2 comments/ 15584 views/ 0 favorites Gavin Screws Up By: GemmaRaphael He did NOT just say that. Did he? But of course he did Ellie, you idiot... You've chased him until he practically had no choice but to screw you. You know better than to think a man's going to knock back sex, even with a fat, ugly whore like you, given enough encouragement. You thought he liked you? Idiot. Hang on Ellie, (her more rational self tries to intervene) let's just rewind the memory and make sure we've got this straight; "Most girls give up after I brush them off the first few times." Yep. That's definitely what he said. Right after fucking you senseless. Senseless is right. You're old enough to know men are bastards. You know very well you're not attractive in any way shape or form to 99.9% of them... except perhaps as a soft spot to get their end wet or a well-trained victim of abuse. The old well-worn record rolls on and on, over and over in her mind, as if he's found an internal button of hers and put it on repeat in her brain. And on maximum volume so that nothing else can enter her thoughts. Until she suddenly realizes her mouth is hanging open. Shit. Shut it. Ellie shut your mouth and retain some of your dignity for god's sake! As she turned on her heel and ran, she realized that all the warning signs had been there. Gavin had admitted to being jealous of Andrew, her first ever lover. He'd imagined the witty, clever journalism student with a hot arse who loved to go down on her as a pimply-faced, inept teenager. Wanted to kill him. Ha! Sounds like Steve. Steve seemed to want to kill anyone who'd come before. Steve deleted men's numbers from her phone. Steve, the menacing, wall-punching, speed-addicted, emotional abuser -- yep you've found another one like that. Come on Ellie - grow up. What made you think great sex would be worth putting up with the daily humiliation guys like that are capable of dishing out? Geez! If he was jealous of "pimply-faced and inept" Andrew, how would he have felt if he'd ever known about Travis and the slow, hard grind to simultaneous orgasm, week after week, year after year. Lovemaking as an extension of a loving relationship with the most beautiful and kindest man she'd ever known. Hmmmm. That holiday in Thailand a couple of years ago. Yes. That was something to be jealous of. She'd finally felt for the first time totally secure, safe and happy in a relationship. Partly because she was in lovely Trav's arms and partly because she knew that she was finally healed. Not a fucked up victim anymore... That first morning at the resort by the beach... God, she'd never been so horny. Who knew that a healthy relationship and having your head blown off by love could be such powerful aphrodisiacs? That morning Travis lay stretched out gorgeous and naked on the bed beside her, his face snuggled in next to her head and his arm draped over her body. They'd made love the night before and she came so hard she'd trembled and almost sobbed from the intensity of the experience and yet she'd woken before dawn needing him again. His arm was heavy and warm across her belly, heating her insides and somehow irradiating her with arousal that was directly transmitting to her sexual centre. His breath was in time with hers and the deep, melting waves it was creating were travelling from her neck down her body below her waist. She was wet and aching for him. Ellie could feel Travis' erection against her leg and knew she wanted to kiss his beautiful cock so he could experience the waves of love she felt insistently flowing through her body. As she lightly ran her tongue over the tip she focused on transmitting her arousal and love into him. He responded with a low moan and clutched her hair. "Good morning beautiful one," he said. "Good morning baby. I was just so horny I had to wake you. I hope you don't mind?" She didn't give him a chance to answer her question. She immediately closed her mouth over the end of his cock and sucked hard and licked alternately for a few seconds while firmly clutching his shaft. The sweet surprise had him rising off the bed for a moment until suddenly she was flipped onto her back with him sinking in on top of her. OH. MY. GOD. Ellie was glad she'd made it back to her flat for this part of the memory as her hand instinctively reached between her legs for relief. As she remembered Travis driving himself into her she fell onto her front on her bed and drove her fingers hard down around her clitoris and partially into her silky wet opening in time with the memory of his thrusts. The ground shattering orgasm shook her to her core and she lay panting on her side as the waves subsided. Then the waves of tears took over as she wondered how she could have been so wrong about Gavin. And wished there was a way that she could have experienced the sexual highs of the last few days with Travis instead. She knew that it was mostly Gavin's skillful execution of his sexual agenda last night that had left her wanting more and it served to heighten her humiliation that he'd gotten to her enough to make her masturbate and cry alone. Then the phone rang and she could see it was Gavin. That familiar, lonely, sick feeling in the chest that comes from being rejected and then begged for forgiveness coursed through her body. She wasn't sure if she even wanted to answer it. This had better be good. Gavin Screws Up Ch. 02 "Ellie. I'm so sorry. I hated to see that look on your face... and to think that I put it there. I feel awful." Gavin's apology sounded genuine enough. He certainly did seem sorry. Ellie could understand why. It must have been quite a pitiful sight... her crumbling and drowning there in a sea of humiliation right before his eyes. So, he's not a total monster then. He's capable of pity. And guilt. The thing is that pity and guilt wasn't what she wanted from him. She'd wanted him so badly that she hadn't realized that he'd been trying to brush her off. And that from his perspective he had to eventually relent and bed her. And now he regretted it. And boy, oh boy, did she regret it. Ellie did know that there was an alternative scenario to consider. That he had genuinely wanted her and his ego was hurt by her being the one to sneak out. He was used to charming his way back out of his lovers' beds - and when she'd beaten him to the punch, he had wanted to make sure he'd had the last word. It didn't make perfect sense - as he was now apologizing - but he'd jammed the humiliation switch in her brain to the on position with his harsh words, and with Ellie's history she couldn't help but feel he had rejected her. It briefly occurred to her that he might have feelings for her and that she'd hurt more than his ego by sneaking out in the morning without saying goodbye. But she quickly brushed the thought aside. Silly girl. You've already been emotionally smashed to pieces by this guy you hardly know... surely you're not going to put yourself out there again to give him another go at you? On the very same day, no less? OK Ellie. Try to extract yourself from this interaction with some dignity, will you? "Look Gavin. Thanks for the apology but I really didn't appreciate the way you spoke to me and I don't want to see you again, alright?" Gavin was silent on the other end of the phone. Ellie imagined him chuckling silently to himself at her expense. He never said he wanted to see you again, did he? She hung up. He was heartbroken. She didn't know. At least she didn't know until she started getting the pleading voicemail messages. He wanted to explain. He begged for forgiveness. He just wanted to talk to her face to face so she could see that he meant it. Well - too bad, buster. If he did care for her and was still willing to say the cruelest thing he could think of, then he wasn't the man for her. Ellie had been there, and done that, and couldn't possibly enter into that kind of relationship ever again. That damaged part of her that she thought had been healed had actually just been forgotten. That was until he brought it all crashing back into her consciousness with one malicious sentence. The next day at work she had tried to explain to Claudia, who seemed determined not to understand what the problem was. "So you had a great night - including amazing sex - with a lovely, sweet, handsome man that you've wanted ever since you met? Then he found you sneaking out without saying goodbye. He was upset and let you know that. Then you left and he rang to apologize to you and you hung up on him?" "Yes Claudia, we've been through this a number of times. Technically that's what happened, but you don't understand." "Technically? Damn straight I don't understand. Call him Ellie and tell him you're sorry. Work it out. I've never seen you so happy as you have been since you met Gavin." Ellie sighed and went out for lunch. When she got back she bumped into Gavin as she backed through the door with her shopping. She knew very well it was Claudia's doing, but there was no time to tell her off. Ellie had to work out how to react to Gavin. When their eyes met any ability to think about her reaction was stripped away by the intensity of his expression. He reached out to steady her and she felt a bolt of electricity travel into her groin. Her lips parted involuntarily as he held her gaze. She managed to stop the sigh that was fighting to escape her lips but couldn't tear her eyes away from his. It was obvious to her that he had noted her physical reaction to his presence and instead of speaking he just reveled in seeing her so aroused. Just at the moment when she felt she couldn't resist him any longer and was about to jump up and wrap her legs around his waist, the bell on the door clanked as a customer entered the shop. And the spell was temporarily broken. Ellie managed to avoid speaking to Gavin that day, and in fact spent part of each day for the rest of the week avoiding him at the shop. It was difficult, but after that first time, she'd prepared herself better. Each day he put in a little less time as he thought he wasn't getting anywhere. On the second night, after experiencing that bolt of electricity she got just from eye contact with Gavin, Ellie felt that she couldn't take the sexual frustration any longer. She called Travis. He was more than willing to help her out. When he'd walked into the flat and found her mostly naked he unzipped his pants and only got them halfway down his legs before he discovered how wet she already was and immediately eased himself into her. He moved slowly at first and lovingly kissed and fondled her as he went but soon lost control and was grinding her hard against the cool tiled floor. She'd been ready to orgasm for two days and this was exactly what she needed. Travis was big and so hard and when she felt him pulsating on the verge of coming himself, she was about to go over the edge. "Oh my god Gavin you feel so good," she panted. Then he was moaning and shooting his load hard right up her - and saying, "What? Who?" all at once. He'd sounded so sad and she'd come immediately crashing back to Earth without reaching climax. "It doesn't matter Trav. I'm sorry." "I'm the one that should be sorry Ellie, you didn't come, did you? Let me give you a hand." He used the fingers of one hand to massage her clit and ground two fingers of the other hand deep inside her. She lifted her hips off the bed and set the pace with her erratic movements. He knew exactly what to do and could feel how close she was. "Come for me baby." And she did - almost. Dammit, she thought. She relaxed her hips back onto the floor and took a few breaths as he continued the perfect rhythm and whispered his encouragement into her left ear. She put all her focus into trying to reach completion and even moved his hand off her clitoris and took over that part with her own fingers - but it was no good. She couldn't get there and was left feeling more frustrated than she'd ever been in her life. Fucking Gavin. She could slap him. She could beat him. She could ride that hard cock until he gave her what she needed - whether he wanted to or not. But she wouldn't of course. Wouldn't give him the satisfaction. Wouldn't risk being hurt again. Gavin visited the shop the next day too and almost brought her to orgasm with the intensity of his gaze, which seemed to have a direct line to her pussy. Ellie used every trick in her book to avoid talking to him and then Travis visited her flat and almost brought her to orgasm again. And that's how it went on for days. By Saturday afternoon Ellie wondered if her legs were going to continue to hold her upright. It didn't seem possible to suffer this degree of arousal and not be somehow incapacitated by it. Actually, come to think of it, it didn't seem fair for her arousal to feel like suffering at all. She'd let Travis down easy on Friday night and explained what had happened with Gavin. He wasn't angry and was only a little sad -- they'd both known and accepted that their relationship was over long ago. They had parted on good terms. She was in the storeroom stacking books, feeling grateful for Trav's good nature when Gavin entered. He intended to make one final attempt to get her to talk to him. When she tried to slip past him out the door he grabbed her wrists in desperation and pinned her to the wall. He tried to speak but couldn't get any words out when he saw the look of unmitigated desire on her face. Her mouth had fallen open and he reached down to kiss her instead. She lost control of herself and accepted his tongue into her mouth and gently suckled on it as he moaned with the unexpected pleasure. When he forced his knee between her thighs the frustration of the last few days peaked and she suddenly came. Hard. He held her and continued to kiss her as she ground against his leg and, as the orgasmic waves eventually subsided, he felt her rigid body soften against him. "I love you," he whispered. That snapped her out of it. She knew then that he was bullshitting her and that she most certainly couldn't trust him. "How dare you use those words to manipulate me!" "I'm not Ellie! I'm not. I swear. Please trust me. I wouldn't lie about this. Please." As she crumbled into a sobbing heap on the storeroom floor and Claudia came rushing in to help, Gavin realized that there was more going on than he knew and that it was pointless trying to understand her. He left, shaking his head and feeling grief-stricken in the knowledge that he had to leave his love alone to work through her emotions without him. There was nothing more he could do. At least he'd had the chance to finally tell her the truth. Gavin Screws Up Ch. 03 Claudia had continued her willful misunderstanding of the situation between Ellie and Gavin. Ellie, frankly, was FED UP with it. Claudia, her friend and boss, had always been able to see Ellie's point of view in the past. That Claudia had started constantly questioning her judgment and nagging her about calling Gavin contributed considerably to Ellie's loneliness. The two of them had agreed though that it would be good for Ellie to have a couple of weeks off work during her university holidays. A break from work, time off classes and a little less contact with Claudia was exactly what Ellie needed at that moment. Their friendship was extremely important to both of them and they hugged as they parted on Saturday afternoon. Ellie had another close friend in the city -- Jake. He'd grown up in the commune with Ellie and like her, he had not really fit in... It's hard growing up gay in the country. It was so wonderful to see him thriving in his new environment and her old friend had really hit his stride in the past couple of years. Being away from the confines of the gossiping, small-minded community had really helped him become his own man. Jake was always great at cheering her up and giving her an alternative (and usually humorous) point of view - especially when it came to man trouble. "So, girlfriend, you had sex with this guy and that was the start of the problem?" That was the first thing Jake had said as he handed her a shot of Sambuca with a melodramatic look that gave her a further clue about the nature of the punch-line that was on its way. "Well, in a way, I guess." She giggled both at the over-simplification and the expression on his face. Everything always boiled down to sex for Jake and she knew he was about to make her laugh more. He changed his expression to overly serious and shook his finger at her in a mock chastisement as he gave his oh-so-well-thought-out advice. "Dr. Jake prescribes sex. What you need Ellie is to get all hot and bothered with a stranger. No. Wait... a whole bunch of strangers." Yep. Funny. She giggled again. What she'd needed was a good laugh and Jake's company was absolutely perfect. "I go to a sauna in the city all the time. It's great. Good sex... especially group sex with strangers - is extremely diverting and good for what ails you." Goodness. He was starting to sound serious. "Oh come on Jake, you know I'm not that kind of girl." "How do you know what kind of girl you are? You've hardly tried anything! Forget about this guy. Get across the street to that sex club and discover your inner sex goddess Ellie. You're young and should be getting your groove on at every opportunity!" Ellie had been sipping champagne while they were talking and despite the alcohol and the laughs, the barely dampened misery threatened to bite at her consciousness. She had to ask. "Across the street? I've never seen a sex club across the street. You mean for straight people? How do you know that?" "Go and look Ellie. Here my child. May the force be with you." He handed her another shot of Sambuca. She slammed it back, choked a little as it burned down her throat, and resolved to go and have some fun. "Do you mind? I mean, we were supposed to go out?" "Of course not! Do it. Do it now. Do it hard." She giggled again. "OK. Bye. I'll call you." As Ellie stepped out the door of Jake's apartment she'd felt a massive surge of excitement in her chest. Then she felt it lower down too. Ooooh. She wondered what it would be like. Not too long to wonder though.... It was just across the street. The club looked just like a pub at first glance. The downstairs area was mostly taken up by a bar which seemed to serve as a kind of reception counter, but with a spa on the right hand side of the room. A few people were there and they mostly looked quite like anyone you might see walking around the city, which was encouraging for Ellie. She could hardly believe what she was about to do. She swallowed her anxiety and approached the bar. The bartender was a lovely older woman who explained everything and made it all seem so normal and comfortable. There were some men dressed just in towels, but the women seemed to be in their underwear, so Ellie took her cue from them and emerged from the locker room in just her knickers with a towel wrapped around her to cover her breasts. An attractive older couple approached. They appeared to be in their forties and looked very friendly and extremely at ease. "Hi. I'm Liz and this is my husband Bob." "Ellie. Hi. I haven't been here before and I'm feeling a bit shy and unsure how to behave. Why isn't anyone in the spa yet?" She had blurted out nervously, without taking a breath. "It can be a bit like a school disco, with everyone waiting for someone else to be first on the dance floor. Why don't we break the ice and be the first in?" Liz smiled and winked broadly at Bob as she took Ellie's hand and led her to the spa. "Let's show this beautiful young thing how to behave." A thrill shot through Ellie's body in response to the sex charged environment and the suggestive look that passed over Liz's face as she'd spoken to her husband. Liz dropped her knickers on the floor and she and Bob eased into the spa, ensuring that Ellie got a good look at their well-toned bodies on the way in. They were really very sexy people and Ellie could see Bob worshipped his wife. It was such a turn on. Then Ellie could feel Bob's eyes burning into her own breasts when she dropped the towel. Being admired so openly warmed her through and through. The warmth in her chest became fire between her legs. Feeling very wet, and ready for anything, Ellie stepped into the spa with her knickers on. As Bob and Liz started kissing in the corner of the spa, each of them with an eye on Ellie, a few other people also entered the water. Ellie checked out the others and made eye contact with a beautiful brunette woman sitting in the spa, not too far to her left. The woman was obviously checking Ellie out and Ellie reciprocated. The kind of open staring that's uncomfortable in public was such an erotic experience here, where it was undoubtedly welcome and unhindered by social norms. She seemed to be attached to the guy sitting between them and he watched their interaction with great interest. God, what an erotic place, Ellie thought to herself. What fun we could have if Gavin was here. Well he's not, is he? Just have some fun for goodness sake! As she remembered Jake's advice, she immediately stepped across to the brunette, gestured behind her and said, "May I?" Ellie didn't wait for an answer, just slipped in behind the woman -- it was easy to move her around in the water - and pulled her back against her incredibly aroused body. Ellie ran her right hand from the woman's neck and slowly down her front, over her right breast and briefly rubbed her nipple with the flat of her palm on the way down, which elicited a small moan. She held her firmly with her left arm around the waist. The woman's soft bottom pressed against Ellie's clit and she couldn't help but rub herself a little against it. The woman responded by pushing her butt back into Ellie and the physical sensation coupled with the woman's eagerness charged through Ellie's lower belly like lightning. Proceeding further down, she noted the smooth, soft, perfect belly which she grabbed at lightly on the way. Then there was the thin strip of hair that led straight to her target. She started with one finger lightly gliding over the hood of the woman's clitoris. When Ellie got no complaint about that, she started to swirl that one finger around and around ever so lightly. As she felt the woman's body respond she started using two fingers and increased the pressure. Ellie had kissed and caressed a woman before and wasn't at all surprised at how horny she was feeling. But she was proud of the reaction she elicited from this stranger and it urged her on, determined to bring her to orgasm. With that single aim in mind, Ellie had focused all of her attention on the woman's clitoris. Rubbing her fingers around and around and then alternately pushing her fingers further down, partly into her opening. Every time Ellie did that the woman moaned and pushed against her hand, so Ellie responded by holding her more tightly with her left arm while increasing the pressure with her right hand. The woman started to lean the top half of her body forward as she lurched towards climax and Ellie was clutching her very tightly and rubbing herself against the woman's ass at that point. A man came rushing across out of nowhere and started fucking the woman the moment that Ellie felt her body start its orgasmic shudder. Ellie gently held her while she continued to come around his cock. It was very confronting to have seen the speed at which that guy had jumped on the gorgeous stranger and Ellie wondered as she let go of her if she'd done the wrong thing by holding her. Then the woman turned and thanked her. "Wow. That was amazing. Wow." "Trust me, it was my pleasure, you're so gorgeous and feeling you come against me like that was beautiful." The brunette surprised Ellie with the sweetest, lightest, kiss. Oh my. Her mouth was so soft. Hmmm. The next thing that Ellie knew, Liz was taking her by the hand and leading her upstairs. "I see you worked out how to behave." "Ummm, yeah, thanks for the demonstration." Ellie answered bashfully. "We have another demo for you. Will you take those knickers off? They're wet, and not in a good way." "I'm a bit worried that someone will jump on me, like that guy in the spa." "No one will jump on you love. It's against the rules. That girl you were having so much fun with, came in with that guy, remember? And besides, we'll have a close eye on you." The twinkle in Bob's eye while he said it somehow didn't diminish Ellie's trust in him at all. She removed her knickers, they were uncomfortable. "I'd like to just watch you for now if you don't mind?" "Oh honey, you can do whatever pleases you. Any special requests?" Ellie had never been offered a customized live sex show before and wasn't really sure how to respond. "I think I'd really just like to see you doing stuff that... gets Liz off." "Oh honey, he always gets me off. And trust me after that show you just gave us it'll take no time at all." And with that, Liz threw her arms around Bob's neck and pulled him onto the mattress on top of her. "God babe, you're so wet already, I'm going to pound you into next week." With that Bob got to work on Liz. He slid into her and held himself firmly inside while he turned to speak to Ellie. "Touch yourself for us love. I want to see you getting yourself off over there, as you won't let us do it for you." Ellie did as she was told and as she mirrored Bob's thrusts on her own body, she was thrilled to see Liz was watching her do it. When Liz shrieked with her first orgasm, Ellie lurched forward, putting all her weight on her left hand, and at that moment Gavin approached her from behind and asked if he could fuck her. "Please. Yes please." She gasped. Bob had stopped moving momentarily but when he heard Ellie consent he went back to giving Liz what she wanted. "Good girl," he'd said. Then Bob moved Liz onto her hands and knees so that they were both directly facing Ellie. Fuck, thought Ellie. Being fucked like this while watching them watching us is such a turn on. She moaned loudly and realized that Gavin was close to orgasm too. Hang on. What's Gavin doing here? Oh shit. Ellie turned her head. "You're not Gavin." "No, no, I'm not. Never said I was. Please don't make me stop baby you feel so good." She hesitated so he started thrusting again and circling his fingers around her clit. Her ability to speak actual words was immediately taken from her as her body shuddered and waves of pleasure gripped around where the stranger's cock was stroking her inside. He moaned quietly as he came and quickly withdrew. She was pleased to see he was wearing a condom. Thank god. "I'm John. Pleased to meet you. Are you OK? Sorry if you thought I was someone else." He smiled at her kindly and with a little embarrassment as he said it. "I'm OK." Yes. She was pleased to meet him. He was quite good looking. He had brown curly hair, a toned body and a lovely warm smile. "What's your name?" "I'm Ellie." She resisted the urge to reach out to shake his hand. Again, she was unsure of how to behave. "Look Ellie, you're such a sexy woman, I'd love to see you again. Can I have your number?" "Ummm. Yes OK." She wasn't yet sure if she wanted to see him again or not, but after the sexual frustration of the past couple of weeks, she couldn't immediately dismiss out of hand a man that brought her to orgasm so readily. On her way out of the club Ellie felt extremely proud of herself. She'd pushed her limits and now had a potential fuck buddy that could help her forget about Gavin. Liz approached and pushed a business card into her hand. "See you later love," said Bob. "Bye guys, it was lovely to meet you both." As they walked off in the other direction Ellie took a quick look at the business card. Oh god. It just had their first names, phone number and the title where the business name would usually go just said "We like to play." Ha! On the back a short message was scribbled. "You were the highlight of our week, Ellie. Please call us." Boy, oh, boy, she could hardly wait to tell Jake about all of this! She knew that she'd really done him proud tonight. Gavin Screws Up Ch. 04 She should have known that meeting Claudia in this state would lead to trouble. “You look like death warmed up Ellie, what have you been doing this past week?” “Well, I’ve just been going out a lot, that’s all. I’m fine, really. How are you?” Ellie tried to distract her good friend from the blatant lie she’d told. They both knew she wasn’t fine. “You’re not fine Ellie. Haven’t you been sleeping? Please talk to Gavin. He loves you. Just tell him how you’re feeling, please, for goodness’ sake.” Ellie didn’t respond immediately. How could she tell Claudia about the past week? The sex club, John her new fuck buddy, Liz and Bob the swingers… Hmmm, Liz and Bob…. her drug-addled brain flashed back to Wednesday night at their house in New Hills. She’d already been aroused when she was greeted at the door by Liz. “Welcome to our love nest Ellie. We’re both so glad you could make it.” It was clear from the address, the architecture and the décor that Liz and Bob were very well off. The house wouldn’t quite make mansion status, but it certainly came close. The foyer and main living room where they passed through first were all gleaming white surfaces, wooden antique furniture and plush fabrics. “Can I get you a drink at all?” Bob offered, with that twinkling smile of his that went all the way to his eyes. “I’m fine actually, thanks. I, ummm, errr, I’ve taken something.” Ellie responded shyly. “Oh?” Liz wondered aloud and arched her eyebrows in Bob’s direction. “Look, don’t worry, I’m fine – really. The last few days I’ve had quite a bit of practice with ecstasy, you know? I know what I can handle.” “No, no love, you misunderstand. We don’t mind at all. We do prefer coke though. We don’t have any tonight. We thought it wouldn’t be appropriate, for your sake. We didn’t want to scare you off.” Bob smiled his twinkling smile again and Ellie suddenly realized that the ecstasy was doing its job. “Oh my god Ellie, I just saw your pupils dilate all of a sudden…. Bob, it’s time get to down to business.” As they swept her off to their boudoir Ellie felt a rush of arousal and a wonderful feeling of calm and happiness sweep over her. Before she knew it she was undressed down to her lingerie and stilettos and Bob and Liz were both sitting on the bed admiring her from across the room. It felt like they were miles away and she imagined she was stripping for an audience. She ran her fingers through her own hair, down the front of her body, over her black lace bra and rested her hands on her hips over the suspender belt. She hadn’t bothered to put knickers on and had to resist the impulse to go straight for her clit. With enough of her conscious mind still active to realize they were watching, she swayed in time to the raunchy soundtrack that was playing in her head. Even the swaying of her own hips was building up sexual pressure down there, so when she felt Liz and Bob’s bodies in full contact with hers, she was almost ready to explode. They might have been whispering compliments in her ears. There may have been real music playing. Ellie didn’t know or care. All she could think of were the sensations sweeping through every nerve in her body. She’d always thought of her heart as her centre, until that night. That night she was acutely aware that every part of her was connected directly to her pussy. Liz’s soft mouth was all over hers and Bob’s hands were massaging her breasts from behind. Are all girls’ mouths so soft and luscious? Ellie moved Liz to the bed, with Bob in tow, and positioned herself between her legs. The soft folds were glistening with moisture. Ellie and Liz moaned softly in tandem as Ellie closed her mouth over them. Ellie proceeded to take Liz’s most sensitive parts into her mouth, as if she were slowly and sensually devouring a mango. She made contact with Liz’s clit and applied very firm pressure with the flat of her tongue. Liz responded immediately with a moan and by lifting her hips of the bed. It was Liz’s unconscious physiological reaction though that brought Ellie close to the edge, the way her body sent forth more moisture and her opening suddenly relaxed and softened. Bob had been massaging Ellie’s breasts and she was vaguely aware for a moment that he’d stopped. The explanation came in the form of the rustling of the condom packaging and a moment later he was back. He put a finger inside Ellie and she unconsciously did the same for Liz. But one finger wasn’t enough for Ellie, so she ground two fingers inside of Liz while she simultaneously went back to firmly sweeping her tongue around and around her clit. She was hoping Bob would get the message and he certainly did - jamming his cock into her waiting body with gusto. Ellie couldn’t think now about what she was doing to Liz, it just became a mash of thrusting fingers and moaning pressure as they all came at once. Claudia’s concern burst rudely into her pleasant thoughts. “Ellie, look at you, you’re in fairy land. You’re clearly not fine. Call Gavin.” The confusing mix of sadness and anger that Ellie had been feeling suddenly overwhelmed her. It was as if the ecstasy she’d been into lately had taken all the happiness from today and tomorrow and had used it up over the last week. She knew she was unreasonably angry with Claudia over what was, after all, an astute observation by a caring friend - but she said it anyway. “Oh Claudia, would you shut the hell up please about Gavin. I’m not seeing Gavin anymore, I’ve been screwing a guy called John and it’s been great OK?” The shocked look on Claudia’s face gave Ellie a tiny sliver of perverse pleasure in what was otherwise a very bleak day. That is until she followed Claudia’s gaze over her left shoulder and saw Gavin standing within earshot. The look on his face wasn’t pleasing at all and tears burned the back of Ellie’s eyes. “Oh Gavin, I’m so sorry.” “It’s OK Ellie, I didn’t know we were that far gone, but I’m glad I know now. I’ll leave you alone.” “No, no, please, please don’t go. I want to explain.” “I’m not sure there’s anything to explain. I think I’ve made enough of a fool of myself, pursuing you when you’d made it clear that… my love….” he choked on the words, “wasn’t welcome.” “No, no, that’s how I felt, foolish for having pursued you. Scared to believe you. Can’t you see that?” Ellie could hear the pleading in her voice. A week ago she would have been embarrassed to be so open about her feelings, but the loneliness and the drugs and the lack of sleep had stripped her bare. Honesty was her only option. At that moment Claudia quickly took her leave and Gavin sat down in her place. “I apologized Ellie. I’m very sorry for what I said. I don’t know what you want from me. Why are you seeing someone else? Do you have feelings for him?” Ellie laughed in spite of herself. Feelings for John? Ha, not likely - unless orgasms count as feelings? She realized just a second too late that she was chuckling. Gavin looked extremely confused. “Are you laughing at me?” “No. No. Not at all, it’s just that, well, he’s just a fuck buddy. I couldn’t, you know, come, with Trav and so I went to a sex club and met John.” “So, in the past two weeks, during the time you’ve refused to speak to me, you’ve had sex with some guy called Trav and picked up a fuck buddy called John at a sex club?” Even with the sleep-deprived haze she was in Ellie could see this wasn’t going well and had to try to gather her thoughts. Definitely not a good time to confess to him the wonderful time she’d had with Liz and Bob. She held up her hand, gesturing the waitress over to their table. “Do you want a drink?” Gavin just sat there in silence, not even able to consider her offer of a drink. He’d believed when they were together that he’d had the best of her in a sexual sense - brought her out of herself in a way. This news that she was actually much more experienced and confident than he’d known left him feeling… betrayed. He knew it wasn’t fair. She’d never actually said that he’d taken her further than anyone else… and yet, the feeling remained. The weird sense of betrayal, combined with the sickening sense of jealousy that was gripping him suddenly made him acutely aware of the blood pounding in his temples. Ellie had to say something. She couldn’t sit there in silence with the waitress wondering what was going on. “I’ll just have a Pepsi please.” Yes, that might help, she thought with desperation. Her one week experience with ecstasy had taught her that a little caffeine and sugar could bring some focus back after a big night. “Look Gavin. Yes, I was trying to forget you. It was really difficult. I called Trav, an ex-boyfriend – but only because when you visited the shop I was left so on edge. But that didn’t work, so I was talking to Jake and he suggested the sex club.” “Jake!” The incredulous look on his face told her that it wasn’t even a question. “My gay friend from home.” Ellie’s brain was completely fried and it seemed that the Pepsi wasn’t doing the trick. How to avoid making this worse? “Gavin, I’m really tired right now, I haven’t slept very well this week and I’d like to talk to you when I’ve got myself together a bit more. Can you call me in the morning?” “OK. If that’s what you want.” She could hear the disappointment in his voice, but couldn’t think of the right words to reassure him in her exhausted state. “Thanks.” She leaned over to kiss him goodbye and he turned his face so she could only reach his cheek. Gavin was immediately sorry that he’d elicited that crushed look from her again, but a kiss like the one she’d given him a couple of weeks ago would have shattered his heart. And after the way she’d boasted about her sexual exploits today he knew that he had to protect himself from her. It seemed like she was determined to constantly find new ways to hurt him - and he knew for sure she didn’t love him. Still, if she wanted to see him again, maybe he could love her enough for the both of them. Ellie went home. She couldn’t help but cry, even though she took some comfort in the knowledge that she was finally going to sort everything out with Gavin in the morning. Gavin Screws Up Ch. 05 "You've tried to call her five times today?" Gavin's friend looked very concerned. "Yes, I really don't know whether I should go over there and see if she's OK." "Man, oh man. This woman's really got under your skin, hasn't she? Let's recap. You had a week together, you found her sneaking out of your apartment early in the morning, she refused to see you again, then she slept with two other guys and told you about it?" His friend now looked at him as if he were mad. "Well, yes.... But what you don't know is that I think I'm in love with her." Gavin looked miserable as he waited for the inevitable dose of tough love he knew he was about to be subjected to. Suddenly his phone was snatched out of his hand. "You are NOT going to call her again. You are NOT going to go over there. You are coming with me straight over to Octave Hotel. Then we're going to get you very drunk while we do a pub crawl of the Manning Street strip clubs!" "Oh come on... I really don't think that's the answer." Gavin tried to convince himself. "Well if you ever want your phone back you'd better follow me." Gavin sighed and followed. He was probably right... Ellie hardly even seemed like the same woman lately. Maybe he should give up. Meanwhile, as Ellie woke up from a very deep sleep she glanced up to check her clock and was relieved to see it was only six. Plenty of time to have some breakfast and think about what to say before Gavin called. Then the sun streaming through her west facing bedroom window made her do a double take. Oh no! No, no, no. Six PM. Ellie went to check her phone to find it was off. She quickly plugged it in and became aware of the mess her flat was in. The last week of partying had been fun but she already knew it wasn't the direction she wanted her life to take. It was time to get herself together. No messages. Had he called and not left a message? Had he not called at all? She immediately tried Gavin's mobile. His friend let the phone ring a few times and then hung up. She tried again with the same response. Then she tried his work number and was told he was having an evening off. What? He never has an evening off. She grabbed her wallet and keys and rushed out the door. When she slipped into his office in the night club she'd found that it was true. She had to resign herself to the fact that he was actually having the evening off. And if anyone there knew where he was, they weren't saying. Ellie wasn't sure what to do next so she called her friend Jake. "Hey, it's good to hear from you, sweet cheeks. I wondered where you went all week. Did you have fun with your swingers?" Ellie slumped down into a chair on the footpath at the front of the next venue. Jake's question didn't even bring a smile to her face. She was utterly miserable. "Jake, I'm in love with him. I love Gavin so much and I can't get in touch with him to tell him and I just don't know what to do." She sobbed into the phone. Gavin's friend could hear the weight of emotion in her voice from the next table and was immediately sorry that he'd hung up on her. He tapped her gently on the shoulder. "You must be Ellie. Gavin's just gone to the bar, he'll be back shortly. Man he'll be glad to see you." Ellie heard Jake say, "I heard that honey, you go get your man," as she hung up the phone. Gavin saw Ellie momentarily as he stepped through the door before she was on him. She clutched him to her in a full body embrace, and any thought he may have had of needing to hold back was immediately forgotten when she said, "I love you so much Gavin. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I'm a mess but I'll get my act together I promise." Then she kissed him with one of those beautiful, all-consuming kisses of hers. Her soft mouth met his gently at first, before she suckled lightly on his tongue and turned her head so that he could deepen the kiss. She alternately sought out his tongue and gave hers to him as she reached further up onto her toes and flattened her body fully against his. "I love you too Ellie. I'm so relieved. I've been so confused. Let's go somewhere so we can talk." She briefly tried to explain the emotional rollercoaster she'd been on while they drove to his place, but struggled to find the words. As they crossed the threshold into his apartment she led him to his sofa and said, "I want to show you how I feel." As she undressed she glanced down briefly to see his erection fighting against his pants. When she met his gaze again the fire between her legs became a roaring blaze. As her knickers swooshed lightly down her legs and she stepped towards him, he took in the sight of her standing before him with such a look of loving passion that her lips involuntarily parted. She kneeled at his feet and kissed him from his neck, just below the ear and down his front before quickly helping him out of his pants. She then delivered a kiss to the end of his cock using her tongue and lips to make him moan with pleasure. She had intended to take him fully into her mouth, a gesture of loving generosity, but he gently pushed her head away and pulled her towards him. "I want to come inside you." She wanted him more than she'd ever wanted anything. As she sank down on him, so hot and wet, her eyes never left his. Rocking on him while soaking in his blue eyes brought forth arousal and love that was almost overwhelming. She whispered, "I love you Gavin," just before her fluttering and pulsing orgasm sent him crashing over the edge with her. He could hear and feel the truth in her words and her actions as he filled her mouth lovingly with his tongue and filled her inside with his semen. As he pulsated inside her, Ellie wondered if anything had ever felt so good. Then when he held her close to him and whispered, "I love you Ellie," into her ear, she knew for sure that nothing ever had.