Hi GWA. I'm sorry that my recent stuff has been mostly like poop stuff since my
return. And this is gonna be another poop related audio, I'm really
sorry about that. But I think a lot of why I've been posting so much is I've
been making more baby steps and strides in my scat fetishism. I've always been
kind of uncomfortable with the fact that I've been interested in poop for a lot
of my life. And it's funny because normally I'm somebody with a very weak
stomach, so I never expected I would be somebody developing a poop fetish, but
here I am. And I've made some really big strides recently and I'm really proud of
myself and I just wanted to, I guess, update you guys on how that's been
going. Because there are really erotic things that have happened and I want to
share some stories with you if that's okay. I mean I assume that you're
listening to this because you're okay with subjecting yourself to things about
scat. So I'm not even going to give any warning. I suppose I'll give a warning in
the description post, but there will be no warning here. I just, I'm so thrilled
and happy and I feel so confident in myself as of these past couple days. So
I'm going to, I'm going to kind of share some stories about my recent experiences.
These are very very small baby steps, but I think they are helping me become more
comfortable and okay with being turned on by poop. So I'm going to talk about
these strides in a bit of order. So the very first stride I've made recently,
it's kind of a big deal because I've always hesitated on this, but finally
something has come of it and I'm so excited. I touched my ass as it was
shitting. I did it! I put my finger against my ass while I was shitting and
I felt it and oh it was so good. So I didn't get my finger in as I was shitting.
I was a little bit too nervous for that at the time, but I was confident enough
to bring a finger back to the back door so to speak and to feel the shit come
out and the way it like pushed against my finger was amazing. It actually turned
me on so bad that when I made it back to my room I had to touch myself pretty
much right after the fact because I was so turned on and ridiculously aroused. So
the shit itself was not too soft but not like so firm that it was painful or
anything. It was like a very nice in-between and it felt kind of mushy
against my finger a little bit. I only felt it for about a minute but
like a good ten seconds before I kind of decided to take my finger away but I was
so proud of myself and excuse me not only that but I also kind of smeared it
a tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny bit and I'm starting to realize I'm a
little bit interested in the smearing messy aspect of sky like playing with my
shit. That's something that I'm very interested in trying in the future. Not
right now, not at this point. I'm still taking baby steps but that the way that
how do I explain like the is kinesthetic the right word I'm looking for here?
What's the right word I'm looking for here like the not the tangibility of
scab but like the the way it feels against my finger felt amazing and I
think it would feel really nice to actually touch it and really get
immersed in it you know. So it's something I want to try. I'm not as
interested in eating it. I think eating it's a little bit too much for me but
I'm okay with like the idea of playing with my shit and smearing it so we'll
see. But I'm very I'm very interested in it like very interested so I'm
excited about that. I made that stride so I'm thrilled. The next step I want to
take is fingering my ass after I shit just to kind of feel what it might feel
like up there after I've taken a nice big shit or maybe not big depends but
that poop that I took that night oh it was big it was big. The next stride I
took wasn't really something I did physically with myself but it was
something I did that I've been hesitating on for months and I finally did
it and I'm really proud of myself. I watched scat porn finally. I stopped
being scared and I found some really nice websites that have scat porn that's
not degrading or really hardcore scary stuff. It's actually very intimate sexy
stuff like girls masturbating anally with a dildo and then shitting on it.
That's fucking hot and I sat there and I started to watch it at first like
feeling like some slight revulsion like oh god what am I doing and then like by
like the halfway mark I didn't realize that I was already frantically rubbing
my clit but I was I was like I was I was masturbating to scat porn like I never
did that before and there I was masturbating to scat porn there I was
just getting off to it it was insane and then I found another video shortly after
and it was a fairly short one of this couple and the ladies on the bottom the
man's on the top and he's like he's like fucking her pussy whatever I'm just like
yeah that's typical whatever but then then but then but then she pooped and
you could you could see like the way he was stretching her vaginally and the way
her ass was stretching from the shit and and I came really hard I came like
stupidly hard like I had to like bite on my pillow and prevent squealing like it
was intense and it was insane it was fucking insane I'd never come to scat
porn before and now it's like not only do I primarily look up to hit fuck porn
now I'm also looking at like scat stuff with a little bit more bravery and
courage I'm just so excited I'm so excited I'm like taking all these big
steps in my newfound well not newfound but in my scat fetishes I'm like it's
so good you know a lot of Japanese scat porn is the stuff that kind of
intimidates me because some of it can be a little bit too much for me personally
but seeing those amateurs just shitting on dildos and stuff that got me off like
really hard like really hard really really really hard it was insane and I
don't know I'm just so excited about it you know I don't really know where I go
from here scat fetishism is quite a journey and I think a journey like this
takes a lot of baby steps after I had finished playing with my ass after well
not playing my ass too much like I just after playing with my shit as it came
out and I did kind of rub my asshole after a little bit not putting a finger
up in it or anything just rubbing against it after I had done that after
I'd watched the scat porn feelings of slight guilt and shame started to creep
back in again so I'm still trying my best to fight past those feelings and
just kind of ignore them the best I can because I know I'm not hurting anyone at
the end of the day with my scat fetishism I know that at the end of the
day it's a natural thing that happens to every single person on this planet poop
is a part of our lives it's probably one of the most intimate part of our lives
as well and I think there should be no shame in me indulging in that intimacy
with myself I think if anything it's probably a new way to connect to myself
and love myself even more by connecting to that most intimate part of myself
you know what I mean
so I don't know I still have a lot of feelings of shame guilt to work past
there's still a lot of there's still a lot of hesitation and uncertainty when
it comes to my scat fetishism it's something I'm trying to get more
comfortable with I've always been interested in poop and stuff but like
since a certain age I kind of made myself become repulsed by it because it
wasn't normal for a girl to be interested in something gross like that
right kind of a stupid way to think but that's how I thought growing up because
when I was very young I knew that I liked pooping a lot I'd always get
excited about it and I never really knew why I didn't really associate it with
sexual feelings until I had gotten a bit older and in more recent times I finally
started to you know I finally started to see pooping as a sexual thing and now
I'm starting to really dive in and explore it's a little nerve-wracking
it's a little there's still a lot that I need to get over in terms of the guilt
and shame but I think in the end I feel really proud of my recent progress you
know like I actually touched my own shit coming out of my ass I felt really
empowered in the moment I was like oh I did it I did it I had like the biggest
grin on my face like the whole time I was just like oh my god and then the
scat porn Jesus Christ I remember I kept thinking repeatedly I'm sorry I'm sorry
I'm sorry I'm sorry do I know who I was even apologizing to in my head no I
don't know but after like during watching the scat porn I remember my eyes
like widening I was just like wait and when I started coming like I was kind of
giggling a bit like it was unreal that I was coming to what I was seeing but I
was coming I remember one of my thoughts was at that time oh my god I'm actually
coming I'm actually coming to this oh my god and I did I think it's safe to say
I've finally stopped just fantasizing about Scott and now it's becoming more
part of my life a little bit more in terms of fetishism and things like that
so as nerve-racking as it is I'm looking forward to where my journeys will take
me with this so if I do anything else really exciting you guys will be the
first to know I look forward to it you should too you really should