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As You Are Ch. 01

By: LOVENESS20094



He meets the man of his dreams

Club HEAT was packed tonight. A sexy loud beat played in the background and people drank and moved to its magnetic rhythm. Everyone was chatting and dancing up a storm. One particularly good looking couple in the middle of the dance floor had my attention. They were already covered in sweat but kept moving.

I watched with envy as the guy pulled his girl close and they both moved sensually as one. I gave a smile as the young lady turned to him and they shared a sweet kiss. They were so in love you could see it in the way they held each other's gaze. I stared for longer than necessary and quickly turned away in embarrassment. If only I had what they have. 

"Hey Shaun, come and join us." My friend Olive called out from the dance floor with a smile on her face. Her boyfriend Matt nodded in agreement but I shook my head and shyly declined and went back to nursing my beer. They both went on dancing and I couldn't help but watch them again. Olive turned her back to Matt and ground on him as he ran his hands on the sides of her body. 

Matt was six feet tall, hard short brown hair and green eyes. He had lean muscles and a toned swimmers body. I sometimes found myself drooling while I watched him. Olive and I both stood at 5 feet 9 and she had blue sparkling eyes and long chocolate hair. She was beautiful and had the body of a goddess. 

People often thought she was a model but she always brushed it off with a thanks but deep down I knew that bitch enjoyed every comment. They were both sexy as sin, and were perfect for each other.

I had short sandy blond hair and grey eyes. I was also lean and did a bit of exercise now and then. I was proud of my body and kept in shape. Olive always told me I was sexy as hell and that if Matt wasn't around and I was straight she would have fucked my brains out already. That always got a laugh out of me and I smiled at the memory and watched them dance some more. 

My attention was on them again and I have to say they were burning the place down with their sexy moves.I stared open mouthed as she turned her head to his and they shared another passionate kiss. Leave it to her to put on a show! It was Friday and my friends and I had decided to go out and have a night out. It was supposed to be fun. But like usual I was always the odd one out.

You see I've always been shy and a loner. It was odd that I had friends like Olive and Matt. 

They were both different from me and we looked like an odd trio. I was boring and quiet and they were fun and outgoing. We all met in college four years ago and have been inseparable ever since. We even stayed and worked in the same city. 

Matt worked as an IT tech in a large company while Olive and I work in the same legal department. She was a secretary and I was a junior bookkeeper. Today was my birthday and I was turning 24. I was happy my friends were celebrating with me but they were having more fun than me as usual. I know I should be with them on the dance floor but fear kept me glued to my seat.

My shyness has always been a problem in my relationships. I wanted to stay indoors while my boyfriends wanted to go out and hang out with other people. I couldn't blame them really. I was odd and boring. And now I was also very lonely. I needed someone in my life but I was too afraid to go looking. 

As I sat there wallowing in self-pity my friends came back to the table and we chatted for a bit. 

Olive decided to get more drinks at the bar and left Matt and I to talk alone.

"You sure you're ok Shaun?" He asked. 

"You seem pre-occupied." I could the concern on his face. 

"I'm fine Matt. I was just thinking." I replied and looked at him. He had a raised eyebrow which indicated he was waiting for an answer. I sighed and went on.

"You and Olive are so happy. I just... I feel like sometimes I'm imposing on you guys."

"We love you Shaun, and we don't mind spending time with you. You think too much." he responded with a chuckle. 

"I'm just lonely. I wish I had someone like how you have Olive you know? Maybe I wouldn't feel this way." I gave a sad smile.

"Everything has its own timing, dude. The right guy will come." he replied with a smile on his face. I was about to say something when Olive came back with our drinks.

"Drink up, guys, and let loose. It's a celebration and were doing it Olive style." She hollered and we erupted in laughter. We talked and laughed for a while until Olive dragged me off to the dance floor. I felt stupid and clumsy at first because I didn't know how to act. I knew how to dance but I hated doing it with so many people around. 

Olive gave me a shot of tequila and raised it to my lips. I gulped it down in one go. It burned and I coughed much to the delight of my friends.

After a while I loosened up and began moving to the music. I was getting drunk pretty quickly. We moved to the music and drank more tequila. A while later Olive whispered in my ear.

"You have an admirer from afar sexy". She nodded her head towards this mystery man without being too obvious. Curious, I stole a look and gave a gasp. At a table opposite ours, a group of five guys sat talking and laughing and one of them kept turning to look at me. God he was gorgeous. He seemed tall compared to me, probably about six foot two. 

He had short jet black hair and the bluest eyes I've ever seen and full luscious lips. 

He looked muscular and sexy in his grey shirt and dark jeans. He had a sexy smirk on his face as his eyes moved up and down my body in a lustful and predatory way. I shivered. When our eyes met he smiled and I lost my breath. He knew I liked what I saw. 

Damn him! Just then Unconditionally by Katy Perry started playing. I decided then to wipe the smile off his face and make him drool. I may have been shy but I had a wild streak hidden inside me.

Now I wanted him to do more than look, I wanted him yearning for me. I pulled Olive impossibly close to me and we started moving erotically to the beat. 

I felt Matt's body against mine and I knew they both understood what I was doing. These two were huge freaks. Their hands moved all over my body as if they were starving for a piece of me and I bit and licked my lips seductively all the while gazing at my admirer. By now the smirk was gone and he looked like a man dying of hunger. 

The look was sinful and dangerous and it turned me on.He got up from his seat and headed our way. He was getting lustful and sexy glances from girls and some of the guys but he ignored them. He had a determined look in his eyes, and the fact that I had something to do with that made me flush. 

It was suddenly extremely hot.

I noticed that Olive and Matt had both moved away from me. They kept dancing with each other, glancing over to see what was happening. When my admirer got to me he wrapped his warm hands around my waist and gently pulled me flush against his hot body. 

He smelled fucking good I wanted to taste him just to get to that scent. His eyes were clouded and glazed... I melted in them.

"I gotta say, that was quite a show you and your friends were putting on there. Any more of that, and the whole floor would have burst in flames." His voice was deep and sexy. I got hard.

"If I had known you were staring from the beginning, I would have put on the show a long time ago, and maybe I would have made it even hotter than it was." I replied with a purr and watched as his eyes burned with lust.

"Any hotter than that and I would have dragged you off the floor and fucked the living daylights out of you in the next room." That got my attention and I moaned as visuals of him pinning me to the wall and pounding hard into me came flooding in my mind. I got even harder. I ached. Fuck, what was going on with me?

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. He gave a knowing smile and pushed his hardness into mine and we both groaned. This was getting hot and heavy so fast I thought. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. He chuckled and smiled broadly at me.

"I don't fuck guys I've just met." I said with a whisper.

"Neither do I." He replied and captured my lips with his. I moaned as our lips touched. He poked his tongue against my lips and I opened my mouth to grant him entry. He gently brushed his tongue against mine. God he was good at this. 

He tasted like alcohol and something sweeter I just wanted to delve deeper into his mouth. The kiss was passionate and hot. It made my toes curl. Our tongues fought for dominance and I wanted to devour and consume him. By now we were both rubbing against each other, groaning and panting, but we didn't care if anyone was watching.

I was so close to coming I felt like throwing caution to the wind and letting him take me to the next room and have his way with me. I regrettably pulled away from him ending the kiss. We looked at each other as we tried to catch our breath. I ran my shaky fingers through my hair and gave up when I realized how nervous I was. He looked so hot that I felt like kissing him again.

"That was even better than I imagined." He finally said.

"Yeah" I replied and gave him a shy smile and blushed. He laughed softly and pulled me to him again.

"By the way, sexy pants, my name is Michael."

"Nice to meet you Michael." I replied and ignored his expecting look. After a few seconds he realized I wasn't going to give him my name.

"You know, it would be really nice if you also gave me your name and number."

"I will if we meet again, Michael." I replied and moved away from his arms and made my way to my friends. 

I couldn't believe I just left him standing there without giving him a backward glance. I didn't know why I walked away like that. Olive and Matt had knowing smiles on their faces; it made them look like idiots. I knew they were going to give me a grilling.

"Wow Shaun, if I had known that tequila did that to you I would have given it to you ages ago. That was hot!" Olive said in disbelief. I blushed and groaned.

"Guys please don't go there. I'm just as surprised as you are". I was still shaking from it all. Matt snickered and spoke.

"You didn't look surprised when he pushed his tongue down your throat, or when you humped against each other. You two looked ready to have sex right there and we wanted to watch." I blushed crimson. 

They both laughed and I forced them to leave the club with me before I burst into flames with embarrassment. They tried to get me to leave with Michael, but I declined, even after they commented about how disappointed he looked. That night I tossed and turned as images of him kept running through my mind. I could still feel his lips on my own, and his warm hands and breath on my body I couldn't handle it anymore. 

I just had to get off. I usually slept naked, so I pulled the sheet from my body and grabbed my seven inch cock. I was hard and leaking already and I used the pre come to get myself slick and wet and started to stroke myself. God, it felt so good I was panting. I wasn't going to last long. In my mind Michael was on top of me and we were kissing passionately. He trailed kisses down my neck and sucked as our hard cocks rubbed against each other. 

He played with my nipples and sucked each into his mouth and I arched my back from the bed as the sensations went straight to my cock. I watched his low descend until he was face to face with my leaking member. He palmed it in his hand and licked the head with his tongue. I moaned when his mouth closed on my cock and he sucked the base. 

I ran my fingers through his hair as I thrust against him. By now my hand was a blur as I as I imagined him taking more of him in my mouth.

"Oh yeah Michael swallow cock." I cried out as I sweat broke out of my skin and I started panting. 

I grabbed Michael's head more forcefully as I shoved my cock down his throat. I fucked his mouth and groaned as the head of my cock rubbed against his throat. His eyes snapped open and settled on me. I screamed as warm jets of semen shot from my dick to my hand and chest. My orgasm was so intense I saw stars. 

My whole body ached to have him here with me in that moment. I had a feeling that meeting Michael tonight affected me more than I wanted to admit. He screamed hot, powerful, wild sex, but I also wanted him to scream commitment too. I wasn't into one night stands. I suddenly felt stupid for leaving him the way I did. And I regretted it. I was such an idiot. I wasn't looking for a one night stand but even if I did he would make the top of the list. 

"I'm such an idiot." I screamed into my pillow with disgust. I probably blew the one chance I had with him. The voice in my head told me it was better this way. I had too much baggage and bringing a guy in the scene would be too much pressure...my mind was filled with Michael until I fell asleep...Olive and I met up for lunch on Monday and we chatted for a bit. 

I knew Michael was going to come up eventually and I groaned when she finally mentioned his name.

"Come on Shaun, it's been two days since the scene at HEAT and every time I ask you about Michael you ignore me." I sighed and rolled my eyes at her and had another bite of my sandwich. She narrowed her eyes at me and continued.

"What got into you that night? You went all slutty on the guy and managed to shock the hell out of Matt and me at the same time. I nearly had a heart attack. I looked up at her and cringed when I saw the mischievous smile on her face and I laughed. She was right after all.

"Alcohol Olive, you know I can never hold it down." I lied. She looked at me with a raised eyebrow. Of course she knew I was lying. She knew me better than I knew myself. She was trying to make me squirm until I confessed. And it worked. 

"Ok, he was hot, and it felt great to be noticed like that." I finally admitted it with a blush. She squealed in delight. 

"I would act slutty too if a hunk like that took a liking to me. It was incredibly hot how he got up from his chair and came straight at you. He had eyes only for you Shaun. You should have seen the sexy glances both the guys and girls gave him. They wanted to devour him, but it was like no one else existed. Talk about lust at first sight.

" What Olive said took me by surprise. Come to think of it, she was right. I did remember the effect he had on the dance floor.Damn! I should have given him my name and number. Or better yet, taken him home and had mad, crazy, passionate sex with him. My pants were getting tighter and I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down.

Who was I kidding anyway? A guy like that probably had men and women fighting for a chance to leave with him. I didn't stand a chance. I had so many issues and he would just regret ever meeting me. I sighed. I didn't want my mind to go there.

"Care to share." Olive asked with a small smile. I looked at her and blushed some more. She knew what I was thinking and was getting worried.

"No, I'm fine." I replied and took drank my juice.

"Maybe we should go back to HEAT and see if we can bump into him again." She suggested. It felt like a good idea but I didn't want to seem desperate. 

"I'll look desperate. There is no way I'm going back there."

"Oh come on, what would it hurt? You might end up having fun." This girl never gave up.

"Fun and I don't go together. Even I don't have hope." 

"Then come out with me and Matt. I'm sure he won't mind." I looked at her and shook my head. 

"I'll feel like the third wheel Olive. Besides it's supposed a candle lit romantic dinner for two. That man is putting an effort and you're going to ruin it. Just go and enjoy yourselves, I'll be fine." She still looked unsure.

"I promise I'll be ok Olive." I assured her with a smile. She started to smile too and we both laughed.

"Ok, you win Shaun. I will go to dinner with Matt, on one condition." I knew it was coming. I sighed.

"Ok, I will agree to anything." I surrendered.

"you are going back to HEAT with us this weekend." She was good I have to say. 

"I will go with you." I agreed. She gave me her beautiful smile and her whole face lit up.

"Deal." We shook on it and laughed like idiots.

About a week later Michael had begun to fade from my mind. I was so busy at work I didn't even have time to go out. I was starting to think that I really needed a break. One day while I was busy finishing up a report for a client, I got a call from my boss Mr. Thorne. 

He wanted me to come to his office immediately. When I got there I knocked and entered. Olive was already in her chair and writing notes. Mr. Thorne was sitting in his chair dictating a letter.

"You wanted to see me sir." 

"Yes sit down Mr. Wildman." I sat down next to Olive and she gave me a small smile and went back to her work at hand. He gave me an envelope to deliver to an important client that afternoon. Our messenger, Tom, didn't make it today and I was the only one he trusted to make this delivery. It had the initials C.M. Slator on it, and gave an address on a piece of paper. 

I groaned inwardly when I realized my destination was club HEAT. Of all the places he had to send me there. I felt shame and regret for how I left things with Michael that night and the feeling was still there. I told him that I would deliver it after work and he gave me permission to leave an hour early. I passed by Olive's desk to say bye and she promised to call later.

She had a date with Matt so I gave her a wink and told her to have fun as I ran off. Lucky for me there wasn't any real traffic and it took me less than fifteen minutes to get to the club. When I got out of my car I could hear loud music playing and people were already flocking inside. I showed the envelope the bouncer and he let me in.

He instructed me to turn left when I get inside and walk up the stairs and knock on the first door on my left. I had never been to this side of the club before and it was beautifully tiled and painted in grey. When I turned left I saw one door. It had MANAGER written over it and I knocked and waited. There other two doors on my right and they were both open. 

"Come in." A muffled voice called out and I opened the door. The office was bigger than I thought. There was a large desk on the left corner of the room with a mini refrigerator next to it and a dark wooden cabinet stood beside it. A man stood there with his back to me and was busy browsing the files inside. 

Two huge and long leather couches took most of the space in the middle of the room. The other side of the wall had a large TV and entertainment system and a mini bar. I was really impressed. I finally turned and looked at the man who still had his back to me.

"Mr. Slator, I was asked by Mr. Thorne to bring this to you. He said it was important." I said and held up the envelope to him. The man turned with a file in his hand and closed the door to his cabinet and took the envelope from me.

"Thank you I was expecting this." He had said without looking at me. I kept staring at him but it was because I recognized him. Even after two weeks, he was still as gorgeous as I remembered him. My heart started beating fast and I found it hard to breath. He wore black pants and a dark grey shirt. The top two buttons were unbuttoned to reveal a smooth toned chest, my mouth started watering.

"Michael?" I finally said in disbelief.

As You Are Ch. 02



CHAPTER TWO 

Taking a Chance

He looked at me in confusion at first, and soon his eyes widened in recognition. Then he slowly smiled and time stood still. He was so gorgeous at that moment and I stood frozen on the spot. He put the envelope on the desk and took the few steps towards me. I wanted to back away from him in fear that he might hear my loud thumping heart but he was soon standing just inches away from me. He was so close I could feel his warmth and breath and I shivered.

"This is a good surprise." He said with unconcealed joy.

"Yeah, I can't believe it either." I replied in shock. I was about to say something else when he cupped my face with his hand. It was as if he was trying to convince himself I was really there. I melted in his hands. 

"Yeah, it's amazing. How did you know I was here?" He asked. I tried to say something but I lost my words as he lightly stroked my cheek. He felt so warm and soft I closed my eyes and enjoyed the touch. I took a few deep quick breaths and spoke.

"Mr. Thorne is my boss and he sent me on a late errand for a client of his." As I said it dawned on me. 

"You own the club?" I asked, still enjoying the feel of his warm hand. He chuckled a bit at my statement and studied me for a second. I wanted to look away but I couldn't. I was burning with embarrassment and I knew my cheeks were red. What was it with him that made me feel this way? He let his hand fall from my face but didn't move away. I missed his touch already. 

"Yes I do. I would have told you the other night when you ran out on me." He replied and looked closely at me. I'm pretty sure I was beet red with embarrassment by now. 

"So do I finally get a name out of you with us meeting again and all?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Shaun." I replied too quickly for my liking. God, I felt so silly. It was his fault! He was making me nervous. 

"Well, Shaun, it's nice to meet you again." He said. "If I had known you worked for Thorne, I would have asked you out a long time ago." He whispered. I was very surprised he said that.

"Yeah right. As if I'm such a catch. Don't you think you could do better than me?" I asked. I think my question confused him a bit.

"Why wouldn't I Shaun? You're so beautiful." He replied and looked at me with a serious face. I couldn't take it anymore. This man was making me feel things I've never felt before and stole my breath. I was going to hyperventilate any second now. That's how much he affected me. I didn't even know what to say and that never happened before. Was I dreaming? I really needed to get out of there before I embarrassed myself.

"I have to get going and... leave you to your work." I said and made my way to leave. There were so many emotions going through me and distance from him felt like a good idea at that moment. 

"Please stay Shaun and let's talk." He said to me in a pleading way that I turned to him.

"About what?" I asked as if I didn't understand what he meant. Man I was an idiot.

"I just want to get to know you better that's all. I think I deserve a chance at that at least." I tried to come up with some lame excuse to leave when he spoke again. 

"I was about to order something to eat before you arrived. Will you join me?" He asked all the while looking hopeful and I couldn't say no. He looked sincere and I was torn. I was debating with myself about what he was saying when I realized that he had asked me to have dinner with him. Like a date. I couldn't believe it. This hot guy wanted to spend some time with me and here I was trying to find a way of turning him down. I wasn't going to let my insecurity get the better of me. I agreed and gave him a shy smile. He was grinning from ear to ear looking happy. 

"I'll order something from the kitchen." He said as he moved to his desk and grabbed the phone. He spoke for a bit and hung up. I was still standing there feeling out of place when he took my hand in his and led me to the couch and we sat down. 

"Don't be nervous Shaun, I won't bite." He joked and we both laughed. He was so beautiful I couldn't stop starring. He had full luscious lips and a set of matching white teeth. He was so perfect. A few minutes later, there was a single knock on the door and a big guy came in. He wore a tight black shirt with the words HEAT written in white. He carried a large paper bag with him and beer on the other. He set it on the table in front of us.

"Thanks Tazz." Michael said and the guy nodded and left. He took out two plastic containers and placed them on the table. It smelled divine. I didn't realize I was hungry until now. We had double cheese burgers and fries. It was so good I moaned at the first bite. We ate and talked for a while and I learned a lot about him. He was 28, from Long Beach and had three older siblings Lucy, Tom, Jed and one younger sister Fay. They were all married and still lived in his home town, closer to his parents. 

Fay was 19 and attended the local college at home. He loved it at home but he wanted to live in the big city. I found out HEAT used to be a diner and that his grandparents gave it to him when they retired. They missed home and Michael was happy to take it from their hands. So he did a complete makeover and turned it into a club. 

During the day it was a restaurant and at night it was a place to unwind and have a good time. I was so relaxed and I found myself opening up to him. I told him that I was an only child and that my parents died when I still very young. My grandmother took me in and raised me. She had passed away five years ago. I could see he felt sorry for me but didn't say anything and I appreciated it. To lighten up the mood I told him about Olive and Matt and smiled as he laughed at some of the stories I told him about us. 

"I would really love to meet them sometime." He said after laughing for the hundredth time.

"I will have to think about that." I replied with a snicker. "I have to make sure their craziness isn't contagious." We both laughed at that stared at each other. Our laughter slowly died down as we still stared at each other. 

"You have no idea how many sleepless nights I've had just thinking about you Shaun. I felt like an idiot for letting you leave like that. I've been going out of my mind thinking I would never see you again." He said all the while looking straight into my eyes. I was stunned at his admission. And here I was thinking I was an idiot for leaving him the way I did, but he was blaming himself for it.

"I had no idea you felt that way. I had thought you had forgotten about me already. Wouldn't blame you even you did..." he cut me off then.

"You have no idea what it is you do to me Shaun. Trust me when I tell you that you're hard to forget." He said and looked at my lips. I noticed that he had moved closer to me and his warm hands was moving against mine until it cupped my face. I could feel the heat radiating from him and he smelled so good. I was hard now and I needed his lips on mine. He was looking at me with lust and desire I knew he saw the same thing in my eyes. 

Please kiss me, I begged with my mind. I wanted to taste him so badly at that moment I was going crazy. Just then his phone rang and broke the moment. He silently cursed and reached for his phone on the table. I was so hard and aching I trembled. I tried to pull myself together while he talked and decided to leave before anything happened. It was just too soon for us to get physical. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. 

It wasn't helping at all. Images of us naked and fucking hard on the couch and on his desk invaded my mind. Damn it! I was losing it. Visions of him on top of me and pounding into me with my legs in the air crept into my mind again and I shook my head into a headache as I tried to push the thoughts away. I must have looked crazy. I cleared my throat and looked at him as he talked. When he finished the call he seemed to be thinking and then turned to look at me.

"I'm sorry Shaun I need to attend to some business." I felt disappointed then but pretended not to let it show. I gave him a small smile and shrugged.

"It's ok, I should get going too. It's pretty late." I said and got up from the couch. He got up too and held my hand. Even the light touch from him was enough to send my whole body into overdrive. 

"Can I get you a cab or..."

"It's ok I came by car." I replied.

"Let me walk you out then." He suggested. I nodded and we left. We both walked in silence but he still held onto my hand. When we got to my car he turned me to him and spoke. 

"I really want to see you again Shaun. Can you give me your number so I can call you?" The thought touched me so deeply. 

"Umm, yeah." I managed to say. He took out his cell and saved my numbers and gave me his in return. 

"Can I call you tomorrow night? Maybe we can have dinner?" He asked. He seemed so nervous.

"Ok, that's fine." I replied. He kissed me on the lips and smiled.

"I'll call you tomorrow then." He said and opened the car door for me. I smiled back and got into my car. He stood there watching me drive off until I couldn't see him anymore. I don't know how I got home without causing any accidents because my mind definitely wasn't on the road. As soon as I closed and locked my door, I sagged against the door. I just stood there trying to wrap my brain around everything that had happened tonight. 

I still couldn't believe I met Michael tonight. It seemed like a dream, felt like a dream. I was so happy I couldn't stop smiling. I wanted so badly to call Olive but it could wait until tomorrow. I quickly took out my phone and scrawled down my phone book until his name appeared. I sighed with relief and let out a shaky laugh. So it wasn't a dream. Michael was there, and he had talked to me. We had dinner and he kissed me. 

I trembled at the thought and I got up from the floor and made my way to the bathroom. I decided to have a long hot shower and go to bed but as soon as the warm water touched my body I closed my eyes and Michaels face came to my mind. I got hard instantly and started to stroke myself. I was already worked up from my earlier encounter with him and it didn't take long until ropes of cum were coating the shower wall and I was screaming his name over and over again. 

My orgasm hit me hard I nearly blacked out and felt so worn out. I had to drag myself to bed and fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. The next day when Olive I met for lunch I told her everything that happened between Michael and I. She was so shocked her eyes bulged out of their sockets. 

"Oh my god Shaun. This is unbelievable." She said incredulously. I smiled as she went on. "This happens and you only tell me now. What kind of a friend are you mister?" I sighed and groaned.

"I needed time to absorb everything that had happened. I mean I still couldn't believe it either." I replied and ate my salad. 

"What was he like?" She asked in a whisper. I took a deep breath and thought for a while. I wish I hadn't told Olive about my encounter with Michael last night. She was vibrating with excitement it was crazy. What a drama queen she was! 

"He's so amazing Olive. He's sweet and gentle, and a great listener. He laughed at my lame jokes and I like the way he looks at me, it's so hot. No one has ever looked at me like that." I confessed. Olive stared open mouthed at me and I blushed. I really had it bad.

"And then what happened after you got home. Did he call or did you call him?" I blushed at her question as I recalled what had really happened. 

"No, he said he would call later. So I'm gonna wait until then." I replied with a shrug and kept eating. I was pretending not to care but inside I was dying with anxiety. I couldn't wait for him to call. Time seemed to move slowly. 

"Ooh this is so exciting. So what are you gonna wear tonight? Something tight and sexy or..." Olive couldn't shut up you would swear she was the one going on the date. I rolled my eyes and cut her off.

"I'm not gonna look like a hooker you know." She stopped talking and looked at me like I talking in another language. 

"What's wrong with that?" She asked innocently. Was she serious? "I'm going dressed like I normally do, he liked me the way I was." I replied and stared at her daring her to say something. She took a deep breath and sighed. 

"Fine, if you don't want to get laid." I gulped in surprise. "I'm not looking for a quick fuck Olive." I said in a lowered voice so that others wouldn't hear. "Or anything like that." I said with a blush. She rolled her eyes with a look. I didn't like that look. The damn bitch knew I was lying.

"Oh yeah? Says the one who hasn't seen another guy's dick in months. You need sex, and lots of it. Then you would relax. You're so uptight and you don't know how to let go and just enjoy yourself and have fun. I want you to be happy. If Michael can do that I'll be happy." She said with a serious face. I know she was worried about me. I've been lonely for a while now and I really needed to get a life.

"I will try to have fun Olive, I promise." I assured her with a smile. Truth was I didn't know how to let loose and enjoy myself. I was always guarded and insecure. I was afraid Michael would see that soon and never want to see me again. I got home a few minutes after six o'clock and was just taking off my shoes when my phone rang. My heart quickened when I saw Michael's name on the screen. I took it with a silly smile and shaking hands and answered.

"Hello." I tried to sound casual. "Hey it's Michael. I hope I didn't call at a bad time." His deep voice did things to me and I got hard in an instant. He also sounded nervous on the phone and the thought made me smile. 

"It's ok; I just got home from work." I replied. "Good, I was wondering if you were free tonight, I wanted to take you out for dinner." "Umm, I don't have plans tonight, and dinner would be great." I replied as I walked to the bedroom.

"Cool, so can I come get you in say, an hour?" he asked. "Sure I'll send you my address." I replied. 

"Ok, see you in a bit." He said and hung up. I fell on my bed with a smile on my face and closed my eyes. I couldn't believe Michael was taking me out on a date. I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. Fifteen minutes and a jack off later I was standing and staring in my closet wondering what I was going to wear. I didn't want to look too sexy or boring and I was driving myself crazy trying on almost every clothing I had.

I finally decided on a dark blue shirt and some jeans. Just as I was buttoning up my phone rang and it was Michael again. He told me he was waiting for me outside and I told him I was coming. I practically ran to get to him. When I opened the building door I saw him leaning against a black BMW sports car. Wow, the man had great taste. When he saw me approaching he straightened up and smiled at me. He looked hot in dark jeans and a navy V-neck polo shirt. He looked so sexy. 

"You look great." He said with a wink and I blushed. 

"Thanks, you don't look bad yourself." I replied with a smile. He opened the car door for me and I got in. It was even more beautiful in the inside. It was so comfortable and I could smell the expensive leather. I didn't know a lot about cars but I knew it must have cost a fortune. He got in and looked at me.

"You ready to go?" He asked and I nodded with a small yes. He started the car and we drove off. We arrived ten minutes later at a restaurant in town. It was huge and looked classy. A tall beautiful woman greeted us at the door and walked us to our table. I was glad it was in a private and secluded area. Only one couple sat across from us. We had red wine and chatted for a bit while we waited for our dinner to arrive. 

Dinner was wonderful. We had sticky fig lamb cutlets with bean and couscous salad. I had never tasted anything like it before, and it was divine. We talked about work and hobbies. I was surprised when he confessed that he loved to cook. It certainly didn't suit him. He looked more like a model out of a catalogue magazine than a cook. I told him that I was a lousy cook and he laughed and offered to teach me sometime.

He also made me laugh. I was so relaxed and enjoying myself. For desert we had coffee and passion cake. I moaned until the last bite. I also didn't miss the hungry look Michael threw my way either. We left the restaurant and drove around town for a while and just talked. A few hours later we arrived at my flat and he offered to walk me to my apartment. When we arrived at the door I stopped and turned to face him only to find him looking at me. 

"I had a really great time tonight Michael." He took my hands in his. "Me too. I hope it's the first of many." He said with a nervous chuckle and I smiled. 

"I hope so too." I replied. He had a serious look on his face and came closer to me. "I really like you Shaun and I can see that you feel the same way about me too. We have something special going between us and maybe I maybe a bit forward but...I would really like us to try and see where it goes." I was so happy that he had said those words and a little shocked too. I wanted him to really mean them. 

"I'm willing to try too." I replied. He smiled happily and held my face in his hands. I couldn't think straight when he did that. 

"You have no idea how happy you just made me. I'm glad you're willing to give us a try." He said. I took a deep breath and tried to explain. 

"Michael I don't want to rush things. Were still trying to get to know each other and I think we can be great together. So can we take things slow and just enjoy being around each other first?" I asked. God knows how much I wanted to have sex with him. But I wanted this to be about more than sex.

"Ok, I won't to pressure you into anything you're not ready for. And I will wait until you're ready for more. Just as long as I get to be with you...but I just want to ask you one thing though." He said. 

"What is it?" I asked with confusion. 

"Can I kiss you?" I stared open mouthed for a few seconds trying to process what he had asked and recovered quickly. There was no way I was going to deny his gorgeous lips on mine. "Yes." I replied with a whisper. He closed the distance between us and claimed my lips with his. There was no tongue involved, but it felt so damn good. I couldn't wait to taste him. He groaned and tore his lips away from me and whispered harshly. 

"Open your mouth and let me kiss you properly Shaun. I want to taste all of you." It was more like a command and I it drove me crazy and I found myself opening up to him. We crashed our lips together into a passionate and hot kiss. He tasted like coffee and cake, and something sweet I just wanted to devour him to get to that taste. He wrapped his arms around my waist as I wound mine around his neck. His hard on brushed against mine and I moved my lips away from him moaned out loud. His eyes were dark with lust and I found myself grabbing him for another hot passionate kiss. I tasted every inch of him with my tongue. 

His lips to my chin and neck and licked and sucked there and I whimpered like a horny little teenager when he discovered sensitive places I never knew existed. He was driving me insane and we were soon both groaning and grinding against each other. I was so close to coming and I could feel myself losing control. He was just so hot and sexy. With a loud groan he pulled away from me and moved backwards until his back touched the wall on the other side. We stared at each other as we tried to catch our breath. My eyes moved to the large tent on his pants and I licked my lips. God it looked huge and my mouth watered. 

"If you keep staring at me like that Shaun I won't be able to control myself." My eyes snapped to his and I saw hunger in them. I blushed and looked away. He came closer and kissed me on the lips. It was gentle and soft, and toe curling. He stopped and looked at me for a second before speaking.




As You Are Ch. 02



"I better get going, it's pretty late." I was a bit disappointed and relieved at the same time. Having him here close to me was very dangerous. 

"Ok." I replied and hugged him. After a while I gently nudged him away because I couldn't handle being in his arms anymore. He was so sexy and I was afraid of losing control too. 

"I'll call you when I get home ok." He promised and started walking away. I watched him as he got in the elevator and he smiled at me as the doors closed. After a few minutes I unlocked the door and closed it behind me. I know I was smiling like an idiot but I couldn't help it. I was so happy. I called Matt and Olive and told them what happened. They were both happy for me and I was forced to hang up on them because Olive couldn't stop screaming in delight. 

Michael called later and we talked for a while. Hearing his voice made me hard and I had to take a few deep breaths so I could sound normal on the phone. He told me he was going out of town tomorrow and he will come back on Friday. I was disappointed but told him I will come to the club later that night and he asked me to bring Olive and Matt. He sounded happy that he was finally going to meet them. We talked for a bit and he promised to call tomorrow. As soon as I hung up I slipped my hand inside my jeans and stroked myself.

I was hard and aching already and all it took was the image of his face and I was coming all over my hand and stomach. I lay on my bed for a while trying to catch my breath. I felt like a teenager all over again. I got up went to the bathroom to clean myself up and crept into bed and slept with a smile on my face.



As You Are Ch. 03



Making it work

Friday night my friends and I headed to HEAT. I was anxious and excited to see Michael at the same time, and I couldn't stop smiling. I was glad that we didn't even wait in line. As soon as Tazz saw us he waived at us and told us to head inside where our table was waiting with instructions to order anything we liked.

The place was packed already and people were on the dance floor moving to the music. We chatted and drank for a while as we waited for Michael to arrive. I found myself turning and looking over the stairs for any sign of him. 

"Don't worry sweety; he's probably missing you too." Olive said and dragged me to the dance floor. We danced for a while as Matt watched us from the table. Olive went to the bar to get more drinks and I stood on the floor and swayed a bit to the beat. 

I froze as warm hands moved around my waist and rested on my side. I turned to find Michael's smiling face and my heart jumped for joy. 

"I see your having a good time sexy pants." He said with a wink and I smiled.

"You just loving watching me don't you?" I asked and pulled him to me for a hot and steamy kiss. He moaned on my lips as we parted. 

"I missed you." He said.

"Me too and there will be time to show me how much later. Right now I want you to come meet my friends." I replied as I took his hand and we made our way to the table. Olive had just set another round of shots on the table when we arrived and they both turned to us with knowing smiles. 

"Guys this is Michael. Michael these are my crazy friends Olive and Matt." Michael gave them a killer smile and extended his hand to them as they greeted each other. 

"It's nice to finally meet you both. I've heard a lot about you." 

"We've heard a lot about you too. Shaun's pretty taken with you." Matt replied with a smile on his face. 

"Yeah he hasn't stopped talking about you. You really made an impression." Olive just had to take over. Somehow I knew where this was going. I rolled my eyes and sighed. 

"I'm glad to hear that, coz he's made quite an impression on me too." Michael replied with a warm smile as he looked at me. My heart skipped a beat and I smiled back. God he was so amazing and I was falling hard and fast. This couldn't be good. We talked for a bit and laughed and had more drinks. I was glad my friends were getting along with Michael. 

Michael often excused himself to attend to some things and when he came back he sat next to me and held me all the while. We went to the dance floor and danced with each other. A few moments later Olive and Matt started making out in front of us and it was so hot. 

Their hands were everywhere at the same time and I felt myself flush. I was so turned on. Michael cleared his throat and that brought them back to their surroundings. They blushed and apologized as they decided to leave. 

Michael offered to take me home and we said goodbye to my friends. As they walked away Matt grabbed Olive by her ass and pinched it. God I envied them so much. I felt bad for watching and turned to look away only to find Michael staring at me. 

I blushed and looked away as he chuckled and asked me to come upstairs with him. When we got his office I shoved my hands in my pockets and watched him lock the door. Now I was nervous. He walked slowly towards me and I trembled at his gaze.

"So...why are we here?" I asked but already knowing the answer. He took my hand and led me to the couch were we sat and faced each other. Michael stroked my lips with his thumb and whispered. 

"Let me show you." He replied and captured my lips with his. God damn he was too good with his lips. I couldn't help but moan. Soon our kisses grew passionate and I yelped when he pulled me on his lap. I melted and let him fuck me with his tongue. He tasted every inch of my mouth and my head was spinning. 

I ran my hands through his hair as his caressed my back. I could kiss him forever. But soon we both pulled back so we could breathe and looked at each other. Words weren't said but there was a connection there and it took my breath away. I saw it in his eyes. 

The want, need, hunger, lust and something else. It scared me for a bit and I didn't know what to think. I wanted so badly to look anywhere but at him but my eyes were glued to his for some unknown reason. I couldn't stand it anymore and captured his lips again. 

I didn't want to fool myself into thinking that he had deep feelings for me. It was just too soon. After a moment I pulled away from him to a moan of protest from him. I laughed when he tried to pull me back to him when I tried to seat back down.

"Michael I can't seat on your lap the whole night." 

"Why not?" he asked and I looked at him like he was crazy. 

"I'm heavy." 

"No you're not. I kind of like having your weight on me babe." The little endearment gave me butter flies in my stomach and it sounded sexy coming from him. We made out for a while and talked until the early hours of the morning. I didn't even realize how tired I was until I started to yawn. I apologized with a blush and Michael just chuckled and helped me up. 

"Let me take you home babe." He said. We made our way down stairs to the back entrance and walked to the staff parking lot. As we approached one particular car at the end of the line I frowned because I didn't recognize it. Instead of the bmw from last a beautiful and sleek suv stood there. Just how many cars did he have? 

We got in the car and drove away. This time I invited Michael inside my apartment. We kissed and talked for a while about nothing until he got up to leave and gave me another amazing kiss. I had to pull myself away from his arms in order to get him to leave. I could tell that he didn't want to leave but I knew I wouldn't be able to control myself with him around.

I laughed when he made a puppy dog face as I closed the door in front of him. God he was so cute. He called when he got back to club and wished me a good night. I tried to ignore my erection as I crawled into bed. But soon I was panting as I stroked myself to completion. 

All I had to think about was his beautiful lips and his smell and I was soon crying out as I came all over myself. I wiped myself and rolled over onto my stomach with a groan and a silly smile. Olive was right, I really needed sex. 

But as soon as I thought about sex the smile on my face slowly faded and negative and dark thoughts began to creep inside my mind. Shit I didn't need to think about that now...

"Michael where are you taking me?" I asked as we stepped out of what felt like an elevator and stand awkwardly. His hands were placed over my eyes so I couldn't see where we were going. 

"I told you it's a surprise." I nodded and sighed impatiently. I was getting anxious already. He chuckled a bit and stood behind me and whispered in my ear to open my eyes. I gasped at the sight that greeted me.

"So what do you think?" He asked as I stepped further into the room. Michael and I had been dating for two weeks now and things were great between us. Tonight he had invited me for dinner at his house because we always met at the club. I always wondered when I would get to see his house but I didn't think it would be this soon. My mouth practically hit the floor in shock. 

He took my hand and gave me a tour of his house. Every room was huge from the large kitchen with dark chocolate painted wall units. The lounge had four huge leather couches, big plasma TV and a pool table. The man had a collection of movies and games my eyes hurt running through them. 

It had three bedrooms and bathrooms. The master bedroom had its own large en suit bathroom, a large flat screen TV on the wall and a walk in closet. There was also an office and exercise room. He finally led me to the balcony where a candle lit dinner complete with soft music and candles were set out. 

Everything looked so beautiful. The icing on the cake was the breathtaking view of the city. Man I was lost for words. I pulled him to me and kissed him passionately and moaned as our tongues danced with each other. When we finally pulled apart he smiled.

"So I take it you like it?" he asked breathlessly.

"I love it. I never knew you were such a romantic."

"Damn I was talking about the house." He tried to sound seriously disappointed even though he was smiling. I lightly nudged him with my hand and laughed.

"Very funny...the house is beautiful too. You are full of surprises you know that?"

"There's a whole lot more where that came from."

"Mmm I can't wait to find out more." I replied with a wicked smile and kissed him again. We sat down and ate dinner. My man was such a great cook and I moaned until the last bite. I really had a great time. The food was great and the company was even better. I was falling hard for this man and I knew I wouldn't be able to hide it anymore.

After dinner we moved to the living room and made out on his couch. I really wanted Michael with every fiber in my body and I couldn't stand it. 

I decided that he deserved a treat for surprising me with dinner tonight. As we made out I sat on his lap and ground my hard on against his. 

We both groaned as my lips moved to his neck and I licked and sucked on it. He arched his back and moaned in pleasure. He then grabbed my ass and squeezed it with his hands and Oh fuck that felt great! I moved my hands to the hems of his shirt and pulled it over his head and threw it on the floor. 

His eyes widened and he tried to say something but I placed a finger on his lips. 

"It's ok Michael. I want this." I whispered to him and captured his lips again. Soon my hands were all over his hairless chest. I caressed his nipples until they were hard peaks. I moved lower until had one in my mouth and licked it as I played with the other one. When I lightly tugged it between my teeth and bit it he bucked his hips and moaned in pleasure.

"Oh fuck Shaun that feels so good." He cried out. I played with his nipples for a while before descending much lower. I left a trail of kisses down his pecks and belly ring relishing in the sexy sounds he was making. I pushed his hips apart and stared at the large bulge hidden in his jeans and rubbed him through the thick material. 

It felt big and I couldn't wait to see it for the first time. In one swift move I pulled his pants and underwear off and my eyes widened at the sight of his cock. He was about eight inches long and thick with two low hanging balls. I had never seen a cock as big as his and felt a bit intimidated for a second there. 

But I was up for a challenge. Plus he was so beautiful and my mouth started watering. Shit I couldn't wait to taste him. His cock was glistened with pre come and I wrapped my hand around the fat head and gently stroked him. I moved further down to his balls and sucked each one in my mouth as my hand moved up and down his length.

"Ah fuck, oh shit!" He cried out and rocked his hips against my hand. I moaned with one in my mouth and stroked him for about a minute and replaced my hand with my mouth. He cried out as my lips closed around the head of his cock and I licked it with my tongue. God he tasted so fucking good I was immediately addicted to his taste. 

He cradled my head with both of his hands and gently started to thrust in my mouth. 

I swallowed more of him as played with his heavy balls with my hands. I pulled off him until only the head remained and relaxed my throat. As I went back down I swallowed him down in one swift move until my nose touched his pubes. He wasn't expecting this and he nearly jumped off the couch in shock.

"Oh my god Shaun that's...No one has ever...Oh that's so fucking hot." He cried out as his shaky fingers tightened around my hair. I pulled off of him completely and looked at him. He was panting and his eyes were glazed and almost black. 

"I want you to fuck my mouth and fill it with your hot come." I ordered him as I swallowed him again. He grabbed my hair a bit forcefully now and started fucking me like his life depended on it. Our eyes locked with each other the whole time. The sexy sounds he was making had me hard and leaking. 

Slime was leaking from my mouth but I didn't care. I felt like a slut and I liked it. I moaned around his cock and he cried out. All I cared about was bringing him pleasure. His thrusts became erratic as his movements faltered.

"Babe I'm gonna fucking come...Oh fuck...fuck ...fuck." He thrust one more time and screamed my name as he came. Ropes and ropes of his hot come shot down my throat and I greedily swallowed and pulled off a little so I could taste him until he became soft and popped out of my mouth. 

He lay there panting like he'd just run a marathon as I rested my head on his thigh. I was so hard and aching and I wanted to cum so bad. I quickly unbuttoned my pants and started stroking myself when my hand was pushed away. 

"Oh, no you don't." Michael said with a growl. He practically threw me on the couch and pulled off my jeans with force and underwear in one quick motion. He grabbed my dick and stroked me as his lips slammed against mine. His tongue forcefully thrust against mine and I moaned. 

"You're gonna cum in my mouth babe." He whispered with a wicked smile as he moved down on me. I was so turned on that as soon as his mouth closed around my cock I started to come. My back arched and my toes curled as I had the most intense orgasm of my life. 

He swallowed every last bit of my come and let me fall from his lips. He lay beside me on the couch and watched me as I tried to catch my breath. He lightly stroked my chest and I pulled his head down to me for a heart stopping kiss. I could taste myself on him and I sucked on his tongue as if I was dying of thirst. 

He wrapped his thigh around me and pinched my ass with his hands. We kissed for a while and I moaned as my cock started to get hard again. He ground his hard on against mine and we both groaned. I cradled the back of his head as he grabbed both our hard cocks and stroked them with his hand. 

It felt so good and soon we were both panting and thrusting against each other as our groans filled the room as his hand became a blur. The pleasure was too much and soon we both cried out in pleasure as we came at the same time. We held each other as we tried to catch our breath. 

"You, are so amazing." He finally said once we our breathing came back to normal.

"You're not bad yourself." I replied with a smile and kissed his sweet lips. We finally got up from the couch to the bathroom to clean up and then headed to bed. As we settled together he planted a kiss to my forehead and wrapped his arms around me. 

I sighed with happiness and drifted to sleep. I woke up to the most pleasurable sensation. Michael was kneeling between my legs with my cock in his mouth. He was licking and sucking my cock head and I fell back on the pillow with a moan.

"I see your finally awake." He said with a wicked smile. He crawled on top of me and captured my lips all the while stroking my cock. I thrust against him and groaned in his mouth. He moved from my lips and kissed my neck and sucked on it. That drove me wild and I fucked his hand in earnest. 

"I want to suck your cock while you suck mine babe." Michael whispered in my ear. I moved around him until we were both lying in a 69 position. I grabbed his beautiful cock and stroked it with my hand. It felt so hard and warm I sucked the head in my mouth at the same time he did. 

He rolled us until I was on top of him with my dick in his face. He grabbed my ass and pinched it with his large hands and sucked me off. Oh god he was driving me crazy. I thrust myself against his mouth and cried out as my cock hit the back of his throat and he hummed. My whole body trembled and my eyes rolled to the back of my head. It felt so fucking amazing.

"Oh god!" I cried out and dove back to his cock. He thrust in my mouth until I had all of him down my throat. We moved against each other until our bodies were covered in sweat. Our groans were the only sounds filing the room. I felt Michael's finger at my whole and I pushed against it. 

He circled my whole and I felt it slip inside me and I tore my lips away from his cock and let out a long pleasured moan. He touched something inside me and rubbed against it and I came undone. What the fuck was that?

"Oh...Oh...Oh...fuck ...I'm coming!" I screamed as my come shot in his mouth. He held me still with his hands and moved against me as I came over and over in his mouth. My orgasm was so intense I nearly blacked out. I dove on his big cock and sucked him for all I was worth. I was still coming as he started filling me with his jizz. 

I swallowed everything he had to offer me and sucked him until he became soft that I had to pull off. I collapsed on his thigh as we both tried to catch our breath. That was so hot and my head was still spinning. I was addicted to Michael's dick and lips. He came up to me and kissed me and we shared our essence with each other.

"God that was incredible. You are something else babe." He said with a smirk. We rolled on the bed between kisses and laughs until he had me pinned on the bed and ravaged my mouth with his amazing tongue. We pulled apart and looked at each other for a moment.

"You too lover." I replied.

"It's more than that. No one has ever swallowed me whole before coz I'm big and all. But you just took that thing like it was nothing." I blushed and tried to hide my face with my hands and he caught them with a chuckle.

"You give the best head babe. I have to thank whoever taught you someday." He said with a soft laugh. I stiffened and my smile disappeared. Michael noticed the sudden change in me and looked worried. I pushed him off me and sat up on the bed. 

"Shaun, did I say something wrong?" He asked. I looked back at him and saw confusion in his eyes. He didn't know and I couldn't blame him. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair and spoke.

"No, you didn't." I leaned against the headboard so I could look at him. "Your comment kinda caught me off guard and it brought back memories I would rather forget." He still looked confused and tried to speak but I held up my hand to stop him. 

"I need to tell you something." He nodded and I took a deep breath.

"I was sexually assaulted when I was a teenager." His eyes widened at my confession...



As You Are Ch. 04



Confessions and Insecurities arise 

"I was sexually assaulted when I was a teenager." His eyes widened at my confession. He tried to speak but I cut him off with a shake of my head.

"Michael you need to know this. Please let me explain this to you." He looked a bit unsure but nodded. I took a deep breath and spoke.

"I coming from school a friend's house one night when just a few blocks away from my grandmother's house a group of guys in ski masks came out of nowhere and attacked me. They shoved their hands in my pockets and demanded money but I didn't have any on me because I had used it for the bus. They started shoving me around like I was nothing and called me names. I started to beg them to let me go when one of them came towards me with a knife in his hands. I was ordered to take my clothes off but when I declined I was punched in the face so hard I fell. He didn't even give a chance to recover and jumped on top of me and ripped my clothes off with the knife as his friends held me down. I screamed and kicked at him but it was no use. He punched me over and over until I lost consciousness. When I came too I was on my stomach and he was penetrating me. 

The pain was so excruciating I screamed and cried begging him to stop but he didn't. It felt like hours as he kept going. I finally stopped fighting and let him rape me. I lost count of the times he came inside me. I just lay there bloody, crying and powerless as his friends laughed at me. When he finally got up I saw a tattoo of angel on his torso and I recognized him. He had no idea I had seen it. After they left I forced myself to get up and walked to my house. As soon as my grandmother saw me she knew what had happened and took me to the hospital. After the doctors finished examining me the police came to take my statement and I told them everything. They arrested the guy who raped me that night. He revealed the identities of the others and they were arrested as well." 

I stopped talking as tears fell down my face. I was looking away from Michael afraid of what I might see. I didn't want him to feel sorry for me or worse yet, pity me. I had seen enough of it to last me a lifetime. I felt fingers wiping tears away from my face. He titled my head to him and I gasped when I saw the tears in his eyes. He was looking at me with sadness and love. Damn I didn't need this now! He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head. When he pulled away he looked into my eyes and I melted.

"Who was he?" He asked after a moment.

"He was ex my boyfriend." His breath hitched.

"But why would he do this to you Shaun?" Michael looked confused.

"Actually I had just broken up with him a few days ago when I overhead him and his friends talking about me. Apparently he was dating me because I was a virgin and he wanted to know how it felt to sleep with someone like me. He kept whining about how I was proving to be more of a challenge and how he was gonna brake me eventually. I saw red and stormed into his room. He was putting on his shirt and I saw the tattoo. At the time I didn't care about it. I yelled and called him a dick for playing me like that. I told him it was over and that he would never get the chance fuck me. I saw the anger in his face because I had embarrassed him in front of his friends but at the time I didn't care. He was bustard and I let him know it. I think that's why he never said a word the whole time his friends were holding me down during the rape. He knew I would recognize him." By now the tears were pouring down like a river. I sobbed like a girl in his arms. Michael wrapped me in his warm embrace until I calmed down. There was something about this act that made me feel safe. It was new to me. He finally pulled away and held my hands in his. 

"I'm sorry that they hurt you Shaun." He whispered as he brought them to his lips. 

"They did, but I got help and learned to deal with it. I can never forget but..." I didn't know what to say anymore. I ran a hand through my hair as I looked everywhere but at him. 

"I don't even know why I told you this I mean... I've never told anyone except Olive and Matt."

"You trust me enough to confide in me Shaun and I'm glad you did." He replied with a warm smile. We held each others gaze and I found myself getting hard. God I wanted to kiss him so much, but a huge part of me wanted to get away from him. How could I be turned on at a time like this? Now I was torn and I didn't know what to do. 

The fact that I was fighting with my emotions must have showed on my face because he frowned and then gasped when he realized what I was about to do. I quickly scrambled out of bed, grabbed my clothes on the floor and almost ran out of the room. By the time he found me I was putting on my shoes and heading for the elevator. I was about to step in when he grabbed my hand.

"Shaun please don't do this. Don't leave like this." He pleaded.

"I'm sorry Michael but I can't be here with you, not now."

"Why not?"

"All of this is just too much...I need to think."

"You can do it here."

"No I can't, not after this. It's too much I..."

"Please..." He begged with tears in his eyes. Why did he have to look at me like that? 

"You don't understand Michael. This should not have happened. I wasn't supposed to tell you. Not like this, not now."

"What do you mean?" He asked. I knew I wasn't making sense to him but it was so difficult to explain. I had to get out of there now.

"I just need to think Michael I...I can't be here right now."

"Please baby let's just sit down and talk ok."

"I can't be around you right now." I replied as I pulled my hand away from his grasp. "Please give me time to think." He was quite for a moment.

"How much time do you need?" He asked with a small voice. 

"Enough... I have to go." I whispered as I walked in the elevator. As the doors closed I looked at the crushed look on his face and my heart broke.

...

"What the hell were you thinking dude." Olive asked incredulously. After leaving Michael's house I went to see her and Matt and told them what had happened. What I didn't expect was for them to get angry with me. This was not what I expected at all.

"I didn't mean to leave like that but I couldn't stand the way was looking at me." I tried to explain. 

"But leaving after confessing to him was just cold man." Mat looked at me like I was crazy.

"Matt please I didn't come here so you guys could remind me of how horrible of a boyfriend I am. I need your support right now." I cried in frustration. Olive rolled her eyes at me.

"We love you Shaun but we also have to be honest with you too. What you did was unfair. Yes you shocked him with the news but he dint run away from you like you were some kind of disease. He tried to comfort you for goodness sake."

"He felt pity for me Olive. I didn't want that."

"Did you want him to start laughing at you?" She asked.

"What?" I asked in annoyance. I was regretting ever coming here in the first place.

"Man you're clueless." Matt sighed and blinked.

"Why did you tell him in the first place Shaun? I mean you have never told any of your past boyfriends, not even Tom knew and you guys were serious." He asked. In my mind I had the perfect answer but the moment I opened my mouth nothing came out. I did it again and...nothing. I was speechless for a moment. I didn't know what to say and worst of all, I found myself blushing for some unknown reason.

"Oh my god, you love him." Olive said with a wide smile on her face. Matt looked over at me too with a knowing smile. I know I was beet red by now and the fact that I still couldn't find my voice was a dead giveaway. Olive jumped up with joy and pulled me into her arms. She held me so tight I could feel her breasts pressing against my chest. 

"Eeew your boobs are touching me. Get away from me you perv." I pulled away from her with an angry face. She knew I was faking and glared at me with that silly little smile and waited with folded arms.

"The fact that you still haven't given us an answer is all we need know Shaun." Matt added.

"Ok so I might be in love with him, but it's too soon to feel like this right? We're supposed to be hanging out and getting to know each other."

"You can't choose when to fall in love with someone. I fell in love with Olive the moment I saw her. So you see Shaun, it just happens." Matt said as he and Olive shared a look so tender it made me sick.

"Anyway...Shaun you must have told him because you trusted him or else you wouldn't have opened up to him. We both know how hard it is for you to do that."

"I can't face him now guys. Not after the way I ran out on him. It's too embarrassing." I said with a sigh. I felt so tired.

"Maybe you don't have to." Olive held up my phone with a worried look. Michael was calling again for the hundredth time that night. I felt really bad now. He was trying to reach out to me and here I was still avoiding him. We all let it ring until it stopped. Matt touched my arm and looked over at me.

"You need to talk to him Shaun. He really cares about you."

"I will, I just...I need time." I replied with a small smile on my face. "Can we just change the subject please?" 

They all looked unsure but nodded anyway. Olive started making dinner and we talked about something else. My friends were right and I knew it. I loved Michael and it scared me...a lot. When I got home I sent Michael a text explaining to him that I needed time to think about things and that I would call him. For a moment I thought he wouldn't reply but when he did I was relieved. He told me that he understood and would wait until I was ready to talk. 

I felt so numb I didn't even have the energy to shower and went straight to bed. For the first time in weeks I had nightmares. I wished Michael was here with me. I pushed myself into work to avoid thinking a lot and before I knew it the week had passed. I was so absorbed in my own world that I didn't even know how much time had passed. But I missed Michael terribly and I still didn't have the guts to face him. 

Matt and Olive kept pressing me to go see him but I kept putting it off. But I knew I wouldn't be able to put him off for long. The distance from him was killing me and I felt like I was going to lose my mind. So Friday night after work I went to HEAT to see him. Tazz told me he hadn't come in to work because he wasn't feeling well. Now I felt very bad. After a long debate with myself I drove to his house. He had given me his password to the elevator so I went through. When I walked in the place looked deserted. I took out my cellphone and was about to call him when he walked in with a towel around his waist.

He must have just come out of the shower because he was dripping wet from head to toe. My mouth watered as my eyes traveled down his sexy rock hard abs, six pack and long strong hairy legs. I found myself drooling just watching him. When he saw me standing there he looked surprised. I didn't miss the sad look on his face and the bags under his eyes. This was all my fault.

"Hey." I said with a small smile.

"Hey." He replied nervously. We both stood there just watching each other. It occurred to me that I should be talking instead of just standing there like an idiot so I cleared my throat and spoke.

"How are you?" I asked mentally kicking myself for asking such a stupid question. He slowly smiled and I found myself yearning to touch him. God he was so beautiful. I had missed him so much it brought tears to my eyes. 

"I'm ok, I've just missed you." He replied. 

"I missed you too...I'm sorry it took me this long to contact you."

"It's ok Shaun you asked for time and that's what I gave you. I just hope it was enough."

"It was enough... I'm sorry left like that."

"It's ok baby, I'm not angry with you."

"No Michael it's not. I didn't explain everything to you." He got quiet and just looked at me. After a few seconds he started to look confused.

"What do you need to explain?" He asked.

"I will but I just need you to change first because I can't concentrate with you looking like that." As I said the word my eyes were already traveling all over his sexy body. He was so hot and I couldn't help but lick my lips. When my eyes met his I found him looking at me with a knowing smile. I blushed as we shared a laugh.

"Ok I'll be right back." I watched him walk away and sat down on the couch. A minute later he came back wearing sweats and a shirt. He sat on the same couch with me but a few inches away. 

"So...are you ready to tell me?" He asked and I nodded.

"Yeah um...the thing is that ever since the rape I haven't really had sex." He looked confused and was about to say something but I cut him off so I could explain.

"I have had sex, but it only happened twice and it was so bad that my boyfriend broke up with me." His eyes widened as I went on. 

"Every relationship I've had in the past never went further than kissing." He was still looking at me and I wanted to slap myself for not explaining properly. This was not going well so I decided to shut up and compose myself. 

"Was is painful or what?" He asked.

"No...I mean yes it was but the other problem was that I couldn't relax enough to let... The problem was me." 

"How do you know that Shaun?" he asked. I got up from the couch and started pacing the room in frustration.

"Of course it was me Michael. What other explanation could there have been?"

"Maybe your lover was a selfish prick who only cared about his own pleasure. Did you ever think of that?" I shook my head.

"No it wasn't Michael. It was definitely me. I can't relax enough to have sex or at least enjoy it. And in the past I didn't want to disappoint any of my past boyfriends in bed so I settled for foreplay. I knew we couldn't have sex so I would suck them off. It sounds disgusting but I got so good at it I convinced them that nothing could be better. At least they wouldn't pressure me into having sex right away. But eventually they realized that it was all they were going to get and they left." By now shame was written all over my face. 

"I just wanted to warn you that I am going to disappoint you Michael. I care about you so much and I hope that when we finally get around to having sex it won't be bad enough for you to leave me." Tears fell down my face as I watched the man I love stand up and walk towards me. He cupped my face with his warm hands and looked at me with so much care my love for him grew even more. It was too bad that he was going to break up with me. He meant so much to me that I didn't know how I was going to live without him.

"It's ok Michael, I understand why you want to break up with me. But I just want you to know that I love you no matter what." My heart broke as I said those words. His eyes widened in surprise at first and then he chuckled. Now I was confused.

"What's so funny?" I asked.

"I'm not breaking up with you Shaun." He replied.

"You...you're not?" i stammered.

"No I'm not. Why would I leave you when I love you so much?"

"What?" I didn't mean to yell but I couldn't help myself. I had never expected to hear him say those words. My heart soared with so much joy at that moment I felt like flying.

"I love you Shaun or did you want me to shout it out too?" He joked and we both laughed. Even though he had repeated those words I still couldn't believe it. I pulled him to me as our lips met. I moaned as he thrust his tongue in my mouth. Or hands tightened around each other as our kisses grew passionate. 

We both stumbled over the couch as we devoured each others lips. We pulled apart and tried to catch our breath. We looked at each other and my breath hitched. His eyes burned with lust and love it lit a fire in me. We both reached out to each other for another kiss. This one was more passionate but short and I looked at him in confusion when he pulled away. I tried to kiss him again but he pulled away again.

"Now I know something's wrong."i whined.

"Nothing is wrong Shaun I just..." He paused for a moment and I grew nervous.

"What, don't you want to do this with me?" I asked as fear crept in me. I really thought he loved me. Was I wrong?

"Of course I want to be with you. But I think we should stop this now before we get carried away." Was he crazy?

"Like hell we are." Now it was his turn to be surprised. I sat on his lap and held his face in my hands. 

"Shaun we should..." he tried to speak but I cut him off. 

"Please kiss me." I whispered with a plea and kissed him. We both moaned as I sucked on his tongue. His hands were everywhere at once. I rubbed against his hardness drawing a groan from him. He cupped my ass in his hands and squeezed. God that drove me crazy. We both groaned as our hard cocks rubbed against each other. Shit I wanted him so much right now or I was gonna blow. But he pulled away...again. What the hell.

"Shaun we have to stop."He panted.

"Why?" I asked this time in agitation.

"You're not ready for this." he breathed out.

"It's not really sex Michael. I want to suck your dick and taste your cum in my mouth." I replied as I licked his ear and thrust my tongue inside it. That drove him crazy.

"Oh fuck baby that's so hot." He cried out in pleasure. For a second I thought I was finally going to get my way when he held my hands with his and tightened his grip. It wasn't enough to hurt but it was firm.

"Now what?" I asked.

"What I mean is that we can't do this." he tried to explain.

"What, you mean I can't kiss you?" i asked in disbelief.

"We can kiss but that's just the only thing we will be doing for now." He explained. 

"But I'm fine." I couldn't believe he was doing this.

"It may look like it but honestly you're not Shaun." I sighed in frustration. He caressed my face with his hands and smiled at me. 

"I'm not saying we can't ever move past making out baby. What I'm saying is that we don't have rush that's all. We all the time in the world to do more." I just looked at him in awe. 

"I don't want you to do this because you think it's what I want. You have to want it too. And I promise we will get there. But now is not the right time and I will wait until then. Is that ok?"

"Yeah it is." I replied with a smile. He smiled back and gave me a peck on the lips. 

"You may believe that you cant enjoy sex but I promise that when I finally make love to you, you will cry out in pleasure." he whispered against my lips. I forgot to breath as I watched his face. I had a feeling he meant it but doubts were creeping in my mind.

"Michael I..." I was about to tell him about my doubts when he cut me off.

"Thats a promise Shaun. Don't say anything." He whispered and gave me a peck on the lips. 

I got off his lap and settled next to him as we both calmed down. We spent the night talking and laughing. We even kissed a few times but never took it far. When we finally went to bed in the early hours of the morning, he held me the entire time until I fell asleep. 

I couldn't believe how lucky I was. Michael was everything I have ever wanted in a man and he made me happy. When I woke up the sun was shining and my side of the bed was empty. For a few minutes I lay in bed and thought about everything that I had happened in the past week. For the first time in a long time I felt free and happy inside. I couldn't help but smile. The whole rape thing felt like such a distant memory now. 

I was in a great relationship with a guy who appreciated me and I was going to cherish every moment I had with him. I heard Michael's voice coming from the kitchen and I got up and put on my boxer shorts. I decided to wear one of his t-shirts because they were bigger and smelled like him. I found him in the kitchen making breakfast while talking on the phone. He saw me come in and pulled out a chair for me to sit and placed a plate with bacon and eggs and a cup of coffee in front of me. He kissed the top of my head grabbed a cup of coffee and joined me at the table. A few seconds later he hung up and looked at me.




As You Are Ch. 04



"Did you sleep well?" He asked with a worried and I nodded.

"Yeah, I did. Thank you for listening." I replied with a smile.

"Anytime baby." He replied with a smile of his own as we ate. I felt tears form in my eyes and decided to change the subject.

"What time do you leave for the club?" I asked between bites.

"I'm not going in today. I thought I could spend the day with you since your free too." He replied and chuckled when I looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

"Michael I'm fine. You don't have to change your plans for me." I was happy he wasn't leaving I also didn't want to seem needy.

"I know, but I wanted to spend some time with you. It's been a while since we've hung out together babe. I miss that."

"Me too." I replied and we smiled at each other. After breakfast we showered and relaxed on the couch. His phone beeped and he looked at it with a frown.

"What's wrong?" I asked. He was quite for a second.

"I forgot they were coming." He sighed.

"Who?"

"You'll see." He replied with a wink and got up. Just then the elevator opened and three tall and hot men walked out. Oh my god this was such perfection. I actually gaped. They all hugged and patted Michael with smiles on their faces. Clearly they had a rule against so much eye candy in one room. I was still staring when they all turned to look at me. 

"So this is must be the elusive Shaun slash the boyfriend." One of them said with a wicked smile as he walked towards me. I got up and shook his hand with a nervous smile. He had short blond hair and piercing blue eyes. He was a bit taller than Michael. 

"I gotta say for a moment there we thought you didn't exist. The guy couldn't stop talking about the cute guy he met at the club." He said with a twinkle in his eyes.

"Oh really?" I asked with a knowing smile as my eyes met Michael's. He actually blushed earning laughs from the guys.

"I know we just met but I like you. Anyone who can make him look like that is a genius." Michael gave him a glare but it was ignored. 

"I'm Chase and those two idiots over there are Mark and Jacob." 

"Hey that's my line dude." Michael growled but Chase just ignored him. 

"Sorry dude you took too long. Come on guys." He gestured to Mark and Jacob. The guys came over and shook hands with me. Mark had chocolate brown hair and green eyes. He was taller than the guys and had a warm smile. He seemed a bit shy too. Jacob was an inch shorter than Michael and Chase and was sexy as hell. When we shook hands I couldn't help but blush as his eyes traveled down my body. We exchanged pleasantries and sat down. I stifled a laugh as they teased him about forgetting pool and football night because he was getting some. 

That would explain the large amount of beer they came with. They seemed really nice and made me laugh. I kept getting weird glances from Jacob and it made me a bit uncomfortable. There was something about the way he looked at me. Olive called to check up on me and Michael invited her and Matt to come over so we could hang out. 

They both agreed and arrived within an hour carrying pizza and more beer. Olive and I were so happy to see each other we practically screamed and hugged each other as our boyfriends rolled their eyes and smiled at our dramatic display. Michael introduced them to his friends and I didn't miss the way Chase and Mark were undressing Olive with their eyes. 

Men! But she was hot even I knew that. Michael looked over at me and winked. I blushed and looked away only to find Jacob eying me with a strange look on his face. Now I was convinced that something was up with him. I decided to save Olive from the ogling by dragging her to the kitchen with me to fix some snacks for the guys. We took out some chips and peanuts poured them in huge bowls on the table.

"Damn Shaun who knew your boyfriend had hunky men like that for friends. If I died and woke up to all that male perfection I wouldn't complain." She had a wicked smile on her face. We both chuckled as we watched the guys talk. She was right, they were all hot. But Michael was hotter, or maybe I was biased. We chatted for a bit when Michael walked in the kitchen.

"Hey baby are you done? I gotta take these to the guys before they start barking like dogs."

"Were done." I replied with a smile. He took the bowls in one hand and the dip with the other.

"Thanks baby you're the best." He kissed my lips and left with a smile. I blushed as I watched him walk away. Olive winked at me and I blushed some more.

"Oh man you're so cute. Where's the bathroom?" She asked.

"Second door on your right down the hallway." She had just left when Jacob walked in the kitchen.

"The guys need more beer." He said with a nervous smile. I smiled back and took out some beers from the fridge and handed them to him. He took the pack from me but just stood there looking at me.

"Is there something else you wanted?" I asked nervously.

"You know when Mike told us he met someone you are definitely what I expected to see." What the fuck was he talking about?

"Excuse me?" i asked trying to get a handle on what he had just said.

"What I mean is that you're not his type." Wow this guy didn't beat around the bush.

"Really, so he has a type?" I asked trying to seen like I was interested in the conversation.

"Yeah I mean he usually goes for the tall, masculine type kind of guys. I never would have thought he went for twinks." He had no morals at all too.

"Right. Maybe he wanted a change." I retorted back with smile of my own.

"Maybe ... Look I didn't mean to offend you Shaun but I was just making an observation."

"Of course it was. I mean you didn't mean to insult me." I replied, this time my smile was gone. The corners of his lips twitched. 

"You seem nice though."He did not just say that.

"Nice...That's all?" Now I was angry.

"Yeah you do. And he never went for those too." He replied. Motherfucker!

"Oh I see. If that is..."

"Yes that's all. I gotta get back to the guys." He smiled as he walked away leaving me standing there and seething. Now I knew why he was staring at me earlier. He was sizing me up. But why? Was he jealous? My suspicions were confirmed when the guys left that night. I noticed that Jacob lingered longer than I would have liked in Michael's arms. 

The guy actually winked when he saw me starring. I gasped but no one noticed. For a moment I stood there frozen on the spot. Olive and Matt left soon after and promised to visit again. When the doors closed Michael's hands wrapped around me. I smiled and leaned against him. 

"Well that was nice." I said with a smile.

"Yeah, they like you baby." I turned to him and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"You think so?" I asked.

"Yep. You made a good impression on Chase. He'll be adopting you soon." We laughed at his joke. He pulled me to him and kissed me. I moaned when his lips grazed against mine. His tongue swept in my mouth and he pulled me impossibly close to his hard body. We kissed like that for a few minutes until we pulled apart to breath.

"I love you." He whispered against my lips.

"I love you too." I replied and kissed him again. He pulled back and took my hand with his. 

"Let's go to bed baby." He whispered as he led me down the hallway to his bedroom. I smiled but my mind was racing. I had a feeling I was gonna have to fight to be with Michael.



As You Are Ch. 05



More insecurities arise and a challenge

As the car came to a stop Michael killed the engine and looked over at me. I was too nervous to say anything. I stepped out of the car and just leaned against it as Michael walked up to me. He took my hands in his and watched me for a moment.

"Are you okay?" He asked as he regarded me with a worried look.

"Yeah, I'm just nervous." I replied breathlessly and forced a smile.

"I can see that." I finally looked up at him with worry.

"Are you sure that I'm dressed appropriately?" I asked again for maybe the hundredth time that night. I watched him smile wider as he looked me over. Maybe it was a bad idea asking him for dressing tips. All he was doing was undressing me with his eyes. Michael chose a dark blue shirt and black jeans for me to wear for dinner tonight. The guys had invited us for dinner at one of the restaurants they owned. 

Chase and Mark had been bugging me for a while now to meet the women in their lives and I had finally agreed. I really wanted them to like me. I waited for Michael to finish ogling me with his eyes and sighed when his eyes locked into mine.

"You look great baby. In fact I think I may have to warn off some of the men in there from undressing you with their eyes." He purred in my ear and I pushed him away playfully with a laugh.

"I'm being serious here." I tried to look angry.

"Me too baby, you look great. The girls will love you, and not because of what you have on. You being sexy as hell is a bonus too, they are gonna wish you played for their team. Damn now I think I may have to fight off the women too." He joked with a wiggle of his eyebrows and my eyes widened. He chuckled and took my hand as we walked away from the parking lot. 

"That was a joke right?" I asked still unsure if he was playing me or not.

"Yeah baby, just relax." He replied as we walked in. The place was way bigger than I imagined. Everything from the decor to the food looked classy and expensive. Ok, now I had a clue just how much money my boyfriend had. I felt so much pride knowing that he was a very successful business man like his friends. 

Jazz music played in the background and waiters bustled around everywhere. Someone like me would never afford to eat in a place like this. I let Michael lead me to a bigger table at the corner where everyone was waiting. They all turned to look at us and I swallowed past a dry throat. Chase and Mark introduced me to the girls and I was surprised at how excited they were to meet me.

Chase's girlfriend Ann was the same height as me with long black hair, blue eyes and the body of a model. She was an ad exec at an advertising company in the city. Mark's wife Susan was an inch taller with short blond hair, green eyes and a hot body to go with. She worked as a chef in the restaurant but took the night off to come meet me. She and Jacob kinda looked alike. They noticed me staring and told me they were cousins. 

Dinner was amazing and I had a good laugh. I couldn't believe how open they were around me and they never made me feel left out. Even Jacob was all smiles and chatty too. 

We had so much fun. I listened with envy when they reminisced about their college days. I was also envious of how close they all were with each other. I kinda wished Olive and Matt were here too. We made plans to meet up at Mark's house next weekend for dinner. I called Olive and Matt to invite them and they were happy to come. The week passed by quickly and when Saturday came around we picked them up as we drove to Mark's house. Everyone made them feel welcome and they got along with the girls really fast. 

Mark's house was huge with expensively furnished. While the guys watched soccer the girls and I hung out since I wasn't such a huge soccer fan. A while later we sat down at the patio and had dinner. There were jokes and laughter and once again they made us feel welcome. I was happy that we were all getting along quite nicely, but my happiness was cut short. One minute we were talking about favorite foods when Michael spilled some sauce on his shirt and I took out a napkin to wipe it off. 

Chase teased him for being a klutz and the whole table erupted with laughter. Susan totally shocked me when she mentioned that she remembered how his white shirt looked like he had been in a fight one night when came back from his date with Jacob. Chase chocked on his wine and Mark faked a cough in the hopes of shutting her up but she was way into the story to notice.

"What?" I asked in shock stopping her from continuing. 

She finally looked at me as her smile slowly faded. Maybe it was the fact that everyone was looking everywhere except at me or her, or the surprised look on my face that told her I had no idea what she was talking about. There was about a good twenty seconds of silence before Mark got up from the table and mumbled something about leaving the stove on. He grabbed Susan by the arm and asked her to come check it out with him. I slowly turned to Michael to find him looking at his plate in silence.

"You two used to date?" I asked expecting the same silence I got. When he finally looked up at me guilt was written over his face. 

"Michael?" I asked again but I got nothing. I was totally shocked, mostly because he had kept this from me. Olive decided to change the subject but I wasn't listening. They tried to make conversation but it was strained. The drive home was quiet and long. We dropped Olive and Matt off at their apartment and went to Michael's house. When we walked in the living area he finally spoke.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you." I looked over at him like I was confused.

"I'm sorry, did you say something?" He sighed and ran his hands through his hair in frustration.

"Yes Shaun, I'm trying to talk to you here."

"That's funny, coz an hour ago you couldn't talk." He tried to say something but I cut him off. "But hey, it's good to know you've found your voice again."

"Shaun please let me explain."

"Explain what?" I was still playing the confusion game and he was slowly losing patience.

"About this! I know that finding out about me and Jacob came as a bit of a shock..."

"You think?" I asked cutting him off. He was silent for a few seconds.

"I didn't want you finding out like that."

"I see, so when were you planning on telling me Michael?" I asked. He was quite again and I grew angry.

"I can't believe this." I walked away from him and headed for the lift. He grabbed my hand and I turned to look at him.

"What is it?"

"I'm sorry."

"Are you apologizing for not telling me sooner or for that I found out like this?"

"Both." He replied as he swallowed nervously. We both stood there without saying anything.

"Were you two serious?" I finally asked.

"Not really it was just..." he tried to explain and I cut him off again.

"So it was just dates and sex?" I sighed in anger when he got tongue tied again. 

"So I'm right, it was about sex wasn't it?" I asked again.

"Yes and it was also complicated. In the end we both agreed that we were better off as friends. That's all there is to it babe." 

Then why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

"I was avoiding this." He gestured with his hand between us. I couldn't believe this.

"You mean you wouldn't have told me if Susan hadn't mentioned it?" I asked incredulously. 

"That's not what I meant."

"Then why was this a secret in the first place? Is there something going between the two of you?" He looked shocked. I know I sounded paranoid but this whole thing made me jealous. 

"What! Of course there's nothing going on between us Shaun. I can't believe you would think that about me."

"Can you blame me? You have to see this from my side Michael. He's still your friend and you're still so very close. Most of all you two share a past." He looked at me and sighed. He took my face in his hands and I let him caress my face and swallowed as heat enveloped me.

"That's what it is, a past. I'm with you now." He took my hand in his and brought it to his lips. That just melted all my resolve. 

"I'm sorry, I guess I'm just jealous."

"You don't have to be babe. I love you." He whispered on my lips.

"I know." I replied as I pulled him tight.

...

Olive and I met up for lunch on Monday and discussed the whole Michael and Jacob relationship thing. Ever since I found out about them I've been on edge and I needed to vent.

"The thought of them together is so hot." She said with a naughty look on her face. My eyes widened at her.

"Olive you're not helping."

"What? I was just saying." She said innocently. 

"Shouldn't you be trying to make me feel better?" I was a bit angry she wasn't taking this seriously. She sobered up and gave me a sympathetic look.

"Ok I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you. Matt and I were just as shocked as you were."

"Really, because it looked like you were getting turned on there for a second." I couldn't help but smile.

"You have to admit they are both hot right?" I sighed.

"I don't even want to think about it." I rolled my eyes at her.

"Ok Shaun what's really going on with you?" Olive asked in confusion.

"I'm worried Olive. Can't you tell?"

"About what?"

"About them being so close. I know I'm being pathetic and insecure but I can't help it."

"What I can tell is that you're getting worked up for nothing. They are just friends."

"Jacob wants him back." She looked up at me in surprise.

"Did he tell you that?"

"No but I can see it." Olive gave me a funny look.

"You sound crazy right now Shaun." I tried to say something but she cut me off. "And I know why. You're still in shock that's all and I don't blame you."

"You don't see the way he looks at Michael."

"How does he look at him?" She asked.

"Like he wants to devour him." I realized how crazy I sounded and sighed in frustration and shook my head.

"Yes, yes you do." Olive replied and I glared at her.

"Are you are making fun of me?"

"Yeah, only because I think you're going to drive yourself insane with this. You're not even sure Jacob does really want him back."

"I am." She sighed.

"Even it were true which I highly doubt, Michael adores you. So please stop worrying and just relax." She said with a smile.

"What I need is a drink." Olive started laughing at me and I soon joined in. We continued to laugh and ignored the weird glances we were getting in the cafeteria. After we calmed down Olive spoke.

"At least we got a good laugh." She said and I nodded in agreement. "The only thing I can tell you is to just ignore Jacob. But if he does try something you have to tell Michael."

"But I don't want them to fight over something I said."

"If you're right and he tries to come between the two of you, then all bets are off. Friendship or not." 

"Your right. You are a weird person but you always know what to say to a guy."

"Of course I do. Besides, when have I ever been wrong?" I looked at her with a raised eyebrow and tried to say something when she cut me off.

"Don't say a word and let me enjoy my moment." She warned and aimed a plastic fork at me. I chuckled as we ate our lunch. I was going to take her advice and ignore Jacob. But if he ever tried to come between Michael and me I wasn't going to stand for it.

...

I smiled as Michaels lips moved to my neck and his hands tightened around my waist. It was a Saturday night and all of us were at HEAT. Chase came with his girlfriend and Mark with his wife. Olive and Matt were there too. Jacob came alone but it wasn't long till he was dancing with a tall good looking guy. We hang out for hours drinking free booze thanks to my wonderful boyfriend. When a catchy electric beat started playing we all went to the dance floor and danced our asses off. A few songs later some of us went over to the table and let the girls dance. Only Mark remained on the floor with Susan. Michael excused himself and went upstairs to take care of something. Matt went over to the bar to get us more drinks leaving me and Chase at the table. We managed to talk and laugh over the loud music.

"Hey are you okay?" he asked. I looked over at him in confusion.

"Yeah, why do you ask?'

"You've been acting weird ever since Susan opened her big mouth the other day. And I kinda get the feeling Jacob rubs you the wrong way."

"He does, but it's not the way you think."

"I think I have a pretty good idea. But you don't have to worry anything Shaun. They happened a long time ago. And I think it was for the best since Jacob wasn't into the relationship as much as Michael was and he let him know it. Truthfully I'm glad in ended. Michael was sad about the whole thing but he got over it." 

"I had no idea." I wondered why he never told me that part.

"This isn't the kind of thing you tell your boyfriend." He said with a sad look in his eyes.

"Yeah I guess not..." I said as I thought for a second. I trusted Chase and I felt like I could ask and tell him anything. "I kinda get the feeling that Jacob wants him back Chase. Maybe I'm worrying over nothing but I can't help thinking it." He kept quiet for a while.

"I think Jacob liked the idea that Michael was stuck up on him this whole time. I mean their relationship was more about the control he had over Michael than anything. Mark and I watched as he paraded boyfriend after boyfriend in Michael's face after they broke up and he knew how much Michael was hurting. Anyone could see that Michael had strong feelings for Jacob and I prayed that someday he would find someone he could channel those feelings into." He smiled big as he watched me smile too. 

"I'm so happy he found you Shaun. He really loves you and I don't think he ever felt the same way about Jacob. I mean you should have seen him that night you guys met. I gotta tell you, he was hooked." We both laughed.

"Thank you for telling me this Chase. It means a lot."

"No need to thank me little dude. Just make him happy."

"I will, I promise." I said with a smile. I felt hands move around my waist as warm breath blew on my neck. My body flushed as I turned over to see Michael looking at me with a smile on his face. 

"What are you two talking about?" He asked as he looked over at Chase.

"Just asking if you're taking real good care of him."

"Shouldn't you be asking me that?" Michael tried to look angry but failed.

"Na you're a big boy." Chase said with a wink. Matt came over with glasses of shots as everyone arrived at the table. We all drowned our drinks and headed over the dance floor again. Michael couldn't keep his hands off me the entire time we moved against each other. His lips moved between my face, lips, nose and neck. He aroused every part of my body and I found my pants getting tight. I was feeling tipsy and Michael looked simply delicious. I guess I was feeling horny too. Tiesto's Red Lights started playing and Michael claimed my lips. Everything and everyone else faded away and we were the only one's standing there. I let him explore every inch of my mouth with his tongue as our kiss grew in passion. I cried out in his mouth as his hands grabbed my butt and squeezed it.

My hands fisted his hair as he sucked my tongue in his mouth. God I was hard as nails and he was just as affected as I was judging by the enormous tent in his pants. He tore his lips from mine and sucked on my neck. I moaned as he bit into my neck and sucked on the same spot. I knew he was going to leave a huge mark and the thought had me leaking like a faucet. He was driving me crazy with pleasure and any more of this beautiful torture I was going to explode in my pants. My eyes slowly opened and I then registered that we were in a room full of people. 

But everyone was dancing up a storm clearly oblivious at what we were doing. Olive and Matt however were gaping at us. I could tell they were both turned on and that only fueled my desire. I winked at them and pulled Michael's head from my neck and attacked his lips. He was shocked for a second but responded by opening his lips to welcome my tongue. I wanted him with a passion I couldn't control. We pulled apart and stared into at each others eyes as we fought to breath. 

"Stay here." He said with a horse whisper and walked to our table. He said something to Chase and they both turned to look at me. I couldn't read Michael's face but Chase smiled and winked my way making me blush. 

Michael walked up to me completely ignoring Jacob who tried to say something to him and took my hand almost dragging me off the dance floor. I didn't miss the angry look in Jacob's face as we exited the club. When we got to the staff parking lot Tazz was waiting for us by the car and opened the doors for us. He was obviously driving us there. As soon as the door closed Michael drew me into his arms as his lips moved to my neck. My eyes snapped to the rear view mirror in surprise so I could see if Tazz was watching us. His eyes remained on the road as if we weren't even there. 

A moan tore out of me as Michael's lips found a sensitive spot on my neck and sucked on it. I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore and soon I was moaning as I enjoyed the wonderful torture he was assaulting on my body. His hands moved inside my shirt until they found my nipples and played with them. His lips moved to mine and swallowed my cries as he twisted my nipples with his fingers. Oh my god I was going to come and I couldn't help it. My breath quickened and I trembled in his arms as groans erupted from my lips. My fingers dug into his scalp as I let out a scream and came in my pants. My orgasm was so intense I saw stars dancing in front of my eyes. Michael held me the entire time as I unraveled in his arms. 

"Oh god, oh god." I kept calling out as endless stream of come filled my underwear. I finally sagged in his arms in post orgasmic bliss. I couldn't even move my head to look into his eyes. He tipped my head to his face and kissed me. 

"That was so hot." He whispered hoarsely as the car came to a stop. Michael helped me out of the car and we started walking, or in this case he was almost dragging me. I was so out of it took me a while to realize we were walking into my apartment building. 

We passed Jerry the doorman and stopped at the lift. The doors opened and a young woman got in with us. The elevator stopped on the second floor and two chatty girls walked in. They looked a bit drunk and were eying us with curiosity. I guess I couldn't blame them since I was leaning into Michael like I was sick or something. One of them couldn't keep quite any longer.

"Excuse me but is your brother ok." She asked. I couldn't even open my mouth to answer her and Michael did that for me.

"No he's ok." He replied with a small smile. 

"Is he sick or something?" The woman asked. 

"No." he replied again.

"Then what's wrong with him?" she asked again. I was sure Michael would come up with a good explanation, but what came out of his mouth totally shocked me.

"I just made him come so..." he trailed off. The room fell silent for a second as the girls mouths hung open in surprise. I couldn't believe he just said that. The doors opened and Michael took my hand and walked out of the elevator. 

"Oh my god that's so hot." One of them said and I didn't even care who it was. Thanks to Michael's shocking words I was half hard since getting out of the elevator. We walked in silence until we reached the door. I unlocked it and was about to get in when Michael turned me around. I gasped at the fire burning in his eyes. His throat was working and he looked to be thinking of what to say.

"I know I told you we should wait a while to do more Shaun, but I don't think I can wait any longer. Not after seeing you come in the car. Forgive me but as soon as the door closes behind us I am going to kiss you until I have you coming again, in my mouth." I gaped at him as my dick rose to full mast. I kept opening my mouth to say something but nothing came out and I decided to shut it before I squealed. I turned to open the door. As soon as the door closed behind us he grabbed me and pinned me against the door. Our lips came crashing into each other as our clothes came flying off. As soon as my pants hit the floor he lifted me by my ass and I wrapped my legs around his waist as my hands locked in his hair. 




As You Are Ch. 05



He carried me to the bedroom and we slowly descended on my bed without breaking our kiss. His weight felt good on around me and I ran my hands on every inch of his skin I could reach. He showered my face with kisses and moved to my neck and sucked and grazed against it with his teeth. Endless moans escaped my lips as he moved down and sucked on my nipples with his tongue. I went crazy as the pleasurable sensations went straight to my cock. He left a trail of kisses as he made his descend. When he reached my hard dick he didn't waste time and swallowed me whole until I hit the back of his throat. 

"Oh fucking hell Michael, oh fuck." I cried out as he relaxed his throat and hummed around me and played my balls with his hand. I nearly came off the bed as the pleasure intensified. My head thrashed sideways on the pillow as I grasped his head and thrust in his mouth. 

"Oh god, oh fuck this feels so good." I cried out as I fucked his mouth. For someone who just came a few minutes ago I was losing control fast. I had never known so much pleasure in my life. Our eyes met and I came undone. My eyes rolled in the back of my head as I came in his mouth with a scream. He pinned me down on the bed as I filled his mouth with my come. He swallowed everything I had to give down his throat and finally pulled off. 

His lips claimed mine and he thrust his tongue in my mouth. I could taste myself on his tongue and I moaned at the thought of my come going down his throat. We rolled over until I was on top of him and immediately went for his nipples. I alternated between sucking, licking and lightly biting as I enjoyed the pleasured noises he was making. He moaned as he pressed his hard and licking cock against my chest.

"I need to come so fucking much baby, I'm so close." He begged. I smiled seductively as I took him in my hand and slowly jerked him off. He moaned and thrust in my hand as more pre-come leaked from his cock. I couldn't resist anymore and licked his cock head and sucked on it like it was my favorite ice cream. His fingers ran through my hair as he played with his nipples with his other hand. I took more of him in my mouth and jerked him off with my hand and cupped his balls with the other.

"Oh fuck baby that's so fucking good, oh yeah." He cried out as his hips thrust against my mouth. I looked over at him only to find him staring at me through hooded eyes. He looked so sinfully sexy with his face lost in pleasure. I opened wide as I swallowed him to the hilt.

"Oh fuck yeah baby just like that. Suck that cock in your fucking mouth. Oh you're gonna make me come." He moaned as his thrusts became erratic and his breathing came in groans. He froze as his cock grew thicker and his warm come hit the back of my throat. He screamed as he filled my mouth with his load and I swallowed like a man dying of hunger. His come had me addicted and I sucked him off until he softened. 

"Shit baby that's enough, I'm pretty sure you got everything." He said between gulps of breath as he chuckled. I brought my lips to his and groaned as he sucked my tongue down his throat. 

"Fuck that was amazing. God damn baby you give the best head." He breathed out as we pulled apart.

"Yeah." I replied as I he pushed strands of hair away from my forehead. He gathered me in his arms and placed my head on his chest. We lay like that for a few minutes until we calmed down. 

"Shaun." He called out. 

"Yeah." I replied a second later.

"Do you have any regrets about what happened?" he asked. I looked over at him in surprise.

"No I don't Michael. I've wanted this for a long time too." I replied and kissed him. He angled my head with his hand as we kissed passionately. We pulled apart and he looked at me closely.

"I don't want to pressure you into doing anything you're not ready for."

"You couldn't. I would tell you if I wasn't ready." I replied with a smile on my face.

"I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too." I replied and kissed his lips as we settled in our previous position. We stayed silent as we enjoyed being in each others arms and soon we fell asleep.

...

I stifled a yawn for the third time in two minutes. I was so worn out but it had nothing to do with work. I smiled when I thought about how little sleep Michael and I got last night. Ever since our scandalous scene at the club we couldn't keep our hands off each other. We were like horny teenagers who had just discovered sex for the first time. Even though it wasn't really sex it was still amazing and thrilling and I found myself aching for his lips on every inch of my body. That boy sure knew how to bring me pleasure and I was addicted to his lips and big dick. 

There wasn't a single day that I went without having him come in my mouth and me doing the same. All this made me yearn for more but Michael was still adamant about us waiting a while for sex. His hands never even went to my ass unless he was spanking me or squeezing it. Maybe it was the way I always tensed up each time his hands touched it, even though I always relaxed whenever I realized what he is doing. I was starting to think that maybe something was wrong with me. But I wanted so badly for him to touch me there or do something to me and it was driving me insane. 

"Earth to Shaun. Seriously dude your mind's not here at all." I looked over at Matt and blushed as I realized I had drifted off again. 

"I'm sorry guys. I've had a lot on my mind." He and Olive exchanged quick glances and looked back at me in confusion. Michael was busy at the club tonight so I went to see my friends to pass time.

"Are you kidding me right now? You're with the man of your dreams and he's been so wonderful to you. What exactly could be wrong?" Olive asked. I sighed and decided to confide in them. They always knew what to say.

"I think Michael's losing patience with me coz were not having sex." Both of them looked shocked.

"What the fuck Shaun, you seriously haven't tapped that?" Olive really had a way with words. If I wasn't so worried I would have laughed.

"No, I haven't tap... I mean no, we have talked about it and got tested as a precaution. It's just that now isn't the right time and were waiting." 

"You mean you're waiting?" Olive asked with a raised eyebrow. 

"You make it sound like I'm a bad boyfriend. Like I said, Michael understands how I feel about intimacy and he respects my decisions."

"We get you, but you have to understand that he's a guy. All we think about is sex, and lots of it." Olive punched Matt on the shoulder and sat next to me. She saw my fear and anxiety and it was breaking her heart.

"Just ignore him sweety. If Michael says he's ok with everything then he probably means it. So don't worry ok." She was definitely in the wrong profession. I nodded and hugged her real tight.

"But I still can't believe you haven't fucked like bunnies yet. Maybe you need goggles coz that man is so fine." Olive added.

"Don't let her corrupt you Shaun." Matt warned and we laughed.

"You guys are the best. I don't know what I would do without you." We all smiled at each other and enjoyed the night. I had the best friends in the whole world.

...

Friday night I drove to my boyfriend's house to surprise him with dinner. I hadn't seen him for two days since he traveled for work and I missed him like crazy. I know I was smiling like an idiot but I was too excited. But as soon as the doors opened my smile faded. I heard voices in the kitchen and headed there only to find Michael and Jacob laughing. 

Michael had his back on Jacob whose head was resting on his shoulder. They were looking at something interesting on Michael's phone. His hand came around his waist as his nose touched Michael's neck and he breathed him in. I was quiet disturbed and annoyed at the scene before me. Michael was so oblivious to what was happening and I didn't know whether to be relieved or worried or both. I cleared my throat and forced a smile when they both turned to look at me. 

"Hi guys." Michael's face broke into a full blown smile as he walked up to me and gave me a tight hug and kiss.

"Hey babe, I'm so happy you're here. I've missed you so much." He said between kisses as he pulled me closer.

"I missed you too." I replied as he wrapped me in his arms again. I looked over at Jacob who looked totally irritated.

"I was hoping to surprise you with dinner." I said as I gestured to the brown paper bag in my hand. "But I didn't know there was three of us."

"That's ok, I was just leaving." Jacob said with a smile as he walked out of the kitchen. Inside I was so happy I wanted to burst.

"Yeah, Jacob called and offered to pick me up at the airport while you were at work. I didn't want to disturb you." Michael explained nervously.

"That's ok." I assured him. Just then Michael's phone rang and he picked it up. It was the club and as soon as he walked out to the balcony I looked at Jacob. 

"Why are you really here Jacob?" he looked surprised.

"What do you mean?"

"Don't act dumb. You know what I'm talking about." He looked a bit taken aback for a second but slowly smiled.

"Mike is my friend and I won't apologize for wanting to hang out with him."

"I totally get the friend thing believe me, what I don't get is why you always seem to follow him around like a lost puppy."

"Gods Shaun, I know you and I just met but I never thought you would get insecure and clingy so soon. Mike doesn't need that."

"I guess I have a reason now since you've made it a habit of yours to hang around my boyfriend at every turn. But just so were clear Jacob, I won't let you take my place in his life."

"You really think you have me all figured out don't you?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"It doesn't take a genius to see what you're doing so I'm going to repeat myself and say it more clearly this time. He's my boyfriend not yours and you need to respect that." I said the words a bit louder poking his chest. 

"You had your chance and you blew it. And now you can't stand that he's happy with someone who isn't you. So you better listen..." He cut me off and slapped my hand off him as his eyes flashed with anger.

"Now you listen to me little boy, Michael wants a real man, not some little inexperienced boy whose only talent is batting his pretty eyes and looking all innocent. I know him more than you can ever imagine..." This time he gave me an evil smile. 

"I know how he looks when he's in pleasure which is more than I can say for you."

"And you think I don't?" I asked with a smile of my own.

"Oh I know you don't, and you wanna know why? You haven't fucked on every inch and surface of this house like we have. We have fucked more times and in more positions than you can count in your life and even you can't erase those memories. So you see Shaun when you look at that couch, or that poker table, or even that kitchen island I want you to picture us moaning, sweating as we move against each other in pure ecstasy. 

And I pray that picture burns in your memory forever." Now he was poking my chest with a triumphant smile on his face. I was in total shock and rendered speechless. He actually chuckled.

"You're not so chatty now are you little boy? Tell you what, just spare yourself the headache and leave him to me before I decide to take him away from you because I promise you Shaun, it will hurt when I do." He whispered in my ear and stepped back to look at me. Just then Michael walked in the room.

"Hey you two, why so serious?" He asked with a frown on his face. We both turned to face him.

"I was just telling Shaun that it was time I left to give you guys some privacy." Jacob said with a smile on his face. It felt like such a good idea to slap it off him at the moment, but I held back.

"Yeah, I wanted him to stay for a while but he insisted on leaving so..." I said with a fake and disappointed look on my face. "So I was just thanking him for giving us some time to ourselves." I finished. Jacob fixed me with an evil glare which vanished immediately when he turned to Michael.

"Yeah, so I will see you later." He hugged Michael and glared at me again. We both glared at each other. 

"Sure thing man." Michael said with a smile. Jacob came over and hugged me too. His lips moved to my ear.

"Don't forget, I knew him before you and I will be here when he finally gets rid of you. So you see Shaun, I'm not going anywhere." He said and pulled back as he stepped in the lift. I watched him smile warmly as the doors closed in front of me...



As You Are Ch. 06



Chapter 06

Everything gets out in the open

I stood there starring at the door, my mind racing. The urge to run and force it open was so strong that my fists clenched. I wanted to confront that fucking prick and maybe punch him in the face, but I found myself unable to move. Jacob was such a bastard! And a fucking dick and I couldn't believe I let him get away with taunting me like this. I had finally made up my mind. It was time I told Michael everything. Taking a deep breath I turned and walked to the balcony. Michael was just hanging up his phone. 

"Michael I need to tell you something."

"Ok, what's up?" 

"I need to talk to you about Jacob." He looked confused for a bit and shook his head.

"Somehow I knew this was coming." He spoke in a small voice and turned away from me.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm not blind Shaun, I see how uneasy he makes you. You tense up whenever he's around and I've been getting a feeling that you really don't like him. After I explained everything to you I thought you would understand. I thought that my past with Jacob wouldn't get to you but I was wrong."

"I won't deny that, but believe me the feeling is mutual."

"No it's not. Jacob likes you and he's told me that so many times. He really wants to get to know you."

"Somehow I doubt that very much Michael you have no idea the things that he..."

"Why are you threatened by him when there is absolutely no reason for you to be? He's just a friend and a good one at that."

"I get that, believe me I do." 

"Are we seriously talking about him now Shaun because i don't want to. We are supposed to be having dinner and talking about our day and how happy we are to finally be together. Please don't make me choose between the two of you Shaun because I will break his heart." He begged. I looked at him in surprise and not believing what he was saying. It should have made me happy knowing he would choose me over that dick but the good side of me felt bad about that. Why I would never know.

"Please give him a chance and in time you will see what a wonderful person he really is. I trust him, with my life or else he wouldn't be here if I thought otherwise. Please babe I need you to understand that." I was pretty speechless after all that. I couldn't ruin things for them and I knew I was making a mistake by keeping quiet. He touched my hand and smiled warmly at me. 

"Please Shaun." He begged. How could I say no to that? I sighed and gave in.

"I will try, for your sake." I said with a smile. 

"Thank you babe. You have no idea how much this means to me." He replied and kissed me. He pulled back and looked at me.

"You know Shaun this doesn't mean I don't care about your feelings. If he has done or said anything that makes you feel uncomfortable you have to tell me. You can't keep things bottled up inside. I'm for you to unload on." This was my opportunity to tell him and I blew it.

"There isn't." I lied and he looked at me like he was trying to read me.

"You are the most important person in my life and I want you to be open and honest with me about anything. If you have a problem don't ever feel that you have to deal with it alone because I'm here for you, always. I don't want you to ever doubt how much I love you." 

"I know and I love you too." I replied with a smile and let him hug me. Shit. Shit. Shit! .............. Matt and Olive sat there in stunned silence after I explained what happened lat night. 

"That bitch! I can't believe he said that." Olive said in anger. 

"You know there's only one way this could be resolved right?" Matt asked. I remained quiet.

"Damn it Shaun do I have to spell this out to you. You have to tell Michael now. You can't let Jacob get away with this."

"I know I just..."

"Stop making excuses here, you do know that if Michael found out about this on his own he would probably be angry at you too right?" He was right, but I wasn't ready to admit it.

"Shaun he's right, you have to tell Michael. From what you've said about Jacob he likes taunting you when he thinks Michael's not watching. That's bullying and I think it's time Michael knew it." Olive suggested.

"I know that and I will tell Michael. I just have to do it without causing any trouble I mean they are friends and..."

"There is no way in hell trouble isn't going to be caused here. Why the fuck should it matter to you how their friendship ends after this anyway? You should be thrilled when Michael finally tells him off." God I felt so emotionally drained. 

"I hear you Matt, but what if he doesn't believe me?" I asked the fear showing on my face. 

"I know he will believe you, he has no reason in the world not to." Olive replied and I sighed. 

"God I can't believe this is happening to me. I have never had to fight for anything or anyone that I love in my life before. I'm clueless when it comes to relationships and the problems that come with them. Normally when I have a problem I deal with it on my own, but now...I have no idea what to do." Tears were falling down my face now. Olive sat down and gave me a hug. 

"Oh honey, this has gone on for too long. You have to let Michael know everything. And the answer you're looking for is communication, you will come to learn just how important it is. That means opening up to the person you love. You have to remember that a relationship is between two people, not one." I pulled back and looked into her eyes.

"God damn it Olive. Why do you always know what to say?"

"It's a gift, what can I say?" she replied with a smile and I let out a nervous laugh. Matt held my hand and spoke.

"Don't wait till the last minute to tell him Shaun." I nodded in agreement. ........... The moment I stepped out of the lift and Michael's house I knew something was wrong. He had called last night and informed me that he was back from his business trip and I came here first thing the following morning to see him. So here I stood trying to think of what was different, then it hit me. I could smell perfume. It wasn't Michael's and it definitely wasn't a man's. A tall woman with short blonde hair walked in the kitchen wearing nothing but Michael's shirt. I watched her tits bounce up and down with every step she took and I closed my eyes and shook my head thinking I was seeing things. This was wrong on so many levels. When she noticed me her beautiful face broke out into a killer grin and she spoke.

"Oh my god, your Shaun."

"Umm... do I know you?" I couldn't remember meeting her before but something about her was very familiar.

"Oh sorry, I'm Lucy, Mike's big sister." She said and shook my hand longer than usual. I tried to say something but she beat me to it.

"Dear god you're gorgeous." She blurted it out and I blushed in surprise.

"Err... thank you." I stammered. She looked me up and down like I was some delicious dish and I got nervous. 

"The photos of you were really nice but in person you are one fine specimen. Dear god I could just eat you up." Oh man she was on a roll with the compliments and I wish I had a place to hide. Where was Michael when I needed him? Just then he walked in the living room and stopped when he saw us. He wore boxer shorts and nothing on and my mouth watered. He had muscles in the right place and damn it if I didn't get hard. Even in the morning he was gorgeous and sexy as hell.

"There you are finally" Lucy said and Michael looked at her with annoyance.

"Oh dear god your awake."

"Of course I am duh. It's a good thing coz Shaun just walked in and we were exchanging a few hellos." More like she was saying everything. I barely got two words out.

"So I see. This is definitely what I didn't want. You should have waited until I was awake before making him uncomfortable. It's too early in the morning for that." 

"What do you mean uncomfortable? Does he look uncomfortable to you?" She asked her eyes set on me. I tried to say yes but she spoke. "Besides, you sleep like the dead. I wasn't going to wait up for you." She replied and looked at me again with that smile of hers. 

"I was just telling Shaun here that the photos of him you sent didn't do him justice. He's a beautiful work of art. Sure gave me a boner!" I believe I turned purple this time and Michael chuckled and walked up to us and pulled me away from her. He gave me a peck on the lips and I blushed when he pulled back to look at me.

"And this is the type of uncomfortable I was talking about. Forgive my sister babe she's not afraid to speak her mind, and that happens to be all the time."

"I have noticed." I replied and looked at them noticing a few similarities between them.

"Mostly it's annoying." He mocked and groaned in pain when she punched him on the shoulder.

"Ouch what was that for?" He asked as he rubbed his shoulder.

"That is for being too clever for your own good. You may be taller than me but I'm still your big sister and I can still kick your ass." She shot back as she walked in the kitchen. 

"While you're at it maybe you could try and put some clothes on." Michael suggested and Lucy poked her head out from the kitchen.

"I'm not completely naked you know. I do have underwear underneath plus last time I checked you guys were gay so there is definitely nothing here that could excite you. I'm referring to Shaun by the way." She wiggled her eyebrows at me and went back to whatever she was doing. We both chuckled. 

"She's right you know." I said as he wrapped his arms around me.

"Never the less her assets are poking out all over the place and its grouse." Then he gave me a sexy smile. "Hey babe." He whispered.

"Hi." I replied with a shy smile and he pulled me closer. His lips closed on mine and I moaned forgetting about Lucy. When that thought occurred to me I slowly pushed him away.

"Michael we can't."

"Why not?" he looked confused.

"Your sister is in the next room." I gestured to the kitchen with my head and he smiled.

"Oh please don't mind her. She has seen everything." My eyes widened at him wondering what he was referring to.

"Nevertheless. You didn't tell me she was here."

"She got in after midnight babe and I was beat. She often comes into town for work." I nodded and smiled when he kissed me again. This time it was sensual, sweet and intoxicating and I moaned as my arms wrapped around his neck.

"I've missed you so much." He whispered and kissed my nose. 

"I missed you too. You..." I was interrupted from talking further when Lucy came back from the kitchen and dragged me to the couch.

"You will have plenty of that later, right now Shaun and I need to get to know each other better." I looked over at Michael for help but he burst out in laughter and left us there. I liked Lucy but she was a real chatterbox. I guess it was a good thing since she was a lawyer and all. I sighed in relief when I left the house an hour later and drove to work, right after I promised we would do dinner tonight. Now she and Olive would get on very well, I just felt sorry for Matt. Later on the three of us went out for dinner and I got to know a lot more about Michael from her. Lucy was closest to him and he told her everything. 

She was the only one who knew about me and had kept it secret from everyone, especially their mother. When I asked why they both looked at me with snickers. I got the feeling she was worse than Lucy. When the guys heard that Lucy was in town they were thrilled and Chase didn't pass up the chance to see her and invited all of us for dinner the following night. Matt and Olive joined us as well. I've been at his house several times but I couldn't get over how big it was. Jacob was there too and it took all of my strength not to strangle him when he hugged Michael. Lucy noticed but didn't say anything. That was the last thing I needed to happen. 

Dinner was great and we had a blast. We hung out in the basement afterwards and had some drinks. Before we knew it, four bottles of Jack Daniels were empty and we were all a bit tipsy. We played a number of games and switched to truth or dare. We laughed as some of us did some funny tricks and gasped as some truths were revealed. I was totally surprised when Ann dared me to kiss two people from the group. I looked at her in shock and turned a shade of red when I saw how serious she was. I started to decline when Jacob told them I was too innocent to do anything scandalous and in front of Michael and some of them snickered behind me.

"You don't have to prove anything to them babe." Michael said with a smile. One look at him and I saw he was a bit disappointed. It made me wonder if he really wanted to see me kiss someone else. Maybe it was the booze but somehow the idea sounded interesting and arousing as well. So I stood up and spoke.

"Your right, I don't have to prove myself." I replied and Jacob opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off. "But on second thought." I said and crawled over to Mark. His eyes widened in interest as I moved closer and kissed him. I made sure there was no innocence in the kiss. It was hot, passionate and screamed sex. I heard him moan as I ravaged his lips and tasted every ridge of his mouth with my tongue. 

He was definitely enjoying it because he grabbed a fitful of my hair with his hand and reciprocated. Just as he was getting into it I pulled back and watched him fight to breath. He was turned on and I smiled as I moved to his wife and kissed her too. I heard gasps from behind but I didn't care. She was in the same state as her husband when I pulled away and I set my eyes on Chase. His eyes widened when I closed the distance between us. He was such a good kisser and I found myself getting a little hard when he took over and plundered my mouth. 

I had to fight the urge to pull him closer so I could taste all of him. So I nudged him back with my hand so he could let go of my lips. Then I looked back at everyone. Their mouths hung open in shock, even Jacob looked utterly shocked. Michael on the other hand looked impressed and turned on judging from the tent in his pants. 

I crawled back to him and he stood up and pulled me up from the floor. I followed him to the kitchen and moaned when he slammed his lips on mine. He picked me up and placed me on the kitchen counter and I wrapped my legs around his waist as we kissed passionately. There was so much pent up sexual frustration in that kiss I expected one of us to explode like a bomb. We rubbed against each other from chest to chest and cock to cock. 

Our bodies radiated with heat as we fucked each other fully clothed like that. We were soon groaning and moaning as we reached our climax. His lips moved to my neck and I was soon turned into a victim of bites and sucking and I cried out as I came in my jeans. The world around me greyed and my hands held on tight to his shirt as I came. He let out a chocked sob and kissed me again as he too started to come. Fuck that had been hot I wished it was the real thing. After we calmed down he looked over at me and licked his lips. He was still holding on to me tight and I didn't want him to let go.

"God what I would give to fuck you like this." He breathed out and I moaned in frustration at his words.

"Oh fuck." I called out as we kissed again. This time it was gentle but passionate. We heard cat whistles and some grumbling from the guys saying we should get a room. 

We didn't give a damn and kept kissing. When we finally pulled away we were out of breath and hard again. We decided to get back to the guys after we cleaned up in the bathroom. When we got back Olive and Matt gave us knowing smiles and winks as Chase complained about us taking our time. Lucy had a smile on her face but there was something else there. A knowledge of some sort. We got back to enjoying the night. 

When we left that night both Mark and Susan wouldn't meet my eyes but Chase had a wicked smile on his face. He looked at me with lustful eyes and I blushed. The thought of him and Michael's hot bodies pressing against me had me hardening in my pants and I stayed that way the entire ride home. When we got home it wasn't long until I was crying out as Michael swallowed my load. ........ I was just preparing for lunch when I got a call from reception about someone asking to see me. I was even more surprised but happy to see Lucy waiting for me. She looked professional in a knee length black pencil skirt and matching black jacket and white dress shirt. She wore make-up and her short hair was styled back. Wow.

"Hey, I thought you left." I gave her a hug. 

"My meeting ended early so I have more time to kill before I leave and decided to come here to see you."

"Oh I see, umm I was supposed to meet up with Olive for lunch but I can text her to cancel then we can go." I was already reaching for my phone. We went to a coffee shop just down the road from my work place and ordered a salad and drink. As we waited she looked at me and spoke.

"I take it you and my brother are not having sex yet?" I gulped and turned red. How did she know that?

"How did you... I mean what makes you say that?"

"You mean apart from the scandalous behavior you too displayed last night in the kitchen? I know my brother very well and he would have told me about the dirty deeds between the two of you already. Plus the look he gave you last night while you were busy smooching around spoke volumes. He was saying I want to fuck you all over the place but I know it's too soon and I'm respecting you. So am I right?" she asked. I remained quiet for a while choosing my words and then spoke.

"Your right, were not there yet. It's kinda complicated."

"I can see that, mostly because he told me about what happened to you." I looked up at her in surprise and she quickly went on to explain.

Don't be angry with him I kinda forced him to tell me. I just heard it in his voice while we talked and I knew right away that something was wrong. He was very reluctant at first but I convinced him to tell me. I didn't tell anyone else believe me."

"It's ok I'm not angry. I trust you and I'm glad that it's you he told."

"Don't mind me asking but can I ask why you're not... you know? You are so ready judging from the sounds you were making in the kitchen last night and when you got home. I gotta tell you it was very difficult to get some sleep."

"What?" This was getting awkward by the second and I didn't know how much I could take.

"Oh honey even the neighbors heard you." She teased and I turned beet red.

"Oh my god."

"You know between the moaning and crying and screaming, you said that too." My eyes widened. By now I could light a fire with my face.

"Dear god Shaun you look like you're about to explode." She laughed.

"Can you blame?" I asked.

"That's totally my fault but I'm still waiting for you to tell me."

"Tell you what?" I asked as if I really didn't know what she was asking. She sighed.

"Why you're still waiting? With Michael you don't have to worry about your inexperience believe me. When we were younger and our parents were out of town he used to sneak in guys in his room. I mean they would go at it for three maybe four times that night. And judging from the sounds coming from inside, I'm telling ya the guy knew how to give to them. Man I wish I had a man who could make me cry out like that." She said in wonder leaving me to gawk at her. 

"You are something else." 

"I'm adorable I know." She said and laughed and I soon joined in. 

"Ok your right and I've definitely been avoiding sex. I don't have a clue what to do or say to him to show that I'm ready. It doesn't feel right for me to just blurt it out to him."

"That could work." My eyes widened at her and she chuckled. "Dear god Shaun you are really insecure aren't you?"

"I thought I was hiding that so well." I joked.

"How about a romantic dinner for the two of you? My brother is a simple guy so please don't go big. You've been together for more than two months now so make a hint about that and maybe add in a few words about how ready you are. The sexual frustration has got to be killing you guys so maybe you should just blurt it out when you're making out. That way you can be sure that whatever happens does happen if you know what I mean." She wiggled her eyebrows at me and I laughed again. That had me thinking and she was right. I needed to plan a romantic dinner for the two of us, and I knew just the place. 




As You Are Ch. 06



............ The old metallic door made a rustic sound as we stepped out to the rooftop.

"No peeking." I warned Michael as I stepped out after him. It was proving to be kind of difficult to walk with my hands over his eyes since he was taller. We laughed and joked about it. I looked around with a smile on my face. It had been a while since I've been up here and I was never disturbed. I knew it was the perfect place to bring him. 

"Ok you can open your eyes now." I said as I stepped away from him. He opened his eyes and gasped when he looked at the scene in front of him. Two garden chairs and a matching table stood there with a picnic basket in the middle. Two matching red candles were already lit and a red table cloth covered the table. I also added some red rose paddles to match. I would have loved to do more but Lucy warned me not to. I just hoped Michael liked it. He looked over at me with a smile and then back at the table. He walked over to the table and opened the basket. There was red wine, two containers of food and one tub of olé chocolate ice cream he loved so much.

"Well this is nice." He finally spoke. I walked over and looked at him.

"I know it's not much but..." I was still unsure and he cut me off.

"Are you kidding me? No one has ever invited me for a picnic dinner before. It's so sweet of you babe." He gave me a peck on the lips and watched me blush. He chuckled.

"I was worried you wouldn't like it. You've done so much for me so I thought I could do something nice for you for a change." I replied with a smile.

"It's beautiful and simple, I love it" He said and we chuckled as we sat down. I took out my iPhone and played a selection of romantic music as we settled down. We had wine and roasted chicken with Asiago Polenta and Truffled mushrooms. 

After dinner we shared the ice cream and I blushed when Michael took my hand to dance. I had my head on his shoulder as we moved to the slow music. Almost on cue we both looked into each other's eyes. His shone with love and appreciation and it melted my heart. It felt like he looked deep into my soul and knew everything about me. I loved him more at that very moment and I knew I wanted to share everything with him. The back of his fingers caressed my face and his eyes locked on my lips.

"I love you." I whispered. He held my gaze for a bit and kissed me. I opened my lips and let him caress my tongue with his as he cupped my face with his hands. We made out for long minutes until a tear fell on my forehead. Only then did we both pull away. Another drop landed on Michael's nose. We both looked up as more drops fell from the sky. We looked over at each other and ran to the table to gather everything. By the time we walked in my apartment the rain was pouring outside and we were both soaking wet. We laughed like idiots and I ran to the window to shut it as Michael closed the door. 

When I turned back he was staring lustfully at me. His shirt was soaked and clung to him and his rock hard abs and pecks were visible. I swallowed as I watched his hard nipples poking through his shirt. He walked up to me and started to unbutton my shirt. I whimpered when he let it drop to the floor and ran his hands up my arms. He captured my bottom lip with his teeth and flicked his tongue inside my mouth. His hands unsnapped the buttons of my jeans and moved inside my underwear. I moaned when he cupped my butt and squeezed it with his hands. 

They were remarkably warm and a tingle ran through my body. He pulled them off and I stepped out of them as he sucked on my bottom lip. I shuddered when he took my hard dick in his hand and flicked his thumb on the head. Pre cum leaked from the head and I cried out. He thrust his tongue in my mouth and I met him with equal hunger as our kiss grew with passion. I rubbed against him and whimpered in frustration when I realized he was still fully dressed. 

I pulled at his shirt and he raised his arms as I pulled it off him. My lips moved to his neck and I alternated between sucking and biting everywhere at once. I struggled with his jeans since they were wet and tight around his hard member and he finally took over and pulled them off. He pulled me back to him and grabbed both of our cocks and rubbed them together. I moaned when he started to jerk us off. We pulled apart and locked eyes as we both groaned. 

We were both so close I could see it in his eyes. Warm liquid decorated his hand as I cried out and came, my knees almost giving out. He held me in his embrace as he started coming too. We clung to each other and swayed a bit as we came undone. We stayed like that for a few minutes until he brought his hand to his mouth. I watched mesmerized as his hand moved to his lips and licked the cum off it.

"Fuck." I swore as he licked away every single drop and moved to claim my lips and we shared each other's seed. God I wanted this man with great passion and I knew I was so ready.

"Make love to me Michael." I blurted out and he looked up at me in surprise. He studied my face and I felt him get hard again.

"Are you sure babe? We can still wait."

"I'm done waiting. I want you so fucking much or I'll go crazy."

"Oh fuck Shaun." He groaned and hoisted me up on my ass and I wrapped my legs around him.

"God I want you inside me so much. I want everything, please." I begged. He watched me for a moment and swallowed. I was starting to think he was going to decline when he spoke.

"Fuck yeah." He replied and almost ran to the bedroom. As soon as we landed on the bed he didn't waste time and immediately his lips were everywhere at once. He sucked and licked my nipples until they were hard peaks and moved to my stomach. His hands moved to my cock and he stroked me as his lips closed around my balls and sucked them making me cry out in pleasure. Soon his hands became a blur and I started to moan louder knowing I was going to cum again. 

"So close...Oh... gonna..." I moaned and thrust against him as my body shook. He gripped the base off my cock and I moaned in frustration as he denied me a chance to cum. I moved my hand to my cock to stroke myself but he didn't give me a chance to do it as he flipped me on to my stomach. He placed a pillow under me and ran his hands from my back to my butt. This time there was no hesitation and no fear. I let his warm body cover mine as his tongue licked behind my ears and I moaned. 

I knew the bed was going to be a mess by the time we were done here. He kissed every inch of my back and moved lower until I felt his hands on my ass. I pressed my face deeper into my pillow as a blush stained my face when he kissed and squeezed them with his hands. My heart started to race and tensed a bit but not because I was afraid. This was the moment I knew things would go wrong. I knew the pain was going to start and I was willing to experience it if it meant connecting with Michael this deeply. I felt his tongue on my whole and nearly came off the bed when I felt his tongue lick my hole.

"Oh my fucking god Michael that feels so...oh fuck!" I cried out in ecstasy. I never knew pleasure like this existed and I couldn't believe I was crying out like a dog in heat either. Michael ate my ass like he was dying of hunger. His tongue teased my hole and I could feel myself opening up and the pleasure intensified. He was moaning and making sloppy little sounds and it was the sexiest thing I've ever heard. I was going crazy with pleasure and it was too much. I was going to cum without touching myself. I couldn't believe it! He grabbed my hips and shoved his tongue in my hole and I screamed.

"Oh...Oh...fuck yeah..." I cried out as my eyes rolled in the back of my head and endless ropes of cum landed on the sheets. I almost blacked out from the sheer shock of the intense orgasm I just had. He held me until I stopped shaking and turned me on my back. I saw a glimpse of his cock and started to get nervous about taking all of him. He was so big and thick and I didn't want to disappoint him. All rational thought left me as his mouth closed on my cock. I was shocked to feel myself get hard again and I was soon lost in sexual pleasure. I gripped his hair as I fucked his mouth feeling myself reaching the end. 

I didn't think I could survive another orgasm. He pulled off my cock and leaned over my body and opened the drawer next to my bed. He ruffled through it for a few seconds and retrieved a small jar of lubricant. He opened it and dipped his finger and warmed it up for a bit. I pulled my legs up to my chest and felt his finger press against me. I felt one then two and soon enough he had all three fingers up my ass and I moaned as he opened me up. I screamed and saw stars as he touched something inside of me. 

"Oh Michael right there please...ah yeah." I cried out. He added more lube and wrapped my legs around his hips. He captured my lips and he pushed his fingers in me again. This time I felt a slight pinch of pain and I cried out. His eyes locked to mine as his fingers filled me again. He stopped for about a minute and I felt myself open up to him more. He claimed my lips and I moaned when he rubbed against me again. It felt so fucking good but I needed him to fill me. 

"Oh Michael please...need you inside me...please..." I begged. 

"I'm already inside you babe." He replied and my eyes widened when I realized he was right. I felt full and stretched, but the feeling was quickly fading and I started to feel pleasure all around. I closed my eyes and pulled him to me. He sank lower and we both groaned when he rubbed that same spot again.

"Fuck babe, you feel so hot and tight around me." He moaned and stayed in place looking at me. in about a minute he started to move...I had never known pleasure like that in my life until Michael. We connected in ways I couldn't have imagined. Every part of my body he touched screamed for more. He was taking me to the brink with each delicious thrust he made. I felt it just there and I knew that only he would complete me. He moved slowly against me trying to draw out our lovemaking for about twenty minutes but soon he gave in to his pleasure and moved faster. He then braced his hands on the sides of my head and started pounding into me.

"Oh yeah...Oh fuck... Oh yeah... Oh Michael don't stop!" I cried out as he hammered my prostate with every thrust he made. Our bodies were covered in sweat and the room was filled with our groans and sounds of skin slapping against skin. Michael slammed his lips against mine and brought our bodies together. My cock got trapped between us and I groaned against him as his body rubbed against it. I was going to come again without touching myself. He started using short jabs and I couldn't hold on anymore. I started to cum and my body froze and I screamed as my seed sprayed between us. Michael swore under his breath as my channel gripped him and I was afraid his dick would break in half.

"Fuck...coming...ah...ah." He yelled as he filled me with his cum. His body moved on auto pilot as he filled me with his hot seed. He finally collapsed on top of me and I tiredly held him as we both tried to catch our breath. My head was spinning and I was so worn out that I didn't even feel it when Michael got up and wiped me with a warm cloth and settle next to me. I sighed with content as sleep took me. .............. When my eyes opened the first thing I saw was Michael's face. He was fast asleep on his stomach with his left arm under the pillow. He looked so innocent and beautiful at that moment and I couldn't resist. Ignoring my sore body I slowly climbed on his back and straddled him. He didn't move and I started planting tiny kisses on his left shoulder blade and moved to the right one. 

He still didn't move and I frowned. I was beginning to think he was passed out or something but when I kissed my way down his spinal cord using my tongue he immediately started to stir and moaned. I had just discovered his sensitive spot and used it to my advantage and moved lower. By the time I reached his waist he was fully awake now and crying out in pleasure. 

When I reached his ass he shifted his weight and got on his knees. I couldn't believe he was presenting his ass to me and I immediately parted his ass cheeks and dove in with my tongue. The first taste of him drove me insane. He tasted like musk and sweat and all man and I was addicted. I just ate him out and enjoyed the sexy sounds he was making. He was hard and leaking all over the bed and I smiled happily inside knowing 

I did this to him. God I wanted to be inside him my dick was hard as a steel pipe. But I knew it was too soon for me. He must have sensed this and moved against me until he was on his back and pulled me towards his lips. His hands moved against my back as he plunged his tongue in my mouth. We thrust our hard cocks against each other and I knew I wanted him inside me again. I grabbed his cock and rubbed it against my hole. He moaned as he stilled. 

"Babe are you sure about this? You may be sore for a while."

"I'm ok, and it doesn't hurt at all...make love to me Michael. I love you." I replied. His eyes burned with love. He kissed me passionately and pulled me up to him until he was eye level with my hard cock. I looked down on him as his mouth closed around me. I moaned as he took more of me and bobbed up and down. 

"Ah yes...oh Michael that feels so good." I cried out as he swallowed me to the hilt. He grabbed my ass and pressed me down his face and let me fuck his mouth. It felt so fucking good and I knew I wasn't going to last. He let my dick pop out of his mouth and pushed me further to the headboard and sat me down on his face. Just as I was about to ask him what he was up to he parted my cheeks and licked my hole with his tongue. I cried out and gripped the hard wood as pleasure shot through me. I pushed against him as he fucked me with his tongue. Soon his fingers replaced his tongue. Fuck if he kept this up I wasn't going to last. 

"You. Inside me now!" I growled as he withdrew his fingers. I moved back down on him and straddled him again. He pressed against me as I started a slow descend. I was still slick from our lovemaking last night but I still felt a pinch of pain as he pushed in. He stilled his movement for a bit and pushed in again. He went at it for about a minute until I had all of him. His face was set in concentration and sweat had pulled in against his lips. I couldn't resist and brought our bodies close to each other as I captured his lips with mine. He ran his hands all over my back as I felt myself relax around him. His hands move to my ass and grab it as he slowly pulled all the way out and slammed back in.

"Oh fuck!" I cried out in surprised pleasure as he rubbed against my prostate. He did that again and I cried out again. He fucked me like that for a while and I could do nothing but enjoy. He pulled me back until I was sitting up and I braced my hands on his chest as I started my rise and fall. His hands were on my thighs guiding me and I cried out in pleasure once more when he touched my trigger again. 

"Oh fuck...Yes... oh fuck...fuck yeah." I cried out. Shit this was incredibly amazing. I was going crazy with pleasure and soon I was ridding him hard and fast. He suddenly sat up and kissed me as his fingers ran through my hair. Our movements slowed a bit and I undulated against him. 

I was making so much noise I was surprised the neighbors weren't banging against the door. He rose up and placed me on my back and pulled out of me. I wanted to know what the fuck he was doing when he dove in and thrust his tongue in my ass. I cried out and came all over my chest. He kept fucking me with his tongue until I stopped coming. He withdrew his tongue and without warning shoved his big cock in my ass. My eyes widened and I cried out in pain and pleasure as he rammed my prostate. 

I couldn't believe I was getting hard again. Surely this was leading to a heart attack right? He pulled my legs apart nearly bending me in half and fucked me into the mattress. His balls slapped against my ass and we both groaned as our climax approached.

"Oh yeah babe...take that dick up your ass...oh fuuuuuuck..." He called out and gripped my cock and started to jerk me off. I came all over our chests and his movements became erratic and he groaned and slammed into me one more time and filled me with his seed. 

He looked to be in pain as his eyes rolled in the back of his head. My hand went to his face and he looked over at me and reached down to kiss me. For long minutes we lay in each other's arms as we tried to catch our breath. The man was a beast in bed. I could get used to this! He finally slipped out of me and I moaned in disappointment. He chuckled and cradled me to his chest. After a few minutes he spoke.

"Wow that was incredible." He said with a whisper.

"Yeah." Was all I could say. He rose up and looked at me with a smile.

"You are fucking amazing babe, I love you so much." He kissed me again but only slower this time. 

"I can't believe we did that. And it was fucking mind blowing. Before it was uncomfortable and i couldn't enjoy myself. But now, with you it's...god I don't even have the words. I think I might be addicted to sex with you."

"I think I might be addicted to you."

"My addiction is much stronger." I challenged him with a smile. He chuckled and kissed me.

"I love you so much Shaun. You have no idea." His face turned serious.

"I think I do." I replied with a whisper. We held each other's gaze and my heart thumped in my chest from the intensity of his stare. He swallowed and spoke.

"Shaun I ..." but before he could say more his phone rang. He sighed and moved to grab it. I let out a sigh of relief for whoever it was that had interrupted him. I had a feeling that whatever he was about to say was very serious and I didn't think I was ready for it. He talked for a while and when he hung up he had a smile on his face.

"What's got you smiling all of a sudden?" I asked.

"Chase was reminding me about the surprise party tonight, as if I'd forget since he's been doing that every single day."

"He just wants everything to be perfect. I think Ann's going to love it." Ann was turning twenty three today and the guys had secretly planned a surprise party for her at the restaurant tonight. It wasn't anything big, just a small private party with her close friends and family.

"Damn right she is, I have not been slaving away because of her boyfriend for nothing. I gotta meet with the caterer in an hour to finalize things. Mark is busy with the decorating duty and Chase is taking her to the spar to relax. We'll all meet at the restaurant later." He said as lay back on the pillows and looked at me.

"You know I could help."

"You already did babe, morning sex has always been one of my dream activities." He joked and I lightly punched him on the arm.

"Ouch what did I say wrong?" he asked with a playful smile and I tried to act angry but he burst out laughing. I tried to keep a straight face and got out of bed.

"Just for that I won't share a shower with you." I mocked and walked to the door. He sprinted from the bed and ran after me. ............... We all clapped hands and cheered when Ann cut the cake. Laughter erupted when she fed it to Chase who scolded as it ended up smeared on his face. But he ended up laughing along with us. Michael hung around and excused himself to check on the food in the kitchen. Olive and Matt we dancing on the dance floor with a few people and I soon joined them. Fifteen minutes later Michael still hadn't come out from the kitchen and I decided to check on him. I said a few hello's to some guests as I made my way to the birthday girl and Chase who stood by her side with a big smile. I gave her a hug and a kiss and wished her a happy birthday. 




As You Are Ch. 06



I left the happy couple with a smile and moved to the door. I backed off when I saw Jacob and Michael talking in the hallway. From the look on their faces whatever they were talking about was serious and they didn't notice me. I couldn't hear what they were talking about but Michael was getting irritated. I felt bad for eavesdropping but I couldn't help it. 

Michael turned to leave but Jacob grabbed him by the hand and pulled him to him. He slammed his lips on Michael and my vision greyed. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Michael was kissing him back, or at least that's what I saw since my vision was turning blurry. I gasped as I backed away from the door. Both of them tore their lips from each other and looked at me. Michael's eyes widened when he saw me and I saw a devilish smile play on Jacob's face.

"Oh my god Shaun." Michael gasped as I backed away and ran. I bumped into people on the dance floor but I didn't care. I just wanted to get out of there. I pushed the doors open and ran outside. It was dark already and I didn't quite know where I was going. The need for air forced me to stop and I leaned against the brick wall to catch my breath. Endless tears ran over my face and my heart hurt. 

I couldn't believe Michael would do this to me, with Jacob of all people. I felt so betrayed. How could he do this to me, right after we had made love a few hours ago? I was so sure that he loved me, but I guess I was wrong. I mean if he did love me why would he kiss Jacob? Were they having an affair behind my back? I stopped pacing as a thought occurred to me. Maybe I was wrong about this. Maybe Jacob was the one kissing Michael and he was just stunned to do anything. Maybe I was overreacting. I heard laughter behind me and looked around. There was a terrace door on my left and I peered through it. 

I saw the party guests laughing and I sighed. I caught a glimpse of Olive and Matt looking around with worried faces and backed away from the door. I didn't want to deal with this right now. I closed my eyes but the image of Jacob and Michael popped in my head. I was busy debating with myself that I was startled when I saw Jacob standing there with a smile on his face.

"Ah, there you are." He said with a chuckle. Inside I was dying to punch that smile from his face.

"What do you want Jacob?"

"I thought you left. Honestly I would have loved to be right."

"Leave me alone."

"And miss a chance to see you cry your pretty little eyes out? Not a chance honey."

"Are you happy now?" He laughed at me and I felt defeated and stupid.

"Actually I've come to make sure you leave and never come back. I do admit that taking your weird little friends with you would make me a lot happier but I know Michael cares about them. I don't know why since they are as boring as you. But don't worry I will make sure they disappear just like you soon enough. Then we can all get on with our lives don't you think?"

"You are so evil."

"Oh please I'm a realist. I know what I want and I always get it. I warned you to leave before I decided to take him from you but you didn't listen."

"You didn't take him away from me. For all I know you kissed him. Actually that wouldn't surprise me since it's so you. I may be hurt right now but I'm not letting him go without a fight. After this I'm going back in there and talk to him. I wanna hear his side of this." His gaze shifted for a second and his smile lessened. 

"There's no need. Michael doesn't want to talk to you."

"I'd rather hear that from him."

"I think not."

"I don't need your permission to talk to my boyfriend Jacob."

"Just do us a huge favour and leave Shaun and while you're at it, don't come back." I looked at him in disbelief.

"You are crazy and I can't believe that none of your friends ever noticed that. And I've been so stupid for letting you bully me into leaving Michael. I should have told him about this the moment you started threatening me."

"But you didn't because deep down you knew he wouldn't believe you. I'm the one he values more than you."

"You're lying."

"Am I? He didn't back away when I kissed him did he? And if it wasn't for you we would have done more right there. I just wish you would have walked in a few minutes later while I was..."

"You fucking prick!" I was angry now and about to slap him when he caught my hand.

"Aren't we feisty?"

"Let go of me!" I snapped at him and pushed him out of my way. I tried to open the door but he grabbed my hand and pulled me away from it.

"Let's face it Shaun, your no match for me and you never were. You're just a silly little boy in a relationship over his head. I mean you don't even know what to do with a guy like Michael. Don't you see that you're just wasting your time? You will never make him as happy as I will so why don't you make our lives easier and just disappear out of our lives."

"Get your hands off me!" I slapped his hands away from me in anger.

"I'll be glad to, you're not exactly my type. You're just worthless trash just like those stupid friends of yours. I will enjoy getting rid of them just I will with you." He snickered, but his smile disappeared when his eyes went to the door. I saw all the colour leave his face and turned to see what the cause for his change was. I gasped when I saw Michael standing at the door with clenched fists and anger in his eyes. Olive and Matt were standing there as well. 

"Michael, hey." Jacob stammered. "How long have you been standing there?" he asked.

"Long enough." Michael replied. It dawned on Jacob what that meant and he started to explain.

"It's not what you think see..."

"Really, because from where I'm standing you were threatening my boyfriend."

"No you don't understand."

"So I just imagined this?" he asked as he stepped closer. I looked at Jacob and saw him swallow.

"Well?" he asked again. Jacob opened his lips but nothing came out. After a few seconds he finally spoke.

"He needed to know that you and I belong together Mike. We love each other."

"You and I are just friends Jacob and I don't know where the hell you got the idea that we were more than that. You know what, this sure explains a lot, like why Shaun has been moody all the time and closes up whenever I ask him what the problem is. I turn my back for just a second and this is what you do, you threaten him to leave me? Is that why you kissed me, you wanted him to see that?"

"I'm doing this because we belong together. All of this is for us."

"There is no us!" He roared in anger startling all of us.

"You stay the hell away from us you hear me!" He warned and took my hand. I was still a bit scared and just obeyed when he dragged me across the dance floor.

"I'm not letting him take you from me Michael. You belong with me." Jacob called out and people turned to look at us. The music stopped and there was silence.

"Don't let him tears us apart Michael. He's not the right guy for you please." Jacob begged as he walked towards us.

"You are not the right guy for me and you made sure there was no us when you left me Jacob. And I'm glad you did because you gave a chance to find real love. I'm so in love with him. What I felt for you is nothing compared to what I feel for him. You have to let me go because I did that a long time ago." Michael said as he turned away Jacob. Jacob looked shocked and angry.

"You're lying!"

"Just stop this now before you embarrass yourself further." 

"I won't let him take you from me." Jacob shouted but we kept walking. Suddenly I was grabbed from behind and slapped across the face. The force of the blow was so strong that I saw stars and fell down on the floor, tasting blood in my mouth. I felt tears fall on my face and people gasped. I barely saw Michael move in front of me and punch Jacob in the face. He fell down in shock and looked at Michael as blood came pouring out of his nose. He was about to do more when Mark and Chase came out of nowhere and held him back.

"Were done." Michael said as he turned to me and took my hand and we walked away. The drive home was silent. My face hurt and I was getting a headache. I unlocked the door to my apartment and got in with Michael behind me. As I set the keys on the table he walked to the kitchen. I heard ruffling in the kitchen and he came back with a pack of ice in a wash cloth and pressed it gently against my face. He worked in silence and I couldn't read his face. He sat there and looked at me for a while and finally spoke.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked and I looked down in shame. 

"Look at me Shaun." It was a command and I found myself looking up to face him. Unlike earlier he looked calm. 

"All this time he was doing this and you never bothered to tell me about it. Are you happy that I had to find out like this?"

"No I..." he didn't give me a chance to respond and cut me off.

"Now you know how I felt when you confronted me about me and Jacob." I looked away from him.

"I'm sorry I didn't say anything Michael, but I was scared."

"Of what?"

"Of this. I didn't want us to fight about it."

"That is one fucked up reason Shaun and you know it. Why don't I just say it for you since you can't seem to say it?"

"What do you mean? I just said..."

"You thought I wouldn't believe you didn't you? You really thought I would take his side?" I chocked on my words. He saw the truth on my face and got up from the couch. He let out a frustrated laugh as his hands went through his hair. "I can't believe this!"

"Michael please I can explain." He cut me off again.

"You don't think I love you enough to believe you Shaun."

"I never said that."

"You didn't have to. How many times must I tell you until it gets through that thick skull of yours that I love you? I, love, you Shaun and I'm so fucking angry at you for not trusting me with this." He was seething with anger and I was scared now. 

"You should have said something the moment he started this but you kept it to yourself. I was so worried about you because I didn't know what was eating away at you. And I blamed myself for making you sad. Shaun do you even want to be with me?" I looked up at him in shock.

"Yes Michael I want to be with you. I love you."

"I doubt that very much. You have proven to me that you're not ready to be in a relationship, with anyone."

"I said I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, and I promise this won't happen again." I apologized but he just stood there looking at me.

"Michael..." 

"I need to get out of here." He walked to the door and I tried to follow him but he turned to look at me. His gaze was cold as ice and it stopped me in my tracks.

"Michael please don't leave." I begged with a sob as the tears started falling.

"I don't wanna talk to you right now." 

"But..."

"There is absolutely nothing you can say that will stop me from leaving Shaun so please just shut up!" He warned as he opened the door and slammed it behind him. I sank down to the floor as sobs erupted from me. I heard the door open and someone kneel beside me. i could smell jasmine shampoo and I knew it was Olive. I clung to her as I cried for the man I loved. .............. When I woke up I was in bed and Olive was beside me. I must have cried myself to sleep last night and I felt tears fall down my face as I recalled what had happened. Michael had walked out on me and it was the greatest pain I've ever felt in my life. I got out of bed and padded to the kitchen where Matt was drinking coffee. He looked up when he saw me.

"Hey."

"Hi." I replied without looking at him. "Thanks for carrying me to bed." I said and poured myself a cup and sat with him on the table. 

"It's nothing, you and Olive weigh the same." We stayed quiet but I could feel his eyes on me. I looked up at him as my lips trembled.

"I should have listened to you. You were right Matt, I should have told Michael everything. This is the part where you say you told me so."

"You're right it is, but I'm not going to Shaun. It won't change what happened." Out of frustration I sat up and paced the kitchen.

"You should have seen his face when he stormed out of here Matt. He hated me."

"He was angry that's all."

"And I made him that way. Oh god what was I thinking hiding this from him?"

"You didn't want to ruin a great friendship and if you think that's selfish you're wrong. You put your feelings aside and put him first Shaun and that's noble of you."

"It was stupid."

"No it wasn't. You are a good person but right now you're mistaking your kindness for stupidity because of your broken heart."

"I was stupid and now I've lost the man I love."

"You haven't lost him."

"How do you know that Matt? You weren't here when he walked out."

"Just give him time ok. He will eventually see that you were just trying to protect him from finding out that his friend was a total bitch." I looked over at him surprised that he had used Olive's words. He chuckled a bit and I joined him. It felt wrong to do that but I needed it at the moment. As my laughter died I looked away as the tears threatened to come back.

"I'm right you know? He will forgive you."

"I hope so." I replied sadly as he wrapped me in his arms. I sighed and let him comfort me. ........... I walked to the door my heart thumping in my chest. I was always hopeful that the minute I opened it Michael's face would appear, but I was always disappointed. Today was no exception. When I saw Chase standing there I hurt even more. Tears welled up in my eyes and sighed.

"Hey." He said and looked me over.

"Hi umm...sorry I thought..."

"It was Michael I know." I looked at him and wiped the tears away.

"Can I come in?" I let him in and closed the door.

"I wanted to check on you."

"You didn't have to."

"I wanted to, you're my friend Shaun. And I care about you." I looked at him in surprise.

"You're not angry at me?"

"No I'm not. Michael told me what happened and I think you acted stupid as hell, but in a way I kinda get why you did it." "I messed up Chase" I cried out as he held me in his arms. "Now Michael doesn't want to see me. He hates me."

"He doesn't hate you Shaun, he loves you."

"I don't know what I'm going to do. He doesn't answer my calls or texts. All he ever did was tell me he needed time. That tells me all I need to know." I sobbed in his arms.

"He's just angry and you need to give him time." I pulled away and looked at him. 

"How much time are we talking about here?"

"Enough. Trust me when I tell you that he will come around." There was something in the way he said it that made me wonder.

"He's done this before?" I asked and watched Chase sigh.

"Yeah but I won't talk about it. It's better to just let him deal with it. I know that from experience." I nodded and hesitated before asking.

"What happened with Jacob after we left?" he sighed and gave a sad smile.

"You are so weird."

"Why do you say that?"

"You're asking me about Jacob when he's to blame for all of this?" I tried to say something but he cut me off.

"Were nothing more than business partners now and Michael doesn't even want to speak to him. i feel like killing him and Mark just tolerates him because of his wife." I smiled a bit and looked at him and saw him blush. Something told me it wasn't because of what he just told me. I could have sworn his eyes lingered on my lips and I blushed when I realized that. We talked for a while and he got even more uncomfortable. 

"Umm I should get going." He mumbled as he got up from the couch. I followed him and touched his hand. He looked back at me and diverted his gaze.

"Thanks for checking up on me. It really means a lot."

"It's no biggie, like I said you're my friend just like he is. And just so you know, he's just as miserable up as you are. He misses you too." I felt a bit better knowing he was hurting just as I was. 

"Really?" I asked as hope filled me.

"Yeah, he's always looking at photos of you on his phone with a sulky look on his face. It's sooo pathetic." We chuckled a bit and looked at each other again.

"Ok let me get going. Will you be ok?"

"Hmm? Yes I'll be fine. Olive and Matt are coming by later."

"Good, I will call you later ok."

"Ok." He hesitated at the door and turned to me.

"He would be an idiot to let go of someone like you." He said and left me standing there with a surprised look on my face. I was convinced that Chase had a crush of sorts for me. As I stood there watching him leave I made up my mind. As hard as it was going to be for me I was going to give Michael some space. I wasn't going to call him or even text him. I was going to let him make up his mind about us in peace. .......... The moment I closed the door behind me I sighed in relief. It felt good to be home and a hot and soothing bath felt like a great idea at the moment. I walked over to the couch and dumped the load of files I took from work and walked to the kitchen to get a glass of water. 

Work was very hectic today because a colleague hadn't made it in so most of the work he had to do was given to me. I nearly went out of my mind trying to finish up half of the audit reports on my desk and I knew I had to take some of it home if I planned to be done with them within the two weeks deadline. At least it kept me preoccupied and I didn't have to think about Michael that much. There was a knock on my door and I frowned. I couldn't imagine who it was this late at night. When I opened the door I went to shut it but the hand stopped me.

"Ah. Ah... Now that's not nice of you." Jacob said with an evil look on his face. The bruising on his nose was still visible but fading.

"What are you doing here?"

"I came here to talk."

"Are you kidding me? After what you did you think I would want to listen to anything you have to say to me?"

"I'm not asking for your permission here Shaun. And yes I don't blame you for hating my guts I mean I did slap you across the face. Wish I could have done worse but well."

"Leave my apartment right now!" I yelled at him and tried to shut the door but he pushed me back. He was stronger and bigger and I was no match for him.

"I'm not here to hurt you so please relax."

"I said leave Jacob and don't come back."

"I didn't come all this way for nothing honey. 

You will listen to what I have to say coz you owe me that much for taking Michael away from me." he was crazy as hell so I shut my mouth and listened just so he would leave soon.

"Michael hates me and it's all your fault." My fists clenched as I fought the urge to punch him in the face. 

"I should feel sorry for myself after what happened but I hear things are not good for you too. And honestly I'm happy that either one of us doesn't get to be with him. If you're just as miserable as I am then that's all the motivation I need to get up in the morning. And now it's my turn to make you hate him just like you made him hate me." 

"What are you talking about Jacob?"

"He told me about the rape." I looked at him in shock. "And I gotta say I totally get why you're just like this." He gestured to me as his eyes regarded me with disgust. To say I was shocked was an understatement. 

"You're lying."

"Really, then how do you think I knew? You know, it explains a lot too. Like why you look so lost and pathetic all the time it made me sick. I gotta hand it to you though. You're a great actor and an even bigger liar. We both know that no one raped you. You fabricated the whole thing to make yourself a victim and to make Michael fall for you. We all know what a caring guy he is and he fell for it hook line and sinker."

"You bustard!" I screamed at him and pushed him away from the door.

"Whoa there, no need to get rough with me." he put up his hands in surrender and smiled.

"Get out!"

"With pleasure. Wouldn't want to stand this close to you and get contaminated with your filthy lies. God you're such a fucking loser. I really don't know what Michael ever saw in you."




As You Are Ch. 06



"I said get out of my apartment Jacob."

"Whatever. Have a nice fucking life." And with that he turned and left. I shut the door and leaned against this. He was right. Michael must have told him. I couldn't believe he did that. I trusted him with this and he went ahead and told Jacob. I was so angry and felt betrayed. Grabbing my keys from the table and drove to the club where I knew he was. I ignored the intimidating stare from Tazz at the door and walked passed him. He called after me as I kept on walking intent on confronting Michael. I badged in his office without knocking. Mark and some guy were siting with him and they all looked up at me with surprised looks.

"What are you doing here?" Michael asked clearly irritated.

"How could you do this to me?" Tazz walked in the office and started to apologize but Michael cut him off.

"It's ok Tazz you can leave." As the man left he looked at me. 

"Shaun I..."

"How could you tell him Michael? How could you betray me like that?" Michael looked confused.

"What are you talking about?"

"I confided in you about what happened to me years ago and you went out and told Jacob of all people. Why would you do that?"

"I never told Jacob anything." The guys were looking between us in confusion as well.

"Oh don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about."

"I don't."

"Are you telling me that you didn't tell Jacob I was raped years ago and he just mysteriously found out about it? You are the only person I told Michael." By now tears were streaming down my face. I watched him swallow in guilt. 

"Leave us now." Michael said and soon enough we were alone.

"Shaun let me explain."

"There is no need for that, I have my answer."

"No you don't understand."

"You told Jacob about something that I confided in you about. What exactly don't I understand?" I asked and he stayed quiet.

"I know I hurt you but I never thought that would want to do this out of spite."

"Shaun I didn't do this. I may be angry with you but I would never..."

"Save it because I don't care. You were right Michael. There is no point in having a relationship when there is no trust."

"Shaun."

"It's over." I opened the door and left. By the time I got outside I was a wreck. I hailed a taxi and cried in the backseat. When Olive opened the door she looked surprised to see me. She sat me down and I explained everything to her. She was shocked as well.

"Oh my god Shaun. I can't believe Michael would do that."

"Me neither. But what am I supposed to believe Olive. You and Matt were the only people who knew about this until I told him. Who else would have told Jacob?" 

"Maybe your right. But I just..."

"I don't know what to do Olive. Everything is such a mess." She hugged me close and I inhaled her scent. It always felt good to be in her warm embrace.

"There is nothing you can do sweety. Things will work themselves out. I promise." She cooed in my ear. My life felt like such a mess.



As You Are Ch. 07



I'm finally back everyone! sorry to have kept you waiting but after returning home from the hospital I had to give myself time to heal. I'm happy to say I'm fine and this submission is the last chapter of the series. Truth is I did finish the story but most of you didn't like how it ended so I made a few changes but the story is still the same. Hope its better.

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INSIDE AND OUT

CH. 07

Everything works itself out

After pouring my cup of coffee I sat down and looked over at my two friends. Matt sat opposite me with a cup of coffee in his hand and a copy of today's newspaper in the other hand. He was pretending to read but I knew better. 

Olive was busy fixing breakfast at the stove with her back to us. It was so weird how all of us were keeping quiet and I was reaching a boiling point soon. Just then my phone vibrated. 

We all looked at it and Michael's face flashed on the scream making me want to throw it at the wall until it shattered to millions of pieces. 

I quickly reached for it and hit the ignore button.

"You know you can't ignore him forever." Matt said with a glare.

"I know but I can try." I replied and took a sip of my coffee.

"Really?" I gave him a glare of my own and sighed.

"Or you could change your number." Olive suggested making us turn to her. She still had her back to us. 

"Why would you say such a thing?" Matt asked just as surprised as I am."

"They broke up, so there really isn't any reason why he should be calling him." At that Matt turned to me in surprised shock. Aaah damn.

"What?"

"I was gonna tell you." I said in shame. He held up his hand to stop me from talking further. I knew he wasn't going to let me off that easy.

"You didn't tell him?" Olive asked between bites of her toast.

"It happened last night Olive so please give me a break."

"I can't believe you broke up with him Shaun."

"The guy hurt him Matt." Olive tried to explain when Matt turned to her.

"You know I love you so much babe." He said with sexy smile and I looked over in confusion. Olive smiled big and nodded.

"But I just need you to shut up for me and let me talk to Shaun okay?" she gaped at him in surprise. Even I was surprised. He then turned to me.

"I can't believe you broke up with him." he repeated the same words.

"Why is that so hard to believe Matt? After everything that's happened we were not gonna work at all." I tried to explain but he was getting angrier by the second and I was getting impatient.

"Why are you angry all of a sudden anyway?" I growled at him. He sighed and glared at me. 

"That guy is your soul mate. Nobody in this world understands you the way that he does."

"What do you mean?"

"You've opened up to him about yourself more than any other guy you dated in the past. When have you known yourself to do that? I mean guys have come and gone, but none of them have ever affected you the way that Michael does. You love each other Shaun. Why in the world would you throw something like that away?" He just had to say that didn't he? He just had make me feel like crap.

"He broke my trust."

"People do that all the time Shaun. They hurt each other and they get angry and break up. But at the end of the day when that person is the first and the last thing you thing about when you go to sleep and wake up it means they own you're a big part of your heart. They're right here." He poked at my chest. Tears spilled from my eyes.

"I don't think I'm strong enough for this."

"No one is Shaun. Relationships are never easy. There are always obstacles along the way and Jacob was the first. Are you really going to give up on the first one?"

"I already have Matt. I severed all ties with Michael because I don't need drama in my life."

"There's always drama around each corner but it's how you deal with it that matters. Which is why you're gonna go see him." My eyes widened at him. 

"What?"

"Did I stutter?"

"You can't be serious."

"No I'm not you should write him a letter instead. Of course I'm serious Shaun. You should go to him. The two of you need to sit down and have a serious talk."

"What about what he did to me?" I whined like a child and glared at Olive who seemed to be at a loss for words.

"For all we know he could be telling you the truth. Jacob has been sneaky and manipulative all this time so what makes you think he didn't find out your secret himself? Did he tell you Michael told him?"

"Did he even mention anything about Michael telling him all that or did you just magically assume he did?" Now I was speechless and embarrassed as well. He had said all the right words and I was beginning to realise how wrong I was for lashing out at Michael. For some reason it also made me very angry.

"Then why did he walk out on me when I needed him?" I asked with tears in my eyes.

"He was probably very angry and needed to think. I admit walking out on you was harsh but we make mistakes when were angry. But he didn't break up with you did he?"

"He didn't have to Matt. He hated me at that moment."

"I'm sorry but I didn't hear you say he broke up with you. Or were you going to say it now?" I got up from my chair in anger.

"I don't have to do a damn thing you say."

"I don't remember asking you to."

"Maybe I should change my number and my friends too!" I grumbled to myself as I stormed out of the kitchen.

"Whaat!" Olive screamed behind me.

"I heard that." Matt called out from the kitchen.

"I know." I shouted as I slammed the bedroom door behind me.

.............. 

While we were sitting and watching some comedy on TV that night there was a knock on the door. Matt got up to answer it and seconds later walked back with Michael behind him. Olive stood up in anger.

"What are you doing here?" she asked with clenched fists.

"Hi Olive." Michael said with a small smile.

"I asked you a question. What do you want?"

"Olive." Matt warned her and she stopped talking.

"I need to talk to Shaun." I got up and faced him.

"Ok what do you want to talk about?"

"More privately?"

"You can say anything in front of my friends, that way I won't have to spill to them later on when I'm bored." He flinched. That was harsh and I knew it, but I couldn't help myself.

"It's ok you can talk here, Olive and I were headed out anyway." Olive looked at Matt in confusion.

"We were? I don't..."

"We were babe remember? You wanted to check out that Italian restaurant around the corner." Matt was already whisking her away, jackets in tow. 

"Well I don't remember...." Then the door was closed, with a confused Olive still in her pyjamas. It was very odd how she didn't see what Matt was doing. I took a deep breath and looked at Michael who was already looking at me.

"I don't want to hear whatever it is you have to say."

"After that stunt you pulled in my office I think I'm entitled to say something."

"Fine, say whatever it is that you want, but it won't make a difference."

"So were over, is that it? You want all of this to end?"

"Why in the world are you acting so surprised Michael? I mean you must have known this would happen. After all you started it when you walked out on me."

"I walked out because I was angry at you Shaun for something that you did."

"So now were both angry, what's new?"

"I had a right to be angry at you because you didn't trust me enough to tell me that my friend was acting all psycho on you. I walked out because it was too much for me to deal with and I needed space to deal with it. I never wanted us to break up."

"Did you hear the part where I said I wasn't interested in anything you..." he cut me off.

"I have let you accuse me of something that I didn't do and its time you listened to me." I folded my arms with a raised eyebrow.

"Really?" I asked. 

"Yes Shaun. I never broke your trust and I don't understand why you choose to believe I would ever do that to you. I never said a word to Jacob about you or the rape. You have to believe me. I would never betray you like that. You know me."

"This conversation is pointless Michael."

"You know it's funny how easily you believed anything that Jacob has to say. After everything he's done to you, to us."

"This is different."

"All he's ever done was try to keep us apart Shaun and that hasn't changed. Why do you think he came to you about this?"

"Oh god just leave Michael please." He took my hand and pulled me to him so we were facing each other.

"Look at me and tell me I'm lying." I searched his face but could find no deception there. He was telling me the truth and I was confused.

"Then how did he know?"

"That night when I told Lucy the guys were there. 

I went to the bedroom and he must have followed me there and listened in on my conversation with her." I looked away from him as tears threatened to break free.

"I'm so sorry from the bottom of my heart Shaun. I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you from Jacob. I'm sorry for walking out on you. I'm sorry for everything." I just stood there in silence.

"Please don't give up on us Shaun. Just give us another chance to start over and put everything that's happened with Jacob behind us." he begged.

"I believe you Michael. I was stupid not to before but I see that I was wrong to. But I can't do this anymore."

"What?"

"I can't be with you anymore Michael. i love you from the bottom of my heart. but i cant forget what he did to us. he has damaged me emotionally."

"I know you can't forget what he did to us and I'm not asking you to."

"You're better off with someone else."

"I don't want anyone else. I want you just as you are, flaws and all. Why can't you get that in your thick skull how much I need you in my life? You are everything to me damn it! I love you so much it hurts Shaun. Nothing in this world would have stopped me from loving you. Even If I was with Jacob when I met you, I would have left him for you. I would have chosen you." Now he was making me cry and I didn't want that now. I didn't want him to see how fragile I was.

"Please don't do this to me Michael. Please just go."

"I'm not leaving you." He replied and I got angry.

"Fine, then I'll go and you can wait for my friends to come back." I walked to the door.

"Tell me you don't love me anymore." He called out and I stopped. 

"Tell me you don't love me anymore and I'll leave." This time he was standing next to me. I could feel his warm breath on my neck and goose bumps broke out all over my body. His hands came around my waist and pulled me to his chest. I could feel his hardness press against me and I moaned silently as my cock hardened. My breathing came in gasps.

"Please don't." I begged as he licked the back of my ear.

"You can't deny how much you love me Shaun. You know this is right. Tell me to stop and I'll leave." He whispered and I moaned as pre cum leaked from my cock.

"Tell me." He breathed in my ear and spun me around and kissed me. I was shocked for a second and kissed him back. As he thrust his tongue in my mouth I started to pull away. 

He held on to me and kissed me again but I stepped back. He pulled me to him and I groaned as he kissed me again, more forcefully this time. He held my wrist almost painfully and I moaned in denial and pushed him away from me.

"Please Shaun just kiss me. If you really want me to go just say the word and I'll leave. If not, kiss me." He begged. He stood there fighting to breath as much as I was. Long seconds passed as we continued to stare at each other.

"Damn you!" I swore and closed the distance between us. I moaned as he forcefully plundered his tongue in my mouth and tasted every inch of it. His hands moved to the hem of my shirt and ripped it open sending buttons flying everywhere. He swallowed my gasps with his lips and took off my pants. 

He shoved me down the couch and immediately started taking off his clothes. He knelt on the floor and pulled my thighs to him until my back was on the couch and my ass in his face. He flicked his tongue against my whole and I moaned. He didn't waste time and started fucking my ass with it. 

"Oh god!" I cried out as I opened up to him. He withdrew his tongue and shoved two fingers in my whole and I cried out as he rubbed against my prostate. 

His lips closed around the head of my cock as his other hand started to jerk me off at the base. Oh dear god the pleasure spread all over my body, my toes curled and I started to cum. 

He pinned me to the couch as I erupted in his mouth, my body shaking uncontrollably. He pulled off and I felt his tongue in my ass again. He filled me with my come and stood up. He pushed me back and knelt on the couch.

"Oooooooooooh fuck!" I screamed when he shoved his dick up my ass and filled me to the hilt. He stilled and waited for me to adjust to him. I pulled him to me and thrust my tongue in his mouth. I felt him move and moaned in his mouth he rubbed against me with every thrust. 

He pushed in steadily inside me for a minute and pushed me back on the couch until I was nearly folded in half and pounded into me. He fucked me like that for a maybe ten minutes and then pulled out and spun me around until I was on all fours and entered me from behind. 

"You still want me to go babe? Want me to pull out my big cock and leave you like this ha?" He pulled me closer and I arched my back to him until we were chest to back. 

"Fuck no...oh god...oh Michael give it to me...ah god!" 

I moaned and moved my hand to the back of his head and I pulled him to me for a kiss. He pulled back and captured my ear with his teeth as he drove into me.

"You want me to keep fucking you like this babe? Is that what you want? You want my big dick to fuck you like this?"

"Oh yes...I want your big cock fucking me like that...Oh yes!" He kissed me again. I moaned and cried out in his mouth as he continued to rub against my trigger. He stopped and spun us around again this time sitting down with my back to him. I leaned back to him on the couch and he pulled my knees up in the air and slammed into me.

"Oh yes...oh fuck...Oh...Oh..." I cried with every upward thrust he made. We went at it for endless minutes and I was losing control. He pulled out once again and turned me around until I was facing him. I sat on his cock and we both groaned. 

He grabbed my ass and fucked my brains out until I was coming again. A minute later I heard him groan and slam back in as he filled me with his hot cum. He had seriously worn me out and I think I passed out. 

............

When I woke up I was in bed and Michael was propped on his shoulder looking at me.

"Hey."

"Hi." This was awkward. "You carried me to bed?" It was a lame question I know but I didn't know what to say.

"I think I owed you that much for fucking your brains out." He said with a chuckle and I blushed. He was right. Last night had rocked my world. Not only did we fuck on my friend's couch but we made it to their kitchen table and he gave it to me until I decorated it with my cum. I think we broke a few plates and cups too. 

"God I love you so much." He whispered and kissed me again. Long minutes or hours passed as we kissed passionately. I climbed on his lap and kissed him as I eased him on the bed. His moved around my back to my ass we kissed with hunger. 

I moaned into his mouth when he squeezed my ass cheeks. Man I couldn't wait to have him inside of me. I turned around in a six nine position and presented my ass to him. 

He dove right in with his tongue and opened me up as I sucked his big cock. He used his fingers to open me up more and spun me around and kissed me. He made me lie on my side with my leg up in the air and entered me. 

I moaned as the blunt head of his cock breached me. Slowly inch by inch he filled me until I had all of him. As I adjusted to his cock he pulled my head to him and kissed me. He started to move and I cried out when he rubbed against me. 

He set a slow pace for a good ten minutes but soon he gave in and started to move faster. He got on his knees and opened me up some more and slammed into me. In this position every thrust he made rubbed against my prostate and more pre cum leaked from my cock.

"Oh god...oh yes...oh...oh!" I screamed as he continued to drive into me. He pulled my leg to the side until I was on my back and braced his hands on the sides of my head and pounded into me. 

I wrapped my legs around him and pulled him to me for a scorching kiss. His body rubbed against my cock and I started to cum. 

He swallowed my screams as he continued to fuck me throughout my orgasm. As I came down from my high I felt him slam into me one more time and fill me with his hot cum. I moaned at the thought of him filling me. 

He collapsed on top of me as we tried to catch our breath. A few minutes later he pulled out and lay next to me facing me.

"Marry me." I looked at him in shock and started to laugh. He didn't join me but kept staring at me. I stopped laughing and cleared my throat nervously.

"Are you serious?" I asked with uncertainty.

"Yes I am. i know were rushing and we can take our time. all i know is that i want you babe. I don't want to be apart from you anymore. I want you to move out and come stay with me. Or I could move out and come live with you. I don't care where we stay just as long as were together. I love you." I couldn't believe what he was saying.

"Please say something."

"Yes. I say yes, to everything. i love you too." I said with tears in my eyes. He took me in his arms and kissed me. There was loud banging at the door and we giggled at Olive's shout for us to get out of bed.

"You two bitches come out here and clean your mess. I leave for a few hours and you two mess it up. Well I'm not cleaning this shit up...." She went on and on but we didn't listen.

"You know she won't stop until we come out of this room."

"What if I'm not ready to get out of bed?"

"Neither am I." he smiled seductively and kissed me again. I wrapped my arms around him and felt his hardness press against mine. Our tongues dueled as he entered me again. I moaned in his mouth when he moved inside me. 

We completely ignored Olive as we made love again. We could always deal with her later. This time was ours and the rest could wait.

THE END