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So this is an interesting topic to have me ramble on mostly because it's, uh, it's

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one of my personal favorites. What do I like about being a submissive and what

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do I look for in a dominant? Well it's interesting because being a dominant to

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me is a balancing act, you know, finding the perfect dom. You have to find someone

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who is sensitive enough to your needs to understand what you like even if it's

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only to touch you with it but at the same time he needs to be merciless enough

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to put you through the wringer. You know, I need to be prepared for just about

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anything and most of what I like about being a submissive overall is the rush

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that comes from pleasing the baser instinct, those deep dark currents that

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run underneath everyone's skin, those things in the back of your mind that you

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try to sweep into the corner and let get absorbed into the cobwebs even if it

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never really quite disappears. And so being the outlet for that, being used,

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being degraded, being ground into the dirt, all while knowing that the person

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ultimately does actually care about you and that doing so is a release for them

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as much as it is also a release for you that that sort of thing is understood

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that is, you know, what I like the most about being a submissive, I honestly

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think. It's that feeling that your dominant cares for you and that you're

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serving his or her needs, you know, mostly his in my case. I'm bisexual but I find it

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very difficult to submit to women, you know, knowing that whenever, say for

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example, my master's dick wants a home, you know, he can do whatever he wishes to

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me and he frequently does and, you know, being that outlet is a big deal for me.

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It's, you know, an important part of my daily existence and, you know, even doing

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such things as the taking in hand half of the relationship, you know, cooking,

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cleaning, getting everything done on my tour list, you know, this is something

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that I live day in and day out. I actually am a lifestyle submissive both

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in and out of the bedroom and, you know, even the small compliments I get or that

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tiny moment where my master notices me or that moment when he, you know, cries

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out in explosive orgasm, those things, those even tiny things are beautiful to

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me. They make all of it worth it. They make every bit of my being swell with

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joy and so coming back to what I look for in a master is I want somebody who

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doesn't have as many of those hang-ups, so to speak, as you would expect from, you

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know, an average person. You know, I want somebody who is polite in daily society

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but who isn't afraid to order me around, who isn't afraid to tell me to do things

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but recognizes that I do them, you know, at the same time. I want somebody who is

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willing to, in their words, take their skin off, so to speak, to reveal that

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beast within, to absolutely ravage me and to understand and trust me, to know that,

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you know, I'll use my stoplights when I need them, to know that anything that

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they choose to do I've already consented to until I choose to halt them for one

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reason or another due to said stoplights. I want somebody who is willing to

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understand me as a submissive and to fill their needs with me but at the same

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time recognizing, you know, that by filling their needs, by, you know, living

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for them, by breathing them, by making them my world, that not only am I still my own

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person but that my satisfaction primarily is derived from theirs. You know, when I

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look for a dominant I look for somebody who's ultimately very ruthless but who

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at the same time understands what boundaries end up being and the few that

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I have respects them. It's very difficult to find a man that would be both

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perfectly cruel and, you know, perfect and I love the cuddly vanilla stuff

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sometimes but only when I'm in the mood for it and in the end, you know, dominance,

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BDSM, taken in hand, all of that, vorafilia also, is less a kink and more a fetish for

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me. So seeing somebody who can, I guess, derive the sort of pleasure from my

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service that I do from serving, that's what I look for. Somebody who has not

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just the desire but the need. Somebody who's willing to live it day in and day

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out with the full, you know, extent of the taken in hand as well. You know,

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somebody who's not afraid to punish me or put me in my place when I'm bad.

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Somebody who, you know, instead of getting angry, for example, and yelling at me,

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will, you know, send me quietly to the corner and tell me to think about what I

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did and then, you know, when we have that discussion prior to punishment that they

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let me know that they're displeased with me, that they are very controlled and

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calm and make it very clear in their voice just how much it hurts them to do

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this, you know. And once the punishment goes through, then I feel like I'm

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absolved, you know. I want it to be something that clears the air for both

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of us. So I guess what I'm looking for in a dominant is somebody who is

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perpetually in control even of themselves and that is what I'm really,

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you know, looking for. So in terms of being a submissive, it is very much my

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life and I hope that, you know, me rambling, as incoherent as it may have

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been, helps with clarifying some of that. But if you want to know more about my

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fantasies and other things, you know, I've fantasized about someone that I know

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kidnapping me and blindfolding me and earplugging me and running off and, you

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know, being fucked by as many guys as possible. I fantasized about my

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master grabbing me by the hair and just throwing me onto the bed and ravaging

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me. And, you know, short of triggering my PTSD, which some of you know about and

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some of you don't, there's not very many hard limits for me, you know, don't hit

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me in the face too often because I might end up getting triggered that way.

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Choking is a good thing and a bad thing and you have to be careful, you know, when

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I blue light, sometimes it needs to be respected. But I want the kind of man who

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can grab me at random and, you know, thrust my arms behind my back and pin me

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to the wall and just seduce the shit out of me and then either walk away or make

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it clear that there isn't, you know, that this is not questionable. This is, there's

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a finality to the orders that I have to obey. And so those are the things that I

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enjoy about dominance and the things I enjoy about being submissive. I like

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being subjugated and used and knowing that in the end that person still loves

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and cares for me as if I were nothing but their girlfriend. I like the ability

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to have some input but knowing that the final choice is not mine and I love

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being recognized for my accomplishments, for, you know, being recognized for my

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goodness, for my, you know, my obedience. I love throwing my whole self into a

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relationship and, to be honest, nothing makes me happier.