1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:20,000 Hey. Hey. Hey. It's alright. You're alright. Just lie back down for me, okay? It's just 2 00:00:20,000 --> 00:00:27,000 me. It's just me. I know it's dark. You don't mind me running my fingers through your hair, 3 00:00:27,000 --> 00:00:34,000 okay? I was going to wake you, but it just seemed mighty cruel. It took you so long to 4 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:42,000 fall asleep, so I thought I'd just let you drift to the surface. I was so very pleased 5 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:50,000 that you agreed to stay the night, just having you in these walls. It's like the house is 6 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:55,000 alive again. It's not strange to see any of my brother's room, is it? It was the first 7 00:00:55,000 --> 00:01:02,000 to be empty. The day the postman brought the letter from the army. I think that was the 8 00:01:02,000 --> 00:01:08,000 last day anything was right, but I knew my prayers were answered when I saw you coming 9 00:01:08,000 --> 00:01:16,000 up the way. You didn't recognize me, did you? In my brother's old coveralls and daddy's 10 00:01:16,000 --> 00:01:23,000 hat, and just some scrawny boy mending the fence for a dollar. And I did pray for you 11 00:01:23,000 --> 00:01:29,000 every day and every night while you were in France. As long as you came back, things could 12 00:01:29,000 --> 00:01:36,000 be right again. It's just been so long since I knew what to do. After the letter, mama, 13 00:01:36,000 --> 00:01:43,000 she… The doctor thought maybe she had the Spanish flu. If she did, daddy and I never 14 00:01:43,000 --> 00:01:50,000 got it from her. But she burned like there was a fire inside of her. She couldn't eat. 15 00:01:50,000 --> 00:01:56,000 She couldn't sleep. I stayed with her as much as I could. Read to her, sang to her. 16 00:01:56,000 --> 00:02:02,000 Anything I could think of whenever daddy could spare me. There were no hands to hire for 17 00:02:02,000 --> 00:02:09,000 the field. They were all gone to France to fight the Hun. One day I saw a cornstalk just 18 00:02:09,000 --> 00:02:16,000 rotting where it stood. Turned right black. We pulled it up quick as we could, but the 19 00:02:16,000 --> 00:02:22,000 next day there were ten yards of crop gone bad. We fought it, me and daddy. Fought it 20 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:30,000 like devils. And mama was just getting worse. I told myself, if we can save the field, mama 21 00:02:30,000 --> 00:02:37,000 will live. I don't know why I said that, but somehow I knew it was true. In the end, 22 00:02:37,000 --> 00:02:48,000 we burned half the field trying to stop the rot, but it kept on just the same. Mama had 23 00:02:48,000 --> 00:03:00,000 on for a month. And daddy… I don't reckon daddy was meant to live in a world that just 24 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:07,000 had mama in it. I didn't sleep that night. I laid awake begging God or the stars or anyone 25 00:03:07,000 --> 00:03:14,000 that would listen to bring you back from France. I would do anything, give anything, just let 26 00:03:14,000 --> 00:03:23,000 him live. That was the first night I saw you. It wasn't a dream. I saw you in a trench, 27 00:03:23,000 --> 00:03:28,000 mud up to your ankles, checking your pouches again and again, making sure the bullets were 28 00:03:28,000 --> 00:03:36,000 still there. France wasn't like it was in the books. It was gray. Gray like the dead, 29 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:46,000 burnt field. I saw you every night after that. I know how it sounds. I know. Please. It sounds 30 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:59,000 cracked. No, please, don't get up. You need to rest. I said, please, don't get up. You 31 00:03:59,000 --> 00:04:04,000 know what that is. The muzzle of daddy's revolver pressed up against your ribs. I didn't 32 00:04:04,000 --> 00:04:12,000 want to do that. I don't want to, but you don't understand. I could have never gotten 33 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:20,000 close like this. Not if I wasn't meant to be. All that time, none of the Huns ever got 34 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:27,000 this close, did they? Ever had you like this? They didn't. You were the one who got close. 35 00:04:27,000 --> 00:04:36,000 It's alright. You don't have to say. I know. I saw. I saw what you did to them. With your 36 00:04:36,000 --> 00:04:52,000 rifle, with your knife, with your bare hands. I saw you painted red. You were beautiful. 37 00:04:52,000 --> 00:04:57,000 I almost couldn't stand it. My heart was pounding in my ears and my skin was so hot 38 00:04:57,000 --> 00:05:02,000 I thought maybe mama had given me the Spanish flu after all. I always thought that one day 39 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:09,000 we'd married. I don't know why. Years and years we spent every minute together we could, 40 00:05:09,000 --> 00:05:14,000 playing chess and reading popes and walking everywhere there was to walk. And we never 41 00:05:14,000 --> 00:05:23,000 even kissed or held hands or even looked at each other. But then I saw you and god, I've 42 00:05:23,000 --> 00:05:30,000 never needed anything so bad. Then you were there. Coming up the road to tell me you were 43 00:05:30,000 --> 00:05:39,000 finally, finally home. We drank coffee with lots of daddy's whiskey in it. I wasn't trying 44 00:05:39,000 --> 00:05:43,000 to trick you when I said I couldn't stand one more night alone in this house. I wanted 45 00:05:43,000 --> 00:05:48,000 to tell you that you didn't have to sleep in my brother's room. That you didn't belong 46 00:05:48,000 --> 00:05:59,000 there. This is all so strange and new. I know it shouldn't be happening like this but you 47 00:05:59,000 --> 00:06:10,000 might say no. And that can't happen. It can't. This is the only chance. It has to happen 48 00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:18,000 and it has to happen tonight. But it can't happen in here. Hidden from the sky. Can you 49 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:32,000 see it all yet? I need you to look at me. Really. Look at me. Why are you looking away? 50 00:06:32,000 --> 00:06:41,000 Of course I'm naked. That's just the way it has to be. For both of us. For both of us. 51 00:06:41,000 --> 00:06:54,000 Don't make me tell you again. Now stand up and get ready. Good. Good. Now. Come on now. 52 00:06:54,000 --> 00:07:07,000 The field is waiting for us. I know you don't understand. But you will. I promise you. The 53 00:07:07,000 --> 00:07:13,000 corn in this field used to stand twelve feet high. Now it's just a bare patch of ground. 54 00:07:13,000 --> 00:07:23,000 You can change all that though. Yes. Yes you can. So much went wrong. The ground opened 55 00:07:23,000 --> 00:07:31,000 up and how many bodies did it swallow? How much blood? And ash? But not you. You're 56 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:48,000 still alive. Only you. No. I'm not. Me. This place. We're dead. But you lived. Somehow. 57 00:07:48,000 --> 00:07:56,000 Through the shells and the gas. It's still inside you. You can make this place live again. 58 00:07:56,000 --> 00:08:05,000 You can make. Me. Live again. And it'll be easy. The easiest thing in the whole wide 59 00:08:05,000 --> 00:08:22,000 world. Stop backing up. You heard the hammer click. Now stop. Just. Please. Just let me 60 00:08:22,000 --> 00:08:31,000 be close. I mean. Look at you. So pale and perfect in the moonlight. I could worship 61 00:08:31,000 --> 00:08:42,000 you like this. Would you like that? If I got on my knees and worshipped you. If I worshipped 62 00:08:42,000 --> 00:08:55,000 you. With my mouth. Please don't make me point this at you. Please. Please. Let this 63 00:08:55,000 --> 00:09:23,000 be like it should. Just let it be good. Just let it happen. The easiest thing in the whole 64 00:09:23,000 --> 00:09:42,000 world. The easiest thing in the world. And the way you're swallowing in my mouth. You 65 00:09:42,000 --> 00:10:05,000 know don't you. You know this is where you're meant to be. I don't know what I expected 66 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:28,000 you to taste like but it's. It's. God. What's it? 67 00:10:28,000 --> 00:10:55,000 That's not right. It should. It should be saying. It's good. Isn't it. My mouth. My 68 00:10:55,000 --> 00:11:16,000 tongue. I can give you everything. All you have to do is stay here. Fine. If that's not 69 00:11:16,000 --> 00:11:44,000 enough. Then. Well. I guess I'll just have to kick it up a notch. There. That's it. 70 00:11:44,000 --> 00:12:02,000 There. Now. Come down here with me. On your back now. The ground is soft here. Almost 71 00:12:02,000 --> 00:12:13,000 as soft as my brother's bed ain't it. So this is what it's like to feel you in between my 72 00:12:13,000 --> 00:12:22,000 legs. Your chest under my hands. You can touch me you know. You can feel me to your heart's 73 00:12:22,000 --> 00:12:36,000 content. That's it. My thighs. My stomach. My breast. This is how it's meant to be after 74 00:12:36,000 --> 00:12:52,000 this. Feel lower. You know where. Feel just how ready I am for you. Yes. We do. We have 75 00:12:52,000 --> 00:13:17,000 to. But that doesn't mean it has to be bad. Let me show you. Alright. Let me. It happened. 76 00:13:17,000 --> 00:13:30,000 It really happened. God. God he's so deep and. You understand now. Don't you. You're 77 00:13:30,000 --> 00:13:41,000 going to give this place life again. And you're going to do it right here. Inside me. It's 78 00:13:41,000 --> 00:13:55,000 going to be beautiful. You'll see. I truly wish it could have been different. You know 79 00:13:55,000 --> 00:14:08,000 that don't you. With kisses and long slow touches and whispering to each other about 80 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:20,000 how much trouble we'd be in if my daddy caught us. But we can have so much more. You want 81 00:14:20,000 --> 00:14:39,000 this. Don't you. Yes. Yes. Yes. Drive up into me. Taste the sweat on my breast. I didn't 82 00:14:39,000 --> 00:14:54,000 need the gun did I. You wanted this. Didn't you. You always wanted me. Let me just put 83 00:14:54,000 --> 00:15:07,000 it in the dirt where it belongs so I can hold you like that. Pull your mouth up to my throat. 84 00:15:07,000 --> 00:15:22,000 Oh God. This is how it really ought to have been. This is how it's always going to be. 85 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:33,000 You're going to do it. You're going to bring life here again. It's been so long. We don't 86 00:15:33,000 --> 00:15:40,000 have to be alone anymore. Nothing can touch us like this. It's just going to be you and 87 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:53,000 me and the life you bring here. God you're straining so hard inside me. Feel me. Come 88 00:15:53,000 --> 00:16:05,000 on. Feel me. Feel me with you. Please. I want to live again. I want to feel something. I 89 00:16:05,000 --> 00:16:24,000 want to feel something. Give me everything. Give it to me until we both. It's so cold 90 00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:52,000 in here. Yes. Yes. There ain't no going back now. It's in me. What we made. What we 91 00:16:52,000 --> 00:17:16,000 made. We can be here. What are you doing? Yes. Yes. I can feel the muscle under my chin. 92 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:29,000 Please. Please. We're so close. All you have to do is accept it darling. You can. I know 93 00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:40,000 that you can. I never wanted to hurt you. You ought to have known that. You just. You 94 00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:53,000 couldn't leave. Not again. When you left the first time. I had to. What if you'd say 95 00:17:53,000 --> 00:18:03,000 no? It was my only chance. It has to mean something. Right? Me still being here. They're 96 00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:22,000 all gone but not me. We can make it like it was. Like it was meant to be. Can't we? It 97 00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:37,000 was so beautiful. I could see it. And I could make you see it too. I could. But. But you 98 00:18:37,000 --> 00:18:56,000 don't. Do you? When you look at me all. All you see is. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe. Maybe 99 00:18:56,000 --> 00:19:11,000 this is what was meant to happen. I. I understand. I do. I know what has to happen now. But I. 100 00:19:11,000 --> 00:19:19,000 I. I know I don't have the right to ask anything. Especially not this. But I. Could I. Could 101 00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:47,000 I kiss you? Just the ones we never did after all. Thank you. 102 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:54,000 Thank you.