10 comments/ 26617 views/ 17 favorites By Your Side Ch. 01 By: VNnight Tyler sat there and waited for the bell to ring. 'Five more minutes, five more minutes till I get out.' He sat through the boring, lifeless lecture on historical events that now have nothing to do with him. Tyler looked back at Vivan and she air shot herself with her fingers. He giggled a bit and continued doodling on his 'notes' then felt his phone buzz. Viv, of course, it said "me. u. shopping after class." Tyler slowly text back "sure." Viv and Tyler have been best friends since the beginning of time. It was odd couple, she was a short 5 foot 3 Asian girl. A bit quirky and weird, but still seemingly attractive. He was around 5 foot 9 black hair that wasn't too short or long. It was long enough to lightly cover his green eyes and was swept neatly to the right. The bell made Tyler jump a bit in his seat and he got up to meet Vivian. "So where are we going?" he asked her. Viv always dragged him around. Tyler didn't seem to mind, unless she made him hold her purse. "Mall, Plaza wherever." she giggled. "You're driving." "Oh yeah." He smiled. "I drove us this morning." Tyler walked down the hallway next to Viv. He saw Jacob Levitt. Every-time he saw him he felt his heart in his throat. Tyler and Jacob used to be amazing friends, until the day Jacob told Tyler he was gay - Then proceded to tell him how much he was in love with him. That left Tyler confused. He wanted him so much, but he can't be gay. His parents, his family, everyone would be so ashamed. That's when Tyler pulled away from Jake. He knew in his heart he couldn't be around him just as a friend, he had to be more. So he had to stop. Jacob didn't take it too well. After all he gave him, Tyler just left. "Hey Jake." Tyler called out. But no answer. He just looked at him brifely, and walked away. Tyler's heart sank. Tyler just wanted things the way they used to be.. Maybe even more. He walked idly to the car and sat in the driver seat. Viv sat next to him. "You okay?" she asked. He just stared out. "If you love him, why can't you just be with him? He loves you so much, Ty." "It's not that easy. I can't be with him. And it's been 6 months. Why the hell would he still love me? I'm such a ass." She looked at him, "Jake loves you so much, Ty and you love him. You just don't know it. He's loved you forever. Why the fuck can't you be with him?" she yelled. "I just can't." he said softly. "As much as I love him, I can't. Do you know what my parents would say? They already give me hell." "I don't understand why you're still with them either. They treat you like crap." she looked at you. "Last time it was bad enough you had a broken nose." He remembered that day. He had come home late and his father was drunk. Tyler didn't even have time to defend himself. A blow straight to the nose. He packed up his bags and crashed at Viv's for a few weeks. They have been sitting in the parking lot for over 15 minutes. "Where are we goin?" "Uhm... Mall." she said. "I need a dress." Viv smiled. "Ohh. Hot date?" he asked and laughed. "You don't remember? Friday? Party?" "You always have parties. I don't remeber one weekend you haven't had a party." they both laughed. "And guess who's going to be there?" she smiled. Tyler already knew the answer to that. "Jake Levitt?" "Yes! And you're going no matter what. I don't care! I'm dragging your ass there." she looked at his face, his reaction was blank. "Ty, sweetie?" "I can't go. Everytime I'm around him, I feel so much guilt. I want him so badly." he wimpered. "Then you need to go get him. Who cares what your parents think? If they don't support you, you still have me and everyone else by your side," And he'd hate to admit it, but Vivian was so right. "Off to the mall!" she peeped, "We need some outfits. The party is in three days." By Your Side Ch. 02 Jake watched him drive away slowly. He didn't realize that he had been staring at Tyler the entire time. He sighed and walked to Craig's car. Craig was already sitting in the driver's seat. Jake was a 6 foot 150 pound brunette. He was muscular. His hair was a bit curly with blonde streaks. "Hey babe." Jake said and kissed him on the cheek. "No football practice today?" Craig asked. "Nope," he replied, not making eye contact. The drive was 10 minutes of silence. They pulled up into the driveway of the two-story grey house. Jake got out and shut the door. They both walked inside the house and sat on the couch and pulled out their books. Craig faced Jake and put his hand on his cheek. He lent in and kissed him slowly and ran his fingers through his hair. He kissed him for a few minutes but Jake didn't seem in the mood. Jake pulled away and grabbed his history book. "So we have to read pages 210 to 230." "You still love him, don't you." Craig said with a hint of tears in his eyes. "What are you talking about?" "You still love Tyler Adams. I see the way you look at him. It's cool, I get it," he said. Even though he sounded okay, Jake knew he was hurt. "What? No. I don't. I love you, Craig." He looked at him straight in the eyes, "You don't mean that. What we have is just a fling. I completely understand, Jake." Denial was rushing through him. He wanted to say no. He wanted to say that he didn't. But he was just lying to himself. "I'm so sorry." he whispered. "It's all good." he smiled. "At least it's out in the open now." "I'm supposed to be in love with you. Why the hell do I still love him?" he buried his face in his hands. Craig rubbed his back. "Feelings are hard to get over." Jake started to cry into Craig's arms. "He left me. He just left me. Why would Tyler do that?" he sobbed even harder. "He was scared." Craig softly said. It had probably been hours until Jake was thinking straight. He looked at his phone, 9:07 p.m. "I should go," Craig was about to protest, but he walked Jake to the car and started the engine. They drove around and they pulled up into Jake's drive way. Jake didn't move, he looked at Craig for even the slightest bit of emotion. "One more kiss?" he asked. Craig leaned in. Their mouths crashed and tongues collided. He tasted the last of Craig. His sweet mouth, and mooth white teeth. Desire was overcoming Jake. Craig pulled away. "Goodbye, Jake. It was great while it lasted." "See ya Craig." he smiled and walked to the front door. Jake grabbed his keys and fumbled until he finally found the right one. He unlocked the door and walked in. His mother was sitting on the couch. "Hey Jakie." she said as he walked in. "Hey mom." he sighed. "What's wrong, sweetie?" she asked. He went over and sat next to her. She wrapped an arm around him. "Is it Craig?" "Nah mom. It's okay. We decided to break it off." he replied. Jake hoped she wouldn't ask more. "Why?" she asked. "I thought you two liked each other a lot." "Yeah we did, just not that way. I'm going to go to bed. Night mum." She kissed him on his forehead and then Jake walked up stairs. He walked into his room and sat at the desk chair. Pulling out his phone, he dialed Viv. "Hey cupcake. What's up?" he heard her cheerful voice say. "Want to pine tonight?" "Right now?" she asked. "It's like.. 11." "Yeah. I'll come pick you up." "Okay. Text me when you get here." he flipped the phone shut and grabbed the pot from his desk. He locked the door, turned off the lights and went to the window. He jumped onto the roof and slid down. Thank god he always parks down the street. Jake turned up the music and drove to Vivian's house. Her house is GIGANTIC! Her family had money, but her parents wernt always there. He saw her trotting her way to the car. She slipped in. "Lilum Park?" she asked. "Sure." they drove a while until they got to the park. They got out and sat on the bench. He lit up and inhaled. He passed the joint to Viv. "Jake, can I ask you a question." he looked at her. "Sure. Anything." "Do you still love Ty?" He sat there, quite. He took a short drag and held it in. "Well do you?" she replied. "So much. So much it hurts." he stared out at the emptiness of the park. "You know he loves you, right?" she said. He didn't respond. "Tyler is crazy about you. Why don't you talk to him anymore? He just wants you back. He wants another chance." "He left me. He had his chance." "He was scared, Jake. You have to understand." she said and flicked the bud on the ground. "He tells me all the time that he wishes that you would just talk to him. He tells me he's so in love with you and that he is such an ass to do that to you. He's just scared. He hasn't come out yet." "He just pulled away from me. I felt it too. I felt him slipping from my fingers. I tried to hold on but he just disappeared." his throat swelled. He couldn't talk. "Just give him one more chance, bub. Please." she gave him the puppy dog face. Damn that puppy dogface. He kissed her on the cheek. "I love you, you know that right?" "For sure. I love you too. You're coming Friday right?" "Wouldn't miss it for the world." they laughed and has some small talk before the got info the car. "Goodbye love. I'll see you tomorrow." "Do you need me to pick you up?" Jake asked. "Err... Ty is going to pick me up tomorrow. How about lunch?" "Sure." he laughed "Bye Viv." "Bye sexy." and she walked into her house. The ride home was lonely but short. He parked his car on the end of the street and went in the back yard and climbed up the deck to his room. Jake changed and went to bed. He couldn't sleep. All he could think of was Tyler. His cute, childish face. His laugh. His dark, thick hair. His sweet sent. Jake wanted him so bad. Just thinking about him made him hard. By Your Side Ch. 03 Tyler drove up to Viv who was waiting on the curb. She smiled at him and went to the passenger side. "Hey cutie." "Hey Viv. Morning." "So I went out with Jake last night," she said devilishly. "And?" "Woah. What happened to your eye?!" she yelped. His eye was bruised and his lip was slightly cut. Viv touched his cheek. "Nah. It's nothing. Just ran into a door." Viv looked in the back seat. There was a bag full of clothes and a pillow and blanket. "One hell of a door. Did they hit you again?" he didn't answer. "You could've called." "It's okay. I'm fine. Just a few days." he replied. "No no no no. You're coming home with me mister." she insisted. "I stay at your house too much. It's alright, I'm fine." he said and concentrated on the road. "Sweetie... Please, just come over. We have plenty of space and my mother LOVES you. She's misses you bunches." He smiled and they pulled up to the school parking lot. "So you were saying about Jake?" "We're having lunch today. Do you mind?" she asked sweetly. "Not at all, darling. Why would I mind?" he smiled and they walked into the school. Tyler dropped her off at her first period and met up with Carrie for English. "Fuck. What happened to your eye?" Carrie gasped. "You need to get out of that house." "Already ahead of ya. I pay for my own car, I have my savings account saved up, I have a job." he replied. "And I'm think about coming out to my parents around then soon too." "Good for you, bro. You need too. You're smelling more and more queer everyday." they both laughed. "I think my mom is trying to give me a hint every time she does my laundry." Mr. Richards walked up to the front of the class. He started writing today's plans on the board. "So Viv's party Friday. You going?" she asked. He laughed. "No dip. Have I missed any of her precious moments?" "Well she has tons of precious moments." Carrie giggled. "Do you still have a thing for her?" He asked. Carrie smiled and blushed. "Maybe." They both laughed. "You know she's straight right?" She looked at him and smiled wickedly. "She's bi. She just leans more to the penis side." They both burst into laughter. "Mr. Adams, Ms. Wedding, do you have something to share with the class?" "Nope." Carrie announced. "Then would you two please pay attention?" **** Jake walked out to his car. It looked like it was going to rain. He saw Tyler walk out with a black eye. He resisted the urge to go up to him and asked what happened. Probably his parents again. He'd ask Viv later. She came up to him. "Ready?" she peeped. He smiled at her and they got in. "What do you feel like eating? Italian? Chinese? Mexican?" "Hm.." she thought. "What do you feel like?" "Er.. Italian?" "Sounds good." she smiled. They ate and had some small talk. Then drove back to school. He pulled up into the parking lot. Viv kissed him on the cheek. "Later darling." she said and walked into the building. Jake looked over at the lockers and saw Tyler organizing papers. He was short compared to Jake. He smiled and walked on. "Jake!" he heard Tyler's voice call to him. He wanted to say something, but how could he? He turned around, "You're going to be late for class." Jake said. He saw a smile stretch across Tyler's face. Jake smiled back and walked to class. He met up with Michael. "Sup dude?" Michael said. He was dressed for church. Jake laughed, "What's up with the clothes?" Michael rolled his eyes. "I'm teaching youth group now and I have to go straight after school." Jake laughed even harder, "Seriously!? That's too funny." **** Tyler: "MOM!" Viv yelled. "Look who I brought home!" Viv's smoking mom came over and pulled me into her arm. If I wasn't gay, I would've popped a boner. "What happened sweetie?" she asked sweetly. Viv and her mother were so much alike. "Just some trouble at home. Do you mind If I stay here? Just for a few days." I asked. God I hated asking for favors, especially big ones like this. "Of course Hun! You can stay in the guest room. Make yourself at home." she pinched my cheek and descended into the backyard. I picked up my bags and walked to the guest room where I have stayed plenty times before. "I got to take a shower." I said. "There should be some soap, toilet paper and whatnots in the bathroom." "Thanks." I said and she walked out. I went into the bathroom and turned on the shower and started to undress. I looked at the full sized mirror. I was fit, not ripped though. I had a slight 6 pack. It wasn't very defined. Jake's body popped into my mind. His tone body, his great arms. And his 6 pack. Oh it was amazing. I've seen him naked plenty of times. My cock started to stir and I touched it through my briefs. I took them off and walked into the shower. The warm water hit against my back and all over my chest. I circled my hand around my cock and thought of Jake's hot, naked body. I thought of his hand around my dick, slowly jerking me off. I thought of his lips. I wanted to know so badly how they felt against my lips. I wanted to taste him. Every bit of him. Then I came. **** Jake: I couldn't wait till viv's party. Then I'd have an excuse to talk to him. His name raced through my head. Tyler. I got so hard. Just the thought of him made me a horny gorilla. I layed down on my bed in just my briefs and thought of him. Then I stopped. He left me. Why am I doing this? He hasn't even come out yet. He's just going to break my heart... Again. Is he worth it though? I heard my phone buzz on the bedside table. I picked it up. It was Michael. I picked up. "What's up man? It's like 2am." "DUDE. I need you to come pick me up." his voice was frantic and he sounded frightened. "Where are you?!" "I.. I don't know. Oh god. Please come help. I tried to call Wes but he didn't pick up." "Where are you Michael?" I repeated. "Club. Um.. 67th and Hander." "Stay put!" I demanded. I was already half dressed and outside. I dialed Wes. "Hello?" I heard a sleepy voice answer. "I'm picking you up. Mike is in some shit. Be outside in 2 minutes!" I pulled up and Wes jumped in. "What's wrong!?" "I don't know!" I sped off and drove to Hander street and got out. "Mike!" Wes called out. We saw him. He was freaking out. Wes ran up to him and held him. "What's wrong babe?" he led Mike into the car. "Get this shit away from me." he whimpered and handed Wes a small bag. Wes held on to him. "Are you okay?" I asked. He started to panic and breathe hard. Wes made soothing noises and rubbed his back. "It's okay baby. It's all right. Calm down." "We can't take him home like this Wes." "He can come over to my house." "Parents?" I asked. "Gone. Remember? Africa for 2 months, only ones home is Stacey and I." I drove to Wes' house and we went in and put Mike on the couch. He was starting to fall asleep and Wes helped him to the bedroom. He came back out. "Thanks for everything." he whispered. "It's no problem." "I can't believe it." he handed me the packet. "It's crank." I grabbed it. "Jesus. Are you going to flush it?" "Fuck yeah." I check my phone. 4:30am. "You should get home. We have class tomorrow." I gave him a hug and left. By Your Side Ch. 04 Jake: I pulled on a green t-shirt and slipped on some black jeans. I tousled my hair a bit. I couldn't wait to see him. I checked myself in the mirror. I was so tired, but I had to go. I hopped into my car and went on my way. I pulled up into the driveway. There were so many cars I parked down the street. **** Tyler: I found myself constantly staring at the door. I needed to see him. I was so excited. Looking over at the door, I saw 3 people walking through, still no sign of Jake. The music was loud and there were so many people. Maybe he's already here? I went to get another drink. I poured some Red Bull and vodka and went to the living room. Viv was dancing and some guy and Carrie were grinding against her. It was only 10 and she was already wasted. The thing about Viv was she was a sweet girl, but she was crazy about sex, alcohol and weed. She doesn't seem like that kind of girl, but she is. And Carrie? Don't get me started about her. She was a party ANIMAL. I turned around and tried to make my way through the people. I only knew about... 40% of the people here. I saw Danny and Gabe smoking. They motioned me towards them. "Some party." Danny said. "I don't even know any one here." We all laughed, "Do you think Viv even knows these people?" Gabe chuckled. I shrugged. Then I saw Jake standing and talking to some girls. I walked over to him. "Hey." I said. He looked at me and smiled. "Hey." jakes sweet voice replied. My heart fluttered and if he said anymore my heat would explode. "Not much." I smiled. "How've you been?" That lead to a long conversation. "Do you want to go somewhere quiet?" I asked, he lauged. "Luring me in, aren't you?" I blushed and we both started to laugh. "Yeah. That sounds nice." he said. We walked over to the room I was staying in. Thank goodness I locked it. I grabbed the key and went it. He followed and I locked the door behind us. He smiled at me. My heart was beating so fast I was going to have a heart attack. The room was pitch black but I some how found my way around. I turned on the desk lamp to keep the lighting down. He sat on the bed and I sat next to him. I wanted to touch him so bad. "God I missed you". I whispered to him. Our lips were so close it mocked me. I dove in tasting his sweet lips. **** Jake: I felt his soft lips against mine. I placed my hands on the side of his face. He tasted so good. I can't do this. I pulled away and stood. I looked at his shocked face and went for the door. "Wait." He grabbed my hand. "Please. I'm so sorry. I won't do it again I swear." I felt his breath on the back of my neck. "How do I know? Tyler you're not even out yet." I said, raising my voice. "I just won't, Jake. I did it once, I won't do it again." He was looking at me but I refused to look at him. "I poured my heart out to you, Ty. I've loved you all my fucking life. I was always there for you, I never judged! The day I told you I loved you, you just left!" I yelled. I was so angry with him. After everything, he expects me to forgive him. And I'm letting myself forgive him... His face was blank and he stared out. Tyler's face, his expression, he looked to hurt. He looked up at me with is sweet blue eyes. The left one bruised. "You think I wanted to?" he asked in a strong, hushed voice. "You think it didn't hurt me? God it was so hard to leave you." he whimpered. "It killed me everyday. I couldn't be with you. I was scared. Then when I tried to talk to you, to get you back, I got nothing." Without thinking, I turned around and pulled his face into mine. I dove my tongue in his mouth. I couldn't help myself. I had to love him. There was a faint taste of alcohol on his tongue. He pushed me onto the bed and got on top of me and our lips collided together. He ran his fingers through my hair and I felt his hard cock through his jeans. He pulled off his shirt and I pulled off mine. We laid there, he was in my arms. I buried my face in his hair. It smelt like soap. I kissed the side of his neck and his shoulder. He softly moaned and turned around to face me. He looked deep into my eyes. "I love you," he whispered. I kissed him slowly as if the last 6 months never happened. I wish they'd just disappear. He pulled away and snuggled his head to my chest. He looked so perfect. **** Tyler: I felt his heart beat. It was so peaceful. His smooth chest raised and lowered. His skin felt amazing against mine. I was lying in Jake's arms, something I've dreamed about for years. I wanted to know how long this would keep up. I hope it would be forever. Young love never lasts. I was turning 18 in 3 weeks. I still had everything to do. I had to get out of my house, go to college. I knew Jake couldn't be with me forever. I wanted him to though. Who knew Midland High's number 1 bachelor was gay? I laughed to myself. Who knew he wanted to be with me? He gently stirred and I realized he was asleep. I closed my eyes and hoped this moment would last forever. By Your Side Ch. 05 Tyler: I woke in his arms. It felt so good. My head was rested on his arm and I was holding his body close to me. I saw his eyes peer open. "Morning sunshine." I whispered to him. He smiled and played with my hair sweetly. I kissed his side and snuggled into him. He touched my eye gently, the swelling had gone down, but it was still bruised. "What happened this time?" he asked. I looked down at his chest and sighed. "He just hit me. He was drunk and my mom was coked out." "I'm so sorry, Ty." he whispered. Then Jake just held me close. Everything was so perfect... until there was a loud bang on the door. "OPEN UP!" a voice yelled in. "I GOTTA USE THE TOILET!" Startled, I started to get up but Jake put me back on the bed. "I got it." he whispered. He opened up the door and some guy from my bio class ran to the bathroom. He didn't even bother to shut the door. We heard a loud sigh and a trail of pee. We both chuckled softly. We heard a flush and he came out. "Thanks." he said cheerfully and left. We laughed and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth then handed the brush to Jake. We always used to share toothbrushes while we were kids. As he brushed his teeth I held him from behind, wrapping my arms around him. I trailed kisses up and down his back. He turned around and tapped my chin up for a kiss. I tasted the mint from the toothpaste. He pulled back and smiled and I looked into his eyes. I saw nothing but love. We got dressed and I gave him a shirt since his was missing from last night. We walked downstairs to see people sprawled everywhere. Must have been one hell of a party. Viv walked out of her room and some guy followed. "I had a great time." he said seductively to her. She smiled and winked at him and he left. "Who was that?" I asked. "Um.. I think his name was Andrew." "Think?" Jake chuckled. "Well you guys had some hot gay sex last night. Why couldn't I get some." she laughed. "For your information, nothing happened." I snickered. Viv just laughed and walked to the kitchen. "Pancakes or waffles?" she called out. "I'm feeling pancakes!" she said again. "Anything's fine." Jake called back. People moaned and snored everywhere. There were dozens of cans and bottles on the floor. I checked the time; it was 12:57 p.m. "Shit." Jake cursed under his breath. "My mom's going to kill me." he looked at me. "Better be getting home." He kissed me on the forehead and went out the front. I walked back to the kitchen to find Viv with a box of pancake mix. "So what did you two do last night?" she asked curiously. I looked at her and laughed. "Well.. We talked for a while. Then I brought him upstairs. We kissed and then he pulled away and told me he didn't want to be hurt again. Then we made out and spooned." She looked at me in disbelief. "That's it?" I looked at her and nodded. "Yep. He says he wants to take it slow." As we ate, I looked at my phone, a new text. 'Hey my mom is totally biting my neck about staying out all night. Miss you already I smiled to myself. I text back 'I miss you too. I want to see you again.. Or now:) How bout tonight? 'Idk my mom is kinda pissed. I'll call you later, k? 'K' I text back. "Oh Jesus. Was that Jake?" Viv asked. I smiled at her. She rolled her eyes. "And to think you guys ever avoided each other!" We both broke out in laughter. **** Jake: I called Sadie. "Hey, do you think that you could cover my shift tonight?" I asked. "Sure. I need the overtime." she said. "Thanks Sadie. You're the best," "I know." she laughed. "Bye." I hung up. Now I can make plans with Tyler. God he is so cute. I smiled to myself. I couldn't get him out of my mind. I dialed his number "Hey." I heard his sweet voice say. "Hey. Dinner and movies tonight?" He laughed. "This is going to be our first date." I switched hands. "I'd love to." I smiled from ear to ear. "Pick you up at 7?" "Sounds good. I can't wait." I hung up and smiled. I couldn't stop smiling. I checked the time. 5:28. A little more than an hour. Shower! That's what I need. As soon as I got out, I dried myself off. I looked in the mirror. Quite satisfied with my body, I pulled on some briefs. I looked for some jeans and a dark blue polo. Time. 6:50. I grabbed my car keys and started up the car. Te drive to the house was 5 minutes. I pulled up and called Ty. "I'm here." "Okay. I'll be out in a sec." He hung up and I saw him walk out. He was wearing dark jeans and a button up shirt with sleeves that stopped at his elbow. He smiled at me and got into the passenger seat. **** Tyler: I was smiling from ear to ear. Nothing could ruin my mood now. He looked over at me. "Hi." he said. I grinned. "Heya," I replied. He pulled out of the long drive way. "Where are we going?" "Gold Snapper." he said. "Holy crap. That place is usually booked! How'd you get us in?" "Err.. I know a guy." he smiled and concentrated on the road. His hand was sitting on the glove compartment and I gently weaved my fingers between his. He grabbed my hand and kissed the back of it. I loved to touch of his skin. It felt so good. **** Jake: We got to the restraint and ate. The bill wasn't too bad. I saw Tyler try to sneak and pay for the tab but I stopped him. We walked out back to the car and drove to the theaters. We picked a fairly old movie that was out. As we walked inside, he held my hand. We went into the dark theater; thank god no one else is here. He guided the way to some seats in the middle of all the seats. The previews were almost over and the movie was starting. I looked down and saw that his fingers were still intertwined with mine. Tyler looked at me and covered my lips with his. While tasting every inch of his mouth, I lifted up the armrest between us and he inched closer to me. I ran my hand slowly up his thigh. He moaned and nibbled on my bottom lip. Wrapping ha arms around me, he trailed kisses to my ear. "I want you to fuck me tonight." Just his words made my cock so hard it felt like it was going to burst. He sucked on my earlobe and I moaned longingly. "I want you to fuck my virgin ass." His words sent me over the edge. "Your wish is my command," I whispered back to him. He pulled back and smiled, giving me one last long kiss. Then he turned his attention to the movie. I was so hard it hurt. He had me wrapped around his fingers, and I liked it. When the movie was over I nearly jumped out of my seat. We ran to the car and we sucked face for a little more. I wanted him so bad. I peeled out of the parking lot and almost sped to Viv's house. We quietly entered and fumbled into the bedroom, our lips clashing together. I laid him down on the bed gently and kissed his neck. Sucking gently at his soft skin, he moaned in desire. I pulled off his shirt and mine and started unbuckling him. Trailing kisses down his chest, I made it down to his briefs. I rubbed my face against the cloth. I pulled away at his waistband. He was huge! At least 9 inches, considering how short he was, I was surprised. "God dang. You grew." I smiled at him. He chuckled and I licked up his shaft. I sucked on his head, feeling the sponginess. Ty squirmed around and I bobbed my head up and down his long cock. "Mm..." he moaned. "That feels so good." I licked around his balls and sucked one into my mouth, then the other. I went down further and licked the sensitive skin right underneath his large balls. Then I took him again in my mouth. He was going to cum soon, I felt it. I picked up my pace. He moans loudly and began to twitch. I felt spurts of hot cum hit the back of my throat. It quickly filled up my mouth and I went up to kiss him again. I pushed some of his cum into him mouth and he took it without hesitation. He was breathing heavily. "Fuck." he whispered, "That felt so good." "I'm glad." I smiled at him. It took him a while to settle down and before I knew it, his lips were on mine again. He pulled back and smiled at me. Tyler ran his hands across my chest and shivers went up my spine. He unbuckled me and pulled my briefs off and my dick hit him on his chin. Tyler laughed and sat there for a bit. "You don't have to," I said reaching down to him. "No. I want to. It's just.. I.." "It's fine. I can wait." and it was true. I could. I could wait forever for him. "I'm sorry." he whispered. I kissed him softly and put on my clothes. "You aren't staying?" he asked. "I have to get home. See you tomorrow?" "Yeah." he looked disappointed. He walked me out and kissed me again. I drove off to my house. There was a car parked in the drive way and I saw Craig standing there. I got out and walked towards him. "Hey, what are you doing here?" I asked curiously. "I love you," he whispered. He came towards me and crashed his lips onto mine. He was drunk. I pulled away. "No, you don't Craig. You're drunk." He babbled a bit. "I do. I do. I love you so, so much. But then you have to go back to the guy who left you. You left me, the person who was there for you, who loved you even if you didn't love him. Who held you every night and kissed you all the time. The person who came to all your football games and who held your hand at the mall and wasn't ashamed of it." "Craig..." I whispered. I didn't know what to say. It was true. He came towards me again and pressed his lips up to mine. I didn't try to fight it this time. I just stood there. By Your Side Ch. 06 Jake: What the fuck did I do? It's only been 2 days and I've already cheated on the guy I'm with. But Craig, he was so hurt, so... Sad because of me. I haven't slept all night and school starts in two hours, and there Craig was, laying next to me. I was repulsed with myself. How could I have done this to Ty? I tapped Craig awake, he smiled at me. "Good morning," he said. "You should go." "What? It's only 5, we have two hours." he replied. "You should go. Now." I demanded. "What's wrong? You didn't have fun?" "Craig! I'm with Tyler now! What happened last night was a mistake! I shouldn't have done it." He looked even more hurt now, but I wasn't going to mend it with sex. "I'm sorry," he said. "I'll be going." "Here, let me walk you out." "No. I'll be fine. I know way out." he pulled on his clothes and left through the window, something he's done plenty of times before, but this may be his last. God, I'm so stupid. Last night, I should have just talked to him, I should have just been there for him, not fuck him. I shoved my face in the pillow... Do I tell Ty? Or do I just keep it to myself? All I know is, that today was going to be a long day. *** Tyler: I woke up and checked my phone. Several calls from my mom. She probably wants me home again; I'd have to pack my stuff now. I called her back. "Tyler?" I heard her shaken voice ask. "Yes?" "Your father and I would like you to come home tonight. He says he's sorry, he won't do it again." I knew what she said was a lie, I knew they would keep doing it. "I'll be home at six," I responded and hung up. I got ready for school and brought all my stuff down stairs. I met Vivian's mom in the kitchen, she and Viv were sitting at the table. "Morning, Tyler." she said cheerfully. "Coffee? Waffles? Help yourself." "Thanks," I said politely. "What are you doing with all of your stuff?" Viv asked, eyes glaring. "My mom called. She wants me home." "Oh my god." Viv said, annoyed. "Why do you keep going back there?!" "Because they're my parents, I only have until the end of the year with them left." "Fuck dude." "Vivian! It's unladylike to use vulgar language." her mother scolded. "Are you sure that's such a good idea Tyler? I mean you're welcome here all day any day." "Thank you, a lot. But I have to go home. You ready Viv?" she rolled her eyes and grabbed her backpack. We walked out to the car and I started it up. "Want to drive?" I asked her. A smile stretched across her face. "Really?" "Sure. It's not that far." She hopped into the drivers seat and pulled out. I was scared to death. Luckily, we didn't crash and die. Ali came towards me and she looked serious for the first time in a while. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Um.. We need to talk." "About what?" "Well, I saw something last night. And as a friend, I think you should know about it." "And that is?" I was afraid to hear it. She pulled me to the side. "So you and Jake kind of have a thing, right?" I nodded. "I had my window open last night, Jake came home around 10-ish and Craig was there. They were arguing for a little... Then they kissed." my heart sank. I clenched my fists. "Then in the morning, I saw Craig leave, he looked pretty pissed off though, but he spent the night." I just stood there. I felt like melting. I know I shouldn't jump to conclusions. "You all right babe?" she asked me. "You want me to kick someone's ass?" I shook my head. "I'll ask him about it." I walked inside the building, Jake was at his locker. I walked up to him. "Hey, Ty. Can we talk?" "That's what I was coming here for. What did you do last night?" he looked sad, guilty even. I was so pissed off. "I'm sorry Ty." "Don't you put that bullshit on me. What the hell did you do?" I asked him. "I'm sorry." I was furious! I heart ached and it was going wild. "How could you do that to me? We have been going out for what? 2 days? It took me six months to get you, then you went and nailed someone? That's unfair!" "Well it took me 5 years to get you Ty! Then you just left me! You think that's fair? You think I enjoyed sitting back, watching you screw some chicks here and there?" "So this was all for revenge on me? Pretend you like me and then just go off with your little Craig? Is that it?" "You don't understand! He came over, he was sad and drunk, I didn't know what to do. One thing lead to another. I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry Tyler. You have to believe me. Please." I shook my head and turned away, my face was hot and my throat was swelling. "Tyler, please." I walked away. By Your Side Ch. 07 Jake: My heart crashed. Why the hell am I so stupid? I slammed my locker shut. Vivian walked towards me, we were good friends, but she and Ty were like glue. "Dude, what the fuck?" I dropped my head. The bell rang, I walked but she stopped me. "Talk to me, what's going on." The hall way was completely empty and we walked out to the back of the building and sat on a bench. "Tell me. Please. I'll try to understand." "It was stupid, he came over, told me he loved me, wanted to know why I left him for the person who left me. And it's just..." I paused for a moment, holding my breath, "what he said was true. I didn't want him to hurt, seeing him like that, so vulnerable, so hurt because of what I did, it made me sick. I didn't realize how much it hurt worse to see Ty like that though." She took my hand in hers. "So you still want to be with him?" "More than anything, but I screwed it up." "I used to have this same conversation with Ty. Here's what you need to do, Jake, you need to fuck him." I burst out in laughter. God she's so weird. She looked at me, she was dead serious. "Laugh all you want, I'm not kidding. You need to." "How do I if he doesn't even want to be near me? He might call the cops." by now we were both laughing. She shrugged. "He'd do it, trust me." *** Tyler: Don't think about it, don't think about it. Carrie looked at me, concerned. "What's wrong, Ty?" I shook my head. I just wanted to leave. My heart literally ached; it felt like it was tearing. How could he do that? I thought... he loved me? I've loved him, for a long time. I guess it was time wasted then, he's moved on from me. Concentrate, Tyler, get yourself together. He's just some boy... Some freakishly cute boy. Who is a great kisser and made me feel amazing. Who told me he loved me and then went and fucked another guy. Who lied to me, who made me believe him. Just some boy who let me stay at his house, the boy who let me sleep in his bed and insisted he slept on the floor, the boy who has known all of my secrets since I was 9. The one that I wanted to hold at night. Yeah, just that boy.... What am I doing to myself? I'm just making it harder. It's even worse trying to leave him this time around. The bell rang and I got up quickly and went to my locker. I flipped open my cell phone; 4 missed calls and 15 unread text. Ugh. They're all from Jake. I listened to a voicemail, "Ty, please pick up, please. I'm so fucking sorry. I didn't mean to. Please just please talk to me." I tossed my phone back into my locker, I didn't even want to look at him. And then I did, walking towards me, guilt in his eyes. I hoped to God he was going through hell.... Then I realized that's what I put him through. He stood, right in front of me, his eyes were dropped onto the floor. "Tyler," he whispered. "What?" I responded. He shifted his weight and before I knew it, his lips were on mine. I pulled away quickly. "What the hell are you doing?" He looked at me, "I love you, I love you so much Ty. It kills me. I'm so sorry I did that to you. Please. Give me another chance." "I don't know. I got to get going." I walked to my 2nd hour. This was going to be a long day. *** Jake: I went home, heart broken. My mom wasn't home; I'll just tell her I felt sick. I do feel sick. I kicked off my shoes and went to bed. The urge to call him was tugging at me. I want him back. I'm going to get him back. I absolutely have to get him back. I laid there forever, my head buried in my pillow. Why am I such a fuck up? "Jake?" my mothers voice rang out, "I'm home!" I heard her footsteps up stairs. She knocked on the door. "Come on in." She looked at me, "What's wrong, sweetie? You look sick?" "I didn't feel good today so I came home. If that's alright." "Oh of course." she touched my forehead. "No fever. Will you be going to school tomorrow?" I thought about it, "It depends on how I feel in the morning." "Alright, you rest up, okay?" she patted my shoulder and left the room, closing the door behind her. My phone vibrated. Viv. 'hey chap, I talked to ty. call me when u get this.' I waited a few minutes, and then dialed her. "Hey, what's up? Where were you today?" "I left to go home early." "Oh. You feeling okay?" "Yeah. I guess..." I paused. "Actually, I feel like shit." "Well, I talked to him...." "And?" "He was pretty pissed off. He said he never wanted to see you again. But then I told him that you gave him a second chance, why couldn't he? He was pretty quiet after that." "Thanks, Viv. I can talk to him later. Hopefully." "Okay, sleep tight. Night." "Night." She hung up. I don't know now. I called Tyler. It went to voicemail, again. "Hey Ty, it's me. Please pick up. I'm sorry. You don't know how much I'm sorry. Please, just talk to me. I'm so stupid, I know... God you're probably just going to delete this but whatever. I just want you back Ty, I'm sorry. I made a mistake, but hell, I make a lot of them. I spent half a fucking year trying to avoid you, I didn't realize how much time I was wasting, being stubborn. I should have just forgave you, and maybe, we wouldn't be in this situation. And maybe right now, you'd be here, in my arms. The way I've always wanted it to be. Anyways. Please, I'm sorry. Bye." God, I hoped he'd listen. Just hear me out, just want me back like I do. I was in over my head, what I did was wrong and unforgivable. I'm just going to sleep it out now and hope he calls back. *** Tyler: I sat at the dining room table, across from my father, my mother sitting next to me and an empty chair to my right, where Addie used to sit, but she's long gone now. She offered to take me in, but she lives in Seattle now. She's the only one in my family who knows about me being gay and she accepts it. If my parents ever found out, they'd over freak. My parents were the biggest homophobes ever. Maybe I shouldn't tell them, maybe I should just get my ass out of here. "So, how is school, Tyler?" my mom asked. "Fine, I guess." My mom used to be the best. Until she found some drugs. She's a great mom, just not when she's coked out. But it's rare. My dad, well... I put up with him. He's a drunk, a violent drunk. They used to go to church every Sunday, maybe that's why they're homophobes. "You're making decent grades." "Yeah." "It's great to have you home, ain't that right, Steven?" He just grunted and focused his attention to the football game on the tv, shoving a mouth full of potatoes in his mouth. I just played with the uneaten food on my plate. My mom was sitting and smiling, acting as if we were the perfect family. In her dreams, we were far from perfect, we were far from family. "Are you going to eat, Ty?" she asked in the sweetest voice it almost made me sick. "No, I'm not. May I be excused?" "Sure." she smiled a hurt smile, I left anyways. It was good to go back to my room. It felt better. I jumped on my bed and looked at my phone. One missed call and one new voicemail. Would it hurt to listen? Probably, I hit play anyways. "Hey Ty, it's me. Please pick up. I'm sorry. You don't know how much I'm sorry. Please, just talk to me. I'm so stupid, I know... God you're probably just going to delete this but whatever. I just want you back Ty, I'm sorry. I made a mistake, but hell, I make a lot of them. I spent half a fucking year trying to avoid you, I didn't realize how much time I was wasting, being stubborn. I should have just forgave you, and maybe, we wouldn't be in this situation. And maybe right now, you'd be here, in my arms. The way I've always wanted it to be. Anyways. Please, I'm sorry. Bye." Hearing his words made my hear ache again. Why was he blaming himself for something I did? Those six months were my fault, but he was blaming himself. I felt sick, like I was going to vomit. Should I call him back? Talk to him? No. I can't. Not now. It's too soon.. I should just focus. Stay cool. I got ready for bed and laid down for a while, thinking about him. I fell asleep without warning. * I woke up dizzy; I washed my face and got ready for school. Another long day, wasting my time just sitting and people waste their time just talking to people who don't even listen. I pulled on a red shirt and some jeans and grabbed my book-bag. Walking down the stairs I called Viv. "Hey," she said. "Hey. Need a ride?" "Came early, remember? Tuesday, student council." "Oh yeah." I replied. "Got to go, I'll see you later." she hung up. My mom was in the kitchen. She had been cooking. My dad was already off at work. I walked over and she looked at me and smiled. "Morning, Ty. Breakfast?" I grabbed a plate and got some eggs. I ate and put my dishes in the sink. "What time will you be home tonight?" she asked. "Eight. I work after school today." "Ah." she sighed. "Do you still work at that video store?" "Yeah. It pays okay and I mostly just stand there." she kissed my cheek and I got into my car. It wasn't much. Just a hunk of crap, but it works. The drive was short and I got a good parking space. I looked around for Jake's car, it wasn't anywhere so I went to my locker. Viv walked over to me, "Hey," she smiled. I smiled back. "What's up?" "Ehh. Nothing. Boring meeting this morning. So what's the news with Jake." I sighed and let her listen to the voicemail. "He's so adorable, Ty. Just give him another chance." I shook my head. "I... I don't know. I'll talk to him today." "GOOD." she said. She patted me on the back and left for class. I looked at my phone, I'll find him during lunch. Carrie met up with me for English. We walked side by side and sat next to each other, like always. "What's been up?" she asked. I looked at her, "You don't know?" "Well.... I do, Viv told me. What are you going to do about it?" "I'll talk to him during lunch." I replied. "Ehh. He's not here. I looked for him earlier for social studies but he's home, sick." Shit. I'll leave during third then. I'll go see him. God I don't know how much longer I could wait. I needed to see him. * I got into my car and drove to his place. I haven't been here in forever. I got out of my car and walked up to the door. I gently knocked on the door. Jake's mom opened up, he face was a mixture of surprise and anger. "Oh hello, Tyler. I haven't seen you in a while." I knew she hated me after what happened. Maybe she'll grow to like me again. "Hi." I said in a sweet voice, "Is Jake in?" "He's upstairs, he's not feeling well. You can go on up if you want." "Thank you," I replied and took off my shoes and walked up the stairs. The door was the second one on the left. I gently tapped it and went inside. He was lying on his stomach with the blanket up across his bare lower back. His head was turned towards the opposite wall. I don't think he knew it was me. I walked closer to him and I took off my shirt and lifted up the covers and sank in. I laid my head on his warm shoulder and draped my arm across him. I embraced his warmth and soapy sent. I heard the front door shut and a car pull away; his mother was probably off to work. We laid like that for a while. Then he turned and faced me, he pressed his soft lips to my forehead. "I'm so sorry," he whispered. I didn't say anything, I just pulled myself up to his lips and tasted them. He probed his tongue in my mouth and I gladly let it explore. I was getting so hard feeling his skin against mine. I pulled myself of top of him and moved my lips onto his neck. He sighed happily and I started to undo my jeans. I managed to kick them off I trailed kisses down his chest. I made out with his abs, licking and teasing them. There was a huge, loose bulge in his boxers. I'm going all the way today. I gently nudged it, sucking through the fabric. He let out a gasp as I pulled the boxers off, revealing his long cock. I slowly kicked and sucked for a little. Then he turned me until we were in a sideways 69 position. He took me into his mouth. It felt so good as Jake slowly bobbed his head and rubbed my sack. I felt like I was going to explode. Jake pulled away and brought me back to his lips. I was so hard it hurt. He gently moved his hand around my aching cock. "I love you," I whispered to him. He smiled and leaned over to his side table. He pulled out a condom and a small tube of lube. He was about to rip open the condom but I stopped him. "Are you sure?" he asked. I nodded. "I want to feel you." He kissed me and I laid on my back as his lips met mine. He applied the lube directly to my hole and then some on his fingers. He slipped one in and I gasped. "Just tell me when to stop, I don't want to rush you." It felt so good. He slipped another finger in, I moaned. "Are you ready?" he asked sweetly, I nodded. I got up on my hands and knees and he applied more lube. The tip of his head pushed in. It hurt so much. I groaned in pain. "I'll stop." he said. "NO!" I practically screamed. I wanted this. I wanted him. He nudged in further, being careful not to hurt me. It burned and after he was fully in, he waited. "God you're so tight." he whispered. Jake bent over me and kissed my shoulder and my back. He gently thrust into me. I didn't feel anything... Then he thrust again and I moaned. That... Felt good. His fingers intertwined with mine and I squeezed them. We were both grunting like animals and he jerked me off with every thrust. "Fuck," Jake said. "I'm going to cum." He pulled out and I collapsed and turned over on my back. He jacked me off while he was doing himself, I came first the Jake did. We both lay there, breathless and panting. He grabbed a shirt from the floor and whipped us off. I kissed him again and we held each other close. I checked the time, it was almost three. We were at it for two hours. "I have to go soon, I have work." I said. "Me too." I pulled my face to his again and kissed him. I put my clothes on and he walked me out. "What time do you get out?" "Nine. Sometimes I close up around 11. It depends." "Oh." he kissed me. "I'll see you soon." "Bye," I smiled. I drove off and got to the video store. My shift was with Frank today. He's a cool guy, weird though. He's like, modern day Yoda, no joke. He knew the answer to everything. I grabbed my work shirt out of my backpack and change in the car. I walked in, "Hey Frank." "Hi Tyler. How's it going?" "Alright. How about you?" "You look sad," he said. I shrugged, "Just worried, I guess." "Want to share?" "It's just, I found a guy that I really like. But I don't know how long I could keep it away from my parents. If they found out, I'd be doomed." "Well, have you discussed this with them?" "No, if I ever brought up something remotely gay, they'd lecture me about how sinful most of my friends are and they're lucky that they have a 'normal' son. Too bad I'm gay as fuck." We both laughed a little, "Well, you're almost out of the house, they can't bother you then." "Yeah... That's three months. Way too long." He shrugged, "Better than never." By Your Side Ch. 08 *Two weeks later* Jake: I've never been happier in my life. Everything felt good. Everything was right. We were going out tonight, the whole gang. Going to Randy's gay bar. We were going to have fun tonight. I've been waiting a whole week for today. I haven't been to Randy's in a while. I sat at work, we were slow for a Friday afternoon. "You can go if you want." Sadie offered. "Nah. I'll keep you company." I smiled. "Suit yourself," she laughed. I felt bad for her. She didn't have a lot of friends, she didn't go out much. She's such a sweet heart too. She was just really shy. "I was wondering, we're going to Randy's tonight, wane come?" She laughed again, "I'm not gay." "You don't have to be, half the people who are going tonight aren't. It's a fun place, the people there are friendly... Maybe too friendly." Sadie smiled, "Really?" "Yeah. They'll grind up on you but-" "No, not that, you really want me to go?" "Yeah. Sure. Why not?" "Eh. I don't know... I really don't go out much. I don't have many friends around here. I kind of have no life for a 21 year old." "You have me and you can make some tonight. Everyone's cool. Trust me, you'll befriend everyone." "Cool, what time?" she asked. "Around 9, what your address? We'll come pick you up." She gave me her address and I wrote it down. We spent the rest of the shift chatting, I got three tables, then I went home to get ready. I had to pick up Tyler, Vivian and Sadie. Wes, Carrie, Mike and Stacey were meeting us up there with a few more. Tonight is going to be awesome. What do I wear? I should be a little conservative tonight since I'm going with Tyler. The thought made me smile. I'm going with Tyler. I smiled again. I put on a snug shirt and some jeans and went to Ty's house. Viv was there too so I'd only have to go to two stops. When I got there I called them. "We're almost done," Viv said and hung up. That means another twenty minutes. I laughed to myself and waited patently. They finally got out. Viv was wearing a short, dress that stopped about mid-thigh and the end looked tutu like. Tyler was wearing a black button-up shirt with sleeves that stopped above his elbows and dark red jeans and his hair was slightly spiked. They got in and Ty sat next to me, Viv sat in the back. "Hey," he said and kissed me. "Hi. Were going to pick up a friend of mine, is that okay?" "Yeah, the more the merrier," Viv said. "I text Carrie and Wes, they're going to be there around 9:15." "Cool, we'll be there by then." I drove to Sadie's house and she was waiting outside. She hopped into the back seat. "Hey, guys, this is Sadie, my coworker. Sadie, this is Viv and Tyler. They don't bite... Unless you're into that stuff." we all were laughing and Sadie and them were hitting it off good. A lot faster than I thought. Viv and Sadie chitchatted in the back seat and Ty was holding my hand. "You look nice," I said. He blushed. "You should see what I have under here," he whispered and laughed. "Well I'll just have to see about that, won't I?" I smiled at him. Viv cleared her throat. "Excuse me. You guys can act all sexy later." We all cracked up. I pulled into the parking lot, it was 9:20. We got out and heard the loud music. Tyler was still holding my hand as we walked in, the bouncer greeted us and let us in, he didn't ID, we didn't even have to pay. We saw Carrie and the guys sitting at the table and we walked over and joined them. Carrie ordered drinks for everyone. Wes and Mike went up to dance, we watched them from the table. One minute they were dancing, the next they were humping and trying to swallow each other. All of the girls started to dance and started a frenzy, it was ridiculous. We all laughed and danced. I went to the bar to order another round. I sat on the high bar stool and Tyler followed behind me. He leaned up and pressed his lips against mine, I slid my tongue over his. "Are you having fun?" I ask. "Oh yes." he smiled, "but just wait until later, because tonight, I'm all yours." I kissed him deeply again, "I can't wait." He walked back over to the table and talked to everyone, I brought the shots over. "To life!" Viv cheered, half drunk. We all clinked our glasses together and drank, then lime. I was feeling good. I couldn't wait to get with Tyler, alone and in my arms. I wasn't just going to fuck him tonight, it was going to be long and passionate. I made sure my house was going to be empty. We drank and had fun, it was around 2, almost closing time. We all left, thank God I wasn't too drunk, nor was Wes so every one would get a safe ride home. I dropped Viv off at her house, then Sadie. Then I drove past Tyler's house, he smiled at me and knew what we were going to do. We got in and I pressed him against the wall and kissed him deeply. I traits kisses down his neck. He dragged us up stairs and we got into my room. He pulled off my shirt immediately and unbuckled my pants. He threw me aggressively on to the bed. He peeled off his shirt and pants to reveal a tight thong, I was so hard. I sat up against the backboard of my bed and he crawled on top of me and kissed me. He got up and did pelvic thrusts in front of my face. I rubbed my cheeks against his bulge and sucked through the fabric. He moaned and I pushed him on his back kissing his body, his warm chest. He rolled on top and kissed me. Tyler practically ripped off my underwear and kicked off his. He rubbed his long cock against mine, each time was like an electric shock. Something I needed. It felt so good. I laid him back and encased his dick in my mouth, I wanted to do everything to please him. He ran his fingers through my hair. "Mmm... Yeah. That feels so good," he whimpered. I bobbed my head back and forth, sucking on his head. I kissed up his stomach and he pushed me down and licked up my shaft, I shivered. He sucked my balls, suctioning them in each one at a time. I felt like I was going to explode. I pushed him. Away and he laid on his side, I turned him around and grabbed the lube. I applied a lot. I gently nudged in. He groaned. I slid all the way and arched my back and his formed around mine so he was curved too. "Oh god, yes." he whispered, breathless. I thrust into him and rolled him on top of me. I entered in and out, he moaned in pleasure. It felt so good to be apart of him. *** Tyler: I laid in his arms, we were both hot and breathless, it was close to 5 in the morning when we finished. Now it's about 6. I snuggled into him and his arms wrapped tighter around me. Last night couldn't have been more spectacular. I knew in my heart I loved him, so much. He made me feel so complete. We both held each other close and decided on some sleep. * We both woke up around noon. "When does your mom get home?" I asked. "Not until tonight. She's out of town visiting my aunt." I smiled and kissed him. We both got dressed and went down stairs for breakfast.. Or lunch. I've worked up quite the appetite. We went down stairs and he fixed us something to eat. Then we kissed and held each other on the couch. "I have to go," I whispered. "No..." I smiled and kissed him again. We walked out to his car and I wound my fingers in his. He drove to my house and parked down the street. I kissed him deeply. "I love you," I told him. "I love you too." I walked inside. My mom was up cleaning the house, my dad took the day off I guess. They were in the living room. "Where were you?" my mom asked me. "Out with some friends." "With who?" "Vivian, Carrie, Jake, Wes. Whoever I normally hang out with." "Why do you hang around all house fags, Ty. You'd better get yourself some real friends." my dad laughed. "I hope that Jake boy didn't try to make a move on you." He kept making jokes. "Well did it ever occur to you that I'm a fag, Dad?" The room got quite and he stopped laughing. "What did you say?" "I'm a fag. I'm gay. I liked being fucked in the ass. I like sucking cock. What more do you want me to say to you? I'M GAY!" My mother and father just looked at me with disgust. I could have worded that better, but that's what came out. And after all these years, how could they know I'm not gay? It's kind of obvious. My dad looked at me. "You're not gay, those kids are getting into you. I cannot have a gay son." "Well face it dad, you do. There isn't anything you can do about it." He grabbed my shirt by the collar and slammed me against the wall. "You can't be gay! Do you know how disgusting that is, you little perv? Do you know how much God hates you?" he threw me onto the stairs. "Go to your room before I beat the shit out of you!" he screamed. I ran and locked the door behind me. I sat against it and quietly sobbed. It felt good though. I heard then yelling downstairs. "What are we going to do?" my dad yelled at my mom. "I don't know. How the hell did he end up gay?" "It's those damned kids he hangs out with. What are our families going to say, Rachel?" "I don't know." she said. I heard a slam. He probably hit kicked a wall. Two hours passed, the called for me downstairs. My dad was sitting at the dining room table and my mom was standing behind him. I sat down across from them. "Were going to try this again. Tyler, you're not gay, those kids are brainwashing you." my dad said. "No, I'm gay." My mom looked furious "You aren't gay for Christ-sake! It's unholy. A man cannot love another man!" "Don't preach to me about your God! You're the ones that get drunk and beat your child! You love each other more than your own children. That's why Addie left! And I do love another man. I love Jake, and he loved me." She slapped me across the face, hard. She started to cry. "Pack your bags" my dad said, "were going up to Seattle." By Your Side Ch. 09 Jake: My phone rang, I looked at it, it was Tyler. "Hello, love." I said as I picked it up. It sounds like he was crying. "I told them," he said in a hushed voice. "What?" "I came out to my parents." My hear dropped, "Are you okay? Did they hurt you? Where are you now?" I asked in one jumbled mess. "I'm. I'm fine. But they say I can't see you again. They said I'm a disgrace to everything and we have to leave for a while. Were going to Seattle for a few months." My heart was now in my throat. "You're leaving?" He cried, every time he cried I wanted to die. He meant everything to me and if he hurt, I wanted to end it. Tyler is so precious to me. "Hey now. Everything's going to be okay," I told him. "I love you so much, Ty." "I love you, too. Can I see you? Soon please." "Just tell me a time and place and I'll be there." He was quiet for a little. "Lilum Park. Second bench from the jungle gym around ten tonight?" That was where I told Tyler for the first time. "I'll be there," I told him. "I love you." "You don't know how much I do," he whispered. "I'll see you tonight." *** Tyler: Why was life so difficult? Why couldn't I have been born normal? Not gay, not a homo, not a stupid fag. But I realize that I would never have been with Jake, and he was the best thing in the world. He was the only thing that came to mind when I thought of love or beauty. He was everything, he was kind, caring, cute, funny. My ideal loveliness. My loveliness. I needed to see him, I had to. I'm leaving my only place of happiness, and that was in his arms. Here in this house, it's a prison, now I'm being transferred to hell. We were going to stay with my aunt and uncle, not Addie. I wish she was here; she would have made things different. Maybe she could have stopped me from telling. But those soulless people drove her away. She couldn't be with them. She had to leave, she said, "I'm done with this place Tyler. I'm going far away. I can't deal with this and neither can you, let's go." But I didn't, I couldn't. I had to stay. I walked to Lilum Park and sat down on the bench. This was the place where I made the biggest mistake in my life about 7 months ago. I didn't realize how much I loved him, how much I needed him. And now, time is cut short for us. I have to leave, I don't know for how long, they told me to pack all my clothes. They said we were leaving for a while. A while without my love and hope, without Jake. I head his footsteps in the distance. He walked and sat next to me. "Hello," he whispered. "Hi," I replied. He took me into his arms. Everything felt okay there, it felt warm and safe. I felt loved for everything I am. "Can we do something?" I asked him. "Sure, anything you want." "I want you to tell me what you told me last time we where here together." His expression changed. "Okay, why?" "Can we? Please? Do you remember what you said?" "A little too clearly, yes." It grew quite for a while. He opened his mouth to speak. "Tyler, I have to tell you something." "Yes?" "Tyler... I'm gay." "That's fine. Don't be ashamed. You're still my friend, nothing changes." I had figured he was before he first told me. "Tyler I love you. I've always loved you." This is where I change the script. I wrapped my arms around him; I looked him in his beautiful, big eyes and kissed him deeply. I pulled away, "And that's what I would have done, that's what I wanted to do." He held me tightly in his arms, "I love you so much, Tyler." his voice cracked. I kissed him again and again. Small playful kisses mixed with deep intense ones. This may be our last time together for a while. "When are you leaving?" he asked me. "Soon. Tomorrow or the day after." "For how long?" "I have no clue, they told me to pack all my clothes but were leaving most of our stuff here." "So you'll come back." "For you, yes. But I'm not coming back with them." "I don't think I could go long without you, hell being away from you for these few hours was torture already." I sat quietly in his lap and played with his fingers. My head was rested on his shoulder and his arms were around me. I didn't want to let him go. "Did you tell anyone else?" "Viv. That's it," I paused for a while. "Jake, can I ask you something?" "Anything." "Why do you love me? You could have anyone else in the world, why me?" "I love you because you're wonderful, Ty." I kissed him, "You're too amazing. What did I ever do to deserve you?" "I ask myself the same question. Just know something, I'll always be right there, by your side." *** Jake: I held and kissed him for however long I could. He had to leave. I'd rather be just a friend and have him stay. At least I could be around him. He was my everything. "What do you think about getting married?" I blurted out. He looked at me, stunned. "We haven't been dating for a long time." "But we've practically known each other forever." Tyler looked at me again, his blue eyes were watery, "I think it's an amazing idea." I reached into my pocket and grabbed a the small black box. I opened it. "Then Tyler Daniel Adams, will you marry me?" His eyes opened in shock, "Yes." he whispered and threw his arms around me, I slid the ring onto his finger. He looked at it and smiled, it was a titanium band, I got a matching set at the jewelry store. "Sorry, it's not much. The guy said it's perfect alternative to a diamond ring." "It's perfect," he whispered and kissed me on the lips. "I'm. This is so. I'm shocked. When did you get this?" "After you called. I wanted to surprise you. Give you something to look forward to." He kissed me again. "It was more than a surprise. It's wonderful. You're just so amazing." I held him, "You're every thing to me Ty. I love you so much." We sat there for a while. I just held him close to me. "I should get going, I'm sorry." I whispered to him. He was half asleep in my arms. He got up, sleepily. We walked to my car. "Where'd you park?" I asked. "I walked." "It's like a fifteen minute drive from here and you walked?" "Yeah. I was scared to take my car." "Let me drive you," I said. He got in and held my hand the way there. I parked down the street like I always do. "I'm going to miss you," he said. "I know, it'll be hard being away from my fiancée, but I'll get him back soon." He smiled. I kissed him deeply; this was going to be the last time in a while. He got out and waved goodbye. I hope he'd be okay. His parents were ignorant. They'd do anything to stop him from being gay. I just hope this isn't too serious. I pulled into my driveway and went inside. My mom was sitting on the sofa watching TV. "How'd it go?" she asked. "It was hard. He has to leave tomorrow." My mom knew everything, I didn't even have to tell her. "Did he say yes?" I nodded. She smiled. "I'm glad." I'm lucky my mom was really laid back. She supported me through everything. She's the best. I smiled to her and walked up stairs, I took a shower and thought about Ty. He'd be home soon. Hopefully. Then we can be together. Then everything would be right. But for know, I'd wait for him. I'd hope he'd be okay. I'll call him everyday. I just hope his parents don't find out. *** Tyler: We're leaving tomorrow, there's no doubt about. I packed everything I needed, clothes, and shoes. Only one month, that's the maximum I'd be gone for. I didn't know what they were going to do to me there, all I know is that my aunt and uncle are even bigger homophobes; they sent their son to a 'treatment camp' and shock therapy... I'm scared to death. My cousin is long gone now, he lives in London. He spent a year there, he's still gay. Why won't these people learn that it's not a disease you can make go away, it's apart of you. Shock therapy. It sounds barbaric. Can they do that? I didn't even care... I just wanted to go and get whatever it is they have waiting for me over with. I just want to lay in his arms and sleep. I looked at the ring on my finger, I smiled and my heart broke. What if I never see him again? My throat was dry and the air felt thick. I breathed deeply and went to bed. * I couldn't sleep all night, my mother knocked on the door. "Tyler, get up. We're going in an hour." I sighed heavily and got up and dressed. I went downstairs and my dad was drinking coffee. "Put your bags in the car." he grunted. I walked out to the beat down truck, I put my duffle bags in and realized none of their stuff was in here. I ran back inside. "Where's your stuff?" I asked. "We're not going with you, Tyler." my mom said to me, "We're just dropping you off at the airport." Her tone was flat and robotic. She didn't even look at me. We all got into the car and drove to the airport. They went with me to the gate. They just stood there. "So you're sending me to therapy, huh?" They're expressions saddened. They looked at the floor. "Hate me all you want, I'm not going to change, not for you, not for anyone." "We have to try," she whispered. "Try to what? Try to fix me?" I raised my voice. "I'll show you this isn't a choice. It's how I was born, and once I'm back, you have no one to blame but yourselves." I gritted my teeth. "You all are so ignorant. Being gay isn't a sin. It is no different from being 'straight'. I don't know why you don't see that. Why can't I love who I want?" My mom opened her mouth to speak but I turned around and went into the terminal. * The plane ride was short and smooth. I walked out and there they were in their fancy, shiny car. I got in. "Hi Aunt Meg, Uncle Jim." They just nodded and drove to their house. House was an understatement; it was more of a mansion. We walked in and led me to the guest room. "You'll be staying here," my aunt said. "And when are you taking me?" "Excuse me?" "Save it, I already know." I put my stuff on the ground and shut the door. I dialed Addie. "Hey, are you okay?" she asked worried. "Yeah. Just got here. Bored as hell." "Do you want me to come get you? You don't have to do this." I thought about it, it was so tempting. But I was trapped; I didn't want to bring Addie into this. "No, it's fine. I'll just talk to them tonight." "They don't listen, Ty." "I have some good news though." "What's that?" "Jake proposed to me." I said. "No way! What did you say?" "Of course I said 'yes', what else would I say?" "Aw. Jake is too cute. I'm happy for you guys." "Thanks." I heard footsteps, "I got to go, love you, bye." I clicked it off and tucked my phone and ring under my pillow. There was a knock. "We're having lunch, Tyler. Come and join us." I got up and walked into the hallway and went into the dining room. There were plates set out and a whole feast. I wasn't hungry, I just sat there. "So how has school been Tyler?" my aunt asked me without interest. "Fine. I've been taking advanced classes... They're not too advanced, just moving faster." "Ah. That's good." I played with the food on my plate. "So, Tyler. Your parents informed us of your sexual status." I knew this was coming. "They did, huh?" "Yes, they informed us that you were homosexual." "That is correct." They were both quiet. I got agitated. "What? Are you just going to sit there and look at me? Just like you did to Greg? Are you going to send me to whatever you put him in? How many times do you have to do this to realize that you can't 'fix' us? It's the way we're born." The looked at me in shock, "I'll have you know that your 'part' of you can be fixed. God will forgive you for your sins." I got up, "May I be excused?" They nodded. I walked back to the room and dialed for Jake, I needed him right now. "Hey babe, I was just about to call you." I heard him say. "Yeah. I miss you." "I miss you too," he said, "Do you know what your there for?" he asked. I didn't want him to know. "No, they haven't said anything yet. I'm scared, Jake." "It's alright. You'll be okay, If anything's wrong, you just call me okay?" "I love you," I said. "I love you too. I'll see you soon." "Bye." I hung up and buried my face into my pillow. I grabbed the ring and slid it back onto my finger. I'll make it. I'll make it. I'll make it. It's going to be okay. Before I know it, I'll be with him again. And we'll be happy. I'll be right by his side.