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An Opportunity of a Lifetime

By: Story guy



I was running late. Breathless, I nearly ran to class. Did I really sign up for this? I couldn't believe that I actually went through with it. I had been planning on taking a sketching course that would include nudes for a very long time. Although not a great artist, I have done some good work, especially in my younger years. I figured that I would have the usual assignments, but I was mainly excited that I would be sketching nudes! 

I eased into class just a minute before 9:00am. The class was pretty full, so I had to get a seat in the front where no one likes to sit, at least not in the beginning of a class. I looked around and saw that most of the other students were in their twenties. Most were very fresh-faced and cute. As for myself, I am in my early forties and I am told that I am, "Easy on the eyes." I am 5'11", 160 pounds with blue-gray eyes, brown hair and a goatee that shows just a bit of gray. I was feeling a bit out of place until another guy about my age showed up at the door. I watched him look around for a seat in the back. All that was left was the one next to me so I pointed to it. He smiled and came forward. I guessed him to be about forty. He thanked me and sat down. 

The room was silent as the clock ticked on the wall. Soon it was 9:04 and no one had uttered a sound. I looked over at the guy who was sitting next to me and I introduced myself. "Hi, I'm Stuart." He smiled and nodded at me as he told me that his name was Dave. I asked him if he knew anyone that had taken this course and he kind of blushed before saying, "Yes, a friend of mine said that it was one of his favorite classes. I need a couple of electives, so I signed up." I smiled at him as the teacher arrived through the same door that we had come in. "Ok ok, I see that I have a full class. My name is Adam. I have four students whom I just spoke with outside who want to get into this classroom. Is there anyone here who is not sure if they want to take this class?"

We all kind of looked at each other, sheepishly. "Good! That means that everyone in this room is committed and will be here promptly for the entire semester, correct?" Nervous laughter filled the room. "If I have no takers, I will tell the students outside that they need to find another class." We all kind of eyed each other, wondering what the big deal was. "Ok then." He disappeared out the door and was gone for several minutes. He soon reappeared, closed the door and stared at each of us, one at a time. "You may have cost someone an opportunity of a lifetime or perhaps you gave yourself one. Think about that!"

That first class felt like it lasted an eternity. After roll-call and introductions, Adam proceeded to scientifically outline the human form. It was fascinating, but it was all talk with no "hands-on." I was disappointed when at noon the class was over and all we had done was listen to Adam talk about what he referred to as, "The Basics." I left class with Dave in tow. "Not as exciting as I imagined, Stuart."

"Yeah, I agree." We walked in silence for a moment and then bid each other farewell until the next class on Wednesday.

The next class was very interesting. We had to pair up and draw each other. Dave and I turned to each other and said, "partners?" at the same time. We found this to be very amusing because we knew that we would laugh at our drawings when we were done. I stood back and looked at Dave as he looked at me. We couldn't suppress our smiles and it was rather awkward getting started. I began at his shoulders. He had broad shoulders, and his torso narrowed down nicely. I didn't see any bulging musceles, but he was obviously fit. He had a strong neck, not to short and not too long. I sketched his ears and I noticed that they were kind of small, but they looked right on him. In fact, everything looked right on Dave. He was about my height and had dark hair, like me. He had gorgeous light green eyes and he was very tan. After awhile we fell into the rhythm of drawing, posing, and drawing some more. When class was over, Adam told us to cover the drawings. He then gathered them and put them in a storage closet. "You will not see these again until the end of the semester. What I will have you do is draw each other again at that time. We will then compare and acknowledge your progress or lack thereof." Adam was kind of eccentric, but in a good way. He kept the class on its toes. All of us groaned our displeasure although I was secretly relieved because Dave was very handsome and my drawing did not do him justice.

Well, we got to draw our first nude during our fourth class. It seemed to me that Adam was weeding out the "lookie-loos" before we got to this stage. Sure enough, some students had already dropped out. We had been drawing endless circles, shapes, animals, each other, you name it. I was definitely ready for something different. Without fanfare, a handsome middle-aged man entered the room. He looked to be around 60, with a fresh and positive demeanor. He discarded the robe and lay on a recliner, quite naked. I wanted to draw a nude model, and here was my chance. We were not allowed to talk to him, only Adam could do that. We all were anxious to have a live model, so we got busy. I sketched his outline and did some shading, then I worked on the detail. I was embarrassed looking at his genitals as I sketched him. I felt like I was a peeping Tom or something. I sketched his flaccid penis and shaded it in all of the right places. I liked the way it lay in repose against his thigh. It was of a good size, but not overly so. I looked into the model's eyes and he looked back at me. I glanced away. I drew some more, then looked at his face again. This time it was he that glanced away. It was so slight that it was almost imperceptive. I think that he had been watching me. I would bet that no one else in that room would have noticed. All I knew was that I had a naked man lying in front of me allowing me to draw his cock! I know it wasn't supposed to be provocative, but I was trying to suppress a hard-on at the mere thought of it. Since we were drawing with charcoal, we couldn't erase so I kept starting over. Dave was doing the same. Adam came by and said to me, "Just draw what you see. The imperfections might just enhance your work. Look at Picasso!" He then moved on to the next student, offering the same advice. 

The gentleman reappeared for the next two classes. Each time I tried to avoid making eye contact with him. When we did it aroused me. I felt like he could read my mind or something. There was never any conversation with him, but he was obviously very comfortable posing nude in public. At the class break, I went into the restroom and stood at the urinal next to...HIM. I kept wondering if I should say anything or not. Finally, he spoke. "Hello, I am Jack. I would shake your hand except that I am sure it is occupied at the moment." I laughed and looked over at him. "I'm Stuart, and I'm not supposed to talk to you." Then I laughed again. "Stuart, you can talk to me. Adam doesn't like it, but I don't care. My nakedness embarasses you, doesn't it?" I felt myself blushing. I finished up and washed my hands. Jack joined me at the next basin as we washed our hands. He looked into the mirror at me. "The human body is a beautiful thing, Stuart. I enjoy being naked and I like to spend time with other nudists."

"Jack, naked men don't usually pose for me, so this is something new," I said, just as another student walked in. Oh god, what did he just hear me say? The guy gave me quite a stare. After leaving the restroom, Jack asked me to join him after class for some coffee at the diner across the street. I agreed to meet him there.

It was awkard for me at first, but Jack had a way about him that made him very easy to talk to. He told me that he was married, but that he had a significant other named Chuck. He spoke so eloquently that he could have been a writer. Jack and I met at the diner after class the next two weeks. I had really grown to like this handsome man and we exchanged many e-mails. I decided to "come out" to Jack. After much discussion, he encouraged me to "come out of my shell" and not be afraid to reach out to another man. I was attracted to Jack, but he was happily partnered so I knew that he was not coming on to me. I told him about my one, single gay encounter. I had really hoped to have a relationship with the guy and I tried hard to get to know him through e-mails and phone conversations. Finally, we met. I really liked him. He was good looking, interesting to talk to and he was not afraid to show his sensitive side. It felt right to sleep with him. However, it did not go very well at all because I didn't know what I was doing. I was very down about it afterwards. Jack listened to my tales of woe and I have to say that he helped my self-esteem a bit. His titillating tales of sex and debouchery with both sexes had me smiling every time. He definitely had a very colorful and exciting sex life, unlike mine. Jack encouraged me to find an outlet for my manly desires in a way that made me realize that it would be unnatural for me NOT to.

I began writing stories that were published on-line, for free. Although copyrighted, I knew that I would never show them to anyone that I knew. However, I did ask Jack to read them. His feedback was so positive that I wrote more. I loved the way that it made me feel inside, being able to express myself in writing to others like myself who understood my angst. Jack e-mailed me that he was going on a long summer vacation but that he would be back to model the next semester. Before he left, he said to me in an e-mail, "Stuart, I have enjoyed our friendship. I hope that it will continue. I want to know when you find the right man and bond with him. It will happen, if you let it." I replied to his e-mail and typed, "From your mouth to God's ear, Jack." 

Dave mentioned at the next class that he had seen me with Jack. "Stuart, are you friends with that guy? I thought we were not allowed to fraternize with the models." I replied, "I'm not sure you would understand my explanation. It's kind of a long story."

"I have time Stuart," he said. An hour later, Dave and I were sitting on the sofa in my apartment. He had a sensitive nature, something that I had sensed from the beginning. I trusted him, so I let him know that I was corresponding regularly with Jack on-line and that he encouraged me to explore the internet. Dave asked me how and where and I felt myself blushing. "I found a web-site that will publish stories. You see, I like to write."

"What kind of stories," he asked. I replied, "I'm not so sure I am doing the right thing by telling you this Dave."

"Stuart, talk to me." 

I felt like I was headed into a minefield, but I continued anyways. "Well, he....read one of my stories on-line and he...e-mailed me some feedback. I kept writing...it's like an....addiction for me." I was talking hesitantly and I felt the heat in my face. Dave grinned and said, "It's porn, isn't it? You're writing porn. I'm right, aren't I?" Relieved that he was not being accusatory as he asked that, I told him that it was indeed porn. "I didn't know how you would take that Dave. Not everyone is into porn." I then tried to change the subject but Dave would have no part of that! He said, "I want to read your work." Oh no! How was I going to get out of this? This guy thinks I am straight. "Come on, Stuart, I'm not taking no for an answer. I don't care what kind of story it is, I want to read it. Although maybe not if it involves farm animals." We both laughed, but mine was nervous laughter.

I went to the PC and navigated my way to the literary web-site that I submitted my porn stories to. "What am I doing?," I asked myself. I clicked on my first story and faced him. "Dave, I'm REALLY uncomfortable about this." However, Dave was not looking at me, he was looking at the screen. Shit! He had already seen that my story was in the "Gay Male" category. Dave said, "Hmmm, what's this, a gay story?" He was smiling as he sat down and began to read. I felt like I had made a big mistake and now it was too late to undo it. He would read my "trash" and think less of me. After all, my stories were very explicit and he would know my fantasies. God was I nervous. I went into the kitchen and sat on the kitchen counter in a place where I could see him at the PC. Damned if he didn't read every one of my stories while I sat there, mortified.

After about forty-five minutes, Dave found me in the kitchen. He looked absolutely dumbfounded. He said, "All I can say is, WOW." He was almost smiling. I can't explain it, but I knew I had to say something and it was now or never. "Dave, I think I'm gay."

"You THINK you are gay, Stuart? You THINK you are? You write stuff like that and you are just now figuring this out?" Here it was, the moment I feared. I was going to lose his friendship. It was with unbelievable relief and joy when he said, "Stuart, I've known I was gay since childhood! How could you not know?" Did he just say what I thought he said? "Dave, are you serious or are you messing with me?" He said, "Based upon what I just read in there, I think I SHOULD be messing with you. Messing AROUND with you, I mean!" I was stunned. I was not expecting this to happen yet I was thrilled that it had! My head was swimming. He continued, "Well, you could have knocked me over with a feather when I started reading in there. How cool that there is a web-site like that! You appear to have been flying under the "gaydar."" He chuckled when he said that. I told him, "It's due to a lifetime of hiding it, my friend. I've only been with one guy and it did not go well, so I have not tried it since. I am clean and I worry about being with other guys who aren't. Guys make me horny, I can't help it. I guess you can tell from my stories." He looked at me thoughtfully before saying, "How is it possible for a guy to have a bad experience with you? You are so hot, Stuart! I thought so that very first day in class when I sat down next to you." I couldn't help the big smile that appeared on my face. 

As if in slow motion, Dave came to me. He kissed my lips ever so gently. Seeing that I did not flinch, he then kissed me harder and I allowed his tongue to meet mine. There is something so sensuous about kissing another man. I had kissed many women in my time but it was never quite like this. I pulled Dave close to me and I leaned back against the cabinets. He whispered to me, "I am clean, Stuart. I promise. I may have more experience than you do, but I'm no slut. I am very particular and you have me VERY horny with your stories. I've had a hard-on since the first paragraph I read in there!" I jumped down from the kitchen counter and put my arms around him. We must have kissed for ten minutes, our tongues exploring each other's mouths and lips. I could feel his cock pressed against mine, and it sent shock waves through me. Dave looked into my eyes and said, "Stuart, how did I get so lucky to meet you?" He then took my hand and placed it on his crotch and then he put his on mine. We both watched as we groped each other through our jeans. I stroked his shaft and I could feel his head. He was so hard! He looked to be about six inches, like me. He kissed my neck. I could feel his hot breath against my skin as he panted his satisfaction. He started grinding himself into me. A part of me wanted to keep going, allowing the waves of pleasure to take over. I barely got the words out, but I said, "If we don't stop we are going to come in our pants Dave."

We practically ran to the bedroom. We stripped, watching each other get naked. Both of us laughed as our erect cocks got caught up in our underwear. We embraced and I ran my hands along his back and cupped his firm ass cheeks. Feeling the heat of each other's cocks, we gyrated against each other before falling onto the bed in a naked, manly embrace. He was on top of me, straddling me so that our cocks could do their swordplay. I practically shouted out, "I want to taste you, Dave, please!" He brought himself up to me and I got my first "hard" look at his beautiful cock. All I could think about was getting it into my mouth.

I tickled his balls with my right hand as my left stroked his shaft. I felt his balls lift a little and he said to me, " God damn, you are making me crazy!" Pre-cum was starting to ooze out. Man, the sight of a cock glistening with pre-cum is the best thing ever. I licked the tip of his cock, starting at the sensitive underside. I brought my tongue up and over his glans and gently lapped up the cum that he was putting out. Dave was going nuts. I could tell by his breathing and he was starting to squirm a bit. Cupping his balls, I slowly pulled his cockhead out of my mouth, allowing a strand of his pre-cum to bridge between my lips and the tip of his cock. One look at that and he said, "Oh my god, I'm going to cum." With a hard grip on his ass, I pulled his cock back into my mouth, making it clear that I wanted to swallow. I sucked him like there was no tomorrow. Dave tensed up and then I felt his cock twitch. "AAAAAAHHHHHH...OHHHHHH MY GOD!" The cum exploded out of him and against the back of my tongue down my throat. Barely tasting him, I eagerly swallowed his hot load.

Dave sat back on his feet and looked at my smiling face. "You are unbelievable, Stuart. That was the best fucking blowjob I have ever received! It is also going to be a hard act to follow, dude." I replied back coyly, "Does that mean that you aren't going to let me do it again?" He said, "No, it means that I am going to suck the living daylights out of you but it can't possibly compare to what you just did to me!"

"Dave, this isn't a contest, guy. I will love anything that you do to me, anything." Dave then leaned down and kissed me. He ran his tongue along my lips, then on my neck, and then down to my nipples. He took each nipple and gently bit and sucked it until I was begging for him to go lower. "Oh god, suck me Dave, suck my aching cock!" I was rock-hard and I had been ever since we kissed in the kitchen. 

Dave got down between my legs and lifted them up. He took his tongue and licked me, all the way south. The sensation was incredible as his hot tongue teased my ass and perineum. He bathed my balls until I was breathing hard and starting to squirm. He then brought my legs back down and started to work on my cock. He looked at me while he sucked me, occasionally making slurping sounds as he took me in and out of his mouth. Watching and listening to another man suck my cock was putting me over the edge. I reached down and caressed his cheek and jaw. I could feel my cock pressed against it. I couldn't help but agree with what Dave had said earlier about our luck in meeting each other. This seemed like the guy I had been waiting for. Dave let my cock slip out of his mouth and said, "Your choice, Stuart. You can either cum ON me or IN me. Either way I'm happy!" I was immediately reminded of the countless pictures I had seen on-line of guys who got off on letting their partner cum on them. I didn't like all of them, but there were some "shots" that got me hot every time I looked at them. 

My decision having been made, I had Dave turn over with his back against the headboard. He let me face-fuck him as he pressed his finger against my man-hole. My asscheeks clenched and I gasped out loud as he pulled my cock out of his mouth and rubbed it all over his face. He then put his hands on my thighs and pushed me back until my cock was about three inches from his face. He leaned his head back a bit, with his lips curled up in a smile. "Squirt it all over me, Stuart. You know you want to. Show me what you got. Come on, frost me like a cake, baby." My cock was hard as a rock as I jerked myself off over him. Now it was my turn to make some noise. "YES, oh my god, oooooooh, I'm there, Dave, I am THERE!" I could feel my orgasm build up. First in my toes, then the goosebumps appeared on my legs and arms. I looked down at his smiling face as my cock erupted like a volcano, with my white hot lava cascading onto him. I couldn't believe that I was giving a guy a facial. It was kinky, but it was so hot! I was a little over-eager I guess, because I thrust too far forward causing the first and biggest spurt to land on Dave's foreheard and into his hair. With split-second timing, I pulled back and groaned out loud as my cum landed on his cheek, chin and neck. Six or seven spurts later, and with my cock still dripping, Dave pulled me forward and put it back into his mouth. He gently lapped up my remaining cum. After he was done he said, "Stuart, I had to taste you too!" 


An Opportunity of a Lifetime Ch. 02



Chapter Two: Dear Diary 

Dear journal,

Tuesday, May 13, 2001

Yesterday was the best day of my life so far. I finally found "the guy." Dave is everything I am looking for and more. He was over at my apartment after drawing class just shooting the breeze with me. Everything unfolded when he discovered that I wrote gay porn stories. I was so afraid of his reaction only to find out that he was into guys too! I have been writing the stories for a year, only imagining what it would be like to be with a guy in real life. My one and only experience with a guy did not pan out the way I wanted to. Despite getting to know him first, once in bed he was too aggressive with me. After a minute of kissing me, I was panicked as my pants were pulled off and my legs were in the air. I ended up backing off and pissing him off in the process. Sorry, but I wanted more than to just be fucked! I was afraid to try again...until Dave.

I can't believe how great the sex is with Dave. I am so comfortable with him! Thinking back to last night has me rock-hard. I still can't believe that I found him. God, even after all those drawing classes together and all of the coffee breaks in between we still hadn't "come out" to each other yet. Then yesterday it happened. I am smiling just thinking about it. 

The nude model from class, Jack, had urged me to explore my sexuality. How right he was when he said I was cheating myself if I did not do that. He e-mailed me today from vacation. He was in Palm Springs at a gay resort with Chuck and I could not believe all of the things that he was experiencing. It was far beyond what I was game for, but I had to hand it to the man, he was definitely "living life." I let him know that Dave and I had connected and how happy I was about that. Jack was very happy for me and he even seemed a little in awe of what I had found in Dave. I miss Jack; he is a special guy. The last time he wrote he told me, "Be fond of the man you drew in class, and I don't mean ME!"

The power of the bond I feel with Dave is overwhelming. Being intimate with another man has been both my desire and my fear for my whole adult life. I was terrified that I would be very inhibited and modest. Wow, I surprised myself. Once I was in the situation, I just went with it. As I write about this I am playing it back in my mind, slipping my hand into my underwear and around my erection. Hmmm, this is the cock that Dave sucked. This is the pubic hair that his nose was pressed against. This is the cock that shot a hot load of cum onto his face and neck. Oh god, this is the cock that had been pressed against his cock while we kissed. I am getting so hot reliving it. Shit, I've got to pull my boxer briefs down. Oh man, I am so hard! Looking down at my throbbing penis I am reminded of his head bobbing up and down and Dave looking at me while his mouth was full with...ME! Just the memory of it has me ready to explode. So hard, so hot, so HARD...oh god so close...hold back...try to stop...too late...aaaahhhh! Oh man, oh man...oooooooooh! 

What a mess I am. Jeez, it's a good thing I keep this journal locked up!

Before he left last night, Dave asked me a rhetorical question. "Stuart, what have we started?" Neither of us knew the answer; we just knew that our lives would never be the same. I HAVE to be with him again. I am debating calling him only to realize that we don't have each other's phone numbers or e-mail addresses SHIT! I know I will have to wait until class tomorrow night. It will be a long fucking wait.

Wednesday, May 14, 2001

Today was a bitch at work. I had three meetings to go to and 69 e-mails to answer. Did I just write, "69?" God, I DO have it bad. :-)~ My mind has been in bed with Dave since Monday. I could not concentrate worth a damn today. I sat at my desk with a lump in my pants for hours. I kept wondering how I would hide it if I had to get up suddenly, yet at the same time the thought of it excited me! I somehow got through the day and after a quick dinner I headed for drawing class.

I got to class early, hoping to get some time with Dave to talk. 7:00pm and no Dave, so I headed inside. Well, his desk remained vacant the whole class. Adam, who is our eccentric instructor, stopped by my desk. "It looks as if Dave has better things to do than be here. Do you know where he is?"

"No, I don't," I replied. Adam was an oddball, but he was acting even odder now. I just wanted him to keep moving. Adam continued on, "He sent me a Fed -Ex envelope with a note to me and a separate envelope with it for you. Seems he is quitting class." The bottom just fell out of my world. What did Adam just say? Oh my god. I was just sick inside and all sorts of thoughts were going through my mind. "Well," Adam continued, "I meant to bring it to you but it is still in my office. We can get it at the break." Adam then walked away. Wherever Dave was, he couldn't be close by if he had to Fed-Ex a message to me. What the hell was going on and why was Adam making me wait until break? 

We had to sketch a unique body part every class. Adam calls it our "drill." He says, "Class, you know the drill. Get started. You have ten minutes." He lifted the cover off of his easel to dramatically display today's timed drill. He was so goofy. He reminded me of the "Iron Chef" on TV with the "secret ingredient." Today's body part was the knee. As I started sketching, I remembered kissing the underside of Dave's knees. I read somewhere that was a hot thing to do. I reminisced about the time, early in class, that Dave and I had partnered together and sketched each other. We kept blushing and laughing that night. I should have realized then that Dave dug me. Those portraits were then put away to be unveiled at the end of the semester. My drawing was suffering from my distractions. "What the hell is in that letter?"

After what seemed like an eternity, Adam told us to take a break. We went to his office to retrieve the letter. He handed it to me with a knowing look, his eyes piercing my own. I looked away. Heart pounding, I headed for the quad. I found a bench, sat down and tore open the seal. Inside was a single-page, typed letter on company letterhead. My eyes glanced down to the end and he had signed it in ink. My arms shaking and my pulse pounding in my temples, I began reading.

Dear Stuart,

Where to begin? I was going to call you but then I realized that I did not have your phone number. You are not listed...what's up with that? I couldn't even stop by your apartment; that's how crazy it was yesterday. Stuart, I am in Chicago. I used to live here, remember? No, I guess you don't because I don't think I ever mentioned it. I will probably be here for awhile, so I told Adam I was quitting class. I guess that means that you will have to find another partner to draw your ugly mug. Just teasing you, Stuart! You are the last one in the world that would ever be considered ugly. 

Monday was intense, wasn't it? I need you to know that it was very powerful and meaningful to me. To know that I could "bring you out of your shell" like that was incredible. I can't stop thinking about it. I wanted to be there to tell you that but I can't. I am in Chicago to be with Rich. He only has a few weeks to live. Stuart, Rich and I were together for over a year. Man, I will be honest with you- I loved him. When he cheated on me, I felt like my life was over. I could not forgive him. I abruptly left Chicago for Dallas and I didn't even tell him where I was going. 

I adore his sisterGwen so I have stayed in touch with her. Well, she called me yesterday to tell me that Rich has advanced lymphoma and that he was begging her to find me. Stuart, I cried. I thought that I was completely over him. Despite the hurt, knowing that he is going to die makes me crazy. I started feeling guilty for not telling him where I was. Then I started feeling guilty for having feelings for him when I had feelings for you. Stuart...I miss him and this is something that I have to do. I need closure and I am hoping that you will understand that. 

There is so much to tell you, yet so little time. I knew that if I overnighted this letter that you would understand why I was not in class. Forgive me for not somehow finding a way to get a hold of you before I left. I need some time to deal with this before we talk. Please give me some time, ok? I wish that I could hug you right now. I have a lump in my throat and I could sure use a hug back. 

Dave

I read the letter three times, almost in disbelief. He left town to be with another guy! That asshole! I don't know why, but I was shocked that he had been that close with someone. I was jealous of Rich, even mad at him. He had deceived and hurt Dave yet he still found a way to take him away from me. After pacing back and forth, I switched gears and was mad at Dave.

I sat back down with my head hanging down, the letter flapping in the breeze. I don't know how long I had been sitting there, but I knew that class had long since resumed. I finally sat back up. Gazing at the rising moon, I realized that Dave did not belong to me just because we had incredible sex. We were close, I knew that much. Nothing could take away what we experienced on Monday. Then again, I refused to believe that he experienced that level of closeness with anyone else. Damn it! I know that I am being selfish, but I can't help myself. I got up and went back to class, knowing but not accepting that Dave was asking for space.

Sunday, May 18, 2001

Each night since Wednesday I have been staring at the phone and wondering what is happening and why Dave doesn't want to talk to me. This is making me crazy. I have waited too long in life to find him and I don't want to lose him. I looked at the letter again. "I have feelings for you...I wish that I could hug you right now," were his words. I glanced dully at the letterhead and it suddenly hit me. Why hadn't I thought of it before? I can call his firm and get his cell number! I will find a way, somehow, even if I have to lie. For the first time in days I feel a glimmer of hope. 

Tuesday, May 20, 2001

The plane is starting its descent into Chicago, so I have to put the laptop away now. I hope that I am doing the right thing. I called Dave's office yesterday and after a couple of false starts, I managed to extract Dave's cell phone number from his secretary. She tried to convince me that I should leave a message and wait for his return call but I did not relent. I had somehow won her over. During the weekend I had made the decision to join Dave in Chicago. It was risky, but I figured that he needed someone to lean on. I want to be that person. When I called him yesterday he was at first hesitant to let me come but after a few minutes he was choked up and he realized that he needed someone and he ended up almost begging me to make the trip. I was tremendously relieved and I am grateful that I have frequent flier miles to get me to him fast and cheap. 

Wednesday, May 21, 2001

It is late and Dave is asleep. He had told me that he would pick me up at the airport so I headed for the passenger pickup area. I was very nervous about seeing him. Was I intruding? I suddenly had reservations about the whole thing. Well, one look at Dave and I realized that I belonged here. He got out of the car and hugged me for the longest time. He kept saying, "Forgive me, Stuart, forgive me."

"For what, Dave?"

"For not asking you to come with me in the first place." It was all I could do not to cry.

The drive to the hotel was a long one, so we had plenty of time to talk. We were stopped at a signal when he did the unexpected. He leaned over and kissed me. I could not hide my smile. "Thanks for that, Dave."

"I am so glad that you that are here with me Stuart." He told me that seeing Rich so sick made him realize that life is too short and that relationships are to be treasured. I see a more sensitive side to Dave and I really like it. 

I was too nervous to ask where Dave was staying but he made it easy be saying, "Our hotel" is about ten minutes from Rich. When he opened the door to the room I noticed that he had wine in the ice bucket and some fruit and cheese ready. He noticed that I had spotted the bounty and he was beaming. He came over to me and we kissed. It seemed like it lasted forever yet I didn't want the moment to stop. I actually felt really emotional all of a sudden and my eyes were wet. "Stuart, are you ok?" I replied back, "Dave, I am MORE than ok now that I am with you. I hated to say it on the phone, but I was worried that maybe you were overwhelmed when we, you know, "hooked up. I guess I thought that maybe I read more into it than you did. Then I got your letter and reading between the lines my gut said, "Go to him. He needs you." Dave kissed me again and I felt his arms hold me close to him. I drank in his cologne (Lucky You) as he said to me, "I DO need you, Stuart."

Dave spent the next hour telling me about Rich. They had met at a weeklong seminar in Florida about five years ago. Rich was the first guy that Dave had really fallen for. He told me that they took it slow but by the last night they had connected, promising to keep it real. Over the next several months they traded trips to see each other. Rich and Dave were both married at the time and both marriages were in trouble. They had that and their sexuality in common and they discovered it poolside in Florida. Finishing my second glass of wine, I kept thinking that the whole thing sounded like a Harold Robbins novel. I resented Rich at that moment and I hated that I couldn't justify it. At the same time, I pondered my own divorce and how although I really loved my wife I had suppressed my sexual feelings toward men. 

Dave told me that Rich had no idea that he was sick until he had his five-year physical and the doctor said that he wanted to do some tests. Turns out that Rich had lumps under his arms and that he knew they were there but he had been ignoring them. Talk about denial. Mental note: check my armpits tonight in the shower. The tests were positive for Lymphoma. Rich felt great and refused to believe it, but the doctors convinced him to start treatment. Within two months he had to leave his job and by the fourth month he was in hospice. Rich has mere weeks to live and he told Dave that he wanted to apologize for his affair. In fact, Rich was connecting with all of the important people in his life while he still has time. 

Listening to Dave talk today, I felt very ashamed of the way I had been acting. I went over to Dave and hugged him. "Please take me to meet him, Dave. I want to meet Rich, really." After asking if I was sure, Dave seemed very relieved, as if a weight had been lifted. In fact, within ten minutes Dave and I were laughing again. At one point our conversation paused and we just looked at each other with smoldering eyes. Maybe it was the wine, maybe it was our emotions, but we got naked right there on the sofa in ten seconds, flat! Dave was on top of me, with his tongue in my mouth and his hand on my rigid cock. I could feel his cock against my leg and all I could think of was that I wanted to suck him. "Dave, Dave... Dave! Let's go in the bedroom." I told him that it reminded me of our first kiss in my kitchen when I almost came in my pants while grinding against him. We laughed at the memory as we chased each other into bed. Actually, we just took the sheets all the way to the floor and knocked the pillows out of the way. We were two hot and horny guys on a mission!

God, I wanted Dave so bad. Every erogenous zone in my entire body was screaming its pleasure as Dave kissed and licked me. He turned around and we quickly counted to 69. God his cock tasted so good. It turned me on to taste him while he tasted me. He stopped sucking long enough to ask me to get on top of him. After I had complied, I resumed sucking on his delicious cock while playing with his balls. Still in a 69 position, he pulled my knees toward him. I knew what he wanted and it made my cock pulse. Sure enough, he stopped sucking me and I felt his tongue against my hole. Oh man was I in heaven! I managed to get his legs high enough to return the favor. This was a new experience to me. I wasn't the least bit hesitant, which surprised me. It all just felt so...right. Being together with Dave again while locked in a rim session brought me to a quick orgasm. 

Panting, I stopped and grunted, "Here I come!" As I told him that, my cum shot out, lubing us both in my hot man-jizz. I felt Dave's tongue probe deeper into my ass as the last of my juice rushed out. Out of breath, Dave then gasped, "My turn!" I had to have his cum, so I scooted back and grabbed his cock and brought it to my lips. Before my lips could encircle his delicious mushroom tip, the first spurt shot out and hit my chin. Not wanting any more to escape my eager mouth, I engulfed his throbbing penis. Each progressive spurt filled my mouth with his cum. I worshipped his cock with my tongue as he came down from his climax, with me returning to his still oozing cock to savor as much of him as I could. "Hey, I'm kind of sensitive, Stu. Turn around and come kiss me."

I did as I was told, lying on top of him. Our tongues entwined, but this time at a slower pace. Our lips seemed like they were glued together as we ran our hands all over each other's sweaty body. Dave raked his fingers through my hair and gently lifted my head up by the chin. We looked at each other for awhile while he caressed the side of my face and jaw, our silence conveying the bond we felt at that moment. Quietly, Dave told me, "Stuart, it's never been this good for me before, not with anyone. There is something about you that is so...different." Seeing the sincerity in his eyes, I responded back, "Ditto Dave, ditto." He held me close and I felt his hands on my ass, pulling my ass cheeks apart, ever so gently. "Stuart, I want you to feel me inside of you. Are you ready to take it another step?" I lowered my head again, smiling before kissing him again. "Yes," I whispered devilishly, "I want us to fuck, but only after a long, hot, soapy shower." 

I went into the bathroom and closed the door, looking into the mirror at my reflection. The hair on my chest and abdomen was coated with my cum. I could still taste Dave and I was slick with sweat. My male lover was in the other room and I was ready to fuck him. All of these thoughts kept popping into my brain. Chuckling at my reflection I said to myself, "You are gay, you are SO gay." There was a time when that would have depressed me but I knew that sex did not get any better and that I had never "let go" like this with anyone in my entire life. I like men, let's face it. I didn't ask for that to happen but it did. It felt right to be intimate with another guy and that was only because that guy was Dave. That was what made it right. Now Dave wanted to fuck me. 

I felt a bit nervous about the whole hygiene thing. I didn't want to turn Dave off and I didn't want to be turned off either. Hell, I had just licked his ass and was not repulsed. My tongue had even gone in just a bit and it didn't jade me at all. Just thinking about Dave's ass had made my cock hard again. I gave myself the "once-over" in the mirror. I keep my balls shaved because it feels sexy. I cupped them with my right hand while I stroked my shaft with my left hand. I love to jack off while running my hands over my soft, smooth balls. Dave knocked and, with a wicked smile, I told him to come in. I didn't move from where I was and he stood there, looking at my reflection and my erect cock in my hands. He was smiling when I told him, "I was just taking a good look at that hot stud in the mirror. Look at him, all coated in cum and sweat." I started laughing which caused him to start laughing. After a minute of that I was laughing so hard I had to sit down on the toilet. Finally, Dave said, "Stuart, you are probably sitting in the right place, consider what's "cumming" next." 




An Opportunity of a Lifetime Ch. 02



I looked at him, puzzled, but then I figured out what he was trying to say. I started blushing, despite myself. "Dave, I want to do this, I really do. I'm just a little...how do I say this, I don't want you to think that I..." My head dropped into my hands. Dave could see that I was struggling. He squatted down and faced me. Lifting my chin up, he said, "Stuart, I think you know by now how I feel about you. Look at what you have done for me. You came up here and just being with you cheered me up and made me realize how special you are. I feel very close to you. We will not rush things because you are too important to me. Just say the word and we can wait." I looked at this gorgeous man and I realized that I would do anything for him. He continued, "Stuart, not to worry. I have condoms. Get busy and then get in the shower, ok?" With a kiss, Dave left me sitting on the toilet and closed the door. After a moment I had to laugh at how far I had come from the repressed gay man living a straight life to embarking on the most intimate sex imaginable between men. I was soon in the shower and I swear that my cock head was as hard as the showerhead!

Half an hour later I was lying in bed, stroking my erect cock and waiting for Dave to get out of the shower. Jesus, hurry Dave! I was so goddamn horny. Dave padded in and got under the covers with me. Kissing my lips, he asked me, "Are you nervous?" I told him,"No." I want this, and I want you. You know, I have jacked off with something stuck up my ass many a time. I guess I was putting myself through training." We both laughed hysterically at that. 

I was ready, but the lube felt cold on my ass. Dave worked it in with one finger, then a second one, ensuring that I was ok the whole time. I felt myself tighten, then loosen. It hurt when the third one went in but he was taking it slow and I gradually got used to it. He then put the condom on and lubed it well. He kneeled over me and we kissed for a couple of minutes. Man, he had me with that! He pulled my legs up and he pressed his cock against my hole. I could feel the head of his cock pressing inward, wanting entrance. I followed all of the advice I had read and I pushed against him, doing my best to relax. Dave was about seven inches and average thickness, so after my initial resistance he was gliding into me. God it felt so good to feel his cock inside of me, despite my initial discomfort. 

After a few minutes or so of me getting used to his cock up my ass, I told him that I was ok and to go for it. He started slowly, but he was soon fucking me at a good pace. After about five minutes of this the discomfort turned into pleasure. That indescribable feeling of having my prostate "massaged" overtook me. My cock was soon fully erect. All I could think of was that I had a cock up my ass! Dave was jacking me off as he fucked me. I looked up at him and smiled, then closed my eyes as he thrust into me. When he leaned down to kiss me I whispered into his ear, "Give me your hot cum...I want it up my ass. I want to feel your cock spurt into me."

"Oh Stuart," was all he said before he climaxed.

I could actually feel the heat of his cum exploding inside of me. His cock was gliding in and out with lots of suction sounds. I could feel my ass clench on his cock as my own orgasm overtook me. Almost shouting out loud, I gasped as I watched my cock as it sprayed its payload all over my chest and even onto the sheet. While I lay there panting, Dave milked what was left of my eruption, his fingers soon slick with the last of my jizz. Breathing heavy and once again sweaty, we collapsed onto each other. I couldn't believe that the words came out of my mouth, but they did. "I love you Dave. I love you so much."

Dave raised up and I could see the tears in his eyes as he kissed me. "My life truly began the day I met you, Stuart. I love you like no one else." Dave disengaged from my ass with a sloppy pop. The maid will know what we did tonight, I thought with amusement. We kissed for several minutes, but exhausted, we were soon fast asleep with the final thought in my mind being, "Tomorrow I get to meet Rich who at one time had Dave's heart and who kept Dave "hard." That's gonna be weird."

Thursday, May 22, 2001

Rich lived at home, but he had a hospice worker there every day. He must be fairly well off because he has a good-size house on the hill with a nice view of the city. His family makes frequent visits. I met all of them before I met Rich. They confided that Rich was nervous about meeting me. I told them I had to be WAY more nervous than he was. 

Rich was outside on the patio when we got there. Dave went out first. While he talked with Rich, I made small talk with the hospice worker and with Rich's sister, Gwen. Gwen asked me how long I had been with Dave. She seemed surprised when I said, "Friends for a month and then things went from there." I think she thought I was his partner or something. It felt strange being with someone new who knew me to be a gay man. Definitely a new experience for me, and one that made me feel very free. Gwen's husband, Greg, seemed very supportive. 

After about fifteen minutes Dave waved me outside so I went out to join them. God was I nervous! Rich was in a patio chair with a blanket over his legs. He reached out to shake my hand. It was just the three of us out there. His first comment through me for a loop. He said, "I know where that hand has been and I am jealous. You have Dave and I don't". I didn't know what to say. Dave shot a glare at Rich but Rich was enjoying the moment. Finally, he laughed but he was so weak that it was very quiet. "Stuart, thanks for coming to be with Dave. From what I hear, Dave got the right guy in the end. Sorry, no pun intended." I had to smile. I couldn't help but like this man. Rich had continued, " I let him get away and I would be lying if I told you I didn't want him back. Shit, the mistake one makes. Life is short, Stuart. I tell that to everyone now. It used to be so cliché, but now it has tremendous meaning to me." 

After an awkward moment he continued, "I am dying, and there is nothing I can do about it. As you can see, I am on oxygen and sometimes I can't even find the strength to lift myself up on the bed." He closed his eyes for a long time. Dave and I exchanged glances. I kneeled down and took his hand in mine. His eyes opened again and he said, "Live your life to the fullest and if you don't do anything else, do this." He paused to get his breath and he closed his eyes again. After a moment, he continued on, "Make a life with Dave. He loves you and you love him...it is SO goddamn obvious. I don't care if I am embarrassing you or not. Seize the moment! Be happy and when the time comes for you to leave this place (as he waved his arm out over the city view), don't leave knowing that you held back. I will say it again, don't hold back!" 

Dave and I were mostly silent in the car on the way back to the hotel. We had only stayed for two hours, but I was mentally exhausted. I started off hating Richard a couple of days ago and then I realized that he was not a threat. Today I realized that he was a good man, despite his faults. I could see what Dave saw in him, yet at the same time I realized how different Rich was than myself. We had one thing in common and that was that both of us had fallen in love with Dave. Even in his dying days, Rich had confidence that I lacked. As I looked over at Dave as he drove us back to the hotel, I resolved to be a little more like Rich. Goddamn it, I would not hold back!

Christmas day, 2002

Their tails wagging, our two silver labs were barking as Dave answered the front doorbell. Rich's sister Gwen stumbled in with her husband Greg and their two kids. The kids bounded in and Gwen was about to lose her balance with all the presents that she was carrying, what with the dogs prancing around her. Johnny Mathis was singing, "White Christmas" as we laughed and carried the gifts into the living room and placed them under the tree.

Hugs and greetings complete, the Chardonnay was poured and we toasted another Christmas. As we plopped down into the overstuffed sofas and chairs, I couldn't help but think how odd it was that I was best of friends with Dave's former lover's sister and her husband. What a world! Rich would have approved, that is for sure. He died two weeks after our visit last year and the funeral was very private. I decided to let Dave go solo and I was totally comfortable with that. 

I have a feeling of peace about Dave, something that I have never before experienced. We somehow complete one another and we both know it, instinctively. After years of struggling with my sexual ambivalence I have finally found happiness, and it is with a man. More importantly, it is with Dave. To my utmost satisfaction and delight, he feels the same toward me. Wow! I close my eyes and thank the god that has created me who I am and the way that I am that he saw fit to find me someone to share my life with. I have to admit, I never thought it would happen.

Now, here we are living together in our restored 1920s bungalow in a wooded area of south Dallas. It is everything that I ever wanted in a home, but only because I have Dave to share it with. Fixing it up was a challenge but it all paid off. I have never been happier. We have been together for a year and a half now. Today the sun shone through the window and the Christmas tree looked beautiful. The roasting turkey smelled so good and there were smiles all around. When it came time to open our gifts from Gwen and Greg I had to laugh because both Dave and I had identically shaped and wrapped gifts. Gwen giggled as she encouraged us to unwrap them at the same time. Despite the mayhem of the Christmas paper ripping and the ribbons being stretched and forced off of the corners, we both managed to view our gifts at roughly the same time. We were speechless. 

Oh my god. We were looking at the portraits of each other that we had made when we first met in drawing class! I had a lump in my throat as big as Texas as I looked at Gwen. I remembered telling her several months ago how, despite our laughter, we had done those drawings and that Dave had quit the class, followed shortly thereafter by me. I had speculated as to whatever became of our drawings. Gwen had secretly gone to the campus and somehow retrieved them from our teacher, Adam! How amazing is that? 

We both gazed in silence at the portraits that we had drawn, so long ago. They were at the same time both pitiful and wonderful at the same time. As I exchanged glances with Dave, Gwen begged, "Go on, read the note, Stuart." She was trying so hard to suppress her smile as I unfolded the card and looked at Dave. Trembling, I read out loud, "To Stuart and Dave. Despite your preponderance to slack, I somehow knew that these drawings would someday be important to you. Don't ask me how I knew, but I did. Well, maybe you can thank Jack. He had a hand in this (figuratively and literally-WINK!) May the most that you wish for be the least that you receive. Regards, Adam." Silently looking at each other, both of us choked up, we knew that Adam had, indeed, offered us an opportunity of a lifetime.



An Opportunity of a Lifetime



Lying on top of Dave, I wiped his forehead, chin and neck. I brought the cum up to our lips and we finished it together as we kissed. I couldn't remember the last time I had sex this good. We both fell asleep. When I woke up three hours later, Dave was in the shower. I joined him, but we didn't speak. We kissed passionately as I pinned him against the wall. I soaped our cocks up good and they slipped and slid all over each other. Using conditioner, I inserted my index finger into Dave's ass and pressed his prostate. Breathing heavy and looking deeply into each other's eyes, we jacked each other off. Dave came first. His eyes closed for a second and then reopened as he thrust his cock forward and jerked off onto my abdomen and thighs. My orgasm was right behind his. I spontaneously pressed myself against his chest with my cock down between his legs, under his cock. I thrust upward and shot my hot load as Dave grabbed my ass and pulled my cock up under his balls. Gasping and grunting, I squirt my cum on his balls, against his tight hole and up between his ass checks. I liked the way it felt to coat him down there with my cum, lubing his ass. Now I was resting against him and breathing hard. Spent, I was about ready to collapse. I leaned back against the tile, shaking. Dave slumped against the opposite wall. With the water coming down between us, we just gazed at each other for a long while as we caught our breath. Then, not a word was exchanged as we gently washed each other's body. Dave looked at me with what looked like wet eyes. He then embraced me tight before saying into my ear, "What have we started, Stuart?"