I'm having thoughts about scat and I figured it might be worth rambling about because it's
kind of more a fantasy than anything.
So, my biggest thing is I want to be watched while shitting.
In particular, I want to be squatting and I want for the person to be looking at me,
watching my body and how it heaves and rides as I anticipate the shit to start coming out.
I want my gasps and whimpers to be heard as the shit starts to push its way out of my
asshole ever so slowly.
I want to be watched.
I want to be witnessed in such a shameful state.
I think it's probably one of the most humiliating states that somebody could be in, but I don't
want to be humiliated while being watched, I just want to be quietly watched.
The humiliation would come from having someone's eyes on me as I'm shitting.
I want to feel my asshole stretch open as the shit came out, the smell permeating in
the air.
I'd want the person to smell it as well, I want them to smell the shameful but erotic
stench of my waste.
Perhaps one of the most intimate parts of me.
Everything I've eaten, everything in my system coming out in that solid erotic form, its
stench in the air, the stretching of my anus.
God, I'm going insane over here.
I just got off, so I don't feel a need to get off again, but I'm craving scat play lately
and it's intense and I just wanted to share a little fantasy about scat, but not involving
scat play, although I will say lately I've had a bit of a hankering and it's really really
gross and really embarrassing, please don't judge.
I kind of want to try eating shit.
Not in a humiliating or degrading way, I just, well, I say that but one of my fantasies involves
having a dog bowl in front of me and me being forced to eat it.
If I can make a random confession, I did taste some of my shit at one point and it actually
tasted really nice.
I did not hate it a single bit, it was nice and the taste was very lingering and it's
almost as if I could taste the smell of it, if that makes any remote sense.
It was intense and I loved it and I want to experience it full force.
I don't know, it's like, I'm craving scat play lately, I just don't know to what extent
is or isn't okay yet, but I'm craving scat and I just needed to babble a bit, so yeah.
But if I can confess a more intimate thing involving scat that I want, it's a bit embarrassing
but isn't everything, I want to be in front of somebody while they're on the toilet and
I just want to wrap my arms around them and start licking their ears very gently, letting
my hand rub up and down their back, maybe bringing my other hand down to their ass and
rubbing my finger against their anus, just trying to relax at the best I can and comforting
them while they shit for me, comforting them and making them feel comfortable and safe,
letting out that most intimate part of them for me to witness, for me to smell.
I'd want their ass to stretch open for me and I'd want to, if they would let me, and
if they were okay with it, I'd want to stick my finger inside of their shitty little ass.
I feel like it would turn me on a whole lot to do that.
It is turning me on a lot, so I don't know, yeah, sorry, I'm in such a minority here,
it's like, go, scat, and then for a lot of people it's like, scat is where my limits
are, so no, and it's like, if that's your limit, that's fine, I'm not mocking you, but
it's like, I feel so creepy, because here I am, like, I'm cute and vanilla and gentle,
but then it's like, I want you to shit in my mouth and I want to be like a shit slave
or something and it's fucking weird, I don't even know, I don't even know anymore, okay?
God, no, but in all seriousness, thank you for listening to my ramblings about scat again,
but I'm still taking baby steps, I'm not comfortable doing, like, masturbating when pooping or
anything like that kind of thing yet, but I'll get there eventually, whoo-ee!