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Confession time. I can't penetrate my pussy, and I don't get wet very easy.

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These are two statements that I'm sure will make some of your dicks wilt, and

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is probably going to crush a lot of your hopes and dreams. Why do I say this?

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Because I'm sure there's many of you out there that would kill to have an audio

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of me with something up in my pussy, or making a scenario up where you are

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inside of my pussy, or you'd want me to make wet sounds, or you want something

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like that. I'm sorry. You're going to be immensely disappointed if you are

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expecting such things from me. You're never going to see something like that

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ever, and I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. From the depths of my heart, I'm sorry, and I

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mean that. I'm genuinely really apologetic that you're never gonna hear

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that from me ever, because if I was like any normal girl in GWA, I'd be able to

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fuck dildos like nothing. I'd be able to put things inside like it was nobody's

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business. I'd be able to make all the squirty wet audios you'd ever dream of.

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I'm sorry. I can't. I'm sorry. It takes so many orgasms before I even start to get

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wet at all, and even then it's normally not enough for my mic to pick it up. I

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can't penetrate my pussy because it hurts way too much when I try. It is awful, and

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I hate it. I'm happy because I'm gonna be seeing somebody to get this shit looked

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out and checked out next month, which is pretty great, so I took that initiative,

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but let me just say I'm really fucking sorry because I'm sure there's people

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out there that would dream of having a wet sounds tag on a whispers audio, but

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if that's your dream, it's gonna never come true because you're never gonna

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hear that from me. You're never gonna hear a fucking wet sounds pussy

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penetrating audio. It's never gonna happen because it just it can't happen

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in my reality, and if I were to do a fantasy audio of something going in my

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pussy, I think it would be way too upsetting for me after the fact, and I'd

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probably just feel awful in the end. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I'm incredibly,

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incredibly sorry. I wish that my pussy was like other women on GWA. I wish that

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I could get wet very easily. I wish I could come very like intensely to where

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I squirt often. I wish not even only that, but I wish I could get wet very easily. I

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wish I could put a finger, even just a fucking pinky in, and I can't even do

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that. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. My body's very defective. I'm sorry. It's gonna be a

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while, if ever, that I'll ever make an audio where you'll hear distinct wet

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sounds right up close. That's actually kind of doable. If I come enough after

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the masturbation, I can easily do something like that, but I can't do it

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while I'm masturbating because you're not gonna hear anything. I'm sorry. I'm just

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apologizing a lot because I know I'm breaking a lot of hearts right now, so I

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just wanted to say I'm sorry, and that I'm sorry my body is this disgusting,

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defective fucking thing that I'm sure that after making that confession, a lot

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of you wouldn't even want your fucking hands on me at that point. I'm sorry. I'm

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really sorry. I'm sure you wish that you could put your hard dicks inside, or

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you're wishing you could put a strap on in me, or you're wishing you could do

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something like that. You could put it up in my pussy. You can't. You want to, you

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want to stimulate my g-spot and make me squirt. You can't do that. I'm sorry. I'm

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sorry. I can squirt from clip play. At least there's that, but if you're looking

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to get intense wet sounds and squirting and intense dildo riding and stuff, it's

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never gonna happen. I'm sorry. I feel pretty shitty right now, and I just felt

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a need to apologize for all this. I guess in a way this is me venting in a more

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simple fas- fashion. I don't know. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that little ol' whispers

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has to have a disgusting body like this, that if you wanted to get in bed with me

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it would be a very non-penetrative thing. I can't even do anal as much as I want

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because it does require a lot of relaxation. It requires a lot of lube.

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It's doable, but it's- it's got a lot more prep work to it compared to vaginal,

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and even then for me vaginal is a fucking impossibility. Good luck. I'm

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sorry. I'm really sorry. I always feel really selfish when I go on GWA and make

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the requests for non-penetrative audios because, like, I've already made the

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requests like two, three times now, and I would feel very awful if I went back in

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there and made another request for it, you know? It's been very hard for me to

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get off to GWA stuff lately in general because every single fucking audio I hear

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that's M4F has goddamn pussy fucking in it. Every single fucking F4M audio I hear-

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every single audio I hear ever for any fucking thing, really, any fucking massed

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audio, it always has to mention tight pussies, it always has to mention shit

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like that, and I fucking hate it. I feel like I'm, like, I feel like I'm stuck at

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the corner of this really intense, really awesome club or something, like, I'm just

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in the corner kind of doing my thing and nobody really fucking cares because

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they're all busy fucking each other because they're infinitely better

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because they can do these things that I can't do. I just feel awful. I wish that I

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had a water fountain of a pussy. I wish I had the ability to put things inside. I

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wish that it wasn't so difficult for me, and I wish I loved myself a little bit

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more than I do. So for now, you know, I'm just gonna stick with what I do best, but

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even then I feel like I'm not good enough. I'm not- I'm not good enough. I'll

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never be good enough with how my body is. You know, people probably fantasize about

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me and they imagine sticking themselves up in me and if it's my ass, oh yeah,

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sure, you know, that could actually feasibly happen. Granted, it's not about

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if things can happen feasibly in fantasies, but sometimes, not even

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sometimes, oftentimes I try to have fantasies where I can be vaginally

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penetrated, and then guess what happens? After the fact, I get incredibly

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depressed because I know it's not possible. I just feel awful, and I wish I

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could get over this. I wish I could just get over these feelings because I know

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people told me before, they've told me before, and they continue to tell me that

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vaginal is not everything. I have friends that have told me, you know, that you're

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probably worrying about this more than anyone else would even care about, but I

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don't think you understand how fucking painful it is when I get requests in my

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inbox from people that want to hear me fuck my pussy or they want to hear what

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sounds, you know, how inconsiderate that is or comes across. Granted, I'm sure they

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don't know, so it's not fair for me to say it's inconsiderate, but from my

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perspective, it's fucking awful. I don't know, I just feel like shit, and I don't

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know. Could this negative body image be correlating with the vaginal issues? I'll

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never know, maybe. I'll find out next month after I see the gynecologist, but

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am I really gonna know? No, and I'm sure it's gonna be one hell of a fucking

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workload to try and get through. My body isn't worthy of much, and it's funny I

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say that because one of the ways I cope with these inadequate feelings and the

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ways that I cope with hating myself is I make love to myself because it's the

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only way I know how to love myself. Isn't that some funny irony right there?

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I can sit here and vent about my pussy all I want, but at the end of the day I

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still touch it. I still stimulate it. I still touch my clit. It's the only way I

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know how to comfort myself when I feel like this. I'm not gonna do it right now

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because I don't want to touch that disgusting thing between my legs. Fuck

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that, no. I don't know. I just, I'm sorry that I'm venting like this. I'm sorry

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that you have to see this stupid, disgusting, mopey, fucking side of me. I'm

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sorry. Really sorry, and I'm sorry it's the same angst from before. I'm sorry

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that every time I do a fucking vent audio it seems like it's always about my

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vagina. It's almost like my life revolves around it, but it doesn't. I promise it

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doesn't. That'd be a weird life to live, wouldn't it? Sexuality is beautiful

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because it is the expression of one's most intimate, vulnerable self. And the

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funniest part, when I want to express to myself just how much I love myself, when

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my finger wants to wedge its way inside, guess what? It doesn't fucking happen.

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And I feel like at this rate it's never going to. I'm trying to remain optimistic.

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I'm trying really hard to remain optimistic. I can't. I can't be optimistic

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about my body all the time, and right now I don't feel good about my body. I don't

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feel good about the fact that my pussy is like this. If it could get wet easier,

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if it could get receptive to being penetrated, I think I'd be a lot happier.

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But I feel like I'm gonna be a sexual inconvenience to my first person I sleep

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with, whoever that might be. I feel like I'm gonna be an inconvenience to

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everybody who gets even remotely intimate with me ever. I feel like I'm

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gonna be the biggest inconvenience on the planet to them. That they're, you know,

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they're not gonna realize it if they were to try and put something inside how

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painful that would be. I don't know. I'm sorry, everyone. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that

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you're never gonna really get to enjoy me the way that a lot of you might enjoy

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other posters that make wet sounds and stuff and make intense squirting audios

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and stuff. I'm sorry that you're never really gonna hear much of that from me. I

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can squirt from clit and anal play. I can squirt from clit play. That might happen

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someday in an audio, but wet sounds are very unlikely. Every time I bring the mic

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down and try to touch myself, nothing happens. You don't hear anything. Even

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when I do get wet, it doesn't pick it up unless I start tapping at my pussy

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intensely, and it's pretty annoying that I have to even do that because there's

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people on GWA that all they have to do is fucking rub their fingers against

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themselves, and you can hear it right away. My body's defective. I'm disgusting,

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and I just need to accept that. I'm sorry.

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I'm really sorry.