16 comments/ 25138 views/ 50 favorites A Surprise Love By: cassie_17 Hi everyone! A Shot into Darkness is giving me trouble so I decided to lay that to rest for the time being and write something different. Everyone is over the age of 18. Do not practice unprotected sex- it kills. I hope everyone enjoys! Sage: "I need you to be my drummer." Said my best friend, Alec, as we were walking to our dorms. I rolled my eyes. Alec and I had been best friends for roughly about five years and he was adamant about me being the drummer for his newly made band; The Death Munchers. Yeah. I know. A truly ridiculous name for a very unserious band. Alec and I could not have been more different. Even though we were both 24, I was 5'2, with lightly defined muscles, brown hair and greenish eyes. I was also a complete science nerd and would gladly spend my weekends in the lab of the college we both went to in Georgia. Alec, on the other hand, was taller than me at 5'11. He had spiked black hair, bright blue eyes, and wore more eyeliner than most girls we knew. He smoked pot and partied on weekday nights. Everyone found it a great surprise when he didn't flunk out of college in the first trimester. Even though he tried to look super angry at the world all the time, and listened to absolutely gut-wrenching screamo music, I still loved him in my own way. We met freshman year in high school and became close over the shared fact that our fathers left us. Now we were like brothers. Which is why when Alec came to me two weeks ago and asked if I would be the drummer of his new band, I quickly said no. I hadn't played the drums in years, and playing the kind of music that Alec liked would probably leave me bleeding from the ears. Not quite my idea of being in a band. Alec took this opportunity to persistently bug me about being the drummer every moment he could. Today, I finally broke- just to shut him up. "GOD ALEC! Fine, I will be your drummer! But if I don't like it, I will quit and precede to tease you about how awful you are for the rest of your life!" I said, pushing my longish hair out of my eyes for the millionth time. I was really ready for a haircut. "Thank you Sage! You have no idea what this means! WE HAVE A DRUMMER!" He screamed to the world and I pounced on him and covered his mouth with my hand. He struggled but I shushed him. "The entire world does not need to know that you finally found a drummer for your crummy band." I hissed at him, mocking furiousness. He laughed and we resumed walking as he chattered away about how exited he was. "Ok, our first practice will be tomorrow! I'll call everyone and let them know you finally relented. God, that took awhile! Sheesh, I was started to worry that my charm would never win you over." He teased me. One thing I was nervous about was meeting Alec's other friends. They were just like Alec, and I was rightly terrified that they would eat me alive. That probably sounds mean. But people wearing all black, with more tattoos than bare skin, and a million piercings in places skin shouldn't be pierced scared the shit out of me. Alec was like a tame kitty compared to his lion friends. Not to mention they had the most terrifying names. Hearing Alec talking about friends like Slash, Knifer, and Bat just creeped me out. Don't people like their nice and normal names? He let me know that practice would be at 5 at his friend's apartment. He gave me the address and then we parted ways. His dorm was about half a mile away from mine. I started up the stairs and unlocked my room. My roommate, Jeffery, was never there so I basically had the old place to myself. My room was pretty simple. I didn't have a lot of pictures of my parents around. My dad left when I was 15 and my mom kinda fell apart after that. When I told her I was gay, she barely flinched and muttered something about yet another guy treating her wrong. I never understood what she meant by that. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention the fact that I was gay. I have never tried to hide it and when I came out to Alec he laughed and told me he had known since freshman year. I guess I should be grateful that one of my only friends supports me. I showered and brushed my teeth before getting in my boxers and climbing into bed. ________________________________________________________________ Hawk: I was exited for Alec. The band was a great idea and it had been awhile since I had been in one. However, he took away all the value naming it the 'Death Munchers.' But then again, oh well, not like we will ever be popular or anything. It was just to get together and get the music out of our brains and into the world. Today is the first rehearsal and it's at my house. I told everyone 5:30 so I would have time to get ready after my final arts class of the day. I began straitening my soft blond hair to get it ready for the mohawk. Yes. The mohawk. It's kinda how I got my nickname of Hawk. My real name was less exiting being as boring as James Masis. I can be pretty scary when people first see me. I have white blond hair spiked in a serious mohawk that takes about an hour and a half to put up. I'm 6'2, have three tattoos and a lip piercing. It was as painful as it sounds, but I love it. I began teasing my hair on my forehead with my teasing comb, working my way up to the back of my head. I grabbed my first product, which was a light setting gel. After running that through my head, I grabbed my hair dryer and hard setting gel. This was what took forever. I had to go small strands, rub the gel in them and hold them up while drying them. Then I would move on to the next small strands and stand them up. I was about halfway done with this process when the doorbell rang. I looked at the time and seeing it was only 5, cursed. It was probably Alec, eager to set up and get ready. Grumbling to myself about not being able to finish my hair (I could be such a queen sometimes) I made my way down the hall and open the door. "Listen Alec, I was just getting done with my hair and you are WAY TOO EARLY-" I said, not even looking at who was at the door. Some small guy cowered at me, his emerald green eyes staring at my face before slipping away. He was a good foot shorter than me and only came up to my mid chest. "Um. Hi." He said. I rolled my eyes. This squirt must be the new drummer Alec was talking about. I grabbed his shirt, ignoring his squeak, and dragged him inside. One of my biggest pet peeves was my hair, and I wanted to have enough time to finish. "Sit your ass down the hall to the right. It's where everyone is meeting." I said gruffly and stalked back to the bathroom. __________________________________________________________________ Sage: I don't know how large the stick that was obviously up this guys ass was but he was fucking pissed at me. Legit, I don't understand how this guys hair could be so damn important to him. If he's trying to be so badass with his hair then he should stop acting like such a damn princess about it. He has now been rushing around the apartment for thirty minutes trying to fucking get his hair done before the rest of the band gets here. He's totally muttering under his breath about me though and I can hear it. "Fucking arrived early, damn hair." He goes around teasing his fucking mohawk. I don't even know this guys name and here I am sitting on his couch. I hope he is just offering his apartment as a practice space and wasn't a part of the band. The doorbell rang and I looked up. The asshole cursed under his breath and ran to get it. I leaned back and tried to look as relaxed as possible, just to piss him off more. Do not get the wrong idea about me; even though I look like a submissive brat, I am pretty feisty. Alec came bustling into the room. He looked around, nodding to himself. I could tell he was surveying the space. "So tell me Alec, what is this little squirt doing here for? Is he your newest bitch of the week?" The douche came up behind Alec and slung his hand around his shoulders. I rolled my eyes. "Who? SAGE? I don't know where you got that idea Hawk, but Sage is the drummer I was telling you about." Alec had the decency to look extremely exited. I rolled my eyes to the point that they were spending more time looking at my brain then focusing on Alec. "Oh. Well. I didn't expect him to be so..." 'Hawk' looked me up and down "...different." He smirked and I could tell he was enjoying getting to me. UGH. I could not believe that I let Alec talk me into doing this. .......... I met the guitarist next. Her name was Anna and she was barely a centimeter over 5 ft. She had her rain-bowed died hair spiked up and more metal on her face then skin. However, the second I met her I saw a friendly joking twinkle in her eye and I could tell she was a kind soul. The bassist came in and I met him. His name was Jacob and he was less scary looking than the others. His hair was not in a mohawk and the only piercings he had were on his ears. Given, he still had half inch spacers on them and was wearing more eyeliner than Anna, but he was still less intimidating. I learned that Jacob and Anna were cousins and that they had been best friends since the third grade. Hawk was the main singer. Alec would be backup and electric guitar and I would be drums. We got to work, warming up and tuning the instruments. Hawk kept his distance from me but seemed super close with Jacob and Alec. I felt a little out of place and awkward. Hawk's basement was nicely furnished. It had a lot of amps, and was decorated with guitars all over. He had the cliché pictures of cars and girls reaching themselves in inane ways all over the Alfa Romeos and Aston Martins. At least the guy had class when it came to cars. I may be a geek, but I'm a complete car geek. Something about a V12 engine revving turns my sex drive on. I know, it's pretty damn weird. My mouth literally waters when I see a Maserati driving by. I don't like the overly popular zealous brands like Ferrari and Lamborghini. I think they make sexy cars, but they are mainly bought by people who want to show their money off. Same with Bugattis. Though those have pure speed and strength. Fingers snapped in front of my face and I jolted out of my daydream. Hawk stood in front of me with a cross expression on his face. His blond hair looked sharper than knives and one of his lip piercings glinted. "We are starting." He turned around and stalked to the wooden floor in one corner of the basement. I sighed and grabbed my drumsticks. We decided we would start with a song cover we all knew- which was Numb by Linkin Park. It was one of my personal favorites, so I was happy we decided to go with it. I began a simple drum beat to lay the lines for the guitars and bass. The bass came in first, threading deep notes through my beat. The lighter guitar, Anna's, snapped in with a crackling fire and Hawk stepped up to take the first note. "I'm tired of being what you want me to be." He sang and I almost faltered in my beat. His voice was a deep, rich, bass and it went straight to my groin. By then, Alec stepped up. "Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow." Alec joined in, his lighter baritone going perfectly with Hawk's low bass. ___________________________________________________________________ Hawk: "I'm tired of being who you want me to be." I sang softly into the mic. I took a moment to breath in and relax after the tension of the song. When I sing, I sing with my heart and everything I have. It's always something I've loved doing. We sounded great! I was elevated into a good mood immediately and sang my heart into the mic. I wasn't about to admit it, but the new kid Sage was doing pretty well on drums. I heard him slightly falter when we begin singing but that was it. He was pretty cute, but I wasn't about to admit it. One thing about me is that I can hold grudges so damn easily. It's always bothered my friends, because it can take me weeks to get over the slightest thing. Once, Alec messed up my hair and I didn't talk to him for a month. I don't think I'm that easy to get along with. Alec slammed down his guitar and ran over to me. He looked slightly crazed with excitement. "HOLY SHIT GUYS THAT WAS FUCKING AMAZING!" He jumped up and down and everybody laughed. There was an air of animosity in the room, though I still felt tension when it came to Sage. "Guys, I already have some great ideas for some song lyrics and I know a guy that can get us a time spot at a bar." Anna jumped in, her blue eyes twinkling. We all started blabbering like idiots, trying to figure out when we could do a set or if we could get any notes written down for a new song. "Guys, we could start by playing bars and maybe starting a YouTube channel. That could work?" I suggested and everyone else jumped in with ideas. This could really work out for us! I collapsed onto my leather couch and crossed my legs, throwing my hands behind my head. I noticed Sage was just as excited as everyone else and it kind rubbed me the wrong way how hot he was. Even though he was shorter, his tousled brown hair was sticking up in an adorable fashion. I shook these thoughts out of my head and moved on. "GUYS WE COULD BE BIG!" Said Alec excitedly and everyone laughed. ___________________________________________________________ 2 Years Later Sage: "You guys are on in three....two....one...GO!" Screamed the on track guy. Madison Fucking Square Garden. The biggest stage in America. Bands thrived to preform and in two short years from our first performance together and we were here. People loved us. About three months after our first set at a bar we were scouted from some guy out of Atlanta. He said that we had potential and to meet him to set some recordings and that maybe it would catch on. By then we had original songs and were working much better together. Hawk still treated me like an idiot and refused to let me get anywhere near his hair, but I barely notice his hostility anymore. After we set some recordings and posted a couple songs to YouTube, we went viral. Our new manager put some of our stuff on iTunes and a ton of people bought them. Within 6 months a tour was planned and when our first album was released, Madison Square Garden contacted us, wondering if we could fit in one final performance at the end of our tour. As if we would turn that down. A performance at Madison Square Garden was a dream come true for Alec. I was pretty exited about all of this. Even though my dream had never been part of a popular band known all over the world; some of the places we went were quite fun. "GIVE ME A LIFEEEEEE, A HEAAAAARRT, A SOULLLLLLLL. Before you go...." Ended Hawk, going from a full voice to one of regret. He was as much of an actor as he was a singer. He would put everything into these songs and performances that he could. We filtered off stage. My hands were slightly sore from gripping the sticks for such a long time. Hawk and Alec grabbed water bottles and we made our way to the meet and greet. Even though this life was fun, it was exhausting and I barely got enough sleep to fully function. Luckily, our tour was over and we would have a quick, one week break before going into the studio to begin recording our new album. Another negative of this life was I could barely have any constant relationships. Being on the road so much left being able to go on dates difficult and the few flings I had barely lasted. It also bothered me how attracted to Hawk I was. Even though I could tell he never forgave me for fucking up his hair that one time. He still thought I was a puny idiot that didn't fit in with his group, but that was alright. I got over it. Even if the few times I had time to jerk off it was to his face. God. I needed to shut the fuck up before I said something I was going to regret. "Yo, Sage. Come on kid, time to go back to the hotel." I snapped my head up and ran to catch up with Alec and Anna. We traveled in separate tour buses because, A; Hawk hated me, and B; it was less dangerous. Yeah, you heard me. About two months back, some crazy snuck into one of the buses posing as a hair person and completely fucked up our bus. It was either some kind of super fan or someone who hated us. Since then, we tried to travel in separate cars except for publicity arrivals. I slid into the custom leather seats and put my ear buds in. I drifted off to sleep to soft sounds of music in my ears. "Yo, Sage. Get up man, we are at the hotel." Alec shook my shoulder and I mumbled into my very warm, very available pillow. It was hard for a pillow, but I was exhausted and with the tour over, I could afford to fall asleep. "Hawk, get him up. He's not going to move unless you move him." I tightened my arms hearing Hawk's name. But it was ok, because Hawk wasn't on this bus. My pillow moved. It shifted away from me and I angrily tried to pull it back, thinking that Alec was attempting to get me up by taking my pillow. Then my pillow fucking talked. "Sage, I mean, I know I'm attractive, but this needs to stop. I think its inappropriate." Rumbled my pillow in the voice of Hawk. It had a teasing lilt to it, but all my mind could process was what he said as taunting. I darted up as fast as I could. Hawk's mohawk was delightfully ruffled and I kinda wanted to run my hands through it and kiss his perfectly parted lips. Fucker. Alec was trying not to crack up and everything suddenly came back to me. I had just fallen asleep when Jacob called, saying that their bus had broken down and that they had to join Anna, Alec and I. I fell back asleep after they got there and Hawk must have taken the seat next to me. I am such an awful cuddler. I consider myself a serial cuddler because if someone sits next to me when I am asleep, I will glue myself to their side. Hawk was trying not to laugh up on of his lungs, and Alec wasn't being much help so I stormed out of the bus like a diva. We would make super sketch stops at our hotel at 3 AM so that fans wouldn't bug us. "Heeeeeeeeyyy Sage." Called Anna at the check-in desk and Jacob wolf whistled. I made myself feel a little bit better by flipping both of them off. They fucking deserved it. Anna skipped up to me and with a cheeky grin handed me my room card. "Sorry Sagypie, but they fucked up our room numbers. Two of us would have to share and Jacob and I thought it would be lovely to put you and Hawk together. Maybe you guys would actually learn to talk to each other without testosterone filling the air." She simpered and winked at me. I angrily grabbed the room key and without another word stalked off to the elevators. When I got to the room, I saw two double beds (thank god), a mini fridge and a nicely sized TV. Management refused to spoil us by getting each of us our own suite, so we always got normal hotel rooms. That was ok though because none of us wanted our fame to go to our heads either. I tugged my shirt off and collapsed onto the bed. It was super soft and I could feel myself starting to drift off again. Just as I was about to fall asleep, fucking Hawk came through the door. "Already ready for me Sage? I mean, I'm flattered, but I think this is moving too fast." He said teasingly and I promptly flipped him off and turned over. Asshole. _______________________________ Hawk: Not gonna lie, having Sage laying almost on top of me for two hours turned me the fuck on. I had a boner for a good hour. My cock was literally aching. Everyone was making fun of us and I could tell it was getting to Sage. We never really liked each other after I was a complete asshole to him about my hair, he just never talked to me. Not that I can blame him, but I have come a long way in these two years. A Surprise Love After he stalked off, I grabbed the luggage and made my way to our shared room. When I walked in, the only thing I could see was Sage almost asleep on the bed, shirtless. Even though I am sure he denies it, the man has muscle. He started working out when the band began getting popular. The only reason he did that was because our female fans wanted shirtless photo shoots. Now he has a beautiful 6pac and nicely sized pecs. They had a bit of dusting of hair on them and rose and fell to his breath. My hard-on returned to full force. So naturally, I had to go and ruin it by making a super sarcastic comment that I didn't mean. He flipped me off and rolled over and I made my way to the tiny mini fridge next to my bed. I felt awful. I startled up when there was a knock at the door. I got up and opened it, seeing it was Jacob. "Listen man, I gotta get out of here. Wanna hit one of the downtown clubs? I'm sure something is still open." He said. Jacob always got a smack of energy after a long bus ride, and I could be the same way. I looked over my shoulder. "Sage? Up for it?" He mumbled something that sounded vaguely like a refusal so I shrugged and grabbed my jacket. The club was still open and I was able to let off some of my energy. A lot of girls came up to me and tried to get me to grind or fuck, but all I was interested in was dancing. Grinding had never been my thing, I preferred having a nice open place for me to twist and shout. I probably looked ridiculous. After they shut the club down, Jacob and I walked back to the hotel. It was a coldish night with a hint of chilly breeze and the leaves rustled in the trees. I slid the key through the slot and turned the door knob to get into the room. The breeze followed me in and decided to perfectly ruffle Sages smooth brown hair. He was fast asleep and was stretched out on the bed, still shirtless. His flat stomach rose and fell with each breath he took and every muscle seemed to be standing out. I wanted to touch him so badly that I almost walked right back out of the room. It was difficult enough to not touch him on a normal day, and with me being slightly drunk, I couldn't resist. I reached out and slid my hand onto his shoulder. It was warm, contrasting perfectly with the cold breeze. I slid it down over his sharp collarbone and over his hard pec. His nipple hardened under my hand and I couldn't help but tweak it. He moaned softly and my hand darted off of him. This was dangerous. Too dangerous. But I couldn't resist. My hand leapt back to his chest of its own accord. It continued to slid down, tracing each muscle individually. His stomach was hard, and had a light coating of hair on it. His mouth was electing moans and groans every time I touched a different place. I paused on his waste-band, daring myself to go farther. At that moment- he opened his eyes. _______________________________________ Sage: I was having the most wonderful wet dream. Hawk was leaning over me and was touching me all over and I was about to cream in my pants. He was shirtless and was stripped down to his boxers. His hand wandered across my chest, down to my nipples and even farther. I was moaning all over and was about to cum in my dream. The one problem is when I was a teenager, I would always wake up before I came in my wet dreams. I eventually stopped having them because my mind was so sexually frustrated. So naturally, I woke up. Unnaturally, however, someone was touching me. And holy fuck it was Hawk. Fucking hell? He paused at my waste-band staring at me. His eyes were large and I could tell he had ingested some form of alcohol. We must have sat there for about thirty seconds before he gently leaned forward and took my lips with his. They were soft and consistent. He didn't take it any father than a chaste kiss. He wanted to know where I would go with it. Parting ways, he leaned back and looked at me. Judging me. I paused, unsure of what to do. What I knew was best, or what I wanted to do. My need gave in and I darted up and pulled him down to me. Our lips crashed together and his tongue stroked my upper lip. It was like light and dark collided and I moaned openly into his mouth. His hand traveled down my chest and under me. He began tracing down my spine and moved his mouth down to begin sucking on my collarbone. It felt so damn good. I had never wanted something or someone more. I grabbed his head and tugged it up making him look me in the eye. His eyes were on fire; filled with lust and want. "You in me. NOW!" I half grunted half moaned and flipped over. However, annoyingly, he took his sweet time. Starting right below my hair ended, he trailed kisses over my shoulder blades and down each segment of my spine. I shivered every time I felt his warm breath on my back. Right before he got to my lower back, he gently slid my boxers over my ass and off of my legs. I felt cool air on my exposed area before his warm tongue circled my sphincter and gently pushed inside. I almost screamed from the pure delight and agony. He teased me for what felt like hours before gently wetting a finger with his spit and slipping it inside of me. It felt like heaven and earth were opening. I felt my cock tighten up and I hissed a warning over my shoulder. He chuckled darkly slowly slid his finger out. I suddenly felt empty inside. I heard a drawer open and plastic tear. He put both his hands around my hips and I felt him at my entrance. It was by no means my first time, but it had been awhile, but I knew somehow that Hawk would be gentle. He leaned down and whispered "I've been waiting for this" in my ear as he slowly slid inside of me. I felt a chill of lust go down my spine at his deep bass rumbling in my ear. He was big. I felt all nine inches of him slide into me slowly and I felt that each detail was carved into my insides. He paused and leaned down to whisper throatily "Are you good to go?" My response was to grunt and push back at him. He laughed deeply and began pounding into me. He started with short jabs- teasing me- and then started to really go deep. I felt like he was hitting my core with each thrust. Suddenly he thrust upward and hit something that sent shivers all over my body. I knew he had hit my prostate. I moaned loudly and he began angling himself so he could continue hitting it. Both of us were nearly completion and I could tell he was getting there by the desperation in which he slid in and out of me. Our breathing got labored and my cock tightened before spewing cum all over my chest. My anus tightened around his dick and with a muffled moan, he came and eased out. We both panted and I laughed a little. His sweaty body was warm against mine and I felt a sense of security come over me. Unconsciously, I wormed my body closer to his and he gently laughed. "Give me a second baby, okay?" He said, climbing out of bed. He made his way across the room and into the bathroom. I leaned back and sighed contentedly as I heard the water running. Hawk returned with a warm wet washcloth. He climbed onto me and straddled my waist. Slowly, he began wiping me all over, cleaning me, and in some occasions he followed the wet cloth with his tongue. By the time I was clean I was wet and leaking pre-cum all over. Hawk leaned down and paused, noticing my rather obvious erection. He got a wicked gleam in his eyes and before I knew it he enveloped me in his mouth. Shit. His mouth was warm and soft and his tongue kept brushing my slit so seductively. Without even realizing it, I must have grabbed his head because I found my hands running up and down his mohawk. His mouth was quickly bring me to another orgasm and I tried to warn him by mumbling something but he began milking me and I immediately let it come over me. I came hard. I spurted up into his mouth as waves of pleasure coursed over my body. It was an amazing feeling and I lay gasping like a fish out of water for a couple minutes. I didn't even comprehend when Hawk shimmered up my body and curled up spooning me. I was exhausted and sore and I sighed into Hawk as his arm made its way around my waist. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep with his warm body next to mine. _____________________ Hawk: Last night was fucking amazing. Sage had been driving me mentally insane for the past couple of months and to finally be able to make love to him was one of the best experiences of my life. It was strong and gripped me hard and out of control. I don't remember ever having sex like that in my life. I woke before him feeling more rested than I had since the band was put together. All my muscles were at ease and my entire body felt warm and relaxed. Sage was adorable when he slept. He kept murmuring to himself and tucking himself closer to me. I kept having flashes from last night. His dick in my mouth. My dick in his tight body. I was hard just thinking about him. I knew we had to talk though. It was way to hard knowing that things would be different now and I don't know what I'm going to do if he wakes up and wants nothing to do with me. I might be in love with him. His gorgeous green eyes that sparkle with laughter, his gently mussed-up hair that glinted with golden highlights in the sun and a body that was just defined enough. Not to mention his attitude toward life. He could be funny and sarcastic but cared so damn much about keeping the band together. Even when others would fight, he would keep them together and actually had to lock Alec and Anna in the bathroom of one of the tour buses when they were in the middle of an argument. Not to mention his sass. He could be goddamn sassy at times but I loved it when he was. It gave him an almost irresistible sexiness. Sage groaned lightly and stretched. It snapped me out of my train of thoughts about him and I sat up and watched him anxiously. He yawned and opened his eyes fuzzily. I was stricken by the confusion in the emerald green eyes. "Hey...um...how are you?" I asked slowly, trying not to startle him but wanting him to know that I wasn't going to push him away. I wasn't sure about my emotions but I knew that I wanted him as more than a fuck buddy. "So we fucked." Sage said matter of factly. I almost flinched at the non-caring tone of his voice and I know he was just trying not to get hurt. I don't blame him. More than once I had fucked a groupie only to kick them out the day after. But I didn't want to hurt him. I wanted him to be happy. I knew what I had to say and I could just hope that he felt the same way. "Sage. It wasn't like that. It was making love. I don't know what it is but for the past couple of months I have been completely attracted to you. Every aspect of you. I don't want you to push me away. I don't know what you want but if you choose to leave and not to bring it up again I will respect that. However, I want something more than that. I want to be able to fall asleep and wake up to your face. I want to be able to go out and to have fun and enjoy life together. Tell me what you want and I will understand." It all came out in a rush and I hesitantly reached out to touch his cheek. He looked surprised but like he was processing what I had said. "I want that to happen too. I've been attracted to you for awhile too. But can we see how it goes? I guess I just didn't expect last night to happen and I don't know how it's going to change things between us because it did. But I want something with you, I'm sure of that." He finished, looking proud yet unsure about my reaction. I leaned forward and gently kissed his cheek. He shivered and pulled back to look at me. "Ok baby, however you want it. I'm willing." I said and Sage relaxed. He smiled and leaned forward to claim my lips with his. It was a gentle kiss, a kiss with hidden promises of good times to come. .-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-. 10 years later. Sage: "Happy 36th birthday baby." Whispered James into my ear and I shivered like I did every time he was close to me. I stopped calling James Hawk after the band broke up. About 5 years after our initial fame we dropped off the charts and went our separate ways. We still meet up to share old memories over dinner and a drink. Alec became involved in production of music and turned out to marry Anna. Who would have guessed. They have two adorable twin girls who are five. I am their proud god-father. We see them more often and we often have picnics together. Jacob flew to Australia and I really have no idea what he does out there. He wanted to 'find himself' and just left. I don't know how anyone could go to Australia to 'find themselves' after all, everything in Australia is trying to kill you. I think that fact would distract the hell out of me. Alas, after James and I came out to the band as a couple, about a month after our initial hookup, no one was surprised. Our fans never found out, thanks to management, though I think our truly loyal fans wouldn't give a fuck. I ended up going into science like my original plan but James opened up a music store where he sells music, instruments and occasionally teaches a student the ways of rock n' roll. We have been together a beautiful ten years. Though we have our ups and downs, I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I can't imagine what my life would be without him. Three years ago we got rings. Neither of us needed a ceremony, and we spent a quiet hour exchanging our vows to each other. It was one of the most intimate moments of my life. Of course he got rid of the mohawk. He now has messy blond hair that falls in his eyes quite often. It's possibly one of the most sexy things about him. He lost the piercings too. Actually, he lost 90% of his punkiness after finding love with me. I guess I just whipped him in shape. One thing weighs me down every day. Two years ago, I discovered a slight lump on one of my leg joints. It was sore to the touch and wouldn't go away. I brushed it aside and forgot to make a doctors appointment. After awhile though I had to because it was growing bigger. They took a biopsy and tested my blood. What they found changed my life forever. It was a Stage 3 bone cancer that had spread all over my leg and was making its way to my heart. James and I were horrified. I immediately began chemo in my legs, but it was to no use. Twelve months ago I stopped treatment. It was wasting me away and I didn't want James memories to be filled with me in a hospital bed. I wanted to live freely and each day as my last. Who knows, it could be. They told me I had seven months to live tops. I am three months over that limit. James and I spend hours talking, kissing, making love. We know that we are on borrowed time. It was something that I never thought would happen when I walked into that house on that day twelve years ago. But it did and this love has been the love of a lifetime. I wouldn't trade anything for the past ten years. ~Fin~