Hey everybody, this is Whispers, and I'm going to try and keep this brief. So, you
might have noticed I have a tendency to go on hiatus here and there, right? In
recent memory I've went on hiatus a couple different times within the span
of a couple months or so. Why is this? At the time I would state and had stated,
and it's not a lie, that life circumstances led me to that point. They
were not good life circumstances either. Now this announcement, I'm not sure if
it's going to be in definite hiatus or full-on retirement, but what I will say
is this is probably going to be one of my last audios I ever make. Which I know
is kind of crappy because on my subreddit I've mentioned that I wanted to do a
variety of different contents and I just never found the time to do it because
life is going really well for me right now. I have so much to do in life now, you
know, and I realized that a lot of my time is being taken away doing audio
porn. Back when I first started a year ago making audio porn, making audios, you
know, I would talk to friends and stuff, but I didn't really have much to do. I
had a lot of free time and nowadays I don't really have that and I'm trying to
take my life more seriously and I'm realizing that right now in life it's
not my sexual self that needs nurturing and loving so heavily right now. Audio
porn serves to pamper that part of me, but it's never going to fix the parts of
me that I need to really work on. Has it helped with my confidence and self-esteem?
Oh fuck yes it has. Fuck yes it has. Go back and listen to my very first audio,
my very first masturbation audio, and go back and listen to one of my more recent
ones. Can you hear the jump in my confidence? I'm sure you can. I'm
definitely sure that you can hear a difference. I'm actually pretty happy
with myself. I might have my critical moments, I might get depressive and
things like that, but recording myself masturbating and orgasming cannot help
issues like that and it will not. And I'm realizing that it's taking away time
that I could be spending with friends and it's taking away from time that I
could be really doing anything else to help nurture all of me, not just the
sexual me. And I'm only sharing like a good portion of myself with you guys. I
don't- you don't get to see a lot of who I am outside of audio porn. I let
glimpse and glimmers of myself out there and things like that, but I'm never going
to explicitly say super, super revealing details or anything. I will say though
the last audio I did kind of does actually- it infringes on my privacy a
pretty big deal actually and this is part of why I'm retiring also. Well, I say
retiring, but it could be hiatus. I haven't decided yet. Assume it is a
retirement though. Assume it's retirement because, uh, yeah, nothing bad has
happened, don't worry, but I am a little fearful for my safety. I was a little more
open than I would normally have been and it's got me thinking a little bit more
about just how much do I actually want to share online and things like that. I
just want to be a little more responsible. So there's that, but also
it's just everything I've said before too. When I first started doing audio
porn, I wasn't totally happy with who I was. I wasn't very confident in sexuality
and masturbation were two of the biggest things that helped comfort me and it
still does, but not as big as it used to. And I've grown a lot in the past year
thanks to your support and thanks to all these new sexual discoveries I've made
about myself. Truthfully, GWA didn't make me make a lot of these discoveries. I
found these out all on my own outside of it. I see stories of people that GWA has
changed their sexuality somehow and for me it just hasn't happened. Maybe I'm
just weird like that. I don't fucking know, but that's okay. And I do have one
audio palooza I have going on behind the scenes. I can't really say anything
about it. I want to leave it a surprise, but I think it's gonna blow your fucking
minds and I think you're gonna love it. Will I return? I'm not sure. Depending on
the reception of this audio palooza, there's a chance you might see me again
very briefly for a little bit, but I think it's safe to say I'm retiring from
audio porn and that this is probably one of the final times you're ever going to
hear my voice. The special audio going on behind the scenes is probably gonna be
one of the final times you ever hear me orgasm. I've made a lot of amazing
friends through GWA. I don't know how close a lot of them would consider me to
be to them. I don't really have anyone in GWA who I'm so fucking close to that I
would tell them my life story. There's like one or two people who I have told
a pretty decent amount about myself, but a lot of them not quite and it's kind of
a shame. I kind of wanted to get closer to people, but just because I'm retiring
from audio porn, here's some clarification for anyone who's listening
that is part of the team speak and stuff. There's probably a good
chance I'll still pop into the team speak and say hi to everybody. Like I'm
probably not gonna leave the team speak, that's actually really fun for me, but
with regard to making audio content and stuff, if I ever do make audios they're
not gonna be sexual, they're just gonna be like ASMR stuff or they're gonna be
not sexual stuff, but for the most part assume I'm not really making audios
anymore period, but really the biggest emphasis is being on the audio porn
because that's my main content. That said, um, Reddit has changed me a lot in a lot
of very good ways, but I need to focus on myself even more. I need to spend more
time with friends. I feel like lately audio porn has me feeling emotionally
isolated and listening to it doesn't help either, it actually makes me feel
worse. I think I'm ready to leave, I'm ready to spread my wings and leave the
nest, you know? It hasn't been an easy decision to come to. There's been a
couple times where I went on hiatus, they were kind of close in proximity and a
lot of that is because in that time period I also contemplated retirement,
but I decided to stay each time, but this time I think I've made my decision with
my head held high, and the decision ultimately is that I'm going to be
retiring from audio porn and things like that, and there will be no more whispers
pretty much. I'm getting sick so excuse all that coughing and hacking and shit,
but like I was saying, there's a very high chance that as whispers you will
never see me again. I do lurk around the internet elsewhere though, and if you
happen to hear my voice elsewhere and think it sounds familiar, I'll just go
ahead and say yeah it's probably me. I'm not gonna say who I am elsewhere, I'm not
giving away my identity like that, fuck no. So naturally this announcement of me
retiring might have you wondering, what the fuck is happening to me? What's gonna
happen? So let me give you a basic rundown. Since this is pretty cluttered,
I'm gonna try and be a little bit more organized with how I present this
information. First of all, my reddit page is not going anywhere as of right now.
I'm gonna leave it up for a little while, and a little while I'm not sure how to
define that, but I encourage feel free to send me PMs if you'd like, feel free to
send me comments if you'd like, do whatever you want to do. I will happily
happily read them and respond to them, and we shall see what happens. I'm not
even gonna close my reddit account anytime soon. However, there's a good
chance in the future that it probably will happen, but obviously if it gets to
the point where that does happen, I will make sure to warn you guys. When it's
gonna close, I will tell everybody, or maybe I won't. There might even be a
chance I don't say anything, and then you go to PM me, next thing you know my
account's been poofed, and bye bye. So I guess before that happens, I guess this
is my way of kind of urging you if there's any, like, if there's anything
that you'd want to tell me, or if there's anything that you'd want to get out of
the way, or whatever, before I leave for good.
Excuse me in fucking hell, goddamn I'm sorry. Okay, if there's anything you'd
want to tell me, feel free to send me all the PMs you'd like. I will read them, and
some of them I may or may not respond to, it really depends. I can't respond to
everything I get, but I do read everything, so that's pretty great. As for
my soundgazzing page, everything is staying up for now. I don't plan on
taking anything down off of it, since, well, really, you know, I don't care who
stumbles onto the soundgazzing page all that much. Some of my recordings are
probably gonna go and be set to private, just for my own safety, because outside
of Reddit I do singing, and I've, I mean, it's not an amazing voice or anything,
but it's kind of a distinct singing voice, so, and with details that I've
left in my audios, people could very easily identify who I am, and I'm very
scared about my privacy, which is actually one of the biggest reasons I'm
retiring is lately I'm actually a lot more cautious about my privacy and my
safety, and I feel like I've infringed on that quite a decent amount lately, and
it's very upsetting, but that's a whole other tangent for later on, but anyway,
third of all, what this does mean is, unfortunately, as much as I would have
loved to do more scat-themed audios, or as much as I would have loved to do more
audios in general that were more erotic or things like that, I'm sorry to say
that most likely they're not gonna happen. I'm very sorry, but the Reddit
account's not being closed anytime soon, so don't freak out yet. I do want to keep
in touch with you guys, and if this might be weird, this might be very weird, if
there's any of you that would especially want to stay in touch with me, if I
decide to close the Reddit account, I haven't fully decided that, honestly, and
if I do decide to close it, if I do, I actually have an email address that you
guys could email me at, so if any of you desperately would want to stay
in touch with me, I could give you that email address, and we could correspond
back and forth. I'd recommend if the email is a personal email for you that
has personally identifying information, I would kind of prefer if you made an
anonymous email so I didn't really know who you were, because I don't feel
comfortable knowing details about people while I keep myself relatively
anonymous and stuff, but that's an option, but that's drastic last-step measure
things for if my Reddit account closes. This is so not structured, I'm very sorry,
but to sum this motherfucker up, I am retiring from audio porn because it no
longer fulfills me, and I think I've accomplished everything I've wanted to
accomplish with regards to audio porn. I'm sticking around a little while longer,
so don't fret yet, and I'm probably going to stay in the team speak until I feel
that I have no need there either, so everyone in the team speak who likes to
hang out and talk to me or whatever, I'll still be there, don't fucking worry about
it, but in regards to Reddit itself, hard to say if I'll still be there or not,
but with regards to making audio porn, I'm definitely not doing it anymore, I'm
stopping for my own comfort and happiness, I don't feel like, I don't, I
don't feel happy coming for strangers anymore, I really don't, I'm coming to
realize, no pun intended, that I'm a bit more monogamous minded than I thought I
was, I don't mind having casual sex with people online and stuff, I really don't,
but like, I'd rather keep that stuff a little bit more private nowadays, so
that's part of my thinking, none of this makes sense I'm sure, and I'm very sorry
in advance, but yeah, don't hurtle your PMs at me just yet, if you feel like you're
being urged to right now, don't feel like you are being urged to, I encourage you
to if you would like to say any last words, but I'm not really closing my
account just yet, so you have time, but yeah, I probably won't make an audio for
when that happens, I'll probably just make a quick post on my subreddit just
saying, hey I'm leaving, you know, so that way everybody knows, but that's besides
the point, right, so I wanted to give my heartfelt thank you to all of your
comments and your kindness and your support and your sweetness, you have made
me feel that I can actually love myself, and it's very safe to say that I do have
lapses in my confidence, I still suffer from pretty low self-esteem at times, but
I can actually say that I do love myself somewhat, and it's thanks to realizing
that crazy amount of potential I have in myself, I don't think I'm gonna find that
love through just making audio porn anymore, and I need to, I need to love
myself in new ways, I need to get out there in the world and discover new
things and do new things, and that's what I'm doing now, I'm taking the reins in my
life and I'm going to do some really awesome shit, and I'm excited for it
supremely, and I hope for your support as I go into this new stage in my life, thank
you for always listening to me, thank you for always being so kind and sweet with
me, thank you for sending me dick pics, I cracked me the fuck up, for those of you
that have done that, it's hilarious, I don't know why you think that makes me
get wet or turned on, it really doesn't, it's hysterical, thank you for being you,
you know, I'm just really happy that I've had so much support and consideration
and kindness throughout the year that I've done this, it's just not for me
anymore, and I'm stepping away now, I have more important things, more important
stuff to do, and that's what I'm gonna do, so thank you, this might be one of the
final times you ever hear me ramble, so I'm sorry that I'm disappointing some of
you, I still have that exciting project coming up though, so look forward to that,
that's gonna be probably one of my final projects ever, but look forward to it, and
I'll still be posting on reddit and stuff for a little while after this is
posted, so don't freak out just yet, and I will let you all know when the time
comes that I am gonna take my leave, but this is just me saying that I'm no
longer recording audio porn as of tonight, with exception to the special
project, any content from me solo-wise is not happening, even collab-wise there's a
good chance that unless I've already agreed upon doing one with you, it's not
happening, most likely, there might be exceptions, but most likely not, so thank
you for always being so supportive and sweet, and I will do my best with this
next step in my life, I'm gonna continue to be this weird quirky little thing
that I've always been, and I'm gonna carry my newfound eroticism with me
because I know that I am a dangerous weapon not to be fucked with, and I can
do some amazing shit, so this has been whispers, and until we meet again, actually
let me rattle off in Japanese for a moment as well, because I figure it'll be
one of the final times you ever hear me do this as well in a not sexual context,
so let's do that too.
Yoroshiku onegai shimasu
Good bye everybody.