do that to Mom though. She'd be horrified. And Robert would be there. Fuck. So, last night. I guess I'll just write about it. That's what this journal's for — confession and being honest with myself. Really I guess it's not much different from things I've written about in here before. For some reason, I guess because of Robert, it feels different though. Feels really dirty slutty. So why do I have a smirk on my face? God, I've got a problem. Let's see if I can get this down on paper, in my little slut journal... I wore one of my new little dresses with just a little garter belt and stockings under it, and some strappy high heels. Even cab rides are exciting when you're dressed like that. Swung by Mia's and picked her up. I smiled when I saw her walk out — little white short-shorts and a little bare midriff button-up shirt with no bra. She looked like a super-cute chorus girl from a musical. Oh yeah, I went all out with my makeup too. I did a super fun cat-eye kind of thing with some liquid eyeliner I've been playing with, and super hot red lipstick that's way bolder than I usually wear. Mia loved it. So we head off to the party. Both of us were kind of nervous, going to the house of someone we hadn't met before. It was an expensive cab ride because the house was outside the city, but what the heck, hobbies aren't supposed to be free, right? Ha ha. Honestly, I think I would have chickened out if I didn't think Rocko would be there. I thought about him a LOT over the last month and getting with him again would make me do just about anything. So the house is kind of big, but nothing really fancy. The neighborhood seemed pretty quiet except for that one place. Lots of cars in front of it and all the lights on. A woman invites us in and she calls to who I guess is her husband and they welcome us with nice smiles. She offers us a mask if we want, like Lone Ranger kind of things but cute. We look around at the people we can see and only about half of them have them on, so we don't bother. There's already some naked people walking around, and some in lingerie. Mia and I looked at each other like, "A real sex party!" but we didn't say it out loud. So the house owner guy walks us through to the kitchen where there's a bar set up, he says he'll look for Mitzy and Rocko and he wanders off. Somebody's just made up a pitcher of whiskey sour's so we try one. GOOD! Mia's feeling sexy already so she unbuttons her little midriff shirt and lets it hang open over her bare tits. She looked so fucking hot! Next thing you know I feel big arms circling me. ROCKO! He spins me around and kisses me and his hands are all up under my dress on my naked ass. The 4 of us talk for a few minutes and finish our drinks. They take us down to the basement to a big family room and people are having sex all over the place. They're not all pretty, there's men with fat bellies and big women, but there's some hot ones too. A real cross section, kind of like a business Christmas party that just went wild. Rocko brings us down to the end of the room were people were dancing. There was a real DJ spinning old vinyl records! Old funk music my parents probably listened too. So cool. Most of the women dancing were in lingerie or topless or naked. Nobody had a dress on like me. I didn't strip mine off right away, because I was pretty much naked under it, but dancing with Rocko got me in the mood pretty quick. Mia, she lost her shirt right away and looked so hot dancing in her little white shorts and high heels. All the guys were checking her out. Mitzy looked good too, she had on a little bustier corset thing that looked so cute. I took the plunge after a song or two and off came the dress! I gotta say it was the most amazing feeling, dancing with strangers in nothing but my lacy garter belt and stockings. WOW! SUPER FUN! And I've never felt such a powerful horniness, dancing with Rocko in his little bikini briefs, looking out at the people fucking in the room. Oh my God, it was off the charts the way I felt. So it didn't take me long to get bold and slide my hand in on Rocko's cock while we danced, and then I was on my knees with it in my mouth, and then he was on his knees fucking the shit out of me right there on the dance floor! NOBODY makes me cum like he does. I lose all control. My legs go crazy, like they're hooked up to electric shock or something. It's the hottest thing ever! I could go on and on, but that's the part I really wanted to remember. It was a loooong night. Mia got gang-banged right in the middle of the room on a big flat ottoman. I got with about 4 different guys I guess, but Rocko, oh my God Rocko, he just does it for me. He fucks better than anybody in the world, and that body, oh my God that body! I'd never try and steal him away from Mitzy, but...but...oh, that tight little butt of his! Ha ha! It's funny, when I started writing this I was all full of guilt and angst, thinking about Robert, and now after writing it I'm all "Yeah! Sex party!That was so awesome!" I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself. Talk about conflicted! March 16 Mondays blow! I really hate my job sometimes. Oh well, gotta do it. It's not only the job though. A lot of soul searching going on in my head the last few days. I spent way too much time yesterday looking at myself in the mirror. Just standing there looking. Trying to see who the real me is I guess. A party girl? Someone who wants a real boyfriend? A nice girl? An asshole idiot? Mirror mirror on the wall didn't tell me anything. Fuckin thing must be broken. Robert called yesterday evening. Said he tried to get ahold of me Saturday night, right about the time Rocko was splitting me open with his big cock on the dance floor. I told him I was out with Mia and couldn't hear my phone. Not a lie I guess, but it felt like one when I told it. So that led me into today feeling less than good about myself, and then at work Derek came down to see me. Asked me if I'd have lunch with him. I knew I should say no but I figured it's only lunch, and he's only a work friend, so we went. It's a little diner across the street, but we had a private booth in the corner, and I swear to God by the end of it I wanted to kiss him. What the fuck! I gotta get this shit under control. So I know he knew what I was feeling and he's ready for something too. It was all in the air all around us. Like this fuckin force field or something. Fuck. I got way too much shit to sort out, it's fuckin up my head something fierce. Mia called yesterday too, all excited about the house party Saturday night. Hearing her and remembering it all myself got my head all back into that wild stuff again. God I love it. I hate myself for saying it, but I do. I fuckin LOVE it. Letting the sexy side of me out there free, so pure and raw. It's like nothing else I've ever experienced in life and I JUST FUCKING LOVE IT!! If I could drag Derek and Robert and my mom and everybody else I know to a big sex party and everybody could just fuck like crazy I'd be the happiest girl in the world. How nutty is THAT! I think I need to see a shrink. March 17 Lunch with Derek again. I know exactly where this is going. I'm excited to see the big cock Barb told me about (Ha! I've got my fingers crossed that she wasn't exaggerating) but holy shit, do I really need another relationship to juggle right now? NO I DO NOT is the correct answer. But I just know I'm gonna fuck him. How can I not? He's so attractive and I'm such a fuckin' horn dog lately. I know it's crazy but I'd love to bring him in on my life with Mia. I'd hate to have another "boyfriend" that I'm hiding stuff from. Don't know if it's possible for him to know about all that without it getting around work. I never thought I'd be the office slut, but I guess I am. March 18 Well that didn't take long. Guess they don't call Wednesday Hump Day for nothin. Derek fucked me in the supply closet on the eighth floor today. It was so fucking hot! It was gonna be just a blowjob, and Barb wasn't lying, nice cock! One thing led to another though and I got down to just my panties! At work! Derek ate me really nice and then I bent over a big stack of copier paper boxes and he fucked me like a trooper. Oh man, I just knew he'd be good! What a sexy guy! Yum! So now the dilemma starts. Do I just make him part of my new slut world and hope for the best, or do I keep it a secret? I'd really like to bring him along for the ride. I get the feeling he really loves sex and would be into the group stuff. I know Mia will like him. If nothing else some threeways with her would be awesome. Listen to me sounding like an experienced sexy girl! I guess I am. Hard to get used to that. It's All Because Of Mia March 19 I never thought a day WITHOUT sex would be something good, but today feels really restful. It's late now, I'm in bed totally relaxed. I feel like some sort of Zen meditation thing has me in it's grips, but all I'm doing is lying here thinking about life. That's good I guess, it means life is good right now. Lot's of people I care about, lot's of people who care about me. That's what it's all about. I've never had too much trouble going with the flow, but I do get twisted up sometimes. Tonight, March 19, 2015, I hear-by resolve to be mellow and enjoy the pleasurable riches that have come my way. I can almost hear a kind old lady saying "Be a slut while you can dear, it all goes away too soon." Ha ha! Dancing with Mia tomorrow. Can't wait. March 21 All righty then! Things are progressing. I think I told myself to stay mellow and enjoy, so I'm just gonna do that and not worry about...whatever. Stuff like getting a guy from work involved with my debauchery. What could possibly go wrong? FUCK!! I MUST BE CRAZY!! Oh well what's done is done, and what was done is a fuckin crazy night with Derek and Mia! I guess I had a feeling it would end up 'all naked', but you never know how people are gonna hit it off. Mia and Derek, they hit it off just fine! Ha ha! So now Derek knows I'm a total sex slut, especially since we brought another couple back to Mia's place with us and it got totally wild. Trinity and Johann, a BEAUTIFUL dark skinned black girl and her cute euro boyfriend, from Sweden I think. They're young, like right out of college or around there. Johann's got the most adorable accent. Mia picked them up while Derek and I were dancing and quick as a wink we were back at her place. She doesn't mess around! Trinity, oh my god she's beautiful. Dark, ebony skin, so smooth, and next to Johann, who's so pale and blonde, they just looked amazing. Trinity's tits are awesome too, the ski-jump shaped kind. I'm starting to realize I'm a tit girl. That's where my eyes go when I see a woman now. Guess I understand why guys do that! Ha ha! Derek's a tit man too, so he was in heaven with us three girls rubbin them all over him. There was one time when he was on his back and I climbed on his face and he ate me out while Trinity wrapped her tits around his cock and fucked him with them. It was SO HOT to watch! I came really hard and sort of soaked his face! Johann was doggie fucking Mia real hard right next to us. Fuck, I'm all wet just thinking about it! We all fucked till we could barely move. Trinity and Johann staggered out around 4AM I think, and me and Derek slept a few hours with Mia. When we got up Derek took a shower thinking he was gonna escape, but we ambushed him and fucked him some more in the daylight. I can't wait to see him at work Monday. I'm just curious what his reaction's gonna be. I need to get some rest. Date with Robert tonight. My God, I'm totally out of control... March 22 Wow, I think I could fall in love with Robert. Maybe I already have. We're so relaxed together, and everything just feels so natural when I'm with him. We had dinner at a new chicken place that was funky and cool, and we walked by a dance club and I dragged him in. It was so fun to watch him loosen up on the dance floor, even though he said he hasn't done that since he was 'a kid'. He looked super sexy when he got going, so I dragged him out of there and fucked him for hours. Slept curled up next to him with my head on his chest. NICE!! I wonder what he thinks of me? I mean I know he likes me a lot, but beyond that? I don't know. March 23 Holy cow, work's a WHOLE LOT more fun when you spend an hour of the day fucking! Derek and I got super sweaty in the eighth floor supply closet. Spent our whole lunch hour in there, both of us totally NAKED! Oh my God, it seems totally INSANE to do that at the office! But man oh man, is it ever exciting and HOT!! I was so turned on it was crazy! I mean rip roaring orgasms, the kind I just can't get enough of. Okay, I'm in trouble. I feel like things are spinning out of control... March 23 All right, it's official, I'm addicted to sex. A nice quiet evening without a man, and what do I do? Watch porn. It made me realize I need to up my game. I mean guys are plenty into me (no pun intended! Ha ha!), but wow, the porn girls really let it go. Vocally I mean. It's so fun to watch them, the good ones anyway. They're letting their guys know EVERYTHING. I need to work on that, my dirty talk and keeping the channels open when they're doing the right thing, making me feel good. I tend to get lost in it and not say much when I'm closing on an orgasm, but I LOVE the way the good porn girls talk their man through it all, whimpering and vocalizing and going fuckin' wild. So hot! I need to do that! March 24 Wild sex at work again. It's NOT GOOD! I mean the sex is AWESOME but we shouldn't be doing it there. But neither Derek or I seem to be able to say no. All it takes is a little twinkle in our eyes and whammo, we're naked in the supply closet. It wouldn't be QUITE so bad if I just flipped up my skirt and he unzipped, but no, we've gotta be NAKED. Like wild, out of control crazy people. Why is it that I realize that, and yet it happens every time? March 25 Okay, here goes. My hand is still trembling as I write this. Guess I'll just spit it out. I got fired today. No more job. I'm so disappointed in myself. Crying again as I write this. How do I explain this to Mom? To Robert? I guess I'll write down what happened. Maybe it'll be good to see it in writing, so I can look at it if I ever feel the urge to do something so stupid again. I didn't realize Derek and Barb were still getting together occasionally, after their threeway thing New Years Eve. Turns out Derek was with Barb last night, and he told her about me and the sex at work thing. I'm surprised really, because Derek's not a talker, but whatever, somehow she got it out of him. Anyway, she tells Derek she wants to do it, to get fucked at work. It's a little surprising, because she comes across really conservative at work, but I've always thought she had a little wild side, and New Years Eve certainly showed it. So anyway, he tells her to be there today, lunchtime, in the eighth floor supply closet. The thing he didn't mention was that I would be there too. The look on her face was kind of fascinating when we all got there. "A threeway? With her?" I could see her thinking. But instead of saying it she was just sort of silent. Nervous I guess. Probably would have been even if I wasn't there. So we're in this big supply closet, with pallets of paper and stuff in the middle, and it's bright, because all the big florescent lights are on. Me and Derek start taking off our clothes, the way we always do, and Barb's like a deer in the headlights, just standing there. "Come on Barbie, don't you wanna get fucked? It's so fun doin' it here," I say to her. "You get NAKED?" she says all surprised. I don't blame her, it is totally crazy, but that's part of what makes it so hot. I tell her that but she's not buying it. Derek's crazy like me and he's naked first, and his big cock's hard as a rock. I finish stripping down to nothing and I squat and blow him. Barb looks like she's almost trembling, and she sits on one of the paper pallets and watches. Gradually she sort of pulls up her dress and starts playing with herself a little. Derek's watching her and she's watching him. He tells her to take off her panties and she does, still sitting there. "Pretty pussy Barb," I say. "Show me your tits. I like tits." Barb looks like she's sort of stunned by everything, but she unzips her dress and shrugs it off her shoulders and it gathers around her waist. She looked SO HOT! I don't know if it was the nervousness or what, but damn, she looked sexier than fuck, with her pussy showing, and her little bra. I stopped blowing Derek because I knew he wanted to move in on her and make her feel less alone. He stepped over next to her and she took his big cock in her hand. It was all wet and slippery from my mouth, and she started pumping it and moaning. It was HOT! Like something from an office building porn movie. So I climb up where she's sitting and go behind her and unhook her bra while Derek starts to lick her pussy. I wish I could have been her, because I know her mind was going crazy. I can't say for sure, but I'm pretty sure she's never been with a woman before, so there was a lot of new stuff for her to process. So my hands go to her tits of course, big natural ones, sort of saggy but still nice. Her nips were super hard so I got sort of next to her and sucked on them. Derek almost made her cum with his nice tongue, but she pushed him away, still nervous about where she was I guess. "Let him fuck you Barbie. It's so fun," I say. "You first," she says, all nervous sounding. I ask her if she likes to watch, and she just got that deer in the headlights look again. So I figure I'll kill two birds with one stone, get fucked and draw her into the 'girls' thing a little bit more. I get down from where she's sitting, and bend over in front of her, with my hands on her knees. Our eyes lock, looking deep into one another as Derek fills me up from behind. He's moaning and I'm moaning, and Barb was moaning too. She was breathing real hard. One thing led to another and I start kissing her legs, up her thighs toward her pretty pussy. I get my tongue in there and she leans back on her arms, moaning really loud. That should have been my first signal to get things under control, because Derek and me were always careful to keep things quiet, but he was fucking me so good, and it was all so hot, well, I wasn't thinking so clearly. Barbie tasted good too, and God help me, I love the taste of a wet girl. The whole situation was so wicked hot I just drove her higher and higher. Her moans rose up as Derek slapped into me. I was just starting to cum, sorta screaming into her pussy in a muffled way when she lost it. She was on her back and went all spastic and was like shrieking, her back arched up real high and her body going totally out of control. I was cumming hard and Derek was moaning, still pounding me from behind. It was noisy as fuck as I look back on it, and that's when the door opened and one of the company big-wigs walked in. He was like an an assistant V.P. or something, and there were two other expensive suits looking at us through the door. Barb freaked. Her body was still going spastic from her big orgasm, and the fear didn't help. She rolled on her side and clamored off the pallet, hiding behind it like you would if somebody was pointing a gun at you or something, talking to herself like some kind of lunatic. I really hope the whole thing didn't scar her for life, because she looked like she lost her mind or something, and not in the good sexy way. So the big-wig says "Get dressed people, I'll be outside" and shuts the door. "What the fuck!" Barb says, over and over as she scrambles to get her clothes on straight. Me and Derek, we're just getting dressed regular, shaking our heads, like we knew what we'd been doing was all to good to be true. So I'm fired. Derek and Barb, they've been there a lot longer than me, and have different bosses. I think maybe they survived it, but I'm not sure because it just happened today. I was able to get my stuff and get out of there before too many people knew, so that made things a little easier. It feels good to write this down. Don't know what I'm going to tell Mom and Robert. I hope they don't call tonight. March 26 Called Mom and told her it was a lay-off. God I hate lying to her, but what was I gonna say? "Group sex in the supply closet Ma. Couldn't help myself." Nope, not gonna say that to her. Anyway, she's worried about me, with my expensive apartment and no job. Said I could move in with her if I need to. Nice of her but no way. Not happening. The next call was to Robert. Figured I should tell him right away, before it got even more awkward. I lied to him too, about why it happened, but jeez, I REALLY couldn't tell HIM the truth. He was very understanding, the way I knew he'd be. Such a sweet guy. Said he'd call me tomorrow and take me out to dinner to get my mind off things. After that I called Mia and told her the REAL story. It felt good to not lie, like a confession or something. Of course she wanted to know if the sex was good, and if I thought it was hot when the suits walked in. "I bet they wanted to fuck you, but they couldn't," she said. I must admit, it crossed my mind. I'm so bad. March 28 Just got home from Robert's. Spent the night there. I feel so perfectly relaxed and good when I'm with him. The big news to write down is he asked me to move in with him. It seems sudden, like something younger kids would do, but he's really into the idea, and I like it to. My crazy sex life makes me nervous though. Telling him about it doesn't seem like the best option — people don't tell their new mates about all their sexual dalliances do they? I have a feeling he'd like some of it. I mean what guy wouldn't like two girls in bed with him? Maybe some wouldn't, I don't know. I'd hate to scare him away. So if I move in what am I gonna do, say no to everything else? I guess that's the way, but right now it doesn't make sense to me. I guess that's a bad sign. But...OF COURSE I'm gonna move in with him! It's just so awesome, it's like everything's been leading up to this point. March 29 Well this is the last page of this journal. Guess I need to write smaller if I buy another one. I guess I will buy one, it's been fun writing all this stuff down. I'd sure hate for anybody to find it though. God, how embarrassing would it be to have someone read this! What a slut I must sound like! What a slut I am! Ha ha! So this morning I loaded up a bunch of clothes and stuff in my car and drove over to Robert's. He emptied some dresser drawers for me and I got things put away. I'm sitting on his balcony waiting for him to get home from work. He called earlier and said he wants me to feel like it's my home too, so he said to invite Mia over tonight so he can meet her and he's going to cook us dinner. I just called Mia and she loves the idea. She's anxious to meet him after all I've told her about him. She wondered if maybe the three of us could go dancing later. Sounds like fun, if Robert's up for it after work. I wonder what she's gonna wear? I guess I'll call her back and see. Little sexy dresses would be fun. Well that's it, out of space. Goodbye nice journal, it's been fun telling you my secrets. Now I need to hide you so you can keep them.