0 comments/ 26521 views/ 1 favorites It Happened on the Internet By: pebring I don’t know really where or how to begin but here goes nothing. I am a 44yo married man, in the beginning of a divorce. I am lonely and wanted to try to meet a guy. I have not been with a guy since I have been married which would have been 22 years ago at the end of this year. Well anyway, I use to search the classified and found a gay site that I mostly just looked at the picture. One day there was this guy coming to DC on a business trip and had a pic of himself from the knees up to his neck. Boy was that nice, not what I would say a head turning build, not a large tool or a toned body but it was just the kind I have always imagined a man for me would have, so I replied.... and then he responded and then the emails exchanged back and forth and that’s how it began. I have to say I have a pretty good imagination and really let it go to work on him, sexually. I was telling him things that I wanted to do, things I don’t know if I could do or in fact, could be done. My name is Pete and his name is Steve and here we go. Being almost alone and craving the company, the warmth and the need of a person to be with me I decided to try my luck online and I did. I saw what I thought was the perfect man, the perfect body that I would love to have next to mine and he was coming to town. I quickly responded and gave him my stats and a day or two later I got a reply. He said when and where he was going to be and what times he had free and I took a spot on his calendar. So I thought........... “Hi, I can make it there on Sat. I work close to where you are staying so if we hit it off right I could stop by every morning while you are here.” “Okay, How will I get in touch with you or shall we arrange to meet someplace” “I can give you my work number, call me when you get in and I can arrange something to happen that I will have to take off for a few hours.” And I sent him the number “Okay, I am going to put this in a safe place and call as soon as I get to my room, how long will it take you to get here?” “It will take me about 15 minutes, but since it is so hot out I might need to take a shower when I get there, I want to be clean for you.” “Maybe we can take a shower together, I was going to take one before you got here anyway.” “Sounds good, I never took a shower with another guy, sounds like fun. Can I wash your body? I would love to feel your body all soaped up and press my body up against yours, rubbing my cock across yours, hugging and holding you tight and kissing you while the warm spray of the shower beats down upon our bodies.” “Wow, Thats sound like fun, tell you what, my shower is your shower. I love kissing and hugging.” “After our shower we can stand there and rub our bodies together, continue kissing and hugging until we are dry, then we can go to the bed and I will sit on the edge while you stand in front of me and I’ll open my mouth and take your cock into it and begging to suck it. I will suck it softly at first, just to get it wet and excited, then I will move to your balls and lick and suck on them and then in a flash I will take your cock back into my mouth and suck it so hard that I will bring you to the edge of a climax in no time and then stop just before you cum.” “ I can not wait Pete, that sounds so hot. I feel that we are going to have a good time together. I can not wait to take your cock and suck it, take all of it into my mouth and down into my throat. I have never been with a uncut man before but I think it is so sexy that I just want to make love to your cock with my mouth.” “So Steve, you have never been with a uncut man before, well then I will have to teach you something about us. I know once you have me that you will always want to have an uncut man to make love to you. We are more sensitive then cut cocks, I know you will love how it will feel once I make love to you. I have not had my cock inside a man in such a long time that all I think about is how good it is going to feel to slide my cock inside a mans hole. The nice tight warm ass of a man, to feel his hard cock press against my stomach as I press my chest against his as I make love to him..hmmm hmmm what a desire I have.” “Oh Pete, I can not tell you how much I want to be with you, you seem to feel and know just want I want and I know this is going to be the best time I ever had, I can not wait. I am going to take that uncut cock and suck you hard, then I am going to take it and guide it into my butt and make love to it, I want it so bad. I want to feel the warmth, the tenderness that you describe, I want you in me. I feel like the two of us are close to each other and we have not even met each other yet, just exchanged emails.” “I know what you mean, I can not explain it but for some reason I feel like you and I are meant to be. Whatever happens, happens. I will leave fate to fate and if it is meant to be, then it will be. I am in no position to do anything right now. I so long to be with a man, to feel his warmth and his arms around me once again. It has been over 21 years, I have not been with a man since I have been married and no I can not wait. I have been with men well boys before. I started young with boys, and then some men when I grew up but the last time I was 21. I still remember what I did and what to do, guess it might be like riding a bike, just takes a little to get going again.” This kind of email exchanged went back and forth for a while then the heat was turned on. I don’t know why I just let my imagination take over, that is where the problem began. I never wanted cyber sex but there I was smack dab in the middle of it.... “Steve, when I get there I am going to strip my clothes off, letting them fall to the floor as I walk over to you. You will only have a robe on and I will pull you to me, kissing you so tenderly and deeply that you will get a instant hard-on and you will let the robe fall to the floor. I will then press you to the floor and hold my cock in my hand and offer it to you. You will open your mouth and suck it. You will suck me nice and hard and then after a while I will reach my hands to your head and hold your head in my hands and start to pump your mouth. I will face fuck you, going deeper and deeper each time until I am slamming my cock down your throat. Then, just as I begin to reach my climax I will stop and pull you to the bed. Placing you on your back, I will crawl between your legs and hold your legs back to your chest. I will split on my already wet cock and place it to your hole and press myself slowly into you. Once I am in and you are adjusted to me I will then start to pump your hole, building up speed as I go. I will start getting you hole all hot that you will ask me to fuck you, ‘fuck me harder Pete’ you will say to me and my cock will be driven into you harder and harder, our skin slapping together filling the room with that sound. I will slow down, gliding myself into your warm hot tight manhole and then reach over and grab your cock. I will then start stroking you, making you want to be fucked even more as you build up to your climax. My breathing gets stronger which set you off closer, I feel your cock harden, I get excited and start pounding away in your hole, thrusting my cock into like a wild man.. fucking and fucking you hole, jerking your cock, ‘Oh fuck me, fuck me harder’ you will scream to me and then you will feel my warm cum shooting out of my steel hard cock deep inside you and with that you shoot your load all over our chests. I slow the rhythm down and then stop, I let go of your cock and lay my chest onto yours, reach my tongue out to your lips, you open you mouth, we kiss.............” “My God Pete, I want that, I want it just like that! No man has made me feel this way, I feel my body tingle all over. I have to read that again. Do it just like that, that is going to be the hottest time I have ever had, I can not wait.” “Oh Steve, this is going to be the best, I waited so long, I am afraid and I want you so bad right now that it seems to long from now before we are together? Do you like sex in the morning? I work close to where you are and I can ‘cum’ by in the morning and wake you up. How about if you get me a key and I can come into the room while you sleep; I will strip and get under the blankets. I will then move my head down and start to suck your cock. You will be asleep and then start to get hard while sleeping and I am sucking your cock. Once you start to cum you will awake to cumming in my mouth, I will then move my head up to yours, kiss you and say good morning... “ “I love sex in the morning and buddy you bet you can ‘cum’ and wake me up any morning. I just can not wait, this is going to be the best trip I ever had. I wish I was going to be there longer, we have to get in as much as we can with what little time we have." “Steve, this is going to be just as hot for me as it is for you. I have waited and wanted this for so long and I can not believe that it is almost here. I can not wait to feel our naked bodied together, touching you, holding you, feeling you, tasting you.... I just want you. Hey, have you ever been tied up before. Maybe I can take the belt from your rob and have you kneel on the floor and tie your hands behind your back and face fuck you for a while. I then will have you roll over, like almost doing a summersalt, stopping with your ass in the air. I will then stand inbetween your legs and insert my cock into you. You can watch my cock slide into your tight hot ass, inch by inch. You will see me balls start flying back and forth as I slam my cock into you, fucking you hard, wild, crazy... God, there are so many things I want to try and do, if we only had enough time ti do it in.” As you can tell, the email were getting hotter and heavier as we went along, then the day before, my last email to him “Steve, well I don’t know if you are going to get this or not, hope you do but please remember who to ask for when you call the store since there are two of us working there (did not give my last name to him). Then I will give them the excuse that I have to go to fix something at the other job so I will be able to spend a few hours with you, bye, have a safe trip... Pete.” Well the day finally came, I was so nervous, I wanted to go through with this, I wanted to experience a man and I wanted to experience it with Steve. Now the hour came when the call should be made, I changed my lunch break to accommodate the forth-coming phone call, the call that never came. I waited for an hour then I took my lunch, I ran to my other job, opened up my email and nothing. I looked for the number to the hotel and see if the name he gave me was real, it was not (not that I thought it would be anyway, just hoped). This was the saddest day of my life. I wrote him an email, “what happened” and then back to work. The rest of the weekend, and the following week was long. I emailed him when I knew he was going to be back and again asked “what happened” Still no response. I then started to cry in my messages saying that I don’t care that you did not show, that you did not call. I only know I want to still have you in my life, How could I have fallen in love over email, but I have. If I can not have you in person, then please, PLEASE, don’t leave me alone, just be my friend. I need someone in my life, I am in a bad spot, just stay with me.” Well it did go on, we continued and boy did we work it up. It Happened on the Internet Ch. 02 Well I really do not remember how long it took him to reply to me, it seemed to be forever but one day I got a message in my inbox from him. I looked, I waited a few minutes just starring at my inbox then I moved my cursor to the line and click... I opened the message. Steve was telling me that he owes me an explanation of why he did not call. He started out telling me that he did not think that he would have been able to fill my expectations of him, that he wanted to call, that he even picked up the phone and dialed the number but just could not go threw with it. There was more said but that is the just of it, some more about how sorry he is and that we are better off this way etc. Well I responded back with, that's okay, I understand but let's just stay in touch, I want you in my life even if it just via email. "Pete, are you telling me that after I stood you up that you are willing to forgive me, that you still want me around in your life? I don't know what to say, you are a special man and I do want to be part of your life and I do want you in mine, I just don't know what to do or say." "Steve, call me ###-###-####." "Pete, when can I call, it is 12 o'clock my time, my secretary will be leaving in 45 minutes can I call then?" "Yes, I'll be here." I was hurt that he stood me up but I knew I wanted him, I knew I felt something in his messages but just did not know what it was. I did not want to admit that I feel in love with him, after all I never saw a picture of him, just that nude photo that he posted without a face. Boy was that the longest 45 minute. Ring.... Out-of-area the phone read, I answer: "this is Pete" "Pete, hi, it's Steve. I can not believe that you want to talk to me, that you are forgiving me. What I did to you is inexcusable, you sure a special person to be able to forgive me like this." "Well I don't know what it is but there is something about you that I know I just want to know more and to have in my life. I am so hurt at what happened but I am also in no position to argue about it, I am still married after all, I was the one trying to pick you up and have sex. You have the right to pick and choose and I just thought that you decided not to have a married man." "No, no that is not it, that's not it at all. I was afraid that I could never live up to all your expectations that you have described in our emails. I am not like that. I love to be with men, I am gay, but some of those scenes, well I just don't know if I could have live up to them. I have never been tied up before and to be truthful, I was a little nervous about that." "HA HA! You had nothing to worry about. I have never tied anyone up, I have never acted anything out like I said I wanted to do. I got ideas from reading some gay porn and also from some porn movies that my wife and I rented before. I am a mild, kind of boring guy that likes to have sex, but I do have quite a vivid imagination I guess." "Vivid I would say is an understatement, those were some of the hottest stories I have ever read. I have read and re-read some of those and just imagined being there with you, Oh Pete, I am sorry that I did not call." "I have your picture downloaded on my computer and I still look at you every day. That body is just the type that I have always dreamt of. The man that I always wanted would be built like you, I knew I wanted you. Your hairy chest, that hard cock, how it turns up and just the right size to fill my mouth up. I wish I were right there right now. I would fall right in-between your legs and take your cock into my mouth. I would suck it slowly at first, making it nice and wet. I'll swirl my tongue down the shaft and then all around the head. I'll feel your cock throb in my mouth and then I would reach down with my hand and grab your balls and begin sucking hard. I'll apply strong suction to your cock with my mouth, going up and down. Oh yes Steve, my mouth is water right now." "Pete, yes, I can feel your mouth all over my cock." Well unknown to me at this time, Steve had his cock out and was jerking himself, but I just kept going on talking to him on what I would love to be doing to him. I found out late in our conversation that he was masturbating and I went for it with him.... "Steve, I would shove your cock right down into my mouth, pounding my nose right into your pubic hairs, wrap my arms around you and just fuck your cock with my mouth." "I would take my hand and hold your head down and start to pump your mouth.. Oh yes... and then I would pull you up to me and take your cock. I want your cock in my mouth, I would stick it in, suck it right down my throat, take every inch of those 7 uncut wonderful cock inches that you have." "Oh yes, that's it, that's right Steve, I'll pump my cock down your throat while holding your head tight to me give you no mercy. I'll start fucking in and out, your hot wet mouth will feel so good, so good on my cock." Now I can hear his excitement, I can tell that he is masturbating on the other end. I am so hard, so horny but at work with people around that I can not do anything but talk my talk softly over the phone only to please my man. "Oh yes, fuck my mouth Pete, fuck my mouth. Make me choke on your cock, I want it all in my mouth, I want you to shoot your load down my throat I..." "Oh yes, that's right.. I'll have you so tight in my hands that you can not move. I have you and my toy, your mine right now and you can not move.. Your cock throbbing hard and I fuck your mouth.. Spit dripping down your lips from the non-stop fuck action I am giving your mouth. My cock is hard and you feel it go right into your throat. You can not move but you hold on to me making me want you even more.... Oh, ah!!! God I can feel it, I can feel it I am so hard, so hard right now I want to be with you." "Oh yes, my mouth is full of your cock, I feel it going down my throat... Fuck my mouth Pete Fuck my.." "My cock throbs in your mouth, I am hard like steel and shoving it, fucking shoving my cock into your mouth. You choke as I shove it into your throat but I don't let up. You know that I am getting ready, your tongue just going all over when it can. You are submitting your mouth to my lust and I am taking it... I am fucking your mouth." "Yes, fuck my.." "Oh god, and then another plunge into your mouth I slide into your throat, your nose right up against my body. My hand pressed on the back of your head holding you tight to me and my hips thrust forward.. You open your throat to my cock with is even deeper, I throb, I pulse up and then I cum." "Ah yes, yes.." "I cum in your mouth, shooting shot after shot of my hot cum down your throat.. You gag, you choke but I give no mercy I just continually ram my fucking cock into your wanting mouth Steve.. Just fuck your wanting my while my cum shoots out over and over." I hear him cumming over the phone, sighs, moans, oh yes I made my man cum, he's happy. "Oh my god, that was something Pete. I can not believe that I just came, god yes. You know I could feel you as you told me all that. I could taste your cock in my mouth, god do I want you... Hey, I am coming to Baltimore in Oct. Do you live far from there?" "You are, yes I am close, what days are you going to be here?" Well believe it or not I made a date with him in Baltimore, 3 months from now. I knew it was a long time but after all, I wanted this guy, I wanted him so much, and I wanted to keep him. I went home that night and the wife and kids were gone so I took the digital camera and got undressed to send my man a picture of me. Of course it was of my cock, what else does a man send another man. I took one of me in the mirror, turned to the side with my cock sticking up nice and proud, face covered by the camera. No matter what, I am shy and private and by the actions I had you would never be able to tell but as long as my face wasn't in the pictures that no one could tell it was me. To the bed, legs spread, jerking.. hard.. click click.. cum.. yes.. shooting dripping... click click. Got clean and then to the computer, downloaded and attached and hit send.... "Pete, those are the hottest pictures I have ever seen. What a body.. What a cock. I can not wait for us to be together in Baltimore so I can have them all to myself." "Well I can not wait either, cum and get it." Attached another cum shot and send "Oh I want that cum in my mouth, I want to taste you so much Pete, I know you, I know we are meant to be and that only time is against us, it is making us wait. It must be something of a test but I am willing to wait for you Pete, I love you." Love, he said love. I used that word after he stood me up and I do love him but I never again said that. Oh god, I wanted to tell him right then and there that I loved him but I was afraid that I would loose him. After all, I lost him from hot steamy sex fantasies and I just did not want this to happen again, I had 3 months to go threw before I was to be with him and I did not want to loose him again, so I responded..... "Oh Steve, I do love you, I knew I did from almost the start. I felt it when I saw you ad and picture, I want you be with you, I want to move, leave here, my job and I can maybe transfer from the second job out there. After all, I will have child support and alimony payments to make." "Pete, I make a good living, I can support you, I just want you in my life." "I am home today, call me ###-###-####" "You mean to tell me that you are home today, not at work? Are you alone?" "Yes" "My secretary leaves today around 12:45 my time, I'll call you then." So to fill in a little missing material, I am home alone, the family went on vacation bringing my oldest son back to college. I decided not to go and that I was moving out of 'our' bedroom and starting the separation. I was so stressed at this point not being with the family. In fact, this was the first time that I have not go with the family on a vacation and I really hated it. Steve and I had some wild and wonderful email exchanges, he told me about himself, where he lived, his job, what he did and his homes. It all fit so well with my ideal man, the way I always envisioned him to be. The only thing missing was a picture of how he looks. I had drawn an image in my head about him, but then again, it was of the image of my ideal man and that was him. I had time to kill so I took a shower, why? Well I wanted to be clean, after all, this was going to be the first time that I was going to be with him even if it was only over the phone. And then it happened, the phone rang.... "Hello" "Pete, hi, how are you? Can you talk now, is this a good time?" "Yes it is fine, just wait a minute." "What are you doing?" "I am going to my bed, I am taking off my clothes, there, now I am laying down, naked.. there." "Oh Pete, I wish I was there with you. I want to suck that uncut cock of yours, take it in my wet mouth and feel it grow." "Oh yes, I want you to, I want you to suck it good." "Then I will lick your balls, lick those big hairy balls of your, running my tongue all over your sack..." "Oh yes, lick them. I can feel them wet and warm right now.. Lick my balls Steve." "Then I will spread your cheeks back and lick your hole. I'll run my tongue all over your hair hole making it all hot, wet, hmmm I can taste that sweet hot hole of yours now." Well he was doing a good job on me. I have my legs bent back to my chest just jerking my cock. I can feel his tongue all over my cock, my balls, my hole and I am hard and jerking my cock "Fuck yes, eat my hole, stick your tongue in it, shove your face right into my ass Steve, fuck my ass with your tongue" I got so hot that a moment later I was shooting my load, moaning and sighing so load and shouting I love you over the phone. "I love you Pete, oh yes, I love you.. Now I will suck your cock, clean your cum up with my tongue. Hmm I know it will taste real good." "Oh yes, suck it Steve, suck my cum drenched cock, clean it up with your mouth, slide your tongue under my skin, get all that cum out of my cock." "Shove your cock down my throat Pete, make me suck that cum off your cock" "I'll grab your head and hold it while I shove my cock into your mouth. I'll start pumping your mouth, fucking your mouth, your wet, cum covered mouth, fuck it with my hard fucking cock, fucking the hell out of your mouth" "Hold my head, shove it in, fuck my mouth Pete, fuck my mouth ohhhhh God, yes.. I love you Pete" "Yes, yes, Steve, I love you, I love you so, I am fucking your mouth, shoving my cock into your mouth, hold your head, making you choke, fucking your mouth.. Yes. Yes. Yes. .ahhhh fuck, fuck, yes..." "Oh god Pete, that was so good." "Steve, that was wonderful. I can almost feel you here with me. I know I could feel you sucking me, I could feel your tongue on my ass, licking it, tonguing it. I know it was you doing that to me, I never had anyone do that to me before." "I know what you mean, I felt it all to, we must have something very special to feel this." "Yes we do. I know that right now I would want to roll on top of you and spread your legs wide open and slide my cock into your hole." "Oh yes, slide that thick uncut cum covered cock into my butt, I want you to fuck my butt." "I can feel how tight you are, how good it feels around my cock." "God, you are so big, I want you, I want you to love me, make love to my hole Pete." "I have your legs over my shoulders and my cock is sliding in and out of your hole with mice long strides, my head peeking out from under the skin as it is pressed deep within you, filling your entire hole with my cock." "Oh yes, fuck me Pete, fuck my hole. I want you to fuck me hard, I want you to fill my hole with your cum, shoot it inside me Pete, I want your hot cum in my hole." "I am fucking you hard, kissing you and pounding your butt Steve, shoving my cock into you.. Oh yes, it feels so good. I am kissing you so tenderly, holding your hands as I hole your legs wide open and back and just pounding my love into you Steve, just pounding it into you." "Pound it in me Pete, shove it in.. Yes, fuck me, yes, fuck me Pete, shove it in me, shoot your load." "God yes, I am cumming." "Yes Yes Yes, shoot it, fuck me baby, fuck me butt, shoot it in me Pete, I love you." "I love you Steve, I am kissing you, biting your lip as I start to cum... I cumming, yes, yes, I love you Steve. I am kissing you, yes, I am kissing you so deeply as I cum inside you.. God I love you Steve.." "Oh god, I can not believe that I just came again, what a mess." "You, I got cum all over my chest and it is.. wait, hmmm, yes, I just had to taste it, it is you that I am tasting, it is your cum I now have in my mouth.... You know you just made me cum three times, I needed this so much. I only hope that my phone wave did not get picked up by any of my neighbors.. How does one explain this huh" "Ha! I hope not for you sake either. All I know is that I do love you and I don't know how but I know it is going to work out for us. I just believe that it is meant to be and we will be together when this is all over for you and your wife." "I believe that too Steve, I know I love you and I can not wait to be with you. If it felt this good just on the phone, imagine how good it is going to feel when we are together..." "Well I got to get back to work, I love you and I will talk with you later." "You can call me tomorrow, I am home alone all week." "Okay, I'll try. Bye" "Bye." That was the last time I talked with him on the phone. It was the end of August and I had to wait until Oct. To meet him in Baltimore. I knew I had this built up to high, to hot and going totally insane but just did not know what to do. I wanted an email from him every day, I wanted to see his name in my mailbox. I wanted to be with him and I thought about him constantly, I thought of walking with him, shopping, hugging, holding hands, being with him, loving him. He was my world and I did not even know what he looked like. Fuck, love sucks this way and I knew I would loose him soon. Well I lost him again, no replies, no calls nothing. I kept on emailing him not to leave me like this, lets calm it down, lets be friends, that I want to have him in my life but nothing. It took several weeks then it came, I was chatting with a friend on-line when I got the pop up that I got mail from Steve, no subject line. The following are some of the actual emails that I have cut and pasted into this, I will not run spell check on them. "God damn it I can't make it without you! I thought I could but you are flooding my fucking mind every minute of every day. I cannot stand it!!!! What am I going to do? I can't live without you in my life but I can't hurt you either. FUCK!FUCK!FUCK! No need to respond to this - I am hoping that you have moved on. But I just came across my trash and saw that I had not emptied it. Know that I am longing for you - longing each and every minute. I rush to my inbox just to see if by chance there is anything there. But of course there is not. GOD DAMN IT I THINK I AM GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! me." I froze, I shook, I was in shock and I wanted to reply right then and there but I waited. Well that was a long 5 minutes but I finally hit the reply button and type out my response. "if I can not be your lover, then let me be your friend, I did not want to loose you, I don't want to loose the best thing that I ever found." It did not take long but he wrote back. "my secretary leaves in about 45 minutes. I will call you. I am embarassed and ashamed and have so many feelings inside me. I don't want to start this again - I do want to start this again - I just don't think I can stand not being with you. Friendship is fine but I know I want you physically. I have ALWAYS wanted you physically. When I saw the pic of you with your kids on Fathers Day I just could not stand it." About 45 minutes late my phone rings and we talk. This was different, I knew if I talk sex, trash like we have done in the past that I will loose this guy and I was still determined to meet him in October. I avoided the topic of his arrival but it was always on my mind and I did try to hit around it. After our phone call I received a nice email saying how nice it was to have me back in his life and that he will never leave me again He told me of his upcoming trip to some other place, nothing around here and it would not be until next week before I would hear from him. He told me that he does not have a laptop nor does he have a computer at home or the cabin (things to remember). I said he should buy one and don't know why he doesn't already have one. But I just dropped the subject and went on.... Then an email came in from Steve. "I'm back from another TRIP FROM HELL. Everything went fine but we had a few minor problems that might need some legal resolution. Oh Well. Why were you up past 1AM??? Maybe it was the Taste Of Freedom for the first time?? I think it will take a long time for your family/kids to fully understand everything that is going on with you. You just have to live each day one at a time and hope for the best. I did miss you - I missed not being able to email or speak with you. I thought about you all the time! This is just a short note to say hello -- I might be tied up later on with some of the crap from this weekend so if I am a little slow today, please be patient!! " I was pleased to get his message and I went to show him. I grabbed my camera and went to bed. He never saw a face shot and now he was going to get one. I laid on my pillow on my side with my arm up under and positioned the camera back and click.. click there I go again, to the computer and attached and I hit send and only said "just did not know what to say so I took this while I was thinking about you." It Happened on the Internet Ch. 02 Did not take to long but I got a email back "All I can say is WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God you are gorgeous - I don't care if you don't want me to focus on the physical! You are a hottie! Damn, that is going to be mine one day and I am never ever giving it back" Like I said, he got the first look at my face. I have sent cock shots, cum shots, ass shots body shots but never had a face attached. I felt I trusted this guy enough and that I did love him and I wanted him to know and see me, now he has and it sure sounded like he liked what he saw. I also wrote him and told him that I missed him and how I can not wait to meet him in person and so on and then I signed it, Pete V. (V is the initial of his last name) "Dear Paul V, God that looks good to write. I have started counting down the days to October on my computer just waiting and waiting to be with you in Baltimore. I am SO HAPPY that we will finally meet. I just want to hold you and kiss you - feel every part of you close next to me. I want to lie in bed and laugh and cuddle and have wild sex that will uninhibited and exciting. I still want to eat your ass - now more than ever. Actually, to be honest, I want to do that so bad I fantasize about it at night. I want to lick your balls and slowly move down to your crack, spreading your legs wide so I can put my tongue in your hole and lick your butt. I want to have your uncut prick fuck me so hard I won't be able to walk the next day. I want so much. I need so much and all my wants and needs include you. You are my guy and I love you, Paul V! " So there is heat building up once again and I tuned it down not to get him cock driven and loose the man that I love. Emails of what I am doing, I am moving downstairs, the kids, the vacation they are on, the work around the house I am doing, just talking about stuff and then he said in email. "Good morning! I am out of the office most most of the day today - in CHicago for some meetings - and I plan to leave for Wisconsin later on. Hope to email or speak with you today - or it will have to wait until later!! I love you! " I loved it when he says he loves me but it also frightens me. Monday comes around and I was sending emails to him of just stuff, and well yes I sent a picture of my ass... "Hi my love, First let me say that your butt pic did not come over - and I had such a hard on waiting to see what it looked like. Secondly, you have been VERY Busy this weekend. What an absolutely beautiful job you have done. You are sensitive AND talented! I want to take some closer looks at the pictures you sent over and then I'll give you my thoughts. It was a nice weekend for me. It rained though - in fact it is storming out right now - flooding all over Chicago. but, being the dedicated individual I am, I am here at work - just got in - about an hour later than I usually do. I missed not speaking with you this weekend. I hope you missed me - although 15 emails from you to me looks like you did miss me! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! I was so horny on Saturday that I just had to jerk off looking at you. I tried to remember how you shot your load with me when we did it over the phone. It was so great - I came twice in a row and rubbed by hot juice all over my chest thinking you were there with me helping me wipe it off with your body. God, to touch you and hold you - the first thing I want to do in Baltimore is kiss you and kiss you and kiss you. I do want to suck that huge cock of yours too - and lick out your hole, but first a NICE LONG HARD PASSIONATE KISS!!!!!!!!!! Let me re-read your emails and get back to you. " I resent the ass shot and: "MAN OH MAN!! I may be jerking off to that butt pic this morning!! What a beautiful picture! I will say it again - you are gorgeous. My tongue licking that hairy ass is what I will be dreaming about from now until Ocotber!!!!!!!!!!!! " More emails go on about life, my separation and stress I am under, he says "Dear Mr. V, You are truly my best friend. I have shared things with you that no one has been allowed to see. You are my love - my TRUE love, and we will always be partners - hand in hand - going through life. I love you my friend, my love, my partner. Steve" I know this is not where we should be but I just can not stop it, stop him. If I say anything I will loose him again and I worked so hard to get him back twice already that I just don't think I can take another loss right now, especially now since my wife is constantly on my case about everything I do, about the separation... Then I get a message that he is working hard and has to take care of some stuff (Yes I edit it for protection) "Hi my love - I am so sorry - I am still on my conference call. This seems to always happen to me. Please don't be angry - sometimes this job sucks. I'd rather be sucking you right now. I'll try to email you later in the day, if I can. I will say this again - this is not usual for me to be so busy but one of the ___________ I work with had his license revoked for substance abuse and I need to deal with it before the whole thing blows up! Know that I love you and will have this episode behind in a few days. I know you understand - you know me inside and out and I know you!! I am touching your face and your lips right now with mine. I love you, Mr. Pete V. Please tell me you love me too! " So I wait for him to get over it and, that was it, nothing, he was gone. I knew it, I just knew it and did not know what to do or try. I sent the emails again "don't leave me, I love you, lets be friends" and nothing. I then asked him after I don't know how many emails that if he did not want me to send him anymore emails to tell me so. I figured that if he does this I would at least know that he read them and then it came. Then came the email I really did not want to get: "You are wonderful - sexy - intelligent - spiritual - loving - devoted man AND (and I emphasize AND) you deserve to be in a real relationship with someone near you geographically who can hold you when you need being held and physically be in your presence every day. Go find him! You will be better off than with me - who lives a thousand miles away and is devoted to his work! Please stop sending me email - it is just too difficult for me. " He did exactly want I said and what I asked for and I did follow up with "Please reply with the word "done" and delete all the pictures I have sent you, I just can not stand to think that you can have them and I have nothing of you, that is all I request" And as I excepted nothing, nothing at all. Anyway I have not given up on him, his birthday was coming up and I was going to send him a greeting and I did. It is the beginning of Sept. And all I could do was hope that he would get it and that he would respond, that was the most important, and it worked. We started back up and I never again mentioned Baltimore or love or sex and neither did he. We went on for a while and then he said, "how about lunch when I am in Baltimore, did I tell you my schedule?" Well I already had it written but what the hell, act dumb when in doubt and we made the arrangements and date and time and guess what. I finally met this guy, this man I have only fantasized about, dreamt about and desired for the past 6 months. I was at his hotel, he walked up to me and shook my hand (we were at the bar). Went upstairs to another more private place for some drinks (not his room). I hadn't eaten and was still shaking and still nervous but totally excited and got drunk. We made it finally to his room, we looked out the window from the 32nd floor over the harbor and then I asked for my kiss. The kiss I waited for for so long, the body I craved and wanted to hold. After a several long hard kisses we walked to the bed and down we went. I was on top kissing my man again, being where I wanted and going to get what I needed. I removed his tie and pulled up his shirt to expose his hairy chest, kissed his nipples and sucked on them, bit them lightly and kiss him some more. I then stood up and just start taking off my clothes, he followed my lead. We turned down the lights and on his back he was again as I crawled on top. More kissing then I go back to his nipples, move to his belly licking all the way down and then finally, finally and at last I reached his cock. Oh, I knew it was a perfect cock, just perfect for me. I opened my mouth and took it in. I tighten my lips around it and slowly went down and down and down until I reach the bottom. I sucked with such passion, such love, such desire. It was suction from my heart and soul that was pouring out from my mouth all over his cock. I grabbed his ball, those two beautiful balls and took each one into my mouth. The sighs I heard only reassured me that he loved every moment just as much. I returned to suck him some more and then up to his face I went with my cock. He took me like a pro. I have never been sucked so well by anyone and if I have it was so long ago that I can not remember. We took turns sucking each other and kissing each other and then he said the words that I wanted to hear. He wanted me in his butt. I could have busted just then but I kissed him instead. He told me that there is some lotion in the bathroom and I retrieved it. He pulled his legs back and I positioned my cock to his opening. I was just about to enter the man of my dreams, and then my head slid in.. He moaned, I paused, he started stroking himself and I started pushing. Starting and stopping until I was in my man. My cock throbbing hard and ready to bust at any given moment. I reached his mouth with mine and told him I loved him and kissed him so passionately and started pumping my cock into his love hole. He held me tight for a while and we kissed and I told him how good it feels and that got it started. He wanted to be fucked, he waited so long for my cock in him he told me. I felt alive and wild. I lifted myself up and started fucking him. I started pumping my cock harder and harder into his hole. He moaned and held his legs wider for my cock. His hand now jerking his cock like crazy, both of us going to town as they might say. Pulling my cock out all the way that only the head is in and then full deep thrusts into the bottom depths of his colon, over and over, in and out, deeper and harder I was loving him like he wanted and I wanted. It did not take me much longer and I was getting ready to shoot. I told him and he said to shoot it up his ass, to fuck his butt and shoot it up his ass. I want your cum up my butt he repeated over and over and then I released. I bit down on his lip, held him tight below me and release load after load of my cum into his tight hole and then I felt his warm cum shooting off between us. We were in love, we were in heaven. He said that it was going to be hard to go home without me and that he can not wait for me to be free. I love this guy, it is Friday now, three days after I have fist met my man and still not a word. I have only one email from him that I have never responded to. I hope he emails me Monday when he is back. I want to send it back to him, it reads: You are wonderful - sexy - intelligent - spiritual - loving - devoted man AND (and I emphasize AND) you deserve to be in a real relationship with someone near you geographically who can hold you when you need being held and physically be in your presence every day. Go find him! You will be better off than with me - who lives a thousand miles away and is devoted to his work! Please stop sending me email - it is just too difficult for me. Love, Pete The end