happy cake day to me happy cake day to me happy cake day happy cake day happy
cake day to me can you guess what day it is as if that song totally didn't give
it away it's my motherfucking cake day fuck yeah oh god I've come literally
and in multiple ways quite a long way in the span of a fucking year I keep
dropping f-bombs like crazy I'm sorry but regardless to think a year ago I was
this shy insecure just fucking weird little 18 year old who has blossomed
into this still pretty shy and awkward but very charismatic bubbly fucking I
don't even know 19 year old it's really weird I've I've grown from an awkward
little caterpillar into a very appealing cocoon let's say that because I don't
think I've reached butterfly status yet I'll get there eventually but god it's
so weird to think about my journey so far as somebody who's been in GWA for a
fucking year now that's really weird like I never thought I'd reach a year
point I figured after like maybe a few months I'd get tired of it and wear out
and don't get me wrong I have had points and moments where I have gotten pretty
exhausted and almost gave up doing the audio porn shit altogether but the
kindness the support that has come my way from all of you has helped me to not
burn out as intensely and even when I knew that I needed to step away and take
a break you guys waited with so much patience and kindness in your hearts and
I need to thank you for that because audio porn is an intense hobby there's
something that you're not really aware of when you make your first audio or
your verification audio or whatever and that is that you never realize just how
crazy intense and an emotional rollercoaster it's gonna be when you
start posting your orgasms and your sexuality to the internet I've not had
very many bad experiences I'm gonna be honest I've had a ton of pretty much
positive fantastic experiences I mean I've gotten my slew of creepy fucking
PMS I've gotten my slew of dick pics and really stupid bullshit like that but I
mean it never takes away from the overwhelming positivity I receive
whether they be in the form of comments and praise on audios or PMS by people
reaching out and telling me that I've made an impact in their lives somehow I
mean I don't know how me whimpering and orgasming into a mic impacts somebody
but to know that it can impact somebody in such a positive way really means a
lot growing up I kind of raised myself on porn can I be honest and say that so
for me porn isn't necessarily something that just titillates and arouses I mean
it does but it's also kind of a comfort thing for me so for me a lot of my
security blanket entertainment is actually porn which is probably weird
now that doesn't mean that I watch and consume it like 24-7 I'd say I consume it
closer to 27 but but I mean ultimately to know that I can have the same effect
that porn stars and things like that have had on me in my most lonely dark
moments is honestly really fucking amazing and very moving you know not
only that but I've made friends I've made friends and friendly acquaintances in
the lovely world of GWA and I did not think that our orgasms would unite us to
be friends and to be friendly with one another but what do you know sex makes
the world go round I guess orgasms make people happy and I guess we spread our
orgasmic happy drunkenness to one another all the time and as a result it's
a positivity insanity I guess we could say I don't know it's just I've grown
and changed a lot it's not just because of all of you it came from within me as
well it took me to have the strength in myself to realize I need to grow in this
or that way and it's been a long painful journey for me to make a lot of the
changes in my life that I've made to become a better person whether that be
distancing myself from people that just were not helping my life go in a better
direction or whether it be me ultimately realizing some intense personality flaws
or what have you or learning to love myself despite difficulties with my
body for instance also I've learned a lot of very painful intense but very
important lessons through my communications not only in GWA but
because of the smattering of love and support from GWA I've been able to take
a lot of these self-reflected moments and apply them to my personal life did
any of that make any sense by the way because I'm like kind of in an emotional
haze so anything I'm saying right now is probably a screen of what the fuck in
your heads so I'm very sorry about that but regardless I still need to work on
the apologizing habit thing I do it way too much way too often I need to not do
that oopsie boopsies but ultimately I want to take this time to thank you guys
I know I've done this a couple times but I figure it is worth it so I shall I
want to thank you for many intense orgasms every night maybe not every night
but most nights thank you so much for making me a sweaty panty disgusting
little mess of a whispers I really appreciate that but not only that but
thank you for distracting my mind from loneliness when I'm sitting in the team
speak thank you for listening to me you know for people that are in the team
speak hi team speak people thank you guys for always listening to my babbles
about that one thing I'm super fucking passionate about because I'm a fucking
nerdy little whispers and sometimes I just need to explode my excitement onto
other people that sounds really sexual I did not mean it that way but it's okay
because I would gladly do that too if I could
thank you for just being you thank you for sharing what makes you the sexual
being that you are thank you for putting your turn-ons and your desires out there
because one person's desires lead to more things in the world and the more
we spread our passions and our wants and our needs I think the more peaceful our
world might become which might be kind of weird to say but that's what I think
if we can apply all of that openness and forwardness into our own personal lives
I think it will do a lot of good and speaking for myself it's done amazing
things so thank you guys for supporting me and I hope you will continue to
support me from this point onwards so thank you guys so fucking much I love
you all incredibly and I'm looking forward to making you guys come with me
and making you guys feel connected more to me and things like that I sound
vaguely egotistical and narcissistic probably saying that but yeah I love you
guys thank you and I look forward to another year in this wonderful crazy
little community