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Hey. Yeah, I'm in bed. Again. No, I uh, I wasn't feeling really great. I, I think I

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might be having another flare-up. Mm-hmm. Yeah. So this would be, like, number four,

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I think. Uh, in the past three months. Yeah. So, it's definitely, it's definitely a chronic

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thing now, right? Is this, is this enough for it to be chronic? Do I make the cut? Are

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people gonna listen to me now? Is this, are the doctors gonna take me seriously? Are they

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gonna help me? Because the last one said they didn't want me to come back. They said that

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they were done with me. And then I had to find somebody else. And I tried to find somebody

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else and I just call them. I just got off the phone with them and I said they need me

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to come in. Which I get, I get, but that's not what they said before. Before they said

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that they could just handle this remotely and get me the meds without me having to spend

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the time to come in and that I could come in sometimes but not every time. And I really,

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I'm just so scared that this is gonna keep happening and it's not gonna stop. And the

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pain right now feels so intense because my body is so tense. My body is just on high

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alert right now so every little thing hurts. Every little thing hurts. And I try to relax

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and I try to loosen my muscles but I can't because I'm in pain. And I'm in pain because

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I can't relax. And it's not funny but it's so frustrating. It's so frustrating. I know.

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Yeah, please come in with me. That's good. That's good. You're not hurting me. No, you're

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not hurting me. You're helping. Thank you. Thank you. I just, sometimes I don't want

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anybody around when I'm in pain but right now I really, I really am so happy you're

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here. I'm so happy you're here. Thank you. Thank you. Yeah, you give me something to

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think about that isn't the pain. Which is more helpful than, than there are words for.

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Yeah. Have fun. It's so good to have you here. I'm okay. Thank you. I can feel you breathing

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against me. It's really nice. It's calming. It feels good. Your arms are on me. You're

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breathing against me. It feels good. Thank you. I'm happy to have you here with me as

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I go through this. It's so good to have you here. Thank you. Yeah, I'm feeling a little

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better now. Yeah, the pain is still there but I think I've been able to calm my body

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a little bit. To calm my anxieties a little bit because I know you're here. I know you

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feel my pain. I know you support me. Thank you. Thank you for supporting me. You're so

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good to me. You're so good to me. You are so good to me. You make me feel so good. Yes,

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you do. Just by being you, you are so good to me. Thank you.