1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:09,520 Hey, are you free right now? There's something I want to talk about. I hope this isn't a 2 00:00:09,520 --> 00:00:14,760 bad time for you to talk. If it is, I understand. You know, I can always say what I have to 3 00:00:14,760 --> 00:00:22,640 say another time. Yeah, I guess I'm being too nervous here. This won't take long anyways. 4 00:00:22,640 --> 00:00:29,760 I just, there's something I need to ask you. If only so I can sleep better at night. And 5 00:00:29,760 --> 00:00:37,400 I promise it's not anything bad. Though I guess that depends on your point of view. 6 00:00:37,400 --> 00:00:43,680 Look at me, circling around the subject as always. Sorry for being so awkward. This is 7 00:00:43,680 --> 00:00:48,960 a little embarrassing to tell you the truth. If I keep stalling like this though, you'll 8 00:00:48,960 --> 00:00:57,920 probably start worrying and I don't want that. So I guess I'll just have to tell you. Okay. 9 00:00:57,920 --> 00:01:12,240 I was just wondering if maybe you and I could, well, have sex. Now, okay, before you say 10 00:01:12,240 --> 00:01:17,120 anything, just let me say what I need to say. I mean, you and I have been friends for a 11 00:01:17,120 --> 00:01:23,720 really long time. For me to drop this kind of bomb on you is a little cruel. I know that. 12 00:01:23,720 --> 00:01:31,880 But just hear me out. That's all I'm really asking. Okay. As you know, I've never really 13 00:01:31,880 --> 00:01:41,360 had any experience with dating, falling in love. I've done plenty, of course. God knows 14 00:01:41,360 --> 00:01:46,640 how many times you've had to console me over my stupid one-sided crushes. And through it 15 00:01:46,640 --> 00:01:51,640 all, I've always kept saying the same thing. I'm waiting for the right one. I'm just waiting 16 00:01:51,640 --> 00:01:57,920 for a guy who will be perfect for me and then I can start thinking of a relationship. But 17 00:01:57,920 --> 00:02:04,760 you know what? Lately, I haven't been able to believe in fairy tales anymore. I just 18 00:02:04,760 --> 00:02:09,200 keep waiting and waiting for the perfect guy to come along and I keep fantasizing what 19 00:02:09,200 --> 00:02:17,160 it'll be like when I truly find Mr. Right. But in reality, I'm starting to believe that 20 00:02:17,160 --> 00:02:23,680 guy might not exist at all. Now, I don't want you to start scolding me. I haven't given 21 00:02:23,680 --> 00:02:30,320 up on love as a concept. God knows. I'm too much of a romantic for that. But to tell you 22 00:02:30,320 --> 00:02:35,240 the truth, that's not even the problem. The problem is lately, I've had trouble keeping 23 00:02:35,240 --> 00:02:45,200 myself under control for these past months instead of fantasizing about love. And it's 24 00:02:45,200 --> 00:02:52,000 like my mind's fixated on the physical side of things. I just feel like there's this huge 25 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:59,680 pressure building up inside me. And when I see a guy like, I can't find it in me to fall 26 00:02:59,680 --> 00:03:06,960 in love with him. Instead, I just want him to take me. I just want to know what it feels 27 00:03:06,960 --> 00:03:15,680 like to get fucked. In the beginning, it wasn't much just a few fantasies here and there. 28 00:03:15,680 --> 00:03:22,240 I started picturing some of the guys I know when I played with myself at night. But lately, 29 00:03:22,240 --> 00:03:31,280 I've started to lose control over myself and I just can't stop thinking about it. I need 30 00:03:31,280 --> 00:03:37,080 to know what it feels like so bad. I want to know what it tastes like. I want to know 31 00:03:37,080 --> 00:03:43,440 what it smells like, what it sounds like. I'm starting to scare myself. Every guy I see, 32 00:03:43,440 --> 00:03:49,800 I picture in bed with me. My body just won't let me rest and my mind is always racing with 33 00:03:49,800 --> 00:03:55,680 the pictures of it. No matter how much time I spend playing with myself, making myself 34 00:03:55,680 --> 00:04:04,120 come over and over again, the pressure just isn't leaving me and my fingers aren't enough. 35 00:04:04,120 --> 00:04:11,320 I've even gotten a new toy hoping it would help, but it's not. And the only thing that 36 00:04:11,320 --> 00:04:21,880 can cure me is just to get over that hurdle. I need somebody to fuck me. Just saying it 37 00:04:21,880 --> 00:04:31,600 is enough to set my body on fire. But I can't just give myself to anyone. God knows. I could 38 00:04:31,600 --> 00:04:37,800 easily get myself hurt. I need somebody who I can trust. Somebody who would take good 39 00:04:37,800 --> 00:04:43,760 care of me without judgment. Somebody who wouldn't just take advantage of my weakened 40 00:04:43,760 --> 00:04:52,800 state of mind. And the only person I trust enough for that is you. You've been so kind 41 00:04:52,800 --> 00:05:00,240 to me. Really more than kind. You've been an angel, a heartbreak, illness, grief. You've 42 00:05:00,240 --> 00:05:08,000 always been there for me, no matter how stupid or crazy I got. And to tell you the truth, 43 00:05:08,000 --> 00:05:13,920 you're the one my mind keeps going to. At night, when I close my eyes, your face is 44 00:05:13,920 --> 00:05:19,840 the only one I want to imagine between my legs. And your body is the one I always picture 45 00:05:19,840 --> 00:05:27,920 on top of me. That's why you're the only guy I can trust with this. So please, please 46 00:05:27,920 --> 00:05:36,040 fuck me. Please. I would let you do anything you want to my body. As long as it's real. 47 00:05:36,040 --> 00:05:41,720 As long as it comes from a place of truth. You could get rough with me if that's what 48 00:05:41,720 --> 00:05:49,480 you want. Pull my hair. Spank me. Bite my neck. Call me a bad girl and treat me like 49 00:05:49,480 --> 00:05:58,080 one. As long as you treat my body right, I promise it can be yours. Or if you want, I 50 00:05:58,080 --> 00:06:03,440 could even be the one being rough with you. If you like to just lay down and let me take 51 00:06:03,440 --> 00:06:10,680 control, I can teach myself everything I need to know. I could use your body like a personal 52 00:06:10,680 --> 00:06:20,040 playground and turn you from teacher to student. If you want, you can make love to me real 53 00:06:20,040 --> 00:06:29,040 slow, eyes locked onto mine. Your breath and mine combining, moaning into each other's 54 00:06:29,040 --> 00:06:36,640 mouths, kissing as if we die if our lips ever left each other. This isn't about feeling 55 00:06:36,640 --> 00:06:43,960 good for me anymore. I just want to feel something. I just want to feel everything. Overwhelm 56 00:06:43,960 --> 00:06:52,160 me please with pleasure, with pain. I don't care. I just want you to overcharge my body. 57 00:06:52,160 --> 00:06:58,800 Fill my every hole with your fingers. Make me forget what my name is. Make me come as 58 00:06:58,800 --> 00:07:05,560 many times as you can or edge me until I hate you, until I'm screaming at you at the top 59 00:07:05,560 --> 00:07:13,080 of my lungs, until I lose my voice. I'm not asking for much. I just can't be alone with 60 00:07:13,080 --> 00:07:21,240 my body tonight. Something insane has to happen to me. I have to purge myself of these feelings 61 00:07:21,240 --> 00:07:30,840 and you're the only one who can. So please, it's all I'm asking for. Just fuck me. Because 62 00:07:30,840 --> 00:07:36,800 if you don't, someone else will. And that someone's not going to be as perfect as you 63 00:07:36,800 --> 00:07:53,240 are for the job. So please, please, at least consider my offer.