Hey. Yeah, I'm in bed. Again. No, I uh, I wasn't feeling really great. I, I think I
might be having another flare-up. Mm-hmm. Yeah. So this would be, like, number four,
I think. Uh, in the past three months. Yeah. So, it's definitely, it's definitely a chronic
thing now, right? Is this, is this enough for it to be chronic? Do I make the cut? Are
people gonna listen to me now? Is this, are the doctors gonna take me seriously? Are they
gonna help me? Because the last one said they didn't want me to come back. They said that
they were done with me. And then I had to find somebody else. And I tried to find somebody
else and I just call them. I just got off the phone with them and I said they need me
to come in. Which I get, I get, but that's not what they said before. Before they said
that they could just handle this remotely and get me the meds without me having to spend
the time to come in and that I could come in sometimes but not every time. And I really,
I'm just so scared that this is gonna keep happening and it's not gonna stop. And the
pain right now feels so intense because my body is so tense. My body is just on high
alert right now so every little thing hurts. Every little thing hurts. And I try to relax
and I try to loosen my muscles but I can't because I'm in pain. And I'm in pain because
I can't relax. And it's not funny but it's so frustrating. It's so frustrating. I know.
Yeah, please come in with me. That's good. That's good. You're not hurting me. No, you're
not hurting me. You're helping. Thank you. Thank you. I just, sometimes I don't want
anybody around when I'm in pain but right now I really, I really am so happy you're
here. I'm so happy you're here. Thank you. Thank you. Yeah, you give me something to
think about that isn't the pain. Which is more helpful than, than there are words for.
Yeah. Have fun. It's so good to have you here. I'm okay. Thank you. I can feel you breathing
against me. It's really nice. It's calming. It feels good. Your arms are on me. You're
breathing against me. It feels good. Thank you. I'm happy to have you here with me as
I go through this. It's so good to have you here. Thank you. Yeah, I'm feeling a little
better now. Yeah, the pain is still there but I think I've been able to calm my body
a little bit. To calm my anxieties a little bit because I know you're here. I know you
feel my pain. I know you support me. Thank you. Thank you for supporting me. You're so
good to me. You're so good to me. You are so good to me. You make me feel so good. Yes,
you do. Just by being you, you are so good to me. Thank you.