Confession time. I can't penetrate my pussy, and I don't get wet very easy.
These are two statements that I'm sure will make some of your dicks wilt, and
is probably going to crush a lot of your hopes and dreams. Why do I say this?
Because I'm sure there's many of you out there that would kill to have an audio
of me with something up in my pussy, or making a scenario up where you are
inside of my pussy, or you'd want me to make wet sounds, or you want something
like that. I'm sorry. You're going to be immensely disappointed if you are
expecting such things from me. You're never going to see something like that
ever, and I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. From the depths of my heart, I'm sorry, and I
mean that. I'm genuinely really apologetic that you're never gonna hear
that from me ever, because if I was like any normal girl in GWA, I'd be able to
fuck dildos like nothing. I'd be able to put things inside like it was nobody's
business. I'd be able to make all the squirty wet audios you'd ever dream of.
I'm sorry. I can't. I'm sorry. It takes so many orgasms before I even start to get
wet at all, and even then it's normally not enough for my mic to pick it up. I
can't penetrate my pussy because it hurts way too much when I try. It is awful, and
I hate it. I'm happy because I'm gonna be seeing somebody to get this shit looked
out and checked out next month, which is pretty great, so I took that initiative,
but let me just say I'm really fucking sorry because I'm sure there's people
out there that would dream of having a wet sounds tag on a whispers audio, but
if that's your dream, it's gonna never come true because you're never gonna
hear that from me. You're never gonna hear a fucking wet sounds pussy
penetrating audio. It's never gonna happen because it just it can't happen
in my reality, and if I were to do a fantasy audio of something going in my
pussy, I think it would be way too upsetting for me after the fact, and I'd
probably just feel awful in the end. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I'm incredibly,
incredibly sorry. I wish that my pussy was like other women on GWA. I wish that
I could get wet very easily. I wish I could come very like intensely to where
I squirt often. I wish not even only that, but I wish I could get wet very easily. I
wish I could put a finger, even just a fucking pinky in, and I can't even do
that. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. My body's very defective. I'm sorry. It's gonna be a
while, if ever, that I'll ever make an audio where you'll hear distinct wet
sounds right up close. That's actually kind of doable. If I come enough after
the masturbation, I can easily do something like that, but I can't do it
while I'm masturbating because you're not gonna hear anything. I'm sorry. I'm just
apologizing a lot because I know I'm breaking a lot of hearts right now, so I
just wanted to say I'm sorry, and that I'm sorry my body is this disgusting,
defective fucking thing that I'm sure that after making that confession, a lot
of you wouldn't even want your fucking hands on me at that point. I'm sorry. I'm
really sorry. I'm sure you wish that you could put your hard dicks inside, or
you're wishing you could put a strap on in me, or you're wishing you could do
something like that. You could put it up in my pussy. You can't. You want to, you
want to stimulate my g-spot and make me squirt. You can't do that. I'm sorry. I'm
sorry. I can squirt from clip play. At least there's that, but if you're looking
to get intense wet sounds and squirting and intense dildo riding and stuff, it's
never gonna happen. I'm sorry. I feel pretty shitty right now, and I just felt
a need to apologize for all this. I guess in a way this is me venting in a more
simple fas- fashion. I don't know. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that little ol' whispers
has to have a disgusting body like this, that if you wanted to get in bed with me
it would be a very non-penetrative thing. I can't even do anal as much as I want
because it does require a lot of relaxation. It requires a lot of lube.
It's doable, but it's- it's got a lot more prep work to it compared to vaginal,
and even then for me vaginal is a fucking impossibility. Good luck. I'm
sorry. I'm really sorry. I always feel really selfish when I go on GWA and make
the requests for non-penetrative audios because, like, I've already made the
requests like two, three times now, and I would feel very awful if I went back in
there and made another request for it, you know? It's been very hard for me to
get off to GWA stuff lately in general because every single fucking audio I hear
that's M4F has goddamn pussy fucking in it. Every single fucking F4M audio I hear-
every single audio I hear ever for any fucking thing, really, any fucking massed
audio, it always has to mention tight pussies, it always has to mention shit
like that, and I fucking hate it. I feel like I'm, like, I feel like I'm stuck at
the corner of this really intense, really awesome club or something, like, I'm just
in the corner kind of doing my thing and nobody really fucking cares because
they're all busy fucking each other because they're infinitely better
because they can do these things that I can't do. I just feel awful. I wish that I
had a water fountain of a pussy. I wish I had the ability to put things inside. I
wish that it wasn't so difficult for me, and I wish I loved myself a little bit
more than I do. So for now, you know, I'm just gonna stick with what I do best, but
even then I feel like I'm not good enough. I'm not- I'm not good enough. I'll
never be good enough with how my body is. You know, people probably fantasize about
me and they imagine sticking themselves up in me and if it's my ass, oh yeah,
sure, you know, that could actually feasibly happen. Granted, it's not about
if things can happen feasibly in fantasies, but sometimes, not even
sometimes, oftentimes I try to have fantasies where I can be vaginally
penetrated, and then guess what happens? After the fact, I get incredibly
depressed because I know it's not possible. I just feel awful, and I wish I
could get over this. I wish I could just get over these feelings because I know
people told me before, they've told me before, and they continue to tell me that
vaginal is not everything. I have friends that have told me, you know, that you're
probably worrying about this more than anyone else would even care about, but I
don't think you understand how fucking painful it is when I get requests in my
inbox from people that want to hear me fuck my pussy or they want to hear what
sounds, you know, how inconsiderate that is or comes across. Granted, I'm sure they
don't know, so it's not fair for me to say it's inconsiderate, but from my
perspective, it's fucking awful. I don't know, I just feel like shit, and I don't
know. Could this negative body image be correlating with the vaginal issues? I'll
never know, maybe. I'll find out next month after I see the gynecologist, but
am I really gonna know? No, and I'm sure it's gonna be one hell of a fucking
workload to try and get through. My body isn't worthy of much, and it's funny I
say that because one of the ways I cope with these inadequate feelings and the
ways that I cope with hating myself is I make love to myself because it's the
only way I know how to love myself. Isn't that some funny irony right there?
I can sit here and vent about my pussy all I want, but at the end of the day I
still touch it. I still stimulate it. I still touch my clit. It's the only way I
know how to comfort myself when I feel like this. I'm not gonna do it right now
because I don't want to touch that disgusting thing between my legs. Fuck
that, no. I don't know. I just, I'm sorry that I'm venting like this. I'm sorry
that you have to see this stupid, disgusting, mopey, fucking side of me. I'm
sorry. Really sorry, and I'm sorry it's the same angst from before. I'm sorry
that every time I do a fucking vent audio it seems like it's always about my
vagina. It's almost like my life revolves around it, but it doesn't. I promise it
doesn't. That'd be a weird life to live, wouldn't it? Sexuality is beautiful
because it is the expression of one's most intimate, vulnerable self. And the
funniest part, when I want to express to myself just how much I love myself, when
my finger wants to wedge its way inside, guess what? It doesn't fucking happen.
And I feel like at this rate it's never going to. I'm trying to remain optimistic.
I'm trying really hard to remain optimistic. I can't. I can't be optimistic
about my body all the time, and right now I don't feel good about my body. I don't
feel good about the fact that my pussy is like this. If it could get wet easier,
if it could get receptive to being penetrated, I think I'd be a lot happier.
But I feel like I'm gonna be a sexual inconvenience to my first person I sleep
with, whoever that might be. I feel like I'm gonna be an inconvenience to
everybody who gets even remotely intimate with me ever. I feel like I'm
gonna be the biggest inconvenience on the planet to them. That they're, you know,
they're not gonna realize it if they were to try and put something inside how
painful that would be. I don't know. I'm sorry, everyone. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that
you're never gonna really get to enjoy me the way that a lot of you might enjoy
other posters that make wet sounds and stuff and make intense squirting audios
and stuff. I'm sorry that you're never really gonna hear much of that from me. I
can squirt from clit and anal play. I can squirt from clit play. That might happen
someday in an audio, but wet sounds are very unlikely. Every time I bring the mic
down and try to touch myself, nothing happens. You don't hear anything. Even
when I do get wet, it doesn't pick it up unless I start tapping at my pussy
intensely, and it's pretty annoying that I have to even do that because there's
people on GWA that all they have to do is fucking rub their fingers against
themselves, and you can hear it right away. My body's defective. I'm disgusting,
and I just need to accept that. I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.
