1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:13,680 Hey guys, um, I just kind of wanted to talk to you guys about something, I feel. 2 00:00:13,680 --> 00:00:25,920 So today at work, I was really fucking struggling during the second half after lunch, because 3 00:00:25,920 --> 00:00:41,600 I couldn't stop thinking about creating a Google Sheet for my audios, with all the yes 4 00:00:41,600 --> 00:00:50,920 no fields and the filters, and I want to create like a macro with buttons, but I don't know 5 00:00:50,920 --> 00:00:52,520 how to do that in Google Sheets. 6 00:00:52,520 --> 00:01:00,520 I know how to do it in Excel and access, but I don't know how to do it in Google Sheets. 7 00:01:00,520 --> 00:01:12,840 But I couldn't get any work done for four hours, because my mind was so stuck on that. 8 00:01:12,840 --> 00:01:16,120 And I don't know if you guys ever get like this. 9 00:01:16,120 --> 00:01:24,720 I don't know if it's, I have ADHD, so I'm not sure I think it might be to do with that, 10 00:01:24,720 --> 00:01:33,080 that my brain just sometimes gets stuck on things, and I can't, I can't move on from 11 00:01:33,080 --> 00:01:34,080 them. 12 00:01:34,080 --> 00:01:35,080 I can't do what I need to do. 13 00:01:35,080 --> 00:01:41,320 I just keep, keep thinking about that one thing, I keep going back to it, and just like 14 00:01:41,320 --> 00:01:50,400 thinking more and more and more and more about it, and I'm just staring at my computer for 15 00:01:50,400 --> 00:02:01,560 the life of me, trying to do one thing for work, and I just fucking can't, I just can't 16 00:02:01,560 --> 00:02:13,400 do it because I can't unstick my brain from the Google Sheets fucking macro and drop boxes 17 00:02:13,400 --> 00:02:19,560 and it was absolutely awful. 18 00:02:19,560 --> 00:02:28,360 And then I got home today, after being stuck on this for four hours, and I spent about 19 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:36,880 30 minutes realizing that I don't think I can do what I want to do, which is upsetting. 20 00:02:36,880 --> 00:02:47,120 But I believe in myself, I believe there's going to be something I can do and some filters 21 00:02:47,120 --> 00:02:48,120 I can set up. 22 00:02:48,120 --> 00:02:56,440 I don't know if I can set up a pop-up so that you can check your own boxes and filters and 23 00:02:56,440 --> 00:02:57,560 like search for keywords. 24 00:02:57,560 --> 00:02:59,040 I don't think I can do that. 25 00:02:59,040 --> 00:03:06,920 I really don't think I can do that with Google Sheets, but I can create a single spreadsheet 26 00:03:06,920 --> 00:03:12,480 with many drop-downs and then you can exclude your rape audios, your incest audios, or whatever 27 00:03:12,480 --> 00:03:16,920 cheating audios that you just don't listen to, and then you can have a nice little list 28 00:03:16,920 --> 00:03:20,320 of the only things that interest you. 29 00:03:20,320 --> 00:03:33,560 I do this thing when I get stuck on thoughts and ideas and I'm at work specifically. 30 00:03:33,560 --> 00:03:40,000 I take my, it's so weird, I really want to know if any of you guys do this or have done 31 00:03:40,000 --> 00:03:54,720 it before, but I take my mouse and I line it up on my computer screen with certain edges 32 00:03:54,720 --> 00:03:56,120 of things. 33 00:03:56,120 --> 00:04:02,440 I'm not explaining this very well, but like, you know, when you're in a Word document, 34 00:04:02,440 --> 00:04:08,400 you have little, looks like a little eye guy, looks like a little eye, it's like a bracket 35 00:04:08,400 --> 00:04:19,600 or something as your cursor, so I take that cursor, that's the eye, and I line it up with 36 00:04:19,600 --> 00:04:27,520 I's in the Word document or N's in the Word document or T's, oh I love doing it with T's 37 00:04:27,520 --> 00:04:35,600 because if you line it up just right with the T, capital T, okay, capital T, you can 38 00:04:35,600 --> 00:04:46,480 get the middle line in the bracket and a bit of the top line of the bracket to change colors. 39 00:04:46,480 --> 00:04:55,280 And then you, I don't know, I sound like a loon right now. 40 00:04:55,280 --> 00:05:04,000 Please tell me anybody else does this, and I'm not alone in this weird little coping 41 00:05:04,000 --> 00:05:10,200 method I have to try and clear my mind and unstick it of the things that just won't leave 42 00:05:10,200 --> 00:05:14,920 me alone. 43 00:05:14,920 --> 00:05:24,200 So I do that, and then when I'm sometimes in an Excel document, I'll also do that on 44 00:05:24,200 --> 00:05:34,000 the edges of the boxes with like a pointer, or if I'm, if I had pasted an Excel document 45 00:05:34,000 --> 00:05:41,680 into a table in a Word document, and you like highlight on the cells, it like changes the 46 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:52,920 color of the highlighted cursor, it's weird, okay, it really sounded like a loon, but the 47 00:05:52,920 --> 00:05:57,440 point is sometimes my brain gets stuck on things and then I can't do work and it sucks 48 00:05:57,440 --> 00:06:18,480 and I hate it, and I have fairly well managed ADHD, but not, not 100%, I used to take drugs 49 00:06:18,480 --> 00:06:27,800 for it, but I liked them a lot, I thought, I liked them too much I think, they made me 50 00:06:27,800 --> 00:06:39,820 feel calm and happy and just content, and it was like, this isn't a good idea, I probably 51 00:06:39,820 --> 00:06:47,200 shouldn't be doing this, I'm too happy, I feel too good, something wrong, I shouldn't 52 00:06:47,200 --> 00:06:57,040 feel this good, and I didn't really want to be dependent on that, and then, so I just 53 00:06:57,040 --> 00:07:14,240 stopped taking them, but I went most my, what's it called, scholastic career, sure we'll call 54 00:07:14,240 --> 00:07:24,080 it that, I went most my scholastic career without medication, my mother and father really 55 00:07:24,080 --> 00:07:31,120 didn't want me diagnosed with ADHD, they thought it would be a black mark on my record and 56 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:46,200 nobody would hire me because of that, which wasn't fun to know as a child, so my mom would 57 00:07:46,200 --> 00:07:57,600 give me different coping methods, like lists, and they didn't really believe girls could 58 00:07:57,600 --> 00:08:03,240 get ADHD or girls could have ADHD, they believed that was only a male thing, my mom actually 59 00:08:03,240 --> 00:08:12,760 said that her family carries the gene for ADHD for boys, for boys, just the one for 60 00:08:12,760 --> 00:08:20,400 boys, not the one for girls, so had I been a boy, I would have had ADHD, no, that's not 61 00:08:20,400 --> 00:08:36,120 how it works, so when I went away to college, I had to take philosophy classes, and I'm 62 00:08:36,120 --> 00:08:46,200 not good at philosophy, I'm really not, but I had to take them, so I did one, I got a 63 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:57,680 C, and then I did another one, and I was like, I can't read this, I can't do it, I just can't 64 00:08:57,680 --> 00:09:00,280 read it, what is wrong with me? 65 00:09:00,280 --> 00:09:07,680 So I went to the school therapist, school counselor, whatever, you get a few sessions 66 00:09:07,680 --> 00:09:17,880 with your tuition for free, so I went to her, and I was like, hey, I can't, I can't pay 67 00:09:17,880 --> 00:09:25,680 attention to shit, I think I have ADHD, and we went through the whole questionnaire, like, 68 00:09:25,680 --> 00:09:31,800 you have to also experience this, not just in the work setting, not just in a school 69 00:09:31,800 --> 00:09:41,800 setting, but also in a personal setting, and I do, actually, I tend to, one of the reasons 70 00:09:41,800 --> 00:09:48,760 I think I have trouble orgasming is because I just, like, dissociate a bit sometimes when 71 00:09:48,760 --> 00:09:58,160 I have sex, so I chalked that up to that, I was like, I can't pay attention to sex either, 72 00:09:58,160 --> 00:10:04,200 I can't pay attention to things I want to pay attention, I can't, I can't pay attention 73 00:10:04,200 --> 00:10:14,040 to some TV shows, I, yeah, I also have this funny thing where I fall asleep at concerts 74 00:10:14,040 --> 00:10:19,240 sometimes, only when I'm sitting down, when I'm standing up, I've never fallen asleep 75 00:10:19,240 --> 00:10:24,680 at a concert standing up, I've never done that, so when that happens, I don't know what 76 00:10:24,680 --> 00:10:34,160 I'm going to do, I guess just quit, but it's never happened, yeah, and then I have problems 77 00:10:34,160 --> 00:10:41,760 in meetings, and then in lectures, and then when I'm trying to read shit, like philosophy, 78 00:10:41,760 --> 00:10:44,560 so we did the questionnaire, and she's like, yeah, it kind of sounds like you've had it, 79 00:10:44,560 --> 00:10:51,920 and I was like, yeah, and you talk about, it doesn't just appear, you've had it through 80 00:10:51,920 --> 00:11:00,080 childhood, and I was often very forgetful, and just couldn't, couldn't hold things in 81 00:11:00,080 --> 00:11:12,240 my mind for very long tasks, so, and then I did like the computer test, where, I don't 82 00:11:12,240 --> 00:11:20,000 know, it's like you got to click on things or something, and then it judges something, 83 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:24,960 so yeah, I was like, yeah, it sounds like ADHD, computer says ADHD, sure, take this, 84 00:11:24,960 --> 00:11:30,560 bye, I was like, cool, thanks, I feel better, and it's like, yeah, and always, also, you 85 00:11:30,560 --> 00:11:34,480 have to come back for your prescription and then bring it to the pharmacy, because the 86 00:11:34,480 --> 00:11:40,920 control met, and I was like, okay, cool, see you in 30 days, and so I took it for a little 87 00:11:40,920 --> 00:11:47,080 while, and I really liked it, it was really great, it made me feel really good, I was 88 00:11:47,080 --> 00:11:57,120 able to relax, less anxiety, happier, everything, it was great, but then I stopped taking it, 89 00:11:57,120 --> 00:12:07,000 it is what it is, so I get stuck on thoughts sometimes, and today I got stuck on this thought, 90 00:12:07,000 --> 00:12:22,120 I don't know how to end this, let me know if you guys get stuck on thoughts too, tell 91 00:12:22,120 --> 00:12:37,760 me I'm not alone in this.