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Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 01

By: Arisan_Maru



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I had just walked out of the showers and was standing in front of my locker. I looked down at my cock, no surprise that I was hard and pointing straight up to the ceiling. I sighed; this was getting a bit ridiculous. I quickly put on a pair of boxer briefs and pulled on some cargo shorts then adjusted my cock, making me groan out loud.

"Got a present for Sara there, Jason?" I heard my teammate and best friend Adam asks me.

We are both on the hockey team, and I'm the captain of the team. Sara was my current 'girlfriend', basically she was my cover story. Just in the past two years I finally came to terms with myself that I was gay. I had not told anyone else yet because how do you tell a whole bunch of jock head that all those boners you popped while showering with them, was because of them, and not the sweet piece of ass girl waiting outside that's just dying to jump into bed with you?

"Oh yeah, you know it!" I said slowly. I towel dried my shaggy brown hair, and the swiped the towel across my chest that was sprinkled with fine brown hair. I quickly threw on a crew neck t-shirt that fit me a little tightly then grabbed my bag and headed out the door. Behind me I heard Adam laugh again.

"Hey, sexy! You looked hot out on that ice babe," Sara said with a mock pout. She was a small little girl with the 'killer' red hair and short curvy frame. I never really thought red heads were very hot, that's just me though. Sara was a sweet little woman that's not completely after the sex that's what made me choose her.

"Just a little, I worked up a sweat," I smiled.

"I was talking about you babe, you are sexy, hot, drool on the fool kind of hot!" she said smiling.

I never really thought of myself as overly sexy or hot. I thought I was rather plain. Brown hair, brown eyes, 6' 3" 200 pounds of pure muscle. I had hair fan out on my pecs and come together to trail down my abs and straight to my cock. I heard some girls say that I had a square jaw and chin... whatever that meant. I also always had a trail of girls behind me just waiting for me to dump my 'girlfriend'. "That's sweet of you,"

"That's all I get? I call you hot and you say that I am sweet gee thanks, jerk," she laughed. I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and started towards her dorm.

**********

I was concentrating really hard the next day on balancing my pencil on its eraser end. That is until Chris, the little twerp, elbowed me in the side. I groaned loudly, and jerked up into a sitting position quickly. "Pay attention!" he hissed at me.

Alex was probably 6 feet even 180 pounds, he was fit, not hard like me, but muscular. He had long blond hair that hung into his grey eyes he had the most perfect lips that I have always wanted to kiss. He was cute, not popular like me but not antisocial, he was quiet but talkative to a select few.

I looked up to the board, math, I detested it! I realized I was completely lost. I was thinking about this weekend to much and forgot about the lecture. I rubbed my temples and saw the little twerp shake his head, sighing he pushed his notebook towards me.

He stayed with me after class so I could fully understand the material, he was great in math where I sucked at it. "Why don't you pay attention in class?" he asked after he had given me a problem to work on my own, making sure that I learned it correctly. 

I looked up at him and grinned "hard to pay attention to anything when you have blue balls," I laughed, everyone knew that I was always horny, but I wasn't desperate, nor did I fuck like crazy. I wasn't known at that kind of guy. In fact I hardly fucked 'girlfriends' anymore, it just felt wrong.

Chris lent back into his chair and sighed shaking his head. I was staring at him, I always thought Chris was really hot. When my cell phone started ringing I jumped. He looked over at me with one eyebrow raised. I grabbed my phone it was Sara, I exhaled heavily and threw it on the desk.

Chris looked at it a moment then back to me, "you going to answer that?"

"Nah," I frowned as I stood up, grabbing my bag, I stuffed the phone in there, I tapped his note book after I slid it back over to him. "Thanks for the help, twerp, I'll see you Tuesday, and I promise to be good," I batted my lashes at him and started cracking up, as I started to turn I notice that Chris' face had turned red.

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Ah, sweet weekends! On the weekends I would always go to a gay bar in another town. I didn't want anyone to know that I was gay, and no one knew me in this town and no one would think to see me here. I walked in and went straight to the bar ordering myself a beer then started to look around the place for the one I would fuck senseless tonight.

I was more attracted to the small skinny, twinks, rather than the jock sort like me. Well except Chris, his body looked perfect in jeans and a t-shirt, I couldn't wait to see him completely bare for me to drool over.

I shook my head quickly getting that train of thought out of my head. I looked at the dance floor and watched the crowd, and the couples. You know those couples that always seem in love and are always taking advantage of those simple touches, caresses and kisses. I despised couples, they had what I have not been able to grasp. They had another person, I couldn't have another partner. I was physically unable, the little twinks are always smart and jocks are always meat heads, what intelligent little guy would want a dumb oaf like me?

I rolled my eyes, Alec my first boyfriend told me something like that when we broke up. I had quite a few discrete relationships. I was too dumb, I was too possessive, and then I was too closed off. After that I had decided to screw relationships, I was always dumped and I was the only one getting hurt, I was sick of it. 

So here I am now at a bar every weekend trying to find a guy that wants to jump into bed with me with no attachments, and if he wanted a ride next weekend I would be there. 

I looked away from the dance floor and over at the tables. I saw Danny in a booth and quickly ordered an apple martini for him. I walked on over to him and tapped his shoulder.

"JAY!" he yelled in a high pitch voice, before he jumped up and hugged me.

"Hey sweetheart, how are you?" I asked as I gave him the drink, Danny was my best and only gay friend and my confident, I could tell him anything. He was short 5'5" with black hair he kept in a scene style I think is what he called it. He had a cute face and was a hyper, skinny, little guy. He looked so deflated when I sat down next to him in the booth.

He frowned "John broke up with me Monday," he sighed raggedly and I put my arm around him to comfort him. Danny was a lot stronger than me, he would try over and over to find the guy for him, no matter the heart break. "I think I should just start dating you, Jay, you know how to protect me, I know you would never hurt me," 

He was referring to the time that he had been beaten up near the bar by some homophobes. I stumbled upon them and beat the shit of if the three of them, and helped Danny get some medical attention. Since then we have been friends and at times Danny would stay at my house with me. "I don't date Danny or I would take you up on that offer,"

Danny pouted giving me the puppy face, "you think that I would hurt you?!"

"I didn't meant that sweetheart, remember I'm the dumb, possessive, self-centered, closed off, meathead jock," I smiled at him ruffling his hair. 

Danny swatted my hand away. "Stop that! It takes me forever to get my hair like this, and you need to quit thinking of yourself like that,"

"You ought to quit using so much gel, you look better without it anyways,"

"My hair is fine, what do you know of fashion? Now stop getting me off topic,"

"I'm not getting you off topic, you just proved my point of me being a dumb jock, I know nothing of fashion, and I want what I like, dumb and self-centered jock,"

"Jaaaaaay!" he pouted.

"Don't worry about me, sweetheart, I will be ok and you will find the guy for you, and I will always be here for you, ok? Besides I have to make sure your boyfriend knows that if he hurts you that I will beat his ass,"

"You are too hard on yourself, Jay,"

"Well there's another thing to add into the 'things that make me unqualifiedly datable' list, oh and the fact that I hide behind a 'girlfriend' so I'm not scrutinized, that's a big one,"

"You will find someone one day Jay," Danny said chugging the martini.

**********

"Good God! Danny how much did you drink?"

"The whole bottle?" he said giggling and leaning on me as I opened my door. I carried him inside, kicked the front door closed and walked into the guest room laying him on the bed. He giggled again and then started rolling on the bed, I rolled my eyes.

"I doubt that, it was probably more like a gallon" I took off his shoes and socks and his jeans. He had stopped rolling and I helped him to sit up lean against my chest, to pull off his shirt. Then I started turning the covers down. When I looked at him again he was asleep. I placed him thin the bed and covered him up then kissed his head. "You are going to wake up with one hell of a headache tomorrow, sweetheart,"

**********

A shrilly sound woke me up the next morning, it was my cell phone going off. "Hello?" I asked groggily.

"Jason?" Sara asked "are you asleep?"

"I answered the phone didn't I?" she didn't respond, and left an awkward silence "what's up, Sara?"

"Um well I-I have to talk to you Jason, can I come over?"

I looked at the clock, it was ten thirty. I sighed, "yeah sure come on over," I got up and threw on the pants I wore last night and then went to brush my teeth and use the bathroom. I went into the kitchen and started to make some coffee, when there was a knock on the door. When I opened it Sara came in, she stood awkwardly in the living room twisting her fingers together.

"What's up Sara?" I knew her enough that when she was nervous she tended to be erratic.

"imsoryJasonbutI'mbreakingupwithyou," she said it so quick I couldn't understand her.

"Huh?"

She took a deep breath, "I'm sorry," she paused and bit her lip, "I am breaking up with you," she looked down at the floor.

"Oh, why?" it hurt me, I was the one that made breakups. When someone broke up with me it was always because of something I did.

"Because, you don't deserve me," she paused again, making me nervous, "I made a bet with my friend that I could get in bed with you,"

"Oh," I stood there dumbfounded. Not sure what my reaction should be. This was new territory for me.

"I know it was wrong and that's why I'm breaking up with you now,"

"Alright, um thanks for being honest with me," I said placing my hand on her shoulder. She looked up at me and smiled.

"JAAAAAAAY!" Danny yelled. I closed my eyes took in a deep breath. I looked at Sara who looked at me with accusing eyes.

"You cheated on me?!" 

I looked down at her and raised an eyebrow. "that's Danny, he's in my guest room because he was wasted last night and I wouldn't let him drive,"

"Oh, oops, sorry, I uh, I will just leave then," she quickly ran out the door. I nodded my head and then went to check on the groaning mass in my guest room that calls itself a human. Personally I think it's a drunken fairy.

**********

The next week was rather dull for me, I hung out at Danny's a little trying to bring up his spirits and trying to get him to lay off the drinks. The little alky could drink a ton! I was a little worried for him, but he always seemed to jump right back. I thought it would be a matter of time before he was out hitting the bars again looking for his new love.

"What's up with you? It looks like someone spat in your cereal," I heard Chris whisper next to me.

"Huh? ...oh my friend, he is going through a rough break up, I'm a little worried about him, but he always seems to bounce back," I shrugged. I lay on the desk looking pitiful most likely and ignoring the lecture of the day.

"Sorry to hear that, what happened?" he looked generally concerned, I imaged it was for me, but I know that's just how Chris is, always concerned for the welfare of others.

"He was too possessive and too analytical over him," it didn't register to me that I let it slip.

"He?"

"Huh? Oh my bad I mean she," I was stammering but I made the quick fix. Shrugging his shoulders Chris just went back to watching Mr. Garner talk.

"I heard what happened to you too," he wasn't looking at me as he said it he was just staring straight ahead, and his face was hidden behind a blank mask. I didn't like it, he looked to serious.

"What are you talking about?" I asked fiddling with my pen.

"About Sara, she dumped you didn't she, or is that just a rumor?" he still hadn't lost that seriousness, his whole body became stiff to I noticed.

"Oh!" I closed my eyes and sighed, leaning back up into my chair. "Nah, that's true, mutual disagreement I would say,"

"Well um, I don't want to sound all sappy or anything..." he was blushing and scratching his head, trying to look at anything other than me, "I mean... I'm here for you if you need anything, or whatever you know?"

I smiled, genially pleased someone was looking out for me. "That's great thanks, but I'm good I'm not broken up over it," I noticed he looked at me quizzically. "What?"

"You have been dating her over five months, normally that means you are in a serious relationship," he was finally looking at me again, and I got a thrill from it.

"Oh, well, nah, we weren't that serious,"

I noticed out of the corner of my eye that he was staring at me oddly. I fidgeted in my seat from the undesirable glare. When he finally relented and looked back up to the teacher, I released the breath I didn't know that I was holding.

Mr. Garner finished early and gave us an assignment for the weekend, I moped not wanting to do anything but relax at my apartment. I knew that wasn't going to happen anyways. Danny had begged me to go to the bar with him so that he would feel confident when he was there. I agreed then told the brat that he owed me big for taking up three of my weekends.

Chris was packing his things away when my cell went off. I reached over and answered it. It was Danny, he wanted to grab lunch with me.

"You're paying," I said mock annoyed.

"To use you shamelessly in bed?! DEAL!"

"Hey I'm not a prostitute!"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm positive, where we meeting at?"

"Umm, Subway's!" he said so enthusiastically I could picture him jumping in the air with one hand raised high and a huge grin on his face. He was coming back around.

"Ok then I will see you soon," I was smiling when I flipped the phone closed. 

"Who was that?" Chris asked with a smile.

"My friend, Danny, he was the one going through the rough break up," his mouth dropped open and he looked at me stunned. I didn't know what was going on until I thought bout to the conversation with Danny, no wonder he was looking at me funny.

"Um he was being stupid, don't worry I don't sell my body, he was just being funny. We are meeting for lunch," 

He nodded "oh ok," he smiled and then left.

I felt like he had just abandoned me, that was a punch in the stomach. He looked horrified at the thought of me being gay. I knew he could never find out and I also knew that now my chances with him were fully out the window. I sighed defeated and trudged to Subway's. Danny's good mood would make me feel better, well that and the alcohol that I was going to drown myself in tonight.

Danny noticed my deflated mood and tried getting me to fess up to what was wrong but I didn't. I could bear the pain, I repeated over and over in my head. I can come out of this, I thought.

**********

When we entered the bar the loud thrumming of the amps playing music jolted my body. Danny grabbed us a booth and ordered us some drinks. He looked at the crowd and smiled at me.

"Looks like a good night huh?" he said enthusiastically. He was infectious and his mood and outlook made me smile. I nodded and he searched through the crowd. "What happened?" Danny asked looked at me like I was so fragile.

"Nothing, Danny, don't worry about it," I smiled tightly "I'm here tonight to protect you, make you confident and hopefully get so wasted or get lucky," 

"You want to go home? I don't mind, I-," he stammered.

I shushed him with one finger on his lips, "either way I'm getting wasted, I do it here I might get lucky too, besides I made a promise to you, sweet cheeks,"

He nodded slightly, I know he still felt bad but he didn't say anymore. I watched Danny a little before I started to throw back the beers, I needed to make sure he was ok first. I had told him that I would be fine alone that I just wanted to drink. After trying to dig for answers one last time Danny relented, and went to the dance floor. He was walking around now and I notice a guy grab his wrist. I lifted my head from my hand I had been resting it against and watched, I knew Danny would signal me if he felt unsafe. This time he didn't though, a smile lit up his face as the man walked him to the edge of the dance floor and stayed to sway. I took a swig of the beer in my other hand.

"Like that guy a lot, huh?" I voice ask me. I looked over and saw a small guy sliding into the booth across the seat opposite of mine. He was a blond twink with electric blue highlights and matching blue eyes.

"watching over him, he's basically my lil' brother," I said I watched as the guy across from me extended his hand.

"Aaron," he smiled.

"Jason, you can call me Jay," looks like I was getting lucky, I thought to myself. 

"Who aren't you getting, Jay?"

That had shocked me, "W-what?"

"Oh, come on, I can see it in your body language and in your eyes, you lost some one," He said looking me straight in the eyes.

"I lost something I never could obtain," Was all I said.

"I can help you forget about it," He smiled scooting closer to me. I made a quick check of Danny, who was still having a good time with the other guy. I felt Aaron's hot breath on my neck next and I moaned. I quickly and roughly started kissing him, and pushed him to lie down on the bench of the booth. Soft mewls coming from his throat as I sucked on his ear.

I pictured his tall, hard body on the bed in front of me those grey eyes staring at me begging me to fuck him and have my way with him. That slightly long, pure blond hair, mussed up in every direction. His hands coming up behind my head as he softly whispered for me to kiss him again.

I opened my eyes and saw blue eyes staring at me glazed with lust. Aaron, I was with Aaron, I wasn't with Chris. I sighed and stopped kissing him, this wasn't fair for Aaron. I sat up and looked at Aaron. I shook my head slowly, "I'm sorry, this isn't fair on you, I-,"

"Thinking of him not me?" Aaron surprised me by smiling. I nodded slowly feeling ashamed. "That's, ok, Jay, it will take some time for you to get over it," He patted my shoulder and then poked my neck. "Hope you don't mind," He said a little shyly.

"A hickey?"

"Or more," His smile grew. I laughed and nodded. Aaron went on and found some other lucky bastard.

A little while later I was sitting at the booth looking down at my third beer playing with the label. I thought of that little twerp, I repeated the mantra of I can get through this, I can bear the pain.

Danny came bouncing over to me then he plopped down next to me, "Getting lucky tonight?" I shook my head on top of my folded arms. He sighed.

"Who's the guy?" I asked looking at him and nodding towards the dance floor.

"Cameron, he is nice," Danny said simply. "He had to go to the bathroom, he will be back," I think he said that to not only reassure me but also himself.

"Who is this, Daniel?" Cameron had asked looking down at me. I noticed Danny grimace, he didn't like being called by his full name much, and I didn't mention it. 


Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 01



"I'm Jay, I'm Danny's brother, you so much as hurt a hair on his pretty little head I will make you wish you were never born," I said it as I stood to my full height, quite a bit taller than him and way bigger.

Cameron's eyes widen and he nodded mutely, "Yes, Sir," He said watching me curl back in the booth. "Um, would you like to dance some more?" He asked Danny looking out the corner of his eye at me. Danny nodded and they headed back to the dance floor.

Awhile later I snorted loudly when I heard the DJ play Stephen by Kesha. That was just the cherry on the tip of the ice berg that was starting to chill my heart. I realized just how much I liked Chris then. I wouldn't be able to ever forget him, I wouldn't say I loved him but oh how I wanted him.

Shit, I needed something stronger. I walked up to the bar and ordered a whiskey neat. I tossed it back and smiled as it burned down my throat. I ordered another, and then turned towards the dance floor to check on Danny. What I saw made the glass slip from my hand and shatter when it hit the floor.

Chris!

to be continued...

hope you liked this story I will continue on with it but if you really like it keep bugging me about it and i will surely get more chapters posted fast... the more comments i get back about a story the more im interested in finishing it.

Thanks!

ARI 



Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 02



Sorry it took so long but this was just a scribbling of a story, I didn't think it would be so popular. So when I did get back to it I really didn't have the story completely planned out... that's why it took so long I had a writer's block. I plan on another chapter to this story and I hope you like it. ENJOY! –Ari

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Shit, shit, shit, SHIIIT!! He saw me! In a gay bar! With hickeys all over my neck! Chris wasn't going to talk to me now! I wasn't going to be able to ever face him again. I sagged against the wall, resting my head in my hands, my fingers treaded through my hair.

I ran straight out of the bar once I had gotten over my shock. I ran out of there and down the street to the first alleyway I came to and hid in the dark. I started shaking thinking of what would come of this and sat down. Chris would tell others, it would spread, the team would kill me, and I'd be a laughing stock of the school. The thought that scared me the most... Chris would never look at me the way he used to. I wouldn't be able to hide either, I normally have a girlfriend to hide behind. Wow doesn't that just sound stupid? I mean here I am 200 pounds of muscle and I stand behind someone barely over 130 for protection. God the girls, they wouldn't even allow me to "date" them now, my life was ruined.

I was panicking, I know I was but hell, if Chris's reaction when he heard Danny and I talking on the phone was any indication on how he felt towards men screwing with other men, I had just lost my friend. He had apparently gotten some kind of dirt on me, probably from one of my weekend screws then came to investigate. I sighed, this couldn't get any worse.

Damn it, I left Danny in there too, now I would have to go back and get him. I sat there debating with myself on how I would be able to get back into that bar without being noticed and grab the little fairy and hit the road. Shit this couldn't POSSIBLY get any worse.

When I heard a sound I raised my head, a little too quickly, and slammed my head into the brick wall I was sitting against. "Fuck!" I wrapped my hands around the back of my throbbing head. Ouch.

"Jason?" SHIT! I knew that voice, I felt the blood drain from my face. SHIT. I didn't move. "Jason is that you?" He was walking up to me. I guess it can always get worse.

"No," I whispered, I don't think he heard me though. Banging my head into that wall must have seriously decreased the number of brain cells I had.

"Hey man, are you ok?" he sounded concerned and I nodded no. 

I dared a peek at him and saw him there looking at me with worry etched into his face.

"Why did you leave?" he sat down next to me giving a comfortable space, nothing too far away, that showed he was concerned on the fact that he saw me in a gay bar.

I gulped and looked straight forward. "Are you going to tell everyone now?"

"Tell them what? That I saw you in a gay bar?" I heard him shifting a little, but I didn't dare look at him, I was just too frightened 

I nodded reluctantly. And looked the other way, I focused on a mud puddle in the middle of the alley.

Then there was that long awkward silence. GOD DAMNIT. I over at him, he was watching me, and looked like he was deep in concentration. I looked back down at my shoes. I was getting uncomfortable and shifted a little, but it didn't help. 

"Nah, that wouldn't be cool" when I looked up he was smiling a small smile. I was dumbfounded! I mean here he was cool with me. He was starting to fidget while sitting there. "Heck, you may just be a f-friend of a guy that's gay, that or a bouncer for the bar," Well I was there for Danny but I am also gay. Chris looked like he was making excuses for me though. He was watching me calculate everything that he had just said.

"Look, I don't know what you were doing there so it's none of my business, now is it?" 

I smiled brightly, "No, no I guess it's not," he returned the smile and nodded. "So you won't tell anyone?"

"No, that wouldn't be cool," his face seemed to get tighter.

"Thanks, Chris. That really means a lot to me. If you ever need anythi-"

"JAAAAY?" Danny yelled loudly, he poked his head around the side of the building before he walked into the alley. "JAY!" his smile lit up his face and he bounced over to me. "Jay I was so worried about you when I didn't see you in the bar!" he said so fast that I barely caught it. He was looking me over, raising my arm in the air and prodding me checking for nonexistent wounds.

"I thought you would have learned by now to stay away from alley ways!" I said quickly.

"You were right here so I was safe," He stuck his tongue out at me and went about checking me, "now hold still let me make sure you aren't hurt-"

"I'm ok, I'm sorry I lef-OW!" Danny had poked the bump that was forming on the back of my skull from the collision with the wall earlier.

"Thought you said you were ok." He said standing back with his hands on his hips, his eyebrow cocked and looking as if he was daring me to say it again.

"It's just a bump" I said blushing when I realized that Chris was still there watching our exchange. Danny followed my gaze and turned to find Chris.

"I'm sorry, did I interrupt something?" Danny asked quietly as he blushed.

"No! I-I'm just a friend that goes to college with Jason. I'm Chris," He said as he shot his hand out towards Danny. Danny jumped, I noticed he then looked at me with a shocked realization across his face. I would have to ask him about that later.

"I'm Danny, nice to meet you," He shook Chris's hand, and started to check him out. Anger flared in me, irrational I know, Chris was not mine to get jealous over, and he was straight. "What are you going to school for?"

"Planning on being a Veterinarian," Chris smiled at Danny. Chris did not seem at all disturbed by him. It confused me with his earlier reaction when I was on the phone. I was staring off into space with my thoughts when Danny broke through them.

"Jay, come on lets go back, please?" Danny pleaded. I sighed and stood up.

"Alright sweet cheeks, what happened to what's-his-face?" I asked while dusting off my pants.

Danny frowned. "He got mad when I noticed that you were gone and that I wanted to look for you, so I left him, you know how I can't stand that possessive shit," Danny was waving his hand around as he talked about the guy and I found it funny and I had to laugh.

I noticed that Chris looked hurt when I turned around. "Hey what's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong," He said quickly. Did he just hate me or something, he was so nice to Danny but just dismissive towards me. What the hell!

"Alright, so let's go on back?" I turn back to Danny.

"YES!" Danny jumped in the air smiling excitedly, he then grabbed Chris's hand. "Chris you must dance with me please?"

He had given him the puppy eyes, that trick always worked on me. "I'm sorry, Danny, but I really have to be going, I have an assignment to do this weekend and I need to work on it, maybe another time," He then glanced towards me and his smile faltered. As he turned he waved and said, "I'll see you in class, Jason, oh you may want to wear something with a collar, you have a few dark hickeys" then he was gone.

I watched him leave, and heaved a sigh.

"Wanna tell me what's going on?" Danny asked with his eyebrow cocked up again. I ruffled up his hair screwing up the gelled up mess. He swatted it away again and glared making me laugh.

"Nothing to tell sweetheart," I tried smiling but I don't think it worked all too well.

He eyed me funny for a moment then relented, "...can I crash at your house?"

"I thought you wanted to go back?!" He was always doing these one eighties on me.

He shrugged as we headed towards my truck. "I'm ok; I thought you were going to get lucky, so I was trying to make an excuse for Chris to stay,"

"Chris is straight, Danny," I said with a sigh, my shoulders were slumped as we headed back to the truck.

"Is he the reason for your sour mood?" I quickly looked over at him, he was too damn perspective.

"Quit being nosy, you little fairy!" Danny smiled and pushed me in the side, unsuccessfully trying to make me fall on my ass.

"Alright home we go," He said bouncing up and down like the little fairy he was.

"Ok, on one condition, you dress up as a fairy for Halloween," I chuckled.

"I already have my Halloween costume planned out!"

"Oh? And what might I ask is that?" I unlocked the truck and I saw him smile mischievously.

"Your little boy toy!" He giggled and hopped into the truck. 

***********

I walked into class with a black polo shirt on, the collar popped to hide the hickeys as Chris had suggested. I noticed that Chris was already there, his head was down on his arms and he was facing the other way. I thought that it was strange Chris was always ready to pay attention in class, he never fell asleep. I walked up quietly and sat down at the table I shared with him. He didn't budge. I decided to wait until the professor came before I would wake him. If he was asleep in class then something must have happened, maybe he was uneasy around me and preferred to just ignore me.

That stung, I really wanted to at least stay friends with Chris, but maybe that wouldn't be a possibility.

The bell rung a few moments later and he still had not moved. The door burst open and the professor walked on in. I turned towards Chris and lifted my hand to nudge his shoulder but he was already sitting up and wide awake. He didn't look at me. Get used to it, I told myself. He must really feel uncomfortable with me if he didn't want to interact with me at all.

I sighed heavily and grabbed my report and notebook. I looked up at the board and tried to pay some attention to the lecture.

When the lecture was over Mr. Garner had everyone turn in their projects at the front of the classroom. I started putting all my things away when I heard someone say something to me.

I looked up and Chris was staring at me. "I'm sorry what was that?" 

"I asked, how is Danny?"

"Oh, he's good," I smiled or tired. 

"Was he the friend that was having a rough break up?" Chris asked me, he sounded hopeful.

"Uh yeah, he doesn't feel safe going alone into bars. He was beaten up once before and I... I was there to help him," I smirked a little.

"That is what you meant by him staying out of alleys?" 

I nodded and stuffed my notebook back into my bag before swinging it over my shoulder.

"I'm sorry about the beginning of class, I wanted to talk to you but I wasn't sure what exactly to say to you. I hope that we can still be friends though, I don't want you to be uncomfortable around me, if you are though, I-I will understand,"

"Huh?! Why would I be uncomfortable around you?"

He had that tight smile on his face again, it made him look fragile "You haven't thought about why I was at that bar have you? I know you were there for your friend and you don't want people thinking that your are gay, that's all that you must have thought about though,"

I looked at him still not understanding. See? I am a dumb meat head jock.

He sighed and gave a hoarse chuckle "Jason, I'm gay,"

I know my jaw hit the floor. Why hadn't I thought about that?! "I can say that I didn't expect that," I stammered. "No, my best friend is gay, why would it matter to me?" I said quickly when I noticed his face fall. "Sorry, I just didn't think about that, but, no, we are cool, want to go to the café with me then we can head over to English class?"

"No, that's ok," he looked a little better now.

"Wait! Danny is wanting to go to the bar again this weekend, I always feel like the third wheel and all I end up doing is getting plastered, why don't you come? Besides you promised Danny a dance,"

Chris frowned slightly but smiled and nodded, "alright then, I can't let Danny down can I?"

I chuckled "No you can't he will pester the shit out of me if I don't drag you along with me,"

He agree. His smile got bigger, and then he waved as he left the room.

I went to the café and called Danny. 

"Hello?" He croaked I figured the little nymph was still in bed.

"Hey we are going to the bar again this weekend," I paused a moment, "Why are you still in bed?"

"Up too late last night," He sighed.

"Uh huh, well Chris is coming with us," I stated.

"WHAT?!" I heard a clatter and pulled the phone away from my ear. "Sorry, dropped the phone, why is he coming with us?"

I sighed. "I will talk about it later, how about we have dinner at my place tonight?"

"Chinese! Lo Mien noodles," He demanded.

"Alright, around six?"

"Sounds good,"

"See you then sweetheart," I said before ending the call.

***********

When I walked out of the bathroom of my apartment with a towel around my waist I thought I was fine. I felt something jerk at my hips and then my towel was gone. 

"WHOA, YOU ARE HUNG!" Danny said surprised. "No wonder you are always so damned cocky,"

"Danny! Give me back my damn towel," I growled when I lunged for him, but he nimbly danced out of my reach.

He bounced out of my reach each time I tried to grab him, "No! This makes up for all the times you have messed up my hair that I spend so much time on!"

"Wanna play hard huh?" I smirked. He was standing up on my couch about to bounce off of it and around me. 

He nodded, then bolted around me again, "Alright, I'll play hard," I walked on over to the couch and spread my legs wide and grasped my cock. Danny turned around and looked at me, his mouth dropped open when he saw me.

I grinned, and slowly started moving my hand up and down my cock and circling the head until it stood up from my body. I saw Danny lick his lips and take a step towards me. With my other hand I reach down and grabbed my balls slowly rolling them with my fingers. I moaned and looked up at Danny again. My eyes were half way closed and dreamy looking.

Danny was so into it he wasn't paying attention to anything but my cock, and as much as the little fairy hates to admit it, he hasn't had sex in a long time. When that happens he gets distracted really easily.

I started moaning and thrusting my hips into my hand wishing the world that it was Chris's hand or mouth on me or his ass. That thought alone made my cock jerk.

Danny finally walked in front of me and watched me play with myself. When he tried walking closer I put my foot up against his stomach. "nu-uh" I said slowly then looked back at my cock. I squeezed a bit harder and groaned out loud, I was starting to pant. Danny was riveted.

"Like what you see?" I husked, he nodded not taking his eyes off my cock. "Want it don't you?"

He nodded again and licked his lips. 

"Come closer," I reached out my hand towards him. He looked me in the eye and then walked towards me more. His eyes were back on my cock and he didn't notice the grin that spread across my face. When he was close enough I launched up grabbed my towel and bolted to the bathroom. I slammed and locked the door behind me.

"JASON! YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE!" He hollered at me.

"Mm, you are just too easy sweetheart, now I gotta finish up here and then I'll be out," I grinned. Then turned my attention back to my cock. Closing my eyes I grabbed my cock at the base.

Hands gripped my shaft and I moaned loudly his tongue licked up one side then down the other making me squirm. I heard his chuckle "You taste so good, Jason," His tongue made a slow circle around the head. I let my head rest against the wall, and I groaned loudly. 

I faintly heard Danny cursing my name on the other side of the door but I ignored it.

His mouth encompassed the head of my cock and he started to suck on the head, driving me insane. He smirked at me and then took my shaft into his mouth taking half of length before stopping, I felt the back of this throat open up and he engulfed more of my aching cock

"Oh shit! Just like that,"

His hand came up between my legs and gently squeezed my ball sac. I groaned loudly again. His head started bobbing up and down on my cock and I couldn't help but thrust back into him. I grabbed the back of his head but I didn't pushing him. He was doing perfect on his own. His tongue slid down around my cock as he continued to suck. 

He pulled back off my cock jerking me slowly.

"Jason, I want your cum, cum in my mouth, you taste so good," He was licking my cock like it was a Popsicle but he kept eye contact with me as he purred his desires to me. "I want you to fuck me Jay, long and hard, all night long"

His hands moved to my knees and slowly climbed up to my hips. He was still kneeling down in front of me but he licked his lips and I knew he had only just started with me. With a predatory shine in his eyes he started getting off the floor, his hands traveled up my back and his face became level with mine.

"Relax Jay, I'm gonna take good care of you," He grinned cheekily then kissed me with all he had.

"Fuck,"

"Sounds like a good idea." He whispered in my ear.

He straddled me, our chest together and his cock between both our stomachs. He reached behind himself and grabbed a hold of my cock. He positioned it right at the opening to his ass and then pushed down onto it until his body relented and allowed my cock to enter.

"JASON!" Chris would have hollered out if he was really there.

I spurted all over my chest groaning so loud I think the neighbors heard.

"JASON! The food's here," I heard Danny yell at me then cursing my name. I chuckled and grabbed the washcloth to clean myself up before going to get dressed and eat.

**********

"Ok, I know you didn't just invite me over so I could steal your towel so that you could tease the shit out of me," Danny said just after swallowing his food. He looked up at me expectantly.

I grinned, that shit eating grin I have, "Don't know if I wanna tell you anymore," I stuffed some food in my mouth before saying "Can't trust ya,"

"How old are you?" He asked tilting his head slightly to the side. There he goes again doing those 180's. Talking about one thing then switching to another.

I swallowed my food and raised an eyebrow, "22, you know that already" I flunked 7th grade because of some family troubles.

"Well since you are 22, act your age and don't talk with your mouth full," He was smiling so I know he didn't mean it as an insult, he was just teasing me.

"Sorry," I muttered as my face started to tinge red. I wiped my mouth off and took a drink from my coke.

Danny was waiting patiently but I knew he was getting annoyed with me, I grinned. "Alright, you jerk, I know you are so hot for me but there has to be another reason you called me over to have dinner what is it?!" He said as he lay back onto the couch.

"Chris, I thought that he had found out that I was gay, you know?" I asked looking up at him. He nodded and looked at me expectantly, "Well I went to class and he was 'sleeping' which he never does, he was just nervous to talk to me, and didn't want to make me uncomfortable... well I didn't understand why I would have felt uncomfortable, then he just says he's gay," I was smiling brightly. I felt like such a moron, I was just so happy over it.

"Ok, and why does it matter if Chris comes with us or not?" He asked with one eyebrow raised again. He was staring at me intently, as I squirmed, feeling uncomfortable.

"I...I um....kind of...have a th-...thing for...him" I was blushing bright red as I muttered this. I wasn't used to expressing my feelings.

"I KNEW IT!!" Danny jumped up and shouted, startling me in the process. Danny pointed his finger at my face and added "I also knew Chris was gay too, you could have asked me about him,"

"Y-you k-knew?!" I stammered.

"Yup, I'm perspective, Jay," I was floored. He was sitting there grinning at me with a smug ass grin.

"How did you find out that I liked him?" I narrowed my eyes and watched him carefully.




Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 02



"You moan in your sleep, it was sometime before I met Chris... I was staying with you and I woke up at night because I had to pee. When I was on my way back to my room, I heard you moan his name," He was still grinning at me. "Must have been one hell of a dream,"

"Ugh," I collapsed back into the chair trying to shrink into it as much as possible.

"Don't worry Jay, I won't embarrass you in front of him,"

"Sure I believe you on that," He was grinning at me. "It's just that this is going to be so hard on me. I mean, I don't want Chris as just a hook up,"

"What you want him as a friends with benefits?"

"No, I want him as more," I whispered and blushed.

"You know talking about your feelings is kind of damaging your aura of maleness," He grinned rocking back and forth.

"Well I consider myself safe since you are a fairy not another man" I grinned then got a face full of pillow.

"You Jerk!"

**********

This week seemed like it took forever to go by. Practice seemed to drag along and my classes seemed duller than usual. Now here it was Saturday I was ready to get out there with Chris, but Danny was being his usual girly-self.

As Danny was rummaging through his closet I thought bout about Chris. I had talked to him as much as I could this past week, well as much as I could get out. I would always choke up around him, I hoped he never noticed how nervous he really made me. I am always comfortable about myself I'm never really self conscious about myself until I realized I may have a chance with him. A few times when I tried talking to him the teacher normally noticed and stopped me. 

After classes yesterday I stopped him to make sure he still wanted to go. He bit his lip and nodded slowly, I proceeded to ask if he needed a ride or anything and I noticed he blushed and looked away. 

"No I'll walk, see you there," He turned and hurried for the doors. I was curious if I had made him uncomfortable.

I came back to the present after hearing a ruckus from the closet and some muted swears.

I sighed and rubbed my hand through my hair, "Danny you look good in anything you wear so grab something throw it on and lets go,"

"But I want to look perfect," He whined.

"You are being a girl," I muttered under my breath. I slumped in the chair and tried looking pitiful.

Danny stood in front of the mirror in a pair of skinny black jeans that showed off his ass nicely and a form fitting tank top that had horizontal cuts along the sides that gave a peek of his chest, he added a few leather bands around his wrists and fixed up his hair. "What do you think?"

"Looks great now let's Go!" Unlike Danny I was able to throw on a tank top and a button down shirt, which I was currently wearing, and I'd be set.

"You just want to see Chris, I could look horrible and you'd still say I look good," He said with a frown.

I groaned mentally. "Danny seriously, I would be drooling but I am just completely lost right now,"

Danny smiled and nodded then said he was ready to leave. I jumped up excitedly and shot for the door.

**********

Normally it's Danny that is bouncing off the seats and anxious as hell to get to the bar, now I guess it's my turn. I was sitting in the booth nervous and anxious as hell. God this is so unlike me. 

Across the table Danny was enjoying my suffering. "You ok there Jay?" He asked grinning.

I growled and looked at the dance floor, and more importantly the door. I took a swig of my beer and plunked my head down on my arms, resting on the table.

"I think you ought to get something to take the edge off Jay, you are a little too tense I think,"

I picked up my beer. "That's what I got this for,"

"One beer isn't going to take the edge off, I have seen you down beers one right after another... I was talking about something harder."

"I was afraid I would get to careless though," I mumbled into my arms.

"Hey guys, didn't start without me did you?"

His voice snapped me out of my daze and I smiled up at him. God he was hot, he was just wearing cargos, a plain t-shirt and some flip-flops. He looked like the poster surfer boy.

"Chris!" Danny almost screamed. "I'm so glad you could make it!"

"Well I promised you a dance didn't I?" He laughed.

"Yup now let's have that dance right now!" Danny practically dragged Chris to the dance floor. I watched Chris look back and he looked at me concerned a moment but I just smiled and waved at him. Chris's attention was then turned back to Danny. I sighed heavily but watched them.

Chris shocked me when he started to dance with Danny, he was sexy. I never knew he could dance, he always seemed to shy. Now I watched his body sway, grind and shake to the rhythm of the music. What really annoyed me was that Danny was all over him, grinding right back into Chris. Why was he doing that he knew I liked him! It frustrated me even more when Danny looked over Chris's shoulder and started me right in the eyes challenging me, as if to say 'want him?! Come get him,'

That was it I jumped up from the seat and walked towards them, Danny stepped away and found a new dance partner. Chris was facing away from me as I stepped onto the dance floor. I walked straight up behind him and took the 'leap of faith', I wrapped my arm around his waist and pulled him against my body. His movements didn't falter, he just kept swaying. His body relaxed into mine and my body followed with his in the enticing dance.

The lights dimmed for the next song a the beat was darker more erotic, I grasped his hips and then thrust my hard-on into his backside and heard his gasp. His hips dipped into mine and his arm came up over his head to grab the back of mine to bring my head closer to his neck. God this was turning me on badly. I leant my head down and started nibbling on his neck. His head came back and rested against my shoulder, his eyes shut tight, his mouth opened and gasps and moans emitting frequently. He suddenly stood up straight removing his hands from me and turned, his face went white when he saw that it was me that was dancing with him.

"J-Jason?!" he sputtered.

I smiled and just leant down, my lips a breath away from his. "You are an amazing dancer," I then softly kissed his lips, he was too shocked to respond.

"I, you... I didn't know you liked men," He stammered and his mouth hung open.

I simply winked at him, "It will be our dirty little secret, how about something to drink?" I placed my hand at the small of his back and pushed him towards the bar. He hopped up onto a bar stool and waved over the bartender anxiously. We ordered drinks as we waited I tried talking to him but he stayed silent. When the drinks were done he quickly downed the shot of tequila but he still didn't turn to look at me.

"Chris are you ok?" I was worried that I had done something wrong.

"Yeah I'm good," He was looking at the dance floor. "I thought I was here to be set up on a date with Danny," He looked a little deflated.

"No, he wanted you to come, I wanted you to come too," I blushed a little and laughed, "We really haven't gotten to talk about what happened last time,"

"Maybe we ought to then," Chris said slowly, "Maybe we could-"

"Hey there handsome, how about you come dance with me?" Some red headed boy came up to me slurring a little and touching me.

"I'm sorry I have a date right here," I grabbed Chris's forearm gently, his eyes snapped towards the connection, "and you very rudely interrupted our conversation," The kid huffed and wobbled away.

"So I'm your date?"

I grinned "Perhaps we could talk about what happened another time, for right now I would like to enjoy some more of your so called dancing,"

"If it's not dancing then what is it?" He was trying to be a smartass.

I leant over and whispered directly into his ear "Personally I would call it having sex with clothes on, but that just takes too much time to say," I was smiling smugly. I extended my hand he took it and his face was flushed which made me laugh.

Chris was all over me when we danced, god the feel of his ass against my rock hard cock made me groan every time. His scent was intoxicating too, I wanted to get lost in it. A few times people tried to dance with him but I would glare at them until they would leave. One guy started trying to grab onto Chris so I stepped between them, so from that point I made sure to keep my hands on his hips. I started getting really hot so I took off my tank top, having left my button down at the table, and tucked it between one of the belt loops to my jeans.

Chris must have felt me jostling behind him and turned. His eyes went wide and he gasped then quickly looked away. "I'm sorry I was just getting too hot... I can put my shirt back on but I may have to take a break for a bit,"

He looked back up at me and nodded no. He reached up slowly with one hand and lightly touched my collarbone, where my chest hair starts, then slid it slowly down my chest to my abs which he traced. I closed my eyes and I just let him go at it. "So hot," He muttered. He then followed the lines of my tribal tattoo I had on my hip which disappeared under my pants.

"Think we may need to get a room," I said between clenched teeth as his hand started to go lower. He was too preoccupied to be worried with what I said. I grabbed his hand and lead him outside to my truck. I pushed him roughly against the passenger door and went straight for his mouth. He tasted so sweet, his tongue danced with mine which only spurred me on to kiss him rougher.

His hands ran down my back to the waist band of my jeans to slowly slip beneath. I nipped and sucked at his neck and started to grind my rock hard erection into Chris's. He moaned and gasped and pulled me closer towards him. I felt my belt loosen and my cock being pulled out. I looked at Chris who was staring at my cock and licking his lips. Fuck that was hot. His hands grasped around my cock and I threw my head back and moaned loudly.

"Shit, Chris you are going to make me cum," I rested my head against his shoulder and began thrusting into his hands slowly. 

"Mmm" Was all that he said. He started squeezing me with one hand and with the other he started to massage my balls. Just the feel of his hands rubbing up and down my cock was pure bliss, but then he was lightly squeezing my balls making me gasp each time. I groaned loudly letting my head fall back, I was getting close. I felt Chris tense and that's when I heard someone's throat being cleared.

"Am I interrupting something here?" I heard Danny's smug little grin in the way he said it.

I straightened up, closing my eyes tightly shut and growling, I tucked myself back in and made myself decent then turned my head to look at Danny. I was right that smug little grin was plastered across his face, and taking in our disheveled appearance. I looked back at Chris, his head was down and his face was flushed bright red. Damn it why did he always pop up in the worst possible times?!

"What's up Danny?" I asked slowly. I stood in front of Chris, blocking Danny's view of him.

"Well I saw your shirt still at the table but I didn't see you anywhere in the club, so I thought you had to be around here somewhere," He lifted my shirt up for me to see.

"We just needed to get some fresh air," I said as Danny handed me my shirt. 

"Well then, are you ready to go home now?"

"So soon?!" I asked amazed. Normally Danny wanted to stay until the bar nearly closed.

"Yup, we been here for about four hours I'm ready to get going,"

I know my jaw dropped, how could it be four hours since we got here?! Chris cleared his throat getting ready to say something but I stopped him.

"Alright get in the truck I will take you home then," I said with new enthusiasm, now I had a great excuse to take Chris to my apartment. "Chris, I will drop Danny off then we can go and talk, how does that sound?"

Chris nodded slowly. 

**********

After dropping Danny off we stopped by a local Starbucks. Chris bought some kind of tea and a pastry, I ordered a coke. Chris laughed and then ordered me some kind of... thing. I looked at the coffee cup a moment then back to him.

"I don't drink coffee," 

"Just try it, I know you will like it," He smiled up at me.

I carefully sipped it, wow, for coffee this stuff was alright. I licked my lips and quickly took another sip of it. I heard Chris laugh and I looked up at him.

"Though you didn't like coffee," He was grinning and looked so happy.

"Eh, there's a lot you don't know about me," I smiled trying to play with him.

"I think that I have come to learn that, so do you want to talk here or back at your apartment?" He turned serious then, he looked around the place looking for a good seat.

"I would like somewhere more private," I smiled mischievously. I would really love to be inside of Chris right now pounding into that tight ass of his, but I really didn't want any of that gossip to go around either.

Chris blushed and nodded then started towards the door. He always seemed closed off since we came out to each other, I wish that we could get along like we did before. I hated the awkward silences form him.

**********

"Wow you have an awesome apartment," Chris said looking around, he looked at the couch and plopped down. He looked up at me and it seemed he tried smiling but was torn between frowning also. "You have me really confused now you know that?"

"Oh?" I sat next to him on the couch still sipping that damned coffee.

"Yup, so I thought you were straight," He said quietly looking down at his hands.

"No I'm not,"

"But what about those hickeys you had at the bar?"

I raised one eyebrow, "I got those from some guy at the bar,"

"I thought that you were just protecting Danny while he was at the bars,"

"Normally, but I don't do girls so I go to the bar to get some tail or to hang out with Danny,"

Chris nodded. I walked towards the couch and sat down next to him on my side, so I was facing him.

"I didn't want to be ratted out, I didn't want people to know that I was gay. I have known that I'm gay for awhile but I was unwilling to tell my friends and my team. I don't know how they would react," I looked down at my hands then looked back up at him. He was deep in thought, he looked me in the eye and bit his bottom lip. 

"I suppose that would be tough, I try not to hide it and when someone asks I tell the truth, but then again I don't have that many friends," He whispered and shrugged his shoulders.

"So you won't tell anyone?"

"Not my business to tell now is it?" He said scrunching up his nose which I thought was so cute.

I smiled and leaned in close to him, "You look so adorable when you do that with your nose," I kissed his nose and then slowly kissed his lips. Our lips met and pressed together softly. "And god you are so hot, I don't think you really understand how much you turn me on," I said against his lips.

"I turn you on?" He asked me. 

I chuckled my breath was raspy now. "Yes, so much," I slid one hand up his shirt and rubbed up his smooth stomach as I began sucking and biting his neck. He was moaning softy as I rubbed his chest I followed the hair that started there and followed it to a small six pack, just enough to define the muscles. I followed the hair again past his belly button to the edge of his pants which caused him to groan loudly. I was still sucking on his neck and when I finally back away and looked at him I noticed that I had made a hickey on his neck and his eyes were glazed over with lust.

I jumped up and pulled his shirt off quickly and he started to unbutton his pants. "Stop," I rasped. He looked up at me from under his eye lashes. "Fuck you're hot," I didn't realize I said that aloud. That trail of hair was seriously like a treasure trail and I groaned when I noticed the bulge in his pants and the low slung boxer briefs. 

I dropped to my knees in between Chris's legs leaning against him I kissed the hickey I left, then trailed kisses down his neck and to his nipple. He gasped and moaned loudly as he squirmed under me. I smiled up at him "Sensitize or never had it done before?"

"Never had it done before, no one's ever taken the time," He was breathless.

I frowned and realize Chris was not all too experienced. "Well I won't let that happen when we are together," I went to his other nipple and bit lightly at it. My hand followed the trail of hair it his opened pants and over the bulge Chris sported, he groaned loudly making me grin. I flicked my tongue over his stiff nipple as he grabbed my head and held me to his chest making sure I stayed there. I pushed my hand under the boxer briefs and followed the line of hair to his cock. His body jerked at my touch, I stopped playing with his nipples and kissed his lips. I felt him harden in my hand with every pant.

When my hand left his cock he protested. "NO!"

"We should take this to my room," I whispered in his ear before nipping at his earlobe, I grabbed his hand and pulled him into my room. I pushed him on the bed and looked down at the feast before me. I pushed his pants and his boxers down his legs and his cock popped free and smacked him in the stomach. A small puddle of precum was starting to form on his stomach. He groaned loudly and arched his back. He looked at me with lust glazed eyes spread out open for me. I couldn't help but stare. I hadn't bothered turning the bedroom light on but from the living room light I was able to see his gorgeous body.

"Jason, touch me please," He whispered snapping me out of my appraisal. I stood between his legs and leaned over him allowing our cocks to rub against another. "Oh god, feels great Jason," He said breathlessly. I pushed his legs apart and scooted him up the bed so I could get on my hands and knees over him. I slipped my cock between his legs and thrust back and forth along his crevice.

"You aren't a virgin are you Chris?"

He nodded no and that was all I needed to proceed. I grabbed the lube in my side drawer and slipped some on his little opening before I tried to push a finger in him. He groaned loudly when my knuckle passed the ring. It didn't take him long before he was begging for another finger. When I started thrusting my fingers in and out of I curled them forward slightly. 

"Jay, Jay, stop! I'm bout t-to- oh shit," Chris's eyes rolled up into his head as he moaned and he started to spurt hot cum all over him chest. He grabbed onto my shoulders and kept riding my fingers as he shook with little aftershocks. Chris went limp and his eyes where shut breathing deeply.

"Wake up, I'm not done with you yet," I quickly slicked up my cock and placed it at his anal opening. I pushed slightly and he pushed back. I was afraid I would hurt him but he kept pushing his ass onto my cock. I couldn't help but rammed into him then, he took it all and groaned.

"Fast, hard, please,"

I compiled and started slamming into him thrust after thrust. He met my thrusts and encouraged me faster. I felt his legs wrap around me and his ass clamp down on my cock. God it felt like he would snap my cock off. His fingers twined together behind my neck lightly stroking my hair. He would nip and bite at my neck a little and meet my lips and kiss sloppily 

I tilted my hips a little and started ramming straight into his prostate. He tilted his hips up and met my body, with each trust he would moaned loudly and encourage me on faster. He reached down our bodies for his cock. I slapped his hand away from his cock.

"No, don't touch yourself, I'm going to make you cum Chris, Me," I all but growled.

"So close" He whimpered under me. He arched his body against mine, I felt his ass start to spasm on my cock. I started thrusting faster. Chris gasped loudly and his fingers dug into my shoulders. I kissed his neck along his collar bone as he started chanting yes over and over. I felt his hot cum hit my chest and stomach. I felt my orgasm coming and I started thrusting wildly into Chris.




Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 02



"Oh shit, Chris, your ass is so good," I moaned and bit Chris's shoulder when I felt myself fall over the edge. I kept thrusting as I shot my load in his ass grunting each time I bottomed out. Then I collapsed on top of him. We were both trying to catch our breath. I felt his sticky cum between our bodies, and a sheen of sweat all over his body. I didn't want to get up but I was afraid that I might be too heavy for him. 

I pushed myself up onto my hands and looked down at him. He still was holding onto me and moaning, as my dick slid out of his hole . I chuckled and kissed his along neck, I found one spot right by his collar bone he really liked. He was tracing the tattoo I had on my hip. 

"I didn't know you had a tattoo,"

"Mmhm, I got it when I was 19," I was too content to talk too much, I had the man I been dreaming about for a long ass time in my arms and It was just too perfect. Chris seemed to be getting uncomfortable though. He started squirming and he seemed to tense up.

"What's wrong?" I stopped my kissing and propped myself up to look at him.

"Could you give me a ride home now?" He sounded sad, I didn't know what happened. Why did he want to go home? Most of the other guys had wanted to stay for some more.

"Chris did I offend you?" He nodded no. I couldn't make out his face though so I didn't know what his expression was. "What's wrong?"

"I just think I should go," He whispered softly.

"Uh, alright, it's not going to be weird between us is it? I mean, I uh, would like to spend more time together," I know I blushed red, but I saw Chris's head quickly turn to look up at me.

"Why?" he breathed I barely heard him.

"This is hard for me but I like you Chris,"

"Thought you went to bars for tail," he thought this was a one nightstand, and I hadn't told him otherwise. Now I felt stupid and insensitive.

"I don't want you to be a one night stand," I whispered as I traced his jaw lightly with my fingers. "I want you, Chris," 

Chris smiled and kissed my chin. "Oh?" his hand trailed down to my stomach and started to make lazy designs. 

"I want you to stay here, I want you in my bed, and I want you to sleep with me," He watched me a moment. 

"No girls?" his lips were pressed lightly against mine.

"No girls," I promised him. I felt him smile before he kissed me. We kissed for awhile before I felt him start to drift off. His head was resting on my shoulder and his arm across my stomach. I kissed his forehead before I fell asleep. 

This could work out. I was content, but I knew that being with Chris would change the way I lived vastly. What's that saying? Nothing in life come easily? Well if you are unqualifiedly datable would that make things harder?

to be continued...

Thank you all for reading! I love comments and the more you pester me about it the quicker I post them. lol I work well under pressure.



Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 03



sorry it took so long i dont have an editor, thats why it takes soooo long and the grammars horrible lol... and school is just crushing me at the moment... i know its short but i just had to end it there i thought it was perfect

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You know that feeling when you are just too at peace? You know, just so comfortable that you don't want to be messed with you just want to stay there? Yeah I was there right now... I couldn't even recall what I did last night that made me feel this way. I opened my eyes then shut them tightly from the sun glaring through my window. "Stupid sun," I muttered quietly, covering my eyes with my arm. I then realized that there was a body next to me. Shit, another hookup, I never brought them to my apartment though. What the hell happened?!

I carefully peeked over at the body next to mine and then smiled. Chris. Now I remember. I wrapped my arm around his hips. Man I must have had too much to drink, or more than I realized... Chris rolled onto his side away from me. I just pulled his body back against mine, nestling my cock between his ass cheeks. He moaned and thrust his hips back into me.

I could get used to this! Chris murmured something but I couldn't make it out. He then started thrusting his ass slowly along my cock. I groaned and dropped my head into the pillows. I looked over at him and noticed his eyes were still closed. I nipped at his shoulder which made him inhale sharply before snuggling back into my chest. I kissed his neck right below his ear before whispering. "Are you going to turn on your back so I can fuck you properly?"

He tensed up then and his eyes shot open. He quickly closed his eyes before I got to look at them, then rolled on his stomach and buried his face into the pillow.

"Oh no you don't," I grabbed his hips and rolled him back on his side, he tried fighting but I was stronger. He still wouldn't look at me. "Can't tease me unmercifully and then just stop, that's just cruel,"

I grabbed behind his knee and pulled it up to his chest. "Keep it there for me?" He nodded slowly. I smiled and ran my hand along the underside of his thigh, he shuddered and whimpered. When my hand finally reached his hard cock I bypassed it and went to the curve of his ass. My cock was lying against his leg rubbing against his balls and along the crack of his ass. I massaged his tight ass as he moaned and pushed his rear harder against me. "You have an amazing ass, Chris, so tight,"

"Jason," He moaned my name between breathes.

"You aren't sore are you?"

He nodded no and gasped as I slid one finger from that sensitive skin behind his balls pass his asshole to the top of his ass, then back and forth. "You are still wet, I feel my cum still leaking out of you, GOD you know how hot that is?!" 

He nodded no then tried pleading with me again, "Jason, please fuck me,"

"No, last night was sloppy, we kept getting interrupted, and drinking didn't help my stamina. No, I want to enjoy this," I quit tracing along his ass and ran my hand up along his chest. When I found the first small flat nipple I just slowly rubbed my thumb across it. He moaned and grasped my wrist, which I flicked aside. "Do as I do with the other," he groaned and followed my orders, I would have done it but he was resting his head against my other arm. When I rubbed his nipple he did the same, when I pinched he pinched the other, when I flicked one he would flick the other. He was moaning and pressing his back into me.

I started kissing along his neck and stopped torturing his nipple. I pulled his leg away from me so I could get to his asshole. I ran one finger along it slowly teasing him.

"Quit... fucking teasing me, ASSHOLE" he hissed at me, I laughed and bit his shoulder.

"Nuh-uh, you are the asshole, I am the dick, the prick, or any other crude cock names," I jokingly whispered in his ear.

"You have a big one that's for sure, NOW fuck me with it!!!" He grabbed my hip and pulled me towards him.

I slowly started to press one finger onto his ass. "Damn you're still loose,"

"Uh-huh, now fuck me, please, Jason, please!?" He pulled me towards his ass again.

"You sure? I mean I uh, I don't want to hurt you," I was slowly drawing away from him, I had planned on just fingering him to an orgasm, I figured he would be really sore from the first time. 

"Now you get all worried?! Just fuck me damn it!" He let go of my hips and grabbed my cock, which made me jump, I didn't thinking he would grab my cock! His hand felt so good on my hard flesh that I just melted and lost track of everything else. Well everything until I felt the head of my cock pop into his ass.

He let out an elongated and satisfied "aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh," in pleasure. "Don't you dare pull that cock out of my ass," He warned and squeezed his ass around the head of my cock. "I'm not sore and I am not hurt, I just want you to fuck me!"

"Demanding, aren't we?" I gave him what he wanted and slowly pushed my cock into his ass. Once I had bottomed out I kissed along his neck with soft sweet kisses. Chris was wiggling his ass against my hips and squeezing his muscles on my cock.

"Jason, move!" He demanded while trembling. 

I bit his neck again and grinned against his neck. 

"Please move Jason, I want you to fuck me!" he moaned desperately as he grabbed my hips and moved against me.

I grabbed his hips and started rotating my pelvis and giving him very short thrusts.

"Jason," He whimpered, "Fuck me, please?"

"All you have to do is ask, beautiful," I whispered in his ear teasing him. I pulled out of him slowly.

"Fast Jay," He pleaded with me grabbing the sheet in his fists.

I smiled as I grabbed his knee and lifted his leg in the air. I slowly pumped back into him and he groaned. As much as he wanted it fast it seemed he liked it slow too. Another time I would have to go slow and see how he likes it but right now we both wanted it fast and hard right now. I pulled out slowly once more and Chris started to growl. Hearing it come from him made me chuckle. "JAS-"

I slammed right back into him, cutting him off and really started to pound his ass. He was moaning loudly. I watched his face as I was drilling into him. His mouth was open in a soundless moan his eyes closed but relaxed. His whole body was relaxed against me. I needed to change that.

I pulled out and slightly adjusted my hips and thrust right into his prostate. His body tightened like a bow string before his back arched against my chest. "Oh shit! Again, Jason"

I did it again and he clutched the bed sheet tighter. I started thrusting my cock into him again. The sweat on my chest allowed me to slide against his back a little, making my nipples rub against him.

"So close," I heard him whisper.

"Not yet, beautiful,"

I started to feel him tightening on my cock, he grasped my side and held onto me. "God, shit, shit, Jason I'm coming,"

He clutched my side tighter as his tunnel started to spasm around my cock. I tried taking it easy on him but when he moaned my name as he came I lost it. I started ramming into him erratically until I feel that warm bliss overflow me. I felt the cum shooting out of my cock and filling Chris. Chris was limp and moaning softly in my arms, exhausted and sated. I gently placed his leg back on the bed before trying to ease out of him. His hand held my hips at bay so I took it as he didn't want me to move. 

We laid together quietly trying to catch our breathes. I kissed his neck and caressed his chest in lazy circles. His hand was slowly rubbing up and down my side to my hip over my ass and to the back of my thigh. Damn it I was too content staying like this, I loved it. I shifted my hips a little and tried to get closer to him. He released a breathy sigh.

After a while of him lying in my arms I decided that I should probably pull out of him, I didn't want him to be too sore. I lifted his leg slightly and started to pull out but he protested.

"If I stay in, you are going to get really sore," 

He muttered something about me disturbing his peace angrily before allowing me to pull out. He rolled over and nestled into my arms before falling asleep. I watched as he slept, his head was pillowed on my chest and his hand resting on my abs. I grabbed the sheet, trying not to move too much and slowly pulled it over us.

He woke up 15 minutes later and looked up at me. I kissed his forehead and rubbed my hand slowly up and down his back. "How you feeling?" he wiggled his ass a bit before answering.

"Good," He whispered. "God you are amazing," He said softly while running his fingers through the light hair on my chest.

"I am or my cock?" I teased.

"It is," He said in playful sarcasm. "How big is it anyways?" He pulled up the sheet and looked between us at my cock.

"Nine," 

"NINE INCHES?!" He looked up wide eyed at me.

I smiled, "No! Nine feet," I replayed back in his playful sarcasm.

"Wow, I only get to seven," He blushed. "But nine, that's amazing,"

"So are you," I kissed him slowly. When we broke the kiss I laid back and closed my eyes enjoying him in my arms.

He started to run his hand up and down my body massaging my hip again. "So, why the tattoo?"

I looked at him then down at it. "There is a meaning behind it but I am a bit embarrassed about it,"

He grinned "oh come on tell me about it please?"

I sighed, "Well you know how every name kind of means something?" He nodded happily, "Well, that circle,"

"This one?" He traced the big circle on my hip that was at the center of the tattoo, every branch came from that circle.

"Yup," I nodded, I then closed my eyes, this was a pretty personal question, "Well, I plan on putting some kind of symbol in that circle, but it would have something to do with the love of my life, either what his name means or maybe a symbol he favors. My tattoo, covers almost my whole side, so I kind of thought that it represents what my love owns, and maybe he would get the same symbol over his heart, kind of as a I have his heart, concept," I blushed. Chris was just gawking at me. "Silly I know,"

I know right? Not only am I a closeted gay guy, but I'm also a hopelessly closeted romantic.

"I think that's a neat idea actually," He smiled and caressed my hip again. Then he sat up and looked around. "I would really like a shower, do you mind if I use your bathroom?"

"I don't mind go ahead, I will make us something to eat," I said getting up and pulling on a pair of jeans and zipping them up. Chris watched his gaze pinpointed to the undone button. I laughed and he blushed before rushing to the bathroom. 

**********

When Chris popped out of the bathroom wearing only a towel around his waist I had to stop myself from drooling. His hair was towel dried, sticking up in various directions and his tanned body glistening. Shit. 

"Where is the food?"

"Huh?... Oh um," Think, Jay, think. "Sorry didn't know what you liked so I thought we could go to the café?"

He looked down at himself and then back at me, "My clothes are kind of um dirty," He said as he scrunched up his nose.

"You can barrow some of mine," I got up and walked towards my room. His body size and build wasn't too far from mine, they may be a bit big. I rummaged through the dresser and pulled out a pair of pants to throw at him, then some boxers. I went to my closet and went through my shirts, they fit snugly on me, I liked mine a bit tight so that it would show off my build but nothing too tight, so they should fit him perfectly. I just threw him a white shirt. "There you go,"

"But Jason,-"

"Chris, call me Jay, not many call me Jason," He nodded the opened his mouth. "Hurry up and get dressed I am hungry,"

Chris looked at the boxers a minute and just laid them on the bed and pulled on the pants. Hell if that wasn't hot, the pants were slung low on his hips... Damn! I must be bigger around than I thought. He blushed and pulled the shirt on. He looked around for his flip flops and stepped into those.

"How the hell can you wear those? They always hurt my feet,"

"That's why you get the cloth ones," He smiled and lifted his foot up in the air and wiggled his toes.

I laughed and grabbed a shirt from the closet and pulled it on before getting some shoes on and grabbing my keys. We drove to the café and got seated.

"So do you have any family?" He asked me.

I smiled "Yeah, I have a younger sister, and brother, but they live far away so I don't see them much, they come and visit or I go and visit them every now and then though,"

"Do they know about you?"

"Well my sister and brother do but not my parents, they don't pay too much attention to their kids, but what about you do you have any family?"

He looked up at me shyly. "I have my dad, mom disowned me when I told her, and I am an only child. Dad is always there for me though, and he doesn't blame me either,"

"Blame you?" Why the hell would anyone blame soft spoken Chris?!

"After I, uh, told them, mom went crazy blamed him for it all. They got divorced over it. Dad just says that it was going to happen sooner or later, but he stayed with me, he helped me and did all he could to support me, which surprisingly he went to some meetings that helped us,"

"Wow, hell of a father," 

Chris nodded and took a drink of his orange juice. "So what's your siblings names?" 

I smiled and responded. We continued the conversation on through breakfast and continued to chat even after all the plates were cleared away. He seemed a tad reluctant to talk about himself and would give me short answers. 

He looked up at me and said that he needed to get home soon. I sighed and got up and threw some money on the table. I put my arm around Chris's shoulder and walked on out. Chris started sputtering, "Jason I can pay half of the bill-,"

"It's Jay, and no I'm paying for brekky,"

Chris smiled and nodded then we jumped back in my truck and headed towards his apartment. 

When we arrived he plastered on a rough smile and said. "Thanks Jay, it was fun," He looked deflated again.

"Wait Chris," I reached across the seats and grabbed his wrist before he could fully get out of the cab. "Like I said before I don't want this to be a one night stand, if I give you my number will you call me?" I looked up into his grey eyes. No, he wouldn't call me, Chris wasn't assertive enough. I sighed heavily, "Give me your phone," I demanded. When he handed it over I typed in my number and name then sent a message from his phone to mine. I then handed his phone back, "call me if you ...ever want me," I forced myself to smile.

Chris was still looking up at me, but now he was looking at me like he was amazed. He backed out of the truck but I gasped his fingers again. Damn it was hard to let him go. I looked him in the eye and kissed his hand. "Be safe ok?"

He nodded mutely at me before slowly turning around and heading in.

**********

I decided that I wouldn't call him that night I would see him in class. I got there early and waited for him. What the hell? Me early? I lay against the desk my head pillowed on my arms. When he came in I smiled and watched him. He came up and sat down his books before looking at me.

"What?" He asked looking down at me.

"Can't I be happy to see you?" I grinned up at him, my head still resting on my arms. He plopped down in his seat and instantly winced.

I grinned wider. "And how are you, beautiful?" God I love hearing myself being proved right.

"Sore," He muttered as he lowered his head, his hair falling to hide his features. I still noticed he turned bright red though.

"Whelp, that's what you asked for," I leaned back in the chair making it stand on two legs, my hands crossed behind my head.

He looked over at me, "Hope you fall," he muttered playfully with a smirk on his face.

I mocked being shocked. "But then I could get hurt, and that would put a dent between us," I smiled cheekily.

He looked at me and smiled back.

"So, want to come over tonight?" damn. I am asking him too soon.

He looked at me wide eyed confirming my fear. "I'm still sore!" he said softly. Oh....OHHHH! so he thought that I wanted sex again,

"You think I'm that heartless of a bastard?! And here I was the one trying to make sure you weren't going to be sore," He blushed and opened his mouth. "Nope. I am truly offended. I was just trying to invite you to hang out with me and you think I'm ready to jump in the gutter again,"

"I didn't mean-" He looked shocked.

I laughed loudly "I am only playing with you Chris," I laid against the table again and looked up at him "So, are you wanting to come over again?"

He smiled at me "You sure?"

"Course I am!"

**********

Chris started to hang out with me on a regular basis. We quit hanging out with Danny so much after he found a new love. Basically whenever I didn't have practice and when he wasn't bogged down with school work. We never went over to his apartment though, I'm not sure why. He would always make excuses about it, I figured he would tell me in time.

A few weeks after our first night together, he stayed the night again and in the morning we went to the café to have breakfast again. We were sitting there talking when someone yelled my name. I turned and saw some of the guys from the team standing at the front of the café. Adam hit Luke and said "See I told you it was him!" Adam rushed on over followed by another guy. "I thought that it was you but dingus here didn't," He pointed to Luke.

"What are you guys up to?" I asked them I was a disappointed they were butting on my time with Chris.

"Food! Mind if we join you guys?" Adam asked. DAMNIT, why didn't I remember to go shopping for some food so we could have stayed home and I could have cooked?

"I don't mind, do you Chris," He looked at the three guys then back at me with wide eyes. He nodded no quickly. "You don't have to they all look like bullies but once they get checked into a wall they start to cry like little babies,"

"NOT COOL JAY, that was only once and because I broke my nose in the process," Luke muttered.

"See what did I say?" Chris shared a laugh with me and Adam, smiling as I nudged Adam with my elbow.

"I don't mind," Chris finally came out of his box a little. 

They all pulled over some tables and chairs then I introduced them. "This is Adam," I patted him on the shoulder since he was sitting right next to me. Adam currently had a light brown, hair color he always changed it though, "next to him is Luke, aka Dingus" Luke had natural bleach blond hair and thinner than me and Adam, he was speedy though. "Then with the black hair is Gray, he doesn't talk much," He nodded "And this is Chris, he is a good friend of mine," I smiled.

Adam picked up on Chris' unease and smiled, "Hey Chris you shouldn't be worried about us man, Jay here gets in more fights than anyone else on the team, hell he is in the penalty box more than he is in the game,"

Chris's eyes widened. "You are an asshole," I smiled and hit him in the side. 

Chris laughed and smiled brightly, he seemed talked easily after that but I could tell he was still a little shy. I was afraid the team would pick on him and tease him, they did a little but it was all good naturedly, Adam was really nice to him though. By the end of breakfast we were all talking easily Adam had managed to get Chris to laugh with some stories about hockey. 

We were all laughing as we walked out Adam slapped Chris in the back and a said "Chris, bud, any time you want to hang out just come on over with Jay, it was a pleasure meeting you," Adam then turned to me, "Don't forget practice tonight,"

"I'll be there,"

After that Chris always hung out with me and Adam. Sometime he would go to practices and study while we worked our tails off. We would all walk out of the rink and Chris would be right there waiting and watching us walk to the locker rooms. Then after we all showered and left the locker rooms, Chris would be right outside waiting to go out to dinner with Adam, Luke and Gary.




Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 03



I wrapped my arm around Chris's shoulder, after practice. "Hey beautiful, you hungry?"

He nodded yes and quickly opened his mouth then shut it and blushed.

"What?"

"I, uh -"

"CHRISSIE, BABY!" Adam hollered when he came out of the locker rooms. He grabbed Chris and picked him up in a big bear hug. One night Adam had teased Chris about his long hair, saying that it looked like a girls, Adam then started calling him Chrissie.

"Stop calling me Chrissie, damn it, my hair isn't that long!" He growled. "Jason, make him put me down,"

"Adam put him down," I said seriously, Adam stopped and looked at me shocked, I was always playful and when I was serious people knew not to mess with me. Well most of the time.

"Hey, Jay... I was just teasing him," Adam said softly. "Sorry Chris,"

"Thanks," Chris said to Adam. Adam gave a curt nod and then ducked back into the locker room. Chris turned to me and blushed. I grabbed his hand and pulled him around the corner into the visitors' locker room.

"Now what did you want to tell me?"

He was fiddling with his hand. "I wanted to know if I... could stay with you tonight,"

"Sure you can," I grabbed his hands and pulled them apart. I hated how nervous he was around me, he was always doing some kind of nervous habit when he talked to me it seemed like. I pulled him towards me and kissed his forehead. He looked up at me and smiled happily. I smiled right back at him and brushed his hair out of his face. I loved how long his hair was, how it hung over his eyes hiding them at times. When his hair was over his eyes and plastered to his forehead from sweat while I was pounding into him, I found that so fucking sexy. "Don't cut your hair," I stated bluntly.

He looked up at me a minute. "Why?" he blushed "Adam keeps teasing me about it,"

"That's just how he is, beautiful, besides its sexy,"

He looked hurt a minute. Then looked to the floor. What the hell did I say?! "It's sexy that my hair looks like a girl says the man that used to date girls," I barely heard him mutter, as he turned away from me and headed to the door.

I quickly grabbed and pushed him up against the lockers. I stepped in front of him and placed my hands on both sides of his head. "Chris, that isn't what I meant, I-,"

"No it's ok Jason, it-," He was looking down at the ground his hair hiding his face.

"Damnit, Chris," I hit the lockers with my fist, he jumped. "When I'm in you and your hair is sticking to your head and you are asking for more it's fucking hot as fuck!"

He was shaking slightly. He can't be scared of me can he?! "Chris..." I stepped back a little and stared rubbing my hands up and down his arms. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you, I'm sorry," I murmured softly to him for a little bit "Do you forgive me beautiful? Can you look at me please?"

He looked up at me slowly his face was red and his eyes slightly overflowing with tears. Damnit, I'm too damn aggressive, I guess I should add that to my list...

I wiped softly at his eyes and then kissed his forehead. "I'm sorry," He looked at me and nodded. "I never think of you as a chick, your hair is perfect, you don't ever remind me of a girl either, Adam is a dick, don't listen to him ok?" 

He nodded softly. "Are we all good now, beautiful?"

He nodded again. "Damnit, Chris, say something please! When you are quiet I think you are still pissed at me about something," 

"I'm not mad" He whispered.

"Thank god, Now let's go," I grabbed his hand, and exited the locker room and went down the hall. The other locker room was empty, everyone had already left. "Shit," I knelt down and rummaged through my bag trying to find my cell phone.

"What are you doing?"

"Looking for my cell," When I found it I had a new text. 

HEY JAY COUNLDNT FIND YOU, WE WILL MEET UP WITH YOU AT THE RESTURANT. ~ADAM

I muttered as I dialed his number. Chris was standing next to me watching me, "What are you doing?"

"Calling Adam," Chris didn't need to go out I'm sure he would be embarrassed to go out in public right after getting upset, and I wanted to take him home and make sure he was ok.

"JAY! Where are you at man?" Adam answered quickly.

"Chris isn't feeling well, I am going to take him home so he can-,"

"I'm Fine, Jason I want to go to dinner still," Chris interrupted.

I covered the mouth piece of the phone, "Are you sure?" Chris nodded and smiled. I sighed and removed my finger from the microphone. "I guess he is feeling better now, we will be there in a bit,"

We hopped into my truck and drove to the steakhouse. The guys waved us over to the table when we entered. I made sure that Chris was sitting next to me at the table, so if he wanted to leave we could. We ordered our food and started chatting, Chris was a bit withdrawn, I'm not sure if anyone noticed or not.

Adam stood up "Going to the bar any takers?"

"I will go along with you," He smiled at me and we headed up to the bar. I turned to Adam after ordering our beers "lay off the calling him Chrissie, man," 

Adam looked at me shocked. "Dude it's just a joke, I'm not trying to be mean,"

"I know, but lay off of it, he isn't used to it, and he will take the shit you say as a fact," The bartender handed us the beers and we headed back, "Don't let him know I got onto you about it," Adam nodded. 

The rest of the night went fairly well. Chris opened up again and he ate his food but overall he was rather quiet. When someone asked I spoke up and said that it was probably from being sick earlier. We went home early that night, normally we would hang out with Adam more but I didn't think that would help Chris too much.

**********

When we got home I just wanted to comfort him, but I didn't know how to really.

"Come on, beautiful pick out a movie and I will grab your ice cream and you can sit on my lap and eat your ice cream and watch the movie," I found out he loved Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough ice cream on one of our breakfast outings so I would always stock up.

He had put in Pirates of the Caribbean, saying he hadn't seen it before. He was sitting on the sofa when I handed him his ice cream. I sat down next to him and tired pulling him into my lap, he wouldn't budge though. "Come on, don't you want to sit on my lap?" I playfully pouted.

"I wanted to watch the movie. I don't want to get distracted by that hard pole in your jeans,"

"I will behave," I smiled. He nodded no, "If you sit between my legs would that be better?" I spread out my legs to accommodate him. 

He rolled his eyes, "Fine," He smiled so I knew he being playful. The movie started and I rested my chin on his shoulder. I closed my eyes and rested against him. "Want a bite?"

"Huh?!" I opened my eyes to see him looking over his shoulder a spoonful of ice cream near my lips

"Ice cream," He smiled at my delayed reaction, I opened my mouth sucked the ice cream off the spoon. "Good?"

"That's delicious, maybe I should spread that all over you and slowly lick it off," I smiled.

He poked me in the side, "No distractions, movie, and you can't do that to my ice cream!"

I laughed and smiled. "Yes the movie," I smiled and looked at the ice cream "Can I have another bite?"

"No this is miiiiine," He whined.

"Stingy aren't you?"

"Yup!" he said triumphantly, but gave me another spoonful anyways.

When we went to bed that night I made sure to make it nice and slow for him. So he would understand how much he meant to me.

**********

It was raining particularly hard when I was walking back to my apartment. I had on a raincoat thankfully so I didn't get too wet. Chris was feeling more confident in himself, and Adam quit calling him Chrissie. After that minor problem things went well, it had been a week but he was still down in the dumps for some reason, and I was getting really worried. He had some reason that he couldn't stay with me last night, come to think of it I hadn't gotten to see him much other than in class. Now I was starting to think that I had somehow screwed up again.

I was walking up to the steps of my apartment when I heard some sniffling, and a sneeze. I looked up and saw a huddled form on the porch, soaked to the bone, blond hair clinging to the form. "Chris?!"

He looked up at me. His face was red, his knees were pulled to his chest and his arms folded on top of them, which he was resting his head upon earlier.

"God Chris what are you doing out here?!" I helped him stand up. He was crying his eyes out.

"Sorry, I...I didn't... know where else to go," He was making sure not to look me in the eye.

"I didn't mean it that way, why are you outside in the rain in just a hoodie?!"

He looked down at the ground and didn't say anything.

"Ok come on we need to get you out of those clothes and get you in a warm bath." I quickly pulled him inside and undressed him. I turned on the bath water, as he got in I folded up a towel so he could pillow his head on.

"I'm sorry Jason-," He looked up at me with sad eyes like he was committing a sin.

"Don't worry Chris, just let me take care of you for now," I patted his head, before heading to the kitchen.

I heated up some Campbell's chicken noodle soup, ok you can't say I'm lame because moms always make this stuff and says it helps. I then went into my bedroom and grabbed some long pajama pants and a t-shirt, I walked into the bathroom and laid them on the counter.

"All done?" He nodded then stood up, he was shaking and coughing now. Damn it the little twerp was defiantly sick now. I quickly dried him off and helped him to get dressed and into bed. He was burning up when I touched his forehead. "I got some soup made up, I want you to eat it then you can get some rest ok?"

"Not hungry," He muttered. He looked defeated, as if he had given up.

"Just eat a little, it will make me feel loads better if you do," He looked up at me and sighed. 

"Alright," I hurried out and grabbed the soup and a glass of juice and placed it on a tray. I carried that into my room and placed it next to him. "Here, careful it's still hot," He looked down at it and then back at me and blushed. His eyes welled up again.

"I'm sorry Jason, I'm so sorry,"

"What are you sorry about?" Did he tell someone that I liked guys? No Chris wouldn't do that to me.

"I didn't come over at all over this past week, I'm sorry, I wasn't tryingtoavoidyouit'sjustthat-"

"Chris, settle down, I can't understand you, but right now you need to eat and rest, you have a fever and a cough, just let me take care of you and then later you can tell me all bout it over some Ben and Jerry's ice cream ok?"

He looked up and tried smiling but fail. There was a knock on the door and I cursed. I forgot I had invited Danny over earlier, I wanted to talk to him and see what he thought about Chris's behavior. I excused myself and went to let Danny in. When I opened the door I was nearly tackled to the ground. "JAY!"

"Hey Danny, missed you too," The little fairy made sure that he snuggled into me making his wet jacket soak my shirt.

"So what's going on?" He smiled widely when he stood back.

"Chris was standing on my porch when I got home today," I sighed and looked towards my bedroom. "He's sick from staying out in the rain, and I am taking care of him,"

Danny looked me up and down, "Well I shall raise the sickie's spirits," He practically skipped into my room, I stood rooted in the living room, listening closely "Hey there sickie,"

"Danny!" Chris said which was then followed by a fit of coughing. I sat down on the couch and melted into it. I heard them muttering to each other softly. Damn that wasn't good with Danny, the little shit was probably up to something.

I walked in to find Danny rummaging through my hockey bag. Chris was sitting up in the bed watching intently. "What they hell are you doing in my hockey bag?"

"It reeks!" Danny said bluntly. He stood up and sniffed something tentatively. "HOLY SH- Jason when was the last time you washed this?!" Chris started laughing loudly. I walked over to Danny looking over his shoulder at what he had found. Danny looked up at me mock horrified, holding a dirty jock strap. I snatched the jock strap from him and blushed bright red noticing Chris snickering in bed. 

"I haven't washed it yet I was going to clean out my bag for the new week," I slightly sniffed it. Then looked down at Danny who was now grinning up at me playfully. 

"Well then maybe it's these?" Danny lifted up the pads and sniffed them. "This ranks too," He threw them on the floor then grabbed my pants and sniffed them before throwing them in a pile with the pads.

"Why the hell are you going through my bag you little fairly?!" I started gathering my gear and tried putting it back in the bag. 

"It's stinking up this room, how can you sleep in here, I would like to know!" Danny poked me in my stomach before grabbing the bag and sniffing it and making a face. "Chris can't sleep in this foul stench, go and wash this stuff,"

I looked to Chris who blushed, "I'm sorry, he set me up," Chris pointed to Danny who looked up at me innocently. I rolled my eyes, then went and decided I should wash my gear. When I came back into my room Danny was sitting on my bed talking to Chris, I opened a window so that some of the smell would ease from the room. 

They were both looking at me innocently. "What are you up to?"

"Nothing," I sighed and sat down on the edge of the bed.

I brushed the hair from Chris's face and looked into his eyes, "Is that smelling any better?" He nodded slightly and closed his eyes. "Good, anything else you need?" He nodded no and then laid back down and scrunched under the blankets. "Ok, you get some rest I will take the brat away from you,"

"I'm not a brat," Danny said defensively staring me down.

"Yes you are," I looked him up and down, "You didn't gel you hair," 

He heaved a sigh. "You know how hard it is to keep your hair looking good in the rain?!" He looked at me with his hands on his hips. "Gel isn't waterproof you know?!" His normal 'teased' (whatever the hell that meant) and gelled up hair was lying flat without any products. I guess the rain would always mess it up, chicks always complained about getting their hair wet after they had straightened it, saying it would curl.

I rolled my eyes "You are such a girl," I muttered. He glared daggers at me before a smug smile spread slowly across his face.

"Say Jason, why is Chris in your bed and not the guest bedroom,"

"Cause he's not a guest," I stood up and grabbed Danny's arm starting towards the door, the little shit was trying to get me in trouble. 

Chris cleared his throat and coughed again, "Is it really ok if I am in your bed?"

He has been in my bed for weeks now! What the hell has gotten into him?! I look down at Danny who is looking at his nails. "That's it!" I pushed Danny out of my bedroom door then shut and lock it before going over to Chris and sitting next to him on the bed. "Why would you think that? I want you here, of course it's alright for you to stay here and you aren't going to the guest room, I hate waking up to a cold bed and not being able to see your beautiful face, so you are staying put!" I leaned over and kissed his forehead.

He smiled happily and rolled up against me, I brushed his hair from his eyes and looked into those deep grey pools falling hopelessly. Yeah I was falling for him, I have been. It's been slowly creeping up on me but now I thought it was so obvious. 

Some distant knocking broke through my thoughts I looked at the bedroom door and heard Danny saying something "Open this door I want to watch! Come on you won't even know I'm there, I wanna see!" Chris blushed and coughed a little.

"Want something to drink for your cough?" He nodded slowly and closed his eyes. I walked out and Danny looked up at me guiltily. "I. kissed. His. Forehead."

Danny nodded excitedly. I decided to ignore him and grabbed the juice and returned to Chris. "I'm going to go out and get you some medicine, anything you want me to get you?" Chris looked up at me and shook his head no before pulling the blankets above his head. Danny peeked around the door and looked at us. "Ok I will be right back," I walked on out and started down the street, Danny followed behind me.

"so... what's going on between you and Chris?" He looked up at me suspiciously.

"I really don't know, I thought he was mad at me.... he wasn't talking to me for a while there. I didn't know if he was really avoiding me or not, and I thought that I had done something wrong. I was coming back from school and I saw him on my porch soaked to the bone from rain, I have no clue what's going on," I shrugged my shoulders as I headed into the store.

I grabbed a few different medicines and cough drops. Danny was watching me intently. "So what do you want to happen between you and Chris?"

"Chris is mine, no one else's," I basically growled.

Danny laughed at me. "Does HE know this?"

I looked down at my feet. "No, he doesn't know how I really feel about him," I headed to the check out and Danny quickly decided that he would catch me later to talk more. I agreed and watched as he quickly rushed put side. As I walked back home to Chris it hit me as odd that the little fairy rushed off so quickly... he loved getting dirt on me and invading my personal life, something must have been wrong. I made a note to confront him about it later.

When I walked into my room I had to stop. Chris was laying there with nothing but some long boxers on curled on his side, his cheeks were red and his hair all over the place. He sniffled then wiggled his nose a little which made me laugh. I couldn't resist it. I placed the bag by the bed and started to strip down to my boxers. I crawled in bed next to him and started to pull the covers over us when he rolled over towards me and snuggled into my chest and let out a sigh of content. I was falling head over heels in love with him.

Now I just have to find out how to tell him.



Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 04



Hey guys,sorry for the delay, i hope that i can get the next one posted a bit faster. hope you enjoy and please dont kill me.



When I opened my eyes I had to blink a few time. Chris. 

I am starting to sound like a love struck girl! Is this how I used to act... do I still act like this?! ...Sorry, back to the story...

He was lying on his stomach, facing me. His blond hair fanned out on the pillow and shone from the sun peeking in the windows. Damn, Now I sound poetic! I propped myself up on my elbow and took him in. God, I was lucky. Yes I loved him. I loved Chris. As I thought of that simple statement in my head my chest started to feel bigger. I have never said those words to anyone outside of my family before. I watched as his nose twitched, then slowly his eyes slowly fluttered open and looked up at me.

I smiled at him and kissed his forehead, which was still hot. "Morning," That's all I could say?! Where did that poetic shit go when I needed it?!

He yawned and simply said a muffled morning, before snuggling back under the covers against me. 

"Are you feeling better?" 

He nodded yes. Do not pester him. Do NOT pester him. I had to say to myself... I wanted to know what happened to him that made him avoid me, but apparently it was something big, otherwise I don't think he would have wound up on my porch soaking wet and upset.

"Want something to eat?" I asked softly rubbing my hands up and down his side.

He looked up at me with his big grey eyes, and then shook his head no. "Ok then, be right back," I started to get out of bed but he grabbed my hand. That made me stop. He never reached out for me, Chris just wasn't that forward. I turned around and looked at him. God he looked like an angel. He was just sitting up the covers slipped to show his chest, and the dark treasure trail of hair down the middle of his stomach. He was pleading with his eyes.

"Pl-" his voice rasped as he tried to talk. "Please... please don't leave me," His voice was soft, and I knew it hurt his throat to talk.

"I'm just going to the kitchen, I want some cereal," I was getting lost into those grey depths. I looked away and tried to stand again but he held on and whined. I turned back around to check on him, his eyes were brimming with tears. "Chris," I breathed. I sat down and pulled him into my arms, his head rested along my shoulder and I could feel the tears start to hit my chest.

God help me! What do I do with an upset angel?!

All I could do was hold him. I softly rubbed up and down his back and threaded my fingers through his hair as an attempt to calm him down. He started to shake and sob, I believe he tried to hold it back but it was too strong. It was breaking my heart to hear Chris cry, nothing nor no one should ever make him cry, he was just too sweet and pure. He had stopped his whimpering and he was still shaking in my arms, but he wasn't weeping anymore. I was leaning against the headboard and Chris was on top of me his head pillowed on my chest. He was calm. Well calmer.

I'm not sure how long we sat there, until I heard him actually say something "...hate me," he whispered.

"What?!" I was a bit shocked he said something.

"She hates me,"

She? "No one hates you, everyone loves you" I tried to look into his eyes but he still had them closed.

"She doesn't. She doesn't care about me at all," A large tear rolled down his cheek, leaving a glistening trail of moisture.

Guess ...everyone loves you... is too common of a phrase today, I wish he would have picked up on that subtle hint, too subtle I suppose. "She who?"

"My mother,"

"Why would you think something like that?" I looked him up and down. AGAIN, how could anyone hate him!?

"I don't think, I know,"

"Well why would she hate you?"

Chris opened his eyes and looked at the wall in front of him blankly, "I'm not the son she wanted, I'm gay, and that just fucked up her plans."

"Wait... did you just say fuck outside of the bedroom?" I chuckled. He looked up at me and blushed. "So she doesn't like you because you are gay?"

Chris nodded slowly. He was looking at me with sad pleading eyes.

"Well beautiful, I know you don't want to hear this but..." I sighed. "...sometimes shit just happens like that," I'm not good with this stuff, what should I say?

"I know, it's just that she doesn't try to hide it... even in public," He hugged me tighter, and looked away. "She calls me 'that thing',"

"Just stay away from her, you don't need her, you have me with you," I kissed his forehead.

"She needed me to go to my aunts funeral, and then to the reading of the will last week," He sighed and buried his head into my chest. "My aunt liked me, and after I inherited some things that my mother wanted, She got really mad, she tried to take it from me, she started fighting and yelling. She called me all kinds of horrible names, and when we walked out of the lawyer's office she slapped me,"

He shuddered from the memory. I held onto him, rubbed his back, and "shh"ed him. 

"I think... I think that she would have really hurt me," He said softly. "I'm afraid of her Jay,"

"It's ok Chris, you're safe with me, I won't let anything happen to you,"

"It took two cops to get her away from me," He looked up at me His grey eyes looked dull. That bitch really took a toll on him. "I ran here,"

"Good, you will always be safe here," I hugged him tightly and stayed with him in bed, until he sat up and looked at me with a broken smile. 

"Thank you, Jay, you really helped me," Chris then started to cough.

"Ok sickie, brekky, ASAP, then once you are healthy you can get out of bed, ok?"

He nodded and when I asked him about brekky again he asked for a bagel with cream cheese spread.

As I gathered breakfast items together, I thought of Chris. No wonder he was so scared when I got mad, that bitch had probably threatened him before. Maybe even hit him! Then he came to me, I wonder how much I mean to him since he came to me for refuge... I sighed and grabbed the milk out of the fridge and poured it in my cereal. I would tell him soon that I loved him and see how he feels... Shit! That's really going out on a limb. I had to do it though.

When I walked back into my room Chris was snuggled under the blankets snoozing. That beautiful little twerp, now I had to wake him up. I sat down on my side of the bed and he quickly sat up. I chuckled and handed him his bagel he took it and slowly nibbled on it. We sat in bed and watched cartoons and some boring documentaries about animals.

Did you know that giraffes have twenty-one inch long tongues? Well something like that... 

I SHOULDN'T KNOW THIS SHIT!! That little twerp does stuff to me. For him I would watch those boring shows and lay in bed all day. Even though I hated it I would do it for him.

"You can stay here from now on,"

Chris looked away from the giraffe show. "What?"

"Stay with me, ...move in," I said suddenly nervous. "Your mom won't be able to find you at least,"

He smiled and nodded happily before turning back to his show.

**********

It had been a week since I came home to find Chris on my doorsteps. He was doing better...

"Jay, come on, wake up!" Chris mock whined as he bounced on top of me.

... That was an understatement. 

The twerp was perfectly back to normal, and preventing me from getting any sleep. I moaned and pulled a pillow over my head.

"Jay you said that you had a surprise for me when I got better," He pouted at me.

I peeked out from under the pillow. Chris was sitting on top of me in his boxers with the puppy face. "Ugh fine! Get off me and we can go!"

"Yay" He jumped up off the bed and ran out of the room. Where did he get that energy from? 

I sat up and put my feet on the floor, resting my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. Suddenly seeing the real, happy, carefree Chris made me realize how similar he was to Danny. I sat there in shock amoment... not another danny!?!?!

"Jaaaaaaay!"

"whaaaaat?" I hollered back.

"I got breakfast, come on,"

I stood up and walked out towards the kitchen, "Aren't you just the eager one?"

Chris blushed and looked up at me. "It's just a very plain omelet," 

I looked down at the counter were Chris had placed two plates with omelets, some toast, a glass of Milk for me and a glass of cranberry juice for himself. He liked that disgusting stuff.

"That looks so much better than the bowl of cereal I have every morning," I walked up to him and kissed his forehead. "Thank you, beautiful,"

He blushed a dark shade of red before a smile spread across his face. 

After breakfast he pulled me back into my bedroom, where he debated his clothing choices. "What do I need to wear? Is it formal? Casual? Inside? JAY give me some hint," He said after throwing all his clothes around.

"Nope, that's not how it works just throw something on that's comfortable," Sitting on the bed and watching his muscles flex was just torturing me. I walked up behind him, wrapped my hands around his waist, and started to kiss and nibble on the nape of his neck.

"Jay," Chris whispered. "I...need...dressed,"

"You don't sound very convincing on that," I said softly breathing into his ear.

"But my sur-p-prise...?"

"Alright then, grab some cargos and a t-shirt maybe a jacket since its sprinkling out and let's get out of here," I said abruptly stepping back.

Chris stood there a moment before sense came back to him. He glared at me a moment before saying "That was an evil trick... you will pay!"

Chris spun around and quickly got dressed before we headed out to my truck. He was so impatient that he was fidgeting in the seat the entire way there. It was a long drive to get to our destination, surprisingly Chris sat quietly but anxiously next to me. When I saw the city coming up on a highway sign I looked at him "Almost there now babe," 

"So where are we going to now?" He said peering out the windows.

"Oh. Thanks, that reminds me..." I pulled out a blindfold that I quickly shoved into my pocket before leaving the apartment. "Here put this on, I can't have you peeking,"

He looked at the blindfold and his mouth dropped. He then turned to look at me, before shaking his head no. "Jay, what the heck! This is getting too much,"

I laughed loudly. "No its not. You are just super anxious and you want to see it,"

"No fair!" He pouted looking down at the strip of cloth with his arms crossed over his chest.

"Come on beautiful, put it on... it's worth it," He looked down at the strip of cloth calculating. He heaved a heavy sigh and then tied it around his head. 

"There are you happy now?!"

"Always happy when you're around, Beautiful," I smiled and reached over and placed my hand above his knee.

I quickly navigated through the city... making it a lot more complex than it had to be, knowing Chris he probably could figure out where we were going by the turns and the directions. After paying to park, and parking the truck I sat with it still on a moment.

"Are we here... there?" He looked in my direction with a smile on his face.

"Yeah, we are but- Hey wait you can't take that off yet!" I leant over and quickly grabbed his hands and pulled them away from the blind fold.

"But you said we are here," He stomped his foot on the floorboard of the truck.

"We are, I just want to walk you up to the gates before you see it."

"Are we at an amusement park?"

"...No," I sighed. "I'm never setting up a surprise for you again... you don't like them." I turned the truck off and got out. 

I walked around the other side, seriously debating my choice of surprise. I didn't even know if he would really like this or not, it's just something that came to me. What if he didn't like it?! Slightly angry I opened the door and even with the blindfold on I could tell Chris was upset.

"Sorry I'm being a pain, I'm just anxious to see where we are," His cheeks were blushed and he wasn't looking in my direction.

"It's alright, I understand, I just don't want to mess this up," I blushed and kissed his lips quickly making sure not to be spotted. Thankfully it was slightly raining so it wasn't going to be anywhere near busy.

He held out his hand for mine, I took it and helped him out of the truck. I grabbed my camera and then headed towards the gates. Chris held onto me with both hands. I could feel him shaking from excitement. GOD, what if he doesn't like this?!

When we were just out of the parking lot and in front of the gates, I told him to take off his blindfold.

He quickly tore it off and his jaw dropped. SHIT! Wrong place. I sighed and turned away. 

"This is great, Jay!" He had a huge smile as he stared at the gates to the zoo. "I've never been to the zoo!"

He grabbed my arm and pulled me through the gates. More like dragged me. He was so excited to that he couldn't hold still. We went through the aquatics and marines first. He pet the dogfish sharks and watched the little show they had, before moving to the penguins, sea lions and polar bears.

After that I took him back to the Safari. We saw the zebras and antelopes, and he even paid 50 cents to look through the binoculars. Then it was time for the giraffes. I thought that this would be his favorite part. Chris saw them before we got close to the enclosure, their heads reaching above the tree line.

"Jay look!" Chris grabbed my sleeve and tugged on it while pointing to the giraffe's. I chuckled as he ran towards the overhang in the giraffe exhibit. I hated it when girls were clingy towards me, but Chris, he had that irresistible cuteness about him. He could be utterly cute and honest about it... he wasn't pretending to get my attention... why the hell do girls do that?! Chris never tried to play the sweet and innocent card... that was just the way he was... sweet innocent (for the most part) and pure.

"Jay come on hurry!"

"Alright, alright I'm comin'" I looked at my cellphone before heading over... it was 11:25. I looked around me and found what I was waiting for. Two keepers were walking up, one held a bucket in her arms. I rushed over to Chris and hugged him from behind. "Are you enjoying today?"

"Yes, I love it jay,"

I smiled and dug into my pocket and pulled out a twenty and handed it to him. "You are going to need this,"

Chris looked at the 20 dollar bill then up to me, "Why do I nee-"

"Hey guys, are you here to feed the giraffes?" One of the keepers asked.

I held in my laugh as Chris's jaw dropped and his eyes grew wide. "YES!"

I stood back and watched as Chris fed the giraffes. He would laugh as one of their tongues would snake out and grab a slice of sweet potato off his hand. God I could watch him forever. I quickly took a photo of him. He looked over at me then as a wide smile spread across his face, and I snapped another photo.

Once he was done he walked straight up to me and threw his arms around me and hugged me. His face buried against my neck I felt him kiss me. "Thank you Jay! Today has been amazing..." I wasn't even embarrassed by his outburst. I leant down and kissed him right on the lips.

"I am glad you are enjoying yourself so thoroughly, ready to go see some lions?"

Chris nodded and hurried to the lions. We spent the whole day at the zoo going from one animal to the next, we even got to see the newborn elephant. We ate some pizza at the food court before hitting the dolphin show. Then we viewed some more animals, before we left I bought us some ice cream cones. His eyes lit up when he saw them he snatched one out of my hands and started licking it, his eyes closed as he savored it. "mmmh... soo good,"

Damn it... "you know I got something else you can lick like that," I husked into his ear before looking at the front of my pants.

Chris blushed but smiled mischievously. "That our cue to go home?"

"Maybe not home... I don't think I can wait that long," 

And for the second time that day I kissed him without a care as to who was watching.

**********

I knocked on Danny's door.

"GO AWAY, ASSHOLE!" Oook, did I have the wrong door? I checked to make sure I had the right apartment. Yeah I did so what did I do to poor lil Danny?

"Danny?! What did I do?!" 

"Jason?" He sounded awful surprised.

"Yeah Danny it's me, look whatever I did can I come in and talk to you about it so we don't make a scene in the hallway?" It was currently empty at the moment but you know how nosey people can get.

"You're alone?" He said carefully.

"Yeah I'm alone,"

Danny opened the door a crack and peeked through.

"I'm sorry," I said. He poked his head out the door and looked both ways down the hallway before letting me in. Once I was in he immediately locked the door.

"Sorry Jay it wasn't you I was mad at it was my... never mind," He sniffled and wiped his nose on his baggy hoodie before looking at me. "What's up?"

"Danny?" Something was really wrong. His hair wasn't gelled up and he was wearing comfy clothes, you know the ones that look horrible but make you feel better when you are upset.

"Don't worry about it Jay," He sniffled and looked down at the ground.

"I wanted to know what... well what you would want to receive on Valentine's Day,"

Danny cocked his head to the side, "Valentine's Day is like 9 months away," He looked up at me like I was stupid.

"I know," I shuffled my feet and looked at him.

"A steady boyfriend?" Danny sighed. He walked back towards his couch and plopped down with a groan.

"Well I meant what should I give a man? What should I give Chris," I said softly.

"Chocolates? Roses? A teddy? I don't know, Jason, I really haven't had anyone give me anything before," Danny said softly. I hugged him tightly.

"So am I going to have to take you to a bar sometime soon?" I asked trying to get his spirits up. He sighed softly.

"No, I just want someone that likes me for me and will stay faithful. Why do I always go for the assholes? I just want someone to tell me that they love me and will hold me in his arms and stick up for me... is that really so much to ask for?" We sat quietly for some time before it hit me.

"Danny! You just gave me the perfect idea!" He looked up at me like I was crazy. 

"What are you doing?"

"I want to tell Chris that I..." I blushed as a smile spread across Danny's tear stained face. I ruffled his hair and stood up to stretch. "Anyways... what's going-"

Danny's phone started to ring, and his face fell... "You going to answer that?"

Danny nodded no as I grabbed the small device. I looked at the caller id.... ASSHOLE... presumably the one that he just broke up with. I pressed the answer button and put it to my ear.

"Danny look, it isn't what it looked like. I wasn't... he was, is a friend... nothing-"

"This isn't Danny" I said stiffly. So the guy cheated on Danny... the poor guy he had the worst luck.

"Who the hell is this?!"

"Danny is no longer any of your business, I suggest that you leave him be before you regret it," I hung up on the guy and turned to Danny. "If he calls you again... ignore it, if he keeps persisting then call me and I promise you I will go kick his ass for you," I kissed his forehead then turned to leave, "I must go now I have something I must attend to,"

**********

I had it all planned out now, I just got my package in the mail. Chris was going to be busy this morning so he was clueless. I quickly stashed it away and went out to grab a few more things. When I had everything together I spread everything out on the bed.

I then called Chris, "Hey beautiful!"

"Hey Jay,"

"What are you up to?"

"Helping my friend shop, she's trying to find a dress for a ballroom dance contest,"

"How is that going?"

"It's a hassle, for some reason even though I am into guys she wants my help in finding something that will look good on her," He sighed heavily.




Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 04



"Are you still going to be able to make it to my practice?"

"I don't know I kind of just want to go home and relax," He sounded exhausted.

"No no no no, please come? I really like it when you are there, I always play better for you too,"

"Alright I will come then,"

"YES! Thanks Beautiful! See you later tonight, Bye-bye," I was excited, now I had to get things in place.

"Oh, uh, bye," I heard him say before I hung up.

I grabbed the special paper I bought and sat down to think of what to write... ok poetic-ness, do your stuff! 

...

...

Any time now...

...

...

"Shit!" I smacked my head and looked at the paper, biting my lip I wrote down exactly what was on my mind. I folded it up and placed it with the red satin gift box and the single white rose. I cleaned up the bedroom, threw the dirty clothes in the hamper and replaced the bedding. I had bought a lot of different candles at the store and placed randomly all around our room. The master bath I cleaned and added a few more candles around the tub, then replaced the bright light with a dimmer set one. I bought new soaps and some water herbs and set them on the edge of the tub. I set two new fluffy towels at the ready and then grabbed the new oils and placed them near the bed also. I made one quick phone call then checked to make sure everything was ready.

Looking at the clock I noticed it was near time to leave for practice. I grabbed the rose petals I had bought, grabbed my bag, and my bag of nicer clothes and then my keys. To make sure I didn't damage any of the delicate petals I walked backwards through the house. Starting at the bathroom to the bedroom to the kitchen where I set his surprise at and then to the front door. Perfect!

**********

I had a huge smile plastered to my face when I walked into the ice rink. I was pumped up for practice and had more energy than normal. My mood only brightened when Chris walked in. God I couldn't wait! I was excited yet, so nervous.

When Coach blew the whistle and told us to huddle up I basically flew over. Coach commented on my performance and some other teammates before telling us what we needed to work on. Why did it seem like this was taking longer than the practice did? I wanted to go home surprise Chris and then make love to him all night long.

"Alright showers everyone, Great job out there tonight," Coach dismissed us. I flew over to where Chris waited for me. "Hey there, Beautiful, how are you?"

"Tired, Want to get home and relax." He smiled at me, but you could clearly see his exhaustion.

"Oh, I will make sure you have a relaxing night,"

"You did great out there tonight," Chris said with a grin as he tilted his head towards the ice rink.

"Thanks,"

"I'm going to go on and head home, I will see you there," He grabbed his bag and started to walk towards the door.

"No, wait for me please?" I looked at him pleading with him. I wanted to see his reaction when he stepped inside the house.

He looked at me for a minute before giving in. "Alright,"

"I'll be quick, I promise," I quickly said as I rushed towards the locker rooms. 

I stripped down and headed for the showers. Adam was right behind me teasing me about having somewhere to be. I quickly dried off, wrapped a towel around my waist and when to my locker when I heard someone call my name.

I looked up and noticed one of my backups, Ryan, standing with his arms crossed over his chest staring at me, he was flanked by two other guys.

"What are you a fag or something?" He demanded. The locker room went deathly silent. I stood up straight and turned to look him straight in the eye. I didn't know how everyone was going to react to me coming out but from the looks of these three it wouldn't be good.

"My personal life has nothing to do with you, so stay out of it," I turned back to my locker and started pulling out my nicer clothes that I would change into. I guess he couldn't drop it though.

He stepped up closer trying to intimidate me. "I'm sharing a locker room and showers with you, and I don't want you ogling after my shit, I think that makes it everyone's business,"

"Don't flatter yourself, asshole," I didn't even look at him this time, but he was really starting to piss me off. I dropped the towel and stepped into a pair of black boxer briefs.

"So you are a fag, with that little blond guy huh?" Ryan said loudly. He had a grin on his face, I was about to knock it off of there. I clenched my fists and shut my eyes tightly for a moment before turning around quickly.

"NAH, I JUST KEEP HIM AROUND CAUSE HE WANTS TO BE POPULAR, DUMBASS," I shouted. He stepped aback a bit startled but my outburst. I started to advance on him before Adam grabbed my shoulder. He knew how close I was to getting into a brawl with this piece of shit.

"Yeah, I'm fucking gay, You got a fucking problem with it then come here and do something about it," I stared right at him letting him know I wasn't fucking around. His two groupies looked a little frightened.

Adam pulled me back a bit, he had done this in games when I was about to get into a fight, he would pull me back and give me time to cool down. "You know Ryan... it isn't too smart to threaten your team captain. Nor is it smart to threaten said captain that has a record penalty time under his belt. You know how aggressive hockey is... you sure you want to piss Jason off?"

Ryan looked up at Adam shocked and started to stepped away. 

Adam walked around looking towards the first stringers, our main team. "I don't know about the rest of the team but I feel ok with Jay," 

One by one most members of the team announced that they were alright with me being gay. 

"I got your back, dude, don't worry," Adam said patting my shoulder before turning towards his locker. I looked around the room at my teammates and thanked them before turning back to my locker and getting dressed. I just had a button down shirt that was pinstriped and some light stone washed jeans, it looked nice still. Once I was dressed I thanked Adam once more and then walked out of the room.

When I was walking down the hall towards the exit I noticed Chris's backpack on the ground. I picked it up and hollered for him but got no response. I walked outside to see if maybe he just forgot it. His little car was gone so I threw it in my truck.

Why did he leave? He said he would stay and wait for me. I sighed and drove home. Once on my street I notice he wasn't here either. I grabbed my things, still excited that I would be able to surprise him and rushed inside. After a while I started to worry that something may have happened to him. I don't think anyone would have done anything to him. Ryan was still in the locker room when I left it couldn't have been him. Thankfully not too long after I heard a car door slam shut.

"Chris!" I rushed to the door and opened it. There he stood, glaring at me. He shoved his way in and around me.

"Chris?" He stomped off to the closet in the hallway. "Everything ok?"

"Perfect," He said sarcastically.

"Beautiful, I got you-"

"DON'T, call me that," He demanded.

"Why not?"

"I know," he sighed and shuddered. "I know... what I am to you,"

What? "Why are-"

"I just want to leave Jay, let me get my things and I will go," He said grabing a hold of a bag.

That cut into me, it felt like my heart was getting pulled on in two separate directions "What?! WHY?!"

It was quiet, he started shaking. I reached out for him only to get my hands slapped away.

"Why do you want to leave me?" I asked him softy trying to get him to calm down.

"I don't want to be popular anymore," He said distastefully.

Oh shit. That's what he thought?! "Chris," I had this sinking sensation it felt like my heart sunk in my chest.

"I thought you wanted a relationship, a real one!" He walked into the bedroom and stuffed some clothes in the bag along with his toiletries.

I followed him, "You heard me in the locker room didn't you?"

"DUH you screamed it... the coach probably even heard you," He sniffled and wiped some tears away.

"You didn't hear what else I said?" Why didn't he hear the rest?!

"No you know, after hearing, that all that time... all the looks... and all those words..." He whispered, but got louder and more frustrated. "MEANT NOTHING, WAS JUST A SCAM, it was enough on my heart,"

"Your heart?!" I whispered, I looked up at him quickly. He had feelings for me? Strong feelings? "Chris,"

"I can't do it," He looked around looking for something.

"Chris listen-" I was suddenly interrupted but some knocking on my door. I went to answer it. It was the Italian delivery driver. He handed me the two chicken parmesans I had ordered for the special occasion. I paid the man quickly and turned back to Chris who was walking towards the door.

"Chris wait, look I bought a great dinner, from that Italian place you love! Can we just sit down and talk about this? I will tell you what happened and you can call Adam, he was right there with me,"

"No I'm leaving. I can't be somewhere I am not..."

"Not what?"

"LOVED," He cried out. What?! "You don't love me," He whispered. "I'm not just some... sex toy,"

"Chris, beautiful, look, come here please, just look at this," I felt like I was losing him... He was slipping out of my grasp and i couldn't stop it.

"No Jason, I can't do it. I fall for you, I am seduced by you, it's so easy for you, but I can't do it anymore, you can't just reel me back in I'm not going to let you! I will just forgive you,"

"Chris!" I looked at him pleaded with him... How could I make him stay? Saying I loved him would only make him think I was saying it to appease him.

"Bye Jason," He opened the door, looked at me.

"Chris please, don't do this," he gave me that awful broken smile, stepped outside, and left.

"Chris," What just happened?

I fell to the floor. I felt the pain in my knees from landing on them but I didn't register it. I just sat there staring at that door. 'He is coming back, he'll come back,' I felt wetness on my cheeks. I'm not sure how long I sat there until I realized he wasn't coming back.

What have I done?



Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 05



Hope you guys enjoy! Sorry it took so long but at least it wasn't another year before i posted.


My phone went off again, and I stared at the damned thing. The first few times that it went off I thought it was Chris calling. It wasn't. It was just Danny, Adam or my brother or sister. No one but Danny knew what had happened. My sister and brother were supposed to come down to visit me soon... What joy! Don't get me wrong I love them but it's just that I was so depressed. I haven't eaten in two days and haven't gotten out of bed for going on three.

I looked at the phone... it was coach, as much as I hated to I had to answer it.

"Hey Coach," I didn't even bother sitting up, I didn't want to move.

"Jason I need to see you in my office today,"

"What's wrong, Coach?"

"Is around one ok?" If he didn't want to talk about it over the phone I knew what it was about. Ryan.

"Yeah I will be down there," I sighed I was reluctant to go anywhere for anything.

"Thanks Jason," 

I hung up and looked up at the ceiling, where was he? I missed the simple bliss of waking up next to him in the morning. Why did I screw things up? My stupid mouth. Why did I try to be romantic? If I would have just told him I loved him when I realized it I would still have him, he would still be with me.

I got up and scratched my face... I was getting scruffy. I looked at the date on my phone... It's just been a week?! God it felt like it had been a month. What was I going to do? 

I went to the master bathroom and looked around... the candles were still all in place, the towels, the oils, and even the dim light bulb was still in. I grabbed my things and I walked out quickly. I was still raw from the break up, and the sight of what should have been dug in deep. Hell I couldn't even sleep in my own room anymore... I was always sleeping in the guest room. I quickly got cleaned up and headed to Coach's office. I didn't bother shaving my face, there was no point anyways, chris was gone so there wasn't a reason for me to try to look good. 

I hopped up in my truck and started it up. I looked over and saw a pair of his damned flip flops, he always had to take them off in the car for some reason. I don't know how long I sat there looking at those damned things before I straightened and then pulled the truck out of the parking spot.

**********

"Jason, come on in," Coach led me into his office and asked me to sit down. "You look like shit,"

"Thanks, Coach,"

"What happened, son?" He folded his hands on top of his stomach and reclined in his chair.

"Because of some stupid people and my stupid mouth I lost the best thing that ever happened to me,"

I noticed his face pale in color, "I see," He knew that I was gay.

"Why am I here?" I asked... I figured why... I just wanted it over.

"Jason, I hate to do this but there are some players on the team that feel uncomfortable with your...situation... I'm going to have to cut you,"

"That all coach?" I stood up.

"I'm sorry Jason, I honestly don't care what you do on your own time but by our contract I am supposed to make sure that the team members feel safe and comfortable"

"I understand, Coach, Have a nice day," As I walked out I felt a little bit of more of me crumble apart.

I heard Coach holler after me and I stopped I didn't turn towards him I just stood there. "Hey you aren't getting beaten up or picked on for this are you?" He said it kind of softly.

I busted up laughing then turned towards him. "Coach you know my record, if any one gave me shit about it, it would be their ass that's getting beaten,"

"I'm not supposed to condone violence but, that's good to hear," He patted my shoulder and gave me a sad smile.

"Thanks coach, that's the first time I laughed since..." I stopped myself. I didn't need to think about it here.

"Glad I could help in some small way," He scratched his jaw a minute thinking on something. "Well without you on the team there goes the championship, we still have Adam though,"

"...It would be hard but you could pull it off," I muttered.

"I want your help Jason, I don't feel right having to cut you and I think the team still needs you, I want you to help with some strategies maybe improve on the players skills, it would be behind the scenes kind of thing,"

"Thanks coach but I can't do that right now I'm just..."

"Give it some time Jason, you still have my number though, call me when you are ready," I nodded as he turned back around to go back to his office. I walked back to the truck felling slightly better, but reluctant to go back home too.

When I reached my truck I pulled out my phone, and dialed Danny's number. I asked him if he could help me with something, I knew he would heartily agree. After all I have done to help him. I think he always felt like he had to repay me in some way.

He was over at my house in no time, when I opened the door he stood there shocked at my appearance.

"Sorry I look so bad," I tried to smile but I don't think it worked well. "I got cut today,"

"I shouldn't have stared. I'm just not used to you being upset,"

"I understand, Could you just sweep up those petals?" I asked looking down at the floor where the reddish-brown dried up petals laid.

"This is the favor?" He looked at me like I was crazy. I guess my recent behavior was all over the place. First with dating Chris, then with sticking to it, trying to be romantic, the breakup, then this little thing getting me all worked up.

"I can't do it Danny. I break down every time I try, I just start feeling like shit and end up going to bed or drinking," I blushed but he nodded understanding.

"Why are there petals everywhere?" He asked as he went into the kitchen for the broom and started to sweep.

I sat down on a couch. "I was going to tell Chris I love him, I had petals as a path way to the island, where there is a present a rose and a card, then I ordered his favorite dish, to have a romantic meal. From there the petals lead to the bedroom and bathroom," 

"What happened then?! If you did that for me I would fall for you right there," He stopped his task and stood up quickly.

"He heard me in the locker rooms, I got pissed off at this guy when he asked if I was a fag, I told him I just kept Chris around so he could be popular, I was being sarcastic, Chris thought it was real I guess,"

"Have you tried to call him?" He said as he took the dust pan into the kitchen and emptied it in the trash. He stayed back there a minute probably looking at the presents I bought Chris that still sat on the island.

I took a deep breath, good the petals were gone now, "He wouldn't pick up my calls," I sighed and sunk into the couch, "Why would he anyways?"

"Jay," He came over and hugged me I hugged him back tightly, as my eyes started to sting. Good god what was happening to me?

"Why did you let him go? Why didn't you go after him?"

"Nothing I could've done nor could've said would have stopped him, he didn't want to forgive me Danny, I basically said that I wasn't gay and he was nothing to me... at least that's what he heard me say," We were silent for a minute before I continued. "Can you imagine hearing the guy you are in a relationship with say that you don't mean anything to him and that he isn't gay?!"

"He will come back around, Jay,"

"I doubt it, I would have done the same thing, Danny, I would have done the same thing he did grab my shit and leave from embarrassment, and betrayal. He had feelings for me and I crushed them with that one stupid sentence,"

"Jay-"

"My sister and brother are coming to stay for a while, so I needed to clean up a bit," I interrupted him but I really didn't want any false hopes, I had screwed around too much. Number 78 on the list: Insensitive.

"Are you sure that this is good timing?" Danny asked as he headed for the hallway.

"No, I'm hoping that they can get me out of this rut though," I looked up at the ceiling thinking back to how I had been before Chris. A complete jock, womanizer-poser, and I didn't care about anyone nor anything.

"Do you want me to talk to Chris for you?"

"Don't Danny he won't believe you, he will think I put you up to it,"

"I can't stand seeing you down like this... that's an understatement, Jason you're depressed,"

"Gee thanks," I rolled my eyes and laid down on the couch.

"Want the candles gone too?"

"Candles, towels, the soaps the oils, if you can replace the light bulb too... I got a box you can put everything in in the closet," I sighed and laid down on the couch "I'm going to let my brother or sis sleep in there and the other in the guest room... I'm going to sleep here..."

Danny popped into the living room "Do you need to go to a bar?"

"No I'm bringing the bar to me tonight, Adam is supposed to be over with some beer later, you're welcomed to join us..."

"I don't know Jay,"

"You can come so you can make sure I don't call Chris and make a fool of myself,"

"Me play the adult role? HA, that's a day I never thought I would see,"

"Me neither, Please sweet cheeks?" It made me smile, Danny playing the adult role.

"Since you asked so nicely," Danny batted his lashes at me before turning back to the room "Rest for now Jay you need it,"

I closed my eyes but getting any rest was useless.

**********

I woke up on the floor, apparently I fell off the bed. I looked around the room. I was in the guest bedroom. Someone had to drag me in here I don't remember coming in.

I don't remember much of last night Adam came over we played the PlayStation and bullshitted... I do remember Adam trying to go home but Danny wouldn't let him. I stood on shaky legs, ready to hit the liquor store again.

"Yo' ADAM! I need more liquor!" It was quiet, "Adam? Danny?"

I stumbled into the living room and found my phone, I called Adam and got no answer, nor did I hear his phone going off. I called Danny three times before getting an answer.

"WHAT!?"

"Heeeeeey Danno! You know Adam right?" I smiled as I slumped down on the couch, I was feeling pretty good.

"Yes, I was there last night," 

"Oh good well I need Adam, I need more beer but can find 'im," Im sure I sounded like an alky.

"Jay you are still wasted,"

"You bet princess," I burst into laughter. "So Adam, where is he, he went home with you?"

"He uh..." Danny seemed distracted.

"Daanny...." I groaned before I heard a groan through the phone, defiantly gruffer than any sound Danny could make... and definitely a voice I knew well. "Well I'm glad you two can take advantage of the moment,"

"Jay wait-" I hung up not ready to hear it.

What the hell is going on? Everything is so ass backwards now. I trudged back into the guest room and flopped on the bed. I closed my eyes... when was the last time I was this fucking drunk?

**********

"Jay come on the movie is starting," Tyler tugged on my arm pulling me towards the couch. 

"Alright I'm coming what are we watching?" I grabbed the bag of popcorn and walked into the living room

"Renee said it was a chick flick, it was her turn to pick," Tyler was my 14 year old brother. He looked like a smaller copy of me only his hair was almost black. Renee, 17, looked like mom black hair and skinny delicate features with green eyes.

"I see, Renee what are we watching?" I sat down and Tyler sat down next to me.

"The Wedding Singer," She reached over the couch and grabbing a hand full of popcorn and sat back down.

"Great," I muttered under my breath, "Can't we watch some other non-romance-related movie?"

"Just cause you can't get over your lost love doesn't mean we all have to suffer, especially when it was your fault in the first place," She said flipping her hair over her shoulder and turning back to the tv.

"You know you aren't making me feel any better and that's one of your main purposes for being here," I stared at her while she popped popcorn into her mouth.

She shrugged. "You know you could go apologize."

"No I can't," I grumbled.

"Well then find another way to," 

"There isn't another way,"

"There is always another way," She stated simply.

"And how many relationships have you had?"

"Not the point, just sit down and watch or go sink further into a pit of despair,"

"You know for a 17 year old girl you are awfully pushy...and dramatic,"

It had been 3 full weeks now. I hadn't heard from Chris, not once, I had talked to my teachers and somehow managed to get them to agree to send me my homework and notes and any materials. Well that was for the classes I had with Chris the others I still went to but I couldn't face him ever again. Tyler and Renee had kept me preoccupied so I wasn't drinking to the point of drunkenness. Still drinking just not enough, I just got buzzed a little, it dulled the constant pain and helped me sleep.

Danny? I hadn't really gone out of my way to talk to him after what happened. He left me a few voice mails but I still felt a bit betrayed. He is coming by sometime soon so he said but I told him not to take too much time away from his new beau. I was being harsh I know but Danny was supposed to be there for me not getting tail out of the circumstances.

Adam I hadn't seen nor heard from since that night.

**********

Tyler had already gone to bed Renee sat on the couch with me while I sipped a beer. She watched me from the corner of her eye.

"Was it another girl?" She asked while I was taking a drink, knowing otherwise.

I glared at her the bottle still at my lips, I put it down and gave her a curt "No," I sighed waited a moment before I tipped back the beer again, "It was a guy this time,"

"You dated?"

"Yeah he means everything to me, I was hoping you guys could help me get over him, but I think that's useless." I started to scratch off the label on my beer while I mindlessly started at the TV.

"What was he like," She asked quietly.

"Shy, quiet, you really had to get to know him to really see his true personality, he was a smartass, he was cute, long blonde hair, just hung into his grey eyes, he would scrunch up his nose every now and then, not very social"

"You loved him?"

"Yeah, I was going to tell him... the night he left me," I sighed and took another drink, "I was excited I just wanted to leave that damned locker room, but Ryan wanted to know if I was fucking Chris. I was sarcastic basically saying no I wasn't he was just hanging around, He overheard, thought it was all the truth, he was so upset he didn't see any of the special things I did for him," I tipped back my beer again but nothing came out, I sighed and stood heading to the fridge. This topic needed beer, lots and lots of beer.

Renee followed, "He just left?"

"Yeah grabbed his stuff and left," I popped open another bottle and chugged a third of it. I stood at the island as she walked up and stood beside me.

"But there is a box in your closet with his name on it," She pointed to the closet. 

I was quiet for a long time, "He didn't get everything, and I don't think he will come back for it," I looked at the closet door. "In fact, that's where his presents are..."

"Presents?!"

"His, not yours." I huffed.

"So presents are presents..." She was standing in front of me, "What happened to Danny?"

I grunted. "What makes you think something happened to him?"

"He isn't around as much. He used to be here every day and hangout with you,"

"You just miss having the company of another girl,"

"Jason Levi! That is positively rude," She smacked my knee and sat down next to me.

"Don't call me Levi,"

"So how are you going to try to get him back?"

"I'm not going to try," That was a lie, I didn't want my sister to get her hopes up, I didn't want mine up either.

"Jason-"

"It's time for bed. I have errands to do tomorrow so you and Tyler are going to have to stay here for a bit,"

"What kinda things?"

"Talk to my coach, I decided I would help the team out," I said as I walked towards the bathroom. "Get in bed I need the couch to sleep on once I get out,"

I got undressed and took a piss and turned to look at myself in the mirror. I still looked like hell. I kept up on shaving, and my hair looked ok, seemed stiff and wiry, I had big bags under my eyes from lack of restful sleep, my eyes weren't bloodshot, I didn't look as bad as when he first left but I was nowhere near normal. I sighed, all I really had before where my looks what would Chris do If I did see him tomorrow?!

I had finally decided I would try even before my sister talked to me. I really was going to talk to Coach, about the team but that wasn't going to be my main purpose. I needed to see Chris, I wanted to apologize.

"What am I going to do?" I grabbed my clothes and walked back into the living room, Renee must have gone to bed because the bedroom door was now shut tightly with a light off. I threw my clothes into the arm chair and grabbed my pillow and blanket. I didn't even feel like pulling out the fold away, I flopped down and tried to fall asleep. 

**********

I woke up and heard something shifting and moving. "Come back to bed, babe," I said half asleep. It immediately became quiet, I propped myself up and looked around. I realized I was in the living room, duh! Chris is gone. I sat up on the couch and looked around. I sighed, god I missed him, I got up and headed to the kitchen to grab a snack, I stopped when I heard something move in the living room. I walked slowly over and glanced around.

I didn't see anything but I stood silently in the middle of the room.

There it was again, I saw a shadow by the arm chair. I silently padded over and quickly pulled the arm chair out. Renee yelped as I grabbed ahold of her.

"What the hell are you doing?!"

"Uh, looking,"

"For what?!" This is ridiculous she looked like she was spying on me!

She looked down at her hands then lifted them. "My phone, see I found it,"

"Renee..." 

"Ok I heard you wake up and... what you said, I didn't thing that you wanted me to hear that so I was hiding, I thought you would go back to sleep,"

I grunted and stared down at her. She had her hands on her hips glaring back at me. "If you are done now go back to bed,"

She scurried off to the bedroom door, but didn't go in she watched me as I stood there my back to her. "You miss him a lot don't you?"

"Yes, now go-"

"He will forgive you Jay, he has to! Once you tell him what happened he will be here with you. I know he is going through the same hurt you are." She was quiet as she finished. "He needs you Jason, just as much as you need him,"

I stood there with my back still to her, she didn't see my eyes tear up. I didn't know what to say, what could I say to something like that? I didn't want to say anything. "Go to sleep Renee," I waited until I heard the door close before I turned back to the kitchen. I knew what I wanted. I wanted comfort food, Ben and Jerry's. I grabbed one of the small tubs and sat down at the island.

As I was eating it I sat there and thought of that night Chris sat between my legs and watched Pirates of the Caribbean and we shared a whole little tub. Laughing as Jack tricked the British army.

God I missed his laugh. His smile. 

I looked down at the tub of ice cream surprised to see it gone. I threw it away and once again tried to sleep.

**********

I got up early, my brother and sister were both still asleep. I wanted to go and discreetly watch the team play. So I grabbed my pants off the arm chair and pulled them on I did the same with my shirt I checked my pocket for my phone and my keys. I quietly grabbed a jacket from my room and then left. 

When I got there I sat down in the bleachers I noticed Adam right away, only for the fact he seemed ruthless now, he seemed pissed off and not caring the consequences, Gray and Luke were there also, they seem good if a little lazy on the ice. One person I didn't see was Ryan. As soon as the game was over and the team was in the locker I walked up to my coach.




Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 05



His back was turned and he couldn't see who I was, "Hey coach,"

"Yeah?"

"I want to take you up on your offer,"

"What offer is that?" he turned around and saw me, he smiled brightly.

"I'll help the team out," I smiled finally getting a feeling of normalcy. The cool air in the ice rink the sound of bodies and sticks crashing into the walls, I was starting to feel like I was back to my old self. I was in my zone. And I missed hockey.

"Well lets go down to my office shall we?" He patted me on the back and we walked down to the office. "So how goes it with you?"

"Um, not over it yet but I need to start to do something, I have too much time on my hands," I shrugged it was the truth, I was sitting at home doing nothing but thinking about Chris.

"I see, well the team is falling apart,"

"I saw that," I said quietly.

"You watched the practice?" He looked up at me shocked, I nodded and he continued. "It's absurd! I don't understand what the hell is going on,"

"They were all a little off," I said as he opened his office and sat down behind his desk. 

"A little off? Ryan hasn't shown up for about 2 weeks now, Adam has something up his ass, and Gray and Luke are acting like its recess," Coach huffed out looking extremely annoyed, I sat down in the chair in front of his desk and kicked up my feet on the corner. He glared at me and I smiled back.

"Yeah I noticed Adam was..." I shrugged there was something really wrong with Adam, I just didn't know what.

"Glad to see you haven't lost your cockiness," Coach looked down at his schedule.

"Nah can't have that, that's what makes me such a good hockey player,"

The coach smirked and nodded his head.

"So how long has Adam had something stuck up his ass? You sure he hasn't been laid? He gets angry if he doesn't get any," I laughed.

"You would know?" Coach cocked his eyebrow at me.

I laughed and nodded no. "Last I heard Adam had a girl," It was kind of true.

"Anyways to answer your question, he has been like that for..." He flipped through his binder and found his notes on Adam's performance. "Two weeks ago, then a few days after Ryan quit showing up, and everything went downhill from there," He flipped through more pages.

There was a knock at the door. Coach motioned the person in with a wave of his hand. I didn't bother turning around.

"Hey Coach is- Jason?!" As I heard the voice I turned to glare up at Adam, who was gaping at me in shock.

"Jason is just paying me a visit, what can I help you with?"

Adam looked uneasy he looked between me and the coach a moment before he remembered what he was there for. "Is Ryan still on the team?"

"I haven't been able to find that out yet," He was aggravated at all this stuff going on I could tell.

"Alright," Adam looked back down at me but I didn't even feel like acknowledging him. He turned and left the office and then walked down the hallway.

"So what do you think we should have Adam work on?"

**********

I was sitting at a light waiting for it to turn green. The coach was very happy that I was going to be helping the team out anyway I could. I was going to start to come to practices more to find out what the team needed to work on. 

The light turned and I went on through, I was now headed to his apartment. I was such a nervous wreck, and really wished that I had a cigarette to smoke.

I felt all over the place. I had already tried talking myself out of going to see him, but I put my foot down and wasn't going to sway in my decision.

I jumped when my phone rang, I didn't bother looking I just opened my phone. 

"Hello?"

"Hey Jason, are you almost done with your errands?" Renee asked happily over the phone.

"Almost give me another thirty minutes and I'll be back for you to play Dr. Phil on me..."

"Eww Dr. Phil is old," She said absolutely disgusted.

"Well you have been acting like my shrink lately,"

"Whatever, no I haven't. Anyways we will see you soon,"

"Alright, Renee, see you soon," Our little chat had calmed me down a little making the tension in my body ease.

I hung up and realized that I was already at his house. "Oh shit," I felt my stomach flip. So much for easing some of the tension. I shut my truck off and slowly walked to the front door. 

What was I going to say to him what was i going to do? What if he slammed the door in my face? I stood there in front of that door thinking of everything that could go wrong.

I sighed giving up on "what if's".

I knocked on the door.

A kid about my age opened the door. 

"Hey My name is Jason, is Chris here?"

The kid looked at me funny for a minute, "Nah, I kicked him out a few weeks ago,"

"What?! Why?!" 

"Hell I figured for the same reasons you quit hanging out with him," The kid leaned against the doorway.

"Which were?"

"That kid was a fag, kept cryin' like crazy," The kid stood up straight, "Besides I didn't need him checking me out every other minute," The kid scoffed. "I told him to take his faggot ass and-"

I don't think he saw the punch coming but I know he felt it. He fell straight back and landed with a hard thud. I barely registered the pain in my knuckles as I stood over him and grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. "I don't want to hear you say another thing about Chris. Now where did he go?"

**********

No wonder Chris never wanted me to go to his apartment; he probably figured that if I met that kid that I would have beaten the shit out of him. I didn't hurt him too bad I just ruffed him up a bit. He didn't need to disrespect Chris like that. Chris never hurt anyone.

I sighed as I parked my truck in front of my apartment. I guess I was back to the beginning. I didn't have anything that told me where Chris was or where he could be, how could I apologize if I had no clue to where he was? I trudged up the steps to my front door. I could probably ask the front desks? I doubt they would tell me though. I turned the door knob and found it unlocked, that's strange, I locked it before I left and Renee and Tyler know not to open that door when I'm not here. I shrugged and tried thinking of other ways to find Chris. 

All thoughts vanished as soon as I pushed that door opened. Three of the four turned to look at me. Renee and Danny turned pale. Tyler smiled and hollered my name, and the fourth... Chris flinched as Tyler hollered my name.

Why was Chris here? I noticed Renee grab Tyler's wrist and pull him into the guest bedroom. Danny looked at me and the looked down at his feet. Chris still hadn't turned around.

He was holding something. He was holding the large satin gift box, his hands gripping onto it like it was the only life raft on a sinking ship.

I was awe struck, what was Chris doing here?! I couldn't look anywhere else, Chris was the only real thing, and yet I still didn't believe it was real.

"Chris?" My voice shook and I felt like I was on the verge of falling apart. 

He slowly stood up and turned around to face me his hands still gripping that damned present.

He had lost weight, lots of weight. His grey eyes were surrounded by shadows and his left eye looked like it had been punched a while back ago. He looked like he was about to cry.

"What are you doing here?" I asked breathlessly.

He looked at me only for a moment and then down the hallway before looking to the ground. Renee. I looked back at him still holding that damned box. I didn't want him to figure out my feelings before I apologized... If I had it my way I really didn't want him to know my feelings with no promise of a future.

I walked up to him and held out my hands. "Please give me the box," 

Chris looked at me, I could see he didn't want to let go of that thing. He shook his head no. I sighed and looked down at the box. It was all about him; it always would be for me. I sighed. "Did you open it?"

He looked up at me for a minute and shook his head.

I looked over at Danny who was looking at his nails. "Danny take Renee and Tyler out to have some ice cream,"

He looked up at me shocked, but went to the guest room and grabbed the two and left. I didn't take my eyes off Chris, nor did I say anything until I heard Danny's car leave. It was quiet in my apartment, nothing but the sounds of our breathing broke the silence.

"You know I don't like it when you are quiet," I said softly trying to get him to say something. His hands only tightened on the box. I held out my hand and he flinched back away.

He was never this skittish around me, something happened. I didn't react, I stayed still, my hand still out to take his hand. He looked down at my hand a moment and then turned his body to hide the box. "I was just trying to help you to the sofa,"

He walked over to the sofa, and sat down. He looked down at his feet. He was driving me crazy not talking. I looked down at the box then back to his bowed head. "I will make you a deal, you can have that box, if you listen to what I have to say, but you cannot open it around me,"

He looked up at me "Why?" his voice was soft and raspy.

"I don't want to see what's in there," I said simply but smiled now that he was talking to me.

I leant over and touched the small black bruise around his eye, "What happened?"

He flinched away, "Nothing," He quickly looked back down at his feet.

I sat down next to him and lifted his chin so I could look into his eyes. "I'm sorry. In the locker room. I never should have said what I did. I went about the situation the wrong way and let my temper get ahold over my being. I will not make excuses over my behavior, and I will not try to justify myself, I know it was wrong now and I didn't mean to hurt you, I never wanted to hurt you," I looked down at that present. "I really wish I could go back and reverse it and tell the guy to fuck off but I can't, and I will forever regret that,"

I was quiet a moment, "I just want to apologize for my behavior and that night, I will never be able to make it up to you, and you will always be able to call on me for any help you need. I will be there for you, if that's what you wish,"

I saw a tear roll down his cheek, I leaned in and kissed it away, "I'm sorry Chris," I whispered. I was about to break down, I felt like I was cutting the last few threads that held the two of us together. He grabbed my hand and held onto it. I stood up but he wouldn't let go. I looked at that box next to him. I wanted to burn it so badly. I didn't want to just bring him back to me. I wanted to earn Chris's love. I didn't want him to just forgive me I wanted to earn it. 

I didn't want it to be easy I wanted to prove in my own way that I loved Chris just as much as he loved me.

I looked towards the hallway, "Danny will be back shortly, he will take you back... home," I let my hand slip from Chris's hand and I walked down the hallway. I stopped looked at my bedroom door then opened the guest room and walked in and closed the door. 

I couldn't bear to be around him, not right now. I landed on the bed face down. Was I doing the right thing? I wanted to be with him but I didn't deserve him, not after what I did. I dialed Danny and told him to come back and take Chris home. He quietly complied. 

Shortly after I heard Danny pull up and everyone come in. They were all quiet until I heard Danny, screaming my name.

"JASON! What the hell did you say to him?!"

I propped myself up on my elbow and looked up at Danny as he burst through the door, "I said I was sorry for my behavior, why?"

"He's in here bawling his eyes out," Danny said quietly.

I quickly got up and went into the front room. Chris was curled up, the opened box next to him and the stuffed giraffe in his arms, the note in his hand.

"Tyler, go cleanup my bed, please," Tyler and Renee hurried off and cleaned up my room of Tyler's things. I stood in front of Chris and tried to get him to release the giraffe, no such luck. I picked him up, one arm under his knees and the other supporting his back. As soon as I picked him up one arm looped around my neck the other held tightly to the stuffed animal.

I walked into my bedroom as Tyler and Renee were walking out I quickly sat down on my bed and held him close to me. "Shhh Chris, don't cry. Please don't cry, babe. Please I hate it when you cry. I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to make you upset beautiful," I held him for a long time before I heard his cries die down. His breathing still hitched every now and then from the amount of crying but he was asleep now.

I quietly laid him down on the bed and covered him up he still wouldn't let go of that giraffe. I looked at my shirt that was stained with his tears. I pulled it off and threw it to the side.

I walked out and looked at the closet. "Chris's" box was still out, the towels the candles the oils everything was in there. I closed it and pushed it back into the closet, and noticed the rose on the ground beside the box. I picked it up and dropped it onto the coffee table. Renee, Tyler and Danny all looked up at me.

"I swear to god Renee I will get you for this one way or another," She shifted on the couch but looked back at me.

"You got him back-"

"NO I DON'T!" I shouted, "Renee I was the biggest asshole I could have been, he will not take me back,"

"But he came-,"

"Because you no doubt tricked him, I know how you work," I was pacing, from one end of the room to the other. I couldn't think straight. She looked guilty as all hell, I knew I was right.

"I suppose this isn't a good time for me to talk then?" Danny sadly smiled, he looked upset too. I sat down next to him and hugged him.

"I'm sorry I let my hurt fuel my anger and I took it out on you and Adam,"

"I forgive you, I'm Sor-"

"ITS ok I really don't want to know... what's done is done," I stood up and grabbed the air up bed, from my closet and rearranged the guest bedroom so the bed was on one wall and the air up was on the opposite. I walked back out into the living room, "You two can fight over the beds, and Danny you are welcomed to stay if you wish,"

I turned back around and walked into my bedroom. Chris was still asleep, I stood there and watched him a moment before I went over sat on my side of the bed and flipped on the TV which was programed to automatically turn onto the animal planet. I looked over at Chris curled up with that stuffed giraffe. "I hope this works out beautiful," I whispered.

**********

I woke awhile later I looked over. Chris was still sleeping, his nose scrunching up a little. It was the simple things I suppose. I watched TV for a while before a sniffle made me look back at him. His eyes fluttered open for a minute he looked at me before rubbing his eyes, which made him flinch when he touched his left eye. I grabbed his hand and pulled away from his eye.

"What happened?"

"I'm not going to tell you, you just want to go beat up the guy,"

"That a bad thing?" I laughed.

"Sometimes," He looked up at me with big eyes.

"Come on Chris,"

"Only if you promise not to hurt him,"

"I'm about to ask Danny," I grumbled. He was right I would probably beat the shit out of the guy. 

"Jason," He laughed.

"Alright fine," I smiled I had gotten him to laugh.

"My old roommate,"

"Oh? Well that's fortunate," I smiled happily and relaxed against the pillows.

"Huh?" He looked up at me quickly.

"I already beat his ass,"

"Jason?!" He sat up and smacked my arm.

"What he was disrespectful," I shrugged and grabbed his hand, "Why were you crying so much? Did I hurt your feelings? I didn't mean to," I said softly feeling ashamed with each word.

"It wasn't that Jay, it was me," He sighed and looked at the giraffe. "I ruined everything," he looked like he was about to start crying again. He looked back at me then, "It started with Anna..."

Who the hell was Anna? He sighed. I guess my facial expression conveyed my confusion.

"She was the girl that I went dress shopping with, that day...." He looked up at me waiting for me to catch up.

"Oh, ok" I nodded and propped myself up against the head board.

"I told her all about you, from the days before you really... Noticed me-,"

"Beautiful, I always noticed you, as soon as I walked into that room and saw you that first day of class," I pushed the hair out of his eyes, and looked into his eyes.

"Oh?" He smiled and looked up at me. At my nod he continued his story, "Anna never liked you, and she didn't need to meet you she knew your name, after all it was on all girls' lips, and you went through girls," Chris looked at the ceiling. "Then you all the sudden end up at a gay bar and tell me you're gay and ask me out, she kept telling me that bi guys aren't for dating, a fling maybe nothing serious and that I was getting in way over my head..." He cleared his throat, "She told me that night that you were about at the time where you were going to toss me to the side, I ended up getting pissed off and left early. I worried about it all through your practice. I just wanted to go back here and fall asleep and forget it all,"

"But I asked you to stay," I interrupted "To wait for me," Chris nodded slowly, "Then you heard what I said..."

"Yes," 

We were both quiet for a few minutes.

"I kept thinking back to Anna, thinking she was right. I ran back to my apartment at the time to think then I went back to your house and grabbed my stuff, I saw the gifts on the table, there was confetti on the floor-,"

"Petals, red rose petals," I said softly,

"Sorry I was so worked up I didn't pay much attention, my only thought was in getting out," I shrugged slightly, at least he noticed I did something. "I went back to my apartment for a while then had to leave,"

"Oh,"

"After the second week, Adam found me, I was deathly afraid he was going to beat me up... he came up to me and told me what happened in the locker room... I thought that you had sent him, but he said you guys weren't on good talking terms, then Danny called me every other day to talk to me, he said he wasn't on good talking terms either, and I thought that didn't sound like you, then your sister called me she said that you would be out for a while and that there was some things I needed to come pick up, then when we got here she just pointed out that box in the closet..."He looked down at his fingers squeezing them and biting his lower lip.

"I had set up a special night for you, I was planning on telling you something very important," Chris looked around and found the envelope on the bedside table. He opened it up and showed me.

'Chris-

I know I'm not good a showing my emotions and that I lose my temper sometime. I'm not good with words and I'm not very sensitive, or romantic. I don't know how you put up with me, but I definitely know that I love you, and I don't want you to leave me.

-Jason,'

"Yeah, that's it," My voice was rough, my throat hurt, and my emotions raw.

"Do you forgive me Jason?"

"You did nothing wrong, you thought what any normal person would have thought,"

"Okay," He blushed, and laid his head against his my chest. 

I looked down at him and threaded my fingers through his hair. "Do you forgive me?" I asked softly and slowly. I was afraid of his answer.

He was quiet for a long tense moment. "On one condition,"

I swallowed my fear I would do anything for Chris. He didn't say anything for another long moment.

He looked up at me with his large eyes. "If you say it to me," Chris teased me with a smile that tugged at the corners of his lips. I smiled and quickly tore open his shirt. A gasp left his mouth.

I pushed him onto his back and crawled on top of him on my hands and knees, "I," I kissed his forehead, "Love," I planted a kiss above his heart, "You," I kissed him on the lips. "And I am never letting you go this time," I wrapped my arms around him and kissed up and down his neck as he giggled hysterically.




Unqualifiedly Datable Ch. 05



A pounding on the door brought us back to reality, "WE CAN HEAR YOU! And since you have resolved your differences come out here so I'm not stranded with the kids... Renee is trying to braid my hair!"

I smiled and ran my nose along his neck, "Come on let's get out there, I need to introduce you properly to Renee and Tyler. Then we can grab some ice cream,"

"Sounds like a plan," 

We both got up and got out the door and was engulfed into a hug by Danny, Tyler and Renee. After quick intos we quickly decided to watch a movie, Chris rushed into the kitchen to the freezer.

"JAY YOU ATE ONE OF MY ICE CREAMS!"

"But- it wasn't me, it was Renee!"

"NO IT WASN'T!" I glared at her.

"You are supposed to let me blame it on you so I won't get in trouble," I said as Chris walked over to me with the spoon already in his mouth. He sat right down on my lap. "Can I have a bite?"

He shook his head no.

"ARGH, ok I did eat a few but I missed you,"

"Ok you can have some," Chris snuggled in closer to me and handed me the ice cream

"Do you think that he heard the FEW part?" Tyler whispered to Renee.

"SHH" I hissed at the two. I looked grinned down at Chris. "You are staying here right?"

"I was hoping you would ask,"

"You know I mean forever right? I don't want you to leave again,"

He grinned at me, "forever?"

"Yes," He tightened his arms around me and kissed my neck.

"Yes," 

Everything was going to work out no matter what even if I am unqualifiedly Datable I am going to make sure of it.

The End

That's it for Jason and Chris hope you guys liked it. i was thinking about continuing the story. Onto Danny?