So this is an interesting topic to have me ramble on mostly because it's, uh, it's
one of my personal favorites. What do I like about being a submissive and what
do I look for in a dominant? Well it's interesting because being a dominant to
me is a balancing act, you know, finding the perfect dom. You have to find someone
who is sensitive enough to your needs to understand what you like even if it's
only to touch you with it but at the same time he needs to be merciless enough
to put you through the wringer. You know, I need to be prepared for just about
anything and most of what I like about being a submissive overall is the rush
that comes from pleasing the baser instinct, those deep dark currents that
run underneath everyone's skin, those things in the back of your mind that you
try to sweep into the corner and let get absorbed into the cobwebs even if it
never really quite disappears. And so being the outlet for that, being used,
being degraded, being ground into the dirt, all while knowing that the person
ultimately does actually care about you and that doing so is a release for them
as much as it is also a release for you that that sort of thing is understood
that is, you know, what I like the most about being a submissive, I honestly
think. It's that feeling that your dominant cares for you and that you're
serving his or her needs, you know, mostly his in my case. I'm bisexual but I find it
very difficult to submit to women, you know, knowing that whenever, say for
example, my master's dick wants a home, you know, he can do whatever he wishes to
me and he frequently does and, you know, being that outlet is a big deal for me.
It's, you know, an important part of my daily existence and, you know, even doing
such things as the taking in hand half of the relationship, you know, cooking,
cleaning, getting everything done on my tour list, you know, this is something
that I live day in and day out. I actually am a lifestyle submissive both
in and out of the bedroom and, you know, even the small compliments I get or that
tiny moment where my master notices me or that moment when he, you know, cries
out in explosive orgasm, those things, those even tiny things are beautiful to
me. They make all of it worth it. They make every bit of my being swell with
joy and so coming back to what I look for in a master is I want somebody who
doesn't have as many of those hang-ups, so to speak, as you would expect from, you
know, an average person. You know, I want somebody who is polite in daily society
but who isn't afraid to order me around, who isn't afraid to tell me to do things
but recognizes that I do them, you know, at the same time. I want somebody who is
willing to, in their words, take their skin off, so to speak, to reveal that
beast within, to absolutely ravage me and to understand and trust me, to know that,
you know, I'll use my stoplights when I need them, to know that anything that
they choose to do I've already consented to until I choose to halt them for one
reason or another due to said stoplights. I want somebody who is willing to
understand me as a submissive and to fill their needs with me but at the same
time recognizing, you know, that by filling their needs, by, you know, living
for them, by breathing them, by making them my world, that not only am I still my own
person but that my satisfaction primarily is derived from theirs. You know, when I
look for a dominant I look for somebody who's ultimately very ruthless but who
at the same time understands what boundaries end up being and the few that
I have respects them. It's very difficult to find a man that would be both
perfectly cruel and, you know, perfect and I love the cuddly vanilla stuff
sometimes but only when I'm in the mood for it and in the end, you know, dominance,
BDSM, taken in hand, all of that, vorafilia also, is less a kink and more a fetish for
me. So seeing somebody who can, I guess, derive the sort of pleasure from my
service that I do from serving, that's what I look for. Somebody who has not
just the desire but the need. Somebody who's willing to live it day in and day
out with the full, you know, extent of the taken in hand as well. You know,
somebody who's not afraid to punish me or put me in my place when I'm bad.
Somebody who, you know, instead of getting angry, for example, and yelling at me,
will, you know, send me quietly to the corner and tell me to think about what I
did and then, you know, when we have that discussion prior to punishment that they
let me know that they're displeased with me, that they are very controlled and
calm and make it very clear in their voice just how much it hurts them to do
this, you know. And once the punishment goes through, then I feel like I'm
absolved, you know. I want it to be something that clears the air for both
of us. So I guess what I'm looking for in a dominant is somebody who is
perpetually in control even of themselves and that is what I'm really,
you know, looking for. So in terms of being a submissive, it is very much my
life and I hope that, you know, me rambling, as incoherent as it may have
been, helps with clarifying some of that. But if you want to know more about my
fantasies and other things, you know, I've fantasized about someone that I know
kidnapping me and blindfolding me and earplugging me and running off and, you
know, being fucked by as many guys as possible. I fantasized about my
master grabbing me by the hair and just throwing me onto the bed and ravaging
me. And, you know, short of triggering my PTSD, which some of you know about and
some of you don't, there's not very many hard limits for me, you know, don't hit
me in the face too often because I might end up getting triggered that way.
Choking is a good thing and a bad thing and you have to be careful, you know, when
I blue light, sometimes it needs to be respected. But I want the kind of man who
can grab me at random and, you know, thrust my arms behind my back and pin me
to the wall and just seduce the shit out of me and then either walk away or make
it clear that there isn't, you know, that this is not questionable. This is, there's
a finality to the orders that I have to obey. And so those are the things that I
enjoy about dominance and the things I enjoy about being submissive. I like
being subjugated and used and knowing that in the end that person still loves
and cares for me as if I were nothing but their girlfriend. I like the ability
to have some input but knowing that the final choice is not mine and I love
being recognized for my accomplishments, for, you know, being recognized for my
goodness, for my, you know, my obedience. I love throwing my whole self into a
relationship and, to be honest, nothing makes me happier.
