2 comments/ 11830 views/ 15 favorites Take Me Back Ch. 01 By: calicosmogal9918 Prologue: One year ago I ran after him. He picked up his car keys from the hook by the door and swung the door open. I caught the door with my hand and swung it hard so it hit the wall. He made a dash for his car but I grabbed him by the arm. It was down-pouring out and the rain was making it hard to see if he I even grabbed him or not. I could've grabbed my neighbor by accident or something. He jerked back and turned around. He tried yanking his arm but I kept my grasp, "Don't leave me, please!" I begged but I saw him roll his eyes. The rain was soaking through my clothes and I was shaking. I let go of my grip and he made a break for his car. He swung the door open, got in, and slammed the door. As he started it I pounded heavily on the window. He rolled it down and looked at me, "Goodbye, Seth." He rolled his window back up and I backed away from the car. He sped away in the pouring rain and thunder cracked over my head. I jumped and I felt my own hot tears rush down my face. I ran inside our place and started grabbing his things I went for Erick's clothing first. I grabbed the drawers of his shirts from our dresser and opened the window in the bedroom. I dumped out all the clothes and they landed in a heap in the driveway. I did the same with his pants and work clothes. Once that was done, I grabbed his work supplies like his laptop and portfolios and ran outside. I swung his laptop and it cascaded down our driveway with a river of sparks. I then took his portfolio and chucked it and the papers went flying through the air but were soaked once they landed. I stood outside for a few minutes after that and put my head in my hands. I started choking on my own tears. I was gasping for air and about ready to hyperventilate when my neighbor Bill came running out from his house. Bill was married and had five kids—not joking, five kids—so I knew his wife had probably made him. He rushed over to me and put his arm around me. "Did you and Erick get into a fight again?" Erick and I had some pretty intense fights over the three year's we've lived together and the year before we moved in together when we were just dating. We started dating our senior year. Then I went to college for two years to get my associates degree and we moved in together. Erick is still going to college right now for business and he has a job working with his uncle at his uncle's bank. "It was way worse than just a fight, Bill." I barely made out those words. He handed me his jacket and I wrapped myself in it to keep myself warm for a few, "He ended it tonight." I leaned into Bill and wrapped my arms around him for a hug. He was always there for me when I needed him. I was crying way worse than before now and he was trying to whisper things into my ear but the only thing I could hear was the sound of my own heart's pounding. "Do you want to stay with Lilly and I? I'm sure you won't want to go back in there for a day or so." I lifted my head up and let him guide me to his house. I never wanted to step foot into that house again. One Year Later I was on my lunch break at work. I was sitting with my co-worker just talking. I was a secretary for a doctor's office. It was so boring but the money was pretty good and since I'm paying on court charges from Erick for damaged property, I needed the money. I owed him about five grand and I wasn't prepared for paying it. I agreed to pay him about one grand every couple of months. He figured that would work. Kristie, the other secretary, was chewing down on her protein bars while I was just drinking water, "You need to start eating something." She said in-between chews. She's the one that shouldn't be eating. She had to be going at least two-fifty and was short so it made her look even bigger. I was five nine and weighed around the one fifty area. I considered myself fat even though I was in the normal weight range. "I'm too fat." I said and she started laughing. Then she finished off her protein bar and pulled out a bottle of Pepsi. She had the down just as fast as the protein bar. I was disgusted with people that ate like that. But yet again, my boyfriend eats like that so I guess I could. I've been with the same guy for about a month now. I have just gotten back on my feet since the heart-wrenching split between Erick and I over a year ago. I met Jack during a jog. I was jogging down a road and he almost hit me. A horrible way to meet but I did threaten for a lawsuit if he didn't give me his name and number. I just laugh at that actually. "Eat this." She tossed me over a huge chocolate Hershey Bar. I stared at in and looked at her like she was joking. She cocked her one eyebrow up so I unwrapped it and took a bite. I don't even remember the last time I ate a candy bar. I've been focusing on my body a lot lately. I've been hitting the gym and running as much as I can. I ate it all and threw the wrapper away. I got up and grabbed my water. I walked away from the table I was sitting at in the cafeteria and walked to the bathroom. I needed to get this out of my system before I gained like ten pounds just from eating it. I was about ready to get sick just thinking about it being in my stomach right now. I made it to the bathroom and started to push the door open when I felt a hand grab my shoulder. I turned my head to see Kristie standing behind me. She was a little shorter than I so I had to look down at her, "Don't do it Seth." I turned my head from looking at her, "Just give in once in a while. It will do you good. You're like a twig." I yanked my shoulder from her grasp and walked into the bathroom anyway. I stood in front of the sinks and looked at my reflection in the mirror. I saw a twenty three year old guy with bags under his eyes from lack of sleep and medium spiked brown hair that was starting to feel greasy from having no time to shower the night before. I backed up from the mirror and saw my blue eyes weren't as bright as what they normally were. I turned so my side was to the mirror. I was skinny but I still found myself a little fatter than what I should be. I turned my back to the mirror and took a few deep breaths. I was not the same person I was a year ago. I was worse. I rubbed my face with my hands and walked out of the bathroom. Kristie was standing next to the door when I walked out. I looked over at her but I kept walking. I checked the time on the clock. Only two more hours and I'll be on my way home to get ready for a dinner with Jack. I clocked out right at three. I needed to stop at the post office before it closed at three thirty. I rushed from the hospital to the post office. I walked in and got my mail quickly. I was greeted by a few people as I was walking out. I got in my car and went through my mail. As I ripped up the junk mail, I came across a letter. I looked at who it was from and I felt my heart skip a beat. The letter was from Erick. My heart started racing. He was probably asking for more money or I was over due on my one grand payment this month which in my argument, I have ten more days until the end of June so I still have time. I threw the letter on the passenger seat and put my seatbelt on. I wasn't prepared to read it just yet. It was a five minute drive from the post office to my town house. I still live in the same house that Erick and I bought four years ago. I just changed it up a little bit. I changed the color of the walls in each room and now it doesn't even look like the same house. I pulled into the driveway and opened the garage so I could pull into the garage. I pulled all the way in and shut the garage door behind me. I grabbed all my things from the passenger seat and I walked inside. I threw my mail onto my kitchen table and started walking upstairs. I unbuttoned my shirt and walked straight into the bathroom. I took all my clothes off and then jumped into the shower. I turned the water on and let it run over me for a moment. Every time I got into the shower, I thought about all the fun times Erick and I had had in there. I won't get into details but I'm sure you get the point. I fell back against the tile and felt a sharp pain go through my back. I reached back and felt the warm gooey texture of blood. I moved my hand to where I could see it and gasped. I grabbed a towel from my towel rack and jumped out of the shower. I pressed it on my back and let it soak up my blood for a few minutes. Once I knew it was done, I walked into my bedroom, grabbed some jogging pants and underwear and slipped them on. I'll just wash my hair over the sink. I put my head under the faucet in the bathroom sink and washed it that way. Once that was done, I walked over to my shower and cleaned off the little bit of blood from the sharp tile and walked out of my bathroom. I went downstairs and was about to watch some TV when a knock appeared on my door. I looked at the time, it was four. I swore under my breath, Jack was here. I opened the door and let him in. He wasn't dressed up though. He was only wearing ripped jeans and a tee shirt. I crossed my arms over my chest and shifted weight onto my right foot. "What gives?" I asked him and he looked at me. He put his hands in his pockets and sighed. "We can't see each other anymore." I felt my mouth fall open, "The wife came home a week earlier than usual." I put my hands over my mouth and stumbled away from him. He was married?! "You're married!" I screamed. He held up his hand to show me his wedding band. I felt a tear cascade down my hand. Then another one came down and soon I was full force crying. He walked over to me and tried putting a hand on my shoulder but I just kept walking backwards, "You used me." I said through my hands, "You used me for sex!" He looked at me ashamed, "I'm sorry Seth." I ran over to him and pushed him into the wall. "Get out of my house!" I screamed and he went running out of my house. I put my back against the wall and slid down it crying. I had my head in my hands. Tears were seeping through my fingers. When I felt better and stopped crying, I got up and walked over to my fridge to grab a much needed beer. I never drank—extra not needed calories—not unless I was deeply hurt which I was. I had slept with Jake twice already and he comes over to tell me his wife is back! Oh my god I was so hurt. I picked up the letter from Erick on the table and shredded it. I didn't want to read it. It was probably another apology letter or a letter saying I'm overdue on my payments. I walked over to my couch and sat my beer down on the coffee table. I laid down on my couch and shut my eyes. I wasn't tired so I knew I wouldn't fall asleep. I just needed to relax and rest. As my eyes were shut, I thought about Erick and me. I've been doing this ever since we broke up. I guess you can say I'm not over him yet and I don't think I ever will be. That fight we got in the night he ended it was bad. He came home telling me he was sorry and I had no idea what he was talking about. I remember trying to act cool until he told me about the other guy. Then we broke out in screaming to each other. I remember throwing the picture of us at the wall and it shattered over his head. I remember him running to me and trying to hit me and I pushed him away. Then when he tried kissing me, I slapped him and he went running out of the door. That's when he left. My eyes jolted open and I realized I was tearing up. I wanted to be over him but I just couldn't. I couldn't be over that guy that I was with for five years. It was impossible. I went to prom with him and then we lived together. We had sex almost every night. I gave him my virginity, how could I possibly get over him? I was about to shut my eyes again when a knocking on my door caused me to jump. I got up and walked over. I opened the door to see my neighbor Bill standing outside with a cake in his hand. I wiped the remaining tears from my cheek and smiled. "Lilly and I watched that guy storm away. She felt bad so she told me to bring you this cake. She made it for the family but since you're like a part of our family, we're giving it to you." I thanked him and gave him a quick hug. "You shouldn't have done this Bill." I said but he shrugged it off. I smiled again and was about to shut the door completely when he stopped it. "Would you care to join our family for dinner tonight? You look a little lonely." I smiled and invited him inside for a minute as I ran up to get ready. I slipped on a pair of jeans and a tee shirt. I fixed my hair and bandaged my cut on my back. I brushed my teeth and then walked out with him. I've never been invited to his house before but Bill was like my second father. If he noticed something wasn't right he would comfort me and make me feel better. Even though Bill was in his fifties and his wife was too, they were the nicest people. Their children where my age though. Or maybe even older so it was really odd knowing I'll be around them. Their house was way bigger than mine and it was a lot nicer. Mine was legit half a house since I don't know who owns the other half. I followed him into the living room. All of his children were sitting on their couch. He had three daughters and two sons. I didn't know any of them but I'm sure they've heard of me. "Everyone, this is Seth. He's our neighbor and I've decided to let him have dinner with us." I felt my cheeks turn bright red. I was blushing big time. He turned to me and introduced me to everyone, "Daniel," he pointed to his son, "Is my oldest and only son. Samantha," He pointed the girl sitting by this random guy who'd I'd mistaken for his other son. Must be her boyfriend or husband or something. He introduced the rest but I couldn't take my eyes off from Daniel. He resembled Erick in so many ways. The jet black hair and striking almost black eyes with the amazing jawline and body. I was snapped from my staring when Bill patted my back and told me to have a seat and try talking to them. I went immediately for Daniel. I went over and stood by him, "Hey, it's nice to meet you." I said to break the ice. He looked up and blushed. "When my dad talked about Seth," He started and I thought, yup I knew Bill always told stories about everything. I'm pretty sure he even saw me sucking Erick in our driveway one day because we couldn't wait long enough to get into the house. That wasn't the smartest thing I've ever done but screw it. I used to love him so I didn't care who saw, "I never expected you to look so...handsome." I had to blink twice. Did he really just say what I thought he'd said? He looked at me and I realized he was really cute too. "Are you flirting with me?" I asked and he smiled and got up without saying a word. I stood there dumbfounded. Was he flirting with me or just leading me on? I didn't know and I was majorly confused. Samantha got up and grabbed my arm. I shook back to reality and looked at her. "Don't mind Daniel, he's a major flirt. I mean, towards guys anyway. I'm pretty sure you don't go his way." I burst out laughing which made her stare at me. "Don't go that way? I've gone that way since I can remember." I was half talking and half laughing. "Then you and Daniel should hit it off." She said coldly and walked away from me. Man, I have the worst time speaking to people. I'm so screwed when it comes to my job. Dinner went by fast thankfully and I was on my way home in a matter of time. It's not like I had to walk far but it felt like I had to. I got to my driveway and was about to walk up to my house when I heard running behind me. I was completely skeptical about who was coming after me. All I could think about was that it was a rapist and I was screwed. I turned around to see Daniel all out of breath behind me. "I know we just met." He started panting, "But I was thinking we could do something sometime? Like are you free this Friday night? We could go dancing at a club or go out drinking or something." He suggested and I smiled. "Pick me up at eight." I turned back around to walk up my driveway. I got inside and locked all the doors. I was smiling. I walked over to my cell phone and saw I had ten missed calls. In a matter of an hour, I had ten. That has to be a record. They were all from Erick though and I felt stabbed through the heart. I still want Erick, more than anything else in the whole world. I wanted to call him and I would but just not tonight. I turned my phone off and laid on my couch. I finished up the beer on my table and once that was done, rushed up to my room. It was only five thirty so I had time to spare. I decided to call a few of my buds and go out drinking. What harm could be done? I got into my tight skinny jeans and plaid shirt button-shirt. I was ready to go out. I was meeting my buds at seven so I had time to spare once again. Six o'clock came and then finally six thirty and I was out of there. I drove to the local bar and I saw my buds cars already there. I walked in and presented my ID. Once in, I sat down at a table with them. They were all eating cheese fries and so I grabbed a handful. We all started making small talk. "How you and Jack doing?" Chris—my best friend—asked me. I shrugged. "He was married. I can't believe that ass hole." I said and Chris high fived me, "What are you doing?" I asked. "You can cross something off from your bucket list now" I looked at his confusingly. "My bucket..." He stopped me but stuffing a fry into my mouth. "You fucked a married man dude, you're a god now." I laughed and choked on the fry. John and Liam both laughed hysterically at me. We then each ordered some shots and took them at the same time. Once ten o'clock came, we were all beyond drunk. I was touching Chris up like he was mine. We all left to go home but I walked home with Chris. I was too drunk to drive and since his apartment was about a block from the bar, we walked it back. We got up to his apartment and he was feeling me up. He unbuttoned my shirt and pulled his off. Before I even knew what was happening, our lips were together and we were tongue wrestling. This is why I never went out drinking with my friends. "Stop." I whispered and he pulled away. He looked at me, his eyes glassed. He looked fake and porcelain, "I'm not doing this. I'm just going to crash on your couch." I said and he put his hands up in defeat. He went to his bedroom and I fell on his couch. I had a throbbing headache and a horrible stomach ache. I was lucky I even fell asleep when I did. When I woke up, I had no idea where I was. I didn't know whether I was at home or still at Bill's. I looked over to see Chris making something on his stove. "What the..." I started but he turned and smiled. I felt my head throb horribly. It was pulsing with each blink. I started getting up when he walked over to me. "I think you should go home now." He said and I said goodbye. I ran out his apartment. Guilt flooded me. What happened between Chris and me last night? Did we go too far? The block to my car felt like it took forever. My head was pounding and I didn't feel the greatest. I got to my car and sat inside. I didn't even got my key into the ignition when I felt the urge appear. I opened the door and vomited everywhere. I felt that one coming. I laid my head back and shut my eyes. I took a few deep breaths before I felt well enough to start driving. I pulled into my driveway and parked my car just short of the garage. I whipped the door open and vomited one more time before walking in finally. I looked over to Bill's house and saw Daniel, Samantha, and the rest of the kids staring at me. I wiped my mouth off with the tissues I had in my glove compartment and got out. I slammed the door and walked to my front door with my head hung low. I was so ashamed. I was about to open my door when I heard someone running behind me. I turned around and sure enough it was Daniel. Take Me Back Ch. 01 "Are you feeling okay? You look really sick." He said sadly and I shook my head. My head started throbbing even worse. "Just a really bad hangover. I'll be fine." I said but he put his hand on my shoulder. I turned to open my door when I felt his hand massaging my shoulder. I moaned under my breath a little but made it inaudible. "Are you sure you don't need some nursing or anything because I'm willing to help you." He said with these puppy dog eyes. I gave in and opened my door for him to go in. He smiled and walked in before me. He was about an inch taller than me so it felt weird being the one to get nursed. He grabbed my arm and helped me over to my couch. I fell on the couch and my head felt instantly better. I breathed a sigh of relief and he started massaging my shoulder. I pushed his hand away, "Can you stop please? It's getting a little weird." He looked at me and smiled. "Weird how? I'm trying to make you feel better." He said and I couldn't help but smile. I opened my eyes and saw his face directly in front of mine. He was breathing on my lips and it was getting a little awkward. "Are you even old enough to be seducing me?" I asked him and he laughed. He shrugged his shoulders. "It depends on what you consider old enough to be." He said smiling and I looked into his eyes. "Over eighteen." I replied and he looked down at his knees. He was on his knees in front of me and I was suddenly getting aroused because of it. "I'm twenty one." He said and I felt my eyes get bigger. Oh course he was if he wanted to go out drinking with me Friday! Duh, how could I be so stupid? Oh I know why, it's because I'm in the middle of a massive hangover. He smiled and I did too, "What about you? How old are you? Because I don't date guys that are over three years older than me. It just gets creepy I mean, have you ever seen a..." "I'm twenty three." I butted in before he got too graphic. He just laughed and shook his head. "The age is perfect for me." He said and I smiled. We spent a while just talking a hanging out as my hangover subsided. When it was fully gone we decided to head out to lunch. We got to just a regular fast food place and I paid for the lunch. We started eating when I something caught my eye from the other side of the room. I looked over Daniel's shoulder and he gave me a funny look. That's when I dropped my food and gasped. Erick was standing over in the other side of the room talking to another guy at another table. I put my hands over my mouth and Daniel set his food down. "What are you looking at?" I got up from the table and ran over to Erick. I got to Erick and wrapped my arms around him from behind. His body tensed and he looked over his shoulder. Tears started coming to his eyes and my eyes started watering. I let him go and he turned around. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight into him. Daniel walked over to me and crossed his arms over his chest. Erick pulled his arms from around put his hands on my cheeks. He pulled me into him and kissed me passionately. "What are you looking at Seth? You're scaring me." I snapped back to reality. I'd day dreamed about all that. I looked at Daniel quickly and then back to where Erick was but it was a different person. It never was Erick. I sighed and continued eating my food. "It was nothing." I said, "I thought it was one of my ex's. I was wrong." I continued and he nodded. He finished his food and I finished mine. We started to head back home. We got back to my driveway and I saw my dried on vomit still in the driveway. I needed to hose that off later. I pulled up and we got out. Daniel stepped out and I walked him back to his house. When we got to his doorway, Bill swung the door open. He gave Daniel a nasty look and then looked over at me with the same look, "We were worried sick about you Daniel." He said and Daniel didn't say anything. He kissed my cheek quickly and waved goodbye before he headed inside. Bill stepped outside and I stepped backwards from the doorway. Take Me Back Ch. 02 I crossed my arms over my chest and Bill followed, "Where did you and Daniel go?" I rolled my eyes. I may be considered part of his family but he's not my father. My father died when I was fourteen from cancer. I was a mistake. My mom was forty five when she had me. My sisters are a lot older than me. I never talked to anyone though. My father used to abuse me for being gay and my family would stand there and watch and never say anything. I made sure when I was eighteen, I was out of the house and was living on my own but I ended up with Erick and my life changed for better and way worse. "He suggested we go out to lunch so we did. I'm sorry if I disrespected your family in any way." I said and I started to turn back to go home when he grabbed my shoulder and yanked me back. I gave him a foul look. "Erick may be gone but I know you still love him. If anything goes on between you and Daniel, my son's going to get hurt because I know you're going to be crawling your way back to Erick soon enough. I don't want him going anywhere with you. You got that? You're trouble Seth; I've seen the fight's you've gotten into with Erick and that other guy." I rolled my eyes and continued walking home. I'm not in the mood to get lectured by some over protective dad that doesn't want his son dating anyone. Not like I'm dating Daniel because I'm not. I'm too busy with Erick and paying the bills. I was about to unlock the door when I heard a car pull into my driveway. I turned around and gasped. Erick's car was in the driveway. I walked over to the car and he got out. I haven't seen him in person since the court appearance back nine months ago. He's changed. His black hair now was a light brown. His eyes were the same and he dressed more sharply. He was in a tight black tee shirt and straight ripped blue jeans that hugged his hips. He was wearing a cute blazer over the top of the shirt. He slammed his car door and smiled at me. He walked closer and held his arms out for a hug. I ran over to him and practically jumped into his arms. He held me tight and kissed my cheek. "I see you got my letter." I gave him a funny look. "What letter?" I asked and he let me go. He crossed his arms over his chest and I held mine near my pockets. He reached into his pocket and got out a piece of paper. "This is just a copy of it in case it got lost in the mail or something. It's a letter of forgiveness and apology. I miss you Seth. I miss holding you at night and kissing you and..." He dropped his voice and moved closer to whisper in my ear, "Fucking you in the shower and all over our house." It made me blush and I smiled. "I'm sorry about damaging all your property. I was just lost in control and I didn't mean to. I was just so angry and..." He shut me up by kissing me gently on my lips. It caught me off guard so I didn't return it at first but then I did. It erupted fire inside me and I wrapped my arms around him and held him into my chest. I could feel his heart beating and it made me in control. I pulled him into me and we back walked into my house. I opened the door and we made it barely inside before he had his jacket thrown on the floor and my button down was unbuttoned. He pulled away and stared at me, "Is this just make up sex or is it the reassurance that we're getting back together." I smiled at him and threw my shirt off. I took the hem of his shirt and pulled him into me. I didn't even know what to say so I took his shirt and pulled it off from him. His ripped chest screamed at me and I bent down to kiss it. It was flawless. I kissed each one of his nipples and he moaned out loud. I worked my way down and undid his pants. He grabbed my shoulders and pulled me up to meet his mouth, "Not here. Let's go up to our old room." He growled a slow sexy growl before we retreated up the stairs to the bedroom. We got to the bedroom and I went in and laid on the bed. He kissed my lips and then worked his way down to my bellybutton. He kissed it gently and then worked down to my waist line. He saw my growing arousal and smiled. He practically tore my jeans off from me. He ripped the button off from them and it made us both laugh. He unzipped my pants and saw I wasn't wearing underwear. I don't remember how I lost them but I did. He reached down with his mouth and kissed the head of my dick. I writhed with pleasure. He used his hands to pull it down and slowly wrap his lips around the head and move slowly up and down. "Oh...Erick." I moaned and he lifted his head off from my dick and snaked his way back up to my mouth and kissed me. The taste of myself was what filled me. "You ready to go further. I won't let you return the favor because I'll burst. Let me go inside you once and then we can go back to the way things were." I smiled and kissed him. He was starting to pant pretty heavily. "Go for it." I said and he smiled. He pulled out a condom from his pocket but I slapped it from his hand, "I haven't been with anyone else but you. I'm clean." I lied. I just couldn't stand the feel of a condom. The friction was inevitable. He smiled even wider and leaned down to kiss me one more time. "That's my baby." He growled through gritted teeth. I kissed his nose quickly and then he removed his pants. He took his underwear off and I looked at his dick. It was raging hard and looked red and angry. He was about to burst! He laid over top of me and pinned my arms over my head. I giggled at him and he smiled back. He took some of the lube from his jeans and rubbed it all over my hole. I moaned at the pleasure and he ran his dick head over my entrance, "You ready babe?" I nodded my head and he pushed in. I cried out and moved my hands to his back. I clawed into his back and he gave me a worried look, "You okay, Seth?" I nodded my head. "I've just forgotten how big you are." I said blushing and he finished pushing the rest of the way in. He started moving and I was moaning in pleasure. I kept repeating his name over and over again. As he started panting and his moving because less rhythmed, I felt his dick expand and pulse. He was getting ready to cum. "Oh Seth!" He cried as his final thrust sent him shooting in me. That made me cum in-between our bodies. As we both came down from our orgasm's he held onto me. He kissed me one last time and then fell on me. We both laughed. As he rolled over to pull out of me, I fell asleep. I don't know how long I was out but when I woke up, I rolled over and felt Erick's ripped chest with my hands. I ran my fingers over the wash board type build and he grunted. His eyes snapped open and he smiled, "I gained muscle after we broke up. To get away from all this I went to the gym regularly." He moved in a little closer to me, "You got a lot skinnier. You're like fragile now and I was afraid of breaking you." I blushed. "I stopped eating. I barely eat anymore." I said in a shameful manner. His face turned worried. He grabbed my wrists under the covers and held onto them. "You need to eat, Seth! You can starve yourself. You could die from not eating." "Maybe I wanted to die." I snapped back. Tears formed in his eyes. He let go of my wrists and wrapped his arms around me. He pulled me into him and kissed my forehead, "When you told me about the other guy," I started, "I wanted to kill myself. I kept thinking that I did something horribly wrong for you to get another guy." I started to tear up, "We were together for four years and that night crushed me. I haven't been right since." I told him and he had a tear sliding down his cheek. "It was a mistake. I was actually going to propose to you." He said and I started crying, "But when I started seeing Trent, I don't know what went through my mind. We had sex once but it didn't feel the same and I could only think of you and we did kiss and hold hands and go out on dates and things like that but... Nothing felt the same as when I was with you. I love you Seth!" Tears were traveling down both of our cheeks. I leaned in and kissed him. His lips were all wet from his tears and they were warm. "I love you Erick." I said when I pulled away. He looked at me and smiled, "Does this mean we're back together?" I asked him. "Yeah, if you want to be." I smiled and kissed him with one long lingering kiss, "But let's take it slow. I won't move in yet or anything but let's go on a date. Friday night, we go out to dinner." I wiped my eyes and then nodded my head. "I love that idea." He smiled and kissed my forehead. He turned over to look at my digital clock on my TV stand. He cursed under his breath. "I have to leave. I need to be to work in a half an hour. I'm still working for Uncle Ralph. He's an asshole but the pay is incredible!" I laughed and he got up. He got his pants on and I got up from the bed. I slipped on my jeans and the tank top I had under my shirt and walked downstairs with him. He picked up his shirt and jacket from before the door and slipped them on. He opened the door and I walked out with him. He walked to his car and got in. I knocked on the window and leaned on the door of the car. He opened the window and put his sunglasses on. He leaned up and I leaned in so we kissed through the window pane. "Love you? Or too soon?" I said and he smiled. "Love you too." He started his car and pulled away. I stood there in the driveway swooning over Erick. I was smitten completely to him. He was my Erick and I was his Seth and it would be that way forever. As I stood there something hit me. I was supposed to go on a date with Daniel on Friday but I would just blow that off. I couldn't blow off my date with my soul mate! I turned around and headed back inside my house. I was so lucky to have Tuesday's off. I worked Monday's, Wednesday's, and Friday's. I hate working Friday's but I'll survive. I don't work long hours anyway. I start at nine and end at three and from twelve to one I have a lunch break. I was started to walk back in when I heard pretty clear sobs. I turned to my left and saw Daniel balling hysterically. I hung my head to the ground and continued walking. I knew he had seen Erick and I kiss but there was nothing I could do. I loved Erick and I can't give him up now. Way too much has gone on. I opened the door and walked inside my house. I shut the door behind me and walked further into the kitchen. The little strips of the letter where still lying on the table. I picked them up and tried piecing them together. I'd say it worked pretty fluently so I read it. Seth, I've gone crazy this last year not being by your side. I miss sitting on our couch cuddling, watching horror movies until we've lost our sense of thought and we practically claw at each other for attention. I miss all the showers and times on the floor in front of the fake fireplace in our bedroom. I still have pictures of us (the ones I could savage from my busted soaked portfolio) and they're hanging on my bedroom wall staring at me. This is a little off the topic but I'm still going to need the next three thousand that you owe me but no rush now. I don't care when I get it back as long as I get you back. I bought you a ring a few weeks before we broke up and I was going to propose to you on your birthday in August. I still want to marry you eventually but to get some money for my house, I pawned the ring. I didn't get much for it though since I'd just pawned it a few months ago and it was starting to rust over from sitting in a zip lock baggie. I've been living with my brother Zack until I bought my apartment just outside of the city. I'm planning to make a visit to you soon so be prepared. I hope we can rekindle our relationship and put all the other things behind us. I want to explain the whole story behind Trent and why I was going to end it. I was trying to tell you that I was going to end it but you just blew up on me instead. I still don't get why you slapped me and I wasn't planning on leaving you for good, only for a couple of days. That was until you ruined all of my things and then I had to end it. I didn't want to. For one, why would I end it with someone I've been with for four years? I went to prom with you for crying out loud. I still have our prom picture by the way. I believe that I'm just rambling on now but I'll be able to talk to you better soon. I miss you and still love you. I'll always love you Seth. XOXO, Erick I was all choked up at the end of the letter. Tears were streaming down my face at the end. All the things he wrote were the same things I was feeling. I got up and grabbed some tape from my cabinet above the sink. I tried to tape up the letter. I was in love with it and I really regret shedding it. Once I tapped it up and folded it, I set it at the end of my table. I walked into my living room and fell onto the couch. I flipped on the TV and started watching just a random TV show. After a few hours of watching the TV show, I got up and decided to make myself some dinner. I looked in my fridge only to notice some old meat that was disgusting and some protein shakes. When Erick lived with me, the fridge was never empty. I grabbed my car keys and decided to head to the store and pick up something to eat and stock up on filling my fridge. I walked out and got into my car. I pulled away. I drove by Bill's house and I saw Daniel sitting on the front steps of their porch crying into his hands with Samantha's arm around him. She gave me an awful look but I didn't care to be truthful. I drove to our local Wal-Mart—I absolutely hated this place because of the time Erick and I were making out and the manager threatened to call the police. I still don't get why it was such a big deal though. It was probably because we were near all the condom and lubes when we were. I parked my car in the first parking spot I saw, way in the back—ugh, and then I walked up to the front of the store. As I walked inside, the central air hit me and I was actually freezing! It wasn't all that warm out anyway too so this was just freezing. I shopped around for a little bit until I had a cart filled with food and other things. I was going to spend my whole pay check in here. I got to the register and paid for everything. I was on my way out when I noticed Bill's car sitting right next to mine. I got a little suspicious so I walked quicker over to my car. I got there and looked around the SUV parked next to me and saw Daniel leaning over going through my glove compartment in my car. I had a lot of personal pictures in there. I had one of Erick and I kissing. I have Erick and I's prom picture in there. I have a picture of us at the fair back in our hometown that my sister took. I had a picture of us in bed together. I couldn't stand to see any one of them get ruined. I walked over and grabbed him. He jumped and hit his head on the ceiling of the car. He swore under his breath and then turned around, "Oh um... Seth." That's all he could say. He backed out of my car and I saw the pictures strewn across the passenger seat. "What the fuck were you doing going through my car?" I asked defensively. His face turned bright red and he started shaking. "He deserved to know the truth." I turned around to see Samantha standing behind me. Her expression was cold as ice. She looked like she could kill me if she wanted to, "You led him on into believing he might have a shot and then you go kissing and fondling this other guy right around him." She said coldly. I smirked a little but then stopped and went back to a blank expression, "Who is he anyway? A boyfriend or a friend with benefits or a..." "Just shut...up!" I said harshly, "He's my boyfriend. I've been with him for five years now." Okay so that wasn't a complete lie but I would be willing to believe it if I was Daniel. I then turned to face Daniel, "I agreed to go to the bar with you because I figured it would give us some man to man talk and then when I told you to stop massaging me yesterday, I meant stop because it didn't feel right. I took you out to lunch as a token of helping me while I was going through my hangover." I was starting to get really pissed off now. Samantha's expression turned colder yet as she headed back over to Bill's car. Daniel just stood by my car in shock, "And I don't get why you kissed my cheek. That was a ridiculous move. If Erick would've been there, he would've kicked your ass." I added and Daniel started crying. "I'm sorry about all this." Daniel said as he scurried to the passenger side door and got in. I shut my door and started unloading the cart. It didn't take long for me to put everything into the trunk of my car and get as far away as I could. I didn't go directly home. I went to Erick's Uncle's office instead. I knew exactly where it was since I'd been there multiple times. I pulled into the parking spot and walked around to my trunk. I had bought some things for Erick that I just couldn't wait to give to him. I grabbed the bag and locked my car. I headed inside. I got through the front entrance and headed straight to the elevators in the secret part of the bank. The sign had said Employee Bathrooms when in reality, you walked through the door and walk down a hallway to the elevators. Erick showed me this a long time ago. I walked to the elevators and pushed the button for the third floor. The third floor is where all the offices are. I got onto the elevator and rode up. Once I got to the third floor, I hung a right and went right down to the end of the hallway to the last door. That was Erick's office. I walked down and saw the door was shut. I knocked on it and Erick answered behind the door for me to come in. I opened the door and walked in. He was sitting at his desk figuring out some of the paper work. "Hello." I said and he looked up from his papers. He smiled and walked over to me. He gave me a quick kiss and I handed up the bag. "Oh no, what did you get me?" He said smiling. I started laughing and he opened the bag. He gasped like a little kid when he saw what it was, "You got me gushers and starbursts!" He said happily and I burst out laughing, "You remembered my favorite candy." I nodded my head. He pressed his lips to mine and sucked on my bottom lip a little. It made me moan slightly. "I just figured that it would be a small gift for you now that we're back together." I said and he smiled. He pressed his forehead to mine. "That's no small gift." I started laughing and he picked me up off from the floor without any ease. "Put me down!" I screamed and he shushed me but I started kicking and hitting him. He was just laughing. He held onto me and lowered me onto his desk. He started nibbling my neck and giving it small kisses, "Erick we can't do anything here. You'll get in trouble." I said through partial moans but he continued. "Fuck Uncle, I need to fuck you instead." I didn't oblige. I wanted it too. So it happened. He removed my shirt and threw it on the ground. He pulled my jeans off and noticed I was still going commando. He grabbed my dick and lowered his head down. He mouth engulfed it but I pushed him off, "You already did that to me. Let me do it to you." He smiled and immediately pulled his pants down. His dick hung low but it was partially hard. I took it in my hand and moved my palm up and down it. I was about to lower my head when a knock appeared on the door. "Goddamn it." Erick said and the door opened. Erick pushed himself back into his pants and I sat on his desk blushing crazily from being so embarrassed. I picked my pants up and slid them on. I looked over and blushed. His Uncle was standing right in the doorway. He had a stack of papers in his hand. I slowly slid off from his desk and grabbed my shirt off the floor. His Uncle walked over and dropped the papers on his desk, "I didn't think I'd walk in here to see the making of a porn movie. Let's see, boyfriends do it on a desk in an office? I like that name for this. Anyway, I told you a long time ago that your boyfriend was not allowed here." Erick rolled his eyes. He walked over to me, kissed me once gently and then told me to meet him down in the lobby. Take Me Back Ch. 02 I hurriedly walked out of the room embarrassed and went down to the lobby. I'm sure I looked like a cherry. I was feeling the embarrassment run out of me. I sat in one of the chairs at the lobby while I waited. I waited forever for him to get down there. He was pretty pissed off when he came charging down the lobby. He came up to me and grabbed me by my shirt. He picked me up and positioned his face so it was lined up with mine and leaned in to kiss me. I wrapped my arms around him and he giggled through the kiss. I pulled away and looked at him. "I love you." He said and I smiled. I put my forehead on his forehead and looked at him. "I love you more." He rolled his eyes and laughed. "I remember going through this a million times but no matter what I'll still love you way more than you love me." He said and I kissed him once more, "Uncle is up my ass for you coming here and we almost fucking each other on my desk so I'll just make a visit tonight and spend the night. I get out at eight. I'll see you then, okay?" I nodded my head and kissed him once more. He pulled off and straightened his suit before retreating back to the elevators. Before I headed out, I had people stare at me. I always hated that but oh well. I retreated out of the bank and rushed to my car. I unlocked it and then got in and sped away. I got home and started to unload my things when I saw Bill pull into his driveway. He looked furious and I turned my head. I grabbed some of the bags and put them in my garage so I didn't have to make eye contact with him. I grabbed the rest of the bags and ran inside of my house before I got anymore evil glares. I barley ever used our garage though since when we first moved here, we made it into a gaming room. I unloaded the bags of things into my fridge and then decided to just snack instead of eat anything. I grabbed some potato chips and indulged in them for a while. When the half a bag of them was gone, I settled down to watch a movie. I don't know the last time I physically watched TV but I figured why not. I ended up falling asleep in the middle of the movie though. I was walking down the hallways of the hospital down to the cafeteria for lunch. I ended down the elevator and got on. I pushed the floor and proceeded down. I rushed out of the elevator and heard the words code blue, Dr. Hession to the emergency room ASAP.I was used to that happening. I heard codes like that all the time. I walked farther down the hallway when I was stopped by someone. I turned to see Erick's sister. She was a spitting image of hit but yet again, they were twins. She looked be in the eyes and started crying. I looked at her weirdly, "What's going on Jessica?" She hugged me and told me to rush to the Emergency Room, "Why?" I asked and she wiped her tears, "Erick's been shot. He's in cardiac arrest. Please, maybe if you go down there he'll wake up and start breathing again." I rushed to the emergency room. I ran straight to the secretary's office. I pounded on her window and she gave me annoyed look, "Let me in there." I shouted and she gave me the one minute symbol, and then pushed a button to open the door. I rushed in and found Erick's room. They were shocking him and I stood behind the doors. Then I heard one nurse say, "Let's call it." I started crying worse. I ran in and they pushed me out, "Let me see him, he's my boyfriend!" I shouted but they still pushed me away. Dr. Hession looked at his watch and looked at me, "Called it, 12:20 pm." I broke down and they started to cover him with the sheet. I rushed in and gave him one last kiss. His lips were cold and turning blue from the lack of oxygen, "I love you." I said and I slowly drifted away. I woke up crying and screaming. I felt someone's hands on my back trying to rub it. I was crying hysterically. I put my head into the side of the couch and felt the hands grab me and pull me up. Someone was carrying me. I opened my eyes to see Erick carrying me, "You can put me down." I sniffled. He kissed my wet cheek and set me down. "What was that dream about? I walked inside here to surprise you and I found you kicking and screaming on the couch. I panicked and tried kissing you and hugging you and massaging you and it didn't seem to help any so I let it go." I looked down at the floor and then he took a breath, "Oh and you kicked me in the side when I tried to hug you. It hurts like hell." He said and I looked up at him. I reached out and hugged him as tight as I could. "I'm sorry." I croaked and he kissed my forehead, "What time is it?" I asked him and he looked at his phone. "Nine o'clock." I looked down at the ground, "What is it Seth? You're looking super depressed suddenly." I wiped my face and shook my head. "I just need to sleep. Are you staying the night?" I asked and he nodded, "I need to get up at seven thirty tomorrow. I have to take a shower and be out of the house at eight thirty so at nine I'll be ready to clock in." "You don't even have time to do one little sexual favor?" He pouted but it didn't make me smile. "I just want to sleep." I said and as we walked to the bedroom, I muttered forever. I slipped off my pants and shirt so I wasn't wearing anything and he slipped all his clothing off so he was completely naked as well. I lay down in the bed and he cuddled right into. His arm fit perfectly around me and he snuggled in as close as he could get. He took a huge inhale and swallowed. I turned around so we were face to face and then I took the blankets and covered us up to right under my chin and his neck. I reached up and kissed him once before I told, "I love you." He smiled and replied, "I love you too." I shut my eyes and started drifting when I felt his one hand leave my body and shut the light off. I was out in a matter of seconds.