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Hi GWA. I'm sorry that my recent stuff has been mostly like poop stuff since my

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return. And this is gonna be another poop related audio, I'm really

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sorry about that. But I think a lot of why I've been posting so much is I've

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been making more baby steps and strides in my scat fetishism. I've always been

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kind of uncomfortable with the fact that I've been interested in poop for a lot

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of my life. And it's funny because normally I'm somebody with a very weak

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stomach, so I never expected I would be somebody developing a poop fetish, but

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here I am. And I've made some really big strides recently and I'm really proud of

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myself and I just wanted to, I guess, update you guys on how that's been

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going. Because there are really erotic things that have happened and I want to

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share some stories with you if that's okay. I mean I assume that you're

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listening to this because you're okay with subjecting yourself to things about

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scat. So I'm not even going to give any warning. I suppose I'll give a warning in

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the description post, but there will be no warning here. I just, I'm so thrilled

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and happy and I feel so confident in myself as of these past couple days. So

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I'm going to, I'm going to kind of share some stories about my recent experiences.

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These are very very small baby steps, but I think they are helping me become more

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comfortable and okay with being turned on by poop. So I'm going to talk about

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these strides in a bit of order. So the very first stride I've made recently,

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it's kind of a big deal because I've always hesitated on this, but finally

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something has come of it and I'm so excited. I touched my ass as it was

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shitting. I did it! I put my finger against my ass while I was shitting and

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I felt it and oh it was so good. So I didn't get my finger in as I was shitting.

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I was a little bit too nervous for that at the time, but I was confident enough

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to bring a finger back to the back door so to speak and to feel the shit come

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out and the way it like pushed against my finger was amazing. It actually turned

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me on so bad that when I made it back to my room I had to touch myself pretty

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much right after the fact because I was so turned on and ridiculously aroused. So

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the shit itself was not too soft but not like so firm that it was painful or

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anything. It was like a very nice in-between and it felt kind of mushy

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against my finger a little bit. I only felt it for about a minute but

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like a good ten seconds before I kind of decided to take my finger away but I was

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so proud of myself and excuse me not only that but I also kind of smeared it

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a tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny bit and I'm starting to realize I'm a

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little bit interested in the smearing messy aspect of sky like playing with my

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shit. That's something that I'm very interested in trying in the future. Not

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right now, not at this point. I'm still taking baby steps but that the way that

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how do I explain like the is kinesthetic the right word I'm looking for here?

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What's the right word I'm looking for here like the not the tangibility of

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scab but like the the way it feels against my finger felt amazing and I

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think it would feel really nice to actually touch it and really get

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immersed in it you know. So it's something I want to try. I'm not as

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interested in eating it. I think eating it's a little bit too much for me but

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I'm okay with like the idea of playing with my shit and smearing it so we'll

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see. But I'm very I'm very interested in it like very interested so I'm

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excited about that. I made that stride so I'm thrilled. The next step I want to

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take is fingering my ass after I shit just to kind of feel what it might feel

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like up there after I've taken a nice big shit or maybe not big depends but

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that poop that I took that night oh it was big it was big. The next stride I

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took wasn't really something I did physically with myself but it was

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something I did that I've been hesitating on for months and I finally did

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it and I'm really proud of myself. I watched scat porn finally. I stopped

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being scared and I found some really nice websites that have scat porn that's

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not degrading or really hardcore scary stuff. It's actually very intimate sexy

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stuff like girls masturbating anally with a dildo and then shitting on it.

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That's fucking hot and I sat there and I started to watch it at first like

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feeling like some slight revulsion like oh god what am I doing and then like by

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like the halfway mark I didn't realize that I was already frantically rubbing

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my clit but I was I was like I was I was masturbating to scat porn like I never

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did that before and there I was masturbating to scat porn there I was

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just getting off to it it was insane and then I found another video shortly after

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and it was a fairly short one of this couple and the ladies on the bottom the

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man's on the top and he's like he's like fucking her pussy whatever I'm just like

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yeah that's typical whatever but then then but then but then she pooped and

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you could you could see like the way he was stretching her vaginally and the way

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her ass was stretching from the shit and and I came really hard I came like

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stupidly hard like I had to like bite on my pillow and prevent squealing like it

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was intense and it was insane it was fucking insane I'd never come to scat

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porn before and now it's like not only do I primarily look up to hit fuck porn

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now I'm also looking at like scat stuff with a little bit more bravery and

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courage I'm just so excited I'm so excited I'm like taking all these big

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steps in my newfound well not newfound but in my scat fetishes I'm like it's

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so good you know a lot of Japanese scat porn is the stuff that kind of

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intimidates me because some of it can be a little bit too much for me personally

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but seeing those amateurs just shitting on dildos and stuff that got me off like

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really hard like really hard really really really hard it was insane and I

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don't know I'm just so excited about it you know I don't really know where I go

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from here scat fetishism is quite a journey and I think a journey like this

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takes a lot of baby steps after I had finished playing with my ass after well

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not playing my ass too much like I just after playing with my shit as it came

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out and I did kind of rub my asshole after a little bit not putting a finger

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up in it or anything just rubbing against it after I had done that after

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I'd watched the scat porn feelings of slight guilt and shame started to creep

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back in again so I'm still trying my best to fight past those feelings and

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just kind of ignore them the best I can because I know I'm not hurting anyone at

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the end of the day with my scat fetishism I know that at the end of the

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day it's a natural thing that happens to every single person on this planet poop

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is a part of our lives it's probably one of the most intimate part of our lives

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as well and I think there should be no shame in me indulging in that intimacy

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with myself I think if anything it's probably a new way to connect to myself

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and love myself even more by connecting to that most intimate part of myself

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you know what I mean

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so I don't know I still have a lot of feelings of shame guilt to work past

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there's still a lot of there's still a lot of hesitation and uncertainty when

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it comes to my scat fetishism it's something I'm trying to get more

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comfortable with I've always been interested in poop and stuff but like

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since a certain age I kind of made myself become repulsed by it because it

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wasn't normal for a girl to be interested in something gross like that

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right kind of a stupid way to think but that's how I thought growing up because

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when I was very young I knew that I liked pooping a lot I'd always get

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excited about it and I never really knew why I didn't really associate it with

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sexual feelings until I had gotten a bit older and in more recent times I finally

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started to you know I finally started to see pooping as a sexual thing and now

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I'm starting to really dive in and explore it's a little nerve-wracking

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it's a little there's still a lot that I need to get over in terms of the guilt

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and shame but I think in the end I feel really proud of my recent progress you

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know like I actually touched my own shit coming out of my ass I felt really

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empowered in the moment I was like oh I did it I did it I had like the biggest

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grin on my face like the whole time I was just like oh my god and then the

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scat porn Jesus Christ I remember I kept thinking repeatedly I'm sorry I'm sorry

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I'm sorry I'm sorry do I know who I was even apologizing to in my head no I

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don't know but after like during watching the scat porn I remember my eyes

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like widening I was just like wait and when I started coming like I was kind of

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giggling a bit like it was unreal that I was coming to what I was seeing but I

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was coming I remember one of my thoughts was at that time oh my god I'm actually

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coming I'm actually coming to this oh my god and I did I think it's safe to say

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I've finally stopped just fantasizing about Scott and now it's becoming more

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part of my life a little bit more in terms of fetishism and things like that

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so as nerve-racking as it is I'm looking forward to where my journeys will take

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me with this so if I do anything else really exciting you guys will be the

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first to know I look forward to it you should too you really should