3 comments/ 10735 views/ 4 favorites Victims of Forever By: kingofdeceit Many people were involved in making their story, so thanks are in order. To June, for being an amazing fag hag and a wonderful editor, to Jacques and Neapolle for the support, and to Leizle for supplying me with facts to interspace with the fiction. Radleigh from "Promises" makes an appearance in here, to know more about him just check out my other stories. All characters in the story are 18+. Enjoy! ooOoo Part 1 "The research paper you just submitted constitutes 25 percent of your grade. I hope for your own sake you took this project seriously and did well with your assigned topics." Just get your lecture over already! It's the last day of classes for Christ's sake, Gavin thought while rubbing his tired eyes, forcing them to stay open while listening to his professor's lecture. He was up all night with many of his classmates to finish their research paper, and right now he just wanted to go home and hit the sack as soon as he arrived. He looked out of their classroom's window and saw students from other classes dismissed early by their professors, already enjoying the late afternoon sun and the semestral break. "One more thing, the dean of our college wants to inform everyone—" The bell rang, signaling the end of their class. Gavin did not hear what the dean wanted to inform everyone as all around him his classmates cheered, celebrating the end of the semester. Gavin looked at his professor and was amazed to see that he was smiling himself, obviously looking forward to the break just like his students. Gavin stuffed his things inside his bag and started for the door, when he felt his hand pulled by someone. He looked back and saw Valerie, a petite black-haired girl and his good friend, holding his arm. "Vin, there's going to be a bit of get-together at Jamie's place tonight to celebrate, want to come over later at 6?" Valerie asked him. Jamie was Valerie's boyfriend and also their classmate; both of them close friends of Gavin. Gavin looked at his watch and saw that the get-together was going to be in less than four hours. He was looking forward to sleeping and not waking up until tomorrow, and he wasn't really up to the idea of tiring himself later. Valerie saw the hesitation in his eyes and prodded, "Come on Vin, we'll just be chilling out. A few drinks, pizza, movies, you can even sleep over if you want. I only invited our close friends so there wouldn't be much of a crowd. Please Vin, tell me you'll come. Jamie! Convince him." Valerie pulled her boyfriend beside her. Valerie was very small compared to Jamie's huge and muscular build, but somehow they look very good together. Jamie didn't need to convince Gavin anymore as Valerie set her hazel eyes to Gavin, giving him a look of pure innocence effectively hiding the feisty and headstrong girl that she really was which made her loved by many, Gavin couldn't say no to her. "Fine, I'll be there," Gavin relented. Valerie squealed with delight and hugged him, "Great! See you later at 6!" They said their goodbyes, and then went their separate ways to prepare for the evening. ooOoo A few hours later Gavin was making his way to the apartment Jamie was living in. Jamie's hometown wasn't anywhere near the university, but he was born to rich parents who insisted on having their son live on an apartment rather than crowd himself with other boys in the college dorms. This gave Jamie the freedom to do whatever he wanted without bothering other people, so it was natural that any parties and get-togethers of their classmates were done in his place. Gavin was already a few meters away from Jamie's front door when he heard the door of the next apartment open. Out came two girls and two boys Gavin did not want to see at the moment, or ever. "Vin!" one of them, Jack, called him, "It's been a long time since we've seen each other! How have you been, still in the closet?" This earned him a laugh from his companions. Gavin started to cringe, but caught himself in the last moment. He did not want to let this people know he was affected. "Whatever Jack, I'm not gay. Go bug other people," he said, causing another round of snickers from the group. Gavin rolled his eyes while the other guy, Radleigh, approached him. "Come on Vin, you know we're just joking," Radleigh said, though his tone was anything but, "however, should the time come that you start liking the D better make it public as soon as possible. Look at Jack and I, our lives have never been dull ever since we came out. Plus, the girls dig gay guys. Isn't that right, Jonie, Flo?" he added, facing the two girls. Jonie playfully punched him in the arm, "Shut up. We're only sticking with the two of you for your gaydars. It pays to know whether a guy's interested in my goods before I start wasting my emotions on him," she said. Jack laughed. "You're full of nonsense. You're a natural-born fag hag, your gaydar's just as high-caliber as ours," he countered. "Anyway," Radleigh said, facing Gavin once again, "we're having dinner together, and then catch up on all the latest gossip. Wanna come with us?" "No, Jamie's having a get-together with our classmates next door, I already said I would come," Gavin refused. Also having dinner with them just to get grilled about his sexuality is the last thing Gavin would do. The four of them didn't insist any further, and said their goodbyes to Gavin. He sighed as they walked away, absolutely certain that he's going to be one of the topics of their gossip for tonight. That was why he didn't fancy seeing them at all. Gavin approached one of the cars parked outside Jamie's apartment and checked his reflection in the mirror. He swept his hand through his black hair. Having cropped his hair close to the skin last month after a frustrating exam he did not worry about having his hair cut right now. His eyes were a different matter altogether. Dark circles were already starting to form around them due to many sleepless nights, though the nap he had earlier returned a bit of life to his brown eyes. He looked at his attire. He woke up having only enough time to take a quick shower and pull on a shirt and jeans. Knowing that he would only be in the company of friends for the night dressing up wasn't that practical. Gavin entered the apartment without knocking. Located close to the university, Jamie's apartment was Gavin's napping and study place in between classes. Some of his things were also here, in fact he considered this his second home. Being a medical technology student he was loaded not only with course units but also books, equipment, supplies and other medical paraphernalia—having a place that he could leave them but still made them accessible when needed is indeed an amazing asset. Gavin lived only thirty minutes away from the university, but with his very busy schedule he opted to leave many of his things in Jamie's apartment. He made his way to the living room and found out that most of his friends were already there sipping beers and watching The Notebook on the television. Valerie saw him a few seconds later. "Gavin, I'm so glad you came! I thought you'd sleep and never wake up," Valerie gushed, pulling him to the couches. His other friends greeted him and offered him a beer, which he accepted gratefully. He sipped his beer and relaxed on the couch. Grades were coming up a few weeks from now, but at the moment all that Gavin wanted to do was unwind, he decided that coming to Jamie's wasn't so bad after all. He was here to have fun. They were halfway through watching the latest installment of Scream when the doorbell rang, causing many of the girls to shriek. "Gavin, can you please check who is outside? Please!" Valerie implored, hiding her face behind her boyfriend's arm. Jamie looked at Gavin apologetically. Gavin couldn't help but laugh at her while he made his way to the door. If there was indeed a serial killer on the other side Valerie's screams were enough to give him a headache and cause him to look for other people to victimize. Gavin opened the door and was overwhelmed by the wonderful scent of a designer perfume that was all too familiar to him. Standing outside the door was not a serial killer but he still made Gavin's heart stop for a little while as he looked at him. One name was the only thought in Gavin's mind. Kiran. Though he wouldn't admit it to anyone, Gavin took more notice of a man's body than that of a woman. He was always fascinated with the veins crisscrossing a man's arm, the waves of muscles in their abdomens as they took off their shirts after PE classes, the defined contours of their legs emphasized when they run. He watched a lot of porn, but all of them were straight, though he was more amazed by the guys cocks as they went in and out of the girl, how they watched up close as the girls wrapped them around their lips and sucked them. Nevertheless Gavin passed these as nothing but observations, not enough to make him believe he was gay. The exception was with Kiran. He had round eyes; colored such a dark shade of brown they almost looked black. Every time Gavin stared at those eyes he felt like Kiran could see into his soul, penetrating to the very core of his being. Kiran had a face that would make Botticelli's angels cry in shame. His lips looked so soft they always made Gavin wonder how they would feel against his own. Standing in front of Gavin, Kiran wet his lips with his tongue, the action sending a rush of blood to many parts of Gavin's body. Gavin didn't realize that he was gawking until Kiran cleared his throat, making Gavin jump a little. "Hey there hot stuff," Kiran said, grinning, "see something you'd like to eat?" Yes, you, Gavin thought. The look in Kiran's face was mischievous, his smirk showing the devilish personality hidden by the angelic façade. He was nothing but trouble. Gavin loved trouble. "Ha-ha, you wish," Gavin said, belying his thoughts, "What brings you here?" he asked. Kiran wasn't their classmate so Gavin wasn't expecting him to come. "Val told me about your little party here. My class is not as fun as yours so I asked her if I could come. She invited me over," Kiran replied. "Oh, come inside then," Gavin said, holding the door for Kiran. The doorway wasn't that large, and as Kiran went inside his body came in contact with Gavin's, causing shivers to run down Gavin's spine. Kiran's scent was more overwhelming now that they were so close with each other; Gavin had no choice but to close his eyes to clear his head of any unwanted thoughts. Gavin closed the door and followed Kiran to the living room, where Kiran was giddily welcomed by his classmates that already had too much to drink. When the movies got cloying they decided to share their funny experiences of the semester, many of them so hilarious that Gavin couldn't help but howl with laughter. As the night progressed Gavin didn't notice that Kiran was getting closer to him—one moment he was across the room from Gavin, the next he was beside him, patting Gavin's back while they laughed. Gavin was too far gone from the alcohol that he let himself enjoy his close proximity with Kiran. Later into the night their classmates started going home one by one, most of them just like Gavin who lived in the same city as the university and had curfews set by their parents. Gavin already asked permission from his parents to sleep over Jamie's, so he was in no hurry to go home. With the departure of one of their classmates it was only Gavin, Kiran, Valerie and Jamie left in the apartment. Gavin was wondering when Kiran would go when Kiran spoke up. "Hey Jamie, is it cool if I crash here in your place for the night? My folks aren't home and I don't like being left in the house all by myself," he said. "Sure," Jamie replied, "you can share the second bed with Vin." That sobered Gavin a little. I can barely control myself when we're in the same room, how much more in the same bed! Gavin thought. Valerie and Jamie were already making their way to the bedroom so Gavin had no more chance to voice his disapproval. Jamie's apartment had only one bedroom, but it was a big one with two queen-sized beds separated by a divider that serves both as a bookshelf and closet. The other bed was for Jamie's brother when he visits him, but otherwise it was used by guests. Gavin went to the bathroom first to clean up before going to bed, allowing Kiran to settle himself first. Gavin had half a mind to sleep in the uncomfortable living room couch and spare himself from any unwanted bodily reactions with Kiran on the same bed as him. However, exhaustion overcame him and he dragged himself to the bed. Kiran was facing the wall, his back against Gavin so he couldn't see if Kiran was already asleep or still awake. Gavin shrugged and went under the covers. Not long after sleep overtook him and he was dozing off. ooOoo For what felt like only five minutes later Gavin woke up to the sound of moaning and headboards bumping against the wall. He checked his bed to see if it was the one making the noise. Seeing that the bed was still stationary he deduced that it was Valerie and Jamie throwing themselves into fits of passionate love-making. Gavin groaned inwardly, covered his ears with a pillow and turned to face the wall. Gavin came face to face with a mischievously smirking Kiran, obviously wide awake. "Are they always like this?" Kiran asked. His voice low so as not to be heard by the other pair. "No," Gavin whispered back, "they're usually very silent with only the occasional sighs, but not like this, probably a celebratory fuck." Kiran chuckled, and then fell silent. He looked at Gavin with those deep dark eyes, holding Gavin in place that he couldn't help but stare back. Gavin held his breath, willing himself not to move, but it was taking all of him to stop himself from pulling Kiran close to him, finally getting to know how those lips felt against his. Kiran brought his head close to Gavin's, his brows furrowed as if asking a question. Whatever that question was, Gavin answered it as he met Kiran's lips with his own. Burning, that was what Gavin felt, his lips against Kiran's. It was as if he was burning, but it was a wonderful feeling. Warmth engulfed his body, drowning him in such bliss he never felt before. Then Kiran wrapped his arms around Gavin's waist, pulling their bodies together. Then Kiran pulled the rest of their body together and opened his mouth, his tongue seeking entrance to Gavin's. It took all of Gavin not to moan, and he willingly let Kiran in. Their tongues battled, their bodies grinding against each other. Gavin was sure Kiran was enjoying this as much as he was, evidenced by the hardness in Kiran's pants that rubbed against Gavin's own. The need for oxygen forced them both to separate, though their arms were still wrapped around each other. Gavin looked at Kiran and saw his eyes filled with desire. Kiran brought his hands down, but Gavin stopped him. "Let's just take it slow, okay?" he asked Kiran. Kiran understood, and kissed Gavin once more. There were lots of times to do other things, but not this time. Gavin let Kiran turn him around, and Kiran kissed the back of his neck, spooned against Gavin. There was also time to think about what they're doing, how this would change everything, but right now all Gavin wanted to do was revel in this discovery, never wanting to let go of the happiness he felt. With Kiran's arms wrapped around his waist, Gavin slowly drifted back to sleep. ooOoo Gavin woke up to an empty bed beside him. He panicked momentarily and thought Kiran left without saying a word when he heard the toilet flush outside. Moments later, Kiran returned to the bed, sending a wave of relief to Gavin. "Hey there hot stuff, had a wonderful sleep last night?" Kiran asked. He didn't wait for an answer and pounced on Gavin, putting their lips together once more. Gavin was happy that last night wasn't just a one-time affair brought about by alcohol. Then he remembered that Valerie and Jamie were still on the same room. He pulled himself from Kiran. "Look," Gavin said, "I really love what we're doing right now, but I have lots of questions in my head and I know you want to ask me some things too. Also, I'm not yet ready to let others know about this, is that okay?" Kiran took his hand and held it against his. "I understand, why don't we have lunch later? Let's go home and I'll pick you up around noon," he offered. "Like on a date?" Gavin asked, smiling. "Do I have to make it more obvious?" Kiran answered, raising his eyebrows. Gavin laughed, then together they went outside of the room to get some breakfast. They were halfway through their cereal when Jamie and Valerie came out of the room, looking very disheveled. Valerie had that rosy glow in her face that only signified a very wonderful night. "Good morning lovebirds," Kiran greeted them, "I assume you had an amazing sleep, or judging from the looks in your faces, lack of?" Valerie blushed. "Shut up Kiran," Jamie said, but he was grinning, "I hope we didn't disturb you," he continued looking at Kiran and Gavin. "No worries, I was zoned out the whole night," Gavin replied. Kiran raised his eyebrows to him, but didn't say anything. They finished their breakfast in silence, the events of last night filling their thoughts. After their breakfast Kiran and Gavin said their goodbyes to Valerie and Jamie, with promises of meeting up some other day. When they were a good distance away from the apartment Kiran stopped and faced Gavin. "I still have a few errands to run before I go home, see you this noon?" he asked. "Sure, I'll be waiting at home," Gavin said. Kiran checked their surroundings, and after being convinced that they were alone, he placed a chaste kiss on Gavin's lips. Gavin blushed, then said goodbye to Kiran. ooOoo "You can relax now you know, it's not unordinary for two friends to have lunch together," Kiran said, smiling at Gavin's evident nervousness. Gavin made a face. "It's not that, it's just, this is my first time on a date and I don't know what to do," he admitted. Gavin couldn't help but be nervous ever since coming home that morning. He kept on replaying the happenings of the previous night in his mind, the feel of Kiran's lips still ingrained into his thoughts. He had a hard time deciding on what outfit to wear, and in the end decided on a plain-colored button-down shirt and gray pants. He was a bit on the thin side, so his arms didn't fill out the sleeves of his shirt. He decided against inserting the seams of his shirt inside his pants, both on the counts that that look was way outdated and that it would make his legs look even longer and disproportionate to his body. At 5'8" he had to watch out for those things. He put on his feet his trusted sneakers and sat on the living room, waiting for Kiran. Five minutes before noon his doorbell rang, causing Gavin to jump from where he was sitting. He opened the door and was faced by a breathtakinglyhandsome Kiran. He was wearing one of those shirts styled to look like he was wearing another shirt over a collared one, and the baby blue looking good against his fair complexion. He was wearing khaki pants and a pair of brown leather shoes. Standing nearly the same height as Gavin he made Gavin looked terribly underdressed. Kiran brought him to a Mexican restaurant that Gavin has been to lots of times and one he absolutely loved. Gavin was pleased to see that Kiran has already made a reservation, sparing them the hassle of waiting for others to finish eating. "Well, we can start by ordering something to eat. I'm starved!" Kiran declared, perusing the menu in front of him and returning Gavin's thoughts to the present. Gavin didn't have to look at the menu and was set in ordering his favorite chicken dish. The waiter arrived and took their orders, and they had nothing left to do but wait for their food to arrive, and also voice out the questions that had been bugging their minds since last night. Victims of Forever Kiran spoke up first, "Last night, what we did, that was the most amazing night of my life. I have wanted to do that to you for such a long time already." Gavin couldn't believe what he was hearing—Kiran also wanted him all this time, but this also added more questions to Gavin's mind. "What about Patty, I thought there was something going on between you two?" Gavin asked. Patty was Gavin's friend and she and Kiran were always found together. "Patty's my cousin! You think we are a couple?" Kiran asked, clearly scandalized. "Well, everybody thinks so," Gavin admitted. Kiran laughed, "I guess people misunderstood our being close. I have been in a few relationships before, but never with a girl." Gavin always felt that Kiran was gay, but with his false assumption about Kiran's relationship he thought otherwise. Hearing Kiran admit his sexuality as clear as day left no more room for doubt. "But, you never said you were gay before, even to anyone I know," Gavin argued. "No one asked, and I don't bother to announce my sexuality unless someone actually asks about it, or when I'm talking to the guy I like," Kiran stated, causing Gavin to blush. "How about you, have you always known you were gay?" Kiran asked Gavin. "To be honest, I never thought that I was gay until yesterday. I've always noticed boys more, but I never felt any sexual attractions towards them. The exception is with you," Gavin admitted, amused that he was the one making Kiran blush this time. "Well, it's a good thing we're clear on those. Besides, Patty and Nico is the real thing right now." "Nico and Patty are together, really?" Gavin exclaimed. Some people a few tables beside them glared at him for raising his voice. He muttered an apology, and then talked to Kiran again, "When I think of it though I've been seeing Nico and Patty a lot of times the last semester." "Yeah," Kiran agreed, "but they're keeping their relationship under wraps for now. They don't want many people to know and bug them about it." Kiran's words reflected what Gavin wanted right now. Kiran must have been thinking of the same thing and regarded Gavin. "So is it you and me right now? Because I really want to be your boyfriend Gavin," Kiran said. "Kiran, I want nothing else but be your boyfriend too. But I don't want to make it public right now. I also don't want people to pester us, and there are already people in my mind right now who will make a great deal about this when the news comes out," Gavin said, thinking of Jack and his friends. "I understand," Kiran uttered, "plus there's an exciting ring to a relationship when only the two of you know about it, keep the rest of the world wondering and clueless." Gavin smiled his assent. That moment their food came. Distracted by the wonderful smell, they stopped their conversation, but Gavin felt that everything that had to be resolved has been addressed. Their conversation flowed smoothly thereafter, Gavin enjoying Kiran's consent to keeping their relationship a secret, at least for now. Little did Gavin know he just made the worst decision of his life. ooOoo Through the days Gavin got to know more of Kiran, discovering who he truly was underneath the face of innocence. Gavin already had an idea that Kiran was not as innocent, but he was surprised at how mischievous he really was. Kiran's hands were always on Gavin everytime they were together—around his back guiding him whenever they enter a room, across his legs whenever they were in front of the television watching Gavin's favorite series. Even when they were in public, though Kiran minimized overtly touching Gavin, he was a shenanigan under every dinner table, touching Gavin's feet with his own, even sometime daring to go higher Gavin's legs. Gavin could only resort to glaring at him, not able to remove Kiran's legs without being too obvious. Amidst these quirks Kiran had a serious side, showing every time they were alone with each other and talking about their plans for the future, many of them they made together. They had one of these talks when Kiran went over Gavin's house. They were in the living room couch, Gavin's head lying on Kiran's lap, Kiran stroking his hair and massaging his scalp. "Where are we going to intern next year?" Kiran asked him. Internship in a hospital is part of the curriculum of the medical technology program of their university, and all seniors were required to work for a full year in one of the partner hospitals of their school. Gavin only thought of the internship in passing, holding off making the decision sometime later his junior year. However, now that he was with Gavin the choice of his hospital to work in would not be entirely up to him. "I'm not really sure yet, but I know I'm not choosing the hospital here," Gavin answered, "there are advantages to staying in the city, but I want to prepare myself for the time when I separate from my parents, start becoming independent." "That's what I was thinking too," Kiran said, "but I don't want to be too far from home though. I want a place far enough that we won't be required to go home every weekend, but close enough that we can return home whenever we wanted." "So Cebu it is, then?" Gavin asked. Cebu was only six hours away from their city, meeting the conditions they wanted. "Cebu it is," Kiran replied, bending over to give Gavin a kiss and finalizing their decision. Many people have already seen them together, but they tried their best to appear as best friends enjoying each other's company, only the both of them aware of the sexual tension that they feel. Whenever they were alone, however, they give in to their desires, hands all over each other and bodies close together, touching every body part that they could. A few nights later, Kiran and Gavin were in Kiran's bed, his parents out of town and leaving the house to Kiran for the weekend. They made the most out of this freedom and decided to be with each other for the whole weekend. They just came home from watching a movie and are now enjoying each other's touches and kisses. Gavin felt that something new was going to happen tonight, but he didn't want to think about it too much, and rather let himself go with the moment. Wrapped around each other's arms, their kisses grew more passionate—they wanted more of each other. Kiran rolled on top of Gavin, his legs in between Gavin's. They ground their hips into each other, their desire confined in the articles of clothing they still wore. Then Kiran, still on his knees, and removed his shirt, greeting Gavin with a sight that made him sigh with pleasure. Gavin reached up and touched Kiran's smooth chest, then down to his flat stomach. He started tracing the fine line of hair from Kiran's navel, moving his fingers to the treasure trail going down to Kiran's groin. When Gavin's hands reached the top button of Kiran's jeans, Kiran held Gavin's arms and placed them beside Gavin. "Not yet, my turn now," Kiran said. Kiran helped Gavin out of his shirt, and then pushed Gavin back to the bed. The bedside lamp cast a warm glow to both of their bodies, Kiran stopped and looked at Gavin, his eyes filled with lust, desire spread across his face. Kiran thought Gavin was beautiful, Gavin thought Kiran was too. Desire overtaking them already, they took off each other's pants, their lips only breaking contact for air. Kiran pushed Gavin to the bed, his lips going down Kiran's body. Gavin placed his lips on Kiran's neck, breathing in his scent that drove Gavin wild. He kissed Kiran's chest, then sucked on Kiran's left nipple, twerking the other with his fingers. Sensing no reaction from Kiran, he looked up to see that Kiran was smiling. "Doesn't it feel good baby?" Gavin asked him. "It does, but my nipples aren't really my spot," Kiran answered. "Where is it then?" Kiran smirked evilly, "my thighs, just where my groin and legs meet." Naughty boy, Gavin thought, but he set his attention to Kiran's thighs nonetheless. He kissed and sucked the skin inside Kiran's thigh, eliciting moans of pleasure from Kiran, begging him for more. Gavin's lips were very close to Kiran's still trapped length, the desire to taste them torturing him as much as it was torturing Kiran. Deciding that he had enough, Gavin placed his hands on the waistband of Kiran's boxers, then brought them down. Freed at last, Gavin wrapped his hands around Kiran's cock and admired it. He was a bit longer than Gavin, though Gavin was significantly larger. Drops of precum were already dripping out of Kiran's cock. Gavin licked them, causing Kiran to moan once more. Then Gavin wrapped his lips around Kiran's member, his tongue still licking the tip. He had no experience with giving blowjobs before, or sex for that matter, but he has watched enough porn to have an idea on what to do. Gavin bobbed his head up and down Kiran's length, taking in every inch of Kiran into his mouth. He sucked faster, encouraged by Kiran's sighs and moans. Then Kiran placed his hands around Gavin's head, forcing him to stop. Gavin looked at him in puzzlement. "I don't want to come just yet," Kiran said, "it's your turn now." They switched positions, Kiran now in between Gavin's legs. Gavin knew that this wasn't Kiran's first time, and it showed. Kiran trailed sultry kisses on Gavin's chest, slowly making his way down. While doing this his hands were on each of Gavin's nipples, flicking them until they were hard stubs, then pinched them, causing Gavin to groan in pleasure. Kiran unbuttoned and removed Gavin's pants, and then Kiran stroked Gavin's cock, already making a wet spot in his underwear. Slowly, Kiran pulled Gavin's briefs, exposing the leaking cock that desperately needed attention. Kiran wasted no time and wrapped his lips around Gavin's length, then started sucking it. Kiran reached up and returned his assault on Gavin's nipples. The combined pleasure Gavin felt from Kiran's mouth around his cock and Kiran's hands on his nipples sent him near the edge that Gavin doubted if he could last long. When Gavin thought he couldn't hold it any longer Kiran stopped, making Gavin grumble in disappointment. Kiran smiled, "I want you to come inside me." Gavin's eyes widened. He thought Kiran would be the one getting inside Gavin for their first time, but it seems like Kiran had other plans. "But I never tried this before," Gavin argued. "Don't worry, just lie down and I'll guide you. Just stay where you are" Kiran answered. Kiran opened the drawer of the bedside table, and took out a packet of condom and a bottle of lube. He wrapped the condom around Gavin's cock, then returned between Gavin's legs, then placed a generous amount of lube in his palm. Grinning wickedly, Kiran sat lied down on the bed, raising his legs and showed his hole to Gavin. Gavin was breathing heavily while he watched Kiran massaged the lube around his crack. Then slowly Kiran placed one finger inside his hole. Kiran worked his finger in and out of his hole, making sighs of pleasure every time his fingers went in. A few minutes later he added a second finger, preparing himself for Gavin's cock later. With his other hand Kiran pumped his cock, his mouth open so invitingly. Unable to control his desire any longer Gavin tried to reach Kiran with his hands, but Kiran growled his disagreement. The wait was pure torture, and all Gavin wanted to do was be inside Kiran. Finally deciding that he was prepared enough, Kiran stood up, then placed his knees around each side of Gavin's waist, straddling him. Holding Gavin's cock he placed it on the opening of his hole, then made his way down. Gavin had no idea if he was big enough, but he still worried that he might cause Kiran pain while he entered Kiran. Kiran's face was furrowed in concentration, slowly lowering himself down Gavin's length until all of Gavin was inside him. The sensations that surrounded Gavin's cock was enough for him to blow his load then and there, but he held himself, wanting the moment to last for him and Kiran. After what seemed like such a long time for Gavin, Kiran bit by bit moved, going up and down Gavin's cock. The physical sensations overwhelming him, Gavin placed his hands on Kiran's waist, pumping his member into Kiran's whole and meeting his every thrust. Gavin slid down, adjusting his angle a little, earning him a loud moan from Kiran while he stroked his own cock. Knowing that he hit Kiran's spot Gavin maintained that angle, both of them drowning each other in pure throes of pleasure and ecstacy. Then Gavin felt his balls tighten, signaling that he was getting off any moment soon. He placed his hand over Kiran's cock, stroking it like his life depended on it. "Oh god baby I'm coming," Kiran cried. Gavin could only grunt in response as strings of cum flew out of Kiran's cock to Gavin's chest. A few pumps of his cock later Gavin's breathing sped up, then he plunged himself deeper into Kiran as his orgasm took him, filling the condom with his cum. Kiran's full weight fell on Gavin, and they lay there for a moment, enjoying the aftereffects of their orgasm. Kiran raised his head and kissed Gavin, then he rolled beside Gavin and helped him dispose of the condom. "I love you Kiran," Gavin said, lying beside Gavin. "I love you too Gavin. Forever," Kiran replied. Gavin smiled, "Forever?" "Forever." ooOoo Part 2 "When life gives you lemons, go get the salt and tequila!" Valerie exclaimed. They were once more in Jamie's apartment, celebrating the end of the break since the second semester would be starting the next Monday. Many of their friends were there, even some from other sections, and the living room was more packed than it was last time Gavin was in it. He didn't mind, he was sitting beside Kiran on the couch, the crowdedness of the room giving him and Kiran the excuse to sit closely beside each other. Valerie approached them, "Gavin, want to do the honor of drinking the first drops?" she asked, offering her the tequila bottle and a shot glass. Gavin laughed and took them. He filled the glass with tequila, dabbed his hand with salt, and then raised the glass for a toast. "To new semesters and new beginnings!" he shouted. He licked the salt from his hand to divert his taste from the bitterness of the tequila, downed the drink with one gulp, and then sucked on a sliced lemon to remove the saltiness. The crowd cheered, raising the beer cans they were holding. Gavin passed the bottle of tequila to Jamie. The night wore on, with the crowd getting drunker and noisier. Many of their friends were standing on the living room table dancing along to Lady Gaga's latest song, flailing their arms and jumping around dancing. Gavin and Kiran sat on the same spot they were earlier, the types of people who got silent when drunk. Valerie approached them again, her hair already a mess and a love bite starting to show on her neck, though she seemed unfazed about it. She said something to the both of them, but the loud noise was too much that Gavin did not hear anything. "What?" Gavin shouted. Valerie went close to his ear, "I said, is it just me, or is Xander ogling Kiran the whole night?" Gavin looked at the direction Valerie was staring at, and true enough, one of their friends Xander was looking at Kiran. When he caught Kiran staring back he smiled, then moved his hands in a "come here" gesture. "Oooohh he definitely wants you. Go talk to him!" Valerie said, and then yelped as Jamie pulled her away for a dance. "Valerie's right, you should go talk to him," Gavin said. Gavin looked at him and saw that Kiran was shocked at his permission. "You're okay with it? I was not planning to, you know," Kiran said. Gavin looked at Xander and tried to assess the situation. Xander did not look bad at all, many even consider him very good looking. His black hair was longer on the top that at the sides, stylishly messed up, which only enhanced the angles of his face. Xander's light brown eyes still bore on Kiran, who was waiting for Gavin's reply. "He would be wondering why I'm keeping you here. A little talk wouldn't hurt, really. I'll be here," Gavin replied. Kiran shrugged, patted Gavin's thigh, and then made his way to Xander. If they didn't want to make their relationship obvious to the public these situations were inevitable. He looked at where Kiran and Xander were talking, and felt a pang of jealousy as he saw Xander say something which made Kiran laugh. Xander was openly gay, and he had a reputation of "converting" many straight guys in their school. He probably just had a very strong gaydar, sensed those who had something, then made them realize their true sexualities. He started regretting his decision on allowing Kiran to talk to Xander, but then he shook his head. Kiran's your boyfriend already, relax! Gavin chastised himself, however he still looked away from the two of them. A few minutes later Kiran came back, his face clearly amused. "Had fun?" Gavin asked, not meaning to be a bit sarcastic. Kiran laughed, "You have no idea. Guess who just asked for your number?" he said, his eyes glowing with glee. "Xander?" Gavin responded, "But I thought he wanted to talk to you?" "Well, since we've been passing as best friends these past few weeks he thought he could solicit my help in getting close to you. I think he sees you as his new prospect," Kiran explained. Gavin still wasn't convinced, "Why didn't he ask me straightaway then?" "Come on, you expect me to know what's in that guy's head? Stop moping there and let's just play along. It's gonna be fun!" Kiran stated mischievously. Gavin started to argue, but then stopped himself. If he made a fuss about it, he would risk exposing their relationship to the public. He just had to trust that Kiran knew what he was doing. Probably sensing his hesitance Kiran took Gavin's hand and squeezed it. The act, however, did little to remove the doubt from Gavin's head. Gavin was not sure if keeping his sexuality and their relationship a secret was a good idea after all. ooOoo Gavin's phone beeped, it was a message from Xander. Any plans for today? Xander started texting Gavin the day after the party at Jamie's house. So far Gavin gave only short, closed-ended responses, hoping to discourage Xander from texting him and eventually lose interest in him altogether. Nevertheless after many days of boring replies Xander still kept on sending him messages. Gonna visit relatives in the next town, won't be back 'til tomorrow, Gavin replied. That's too bad, I was hoping we could watch a movie today, Xander texted a few seconds later. Yeah, too bad, Gavin texted back. He let out a sigh of relief when Xander did not reply afterwards. Gavin did not feel guilty towards Xander, he was truly going with his parents to visit their relatives today. His only regret was the time that he could have spent with Kiran, but the visit to the relatives was a yearly tradition and Kiran already said that he didn't mind—he also had plans for the day. A few minutes later Gavin's mother called him because they were going. Gavin sent a text message to Kiran. We're going already babe. See you tomorrow. I love you. X When they arrived at the house of his aunt Gavin checked his phone to see if Kiran replied. His unread messages were still blank, but Gavin thought that Kiran was indeed very busy. Gavin was distracted for the rest of the day when his little cousins came up and demanded his attention, showing off their newest toys and achievements in class. Thoughts of Kiran temporarily went out of his mind as his cousins tired him with games and storytelling. He was tremendously relieved when his aunt took them and led them to bed, finally giving Gavin a time with himself. Victims of Forever He checked his inbox once more and saw a reply from Kiran. Babe, sorry for the late reply. Had my hands full today. Can't wait to see you tomorrow! I love you too xx Gavin smiled. He wanted to call Kiran but decided against it, seeing that it was already late and Gavin was tired himself. Gavin went to bed, and not before long he was deeply asleep. ooOoo Gavin and his family went home early the next day, and Gavin wasted no time and went out to go to Kiran's house. Kiran texted him sometime earlier that his parents wouldn't be home and told Gavin to let himself in when he'd come over. Gavin went directly to Kiran's bedroom and saw that Kiran was still asleep under the covers. Gavin took off his shoes, then made his way under the covers and crawled on top of Kiran, kissing his cheek. The movement caused Kiran to wake up and he slowly focused his eyes on Gavin. "What a great way to wake up," Kiran began, "you missed me?" he asked, then kissed Gavin passionately, his hand going down Kiran's body. Taking off each other's clothes, they ultimately rode in waves of pleasure, their bodies a tangle of limbs as every moan, thrust, touch and kiss showed just how much they missed each other. A few minutes after their lovemaking Kiran extracted himself from Gavin and went to the bathroom. Gavin was still lying on the bed when he felt Kiran's phone buzz from the bedside table. He looked at the phone and saw that Kiran had a message. Gavin started dismissing it when he looked at the phone again and saw the photo of the one who sent the message. It was Xander. Curiosity getting the better of him Gavin opened the message. Hey, just woke up. Had a great day yesterday, let's do it some time again! 'Hey babe, are you hungry? I cooked some—," Kiran started saying, then stopped when he saw Gavin holding his phone. Gavin's sight was red with jealousy and a bit of anger, "So this is what you meant by having your hands full yesterday? You had your hands full of Xander?" Gavin accused, his voice menacing. Kiran flinched, "Look, I can explain. Xander has no idea that we're together, and seeing as you did not go with him to the movies yesterday he came to me and invited me." "You could have at least texted me what you were doing!" Gavin shouted, "Did something else happen between you yesterday?" Kiran started to say something when the phone rang again, another message from Xander. Kiran tried to wrestle the phone away from Gavin but he was too far, and Gavin has already read the message. By the way, you really are a good kisser. I want more where that came from. Kiran tried to reason, "Gavin, please—" "SHUT UP! Save your explaining for someone who will listen. We're over!" Gavin shouted. He put on his clothes, and then hurriedly went out of Kiran's house. When Gavin arrived home he threw himself to his bed, tears of anger and frustration flowing uncontrollably from his eyes. ooOoo The next week Gavin was back in class, the second semester already beginning. Their professors, thinking that the students already had their fill of breaks, loaded on them heaps and heaps of school works and projects that Gavin wasn't sure if he could finish everything before the deadlines. It didn't help that it was already known to the whole school that Kiran and Xander were already a couple. Gavin couldn't help but feel betrayed, but then blamed himself for not being true and forcing their relationship to be covered under layers of lies and deception. Due to the unending workload that their professors also gave them he wasn't able to talk to Kiran as much as he wanted to. His pride, however, prevented him from talking face to face to Kiran. The fact that kiran and Xander were always together made it harder for Gavin to corner him and demand an explanation. An opportunity came a week later in the form of Valerie. One of their projects had their class divided into groups. Gavin was disappointed that Kiran wasn't in the same group as him, but had another idea when he found out that Valerie and Kiran were in the same group. Walking to Jamie's apartment after class one afternoon he talked to Valerie. "Val, I have a favor to ask from you," Gavin began. Valerie looked at him, allowing him to continue. "I want you to text Kiran to come early to school tomorrow. Tell him that you're going to work on your project, that you'd meet him outside the lab rooms an hour before the first period," Gavin continued. "Oh, is it his birthday tomorrow? Do you have a surpise for him?" Valerie asked. "No, but I have something I want to tell him that I didn't have the time until now, clarify some things. So you're doing it? Tell me you'll text him," Gavin insisted. "Okay, okay fine, I'll do it. I hope you resolve whatever is going on between you two," Valerie said, still completely clueless of what is entirely going on. I hope so, I really do, Gavin thought to himself. ooOoo "Valerie? Where are you? Is anybody here? Oh," Kiran stopped when he saw Gavin the next day. "Hey Kiran," "Hi. Uhm, have you seen Valerie? She said we are going to start working on our project today," Kiran said. "Well, the thing is, Valerie's not here," Gavin explained, "I told her to text you so that we could talk." Kiran fell silent. Gavin chose to continue. "I'm sorry I didn't let you explain that morning, but I was really shocked and hurt that you did not tell me about Xander. And now this, you're officially with him right now," Gavin said, not able to stop his voice from breaking. Kiran's face was sad too, "I know I made a mistake too by not telling you, but that time I thought that it wouldn't hurt you if I didn't say anything. I didn't plan on going too far with Xander, but he was too aggressive and everything just sort of happened. I'm sorry." Kiran's face was very close to Gavin's, their eyes locked into each other. No matter how hurt he was Gavin still felt weak whenever he looked at Kiran's eyes, their intensity still boring to the core of Gavin's soul. His heart thumped erratically inside his chest, Kiran was close, so close. The next moment their lips were together, their hands desperate to touch as much of the other as possible. Their tongues battled for dominance, until Kiran gave in and let Gavin explore his mouth. Gavin couldn't believe how much he missed kissing Kiran, and he attacked his lips like he was deprived of kissing anyone for many years. The reality of the situation returned, however, and they separated, catching their breath. Gavin recovered first. "We shouldn't be doing this," Gavin said, "you're with Xander now." "What we have is wrong, all I want is to be with you," Kiran said, and then he pulled Gavin's head once more to his. Gavin can't help but fall into his desire, and once more they ravished each other's lips. Minutes later they heard footsteps approaching, and with a hard effort they forced themselves to let go of each other. "I'll break up with Xander, just give me time," Kiran implored. Gavin had no choice but to agree. ooOoo Kiran wanted to break it slowly to Xander, not wanting to make a scandal should he blow off things abruptly. Gavin understood, and they resorted to meeting each other in secret when they had the time, satisfying their needs for each other. They went where they couldn't be seen: beside the library, inside an unused classroom, anywhere that they could be alone. However, the constant hiding and secrets made Gavin feel guilty, and he was not sure how long he could keep with it. One day, Gavin and Valerie were driving to Gavin's house to get some paraphernalia that they would need for their class that day. The both of them were silent the whole time, causing Gavin to be alone with his guilty thoughts. Not able to take it any longer he cleared his throat and looked at Valerie. "Val? I'm giving you a situation, and then you tell me your opinion after, okay?" he asked. "Fire away," Valerie replied. "What if, say, Patty and Kiran were in a relationship, and I am Patty's ex-boyfriend. But Patty and I still meet with each other and do things like we're still together, like kiss," among other things, Gavin said, the last part he kept to himself. Valerie raised her eyebrows, "Well, that would make Patty a two-timing bitch. Kiran's clearly a loser in that situation, but I emphasize on that Patty being a bitch. And that would make you a home-wrecking bastard," she paused, "Wait, is this situation actually happening?" she asked. Gavin laughed, hoping Valerie couldn't hear the nervousness in his voice, "No, just a thought." Valerie shrugged, yet did not press the issue any longer. Valerie's opinion shook something inside of him, but he tried to appease his thoughts. Xander was the one who wrecked his relationship with Kiran in the first place. Kiran was Gavin's Kiran promised forever. ooOoo It was exactly six months after they first met. They should be celebrating today; happy that they made it this long, but that was not the case. Kiran was still with Xander, and Kiran and Gavin were still covertly meeting with each other. "It's been so long already Kiran, I don't want to seem impatient but this has gone too long already," Gavin said during one of these meetings. They were in the supply room of their college, under the pretense of getting things for their experiments later. Kiran sighed, "Xander's not giving me the opening that I would need to break up with him. Whenever I start speaking up about the state of our relationship he interrupts me with something he believes is more important. I didn't want to let it go on for this long too." "Kiran, you have to be more decisive now. Go tell it to him bluntly if that's the only way," Gavin demanded. Kiran pondered about it. "Fine," he said a few seconds later, "I'll break up with him today." Somebody knocked on the door, "Guys? Have you gotten the materials already?" their professor asked. "Yes, sir! We'll be there in a few minutes," Gavin called out, then he looked at Kiran, "I'll see you after class, okay?" "Okay." ooOoo Gavin was on edge the whole afternoon, his heart beating nervously the entire time. Their professor decided to let them work into their respective groups for their projects, so Gavin wasn't able to see Kiran for the whole afternoon. Gavin kept checking his phone, but there was no text message from Kiran. When the bell rang hours later signaling the end of the class Gavin practically ran out of the door and looked for Kiran. Kiran wasn't with Valerie when Gavin saw her a few moments later, and he wasn't in any of the classrooms used for lecture. Gavin tried to call him but he turned his phone off. Remembering their conversation earlier he guessed that Kiran might be waiting for him in the supply room, so he made his way there. Gavin opened the door and was greeted by the sight of Kiran and Xander making out passionately. Xander's hands were under Kiran's shirt, groping his chest and playing with his nipples. Their arousals were apparent, their jeans barely able to conceal their lust as they ground into each other. Gavin felt a lance of pain go through his heart. Xander and Kiran stopped kissing and looked at Gavin—Kiran's guilt was written all over his face, but Xander only looked annoyed. "I'm sorry Gavin, but can't you see that we're busy?" Xander said, starting to close the door. Gavin held the door in place, "Actually, Kiran and I had something to talk about, can I borrow him for a while?" he said, surprised at how calm his voice was. "Talk to him later," Xander said. "We have to talk now," Gavin insisted, "in fact, Kiran's got something to say to you," he said, looking at Kiran, eyes wide with shock. "What is it Kiran?" Xander asked him. "Go on, tell him," Gavin prodded. Kiran looked at Gavin, then at Xander, then back at Gavin again. Kiran looked at Gavin with his deep brown eyes, the same eyes that captivated him many months ago, and for a moment Gavin felt that there was still hope for him and Kiran, that Xander would go away and Gavin and Kiran can truly be together at last. Kiran looked back at Xander however, his decision already made. "It's nothing Xander, I don't know what Gavin's talking about. Let's go to another place, shall we?" Kiran said, taking Xander's hand. Gavin couldn't believe what he was hearing, couldn't process what he was even seeing right now. Kiran was his, He promised me! Gavin screamed inside. "I'm sorry Gavin," Kiran said, and then he and Xander went away, not even looking back. Gavin collapsed on the floor, feeling like his whole world was going down with him. ooOoo Gavin sat in his favorite café, alone with a pile of books in front of him. His concentration was not in the books, but on that day many months ago. Gavin laughed to himself, he couldn't believe how stupid he was. Kiran and Xander were still together now, going strong by the looks of it. What he knew came from Valerie, as Gavin still couldn't bear looking at the both of them and not have his heart break all over again. His friends sensed that something was wrong with Gavin the first few months—he rarely laughed and always zoned out during conversations, his minds on other things. Valerie kept asking him what was wrong, and his response was always the stress of junior year getting to him. Valerie insisted on knowing, but Gavin would snap at her, which made her drop the issue altogether. Through the weeks Gavin managed to pretend that he was better on the outside, though nothing much has changed with what he felt. I'm the master of hiding, after all, he thought to himself. The thing he couldn't get over the most was that he fell into a lie that has been the demise of many others before him, something he thought he would never be a part of. Gavin knew that someday soon he would get over Kiran and move on, but there was something in him that could never be changed: He was a victim of the promise of forever. ooOoo This was based on the true story of our friend V. G., who built such huge walls until someone came and tore them down, only to leave him exposed and vulnerable. His story isn't over yet.