7 comments/ 40781 views/ 9 favorites If I Did It- - -And I Did Ch. 01 By: Marlene I get quite a bit of Literotica mail from readers of my stories. Sometimes there are questions as to why, when, how much is true, how long etc. So I figured I'd answer some questions. My father had a bunch of porn that he had hidden that I found when I was 18. Being the inquisitive although naive person that I was and still am, I found it quite by accident. He had magazines and VHS tapes that were all straight (thank god as I don't know quite how I'd take it if I had found out her was bent). I'd come home from early classes at the university I was attending (both my parents worked so I had after school alone time) and look at pix while I jerked off. He had Penthouse Forun magazines and those sometimes had some bi stuff and kink in them and I found that I liked the kinkiest stuff I could find. One day I read a story where this couple had sex and in the end the girl jacked the guy off til he came. She "made" him eat his cum. I had thought about tasting mine but it was the old story of no matter how badly I wanted to eat it, after I'd cum I just couldn't do it. In the particular story in Forum, the girl had the guy's legs back over his shoulders so that his cock was over his face. The story described how she slid her small hand up and down on his slick cock til he shot off. She directed the spurting cum into his mouth and onto his face. I'm 5'9" tall and maybe 145 pounds. So I'm slender and pretty flexible. I decided to try what I'd read in the story. After numerous attempts at getting myself positioned correctly I hit on the idea of putting a couple of pillows behind me so that my head was tilted up. My parents' bed had an iron headboard that I tied a nylon rope to. I tied a loop in the free end and ran another rope thru it that I then tied to my ankles so that I could pull my legs up and over my shoulders til my feet were well behind my head. As I was pretty limber the position wasn't uncomfortable at all, And, best of all, my cock ended up maybe five or six inches over my face. Once I was naked and in this position, my cock was incredibly hard. I started jacking off and in only a couple of minutes I came. The cum shot out of my cock and into my open mouth and onto my face. At first the taste grossed me out but the act was so intense and I liked it so much! It was one of those once you do it it's hot to do it again experiences. After that first time I found that I could look at porn, jerk off and then eat my cum like candy. And it's been that way ever since. To this day I like to play with cum: rub it between my fingers to feel the texture. Take it into my mouth and swish it around. And I love showing a guy his cum while it's still in my mouth before I swallow it. There was a guy named David that lived across the alley from us who had been a friend since we were kids. He was in his junior year at the university and thus a couple years older than me but we were both kind of geeky so we got along regardless of age. David was five ten and maybe 160 pounds. He was nice looking in a geeky kind of way. I told him about my Dad's porn and he started cumming over after his classes were over to look at it with me. This was a pretty much daily affair. Guys from 18 to 22 can never see enough sex or jerk off enough. This went on for a few weeks. We'd both get so worked up that he'd literally run home to jack off. I don't remember how it happened but one day we were watching some video and I looked over at him to see that he'd taken his dick out of his jeans and was stroking it. His dick looked huge to me but in reality was probably six inches. Cut. And the head was very red which really turned me on. I figured if he could so could I so we jerked off together. We both came pretty quickly and after it was done I went to the kitchen and got some paper towels for both of us. It seemed totally natural and neither of us was embarrassed. The next day I told him I was going to take off my jeans and underwear so he did the same thing and we got into the jerking off together habit. His cock was larger than mine and I was fascinated with its size. I started watching his fist slide up and down the shaft and ignoring the porn on the TV. After a month or so of separate jerking off and my watching him (he wasn't that interested in watching me) he asked if I wanted to jerk his cock for him. I was startled and embarrassed because I really wanted to but I didn't want him to think I was a fag or something like that. Without saying anything in answer to his question I moved right next to him so that our hips were touching and reached over with my right hand to encircle his cock. His eyes never left the TV while my hand slid up and down his shaft and he never said a word. I'd guess it took him all of 30 seconds to cum and when he did it shot up and landed on my arm and ran from his cum hole onto my hand. I jumped up and made for the bathroom to wipe it off but once I got there the lure of the cum got me and I licked him off my fingers, hand and arm. By now I was well used to the flavor of my own cum and found that his tasted just slightly different. I ended up licking all of it up and loved it. When I went back into the den he had gotten dressed and was in a hurry to leave. I thought that our friendship was over but he was back the next day. Our jack off sessions changed to where I was jerking him off every day. Each time I'd go into the bathroom to "clean up". I'd sometimes eat all his cum and other times I'd use it as a lube on my own rock hard cock. I'd shoot off and then eat what was left of his cum along with my own. When I was done I'd go back into the den and by now he'd gotten over his embarrassment. He'd be sitting on the couch naked (we'd gotten to that point of total nakedness) and was sometimes hard again from watching the continuing porn movies. One day he asked why I was in the bathroom for so long "cleaning up" and why my dick was soft when I came back into the den. So I told him that I was jerking off using his cum as lube. I was smart enough to know that no matter what I said of did he wasn't going to leave. He was addicted to getting what had become supreme hand jobs. So I asked him if he ever ate his own cum. He was grossed out and told me he'd never do that. Then he asked if I ate mine. So I told him the truth: that I ate it most every time I jerked off. He asked if I ate it when I jerked off while "cleaning up" after he came. I told him that I not only ate mine but usually ate his too. At this point he was fisting his once again rock hard cock and breathing heavy. He told me he wanted to see me jerk off and then eat my cum so I put some baby oil on my shaft and started jacking off while looking at him and his hard cock. Since I'd just shot off in the bathroom it took me all of three minutes or so to shoot again (young guys cum so fast, hard and easily!). The cum ran out of my cock and onto my hand. He was watching me intently while I raised my coated fingers to my mouth and sucked all the cum off. As I did this he moaned and came again. Without thinking I leaned over and took his cock into my mouth. His hips came off the couch as I sucked and licked his cum into me. He tried to push my head away from his overly sensitive cockhead but I held fast and got it all off and out of him. When I finally pulled my mouth off of his softening dick and sat back up I was blown away (what a pun!) by what I'd done. I'd actually sucked on another guy's cock for the first time! I was humiliated and totally embarrassed but I'd loved it! He looked at me and said something like he couldn't believe that I'd done that to him. I asked if he liked it and he was pretty emphatic that he did. So the next day after classes were over we both got naked and settled back to watch some porn. We were side by side with our hips and thighs touching. My cock was rock hard and I had my fist on his when we made eye contact and I just shifted so that I could bend over and take him into my mouth. I'd never done an blow job but I'd seen enough on TV to have a vague idea of what to do. I sucked on the head as I slid my fingers up and down the shaft. My tongue swirled around all over and in what seemed like seconds his hips were thrusting up forcing his cock into my mouth while he filled me with his cum. I sucked it all out of him and then showed him his cum in my mouth. He asked if I was going to swallow it. Without answering I closed my mouth, swallowed and then opened up wide to show him it was all gone. At this point I was so fucking hot! I sat back up and barely touched my own dick before it spurted a huge load that landed on my chest and stomach before oozing over my hand. I looked at him and licked it off my hand and then scooped up what was on me and ate that too. This was now an everyday affair with my getting better and better at blowing him. I progressed from simply sucking his dick to sucking on his balls too. It got to where he'd shower and I'd suck him trailing my mouth down over his cock and balls down to his ass. I would lick his hole and finally got to where I was sticking my tongue in him while I stroked his shaft til he came buckets. I fingered him a couple of time but he didn't like it much preferring me to tongue fuck him. I was becoming a real sex pot. Over the next few months I grew a couple of inches and my cock got a little longer and fatter. I saw one flick on the internet (we'd graduated to internet porn by now) where the girl took the guy's cock while it was soft and snaked it back between his legs so she could put the head into his asshole. Then she ran her fingers over it til he shot off in and all over his ass. Well this looked to be an absolute dream! So I tried it with a mirror positioned so I could see everything and found that I could easily get the head of my lengthened cock into my ass. The only problem was that I'd get hard too fast and it was pretty much impossible to get it into me when hard. But if I was lucky I'd get the head in and then run my fingers over the shaft and my separated balls til I came. I'd pump cum into my ass and then push it out onto my fingers. Then I'd eat it all. David's and my sex sessions had progressed to where I'd suck his cock while he was sitting, laying down, standing up and in pretty much any position that we'd seen in films. He'd also gotten braver and would call me a fag and his bitch while I was blowing him. I found that I liked being called names and verbally abused. One day I asked him if he wanted to see me fuck my ass with my cock. He was crazy to see it. I sat back in a leather lounge chair and maneuvered my semi soft dick into my ass. My five inch when soft cock was just the perfect size to be able to get the head into my ass. My separated by cockshaft balls were tight as the head went into my lubed hole. David was sitting in front of me watching intently as I pulsed my ass muscles around my cockhead. I had found that when I had the head inside of me and I pulsed my muscles that the feeling was exquisite. Without any warning he suddenly reached forward and flicked his index finger into one of my balls- - -hard! The feeling of pain was so fucking intense that I cried out. But the pleasure was also very intense. He did it again to the other ball and I shot off into myself instantly. The cum leaked out around the head and it slipped out while still pulsing cum. My ass and balls were slick with it. I asked him if he liked seeing it and he said he loved it. His cock was hard and the head was all red and hot looking. Without my moving from the chair I asked if he wanted to fuck me. He moaned and without saying another word he moved to put his cock into me. I pulled my legs up and spread them as wide as I could. He was so hot from my little show that he hurriedly pushed into my gaping hole. I cried out as he plunged all the way into me. My self fucking was just the head and now his larger dick was all the way into me where nothing had ever gone before. His balls were against my ass and he was fucking in and out of me going really hard and fast until he stiffened and I felt his cum shoot into me. He stayed in me until he was drained while my muscles squeezed him tight. When he pulled out and stood up I got up too. His cum ran out of me and down my thighs. He reached down and scooped up his seed and then fed it to me telling me what a hot fuck I was (like he knew since I was his first either male or female). David and my after class sessions started going from right after we were out of class until just before my parents came home from work. Sometimes as long as two hours. I liked sucking his cock and getting fucked so much! A couple of times he got me into positions that we'd seen in porn that made his hard cock rub my prostate (I had no idea!) so that I sometimes came just from being fucked. He fucked me missionary while I jerked my cock off and ate the cum as he shot in me. Sometimes as he'd fuck me this way he'd pull out of me and fuck our cocks together. Then he'd slide his hot dick back into my hole and fuck me until he shot off into me. Other times he'd be close to cumming and he'd pull out and straddle my chest while he pointed his inflamed cock at my face. He'd stroke his shaft and when he came I'd watch the cum shoot out the hole in his dick and then feel the heat of the cum as it hit me in the face. He fucked me bent over the arm of the couch. He fucked me while he sat in a straight backed chair as I sat on him. He fucked me in most any position imaginable and I loved it all so fucking much! One day he told me that his 25 year old brother was in town for a few days. He asked if I'd get pissed if he told his brother about our sessions. I told him that I'd be really mad but then he told me that he'd already spilled the beans and that his brother wanted some too. I thought about it and figured that his brother lived across the country so who could he tell that I'd know? I asked him what his brother looked like and he showed me a pic of him. He was like a grown up version of David. So he was a real man and that appealed to me as it meant that he was probably experienced in sex. I asked if he'd ever been with a boy and he told me that he never had but wanted to see what boy pussy was like. So I relented and said that I'd meet him just to see what would happen next. His brother's name was Jeff. He was staying at a nearby motel as their parent's house was three bedrooms with one serving as an office. We made plans to meet the next day at David's house. When I got there Jeff and David were waiting for me. Jeff was a larger version of David. He was about 5'10" or so and was as good looking as David except with a little more maturity. We all got into his rental car and went to his motel. I was scared but thrilled at the thought of something even more taboo that what David and I had. And the idea of a real man, rather than someone close to my own age was so fucking hot! We got to his room which was pretty much a suite and Jeff told me to take off my clothes and get comfortable. Both Jeff and David took theirs off too. Jeff was about six feet tall and maybe 180 or so pounds. Light brown hair. His body was pretty smooth all over. The important thing was that his cock was shaved smooth as were his balls. When we'd all gotten naked he went over to his suitcase and rummaged around until he came up with a pair of black lacy women's panties that he told me to put on. I hesitated as up to that moment I'd never had anything feminine on my body. David told me to just do it so I slipped them on. This was a long time ago (I'm 36 now) but I'll never forget the feeling of the satin against my dick and my ass cheeks. Looking back now, this was a major league moment in my life. I reached down and rubbed myself against the satin and almost came right then. My cock was so hard that Jeff commented on it and called it my "clit". Jeff asked David if he thought I looked cute. David said that I did- - -almost like a girl's body. Jeff and David both sat on the end of the bed. Jeff told me to get on my knees and crawl over to him so I could show him if I was as good at sucking a dick as David had told him. I got on my knees and started to crawl to him. He told me to keep my head down and not to look at him. I didn't know it then but this was classic master/slave stuff that I'd learn a lot about in the years to come. When I got to his legs he spread them and told me to lick and kiss up his thighs. I did as he told me and when I got to his smooth balls I was ready to suck one into my mouth. Instead he told me to lick them both so I slathered them with saliva as I licked. He was slowly stroking his hot looking shaft when he told me to take one ball into my mouth and suck on it. Out of the corner of my eye I could see David watching me as he jacked his beautiful cock with one hand while cupping his full balls with the other. Jeff told me to suck the other ball. I did and without thinking I apparently applied a little pressure. He gave a little yelp and slapped me, telling me I was such a slut. I loved being called a slut! Without waiting I moved my mouth up to his cockhead and engulfed it. My tongue was swirling all over the place as I cupped his balls. He groaned and said something about my being a good little cocksucker. My mouth went all the way down as far as I could go, on his dick. Without any warning he put both hands on the sides of my head and forced me down onto his cock til my nose was tight against his stomach and his cock was gagging my throat. His cock was deep in my throat causing me to choke and gag. He kept it there for what seemed like forever. I couldn't breathe and tears were welling in my eyes. But for some reason I didn't want him to let me up. The feeling of being dominated by him was so intense! He finally pulled me up and as he did so I sputtered and gasped while the tears ran down my cheeks. He was jerking his cock as he told me to pay some attention to David. Apparently David had told him about my tongue fucking his ass. Jeff told him to get on his hands and knees on the edge of the bed. Then Jeff spread his brother's ass cheeks so that his hole was exposed. Jeff told me to eat David's ass so I lowered my face to his pretty hole and stuck my tongue into him. Hr moaned as I tongued him, filling his hole with saliva. I ate him for a few minutes until Jeff pushed me away and replaced my tongue with two of his fingers. He was fucking his fingers in and out of his brother's ass while I leaned back to watch while rubbing my wet dick through the satin panties. Jeff told me to pull David's dick back between his legs and to suck on it while he finger fucked him. David was moaning and groaning as I sucked his dick. I'd never done him like this before and I liked the fact that with his cock back between his legs, the glans was on top for my tongue to dance on. I finally settled on sucking the head and glans while Jeff fingered him. Within a few minutes his cock started to pulse so I put the head into my mouth and sucked it until he cried out and shot into me. Jeff was massaging his prostate with his fingers so the cum shot was enormous. I couldn't contain all of it in my mouth and some leaked out the sides. I straightened up and opened my mouth to show Jeff his brother's cum. He told me to swallow it so I did. Jeff then told me to get on the edge of the bed on my hands and knees. He went to the bathroom and got some baby oil and then, after pulling the panties to the side so that my hole was exposed, put the tiny squirt hole up against my asshole and squeezed the oil into me. He pulled it away and stuck a finger into me making me shudder with hots for cock. He was telling me what a little pussy whore I was and how he was going to fuck me like a little pussy boy slut. I was panting with desire for having his big dick inside of me. He got behind me and started rubbing his cock around my hole getting me even hotter for it. He said something like he was going to stick his dick into my ass pussy. That was the first time I'd ever thought of my asshole as a pussy hole. With no preamble he stuck his cock into me until he was buried to the hilt. I was used to David's slightly smaller dick but unprepared for anything larger. The slight pain gave way to total fullness as he started sliding his cock in and out of me. His hand was holding my hair, twisting it and pulling my head back. If I Did It- - -And I Did Ch. 01 He leaned forward and was whispering to me how I was his bitch now and that he owned me for anything that he wanted. He was telling me what a pig I was and how he loved fucking boy sluts like me. I was in some other world of sex and lust and was feeding on his words and the power of his thrusts into me. He fucked me like this for what seemed like ages when all of a sudden he gave a huge push into me and I felt his hot cum pour out into my pussy ass. He gave a few more thrusts and then collapsed on top of me while his cock softened. After a few moments he got up. I was lying on my stomach while I pulsed my ass muscles pumping some of the cum out of me. He.scooped it up and stuck his fingers into my mouth so I could suck the cum off of them. He and David then positioned me on my back. Each one took a leg and pulled it over my shoulders so that my panty covered cock was over my face. Jeff pulled the panty aside so that my hard dick was over my face. The both gently but firmly pushed my legs down to that my cock was now maybe an inch from my mouth. They slowly pushed a little more and my cockhead went into my open mouth. Jeff slid his fingers up and down my slick shaft and in moments I had cum into my own mouth having given myself a hot blow job. We had all cum really hard. So we rested and then started all over again. If you're interested I'll tell you more that we did that nasty day but suffice it to say that I learned about some other wicked things. David and I continued for another six months until his family moved away. I never saw he or Jeff again. But they had "broken me" into the ways of hot sex. And it went on from there. I'll tell you more in part 2. If I Did It- - -And I Did Ch. 02 Sometimes people ask why. Why I'm attracted to cocks. Why I like to dress in women's clothing. Why I like to be humiliated. Why I sometimes such a slut. There's a lot more but those are the most common. After David and a couple of years of just his cock I went through a couple of year dry spell. I didn't want to admit to myself that I liked dicks. I dated girls and had an easy time with them. I'm five-nine and 145 with a long legged short torso body. I guess I'm decent enough looking. But after a dozen or so semi relationships and fuck buddies I was craving cock and I just didn't know how to go about getting it. When I was in my senior year of college I was lucky enough to have parents who paid for an ok apartment. No roommate necessary. I started assembling panties. I found after that time with Jeff and David, that I liked wearing girls' underwear. Not just for sex but for all the time. I loved the feel of it. I tried French cut panties, thongs, tap pants and pretty much every kind you can buy. I wanted to try other girl stuff but was reluctant as I thought my desire for girl clothes was weird. I was still having a reasonable time with girls but I was nuts for cock and didn't know where to get it without being stupidly obvious. I had found an adult book store near the university. After driving past it two or three million times I finally worked up the courage to go in. I was interested in some porn DVDs. The place was seedy and the smell of disinfectant, cum and pee kind of permeated the atmosphere. When I got there the place seemed to be empty although there was a few cars in the parking lot (I had parked a block away and walked back so no one would see me). The DVD section was divided into categories. Since the display area was empty I went directly to the gay and bi sections. After looking through tons of titles I found a gang bang video that appeared to feature a boy who looked kind of like me who, on the cover, was surrounded by five big guys who appeared to me threatening him. I picked it out and as I was heading for the cash register I spotted the transvestite/she male section. I perused the titles and was fascinated by some of the "girls" on the title covers. Not knowing anything about how crappy TV videos can be I picked one at random and took both titles to the register. The clerk asked if I wanted to preview them before I bought them. I had no clue as to what he meant but told him that I wanted to see the TV film. He collected five bucks and told me to go to booth number 3. I again had no clue so he directed me through a curtained doorway. I was in a dark hallway with numbered doors on both sides. There was a few guys kind of hanging in the hallway. They were all older and a couple of them looked pretty unpleasant. I went down the hallway until I found door number 3 and went inside. As soon as I closed and locked the door the TV video I was previewing came to life on the screen which was behind a clear but stained Plexiglas panel. The booth was maybe 4 x 4 and had a bench on the back wall facing the screen. I sat down on the bench to watch the video. Without going through a detailed description of the action on the screen, suffice it to say that it was tepid. But I was rapt by the guys dressed like girls! In short skirts and lingerie. Make up. A couple of them looked incredibly hot. I was sitting back watching while rubbing my hard cock through my shorts and panties (red satin bikini). I was into the film when I noticed a flickering light through a hole in the wall. The hole was about or close to waist high. I bent over and looked through it to see the lower half of a guy in the next booth. He was sitting on his bench but was naked from the waist down. He was slowly jacking his cock up and down while he watched his movie. I could see his screen and he was looking at a gay scene of three guys. In my naivety I couldn't figure out what the hole was there for. But I figured if he could sit there naked I could take off my shorts and sit there in my panties. I took off my shorts and t shirt and was sitting there with a spectacular hard on watching a dressed guy do a blow job to a hot looking young guy. I had my cock out of my panties and was jerking on it when I saw a finger waving through the hole in the wall. I didn't know what it meant but I was watching and wondering. The fingers were withdrawn for a few moments and then came back again. I didn't understand the universal language then but I got it when the fingers were replaced by a mouth and a tongue wagging at me. The guy wanted me to put my cock on his tongue! I was so hot at this point that without thinking about it I stood up and approached the mouth. I laid my cockhead on the tongue and then into the hot wet mouth. Fucking unbelievable! The guy was sucking my cock like a pro and had now drawn me through the hole so that my length was on his side of the thin wall and I was pressed up against it. The hole was big enough so that my cock and balls fit through it. After a few minutes of this fabulous cocksucker I was close to cumming and didn't want to do it yet so I gently pulled back so that all of me was on my side of the wall. I was panting and touching my red head when his cock came through the hole into my booth. It didn't take a fortune teller for me to figure out that he wanted me so blow him and of course I was craving a cock in my mouth so much that I went to my knees and hungrily engulfed him into my mouth. It had been a couple of years since I'd sucked on David's cock but I knew what I was doing from giving him hundreds of blow jobs. I slathered my tongue all over the head and ran it up and back on the super sensitive glans. In seconds the entire length of his cock (maybe 6-6 ½, cut and kinda thick) was in my booth along with his tight balls. I swallowed his length into my throat and used my muscles on the head milking at him while I cupped his balls in my hand. I pulled back with my mouth until just the head was in me and caved my cheeks in as I sucked it. I heard him moan from the other side as I squeezed his nuts slightly and took him in until my nose was against the plywood wall. I was fucking him in and out of my face when he suddenly pulled back disappointing me no end! I sat there on my knees waiting to see what would happen when I saw his mouth again. This time he was whispering to me. I leaned forward to hear and he said he wanted me to open my door and let him in. I didn't know what to do but I knew that I wanted his dick again so I told him OK and I unlocked the door. Seconds later he was in my little room with me. 35 or so. Six feet and decently built. I was ashamed to look up at his face from my place on my knees on the floor. "You're a good little cocksucker bitch arentcha!" he said to me as he dropped his pants and exposed his hard cock. "And you've got some hot little panties on too. I bet you're just a little pussy slut. Look up at me pussy slut!" I raised my eyes up to him and as I did he started slapping my face with his cock. I was insane with lust and made motions with my mouth opening and closing trying to get him into me. He teased me. "Want my cock dontcha bitch! Work for it you little cunt!" He finally let me have it and I went back to work on him sucking and salivating all over the cock I was in love with. I was bobbing my head up and down on him when he put a small bottle under my nose. I breathed in and felt like someone had smacked me in the head with a powerful rush of passion. I didn't know anything about poppers but the smell and it's after effect got me so hot that when he held my head with both hands and plunged himself into my throat gagging and choking me I loved it. "Fucking little cock boy! Suck my cock like the puke cunt you are! Yeah! Little fucker you love my dick!" And I did! I had my hands on his ass cheeks pulling him in closer as he held my head and fucked my face like it was a girl's cunt or a boy's ass. I was insane for it! All of a sudden the head of his hot cock seemed to swell and as it went on an outstroke he pulsed shots of hot cum into my mouth. I held his cheeks and wouldn't let him pull out until I'd gotten all of it out of him and he roughly pushed me away. "You filthy little cocksucking punk! You liked it didn't you! You fucking loved it you bitch!" And I did! I couldn't believe that I'd missed it so much! He hitched his pants back up and handed me a piece of paper with his phone number on it. "Call me fuck face. You'll be sorry if you don't" He left me on my knees in the booth. I pulled the door closed and sat there to collect myself just a little bit. I was thinking that I loved being used and abused by men. I knew that made me submissive. I also knew that I liked the feel of women's clothing or at least women's panties. And I knew that I wanted to try more fem clothing just to see how it all felt. As I sat there I thought about the fact that though I was a submissive cocksucker, I was also in control just before and during the cumming part. During those moments I had absolute and total control over the guy. And I liked that a lot! Stay tuned for part 3 Xxxxxxx Marlene If I Did It- - -And I Did Ch. 03 I never called the guy from the bookstore and never went back to that particular store again. I was really conflicted as to my sexuality at the time and what I'd done and how much it thrilled me messed with me a lot! I was dating and fucking girls and after the bookstore episode I was fucking more of them in some need to prove that I wasn't a fag (I've really thought about this over the years). When I graduated from college I got a job in San Diego. The city was a far cry from Dallas in most every way. Weather, night life, beaches etc. My parents loaned me the money for my first house. I had a great job that paid well. A nice car. Clothes. Things were pretty cool for an attractive (if I do say so myself) looking 24 year old guy! San Diego has to be one of the easiest places to meet girls in the country. I was having a ball with that too. But I craved sex with men like crazy. And I was so reluctant to go after what I wanted. I was also building up a ladies lingerie wardrobe that would shame most women. My house was a three bedroom. One of the guest bedrooms was my self-sex gratification room. I had a dresser with all of my lingerie in it. I had ten or twelve pairs of hot shoes in the closet. I had make-up (and I was getting good at putting it on) and perfume along with a 32 inch TV, a VCR and lots of porn. Lots of transvestite porn. Lots of gay twink porn. Lots of mmf porn. I had a queen bed with an iron headboard that I could use for nylon cords and a chair that was perfect for laying in with my legs up the back of it and then over my head. I had a collection of dildos ranging from a rigid five inch on up to a long fat nine inch. I had a low little bench that I could put a suction cup dildo on, straddle it and fuck myself silly. I also had a couple of butt plugs that I used to keep myself ready in the event that I got lucky and found a hot guy. I was dating around with a few girls none of which was serious. There was this one girl named Pam who was a spectacular fuck. She was 5'8" to my 5'9". I weighed (still do) 145 where she was 140. I had (still do) really full nape of the neck length auburn hair where she had short red hair. Where I was somewhat dark complexioned, she was very fair. And of course where I had nothing but a couple of nipples, she had these beautiful little a-cup up-turned breasts capped off with nipples that were even more sensitive than mine. I swear they poked out to close to an inch when she was hot for sex. We had been going out together for a few months. One night she was over at my house and we had had a really hot sex session. Tequila and pot were involved and apparently I had consumed enough so that I fell asleep immediately after my second cum. I woke up the next morning and Pam was gone. But she'd left me a note saying what a good time she'd had and that she needed to talk to me asap. The next day we met for lunch. Over coffee she asked me if I had a sister living in San Diego. I told her that I had a sister but she was in Dallas. She looked at me over the rim of her coffee cup. "Well then who do all those gorgeous shoes and all that hot lingerie in the spare bedroom belong to?" I know I must have turned fire engine red! "What are you talking about?" I asked. She laughed at me. "What the fuck do you mean what am I talking about? You know, the spare bedroom? In your house? The one with the TV, VCR, kinky porn tapes? The spare bedroom with the dresser full of panties, bras, slips, hose? The bedroom with the gorgeous silk women's dressing gowns?" "Oh. That stuff." Was all I could think of to say. "Yeah, that stuff." She said. "Who does it belong to? You? You like to wear lingerie? You like to play dress up like a girl?" I had no clue what to say. I was so fucking humiliated and embarrassed I just wanted to get up and run out the door. But instead I bit my lip and looked at her green eyes. "Well, I guess I like the feel of silk and satin against my skin." This was all I could think to say. "Do you wear this stuff when you jerk off or with other girls? Oh I know you fuck other girls but that's ok." She asked and then before I could answer she said "Of course you do. I bet you get into some hot sex fantasies dressed like a girl dontcha?" I kind of stammered around not admitting but not denying either. "Oh come on Mark. I'm not pissed off or offended. I think it's cute. And some of your stuff is absolutely gorgeous! It's stuff that I'd love to wear!" "Really? You would?" I said hesitantly. "Hell yes! Any girl would love to wear the things you have!" "Well, would you like to wear some of it sometime?" I asked her coyly. "Yes I would. How about tonight?" She asked. We made plans for her to come over that night. I went back to my work feeling like I was ready to jump out of my skin I was so excited. I don't know how I got through the next four hours of work without exploding. As soon as I could leave I went home to get ready for the night. I shaved myself smooth and put on some loose cotton pants with a t-shirt. Pam got there at seven. She looked great in some simple running shorts and an undershirt with no bra that really accented those extended nipples. I offered to make some margaritas but she was so amped with the prospects for what lay ahead that she just wanted a couple of big fat shots of tequila on an empty stomach. "I'm too excited to sit down and drink!" She said as she made her way to the hot clothes and toys bedroom. "I just want to try on some of your pretty clothes." She paused for a beat. "And I want to see you in them too!" Pam was obviously on a mission so I contented myself for the moment by sitting down in the legs over the back comfy chair just to watch her. She opened the closet and rummaged for a few moments. She selected a baby blue silk bra, panties and garter belt combination with some light blue hose and some dark blue open toed three inch pumps (my feet are size 9 ½ so they were going to be big on her but this was all for show and tell soooooo). With no preamble whatsoever she stripped off her shorts, top and flip flops and started to put the lingerie on. Pam naked is a lovely site to see and watching her put on my stuff was just hotter than hell! In moments she was standing there admiring herself in the full length mirror while I admired her from behind. Her little bubble butt looked exceptional in my panties and her long for her body legs looked just sensational in the soft blue hose and heels. "Well what the hell are you doing just sitting there looking at me?" She asked. "I want to see what you look like!" "Then you have to pick out something for me." I told her. She rummaged for a few moments and picked a pair of black bikini panties with a diaphanous front. She selected a black low cut bra with some charcoal stay up stockings topped off by a short slip and close toed four inch pumps. "Show me how you look in this Mark. But I want you to do some make-up for me too so go into the bathroom and do it while I play some more." I went into my bathroom with the outfit and my make-up kit. First I put on some eye liner followed by a black mascara and a light charcoal eye shadow. A tiny bit of color for my cheeks and a blood red lip gloss was about all the make-up I was into at that point. I put on the panties (which accented my semi-hard cock now visible thru the front and tucked to the side), stockings and shoes followed by an a-cup bra that I stuffed with some tissue all topped off by the schoolgirl length slip. I looked at myself in the mirror and liked it! When I went back into the bedroom Pam was dressed in yellow bra and panties outfits with some cream colored stockings and a pair of gold four inch pumps. She looked at me and her eyes went wide. "Fuck, Jesus you look like a fucking young girl! Model for me." I walked into the room and did a pirouette for her. "Your ass is gorgeous baby!" She said as she lifted the front of the slip. "And your hot looking cock is scrumptious in those panties and slip!" As I stood there she dropped to her knees and mouthed my cock thru the panties causing me to tent obscenely. She only did it for a minute though. "And I love the make-up!" Over the next hour or so we both modeled my outfits. After a couple more tequilas we were running our hands over each other until we were both hot. "Now I want you to put on a porn tape for me so I can see what you like." She said. "Pick something girly and raunchy for me baby!" I selected a two guys/one TV flick that I'd jerked off to numerous times and popped it in. I fast forwarded past the obligatory set-up scenes and let what I thought was the hottest scene start. She sat on the edge of the bed while I lounged in the chair. The scene progressed to the point where the hot little TV was blowing one guy while the other guy (who had a cock that was at least nine inches) fucked her from behind. Then they switched to where the guy with the big cock was fucking her face while she lay on her back with her legs up and the other guy fucked her hot wet hole. Pam watched with her mouth slightly open. Her breathing was getting shallower as the scene went on. Finally the big cocked guy pulled out of her face and jerked his cock til he shot in her mouth, on her face and in her hair. The guy fucking her pulled out of her ass and jerked off til he came on her cock and balls. By now Pam had her hand inside her panties and was obviously jerking herself. I was rubbing my cock thru the panties I had on and was rock hard and wet. "Fuck that's hot to watch!" She said. "Makes you hot too doesn't it baby." "Oh yeah it makes me hot. Crazy hot!" I told her. "Tell me the truth Mark. Will you?" She asked. I nodded my head that I would. "You wish you were here dontcha? With two guys fucking your holes? You wish you had their cum." "Oh fuck yes I do Pam. I'd give anything to be her." I said as I released my cock from the confines of the panties. She asked if I dildo'd my ass while I watched the movie. I told her that I did and that I usually started with one of the small ones and graduated up to the biggest one all the time fantasizing that each dildo was a different guy all fucking me one after another. I told her that I sucked the dildos after I took them out of my ass. She asked if I came with a dildo in me and I told her that I usually did. She then asked what I did with the cum. I know I blushed when I told her that I sometimes smeared it on a dildo and then sucked it off. "You eat your cum just like when I suck your cock and swallow it? I wanna see you do it!" She said as she fingered her pussy hole for me. "But I want to talk to you while you do it so we need a girly name for you." I'd actually never thought of this but just then it seemed like a good idea. I told her to be my guest and pick a name for me. She looked at me for a minute and then said "I think you look like a Marlene. That's it. From now on when you wear girl stuff I'm going to call you Marlene." I was so hot at the thought of a girl name and her being interested in my masturbation techniques that I decided to throw caution out the door and really put on a show for her. I told her about how I put rope through the headboard and then tied it to my ankles so I could get them over my shoulders and hold them there. She told me that she wanted to see me do it and wanted to "help". (All this time the TV porn flick is going and we're both watching as we talk) I got out my rope and three dildos along with a 36 inch "spreader" that attached to my ankles and spread me wide. At this point I had on a pair of red silk bikini panties with a matching bra, red stay up stockings and red pumps. I lay on my back on the bed and she followed my directions tying my ankles separately and then attaching the spreader. Then tying both ankle lengths to the length that ran through the headboard. She slowly pulled my legs back towards the headboard until my feet were over my shoulders and I was wide open for her pleasure. "Oh my! This puts you in such a vulnerable position Marlene!" My clit in my panties was rock hard and really straining so she pulled the panties to the side so that I sprang out. "Your ass- - -no, from now on it's your pussy, is so wide open and is just gaping at me. Your cock and balls- -I think I'll call it your clit and balls from now on, are so exposed to my every whim!" And with that she flicked her index finger against one of my balls making me flinch with the pain. "Ooooooh, that hurt didn't it Marlene. Pam's sorry but she couldn't resist!" and then she bent forward and kissed the top of my clit before she gave it a suck and tongue swirl. Then she took the bottle of baby oil gel from the night stand and rubbed some between her hands. She started massaging it into my clit, balls and pussy hole and soon was putting fingers into me. "What a hot fucking cunt you have Marlene. I've got three fingers in you and I bet you could take some more couldn't you you little slut!" I was in ecstasy with my clit pointing at my face and Pam's fingers dancing in my pussy. "Oh fuck yes! Put some more in my fuck hole you bitch! Then fuck me with your big cock!" "I want you to start jerking on that hot fat clit of yours Marlene. I want to see you slide your hand all over it while you pinch those pussy boy nipples of yours! Now do it while I stick four fingers in your cunt!" She was fucking her fingers in and out and wiggling them inside of me making me crazy. I was playing with the head of my nasty clit getting so fucking hot. While her fingers were fucking me she took the largest of the dildos with her other hand and pushed it unceremoniously into my mouth. "Now suck my cock you cum whore! Suck it like you love it!" I sucked it but really couldn't do much since she was fucking my mouth with a vengeance. "Fucking little blow job bitch! I bet you're going to cum buckets and when you do I'm going to feed it all to you like the slut cunt you are." She took the big eight inch cock away from my mouth and pulled her fingers out of me. I felt so empty but only for a moment since she took the saliva wet cock and stuck the head at my pussy hole. "I'm going to fuck you baby! Going to fuck you so fucking good!" And with that she pushed the head into me. As much as her fingers and my past playing with toys had gotten me ready for this it was still a shock when the big fat head popped past my pussy hole ring and into me. She didn't waste a moment as the head was followed by the long shaft sliding all the way into me. Pam had positioned herself so that it looked like the big dick was attached to her (I didn't have a strap on at the time) so it was just like being fucked by her own cock. I had one hard nipple between my fingers and was pinching it hard while I slid my lubed hand up and down the shaft of my hot clit. Her cock was pounding into me and she used her other hand to push my legs further over so that my clit was inches from my mouth. "Cmon you fucking cunt! Shoot that fucking cum for me! I wanna see it blow our of your clit and into your face! Cmon Marlene! Fucking do it!" She had the big dick bottomed into me and was holding it there giving shoves. It was sliding against my sensitive inner clit and I knew through my sex high that I was going to go off in moments. "Cmon bitch! Shoot the cum out your clit so I can see your eat it!" That did it for me and I felt that inexorable feeling as my girl balls tightened and the cum streamed out of me as I cried out! It was an epic gusher as three or four equal blasts of cum hit me in the face and mouth. I didn't swallow it but kept it in my mouth as more came out. She reached for my clit and squeezed it as her hand slid over it getting all the cum out of me that she could. I could feel it on my face and taste it. "Oh you fucking slut! You gave yourself a blow job hand job! What a fucking cunt!" She pulled the big cock out of me and started scooping up the cum and smearing it all over it. She stopped a couple of times to eat some off of her fingers. "Fucking boy pussy juice! Now give me the cum in your mouth bitch!" I pushed the cum out of my mouth with my tongue. She scooped it up with her fingers and spread it over her cock. "Now suck me clean slut." And with that she shoved the cum covered cock back into my face. I licked and sucked my cum off of it. "Don't swallow it Marlene. I want it too!" So I collected my cum in my mouth until she withdrew the cock. She sat back, pulled aside her panties and shoved her cock into her slick wet pussy. She didn't thrust it in and out more than three or four times before she gave a tell tale shudder and came. She fell forward onto me and pressed her lips to mine. I opened my mouth and her tongue joined mine as we played with my cum. She pulled away from my lips and told me to show her the cum I had left in my mouth. I opened and showed her the cum pooled on my tongue. She opened hers and showed me the cum pooled on hers as well. "Now swallow with me baby." We both swallowed at once. After she untied me we lay there exhausted. "Jesus but that was fucking hot Marlene! Now you have to show me more hot things you can do to yourself I wondered if I should show her how a hot bitch can fuck herself with her own clit?