1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:10,000 Oh, Anon. I might not know you personally. I know that that's probably difficult to listen to what I've got to say. 2 00:00:10,000 --> 00:00:16,000 But I also don't want to just give you a bunch of platitudes that you've heard a thousand times. 3 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:22,000 About how suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. 4 00:00:22,000 --> 00:00:28,000 I want to be real with you. Sometimes it feels like we can't keep going. 5 00:00:28,000 --> 00:00:34,000 Sometimes it feels like if this life is all there is, there's nothing left. 6 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:38,000 But that's a lie we tell ourselves. 7 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:42,000 When you look back at your memories right now, what you're seeing is probably something terrible. 8 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:46,000 You've probably got this pull cast over everything you've ever gone through. 9 00:00:46,000 --> 00:00:52,000 You've probably got this idea that even the good moments weren't as good as they actually were. 10 00:00:52,000 --> 00:00:57,000 And everything you're thinking is going to amplify all of the things that were awful. 11 00:00:57,000 --> 00:01:03,000 But psychology has taught us that that's temporary too. 12 00:01:03,000 --> 00:01:10,000 There's this big black cloud over everything and it feels like you're drowning, but all of us have been there. 13 00:01:10,000 --> 00:01:15,000 If you need treatment or medication, I know that you're probably in America, 14 00:01:15,000 --> 00:01:20,000 and America's healthcare system is lackluster to say the least. 15 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:24,000 But there is help. I've been there. 16 00:01:24,000 --> 00:01:32,000 I've laid awake at night wondering why I didn't go and get into my pill bottles and take myself off the list, so to speak. 17 00:01:32,000 --> 00:01:35,000 Even just a couple years ago I thought I'd be nobody. 18 00:01:35,000 --> 00:01:40,000 And yet now I've got a thriving career, I own my own house, I'm stable and happy. 19 00:01:40,000 --> 00:01:47,000 Because I got through those nights and I reminded myself that I had more life yet left to live than I'd even lived yet. 20 00:01:47,000 --> 00:01:52,000 Your life today probably looks very different than ten years ago, no matter how old you were. 21 00:01:52,000 --> 00:01:54,000 Especially if you were a teenager. 22 00:01:54,000 --> 00:01:59,000 And if you were in your 20s or your 30s, if it feels like it's this long continuous mellu, 23 00:01:59,000 --> 00:02:04,000 remember that at any time you can take even one small step to change that. 24 00:02:04,000 --> 00:02:08,000 You can take one small step into something you think might make you a little bit happier. 25 00:02:08,000 --> 00:02:16,000 You can choose to take care of yourself, to get up today even though it's hard, to take a shower, to stretch, to take a walk, to read a book, 26 00:02:16,000 --> 00:02:20,000 to look into that college program and try to figure out how you need to pay for it. 27 00:02:20,000 --> 00:02:27,000 Or if you're in college, to figure out what it is you need to get done, to figure out what you need at the promotion at your job, 28 00:02:27,000 --> 00:02:30,000 or if you don't have one, to figure out how to acquire one. 29 00:02:30,000 --> 00:02:35,000 You can take just a small step to improve what it is that you're feeling right now. 30 00:02:35,000 --> 00:02:40,000 I know it's difficult and non. I know you probably don't have a lot of money. 31 00:02:40,000 --> 00:02:45,000 I know you're probably feeling like the entire world is on your shoulders, but we all feel that way. 32 00:02:45,000 --> 00:02:51,000 We all live in a society that doesn't really care that we exist, and we all feel that. 33 00:02:51,000 --> 00:02:58,000 But I can assure you that there's at least one person on mind that in this very moment is thinking about you. 34 00:02:58,000 --> 00:03:06,000 Maybe not by name, maybe not by face, but at this moment in time I'm speaking to anyone who feels this way. 35 00:03:06,000 --> 00:03:12,000 Because as difficult as it might be right now, I know from having tried from being in and out of the hospital, 36 00:03:12,000 --> 00:03:17,000 there is light on the other side, and even if it feels like there's not a single choice you can make, 37 00:03:17,000 --> 00:03:23,000 even if you were locked up in a basement being tortured, there's still something that you can do. 38 00:03:23,000 --> 00:03:29,000 You can come to an acceptance of where you are, figure out what's in your control and what's not, 39 00:03:29,000 --> 00:03:35,000 take an honest look at what you can do about these things, and take one tiny, tiny step. 40 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:40,000 If you were locked up in the basement, that step might just be to understand that that's your situation 41 00:03:40,000 --> 00:03:47,000 and to come to terms with it. I know life is difficult to none, but I'm here, and I hear you, 42 00:03:47,000 --> 00:03:53,000 and at least for the moment, you're not alone. You're not the only one who's ever felt this way, 43 00:03:53,000 --> 00:03:59,000 and I don't want you to feel alone. Get out, take that shower, take a brief walk, get out a piece of paper, 44 00:03:59,000 --> 00:04:03,000 list off the things that you need, the things that you want, what you're afraid of, 45 00:04:03,000 --> 00:04:07,000 categorise these things into things you can control and do something about, 46 00:04:07,000 --> 00:04:13,000 and put one tiny action step for each of them, then pick one of them, and do that thing today. 47 00:04:13,000 --> 00:04:19,000 And repeat, if that's all you've got done today, you still took one more step than you would have otherwise. 48 00:04:19,000 --> 00:04:25,000 There's one tiny, tiny, infinitesimal step towards hope, and sometimes that's all you can do. 49 00:04:25,000 --> 00:04:38,000 You can make it a none, I promise.