4 comments/ 87772 views/ 6 favorites Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 01 By: SafTman2 Like a lot of women; I married young, without much sexual experience. I was eighteen and had never slept with anyone but my husband. In high school I dated, had a very active social life, cheerleader, Homecoming court, all the "right" things. I had petted a little now and then, but no boy ever even touched my breasts and I had no idea what a "hard-on" was back then. I married my high school sweetheart after one semester of college. My family was old fashioned and conservative and sex was something never talked about. My husband was not much more experienced than I was, but he was my only "teacher". It took him two years after we were married to get me to try oral sex with him. Sometime after about five years of marriage and two kids, Tom began to talk about some sexual fantasies he had. These dealt with me acting as a prostitute. He did all the talking and it turned him on. We were living in a rural area with few neighbors, all old farm families. Tom got transferred to a large university town, teaching at a local high school. This was definitely culture shock for both of us. Everybody was so much more liberal and I realize now that I was looked at as a naïve idiot in more than just sex. I felt stupid and of course responded by learning not to say much and just do what everyone else did. Tom had a much easier time of it as he was back in school and being exposed to all the latest ideas. It was inevitable that he had an affair with a college student about six years younger than him. I was devastated and didn’t know what to do. I had three little kids, no job skills and no education. I was trapped. I was in the most emotional pain I had ever felt. But I still loved him. He told me that the short affair was nothing serious, just sexual experimentation that he had never gotten to experience since we had married right out of high school. He spent hours talking to me and convincing me that it was OK to have extra-marital sex because we had missed that period in our lives when people experimented with others. I wasn’t easy to convince, but I gradually began to accept this theory. Everyone we knew seemed to have been involved with someone else at the school at one time or another. He told me that I should do it if the occasion ever arose and that he would understand. After all it was, as he put it, an endless bowl of ice cream that never ran out no matter much you had. So what if somebody else took a spoonful now and then, the supply was limitless! My "growing" began about six months later. We had another couple over for dinner and some drinks. The night grew late and since they had a lot to drink, they decided to stay. The other guy helped me set up a rollaway bed for him and his wife. As we put on the sheets and pillows, we started laughing and pillow fighting. His wife and Tom just watched. I must admit that I found it sexually exciting to be rolling around the bed and the floor with another man. Nothing sexual happened. We didn’t kiss or touch, but I think he felt the sexual tension too! That night when Tom and I went to bed, he asked me if I had thought about sleeping with Bob. Of course at first I denied it, but when he asked me to think about Bob when we were making love, I really got into it. I was very turned by the thought of Bob touching me and being in me. Tom knew that I felt sexually attracted to Bob. Tom and I fucked each other silly that night. A couple months later, Tom had to be gone away for two weeks to a summer school program. I knew he was going to be partying every night after work. I felt abandoned and alone and wondered if he would fool around on me again. I knew he would if things worked out right. After he left, I got to thinking about what he had said about having another man. I was a little angry that he would so casually let another man have me, but also turned on by what might happen. Tom had already been unfaithful, so he couldn’t say too much, and maybe this would make him realize what he was risking. Bob had recently separated from his wife and was living alone in their house. I called Bob and asked him if I could stop by some night and talk. He was a little hesitant, but said it was OK. When I left for his house, I still hadn’t decided for sure if I would sleep with him. He might not like me, or think I was a slut for being unfaithful to Tom. My stomach was in knots and doing flip-flops as I drove to his house. I almost turned around a couple times. I had not worn anything special, just jeans, a midriff cut blouse and sandals, regular bra and panties. I had put perfume on my breasts and my thighs around my cunt, so I know I wanted something to happen. Bob answered the door and we sat on the couch. We had a couple drinks, as we talked about how I felt trapped and alone. He said he knew about Tom’s affair and understood my fears. He was very sympathetic and told me that his wife and him had similar problems. She had been sleeping with another teacher at school and that led to their separation. After an hour or so nothing sexual had happened between us. No hugs, kisses or touches. Bob went to answer the door. The paperboy was collecting. He took care of that and as he closed the door, I knew it was now or never. I would have to make the first move. I stood up and walked toward him as he returned to the living room. I put my arms around his neck and kissed him saying, "This is what I came here for" Bob looked surprised, but pleased. He kissed me back, pushing his tongue past my lips. He reached down grabbed my bottom, pulling me tight against him. I actually got dizzy with the excitement I felt. We went back to the couch. He said "Are you sure this is OK?" I told him that Tom had told me to try it if I got the chance and that Tom wouldn’t be angry at all. That was all Bob needed to hear. Bob is about 6-3, thin, long brown hair and blue eyes. Tom is 5-10, average build. I’m 5-9, 135, very athletic, with large breasts and long legs. I stand eye to eye with Tom. Being with Bob was different, as I had to look up at him. When we embraced, it felt so different than Tom. We made contact in completely different spots. We quickly progressed from deep kisses to touching each other. Bob gently massaged my breasts beneath my blouse and I cautiously worked my hands down his chest and stomach toward his zipper. When I put my hand on his jeans and felt his hard cock under them, I knew how different he was from Tom. He felt HUGE! I rubbed him from outside his pants and he unbuttoned my blouse and unhooked my bra. My breasts are 36D’s and very firm and round. Bob was delighted with them and told me he had always admired my body. He suggested we move into the bedroom. He lit a couple candles and slowly undressed me the rest of the way. He looked up and down my body smiling and telling how beautiful I looked. I was getting self-conscious and scrambled onto the bed grabbing the covers. Another surprise! It was a waterbed, the first I’d ever been on. Bob finished undressing and got into bed. I was amazed at the size of his cock. I moved my hands all over his body exploring every inch. He was doing the same to mine and it was wonderful. Much better than I had ever fantasized it would be. After several minutes of getting to know each other, I asked him if I could go down on him. Of course he wanted me too. I did it because I thought that was what guys liked. It’s never been a great turn on just to have a man in my mouth. The thrill is from the response I get, the control and power it gives me. With Bob it was the first time I had ever felt this sense of power and control. Tom had always directed our lovemaking and always controlled me. Bob was at least 11 inches long, almost two inches in diameter, and curved upward like a banana. He was circumcised and Tom is not, so that looked and felt different. I could not get all of Bob into my mouth and I was afraid he’d be disappointed. I could cover the head of him and take a few inches down into my mouth, but he was just too thick. I started to apologize, but Bob said I was doing great. I began bobbing my head up and down and he kept going further and further in. I was holding his cock with both hands on the shaft like a baseball bat, and still my lips didn’t touch my hands when he slid down into my mouth. Bob then slid around and began to lick and play with my cunt. His fingers were much bigger than Tom’s and felt good sliding in and out of my cunt. We played and sucked for a long time, and I know I was dripping wet. I hadn’t cum yet though. Bob asked me if I was ready and I nodded. He knelt between my legs as I drew my knees up slightly and spread my legs a little wider apart. I never thought about whether I could handle his large cock, I only thought here comes my first man. He’ll be in me in a second. The thought was overwhelming me. I was afraid, excited, apprehensive, turned on, nervous, lustful, every possible emotion at once. As he moved toward my wet cunt, I took a hold of his cock and guided him straight in. It was unbelievable! Like the first time only better because I knew what it was supposed to be like this time! He moved slowly, going in deeper and deeper with each stroke. After a couple minutes, I was taking Bob all the way in, his pubic hair mashing against mine. I pushed myself up to meet him with each stroke, pulling his bottom down hard to push him into me. He ran his fingers through my hair, stroked my breasts and gave me all I wanted. My legs went high in the air and wide apart, I wrapped them around his ass and pulled him as tight against me as I could. I was totally into this sexual experience! We must have gone on like that for 15 or 20 minutes. Bob would go all the way in and then draw back slowly until he was almost completely out then slowly, teasingly back in me. He asked me if I was ready to cum yet. I felt great, but I had only cum when riding on top of Tom. I told Bob and he just rolled us over and let me ride. I started slowly, sliding back and forth, feeling myself rubbing hard against him. I started moving faster and faster. My hands squeezed his chest as I rode him. He felt my breasts and played with my nipples as I rode. I could feel it building inside me, I know I was moaning and talking dirty, my head was thrown back and I had my hands on his hips as I was now straight up on top on him! I came really hard; shuddering and crying it felt so good. Without Bob coming out of me, I started again. This time it was slow and very nice. I don’t know how Bob kept from cumming, but he did. I must have cum six or seven times on top of him, almost non-stop after the first hard one. Finally I collapsed on top of Bob, breathing hard, with my cunt just quivering. We lay there for a few minutes and when I had caught my breath, he asked me if he could cum in me from behind. I told him he could have anything he wanted. He rolled out from under me and I lay down on my stomach. I could feel the cold wet spot where we had soaked the sheets with our juices. The waterbed kept us moving a little all the time. Bob put a pillow under my hips to raise my bottom just a little. Slowly he slid his cock into my cunt from behind, lying on top of me, holding his weight off me. He began slow stroking me, almost out then deep in me again. I could hear him breathing harder and starting to moan and make animal-like noises. He was going wild, pounding me fast and hard, his stomach slapping up against my ass. I raised my legs and was bucking back against him, actually kicking his ass with my heels as he pumped into me. He let his full weight down on me and slammed into me with a deep groan as he finally came. I could feel him throbbing and shooting cum into me. He was pulsating against the very back of my cunt. Both exhausted, we rolled on our sides and just feel asleep. When I awoke, I had my stomach against his back, my arms around him. I reached down and felt his cock, stroking slowly to wake him. He got big and hard immediately. He rolled over on his back and pulled me on top of him. I slowly lowered myself down, sliding him into my still slippery cunt. He pulled my hips down on him and pushed up into me. I rode slowly, just feeling how full I was and how deep his cock went into me. I know I was ready to cum again, when the phone rang. As Bob went to the other room to answer the phone, I knew it was over. The moment was gone. I began to dress and when Bob returned, I told him it was time for me to get home. He kissed me and thanked me. On the way home, I could feel the wetness in my panties as he leaked out of me. I could still feel his hands all over me. After I sent the baby sitter home I got in bed and masturbated until I fell asleep. I felt no guilt or remorse, just excitement and wonder. Pure pleasure. That was the beginning of how my life changed. I never slept with Bob again. We talked a few times, but never worked anything out. He moved a short time later. I told Tom about what happened when he got back home. He was actually happy about it! He had slept with another teacher while he was away and I think this relieved his guilt. He encouraged me to experiment and said he was going to do the same. He was so turned on by hearing me tell him about Bob, that he had me repeat it over and over as he fucked me. As time went on I sometimes felt guilt and remorse for how our lives had changed. I worried about our future and whether we would stay together. I felt like a slut. Then I would reverse and feel liberated and free. My sexual growth was going to continue! That’s the next "story". Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 02 Chapter 2: Annie Chapter one told you about the circumstances that led to my first affair. After I slept with my husband's friend Bob, our sex life began to change more rapidly. Tom had already had his second little fling. I was now 24, married for 5 years with three kids. I still had my cheerleader figure, 5-8, 135, 36d-27-37, long legs, brown hair and green eyes. I knew by this time that I was very attractive to men and that I was considered very pretty as well. Earlier I had lacked confidence in myself. Tom kept encouraging me to sleep with other men. I hadn't done it again, but we fantasized about it all the time. He asked me what I thought of various guys and then had me pretend I was fucking them as we made love. It got him incredibly turned on! It was during this time between my first and second affair that we introduced sex toys into our marriage. Tom wanted to watch me fuck somebody, but I was not at all interested in doing that. He would have me masturbate and watch me, having me tell him a fantasy about another guy fucking me (usually a named friend of ours) as I masturbated myself with my fingers. One night he suggested that I use something to put in me as a substitute for a cock. He suggested a banana, but we didn't have any. We did have some cucumbers! Tom told me to wait while he washed one and then he returned to the bedroom. As I fantasized out loud about having another guy, he began to play with my cunt, rubbing the cucumber around the opening and against my thighs. I was actually beginning to want it in me! I was pretending it was our neighbor. He was a nice guy whose wife had left him with two kids. My hips were pumping slowly as I lay on my back. Tom was rubbing my tits and my cunt. Slowly he pushed the cucumber in as I talked about Herb, the neighbor. It was like I could see and feel his cock going into me! It really felt great! As I rubbed my clit, Tom slid the cucumber in and out of me. He was jacking off with his other hand while I described Herb fucking me. Tom came quickly, but I needed more. He continued to pump it in and out. Then he pulled it all the way out. I opened my eyes and said, "What are you doing? I'm almost there!" I had barely spoken when I felt it going back in. Tom had another cucumber, this one much bigger! It was so big, that I couldn't take it at first. I told him no, just use the first one. But he slowly pushed it in and out, giving me more and more each time. I didn't like what was happening, but I wanted to cum, so I let him continue. This one was as big around as a beer can, and well over a foot long. My hips continued to pump automatically. After just a few minutes I was taking it all in except a few inches that Tom held onto. I really let go and started calling Herb's name begging for his cock! Tom got hard again and put his cock in my mouth, I sucked him and fucked that big cucumber until we both came! Tom told me that he wanted me to do that with him and another guy for real. I told him no way, fantasy would have to be enough. We repeated that sexual fantasy many times, with many objects. Once we used a large ring bologna. It was much better as it flexed like a real cock. It was big and thick and I could have as much length as I wanted. Also it was curved, like Bob, the only guy I had fucked besides Tom. I would kneel on all fours and Tom would ram it in and out while I sucked his cock. It drove him wild to think of me having another guy in me from behind as I sucked him. This kind of fantasy play made our sex life together better than ever before. Tom went wild over my stories and I enjoyed thinking about other guys. Eventually a rubber cock shaped dildo replaced the vegetables and bologna. Tom continued to tell me that he wanted me to have sex with another guy, but I felt satisfied with our enhanced sex life. It was almost a year after my first affair when we had a picnic for all our friends at our house. We had a keg of beer by the pool, beautiful sunny afternoon and lots of people. I had a bikini on and I knew I looked good. The party went on into the night. I had a lot to drink. I had struck up a conversation with Dave, a teacher who worked with Tom. Dave was a black man, 6-4, broad shouldered, short beard, probably about 40. We lay on the living floor and drank and talked. Tom said hi occasionally, but kind of avoided us. We were drinking tequila sunrises and ran out of orange juice. I told Tom I was going to get more juice. Dave said he'd drive me to the store and Tom said OK. After we got the juice, Dave and I sat in the car for just a minute. He kissed me and I let him put his hands on my breasts. I had put on a pool dress so he didn't actually touch them. I said, "That's enough!" and pulled away. When we got back, everybody was getting ready to leave. It was well after dark and the party was moving to another house for those who wished to continue. Tom said we should go too. As we were getting ready to leave, he asked me if I had done anything with Dave while we were at the store. I said absolutely not, acting a little mad. He said, "Go ahead if you want, I don't mind." I told him we just talked. As we were getting ready to leave, Dave said, " Ride with me Annie" Tom just waved me off with him, so I got into his car. There were a couple other people there too, so nothing happened. We just continued to talk. I was pretty drunk by this time, and when we got to the other party, there were a lot of people I didn't know there. Tom was talking with other people, so I continued to talk with Dave. After what Tom had said, I began to think about Dave sexually. He was almost 15 years older than I was and black. This was way out of bounds for my conservative past. Somebody started passing around joints and we smoked and drank. I went to the bathroom and as I returned, I sat on Tom's lap for a minute. He asked me if I was ready to fuck. I smiled and said, "You bet" He said "Dave?" I didn't answer, but gave him a negative look. He must have misunderstood because he then asked me if I was ready for both him and Dave. I made it clear I was not! I went back to the other room and Dave started talking with me again. By now it was after midnight and I was stoned. I remember going into the bedroom with Dave and lying down. I had changed before we left and had on jeans and a tee shirt. I know we talked about my problems with Tom. Dave kissed me and I kissed back. He put his hands under my shirt and undid my bra. I found my hands at his zipper and undid his pants. We kissed and fondled each other. I remember nothing after that! Tom told me that we were in the bedroom for over an hour and he was going to come in, but one of the other guys said he shouldn't. The other guy checked the room and told Tom not to go in. After about 15 minutes Tom said he couldn't wait anymore and came in. He found the room very dark. Dave and I were on the bed lying next to each other fully dressed. My top button on my jeans was undone. He whispered it was time to go. We stumbled out the door and left shortly after. When we got home, Tom asked me if I fucked Dave. I said "No way", we kissed a little and he might have felt me up a little, but that was all. Tom asked me why my panties were so wet, and I told him the kissing probably turned me on. The truth was I couldn't remember! I do know that Tom was really turned on and we had HOT sex that night and the rest of the weekend. I also know that I think I might have fucked him and just blotted it out. Tom talked with Dave a long time after and although Dave didn't say directly, he did lead Tom to believe that he had fucked me that night. After the way Tom got so horny talking about me doing it with Dave, I wished and hoped I had! Again I was both angry and pleased. A couple weeks later Tom was off to summer school camp again for two weeks. During the past few months I had been gardening beside the house, next to Herb's driveway. He worked afternoons and had been spending the mornings working on his car in the driveway. It was the sunny side of the house and I often wore a two piece or bikini bathing suit as I worked in the garden. We began to talk as we worked side by side. We talked about his wife who had left him. We talked about Tom and me. I told him about my one time affair and about what had happened or maybe not happened with Dave a couple weeks earlier. It was like talking to a friend. I never felt a sexual thing when we talked. I did fantasize about him in bed with Tom though. The day after Tom left for summer school, I took my kids to the oldest one's little league game. Herb's boy played on the same team. After the game we went for pizza, kids and all. We laughed and the kids played and we all had a ball. About 9:30 that night Herb called me and said he had his kids asleep and would I mind if he came next door for a while. I said sure come on over, mine are in bed too! He arrived and we sat on the couch and talked a bit. I got a bottle of wine out and we played some video games, lying on some big overstuffed pillows in front of the TV. I was just having fun and enjoying my freedom. Nothing sexual had occurred to me. Then Herb kissed me! It was like a lightening bolt! It sent waves through me. I kissed him back and I knew what was going to happen. I could feel a sense of power and control over Herb. I knew he hadn't had a woman in a long time, since his wife had left him. There was a sense of desperation present in his voice and his movements. He kept kissing and probing my mouth with his tongue. His hands went to my breasts, squeezing and massaging them through my bra and tee shirt. He reached for my bra, pushing my tee shirt up and said, " Can I? " I said "Oh Yes!" There was no doubt in my mind what I wanted! He loved my breasts. They are full and round, with nice hard nipples. His wife had almost no tits at all, very flat chested and really thin. He later told me he almost came when he saw and touched mine that first time. As he played with my tits, I unzipped him and grabbed his cock in my hand. He was very hard and about 6 or 7 inches long. About the same as Tom. I stroked him a few times as I pulled his pants off. I was the one in charge! I was controlling this whole scene! I felt a sense of power over him, but also a sense of helplessness because I couldn't stop if I had tried. Herb rolled me over on my back and pulled my jeans and panties off one leg and part way down the other. He couldn't wait long enough to take them all the way off and I didn't care! I lay there with my back on the pillows, my shirt and bra pushed up over my tits and my legs wide open for him. His touch melted me from the inside out! He played with me a little and kissed my breasts and started moving down my stomach toward my cunt. I pulled him back up over me, took his cock in my hand and guided him into me. He thrust and pumped like a wild man! I was wet and slippery so his immediate pounding didn't hurt. He was so excited! I felt that strong sense of power over him, knowing it was me that had driven him out of control. He moaned, breathed very hard and ragged and came in less than a minute! As he laid on me he said, " It's been so long!" He then kissed and played with me, apologizing for not being able to keep from cumming so soon. I really didn't mind. The feeling of being able to make him feel that way was satisfaction enough! Herb called the next morning to say he was sorry and to see if I was OK. I was happy and proud of myself and told him so. He said it was fantastic and he really loved it. He wanted to know if I was going to tell Tom. He knew about Tom's desire for me to fuck somebody else. I told him I didn't think so, at least right away. He seemed relieved. This was step 2 in my sexual growth. I had discovered the power of my sexuality! Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 03 I was now almost 25 years old, married with 3 kids, a conservative and sheltered past, and two men besides my husband under my belt so to speak. I had discovered the power of my sexuality. My husband Tom had discovered his strong passion for hearing about me being sexually involved with another man. I still wrestled with the complications this caused for me in resolving this new me with the old fashioned girl I used to be. In the eight years since my high school cheerleader days, my body had actually gotten better as I filled out a little in the right spots. My hair was long and flowing and I was very comfortable with my body and looks. I now knew that I could sway and control others with my self-confidence and sexuality. This was all still new to me and for a while I wavered between confidence and unsureness at times. But I knew that my life was changing! Tom returned from his summer school camp for the weekend before finishing his second week away from home. I had slept with Herb, our neighbor, while Tom had been away during the week. Herb was the second man other than Tom. Tom was horny when he got home and as we made love, he wanted me to fantasize about being with another man. Because I had just been with Herb, I was hesitant to do this. Tom was really worked up and wanted it really bad. I was afraid to tell him that I had slept with Herb for real. I knew he said he wanted me to do it, but I wasn't sure how he would handle it. To change the subject, I asked him if his horny nature had anything to do with what happened while he had been away. He confessed that he had spent time with a girl who taught at another school. They hadn't fucked, but they had played with each other and reached orgasms together. She was also married. This made me a little angry, because I thought he was using my body to replace this woman in his fantasies. Later that night in bed, Tom asked again if I would fantasize about fucking somebody else. I said, Who?" He answered he didn't care, he just wanted to hear what I'd do. I said I couldn't think of anybody, which was a lie, because I was already thinking about Herb. He actually told me I should use Herb, as he knew that we were friends. Herb and Tom only said "Hello" once in a while. Not really friends or anything. I said OK, and started. As I thought about it, telling Tom how Herb and I had talked across the driveway, I decided to tell him what had actually happened as if it was a fantasy. I told him how Herb came over and we talked while lying on the pillows on the floor. I told him how I knew I was going to fuck him when he kissed me. Tom started moaning. I knew he was cumming soon so I quickly finished the story, telling him how Herb pushed my bra and tee shirt up over my breasts. I told him how excited Herb was with my tits and how he started to move down on me. As I told him how I grabbed Herb's cock and pulled him onto and into me, Tom started to cum. He was still thrusting into me as I finished the story about Herb cumming so quickly because it had been such a long time since his wife had left him. As we lay in bed, Tom started to ask me for more details. I told him it was just a fantasy. He said he didn't care, make them up! He wanted to do it again. I tried to give him more details, but I knew I was giving myself away. After a few minutes, Tom looked and me and said " Did you really do it?" I looked back and I don't know why, but I started to cry. Tom said it was OK, he wasn't mad. He just wanted to hear about it again. I said that what I had told him was true. I went on to give him all the details I could remember. Every little movement, sound and feeling. I could see what a powerful effect it was having on him. He was hard in minutes and fucking me so hard I could hardly talk! He fucked me every spare minute until he left for camp Sunday night. As he left, he said "Invite Herb over again, and this time, take more time and do him really good!" I laughed and said; "I don't think so". That night I started think about Herb. I couldn't get him out of my mind. He had wanted it so bad, and had been so excited over my tits. I thought about the feeling of control I felt with him. I knew I would do it again. I just didn't know how to go about it. I had never set anything up before. I knew Herb had Mondays and Tuesdays off and would be home those nights. The kids had another ball game Tuesday, so I decided that was the night, Tom called Monday to ask if anything had happened yet. He was more excited than I was! I told Tom that I had decided to invite Herb over on Tuesday night. He said he would call Wednesday morning. On Monday after the kids left for school, I watched for Herb to come outside. He came out about 10:00 and started to cut the grass. I put on my bikini and headed for the flowerbed between our houses. I kept track of where he was with the mower, and whenever I knew he could see, I would bend over so my ass would show. Other times I would stand and pretend to stretch so that my tits almost popped out of my top. He kept slowing down more and more when he got close to me. Finally I stood up took off my gloves and reached under my bikini top to "rearrange" my tits. I could see him coming toward me with the mower from the corner of my eye, and I let the strap of the bikini top fall over my shoulder, let my gloves drop and as I grabbed for the gloves, I let one tit become exposed to his view. Acting surprised, I turned toward him as I started to reach for the strap. His jaw had dropped about a foot. He quickly looked down and pretended that he hadn't seen my little act. When he looked up again I had turned away, readjusting my top. A few minutes later Herb approached with a cold glass of lemonade and no lawnmower. He said I looked hot and thought I might need a cold drink. We laughed and chatted a minute. Then I asked him if he was going to the game tomorrow night. He said yes and I suggested we go together. He told me I looked really sexy and made mowing the lawn more fun than ever before. I just laughed. We agreed to meet at the game with the kids. Nothing was said about my little show. The game was fun for all and afterwards we went for pizza with several others from the team. Herb and I didn't get to talk much and I never had a chance to invite him over. We got home and I took a bath and put on a sexy gown that Tom had bought me for fantasies. After I got the kids in bed, I called Herb. He said his kids were sleeping too. I asked him if he wanted to come over for awhile. He just asked if he could bring a bottle of wine. Ten minutes later he was at the door. When I greeted him with a kiss in that filmy gown, he knew we weren't going to play video games. We had one glass of wine on the couch and kissed a little. I said, "Let's go in the bedroom and get more comfortable." I lit a couple candles and we kissed. I slowly undressed Herb, letting my hands run over his body, exploring what I hadn't had time for before. When we were both naked, he laid me down on the bed. We touched and kissed. I slid down to his cock and started to lick him. I took him in my mouth and gently sucked. He was big and hard, but much calmer than the last time. After a few minutes, he said he wanted to taste me too. We sucked and played with each other for a while. I asked him if he was ready to fuck me and he turned around and pushed my legs apart a little bit more. I was wet and loose and wanted to feel him in me. He lowered himself onto me and played with my tits as he eased himself into my cunt. He stroked me for quite a while, touching, kissing and sucking my neck, tongue and tits. Then he begged to me to let him cum! He said he knew I hadn't cum yet, but he wanted to let loose. I said "Go for it Herb". He did! He started banging away like a jackhammer, pounding and crying, " Oh fuck me Annie, fuck me!" He came really hard and for a long time. I told him it was all right. I enjoyed it. We laid and talked about what we liked about it and how it felt. We both fell asleep for a little while. It was after 10 pm when he woke me with his cock at my stomach. "This time let's get you off." he whispered. He played with my breasts and put his fingers in my cunt finding it very wet and ready. We kissed and he asked how I wanted to do it. I told him I could only cum riding on top. He turned over, his hard cock standing straight up! I straddled his hips and slid him into me. It was instant pleasure! I rode him fast and hard, never thinking about him, only myself! I came in minutes, throwing my head back and moaning so loud I though I'd wake the kids. Herb held my hips down tight against him as I rocked and slid back and forth on his cock. I know I came at least three times before Herb started groaning and thrusting uncontrollably. He exploded in me like an atom bomb! I could feel his cock spasming again and again inside me. I collapsed on top of him and we both just lay there. I awoke first this time and reached down for Herb's cock. He became aroused immediately. He lay face to face with me, fingering my cunt and sucking my tits while I played with his balls and cock. Then we started trying different positions. We didn't talk about it, just moved each other as we wanted to, trying everything we could. I rode him again, frontward, then with my back to his face, stroking his balls as I rode. I stood beside the bed and bent over as he entered my cunt from behind, pulling my hips back hard, driving himself deep into me. Finally I got on my hands and knees, letting him take me from behind as I knelt on the bed. He pulled me back almost sitting on his cock and pounded me so hard I couldn't believe it still felt good. I'll never forget how it felt. He was like a mad man, pumping slamming into me and pulling me tight against him. We were both sweating and cum was running out of me all over the bed. We caught our breath, kissed a few times and he got up, dressed and went home. I fell immediately into a completely satisfied sleep. When Tom called at about 9 the next morning. I was afraid to tell him everything. I started by telling that we did it again. He asked how Herb had cum. I stammered, as I didn't know what to say. He had cum three times! Tom said, "Did he cum in your mouth?" I told him, " No, but don't get mad Tom, Herb came three times last night!" I think Tom came in his pants over the phone. He called back three more times; asking for more and more details each time. When he got back Friday night he was insatiable. I knew he was happy, I just didn't know where we were going from here. That's the next chapter. Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 04 Chapter 4: Annie E. It had taken twelve months to progress from a naïve young mother who had known no man except her husband, to a woman who realized she had the ability to direct her life on her own. Before, Tom was my only source of how the world really worked. Now it was clear that things could be quite different for me than anything I had ever imagined. Growing up, I always saw myself as the typical wife and mother, raising kids, supporting my husband in his career, joining the PTA and being a faithful typical wife. I never imagined being with other men or using my body to influence a man's behavior. My wardrobe was conservative and I hid my body with my clothing. I only owned one "sexy nightgown". It was just a semi-sheer black gown, nothing really sexy at all. The rest were flannel or heavy robes. That was the way life was before I slept with Bob and then Herb. As I explained earlier, it started with my husband's fantasies about other men and me. After he had a brief affair, he encouraged me to experiment. After much fantasy role playing with him, I finally slept once with Bob, a friend of ours. I began to open up sexually after that, role playing with and for my husband's pleasure. We used a dildo, and I would pretend out loud, to be fucking guys we knew as we made love. Not quite a year after Bob, I slept with my neighbor Herb two times in just a week! We had already developed a strong non-sexual friendship and were soul mates. This let me see a side of myself I didn't know existed. I could do anything I wanted and I could control what happened with me sexually. My husband knew about both of these men and encouraged me to continue. He got tremendous sexual gratification from my affairs. This became a source of great psychological pain for me. I wondered if he loved me, or would one day hate me for what I had done. How could he send a woman he loved to another man's bed? After I slept with Herb, Tom got kinkier in his requests for fantasies. He wanted to have a threesome with another man and me. He wanted fantasies about me with multiple partners! These things had never even entered my mind. I had a hard time making up fantasies about them because they were so different from what I had always thought about sexually. Herb and I continued our friendship, but I didn't go to bed with him again right away. Tom gave me several opportunities over the summer, but I never felt quite right about it. The fantasies with Tom were giving me lots to think about, and after the second time with Herb (when we did everything possible), I just didn't think that I would do it again. Herb and I talked about sex and our fantasies too. In the fall, Tom started teaching some adult classes and would be gone two or three evenings a week until 11 pm. On one of those nights, I had just taken a hot bath, after putting the kids to bed. I had lay in the tub and masturbated as I relaxed. When I thought about calling Herb, I felt guilt pains. "I shouldn't do this." I told myself. But the feelings were very strong. Tom called between classes to say he would be late as a couple of them were going to stop for a beer. I told Tom what I was feeling. He said, " Don't feel guilty! I want you to do it! Just tell me everything that happens and be ready for me when I get home!" I decided to make one of Herb's fantasies come true. My hair was still wet, and I had a robe on. I grabbed my raincoat from the closet, dropped the robe, put on some high heels. Naked beneath my coat, I went next door and knocked. Herb came to the door, peeking out the window to see who was knocking this late. When he saw it was me, he opened the door a little and said, "Come in. I'm not dressed, let me run upstairs and put some pants on." Leaving the door open, he headed for the stairs. I came in, shutting the door behind me and said, " Can I watch?" as I followed him up the stairs. He had only his shorts on. When I went into his bedroom, he was grabbing his jeans from the chair. I walked to him and kissed him. He dropped the jeans, looked at me and pushed me back on the bed. I'll never forget the look on his face when he started to open my raincoat and saw me totally naked underneath. I started to kick off my heels, but he said, "Leave them on!" As I pulled my arms out of my coat, he dropped his shorts to the floor. I pulled one leg up onto the bed, lying on my back on my raincoat, with my other leg still hanging over the bed. Herb came toward me. His cock touched my thigh as he started move into me, and he moaned, cumming all over me before he ever got in me! He fell on top of me almost crying and apologizing for cumming so quick. I told him it was not a problem, as I knew how to take care of that! We kissed and touched. He licked and sucked my cunt and I sucked his soft cock until he got hard again. He laid me back on the bed and I raised legs high and pulled my knees back to my chest, still wearing my heels. As I spread myself as wide as I could, Herb lowered himself down and into my cunt. He slid in without any resistance. Slowly pumping in and out, he fucked me until I was moaning with pleasure! His hands slid up my thighs and grabbing my ankles beneath my heels, he raised my legs straight up and out. He really started pounding me now, I thought I should be splitting in half as I looked at my heels in his hands, spread as wide as his arms could reach! But it felt wonderful! Herb came again in a few minutes. Although I was highly aroused, I didn't cum. I felt very happy. We lay on the bed and laughed about how surprised he had been. He threatened to get even someday and I hoped he would! As a final note to this chapter in my life, I must tell you what happened when Tom came home. After a few minutes of kissing and fondling, I put my coat back on and left Herb's house and went back home. It was just after 11pm and I had just gone into the bedroom and put on a shirt when Tom came in. I was surprised and said, " I thought you were going to be late?" He told me he couldn't wait! He tore my shirt off and began sucking and kissing my breasts. He put his fingers into my cunt and as he pushed them in, I felt Herb's cum release and start flowing out. The awareness that I was about to have a second cock in me in less than a half-hour suddenly hit me! I was so hot I wanted it NOW! I responded to Tom with more passion than ever before! He went wild, plunging his cock into me and telling how he could feel my cunt just squeezing and sucking him in! He was right! Tom had always told me that a woman got really loose after being fucked and that's why they called it "sloppy seconds". But they're wrong! It was slippery and wet, but I could feel the inside of my cunt tightly wrapped around Tom as he banged in and out. It was not sloppy or too big at all! Tom came pretty fast, but I was satisfied too! Then Tom told me that he had left school as soon as he hung up. He came right home, parked in the next block and walked to the house. I was already gone when he got there. He said he looked in Herb's windows and didn't see us downstairs, so he climbed up on the garage roof and tried to see into the bedroom window. He told me that he could see Herb and I from time to time, but not clearly. He did see my legs in the air and Herb's back as he was pounding into me. Tom masturbated on the roof! He watched until I went home. Then he went back and brought the car home. I was angry and upset that he had watched! I refused to tell him what had happened, including the thing about the raincoat. In fact I now realize that the anger slowed my sexual development significantly. The way I felt about having two cocks in me in a matter of minutes had been tremendous! I loved the sense of power it had given me! But the resentment over being spied on pushed those feelings back for some time! Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 05 It has now been just a little over two years since my husband, Tom, had his first affair and 15 months since my first time besides my husband. I had turned 25, discovered that Tom had tried to spy on me when he knew I was at the neighbors one evening and I had for the first time considered life without Tom. We had often fantasized about him watching me with another man. He encouraged me to sleep with others; again we fantasized about this. Sometimes we played out a threesome or more fantasy. I didn’t mind the fantasies, but other than sleeping with another man, none of them turned me on. I had always been open with Tom about my activities. He was the one pushing me to "expand my horizons". In the last chapter I told you about going to my neighbor Herb’s house one night. I was extremely upset by him trying to spy on me after I told him I was going to sleep with Herb again. He told me it was OK and encouraged me to go, then tried to peek in the window. I refused to give him details of what I had done with Herb, and began to refuse to fantasize with him in bed. I knew that without any job skills, I was stuck with my three kids. I started back to college the next month. I had to juggle the kid’s schedules with school, but I knew I had to establish my independence. Tom and I still got along, but I tried to be more assertive and in control of the relationship. We still had sex, but I refused to do anything outside of the marriage. No fantasies, no descriptions of my previous sex with others, no sleeping with anybody but him. As I met people in classes, I began to feel more self- confidence. I knew I could make it on my own if I had to. Near the end of my first semester, Tom went out of town for an overnight seminar. I had continued my relationship with Herb, next door, but had no sex with him since the summer. We talked about sex, school, Tom and I, and each other. I was asleep when the doorbell rang. I got up and went to the back door. Herb was there. I let him in and he immediately pulled me close, grabbing my ass with both hands and pulling me close. I could smell he had been drinking, but I kissed him back. He said he needed to talk to me. We went into the living room and sat on the couch. I had only a nightgown and panties on. The nightgown was transparent and my body showed clearly through it. Herb had no intention of saying much! He began kissing me and sliding his hands under my panties. It was 2:30am and I wasn’t even fully awake yet. He said he needed me really bad! His hands and mouth felt good! I pulled him up and led him to the bedroom. He stripped and I pulled my gown off and lay naked on the bed. Herb kissed me and felt me all over. He had a little trouble getting hard because of the alcohol. He finally got into me about the time my mind caught up with what was happening! I didn’t really want to be doing this, but he was in me and thrusting away! He kept pounding into me, but he was having trouble cumming. I pulled my knees all the way up to my tits so he could go really deep. I hoped he would just cum quickly and go back home! No such luck! He must have gone on for 15 or 20 minutes. I suggested we try a different position. Herb turned me on my side and slipped into my cunt from behind. He squeezed and massaged my tits and he banged away. His hips slammed against my ass. We were shaking the bed and making loud slapping noises as our bodies made contact Again I had pulled my legs up so he could have all he wanted. I reached down and stroked his balls and felt his cock with my thumb and finger as he went in and out of me. I tried everything to get him off that way and finally he groaned and came for a long time. We lay there for a few minutes and I told him he had to leave. He apologized, we kissed and he left. I laid there for awhile feeling his cum dripping out of me, thinking about what had happened. I didn’t really feel guilty, but I hadn’t been in control and so I felt some sense of disappointment. I knew that I had to get control of ALL of my life, sex and my marriage! I decided to approach sex with the same assertiveness as I approached Tom. Herb called the next morning and apologized again. We both decided it was time to cool down our relationship before we got in trouble. Tom was getting wrapped up in his job and our relationship had stagnated. We still had sex, but no real passion. My stimulation came from my schoolwork. In my second semester, a group of us started to get together to study and talk. There were about ten of us who met. Sometimes all of us, sometimes just two or three. That’s where I met Jim. After studying, the group would all stop at a bar near the campus. I had always passed on these visits because I wanted to get home to the kids. I was the only one who was married with kids. Jim convinced me to go one afternoon. He was a couple years younger than me, long hair and a beard, cool blue eyes, a laid back, easy going guy. I had a great time with the group and felt like I was completely my own person. No one knew me as "Tom’s wife", or "Annie from high school". I could be whatever I wanted to be with no past history to justify. I knew I was attracted to Jim immediately. I had that feeling in my stomach, butterflies, flip flops, whatever you want to call it, it was there whenever I talked with him. I became a regular in the study group and the bar afterwards. The medical field of study we were in was mostly women. Jim and one other guy were in the study group. I wasn’t the only one attracted to Jim. Several times when he wasn’t there, the other women talked about how hot he looked! No one had ever dated him though. I decided not to join the gossip, but I did decide to find out how hot he was! I was surprised at myself. I was planning a seduction! The next few times we met at the bar, I managed to sit next to Jim. I talked and laughed, touching him frequently, but not sexually. He would put his arm around me as we talked; we would pat each other or give each other a brief hug upon meeting or leaving. I complimented him on his grades and his beautiful blue eyes! I could feel him looking at my body when he didn’t know I could see him. If we sat beside each other, he began to let his leg touch mine and not pull away! One Friday afternoon, I felt his hand on my thigh; I placed my hand on top of his and squeezed it! He gently massaged the inside of my thigh, letting the back of his fingers rub against my cunt through my jeans. Not directly, but sort of incidental to the massaging of my leg. When I got ready to leave, Jim got up and offered to walk me to my car. No one seemed to think anything of it and we left. He got into the car with me and we kissed and felt each other under our clothes. He didn’t push me at all. I made all the moves. We also talked about ourselves. I knew my attraction was purely physical and I didn’t want to lead him on. He shocked me when he told me he was also married! He had never said anything to anyone and we all thought he was single. We both indicated that we weren’t willing to risk our marriage or our reputation in the group. That’s all the farther we went. We got together several more times during that semester just touching and kissing like teenagers. It was exciting and fulfilled an otherwise routine sex life with Tom. The most I let Jim do was reach under my blouse and bra and feel my bare tits as he rubbed my cunt through my jeans. I rubbed him through his jeans and I think he came that way one time, but he didn’t say so and I didn’t ask. He was wet and moaned a lot though! The day before finals, I asked Jim if I could meet him after the exam. He said, "Sure, we can have a drink!" I was after more than that. I had wanted him for a couple months and had been leading him up to this! The next day, I finished my exam first and sat on the floor in the hallway waiting. No one was around when Jim came out a little later. When he said let’s go to the bar, I reminded him it was only 10:00 in the morning. I said, "Let’s go for a ride first." We went to his van and talked about the exam as we walked. He said the others would miss us after the test. I told him it was too early for the bar and everyone would get there later at the usual time. Some people had another exam to take yet! We kissed a couple times in his van and then he started to drive. We talked and drove for about 15 minutes and ended up in a little park. We got out and walked and talked. Along the side of a little stream, I sat down as he stood beside me watching the water. I put my arm around his leg just above his knee! He jokingly said " Higher! Higher!" I looked him straight in those blue eyes and smiled as I said "Later! Later!" As he looked back, it was clear he knew what I meant. We strolled a few more minutes, and then we got back in the van. Jim drove back to the campus parking lot, waiting for me to make the first move, sensing that this was my desire. When he parked, I suggested we go into the back of the van. There were no seats, just a piece of carpeting on the floor. There were no windows in the back. Jim said we’d have to sweep the carpet first. I laughed and said I wasn’t there to do any cleaning. He quickly began sweeping the carpet with a small broom! I was light hearted and carefree about the whole thing. So was Jim! Laid back, smiling, laughing and having fun! When he finished sweeping, I "inspected" his work and gave him my housekeeping seal of approval. We got in and closed the doors. Jim and I lay down and began serious lovemaking for the first time since we’d met! He kissed and touched me, pulling my top off and removing my bra. He sucked and fondled my breasts and I pulled his head against my chest running my fingers through his long hair. Feeling his beard against my nipples made them hard and erect! He stripped off his shirt and I grabbed the hair on his chest and dug my fingers into him as we kissed. Jim slid down to my stomach, running his hands and tongue over my skin as he moved. He was GOOD! No one else had ever taken the time to take care of MY needs. He did whatever I asked him to do. He pulled my jeans off and began to lick and suck my cunt! Like I said he was GOOD! I found my hips involuntarily pumping against his beard as his tongue probed the lips of my cunt. I had hold of his hair and kept him pulled tight against my cunt. He licked and sucked, rolling his head back and forth and up and down, varying the intensity and direction. It was fabulous. I heard myself telling him, "Eat me Jim!" I was moaning and raising my ass off the floor of the van thrusting to meet his tongue. I don’t know if I came or not. It was all like one big orgasm from the moment his mouth hit my cunt! After a half-hour or so, I pulled him up to my face, kissing his lips and licking some of my own juices off his face! I said, "Now its your turn!" Jim smiled and rolled over. His jeans were still on. As I started to pull them down he told me not to be shocked, but he had only one testicle. The other had been removed after an accident. It didn’t look any different, but when I felt his balls, there was only one there. His cock was swollen and the end was dark purple. Jim just laid back and let me go to work! I was enjoying being in complete control. I licked and teased him until he begged me to suck it! I began to stroke him and took the end into my mouth! He started moaning and I thought he was cumming. I pulled him out and said, "No, not yet!" He said not to worry he wasn’t going to cum yet! I tried to deep throat him several times. Each time I choked and couldn’t get him down my throat. I wanted to please him and make him remember me forever! I could feel his pre-cum slickening my mouth and I had to swallow a couple of times. I had let Tom cum in my mouth a few times, but not very often. I wanted to swallow Jim’s cum! I stroked and sucked until I could feel his balls tighten. His hips pushed up and he grabbed my shoulders. I pushed my mouth down to his pubic hair and held his cock as I felt him shoot into my throat again and again! He moaned from deep down, bouncing his hips up and down as he felt my face against him! When he had finally finished twitching and thrusting into my mouth, I sat back and looked at him. He later told me that I looked so hot he almost came again looking at me. Apparently I had not been able to keep up with the amount of cum shooting into my mouth, and some was running off my cheek onto my tits. He could see it on my wet lips as I smiled. I didn’t even know it was there! He pulled me down onto him and started kissing me. That got me unbelievably hot and in a few minutes, Jim was hard again. I pulled him on top of me and guided his cock into my wet, waiting cunt! He filled me immediately, plunging all the way in. Jim knew what he was doing. He made small circles with his hips as he was pressed against my mound. I had my toes dug into the carpet pushing up to get all I could! He would pull back and tease me around the opening to my cunt before slowly going all the way in again. He knew how to use his cock like an artist’s brush, stroking and dabbing my cunt with it. He had me begging for more, crying "Deeper, Deeper" "More, More". It was the first time I remember letting go completely and it was great! I could feel the van shaking violently with our pounding and thrusting. This went on for some time, both of us wildly slamming ourselves against each other. It was the most passionate sex I had ever had. It was the first time I had seduced a man and controlled the action and pace of our lovemaking! I loved the total satisfaction it gave me! Jim came deep in me, we both moaned in a joint orgasm, not caring if the whole world saw the van shaking and heard our cries of passion! We lay there, trembling and melting back into separate bodies again. It was the greatest pleasure I had known. The pain was about to begin! After a half-hour or so, we dressed and went to the bar to meet everyone else. I don’t know if they could tell or not, but Jim and I locked glances from time to time and just smiled. Jim and I talked again a couple days later. Neither of us suggested doing it again, we talked about how great it had been and how nice it was to have an uncomplicated relationship. We had no classes together after that and over the summer he moved out of the state. I never saw him again. Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 06 Chapter 6: Annie E. My 26th birthday took place just after I slept with Jim at the end of my first year back in school. I had done great in school, felt in control of my life and my sexuality. My husband Tom supported my returning to school, but he didn't know about my relationship with Jim. He was advancing in his career and that seemed to be the only focus in his life. I didn't really think he was having any affairs, but he later told me he had slept around a few times. I had adjusted to this less than intimate relationship with my husband. We still had sex, but it was mostly a physical release for both of us. Tom still wanted fantasies about other guys and me. Sometimes I'd play along and act out or tell him fantasies, but only when "I" felt like it! He still got really turned on hearing and watching me act them out. About a month after I had slept with Jim in the van, at the college parking lot, I knew that something was wrong. I hadn't had a period in quite a while. For the first time I realized that Jim and I had not used any birth control! Tom had a vasectomy a year earlier and I had stopped taking the pill shortly after that. Herb, the neighbor I slept with, had also had a vasectomy. I guess I just never thought about protection, I wanted Jim so badly. Anyway I was certain I was pregnant and that it was from Jim. When I tried to find Jim, I discovered that he had moved after the semester ended. I got a pregnancy test done and as I suspected I was pregnant. By this time, I was about six weeks along. I could now tell that my breasts were getting bigger and I felt some nausea once in a while. I was in a total panic! I was terrified of what Tom might do. I had no money of my own and I was trapped again! Another week went by and everything seemed to be falling apart. My self confidence was gone, I couldn't believe I had been so stupid! I knew Tom would leave me when he found out! I was ashamed and humiliated, but I had to tell Tom. I had no place else that I could go. I didn't want anyone to know what I had done or was going to have to do! I told Tom I needed to talk to him one evening after the kids were asleep. Before I could tell him, I broke into tears. When asked what was wrong, I started begging him not to hate me or leave me. He asked immediately if I had slept with someone again. I sobbed, "Yes". He held me and said, "Don't worry. It's all right. I won't leave you! Just tell me about it." I asked him several more times if he would still love me and not leave. I was frightened and confused, my world shattered. I told him briefly that I had made friends with a guy at school and ended up sleeping with him, but only one time. Tom said that he wasn't upset and it would be OK. Then I blurted out, "Tom I'm pregnant!" Tom was silent for a minute or too. My heart sank and I wanted to die right then. He asked me how I knew and I told him I had a test done. He was quiet again. I was crying uncontrollably. This was the worst moment of my life, as I waited for Tom to tell me to leave. What would the kids think? What about my parents and Tom's? We were both respected in the community with no hint of impropriety! Then he asked me if I wanted to keep the baby! I just shook my head no, unable to talk. He said OK; we'll get started tomorrow to take care of things. He calmed me down and told me it was all going to be all right. He would help me and take care of things and that he had no intention of throwing me out. He was wonderful about the whole thing, giving me time to think before we made the final decision to have an abortion. The pain that took place and the guilt about the abortion has been with me ever since. I'll never forget it! I didn't realize the impact that this experience had on me until years later. It set me back farther than from where I had started in my growth as an individual. Just when I had begun to believe in myself and my value as a person, everything was destroyed by this event. Where before I was learning to find validation in my life from my own decisions and strengths, I now felt nothing I did was of value. I was desperate to show Tom (and myself) that I could do something right! When he promised to "take care of things" with the pregnancy and to continue to stay with me, I turned myself over to him completely again. It was like I was 18 and newly wed again! I had lost all my baselines for who I was and what I wanted in my life. I only knew I had to keep Tom and never let anybody know what happened. The next night, I told Tom all the details about Jim and I. I had planned never to tell him, but things were different now. I felt I owed Tom anything he wanted. I felt worthless and undeserving. I had only slept with Jim that one time, but I don't think Tom believes me even to this day! Tom was so excited listening to me tell of my seduction of Jim! He came twice that night and several times later in the week. After the abortion, Tom began to ask me about sleeping with other guys again. The fantasy requests were becoming more frequent. Tom was very turned on all the time now it seemed. I was also very pleased with the attention Tom was paying to me now. I was so grateful that Tom hadn't left me, I was willing to do anything he wanted, and I told him so. I knew I was a worthless woman, but the fear that Tom might leave and that everyone would know about me made me desperate to keep him satisfied. Tom asked me if he could watch me have sex with another man. I didn't say, "No", I just said I didn't know how that could be arranged. Tom said we could work it out. I knew I was in a mess now, but I couldn't see any way out. Tom suggested I see Herb again. We had moved to a bigger house, but were still in the same area as my old lover, Herb. I had talked to him on the phone a few times, but hadn't seen him for four or five months. The plan Tom suggested was that after seeing Herb again, I would ask him to spend a whole night with me at a hotel in a nearby city. Tom would get the adjoining room, and I would leave the adjoining door unlocked when Herb and I got there. That way Tom could peek into the room. I agreed to see Herb again and we would have to see what happened. I had a dentist appointment a week later in the old neighborhood, and I stopped to see Herb afterwards. He was delighted to see me. He got a neighbor girl to watch his kids and we went for a ride. I didn't know what to do or say. I kept thinking about whether I should ask him to sleep with me or not! Again I was confused and unsure! We drove for awhile. We stopped at a park and went for a walk. Herb told me he was moving to California at the end of the summer. We both said how much we would miss each other. He told me that he had kind of hoped Tom and I would split up and he would have a chance with me. I told him I was staying with Tom, but I would have been happy with him too! We kissed and ended up making love in broad daylight under a tree in the park. It was a real quickie, grass stains, mosquitoes and all. I slid one leg of my jeans and panties off and he pulled his jeans just below his ass. My bra was undone, but my shirt never came off. It was over in less than two minutes! As we straightened up and headed back for the car, we noticed several people watching us. I suddenly became flushed and excited! I had been hesitant about sleeping with Herb before, but now, suddenly, I wanted to do it. I asked Herb if he would be able to meet me the next weekend for a night at a hotel. He said he would call and let me know what night! I didn't care if Tom was going to be there or not! When I got home, Tom just somehow knew I had slept with Herb! I guess I was still all flushed and bothered. I had left right after getting back to Herb's house, no shower or anything. I never even went to the house, just got in my car and left for home. I admitted I had slept with him and explained how it had just happened spontaneously. He undressed me as we talked and was in me in a matter of seconds! He was so turned on, I don't think he heard half of what I was saying! He came quickly and loudly. After that, I told him again. He asked if anyone had seen us in the park. I thought he was worried about us being recognized and told him no. Later he asked again about anyone who might have seen us. I told him no one was close enough to recognize who we were. He said, " But did they see you fucking?" I realized what he was getting at and I also realized that thinking about it made me hot too! I was sure that the other people in the park knew we had been fucking, but they couldn't have seen much because we never got undressed. The idea of being watched somehow made me feel sexy. When I told Tom that Herb was going to call me about going to a hotel next weekend, Tom wanted me again! As he started fucking me again, I thought about this being the third time someone was cumming in me in less than and hour! I felt like a slut! But I was so turned on by it; I started talking dirty to Tom as he continued pounding into me. All that week we fucked like wild animals! I couldn't believe I was doing this! Letting Tom watch me with another guy! But I couldn't get over how hot it made Tom and how I felt some sense of control over Tom. I had almost lost him and that scared me so much! Feeling him want me and need me so much was overpowering. I also felt some fear and pangs of guilt, but I looked at myself differently now. Before I wasn't the kind of girl who did these things, now I saw myself as the kind who did it all and liked it! It was "who I was" not who I wanted to be or thought I had been. I believed I had to learn to accept that and live with that concept of me. Tom and I rehearsed the "plan", trying to account for all possibilities. Tom would be there early so no one would see him. We had reserved a room next to Tom's in Herb's name. I would check in and wait for Herb to get there after work at 11PM. I took some sexy things Tom had bought me, garter belt, stockings, lacy bra with open cups so that half of my tits showed. Tom wanted me to take the dildo we had, but I was too embarrassed. It was going to happen and I wanted it to! That's Chapter 7! Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 07 I had submitted to my husband’s desire to watch me sleep with another man! We had arranged for a night with Herb, one of our old neighbors’s that I’d slept with before. He had no idea Tom would be in the next room watching! Friday night arrived! Herb had called earlier to say he would be there by 11:15. Tom and I got there at 9:00. We checked into the rooms and fixed the doors between the rooms with some tape so they couldn’t be locked. There were two beds in my room and the one farthest from the door could be seen best with the least opening of the door. Tom said to be sure that was the bed we used. He was so hot! After that, I took a shower, got myself all ready for Herb, dressed in the garter, stockings, high heels and bra, but no panties! I presented myself to Tom for approval! He almost came looking at me! I got on my knees and took his hard cock out of his pants and started sucking. He exploded in seconds! He kept saying, "Don’t get any on your clothes!" as he pumped into my mouth. I swallowed a little, but spit out most of it and rinsed my mouth in the bathroom. I kissed Tom and went back to my room to wait. About a half-hour later, Herb knocked on the door. His eyes popped wide open when he saw my outfit! He kissed me hard, his hands grabbing my ass and pulling me tight against him. He ran his hands all over me! I felt his hard cock beneath his pants and as I did, I remembered Tom was watching. I pulled Herb into the room where I knew Tom could see us. We kissed again and again, hands all over each other. Herb surprised me by saying he didn’t want to do it yet. He wanted a shower and a change of clothes. I then noticed he had thrown some clothes on the floor when he came in. He said he wanted this to be like a real date! He undressed, I stroked him a couple times, but he didn’t want me to get him too excited. I watched him start his shower, declined his offer to join him, and slipped out to check on Tom. He was there and gave me the OK sign. When Herb was out of the shower and started dressing. I said, "What do you think you’re doing? I just got you undressed!" He said, " I’m taking you down to the lounge for a drink! I have to play the game and get you liquored up before I seduce you!" I said, " Herb, I don’t have anything to wear, I just brought slacks and a blouse." He looked at the closet and grabbed my raincoat. He said, " This is perfect!" The thought of sitting in the lounge in a garter and stockings shocked but thrilled me too! I thought of Tom, but he would have to figure out what to do on his own. Herb finished putting on a tie and slipped the coat over me, kissing my bared nipples as he wrapped the coat around me. This was the same raincoat I had worn when I went to his house naked one night. We were out the door and in the elevator a moment later! I was into this role and committed to playing it all the way through! My head was spinning! The last thing I needed was a drink! In the elevator, Herb reached under the raincoat as he kissed me. His hand slid to my cunt and felt my nakedness! I know I was wet because when he brought his hand back, he touched his fingers to my lips and I could smell and taste it! I was ready to fuck right there! The doors opened and we walked to the lounge. It was crowded, dark, but very sophisticated looking. Big overstuffed chairs around low tables, subdued lighting, very elegant looking and so comfortable. We got a table with a couple chairs near the corner, away from the bar. Herb was very attentive, frequently kissing me. We ordered drinks, and Herb pulled his chair next to mine. Because the chairs were so big and wide, he had to reach across the arms to touch me or kiss me. It was soon obvious to others around us that we were lovers. The lounge was filled with mostly men. Probably business guys staying late after work on a Friday night. Whenever we kissed, we had to lean toward each other and rise up over the arms of the chairs. When I leaned back into my chair, I realized that my raincoat would creep up as I leaned back. The stockings were easily revealed! I began to look around and saw that I was getting glances from some of the men at other tables nearby. We had another drink and I saw Tom across the room at the bar. He turned away and looked into the mirror behind the bar. I could see him smiling. I pulled my legs up under me on the chair and leaned over the arm to kiss Herb. He reached into my raincoat and felt my nipples, squeezing them one at a time with his hand. I leaned back and saw several smiles from the table next to us. My raincoat was just above my knees, with no sign of a dress or skirt showing. I straightened one leg down over the front edge of the chair and reached to the table for my drink. The raincoat slid up to mid-thigh when I leaned back and I left it there. I was flushed and excited by the looks I was getting! Herb finally saw my leg and laughed, "You keep on surprising me! That must be a magical raincoat!" He was pleased that the other guys could only look and wish they were going to get what he was going to get. I felt good that he was proud of me. I could see Tom once in a while and he was always smiling too! I was getting a sense of pride and pleasure from the little show. I left my leg stretched out, placed my drink down and then leaned over to kiss Herb’s neck. I lingered there on purpose, knowing that my raincoat had ridden all the way up. I had felt the bottom of it slide over the ends of the garters and I knew it was just above the tops of my stockings, almost revealing my right cheek! Holding that position, I looked toward the mirror behind the bar for Tom. Instead I saw several guys near us actually standing up to look down at my leg. My stomach flip-flopped and I suddenly felt really hot! I was ready! I told Herb it was time to go. He smiled and started to get up. As I got up, I turned back toward the front of the chair, leaned way back and brought my other leg out from under me, stretching it toward the floor too. My raincoat stuck to the upholstery and stayed way up revealing the tops of both stockings to those close enough to see past the table. As I sat up and slid off the chair my raincoat actually came all the way up to my hips. When I stood up, the guys directly in front of me got a quick flash of my pussy. I didn’t do it on purpose, but I knew what was happening and I made no effort to conceal myself. As the raincoat dropped back down, Herb laughed again and said, " You flirt! You’ll owe me for that one!" I smiled at the guys at the table in front of us as we left and they all quickly looked away, embarrassed that I seemed to have caught them looking! I glanced toward the bar as we walked out, but Tom was already gone. The ride up the elevator was just like the ride down! Herb was stroking the front of my pussy and kissing my neck. We got to the room and went inside. Herb slipped my raincoat off as I unbuttoned his shirt and pulled his tie off. He pushed me back on the bed, (the right one!) and began to kiss me all over. He told me several times that he was shocked by my show in the lounge, but he loved it. I know I asked him if he thought I was a slut and he told me I was just a sensuous woman. He said I had the kind of body that most men would love and I should be proud of it. He also said Tom was a fool not to take better care of me! At the time I laughed to myself, thinking Tom was really taking good care of me considering what I had done to him! Herb moved down to my cunt and started playing with me with his tongue and fingers. I kept myself turned so that Herb’s back was toward the door where Tom was watching us. Although I tried to keep myself visible to Tom, sometimes I just got carried away and didn’t even think of Tom. I was wet and hot and I wanted Herb. He moved back up and I undid his belt and took his pants off. He lay back on the bed and I went to work on his cock! After a few minutes, I slid up to his chest, straddled his hips and guided him into me as I lowered myself down on him. I couldn’t see Tom as my back was to the door, but I knew he could see us. After a couple minutes of slowly rocking, raising my ass up and down so Tom could see Herb slide in and out of me, I turned us slightly sideways so he could see my profile as I rode Herb faster and harder! From our fantasies, I knew Tom was getting off on this view! I was slightly drunk, my head full of erotic visions of the guys in the lounge watching me, Tom behind the door jacking off and Herb’s cock deep inside me! I felt torn between the images I had of myself, bad girl or sex goddess? Slut or loving wife, pleasing her husband? Was this for me or for Tom? Did Herb really like me or was I just a substitute for his ex-wife? Was Tom going to love me more after this? As I got further into my own mind, I just blotted out everything except my immediate physical responses! I started to cum, moaning and crying and ramming myself onto Herb’s cock, trying to drive it all the way into me and force everything else out of my mind! I came continually for at least a minute, and then Herb moaned and pulled my hips down hard, pumping himself deep into me. He pulled me onto him so hard; I could barely move myself on him as he came. We kissed, and played with each other for a few minutes and fell asleep. Tom told me later that he had jacked off watching us and then grabbed a pillow and lay on the floor next to the door so he would hear us when we woke up. I fell sound asleep almost immediately. When I awoke, I felt Herb next to me, still sleeping. I went to the bathroom and when I returned Herb was sleeping like a rock. I went to the door where Tom was, opened my side and pushed his door open just a little. He was just dozing on the floor and woke as soon as I reached in and touched his face. He smiled and kissed me as we lay face to face in the doorway. He touched my tits, still in the half bra, told me I was wonderful and that he wanted me so bad he could hardly stand it. He said he couldn’t believe what I did in the lounge! I asked if he was mad or thought I was too slutty. He told me he loved me for letting my sexuality loose! Then I kind of slid him upwards so I could reach his cock through the door. In only a few strokes, I felt his warm wet cum shoot over my hand and wrist. I was so pleased with myself! I had made Tom love me again! I felt no more guilt for the rest of the night! I went back to the bathroom and washed my hand, returned to bed where Herb was still sleeping. After I crawled next to him and put my arms around him, he began to wake. I was excited and hot after jacking Tom off and seeing how pleased he was. I wanted more! I knew Tom was still watching. I turned the light beside the bed back on and slid under the covers. Herb got hard in a few seconds. We played a little bit and Herb rolled me onto my back. I kicked the covers onto the floor so Tom could see us. Herb got between my legs and slid his cock up to my cunt. I was still wet from earlier and he slipped in easily. We fucked slowly and deliciously for a long time. I put my legs over his shoulders as he moved in and out. I spread my legs as wide as I could, holding onto my calves for support and putting my feet as high in air as I could. I was totally opened up to Herb’s cock! I drew my legs up tight against my breasts and squeezed my thighs together tightening my cunt around his cock. We went on forever! Herb rolled me over and pulled me up on my knees, pushing his cock into me from behind. I turned so Tom could see my breasts hanging down and moving as Herb pounded into me! It was great! I knew Tom was playing with himself! I was actually getting two men off at the same time I was cumming myself! I knew I was good at this! I knew they both liked it and wanted me so much. Herb came in me hard and deep! Pushing and grinding himself into me as he grunted and groaned in orgasm. It was the middle of the night, but neither of us was sleepy. Herb suggested a shower. I hesitated because Tom wouldn’t be able to see us, but I knew he would want me to do it so I agreed. We stood together, wet and soapy in the hot water. Our hands slid all over each other. I washed his balls and cock, got on my knees and licked and sucked him. He washed my tits and cunt, pushing his fingers into me and stoking my clit with his tongue as he kneeled in front of me. He stood and turned me around, bending me over in front of him. Hot water poured down on my back as he played with my cunt. I spread my legs a little more to let him feel me better. His fingers moved from my cunt to my ass and he began to push his finger into my asshole. I knew what he wanted! I had only let Tom do it that way once or twice in our whole marriage. I pushed his hands away, but he started to plead with me, telling me how much he wanted me that way. I thought of Tom and knew he would want to see it if I did it that way. I told Herb OK, I’d try it, but in the bed, not the shower. Herb grabbed the little bottle of lotion that the hotel provides in the bathroom as we went back into the room. We didn’t even dry off! I knew from the few times that Tom and I had tried anal sex that I needed to be loose and relaxed. Herb put lotion all over my ass and his finger slid in an out, stretching and loosening me. It really felt good and I tried not to tense up as he probed deeper and deeper adding one then two more fingers. I was lying on my side with my knees drawn up, my back to Herb, but directly in line with the door where Tom was. Herb played for a while and asked me if I was ready to try. I nodded. Herb moved up behind me and began to rub his cock with lotion. He placed it at my asshole and slowly pushed the tip in. I could feel my muscles tighten, and I tried to relax. Herb gently pushed deeper, not moving very much. It was feeling better. No pain at all. Herb soon was all the way in tight against my ass. I felt so full, and I could feel every inch of him! He began to slowly slid in and out, moving only an inch or so at a time. In a few minutes I was loose enough that he was gently stroking me all the way. It was so different! Then Herb reached around and pushed the tip of his finger into my cunt! I could feel his cock against his finger from inside my cunt and my ass at the same time! Herb couldn’t reach around far enough to push his finger all the way in, so my own finger soon replaced his. I was fingering myself as Herb stroked in and out! Then he pulled me up on my knees, without coming out and started stroking me really deep in my ass. I put my hand down to my cunt and put a couple fingers in and started pushing my ass back onto his cock. I thought about Tom briefly, and then let loose! I moaned and growled begging for more as Herb drove deep into me. I could feel his excitement rising as his body stiffened behind me. He came with a deep animal groan and gasping breath. I could feel every spurt from his cock emptying into me, filling me even more than I was already! I didn’t cum, but I was so sensitive that as we fell onto our sides again, I rubbed myself quickly to orgasm as Herb shrunk and slipped out of me. I was still cumming as he popped out and the suction that occurred intensified my own orgasm! That was it for the night! We both fell asleep again wet sheets and all. We slept late, hugging each other several times, but not really waking up. About 10 in the morning the phone rang. No one was there when Herb picked it up, but I knew it was Tom. After he hung up, Herb started to play with me. He was hard again! I pushed him away and told him I wanted to clean up first. I took a quick shower, Herb watched, but didn’t get in with me. He jumped into the shower after I did. I went into the room to check on Tom. He was there and said he saw everything! I asked if he was mad about letting Herb fuck my ass. He smiled and said he came twice watching us. He told me I had given him a great view almost all the time. He said he never really went to sleep, but jacked off over and over! I told him I could hardly wait for him to get me! He said he’d be waiting when Herb left! Then he said, " Let him cum in your mouth, and try to swallow it all!" He kissed me and closed the door. When Herb came out, toweling himself off, I went right to my knees and started sucking his half-hard cock. He grabbed the back of my head and pushed himself deeper in my mouth! I wrapped one hand around his cock, stroking him as I sucked. The other hand grabbed his ass and held him close to my face! I wanted to make him cum! He could feel my urgency and let himself go. He pumped my mouth, not holding back at all. In a couple minutes he started to moan and slowed the pumping, letting me stroke and suck, sliding my hand up and down the shaft of his cock. I could feel his ass tightening and his back go rigid as he started to cum! I felt his cum pulsing out and down my throat! I kept swallowing and took it all. I kept him in my mouth until he started to soften. I took his cock out and kissed and gently licked the sensitive tip until his knees buckled and we were kneeling face to face. He kissed me, running his tongue into my mouth. I knew he could taste himself and it made me even wetter than I was. Herb asked me if I wanted him to go down on me. I said, "No, It’s been wonderful Herb, but we have to go! I’ve got to get home and so do you! Check out time is less than an hour from now!" We kissed for a bit, and then dressed and grabbed our clothes. I told him that I was so happy we had been able to do this before he left for California. He was happy too and surprised beyond belief. Then he asked me if I would leave Tom if he stayed here instead of going to California. I said no, I still loved Tom and things were getting better. Herb asked me if Tom knew I was with him. I don’t know why, but I said, "Yes, Tom knows. He told me to go for it. He said I deserved to have a whole night with you! " Herb just laughed and replied, "He’s nuts!" Herb offered to walk me to my car, but I told him we should leave separately just in case. He kissed me at the door to the room and went to the elevator. I watched him until he was out of sight. That’s the last time I saw him. We talked again a couple times and every once in a while he calls from California. When he was gone, I closed the door to the room and walked next door to Tom’s door. I knocked and said "Room Service". Tom opened the door naked, his cock showing me what he wanted. We fucked several times and stayed Saturday night! That’s the next chapter! Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 08 Although I didn't realize it at the time, what happened to me in the last chapter was the beginning of a long descent into codependent behavior and an addiction to the misdirected sense of power and self worth that came from sex. My husband Tom had stayed with me and taken care of me after I got pregnant during a brief affair. I had envisioned being left alone, losing my children, my marriage, my friends and family, everything I had known. When Tom took me back, I felt I owed him everything. The attention he gave me, emotionally and sexually, after several years of an emotionless marriage was so comforting that I easily mistook the codependent relationship for love. Tom asked me to let him watch me make love to another man and I did it as chapter 7 details. His response was even more attention and devotion to me. Tom's reward for me being a slut made me believes that was the way to keep and please my husband. I also loved the attention I received from other men and the sense of power I felt when they wanted me. Tom had watched from the adjoining room while I spent the night making love with Herb, a former neighbor. The next morning, after Herb left, I went to Tom's room. He was an animal! He wanted me again and again, over and over. We fucked from 11:00 in the morning until 5:00 pm that afternoon. I had been up most of the night with Herb and I finally fell asleep, totally exhausted. When I finally woke up, it was 11:00 pm. Tom wanted me again, but suggested we go down to the hotel lounge and have a drink or two. That sounded fine to me. I cleaned up and was about to get dressed when Tom stopped me and told me to wear nothing but my stockings, garter and raincoat. The night before, Herb had taken me to the lounge wearing that and a half bra. I had gotten a little drunk and had let my coat slide open so my body could be seen by several men at a table next to Herb and I. Tom had been watching from the bar and although he couldn't see me, he could tell the other men were looking at me with Herb. Tom told me that seeing other men admire me was a turn on for him. They didn't know us and would never see us again so who cares if they got a peek! It sounded reasonable to me and I could tell he really wanted it. My sense of adventure was aroused as well as my sexual desire. I was in a strange town, acting completely different from how I had ever imagined myself. It was like being in a movie, not real, but I could do anything! I dressed as Tom had asked. We went downstairs and found a table near the back of the lounge. Big comfortable overstuffed chairs and small round tables with candles in the center were the decor. We ordered drinks and I was surprised that the bartender himself delivered the drinks, not the waitress. The bartender put the drinks on the table and spoke to me, not even looking at Tom. "Lady, we don't allow working girls to hang out in here. No shows tonight or you'll have to leave." He seemed surprised at my shocked expression. I was speechless! Tom spoke up, telling him that I was his wife, not a hooker. Tom grabbed my hand and showed him my ring, which matched Tom's wedding band. The bartender looked surprised and said he was sorry, he thought he recognized me as someone else and must have made a mistake. Suddenly, I was very self-conscious. I was nearly naked beneath my raincoat and I knew the bartender did recognize me. He thought he was covering for me with my husband! Tom went to the men's room a little later and the bartender immediately came to the table. He said he knew I had been in the lounge last night with another man and he hoped he hadn't gotten me in trouble. He was smiling and spoke softly. I told him everything was OK, that my husband wasn't angry. He asked me if my husband knew I had been with the other guy. I don't know why, but I said, "Yes, he knows all about it!" The bartender chuckled and said I was " lucky to have a husband who shared ". I felt a thrill run through me, like butterflies in my stomach as he looked at me and said, " Very nice!" while his eyes roamed over me. He touched my hand and squeezed it as he turned back to the bar. Tom returned and the waitress brought us two more drinks. She told Tom they were on the bartender. Tom raised his glass toward the bar to acknowledge the drinks. The bartender waved, and I smiled and waved back. Tom saw me and asked what was going on. I told him about the conversation I had with the bartender. Tom couldn't believe I had told a total stranger that he let me sleep with another man! I thought he was mad, but he was pleasantly shocked. He told me how that turned him on, that the bartender was watching us and knew what I had done! He told me he felt like he was with a celebrity or something. He said the bartender must have been impressed with me because he had bought us drinks. I was really beginning to feel like something special. As we sat in the bar for a while longer, we began to get smiles and glances from guys at the bar. More free drinks came our way, again from some of the guys at the bar. Tom waved and thanked them from across the room. I just smiled and nodded. The bartender returned to our table and introduced himself to Tom and I. Dan told us he thought we had a really great relationship, open and understanding. He and Tom chatted and Dan kept looking at me all the time. I turned my back to the bar so only Dan and Tom could see me, and I opened the top of my raincoat, showing Dan my breasts. He smiled and licked his lips, then checked to see if anyone was watching. He said, "It's OK, nobody can see you now!" I pulled my legs up onto the chair and opened my raincoat all the way. Dan could see my breasts; my legs were completely exposed in my black stockings and garter belt. He breathed in deeply and looked at Tom, who smiled and gave an approving nod. Dan stepped directly behind me, his hands slid over my shoulders and he grabbed my breasts. I could see Tom's eyes light up as he watched me being caressed in public! I was shaking with the excitement I felt! As Dan felt my breasts, I leaned back, my head pushing against him, and I could feel his hard cock against the back of my head. He moaned and pulled himself away. "I've got to get back to work, but I'll be back!" I covered my self again and looked at Tom. He said, "God, Annie that was so hot, I almost came right here!" I laughed and said, "Anything to make you happy! And it wasn't bad for me either, his cock was just about in my ear!" I opened my coat and flashed my breasts at Tom laughing and sucking my finger with my lips. I pulled the raincoat back over me and turned so I could again see the bar. Dan was smiling and watching us, as were a couple of guys at the bar. No one else in the place seemed aware of Tom and I. In a minute, one of the guys at the bar came to the table with two more drinks. He nervously said that Dan had told him we might like another drink. He looked at Tom and then at me, just grinning. Tom smiled at me and shook his head "yes". I knew what he meant. I turned away from the bar again and let my raincoat open as I leaned back. The guy stared open mouthed for a few seconds and asked Tom, "Can I touch them?" Tom said, "If it's OK with her, it's OK with me!" The guy stood behind me and held both my breasts, running his hands over them and pinching the nipples gently. I couldn't help leaning my head back to see if he also had a hard on. After a few more seconds, he leaned over and kissed my neck, saying thanks as he left. Tom leaned across the table and touched my breasts gently. I'm 5 foot 8 inches tall, 135 pounds and 36d-27-37, with brown hair and green eyes. I'm what I consider nice looking, but not really beautiful. I felt beautiful that night. Two strangers had felt my naked breasts in a public place! I was turned on by this and proud that my husband was getting such pleasure from watching this happen! The other guy from the bar was suddenly behind me, with his hand on my shoulder. He just said, "Hi! You really are beautiful! Dan said you were a real looker!" I sat up from leaning across the table toward Tom. Tom was still grinning at me. I kept on leaning back and said, "Thanks, and tell Dan to come back!" As I leaned further back, I pulled my legs out from under me and stretched all the way out in my chair. The raincoat was now fully open and the guy standing behind me could see every inch of my body in just my stockings and garters. He leaned over and without even hesitating, put his hand on my cunt and began trying to push his finger into me! I pulled his hand away and said, "Look, but don't touch!" I placed his hand on my breasts and pushed my head back against his pants, feeling another hard cock! After a few seconds, I said, "That's enough, I'm saving it for my husband!" He said thanks and told us he'd send Dan back in a few minutes. I looked at Tom and saw the desire in his face. He was breathing hard. I started to pull the raincoat back over me, but he said, "No let me look at you!" I realized that Tom had his cock out and was jacking off under the table! I said, "Tom, let me do it!" He looked past me, and I turned my head to see Dan approaching. Dan came up behind me and put his hand on my head, rubbing my hair gently. My body was still stretched out and fully visible. "You guys are unbelievable! You are so HOT!" His hand slid down to my breasts and Tom began stroking himself again. I turned my head to look up at Dan and I couldn't believe what I saw! He had unzipped his pants and his cock was sticking out right in front of me! I shot a look at Tom who was in ecstasy and still grinning. I turned back and took Dan's cock into my mouth! It was like a dream! I knew what I was doing, but it was like I wasn't really there. I was floating above the room, watching some other woman. The bar was nearly empty by now and those who were still there were totally oblivious to what was happening. Either too drunk or wrapped up in their own chatter to notice us. Turning my head to take more of Dan into my mouth, I reached over my shoulder and grabbed his cock. I stroked him with my thumb and forefinger as I sucked. I was afraid to move too much or make noise because I didn't want anybody to catch us. Tom slumped back in his chair, obviously having just finished cumming! I was incredibly hot and my skin felt like it was on fire. Dan pulled back and slipped his cock back into his pants, mumbling something about closing time. Tom suddenly became alert and said; "We're staying in room 204, come up when you're finished here!" Dan said, "I'll be there!" and turned to the bar. I covered up and sat up, still a little dazed. As it sunk in that Tom had invited Dan to our room, I was again shocked at what I was doing! I said to him, " Tom, what's going on?" Tom said, "Annie, he wants you, and I want to watch you fuck him! Please, Annie I know you'll love it too!" The passionate look he had on his face convinced me to stop thinking about what I was doing and just let Tom take control. "Whatever you want Tom, as long as you're happy, I don't care!" He reached across the table and held my hands and I felt the stickiness of his cum as I squeezed back. All I could see was the burning desire in his eyes. I couldn't have told you what Dan or the other two men who had touched me even looked like. I didn't care what happened as long as I had Tom and could make him feel like that! I was already lost and a long way from anywhere I had ever been before! Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 09 Life would never be the same again for me after the last 24 hours. I had fallen victim to passion beyond my wildest dreams. I found myself in a situation that had only been a fantasy of my husband's, not even my own desire. Not only that, I was embracing this development in my life as a moment of celebration of the return of love in our relationship! I was drunk! Not just with alcohol, but with the power I saw myself wielding through my ability to control men with my sexuality. Last night I had let my husband watch me make love to another man, hidden in the adjoining room. Tonight I found myself agreeing to have another man, a stranger, come to our hotel room. I knew I would fuck him and I sensed there would be more than simply that! I didn't allow myself to think beyond the immediate moment for fear that I would lose the control I felt I had. Tom and I left the hotel lounge, waving to Dan, the bartender, and the two men at the bar who had just seen me naked beneath my raincoat and touched my breasts. Dan was already cleaning up the bar and preparing to close things down. It was almost 1:00 am. We walked silently to the elevator, Tom's arm around me, my arm encircling his waist. On the elevator, I opened my raincoat, exposing my body, naked except for my garter and stockings, to Tom's hands and eyes. "I can't believe this is really happening!" Tom moaned. "We're really going to do it tonight!" I asked him what he wanted. He said he wanted me to make love to him and another man, together, just as we had fantasized many times. I asked him if he was sure about this, because once we started, it would be very difficult to get out of the situation. He laughed and said he had always dreamed of this and now he was so turned on he couldn't stand it! I took a deep breath in anticipation of what was soon going to take place! Back in our room, Tom and I kissed and fondled each other for almost 30 minutes before there was a knock at the door. I went into the bathroom as Tom went to answer the door. I heard him talking with Dan, the bartender from the hotel lounge, but I couldn't hear what was going on. In a minute, I came out wearing only my stockings and garter. Tom and Dan both told me how great I looked and began to kiss me and touch me. For a few minutes I just stood there, feeling their hands and mouths move over my body. I opened my eyes and saw Tom was naked and Dan was undressing. Tom led me over to the bed and laid me down on my back. He and Dan again began to touch me all over. Tom spread my legs and used his tongue on my cunt. I was already soaking wet! Dan kissed me and played with my breasts. Dan was about 6 feet tall, average build, dark hair, kind of long and had a mustache. When I looked in his eyes, I could see that same look of desire that I saw in Tom's eyes! It was like a splash of cold water! It sparked me into action! They were here for me! This was my show and I had the power to control both of these men! I played with that power, directing Dan to show me his cock, licking it and then ordering him to lick my cunt. As he went down between my legs, I had Tom bring his cock to my mouth and began to suck him and stroke him. He kept repeating how great it looked, watching me being eaten by Dan as I sucked his cock! I realize now that I had lost track of time. It seemed like this went on for hours, but Dan and Tom had only been making love to me for 10 minutes or so when Dan begged me to let him fuck me. I told him he had to have a condom. He got up and grabbed his pants got a condom, and quickly put it on. I opened my legs and as Dan pushed into me, Tom moaned and started to cum. As Dan began to stroke me slowly, Tom came out of my mouth and he finished cumming on my neck and face. I turned to face Dan, grabbing his ass with my hands and pulling him down on me. Tom wiped my neck and face with the sheets, and sat up; leaning against the headboard and watching Dan fuck me. Dan tried to pace himself and I could tell he was close to cumming, but kept backing off. I turned to Tom and asked him if he wanted to see me make Dan cum. Tom said, "Please, Annie. Do it! Fuck him!" As I began to grind myself against Dan, raising my hips and pulling him hard against me, Tom got up and stood by the bed, watching me take control of the action. I raised both legs high in the air, opening myself completely for Dan. His breathing quickened and he started that deep-throated moan that announced his orgasm! When I looked for Tom, he had moved to the door and as Dan groaned and came deep inside me, I saw Tom letting the two men from the bar into the room! Dan collapsed on top of me, whispering how great it had been. Tom was beside me saying, " Annie, I told them they had to wait to see if you wanted to do any more or not! They're friends of Dan's and they want you too! They met you in the bar." I was stunned and momentarily confused by this sudden development. As I lay there naked with a stranger lying on me and in me, two other strangers were begging me to fuck them too! Tom was telling me he wanted it to happen! He wanted to watch me do it again! Some other personality had taken over my mind and body. The Annie I was could never do this! I looked at the two guys who had seen and touched me in the lounge. They were dressed nicely and looked like decent men. One was heavy and shorter than Tom; the other was about 5 feet, ten inches and built like Tom. I was intrigued by what it would be like to fuck the heavy one! He wasn't great looking or anything, but built differently than anyone I had ever been with! I remember thinking to myself, "That's a strange thing to be thinking right now!" I kind of pushed Dan off me and rolled to the edge of the bed as the two approached me. I told them to get undressed and join me. Again I couldn't take my eyes off the heavy one. It was weird, because I'm not attracted to heavy guys at all! I wondered how it would feel to have that weight lying on top of me. Would I be able to breathe OK? Could I move like I wanted to? I don't remember looking at Tom or wondering what he was thinking. I knew he wanted me to do this! As they stripped their clothes off, I told them they had to use condoms. Both guys were already hard as they stood beside the bed, putting condoms on. I watched them and for the first time I can remember, I actually compared their cocks. Size really has never mattered to me and I don't ever get any excitement from visually looking at a cock. It's the feel and response to my actions that makes a cock get me hot, not simply size or shape or appearance. The taller one was about the same size as Tom and a little smaller around. The heavy guy had a cock that was about 6 or 7 inches long like Tom, but it was very thick! It looked like one of those mini bread loaves that you get in the restaurant. I was thinking how it would fit in and would it feel different? I just let go of myself, and laid back to let it happen. The tall one put his cock in my face and I took him into my mouth. The condom tasted strange at first, but a few strokes and I didn't even know it was there. There were no preliminary "let's get to know each other" kisses or caresses. They were both ready to fuck me! The heavy guy spread my legs apart and kneeled between them on the bed. I turned to watch him as he began to push his thick cock into me. He pumped with little short strokes, inching it into me. I could feel myself being stretched, but I was really wet and slippery and there was no real resistance. I saw myself open to take him all the way in and I looked up to watch him. His head was thrown back and he was breathing hard. His hands pulled my thighs toward him and he began to speed up his strokes. My hand still held the other guy's cock, stroking him as he knelt beside my face. I turned back and began sucking him in earnest. He grabbed the back of my head and held me as he pumped in and out of my mouth. His other hand squeezed my breasts as he kept up a steady string of dirty talk. My own hands stroked him, squeezing his balls once in a while. I reached back and grabbed at the heavy guy's ass a few times, urging him on. He began to pound me furiously. I felt very full, but very comfortable with his big cock in me. He came very quickly. He thrust himself into me as he came. I turned my attention to him, watching his face as he came. He laid his full weight on me, his head on my shoulder, kissing my neck. It gave me a secure, comfortable feeling of strength. The tall guy soon pushed his buddy aside and lay down on top of me. I wondered if I would even feel him after having such a thick cock in me. He pushed his cock into my cunt and began to pump me, laying fully down on me, sticking his tongue in my mouth as he kissed me. I wrapped my legs around him and squeezed, bucking up and down as he tried to pound in and out. By squeezing my thighs tightly, I could control his pumping motion to meet my pace. I remember thinking to myself about the "mechanical details" of what was happening. There was no real emotion. I never came close to an orgasm. Before I had always been carried by the passion of sex. This was all analytical. As he fucked me, I looked around for Tom. He was standing on the left side of the bed. Dan and the heavy guy were standing on the other side of the bed. They were all stroking themselves and watching us thrash around on the bed. The thought flashed through my mind that I had to show them that I was doing the fucking, not just being used. I put my legs down and just rolled the guy off onto his back. He was surprised by the quickness of my movement. I straddled his hips and held his cock as I slid myself down onto him. I pushed him back onto the bed and held him down, with my hands on his chest. I slid back and forth slowly, gradually building up speed. He grabbed my breasts as I rode him. I looked directly into Tom's eyes, smiling and licking my lips at him. I could see his excitement building. I looked at Dan and then the other guy the same way. I was making them all cum and I knew that looking at them that way was getting them off! Tom came first, shooting onto my side and back. The tall guy under me never even noticed. His eyes were closed as he approached his own orgasm. Dan moved as close as he could, one knee on the bed and sprayed my breasts with his cum. I reached over to his cock and squeezed the last drops out, stroking him as the tall guy pulled my hips down tight against him. The tall guy came with groans and bounced us both up and down on the bed. The heavy guy was pumping his cock, watching me looking into his eyes. I slid off the tall guy and turned facing the heavy guy. Sitting on the bed, with my legs over the edge, feet on the floor, I spread my legs and grabbed his cock. I pulled him toward me, standing him between my legs and started pumping his cock with both hands. I pushed my breasts up against his cock and my face against his chest and pumped with both hands until he came all over my breasts. They were all wiped out! I kissed them one by one as I walked from the bed to the bathroom. I lingered with Tom a little longer and asked him if he was happy now. He smiled and kissed me softly and I knew he was pleased with his evening. As I closed the door to the bathroom I said, "Good night guys". Making sure they knew it was over and they were to be gone. I heard them leaving as I sat in the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and didn't recognize the woman looking back. The hot water ran into the tub as I tried to make sense of what I had done. The harder I tried to reason it out, the more bizarre it became. Finally I just pushed it all aside. I knew Tom was happy and I knew I had the power to hold things together. Tom came into the bathroom as I was getting into the tub. He picked up my stockings and garter and pressed them to his face, telling me I was incredible! He watched me bathe, washing my breasts and back. As I dried myself off, Tom took a quick shower. When he came out, I told him I wanted to leave. I was uncomfortable with the room after what had happened. I didn't sense any discomfort with what had happened there, I just wanted out of the room. I know now that it was becoming real and I couldn't face that. We gathered our things and left. It was only 2:45 am. The whole thing had taken less than an hour, including the bath and shower. I fucked three strangers and my husband in about 30 minutes! I was very satisfied, not sexually, but there was a strong psychological satisfaction that stayed with me long after we left the hotel. It was that feeling that I flashed back to whenever I thought about that night. It was that feeling that kept pulling me in deeper and deeper. A growing need to feel that power and strength. Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 10 After the weekend at the hotel with Tom, Herb, and the men from the bar, life was a rapid descent into out of control sex as a substitute for meaningful relationships. I had somehow come to see myself as being capable of being good at only one thing. I didn't value myself, and based on my husband's desires to let other men have my body, I didn't believe he valued me either. Because of my pregnancy and abortion, I accepted this status and acted accordingly. Shortly after that wild weekend, I returned to school for the fall semester. Jim, the guy who got me pregnant the semester before, was gone and the old group that I had studied with had gone their separate ways. My husband Tom often had me repeat the story of our weekend, but wasn't pushing me to see other guys. The classes I was taking required lab sessions two nights a week. No one in my classes knew who I was or anything about me. I could be whomever I wanted. My lab partner for all our projects was a guy 20 years old, eight years younger than me. Most of the people in class were that same age. I didn't tell anyone how old I was and I still looked pretty good. They checked my ID almost every time in the bars. I think it was assumed I was 22 or 23 years old and I no longer wore my wedding ring. I dressed young, like the rest of the women in class and I fit right in. I was soon stopping for a drink or conversation with my lab partner and a few others from class before heading home. About half the group was too young to get served, so we started going to my lab partner's apartment where they could all have a beer. I was the only one who lived away from campus and I usually walked from class to the apartment with the rest of the group. My lab partner was named Jim, slim, muscular, blue eyes and dark hair, just about 6 feet tall. He wasn't really a "nerd" or anything, but he definitely wasn't very experienced socially speaking. Kind of shy and unassuming, not aggressive, but very intelligent. His roommate Ken, was a couple years older, a senior. Ken was not in our lab, but joined in the socializing whenever he was home. The rest of the group was five guys and one girl, Debbie from lab. As the only women, we both got lots of attention from our group. This was something I craved and desired. In fact, I found myself subtly competing with Debbie for "control" of the group as measured by who was able to command the most attention. I began to dress for the "boys", wearing skirts, semi-sheer blouses and lacy, sheer bras. This generally made me the center of attention and pushed Debbie to imitate my dress and to become a flirt to draw them away from me. Ken was the first one to actually make a move on me sexually. We were both in the kitchen when he put his hands on my hips from behind me and pulled me back against him. He kissed my neck and said, "Annie, you really turn me on!" I could feel his cock in his jeans against my ass. I turned to face him and pulled him tighter, grabbing his ass with both hands and said, "Is that so?" I gave a quick kiss, pushing my tongue between his lips and pulled away, going back to the living room. I admit I intentionally teased Ken the rest of the night. I let him sit next to me and I brushed my tits against him every chance I got. I know Debbie saw me and knew what was going on and I think Jim saw it too. Whenever I got up, I put my hand on Ken's thigh and pushed my self up off the couch. Once he responded by pushing my ass upward with his hand as I got up! The bulge in his jeans never went away, but he tried to hide it by holding his beer over his crotch. I was one of the first to leave that night and Ken volunteered to walk me to my car. It was several blocks across campus to the parking lot and we chatted as we walked. Ken kept the conversation geared to sex, telling me that he really liked the way I looked. He said he hoped I wasn't mad that he had kissed me and grabbed my ass. I had to chuckle to myself; it had been me who had kissed him! He also mentioned that he had felt me brush against him and wanted to know if I did that on purpose. I told him I was sorry, I hadn't realized I had touched him. I said I hoped I hadn't given him the wrong impression. He was hot for me and crestfallen that I said it was just accidental. I was torturing the poor guy and I knew it! By the time we got to my car, I had put off all his attempts and he had given up any hope. I got in the car and started it. "I've got to let it warm up a little." I said. "Jump in if you want." Ken got in as I threw my books and stuff in the back seat. He slid over a little toward my side and I decided to surprise him! I had been playing around with him and hadn't really thought about what I was going to do. I grabbed his head and pulled him to me, kissing him deep and running my tongue inside his mouth. He was in shock! He just kind of froze. I pulled back and looked at his face. He was totally bewildered! "Cat got your tongue?" I teased. I pulled him to me and kissed him again. This time he responded. His hands cautiously reached under my jacket, and I turned so he could feel my tits more easily. His kisses became more aggressive and his hands massaged my breasts. He froze again when I grabbed his hard cock, squeezing it through his jeans. He began fumbling with the buttons on my blouse. I helped him undo them and leaned forward so he could unhook my bra. He went nuts at the sight of my tits. They are 36ds, round and firm, with nipples about a half-inch around and the same length. As he licked and sucked at them, I undid his jeans and reached in grabbing his cock. He moaned and raised himself up, sliding his jeans down so I could release him. I got up on my knees and turned toward him so my breasts were in his face. I rubbed them into his mouth and face as I stroked his cock. Ken came in a few minutes, pumping and bucking and moaning. When he regained his composure, I wiped my sticky hands on his shirt and said, "I hope you feel better now!" He replied, "God Annie, that was great! I want you, can we do this again?" I said, "Ken, this never happened! If anyone finds out, I'll deny it. Let's just keep it between us and we'll see what happens!" He agreed and said he wanted to see me again. I smiled and kissed him, saying, "Time to go!" Ken got out and headed back for the apartment. All the way home I felt like a schoolgirl again! I was excited, confident, and felt a sense of satisfaction at having orchestrated a mini-seduction! I knew that this part of my life was going to be mine alone. I wasn't going to share this with Tom. I was my own person, not just Tom's wife. I had been more sexually stimulated by the thought of what happened than by any of the things Tom and I had gotten into and it felt good! Two nights later, after the next lab session, only me, Jim, Debbie and one of the guys, Scott, headed for the apartment. I asked them to ride with me in my car so I didn't have to walk back. Debbie and Scott got in back together and Jim rode up front with me. When we got there, Ken was waiting for us, or rather for me. He was very attentive and made sure to sit next to me. Debbie and Scott had stayed together sitting close on the couch. It was a small group and Jim, feeling like a "fifth wheel" excused himself after one beer and went to his room to "study". Ken had some music playing and since we were paired off, asked me to dance when a slow song played. We danced closely, talking quietly as Debbie and Scott sat on the couch. They both picked up on something going on between Ken and I. From the way they looked at us and talked, I knew Debbie was curious about where this was going. Ken and I went to the kitchen for a beer and he immediately began feeling my breasts and trying to kiss me. I told him to slow down, kissing him, but pushing his hands away. When we returned to the living room, Debbie was dancing with Scott. He had his hands on her ass as they slowly moved around the room. Debbie winked at me once as she turned toward Ken and I. It was almost like a signal or a challenge. Ken and I were on the floor, leaning back against an easy chair with a big pillow beside us. When Debbie and Scott sat back down, Debbie pulled her legs up under her and leaned onto Scott. She had on a very short skirt with black tights and I caught Ken looking at her legs, which were visible almost all the way to her ass. I teased him about peeking and he grinned with embarrassment. Scott had his arm around Debbie and she nuzzled his neck. I was wearing a wrap around skirt that came just below the knee. I had black stockings underneath, no garter, just elastic top, thigh highs. I decided it was time for me to play the game for Debbie and Scott. I turned and rolled onto the pillow, letting my skirt ride up and twist so that the "wrap" pulled open showing my stockings all the way to the lacy top edge on one leg as I lay sideways on the pillow. Scott's eyes bugged out and Debbie gasped just a little. I smiled at them, then at Ken, making no effort to pull my skirt down. Ken lay down beside me, partially blocking their view, and placed his hand on my thigh. We leaned toward each other and kissed. As Ken pulled me toward him, I could feel my skirt pulling even more open. Ken's hand slid up to the bare skin between the top of my stockings and my bikini panties that I knew were now showing. The show was on! When I looked up at the couch, Scott and Debbie were locked in a deep kiss. I have to admit I was turned on! I had never watched another couple like this! Oh, Tom and I went on a few double dates in high school, but things were always under control. I never saw anything really passionate or beyond just kissing. I wanted to see more! I wanted to see how far Debbie would go! She was shorter than me, probably 5-4, very nicely built, narrow hips, long blonde hair, kind of preppy looking, 19 or 20 years old. I was going to push her hard! I pulled closer to Ken, wrapping my exposed leg over his hip and pulling him tight against me with it. This exposed my whole leg and half my ass to them. Ken responded hungrily, running his hand over my ass and squeezing it. Scott was playing with Debbie's breasts, trying to unbutton her blouse. She had both hands in his hair, pulling his mouth tight against hers. Ken's hand was under the edge of my panties, his fingers probing for my cunt. I let him continue, but I kept my leg pressed tight against his, so he couldn't really reach me. I don't think Ken was even aware that anyone else was in the room at this point! He was breathing hard and had my sweater pushed up over my bra. Time to raise the stakes! I rolled over Ken, onto my back in the middle of the floor. Both legs were exposed nearly to the tops of my stockings. Ken rolled onto me as I stretched my arms back over my head; my sweater still pushed up so my bra was fully exposed. Ken helped me pull the sweater over my head. Ken knelt between my legs as I raised my back up so he could unhook my bra. Scott and Debbie were just watching wide eyed, Scott's hand inside Debbie's bra holding her breast. As Ken pulled my bra off, he groaned with pleasure and Scott said, "Oh shit!" I shook my hair back and pulled Ken's head down onto my breasts. He began sucking and rubbing his face all over them. I watched Debbie help Scott with her blouse and bra and he was soon copying Ken's sucking. I was really hot now! Ken finally looked up and said, "Let's go to my room!" I nodded and started to get up. I had to make contact with Scott and Debbie, so as Ken pulled me toward the bedroom, I leaned over toward the couch, purposely putting my breasts just inches from Scott's face. "We're going to the bedroom to give you guys some privacy," I said as I pulled my breasts away from Scott. His eyes followed them for a second, then turned back to Debbie's tits. As she looked at me, she began fumbling with Scott's belt watching for a reaction. "Have fun!" I laughed and turned to follow Ken. Here I was half-naked in front of another couple, cavorting around like a free spirit! It was a wonderful feeling of freedom! No responsibility! I was back on the pill, things were fine at home, and I had the "American dream" to anyone looking at my life with my husband. They couldn't have known how things really were. This was a safe and fun escape. A chance to live like the wild woman I never had dreamed I could be, but without the danger of never being able to come back to normal. That stranger within me, that had been released by my feelings about myself, Tom and the things I had found myself doing, had taken over my life in this other world. As these thoughts raced through my head, I caught a glimpse of Jim closing the door to his room! Had he been watching us in the living room? The thought of being spied on raised emotions related to Tom watching me. That wantonness and desire to feel control over men and their sexual desires rose through my body and I was on fire with it! As I followed Ken into his room, I undid my skirt, letting it fall in the doorway, and kicked off my shoes. Ken breathed in deeply as I stood before him in only thigh high stockings and panties. He quickly stripped naked as I got on the bed. He lay down beside me and we explored each other thoroughly. His fingers went beneath my panties and stroked my cunt. One, then two fingers slid into me and pumped in and out. I kissed him deeply and stroked his cock gently. I slid down between his legs, got on my knees and knelt over his cock, slowly lowering my mouth onto the tip of it. Ken grabbed my head and pulled me down. I resisted, but he was pushing up with his hips, bucking and pumping and pulling my head down. I gave in and loosened up, letting him "fuck" my mouth. He groaned and his body tensed as he got ready to cum. I stroked him to help him finish and he moaned loudly as he shot into my throat. "What an asshole," I thought as I let his cum run out of my mouth and all over him. I sat up and listened to him mumbling about how he couldn't help it. He just lost it, he said and apologized. I said, "Don't worry about it," getting off the bed and grabbing my shoes. "I'll let myself out, don't get up and disturb Debbie and Scott". I picked up my skirt and closed the door behind me as I left. I walked a couple steps down the hall and noticed Jim's door was partially opened. I looked up and could see Debbie and Scott on the couch. He was naked and she was down to just her tights. Scott's hand was working hard down inside her tights, and she was sprawled down on the couch to give him better access as she stroked his cock. I knew that Jim was watching them from his partially open door. I watched them too for a couple minutes. When Debbie slid down further so she could guide Scott's cock into her mouth, I decided to see if Jim was behind the door. As I stepped in front of his door, Jim jumped back a little and said, "Jeez Annie! You scared the hell out of me!" He was standing there in his shorts and I was in front of his door in only my panties and stockings. "They look like they're having fun," I laughed. Jim just stared at me for a few seconds, then turned to grab his jeans. I dropped my shoes and skirt and stepped into the room. I grabbed Jim's hand and stopped him from pulling his jeans on. "Do you like watching them, Jim?" He flushed with embarrassment and didn't answer. "Did you watch me too, Jim?" He nodded and I pulled him close to me and kissed him. " Touch me, Jim! Let me make love to you!" I heard myself saying. I felt a mixture of excitement; sympathy for Jim and sexual empowerment as Jim's hands touched my body. We stood there and embraced for a few more seconds, Jim's hands running up and down my back and bottom. "What about Ken?" Jim asked. "Don't worry about him. Premature ejaculation," I laughed. "But he's happy!" "But won't he be pissed if you're with me?" Jim worried. I explained that I was having fun and there was no commitment to anybody, nor would there be any. I told him I enjoyed sex and was not interested in anything more than friendship. My freedom was very important to me. "Now let's get these shorts off you!" Jim was not very hard, and when I held his cock he looked at me and said, "I jacked off when I was watching you and Ken." As I squeezed and stroked his cock, it got harder and bigger. "It doesn't look like that's a problem," I laughed. We got onto the bed and began to touch and feel each other. Jim helped me pull my panties off and he played with my cunt. He was kind of rough and I told him to lighten his touch and play with the outside of me before pushing his fingers in. " Have you ever done it before, Jim?" I asked softly. "Yes, once with a girl in high school a couple years ago." " I'll guide you along," I replied. I took his hand and helped him with the pressure and movements. When his fingers felt my clit, I said, "Feel that? That's the spot, but rub very gently and feel my hips respond. They'll tell you how hard and fast to rub." Jim was a good learner. We played for a little while, and I pulled him on top of me. "Are you ready, Jim?" He just nodded as I guided his cock to my cunt. He pushed all the way in and it felt great. I held his ass and controlled his movements so he could tell what I wanted. After a few minutes, he was on his own! I raised my legs, wrapping them around him as he pumped in and out. Then I brought them all the way up, onto his shoulders, forcing his arms out around them. He began to move faster and deeper and I knew he was going to cum. His breathing was heavy and loud, and he cried out as he came, pushing hard against me and pulling my legs tight against him. As he finished and fell forward onto me, we heard clapping and both looked to see Debbie and Scott and Ken standing at the doorway. Jim was embarrassed, and I just started laughing. "Jim you were fantastic!" I said loudly. I kissed him and again loud enough for everyone to hear, said, "You can make love to me any time you want, you hunk!" The others left us alone to dress. We kissed a few times as Jim put on his jeans and a tee shirt. I put my skirt on and told Jim to keep my panties as his "Trophy" for best stud. My bra and sweater were still in the living room, so I was still bare breasted as we walked out of the bedroom. The others were waiting for us with a drink, so I sat on the couch with Debbie and Scott. They were all dressed and Scott's eyes were glued to my tits. Debbie looked and me and then Scott and smiling she said, "Take a picture Scott, so the poor girl can finish getting dressed!" Everybody laughed and I pulled Scott's face to my breasts, rubbing them hard against him. I pulled his head back a little and with the other hand put my right breast to his lips and he sucked my nipple in and shook his head back and forth. "Go Scott, Go," chanted the rest of the group. After a few seconds, I pushed him back to Debbie and asked Jim to get my bra and sweater for me. Everybody was in a great mood and we all felt very close to each other. Jim helped me with my sweater. I skipped the bra. Like a typical bunch of college kids we talked about ourselves and our friendship and how great it was to be able to share ourselves without jealousy or guilt. My secret of being a married mother didn't even give a twinge of guilt. I felt a free as the rest of them. Debbie and I went to the kitchen a few minutes later and we had a brief chat. She wanted to know if I had fucked Ken too. I told her, "No, I was going to but he came while I was sucking his cock." She said that Scott had settled for a blowjob too, but she would have done it if he had a condom. I told her that I was on the pill, and I always carried condoms. She said she'd remember that next time! Debbie said that she thought it was sweet the way I took care of Jim too. I told her that he was really good after he learned what to do. I even suggested that she give him a try! It was late and I would have some explaining to do when I got home, so I kissed everyone goodbye and left. Scott and Debbie were leaving too. When I got home a little after midnight, Tom was asleep. I crawled into bed, still wet from Jim. Tom never mentioned anything and neither did I. I was keeping my separate life as a college girl a secret! Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 11 There were now two distinct parts of my life, Annie, the guilt ridden wife and mother who had acted like a slut for her husband's pleasure and Annie the college student who was free to enjoy the life of a free and single woman. I understand now that because of my upbringing, my husband and children, I felt that I should have a certain lifestyle, with proper behavior and controlled emotions. When things turned out different from that, I reacted with shame and guilt and my self image fell even farther downward. Because my husband, Tom, didn't seem to value me, I responded by not valuing myself either. I did what Tom asked me to do because I felt I had no right to say no or to refuse to degrade myself. I was tied to him and totally dependent in our relationship. My life at school was a separate, secret life. I had removed all responsibility as a wife or mother. I felt no compulsion to "behave" in a certain way, so there was no guilt about what I did. I did what I chose to do, for myself! I quickly learned to step from one life to the other, keeping my thoughts and emotions separated accordingly. Things at school were going great. I was doing well in class and had a great social life after class. At home, things were OK too. Tom had not pushed me about sleeping around for him. I suspected he might have a girlfriend, but he later told me he had no one else. We lived in a new subdivision and ours was the only house on our street for about six months. We had been there just short of a year and as neighbors built and moved in, we would stop by and offer a bottle of wine and neighborly greetings. Typical all-American family stuff. I played the role of housewife and shared coffee from time to time with the other women in the neighborhood. They knew I was back in school and I frequently had them baby sit when I was at school. Most were a little older than I was, but our kids were the same ages. Everything was fine. A younger couple moved in right across the street. No kids, Mark was 22 and Donna was 20. Tom and I hit it off with them right away. Mark owned a retail store and Donna was a secretary at a bank. Mark was average build with dark hair and eyes. Donna was a slender redhead probably 5-7 or 5-8 like me. She had a small waist, but large breasts for her slender frame. Tom noticed that! After a few times of chatting briefly, they invited us to come over for dinner one evening. This was great as we could leave the kids at home and be just across the street. I went back a couple times to check on them and they did fine. The oldest was 9 so I couldn't leave them all alone yet. I was 28, 5-8, about 120, brown hair green eyes, 36d-25-37. I looked quite young and dressed that way too. I could easily pass for early 20's. As a former cheerleader and homecoming queen, I was still "pretty". After the second or third trip across the street, I returned to Mark and Donna's and found the conversation had turned to sex. Mark had actually brought out some nude pictures of Donna, and Tom was looking at them. I didn't know what to do! Donna laughed a little and said Mark had this thing about her body. He loved to show her off. I listened as she described how she would let her breasts be seen in public by leaning over with no bra on. She would go out with no panties and a short skirt and flash men in restaurants. Mark found it exciting and she did too! I knew Tom loved hearing this. I recalled the feelings I had when I made love with Herb in the park and knew people could see us. I remembered how turned on Tom had been when I had exposed myself to strangers in the hotel lounge just a few months ago. It had gotten me really hot too! So hot I let them all fuck me before the night was over! Tom asked Donna if she had ever gone any farther than flashing. She looked at Mark who gave her an approving nod. She then told us about flashing her boss at work and then giving him a blow job in the copy room. She said that she now jacked him off or gave him a blow job almost weekly. Mark chimed in saying that this was a turn on for him and that when she told him about what she did, their love making was so much better. Tom was giving me that "I told you so" look. Mark said, " I don't know if I should tell you this, but a couple weeks ago, I watched Donna suck him off." Tom sat up as Mark continued. He had come to the office earlier and Donna had hidden him in the paper closet in the copy room. When her boss came in, Mark had watched the whole thing from the closet. Donna seemed a little nervous and said, " I hope this doesn't offend you guys. It's just harmless fun. We got married really young and never fooled around much, so this is our way of making up for that." I don't know why, but I looked at Tom and saw the wheels turning. I decided to tell them about us! I told Donna to relax. We had also gotten married young and decided that our marriage could handle some experimentation. I told them about my affair with Herb, the neighbor from our last house. I didn't tell about the weekend at the hotel, only about Herb and I visiting each other. I let Tom tell the part about watching Herb and I through the window from the garage roof. We all laughed about that one and things were suddenly less tense for us all. Tom told them about one of his flings with another teacher and we all felt like we were on equal ground. I went back to put the kids in bed and was gone for about a half hour. When I got back, Mark answered the door. I didn't see Tom or Donna and asked where they were. Mark took my hands and said, " Don't get upset, Tom and Donna are upstairs in the bedroom." My stomach flip flopped and I know I looked shocked. "It'll be all right. I've always wanted her to fuck somebody else. Tom said he'd love to be her first one! We can stop them if you want." "No", I said. " I just wasn't expecting this tonight" I really wasn't upset by it. After all I had my college thing going on and was far from being able to criticize Tom. Mark led me upstairs saying, " Let's watch them!" I had never seen Tom with another woman and the thought made me very curious. Mark eased the door open and there they were on the bed. Tom was on his back and Donna was lying across his legs facing him and sucking his cock. Her long red hair bounced as she moved her mouth up and down on him. We couldn't see Tom's face but we could hear him and he was enjoying this a lot! His hands were on her tits but he would occasionally reach around and hold her head. After a few minutes, Tom rolled her over on her back and spread her legs, going down between them to lick her cunt. She pulled his head down onto her and made a lot of noise. Mark whispered to me, "She's a screamer!" Donna was a striking woman, long red hair, large full breasts and creamy white skin. Her finger nails and toenails were painted bright red and as she reached orgasm, she thrust her long legs high in the air and screamed, "Oh yes!! OH YES!!!" I hadn't noticed when it happened, but Mark was now behind me, his hands massaging my breasts through my tee shirt. I could feel his hard on against my ass. As Tom slid up onto Donna and shoved his cock into her, I reached back and rubbed Mark's cock. I knew there was an orgy beginning here. Tom slowly pumped Donna's cunt and again her legs went high and wide. She constantly moaned and said, "Fuck me, Fuck me hard!" I dropped to my knees, thinking that Mark wanted to see Donna getting fucked, and unbuckled his belt. With his help, his pants were around his ankles and his cock was in my mouth in seconds. He ran his hands through my hair and said, "Oh thank you Annie, This is so great! Look at them fucking!" I turned slightly and found I could watch them and suck Mark while he also watched them. It was really a turn on this way. After a few minutes, I realized that Mark was really long, two or three inches longer than Tom, but not as big around. I tried taking him all the way down, but I choked a little and just concentrated on the first six inches after that. Donna came again, loudly, as we both watched her legs kicking up and down. Mark pulled me up and began undressing me. I worked my jeans off as he pulled my tee shirt over my head and undid my bra. His hand went right to my cunt as I stepped out of my jeans, and I was already wet! He turned me around so I could see Tom and Donna. He bent me over forward, my hands on my knees, legs slightly spread and he pushed his cock against my cunt. I pushed my ass back and he slid into me. He reached around, holding my tits with his hands as he began to drive his cock in and out. We were watching Tom and Donna as Donna recovered from her orgasm. Tom rolled over so she was on top of him and I think that's the first time he saw Mark and me. He told Donna to turn around and look. We both looked into the other couple's eyes and it was like a mutual pat on the back. Everybody was OK with everything. Donna said, " Come on up here, there's plenty of room." It was a king size bed and she was right. Mark and I pulled apart and went to the bed. Tom and Donna slid over a little and Mark laid me down and got on top of me. I spread my legs and took him all the way in. Tom and I were looking right at each other, just inches apart, as Mark pushed into me. I thought I should feel weird or something, but everything seemed perfect. No guilt, no shame, no fear or insecurity, just totally comfortable. We fucked hard and fast, Mark pounding me and Donna riding Tom wildly. Tom came first, and Mark quickly followed. After a minute of catching our breath, Mark rolled off me and Donna rolled onto him, both of them between Tom and I. As I started to crawl over Donna to get with Tom, she reached up and touched my breasts as I passed over her. I got a shiver all through me. I had never even thought about sex with another woman, but her touch was like an electric shock. I laid on top on Tom and she laid on top of Mark and we began to kiss our husbands. Soon Donna was between Mark's legs licking and sucking him hard. I followed suit and as I took Tom into my mouth, I knew I was tasting Donna's cunt too! It was strangely exciting. Tom played with my cunt and fingered me, getting Mark's cum all over his hand. When he put them to my mouth, I slurped his fingers, feeling like a total slut. Soon Mark was hard again and Donna straddled his hips, her ass toward his face and started to ride him. She looked at me and said, "Let me suck Tom's cock while Mark fucks me!" Tom was getting hard too, and this got him all the way there. Tom stood up on the bed and faced Donna so she could reach up and take him in her mouth. I kneeled beside the three of them and watched hungrily. This was an incredible sight! The three of them moving together, all moaning and touching. I found my hands touching them. First feeling Tom's ass as he pumped his cock into Donna's mouth, then squeezing his balls as I held the back of Donna's head, feeling her rhythm as her head bobbed back and forth. I rubbed my hands over Mark's chest as he held Donna's hips down onto his cock. He took one of my hands and slid it under Donna's ass so I could feel where he was sliding into her cunt. I suddenly realized that my other hand was holding Donna's breast and massaging it as she sucked Tom. It was a confusing and dizzying moment, but I didn't stop or pull away. Donna started to shout again as she came once more, Tom's cock muffled her words and he came as she finished her third orgasm. Tom kneeled beside me, kissing me and touching me while Mark rolled Donna over onto her hands and knees. He pulled her ass tight against himself as he pounded her from behind, cumming with a deep groan. Then he fell on top of her, his face buried in her long red hair. Tom looked at me and said, "Annie, you didn't cum yet!" Mark looked over and I realized I hadn't! I was incredibly hot, and felt satisfied, but I hadn't cum at all. Tom laid me on my back, opening my legs and began to play with my cunt. Mark rolled toward me and began to kiss me and caress my tits. This felt great four hands all touching me gently. No six hands! I could feel Donna's bright nails as her hands ran up and down the inside of my thighs while Tom slipped a finger into me. I know I was moaning and even crying a little, feeling so sensitive, so wonderfully stimulated. Mark straddled my face, on his knees, with his cock right in front of my lips. He was soft, but still quite long. I sucked him as Donna and Tom's hands continued their touching. I could taste Donna's cunt as I sucked Mark. He got a little harder and my hands were holding his ass as he knelt over me. My own orgasm was building as I felt my cunt being licked, touched and sucked. I felt Tom's hand squeezing my breasts and his whiskers against my thighs as I thrust my hips upward. My body tensed as it got closer. Suddenly I felt Donna's nails on my thighs as my legs were spread wider. Her soft hair was between my legs and her tongue pressed against my cunt, licking and sucking as I pumped my hips involuntarily against her chin. I too screamed and moaned, Mark's cock coming out of my mouth as I begged them not to stop! I shuddered from the force of my orgasm again and again. Mark had moved and Tom held my head as I moaned, my mouth open for his tongue. When I calmed down a bit I looked up and saw Donna and Mark taking turns licking my cunt, then kissing each other. I was confused, exhausted and totally satisfied! We all settled back, assured each other we were all OK and nobody felt bad. I said I had to get back and check on the kids. Tom and I got dressed and said goodbye. I kissed Mark and felt his tongue in my mouth, then I kissed Donna on the mouth and she pushed her tongue deep into my mouth and I sucked it hard, pushing my own back into hers! I couldn't believe myself! Tom kissed Donna and said, "See you guys again soon, I hope!" They both said, "Yes, you will!" We left them naked on the bed and went home. Tom and I agreed that it had been an exciting experience, more so than the hotel. Tom asked me about how I felt about Donna. I said I was confused. It had felt very stimulating to feel her touch me, but it didn't really feel right. I said I was so hot anybody's touch would have gotten me off. I think the forbidden or "dirty" aspect of the whole thing was what had made it feel good. I agreed to see them again, but I said that doing anything with Donna would have to wait and see how I felt the next time around. As I slept, I thought of my college life and how this could mesh with it. I kept seeing Debbie and I knew I was curious about what she would think of this if she ever knew. Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 12 Although this story is complete as it appears here, it is part of a continuing story and is better understood if previous submissions are read first. Saftman2 12: Annie E. The weekend passed with no further word from Mark and Donna, the neighbors across the street. That night had been incredible, but a little confusing because of the physical contact between Donna and me. Tom said there was nothing to worry about and he was probably right. We all needed to cool down a little. Tuesday night found me back at school in the lab with Jim for the first time since we had made love last Thursday. I got there a little early and spoke to Debbie, the other girl who was there last Thursday. She said everything was OK. She hadn't heard anything over the weekend or from anyone tonight. She asked me if Jim had really been that good. I told her he was inexperienced, but very willing. She surprised me by asking if I thought he would go down on her! I said we hadn't done that, but I think he would have. She said that most of the guys she had been with were more concerned about themselves than with how she felt. I agreed with her, but said I really thought Jim might be willing and I wouldn't care if she tried. I was amazed at how casually we talked about sex and our mutual friends. Annie the housewife could never do this comfortably! Jim arrived and as we set up our lab project, he asked if I was OK. I assured him everything was fine. Throughout the evening we discussed our relationship, making it clear we were just friends. I even hinted that Debbie was interested in him. I noticed him looking at her several times after that. Scott, the other guy who had been there last week also chatted with me. He wanted me to know that he and Debbie had no commitments; their activity was a one time thing. I knew he was trying to tell me he was available. All this posturing seemed a little childish, but they were all a few years younger than I was. After lab, we walked to Jim's apartment. There were six of us, the same four from last week and two of the other guys who sometimes were a part of the group. As we walked, we discussed the class and the upcoming midterm next week. Jim's roommate Ken was at the apartment when we arrived. Because not everybody was old enough to get served in the bar, we got together at the apartment. Ken got the beer and everybody kicked some cash. We sat and talked about the exam and the usual stuff. Jim stayed close to Debbie and Ken and Scott kept me on the couch between them. I hadn't dressed very sexy, as the weather was turning colder, jeans and a sweater. Debbie had worn a skirt and I noticed Jim's hands on her legs from time to time. Ken followed me into the kitchen for a beer and apologized for his "poor performance" last week. He asked me if he would get another chance. I was still a little pissed at his selfish and forceful response so I told him it wouldn't be soon! He pleaded with me to give him one more try. I gave him a kiss and said, "Not tonight". Scott was also hinting at wanting me. The attention was great for my ego, but I was a little concerned that things might get out of hand with all these guys and just the two of us women. Mike and John, the other two guys from the lab seemed to be satisfied to just have a few beers and watch the other three guys making their moves. When Debbie and Jim left the room about a half hour later, I saw Mike and John snickering about it between themselves. As Jim and Debbie went by the couch, Debbie grinned and said, "I'm going to borrow your lab partner for a while!" Scott and I snuggled closer and Ken left us alone on the couch. He talked with Mike and John for a bit and announced he was calling it a night. He said we were welcome to stay. Scott and I stayed on the couch, chatted with Mike and John for a few more minutes and they headed out for the night. Scott was after me immediately! "Let me suck those tits again!" he whispered as his hands roamed over my breasts. Scott was a little shorter than Jim and Ken, stocky but not fat, 20 years old. I had seen him naked with Debbie last week, but only from behind. I have to admit I was curious about him. "Slow down a little, I don't want you to leave me behind!" I told him. That seemed to assure him he was going to get what he wanted and he calmed down a little. I kissed him and ran my fingers through his hair. I kissed his neck had held him tight. "It's much nicer if we take a little time", I said softly. Scott followed my lead and began to caress and kiss. We were like a couple high school kids, fully dressed, checking each other out through our clothes! It was fun and exciting because we knew where it was going to end up. I unbuttoned Scott's shirt and ran my hands over his chest. He had a lot of hair and it felt different than other guys I'd known. Scott was patient and just enjoyed my fingers for a while. Then he started to pull my sweater over my head. As I helped him, I thought about Debbie and Jim and wondered how they were doing. I thought about Ken and wondered if he would be trying to watch us like he had done last week. As Scott began to unhook my bra, that thought was replaced by how warm his hands felt! He continued with his slow and gentle touching and kissing. I undid his pants and he slipped them off. As I ran my fingers up and down his cock, he helped me out of my jeans. Naked, we explored each other all over again, stroking, rubbing and touching. Scott was thick and felt heavy in my hands. He obviously loved my breasts, cupping them in his hands and rubbing his face between them, sucking and gently biting my nipples. I pushed him back against the end of the couch and began to work on his cock in earnest. Just touching it and running my fingers around the tip and up and down its length at first. Gripping him tightly and slowly stroking him from the tip to the end of the shaft, I felt his hips begin to rise and fall in response. I put my head in his lap and flicked the end of his cock, tasting him and teasing him. I took just the tip into my mouth and swirled my tongue around and around. Scott gently pulled at my hair, running his fingers up and down the back of my head. He wasn't pushy or demanding like Ken had been. I thought to myself, "I hope Ken is watching us. Maybe he'll see how to handle a good blow job!" I continued with Scott's cock, taking more and more into my mouth as I gradually worked my hand down. I had all of him in my mouth and throat and rocked my head from side to side. Scott moaned and began to pull back. "I don't want to cum yet, Annie! Let me give you a turn!" Surprise! The boy was ready to give as well as receive. Debbie would be interested to know Scott was also willing. I think that eating pussy must be something that guys don't have the guts to try until they get a little more experience with women. Anyway, Scott made a real effort, and I helped him make the right moves and told him when to keep going. He was better with his hands than Jim had been, and really eager to suck the folds of my cunt. I didn't cum, but I got really sensitive. Scott ended up on his knees on the floor while I lay back on the couch, slid down to the edge of the seat, my legs spread wide open and my feet pulled up onto the edge of the couch. I looked up and saw Jim and Debbie and Ken all watching us from the hallway. Jim was naked, Debbie had a sheet wrapped around her and Ken had only his sweatpants on. I waved them away and they all went into Jim's room. I couldn't tell if they were still looking or not, but by this time I didn't care. I just didn't want Scott to be interrupted! I put my legs down and sat up, pulling Scott up with me. I slid off of the couch and sat Scott back on, pulling him to the edge of the couch so I could straddle him and climb on top of him. I took his cock, held it at my cunt and slowly slid down onto him, looking into his eyes all the way down! He sucked his breath in as I lowered myself onto his cock. I grabbed the back of the couch and began to rock back and forth slowly. Scott alternated between sucking and massaging my breasts. I was careful not to let him get too excited or begin pumping too fast. I wanted this to last a while! We moved slowly and under control for several minutes. I could feel an orgasm starting to build. We moved faster and deeper, and Scott started to breathe hard and deep. I knew he wouldn't last long, so I let myself go. I felt him cumming, but I just kept on riding until I came too. Scott stayed with me long enough for me to finish. Then I felt him start to slip out of me as I just lay forward on his chest. We just sat there for a few minutes and then got up. I told Scott that the others had watched us earlier. He grinned and said, "Where are they?" "They went into Jim's room." I replied. We both headed to Jim's door, which was partly open. We saw Debbie on the bed on her hands and knees. Ken was on his knees, fucking her from behind. Jim lay across the bed on his back so she could suck him while Ken stroked her from behind. "Oh Debbie!" Scott breathed. Ken looked back at us, but Debbie kept her head down on Jim's cock. Scott walked past me and into the room. He knelt beside Debbie and began to stroke her back with one hand and her breasts with the other. Debbie pulled way from Jim and kissed Scott. I was stunned! Debbie had certainly outdone anything I could have imagined! She was rocking back and forth and making loud noises and really getting off on all the attention and action. I found myself jealous of her wild abandon. I moved to the bed too, lying down with my legs beside Jim's head, and my head toward the bottom of the bed, by Ken's ass. I reached up and stroked Ken's balls as he moved in and out of Debbie. My hand slid up to Debbie's cunt and I encircled Ken's cock right where he was entering her. Scott was on the other side of Debbie and our fingers met several times as we both explored Debbie's body. Soon I felt Jim pulling my legs toward him and opening them up. He put his head between my legs and began licking and sucking my cunt. It turned me on to think of him sucking Scott's cum out of me. This was too wild! In a minute or so, Jim pulled me around and up on top of him. Debbie was still on her knees, but she rose up so we looked at each other and both laughed. Poor Scott was left out, so he moved around and stood on the bed between the four of us. I could take him in my mouth as he stood there, so I did. Then he dropped to his knees and turned a little so Debbie could suck him. A few minutes of watching this and pounding Debbie's cunt, and Ken finally came. Scott wanted to take his place behind Debbie, but she wouldn't let him in without a condom. She went to get one and I kept on sucking Scott while riding Jim. Ken also came and stood on the other side of me with his semi-soft cock. He had taken off the condom he used with Debbie. I switched from Scott to Ken, sucking back and forth. I was going to cum again and I just let all my inhibitions go. Debbie had returned, but made no move to slow me down. She stood and watched me wildly bouncing and sucking the guys. I started to moan and held onto both cocks tightly as I bucked up and down on Jim. I don't know if he came or not, but I sure did! When I rolled off Jim and let go of the other two guys, Debbie was smiling and saying, "Wow, girl! Are we having fun yet?" I laid there on my back, as she helped Scott get a condom on. Ken climbed on top of me and asked me if I could handle another cock in me. "It's OK if you don't, I'll understand", he said. He was not at all pushy and I figured he had waited long enough to get into my pussy. "Put it in me!" I cried, "I'm always ready." I had never felt so free and casual about sex. This was so open and easy! Everybody into everybody else. Ken pulled my legs up and pushed his cock into me and began pumping me, holding my legs high up. Scott and Debbie were right beside us, Debbie on her hands and knees again and Scott slowly grinding against her ass. Jim lay on the other side of me, just stroking my breasts as Ken fucked me. I didn't cum again, but Debbie and Scott and Ken all did. I asked Jim if he was all right and he said he'd been well taken care of. After a few minutes, I said I needed a shower. I went into the bathroom and climbed into the shower. The hot water felt good. As I washed my cunt, I thought I might feel sore, but I wasn't the least bit sore. I have never really felt sore, even after fucking all night long. Suddenly Debbie stepped into the shower with me. "I need to clean up too!" Cautiously we both washed ourselves. I touched her first, gently scrubbing her back as she faced away from me. In a minute, she turned to face me and began soaping my breasts. "I felt you touching me in the bedroom." Debbie said. "I've never done that before." I responded. "I'm not sure about any of this." I continued. Her hands moved to my cunt and she rubbed it softly. "I did this in high school all the time with a couple of my girlfriends." Debbie said. "I really like guys, but this is different. It's so much quieter." I was now rubbing her tits and touching her cunt, but it wasn't doing anything for me. It had been much more exciting when the guys were with us. I stopped Debbie and said, "I'm not into this Debbie. Maybe we could try it some other time." Debbie smiled and said, "No problem" She gave me a little kiss on the lips and I got out of the shower. The guys were dressed, at least partially, when I went into the living room with a towel around me. We gathered up my clothes and Jim held my panties up twirling them around on his finger. "Who gets the trophy tonight?" I laughed and said, "It's a tie! We'll have to have a "fuck-off" after the exam to see who wins!" I got dressed leaving my panties behind. Debbie dressed in Jim's room where she had left her clothes. When she came out, Ken told her that we were having a "fuck-off" next week to determine the winner. I suddenly realized what I had said was being taken as a serious challenge. I tried to explain my way out of it, but even Debbie laughingly said, "A deal's a deal!" Then she said, "How do I get to win?" I knew what she meant as she grinned at me, but the guys never picked up on it. Scott held my panties up and told her to offer a trophy too. Debbie reached under her skirt and pulled her panties off. She threw them in the air and as the guys scrambled for them she looked at me and challenged, "Loser takes all!" I asked her what she meant. She told me if the guys thought she was better than me next week, I had to fuck them all for her. She said she would do the same. I laughed and said, "You're crazy!" "Just between us, don't tell the guys," she whispered. I didn't answer, but grabbed my stuff and started to say good-bye. Scott said, "Wait I'll walk you back to your car" He grabbed his stuff and finished putting his shirt on. By this time, Debbie was ready and said she was joining us. We all left and walked to my car. We talked about the little group and our new found passions. As they went to leave me, Debbie reminded me, "Loser takes all!" Growing Pains & Pleasures Ch. 13 My dual life continued with me switching between my role as a wife who was desperate to please her husband and a college girl who had no responsibilities or guilt. It was only with much effort that I was able to keep these two lives separate in my own mind. This ability has been what has let me survive all the regret and remorse I have felt through the years. My husband Tom and I had gotten involved with a younger couple across the street. Tom was 29 and I was 28. Mark was 23 and Donna was just 21. They had been the aggressive ones and we had swapped partners for the first time a week earlier. I had gone along with what happened because I knew Tom wanted to do something like that. I hadn't really wanted to become involved sexually with anyone in my role as a wife and mother. I had classes three days a week at the college where I had returned to school the year before. At school, I had developed a group of friends with whom I played the role of a single college student. They had no idea I was married with three kids and was 7 or 8 years older than them. I had kept myself in shape since cheerleading in school, and at 5-8, 125, 36-25-37 I easily passed as much younger. I had become sexually involved with several of them and I kept that part of my life secret and separated from everyone. I didn't really need any further involvement, but Tom was very hot for this sort of relationship with Mark and Donna. I felt like I had to do this because it satisfied my husband and it eased my guilt about my college affairs. After the night we had changed partners and all ended up in Mark and Donna's bed, things at home were quiet. The next Saturday, I was studying for a big exam. Tom had been puttering around the yard while I had my nose in my books. After dinner, Tom pulled me into our bedroom and told me he had been with Donna across the street for about an hour while I had been studying. He said he didn't want to lie to me, so he just told me about it. I was upset, more hurt than angry. Tom said they had both been outside doing some yard work and she had offered him a beer. When he went into the house with her, they just started kissing and stripping each other's clothes off. She had sucked him and stroked him until he almost came right there in the kitchen. Then they had gone to the bedroom. Tom said they had spent the next hour doing everything they could think of sexually. Tom had cum twice and Donna had several orgasms. She had let him cum in her mouth while he was going down on her. After she got him hard again, she climbed on top of him and rode him frontwards and then backwards, cumming several times. Tom told me he didn't mind if I wanted to get together with Mark. He said he didn't care how often I fucked Mark or what we did. He promised to tell me if he did it with Donna and I told him I would tell him if Mark and I did anything. Tom was a wild man in bed that night! I didn't know what to think. How could he really love me if he didn't care what I did? What if he knew about my friends at school and what I was doing with them? Would he still say, "Do whatever you want!"? I didn't know whether to be mad with him about sleeping with Donna again or to just take him at his word. Sunday afternoon I answered the phone. It was Mark. He wanted to know what time I got home from school on Monday and if he could stop by for a while. He had Monday off and thought we should talk about Tom and Donna. I knew what he wanted, but I wasn't sure I was ready to do it. I told him I might stay late and study at school on Monday. He seemed disappointed, but said he'd catch me another time. By Monday when I left school, I was about studied out. The test was the next day and I had crammed all I could. I knew Mark would be home and probably watching for me to arrive. On the way home I decided that I might as well let him come over. It might take my mind off the test for a while. Besides, I wasn't certain that he wanted to sleep with me, I just suspected. Maybe he really wanted to talk about Tom and Donna. I made up my mind to let things happen however they happened. If he didn't call, fine. If he did, well we would let things follow their course. I got home just after 1:00 in the afternoon. The kids wouldn't be home until 3:30. I hadn't been home 10 minutes when Mark called. He asked if he could come over and I told him that it was OK. We talked for a few minutes about the night we had swapped partners and about Tom and Donna fucking on Saturday. Mark wanted me to know that he wasn't upset and felt very comfortable with Tom and Donna being together. He said that he wanted to be sure that I wasn't jealous. I told him I was a little mad that Tom had done it without telling me, while I was studying at the house. I also told him I didn't want things to get out of hand. I had concerns about the neighbors becoming suspicious. Mark was very agreeable to everything I said and we seemed very comfortable. We began to kiss and make out on the couch and then moved to the family room to get more serious. Mark finished taking my blouse off and as I undid my bra, he stripped his pants and shirt off. We stood and kissed and felt each other. I tugged his shorts down to grab his cock in my hand, and he kicked them the rest of the way off. As I stroked him, he undid my jeans and pushed them over my hips. I wiggled them to the floor and stepped out of them, naked. Mark moved me back to the bar and onto a bar stool. He knelt in front of me and spread my legs as I sat on the stool. I leaned back with my elbows on the bar to support myself as Mark began to work on me with his tongue. This went on for a few minutes, and then he stood up and moved between my legs. The stool was at the perfect height for him to slide his cock into my cunt without any adjustments. He stood in front of me, holding my hips and plunging in and out of me. I saw him starting to get pretty excited and I grabbed his cock, squeezing him and pulling him out. "Your turn," I said as I slid off the bar stool. As I held his cock, Mark turned and sat on the bar stool while I knelt and took him into my mouth. I sucked him and stroked him until I thought he was going to cum. "How do you want to do it?" I asked. He didn't say anything. He just got off the bar stool and pushed me up to it, bending me over so I was lying on the stool with my ass toward him. He pushed his cock into my cunt and began fucking me so hard I thought the stool would fall over. He began groaning and thrusting deeper. As he started to cum, he pulled out and shot his cum all over me. There was a lot and it was running all over my back and my ass. Some had gone into my hair. He grabbed his shirt and started to wipe it off me. I said, "We've got time. Want to take a shower with me?" Mark just grinned and followed me upstairs into the bathroom. We soaped and lathered each other, kissing and playing with each other. Mark was hard again. He asked me if he could fuck me in the ass. I hesitated, but he begged and I said OK. We got out of the shower, still wet. Mark soaped my ass, and rubbed lotion on his cock. He lifted me up onto the bathroom counter, pushing everything into the sink. I lay back as far as I could and pulled my knees all the way up. Mark started with his fingers and loosened me up. In a minute I was ready for him and he slowly pushed his cock into my ass. I was wet and soapy and with the lotion on his cock, it was the slipperiest I had ever been. Mark was able to pound as hard and fast as he wanted to, and it was very nice for me too! He came loudly and was deep inside me. Mark jumped back into the shower and I sat on the toilet, letting him drip out of me. We toweled each other off and dressed. He left me with a kiss and went back across the street just before the kids came home. I felt content and satisfied even though I had not had an orgasm. Tom and I had a really hot night as I told him what had happened. I did have an orgasm while we made love that night! As I drifted off to sleep, thoughts of Tom and Mark were replaced by thoughts of the group at school, the test tomorrow, and the challenge that my friend Debbie had made!